#Bc there’s still so much humanity left in him. He still has compassion. He still CARES about Adrien

[shima-draws]

For anyone doubting whether or not to watch the MLB movie: I do have lots of positive things to say about it, but most importantly. Fucking. Daddy Gabriel. HE IS SO!!! He is so.

If you’re gonna do it do it for him

[somepsychopomp]

Vampire!Simon AU

I'm not going to call this a Part 1 to an overarching fic or anything. This is more like a rough proof of concept to see if I'm really willing to devote more time to this AU over my toxic yuri butchblegum/Star!Marcy AU. (Bc i wanna write both but I have to start managing my time better)

Basically:

Simon found Marcy but got turned into a vampire before he went fully mad

Marcy is still the Star

Simon has been forced to act as the Vampire King's advisor for 1000 years

he finds and wants to save baby Finn

Word count: ~1700

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The Vampire King seldom hunted his own meals anymore. True, when he was a thousand years younger, he adored the hunt. He savored the screams and the pleading. Listening for the rush of spilled blood and the dwindling voices. But he was a true king now, he had a castle and a legion at his disposal. His ward. And nowadays, he quite enjoyed his food being delivered fresh at his feet. 

Perhaps it was because he could no longer enjoy the hunt with his court. Over the years, he lost his jester, his advisors. All of his inner circle save for his dearest Star. 

And his Temperance. 

As he heard the lesser vampire drones come in with that night’s catch, his daughter drifted in from one of the many tunnels overhead his throne. Her fangs glinted in the low light. 

“I wonder what’s for dinner.”

“I told them to bring you some women,” the King said. He knew his daughter was partial to the company and blood of females. 

The Star giggled in delight as the drones came in, pairs of them carrying their captured prey and dropping them before their masters.

Three men, two women. A fine enough meal. 

The Vampire King rose from his throne, stretching his maw wide to flex his jaw. The humans shook and cried in their fears. Some prayed, some closed their eyes. It made no difference in the end. They’d been exhausted or injured from the hunt and knew their fates were sealed. 

Then the most foul sound imaginable cut through the air. 

The King hissed, eyes narrowing. It seemed he was mistaken. There was a small lump on the ground among the humans, a dirtied blanket writhing in a slow, grotesque fashion. His attention shifted to the dozen or so minions who brought him dinner. 

“I told you you could eat those little things out there, but you can’t bring them in here! It’s already making such a ruckus.”

The drones quaked as much as the food, shivering as they hovered above the humans and pleaded for forgiveness. The King had half a mind to slay a few to set an example, but his shoulders stiffened at the sound of incoming footsteps. 

His feline ears flattened against his skull as he let out a sharp growl. 

“Dad?” Star asked. 

“Quickly, baby girl,” he said, pointing at the lump on the floor, “Eat that wretched thing, he’s coming!”

She understood without another word. The Star dashed for the humans, scattering them and making them scream. But they were not her targets yet. Instead, she grabbed the baby and peeled the blanket back, fangs bared. 

Too late. 

The King turned to spot Temperance appear at the base of the steps to his left. He seemed out of breath, clutching the entryway as he adjusted his glasses. Damn it all, he had heard the cries from a distance and came running. 

“Star!” he said. 

Her shoulders slumped as she retracted her fangs. “Temperance. Come on, let me have this one. It’s giving Dad a headache.”

Temperance approached The Star, smoothing over his pure white hair as he examined the bundle in her arms. She allowed him, as the King knew she would. 

Temperance took the infant from her and cradled it in his arms. He already had that look on his face, that expression of pure pity. He always had such a soft spot for human children. 

It was a blessing long ago, that compassion. It was what saved The Star from an early grave. But there was no place for it here, now. And they all knew it. 

Temperance looked to the King, lips parted. 

He held up a hand and his sole surviving advisor fell quiet. The baby still bellowed. The Vampire King pinched the bridge of his nose and sighed. He didn’t want to argue like the last time. Temperance was mostly a man of reason, so he tried to appeal to that part of him. 

“It won’t survive long, you know this,” he said quietly. As great and terrible as he was, it gave the King no pleasure to see the pinched expression on his advisor’s face. 

“They’ll fare better this time.” Temperance said. “I’ve learned from my past mistakes.”

That didn’t say much. Disease, malnutrition, and the stray, hungry minion had ended each and every one of Temperance’s past wards. They just didn’t have the protection that the king, the most absolute authority, had given to his own daughter, though Temperance was loath to admit this. 

The King regarded his advisor. “How long has it been since your last pet?”

Temperance said, averting his gaze, “About a hundred years.”

He was jostling the little thing now. Rocking it. At least it was growing a little more silent. 

And wasn’t that the thing about Temperance? 

His endless patience, his endless devotion?

The Vampire King had praised it so highly in the past. 

“Dad,” The Star said. She drifted over to him and put her hand on his shoulder, “Let him try again.”

He scoffed, surprising even himself. “You of all people want a human infant in the hive?”

She grimaced. “Not really. But it’d mean a lot to him.”

“Please,” Temperance said. He was holding that little thing so close to his chest, his heart. As if he were already fond of it. He asked, “Haven’t I served you well all these years?”

The King sighed. Temperance was a good caretaker. He taught The Star to read and write, and helped take care of her for the past thousand years. 

It was true that while Temperance has always been painfully sentimental, he had been good to them.

“Very well,” the Vampire King said. He pointed at Temperance. “Keep the child. But I don’t want to hear it cry.”

Relief flooded Temperance’s face, making him seem much younger than he was. He exhaled softly and bowed. 

“Thank you, my lord.”

“However,” the King said. 

In half a second, he’d crossed the gap between himself and Temperance. His advisor hardly flinched. 

The Vampire King said, “I am not scared of some little blood bag. But humans are savage things. It’ll grow up to be a nuisance without proper discipline. And the moment it so much as threatens The Star,” he took Temperance’s chin in his clawed hand and forced him to meet his King’s eye, “the moment it ever threatens you, I will rip its throat out. Do you understand, Temperance?”

“Yes, I do,” Temperance said, a resigned look in his eyes. “Thank you.”

He began to leave, that child almost quiet now. 

“You won’t stay for dinner?” Star asked. 

He paused at the bottom of the steps and smiled over his shoulder. “I’m not really hungry.”

Typical. He never ate from live meals, only the bottled stuff. Well, not that it mattered much to the King. More for him and his baby girl. 

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Temperance fled up the stairs before he could hear the crush of bones and the ripping sound of flesh being cleaved. After a millennium, it still made him sick. 

The baby in his arms began to warble a fresh bout of cries. 

“No, no. Hush, now,” Temperance whispered. He knew what he needed to do. 

He stopped by his library only briefly, just to pick up a tattered red scarf from a box beneath his desk. Away from the eyes of the vampire drones and the rest of the court, he sated his hunger by sucking the red from the fabric. 

A small hand pawed at the air before landing on the now-white scarf, bunching it up in one little fist. 

“Oh, you want it?” Temperance asked. He let the baby hold it as he continued on his way. His wing of the vampiric castle consisted of a sprawling, multistory library, his private baths, his bedchambers, and one small adjoining room that hadn’t been used in a hundred years. 

But everything was as he left it. The minions kept it clean of dust for him as per his request, but they didn’t move or touch anything. 

Temperance sat in the rocking chair by the crib, undoing the baby’s dirtied blanket to reveal the little body within. 

“Oh!”

The baby’s face was ruddy from his bout of crying. But he was chubby and healthy. No motley coloring to the skin, no signs of injury or infection. What was even more fascinating, however, was his white hat. Despite the lack of distinct eyes or a nose, the little ears were emblematic of an animal. Perhaps a dog or a bear. 

It’d been a while since he’d seen a human with an animal hat, he thought this tradition died out a century or two ago. Many vampires nowadays, even the most simple-minded and animalistic ones, knew how to circumvent an animal hat.  Temperance took off the baby’s hat and turned it inside out. 

And yes, there on the inner brim was a handsewn name. 

“Finn,” he said aloud. “Is that you, baby Finn?”

He smiled, replacing the child’s hat and watching his curious eyes wander the room. 

Then it dawned upon him. He felt a terrible weight upon his chest, a crippling guilt. 

“Oh… you poor thing.”

If Finn had a name sewn into his hat, it must have meant he came from someone who remembered the old ways of humans. Someone still in tune with human culture. 

His culture. Temperance’s chest ached. 

None of the adults that were brought in with the child tried to fight for him. Perhaps he didn’t belong to any of them, that he was taken from his true parents. If they were even alive, that was.  

“I’m sorry,” Temperance said, “I’m so sorry.”

He wrapped Finn in the white scarf and held him close. 

“Listen to me, Finn.” he said gently, “I’m going to take good care of you, I promise.”

Finn cooed and popped his lips. Simon laughed softly despite himself. He knew he was weak in comparison to the other vampiric royals. But he was even more so when it came to children. 

“My name is Temperance, but you can call me Simon.” 

[sacredheart-stigmata]

Why do you worship a god who seems to hate you so much? Why do you worship a god who wants to prevent you from doing things that bring you pleasure, who cuts you off from other gods, and who says you're wrong the way you are and that you have to change for him? Jesus sounds abusive. None of my gods would ever do something like that to me. The main goddess I worship is Hel and she's really nice to me, she gives me hugs, and encourages me to engage in my desires and follow my ambitions. There are better gods for you to worship, you don't have to hate yourself or harm yourself.

It is like 3 the morning so excuse me if this is phrased badly, but I couldn’t sleep after seeing this so I figured I’d answer it now. I’m also on my phone, so please forgive any typos. You seem to be approaching in good faith, so I’m going to try and answer the same. Forgive me for this not being very scripture based or filled with citations; this answer is in regards to my heart only.

First, I don’t believe god hates me at all. I have never thought that, actually. When I left the church for six years and experimented with other religions, i still knew that god as I understood her, didn’t hate me. I didn’t even believe in her, yet I knew that was what I firmly believed.

So, I was raised episcopal-catholic (ma is episco, daddy is catholic, I know go to a episcopal church), but I consider myself a ‘lapsed cradle convert’ which means to me that despite being raised and baptized and confirmed in the church, my relationship with god is so new that I feel like a convert. I am trans, and gay. All of that growing up left me desperately wanting attention, and being the ‘perfect’ daughter of god got me that. Even had people joke I would be a nun. But my faith was nonexistent. I didn’t believe at all. I was going through the motions 100%. And that is completely okay in my eyes. Not believing isn’t some horrible sinful thing. Our relationship with the divine doesn’t work that way. When I left the church, it was easy bc I didn’t really believe. Now that I’m back, it feels like I’m entering for the first time, and I’ve never been happier with my faith.

But back to god hating me. I genuinely have never believed that. Maybe I’m lucky for being raised in a church where hell was barely mentioned, but I know my mother has always stressed the importance of god’s love and compassion. We don’t agree on everything theologically, but that is one thing that she made sure I knew from an early age. God, to me, feels incredibly soft. Warm and fluffy in my heart. A gentle touch on my soul, beckoning me. Gentle and patient, meeting me at my own pace. Waiting and helping and full of love, so full of desire to be beside me. The Creator/Father/Mother is gentle. They created a beautiful world and made me apart of it. They are my parent, overwhelmed in their love for their child and waiting with bated breath for me to return that love. Not forced, but coxed.

Jesus is my beloved. He holds me when I’m frightened. He kisses me goodnight. He adores me as I adore him. I had an episode tonight where I wanted to self harm really badly, but imaging him squeezing me from behind and running his hands down my arms brought me comfort I cannot explain.

The Holy Spirit confused me, honestly. Not in that I don’t understand her role or place as God, but because I can’t seem to neatly place her in a box— which feels like the whole point! She is unknowable, yet completely beside me at all times. Perfect wisdom. Together, the great IAM.

Second, I don’t believe god cuts me off from pleasure. What pleasure does he prevent me from? God doesn’t care if I have pre marital sex or love a man or masturbate— she cares that I treat people with love. The church? Yeah, they care. But they are not god!! They are humans, fallible, full of mistakes! The god I love asks for two things: that I love them with all my heart and that I love everyone. And you know what? As hard as loving everyone is, trying has been significantly better for my mental health. Thanks god!

So being ‘cut off’ from other gods doesn’t bother me as I don’t believe in them. Hard to miss what you’ve never cared to consider. But I think you should look into christo-paganism on tumblr and you’ll find that this statement is technically true, but far more complicated in practice.

And again. I do not believe for one second god wants me to change who I am. Be a better person? Change for good? Be less angry, less hateful, more patient, more compassionate, love justice more, give to others, fight for others— they expect all of that. My transness? They don’t give a damn; they made me trans! I am loved as I am, and I don’t need to fundamentally change myself.

Also, I’m curious. What about Jesus, not god the father or the spirit, but Jesus himself, is abusive? I’ve heard people argue god the father is for asking us to love him (while they at the same time talk about loving Aphrodite or Isis) but for me, I don’t need god to ask me to love him. He’s good enough that I don’t have to be asked.

Basically, how you described Hel? That IS my relationship with the divine, with god. That exactly. God has never made me hate myself. God has NEVER asked me to harm myself. We are in a mutually beneficial relationship. The church? An institution of men. Not god. At all.

I hope this isn’t too preachy. I’d love a reply. However, jsyk what you did is exactly the same as an evangelical coming into your inbox to preach why god is better than Hel. It was extremely inappropriate, and I don’t think you should ever do something like this to anyone.

Okay it’s like 3:35 thank you for your time.

[favouritefi]

I love your Terror catboy AU, it’s a funky combination of adorable drawings and Victorianesque pseudoscientific hierarchies. However, it made me wonder about catgirls/doggirls; if you’re happy to answer, how do you see the intersection of gender and hybridity playing out in this universe?

I LOVE THIS QUESTION THANK YOU FOR THIS QUESTION i have a lot of thots on this bc the whole "angel in the house" image of the ideal (middle class) victorian woman is such a fun concept to play with more under cut

ok so what im about to say rn really only applies to middle class and upper class women in this au as those are the main characters in the terror if we get into the lower classes its a more complicated and nuanced story.

anyway in victorian times women were expected to be chaperoned everywhere by an older woman such as a female relative or female servant lest she be corrupted by the ills of the world and by men etc. this is where cat/doggirls come in. its expected that if you have a daughter then you goooootta adopt a companion or two for her both to show off your status and to ensure that your daughter has a friend / chaperone / mentor / moral compass for life. so in cat/dogpeople households the cat/dogboys usually go off to whatever institution their bloodline is associated with and cat/doggirls usually become companions for the wives and daughters of the men employed by those institutions. its very different from human family structures because the expectation here is that your child will not stay with your household, youre making children knowing that they will likely not belong to you regardless of whether they are male or female and that you might never see them again once theyre adopted and they need to be adopted or else its a failure on you and your bloodline. (grim i know) this system is also why each generation of cat/dogpeople tends to be fairly large, little and hodgson and irving all have an overabundance of siblings and cousins many of whom theyve never met in their life.

interestingly, cat/doggirls are actually more valued amongst these families than cat/dogboys because cat/dogboys can only be sent off to the institution the bloodline is associated with whereas cat/doggirls can be sent off to any upper/middle class household regardless of association and it would still be considered respectable AND it creates new relationships between human families that the human owners might find beneficial (kind of like how marriage was historically the exchange of women to strengthen political ties between families). this means that excess cat/dogboy sons are often disappointing to the parents - edward little is one of these. all 3 of his elder brothers had already left for the navy so he grew up playing w his sisters and getting dolled up in their dresses and being told that oh he'd make such a pretty girl and pretty bride oh if only he'd been born a girl etc. totally doesnt fuck him up.

speaking of fucked up theres hickey and his whole situation w sophia. having a catboy as a companion for an upper class girl is a big no-no and only happened because [insert hickey backstory here that is too long and really should have its own post]. no body approves of this but sophia loves him so very much and they were inseparable up until they were separated when sophia went to tasmania with the franklins and hickey was abandoned to the streets against both his and sophias will. sophia refused to adopt a new more appropriate companion in tasmania and after the franklins returned to england she tried to find him but couldnt and assumed he died. then when it seems like the ships are lost and jane starts campaigning for a rescue mission suddenly hickey shows up and for a few blissful years they are together again. he is older and quieter and has scars he wont explain, but hes still hickey and sophia still loves him. and then sir john comes back and fucks all of that up again.

sorry this was meant to be about gender dynamics in my deranged catboy au but i got distracted by hickey (as per usual)

[malka-lisitsa]

a few days ago, i saw someone's post in the tags say something like: "she [elena] wasn’t even born yet when your [katherine's] life went up in flames and also you’re the one who took everything from her, including possessing her to live out her life." can i ask: what do you [katherine's mun] think about those statements?

Oh this is a very heavy question to give thoughts on. Buckle up buttercup.

I'm about to serve some hot tea.

Yes, Katherine's life has never been happy. Or good, she's been through way too much shit for literally anyone. She didn't deserve 90% of the treatment that she got.

Originally that had nothing to do with Elena they are correct there.

Where they are wrong is that she took everything from Elena. Bc Elena's life went to shit the second Stefan stepped into it. Stefan drug Elena into the supernatural world. He started all of that nonsense that caused so much pain and suffering for the mystic falls gang.

Katherine was not the start. Katherine didn't even tell Klaus about Elena, the originals found Elena through Rose and Trevor who were trying to repay a debt of a lost doppelganger.

Katherine actually tried several times to offer an olive branch of peace towards Elena it was Elena who was hellbent on treating Katherine like shit- so she reacted accordingly. Elena was supposed to be the patron saint of compassion remember? It's literally what everyone says they love about her, but she had zero compassion for Katherine at any point even after Katherine tried to level with Elena and be open about her past. Katherine didn't start being excessively nasty towards Elena till Elena was nasty towards her. Which again, is in large part the Salvatores fault bc they both painted this inaccurate portrait of who Katherine is and refused to budge and Even after hearing the truth Elena didn't either. Bc Katherine always lies right? Except she doesn't.

Now. As for the stealing her body to live out her life, I do agree Katherine was very wrong in that regard, so what Im going to say isn't justification but rather an explanation to why she did what she did.

You have to understand that it's been three years of Katherine helping these people out and every single time having her alleged sins thrown in her face (I say Alleged because 85% of what they accuse her of is not even her fault. In fact STEFAN caused his own problem in 1864.)

It's been three years of Katherine helping out trying to prove she isnt who they think she is. Telling the truth, getting called a liar, getting blamed for things she didn't do, being shit on, being spat at by the people she loves the most in the world watching other people (damon) do way worse things than she ever did and getting forgiven and finding none for herself. Constantly being treated second rate when it's very clear Stefan is still in love with her he's just determined to be a bitch about it-

She tried to leave and be with Elijah and he rejected her for Klaus AGAIN after No humanity Elena caused a fight with them- Id like to ADD that Katherine didn't even Kill Jeremy. Silas did. Katherine Bit him and left him, but he didn't DIE till Silas snapped his neck. She was long gone. That could have been anyone's situation they literally just ASSUMED she did it because she had the cure. And if you want to say Katherine biting him was a death sentence then oh boy do I have a lot of instances where a simple action that caused a shitty outcome was Elena/Damon/Stefan's doing and they never got shit for it.

Anyway- it's important to remember that katherine is BPD and doesn't handle rejection well AT ALL. Elena caused the fight between them, Katherine viewed that (since she had zero other information) as the reason Elijah abandoned her. She spiraled out and beat Elena's ass about it. And tbfh Elena shouldn't have won that fight and if it werent for plot armour and Julie being incapable of writing a good story, ELENA WOULDN'T HAVE. But here we are.

Now Katherine is human, and twice as mortal as she was before. This is the girl who's terrified of DEATH. She has been fighting for her own survival for 500 years and suddenly that got turned up from hard to hardcore mode. Shes already in a constant state of fight or flight and now its turned up to 100 because every little thing matters now. AND STILL she spends her time trying to help Stefan and the gang. And STILL they treat her like SHIT.

Stefan had literally slept with her and then snubbed her so aggressively, it completely destroyed her emotionally. She's spiraling out HARD when she made the choice to take Elena's body. She wants STEFAN. Stefan is her only comfort in the whole fucking world, (sorry Nadia but like wbk...) To Katherine she has to have Stefan to be happy. And happiness and to be loved is all she fucking wants in life so badly she was willing to let him think she was someone else just for a taste of the love she has wanted so badly for 500 years and found in him.

So naturally her spiraled out silly goofy brain landed on Elena.

"Youd never look at me the way you look at Elena would you?"

Obviously this traumatized spiraled out BPD girl took an opportunity she was presented. Elena had NEVER treated Katherine with any kindness or respect so why should Katherine give a fuck about Elena when Elena never gave a fuck about her?

BuT sHe SaId AlL tHaT sTuFf To HeR wHeN sHe WaS dYiNg-

yea and it was all bullshit and it took Katherine on her death bed for Elena to even pretend to see her as a person instead of a problem. MOVING ON-

That whole story line was reaping what they Sowed honestly. Had anyone listened, or treated Katherine with any kind of respect all of that would have gone very differently.

So do I think that Elena stole everything from Katherine? No, not alone. She definitely had help painting her unrelenting imagery of Katherine. A lot had already been taken from Katherine before Elena too. That's a heavy contributing factor here is that Katherine had already lost so much in life she found happiness with Stefan and she deserved it. She wasn't going to let it go. She shouldn't of had to.

Had Stefan not blamed her for shit HE CAUSED everything would have gone so much differently.

It's a very grey area in terms of blame because it's on everyone. Literally everyone, and i do mean including Katherine. I do not and will never say she did nothing wrong bc she DID. But Elena also never treated Katherine fairly. Neither did Stefan. Neither did Damon. No one treated her fairly and its incredibly stupid to put all the blame on Katherine's shoulders when she is a REACTIONARY creature. She reacts to her environment. They created the hostile environment and then blamed her when she reacted to it.

I think Elena got tangled up in a lot of shit she shouldn't have been tangled up in, and I think it was shitty that she went through a lot of the shit she went through. But Katherine had 500 more years of pain and suffering that no one even batted an eye at. There was so much potential that was glossed over because Julie is a shit bird who can't write for shit.

I don't agree with half of what the OP you were talking about said, but I will agree with Elena wasn't ALL of Katherine's problems she was just a large contributing factor to her behaviors. But again, it wasn't even JUST Elena. Stefan and Damon contributed to a lot of her behaviors too.

People don't look at all the pieces and all the moving parts. You will never see them with Elena goggles on either. I don't blame Elena for everything bad that happened to Katherine, but pretending like Katherine was responsible for everything bad that happened to Elena is the dumbest cold take I've ever heard of.

Thank you for coming to my ted talk. I hope this was an interesting read for you, and thank you for investing in my blog and insight on Katherine.

[monards]

(I've just had Normal thoughts brewing for so long with nowhere to spew them I've thought about rhinedottir Genshin impact a normal amount) but another Bedtime story my brain tells me is where Alice sets up a surprise reunion because Rhine at her core is a loving mother, but mental issues and abyssal corruption warped her to slowly become colder towards Albedo until she left him. BUT!!! months later she showed up in front of Alice crying because she just now processed she pushed her human son out of her life and (after being like "I know😐 I had to take that broken child in😐") Alice finds a way to bring them together again (usually my brain says it's set up as her coming to see Klee). Rhinedottir was going to play it cool and try to keep her emotions controlled while she apologized, but Albedo was so shocked to see her again that he calls her mom while crying. The last time he called her that was when he first learned to speak, so hearing it now just breaks her. It ends with both crying and hugging each other because they deserve some familial love

Anon. i fear to tell you. these are not normal thoughts (sitll love them though.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! as much as they've ruined my night and mad eme cry!!!!!!!!!!!!)

I always sort of imagined that Rhine was still pretty emotionally distant when khaneri'ah wasn't. gone. mostly because of how the culture there seemed to be,,, but thinking about this too…. the buildup would've been. insane. OUGHJSHHSIOO THIHIS IS KILLING ME. RHINEEEEEEEEEEE

I think it isn't acknowledged enough that Rhine DID seem to be good (at some point) at the beginning,, because as much as we can take into account the fact that most her kids don't perceive things normally; I doubt literally all of them (besides dorian. because he's a unique case. LMAO) would be so enamored with her as their mother/creator IF she hadn't been a loving mother at one point or another, or in atleast one aspect..,,, which is why she is most certainly fucked up after seeing half of those guys die. there's most certianly something, deep in her heart!!! you are so right!!!!!!!!!!! I appreciate the idea of Alice of all people being the one to facillitate it sooo mmuch,,,,, alice's character is built sosoo well on the idea of family and compassion... after chastising her for being a deadbeat mother,, i doubt she'd let the chance for her to plan this slip by (ESPECIALLY considering the fact albedo is so obviously keen on seeing her again) its just auguhhhhhh... they are such a little family and they make me ill.

Thisss would actually be. so fucked up in my head. because albedo would be the first of pretty much all her children who she'd see after sending out. Elynas, durin, even the unicorn who's mentioned once,, all just either died or vanished after Rhinedottir set them off (not including riftwolves bc those mfs were an accident.) ,,, imagine how bittersweet it'd be to see your last remaining son alive. and better than before. OUGH Albedo was taughtt sooo much about family and love in mondstadt,, and I swear I've made a post before on how he'd obviously realize at SOME point that rhine wasn't really completely horrible, as mean and strict as he was... annd oughhh him seeing her again... after so longn.... they hurt me. they both hurt me so much. I think. i think that if albedo called her mom I would tear in half. because the wayy hoyo keeps using the mother narrative in this game has already teared my emotional state to bits... and albedo calling the great sinnner..... gold... rhinedottir his mother. i'd throw up. everywhere. the most evil women on the planet but he's still her mother. OAUUGHHHHHHHHHHHH

i hope you know these asks are making me. so incredibly sick. I love them. THankyou.

[kakushusband]

O-kay whatever I'm gonna do mini lore dumps for some of my DC guys bc I'm bored. Read or readn't but I need to get the thoughts out somehow

• I don't believe Citrus and Red were married until *After* the Rise of the Tornado Tyrant episode, where Citrus' redemption arc truly begins after saving Roy (tornado champion/tyrant whatever I think the names r stupid) from himself. However that is also the catalyst for a huge strain in their relationship that lasts a bit offscreen because That was your Child and he Loved you. Both Red and Citrus really need a time out after that whole mess. Oh also Citrus really fucking hates Bruce after it and threatens to kill him if he ever gets close to his family again and that's my excuse for Red's abrupt disappearance (aside from him retiring as a hero) LOL. You'd have to watch the EP to really get it but yeah it changes a whole lot of things for my little weird family.

• Cupid is a weird little guy because I'm still working out how I want the Star Sapphires to work, since I'm very aromantic and the thought of Romantic Love as a constant in the human psyche makes me violent. I think the ring feeds off of positive feelings of comfort and (any kind of) love to give the user strength so it's encouraged that whoever's relationship youre mending, you should get close to that person to help them out even more. Both Indigos and Sapphires r rehab groups basically but one is made of Patients and the other is made of Therapists. If that makes any sense? They're twinsies because love and compassion are very similar + they're very close in the spectrum anyways. All of this to say, Cupid and Rudy work best bc they feed off of each other but they're normal about it. This is a very new thing I'm trying to integrate into their story bc i came up with it, like, Yesterday.

• Bruno is the most skittish weird guy you'll ever meet and his whole thing is about how sometimes there isn't an out for ppl that don't look like they're supposed to, even if they're not inherently evil. Like, he can't Mask who he is and he's not going to live in the shadows about it. If his existence is seen as a twisted state of being, living unapologetically as himself will be looked down upon one way or another - so he'd rather be with people everyone else fucking hates. He's the most autistic bitch I've ever written bc of how he was raised and is perceived + chooses to act (I don't mask anymore now that I'm in my 20s and it's a joy + being queer in a world that thinks you're depraved bc of it). He's not a villain by Choice by any means, but he has more fun hanging out with outcasts than with "good guys". He's a petty thief, not a monster, but god if he isn't going to put his whole pussy into being a weird bitch.

• oh Voltera... Darling, I'm so sorry. This guy was orphaned from a young age and his parents were Not from earth and didn't know anyone there by the time they died + their families had fully ostracized them back home. In truth Alesan weasels take the "it takes a village to raise a child" thing to heart, so a kit being left alone is heartbreaking. Plus, it means Voltera is barely aware of why he does certain things that weren't explained to him growing up, and it made him very immature and weird. He was generally considered "too much to handle" in any foster home he was sent to (because literally no one knew how to raise him. It's literally like getting an energetic pet you're not ready for - there's Going to be biting, and you're Going to be frustrated) and eventually just becomes a street urchin trying desperately to fit in with anyone his age. Mekt is semi sorta in the same position by being a weird loser no one really likes, so they make good friends from the start bc of it. I'm so normal about them.

• Alborean. God I haven't really touched on him here but he's the most Sure of himself out of any of my losers. There isn't even anything tragic going on with him, he just does what he does because he Wants to do it. He's the bastard son of the former Doppelganger emperor/whatever so he has immense potential for being an edgy loser (Citrus killed him off or something, but he's dethroned by the time Alborean comes to earth one way or another. Plus he was an illegitimate child and his dad didn't want shit to do with him, it would be So easy for me to write him as desperate and brooding) but he's incredibly self sufficient instead. He's the only guy I'll bring into Batman Beyond I think, and he's Essential to saving Victor from death because oh my god that sucked so bad.

• Winona

Kidding, but Winona is the same species as my other sona, Kit Karyotype (Marvel S/I) and closely related to Eudicot Sangria's (Futurama S/I) species. The major difference is that Anguipera Venenata have relatively normal eating habits and actively hunt for prey with venom or brute strength while Anguipera Amedo eat a huge meal once every month or so and are far less aggressive. Still working on how Winona gets with Scott and Barda but I'll get there one day.

• I wrote a huge thing for orchard but accidentally deleted it and I'm too tired to do it all over again. Sorry! That one was the biggest and had the most thought put into it. One day I'll come back I'm just so fucking mad rn

[self-ships-ahoy]

TW suicide mention (not me I promise)

Putting it under a cut but there are some important developments to how I'm going to approach my ship with Ramattra.

I really really tried to go along with the canon. But there is a limit to what I'm going to tolerate. And when in-game commentary has lead tumblr users to speculate that Ramattra may be suicidal because he can't grasp the meaning of his own life, and that that ideation is then passed onto the drone bots he's creating to fight, I have to step in.

Attack humanity, sure they deserve it. Brainwash omnics, we can have a talk about that. But do all of that because you're having a mental crisis and are self destructing, I have to stop things right there. I was going to let canon progress as normal, but if anything, the presence and influence of my s/i would definitely help his psyche, naturally, just because someone is there for him.

Again, I'm not going ' i can fix him', but if he had just someone who could help him through this, so he wouldn't be lashing out, so he wouldn't feel cornered enough to be brainwashing omnics, we would all be better off especially him bc he does not deserve this he didn't even ask to be made.

I am also in no way going "uwu gf love solves everything", and that is NOT what my s/i is here to do- to like, heal him with the power of love or something. But........he needs me. He needs to see a living example of human kindness and compassion that's still alive in the species, a proof that's irrefutable as she's standing right there in front of him. An exception to the rule, perhaps, but an exception that does exist. He needs someone who knows him, all his machinations and secrets, deeply and intimately, to catch him in his triggers and can help bring him to reason so he can feel what he needs to feel without acting on it. He needs an anchor to the love in his heart so he doesn't go on adrift in the hate. He needs me and it's breaking my heart to watch a world go by where I don't exist and he's left to fall apart.

And really...is it too unrealistic to say love isn't powerful enough to change the world? It already has before.

I love him so much it hurts. Every time I start to think it'd be too complicated for me to work out, every time I want to give up because rewriting the story to account for my presence seems impossible for me to do, my love draws me back to him. To be a part of his world, a part of his heart - to share a love that changes the world, that's too strong a notion in my mind to ignore.

[astrangergivingthestrangewelcome]

Incoherent Renfield meta I guess???

So in terms of what Stoker wanted to convey, I don't think he was quite aware of the extent of awfulness and psychiatric abuse Seward was dealing out to Renfield (although you cannot convince me that he was unaware that Seward was a bit of a little freak like that's just characterization how could he have done such a thorough job of creating such a pathetic little man by accident)- however there definitely is this story of idk. growth that comes from compassion, and I wish I could hear from Stoker himself what he was going for with it.

We all want to root for Renfield bc god anyone that goes through Victorian lunatic asylum trauma you immediately want to see win- but when we do see Renfield use his limited agency to do things, they are often selfish and violent things. He very much does want to join the Count, and wants to gain that immortality and power that the Count has. I don't know that there's evidence Renfield wants to dominate the way the Count does but Renfield believes that blood will strengthen him and he for sure is all in on taking human life and feeding on human blood. He does attack Seward and also those guys who were moving the Count and I fully believe that he would have killed them if left to his own devices. He has no power and has been systemically abused... but he's also dangerous.

However, the more I examine his actions... why would he be anything other than selfish and dangerous. Who does he have in life that would cause him to bother with empathy? We know so little about who he was before being admitted. He almost killed two people in the course of this novel- but before that did he try anything violent or was it just the consuming animals thing that got him locked up? Did he have people he cared about? We just don't know.

What's interesting to me is he seems to be on this track of enthusiastically aiding and abetting the Count in his efforts to kill others (and the Count is for sure manipulating him and it's not an equal relationship, but I do think that Renfield understands that the Count does hurt and kill people, and accepts this at the beginning of the novel) but the moment Mina speaks to him and seems decent and kind he immediately has a fit of conscience. There's this implicit understanding "oh she will be hurt, I like her, she doesn't deserve to be hurt." It's more than just an immediate change though. He begs Seward to not let him be alone at night bc he knows that he's not going to be equal to resisting the temptation to let the Count in- and he's super not. And the Count may have been doing vampire mind powers on him, but I don't think that's the full story. The Count tempts him with life. and Renfield despite understanding that Mina is going to be hurt, still wants that life and that immortality enough to let him in. He has a developed dream and he has the desire to do right by Mina and they're at odds.

His ensuing conversation with Seward about souls is so interesting because it's this conflict put under a microscope. He is pleased and excited at the thought he's going to finally get to consume life and be immortal, and he's seemed to make the decision to just ignore the part of it he knows is wrong, but Seward presses the fuck out of the idea that every life he takes means that he is responsible for the soul of the organism as well and this just. Undoes Renfield. When treated like an adult Renfield is capable of engaging with morality and finding his own moral code of right and wrong, and this combined with the fact that he has a face for Mina in the way he never had a face for Lucy is what causes him to give up everything trying to right his mistake.

I think he could have gotten there much sooner than he did. But he lives in an asylum and the person he talks to the most is a doctor who is obsessed with studying him like a lab rat and who does not think about Renfield as a human being who might be able to function in society again after treatment. Isolated and friendless as Renfield was he could ignore the morality of his actions and pursue his own ends. The moment Mina treats him normally that worldview becomes untenable and he begins a slow days long process of accepting that he cannot go on helping the Count. It's a very thought out decision for him. He is giving up his life's work because he realized his life's work was wrong. That's a lot.

This seems like a cautionary tale to treat people like people honestly. Even when they have severe and rather unpleasant mental illnesses that make then kill and consume animals raw. In the end Renfield was perfectly capable of understanding that he didn't have the right to fuck with the lives of others to suit his own ends. He learned that lesson. I bet he could have learned that lesson without so much bloodshed if anyone had cared to reach out to him earlier.

[mariailoveyou-guerin]

Nathan Shelly I love you, you have never done anything wrong in your life boo never! people making him into a villain just because he didn’t wanna be in environment where he was treated like shit and bullied for years by rich spoiled fotballer like be for real but Jamie who y’all forgave like that and whom y’all love now bc he was nice for 1 season and whom y’all want to be gay all is sudden is forgiven and loved by the fandom I wonder why? but Nate isn’t but is made to be the villain bc he left a horrible bullying toxic privileged spoiled people environment that didn’t appreciate or acknowledge him and Colin the rest get to treat him like shit Colin literally was worse “did I stutter kitman” at least Jamie was trash to eveyone not just Nate sure him more but still Colin had no reason to be that horrible to Nate and now bc one has horrible garbage dad and the other is yt twink loser they get a pass? not on my watch never on my watch is a boring yt twink whos whole story is he’s a twink ever gonna or the hag losers who relate to him gonna make my boy feel like the villain maybe your loser twink shouldnt act like hes majo dude by being a horrible person first if I’m supposed to care about him

I’m sorry but nah I like Colin now but the way he was treating Nate in season 1 bullying and the only reason he apologized was bc the real majo dude he imitated when he was bullying Nate told him to! Fcvk that Colin the way y’all stand up for or have amnesia when your boring yt meow yt fav does something or forgive him in heartbeat bc he has a sad backstory bad dad or he’s just a bland basic twink but will vilify demonize a poc character for giving back just small part of what they gave him is insane not surprising tho same old shit in fandoms vilifying poc but find excuses or puts your yt meow meow twink or broken boy on pedestal never giving them the same treatment vilfy dehumanize the poc but have so much compassion understand feel for empathize and have excuses for the yt character! the double standard hypocrisy of it all I’m so mf tired even tho its the same bull shit in every fandom I’m tired!y’all expect so much from poc characters have such high expectations for y’all to even like care or acknowledge them as humans they can never do say anything wrong especially never to ur yt fav def never to a yt twink!

[dreaminginvelaris]

feyre appreciation <3

its my high lady’s birthday so im gonna make a post about all the things feyre has done that made me love her. will probably be a long post :)✨

even though feyre was still wary of fae, she still consoled that dying fae and held his hand through it all. she showed compassion to someone whos kind she hated before.

when she returned to the human lands as a rich woman and one of the first things she did was go back to her poor village and hand out bags of gold for the poor because she did not forget those who were left behind.

when she caught the suriel but was later ambushed and she still took the time to set the suriel free even though she could have left him to die.

when she risked her life and went UTM for someone she loved knowing what could happen.

when she showed skill and killed the wyrm and then at the end threw that bone at amarantha.

when she threw that shoe at rhysand

when she gave her jewelry to the wraith so she can pay for the tithe

when she decided to not run and hide but fight for the people of velaris instead and then she created her water wolves and birds and attacked the enemy.

when she killed the attor for clare, for rhysand and for herself

when she went feral when rhys was captured and used her newfound skills and training to find and rescue him

when she left rhys after finding out they were mates and demanded to be taken somewhere where she could think and be alone because she needed it

when she sacrificed herself at hybern for her family and went back to a place where she was abused.

when she forced ianthe to crush the hand she was using to sexually assault lucien, with a rock until ianthe had tears running down her face.

when her and jurian sent the bogge after the hybern twins

when feyre fought the hybern twins and won

when she unveiled the hand with the tattoo of her high lady title to eris

when eris said theres no such thing as a high lady and my queen said “there is now”

when feyre presented her bargains with bryaxis and the bone carver to rhys as a mating present

when feyre went for the ouroboros and looked into the mirror, fully knowing she could go insane but did it for a chance to save her people

when she went to summer court to fight for the innocents

when she spoke up for herself and said she couldn’t fight in the war because she was not ready.

when mor told her about her sexuality and feyre promised her she would keep the secret until mor was ready and then smiled bc now she could help with the matchmaking

when feyre was able to fly while she was escaping hybern camp after volunteering to save elain

when she fangirled at the sight of nephelle

when she could not leave the poor human girl at the hybern camp and risked her life to save her too.

when feyre kicked berons ass for insulting her mate and she did it amazingly

when she saved the world by fixing the cauldron

when feyre and cassian got drunk putting up the winter solstice decorations

when she decided she was ready to have a child and knew this was what she wanted next

when she never gave up on her sister even though she had all the right to do so

when she was there for cassian while he was going through the hard times with nesta

when she touched her belly and refused to be scared for one second and decided she would fight for her child and would not be afraid.

when high lady feyre archeron became a mother to the most beautiful baby boy, Nyx.

theres probably so much more that i missed, shes just done so much and these were at the top of my head. im literally so appreciative of sjm for creating feyre, my comfort character, who literally doesn’t exist but i love her so much anyways. she deserves everything she has and im so happy that she gets everything she desires, because girly fucking deserves it all.

[kurooserlenmeyerflask]

Gojo HC

Gojo x Reader

Warning: MAJOR MANGA SPOILERS FOR JJK PLS READ AT YOUR OWN DISCRETION

WC: 929 words

Slowburn friends to hinted lovers

A/N: This might become a Gojo HC series,,, yeah..

Imagine, you went to school with him, Geto, and Shoko. I want to say you and Shoko were best friends (still are), and all of you have rooms right next to one another (we can say Gojo probably requested it for annoyance purposes). 

I think you and Gojo formed a healthy rivalry back when you guys were both students, both coming from major sorcerer clans so you guys have a lot to bond over (particularly bonding over your hatred of the old geezers)

Gojo probably flirted with you a lot, and like the badass you are, you brushed off his advances (also because you did NOT want to be one of Gojo Satoru’s fangirls). This did not deter his confidence cockiness , however it did make him chase you a lot

You see, let’s say your cursed technique is sort of like a mimic technique. Where you can either completely absorb one’s technique or simply mimic it. However the setback is that you can only absorb those who are equal to or weaker than you are and you can only have so many different cursed techniques until it starts weighing you down physically. So of course you can release the absorptions, otherwise your life would be incredibly difficult. NOW BC OF THIS Gojo makes fun of you because you can’t even mimic a simple part of his technique. This in turn makes you more frustrated (you are praying for his downfall well i guess the box happened)

Fast forward to the day of Geto’s death, it came to you hard because you guys all grew up with one another with millions of sleepovers, movie nights, and all the like. Now, once you found out- a huge fight broke out between you and Gojo. 

“Satoru, what do you mean you just left his cold, lifeless body back there??” 

“I wanted his family to have the honors y/n”

“Why did you have to kill him? We could have found another way-”

“There was no other way, especially if he was trying to kill YOU for being compassionate about helping humans.”

And that broke your heart, knowing that he would have killed you for having compassion towards a group of people he saw beneath him. The death ultimately caused a huge strain in your friendship with him, hence why you guys cut each other off.

Fast forward to the year in which you find out about Sukuna Ryomen’s vessel, you were roommates with Shoko- and still have not spoken to Gojo since the incident. You were currently classified as a Special Grade sorcerer, working around to kill curses others needed help with. Imagine your shock when you get a call about a special grade curse at the detention center. 

You got there as fast as you could and saw Toji’s kid with a pink haired boy- no, there was something sinister about it. You got yourself ready and got in between Megumi and Sukuna before he could land a hit on Megumi. 

“Oh what do we have here? Instead of finding women myself, one seems to have come here on it’s own accord”

 “Release him now Ryomen Sukuna”

“Oh what would be the fun in that”

You continued sparring with him, knowing that you can’t kill him as he is inside a vessel. That is… until his heart was ripped out. Of course you’re freaking out when you sense the malicious energy dying out and Yuuji is collapsing on the floor. You disregard the blood staining your clothes and bring Yuuji back to the Tokyo Institute and slam open the door to Shoko’s operation room. The concern for the boy overrides your anxiety, seeing Gojo Satoru right in front of you after all these years.

Now, Gojo couldn’t help but be in awe of you. Of course he has been keeping tabs on how you were doing from Shoko, but seeing you in person now was something he could only think about- never really thinking it would become a reality. He can’t help but think about how he oh so very much wants to hold you and apologize as well as catching up with you. But right now, he shouldn’t be thinking of those things when Yuuji can very well be considered uh… dead.

Of course, after this whole thing and Yuuji magically pops back up- scaring all of you really, you find it in yourself agreeing to become a mentor for Yuuji since Shoko asked. (Shoko is doing Gojo a favor bc she owes him for a favor he pulled for her a little while back LMAO). Gojo is using this experience as an excuse to catch you alone and finally be able to do something he has been wanting to do. 

Gojo was able to corner you and pull you into a hug, while mumbling many sorry’s and maybe even being close to crying (don’t expose him bc i think he’s the type to put smushed rice in someone’s hair)

NOW you just have to forgive him duh, well you may be mad at him for a little longer but he DOES buy you sweets so how can you still be mad,,,

Now you’re teasing him and saying he is “obsessed with you” which he uh… bluntly does not deny

“Yeah y/n, didn’t think it would take you that long to realize”

NOW YOU’RE BLUSHING, and this becomes a beautiful start to your relationship after reconnecting- now you guys can work your way into becoming something more :)

“Wait is that Geto in the cafe with a bunch of curses…”

[simplych4i]

Fine more Spy head for you all bc he may be one of my favourite characters

Genuinely

He will never be reattached to his body, like ever. His body is long gone, used to help the other reds whenever necessary. Baboons are wonderful, don't get me wrong, but sometimes you don't want to waste a good baboon when a human lung will do.

Blinded in his left eye, the doves have a tendency to peck really close. Normally Medic can catch it, but one time he didn't. So that happened.

Is completely unphased by most things at this point. Oh you want to torture him? Life is torture, have at it. Stick him in the dark for days on end with no contact? He'll just sleep it away. Most things you propose to him will either be met with a 'It's happened before' or 'I thought you would've done that by now' Unphasable.

Still very much feels emotions though. Just never ever shows em because what's the use, yknow? He's not getting any pity, compassion, nothing. It's useless, life is melancholy.

Has fallen off the fridge shelf and broken his nose. After Medic was done giggling he fixed him up.

Doesn't care who he's hanging out with (normally Medic) just as long as he has /some/ human contact. He can handle isolation but he'd really prefer to avoid it yknow.

Spy head beloved

[waynedunlaptheorgandonor]

watched s11ep1

i will provide you with a quick review before i disappear back into the ether of twd avoidance

lots of spoilers under the cut. also i wrote way too much and i worked all night and haven’t slept so i didn’t bother to reread literally any of it, so it might be completely nonsensical, tho if you don’t expect that from me by this point idk whose blog you’ve been reading

enjoy:

hokay, first off, i’ll start by saying that i enjoyed it more than i expected to. i’ve been avoiding any sort of discussion about stuff, but my google algorithm is so fucked at this point that i still get recommended articles and stuff every now and then, so i was already pretty aware of what i was walking into, and was expecting it to be eh, but actually i prob enjoyed it more than i enjoyed the finale

(don’t get too excited tho, the finale was rly boring lmfao)

anyway

episode starts off with a tense scouting mission

it takes .005 seconds into the episode for caryl to exchange a look of longing, establishing that they are still having weird conflict and are both too fucking stubborn to do anything about it even tho they hate it desperately

i imagine that will continue for a while

rosita, kelly, carol, maggie, what’s her face with the bad hair, and lydia (i think that’s everyone?) lower down to some army bunker or something, where a bunch of walkers are taking a snooze, and the girls are very respectful of walker naptime, and do their best not to wake them up

obviously they eventually wake up, but i’ll get to that in a sec

as they’re tiptoeing through the walker tulips, there’s this split second where carol spots a machine gun, and looks at maggie with a face like, “can i plzzzz, i am mad horny for that machine gun,” but maggie tells her no. (i 110% expected her to defy orders and accidentally wake up all the walkers, but she actually behaved herself for once. well. mostly)

never fear, tho, after the girl gang collects a bunch of MREs they go back to wait for the dudes waiting up top to pull them up, and bc men ruin everything, one of the ropes break, and daryl catches it before it falls, but then a slow motion drop of blood falls on a walker’s face, and just like that, walker naptime is over, and carol uses her bow and arrow for two seconds before she is like “fuck this” and whips out the machine gun

yes, she is super hot using it

yes, daryl watches her do it

anyway, all the other girls get rescued, and carol is about to be pulled up, but bc she is a #girlboss, she first makes a beeline for one more crate full of MREs. daryl covers her while she gets the loot, and when she gets back up top they have another charged moment as carol hands him back his knife

just fuck already, jfc

titles!

cut to alexandria where everything is still not smilestimes

BUT, we do get to see uncle daryl run and hug rj and judith (and dog), and FUCKING HERSHEL JR, LIGHT OF MY LIFE is also there

istg, they could not have casted a better child, i a d o r e him

oh, and some friends of maggie’s show up too, idk

cut to a staff meeting where everyone is like, whomp whomp, we’re all gonna starve to death unless we figure out something quick

cue maggie going, “oh, i know where food is, but it requires me to tell you my tragic backstory, in case anyone didn’t watch my bottle episode”

she tells her dramatic backstory about all her friends getting slaughtered by the reapers for no apparent reason, and then she’s like “anyway, let’s go back there!”

no one thinks it’s a great idea, but a group of people decide to go anyway, including daryl and gabriel. rosita is super pissed that gabriel is going, and carol doesn’t go, probably partly bc it’s a shitty fucking idea, and also bc they have to keep caryl apart bc otherwise they’ll fix their problems ahead of schedule and they won’t be able to drag out the needless angst

daryl looks kind of annoyed that carol doesn’t volunteer to go 

bitch, i thought you wanted her to stop putting herself in the line of fire! make up your damn mind!

moving on

cut to a thunderstorm, where, if you look closely, you’ll notice daryl is wearing the STUPIDEST hat i’ve ever seen. just get an umbrella, jfc

for some reason negan is with them, bc ig he knows his way around washington dc, and no one in six years has bothered to figure out how to get around the city and/or get a map, and he is like “hey guys, maybe we shouldn’t try to walk in this fucking hurricane,” and everyone is like “FUCK YOU NEGAN, YOU’RE NOT THE BOSS OF US!!!” 

this will be a common occurrence 

but eventually daryl is even like “actually, it’s rly unpleasant out here, and my hat is mad stupid, can we go inside plz?”

so they go inside an old metro station, which is actually a rly cool cinematic choice. i rly like the idea, and they executed it rly well

speaking of executions

there are some fucking RULL CREEPY walkers. idk why they bothered me so badly, but they were what they at first assumed were corpses wrapped up in tarps, but turns out none of them had been properly put down, so they go through killing these rotted bodies that had supposedly been there since The Fall, and it’s very gross and cool

this entire time, btw, negan is like “hey, i know i’m a shitty person, but i have some rational arguments about why we shouldn’t be doing this right now,” and everyone is like, “FUCK YOU NEGAN, YOU’RE NOT THE BOSS OF US!!!” and he’s just like “god fucking damnit”

(i forgot to mention that at one point, when they’re headed into the metro station, negan is trying to warn ppl of the potential danger, and everyone is ignoring him, and he tries to talk to daryl, and daryl is like “fuck you, you think we’re BUDDIES?” and negan is like “oh, ok, so you’re gonna be like that too? fanfreakingtastic” and it’s very funny)

anyway. a fat monster zombie escapes its tarp at one point, and tries to eat some npc, and negan saves him, again is like “hey, anyone else realize that this is a FUCKING BAD PLAN?”, and everyone is like “we don’t care, you’re still shitty and we’re not listening to you, and you don’t actually care about random npc i would literally not be able to pick out in a lineup bc his face is so generic, you’re not the boss of us!!!”

it’s at this point that negan finally is like, “why am i even here? bc i know how to get around washington dc? do none of you have a map?” and i was like, “right?! that’s what i said!” 

it’s then revealed that maggie only brought negan along to murder him under the guise of “oops, he got hurt in the line of duty, it wasn’t my fault,” and daryl has this look on his face that says, “i seriously need to stop hanging out with lethal women bent on revenge bc it’s gonna give me high blood pressure,” and maggie has a badass moment where she points a gun she has for some reason at negan and is like “i have like, one shred of human compassion left inside of me, and if you keep pushing me i will fucking kill you without a second thought, so shut the hell up”

(in her defense, negan had just dropped glenn’s name to purposely antagonize her, which was rude as hell)

(for the record, i’m completely on maggie’s side here, but negan still is right that trapping themselves in a metro station is a bad call)

anyway, moving away from that briefly

i think this jump cut happens sooner, i don’t actually remember, but whatever who cares, point is, we get to the part of the show that actually matters, and that’s anything involving my love, juanita “princess” sanchez

and also eugene, yumiko, and ezekiel

they are being asked increasingly invasive questions by commonwealth ppl, some of which i wish they actually would of answered (what do they use to wipe their asses with?? surely toilet paper has long since become extinct)

zeke, who is so much more tolerable as a character now that he’s not larping as a king, has this incredibly weird and sort of sexually charged moment with a dude in an orange stormtrooper costume, where he’s like, “i bet you were an asshole cop back before The Fall, you stupid fascist, #fuckthepolice, mb literally? idk, this moment has a lot of pent up aggression that could easily translate to hate sex, it might just be the intense eye contact, but w/e, let’s just move along,” and then he has a coughing fit to remind the audience that he’s currently dying of cancer, and orange stormtrooper is like “lolz, loser, drink some water you dumb piece of shit”

cut to the wholesome foursome sitting at a picnic table in a guarded courtyard eating gruel, and yumkio, who finally has a personality, and princess are like “hey, this place fucking sucks, can we leave?” and zeke is like, “yeah, i met this orange stormtrooper who i think might be dtf and/or murder, so we should probably bounce”

but eugene is like, “but i want some hot stephanie ass, and also some bullshit excuse about how mb commonewealth will save alexandria” which, they left before things went super downhill, right? idr. it was after hilltop fell, but they don’t know alexandria got fucked either, if i recall? w/e, not important

two seconds after he says this, they talk to some people who are like “we’ve been here for four months, or maybe it’s been nine, i don’t actually remember, i’ve stopped processing the passage of time,” and the wholesome foursome takes this as a bad sign, tho that’s just the life i’ve lived as a night worker during a pandemic, so i was like #mood

but then they watch some guy get dragged away screaming to get “reprocessed” and eugene is like “ok, nvm, let’s bounce”

(my theory on what “reprocessing” is, is that they’re stuck in a room and have to watch hours and hours of customer service training videos on vhs from the 90s)

i definitely got my jump cut scenes mixed up bc i think the negan accusing maggie of a murder plot thing happened in between this scene and then the next commonwealth scene, but w/e, i’ll just finish what happens in the commonwealth arch

the wholesome foursome are trying to hatch a plan to escape, except princess, my love, is distracted watching some stormtroopers flirt, and the other three are like “wtf, dude, how can you even tell any of them apart?” and princess then tells them every stormtroopers backstory bc she is brilliant and pays rly close attention to shit, and the other three are like, “this is useful information, thank you for being an insane person”

their plan involves yumiko and eugene dressing up as stormtroopers and leading princess and zeke out of the place, which works fine actually, except on their way out they come across the Depressing Wall of Probably Mostly Dead Missing Loved Ones

they’re about to leave, when princess is like, “wait, yumiko, you’re on here, that’s weird huh?”

sure enough, yumiko  is on the wall, with a note from ig her sister 

the scene ends with yumiko going, “guys...i can’t leave...i have tragic backstory to unveil”

tragic backstory to be continued ig

back in murder metro town, npc and some other npc have stolen all the supplies, there’s a train blocking the track, and a horde of walkers are coming towards them, so things are not going fantastic

they horde is too big to take down, so they start to climb on top of the train car to get away

but dog runs away!

and daryl, being every pet owner ever, is like “gotta go get my dog, guys, try not to get killed while i’m gone, c u soon!” and he ducks under the train and disappears

#priorities

the episode ends with maggie climbing up the train car but getting grabbed by a walker and dangling off the edge, and negan is there and they have a lion king moment where maggie is like, “scar! help me!” and negan is like “long live the king, bitch” and walks away into the shadows, leaving maggie to a potential death

which, while i know isn’t actually going to happen, would be a really fucking funny move on the writers’ part

like, “look, lauren’s back! and now she’s dead, bet you didn’t expect that!”

anyway

my assumption is negan will actually end up helping her up or something, continuing his ambiguous morality bullshit that actually isn’t ambiguous bc he BEAT GLENN TO DEATH WITH A FUCKING BAT WRAPPED IN BARBED WIRE IN FRONT OF HIS PREGNANT WIFE

the maggie/negan arch is kind of dumb, but whatevs, i’ll tolerate it, as long as my boy glenn gets justice in the end

anyway, cue credits!

final assessment: good episode. i’m much more interested in commonwealth than the reapers, tho i am hoping that daryl’s personality-less ex turns out to be a monster killing machine with no conscience, that’ll be fun. princess is a gift from god. hershel jr needs his own tv show. needs more carol (and caryl)

the end! going back into my walking dead free chamber! see you next episode!

-diz

[mrskurono]

imagine meeting noritoshi again 9 months after the meeting but you guys bumped into the hospital like imagine carrying your newborn baby boy and his daughter just bump into your rear and he saw it and megumi just automatically wraps his arms around you and after coming home the news of the new baby zenin just spread out through the sorcerer world like a wildfire and he just lost it

ps. Keep the angst coming mom

We come full circle Hina and Yasu still fall in love

But also *unhinges jaw ready for all the angst in the world about this*

You’re back for your six week post partum check and/or your baby has their one month check up. That’s when fate conspires against you to have Noritoshi there getting his daughter’s doctors appointment finished up when you spot each other.

Now, Megumi is civil. He will always be civil. Not to mention he knows only a bit of your history just bc, there wasn’t a lot. He knew of the arranged marriage and that you loved Noritoshi. But since you never really did more than “date” the Kamo head then there isn’t much to know. Plus Megumi never pushes for things you don’t want to talk about. He is though, extremely protective. Even more so since the day you both found out you were expecting. Now with the little one here, it’s worse so Megumi can’t help giving Noritoshi the dirtiest look when he spots him.

He’s alone though, besides his kid. As it is most the time. Noritoshi spends almost no time with his wife. And things that pertain to their offspring is almost exclusively taken care of the Kamo leader. It doesn’t bother him a lot. He has no feelings for his wife but Noritoshi won’t lie he does love his kid (he just isn’t going to hate any kid no matter the circumstance)

For your ease Megumi takes your kid from you and hovers a second before asking if you want a moment. Sure you don’t feel well but it’s been a while and maybe it’s the hormones but you’d at least like to know Noritoshi is doing ok. Megumi excuses himself, with both kids bc of course Noritoshi’s kiddo is asking Megumi a thousand questions and interested in the baby. So it leaves just the two of you while Megumi is out of ear shot but not out of your visuals.

Noriotshi starts off with some bullshit about how you look good. Which is a lie and you’re a little sharped tongue about how you’re only a couple weeks out from pushing an X pound baby out of you. But quickly following it up with how wonderful Megumi has been and how worth it is.

That’s the first instance Noritoshi’s lips dip into a frown. Hearing how well Megumi is taking care of you when it isn’t him. It stings but he tries to ignore it. You make no motion to ask him about himself so Noritoshi proceeds with asking at least what the little ones name is. 

The second punch to the gut, their name isn’t the one you had both picked out when you were younger. Unlike how he clung to the name to name his kid, you didn’t. Informing him actually that Megumi named them hardly past the first trimester and it fit so well it stuck. Noritoshi doesn’t know why but he wanted part of you to cling to the same fantasy of you being together like he did. But its clear you didn’t. Or at least outwardly didn’t. 

Seeing him like this, looking over to his kid who looks so much like him but just- just enough that it isn’t him. You feel bile in your stomach. You hate that child. For no reason other than the fact you realize you hate their father. As many years as you’d tried to be kind and compassionate to the Noritoshi you loved. Something in you was taken from you. Something that you didn’t want back. Because when your eyes move from the child that isn’t yours. To Megumi. The man holding your scrunched faced one month old. Now that baby, that baby looks just like him. A Mini Megumi. But, then you see their nose. And you see your nose in this baby. Your baby. That is your baby and no one else’s. With the death of your compassion for the man who left you for power. Something else comes to life. Something you didn’t know you had in you. Love for yourself. Love for that tiny human. And a love for the man who’s been nothing but wonderful to you. 

Megumi sees you staring at him and takes that as a signal to come back over. Kid clutched to his chest and Noritoshi’s kid happy as can be for this stranger who let them see the baby. He knows he’s lost you. In exchange for something that should have never been even in competition. Noritoshi watches Megumi kiss your temple and tell you Maki will be over soon. That could have been him. Nothing will ever change the fact he can’t go back. Even though he wants to so badly. It’s clear now though that you don’t want to go back. What you’ve found is so much better than anything he could have promised you.

these just keep getting outta hand bc im evil :)

[dykesbat]

okok songs from my bruce playlist + reasons

first love / late spring by mitski

“and I was so young when I behaved twenty-five / Yet now I find I’ve grown into a tall child… Please hurry, leave me, I can’t breathe / Please don’t say you love me / Mune ga hachikire-sōde”

pretty self-explanatory! bruce is emotionally immature and just. yeah i feel like he oftentimes does feel the same as he did in that alleyway yknow. maybe he’s realizing the depths of how immature he is right here in the moment of recognizing that the person he finds himself loving right now is also someone he could potentially lose. i think of bruce as someone who loves a lot. maybe here he’s acknowledging how the price of loving is the possibility of pain.

everybody lost somebody by bleachers

THIS ENTIRE SONG BROOOOOOO

“It’s this dream I keep having where I’m begging / Just to give myself a break / But there’s nothing I wouldn’t do to wake up and remember it / I wanna wake up and remember”

Bruce being an avid dreamer is a pretty popular concept n idk I think the concept of his dreams diverging from the nightmares of his loss to a dream of him acknowledging that he’s mourning and wanting the world to stop or like. him having a nightmare where the only coherent words he remembers after waking up is just his internal “i’m so tired” but maybe its survivors guilt maybe its just the desperation to hold on to whatever he can of the people that he lost maybe he's just trying to hold on to all the good and the good memories are just. so intertwined with the pain of loss. but he doesn’t want to let go of it

“I think pain is waiting alone at the corner / Tryna get myself back home, yeah / Looking like everybody / Knowing everybody lost somebody... A reason I see myself in a million faces / A reason I can't stop it all from changing / So come on, motherf*^&r, you survive”

i think these lines can be used to represent him turning his pain into his efforts for making gotham better. basically just. redirecting the love into the city and the people rather than only mourning. obv it would be his entire mission after his parent’s deaths. and for canon continuity reasons—since it's a bit more hopeful maybe it's after jason’s death and after tim comes around? idk i imagine bruce remembering his parents and remember jason around the manor hallways and on the city rooftops. the whole “trying to get myself back home” can be like home = the person lost or just. literally bruce trying to put in the effort to dragging himself back home for (himself? tim? alfred? hmm.) n the other lines are just. him seeing himself in gotham and seeing worth in human life. it connects to his compassion and his no-kill-rule and his empathy and his taking in of his children. and like yeah he can’t stop it all from changing he can't prevent every death but he’ll try to. the survive line is also pretty self-explanatory. 

garden song by phoebe bridges

“I don't know when you got taller / See our reflection in the water / Off a bridge at the Huntington / I hopped the fence when I was seventeen / Then I knew what I wanted”

ok so I'm thinking. him talking abt dick in the first few lines. probably after reconciling with him after they've been enstranged for so long and he’s feeling regretful for the mistakes he made there while thinking of their past times together.  maybe he took younger dick to a place he went to when he solidified his plan to train abroad? 

“And it’s gonna be just like my recurring dream / I’m at the movies, I don’t remember what I’m seeing / The screen turns into a tidal wave”

do I have to explain.. avid dreamer bruce,, the movies,, the dream ending terribly,, gn!

“I don’t know how, but I’m taller / It must be something in the water / Everything’s growing in our garden / You don’t have to know that it’s haunted”

idk how to explain it? but just. bruce growing up in a manor that suddenly feels larger than it ever did before. n it feels like he took his parents ghosts w him and left whatever his childhood was back in that alley. and part of him can pick out what he felt on that day. and so much changed and he’s grown? he’s grown older than his father ever was? and he doesn’t know how that's possible?

class of 2013 by mitski

“Mom, can you wash my back / This once, and then we can forget / And I’ll leave what im chasing / For the other girls to pursue…. Mom am I still young / Can I dream for a few months more” 

ok no he is not financially struggling n i will b honest this is a self-indulgent song to maximize relatability <3 but my decision to put this song was also based on the idea of him just. missing him mom so muchhhh?? maybe a dream? maybe the aftermath of fear gas? who knows but here the “forget” will just be for his parent's deaths. I imagine this to be somewhat akin to the mask of phantasm monologue he has at his parents grave. (spoilers for that: he’s basically asking his parents for forgiveness for potentially abandoning his oath of bettering Gotham as Batman). last line makes me #$%^&*( just. hnnnnnnn imagine him waking up blurry eyed and brain fogged and he’s just grasping onto the false belief of his parents still being there n clinging on to the comfort of his pre-crime alley childhood before he truly wakes up. 

 sick of losing soulmates by dodie

okok this is on my bruce + romance playlist too bc it reminded me of batcat and bruharvey. it can also be interpreted as his fam ig? but I feel like that doesn’t apply for most of the song.

“God knows what I would be if you hadn’t found me / Sitting all alone in the dark… What the hell would I be without you / Brave face talk so lightly, hide the truth… Cause I’m sick of losing soulmates / So where do we begin / I can finally see you’re as f$:$:&ed up as me / So how do we win”

 I just think. that. Bruce would have abandonment issues. first four lines can be taken for all three (batcat, bruharv, the family) interpretations. the truth being hidden doubling both as his identity as Batman and just. the fact that he loves them lol (batcat, bruharv). last three lines lean towards bc and bh but personally they reminded me more of bat cat (probably bc ppl always say they’re so similar). basically I feel like this song could signify their fears of losing each other in whatever way that means (romantically, platonically, death) bc they both care for each other so much and impact each other so muchhsuagdj but at the same time it feels like its bound to end badly. (ofc it doesn't. whether or not they like. break up from a romance or have a falling out between friends i’d like to think some time after they heal they become reconnect n their relationship w each other is stronger and so alike what it was before but different bc its just. so much healthier this time. and to copy and paste from my thoughts on my other playlist: bruce crashes at selinas house sometimes and she makes the him catsit for her bc she thinks it’s funny when he complains abt her cats and calls them mean names and then gets a picture of bruce knocked out cuddling them like 30 m later courtesy alfred)