#Btw both of these were found in Australia

[shiftythrifting]

The Solemn Pirate Mug, and at a different store, Zootopia (possibly bootleg?)

[thefirstknife]

They're killing me with Echoes.

Some stuff from the exotic mission that is really interesting. I'll start with the stuff you can only get after you've done it once and you can start finding secret chests. On runs after your 1st, there will be a conflux in one of the side rooms that is otherwise empty.

Once you activate that, there will be a small puzzle and then a chest will appear. This will also change the room slightly and activate several Vex portals, turning the room into a sort of a nexus that will be used for other chests. More under, spoilers and long:

This is the room, btw, when you first run it and there's no conflux:

Okay. Although a lot has been altered, they're continuing with the trend of stripping away Mercury for parts: this is the base layout of the inside of the Lighthouse. Kicking and screaming and throwing things and eating through my walls.

Anyway, after you activate the conflux and the puzzle, the extra gates around the area will transform like this and the area will get a name "Ancillary Transit Nexus" :

This will later be used as portals to go into areas with other chests. There's two extra chests this week and we go through two of these portals, but there's a third as well. I'm assuming it might be some sort of a rotation by week.

The second chest you get this week is where the interesting part starts because you return back to this area, use one of the portals and go back to the area where the mission started where you do a puzzle and then get the chest. But when you do all that, you get new voice lines. This time... From Chioma Esi; one of Chiomas that got simulated by the Vex:

Aspect lore book fans stay winning!!!! So this is the format of how different iterations of the 227 simulated Ishtar scientist teams were designated and how they communicated with each other. Two of these teams are also specifically mentioned in Aspect. We don't know about .130 (130th iteration), but we do know .59 and .97. A devastating one for .59:

227.59 You lose Maya. You mourn. The thought of all the other Mayas out there doesn't help. They weren't the Maya you'd puzzled with over living basalt flowers, a world with seventeen moons, a continent that Shim had sworn up and down was sixteenth-century Australia and that Duane-McNiadh couldn't be dissuaded from calling Pangaea. You'd found a simulation with a city where you discovered a jewelry store, picked out a necklace, brought it home to her, and wished her a happy pseudo anniversary. Maya didn't like bracelets, said they always fouled her work. Her hair had been getting shaggy again and was due for a trim. She could never decide whether or not to grow it out. She laughed at you lifting weights to maintain simulated muscle, but she spotted for you all the same. There are other Mayas out there, layers of them, all the way up to the original, wherever she is. You hope they're doing well. But that doesn't stop you from missing this Maya, missing whatever arguments and discoveries you'd have shared in the rest of the lifetime you'd promised to one another. Shim and Duane-McNiadh pull you up from beside Maya's marker. A basalt lily rests on top of it, petals thin enough to let light through. You go on.

And .97:

227.97 Here's how it goes: you and Maya and Shim and Duane-McNiadh take your first cautious, sliding steps out into the Vex information network. You get your footing. You've got to translate everything into metaphor to understand it, here, and this is like tightrope walking on a greased line. You and Maya lean into each other. Shim slips, and you help him up. You explore. You go on.

They're both in the same lore tab. These groups were so distinct between each other and experienced vastly different things, so much that Praedyth could differentiate between the groups and knew which voices belonged to which number of them. These groups communicated with him to coordinate their potential escape.

The interesting bit is that in the voice line from this week we see .130 Chioma calling the Chioma from .59 (the one that lost and buried Maya), asking about the .97 group with whom they've apparently lost contact. And in Aspect, we see the .97 group doing fine. At least here at the beginning. But it appears that the idea is that at some point they either died or simply vanished, as they're not responding.

The third chest is the same; you go to the nexus and from there to another room where there's a puzzle and when you solve it, you get a chest and voice lines, this time from one of the simulated Mayas:

This Maya is from the 65th iteration and she's telling us that a lot of inviduals from each team are vanishing. We don't really know what that means and what is happening, but we do know from Aspect that at the end when they attempted their escape, there were significantly fewer individuals, possibly whole teams either vanished, dead or simply unreachable:

A hundred and sixty Mayas reach for the Chiomas by their side. A hundred and fifty-eight Chiomas reach back.

Down to 160 from 227 is a lot (and only 158 Chiomas). We never really knew what this meant and we still aren't sure now, but this might be an explanation. Something was happening to them in the network.

What makes this even more interesting is that this Maya mentioned "our singular friend." This can be none other than Praedyth. He wasn't a simulated copy, he was just one Praedyth, communicating with them from the Vault of Glass and helping them escape; a singular friend.

One Praedyth, waiting for the conductor's baton to drop.

Interesting word to use in this lore from 5 years ago. There's also no way that this is it and that they won't give us more lines about this because it feels like just the start of the explanation so I'm going absolutely bonkers insane. We have to get more lines next week and the week after since this is also all a way to get the pieces for the exotic gun. And there's one more portal that we haven't gone into so there has to be some sort of rotation and more information on this.

Besides this, the mission had another gut punch with Maya and Chioma, namely showing us Conductor!Maya experiments with Exo!Chioma; basically booting her up and checking her with personal questions until she finds the Chioma she wants. The lines are truly something else:

So that's fine. A few points that are interesting. Parthenogenic incubation! Really interesting look into the Golden Age technology; this is basically a way to reproduce without the need to fertilise an egg which allows for, in this case, two women to have biological offspring. Degaussing is also an interesting word to use; it's a complete destruction of data by affecting the magnetic field on magnetic storage. This is basically what the Veil was doing to Exos to erase them.

That aside, yeah. Maya was booting up Chiomas and testing them, then erasing them if they were proven to be unsatisfactory in some way which is obviously upsetting to Chioma who would at that point be a fully conscious person. She was also being booted in really bizarre hybrid Exo-Vex bodies like this:

Yeah.

Now we need to keep coming back to this place to find out more. I'm hoping for more exceptionally fucked up voice lines like this and also more voice lines about the whole simulated scientists part because there's no way that this is all we'll get. Maya is going through the network, searching through simulations for her Chioma, or at least a Chioma that he thinks is the best of them, as narrated at the start of the act. She wants not only to bring a Golden Age to the whole system, she wants to have her personal Golden Age with the woman she loves.

And ofc at the end with the seasonal lore book page, we get some insight into this as well, more about Maya, her using the Veil, ending up in the Vex Network, making herself a body and how she was looking for Chioma.

I left the reach of the Veil's threads when I collided with the familiar angles of the Vex network… didn't I? Yes, I did.

Maya also seemed genuinely convinced that Chioma would be amazed and proud of this and that she would join her. But we know from Veil Logs that Chioma was instead horrified. And the Maya that entered the network and shaped herself a body and realised that she can command the Vex? Her first impulse was to search for Chioma. I am crying!

"TELL ME HOW LONG HAS PASSED SINCE I LAST ENCOUNTERED THE VEX." They do, through the Vex at my feet; they whisper it in unencoded ease. The number is gargantuan. I begin to panic. It is impossible, and my first thought is of her, her— "TELL ME WHERE CHIOMA ESI IS." They search, and they tell me the woman who holds my heart in her hands has laid in a grave for hundreds of years. In a rage, I tell them to mutilate one another. The milk at my feet boils in violence. My Chioma would not depart so mundanely. My Chioma would come find me, my Chioma is still here. My beloved does not rot in a grave.

And the thing is... She's correct. Her Chioma didn't depart mundanely. We know this from Veil Logs. Chioma called the Vex to take her.

Chioma Esi: Years ago, back on Venus, the Vex simulated copies of us — Maya and I. Trapped in a virtual hell. After so long, even hell can look like heaven, can't it? [chuckles] I'm tired. I'm done. Maya has to be out there. The Maya I remember. And all I want is one more moment with her. To hold her in my arms. Tell her that I love her. So she can tell me to "hush" one more time. If… if we learned anything from the Veil, it's that eventually… we all have to learn to let go. So… I made contact with the Vex. I'm ready. And it's time to say goodbye.

So there's a Maya looking for this Chioma and a Chioma looking for this Maya, somewhere in the network, among other 227 copies of them that have been through so much and some of them are also vanishing. This makes me insane. Hello. From this week's lore tab:

Chioma, my world, my life, cannot be dead. She must have joined the VexNet again; she would have searched for me there, sorted among the hundreds of copies of us to find the TRUE version of myself, HER Maya. So, too, will I search. I love her, I would know her in the darkness of a cave and the blinding glare of a sun. She is unique in all ways, precious and without fault. I know the real Chioma is alive.

Why are we here? Just to suffer about old woman yuri? Yes.

We also now know what "primary query" is:

"PRIMARY QUERY; FIND THE TRUE CHIOMA ESI," I command through my tears.

And yeah, the parallels with Osiris and Saint? So deliberate. I will explode. Osiris noted so a long time ago, also because of Veil Logs, how much Maya was similar to him. And they basically had the same goal; find the person they loved who was lost to them. Except Maya is doing this in a way that's deeply unhinged and hurting Chioma, while Osiris did it also deeply unhinged, but hurting himself. And listening to the Veil Logs and Chioma's perspective affected him greatly and genuinely was one of the biggest points for his development when he realised just how much obsession could've destroyed him and all he loves further if he didn't stop it.

It's all about Chioma and Maya. They're such an important piece of lore literally for ten years and now we're getting so much about them and their interactions together and all the pain and suffering. Please please please this has to end with them reuniting somehow. Please.

Anyway, wanted to point out some of these things that are connecting to older stuff, especially Aspect and also Veil Logs. I will be running this mission maybe another 100 or 10000 times. Looking forward for extra stuff in the next two weeks.

[lovecanyon]

HARRY X Y/N X PEDRO INSTAGRAM BLURB!

*a love triangle*

MASTERLIST & PATREON

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Y/N AND PEDRO PASCAL ARE REPORTEDLY SPLITTING AFTER SEVEN YEARS OF MARRIAGE

It was revealed this weekend that Y/N Pascal, 30, was planning on divorcing husband Pedro Pascal, 47. No one knows exactly why since the two had looked very happy together. The couple originally met back in 2011 at an Oscars event. Pedro reveals in an interview once he had found out Y/N was a hairstylist he immediately hired her to be his.

“I had no money in my pocket and I had hired this amazing woman to do my hair.” - Pedro Pascal in Wired’s Autocomplete Interview with Oscar Isaac.

Both of them share two sons together, Jude, 1 and Elias, 5. The two had Elias right after they got married in 2016 in Pedro’s home country, Chile.

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pascalupdates Y/N and Pedro are reportedly taking a break! We wish them the best and hope they get back together soon. 💕

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pedrofan24 LOVE ISN’T REAL

pedrofan29 crying and throwing up

pedrofan22 i seriously can’t do this anymore 😭

pedrofan31 what the hell…they were so in love with each other

pedrofan25 not our mother and father 💔

pedrofan33 screaming into my pillow

pedrofan36 i’m never believing in love anymore

pedrofan30 PEDRO PASCAL IN HIS SINGLE ERA?

pedrofan23 it’s going to be a hot girl summer for him

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pascalispunk Me and my wife have decided to take a break from each other. We will be co-parenting our two boys, making sure their needs come before us. Please give us our space during this time.

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harryflorals HARRY AND Y/N PASCAL IN AUSTRALIA RECENTLY!

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harryfan42 this is my joker

harryfan46 TWO TICKETS FOR BARBIE PLEASE

harryfan49 y/n is winning…first pedro pascal and then harry styles

harryfan41 she’s still married to pedro btw 🙏

harryfan47 well this was not on my bingo card

harryfan44 PEDRO I AM COMING FOR YOU

harryfan48 i just want to be her.

harryfan50 harry and y/n…i like the sound of it

harryfan53 NOBODY BETTER SEND Y/N ANY HATE OR I WILL GET YOU

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dailystyles Harry, Y/N Pascal, and friends out in Tokyo a few nights ago!

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harryfan58 someone kill me

harryfan55 THIS NEEDED TO HAPPEN TO THE WORLD

harryfan57 #teampedropascal

harryfan61 my heart can’t handle y/n and pedro both being seen with other people…

harryfan59 PEDRO AND Y/N ARE SOULMATES 💔💔

harryfan62 manifesting y/n and pedro again

harryfan64 LET THEM LIVE THEIR LIVES HOW THEY WANT TO

harryfan60 crying and throwing up

harryfan65 i am jumping off a cliff btw!

harryfan63 Y/N FANS RISE

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ynpedroupdates PEDRO LAUGHING WHILE TELLING A STORY ABOUT Y/N AND THEIR SONS ON THE GRAHAM NORTON SHOW!

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pedrofan70 i cried the entire interview

harryfan73 YOU CAN TOTALLY TELL HE’S STILL IN LOVE WITH HER 😭

pedrofan69 harry who???

harryfan72 i just fell on my knees in a walmart parking lot

pedrofan74 i need a man like him…

harryfan76 HARRY IS DONE FOR AFTER THIS

pedrofan71 pedro is such a family man 🤞

harryfan75 when will it be my turn

pedrofan77 THIS IS ALL I WANT

harryfan79 god really has his favorites

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pascaldaily PEDRO AND Y/N WERE OUT IN LA TODAY WITH THEIR SONS!

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harryfan88 someone run me over please

pascalfan81 i love my favorite dilf 🤗

harryfan83 sooo harry and y/n aren’t together then…

pascalfan85 y/n and pedro are working on getting back together so she’s probably done with harry… i think…

harryfan89 the pascal family is thriving!

pascalfan86 ngl pedro and y/n were meant to be together so…

harryfan87 @harrystyles

pascalfan93 you’re so 😭

harryfan91 THE CUTEST FAMILY

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pascalfan90 I MANIFESTED THIS

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pascalispunk I love you mama ❤️

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pascalfan94 I’M NEVER RECOVERING

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pascalfan93 y/n and pedro are still in love…you can clearly see… 😭

bellaramsey You and Pedro are my parents.

yourinstagram couldn’t have asked for more 💕

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pascalispunk Elias and Y/N, the loves of my life ❤️

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pascalispunk You complete meeee.

pascalfan98 GOING CRAZY OVER THEM 🧎‍♀️

harryfan96 y/n seriously needs to teach us her ways.

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harryfan104 y/n is living out our fantasies one by one 😭

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[faunrasthewinterelf]

2024/07/23 - MAP VERSION 1.4!

fans of Jak and Daxter, I need help!

I have access to Inkarnate, and i keep seeing people attempt to cobble together the various maps from the games and try to make sense of it, so i figure I'd try out my version, and I'd LOVE some feedback!

PLACES

HAVEN CITY/SANDOVER

WASTELANDS/SPARGUS [Desert Island, apparently??]

KRAS CITY [never played Jak X, concept art has it as a Floating City on water, has to be far enough from a coast to be safe from metal heads, but close enough for Krew to operate in both Haven and Kras regularily?]

Icelands [again, in Jak X, only seen via race track? most people put it far north, but feasibly, it would also have to be close to Kras for the Grand Prix Race thingy. If my map building goes as it is, perhaps it is actually far South? Antartic vs Arctic? COULD also be West of the Precursor Legacy, via the snowy area off of the Lava Village place]

INITIAL THOUGHTS

KRAS CITY IS DIRECTLY EAST, OFF THE COAST OF WHAT USED TO BE ROCK VILLAGE. EARLY MATERIALS/STUDY OF THE FLOATING CITY CAME FROM THE FLOATING BIT OF THE LOST PRECURSOR CITY.

ICELANDS are a Maurader territory atop the same mountains that we originally see the Yeti Babak in from JaD:tPL. The Babak village up there is gone? trading with the Marauders? dont know yet. ICELANDS are up along the spine of that mountain area!

BABAK VILLAGE should probably be moved closer to Haven! where ever it ends up it should also determine where the Eco Mine will be! [also potentially close to the original Blue Eco Temple on the other side of Sandover? I know those are Eco Vents, but its still an area with an over flow of Eco? dunno, theres not much room there for more things XD

I put SPARGUS/WASTELANDS to the far west of both the ICELANDS Mountains and Haven for three reasons!

A La using Australia as a 'prison colony / exile' via the british, you wouldnt Exile people somewhere close by, even if it IS an island? (pls correct me if that's wrong btw) Spargus SHOULD be far from Haven, and it makes sense that you'd need an 'air train' or whatever they call it in the games, to get there, beyond it just being an Island

the ruins from the city that you run around anc corral Reapers in! I have it between the Marauder Colony/Strong hold and the general area where they came from to give reason to why it failed! I don't know the canon around that ruin, but i like the idea that it was a Spargan Colony that fell to Marauders a long time ago, BUT was avenged years later, and the Marauders were forced further into the desert, cut off from their home land after losing that area. It's particularily dangerous to travel, and also why not a lot of people travel past the center volcano, or to the temple in the South East of the Wastelands!

the Catacombs/Subrail thing! please correct me if im wrong! but you enter the Subrail from the Catacombs of said beforehand mentioned temple! and those catacombs/subrail connect to haven, going in a West to Eastern direction, under the mountains, in my little world now!

HAVEN IS HUGE - like, no matter how you put it, Haven is a MASSIVE area??? like, this is wild to me! it makes a little more sense if you consider it a massive area that was claimed by Mar and his Acolytes? (no idea if that's canon) and then the city was built within the walls.

There's potentially to much space between Haven and the Mountain range to its west, and Spargus. [It could all be Metal head infested jungle? But that's on the opposite side of where I head canon the Metal Head Nest to be. The Rift Gate is originally found in the Citadel, but is moved to Sandover for the start of Jak 2, however, this doesnt make sense during the game itself, so i believe that the Metal Head leader (Kor, probably) after emerging 300 years in the past through the gate and wreaking havoc, moved it to the new location that we find during Jak 2. I like to think that the Metal Head nest was moved *back to* Gol and Maia's Citadel [Dark Eco Silo nearby, YUM!], and Mar's Gun, built with the salvaged remains of the gun that helps you get to Klaww, is moved closer, but is unable to be moved. HOWEVER, that puts everyone WAY outside the Walls of Haven, So. I dont actually know at the moment! I'd LOVE feedback please and thank you! gimme ideas that I can use to modify and add to the map, throw headcanons at me, discuss where the Wastelands adn Kras should be, and what sizes they should be?

I love this game series and I wanted to be able to flesh out where exactly everything is in the world out of shear curiosity! [Yes, the clouds are a hint at the areas in the Game-That-Shall-Not-Be-Named, The concept of that area is *way* to cool to ignore it!]

[arkipelagic]

https://www.tumblr.com/arkipelagic/751684903699103744/a-lot-of-those-who-insist-that-filipinos-are

i've always wondered why, when some ppl find out similarities bw ph and pacific islanders or latinos etc, do they come to the conclusion that "filipinos aren't actually asians" as opposed to "these ethnic/racial terms don't mean mutual exclusivity in language/culture" or "race is not really determined biologically/by ancestry." sometimes it feels like they just don't like being called asian.

thanks for all the resources u share btw, they're rlly helpful

i’ve been a part of filipino circles both online and in person where i found many of these people, usually filipino diaspora in north america, reject being asian. because they are filipinos raised in the united states and canada, i suspect their dislike for the category asian stems from a sense of alienation from other asians in their proximity.

in north america, asian typically means east asian. filipinos are one of the most visible diaspora in north america yet are usually the only maritime southeast asians around. they compare themselves to other asians, ie people with heritage from the sinosphere and indianized mainland southeast asian cultures, and do not find similarities between themselves and the rest. that makes them think, well obviously i can’t be asian then! or: well obviously i’m not just asian!

in my own family, at least those who were born and raised in the united states, they are the latter. especially with filipino settlers in hawaii who mimic pacific islander motifs as substitute for so called “filipino tribal tattoos.” if you go through facebook and instagram for these tribal tattoo businesses, you’ll see what i mean.

in comparison with filipinos in singapore or australia/new zealand, i hardly see diaspora claim they are pacific islanders. that is because they are either so exposed to the many ways asian cultures can look like (ex: singapore is populated by malays, chinese, and indians) that they do not develop identity crises over what a real asian is, or they are too close to real pacific islanders like cook islanders, māoris and samoans to even think of passing themselves off as one of them.

[head-empty-river]

my ramblings on penacony (and hsr as a whole) so far:

(btw i'm not done with it yet, i'm in the talent show portion. so spoilers up to there ahead)

so i just realized this like yesterday, but i think the name penacony is a play on penal colony? since it's a prison planet? this probably hasn't escaped many people, but it's pretty much australia, minus the part about there being people on the planet prior to it being seized by the ipc. hopefully. that said, this also fits very neatly with the savior complex and colonization that the ipc is so well known for, since britain was the one who sent their prisoners to australia. additionally, the ipc is very similar specifically to britain's "east india company".

i overall think hsr toes the line very well with having real world analogues to their worldbuilding.

on that note: holy shit the religious (catholic specifically) allegory is so blatant with sunday and robin i fucking love it. like his name is fucking sunday. and the confessional scene?? robin leaving the nest and her being so lesbian-coded (even the eye dots)! it's great. and singing being such a huge part of their religion? the hypocritical greedy underbelly of people who claim to be "the strong protecting the weak"? i could legit write an essay on penacony.

and don't get me started on the disnep allegory throughout the imagery, characters, and music; bc it fits so well with all of these themes, i love it.

also, another allegory i love in penacony, and big spoilers here for firefly: the trans subtext that's pretty much text. like i gotta find the voice line, but she literally talks about her mechanical body being something that the world wishes she had never left. about most of the world seeing her that way. when she tells blade she wanted "to be in this body for a little longer" i legit started tearing up. and literally when gallagher was looking for her, he said they were looking for a stowaway boy with grey hair. and sam, the body she's stuck in so often and how much of the world sees her, being referred to with he/him pronouns? i love her so much.

the stellaron hunters are overall such a beautiful found family of outcasts that i can't help but love them. honestly they're just a great parallel/foil to the nameless. kafka is similar to himeko, charming her way through situations. welt is like elio, maybe, that one's the most tenuous tho. maybe pompom is elio's foil, idk. obviously blade and dan heng are foils for one another. firefly and march 7th are parallels for eachother, in their shared transfemme themes, but in their likeability they're foils (sorry for the slight march hate, but being trans doesn't make you exempt from being annoying). and as for the trailblazer, they were kind of in both groups.

[hollywoodsargeant]

What's your favorite Logan picture?

this is. a great question. and as someone with 715 pictures of logan saved to their phone (yes actually) there is no way i can narrow it down to just one so i will do some greatest hits. under the break bc i think this post might be disgustingly long

okay i can't Not include this picture ... maybe a bit of recency bias but i love this one entirely too much it's my whole ass LOCK SCREEN like. horrifying behavior actually. but i love him ... his little smile ... he is so stupid i am obsessed with him entirely. saw this picture for the first time while i was in public and actually didn't fully recover for an entire hour. so there's that

and on that note i just really like all of his dumb instagram story selfies. ik he has more but these were the first two i found and i am emotionally attached to both of them. why is he socute. dumb boy

look at him. he is so babygirl. so little guy. logan has never looked so baby. i'm not gonna pretend i don't like his normal look but the hair with no gel is a good look too logan take notes!

classics? idk? logan eagle pose? the f2 one is my laptop lock screen and my chrome tab background fyi. oh and i have it on my phone home screen too ... WELL. definitely very normal behavior. anyways i like these pictures like why is he so dramatic. but it's fitting. very in love with him

UHHHHH i like all of the photos from the whole australia shoot but This one. uhm. hi. it's really big on my screen now and i'm looking very disrespectfully jesus christ. no further comment aside from i want to lick him

hiii silverstone podium ... i am calm. i am so calm. (i am not calm at all). he looked So good this whole podium it's embarrassing how attracted to him i am (in case if you didn't know, i'm attracted to him btw) but the head back deserves a mention. LOOK AT HIM. grrrr

okay and last one. he is so cute. he is soooo cute. i'm so abnormal about this photo i had like a 30 minute meltdown over it idek how to put it to words maybe i'm just obsessed with him ???

and there Are more but i won't include them however consider: all of the volleyball photos, those old williams suit photos where he has his arms crossed and just looks Really Broad, the picture of him and oscar as actual children that oscar posted (he made it to the family fridge!), the merch shoots where he's wearing jerseys (i have a weakness okay), that one picture post-silverstone where he's going in for the hug w his team, and. yeah. before i list off every recent picture of him in existence i think i should stop

[wandixx]

Le me, reading "The Last King of Poland", a literal, freacking biography:

With all due respect, mister Adam Zamoyski, how dare you?! How freaking dare you?!

I know history, I know it will end with disaster. How dare you make Stanislaus Poniatowski (last king of Polish-Lithuanian Commonwealth) and Catherine the Great (empress of Russia) (both would get these positions some time later btw) like cross between high-school sweethearts and star-crossed (ba dum pss) lovers. We both know it destroyed the country (not only that and the country was in pretty bad shape beforehand too, but still). It caused wars. I have romanticism and patriotic "fight for the fatherland even if you're guaranteed to loose bullshit shoved down my throat to this day because of shit that went down kinda because of them.

And you still make me actually sad when you wrote "When on 14 august 1758 he left Petersburg, he didn't suspect that next time he'll see Catherine will be thirty years later"

You can't make it look like Stanislaus is the first nice thing that happened to Catherine since she arrived to Petersburg. You can't describe them as soulmates, as two (and Stanislaus' second father figure) against the world. You can't say that he was reluctant to... do the thing with her, even speak with her because she seemed cold and later because she was wife of the future, kinda aggressive emperor and sleeping with her was easy way ticket to Siberia and Siberia is what Australia was to British Empire but really freaking cold. You can't then quote how after first time they spent night together Stanislaus wrote "In that moment I forgot that Siberia exist in this world"

You can't write about how distraught they were when they were apart for few months. You can write how they tried to tip toe around because politics. You can't add tension when they were found out and then have her husband (Paul, I think, I don't care about him enough to check) do one nice thing when Stanislaus confessed and Paul just... woke her up in the middle of the night, put her in front of Stanislaus and went "Well, I hope everyone is happy now"

You can't do all of that and expect me to not get invested. And I wasn't even that huge shipper of historical figures before, like c'mon.

And then they turn toxic.

How could you...

[nctallure]

tw // mentions of cheating

RILEY, also known as kang jiah was born on the 28th of april 1997 in brisbane, queensland, australia to korean parents. riley has an unidentical twin sister and a younger sister born in 2000. both her parents were famous models during the 90s and early 2000s. the couple got married in 1999 but her father cheated on her mother in 2005, conceiving the other woman. her mum filed for a divorce right after she found out about it, the whole process was very public. despite all the "drama" surrounding her father, she's still close to her younger step brother.

riley has always loved music. she started playing instruments, guitar and piano, from a very young. she auditioned for sm entertainment in september 2010 after her mother forced her to do so and later on debuted as the leader of nct allure in 2016. riley has written many songs for the group. a workaholic. this girl is always in studio writing something or the other.

riley was the first allure member to be announced. she has been loved by the public very much from sm rookies and her debut with nct u. however, the public's opinion on the girl has been divided ever since her introduction because of being a female member in a male leaning coed group. riley has been the most popular member since debut.

━━ ✿ PERSONAL INFORMATION ⭒

birth name. riley kang

korean name. kang jiah

date of birth. 28 april 1997

place of birth. brisbane, queensland, australia

zodiac. taurus

languages spoken. english, korean, sign language

ethnicity. korean

nationality. australian

relationship status. complicated

love affair. jung jaehyun

family members. mom, twin sister, younger sister, dad, step-mom and step-brother

━━ ✿ GROUP INFORMATION ⭒

stage name. riley

debut date. 9th april 2016

positions. leader, main rapper, main dancer, sub vocalist, center, fotg

debut song. the 7th sense

representative emoji. 🐿️

━━ ✿ PHYSICAL INFORMATION ⭒

face claim. park ❛ rosé ❜ roseanne

height. 172cm ( 5'7 )

blood type. a positive

━━ ✿ TRIVIAL INFORMATION ⭒

education. home schooled

favorite musician. keshi

favorite songs. limbo ( keshi ) heaven and back ( chase atlantic ) just go ( iKON ) middle with you ( B.I ) august, cardigan ( taylor swift )

ideal type. ❛ someone who has the same kind off vibe as me .. you know? someone just charming, doesn't mind dating someone who's a workaholic i'm working on that btw oh and likes kids! ❜

job if she wasn't an idol. ❛ um.. i don't really know? maybe a model like my parents or maybe some kind off singer ❜

[the-sappho-of-lesbos]

Hi, I just saw your post about having an internal emotional hole and i think I can relate to that. ❤️ I was wondering if you had tried doing something charitable such as volunteering to help others? I found that helped a lot with feeling like my life had a purpose again after going through depression.

You already do amazing work with sharing poems and photos from your rare books, btw. ❤️ Maybe you could extend to doing something hands on, volunteer for a couple of days a month at a local community group/hospital etc, or there are things you can do from home such as sewing (I make things for sewing for charity Australia for example). Donating blood is another option.

I just found that anything I could do to help other people started adding to a kind of running tally of self-worth in my head... it really helped me get back on my feet, and out of my own head and circling thoughts, after a traumatic upbringing and I wanted to share it, I hope you don't mind.

I hope you're doing okay and thank you again for all the things you share! ❤️

(I wrote a whole reply and then tumblr deleted it so I’m sorry if this response doesn’t make sense. I’ll try hard to rewrite it though aha 💕)

Thank you for popping it! ☺️💕

I’m sorry that is something you also struggle with :( I can’t imagine how hard that must be for you. I truly hope things get a bit easier for you or you find somethings that fill it or make it hurt less. 💕

I would really like to get to the point where I can volunteer. And I’ve tried to get into it with my rehabilitation worker but it never worked out. To put it bluntly I think I’m just too weak willed for it. My PTSD makes it really hard, which is so silly, but I just get these feelings and thoughts of being trapped and stuck in a place or situation with homophobic people where I can’t run away, or if I do run away BAM I’ll be proving them right and they’ll all say stuff about me. Which isn’t logical lol.

There was two places I tried doing volunteer work at. They were both second hand bookstores. There was one and I can normally go in there by myself fine (because I can just up and leave when I need to) but trying to volunteer there was different. I looked up their Instagram page to see who followed them and interacted with a lot / volunteered there, and a lot of them reminded me of the people I had faced homophobia from and I just started freaking out and feeling trapped and locked in. So it was a no go.

The other one I actually went to with my rehabilitation worker (and again I can go into it fine by myself for shopping purposes lol) but I also started feeling trapped and locked in and worried and fearful so we just ended up sitting in park. Tried again and this time was able to walk around the store but I freaked out when the suggestion of volunteer work came up.

It probably sounds strange but along side my stupid PTSD that honestly gets set off so easily at the smallest whiff of sexuality lol, I have a real fear of being locked into something. I genuinely feel like I’m never rarely allowed to say no or walk away from things, which means I want to be 100% sure before I commit. Which is fully unrealistic. But I feel walking away makes me a bad person so I’m not allowed to. It’s why I struggle with people so much as well. Because I’ve been stuck in situations in the past where I wanted to walk away but felt I would be abusive if I did. I eventually crack and do it but it takes way too long. So I get really nervous about getting close to people or committing to things. Simply on the basis that I’m worried I’ll be a “bad person” and not be comfortable lol.

There is another place I’ve looked at for volunteering, but the same issues arise around the fear of my sexuality (which I know probably sounds silly because no one has to know if I don’t tell them, but honestly PTSD isn’t rational ) and being locked in make it hard to take that step. It’s also like an hour and half away so I don’t think my energy levels could handle that.

It probably just sounds like I’m making a heap of excuses though. I mean maybe I am I don’t know lolol.

It REALLY want to get to the point where I can work or volunteer though. Having that structure and being able to contribute and feel a sense of sameness to those around me would be amazing. I guess it might just take a while lol.

I would also love to donate blood but my weight prevents me from being eligible.

That’s definitely part of the reason I put book reviews up here and upload those photos. I figured it’s something I can do it. And it seems to at least make a few people happy so it’s definitely worth it!! And I try t donate to charities when I can. But having something tangible to do one day would be really amazing.

I’m so glad volunteer work was something so helpful for you ☺️💕 and that’s amazing that you did that for Australia!! Thank you 💕💕

Thank you so much for reaching out with such kindness and wonderful advice. And thank you for sharing your story - though I’m so sorry it’s something you had to go through 💕💕 you have a beautiful heart and mind and I hope you have an equally beautiful day and do something nice for yourself

Thank you again for popping in ☺️💕💕💕

[toxic-potions-productions]

My Scooby-doo movie rating

So, since October is finally over, I decided to rate the Scooby movies I binged for the month. For both nostalgic reasons, & also just for fun FTR, I'm keeping my October PFP cuz I love it way too much & It's such a mood not to get rid of. Fight me-

Anyways, these movies were all watched on Dailymotion.com, & I'm going to rate them 1-5 based on if it's as good as I remember it being Let's see if you guys remember any of these

Spoiler warnings ahead!!

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Day 1, October 2nd Aloha, Scooby-doo!

This movie wasn't the most entertaining thing, but it also wasn't extremely boring, either. I started with this one based in Hawaii as it was the tamest one & I wanted to save the spookiest ones for last. I did like Little Jim, though, he was awesome. & the Wiki Tiki is an awesome villain, cuz I've always been a sucker for monsters like that

My rating: 3/5

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Day 2, October 5th Scooby-doo! & the Monster of Mexico

Honestly, this movie isn't as good as I remember it being. Or maybe I just found the wrong place to watch it, since ALOT of ads popped up throughout the movie, which kinda threw me off. This is probably my most forgetful movie, I'm sorry to all the Mexicans I'm flaming for this. I just don't remember much about this movie. Alejo was really cute, though, I liked him. & I also liked how they portrayed El Chupacabra, too. But, other than that, I don't really think Monster of Mexico is for me. But, I'm glad I watched it again for nostalgic reasons, so that's why I'm not that upset

My rating: 2/5 A high two, low three, BTW. Cuz it wasn't terrible, it's just kinda mid now that I'm 21

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Day 3, October 9th Scooby-doo in Where's my Mummy?

I. FUCKING. LOVED THIS MOVIE. I've said it before in my post about this, but this has to be one of the better movies I've watched, so much so that I regret not saving it for later. Amelia Von Butch is such an awesome antagonist (& she's hella fine, too), Triple A is the coolest dude I've seen, Rock Rivers is funny as hell, & Omar is super interesting to watch. The mummies, Cleopatra, the segway into the movie, the more CGI creatures like Spirit of the sands, this movie SLAPS. & I think "Mummies, Rags, & Riches" is the biggest banger of the entire soundtrack, even as an adult. That song will never not slap to me. Definitely one of those movies I'll be watching again soon just for fun. Said it before, but I'll say it again. Egyptians just do it better

My rating: 5/5

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Day 4, October 13th Scooby-doo & the legend of the vampire

You would think since I was so obsessed with 39 back in the day that I would've liked this movie as well as I did when I was a kid. I hate to say it, but not really. Naming a vampire Yowie Yahoo sounds kinda..........weird. I'm sorry, I can't hear it any differently. The pacing was really slow, somethings were a bit off, it really wasn't as good as I remember it being. Since I love Australia & the culture of it all, I'm disappointed that I don't like this as much as I did anymore. The few things I did like were the Hex girls, Daniel & his grandfather Malcom, Jasper Ridgeway, The Bad Omens, the vampires themselves (Including old Yowie despite the name), & the soundtrack. Auugh, the soundtrack was so awesome, especially in the opening scenes of the movie. Other than that, I'm upset that I didn't like this movie. Especially Two skinny dudes. IDK why, but I really don't like those two. For a movie that has the same birth-year as me, I really don't care for this one

My rating: 1/5

A HIGH one, low two. Cuz the potential is there, & I see what they were going for (Mostly cuz Wildwind was super awesome & the Hex girls have my heart as usual. So, that's why it isn't getting flamed THAT hard)

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Day 5, October 15th Scooby-doo! Pirates Ahoy!

Again, I'm mad I didn't save this for much later, cuz this movie ROCKS! The soundtrack, the pirates, Captain Skunkbeard, Mysterio, this was definitely a fun movie to watch. "Blow Ye winds" has been stuck in my head for days, too. We need to bring sea shanties back!! & I am also absolutely disgusted how the soundtrack isn't on Spotify. Not only that, but Rupert Garcia is a real cutie & such a likable character. Fred's parents, Skip & Peggy, are absolutely adorable, too. Yes, they're cringy at times & I understand why Fred reacted the ways he did, but damnit, they are so adorable! Captain Crothers & Sunny St. Cloud were really fun additions to the movie, too. My only question is why did they name that billionaire guy Biff Wellington?? That sounds like a fancy steak XDDD Either way, this movie was one of the better movies I remember, & now I'm obsessed with pirates because of it 🏴‍☠️

My rating: 4½/5

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Day 6, October 19th Scooby-doo! & the Cyber Chase

Hear me out on the Phantom Virus. HEAR ME OUT--

Uhhhh, who said that? Anyways, I really enjoyed this movie, it was so much more fun that I remember it being. Professor Kaufman is my favorite character from it, honestly. Eric did an incredible job on the game, & the real gang meeting the cyber gang gave me so much whiplash due to the old looks. Especially Shaggy wearing red, cuz that's ANCIENT times. I also think Officer Wembley is a bit of a grouch, but I don't mean that in a bad way. Just means they did a good job writing his character. But, my one complaint is Bill. What was going through my boy's head to make a virus just because he didn't get picked for that prize money?? Like, DUDE!! That is so petty, even for a Scooby-doo movie XDD

My rating: 4/5

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Day 7, October 21st Scooby-Doo! & the Loch Ness Monster

SCOTLAND PRIDE!!! >:DD

This is one of the movies that's the closest to my heart due to me being half Scottish myself. The way they animated the Loch ness monster was absolutely amazing, she looks alot better than some of the other CGI stuff from the early 2000s. & with the scenes where she's clomping around actually look really satisfying, too. & the characters are so fun to watch! Del is a super funny guy, Sir Ian is really cool, & Fiona Pembroke is probably a favorite of mine. & Shannon is absolutely adorable, too! Not only that, but Colin & Angus are fucking hilarious. Put a Scottish accent on any siblings & it automatically becomes alot funnier to see them on screen. However, that Duncan McGubbin dude sure is creepy. Was he always like that? I don't remember being that scary, it's gotta be the lazy eye. Not only that, but I LOVED the scene of the guys in the sub swimming away from Nessie after spotting that underground cave. Easily a favorite scene of mine. Definitely gonna put a Scotland visit on my bucket list because of this movie. Who knows? Maybe there is a Loch ness monster out there somewhere

My rating: 5/5

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Day 8, October 27th Scooby-Doo! & the witch's ghost

I wanted to watch this on my birthday, but due to my party, I was so busy running back & forth that I didn't have time. But, I saved this one for second to last for a reason. It's not as close to my heart as Zombie island, but damnit, it slaps. Ben Ravencroft is definitely an author I'd read, since I'm a sucker for horror books. Not only that, but this movie with the Hex girls' debut was one of my gay awakenings, so these three hold a special place in my heart (Luna, my beloved). I kinda wish we saw more of Jack & Dr. Dean, though. Shaggy & Scooby made Jack's meals look incredible 🤤😋 But, man. Ben is OP as hell with powers like that. & the animation of him summoning Sarah was fucking cool! Definitely a favorite misleading villain of mine. Summoning your own ancestor & she ends up dragging you into a book with her, couldn't be me

My rating: 5/5

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Day 9, October 31st. Halloween night Scooby-Doo on Zombie island

Said it before, but I'll say it again. BEST SCOOBY MOVIE EVER!! I saved this one for last since I knew it was gonna be as good as I remember it being, & damnit, was I right. I honestly kinda wish Moonscar island was a real island in Louisiana now, since I would love to go there. Mostly for the peppers cuz I'm not one to turn down some good old spicy food, sue me. Anyways, I really loved Lena, the ferry driver Jacques, Beau, & Simone Lenoir. I honestly don't remember this movie being as dark as it is when I was younger, but then again, it was a movie from the late 90s. They were able to get away with alot of things back then. Ironically enough, my all time favorite character would probably have to be Snakebite Scruggs. There's something about him that's just so scary, but so cool to me that I wish we saw him more in this movie. His hunting pig, yes, hunting pig, Mojo creeps me out, though, no idea why. But, out of all the things they could've worshipped & turned into, it just had to be a cat. Simone, Jacques, & Lena aren't beating those furry allegations for a while- Okay, that was dumb. Anyways, it was awesome of me to save this movie for last. "It's Terror time again" is still one of the best songs from any sort of Scooby movie I've seen, too. & the zombies still continue to scare me in the best ways possible, even when I know they're just people Simone & Lena drained to stay immortal. But, the way they were defeated by disintegrating into dust was still probably the darkest thing I've seen, even today in 2024. But, it means it was just as phenomenal as I remember it being.

My rating: 5/5, obviously

If it's your first time watching it, don't be alarmed when you don't hear Scoob's iconic "Scooby-dooby-doo!!" at the end. Watch through the end credits, & it'll be there after a cute little scene with Simone's kit-kits ^w^

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& that's all of them! Now I'm kinda thinking if I should try to draw my favorite characters from these movies. Key word, TRY. IDK how well I'll be able to pull it off, but let me know if you wanna see that

PLEASE give these movies a watch if you haven't already, they are absolutely amazing. Don't let the ones I rated the lowest disappoint you, since that just means they might be more your guys' thing instead of mine. Such an amazing thing to do over the course of October

& I hope you all had a fun & safe Halloween!

[elinaline]

Important edit: please no one annoy the person I'm reblogging from, they're not in the wrong for sharing something they've heard and seen, and they're just the one I'm answering to because they're the first one who weren't in the tags.

I've been trying to find any data, and what I found is a recent article from studies over the entirety of the netherlands

Showing that although the lockdowns (which were the longest in Europe) slowed down the development in reading comprehension, kids of all levels are bouncing back and learning at the usual rate.

Data in Brazil

where schools were closed up to two years back to back, showed some gaps in learning which. Yeah. no shit. That they emphasize education should focus on to complete, but no actual loss. Kids did continually improve their reading skills, only at a slower rate than they would have at school with support and encouragement. They also notice that there is inequality between social classes. The end of the article is a comparison to their data and global findings which are pretty much all the same. Both of the above articles are open access btw.

So in conclusion it is not that "kids can't read" that's a reactionary analysis of the situation when the interpretation is that lack of access and lack of encouragement to regular reading slowed down the progress rate, and that instead of focusing on the needs of the children to correct that, disparities are being dug deeper by a broken education system.

As for phonics (something I don't know at all or at least not under that name. I'm french), a quick literature search shows that they've been debated for the last fifty years, and recent articles like this one from Australia

shows that teachers don't really know what they are either, and generally prefer teaching through play activities centered around literacy rather than a commercial method. The study concludes that the science of play hasn't been studied deeply enough yet to draw any hard cut conclusion, but that the teachers seem confident there is no loss of literacy from these activities compared to commercial phonic teaching.

I assume that in the next decade, COVID lockdown will be the prototypical "explanation" for why gen alpha is the way they are, whatever that happens to be. If the stereotype is that they're all a bunch of weird introverts, that will be due to lockdown stunting their social skills. If they're all a bunch of gregarious outgoing types that will be due to lockdown giving them a stronger yearning for socialization they were deprived of in youth.

Probably the discourse will be both of these at the same time, with people fighting with each other based solely on their impression of the last three teenagers they spoke to.

[fortruthseekers]

REFRESHER ON MY INSIDER SOURCES: BTW, this is Purv aka @p-redux. This is my original Tumblr blog I’ve revived to archive past source info.

In 2014, I first posted my insider source info. I didn’t have a Tumblr blog, so I posted everything on my old Twitter account, all the details the sources gave me then. The fandom, especially shippers, went into an uproar because my source info sunk the ship. The SamCait ship had barely started sailing and I sunk it before it had made it out into open sea. Shippers have never forgiven me for that. Mea culpa, mea maxima culpa. 

Throughout the years, I’ve reiterated my source info, but summarized it because most people had already heard it, and I didn’t see a need to keep rehashing it. The more time past, the more it became clear Sam and Cait weren’t a couple, and that the info I had shared with the fandom AHEAD of time was true. Cait was seen with Tony a lot. And Sam was seen with different girlfriends or dates. But since I’m turning this account @fortruthseekers into an archive account, I’m going to post the original source DETAILS again, for newbies. This post is going to be LONG, very long, because I go into detail. Read it if you need a refresher on what I said previously about sources, or if you’ve never read the source details before. Click on Keep Reading to find the rest.

Okay, so about sources. REAL sources. I live in Los Angeles and used to be in the industry many years ago. As a result, I still know people in the industry. And just by living in L.A., you meet people who know celebs. In 2014, I got who I call “my original industry source” through a friend who knew I was watching Outlander. And she thought it would be cool for me to talk to this industry person who had Outlander connections. My friend put me in touch with her so we could talk about our common interest. Initially, me talking to the source was just to schmooze about insider info, I wasn’t planning to make it public or create a celebrity insider info account. But I was surprised about how much she knew. At the time many people, including myself, thought Sam and Cait were most likely a couple, when the source told me she knew for sure they weren’t, I was floored. Then after she told me all the details of her interactions with Sam, Cait, and some of the Outlander cast, and the fact that she was friends with one of Cait’s besties, I knew I’d hit a huge source of info. 

At first, the source didn’t want me to make the info public, she didn’t want to get in trouble, but she thought it was important that people knew the truth about whether or not Sam and Cait were a couple. She figured if they knew, then people wouldn’t get their hopes up and be disappointed when Sam and Cait became more famous, and would inevitably be seen with other people. As I said, that original industry source is good friends with one of Cait’s female best friends. And because she’s in the industry, she also had a connection to Sam through his talent agency. So, she had insider info on BOTH Cait and Sam. Jackpot.

Because I knew her full identity and knew I was talking to the real person on her real and blue check verified Twitter account, and my friend had introduced me to her, I could trust that her info was legit. She is also Instagram blue check verified and has made a name for herself in the industry. People would be shocked if they knew who she was. SHE is the one who told me 100% Sam and Cait were not dating and that 100% Sam is not gay.  At first, she didn’t want me to post things publicly, but I begged and she finally relented, as long I would swear I would keep her identity private and would leave out some identifying details. 

So, in 2014, I went public with all the details she told me. And through the years, EVERYTHING she told me turned out to be true. I didn’t have a Tumblr blog at the time, so all my source info was posted on my old Twitter account. I posted every detail of what she told me and I also posted some of her DMs with permission, and name blacked out. Unfortunately, all that is gone because I deleted my old Twitter account a long time ago. 

The main points were: Sam and Cait weren’t a couple and never have been. When I said to her that I knew actors were different than regular people, but that when I saw Sam and Cait talking about watching the wedding scene together, while drinking a bottle of wine, that there was no way they didn’t hook up at some point. She said she’s been around a lot of actors and said Sam and Cait are both natural flirts and very touchy-feely people, and she didn’t see anything out of of the ordinary in their interactions–she reminded me their behavior is the norm when promoting a show. 

She also said Sam isn’t gay per people she’s talked to who know him. She knew the director of Batman Live, the live show Sam starred in years ago. The director was a gay man, and when she asked him if Sam was gay, since he seemed too good to be true and was so good-looking, he said no. And he said he and other crew who were hoping Sam was gay were disappointed that he was straight. The director told her that the reason Sam didn’t seem to have much of a dating history, was because he had always been focused on his career and on working out. And that because he was traveling with the show, there wasn’t time for a committed relationship. Later, we found out that Sam had indeed been dating a woman named Katie Rebekah, but they broke up because she moved from London to Australia, and Sam started to tour with Batman Live. That’s the info I got in 2014. If Sam was gay, the gay director would have told my source and squeed about it.

This source used to work between New York and Los Angeles. She was in New York for one of her TV shows during the July 2014 premiere of Outlander and hung out with Cait and Cait’s bestie, as well as some of the other OL cast and crew. She also had some business meetings with Sam in NY. She confirmed Sam brought Amy Shiels as his “plus one” to the premiere and even skipped out on an unplanned event the cast was invited to because he “had a date.” When they saw him the next day and asked him how his date went, source said Sam replied “It was great!” Even though this source got info from Cait’s bestie…the bestie kept quiet about Cait and Tony, and simply said that Cait and Sam weren’t a couple….I found out about Tony from someone else...more on that later. 

This source did share some info about what Cait thought about Sam. She said that Cait cared about Sam as a costar and friend, and they got along very well.  But Cait said Sam was not her type, that Cait didn’t date actors, and that Cait referred to Sam as “a bro,” and that Cait was not into guys who spent so much time in the gym. She said Cait genuinely liked Sam as a person, but there was not more to it. And that Sam was just a big flirt, and that they were both trying to promote Outlander as much as possible because they knew it was their big break. 

This is also the source who told me that Cait’s friend, the one the source is friends with, didn’t particularly care for Sam. To be very clear: I don’t feel this way about Sam, Cait doesn’t feel this way about Sam, and my source doesn’t feel this way about Sam. In fact, my source said Sam “was lovely” to her and “a sweetheart.” But one of Cait’s besties, just ONE FRIEND–not plural, the friend said that she thought Sam “could be self-absorbed,” and “douchy.” ONE of Cait’s friends said this. No one else said this. And that was way back in 2014. I’m sure Sam has matured since then, as people tend to do as they get older. BTW Cait has a lot of close friends, some of which aren’t well known to fans. Reiterating: Cait doesn’t feel that way about Sam, the source didn’t feel this way about Sam, and I, Purv, don’t feel this way about Sam, nor have I said anything like that about Sam. 

Back to Sam being a natural flirt, remember, even Cait said “he could flirt with a lamppost.” Well, my source said that the times she saw Sam at business meetings, he was always very nice to her and would greet her with a big bear hug, tight enough that she could feel how hard his chest was. He would look down at her, right into her yes, hold her gaze, and smile big at her. And this was a woman he was not interested in romantically. He was just being friendly and sweet. Imagine how high the charm wattage is turned up for a woman he IS interested in. No wonder that Samshine has been hard to resist. This is also the source who said that Sam would always say goodbye to her by saying his now ubiquitous “Let’s get together for a wee dram when you’re in Scotland.” Of course, that “wee dram” never happened. I think that’s just Sam’s people pleasing qualities coming out, never wants to disappoint anyone. The source also said whenever he would text or e-mail her for business related stuff, he was always super enthusiastic and used a lot of exclamation points !!!!!!

Anyway, my original industry source “broke up” with me years ago because she didn’t want to chance anyone finding out who she was, as Outlander got bigger, and as she got bigger in the industry. I still sometimes look at her Twitter and IG all nostalgic, remembering when it all started...ah, memories...

My second major source was my Tony family source. My Tony source is someone from Glasgow who was friends with someone I’d known for awhile. My friend put me in contact with her. The Tony source approached me to tell me that she was shocked to find out a relative of hers (later found out it was her brother) had revealed “the lead actress from that new show Outlander is dating Tony McGill.” She was shocked because she and her family have known Tony and his family for years, all of them growing up in and around Glasgow. Her brother went to school with Tony and his brother, Joe. She then told me the whole backstory of Cait and Tony. She wanted me to keep the info to myself and she had no motivation or intention of making it public. But she finally agreed, after I gave my word that I would protect her identity and I have. 

What she shared with me in late 2014 is that her brother found out their friend, Tony was dating Caitriona Balfe. At the time she said they’d been dating for about 9-10 months, that’s why I always put the start of their relationship around March 2014. She was told that by December 2014, the relationship was “dead serious” between them and that Cait had spent Christmas 2014 in London with Tony and his dad. And then Tony had flown to Ireland with Cait to spend New Year’s Eve and New Year’s with her family and friends (we’ve all seen the pic and video on Donal Brophy’s IG). My source said that Cait and Tony had been friends for 9 years or so at the time (again, this was told to me in 2014) and had met years ago when Tony rented out a room to one of Cait’s friends. They hooked up briefly back then and then remained friends, until it turned romantic again around March 2014. The source said that she and her family knew Tony and his family from back in the day, and she told me what school Tony went to in Glasgow (something I haven’t and won’t make public). She said that Tony had moved from Glasgow years ago and had been living in London for awhile (again, this was told to me in 2014). Also, that he and his brother owned a bar/live music place in London, The Library in Islington (they later opened a second one, The Reading Room, which Cait posted from on IG) and a music production company. And that prior to that, Tony was the band manager for some Scottish bands, most notable, The Fratellis. She described Tony as “fun, clever and hysterically funny.” 

The Tony source came into the picture after I had my Twitter account up, where I was posting insider info given by my first source. I had already posted that Sam and Cait weren’t dating. This second source is the one that filled in the missing puzzle piece I didn’t know was missing and told me she knew WHO Cait was dating. I would have NEVER known the name Tony McGill associated with Cait if not for this source. He was on no one’s radar. And he wasn’t on social media. This source told me details only an insider would know. And I also had her full identity, so I knew she was legit as well. Then ‘lo and behold Tony started showing up places with Cait. There is NO way I would have known about Tony without this inside family source. No way. Of course after my source told me about him, I did look him up online and there was hardly any information about him. Never in a million years would I have linked Tony McGill with Cait on my own. And I mentioned Tony McGill way before he started showing up places with Cait. How could it be that I said sources told me Tony McGill is dating Cait, and then a man identified as Tony McGill is seen out and about with Cait? The only way I knew about Tony is because the source told me. 

Back in the day, when Cait and Tony weren’t yet living together yet, people wondered how they made their relationship work given the sometimes long distances? Well, when they first started dating around March 2014, Cait was filming Outlander Season 1, so Tony would go to Glasgow or Cait would go to London on weekends. Then when Season 1 wrapped and Cait went back to L.A. (where she had been living) in late Sept. 2014, Tony went to L.A. to visit her in October 2014 (both their birthdays are in October, Cait Oct. 4 and Tony Oct. 12, not Oct. 14 like some have said. Libra/Libra bond!). The Fratellis were also in L.A. Oct. 2014 and Tony helped them out with some business stuff, even though he was no longer managing them then. Then, as I’ve already stated, Cait and Tony spent time together Dec. 2014 and January 2015 for the holidays. Then Valentine’s Feb. 2015, Cait flew to London for the opening of Tony’s 2nd bar, The Reading Room. She posted a pic on IG. Then in April 2015, Tony flew to NY to join Cait for the premiere of the second half of Season 1. Eyewitness sources saw him sitting with Cait’s friends at the screening and then with Cait and her friends inside the after party. There was one PUBLIC pic on Twitter of Cait, Tony and Sam. And I and others have been shown private pics of Tony there. Many of us have seen them but we couldn’t make them public because they show the location where they were taken, thus identifying the source who took them, and she would get in trouble with her boss. After that, in May 2015, Cait went back to Glasgow to begin shooting OL Season 2, and this time, she brought her cat, Eddie with her. Per more than one source, Tony pretty much lived in Glasgow after that with Cait. One person who went to Tony’s bars in Glasgow and then reached out to me, said that she had asked about Tony and was told “he doesn’t come around much anymore because he moved back to Scotland.” They then moved into their new place in Glasgow, move out of that one and into a new one in Glasgow, and also have a place in London, and are now married and had their first son. THAT’s how Tony and Cait made it work.

My Tony source also parted ways with me, also due to fear of being found out. She didn’t formally break up with me, the way the original industry source did, she simply ghosted me. But I also see her pop up on Twitter or IG sometimes and get all wistful. Oh well...

After I posted the insider info from BOTH these sources, then people started to contact me with source info. They knew I was Anon and would keep them Anon--win/win. People who went to Hollywood parties, or premieres, or meet and greets, people who saw celebs at the market, or baseball games, or the beach, or at the gym, or walking down the street, or just happened to be at the right place at the right time, started sending me info. From all over the world, wherever Sam and Cait were. And if I could confirm it to be true, I would post it. If I couldn’t completely guarantee it, then I’d say it was speculation. And that’s what I still do. Granted, back in the day, I was somewhat naive, and did get burned and betrayed a few times. I admitted when that happened. I’m much more careful now. But for the most part, the MAJORITY of the info I’ve posted has been ACCURATE. People who have been here for years can corroborate that. I don’t post everything that is shared with me though. And because my sources are actual real humans, they can’t know everything or be everywhere…I don’t always get minute by minute info, that doesn’t mean I don’t have real sources.

As for me also being the first to let the fandom know that Sam was dating Abbie Salt in 2015...I had a couple of Abbie sources. One of them turned out to be super sketchy and once I figured that out, we parted ways. My Abbie sources approached me after I had already established my account as an insider info sharing account. The motivation was to debunk that Cody and Sam were still seeing each other since they no longer were, and Abbie had started seeing Sam. 

BTW: as an aside...I was also the one that, through an eyewitness source, told the fandom that Sam and Cody Kennedy had gone to the Matthew Morrison Halloween party in October 2014, and the source had seen them kissing while waiting for the valet to bring their car around. You don’t know the LENGTHS that Extreme Shippers went to to disprove my source. They even Google Earthed the driveway from the street to the valet and measured it trying to prove that my source could not have seen where Sam and Cody were waiting for their car. Hahahah omg. Except, my source wasn’t on the street, she was right next to them. After all the bullshit from ES, it’s a wonder I’m still here, but here I am...the strongest bitch you’ll ever meet. But I digress...

Anyhoo, back to Sam and Abbie. I had no idea Abbie Salt existed or that she had dated Sam before and was friends with him…until my Abbie source contacted me to tell me that Sam was no longer dating Cody Kennedy and had resumed dating Abbie Salt. Abbie met Sam years ago when her sister, actress, Charlotte Salt starred with Sam in “A Princess For Christmas,” they dated briefly then, and then rekindled their romance in early 2015. Cody Kennedy’s mom later confirmed this by posting publicly in response to a fan Sam and Cody had broken up because “Sam went back to his old girlfriend in London.” Abbie lives in London. Again…I was surprised because I had no idea…but all the info checked out and then whadda you know, Abbie started showing up in Glasgow…in Sam’s flat (IG pics since deleted)…in L.A. in February 2015 at the London hotel, West Hollywood seen and photographed by an eyewitness for Oscars Week parties (the pic is of Sam and the fan, taken by Abbie, fan said Abbie was super sweet)... n NY when he was there for the OL premiere April 2015 (she posted on her IG, since deleted the pics), in Miami when he was there (eyewitness and Miami source proof that they were in Miami together, and NO that was not me, it was a source) and in Barbados together (Barbados source confirmation, and NO that was not me, it was a source, and pics from Abbie and Sam Tweeted he had been in Barbados). After that, Abbie was in Glasgow and Sam in London, where Abbie lives, on several occasions…not to mention she was photographed as his date in Monte Carlo for the TV Film Festival. It couldn’t be a coincidence that the Abbie Salt sources told me about AHEAD of time, then started to spend all that time with Sam. I didn’t even know Abbie existed, how would I have ever known anything about her without sources?

I also told the fandom about Mackenzie Mauzy and Sam dating via a source who saw them in person, holding hands and leaving together at a Guns N Roses concert in Los Angeles April 1, 2016. A friend of someone I know in L.A. was there and recognized Sam. He told my friend that he’d seen “that Outlander dude, Sam Heughan holding hands with a blonde, leaving the Guns N Roses concert.” At first, I thought it may have been Cody Kennedy, but afterwards, sources came forth to confirm it was Mackenzie Mauzy. Later on, I was contacted by a different Mackenzie source and given more info, which I posted. That Mackenzie source ghosted me too because Mackenzie was probably asking questions as to who was doling out info.  Also, by sheer providence, a fan was in the stands at the Dodgers baseball game in June 2016 and sent me a video of Sam and Mackenzie at the game together. Another source sent me the video of Sam and Mackenzie leaving their hotel together at San Diego Comic Con. I’ll repost all that in the archives. And someone I’ve known for years on Tumblr and trust completely came forward to share that she found out Sam and Mackenzie had broken up from one of Mackenzie’s relatives who live near her. Again, that was also by chance. Life can indeed be stranger than fiction. The relative told her Mackenzie wanted to get married and have kids and Sam wasn’t ready for that yet, so they broke up. That source came forth and identified herself on Tumblr, so that also proves my source info was legit. 

In summary: I was the FIRST to let the fandom know Cait and Sam weren’t dating, Cait was dating Tony, and Sam was dating Abbie, and Sam was dating Mackenzie BEFORE anyone else knew. You can’t do ALL of that simply by scouring social media posts as haters would have you think. It’s just not possible. And reasonable people understand that.

Before Covid-19 hit, people who were attending industry events would contact me and say “Hey Purv, I’m going to the PCA, or the TCA, or the GoldenGlobes, or the Outlander Season premiere and after party, I’ll give you the scoop!” I’d say “Cool, thanks! Send pics or video and let me know what and who you see.” That’s it. No social media searches or data mining needed. There is no conspiracy involved. No one is “feeding” me info from Sam or Cait’s camps or non-shipper or shipper sides to propagate a certain “narrative.” It’s just different people, who are at the right place at the right time, or are privy to certain insider info, sharing it with me because they know I post info for fans who are into that. As I’ve said ad infinitum, I am quite simply THE MESSENGER.

Any questions, send me an Ask or a Direct Message on my MAIN account @p-redux  Thanks!

[chansdimp1es]

Back to You - Bang Chan

summary: no matter what challenges the two of you faced, either together or apart, you would always find your way back to each other. 

pairing: bang chan x fem! reader

genre: angst, fluff at the end, 

warnings: swearing, mentions of depression, body image issues, implied eating disorder, mention of s/h scars

word count: 1k +

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cold.

all you felt was cold. 

it was late on a friday night, and you sat at your bedroom window huddled up in your duvet, staring out into the black night. 

“oh for life to always be this peaceful”, you thought to yourself before wiping your runny nose for the umpteenth time that evening. 

“y/n...?” you heard softly from the other side of the door. 

“leave me alone chan, I don’t want to see you” you muttered, before slouching further into your protective shell consisting of your duvet, blankets and multiple pillows - to hibernate from the world forever. 

bang chan. your best friend since you were toddlers. both of your mum’s were best friends when they were young, and his mum and coincidentally moved into the house next to yours only a few months after chan was born after moving to Australia resulting in the two of you becoming just as close as you mothers after countless play dates and birthday parties. 

you’ve done everything together really, from sneaking into each others rooms in the middle of the night to help each other sleep after either yours or his parents a had forced one of you to go home, to your crazy side when the two of you have your infamous sleepovers and you get just a little too excited at the idea of watching a shitty rom-com that both you and chan adore to make fun of. he’s been there for you through thick and thin, but this - this is the one thing you could never be honest with him about. 

you’ve always secretly struggled with anxiety and depression, and despite a few chats here and there, you’ve surprisingly managed to hide the severity of it from chan after all these years. 

from covering your scars with makeup and being careful to not wear revealing clothes around him, to him amazingly never questioning why you excuse yourself to the toilet after almost every meal, there’s no way he could truly know about the black hole that eats you up at every waking moment of your day. 

but this? the pure and utter hatred of yourself? you don’t know how much longer you can go on for, how much longer you can survive the ferocious waves in your mind that threaten to drown you at every moment. 

the truth is, you’re exhausted. who wouldn’t be? but you know that you can never show your true self to chan, or anyone for that matter. you love the fake persona you’ve created for when you’re around your family and friends, the bright, carefree girl who hardly worries about anything, and you don’t want that to change. you naturally don’t want them to start walking on eggshells around you and start treating you as if you’re a fragile china doll that may break at any moment. 

you knew chan would try do everything he could to help you if he found out, god of course he would, but you wouldn’t be able to survive the guilt if you unloaded your mental burdens onto him, it wasn’t fair to him. and besides, you hardly wanted to tell your long term best friend who you may or may not have a major crush on about how you don’t want to be here anymore. 

“c’mon y/n.. let me in. i’m really worried” chan says through the door again. “let me help”, he pleads. “please just tell me whats going on””. “no chan, leave me alone, please” you begged between soft cries. “i’ll call you tomorrow okay?” chan says softly, finally defeated. “bye y/n..”

“bye channie”

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3:00 AM

you’d barely slept. you rarely did anymore, but on nights like this especially, you were left tossing and turning all night. 

the hurt and sadness that you had heard in chan’s tone earlier kept replaying over and over in your mind. you felt bad for shutting him out, but how could you explain yourself to him, and show him the true side of you? it’s not as easy as you’d think. 

suddenly, your phone went off, illuminating a small section of your room and making you squint away from it due to the brightness after all of your crying. 

freckles ;) , 3:02 AM

sorry in advance, i had no choice but to tell him.

he knows pretty much everything btw 

huh? what was that supposed to mean?

your confusion was shortly lived when you heard the familiar sound that you had heard thousands of times before of your bedroom window opening, signalling that chan was here, and you could only think of one thing;

you were going to kill lee felix.

sure you loved you crazy ray of sunshine of a cousin, how could you not? but he was the only other person that you had trusted enough with the shit show of  what your life was, partially because he always saw through you enough to know that you were really never ‘okay’ when you told him you were. he was the only person you allowed to be your true self to be around, and he witnessed nights like these and just held you more times than you care to admit.

you look up to see chan coming through the window, half hoping to see his signature warm, dimpled smile that you know and love, but was met with sorrowful eyes and a tear stained face instead. 

“y/n” he said sadly, making his way over to your bed where you were yet again bundled up in your duvet and blankets. “y/n” he repeats, gently getting into bed and laying down beside you.

“why didn’t you ever tell me” he whispers softly whilst wrapping his arms around you. 

“i just didn’t know how”, you replied, crying into his chest.

“shhh, its okay, i’m here now.” he soothes you, gently stroking your hair, and you quickly dozed off to sleep soon after in the arms of the boy who would never know how close you hold him to your heart, and somehow you knew that everything would finally be okay, because no matter what challenges the two of you faced, either together or apart, 

you would always find your way back to each other. 

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a/n : hey guys! thanks for taking the time to read my first ever fic! sorry for the kinda rushed ending, but I thought it was best to end it where I did instead of drawing it out 🙃

~ s <3

[introverting-rn]

absolutely incredible discussion and i’d never quite considered this before! i’d like to add something i’ve seen in my life here:

TRIGGER WARNING: someone with suicidal ideation and self harm, faith talked about regarding Christianity (the person is still alive and well, and there is no church bigotry discussed)

i’m queer and autistic and have been raised in a Christian family, so i always accepted faith without question when i was younger. upon entering high school (age of twelve for australia) i starting meeting queer and neurodivergent friends for the first time and seeing how they were really impacted by this, and in one particular group of friends, i saw a lot of people lose their faith due to the actions of the church. one particular mate, who i shall name Jack, took his personal struggle with faith really hard - he started to struggle with depression and suicidal tendencies during this same time, as his faith had been really important to him, and without it he lost a lot of purpose and understanding in life.

(i’ve been blessed with a very supporting family and have come to reconcile my faith with being queer, which is another story entirely and slightly off topic for now.)

when we were about thirteen, this group of us went on a mini-holiday together. i was under the impression that Jack and I were the only Christians in this group. one night, i went to bed earlier than the others, and when i heard them come inside i pretended to be asleep so that they wouldn’t disturb me. at this time, i overheard their conversation, and realised that they’d stolen beer from the fridge and were drinking. this was absolutely terrifying for me, and i began to panic - we were hours away from my family, in a place i was completely unfamiliar with, and my friends were drinking alcohol. i began to cry as silently as possible, and could do nothing but keep listening as i heard jack ask the others specifically not to tell me.

the next day, i talked to him about it, and to my surprise he looked ashamed. he told me he was struggling with faith and didn’t really believe in God, and for a year or so he was atheist. i continued to be friends with him, saw marks of self harm on his arms, received a message from him late one night as he contemplated suicide, and he stayed in a hospital for a few weeks - i don’t know the details. in the end i found myself drifting away from that group because that feeling of panic kept returning when i was near them, but i continued to be friends with jack.

one night he called me, crying, and said he had found faith again. he had been watching the show the chosen (highly recommend btw) which shows the paths of Jesus and his disciples in an incredibly realistic way, and it humanises all of them so wonderfully instead of leaving Jesus to feel like cardboard like He so often can. he said that realising the disciples were real people let faith feel so much less unattainable, as though his mindset had been that he was unworthy of having faith.

now, i know he’s doing much better and we’re still very close. i know he experimented with underage smoking and drinking while he struggled with everything, which is what makes me think of jesper - losing faith can also be a remarkable loss of identity and trigger difficulties in a lot of ways, and they each looked for solace in something ultimately detrimental to their physical, mental and spiritual health. i also feel that the same path to understanding could belong to jesper: seeing that the saints were people, and that doesn’t mean that he’s just worse than them, it means that all people are offered unconditional love despite our flaws and struggles.

apologies if i’m a bit rambly, as i don’t have the energy to read over this, and thank you for giving me the opportunity to share! i actually didn’t consider how much my friend and jesper could line up, and this is helping me gain a lot of potential new insight into them both.

if anybody wants to talk more about this i would be absolutely ecstatic to communicate w you! the harmony of church and queerness is something i’m very passionate about aha. God bless! <3

I’ve been thinking a lot recently about Jesper Fahey and religion.

Whilst we know that Matthias follows Djel, Inej follows the Saints, Nina was raised with the Saints but is atheist because of her understanding about Grisha, and that Kaz and Wylan adopted atheism based on their childhood experiences, we don’t get a lot of information about how Jesper feels about religion. We know he was raised with the Saints and that when he swears he says “Saints”, as does Nina, where Wylan says “Ghezen”. It’s notable to me that Matthias and Inej either rarely or never invoke a name in vain; I think Inej may say “Saints” in that context the odd time I can’t remember, but I’d argue in that case it’s probably because she isn’t specifically naming them to do so whereas Matthias would have to but I’m working off memory there so please feel free to correct me. But Jesper’s actual relationship with the Saints is arguably quite ambiguous, with no particular passages that point us in either direction. (Show!Jesper is highly implied to be atheistic in season 1 when Inej asks him what he thinks about Alina and he says he doesn’t care whether she’s real or not so long as they get paid, but there isn’t really anything like this in the books to my recollection) I think that might be because he has a far more complex and painful relationship with religion than we see on the surface level, and this has particular links to Nina’s belief that the Saints were possibly real people but were simply powerful Grisha not religious saviours/martyrs.

When Jesper was a child, his father would read him bedtime stories “from his Kaelish book of Saints”. At the same time, Colm was unintentionally damaging Jesper’s view of Grisha power and of himself by forcing him to hide it and telling him “that’s what killed your mother. That’s what took her away from us”. Alongside the self-hatred this cultivates in Jesper, seen mostly in Crooked Kingdom since he’s most open about it in the beautiful, heartbreaking chapter 24, I think it may have also impacted his relationship with religion. To be told as a child that these people are worshipped and valued for the things they could do, the same kind of things he saw his mother do and that he could be capable of, but that his power is a curse and a shameful secret that has to be hidden from the world is so damaging. It effectively raises the question: If it’s different for me than it is for them, what’s wrong with me? Why am I less worthy of love?

When Jesper already had these feelings growing inside him, feelings that went on to massively impact all the relationships in his life (most notably his relationships with Kaz and Wylan but I would also argue his relationship with Inej is affected by this as well) and actively endanger him when he began to try and fill the void he felt with gambling, to emphasise these emotions with something that could have been so beautiful and given him so much comfort by turning it into something that can be used against him by labelling him as less than others is so heartbreaking and honestly painful.

Obviously this is just an interpretation or a theory but this is how I feel about it when I reread, if anyone else has thought about this please feel free to add anything or contradict it with your own interpretation I’d love to read it.

[wyvolf]

hey could u tell us more about kripke? also a doodle of him too? maybe?? 🥺

*rubs hands* (long post btw)

a 6'0" researcher (sometimes a sr res, other times just a regular researcher), he's Australian and from a small country rural-town in new south wales. his parents, Mary and Jonathan, were not the best- especially his mother who was kind of whack and not good :[, Jonathan wasn't bad, but he wasn't the best either. but he tried and Kripke prefers his dad more. mom also said some bad things, etc. but i wont go into that here

he also has a sister named Claire! a wannabe biker who listens to AC/DC, draws things and has a girlfriend- honestly there's not much to her than that but i will make her real properly... eventually. in an au she is in AWCY though but mainline she just exists (another is where shes an SCP)

growing up overall was fun in a way despite a bad mom, he and his sister grew up in a sort of dual-religious household(?) of Christianity (moms side) and Judaism (dads side) neither of his parents were that religious? and both were more laxed on it but still celebrated respected traditions when it came and went- typically they went to Kripke's moms grandparents for any big lunches/dinners on Christmas day; and since its summer in December for Australia- fuck yeah spreading a tarp out, putting dish soap on it and water, and there ya go. fun!

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Kripke's interests are very all over the place, as he has ADHD (and undiagnosed ASD bc i gotta imprint or else) and interests has fluxed a bit, but hes very interested in guitar playing (he plays it rlly well and typically practices nirvana songs on it), got into monster lore, he fell asleep to a few documentaries and remembers some of the information but he went into university for biological sciences- which comes to him getting nabbed/acquired by the foundation; - good grades, - found a biological anomaly that was a bit too anomalous for normal people, - foundation said "ours now".

kripke always believed in the supernatural, so finding out that anomalous beings existed (within his clearance) he was very ecstatic at first a very much "knew it" moment, but at the same time became very "wait.." in fear theres Worse things out there (and there are).

how he got the scars on his palms? well an scp did it of course? reality bender go brr, or some other scp did it. kripke's sense of danger is non-existant he will pick up a small enough scp or pspsps one.

overall his personality is; happy-go-lucky, there and loyal to friends, but can also be very petty, sometimes rude or even angry- but this bitch also has some trauma so :(,

hes just a little guy who sometimes exaggerates his accent to scare the americans because he thinks its funny. and his favorite color is blue. :3