#BloodlessOrange!

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Name: Silas

Pronouns: He/him

Race: Zariel Tiefling

Class: Oath of Ancients Paladin

Alignment: Neutral Good

Love Interest: Astarion

Ship Name: Blood(less)Orange (Blood- Astarion is a vampire, Orange- He's ...orange)

Family: Parents: ???

Siblings: None

His parents died when he was 10 of a sickness that ravaged their whole city. He doesn't remember them very well.

Personality: Big ol grump. A little cynical but in a way that makes him want to be better. Tries to be a fluffy feelings guy but struggles. Very serious about battle strategy and minimizing bloodshed. Can let anger best him and lash out but always immediately feels regretful.

He's a sad broken man who yearns to right the wrongs he was forced to do in his past

Anything else we should know?

Hates fighting. Tries his hardest to talk his way through but is a very skilled and trained soldier when he has to fight.

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Back story under the keep reading:

TWS: Abuse (physical and emotional), reference to mind control (Command spell), substance abuse (alcohol), sex in a negative context, blood and gore

When he was 10 he lost both of his parents in a sweeping sickness that took out a lot of his city. Cast to the streets he had to learn to survive by scamming and stealing. Luckily he was a cute kid and many townspeople looked after him until he was about 15 when his 'cute kid charm' faded. He was left to fend for himself.

When he was 17 he was caught stealing from a nobleman who wanted his head. He was given a choice, go to prison or join the soldier ranks and learn to behave. He chose to become a soldier and serve under Commander Fylson.

Silas never wanted to take a life, that wasn't who he was. Fylson thought him weak. The first time he spared an enemy on the battlefield Fylson killed the man himself and then made Silas an example of what weakness got you under his command.

Fylson chose every opportunity to make an example of Silas after that. He was constantly beaten and humiliated if he even had one hair out of line, if he even breathed out of sync with the others.

Fylson would often use Command on him to make him do the worst tasks because he knew Silas would be too weak to stomach them on his own

He had killed so many people. He had tortured people for information. Any time he resisted he was harmed and berated until eventually he drew in on himself and forced himself to become numb to it all.

The people he killed became faceless ghosts in his nightmares. He became deaf to the screams. He became an obedient little attack dog for Fylson- A puppet for his master.

During a border skirmish with their rival city, Silas whole squad was wiped and he lay bleeding out on the battlefield. Just as Silas felt himself fading a holy warrior descended upon him.

A young half-elven man crouched over Silas, the sun rays a halo behind his head. He was beautiful. But the reverie ended when Silas saw the insignia on the man’s cloak, the one for the other side. This was no holy warrior; This was his reaper, the man who would finally end him.

He waited for the final blow but it never came.

Instead, his reaper pressed a hand to his wound and healed it closed. His reaper carried him off the battlefield despite being on the opposite side. His reaper snuck him into his room and spent several weeks caring for him instead of getting the information he was tasked with.

His reaper's name was Matias. A man he would come to know better than he knew himself.

Over the month that Matias harboured him, the pair became close. When Silas was well enough to escape, to flee out the window he had been planning on doing, and run to Baldur's Gate or sail across the coast he realised he didn't want to leave.

Yes, it was risky to stay since he was hiding right under Matias' captain's nose, but Matias was worth the risk. He stayed for another month.

Eventually, he was found out, but Matias stood up for him. He was allowed to join their ranks (albeit back at the bottom) as long as he stayed loyal to them.

Matias taught him what it meant to be a paladin, Silas tought him better- more ruthless- fighting techniques. The more he and Matias trained together the closer they became. They were one unit on the battle field, a genuine force to reckon with. Silas with his sword and shield, Matias with his greatsword, they were unstoppable.

They fell in love over the 2 years they spent together. Matias was the first person he ever loved and he had never been so loved in return. He treated him with a tenderness that he desperately craved after 6 years (17 -23) of Fylson's abuse.

Matias showed him it wasn't weak to spare others, to believe people could do good. He took every single word Fylson hit him with and reversed them, softening them into something that settled warmly in Silas' chest. It was dangerously close to hope. Hope that he too could be good after everything he's done.

Everything came crashing down when he faced off against Fylson during what was supposed to be just another skirmish. He fought his old commander and won. He had the opportunity to kill him but he didn't want to. If he killed Fylson he would be just as bad as him and he refused to be like him anymore. He was changed, he was better.

Big mistake.

Fylson took advantage of hesitance and tried to take him down but Matias saved him. Matias died for him. Silas saw red as he strangled Fylson with his own bare hands.

Matias was dying. Silas held him through it. Matias told him how brave he was, that he made the right choice to be merciful. He made Silas promise never to forget himself, that he’s still a good person no matter how much blood is on his hands, and that mercy is still a choice he can and SHOULD make.

His last words were asking Tempus to watch over Silas since he wouldn’t be able to anymore. Protect him in battle. That made Silas take up Matias’ sword, swearing his paladin oath.

He swore to only fight as a last resort, to spare those he could, to never run or back down, to protect his squad with his life, to be brave in the face of death.

He was filled with Tempus’ fire, becoming a paladin. But not just any kind of Paladin. As if sensing Silas’ apprehension to fight - to kill- Tempus granted him the ability to heal others in a greater way than just lay on hands.

It was like he knew Silas would never be a true holy warrior nor would he be on a path of vengeance. He was meant to help others, not slay in his name. He made him an Ancient Paladin.

For the last 2 years before being kidnapped by the mindflayers Silas struggled to cope with Matias' death.

He stayed true to his oath of doing no harm unto others without cause, but that didn't mean he couldn't harm himself.

When he wasn't training or on the battlefield he was in taverns drinking or in the bed of any man who would have him. The alcohol for the days he needed to feel numb to it all and the sex for the days when he needed to feel something anything at all. (even if he didn't enjoy it emotionally he could at least enjoy it physically)

When he was finally taken by the mindflayers he was at rock bottom, but now he had a chance to start anew.

and Gods he refused to waste it.

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Uhhhh....

So It's been a while!

I've got a bunch of BG3 stuff I've posted over the past few months!

Bardic Inspirations is all about my first Tav Kairius and dealing with his attraction to Shadowheart while simultaneously being a coward and terrified of feelings. It's mostly one-shots and there is a smut fic in there of him and Astarion :} I haven't written much else for him but I do have a fic cooking for it, though I'm unsure when I will drop it.

Bloodless Orange is all about my second Tav Silas, a sex favourable ace in a weird FWB with Astarion. He has a lot of baggage to sort through plus he and Astarion don't always see eye to eye on certain matters. Their relationship is rocky and a little toxic in the beginning but slowly they fall for each other. Though both are terrified to admit it. Its main work is a multichapter fic, any other works in there are optional one-shots to explore Silas as a character as well as his relationship with sex and intimacy outside of the canon narrative.