#Big move
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Itās one of those days where like, I broke an egg on the floor and just sat down and cried. I have enough eggs, and I got paper towels and I can clean it up and itās not a big deal, and I know all this.
But I still just bawled until my cat almost stepped in it, and I could just use a distraction.
Thereās not anything bad going on, Iām not having a hard time, and Iām not sick, but apparently I just crying over a broken egg and I could use something different to think about ^^;
#ask me anything#quin muses#six more weeks and I have a month off work#and whew I think I am beyond ready#one of my friends is moving too#big move#five days on the road#I think Iām nervous for her on top of it all#thank you - whatever you send#I know Iāll love it ^_^
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I havenāt shared in a while . I feel resentment towards him . I tried the couples therapy . I paid for part of it and now itās his turn and he is not in the least bit interested . I have explained how his loud snoring hurts me and I wake up disoriented , sleep deprived and with massive headache . Yet he wonāt quit smoking or do the nose surgery or get the CPAP machine at night to help with his breathing . Itās either I sleep next to him and suffer or we sleep in two separate bedrooms . I told him about the other bed as a temporary solution . But he would rather do nothing than do something . And that is my problem to begin with . I shifted from full time to part time after 6 or 8 months of asking for it to accommodate his new life by a highway in a faraway city . So I wouldnāt cause an inconvenience and ask for another place before marriage . I also resent my parents because I expressed my concerns about the house being in the middle of nowhere and they brushed me off . I spoke up about how far it is from all that I know , work , graduate studies , family and friends . Still they said yeah it will be fine . And it was not fine . I spoke up about how itās a big house and he doesnāt have the means or I to provide for it . And everyone insisted that I keep working towards it so the engagement goes by smoothly. I spoke up about my concerns that he has no degree in the field we are working in or a plan but still they said itās okay it will be fine . I spoke up about his parents influence on all of his decisions and they said thatās normal and it will become less when you marry him . I spoke up about the differences of spending between what he was raised to and what I am raised to . And they said itās okay you will learn to live in a different way . I mentioned that my mother in law is nosy and she tries to have things her way . They said itās okay it will lessen with time . I mentioned that the engagement is going by too fast and itās all spent in house preps and marriage stuff and thereās barely time for us . They said oh well the economy is falling apart so it must be the nearest possible date .
And now Iām crashing with the reality where I feel my body is suffering , my career , my friendships and there is no plan for improvement in the future .
I canāt take all those long car commutes in crazy cairo traffic , and be a good phd student , and a good dr at the private practice and run it , and a good academic at university and learn to be a surgeon , and a nice wife that does her daily duties and put up with everyoneās shit .
Iām so down that I kept self soothing for food for about a year . And guess what I became so fat .
Iām far away from my mental health practitioner so Iām without help . And getting a new app takes forever and finding the right fit and starting all over .
And now I have started the job hunt and got myself an offer closer to that house . Now he is considering of selling it to open up his dream project but with no idea how much that project costs or where to move or when . And my life is literally on hold . If he moves then I shouldnāt drop my former employment and bother with a new place that is probably inferior but just because itās closer to his house and work . If he doesnāt move , then the move with spare me some of the distance but it will take me back to square one in terms of new place new rules and I need to build just to be acceptable and earn rights and prove myself , meet new people and less job stability .
I am just so tired of this shit . My life is not pleasant in the current state . I will still have to go far commutes to private practice phd visiting parents . Itās just two days of less commute .
And i donāt know if itās worth it . To do all of this for him . It feels like I keep losing parts of myself if what makes me content or fulfilled to fit into the notion of being married .
I canāt always be in limbo . He wonāt open up that project with other investors money cause he wants to work for himself but he is willing to compromise on living in smaller space or lesser neighbourhood to do it . After my dad paid for almost all the furniture to fill his place . When to begin with ; I asked him to let go of that place because it would put him at a financial disadvantage . And now after he spent all his money on fixing up a place , he wants me to go someplace smaller and without fixing it up so he can save that money for an imaginary project with no plan whatsoever .
It feels wrong . Why make me twist over sideways ? A change should be for the Better of both us ? Not just one . .
Even that he canāt make a decision .
I am at my parents because Iām sick and I just had an emergency incision and drainage of an abscess . I think itās my bodyās way of saying thatās it I have had enough . Itās literally making me sick running all over the city west and east to try to be everywhere and do everything for everyone . I am sick and tired .
#spilledink#mytxt#mywords#mental health#iām tired#couples counseling#newlymarried#abscess#big move#job hunting#jobhunt#decisionmaking#chronic depression#need therapy
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Here is Ankha, still unpacking. Hello, Ankha! Welcome to Vibrantis!
From December 14th, 2020
#animal crossing#animal crossing new horizons#acnh#ankha#unpacking#big move#welcome home#nintendo#nintendo switch#queue
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local ladies manās signature move totally useless against autistic monster enthusiast. more on Kabruās fumble era at 6
#iāve seen so many interpretations of that 1 hr freeze frame of Kabruās smile in ep 16#heās meeting his long time crush of course heās trying to charm him#Kabru so obviously has a big fat giant crush on Laios#like atp in the story heās tried to talk to him and get his attention so many times agjdjajdj#Laios is the human rubix cube heās been searching for his entire life#everyone else is almost too easy for Kabru to pin down#Laios on the other hand ā¦ a treasure trove of autistic mystery#Kabru is so locked in#Kabru used signature move: charming smile#Laios: no effect!#thereās something so beautiful about the popular pretty boy entering his fumble era when his one true love turns out to be autistic#labru#laios touden#kabru of utaya#dungeon meshi#delicious in dungeon#wasabi rambles#seen so many clock that smile as nefarious and machiavellian#baby no Kabru is just dialing the charm up to 100 and what weāre all feeling is second hand embarrassment LMAO
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#bwark#pkmn leaks#can we stop labelling a bunch of devs as terrible for literally just writing mythology that didn't even make it inti the game and wasn't#supposed to be seen by the public#esp the people naming and shaming the person who wrote them like jesus christ there's literal doxxing going on rn can we be mature#and like i said last night we have our own fair share of fucked up fairy tales and folklore in the west#so this discussion is giving the vibes of ''anime is uniquely perverted unlike our pure and innocent western animation''#like why are we singling out japanese mythology here lmao#ofc you're allowed to be uncomfortable with the leaks. i am and im definitely glad they were scrapped. but can we also be mature about it#it literally is not as big or horrible on gamefreak's end as people are making it out to be#it was scrapped for a reason. it was too much for this video game for children. can we move on or are people gonna make the same unfunny#joke about it#ask to tag?
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"They call it the MANGLE" - FNAF 2 phone guy
#myart#chloesimagination#comic#fnaf#five nights at freddy's#fnaf fanart#fnaf movie#mangle#abby schmidt#mike schmidt#fnaf 2#HAPPY SPOOKY MONTH BUT FR#the big thing I was looking forward to doing was doing some horror art!#obviously if youāve followed me for awhile#every October Iāll do a handful of spookier art than usual#I donāt have grand plans but weāll see where the art takes me#wanted to start with something for the next movie#again canāt wait to see mangle in it#Iām so curious how theyāll look or move#if youāve seen how they move in Help wanted#you just know theyāll be terrifying#mangle is the number one thing Iām looking forward to in the second film#originally in my draft for this I exaggerated mangle quite a bit#but decided to be more accurate cause mangle on their own is freaky#just a lot of their screens in the og game are truly haunted#love mango š©·
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having good & true friends will literally save and protect you in a million unfathomable ways. like okay we have written so many times about lovers. but the way a platonic friend laughs and cries with you. the way they hold your hand at 14 years old and at 34. the way they keep a little silver tie to you, touching base over and over and over. how you can go years without talking, only to re-meet and discover: oh shit! you're still cool!
there are people who have been in my life for more than half of it, and i have loved every version of them. do you know how fucking beautiful that is. yeah love will save the world. but the way friends love you is gonna save the you.
#and before one of u is like '' i have no friends :(" i used to be there too actually#abusive partner cut me off from ALL of 'em. i didn't think i was lovable#it made me EXCEPTIONALLY shy. i still am actually!!!!#i just ... started saying ''yes.''#i would take pictures of flyers in my library and go to whatever events they had#i started taking community classes#if someone mentioned like ''i am gonna start x group'' i actually took a deep breath#and approached them to be like . okay i want in.#i started making the first move with new people - a small compliment#a smile or a little joke. just to share the space with them.#i have MASSIVE social anxiety. bad parent and bad relationship will do that to ya.#but i just... kept going. and going. and going. to each of these little things. and then...#like. .... idk i just am very blessed. i have a STUPID number of friends#a lot of which i reconnected with. bc it turns out love is never wasted. adult life just.#like. gets in the way. but also... i loved u as a weird little kid. i love u now as a weird big adult.#i promise i PROMISE ur friends are out there. u just have 2 find them. and btw#i didn't make friends with everyone. but i did get a lot of people to smile or laugh.#aint that something.#this process took me something like 2 years. it was HARD!!!!!!!!!!#i love u!!! hard things are often worth it!!!
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yo danny fenton he was just 19
#danny phantom#sam manson#danny fenton#tucker foley#age up designs#thinking about them all being like 19#post hs but still kids#they all go to community college together#and sams parents rent them a house to share#mashing some aus I like in there as well#big fan of the ghost king/heart of the gz hc thatās been going around#also I think danny would lean punk once he develops his personal style#and phantom wears athleisure lol#easy to move in#nothing to grab#Iāve got a lot of other thoughts#but Iāll elaborate on a less clean piece hahaha#cw vomit#college au
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Part 2 of my modern avatar au, The Gaang (part 1)
#avatar aang#atla katara#atla toph#atla sokka#atla suki#atla#avatar the last airbender#modern avatar#atla modern au#my art#atla fanart#kataang#CAUSE THEY ARE IMPORTANT IN THIS AU#lots of inner debates on how to deal with aang's tattoos and if to make him say an actual buddhist#decided that he and monk gyatso (plus a handful of others) are/were part of a largely dying religion of a nomadic group#from the himalayan/tibetan plateau region that's a mix of buddhism hinduism and other religions (plus air nomad culture)#due to the politics of region aang and gyatso traveled around the world which is how he met katara and sokka#who were on a fieldtrip in the south (of canada)#they live in the Qikiqtaaluk Region originally in a smaller northern town but to continue their schooling they moved to iqaluit#Toph is from China and she met the gaang during the first big trip sokka katara and aang took together (at aangs begging)#meet her the summer before katara's first semester of college (so she was 18 aang 16 sokka 19 toph 16)#also by 16 aang is his own guardian cause of gyatso's death so he just does whatever p much#suki from okinawa and they meet briefly another summer of college when traveling to a bunch of islands in the pacific#suki specializes in and teaches ryukyuan martial arts (she's ryukyuan)#all reunite after sokka and katara's graduation (katara graduates a year early) during aang sokka and kataras celebration world tour#where they come into full actual contact with the fire nation crew#they are all in their twenties in these expect for monk aang who is a teen#hehe i cant wait to make more for this auuuu
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The way I have let procrastination rule me. But I am 1 week out and I will not let anything hold me back.
Bienvenue Ć ma renaissance!
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A large number of stock traders are buying high volume of call options on Guidewire Software (NYSE:GWRE) today. This is an interesting development, as GWRE is not a company that is typically associated with high-volume options trading. Some market analysts are speculating that investors are expecting a big move in the stock price of GWRE in the near future.
#Companies#Options Articles#fault#Guidewire Software#call options#high volume#stock traders#big move
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house tour :)
bonus art, lossy versions of the first 2 gifs
#ask to tag#unreality#flash warning#art#gif#photomanipulation#ganbreeder#<- for the creatures in the first 2 gifs#horror#surrealism#liminal spaces#weirdcore#creatures#i ended up using the non-lossy versions bc they were better for the effect i wanted#+ i wanted the last one specifically to look like it was corrupting the camera kinda like radiation#but thought id still include the lossy versions cuz theyre neat#the third gif is based off a reoccuring thing from my dreams#some sort of bright white object usually a big orb or disk#that you cant look at directly bc its so bright. its like a welding arc#you can usually touch or move it#it doesnt turn red like that in the dream or glitch out the camera tho thats just for the spooky#well the glitchyness is more bc the non-lossy version compressed the gif badly#so i figured id just play into the compression effect and make it fit the mood better#honestly turned out much cooler. limitations in art etc etc
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One thing Iāve noticed about people in or entering their 30s is they donāt make as many compromises anymore. If someone doesnāt meet them halfway, is not up to standard, is just not where theyāre needed to be, theyāre just like āok coolā and they move on from the person. Which is not to say theyāre less empathetic or understanding, but more that they have learned that time is their most prized possession and theyāre not willing to make massive compromises on it. They are not obsessed w the idea of fixing someone (bc the concept of fixing a person doesnāt really exist). They simply move on to someone who is up to par. I want that. I want to always move w the awareness that time is my most priceless belonging and I can never buy it back. Ever. So I have to use it wisely
#not just when it comes to ppl but w opportunities too!#w not wasting your energy on negativity#w always seeing the big picture etc etc#i just want to always move from a place of āis this expending time that could be best spent elsewhere?ā#just a note 2 self while I navigate how to spend my time#which includes dedicated studying & reading more consistently & moving my body & enjoying nature & telling someone I love them <3#we will be alright#text
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felix exuberating theater-kid energy nonstop this season just makes me imagine his pv chat noir design being a parody of adrien's chat noir
#i still didn't make the bell big enough#if felix moves into the agreste mansion next season he is absolutely going to discover adrien's secret identity#that boy is just way too smart#and honestly i look forward to more twin shenanigans i hope they go nuts with it#my art#miraculous ladybug#ml s5 spoilers#tbh i don't think there are any actual spoilers here?#miraculous season 5#chat noir#adrien agreste#pv chat noir#felix fathom#senti twins#my ml comics
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shoutout to idw transformers for having drift
#i just wanted to do like.his makeup and his big ears moving a bit like how i imagine it#my art#tf idw#drift#also shoutout to idw transformers for having the least animatable designs what th ehll i spent 5 hours between 2 keys
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