#Both relationships are so so important to Balloon why would you put him in a place where it's unstable

[lilacs-stash]

People who don't want Nickel & Suitcase to make up realize that they're the two most important people to Balloon right. They realize that them not making up would cause a lot of unnecessary conflict between the three. Right? Like do you really want Balloon and Suitcase to have conflict no no one wants that

[lordarsonizzzzt]

THEIR IDEAL DATE W/ YOU

I just wanted to write something cause im bored

characters: Jack Bright, Alto Clef, Kondraki, Draven, Iceberg, Gerald

JACK BRIGHT

✦ Jack strikes me as a funny guy when in a relationship, dates with him aren't fancy and shit, he doesn't want to go to a place where you have to waste tons of money for food

✦ She prefers going to McDonald, convencing the staff to give both of you balloons if they have any. Maybe go to an arcade or go bowling, fun dates are her thing.

✦ If you want to, she can book some fancy restaurant so you both can go, but it really isn't his thing. I'm so sure Bright just loves goofing around when not in the foundation cause those are the few times he gets to be out of the place.

✦ Don't get me wrong, he's loyal to the Foundation but it can be a bit too much plus the whole being inmortal thing, he preferes dates that involve going out and to places where you will have a fun story to tell.

ALTO CLEF

♫ Similar to Jack, he preferes fun dates, fancy never was and never will be his thing.

♫ But contrary to Jack, he prefers being indoors, that being said, he loves dates where you two cook together.

♫ HE IS going to mess with whatever you are doing, and YOU WILL have to try and stop him from putting weird shit into the mix.

♫ If you are baking a cake, he's going to try to put gummy worms in it, if you are making dinner, he'll try to put chocolates in the spaguetti.

♫ But that's perfect with you, because that's your man.

♫ If you both already planned to have a date but that day was kinda of shitty for him, he'll try to put through it anyways, most likely you will notice and it wil be time for cuddles and maybe a movie that is just there for background noise while both of you sleep.

♫ I headcannon Clef as a pretty clingy guy when in private, he needs constant praise but he'll prefer dying before admiting it, Lily left some pretty nasty scars on him (both mentally and phsically), so this 'dates' are more of a schedule for both of you, they happen once a week.

KONDRAKI

⌛︎ So this one depends on how much you support his drinking habit.

⌛︎ If you are ok with it you both will go to a bar and have a few drinks, but make sure they are actually a few because he doesn't know when to stop.

⌛︎ If you aren't okay with it, then you'll have dinners in your home, same as Clef, Kondraki prefers dates indoors rather than outdoors, he craves that domestic life. Hell! he may even invite Draven and Talloran if it's cool with you.

⌛︎ If Draven comes, he is not buying any alcoholic drinks, not even beer.

⌛︎ If he doesn't, he'll buy probably two cans of beer or vodka, enough to not get him wasted.

⌛︎ Dates with him are filled with talking about this and that, a new book he got into, some dumbass in the Foundation, a guy you don't like from your work and so on.

DRAVEN

➳ THIS BOY.

➳ Anything will do good with him, wanna go to the beach? Okay! Want to try out food in this new restaurant? Sure, let's go! Wanna do a picnic? HE'S ON HIS WAY.

➳ He likes to have dates at night time, maybe have some take-out and eat in a park while you both talk, walk around holding hands.

➳ He likes to gossip, no you can't change my mind. He'll call you up and will tell you to come to his apartment, when you are there, there are a lot of bags of chips, candies and sodas

➳ You'll paint his nails while he tells you about some weird break up that happened in the foundation, you will ask him to stay still because he uses his hands so much to get his point across.

➳ Probably the only one that will take you to a fancy place with no trouble, yeah it's not his thing but it doesn't hurt to act like you are both rich and important people for one night.

➳ 10/10 would date again.

*I RAN OUT OF PATIENCE TO DO LIL DRAWINGS FOR THEM SORRY LMAO*

ICEBERG

❆ THIS. BITCH.

❆ "Why do you wanna go out if we see each other every day"

❆ Don't expect going out with him, he has to be in a really good mood to take you out, if you wanna go alone or with friends he has no trouble paying for you.

❆ But he's just, not going out, not his thing at all.

❆ Similar to most in this list, preferes staying inside, he'll make breakfast for you and you can watch a movie on the mornings.

❆ At night time, he'll order something from your favourite place and probably some dessert, he'll tell you he got it because it was cheap and it was for him, but since he was going to get something might as well feed you too.

❆ He got himself something else tho, he didn't ate desseart because it was for you.

❆ This one also craves domesticity, but he won't say it. He loves kisses in the morning when making coffee, holding hands when coming home and cuddling at night.

❆ Hell! He may even tell you that he loves you, and verbal affection from him is one hell of an achievement.

GERALD

⚠︎ HE LOVES PICNIC DATES.

⚠︎ HE'LL BUY EVERYTHING IF NEEDED, BUT PLEASE JUST GO OUT WITH HIM TO A MEADOW OR A HILL AND HAVE A PICNIC DATE WITH HIM. HE'LL EVEN BEG.

⚠︎ Everything he gets is from the market, if he cooks he'll burn everything down and he just wants dates with you to be perfect, he feels like he doesn't deserve you and feels bad because there are so many guys out there that are better than him.

⚠︎ So he tries, he really tries to make these dates perfect, there is no way anything can go wro-

⚠︎ So, most of the time you end up going home and having the picnic on your backyard.

⚠︎ He gets attacked by bears, beers, steps on snakes by mistake, everything that could go wrong goes wrong.

⚠︎ He may even cry.

⚠︎ When you are in your backyard he'll try to feed you parts of the cake he bought, only to attract more fucking bees.

⚠︎ You'll feed him a strawberry and he'll choke on it, but that's to expect.

[chryzuree]

nitw chrysijacks au!!! tell me more abt it im so invested i love nitw!! do they get to be animals too...if they were animals what would they be!!!

AAAAH, okay okay, so it’s still a work in progress bc i haven’t decided if i want to have chrysi be in mae’s position but with elements of bea, or if i want jacks to be in mae’s position and have chrysi be mostly bea with just a hint of cole (bc i think chrysi would’ve absolutely left town for a bit), but as of writing this.. i’m erring towards chrysi as mae, since she defs can perceive things that most ppl can’t, plus she’s charismatic and generally a mess.

i was thinking chrysi shows up a couple days before her bday & you know. dismembered arm is found as usual. YES, chrysi’s thrilled abt this!!! VERY important to know!!! honestly, it’s a relief for her to find that arm, bc the vibes in that diner were in SHAMBLES. she was rlly trying to avoid eye contact w jacks and jacks was staring her down w his laser eyes. put those things AWAY, it’s literally four in the afternoon…

the party scene happens on chrysi’s bday itself, and guess who FUCKING FORGOT IT WAS HER BDAY. when the rest of their friends arrive at the party later (bc unfortunately, chrysi had to drive jacks out. she’s going to scream. that’s the worst, most awkward car ride over ever) & wish her happy bday, jacks is like “😦 oh………. happy birthday……….” <- has been in the same space as her for the past two hours. like. damn.

JACKS is the one that gets drunk (saw an ex, to which chrysi says, “you can’t run away from the town’s population”, since jacks is a serial dater), so chrysi takes him home and it’s the worstttt. she should’ve stayed at college. ((actually, jacks asks why she came home.. he’s rlly glad but he’s worried for her. unfortunately for him, he does NOT phrase it like that and chrysi gets even angrier w him))

they start repairing their relationship right around the same time chrysi starts seeing cult members / having fucked up dreams. so mostly, jacks comments on how exhausted and ill she looks. you really know how to compliment a girl, don’t you??

on one of their outings, chrysi finds out that jacks hasn’t rlly dated anyone in a while (omg.. theyre both single at the same time again.. which hasn’t occurred since jacks ruined their makeout session in senior year of high school!!!! wrow!!!!!) but anyway. still have to unpack allllllll the drama of high school before it goes anywhere.

their halloween celebration is fun.. i think that jacks would jst tag along w chrysi…. she’d win at the water balloon toss & they’d both laugh at their fortunes being read & jacks suspiciously goes missing when chrysi’s asked to cover for the witch play the town’s putting on. i jst think they need to reminisce abt halloween celebrations past… they neeeeeeed to kiss abt this, but they will NOT!!! never ever!!!!

jacks is the first to agree to research ghosts w chrysi <333 ughhh, he wants her so bad. does he believe in ghosts?? well.

THE SCENE IN THE WOODS, WHEN SHE GETS SHOT AT??? JACKS HAS TO BE PHYSICALLY DRAGGED AWAY SO HE DOESN’T ALSO GET SHOT AT. he’s sick with worry the whole time chrysi’s in the hospital. who cares abt the cult member keeping an eye on the appt??? he only cares abt how chrysi’s holding up…

he is dragging chrysi into the appt & picking her up bridal style when she shows up!!! he is putting her on the couch and tucking her in and curling up beside her!!!! they actually have a heart to heart there + chrysi begins to forgive him… before she “falls asleep” against him and jacks falls asleep too.. then chrysi gets up and goes to the woods w/o telling anyone.

jokes on her, bc jacks wakes up within ten minutes of her leaving bc he misses the feeling of her curled up against him. can NOT stop his obsessive crush and hyper-awareness of her. it’s been on overdrive since, like, ninth grade.

he’s the one to yell at her when they show up in the woods. OMG, JACKS ALSO HAS A CROSSBOW!!!! he fucking sucks at shooting at the guy tbh, he’s jst glad he managed to hit him.. then he hands off the crossbow to hold chrysi the whole way into the mines.

i haven’t rlly decided what i wanted to do here, bc i kinda want to deviate & play w story stuff regarding castor’s death.. kinda want it to be the valors that are part of the cult + they’re trying to bring castor back… but i also kinda want to up the level of danger throughout this whole time, so maybe castor’s already been revived as a vampire, but he’s like… super fucked up and ghoulish and nothing like the castor they knew… what if the mines were castor’s living quarters & they were jst trying to protect him?? plus this could mean that jacks can finally choose chrysi over castor !!!!!!! ,,,,mmm, yeah, i’m going to do that.

anyway. chrysi does NOT feel bad abt caving in the mines behind them!!!!!!! bye bye, valors!!! die then!!!!! jacks is a little more like, well, that was maybe not the best course of action? WHO CARES MAN!!!!!!

chrysi defs passed out bc visions or w/e but it’s FINE!!!!

the story would end w chrysi wishing jacks happy bday (fucked up two and a half weeks there, huh?) + jacks giving chrysi her bday present, bc he felt like an asshole that he a) forgot it was chrysi’s bday, and b) got blackout drunk on it… then they kiss abt it <333 and now they’re a couple!!!!

i wasn’t rlly thinking they’d be OFFICIALLY animals, but i think they’d both have a cat / fox motif…. lots of shirts + trinkets to call to mind those animals for them!!!!!!!!!!!! they should kiss…

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#5

subverting expectations by @disgruntledkittenface​

Rating: Mature

Category: F/F

Relationship: Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson

Additional tags: American AU, Girl Direction, Met Gala, Strangers to Lovers, Smut, Semi-Public Sex, Nipple Play, Vaginal Fingering, Daddy Kink, Actor Louis Tomlinson, Model Harry Styles

“Do you have a cigarette?”

If Harry thought the question would shock Louis, she would've been wrong. Louis doesn’t even look startled, even though it’s the first time one of them has spoken. She smirks at Harry in the mirror.

“We’re not supposed to do that anymore,” she says, her raspy voice full of mirth. Like she’s amused at Harry or something. “It’s bad for the paintings or whatever.”

“And you’re not a bad girl,” Harry says, turning to face Louis. She leans her hip against the counter, determined to both gain the upper hand and not think about why she wants to. “Right?”

Harry goes to the ladies’ room at the Met Gala expecting a cigarette and a break from the boredom. Instead, she gets Louis.

An (early) birthday gift for @homosociallyyours​ // READ ON AO3

169 notes - Posted May 3, 2022

#4

306 notes - Posted April 30, 2022

#3

Darling, so it goes by disgruntledkittenface

Harry practically skips up the stairs to his office with Sophia, rejuvenated by the possibility of seeing his Vogue. It’s one thing to know which shot they picked for the cover, but it’s going to be a whole other thing to actually hold the glossy pages in his hands. The shoot had been long and exhausting, and Harry had hated being away from Louis but at the same time he’d loved every minute of it. Some of the choices are going to invite controversy, and Guy from the press office might have a coronary, but it was important to be himself. Trending topics be damned, Harry Styles – soon to be Harry of Monaco – doesn’t care what people think he should or shouldn’t wear, and marrying into a royal family isn’t going to change that.

When they walk into Harry’s office, Mitch is sitting at the small table in the corner looking at one with his coffee cup. His complete and utter lack of enthusiasm does nothing to put a damper on Harry and Sophia’s; Harry drums his fingers against the desk as she carefully opens the small package. A soft gasp escapes her lips when the cover is revealed; the stark black of the headlines that matches the fitted blazer Harry is wearing contrasts nicely with the soft blues and greens in the background. The editors had agreed when Harry requested a bit of whimsy for the cover, knowing how many official portraits would be in his near future, and they’d used a shot where he’s blowing up a small blue balloon. The pose shows off his engagement ring nicely. It’s not immediately evident that what Harry is wearing underneath the jacket is actually a gown, and he holds his breath as Sophia flips through the pages, waiting for her to see the full outfit.

“Mon dieu,” Sophia breathes, lifting the page to get a closer look when she finally gets there. “Harry, this is beautiful. I love this gown on you, so elegant. Is it Gucci?”

“Nice, man,” Mitch says, leaning over Sophia’s shoulder and holding his fist out for Harry to bump. Sophia elbows him without taking her eyes off the magazine. “Sir. That’s nice, sir.”

“Thanks, Mitchell,” Harry says, grinning as he bumps Mitch’s fist with his own. “And yeah, Gucci. It was even more gorgeous in person. You might see it sometime, I think Alessandro is going to give it to me for my archives.”

“Oh, Harry,” Louis says, holding the cover out to admire it. “This is gorgeous, darling. Fit for a prince, indeed.”

“I’m really happy they went with that one,” Harry says, pointing to the large headline on the cover that says just that. “They had a few other options, but none of them felt right.”

“It’s perfect,” Louis says, turning the pages until he reaches the editorial. “That gown is fit for a prince. My prince.”

“Harry, we should frame this,” Sophia suggests, pointing to one of the walls. “We could hang it right there, what do you think?”

“I think that’s perfect.” Harry gently takes the magazine from Louis and hands it back to Sophia. “Would you mind taking care of it? I need to go shower, actually get ready for the day. I’ll be back in like an hour.”

“Or two,” Louis says, taking Harry’s hand in his as he gives him a long once-over. “Let’s just say later.”

“You heard le patron,” Harry laughs, letting Louis drag him out of the office. “I’ll be back later!”

The Grace Kelly AU. 195k.

Coming soon as part of @onedirectionbigbang

314 notes - Posted March 16, 2022

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baby, you’re the end of june by @disgruntledkittenface​

“Up for it, Harold? We can go over the rundown when we get back. If you’re not busy then.”

“Yeah, sounds good,” Harry says, closing his laptop and setting it on Louis’ desk. “It’s just Harry, though.”

“You look like a Harold,” Louis says, standing up and brushing some brownie crumbs off his t-shirt. Harry briefly wonders how he’s still hungry for lunch after demolishing half the plate of brownies as he stands and moves into the hallway. “It’s the cardigan, I think.”

“You guys can flirt on the way,” Niall says over his shoulder, beckoning for them to follow him as he strides down the row of cubicles. “Come on, I’m starving.”

Harry looks at Louis, but he just laughs as they follow Niall. Oh. He thought he’d been picking up a vibe while they hung out, but apparently not. Well, it’s better to know how Louis feels now, so he can nip his growing crush in the bud. Louis is a great guy, at least they can be friends as well as coworkers.

In which Harry courts Louis. Entirely by accident.

Additional tags: American AU, Advertising AU, Friends to Lovers, Pining, Fluff, Alpha/Beta/Omega Dynamics, Alpha Harry Styles, Omega Louis Tomlinson, Courting, Accidental Courting, Scenting, Scent Marking, Protective Harry, Misogyny (see author’s note), Smut, Knotting, Oral Sex, Anal Sex, Barebacking, Power Bottom Louis Tomlinson, mentions of Mating Cycles/In Heat

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392 notes - Posted June 6, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Darling, so it goes by disgruntledkittenface (195k, E)

Harry Styles is a world-famous actor at the height of his career but a personal low point when he meets His Serene Highness Prince Louis of Monaco by chance. He doesn’t think they’ll ever see each other again, but after striking up a correspondence, it turns out they have more in common than he thought. Then they start to fall for each other. Louis is different from anyone Harry has dated before and their relationship moves fast as Harry realizes he’s ready for a change. Soon Harry finds himself adapting to an entirely new life, in a country where he doesn’t know the rules, the customs, even the language. Harry is used to people underestimating him, and he’s more determined than ever to prove them wrong.

He just needs Louis to meet him halfway.

Grace Kelly AU.

Additional tags: Royal AU, Actor Harry Styles, Prince Louis Tomlinson, Famous/Famous AU, Developing Relationship, Long-Distance Relationship, Moving In Together, Louis Tomlinson Calls Harry Styles Pet Names, Meet the Family, Family Dynamics, Communication, Lack of Communication, Conflict, Conflict Resolution, Light Angst, Fluff, Marriage Proposal, Engagement, Royal Wedding, Prince Harry Styles, Family Planning, Past Family Member Death, Original Characters, POV Harry Styles, Alcohol, Drinking, Smut, Dirty Talk, Phone Sex, Safe Sex, Barebacking, Anal Sex, Anal Fingering, Blow Jobs, Rimming, Riding, Anal Plug, Light Exhibitionism, Semi-Public Sex, D/s Undertones, Light Subspace, Light Bondage, Handcuffs, Blindfolds, Spanking, Overstimulation, Harry in Panties, they kind of share that, meaning they’re both verse

written for @onedirectionbigbang​ // featuring art by @hrrytomlinson​

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951 notes - Posted May 20, 2022

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[gunsli-01]

This is at the end but in case it's too long or you don't wish to read this I'll put it here.

Tl;DR: I may have been obstinate about taking the shoe into full consideration and that was short sighted of me. So, for that I apologize. I very much appreciate being able to hear your perspective and see your passion regarding the series. Since it's allowed me to look over instances that time has caused me to overlook. I hope that none of this came off rude or argumentative. I can't say for sure if the missing shoes allude to suicide or not yet, but I'm interested in seeing and understand why some may believe that is the case.

When it comes to the one shoe it's a suicide thing I haven't seen Milgram itself confirm this. Though I have seen it speculated by fans of the series. However, when it comes to that we have a confirmed suicide incident related to Futa. Yet when we see Es stand in for his victim in Undercover, Es is wearing both their shoes.

So, in that case what does that mean? The easy answer is that Futa's victim was not the individual who committed suicide due to online harassment and we punished him for something he simply did not do. However, that begs the question does missing a shoe immediately mean suicide or is it a convenient trope/stereotype for people to latch onto as a defense or make an individual's prisoners look less involved with their crime than they were.

Also the shoe appears on Mu's messed up desk in After Pain. So it isn't new they deliberately put only one of her shoes on her desk plain to see in front of the board hurling insults at her.

It's probably the present they left in her desk; the board is talking about. Since we can see inside most the desks present as they don't seem to be the ones where the wood flips upward to a compartment but the ones that have a compartment to hold things in directly beneath the tabletop the only gift on hers is that shoe.

The one she committed the murder in that would highlight her classmates very much know what she did. Like the messages on the board imply. It's the remaining evidence of her crime that her parents more than likely covered up with money given some of the comments on the board.

This would give the shoe some importance as physical evidence she left behind. However, this would not be something she would need to hide within Milgram because Milgram already knew she committed murder. Why hide the shoe, put herself in her the victims place at points but still show us the murder clear as day? Unlike the multiple characters that only allude to their crimes through vague imagery flowers, stage plays/films, blog posts, and balloons.

If she wanted to hide the shoe, why put it on full display at the beginning of After Pain. So, the shoe isn't from out of nowhere it's been here from the start It's Not My Fault just adds more context as to why. Which is probabl why they translation so directly called for people to go back and look at After Pain again.

Also, no, no it's fine I got a bit too defensive on my end as well. I do not disagree that Mu's murder was sloppy it definitely was. I just feel it's necessary to recognize in some instances there seems to be thought put into it on her part whether that was in the moment or retroactively. I understand it can sound as though I'm trying to make Mu sound nefarious, but I believe she is tactful and controlled with her responses recognizing what information is good for us to know and what may not be.

I don't think this makes her bad but that it underlines the malicious intent/resentment she had towards her victim and how their relationship warped over time. It's difficult for me to state that just because she put some thought into it that makes her a bad person or her crime worse as it's also difficult to say just because she felt cornered/unsafe it was okay to kill someone that was attempting to leave. Because Mu's case to me fails to fit the requirements of legitimate self-defense while also falling short of fitting all the requirements for it to be considered premeditated, I ultimately default to saying it was a crime of passion.

However, if there was a covering up done after the altercation by her parents or herself that in itself would call back to board, we see at the beginning reasonably well. However, it would also show with no room for doubt that Mu's murder and her bullying do not take place at the same time. Meaning her crime would not be a response to her bullying and she could no longer use the excuse of self-defense she pushed forward at the start of Milgram since it was tied to her victim being her bully. Simply put, a person can't bully someone else if they're dead before the bullying starts.

At that point what was Mu defend herself from when it came to Rei. What started all of this? That's something she implies by stating in allegedly more accurate translations not to look for the source of her pain.

To me personally even if Mu thought of doing something to the victim before out of anger, her friends bullied her victim, and the outcome of events we've been shown we are missing exactly what Mu is telling us not to search for the source of her pain. Her motive for doing all of this. We don't know why exactly it came to this and I feel speculating too far off of such a small detail undermines the nuance of the situation whether one tries to make a point in Mu's favor or against her.

I think it's just a simple way to go see she's good or bad. When I think Mu is Mu and like with all the other character her actions should be judged but not her character. Because a person's actions aren't always indicative of their personal character as people act against even their own interests or beliefs at times. I may not want to vote Mu Innocent currently but that's not because I think she's bad I think she's reacting poorly to all the validation she's received and is afraid of forming her own opinion on her actions because she can be incredibly critical of herself.

Just like Futa wasn't really able to reflect on his behavior until he fought against having his feelings denied. Mu and Fuuta are characters who need a lot of external validation. Tending to work in groups because they're not at the point in their lives where they can mentally justify their behavior or past actions on their own, which isn't good. Because no matter how much validation someone gives a person like that they're ultimately interfering with the individual's personal growth and ability to objectively consider and reflect on themselves.

Something that could lead to a negative cycle of someone doing something they may consider wrong or have misgivings about, then seeking validation from others about their behavior, receiving it then doing the same thing again. Regardless of if they personally feel good about it or not. Because they'll simply go everyone thinks I was right so I am or everyone else was having fun so what I did couldn't have been bad.

Unlike Haruka and Yuno who have opinions on their actions but verdicts they would still prefer to receive. That's why I think Mu's focus goes from maybe some of it is my fault to see you all agree I'm right, so it's not my fault at all, you all said so. Without once telling us what she thinks until the end when she hypothetically says what if I'm a bad girl because she believes she is one and she can't handle the thought of that. She definitely can't handle the thought of other people thinking she's a bad girl given the genuine panic in tone during that part.

Certainly, she can do better later but to do that she needs to create her own sense of self and stick to it. Instead of being swayed by the favor of others because it can lead to people being manipulated or doing things, they shouldn't do to protect their very fragile egos.

I don't think the posts should be deleted because discussion on these sorts of things allows people to not only form new opinions but look over the information provided again. You mention some incredibly good points and I recognize that the shoe may have some value now, but I don't think that it alone should impact how Mu is viewed. Because she is a complex character that deserves the same amount of thought I'd put into any of the others.

I may have been obstinate about taking the shoe into full consideration and that was short sighted of me. So, for that I apologize. I very much appreciate being able to hear your perspective and see your passion regarding the series. Since it's allowed me to look over instances that time has caused me to overlook. I hope that none of this came off rude or argumentative. I can't say for sure if the missing shoes allude to suicide or not yet, but I'm interested in seeing and understand why some may believe that is the case.

tw: discussions of suicide

still reeling from the fact that someone claimed it was "disingenuous" to bring up that mu was suicidal in an attempt to sway an innocent verdict. like... i genuinely can't wrap my head around saying that unless you just really fucking hate mu and can't stand the idea she might be a nuanced character who could be sympathetic.

but honestly what was i expecting from someone who claimed that mu keeping her indoor shoes on while chasing rei meant her crime was premeditated

[mj-ackerman]

Tatsuya Endo's Character Commentary from the Official Spy x Family Fanbook English Translation:

Someone might've already translated this somewhere, but I wanted to share my own translation here for those who hasn't read it yet^^. I'll start with the Forgers. Long post ahead. DO NOT REPOST

<<Part 2 Here>>

Loid Forger:

(Endo) He's honest and sincere. His disguise is cartoonishly exaggerated, but it is also important that real-life spies have to be (who they are). "Twilight" also came out simple. I wanted to use cooler horizontal characters, but I already submitted it to the meeting as it is, so... Spy should not stand out, so I thought about putting a modest mole or piercings as a character trait, but in the end, I decided not to add anything. As a last resort effort, I added the WISE badge to his collar, although I know that there is no way a spy will wear a company emblem (?) (Laughs). To make it easier for the readers to recognize him, I had him wear this badge as much as possible even when disguised. 

(Hayashi) "Having no features became his features" right? 

(Endo) The readers may see him as  "actually a very nice guy", but in my mind, he has a more flattering image. Although he is not devoid of emotion, he's someone who prioritizes his mission first.

He is technically managing Franky by holding onto his weaknesses in a constructive way, but I think they understand each other. Like Neil and Mozzie in the drama "White Collar", I would like to see a relationship where they are business partners, but still understand each other.

Anya Forger: 

(Endo) She moves on her own, so I don't really have much concept for her. Her visual was created by combining "Ashe" from the one-shot "煉獄のアーシェ / Rengoku no Ashe" and "Misha" from "石に薄紅、鉄に星 / Ishi ni Usubeni, Tetsu ni Hoshi". I came up with several ideas for her design, with the image of something like a decoration attached to her head.

Ashe from Rengoku no Ashe (Left) & Misha from Ishi ni Usubeni, Tetsu ni Hoshi. Both are Tatsuya Endo's manga

Anya is getting more and more deformed as I draw her. Her eyes got bigger and her head and body got smaller. I also like round eyes so much that I ended up drawing them right away. She also has a little bit of Hoshimaru from "Narutaru" (by Mohiro Kitoh) in her. I think of mistakes like saying "Odekeke / ooting" on the spot. I think about how a child might make a mistake, or give priority to a comedic tone.

Narutaru, a manga by Mohiro Kitoh

Yor Forger: 

(Endo) She is the character that I thought about the most visually. While referencing various video games and anime, I didn't think even 1 millimeter about an assassin's look. 

As for the weapon, I got the idea from the main character from the spy novel "Eyes of the Needle'' (by Ken Follett), who uses a needle-like weapon called "Stiletto". Thinking about it, Izumiya from "月華美刃 / Gekka Bijin'' (one of Endo's previous manga) also used a needle weapon, so I may have an image of "Kill= stab" for myself. That's how I also came up with the name "いばら姫 / Ibara Hime / Thorn Princess." 

Gekka Bijin, a manga by Tatsuya Endo

Her name was originally "Yolanda", which sounds like an Eastern European name, and it became "Yoru / Yor" as a nickname. I thought it would be better to keep it short for the speech balloon. Then the readers mistakenly thought "Because Loid is Twilight, that's why she's Yoru''Night ``?''. I actually didn't even think about it (LOL). 

My favorite part is the overall design. I wanted to create parts that would move with the action, so I made the costume and the fringe flutter. As an assassin, no matter how you look at it, it's hard to move, but I wanted her to look good. I've always liked fighting heroines , and now that I think about it, Princess Arina from "Dragon Quest'' might be my starting point. I drew my first manga in the "Dragon Quest 4-koma Manga Theater'' with the story of Princess Arina. The needles on Yor's both hands may have been inspired by Killer Pierce? 

The way her hair curled under the cover of volume 3...I want you guys to pretend that it didn't happen (Laughs) . I know some cosplayers may have tried to recreate it, but...sorry, that was just a joke I thought of.... I think she just put the back together normally and let the sides hang down.

Bond Forger: 

(Endo) At the meeting, we were talking about a large dog, and I remember buying a book about dogs. In the end, I made him white and fluffy like a Great Pyrenees. The black toes are original. It's like inverted socks. I wanted to give it some character traits, and if it didn't have solid colors, it would be too white for the manga, and the balance would be off. The image is more like an "uncle dog" than a "grandpa dog."

By the way, I'm totally a cat person, but cats can't run with Anya, so I rejected the idea. The footsteps sound "te-chi-te-chi"... doesn't it sound like that when the ground is hard? Not only Bond, but onomatopoeia was influenced by Nishimori-sensei. Nishimori-sensei's manga with onomatopoeia is so cute.

I'll do the rest later ^^

[tommyshelbyswh0re]

fool me once, shame on you

nate jacobs x reader

angst (yuhhh)

i hate this so much

summary- basically nate’s cheating on the reader with cassie and i’m gonna base it on how i’d react. also cassie is our bestie in this. also pretend nate and maddy aren’t a thing.

y/n-

you and nate had been together for a year. it wasn’t the best relationship in the world. there was even a few times where you feared for your life. alas, you stayed because you were inlove.

you and cassie had been bestfriend’s for like 4 years. you were there for her through all her breakups and wrong doings. ofcourse you called her out when she was in the wrong, just not in public. in return, she was also there for you. every time you and nate would ‘break up’ she would comfort you, telling you that you deserved better.

nate was acting strange. more secretive if that was even possible. he would hide his phone from you or keep it on him at all times, even when going to the bathroom. you weren’t stupid, you know that this meant he was cheating, you just didn’t know who it was. you decided to confront him.

“nate why are you acting so fucking weird?” you blurted.

“i don’t know what you mean” he said without even looking away from his phone.

“are you being fucking serious? you’re not even looking up from your phone when i’m asking something important. you’re so distant. are you cheating?” you just flat out ask him.

“do you really think i’d do that to you?” he asks hurt in his voice.

“well i don’t want to, but the way you’ve been acting makes me suspicious. i barely know you anymore” your tone was angry.

nate knew if he didn’t shut this down he’d loose you forever. and even though he was in fact still cheating, he still wanted you and cassie.

“look i’m sorry babe. i’ll turn my phone off and we can have a movie night. i swear you’ll have my undivided attention” he smiled kissing your cheek.

“okay” you smiled back.

it wasn’t till later you realised he never actually gave you a straight answer. it was like he purposely diverted your attention.

-

“no cassie i’m being serious. he’s definitely cheating. all the signs are there. i mean i knew he was a shitty boyfriend but i genuinely didn’t think he’d cheat” you said hugging into her whilst tears streamed down your face.

“i mean, are you absolutely positive?” she asks you.

“i’ve never been so sure of anything in my life” you nod.

“who do you think he’s cheating with?” she asks curiously. you don’t know if it’s just you hearing things but that’s an underlying tone of something else when she says that, you just don’t know what.

“i don’t know. i don’t think i wanna know” you tell her

“what? why?” she asks.

“cause then i’ll get double the time in jail when i murder both of them” you laugh.

her laughter sounds fake though. ‘what’s up with her’ you thought.

-

it’s a couple of days later and it’s your birthday. you celebrate it at cassies since she has a hot tub. nate come round to give you your gift. it’s a tiffany necklace.

“oh i love it” you turn around and kiss him. “thankyou!” you say looking into his eyes.

“happy birthday. i love you” he smiles back. all of your friends are watching.

except cassie. where the hell is she? you’re all just talking about how beautiful the necklace is when cassie comes down the stairs drunk as hell. in a swimming costume? she makes eye contact with nate the entire time and he makes eye contact with her. you frown.

“i’m gonna wait near the hot tub until it heats up” she told us.

“let’s go put i swim suits on” you squeal excited.

“oh babe you coming?” you ask nate.

“uhm i don’t know” he says unsure.

“no come on it’s my birthday!” you say in attempt to persuade him.

“okay fine” he laughs pecking you.

“see you in 5” you say holding up 5 fingers.

you quickly put your swimming costume on and head outside. however everyone is looking is facing the sliding doors confused. when you turn to look at what they’re seeing, you see cassie even more drunk singing loudly and dancing with balloons.

“what the fuck?” you say standing next to nate.

he looks down at you. “is she always like this?” he asks.

“no but when she’s drunk she’s a fucking train wreck” you reply.

“anyway let’s get in” you clap your hands and make everyone follow you to the hot tub.

you all get it and cassie come out balloons still wrapped around her until she shrugs them off.

“heyyy y/n” she slurs. which cause you to laugh.

“hey cass” you reply back to her.

she tries climbing in but falls right on nate not-so-gracefully.

she laughs “oops sorry” she pats his shoulder. he just looks down.

once she’s comfortable she speaks up again. “anyways. happy birthday!” she sings.

“thankyouuu” you sing back.

“i’m so happy you guys have sorted out all of your shit” maddy smiles to you and nate

“we haven’t” you laugh, joking.

“yeah we haven’t” he says seriously.

“i mean i was joking but what the fuck are you talking about?” you asked him dead ass.

“i mean we haven’t. you literally accused me of cheating the other day” he says like you’re fucking stupid.

“well maybe if you weren’t so suspicious i wouldn’t” you defend yourself.

“alright” he gives up. but you weren’t done.

“you see what i mean” you look around to everyone. “i have to put up with this shit every day” you roll your eyes.

“it’s really funny because he starts arguing with me and acts like the next day he doesn’t come round begging me to forgive him” you say. airing your shit out.

“oh y/n forgive me. you know i didn’t mean it. i love you. we should get out own place when we go to college. one day we will get married and have babies” you mimick him. but as you said ‘babies’, cassie threw up everywhere.

everyone jumps up and screams. including you. vomit is the one thing you can’t handle.

“i’m sorry. y/n i’m so sorry” she says sobbing but all i can here is maddy gagging.

“i’m sorry i ruined everything.” she’s still sobbing.

“it’s okay don’t worry” you say trying not to vomit yourself.

“nate! get me a towel” you shout as cassie was being dragged out of the hot tub by her mum.

-

ever since that night, you and nate had been on sensitive terms. you had apologised for not airing things in private and he apologised for starting it. but still things were rocky.

you were at cassies two days later with everyone, just hanging out when there were loud knocks at the door.

yous had left it alone assuming cassies mom answered. 5 minutes later there was commotion in the hallway and you all went to go check. rue was sat on the stairs arguing with her mom. she was saying she couldn’t go back to rehab because she couldn’t get clean.

“you don’t have to. just take it one day at a time” she looks back at us and we all give her a thumbs up. it’s silent for a minute before rue speaks again.

“hey cass?” rue asks. cassie smiles.

“yeah?”

“quick question. how long have you been fucking nate jacobs?” and right then and there you could’ve swore your heart broke. you couldn’t hear anything. but you know cassie was gonna play it off.

“excuse me?” you asked calmly.

“well i mean i saw her getting into his truck like a month ago” rue shrugged.

“are you serious cass? your fucking my boyfriend?” you ask hurt in your voice.

“what? no?” she shook her head. but it’s too late. you start piecing everything together. the eye contact between them, her vomiting, her curious tone.

“cass i knew you were hooking up with someone but my fucking boyfriend?” you ask. you start to walk towards her.

“i don’t know why you’re believing her she’s a drug addict” cassie states.

“rue can you remember when this was?” to which she answered “right after new years”

and that’s how you knew she was telling the truth because that’s when he started acting weird.

“cassie that’s fucking low. how dare you pretend to be my friend when the whole time you were fucking him, probably laughing behind my back” you were crying.

“look y/n let me explain. i’m inlove with him and he’s inlove with me. we didn’t do it maliciously” she sobbed. as if that would make it better. you fucking lost it.

“your the most self-cantered idiotic person i’ve ever fucking met. your fucking my boyfriend and your crying?” she cannot be serious.

“nate doesn’t love anybody but himself” you whisper. you were honestly just gonna leave it and never speak to them again but she had to open her mouth again.

“no he just didn’t love you. you guys are terrible for eachother. it was gonna end soon anyway” as soon as she finished her sentence, you sent a sharp slap to her cheek.

“be careful you bitch. i told you what would happen if i found out who it was so you’re lucky it’s just a slap” you whisper in her ear. she ran upstairs. honestly you were done.

“sorry for slapping your daughter suze” you apologise to her mom before walking away to grab your stuff and head home.

“if you didn’t do it, i would’ve” she hugged me.

maddy and kat came with you and you spent the night crying to them.

the next day you didn’t even speak to nate. you just blocked him and cassie.

the only people you needed were maddy and kat.

[mountswhore]

Could you write about ben missing your child's birthday and mason (who is like a second dad) having to step up, then maybe your kid starting to believe mason is his dad.

𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐲 𝐛𝐢𝐫𝐭𝐡𝐝𝐚𝐲 — ben chilwell (slightly mason mount)

summary: ben had been incredibly distant since you had Theo, and Mason had step up to the role, only confusing your son.

notes: reqs are open

You and Ben had been completely smitten for the past three years, still in the honeymoon phase of your relationship. Everyone would often wonder when Ben would stop talking about you, when he’d stop bringing you into every conversation. He’d often talk about you to Mason, during training, on the bench, in the dressing rooms, it was torture, but he was happy his friend was in love.

Mason finally met you when Ben threw a surprise party for your birthday, and the two of you got along better than anyone could’ve imagined. You were both massive Marvel nerds, you both played the same games, and you were pretty much Mason with a wig on. Which was scary to think about for Ben. The three of you spent so much time together; Mason often coming over for movie nights, or to take turns playing games, and Ben would sometimes come home to you in a PlayStation party, not needing to ask who it was as he knew it was Mason.

When you finally announced your pregnancy, everyone was over the moon, and Ben was too impatient to wait for his little one. His baby that was half him and half you, the baby to prove his love for you. He’d treated you like a queen throughout, making sure to make dinner when he could, doing housework, fetching whatever you needed from the shop. And Mason, who was overly excited to be an Uncle to another kid, was always over to help, keeping you company if you were waiting on Ben.

He was the one to actually drive you to the hospital when your water broke, Ben having been in Milton Keynes as he was visiting his mum. Ben was adamant on Mason staying at yours, because you were due to pop any day now, and you were glad he did. The nurses had taken you to a bed, whilst Mason called Ben to tell him the news. His baby was finally coming.

Ben had arrived hours later, exhausted from driving as well as the little amount of sleep he’d had, but holding his son in his arms was all worth it. His little Theo, Mason dramatically deflated in the chair beside your bed, hoping the newborn would have a rendition of his name, if not the same. Everyone got their chance to hold him, greet him, get him familiar with their faces and voices. It was a moment you didn’t want to ever finish.

But once Theo was born, Ben slid away a bit. Instead of volunteering to do the night feed, or hush him to sleep, he just rolled over with a pillow on his head. And wondered why Theo preferred his mummy. Mason had offered to help whenever Ben either couldn’t or didn’t want to, and you always accepted, because you couldn’t do it on your own. It didn’t take long for you to get sick of Ben not giving his son the time of day, and so you confronted him. And he’d eventually realised you were right, he knew he needed to put more effort in with his sun instead of focusing so much on football. You’d make the excuse of him not being used to having a baby, and football was all he knew, so you gave him the benefit of the doubt.

You were quickly approaching Theo’s fourth birthday, and Ben seemed far more interested in his work than his own son. As you brought up going to buy the balloons tomorrow, he quickly cut you off to tell you about the interviews he'd be doing tomorrow. You never expected him to put work before you, because you knew how important his career was to him. But even Mason had cancelled on work for Theo, and that wasn't even his son.

With Ben deciding not to listen, and you had to get the entire party sorted in three days, Mason was your only option. You'd called him on the way back from the school run, after giving Theo your love for the day.

"Mase, I'm so sorry to be a bother, but I need your help." You admitted, sat in the ASDA car park with an already forming headache. You knew today was the start of his week off, and he'd booked this weekend off for the party. Luckily, there were no matches, just training and promotional videos and interviews, in which Ben had decided was unmissable.

"Anything, what's up?"

"Ben is no help, he's too fussed about work, so I need a hand with sorting Theo's party out." You spoke, checking the time before leaving your car, "I'm in ASDA right now, I'm gonna buy all the decorations and then go and get a cake sorted. Could you meet me at my house soon?"

As promised, Mason was at yours within two hours, catching you as you parked in your driveway and started lifting things in. He helped you hide it all, and put the cake receipt and order number on the fridge.

"So, is he booking this weekend off for Theo's party?" Mason asked, sitting beside you on the couch and huffing in exhaustion. You shrugged, this entire situation making you want to cry. You just wanted Ben to be more involved in his family, it shouldn't have to be his best friend stepping in.

"Only God knows, Mase. I doubt it, though. He seems pretty adamant that these Chelsea videos are important." You replied, the pair of you laughing afterwards, but you were serious. Since Theo was born, all he's done is put football first, and left his mate to take on fatherly duties.

Theo's birthday and party was tomorrow, and you were thankful it fell on a weekend, so he could celebrate his actual birthday with a party. The pair of you were in the kitchen, Theo was doing a colouring book at the island, when the doorbell sounded.

"I wonder who that could be." You said to Theo, who excitedly followed you. You opened the door, Mason stood with a handful of presents and an eager smile on his face. Theo was jumping with glee and waiting to pounce onto Mason, the pair of them had an unbreakable bond. And you didn't expect any less, seeing as Mason has been such a help with him growing up.

"Are you excited?" Mason asked, the presents now on the island and Theo on his hip, but Theo's eyes were glued to the Toy Story wrapping paper.

"They are my presents?" Theo wondered, giving you a look before looking up at Mason, who giggled and nodded at the three year old.

"Yeah, all from Uncle Mase."

Theo had gone back to colouring, and you were talking to Mason whilst continuing to cook dinner.

"Do you want to stay for dinner? Ben won't be back until tomorrow. Or at least I hope it's tomorrow and not next week." You mumbled, stirring the mince into the Bolognese sauce. Mason was sat beside Theo, colouring alongside with him, and your heart lifted at the sight. You just wished it were Ben.

"Sounds good, and I'm sure he'll be here. I hope he'll be here, it's not fair on this one otherwise." Mason mentioned, putting the crayon down and scruffing his hair. You hummed, turning your attention back to your dinner and hoping to forget about Ben for now. All that came from thinking about him was pain.

Will you be back for Theo's party tomorrow? You texted Ben, before plating dinner up for you, Theo, and Mason. You almost lost your appetite worrying about it, just picturing Theo's heartbroken face as he wonders where his daddy is.

Yeah, don't do the cake until 2pm, Ben texted back. And you could've sworn you let out a breath you didn't know you were holding. Mason helped to clean up, and put Theo to bed as you began to set up the house. You put the balloons around the house, you hung up little decorations, you made the house look Avengers-infested. Mason walked downstairs with widened eyes at the sight of the house, and you, putting the dozens of mini cupcakes on a two-tiered dish with a lid.

"Help me with the goodie bags," you whispered, despite Theo being completely sound asleep. Mason shoved one of every toy and mini chocolate into the bag, watching how you put a little sticker over the top to seal it, and copying you.

The pair of you were downstairs for hours, giggling and running around the house to set the house up for your son, finally sat back at the island and out of breath. You made the mistake of looking at Mason, who was already looking at you, and it didn't take long for your lips to be on his. You knew it was wrong, but you missed Ben. Not only as a father, but as a boyfriend. You missed how intimate the two of you used to be, until football became his one and only.

"I'm sorry," you whispered, a slight crack to your voice as you realised the mistake you'd made, "I shouldn't have done that. My heart is still Ben's, he's just a terrible father."

Mason grabbed your hand and held it, the pair of you making eye contact again. "It's okay, it never happened. But I thought you should know that when I was putting Theo to bed earlier, he called me daddy. He said, 'goodnight daddy.' Maybe he thought Ben was home? I'm not sure."

Now Theo was confused. Ben had created such a rift between the three of you, that now you were kissing Mason and Theo was calling him dad. It was completely fucked. Maybe you wanted someone to blame, maybe you didn't want to believe that you kissed Mason and that it felt good.

Mason had come back early morning, and the moment you saw him, last night came rushing back. When you kissed him and you knew you shouldn't have. When he kissed back.

"Where's the birthday boy?" Mason asked, rubbing his hands together as he entered your home, only the kitchen light on. You quietly walked into the kitchen, pulling open the fridge to put some milk into your travel mug to complete your coffee.

"Not awake yet, I need to go and get the cake from the bakery. Are you okay to make him breakfast if he wakes up?" You asked, walking past Mason with slight bump to the shoulder and a heavy sigh.

"Hey," Mason spoke, reaching out for your arm and stopping you in place, "what's up? Talk to me."

"How are you still friends with me? How are you okay with acting like last night never happened? I'm racked with guilt and you're still helping me out as if I didn't cheat on your best friend with you." You explained, pulling at your hair and whimpering in frustration. Mason could tell that wasn't the only issue, you were missing Ben, and so was Theo.

"The kiss meant nothing to you, you miss Ben and I can see that. Anyone can see that," Mason reasoned, his hands on your arms as you looked up at him, "you need help and I'm always going to be your friend, whether you like it or not. Ben has been gone and I'm not letting you do this on your own. I won't have it."

You didn't deserve Mason, as simple as that.

Whilst you were gone to collect the cake, Theo had woken up and met Mason in the kitchen, which could only be confusing the poor boy more. Mason smiled, picking the newly four-year-old up and smothering him with hugs and kisses.

"Hello, birthday boy." Mason cooed, grabbing a bowl from the cupboard, "are you hungry? You can eat anything." Theo pointed to the coco pops, and Mason poured a reasonable amount and sat him at the island.

The two of them were enjoying breakfast together, Mason sipping on the tea he'd made after you left, his mind still processing kissing you last night. He kissed back, and he didn't regret it. You deserved some love, after not having received it in God knows how long as Ben was too focused on work. He enjoyed the kiss, and there was no denying that.

"Are you my daddy?" Theo asked out of the blue, startling Mason into almost spitting his tea out. How does he approach a question like this? Without you, too.

No, but I'm hopelessly in love with your mum. Absolutely not.

"No, Ben is your daddy. I'm your uncle Mase, you know this silly." Mason replied, his heart still hammering against his chest. Theo, thankfully, returned to eating his cereal and leaving Mason to think about things. What would he do from here? Hope that Ben doesn't change his ways so he can swoop in and take his spot? No, that was evil. And unfair on you and Theo.

When you had arrived home, you put the cake into the fridge and all you had to was wait for the kids in Theo's class to arrive. But Theo was begging to open some gifts, and you decided to let him. The three of you were sat in the living room, the gifts all on the floor beside the couch.

"Grab an Uncle Mase present first," Mason whispered as Theo approached the pile, which earned him a nudge. He ended up opening a bunch of presents from Mason, one of which was a football. And he loved them all. He even got his own little tracksuit, which he was adamant on wearing today.

Kids had arrived, running around outside as the adults watched them from the seated area in the garden. You were busy inside with Mason, putting party food out in five minute intervals so everyone had a chance to eat something. Mason watched as you put mini sausage rolls onto a plate, his gaze drifting to your hair as it fell down your back, the smile on your face as you spoke about Theo. It was becoming harder to hide the feelings he'd felt for well over a year now.

It was nearing 4pm and Ben was a no-show, your heart seizing as you grabbed the cake from the fridge in frustration. You weren't going to wait any longer for this asshole to appear, he was already two hours later than promised.

You all sang happy birthday to your son, watching as his little lungs blew out the candles on the cake, before taking it inside to be shared. Mason placed his hand on your back as he watched you cut the cake into little slices. But your mind was more than pre-occupied when you watched Ben walk into the kitchen and look around for his little boy.

"I'm gonna go and grab the birthday boy," Mason excused himself as Ben watched his hand move from your back. Ben waited until Mason was completely outside before confronting you, Theo's gift sat forgotten on the island.

"You and Mason are pretty close, hm?" He asked, his tone dripping with sarcasm. You rolled your eyes, as it hadn't even been a minute before the man had walked through the door, two hours after he should have.

"If you have nothing nice to say, Ben, then just leave again. I'm used to it by now." You retorted, placing another little cake slice into a freezer bag. Ben tutted, and it angered you that he didn't see that he was in the wrong.

"If I have nothing nice to say? Are you hearing yourself? I've just walked into my home to see my best mate's hands on my wife. What the fuck happened whilst I was gone?" Ben argued, keeping a close eye to make sure nobody was heading inside. But they all seemed pretty happy, running around after Theo.

"A lot has happened. Theo called Mason daddy last night, before bed. Mason has been more of a help this week than you have in the last few months. It's not fair on Theo and it's certainly not fair on me, Ben. We have missed you, Theo's missing his daddy, and I'm missing my husband. But football is your be all and end all, so it's better if you just leave altogether."

"And have Mason play dad to Theo? And have Mason play husband to you? Is that what's been going on whilst I've been gone?" Ben asked, and he was red with anger. This man had no reason to be angry, if anything, you should be.

"Family isn't something you can just walk away from and come back to when it suits you, Ben. Theo deserves someone constant in his life. And if that's Mason, so be it. Because he's done far more for him than you have. So I'm not surprised Theo is calling him dad, because you're certainly not acting like one." You spoke, trying to remain calm but you were losing it. As much as you loved Ben, he was making it so difficult to forgive him.

Ben didn't say anything, he just left. Mason had watched the whole thing, he saw Ben slam the front door and he took that as his chance to check on you. You were holding onto the counter with one hand, your other over your eyes as you cried. How had your family been so broken up over Ben?

"Hey," Mason spoke softly, placing his hand onto your shoulder. He thought you'd tell him to fuck off and leave, because Ben so clearly blamed Mason for this. And not himself. You turned to Mason pulling him into a hug, not wanting to let go anytime soon. You had no idea what to do from here, whether or not to chase after Ben and fix this, or leave him and let Mason in.

[sunfortune]

anyway now that i got my jokes out my actual thots on the batman (2022). wanna preface this by saying i love that bitch. even when they do stupid shit with him im like 😔....ok but thats still the bestie tho... i am not immune to stupid depressed goth man. that being said: he is a stupid depressed goth man and we need to keep that in mind

bruces first appearance walking through the line of cops and they are just quietly letting him pass.....immediately had me like...not this </3...i JUST sat down. it reminded me of the tfatws finale (hate crime) when the cops let bucky through and call him sergeant or whatever the hell. was sitting there 5 mins in like [deflated balloon]

BUT then they show how the other higher up cop man was not cool with him at all. and this was not something that was in the norm so i was like mmmh. okay not so bad... [will get back to this]

i LOVED loved the first look at gotham. the pan from "manhattan" to "newark" to the wayne building in the center establishing gotham. litchrally <333333. im biased but SO big brained to me that this rendition of gotham was new york AND new jersey. they said THE worst of both worlds. love wins <3

i really loved bruce and jim. i feel like Sooo few people have actually talked about them which is ??? bc they were So funny. (also probably the most grounded relationship he had). they were litchrally like that not to worry i have a permit ron swanson meme but it was bruce saying "not to worry i have a permit" and then jim stepping out from behind him and saying "he can do what he wants" lfmdgjnjhdf

back to the cop point. unfortunately my earlier "oh this is just a one time thing. its alright <3." desperate cling to hope was dashed as the movie went on bc it was not a one time thing

i wish it was more hush hush with just him and jim. and not him and jim with 20 other cops casually also there

like the reason jims character is so important in just the batman universe in general is bc hes the ONLY one remotely trustworthy in a completely corrupt system. and when you have scenes like the "not all cops" as a hopeful anecdote with like 150 cops. and then THE BATMAN bringing the bad guy or whatever out to Them. its like come on....

i had some minor qualms about some of the detective stuff being too tell instead of show. where bruce is just super smart so he knows the answer immediately and then he just states it and thats that. but that honestly didnt really diminish my overall experience with the movie.

i WISH they gave selina more

feel like selinas backstory was not only interesting but also a crucial part of the plot on paper but i feel like they just didnt really give her character the care it couldve had in execution...?

one thing especially was some of the dialogue they gave her felt like a first draft that they were gonna come back and brush up. but then they DONT. and just send her out there like that

there first meeting as the bat and the cat when he catches her in that house and they fight was SOO Good tho

also maybeeee gonna give them the benefit of the doubt there bc it is the First movie. if batman is in his cringe and fail era. selina can be in her early days too. but like i really REALLY hope they do give her more in the future. bc the potential is sooo untapped

also i complain about this always but. society when directors put some effort into their romantic subplots...come on </3 😔 stop letting sexy people go to waste

saw an interview clip of rob pattinson and zoe kravitz earlier and theyre actually so fun and had so much chemistry but so little of that was utilized in the actual movie </3 even tho matt reeves had Every Thing at his disposal to make it really hit </3333 why would you do that to meeee

next. i kind of Loved the reveal that thomas wayne got caught up in some bullshit. i just think the "bruces parents were perfect" narrative was kind of boring. and i like how they maintained that they were good people but. gotham is gotham. stuff happens

what i did NOT like about the thomas wayne reveal was the implication that the waynes murders were a result of him getting caught up in that mess?? i think the "they were mugged by a random guy. wrong place wrong time" is integral to the entirety of the mess that is BATMAN so that implication was just personally not my cup of tea. even if it was just speculation

there is some ways the conclusion kind of needed more for me. ill probably make another post for that. but i think like there shouldve been some realization that bruce wayne can also help gotham with his money. not just the batman with his fists. there were too many points heavily implying it throughout (the mayor, the riddlers bit about his dads promise, selina talking about the rich) and then it never happened (but also maybe next movie bc they prolly wanted to focus more on /the batman/ in this one)

i did Love the concluding point that violence will not heal gotham

i loved the juxtaposition between when he helped that man in the train station in the beginning and he said “don’t hurt me!” even tho he was trying to /help him/ bc of how he worked and presented himself with the ending when he used the flare to guide everyone to safety and then that women on the stretcher not wanting to let his hand go bc she trusted he Would keep her safe and he also held on to her as long as he could🥺

next. i LOVED bruces characterization. despite all my points its what made me Still love the movie so much.

reiterating. i am not immune to stupid depressed goth man.

the scene where the bat mobile lit up in the dark alley. was litchrally sitting there like 😭💖💘💕💓💕❣️❤️ my best friend for real

him being so standoffish and uncomfortable as bruce wayne while everyone is like omg its gothams prince. hiiiiii <3

the scene where he goes in for the kiss with selina but then gets awkward and cant go through with it. obsessed. lmfao

less suave playboy more awkward loser.

i think his characterization is the biggest brained aspect of this interpretation of batman

it makes the entire movie for me

in conclusion i had so much fun with it even if it wasnt like perfect. though i think i do get people who didn't like it. i dont know how i wouldve felt about if i didnt already love batman. and thats like a valid criticism. especially in the franchise saturated market rn where you already need to have an investment to really enjoy something that is seemingly new. but i mean thats DCs problem. i had fun and thats whats really important <3

[harusaki-hugo]

Hiii! I would like to request a Emma sano x female or gender neutral reader where the reader is 16 and Emma went all out with the help of Hina and her brother Mikey and some other people, like rose petals, flowers and stuff like that and confessed to the reader and the reader feels the same way but turns down her because she’s too old for her since Emma is 13 in the past and it gets all angsty in the beginning but when they get older they meet and and date then get married and the ending gets really fluffy maybe they can have children as well. I hope you understand and take as much time as you need there’s no rush!

Warning: Grammatical error

Character: Sano Emma

Anime: Tokyo revengers

AU/Original: Au

Genre: Angst to fluff

Extra: Female x female

Note: My first Tokyo revengers request. I still catching up with the manga so sorry if I didn't get Emma's personality correctly. I might have overdone this...

Waiting.

Sano Emma x Female! Reader.

" Don't you think this too much?" Takemichi sweat drop, early this morning he got a message from his girlfriend that she want to meet him at a park when he arrives he sees something unexpected.

Rose flower petals covered the ground, a balloon with the word "I love you" and even an unlit candle being placed in half circle. He then sees his girlfriend Hina along with his other friends.

Mikey is trying to wolf down a box of chocolate while Draken tries to stop him. Mitsuya is smiling happily, in front of the silver-lilac boy is Emma, she is wearing a beautiful dress, blushing slightly at what Hina said.

" What do you mean too much? Confession to [ name ] must be perfect!!" Emma glared at the boy making him raise his hands in defensive. " [ Name ] - senpai?" Takemichi remembers who that is, the first-year student of Shinjuku Academy. A gentle girl who has always been seen together with Emma and Hina.

He will not judge someone but on his mind, he did think that ' Aren't she too old for Emma ?' Yet the look on the younger girl makes him zip his mouth shut.

Night coming fast, you who just got a message from Draken ask you to come to the park quickly rush there. The boy did say it is important for you to come there fast. Panting slightly, you enter the park, looking around for the tall male.

Your eyes widen a bit when you see not Drake but Emma wearing a dress with your favorite color, hairstyle neatly, and on her hands are a bouquet of rose flowers. " Emma?" You are a bit confused by this, walking towards the girl you see her smile widen.

She then gives you the bouquet which you take with a bit of hesitance, "What the meaning of all this?" You ask awkwardly, Emma's face turning pink, she plays with a strand of her hair, gathering the courage.

Emma takes your free hand startling you a bit, looking at her you see she is serious, " [ Name ], I know this is weird for a girl to like a girl but I don't care. You are a beautiful, kind, gentle, and the most amazing girl I ever know. I don't want anyone to take you away from me that why, will you be my girlfriend?" She confessed.

You lick your dry lips, looking anywhere except for the girl, " E-Emma..that speech is beautiful.." Your word makes her beam at you but soon it falls when she sees your apologetic face.

"But I can't... I'm sixteen..you thirteen... You are too young for me. I don't think this relationship will work." With a heavy heart, you let her hand go, " I only see you as my...." You bit your lips, swallowing down the regret, "My sister... I'm sorry.." You smile bitterly at her before you walk away.

Emma stares at your fading figure disappear completely, one by one her tears slide down her cheeks. "Emma.." Mikey approaches his sister, he gently places his hand on the girl's shoulder and that is the last straw, Emma falls on her knee crying out her pain.

Hina quickly wraps the girl in her embrace, comforting the girl. Takemichi knows this will happen but he knows something else, looking towards the way you disappear he knows you feel the same pain.

You too like the younger Sano but it is the age that prevents you guy's love. Emma is still young and you are too old for her, if you two get together what will society say? What will the other say? It's okay if they talk about you buy you don't want anyone to talk bad about Emma.

Love is beautiful yet it is cruel .

Twelve years have passed, you now are [ dream job ]. It's been a long time since you see any of your friends especially the Sano family. There is no way you can meet any of them after rejecting Emma. To this day, you regret your decision but that is what for the best. " [ Name ]- senpai?!" You hear a familiar voice turning around you see a beautiful blond woman looking at you with wide eyes.

You stare at her trying to remember who she is, your eyes widen when you recognize the female, "Emma?!" She smiles happily when you remember her, approaches you, she gives you a smile that you miss. " How are you? Isn't been twelve years." You nod your head rubbing the back of your neck.

"Yes, I'm doing great." Looking away, you try to hide the heat rising to your cheeks, " You grown-up beautiful..." Emma blink a few times before her face turn red, " Y-you too! You look really beautiful.." This is getting awkward, bitting your lips, you let out a heavy sigh.

"Emma ... About what happens that day.." She stops you before you can continue smiling a bit forcefully, "No, it's okay!! I understand, I understand why you reject me." She tries to put on a cheerful face, looking around, " Are you with your partner?"

You shake your head frowning, " No...I don't have a partner..how bout you?" She too shake her head, you let out a small 'ooh'. Seeing Emma for the first time in twelve years, she has grown into a beautiful woman, this makes your heart beating faster. If she still hasn't had any boyfriend or girlfriend, maybe just maybe, you can finally make a move? After all, you two have already grown into adults, if you two get into a relationship, no one will judge you two, except for homophobic but screw them.

Gathering your courage, you take Emma's hands, she looks shocked by this, shyly looking at your eyes, " Emma, d-do you want to go on a date with me?" You shut your eyes tightly, waiting for any rejection but you feel her squeezing your hands.

"I-i love too.." You two smile brightly, face turning pink .

One date turning to a hundred. All of your friends supporting your relationship, though Mikey kinda threatening you earning a slap of the head by his sister. Two years you guys having a relationship, you two decide to take a further step.

Wearing a dress wedding make by Mitsuya, both of you hold back the tear threatening to fall. You smile at the woman of your life, she looks absolutely beautiful, Emma stares at you in the eyes, she too thinks you look beautiful in that dress.

"Welcome! We are gathered here today to witness and celebrate the marriage of [ last name] [ name ] and Sano Emma. This is not the beginning, but a celebration of the next chapter in their lives together. Today, they will affirm this bond formally and publicly. This affirmation is made even more meaningful because it’s shared with all of you, their most cherished friends and family.[ Name ] and Emma, today you not only marry the right person, but you also commit to being the right partner—the one with whom the other can stand and face the world. It’s time to joyfully seal this chapter with the declarations that will unite you in marriage."

"Do you [ last name ] [ name ] take Sano Emma to be your lawfully wedded partner, to have and to hold, in sickness and in health, in good times and not-so-good times, for richer or poorer, committing yourself unto them for as long as you both shall live?"

You nod your head, " I do." You say with a voice full of love, eyes not taking off from Emma, the priest then looks at Emma.

"Do you Sano Emma take [ last name ] [ name ] to be your lawfully wedded partner, to have and to hold, in sickness and in health, in good times and not so good times, for richer or poorer, committing yourself unto them for as long as you both shall live?"

She nods her head, " I do." She answers confidently.

" You may now kiss the bride." You softly kiss the female, pouring all of your love into the kiss as you hear all of the former tomans and your friends cheer for you two.

That what happens three years ago, you look at the pictures of your guy's wedding with loving eyes, "Mama looks so beautiful, right?" You look at your adopted son, to see him already sleeping. You giggle and kiss the top of his head, "Sleep well shin.." You muttered.

Emma wraps her arms around you looking at the boy "Oh, he already asleep?" She then presses a kiss on your cheek. " Hey there darling, how's dinner with Hina?" You ask her, she nuzzles against your neck sighing tiredly, "Eh, it's was great until Takemichi decide to crash our dinner with Chifuyu." You laugh, caressing her cheek, you softly say, " I love you.." Emma's face turns red, hiding her face at the crock of your neck she too with a loving voice says, " I love you too.."

[lostcausezz]

F&MU

𝐒𝐚𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐮 𝐆𝐨𝐣𝐨 𝐱 𝐑𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫

𝐖𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬: 𝐒𝐥𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐀𝐧𝐠𝐬𝐭, 𝐍𝐒𝐅𝐖, 𝐒𝐡𝐨𝐰𝐞𝐫 𝐬𝐞𝐱, 𝐁𝐚𝐜𝐤𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐭𝐬

𝐖𝐨𝐫𝐝 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐭: 1.7𝐤

𝐒𝐲𝐧𝐨𝐩𝐬𝐢𝐬: 𝐁𝐚𝐬𝐞𝐝 𝐨𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐨𝐧𝐠 𝐅&𝐌𝐔 𝐛𝐲 𝐤𝐞𝐡𝐥𝐚𝐧𝐢.

𝐑𝐞𝐛𝐥𝐨𝐠𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐋𝐢𝐤𝐞𝐬 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐜𝐢𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐝 ♡

"I'M LEAVING GOJO I NEED TIME TO CLEAR MY THOUGHTS!"

As you slammed the door behind you and walked out into the hall you placed your head on the back of your apartment door. You looked up at the ceiling and the feeling of you about to shed tears was attacking you. You wiped off your eyes and went down the hall so you could go to the elevator.

You and Gojo never really argued like this but today he forgot something that was important to both of y'all. It was the day of your anniversary the day you two singles became one couple. You remembered it like it was yesterday but today he seemed like he forgot all about it.

You would never think Gojo would forget about something like this but you knew it was best to take your leave. You stepped foot into the elevator and pressed the button to go to the lobby and watched the doors close in front of you as you tucked yourself into a corner.  You pulled out your phone and scrolled through your pictures and every other photo was a picture of you and gojo.

It was something about him that made you stay by his side no matter what the issue was. You clicked on a video of him pulling you in by your neck for a kiss. You started to tear up until you saw that the elevator had hit the lobby.

You got out of the elevator and went to the door that was the exit to the complex. You walked out and inhaled all of the fresh air and stretched your arms out in the air. You started to walk off into a trail that was on the sidewalk that led to the river.

The scenery was always beautiful at night and you loved the way the lights looked on the water as it swayed back and forth. You knew leaving was the best option before you said something you would have regretted on a day that was meant to be the happiness of the beginning of your relationship.

As you were walking the sounds of screaming and yelling from the children that were on the riverwalk you will look to see there was a carnival in the distance. You looked up to see the lights shining bright and a huge colorful Farris wheel. You remembered when you and Gojo would go there for dates and that was the very first place y'all went when y'all first started dating.

You never expected to feel so lonely on a day that was meant only for you to be loved and taken care of on both sides of the relationship. As you finally caught up to the carnival gates you paid a five dollar entrance fee then walked in. First you went to the ticket stand to get an express pass so you could play games.

You knew things would be fun but it wasn't as fun without him.

You started to walk into the crowd and go and play the different games that were around you. You went up to each stand and played a game but the more "Fun" you were having it only reminded you more of *him*. All the time you were having was beating you up more and more. Your new thing was all you wanted to do was apologize and be with him.

At the balloon dart stand you played your last game and gave the employee a tip for being kind. You took the bear you won and ran off into the crowd. As you were bumping into people to get through you tried to apologize but it was urgent. As you navigate your way through the crowd you feel the rain start to pour.

As you reached the gates you looked to see it was Gojo infront if you but not by himself he was with another. You stood still in shock and thought "If this day couldn't get any worse." A tear started to flow down your cheek and you tied the knot on the hood of your sweatshirt tight and tried to walk past Gojo until someone bumped into you causing you to bump him as well.

He looked to his side and recognized that it was you and grabbed onto your arm. You looked up at him in his ocean orbs and he saw the tears that flowed down your face making your eyes puffy. You faced your head to the side and wiped your tears after you snatched your arm from his grip.

You walked back to your place and you let the rain flow down on you as the tears that came from your eyes were unnoticed. You caught sight of your huge apartment building and walked through the trail that led back to the entrance of the building. You wiped off your face and went into the elevator.

You placed some headphones in your ears and started listening to some music to calm you down. The music didn't even help it make you feel worse all you could think about was "Why her. Why me? Why did he make me feel so much like shit and why did I always deal with it." Walking out the elevator with your head down you pulled your keys out and went down the hall.

Your apartment was near the end and all you wanted to do was restart the day and for him to be different. You placed your key in the door lock and unlocked the door and the whole place was dark until you turned into the living room and saw two blue eyes staring at you that gave you a jumpscare. "GOJO WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED TO YOUR BLINDFOLD!"

"Oh shit my bad." He put the blindfold back on and approached you. You faced yourself away from him and walked to your bathroom and slammed the door behind you. You took off your hood and saw that your hair was messed up from the rain and your curls were frizzy so you decided you needed to take a shower.

As you opened the curtain as the water ran you stepped foot into the tub. The water started to run and you wiped your face off and let the water run through your hair making it curly. You heard a creak from the door and spoke out to Gojo that was intruding. "What do you want?" You could hear how heavy his breathing was as if he ran or did something quickly.

"Y/n I'm sorry for today and I wasn't cheating on you." You rolled your eyes and went back to cleaning off your body."Then who was she, Satoru?" He took a deep huff and finally was able to tell you what he was doing.

"It was for today but you wouldn't shut up so when you left I saw that as an opportunity. You just wouldn't stop talking." A smirk appeared on your face and you spoke out the words that were on your mind.

"Make me shut up then." You could heat the sound of him taking off his shirt and pants he had on. He placed them to the side and he opened the curtain and stepped foot into the shower and got stable as he stood in front of you. His pale skin shined as the water ran down his washboard abs.

You forgot how beautiful his body was as you looked back up to him he placed his hand on your cheek and pulled you in for a kiss. As you felt his lips connect with yours you felt his tongue slip into your mouth and you swirled yours with his. "Y/n turn around for me."

You did as you were told and he made your body press against the shower wall as your palms were up as well. His hand was placed on your neck and he lowered his head near your ear and whispered in his slightly deep voice. "Good girl, are you ready for daddy's anniversary treat?"

You nodded and as your breathing was heavy against the wall you felt him rub his dick on your ass then wrapping one arm on your chest and lifted you up so he could put his dick in your opening. fuck the water makes this so easier

His dick was inserted in you all the way and you flipped your head back to see Gojo looking into your lustful eyes. The cocky smirk he had on your face made you feel warm. He started to thrust into you. It wasn't too fast and wasn't too slow. It was a pace you couldn't describe, it was just perfect.

In every stroke you felt every inch making you wetter and at the point you were almost at your limit to cum all over his body. " Damn your ass looks good pressed against my body babe." The build up from a knot that was in your stomach was released all over as you finally reached your peak and came all over him.

Your breathing got so heavy and you saw Gojo pick up a washcloth and you did the same and washed each other off. The two of you rinsed and walked out of the shower and put on your matching white robes and he opened the door for you. Your eyes looked down at the floor and you saw rose petals. You followed them into the master bedroom.

You looked at the bed and saw not too many gifts for you on the bed but it was a box with a note in it that said "Check your bank account." Opening your bank app your eyes widened as you saw about a million dollars in your savings. You hugged him and he said to you, "I would never cheat on you and I'm sorry we had an argument. I hate to see you mad."

You looked up into his eyes and said with a smile on your face, "I love you Gojo."

"I love you too y/n"

[bakugohoex]

“it’s why i love you”

pairing: atsumu miya x gender neutral reader

cw: language, angst, jealous atsumu, crying, season 4 spoilers, fluff and kissing

word count: 3600+

a/n: @horseanon--simpforall for helping me decide an ending this is the fluff ending i planned so i hope everybody enjoys it

summary: in which you and atsumu progress through the years of your relationship with atsumu realising just how important you are to him after the loss at nationals

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Atsumu Miya hated his brother, it wasn’t an avid hatred of enemies, it was a hatred that stemmed from jealousy. He didn’t know when his jealousy of Osamu came from, but he knows the many occasions where he had wanted to run away and leave his twin behind. It wasn’t till he was 6 when his memories came flooding in of how much he hated his brother.

October 5th was a day both he and his brother had celebrated unanimously, even with it only being their 6th birthday it was a special occasion for the twins. Their bright smiles and fondness of one another is what had marked both of them inviting their whole class to a gathering at their house.

Streamers and balloons cascaded throughout the living room as their parents had bought two separate cakes just for the occasion. Both having fought over which one they were getting, it was supposed to be a happy day, supposed to be their day that was shared with all of their friends.

Atsumu realised the reality of it as their friends cascaded through the door, the two boys smiling as they waited for the happy birthdays to come from their classes mouth. The sound of Osamu’s singular name as gifts got passed to the more reserved twin, Atsumu’s face faltering as he watched his alleged friends hug and talk to Osamu without a care for the other boy.

He wouldn’t have lied and say it wasn’t the first time he had cried over a feeling of invisibility, how the people both he and Osamu had invited had disregarded the boy. Osamu looked over to his twin seeing him always walking away outside, about to go to him but being stopped by his friends he shook his head knowing Atsumu would get over it.

It wasn’t till he realised you, you who was walking behind Atsumu with a cheery smile, following the boy with your sweet smile. “Atsumu, happy birthday,” you spoke cheerily as the boy turned around, tears always welling in his eyes as he watched you push the gift up to his face. “I got both you and Osamu a gift, I already gave him his, here’s yours.”

“I…” Atsumu could barely speak with the tears in his eyes, he had expected the birthday to be a let down after being forgotten on the day. Watching over Osamu's friends, they weren’t his, they looked through him as if he was a ghost.

But you, with that bright smile and glistening eyes, pushing the wrapped present towards him, “I got you both different things, my mum said I shouldn’t tell you that though.”

You laughed heartily as he took the gift in his hands, the only gift from his class and it had come from you, a girl he barely knew but had invited out of courtesy, “thank yer, I ‘ant wait to open it.”

“Come on, let's go play,” you put your hand out as he looked at it hesitantly, before taking your soft fingers. A burst of childish excitement came from between you both as he placed the gift with his mother, she had noticed it herself, needing to talk to Osamu after the party about what had happened.

But the happiness she saw on her son, the way his eyes had a different shine as you both went to play with other toys his family had gotten him, made her heart burst. “The cake you have looks really yummy, Atsumu,” he crashes his car into the one you were playing with as you giggle softly, crashing your car back at his.

Atsumu had many memories of the times he had been chosen second to his brother, but in all of them it seemed like you had always brought a smile on his face. It wasn’t like as a child he was annoying, it was just his personality never meshed with anybody’s other than yours. It’s why when he started Volleyball with Osamu it had been hard to mesh with others.

His constant complaining as he lied across your bed as you flicked through the movies you both were going to watch together became a constant occurrence throughout the years. He was always glad you had never forgotten him on his birthday, now spending all of them with you, you had always gotten the twins different presents which had always fuelled the child’s ego.

“The team still hates ma,” Atsumu spoke as he grabbed a handful of popcorn from the bowl that was between your crossed legs.

“That’s not something to be proud of,” you said already knowing how the team felt about Atsumu due to being a manager of the junior high team, “you just gotta be nice, Atsumu.”

“’am nice.”

“You’re nice to me and that’s only rarely, learn how to work with others, not everybody is gonna be amazing from the get-go, Atsumu.” You and Atsumu often spent time together, Osamu being easily able to make friends on the team whereas Atsumu was often seen as the one who pushed people to their limits.

It wasn’t like his words weren’t a consistent occurrence, throughout his Junior High, the boy kept at it, people often wondering how you had coped with him for so long. It wasn’t till the three of you joined Inarazaki that his hunger to play volleyball became more prevalent and his love for you remaining the same.

The many fights that occurred between the two boys had been often observed by the team, Suna encouraging it as Aran stayed on the sidelines. The call of your name as you rushed into the gym to pull the two boys apart, shouting at both of them for being idiots as you gave a scowl that would haunt them till their deaths.

It was at this moment, Atsumu realised how much you cared for him…but how much you cared for Osamu as well.

He sat in your room, his hair being an issue that you had consistently provoked him about as he thought about his feelings for you. He had a week before he was leaving for the All-Japan Youth, he remembered how fucking happy you had been smiling at him as he got told he was attending. A new type of happiness you had felt for the boy.

You had really stuck with him for all these years, the way that you had become manager of a disastrous team who was now going nationals. You walked into your room seeing Atsumu at your desk staring at the photos upon photos you had with everybody. One that caught his eye being at his 6th birthday, the day he had found his person.

“I still think your hair needs some of that purple shampoo,” you spoke as you chucked the pillow at him.

“Yer mean toner yer idiot,” he mumbled as his concentration was on the other photos you had. One of you and Osamu at the twins 17th a couple months ago, it made him feel almost sick at the look of it but going against being a cunt for a day he moved towards you.

You went over to him, standing in front of him as he was forced to look at your chest and hips in your school uniform, “what do you want for dinner? My parents went out tonight, we can go to yours or we can go out, maybe invite Osam…”

“No.” He was quick in his response as you shook your head in confusion, “we should get take ‘way.”

“Oh okay, we can ask Osamu and Suna if they wanna come round as well,” Atsumu didn’t think you saw his shift in mood at the mention of his twins name, why you were bringing his name so much up, he didn’t know.

“They ‘er busy,” he lied as you were looking through some food that you both could order.

You hummed as you went to get your phone, Atsumu didn’t realise how even though he had classed you as his best friend. The person that Osamu couldn’t have as his own, you were still friends with his twin, you still saw him everyday, it was something Atsumu couldn’t change, he just needed to handle it.

But as he stared at your wall of pictures, a week after leaving you with his twin, maybe you’d forget him or see Osamu to be so much better than he was. He heard you call his name from downstairs as he went down the steps overthinking about all the occurrences that could occur.

Atsumu had left you a week after, waving a goodbye as he took the train to Tokyo, agitated and frustrated at himself. He shouldn’t be jealous of you being friends with Osamu, it wasn’t like he liked you or anything. Of course he didn’t, you were his best friend, his person, the person he wanted to be with forever…as friends though.

The hellish week came to an end in which it felt like it had been a month without you, he wanted to meet you just before Friday practice had ended. That’s all he had wanted to do, hug you, hold you, it wasn’t like he didn’t think or text you the entire week.

Even with Nationals coming up in a week you replied quickly to the boy, calling him when he was free, but the unnerving feeling Atsumu had felt the entire week had become prevalent as he jogged out of the train. Running throughout the city as he reached the school, it wasn’t too late, and practice would be long around this time of the year.

He just wanted to see you, it was a different feeling but almost similar, the same hunger and want he had when playing volleyball was clearly prevalent as he went towards the gym doors. The sound of your chuckle as you spoke to his twin, “he’s coming back ‘ommorow.”

“Yeah I can’t wait to see him, I missed him a lot,” Osamu almost gagged at your words.

“I ‘ad peace the entire week, now it’s ruine’,” you playfully elbow his side as he shakes his head at your antics, “people wonde’ how yer friends with him.”

“He’s my best friend duh, there's no reason, he’s just there for me,” you smile as Kita comes towards you asking about something.

Atsumu had stayed where the doors were, listening in as he was scared to open the doors, you would never replace him, you had shown it yourself. As he stepped through the doors, his bag was still on his shoulder as the team turned to meet him. “Idiot, I would’ve come and met you,” you smiled happily as you walked towards him.

Your arms opened as he took them, hugging you tightly as he hid his face in your hair, “A hear’d yer were missing ma.”

“Oh shut it, I would never miss your piss head,” you chuckled as he went towards the team, going through the people he met at All Japan, significant people he had managed to piss off by the seams of it.

Atsumu kept an arm lazily around your shoulder the entire time he spoke, almost clinging onto you as you listened in happily. “So yer basically annoying everybody and not just us,” Osamu mumbled as he looked hungry from practice.

You chuckled as you agreed with Osamu’s words, “we should get food, we only have a week till nationals…” the boys looked disgruntled at your words until you continued, “...it's on me.”

“Then of course Y/n, you’re a sugar mommy,” Suna spoke as you rolled your eyes.

Atsumu watched you and the boys begin to gather your stuff, the big coat your mother had bought you a year ago across you as winter had come quickly.

As the team walked together, Atsumu’s arm stayed closer to yours as you both walked ahead, “did you miss me then?”

You looked up at the tall figure, his ears freezing as he remained silent on your comment, you nudged him lightly before hearing him, “I did, yer my…my best friend.”

“Well you’re my best friend as well, idiot,” you chuckle as you all went into the ramen store, the boys picking overly expensive toppings leaving you penniless at the end, “you all owe me.”

They laughed as they began to eat. You had sat beside Osamu as Atsumu was speaking to Aran about something. Osamu stuffing his face with the food as you rolled your eyes, “I’m not paying for seconds Osamu.”

“’re yer callin’ ma fat,” you chuckled as he continued to slurp at the food. Atsumu watched your interactions with his brother, he had learnt from his week away, learnt from his words that you both were best friends. That his brother who didn’t realise himself could take you away from him.

It was what Atsumu was going to live by, because he knew staring and watching as you got some of the Ramen up your nose that you were his person. It was what remained with him throughout the week, throughout the first game and into the second game of nationals.

With seeing you with the coach, the cheering that quietened down when his serve occurred, that even though his fans found him attractive but a cunt. You saw the real him, you saw through his perfect sets, and perfect serves, the real him.

The winner of everything you believed in, you had only become manager to control the twins, but maybe more of you wanted to spend time with Atsumu, watching do the thing he loved. But seeing who he really was, seeing how tense he was as you passed the bottles of water and towels, talking to the team to help lift their spirits.

Giving a reassuring look to Atsumu, maybe that’s why you teared up when the sound of the whistle was blown. Why even through the cheer team, Atsumu's eyes were felt with fury for not playing at his best, for not winning, for not being able to play in a real game for another couple of months.

Maybe that was why the pain of losing had been worse for him, maybe it's why seeing you hug his brother after losing had made him lash out at you, as you came up to him.

Atsumu’s teary eyes at the loss of the second match, the loss for the upperclassman as you tried to put your hand on his shoulder. He shrugged you away as you looked at him softly, “you did amazing Atsumu.”

“Stop it, a don’t fuckin’ need yer ta say that okay Y/n?”

You nodded softly as you sat beside him, as he leaned against the wall, “there wasn’t anything you could’ve done to win.”

“Y/n, just leave, please,” he hated himself, hated having you see him as weak.

“At…”

He grabbed your wrist, fury running through him as he spoke coldly, “leave Y/n, I don’t need this right now.”

He let go as he faced away from you, you looked down at him, leaving him to his own thoughts. Atsumu didn’t want you to truly leave, he wanted to cry, hug you, just feel you play with his hair as he sobbed. That’s all he wanted, but as you walked away going back to the team, patting Osamu and Suna on the shoulder, he felt jealous of them.

Felt jealous of Osamu for being able to profess his feelings so clearly, being able to be something he wasn’t. The train ride back to Hyoga was silent as the team remained quiet. You sat beside Kita who happily spoke about how proud he was and how he had high hopes for everybody. It was nice to hear but all you could think about was Atsumu and the growing jealousy and anger he was feeling.

It was late when the team arrived back home, the gym being open as you all piled out into the court, they all sat down as the coach had called out to come outside to have a word about how to lift morale to make the team feel as if the loss wasn’t their fault.

Atsumu had taken your departure as an opportunity to release his anger however, the way he did was directed towards his brother. Osamu, irritated by his brother's own insolence, talked about a topic many in the team had chosen to avoid.

“Yer can’t always blame yer issues on us, even Y/n knows that today wasn’t yer…” at the sound of your name Atsumu was ready to pounce to hurt his brother.

“Don’t yer ever talk about ‘er!”

“Or what?” Osamu threatened as he knew that speaking about you would lead to a different type of anger to fill through Atsumu.

Atsumu glared at his brother, “don’t fuckin’ talk about ‘er”

“Just because yer ‘ave a crush on ‘er, yer should ask ‘er what people say about yer and ‘er” It was common knowledge within the team that you were the one who faced the criticism the most by those in school. That a loss would be deflected onto you as you would not allow any of the team to be put down by people who meant nothing.

It was worse that the team knew the harsh words you had felt regarding Atsumu, about your relationship with the boy and how you could do better than him and he deserved someone exactly like him.

It was a secret that was supposed to stay hidden to protect the team but most already knew and it seemed worse to even bring it up. Kita was ready to calm the situation until Atsumu went to throw a punch at his brother.

At the sound of another fight, you looked at the coach who gestured for you to sort it out. Running into the gym you saw Suna taking videos of the fight as you grabbed a hold of Atsumu’s jacket collar, dragging him to stop as you glared at the two boys. “Who started this?”

You waited patiently as Suna snickered out Atsumu’s name, “let’s all start heading home, Atsumu stay down.”

He didn’t comment, instead staying on the ground as you went to Osamu telling him to tell his parents that Atsumu was with you. The man left as you went back over to Atsumu, “let’s talk about this.”

You sat down on the dirty gym floor, looking at the boy who looked in even more pain than before, “what…what do people say about us?”

“What do…”

“We all know, tell ma,” Atsumu looked away as he tried to hide the defeat and embarrassment he was feeling.

You knew what he meant from the single comment, looking down as you grabbed his hands softly

You knew what he meant from the single comment, looking down as you grabbed his hands softly, “I’m guessing you know that a lot of what your fans say comes through me,” he nods slowly, “a lot of hate I guess comes to you when you’re uncooperative”

You give a loud sharp breath as he finally looks up to meet your soft eyes, “do you remember when we first met?”

“Yeah…”

“I heard about the classes plan after you and Osamu had given the invites out, how they only wanted to go for Osamu and not give you a gift, I didn’t really understand why people were mean, but I just wanted you not to feel alone, i’ve never wanted you to feel like that again. So I took the heat, I took all the heat, and it became more to do with our relationship”

He tilted his head in confusion as he moved closer to you, knees touching as you touched his face softly, “they used to ask me why we were friends? That Osamu was the better twin and that Osamu, and I would be perfect together, that you were a dick and didn’t deserve friendship because you were always craving a win”

“Y/n…” his voice was soft, but you continued.

“I didn’t see it like that, I saw it as passion, you were and always will be my best friend, the twin i’d always want because you’re just passionate and it’s why I love you.”

His eyes shot wide as he heard your last words, the three words you had often spoken comically and to show the love of a friend. But as you tenderly touched his face, held him softly as he looked into your eyes, “yer should’ve told ma.”

“How could I let you take all that on? I see you playing professionally one day, I'm going to be the one to say that’s my best friend, that’s the man I fell in love with doing what he’s amazing at.”

“I love yer too,” he didn’t know what got into him as he heard the words, your glistening eyes as he held your cheek and captured your lips. He knelt up as he held your face in his hands, kissing you softly, all the jealousy, love, and anxiety he had been feeling had all fallen into place.

His soft lips against your own, tongue flicking inside as he glided across your own tongue, soft moans coming from your lips as even though he had lost the game today. He had won you; he had finally gotten what he had wanted, the jealousy and rage he had felt for his brother for having everything Atsumu had wanted. Had festered down to this, because Atsumu Miya had you and nobody was ever going to take that away from him  

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[hangovercurse]

Pictures of Us

Y/N and Casie plan a girl’s day while Colson plans something a little different

Colson x Reader

Warnings: Cursing, sappy

A/N: Ok so this was supposed to be a request from anon but got a little off track (and wayyyy to long) so I’m gonna post this and then I’ll work on that request as another entity entirely. God this is so fluffy I love it. 

Part ii

Word Count: 1518

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You loved that the first thing you felt in the morning was Colson’s hand wrapped around you, pulling you into him even while he’s asleep. If he ever woke up before you, he would press small kisses down your neck until you woke up. This was not one of those mornings. When you turned to face your boyfriend of 4 years you found him peacefully asleep, his bleached hair falling around in his face. He was absolutely stunning.

You turned your head back around to catch the time, it was already 11. You let out a sigh, realizing you would have to find a way out of his grasp. So you carefully removed his hand from your middle before starting to sit up, only to hear a groan from the man behind you.

“Why are you leaving? Its Sunday morning.” He whined, causing you to chuckle. He moved so that both his hands were wrapped around your waist, pulling you back onto the bed.

You giggled as you fell back onto the bed, “Colson I gotta get up. I told Casie we could have a girls day today.”

“You can stay in bed just a little bit longer, Case won’t mind.” His morning voice combined with his hot breath on your neck almost convinced you.

“Babe she’s been talking about this all week, I can’t bail on her.”

He chuckled, “She’s eleven, Y/N. I think she’ll be okay.” His lips found your jawline, kissing up to your cheek and nuzzling his nose into you.

You giggled at his neediness, “You can join girl’s day if you want.” You turned to face him, connecting your lips briefly, pulling away quickly.

Colson groaned as you refused to let him kiss you again, causing a small laugh from you. “Just wanna kiss my girl, is that so much to ask for?” He sunk his face into your shoulder, pressing kisses all over the skin.

“Colson, I have to get up,” your voice was tainted with laughter as he continued his attack on your shoulder.

“No.” He mumbled against your neck. The feeling of his lips pressed there was heaven, but you were on a mission.

You sighed, “let me out of this bed and then after Casie and I are done, we can stay in it as long as you’d like.” The smirk on your face was also very apparent in your voice.

You giggled as Colson perked up, pressing a quick kiss to your cheek. “Okay, go have fun with my daughter.” He laughed, loosening his hold on your hips but still not completely letting you go.

“You don’t wanna join?” You pressed a quick kiss to the corner of his mouth.

“It wouldn’t be girl’s day then.” He said in a joking matter-of-fact tone. “But once you’re done, I wanna talk to you about something.”

You hated that phrase, it always seemed to be laced with poison. “Oh, is everything okay?” Your eyebrows furrowed as you looked towards your lover. Your heart picked up its rhythm just slightly.

He smiled down at you, “Don’t worry about it babe, it’s nothing bad, I promise.” He pressed a kiss to your lips. “Trust me, I’m not a complete idiot. I know how lucky I am.” He whispered the last phrase, causing a blush to spread across your face.

“I need to leave this bed before you convince me to stay here all day.” He groans at your statement but it quickly turns to a laugh, letting you go.

“You should do pedicures.” He called after you, causing you to roll your eyes at him with a giggle before you continued your journey to Casie’s room.

 After a few hours of manicures, pedicures, makeovers, and hair styling (Casie wanted you to try a TikTok hairstyle on her), girl’s day was finally over. Colson had been strangely absent the whole day, but truthfully you hadn’t paid much attention to him, you were too focused on the amazingness that is Casie, whom you treated like your own daughter.

You peeked at your phone, realizing it was already 5 pm. “Start thinking about what you want for dinner, kiddo.” You told Casie as you stood up, turning towards the door only to find Colson already in the doorway.

“How was my two favorite ladies’ girl’s day?” He asked, grabbing your hand and pulling you into him.

“It was great!” Casie started. “Look what Y/N did with my hair! It’s so cool, right?” She showed off the row of braids that led into two small buns on the back of her head.

“Woah.” Colson said, his eyes going wide. “You did that?” He looked over at you, “they look so cool.”

“Well, they were Casie’s creation, I just did what she told me to.” You smiled, looking over to Casie who had a wide smile on her face.

The girl was practically jumping up and down, “Can Y/N do my hair all the time?”

You giggled, “I’ll even teach you how to do it yourself if you want.” Casie nodded quickly, laughing.

“Is it cool if I steal Y/N from you now, Case?” Colson’s hand around your waist squeezing and your mind shifted back to your conversation earlier.

She sighed dramatically, “I guess.”

Colson just chuckled and began to drag you out of the room, “Thank you!” He shouted to Casie as he lifted you up, carrying you bridal style to your bedroom. He set you down outside the closed door, your back facing him. He put his hands over your eyes, shielding your vision. “Don’t peek.”

“Colson what are you doing?” You giggled, feeling a bit giddy.

“Just trust me, I’ll tell you when you can look.” You could hear the smile in his voice and then the creak of a door opening. “Okay now walk forward a few steps.” His voice was very close to your ears, sending a shiver down your back.

You shuffled forward, taking in the soft sound of music playing, until you heard him say, “Stop. Okay now turn to the right,” You did as he said, “and now you can open your eyes.”

When he removed his hand you were in awe. The bedroom you had been in just a few hours ago was now adorned with candles, rose petals, and balloons. The rose petals were shaped into a heart on the bed, which was simultaneously the cheesiest and most romantic thing you’d ever seen. But what really got you was the pictures scattered around the room. Some were stuck on the walls, some hung from lights dangling on the ceiling, and all of them were of you and Colson.

As you took in every picture he had hung up you felt tears stinging your eyes. He had pictures of your first date, you two at the concert venue where he first told you he loved you, every important milestone in your relationship was documented in picture form around the room.

You turned to look around the room, a permanent smile on your face. When you had finally turned all the way around to where Colson had been standing, you found him on one knee, a box in his hand.

“Colson.” You gasped, a tear finally falling from your eye.

“Y/N, I’ve known I loved you since the day we met. You are my other half, the best part of me, and everything I’ve ever needed in my life. Everything I hated about myself you’ve made better. You show me what it means to love not only another, but myself. I don’t think I could exist without you, and I never want to find out. You’re my muse, my love, and my soulmate. So if you’ll have me Y/F/N, would you do me the honor of being my wife?”

The tears were falling from your eyes non stop at this point. “Yes. Oh my fucking god yes.” You whispered, reaching your hand out as he slipped a beautiful diamond ring onto your finger, kissing your hand before standing up and wrapping his arms around you. “I love you.” You choked out in a whisper.

He rubbed his nose against yours and rest his forehead against yours, “I love you too.” He leaned down, his lips meeting yours in a passionate, loving kiss. Once he pulled away, he looked to his right, “You get all that, Casie?”

You followed his eyes to see Casie with his phone recording you two. She nodded, “It was gross watching you two kiss,” she made a face, “but I got it!”

“C’mere,” You motioned Casie over, opening your arm so she could join your hug. “Are you okay with me and your dad getting married?”

She rolled her eyes, giving you an ‘are you serious?’ face. “Obviously! I told him if he didn’t, I would never talk to him again.”

You laughed, squeezing her tighter. “My two girls.” Colson mused, pressing his lips to your forehead. You stayed like that for a while, Casie’s arms wrapped around the both of you, her head leaning into your stomach.

It was perfect. Your own, perfect, family.

[clefairymuke]

regrets | chapter sixteen

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pairing: levi ackerman x reader

themes: enemies to lovers, slowburn, angst, fluff, smut

tw: violence / explicit sexual content

word count: 1912

"You act like a child."

Levi's voice, though calm, rang a striking forte in the hushed atmosphere of his office. You were used to him raising his voice at you, of course, but this felt different. His repertoire of angry lectures with you were previously livened with notes of discipline and superiority; his tone, now, could only be described as personal.

Your blood ran cold as if the ice dripping from his voice had infected your veins. This is what I wanted, you reminded yourself, trying to make sense somewhere in the emotions of the man in front of you. "I act like a child?" you scoffed in an attempt to save face. You were unsure of what audience you were putting on for -- he saw right through you, and you knew it. You remembered your gleeful grin as you changed clothes before coming, how you practically celebrated with Jean when Levi was out of earshot. It was childish, but you were comfortable with that. It felt justified.

The scene in front of you was less than romantic: Levi stood to face you in front of his desk, his eyes narrowed to a glare. His face was less void of feeling than it typically was; his lips were drawn into a scowl and his brows dipped towards the corners of his slate eyes. There was no tea set, no papers strewn about, and no thing out of place. It was simply you, a spotless room, and an insufferably furious man a couple of yards away.

Your hands were balled into fists at your sides. You were angry in part because he had you figured out -- his first words to you upon your arrival were accusatory. He knew just as well as you did that you and Jean were playing a silly game. You both knew it was designed to get under his skin. This didn't make him any less pissed off, of course, and likely only fueled his fire further.

"Yes, you do," he asserted. His glare was unending and unforgiving, boring into you like knives as you put forth your best effort not to cower. "Children play fucking pretend."

"What makes you think it was pretend?" you questioned him, insulted by his critique of your acting skills. For the pain it required, you thought, you deserved a bit of recognition.

"Are you insinuating that you're actually in some kind of relationship with Kirstein?" he inquired, knuckles growing white as he dug his nails into his palms.

You considered your answer carefully -- admitting guilt too early may not lead to the most peaceful conversation; on the other hand, neither would keeping the lie going. Avoiding the question altogether seemed to be the most logical choice. "What does it matter to you anyway?" you asked him, trying to deflect. Regardless of your intentions, you were curious to hear his answer. If he truly didn't care about you as you did about him, he would have no opinion about what you did and didn't do with Jean -- or any other guy, for that matter.

"You know exactly why it matters to me," he hissed, his glare breaking momentarily to show the most minuscule bit of softness. It took no time to return to his hard, unforgiving stare.

You groaned, close to losing your cool. "I actually have no fucking clue why it would matter to you, Levi. I don't understand anything about how you feel," you told him, honestly yet harshly. Your breathing began to balloon your chest as you drew short, shallow breaths; the physical reaction behind your fury was conspicuous and annoying. "You haven't spoken to me outside of scolding since I was in the infirmary; even the last few days there, you gave me the cold shoulder without any explanation. How the hell am I supposed to know how you feel?"

You watched him sigh, removing his nails from his palms so that he could rest his face in his hands, his eyes hiding behind his fingers as considered your words. "You aren't --" he started, breaking off midway. There was a strange tone to his voice now, more understanding, more sad, yet still angry. It was like satin laid over barbed wire. "You aren't even supposed to be considering how I feel. You can't think of me that way."

Fury bellowed within you like a match on the floor of a rickety wooden house; it overtook you as the fire would, enveloping you completely and without remorse. Your mind raced with disbelief  -- how were you to keep from thinking of him that way? He opened that door wide with his stupid, comforting teatime chats and tiny smiles, with tender touches and lingering caresses long past the hours that would be considered appropriate for him to be alone with you.

It took longer than you would have liked for the words to travel from your brain to your tongue. Now you were the one raising your voice. "You made me think of you that way! You're fucking impossible, Levi, do you know that? How can you pretend that there's nothing between you and me?"

"Because there is nothing between you and me. You have a stupid schoolgirl crush, and I'm trying to get these dumbass ideas out of your head," he argued, face twisting yet again. His words pressed tight against your heart, pain oozing through the rigid wall your anger had built by hand. Still, you refused to let it fall.

"Then why do you care so much about me putting on a show for you with Jean today? Why was it so important that I had to be called to your office like you're going to make me clean the dorms over it? Your words don't align one bit with your actions, but I'm the crazy one." Your hands shook at your sides as you yelled at him; you didn't care if Erwin, Hange, or every scout you knew heard you. You were sick of the embarrassment he brought you. For every second you've been happy with him, there was an equal and opposite force of mortification. You would yell at him until your voice couldn't handle it any longer -- anything to get your point across.

Seeing Levi so full of emotion was rare. If you weren't so overtaken by rage you might have saved a moment to appreciate it. His typical straight-set lips hung open as you watched all the  things he wanted to say pass over his tongue. His eyes were dancing with anger, sadness, passion, yearning, annoyance, confusion -- all at once, one after the other like a montage of color. Your anger blinded you. You had a million and one harsh replies to a million harsh things you thought he could say, but you had no answer to what finally came out of his mouth when all of the emotion in his eyes settled within him.

"I knew you were doing it to bother me," he began, his tone gentler than it was before. "And the worst part was that it did. I couldn't stand to see someone touch you that way, even if it was all for show."

You hadn't expected that. The anger in you hadn't died, but the breath you took after hearing that was the most satisfying one you'd ever had, as if you were in atop a mountain breathing the cool oxygen for the first time. You studied him closely, meeting his soft eyes with the most understanding gaze you could muster. "Why couldn't you stand it?" you coaxed him, waiting to hear the words.

He let go an irritated sigh. "God damn it," he grumbled. He took a long step toward you, leaving only a few feet of distance now. "I --" he shook his head, "I can't do this with you."

You rolled your eyes with ever ounce of energy in your body. He came even closer, but you weren't paying attention. "Of course you can't. You get so close to finally just admitting the truth, and then you hide from it because it's impossible to admit that you have feelings for me." You were yelling again, despite how he was closing in on you. You hoped you were giving him a headache as he inched closer.

"It's inappropriate for you to even think that that's a possibility," he shouted back.

As he stood only a foot away and your words exchanged grew ever louder, you wondered where the crescendo would end. One of you would have to quiet down eventually -- and you would be damned before backing down. "I don't know why you think I give a shit about what's appropriate, Levi!"

"I know you don't give a shit. It's pretty fucking obvious."

"Then why are we even talking about this? Why didn't you just keep ignoring me?"

"Because I couldn't. I--" he broke off again, his eyes darting around to read your face. "I just -- You know what? Fuck it." Before you could process it, he took another step forward. His hand launched to the back of your head, the feeling of his fingertips somehow still gentle despite his rough movements as he pulled you towards him.

His lips crashed onto yours with a reckless abandon.

Your hands came to his chest to push him away, but once realization set in, you left them to rest there. His fingers began to tangle themselves in your hair as his inhibitions disappeared, every muscle losing its tension and every thought fading to static. What he lacked in the argument became clear in how he enveloped you; the screaming match seemed to continue into the way your lips battled, still ever-building.

Your hands left his chest to loop round his neck, one of them wandering off to grip his hair similar to the hold he had on you. His arm snaked around your waist to pull you flush against him, every curve in your body neutralized by a curve in his until it was difficult to tell where you ended and he began.

The time-slowing force that visited with absolute ecstasy had paid you mind, permitting you to relish in every movement. The kiss was deepening and deepening and deepening, leaving you to wonder what was left to explore, and yet still keeping you captivated with every second. In this moment, every doubt or worry was solved, and you would be content to never experience anything else; to stay clutched tightly in Levi's arms seemed like a well-enough fate to spend all of eternity. Despite your pleas to whatever controlled the universe to leave you just where you were forever, it had to end. The sight you saw when he pulled away was almost as satisfying as the kiss itself: Levi, eyes wide and almost frenzied, lips red and the tiniest bit swollen. When he pulled away, he did nothing to alter the position of your bodies, still pressed as tightly together as humanly possible, unsure of how to separate and not wanting to find out, either. He gazed into your eyes for only a second, light pants filling the space between you as you searched each other's faces for answers to questions you were unsure of. You brought your hand from the back of his head to rest on his cheek, tilting your head just slightly as if to get a better look.

Without exchanging words, the two of you had finally come to an agreement. You closed your eyes as his lips attacked yours once again.

[arcadejohn127-9]

Call me the flash because of how fast I’m asking this! XD

Anyways, how do you think the boys would all react to a MC who HATES Valentines Day because their former boyfriend/girlfriend/significant other dumped them on Valentine’s Day?

Damn we got a speedster over here! Someone call the justice League, you're missing a super XD

As someone who just generally dislikes valentine's I feel like this will go very well~ though seeing as alot of my prompts are the boys and them are already in a relationship - I decided to add abit of ✨ oof✨ to this prompt

Lucifer:

Not a big Valentine times day fan either

Ever since the Devildom was introduced to the holiday he wasn't a fan

There was no such thing as love in the air

But then you came into his house; he still finds it stupid and doesn't get the hype but having you around makes me him wonder if he should do something

When he found out you hated valentine's Day he felt relieved

But because it was because of a past lover???

He sees this as a challenge; you really think he's going to just brush this off?

When valentine comes you are greeted to roses, chocolates, wine and a fully prepared meal for you two

"Is this fitting enough for the holiday? I heard people tend to go overboard these days."

"You know I didn't want to celebrate today-"

You frowned, slowly coming to sit with him at his desk which has been turned into a makeshift table with cloth covering it

"And let some mortal spoil such an occasion even with your present partner? Think of this as your first steps of Getting over them."

"I'm mortal, Lucifer, don't say it like it's something insulting."

He jabbed his fork at you, raising a brow

"You're avoiding my point, don't you wish to move on?"

"I- of course....I'm happy with you."

"Then dig in, I made it myself."

You huffed, digging In but soon found yourself wrapped up in how delicious it was

He raised his wine glass to you, silently gesturing for you to do the same

"To a new meaning to valentine's."

You hesitated but repeated his words

Your glasses clinked and that was the first sign of your relationship becoming stronger

Mammon:

Active lover of the holiday and celebrates every year - couples want gifts and he can get money aswell as the fact he's a romantic

So when he found out you hated valentine's; he had to change that even when he found out why - that reason just made him annoyed that you were still hating on the holiday

"yo! Yo! Yo! Guess who just got money~ this guy so that means I'm treating ya!"

"oh? How comes?"

"It's valentine's! And you're the person I'm spending it with!"

"you know I hate it-"

He huffed, puffing out his cheeks

"And I'm going to make you stop hating it, was that ex of yours really so important you don't wanna spend valentine's with me?"

"It's complicated, I just really hate it now, it's attached to bad memories-"

"then let's change that! Make some good memories so you can stop being a grump on the day of love."

He grabbed your hands, giving you puppy eyes

You were utterly helpless to them and let him take you out

He stole a heart balloon and tied it to your wrist, doing your initials on it in Sharpie with a 'x' between them

He did definitely treat you; buying you chocolates, a teddy bear, the two of you matching keychains and many other items

You let yourself be happy as he got excited, dragging you around to every shop either of you looked at, wanting to get more matching stuff

He definitely made your valentine's a positive one

Levithan:

Hated it

His reason was because he was always alone for them, never getting anything and ending up never giving anyone anything because he believes they'll hate it

He felt Insecure that you seemed to still be attached to the breakup of your ex

Fearing that you could be missing them

You both spent valentine's as a couple but mocking and booing at others

At one point you threw Chocolates you didn't like at a overly touchy demon couples from a window

"Do you still think about them....?"

"Who?"

"Your ex, you're not over your breakup with them and we've been spending Valentines being bitter."

"I thought you enjoyed being bitter about it."

"I do but could you answer my questions, please - I know I'm not much and I'm sure they were so much better than me but maybe we could spend a little bit of valentine's together as you know....a celebrating coup-couple."

He was completely blushing, hiding his face behind his arm hoping his rambling didn't completely ruin your feelings towards him

"If you really want to, I don't have any feelings for my ex and it's just that reflection that sticks with me but, I wanna try if it'll make you feel more secure."

You guys ended up watching 'normie' movies, cuddled in his bathtub bed eating what was left your chocolates

You kissed his jaw and he immediately stopped functioning

You smiled, holding him closer

Perhaps valentine's can be a good time

Satan:

Casual valentine's man

Doesn't really care for the holiday and only has spent it with his brothers

He's use to just giving his brothers a small gift and never have a partner to spend it with

But things were different now and sadly, you hated the holiday

He respected your reason why but he felt worried that you were fully over your ex as you still let the holiday be ruined for you

He got you a small gift like he does his brother's

Wanting you to be apart of it but not doing anything big

"happy valentine's, I know you don't celebrate it but I thought you'd like the gift anyway."

"Satan....I didn't get you anything- Let's go out then, I'll treat you."

"I'll consider it a valentine's date."

Whilst he normally had a 'meh' feeling to it, he wanted to spend his first valentine's with you on a date

He just wants the experience and can say he's spend it with you

Even if it was a one time thing

"really Satan?"

"Let's spend this one together and be happy, next year we can go destory things and let out our anger towards the world."

That won you over, you agreed

You took him on a date

You both tried to ignore all the decorations everywhere but that was pretty hard, got lunch together and even walked around to see the new sights

You ended up in the park, staring to the horizon with confetti on your backs and Satan with a party hat

It was forced on him whilst you guys were out but he never got rid of it

"I liked today, maybe after we destory things we can go on another date next year?"

Asmodeus:

He LOVES love!

Nothing brings him more joy than valentine's

Aphrodisiacs are being sold EVERYWHERE

When he found you out hated it he was so upset, he wanted to spend it with you! His usual valentine's crew was nothing compared to you!

And you hated it because of an ex dumping you?!

"Noooooooo! (Y/N) don't let them ruin this for you, please, let's go on a cute picnic or even just stay in room if you don't want to go outside-"

If anyone saw asmo hugging your leg whilst you trudged down the halls, they definitely didn't say anything

"Let me spend today how I want!"

"what? Eat ice cream and get grumpy over someone you're not dating anymore?"

You frowned, knowing he was right

"why not spend it with your gorgeous boyfriend instead? Don't I shine up on your day?"

He had those Puppy eyes again

You finally stopped trying to get away from him, crouching down and cupping his face

"will you let go of my leg if I say yes?"

He nodded

As soon as he stood up you helped him straighten up his clothes, fixing his hair for him

"I'm sorry for dragging you around the house, I know I shouldn't be moping but it just really hurt."

"I know, darling but let's get through this together, we'll do whatever you want."

He was being honest; you were in charge of the whole day

You stayed in his room, having a romantic bath and then ate your feelings

After that you both went out and enjoyed dinner

Life really was happier with him; you decided you'll be doing with him more often

Beezlebub:

Mainly focuses on family valentine's

Has had to play a few sports game on the holiday and every player got a kiss and gift from a cheerleader

He liked the thought and always liked it when he was given food

But he wasn't interested in any of them

Or really the holiday itself, he always wants to share his love for the people around him

Why wait until some holiday to do it?

But when he finds out you hate valentine's and it's because of your ex

He considered fighting your ex

Doesn't want to force you to celebrate with him but wants to be able to do stuff with you

"Wanna go out to eat? They have valentine's day deals."

"i don't really feel like taking any part of it."

"I want to spend today with you and don't like seeing you being upset over the past."

"You just want to eat? No surprise dates or big deal about today?"

"no, just want to hang out with you."

"....okay."

He immediately took your hand, taking you to the restaurant he saw online

On the way we got you a magic rose

Handing it over for you to wear

But other than that he stuck to his word,just having eating out with you and didn't even talk about the holiday

You smiled but apart of you did feel bad you were going to stop something like this from having because of your ex

You felt the rose, looking up at him

"Want to take a couple's picture? They're doing it for couples celebrating today."

"we don't have to, you don't like today."

But you insisted, letting him pick you up for the picture and kissed his cheek

You were able to get the picture in different sizes and he put the small one in his wallet

From then on you planned to keep spending Valentines with beel

Belphegor:

Absolutely disgusted by it

Will always tell anyone how much he hates it

But on the other hand, he watches romcoms and yells at the TV for the chatacters not understanding they love each other every valentine's

He's just trying to keep up his edgelord persona, okay

When he learned you hated valentine's he was happy

Means he didn't have to do anything

But it's because of your ex?? He's now going to be romantic as FUCK

You enter the attic expecting to find a chill place to rest but instead there are rose petals everywhere and belphie laying waiting for you

You expected something like this from asmo but you couldn't deny seeing your boyfriend try to be romantic whilst half asleep was pretty cute

"I have romcoms and violent horror movies, pick your flavour."

"what's with all this? You know my feelings about Valentine's."

"I'm not going to let some pathetic ex ruin this valentine's for us, so I'm romancing you - is it working?"

"I'm picking the horror movie."

You put the dvd in ignoring him

"That doesn't change the mood for me."

You should of known

You cuddled and watched as people got ripped open and blood went flying

Belphie wiggling his eyebrows at you whenever an couple came on

You just shoved his face laughing

You forgot your bitter feelings and looked down at your now asleep boyfriend

"thanks for today, maybe you can try again next year."

UNDATEABLES↓

Diavolo:

Thrilled by it all!

It's so heart warming to see love be so celebrated

Demons were always so violent and everything had to be edgy - he was tired of it

Was disappointed you hated it, he already had plans for the both of you

But after finding out the reason - it seems all his scheduling was back and the gifts became more grand

"Trust me, I'll change your mind on Valentines! We're together now and I want to treat you to a date."

"but why? I don't wanna take part-"

"We are going to get through your heartbreak together! I know things can still sting even when you feel over it, so let's just try."

You thought it over, nodding

He just grinned, taking you by the shoulder and led you to the royal carriage

You struggled to sit down when it was filled with gifts and flowers

They all had your name on them and immediately blushed

You should of known he'd go all out

He took you to see the Devildom at night, where all the lights covered the streets like stars

He set up a picnic in the park and you both ended up dancing in the water fountain

"I really enjoyed today, thank you."

He kissed your cheek, telling you not to worry

Barbatos:

Isn't a fan of all the decorating and cleaning up that'll be involved when the day is over

But he gets time off to de-stress and that's always a plus

He was thankful you weren't a fan of Valentines but your ex? He might have to write them out of timelines

Understood you just had a sting from it all and was use to feeling that way

Was surprised when you were one to actually make the first move on Valentines

"I wanted to give you this, I don't want to celebrate but I thought this could be nice?"

It was a pocket watch with a hidden compartment, it had a picture of you and him

Good thing he also got you something; a locket with the same picture you have him

Was it an accident? On purpose? He'll never tell, he just knows it's your favourite picture of you two

"I see, then we won't celebrate it but I'm sure you would still be willing to accompany me in the gardens?"

Takes you on a boat ride across the lake even better as it's sunset and the water looks immaculate

Cooks you both dinner and you just spend the day as if it was any other

"I like spending Valentines with you."

"I would hope so or I would fail as your boyfriend."

"I wanna spend the next one with you properly."

"As you wish, I'll be sure to make it the best one you've ever experienced."

Solomon:

Forgets holidays

Always likes bringing up history facts about any holiday as he's seen them all evolve from one part of history to modern day

Pretends to not know how to celebrate it so people will try to explain it to him and end up not really knowing why they celebrate things

You hate Valentines? Doesn't care but it's because of your ex? That he doesn't get

"So you're still hurting from your past relationship that you don't want to spend valentine's with your boyfriend?"

"when you say it like that it sounds really bad."

"I'm not really up for celebrating so it makes no difference to me but I'm not sure I can accept you still letting them upset."

You sighted, knowing he was going to make up some sort of plan or trick

But instead he just kissed your hand

"let's go to the human world, I heard there's a traveling fairground."

You agreed to go, both of you making it there in seconds and of course everything was heart themed

You couldn't escape the love

It was actually really fun! There were bouncy castles, a Ferris wheel and lots of food stands

You were definitely willing to celebrate again if it was going to be like this

Simeon:

A day of love? It's Charming

Finds it amusing how people can much such a big deal out of it all

Though he thinks you should always be expressive of how much you love the people around you

So you hating it was an opposite to him but he was respectful

Knowing it was because of your ex made him displeased

Whilst very understanding, wanted to atleast improve your opinion on the holiday so you didn't associate it with them anymore

"Let's just do one couples related thing today then we can do whatever you please."

"but why? I should be allowed to dislike what I dislike."

"you're absolutely right but you're letting an ex ruin a whole day for you, don't you want to spend it with me?"

"of course I do! I'm just unsure."

He smiled, grasping your hands

"that's fine, we won't do anything big, just a fun date and then you're free to do as you please."

He was right, you didn't do anything big

Just went to a pottery class and you made all sorts of clay creations together

It was peaceful and there was no Valentines being forced down on you

You giggled when he showed you the clay heart he made

"we should make this our thing, valentine's we do things like this together."

He agreed, happy to make Valentines whatever you wanted it to be

[pearl-blue-musings]

Grow As We Go: Epilogue

Hi hi!

Here’s the wonderful conclusion of this amazing story. I’ll have an authors note at the end but let’s get into it!

Pairing: Shinsou Hitoshi x fem!reader

Warnings: none

Shinsou smirks at his phone as he rolls his eyes. He knew you had the day off and was just waiting for something to go awry. And it seems like it finally did.

After the two of you confessed your feelings and began dating, your lives flowed together seamlessly. Eventually you moved in and now share two adorable cats together. Your work schedules were hard to figure out at first with him mostly working at night and you being called in when necessary. However, there would be overlap and those were the best times. There would be times when the two of you were called into the same mission, but you never let your feelings for each other get in the way of saving citizens and any injured heroes. It was the plan the two of you had wanted for yourselves back in your UA days. And it was perfect for the two of you.

Shinsou asks Aizawa for permission to leave early and the older man agrees, knowing that you had spoken to him earlier. The scruffy man smiles at his protege as he scales down the building to head back to you. He knows that today is special for the two of you so he wants to help out in any he can.

You hated lying to Shinsou but this was important and necessary. The cats were fine, only slightly bothered by the balloons and candles around their domain but completely fine. In the grand scheme of things, it may seem like such a small thing but to you it means the world. And you know that Shinsou would celebrate just about anything with you.

Excitement bubbles within you as you head the front door jingle. The pitter patter and jingling of your cats trotting you the door to greet your boyfriend. You skip over to greet him as well, double checking everything in the kitchen is set up and the candles are lit. “Toshi,” you yell from the kitchen as you hear him put his stuff down, shutting the door and picking up one of the cats. “In here!”

You hear him trudge into the kitchen and suddenly stops. “Kitten, what is all of this?” His eyes scan around the room, noticing the balloons, cake, and extra candles along with decorations. He squints at the cake in front of him and looks back to you.

“We already celebrated one year babe. Or did you suddenly get amnesia?”

You laugh and wrap your arms around his torso, gazing up at him. “Silly, it’s not that at all,” you reach up to poke his cheek. “And why would amnesia be the first thing you think of?”

Shinsou shrugs with a smile and play bites at your finger as he puts his arms on your shoulders. He urges you to continue to fill him in. He’s pretty sure he hasn’t missed any anniversary’s. Right?

“It’s the day we moved in together. A year ago. I know it’s a small thing but-“

He silences you with a soft kiss, humming and pulling you closer. He rests his forehead against yours as he catches his breath “Kitten, how could I forget?” He holds you tighter and kisses the edge of your lips. “I’m sorry I didn’t remember. I know how much this means to you, and for our relationship.”

You squeeze his sides at his words, burying your head into his chest. You feel his hands run up and down your back before tilting your head up at him. “I,” you start and briefly look away. “I know I haven’t been the easiest being with.”

“Hey,” he sternly interrupts. “Look at me.” You pout and do as he says, relaxing your face a bit. “We both have had to do some growing and learning with each other. I can’t tell you how scared I was of messing things up with us…”

Shinsou rests one of his hands on the back of his neck as he looks away meekly. You giggle at his tell and perk up on your top toes and kiss his cheek. “Have I told you today that I love you?”

He smirks and captures your lips for another kiss. “Why don’t we dig into this cake?”

You nod and bring out the plates and knives. Your mind is filled with happy thoughts and love as you cut into the cake. You sit next to him at the table and dig in. You take a satisfactory bite and hum happily before you get distracted by your phone buzzing. Shinsou quips an eyebrow up, but then relaxes as his phone begins to buzz incessantly too.

“Are you getting messages to check Twitter too?”

Shinsou nods and gathers around you to see your phone screen.

You almost dropped your phone at the tweet. It couldn’t be real could it. Your breath gets shaky as you stand up, knocking over your chair. Hitoshi is there to hold you, taking in the shocking news himself. Is it over? Does this mean everything, why you left, your family drama, losing a physical part of you, is all coming to an end?

You turn around and hug him, holding him for dear life as a few tears begin to fall from your eyes. Your chest heaves as all the pent up emotions from your life come crashing down. Shinsou continues to hold you and catches you before you fall, your knees buckling underneath you. He cradles you to his chest as you travel to the couch, shooing the cats away.

“Hey, (Y/n). I’m here. Breathe for me, okay?”

You nod into his chest and start to slow your breathing, your tears beginning to dry. Running your fingers up his chest to feel him under your fingertips helps bring you back. “I can’t believe it…”

“Sh sh, take your time we’ll get through this okay?” The deep rumble of his baritone lulls you to calmness. He keeps rocking the two of you back and forth, current celebration on hold. A few more minutes pass by until you’re able to talk again.

“I’m gonna have to testify in court against him aren’t I?”

Hitoshi hums and you sigh. “I’ll have to admit. If I wasn’t with you right now, I’m not sure how I would have handled this. Thank you Toshi.”

You feel his lips against your forehead as his way of speaking with you. “I’ve got you, kitty cat. I’m not going anywhere.”

A/N: hi everyone!! Thank you so so so so much for being patient with me as I got through this story. I know it took awhile but I’m glad all of you are here with me! I wanna thank you all again for being here with this story. It’s bittersweet that this is over but thank you thank you!!!

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