#Beautifuly tragic

[escespace]

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I was biting my nails the whole time, the intensity of Arthur's love and pain made my hair stand on end.

This type of dark is underrated in the fandom. Being as morally dark as both Arthur and Merlin can be when it comes to each other's safety it's surprising there aren't many fics with this pair falling into madness for each other

The correlation between past and present seemed very successful to me, the flashbacks appeared at just the right moments.

Is there a chance of a sequel? I would 100% read it.

Beautiful, thanks for writing it.

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Merlin (TV) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Merlin/Arthur Pendragon (Merlin), Merlin & Arthur Pendragon (Merlin), Knights of the Round Table & Merlin (Merlin) Characters: Merlin (Merlin), Arthur Pendragon (Merlin), Gwaine (Merlin), Elyan (Merlin), Leon (Merlin), Knights of the Round Table (Merlin), Taliesin (Merlin), Gwen (Merlin) Additional Tags: Character Study, Parallel Universes, Dimension Travel, Dark Arthur Pendragon (Merlin), Possessive Arthur Pendragon (Merlin), Swords, Doppelganger, Flashbacks, Past Character Death, Angst Summary:

Nothing comes between Merlin and Arthur. Not even Arthur himself.

(Alternatively: A version of Arthur from a darker timeline makes his way into a different world, where things turned better than they did in his. And now, he will take the happy ending that destiny promised him then cruelly ripped away.)

[laurancezvahlslefteyebrow]

oh eyebro…… i have a treat for you.

remember what i said i was going to draw? i was gonna do full body but i got to carried away with his expression… so here

CINNAMON HOLY SHIT

WOWOWOOWOWOOWOWOWW

AAJSUSHUSNDIRHEJIEJFJUF *ripping the bars of my enclosure*

you’re art style is beautiful btw absolutely phenomenal

[mistressofshipping]

I was just thinking that Nicky was the one thing that Agatha created. I mean: her magic, her essence, always takes and consumes, it doesn't create anything, but Nicky is the exception, he is something she created, something positive that came from her. It was the one thing she did right and Rio, the love of her life, the other good thing she ever knew, is the one that has to take it away from her. It's too much, too heart wrenching, and I think that is why Agatha is so mad at Rio: the love of her life took the only good thing she made in her life.

[brucewaynesasshair]

i made a terrile mistake

i watched spaceless on the tram

i'm falling apart inside but there is so many ppl around me😭

[nicosraf]

Hi, this is not really an ask, I just finished reading Angels & Man today and felt like screaming my praise of it at you if that’s ok. Because Rafa !!!! I read abm over a year ago and it instantly became my favorite book and the sequel was just as good and I’m in awe of it!!! It made me feel so many feelings. So Many. It’s rare that I have such a visceral reaction to fiction and honestly I often crave it! And both abm and a&m delivered beautifuly, as well as tragically and painfully. I had to sit and stare at the wall for several minutes after the last chapter— I was so overstimulated. I hope I don’t make you uncomfortable saying that your book made me uncomfortable because honestly that’s my favorite kind of book and these first two parts of the trilogy were A FEAST. 

I saw you mention somewhere that you feared people would interpret Azazel’s experience and miscarriage as mpreg, so I felt compelled to express how much I enjoyed how you portrayed the angels’ relationship with gender while navigating their relationship with the humans, I was fascinated honestly. 

For how long it took me to actually finish the book, I wish I had kept a journal with me to write every impression because it made me feel A LOT and I wish I could have bottled it all up! And I also wish I could give you a forehead kiss as a thank you for writing this the way you did and putting it out there in the world so I could read it and feel all that. 

There was so much more I wanted to say as I was staring at the wall after finishing it and now I can’t remember it all, so there is a chance I will be back. Anyway, happy Sunday <3

hello!

Thank you so much for reading!! I'm really happy you enjoyed A&M the way that you did ABM and that it gave you such a visceral (positive) reaction! That really does mean a lot to me to hear. Also, it doesn't make me uncomfortable! I'm really happy :') thank you for the kind words

Also, I'm not really afraid of Azazel's experience being interpreted as mpreg. He's pretty explicit about wanting to be read as a man (if he must choose), after all. But, yes, like you said, the angels have a complicated relationship with gender, and I don't want that to get suppressed for the purpose of jokes. I'm glad you found that aspect of the book fascinating! It was very interesting to me too.

Thank you again for reading and the kindness!! Have a great week :') sending u much love

[definitelynotshouting]

Hey take as long as you need to make the chapter the way you want it. Don't worry about us. Also longer chapters mean more time at once in your beautifuly tragic world. 👍

Aoxnqdnwkdkwjs THANK YOU im mostly being playful when i lament over how long this chapter is getting but it is reassuring to know folks dont mind the longer chapters :]

[explodingfurby]

book recommendation! isolde by irina odoevtseva, it's beautifuly written, very unique atmosphere and deeply tragic. got it from the library one time cause it looked cool and returned it two weeks later, emotionally devastated. also LOVE the moth.

Cool, I'll check that out.

I guess now i have to start posting things so i think I will just post whatever I make and maybe a few reposts. I don't want to let you guys down :<

[chinesegal]

St out of spite, I want to indulge in 1000 fics and AUs exploring Belos/Philip as a character, showibg his childhood and how he turned into the twisted, evil man he eventually became.

No one is born evil, and I think its beautifuly Tragic that even Belos used to be a cute, innocent child once.

[4thewynne]

The most beautifuly tragic part of this very particular line is it was such a "Trigger" event for Odysseus. Calypso says, "My Open Arms." and it immediately goes into his friend's song and it just takes the breath away. Brilliant and heart wrenching writing by Jorge.

"This life is amazing..."

[bilandi-shmandi]

She acts cool but she's hurting on the inside

[celestemin]

These violent delights have violent ends,you have always known this.

Rating: ★★★★★

Today I finally had time to finish Our Violent ends by @chloegong and I think it is better to say that this book violently ended me.

So here's my rant >.<

These books make me feel something that I can only describe as bittersweet.Roma and juliette are characters I hold really close to my heart.These two were constantly caught up in things that they never even got a chance to love properly.

It was so fascinating to see someone love so quietly yet so fiercely.

The ending made me cry but never have I been so satisfied with an ending.As it is said in the book,hope is a cruel thing and this book left me hoping hopelessly.It makes me wonder if they're alive or dead but as juliette said that it is not always this or that so I just hope that they both are happy somewhere in the world,alive or dead.

I was in awe as u put down this book.They both went down together just like roma had said "Together or not at all,dorogaya" and i don't know if I'm the only one who thinks like this but imo dying together is better than living apart.

We all knew what was going to happen eventually (it's a romeo juliet retelling so of-fucking-course) but i still looked forward to it.

So congrats miss chloe,you successfully made me cry my heart out but I love you for it.

I always love books like these,I LOVED the whole Shanghai vibes and it felt good to read something so beautifuly tragic set amidst the chaos that happened in the 1920s China.

Also does anyone know how can I get my own roma montagov who'd call me dorogaya oh so lovingly?!😭😭

[riosnecktattoo]

Ship History Meme!

Embrace your past and get to know your friends fandom origins!

Rules: Post gifs of your fabdoms/ships starting with your most current hyperfixation and work backwards. (Bonus points if you share any stories about how or when you got into that ship! But not necessary!!) Then tag anyone whose fandom history you'd like to learn about!

Tagged by the awesome @taraknowless ���️

1. Beth/Rio - Good Girls

Absolute shocker!

I actually owe it all to @hopelikethesun who I've been following for such a long time. When S2 started she was the only person I followed posting about it. I saw a few gifs and thought 'eh, he's not that hot' LOL and then a 2x04 gifset popped up and I went ummm excuse you? Then I felt the 'I want to watch this' urge. Thought it would be casual. It was not. This ship is flames and controls my life.

2. Karen & Frank - Daredevil S2/The Punisher

I deadass can't with Kastle. Seeing this violent angry but loving man fall apart about his soft badass fave lady constantly? Him tearing down an entire building to keep her safe? That's love mf. Absolutely beautifuly acted by Jon & Deb. I'm still gutted about Marvel stopping their shows. They were holding off till S3 to make these two fuck. But they still made it canon that they love eachother so I was thrilled. But I deserved my kiss. The almost kiss in the Elevator before forehead touching will always be iconic.

3. Carol & Daryl - The Walking Dead

When I say I used to think it wasn't possible I could ship anything more than these two? I mean it. The ship of Dreams.

I watched the show up until S8? Then I couldn't take it anymore. I had waited 8 fuckin years for Caryl and was tired of being baited. As much as I still do love them and check in, tptb are cowards and won't make it romantic explicitly. They'll just keep stringing fans along for views cause they know it's so popular.

And rightfully so. It's the most beautiful relationship. I remember watching S5 thinking 'this is my year! Caryl will be canon!' I fuckin baked Caryl cookies and put quotes on them! I was THAT much of a Caryl saddo! But they are on S10 and it's still not gone further than implication. It makes me so mad.

4. Jaime & Brienne - Game of Thrones

I have a lot of GoT ships, but Braime really is That Bitch™

I had loved them from the books, then NCW and Gwen are just far too perfect for these roles. They are ridiculousy adorable and beautiful and everything good about love. They put so much work in to understanding eachother. Jaime becomes a better man for her. They fight to the death for the other. They are just amazing.

The show absolutely destroyed them in the end, but fuck em, the books won't be ending that way. The show did an amazing job until those last few eps. Forever salty. Braime 4eva.

5. Sawyer & Kate - LOST

MY FIRST SHIP EVER! THE BEST SHOW EVER! This show made me the fangirl I am today. 11 year old Tay was born when this show aired.

If you didn't ship Skate, you were wrong. Jate was the most sauceless garbage ever and I'm still fuckin fuming about it.

It's not like Sawyer and Kate were the main ship for 5/6 of seasons? 🙃

They were fuckin beautiful and broken and had the most insane chemistry. That first kiss? Flamesssssss. Cage sex? Flamesssssss.

My first EVER fanfic was Skate! And I read it on my family computer! And it was filthy! And I minimised it thinking it was gone! It wasn't! My Dad found it! He read it to see what his 12yr old was up to! I've literally never been so embarrassed! 🙃

The day the finale aired I was wearing a SKATE FOR LIFE T-Shirt I had printed. I baked a LOST Cake. I baked cookies and wrote quotes on them. I dressed up as Charlie. I still have a Lost shelf in my bedroom.

This is who I am.

(Plz don't ask me for pictures of these things cause they do exist but I'm so tragic I just keep them to laugh at that lil nerd)

I'm taggin @medievalraven and @sothischickshe cause u gotta have some good ships in your repertoire! 😊

[clemintina]

Samurai 8 ch 20

This chapter did a great job adding layers of mystery to what is to come. The action scene were beautifuly drawn. It’s keeping my attention held for the time being and I excited to know how everything plays out.

Highlights:

We learned more about the regeneration of the samurai. This is good to know because it makes them less “invincible”. I was always curious on how they they died. Basically, since the head holds the key it controls everything, your body would just regrow from there. S/N: I really like the how the hands a drawn in this manga. I know that’s really random.

Hachimaru has gone through some positive character development. Before he had the “battle”, with Ryu, I was concerned about where his power level was because of the previous chapters. Although, Daruma helped him with that one power move to save the planet, it was really Daruma moves and Hachimaru’s. He has to train and gain more skills. I think the battle royal will help with this.

What is Ryu’s past? What was Kotsuga doing before he met Ryu? What happened to Daruma’s princess? Does Kotsuga have a tragic backstory? Is he jealous of Hachimaru? He gives me feelings of a jealous double crosser. We will find out eventually.

Ryu needs a samurai lesson from Daruma. It seems he understands battle but can’t understand anything else 😂😂😂. It is still pretty funny and cute. I’m pretty fond of his character now ☺️.

Finally, the organizer looks super cool with his holder. I’m pretty sure the holder is super cuddly😊. It kind of seems this was a trap. Very suspicious.

Until next time☺️

[booklover223]

JUST SEEN ENDGAME SPOILERS AHEAD RANT AHEAD

I FUCKING KNEW CAP WAS WORTHY I DIDNT KNOW HE COULD FUCKING SUMMON LIGHTNING THOUGH!! I CANT FUCKING BELEIVE THEY KILLED TONY LIKE THAT MY HEART ONLY ONE WAY ONLY ONE OUT OF MILLIONS THE WAY STRANGE HELD UP HIS FINGER THE WAY HE LOOKED SO FUCKING SAD FUCK THAT DUDE THE WAY TONY SACRIFICED HIMSELF FOR HIS DAUGHTER KILL ME NOW THIS WHOLE MOVIE WAS BEAUTIFULY TRAGIC AND MADE ME CRY SO MUCH I HAVE A HEADACHE NOW

[sangmer]

      & VOTES

                              A common expression from an critical mind.         Focus, an intense look that pins deep into         performance as a mentor for many. He         sought a sliver of magnificence with this         mix of armatures & professionals. Among         GHASTLY stories & VIBRANT performances,         Siebold hides his mouth with the back of his         hand, the aesthete judges by his OWN INTUITION.         Story after story, only few could accomplish         the feel that successfully strikes Siebold’s         fancy, his thirst for the ,macabre & uncanny.         Naturally, a story, with such themes would         have been a grand idea that introduced a         realm of creativity.        

    @ranseiuniter​   //  vote 1

      ‘ There was a close selection. Though         problems were far and few between ,         a refusal to select a performance that         was barely even viewable.   Though, HERE－         The beauty in eerie silence was delectable.         A foreign culture was always mysterious & this         expressed beautifully in an array of obscuring         phantoms and fog, with the tragic emotion of         sacrifice.                       LOVELY                             DREADFULLY         No cheap scares, a splendid performance that         satisfied the pallets of ones with premium         tastes. It may not been as bone-chilling as         more aggressive performances, but there was         a discovery of elegance in the ironic mixture         of dance & battle. ’       “The movements remind me that of the         alluring dance of the ghastly SENSU         oricorio.”         ‘ Not to mention the combination of efforts         exhibited by the pokemon.Use of illusions         was typical in a festival dedicated to         the Halloween theme, though there was         a uniqueness of actual interaction         between misty warriors & those watching         in person. It was the optimal choice to         plant a heart-stopping mark into the         memory of the crowd. ’

       @stageonmay​     // vote 2

     ‘ A contest performer who has had experience         with the stage before; this is obvious from         watching this performance. There had been         a theme here, dressed as well loved characters         and performing a a familiar tune.The meticulous         paint job on the pokemon was indeed a plus,         the adorned feigned patchwork on the         venasaur remained a highlight in costume         of choice.         Between piece & performance, there was         indeed little correlation besides the         aforementioned. Like a visual display at the         contests in Hoenn, what was placed on the         table  was TECHNIQUE & BOND.         The continuous use of combinations          ( as well as the expression of versatility         proven by the Beautifuly’s PSYCHIC ) paired          with any acts of trust between the contestant         & pokemon was the persistent show that had         been put on. Albeit, it seemed as if the         performance was all over the place from         time to time.   '         “It felt like a modern painting with colors that          popped ( almost irritatingly so ). Like a          cartoon-ish experiential piece.“

     @imbicilite​    //  vote 3

          ‘        A MUSICAL NUMBER.         NO- it was ever much more than a mere         performance. Explosive emotion based         off retaliation. Something of it felt RAW,         PERSONAL. Perhaps, this was his own         mind imposing, as it almost RESONATED         with him. WHO WAS THIS ACTOR?         Either way, a daring performance that a tinge         of turbulence was felt with the risky ROCK         TOMB. Placing oneself in the forefront of         the performance, using pokemon as mere         SUPPORT for the show, it was reminiscent         of the actual showcase performances. The         fright came from shock factor solely, a         shame seeing the frills are in the few         moves among petals and flames.   '

[poetryofabrokeninnerchild]

Disassociated. Depressed. Disturbed.

Too awake to the universe to enjoy the beauty that is captivated in ignorance.

I’ve got a mind that constantly tells me that I’m a piece of shit, but also the best person someone could ask for.

I have a lot of problems.

Not pretty poem problems, ready to be turned into an idolization of something beautifuly tragic.

I am the fucking tragedy.

I think I love myself but I hate life.

I hate the people who also breathe the air I do.

Most of them anyway.

For the open mind wanders and wonders why it’s so hard for other people to actually give a shit about anything non material and not themselves.

I’m in love with a woman that scares the shit out of me.

Not in a bad way, in the best way.

In the way of no matter whats going on between us, and no matter how icy I can be, I am constantly thinking about the way she smiles and smells and thinks and laughs.

I try to remind myself of the reasons I have to be happy.

But depression is my mistress.

Life is like a movie that starts off slow and painful.

I’ve already watched so much of it, that I’m curious to see how the never ending plot twists develop, and how they’re all connected.

I crave the follow through.

Though I am the actress, playing her roll while looking forward to the day the cameras stop rolling.

The day everything becomes nothing, or all of my questions get answered.

Until then.

J.A.N 4/6/2020 5:20AM