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ask-honey · 5 months ago
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Ya eat one crayon and suddenly you're the crayon gobbler
Society!!!
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saintshadow · 2 months ago
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What are you known for?
General, work, & social media rep 🫶🏻👻
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Your GENERAL reputation is definitely very spiritual hahaa I was listening to the song I channeled for this pile which is Pyro by Denzel curry and right as I was typing that first sentence he said "i am the oracle i been known what's in store for you" Perhaps y'all make a lot of predictions or estimations that end up coming true. You could be a psychic or a reader of some kind- I sense Virgo and Pisces energy here. Most people do find you to be pretty fair- but others find you to be immature and aggressive or egotistical.
I feel like you're lowkey a bit chaotic- a lot of people see you as a wise feminine energy or a woman who has many secrets or knows many secrets. You could be known for being fairly nonchalant- like you may have dissenting people or opinions or haters and you genuinely are either unaware of them or don't give enough of a fuck to give it time.
You stay in your lane and focus on building yourself up, you could be very detached from distractions. work:
You could be seen as someone with a lot of room to succeed in your career, you could be very informed- very methodical or very logical. You're steady and thorough in your approach and you are very engaged in ensuring that things are managed accurately and properly. People could be eyeing you for a promotion of some kind- I see that you may be known for solving conflict or for calming conflict. Like you're capable of quelling the discordance in other people. You could work customer service, be a team lead, assistant manager, shift leader, etc- Whatever you do you're definitely trailblazing and I love that for you. I'm getting a message that your boss doesn't give out a lot of compliments but he does notice your work. He may compliment you or give you some kind of notice soon regarding the quality of your work. If he seems hard it is because he sees your room for improvement. You may be very proud of your work, and you may also be a bit disorganized- even in spite of that disorganization they do feel that you have a special skill or talent. I keep hearing "quality" I feel like you're being considered for something or by someone. Disregard negativity from others at work, and ignore gossip. People can say and do whatever they want, but it's not your business or problem if they want to be miserable.
social media:
There are like varying reputations that you have online- I assume this is based on the experiences people have had with you ofc. In the center of the spread is the Emperor- so you are definitely seen as either an authority, perhaps you're older or you sit powerfully in your position.
Diet by Denzel curry is playing. I feel like a lot of y'all are very authentic, you stand in your square and you may not really care how people feel about you. Some people could see you as destitute, lacking, immature, and having a large dream- or they could see you as someone who in spite of having a difficult past you've gone on a journey to achieve your dreams. It feels like probably both lol. People could find you moody or erratic online, others also see you as being very secure, happy, thriving, and feel that your judgments are very positive, accurate, or helpful. Some people could see you as fake, or see you as private. Like you don't deal with groups of people, a lot of you may be quick to remove yourself from group scenarios in general. You could be very passionate, intelligent, witty, and loving. You definitely like a good verbal spar, and can sometimes be a bit TOO aggressive.
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your GENERAL reputation could be tied to a romantic connection or a friendship that you walked away from or broke off- Sooo perhaps this happened recently or it was a massive breaking of connection that has still remained part of your reputation. You're viewed as fairly balanced and understanding, you give people a lot of chances but aren't overly compassionate in your expression. You're probably an air sign LMFAO, I see that you may also be known for your kindness or generosity or for the fact others are highly generous towards you. Someone could be a streamer? I see here that you also are known for your ability to create your desires as you go, like you really just charge after what you want and bring it to yourself fairly quickly lol.
work:
You could be a manager or a boss- or you could have an opinion that matters at work. I feel like you're the person people bring irate customers to, and you do NOT play. You definitely stand up for people no matter if the customer or coworker is in the wrong. You are very honest & truthful even if it's an unpopular opinion, you could also be someone who is known to get to the bottom of issues. You gather Intel easily and you've definitely got a few tricks up your sleeve socially. Some could see you as manipulative or self serving, they could feel like your kind demeanor is fake and only used so that you can gather more information. Which isn't entirely untrue- but it also isn't because you're looking to fuck people over, you're just practical. You like things to be fair, truthful, balanced, and you may like to run a tight ship. Or perhaps your boss runs a tight ship and YOU stand up against your boss when others won't. Other co-workers could see you as reliable because you will speak up with others are scared or when they don't know what to say.
social media:
You could have a friend group you post with a lot? I see people viewing you as paranoid, disinterested, detached, and maybe going through something difficult? People could feel like you don't find love or happiness to be unattainable. "a negative phase" I feel like other people could find that you post about your shortcomings or unhappiness frequently. You could also be very aggressive or defensive, you could be very jittery, and very bored or displeased. You could also be known for being very connected with your family and defensive with your family. Or your family could somehow be known or popular on social media? Even if it isn't fame it could be like Facebook for example haha. You could be very funny, witty, or charming- maybe you are always onto the next thing or next trend.
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your GENERAL reputation could be that you're REALLY attractive- maybe that you spend a lot of money on your looks? Some people could know you for having plastic surgery, Botox, filler, etc? Some people could speak about you or talk about you editing photos or not looking the same irl? People could also say that you only really focus on your physical appearance online. BTW IM NOT HATING, this is just what people think/how they view you. You're seen as very pretty, and very abundant. You could make spicy content or post nsfw, some people could feel like you will take their significant other from them. People feel that you don't post your struggles online, and that you're very private. You could be prideful, or you could have a very solid image. Even if there are hardships or difficulties you've experienced, you definitely keep it pushing and always succeed. People could see you as very dreamy, relaxed, and maybe low energy. Some of you could have chronic illness or fatigue. Those who know you know that you are very private & very low key.
Work:
In times of trouble or need you will absolutely get shit done, you don't let anxiety or fear keep you from getting to the bag or finding a solution. People feel safe and protected by you at work, like they know you will defend them behind their back or that even if you don't like them you won't leave them hanging. You're a true leader behind the scenes though, this is giving virgo energy. You don't want to be at the forefront, you like to manage the intracacies and details. You do the dirty work a lot of the time. People at work could feel like you prefer to be alone, and that you could even be a bit of an anxious person or an overthinker. You could also be known for crashing out or have a reputation for a particular time you lost your temper. You are not afraid to rain hell when people are doing shit they shouldn't be doing. You like to keep the peace and make sure everyone is well taken care of but you require for them to do their part otherwise you will absolutely NOT go easy on them. You could be a bubble burster, you could also sometimes be unnecessarily petty in some people's eyes at times.
Social Media:
You could be seen as having a darker aesthetic, you may also post taboo things or misleading things. Very trickster energy, like you almost enjoy throwing people off. You have VERY good taste, and you post small crumbs of it. You have a very esoteric or ethereal vibe to people online, idk why I'm channeling mitski haha. You could also be someone who's cutting edge with trends. People could see you as very devoted to your partner or lover, they could also see you as someone who is a hard worker and holds on through difficult times. You may be very witty, timeless, and fiery at times. You definitely have a veryyy unique and likeable vibe. It feels like you're very well liked on social media, and that people look forward to your posts. You're iconic, your socials could be very pristine and well put together. The aesthetic could be very consistent or meshes well with your personality. You could treat your social media like an art piece, very particular with how you curate everything.
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yourlocalsmutwriter · 7 months ago
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Bookish girlfriend you're my yum yum - Mark Webber x reader
Summary : After going viral on book social media, you give the fans a completely new side of you. It catches the eye of an author (who happens to be a 9 GP winner)
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inkscentedglamour: Squeezing in some last girly romance books before I film a new video for you 👀
username: Our queen is finally trying romantasy, I can feel it.
username: I need another object x human romance. I know it was an April Fools thing, but I need her to read Double Stuffed
username: DARK ROMANCE. DARK ROMANCE. DARK ROMANCE.
username : I know the sports romance PR is talking to her like the Green Goblin Mask
> username : Especially the new book with the MMC inspired by Danny Ricciardo
> username: need to rewatch her F1 romance streams on patreon.
username: Do you think this is after Two Girls One Formula podcast backlash?
> username: The girls brought her on to talk about books, specifically romances. I don't understand why the fans were attacking her for not talking much about the current grid and things like that and focusing on the fiction.
> username: Especially when she has said many times that she's easing into the fandom. How would you feel if people bullied you for starting with edits/ fanfics and books, like she's doing?
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inkscentedglamour: Writing my script for the upcoming video and staring at what got me here
username: Throttled slander era, you will forever be famous
> username: The way she started off so hesitant to give it a bad review or DNF it. This was her first 1 star. People died.
> username: Asking people to still try it for themselves and to not just judge it based on her review. Cemented her as my favorite BookTuber, I fear.
username: The fact that she still followed through and read the entire series. And rearranged her entire Goodreads ratings after that? Iconic
> username: I miss her giving 5 stars. But the quote "if I can be cruel enough to give 1 star, then I don't think I should be generous to give 5 stars to any book, but one" will forever live on.
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inkscentedglamour: New video, out now
username: MARK WEBBER????? OVER EMILY HENRY????
> username: over Christina Lauren?????? Ali Hazelwood? Katee Robert
username: you're telling me an Australian driver who retired like 10 years ago is her favorite author??? And was the driving force for her to get her to watch a GP?
username: she's the queen of Booktok, has talked about every book boyfriend, and now she's into cars that go fast?
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aussiegrit: Talked about Porsche, F1, Mentoring Oscar, and my book, somehow. Why is Aussie Grit trending?
username: Oh no, our little Booktuber girl bossed too close to the sun (she has a million subscribers and multiple brand deals)
> username: she got it to 5 stars on Goodreads and onto the trending page on Amazon.
username: Mark, wear the My fake boyfriend drives for F1 mech, and my life is yours
username: @inkscentedglamour, look who sorta knows you exist.
inkscentedglamour: Oh oh
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inkscentedglamour: Reading the book 😄🤩🥺 vs. having to describe its impact on you, your career, and the future 🙃😑☠️. If you see me verbally abusing a Google doc at the airport, no you didn't
username: Mark Webber in the likes?????????
> username: I guess he found out why Aussie Grit was trending
username: reading video hiatus is over, society is healing
> username: we haven't gotten a part two of her trip to a random destination yet
> username: true, she just packed and left us on a cliffhanger. Surely we're getting that first
> username: her caption says it all. For book lovers, some of you have no reading comprehension.
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inkscentedglamour: I finished reading my book, so it only makes sense to hit the thrift, right? Reading vlog will be up when I'm back home (I was strictly told to relax)
username: the two glasses (which could mean nothing)
> username : this is the girl that relies on our discord pins to drink water, what is going on in the house of commons
username : Mark Webber, here again????????? Before me?????????????
> username: she sped through her book cause she has his new book on pre-order
> username: I just know she'll get it on Kindle too, no way is she waiting til it ships to her house
username: Mark's pr team was sleeping because wdym they didn't reach out to her
> username: And apparently, he's got a launch party coming up with "surprise BookTube influencer" attending
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inkscentedglamour : Photographic proof that my favorite author knows I exist. Thank you, @aussiegrit, for the invite. And thanks for getting a decent picture before I cried at the blurb and dedication
aussiegrit: Figured you'd wanna skip the queue at Waterstones. Can't wait for your review of this one (also please re-read the new prologue before posting)
username: Mark has been secretly divorced for a year and was writing this whole book as a therapy exercise??????
> username: he couldn't tell anybody and felt like he was slowly fading into obscurity, which affected his mental health
> username: he was not thinking of releasing this until the OG Aussie Grit review
> username: Mark saying that the YouTube video changed his life, just as much as it did hers
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inkscentedglamour: Night and day
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14.02.2025,approximately 3 months after the book launch
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inkscentedglamour: Valentine's Day, Book Buying Day, and Merch Drop Day. Shop the My Real Boyfriend Drove for F1 tee. And yes, he signed off on this specific hard launch
inkscentedglamour: time to be sappy real quick after the merch plug. Mark has been inspiring me, guiding me and showering me with praise ever since his second book launch. I'm so happy he's in my life and I intend to keep him there for as long as I can. He beats all the bookish boyfriend one can have (yes, even Zafir)
aussiegrit: I'm so glad to have you in my life. You see me and be with me, sharp tongue,flaws and all. I wanna build you bookshelves and watch you put my books on them last. Now stop being a YouTuber for a second and get back to being my girlfriend.
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directdogman · 9 months ago
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Hi, I hope you're having a decent day! I'm sorry if this is an invasive set of questions - feel free not to answer - but do you still actively like DSaF as your own creation, or is it more of a "it was fun while it lasted but i outgrew it and it's for the best to leave it behind" kind of project? Do you ever regret making the games? If you knew they would get so popular, is there anything you would have changed about them? Is there anywhere I could read more of your writing.
It fluctuates a bit. These last couple of years, I've really just been sorta nostalgic for it. I've seen a lot of people discuss those games being a source of comfort during bad times in their lives, people talking about how much the characters mean to them and it's hard not to smile when you see that.
It's a funny thing for close friends of yours to see people WITH fanmade DSaF merch out in the wild, or to watch a random youtube video and being hit with a DSaF reference outta nowhere. It happens from time to time, even today. On a few occasions, I've even had a person reference my work to me in real life and not realize who they were talking to, believe it or not. It's really fun to play dumb and get someone to explain your work to you like you don't know what it is.
I certainly didn't think any of that would happen when I first made the series, or even during development. I think the normal assumption would be to look at DSaF as it exists now and assume its release was a peak for it, but believe it or not, the official discord only had 30 people in it shortly before 3 dropped! The archive listing of the series (reposted to a single page after the series ended) is now sitting at over 1.1 MILLION downloads.
People kinda assume the true heyday of something is when it's new, when it's fresh and novel. For instance, some people look back at when FNaF itself was new and see that time as its peak because it had a lot of internet cultural relevance as big new indie thing on the block. But, raw numbers don't lie. The series has been continually growing since its conception and that growth has similarly bled over to its fan projects. This explains why DSaF, despite not having a new series release in almost 6 years, seems to be inexplicably growing.
Just recently, I saw someone post footage of a scene from DSaF 2 on Twitter, which got over 16k likes. People praised its writing and largely celebrated the scene. The ironic thing about that particular scene is that I remembered being unsure if it was good or not, so I showed it off in one of the FNaF community hubs. The response was broadly lukewarm to negative. Now, it's held up as one of the best scenes in those games. That's kind of the point I'm trying to make, my thoughts on the series have certainly changed with everyone's else with years of hindsight.
Heh. I'm not sure if I've talked about this in a long time, but y'know, the very first scene I implemented in-game was actually the very first Phone Guy scene in DSaF 1, more or less exactly how it appears in-game today. This was before I'd even written the bulk of the game. I was pretty unfamiliar with visual novels as a whole, pretty unsure if something like this would be palatable to a fandom that was really just used to sit 'n' survive stuff that were far more gameplay than text. I mean, there wasn't any FNaF fangames really LIKE DSaF before that point. Closest was FNaFb, a jokey turn based RPG made in the same engine.
The engine I made the game in is also not exactly fit for VNs out of the box either, and I wasn't 100% sure the idea would actually work. But, the very first time I added the image of the prize corner, Phone Guy, the audio of that iconic cheesy stock track and booted up a test screen, I had a little moment where I said "Oh. I think I'm onto something interesting here." I kinda remembering instantly realizing in that single moment how much potential the idea had. Over 8 years later, I still remember that moment like it was yesterday.
I think lately, that's the sort of stuff I think of when I see people coming to me and asking about the series. Yes, it's really rough around the edges, yes, there's jokes that've aged poorly. But, it is a source of comfort for people and entertains tens of thousands of people each month. And that's gotta count for something, right?
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forsaken-headcanons · 1 month ago
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AGSJDHFPAHADDAHO I need you to know I checked for the past few days the anon list to see if I was on it yet
anyways! Random headcanons 2 electric boogaloo. Most of these are Azure & Two Time because... they're my faves . duh
-Two Time wasn't actually born into the Spawn cult, but joined later on, whilst Azure was
-Two Time's knife used to be Azure's
-Azure always cared a lot about their appearance, especially their hair, and how others saw them
I saw this from someone else aswell, but -selectively mute Two Time!! to add onto it, I also headcanon there's a 50/50 of them going mute or just talking a concerning lot. usually cursing the killers
-The Spectre tried to make Azure forget Two Time. Keyword, tried. Azure had just minor amnesia and very much remembers Two Time. Their first round first one to go down was Two Time. from. being chucked at a wall. (I also have a lil comic thing about this but waah waah no images for anons)
also saw this one before, but -the survivors & killers have discord servers to talk in, both moderated by The Spectre. This is also the only way Taph communicates with the others besides sign language in person. However, as smart as they may be, usually it's just brainrot or like "welcome to Hell!" when someone new gets forsakened. also, Azure has their own channel to spam with how much they hate Two Time
^also!! -all the admins have matching usernames, but Taph & Dusekkar are especially bffs and also have matching pfps :3
^^-Builderman is mildly afraid of the things everybody else says in the server whenever it's not serious
^^^-007n7's username is something stupid from his hacking days because he also had a discord server and he can't change his username
-Elliot and Dusekkar get along pretty well aswell, from the mutual "supports who are Absolutely DONE with everybody else".
-when that one picture in c00l carnival fell, it was because c00lkid accidentally walkspeed overrided into that wall. He proceeded to accidentally step on the glass shards and the round had to end early because 1) he couldn't walk, 2) he was bleeding all over the place and 3) he was bawling his eyes out. Yeah sure getting papercuts hurts but OH MY GOD GLASS CUTS ARE AWFUL MAN!!!!!
-Two Time somehow managed to download Cookie Run Kingdom on their phone. They play it in their free time and yet all they do is level up their 2,000,000 power Black Forest Cookie because they relate to her. :/
^-Shed thinks they're delusional for "playing a kid's game" and is very open about it
^^-Builderman is scared to admit it due to this but he used to play CR:K and still thinks it's a good game.
-since he's a four dimensional being, sometimes 1x1x1x1 walks through the fourth dimension to get around faster or just mess with the survivors.
^-c00lkid has tried before by mimicking him but of course it doesn't work.
I like to think -some of the reference skins have actually been there. For example, one time Cashier and the GASA4 player were stuck in there somehow and they ended up being the last two survivors. they lost. (based on a true story that happend to me💞 (I was Cashier))
that's all for now! Ciao!
-Lotus🪷 anon
NAHH NOT TWO TIME 💔💔 we say mournfully as we proceed to join in /j /j
imagining it now, 7n7 probably has c00l3s7h4ck3r as his user 😭😭 poor guy. almost always haunted by his past. slash silly
dude the spectre would've let that happen let's be honest. 1x1 screwing around with the 4th dimension would be terrifying (though with our ping we may as well already be experiencing it /silly)
(CASHIER MENTIONED!!!)
down as lotus🪷 anon you go!!
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transmascpetewentz · 11 months ago
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One of my least favorite things about the modern day left is how
Many leftists have unpacked their racial antisemitism while not looking into their religious antisemitism and assume that just because they don't have anything against secular and assimilated Jews, they must be totally not-antisemitic, but then
When they're called out for antisemitism, they say "calling out [antisemitic conspiracy theory that isn't happening] isn't an attack on your religion" as if antisemitism is just religion-based.
It's hypocrisy. Antisemitic leftists think of antisemitism as racism when they want to excuse themselves from unpacking their biases against Jewish culture & religion & people who are visibly & unapologetically Jewish, but use antisemitism-as-a-religion-based-bigotry when it is convenient for them to deflect against people calling out their hostility to Jewish sovereignty or Jews defending themselves.
Yesterday, on a Jewish discord server, I proposed this idea: the true test for a leftist's non-hostility to Jews isn't how many Jewish friends they have, but whether they have any frum Jewish friends. But don't take this out of context: I'm not trying to say that everyone must necessarily have frum Jewish friends, what I am trying to say is that non-Jewish leftists who get into discussions about Judaism and/or Zionism should be held to a standard of having personal experience with these topics. If a non-Jewish leftist is vocal about Judaism, them having zero frum Jewish friends shows that one or more of three possibilities is true. Either
They have not made sufficient effort to engage with the Jewish community,
They have biases against frum Jews preventing them from becoming friends, or
Frum Jews are uncomfortable around them (I wonder why!)
This isn't a hard and fast rule of course, but it is definitely something to think about.
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a-very-tired-jew · 1 year ago
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Finally got an anti-Zionist definition of Zionism
An Israeli was brave enough to pop into the Dropout Discord’s Palestine channel today (May 5th, 2024) and ask what definition of Zionism they were using. While most people all had the same base of “Jews having their own state in their homeland” every single one of them goes off the rails with their own respective definition and conspiracy.
The first person said this:
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Fig. 1. First person responding to the Israeli gives their definition of Zionism.
Notice that they say Zionism is the idea that Israel is uniquely and solely the rightful homeland of the Jews. This implies that there’s a malicious intent in Zionism towards non-Jews within Israel. This person has likely never heard of Kahanism, but in their mind Zionism and Kahanism are likely the same.
Here’s the second person to respond:
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Fig. 2. Second response uses refers to anti-Zionist. Jews and their supposed definition.
Now, I know a bunch of anti-Zionist Jewish groups and people and I have never heard this particular definition. I’ve only heard this from extreme antisemites who hide behind the guise of being anti-Zionist progressives and actual terrorist groups trying to create a false antisemitic conspiracy narrative. However, this is my own personal experience and this could be the case, as the user says this is what is said in their circles. And if it’s true then it’s a conspiracy driven alt reality version of things as it denies all evidence to the contrary. There are whole levels to this that ignore the non-Jewish Israelis, the rights that they have in Israel, their representation in the government, and so on.
and the third person to respond is someone I’ve talked about before. This is the Jew who claims they were indoctrinated and all their elders are brainwashed and just need to “open their eyes to the truth.”
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Fig. 3. Third response from a user who expands on Fig. 1. User’s definition and adds their own conspiracy.
I want to point out that this token Jew who believes others are indoctrinated actively believes the Israeli is making it so only Jews can be citizens. This is not any policy I can find, nor is it something I’ve seen even talked about outside of the most extremist elements. I think they’re referencing the 2018 stuff about Jews having the right to self determination, setting Hebrew as the National language, and government endorsement of settlers. But that’s far from the Israeli government and Zionism stating that Israel is for Jews and only Jews, and active programs to remove non-Jews. It’s something that, once again, would only come from antisemitic groups who want to generate strife through a particular narrative.
These are the definitions that they’re working with and/or believe. It’s no wonder you can’t actually talk to these activists because these definitions are laced with rhetoric from terrorist groups and antisemites. There’s traces of Jewish supremacy, world control, and other tropes throughout, and what’s sad is that a self confessed Jewish person believes it. Not only do they believe it, they’ve been extremely vocal in the server about it. They have so much to unpack that I can’t imagine what brought them to this level of conspiratorial thinking regarding Jews and Zionism.
It takes a lot of work to get people to see their conspiracy theories for what they are and that they’ve been misled. It’s easier to fall into them than to crawl out of that hole and realize you’ve been radicalized. That takes time, self reflection, and often a big “oh shit” moment, which may or may never happen.
At this point I’m just documenting how radicalized the people in the Dropout TV Discord are and how many of them believe in antisemitic conspiracies and downright falsities. Maybe they’ll do something about it one day, but I doubt it.
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str4wbberri · 3 months ago
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let’s clear the air!
i didn’t want to make a post about this because, honestly, it feels like pointless drama to me. however, since it seems that filthy feels it’s necessary to repeatedly discuss me publicly and make accusations about me in her discord server, i feel it's important to clear the air. i really want to move on from this and put everything behind us.
you’ve mentioned before that you don’t like drama and that you’re too old for it, but it’s strange to me that if that were the case, you wouldn’t still be making posts about me, talking about me for hours in your server, or making accusations that aren’t true. if you truly feel you're "too old for this," it seems like this behavior wouldn’t be happening at all, right?
i haven’t spoken to you since september, when we were on good terms until you got upset over a misunderstanding regarding my patreon and cc. you accused me of permanently paywalling others’ content, which i’ve never done. you’ve never been a subscriber of mine, so i’m not sure where these ideas are coming from. even when people in my discord server — including my subscribers — explained that these claims weren’t true, you continued spreading the same accusations. this left me confused and frustrated.
to clarify: i’ve never made any public posts attacking you. the only posts i made were about the horrible, abusive messages and death threats i’ve received back in september, which have only continued to today. now, i’m being flooded with messages of people telling me to end my life, calling me a parasite, and telling me to disappear. i can’t help but wonder if you’re satisfied with the impact this is having on me. it’s painful, and it’s not something anyone should have to go through and i don’t wish this on anyone.
i don’t understand why you feel the need to send your friends to continue this campaign of hate. i don’t know you well at all; you were in my discord for a brief time, and from what i’ve seen, it feels like you’ve held a personal vendetta against me for a long time. i just don’t get how anyone could act this way toward another person.
your friends are now making posts about me, people i don’t even know. and i really just want it all to stop. this has gone on long enough, and i don’t want to be a part of this anymore. i have kept screenshots of everything because i had a feeling this would resurface. i don’t mean to sound harsh, but based on how you’ve acted for the past five months, it seems like there might be some instability in your behavior.
i tried reaching out to you in the past to have a mature conversation, but instead, you chose to continue making posts about me. i understand respecting boundaries, so i’m asking that you respect mine: stop making posts about me, stop encouraging hate pages, and stop sending people to attack me. this isn’t fun or enjoyable for me — this is real, and it’s hurtful.
as for the claims you’ve made about me, i’ve already addressed them. i never permanently paywalled anyone’s cc. anyone can see that by visiting my patreon. i never copied anyone’s sim. never used another simmers base, the sim you’re speaking of, i have a youtube video of me creating it from scratch! yet you still are saying. no she did. she copied it. such weird behavior. i lowered the price of my class because some people told me it was too expensive, and i was happy to accommodate. there’s no issue here, yet you keep rehashing things that have already been resolved, while spreading lies that can be easily disproven. people have already sent you screenshots showing that what you’re claiming is simply not true.
what i’m concerned about isn’t the false claims, but the death threats, the hate, and the pages being created to attack me. this whole situation is incredibly draining. i just feel like there are better, more productive ways to spend our time than perpetuating lies and hate online. i almost feel like whatever issue you have with me could have been solved with a simple conversation, which i suggested back in september and asked you repeatedly why did you feel the need to speak about any issue with me publicly instead of just talking to me? you never answered. seems you’re doing the same thing now. just trying to cause drama.
that being said, i genuinely wish you and your friends the best. i hope you can find peace and let go of the anger you’re holding. life is too short for this kind of negativity. please stop with the hate and let’s move on.
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wolfertinger · 4 months ago
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"I don't mean to add more mental strain but I just discovered this blog and I'm both shocked and a little overwhelmed by what I see.
For context, I follow wis on Tumblr, and I follow Salem on Bluesky (and I think Tumblr too iirc?)
I don't check either platform frequently so most of what happens with people I follow can end up flying under my radar, but I discover this here and a Bluesky that seems to suggest both are bad? And I want to understand better what's happening.
So, what happened? I don't need a super in-depth thing, just an overview is good enough for me, and obviously you don't need to give me anything, but scrolling through this blog there's a lot here, and I want to have some basic info to work with if that's not too much to ask."
to give as much, of a tl:dr as possible. i will copypaste from anothers detailing, of what has gone down:
"the baseline of it is that sawyer/razzicetea and salem dated and broke up some time ago, mainly based on salems behavior and especially regarding his attitudes toward a shared ex. (torin/maewiing, that had groomed several minors on discord as well as other abusive actions) salem sheltered this ex despite knowing fully of their actions, and claimed a traumabond made it hard for him to fully disavow torin. he also claimed they sexually pressured him into acts such as requesting shotacon art of his fursona. this was despite the fact he continued to retweet their art on his page and freely interacted with/followed them privately, where he thought he wouldn't get caught. this has been going on since 2022 and he was caught interacting with them as recent as 2024 mind you.
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note: salem understands 100% that torin is an abuser, a groomer, and a liar. he still claims sawyer to be "abusive" for discouraging him from interacting with them.
ADDITION 3/1/25: torin is a kiwifarms user as well. torin speaks spanish, and alongside the "sparklef*ggot" name, and the info given. i have 100% reason to believe, this is her, misgendering and deadnaming salem. TO THIS DAY wis and salem, defend torin. despite her being a nsfw feral/loli artist. an irl child groomer. an abuser. a kiwifarms user. and a transphobe.
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next: lilya. lilya was another person in salem/wis/etc's group. this is wis' story regarding lilya.
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note: sawyer provided screenshots, wis did not. wis is actively twisting the truth in order to make herself, salem, and lilya seem better against sawyer, despite the fact lilya showcases repeatedly manipulative and abusive behaviors toward both salem and sawyer, such as deadnaming salem, going on the "transfem harassment website" kiwifarms (wis' words), and purposely betraying sawyer for her own amusement.
lastly: mari. mari is a woman who dated sawyer for some time. in this relationship, mari was repeatedly physically, psychologically , and sexually abusive. she had in the past hit sawyer, screamed slurs at them, manipulated them emotionally into things like sex, and during sex, would often not stop when asked or would go rough enough to make sawyer bleed and even tear once. sawyer recalls one time while meeting irl, mari heavily pressured them into taking edibles. after taking these they greened out and fell asleep. upon waking up mari had penetrated sawyer nonconsentually. mari claims to have been "so blackout high she couldnt remember" and stated she "found it odd sawyer could remember everything". it makes sense to me an abuser would memoryhole something awful they did while their victim is forced to struggle with thinking about if this memory could be true or false. ill try to let the pictures speak for themselves.
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this is what i can do for rn. sorry its gonna be a long post but i want to be as respectful to sawyer and their privacy as possible as well as putting the full story out there, even wis' side. it helps to see her words against sawyer's screenshots though."
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sparkleleecutie · 5 days ago
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"this isnt the first time ive seen a therapist gassing up a terminally online patient to post something online because other people don't understand"
see i actually know what happens in these situations. it isn't that they are LYING about specific things therapists say, or that they 100% are lying/leaving out information when telling stuff to their therapist. the issue is they are coming away with the completely wrong takeaways.
example: kittycorn: "people are wrong about me online and continuing to make up lies to me based on what ex friends have lied about and it's really upsetting to me, i don't like being misunderstood"
therapist: "while that is true and it bothers you its important to note that not everyone knows the exact same information you do. you know these are lies, other people dont.
what the therapist means and has likely elaborated upon: "...which is why you should not run yourself ragged trying to disprove every lie about you ever as that will often not work, and it will also stress you the fuck out and keep bringing the drama up leading to more bullshit being made up"
what kittycorn took away from it somehow: "so i should go online and assemble a discord server full of groomers and pedophiles, create a whole blog dedicated to indirectly infodumping all my health conditions and traumadumping about all of my mental health problems, and involve minors who I had an unhealthy power dynamic with because they looked up to me as much as they did by roping them into my incest fetish so i can once and for all prove that im in the right !!!"
i see it all the time with terminally online people being like "well my therapist said i should feel free to make vent art and stories reenacting my trauma and its healthy to process my traumas!" and im like. well. did your therapist also say you should post that all over social media and get into arguments about your vent art for weeks. because i imagine if you told them about that part they would tell you to log the fuck out. the core message the therapists tell these people is usually good and makes sense in context, the problem is they have decided to then build upon that and use it for justification for the unhealthy behaviors they want to continue. i have no idea why they do this and if they are aware they should not fucking do this. but it is what happens. maybe they should consider actually listening to everything their therapist says and not just tuning out everything that they cant use as a justification for toxic terminally online behaviors. but if they could just do that i don't think we would have this problem tbh
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shatteredearth-if · 2 years ago
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SHATTERED EARTH INTRO POST
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DEMO | DISCORD
Shattered Earth is an Interactive Sci-Fi/Fantasy Fiction about retreading old ground and working for your good ending. less formally, this is meant to go on my portfolio
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Five years ago, you watched the world split open, bore witness to what you could only refer to as "dragons" made manifest in scale, flesh and skin. You saw cities razed to the ground, asphalt streets shattered like ice. Fleets of dragons and foreign—almost alien—aircrafts alike seared across the skies, while towers of dirt and metal tore free from the landscape. The world has inexplicably, incomprehensibly changed, but you know this to be true: Earth never really stood a chance.
With your world now overrun by dragons and dangers alike, you've lived alone, hiding from the world you once called home, scrounging for scraps and surviving by the skin of your teeth. But when a chance encounter with a mercenary ship leaves you reeling with the realization that you're not the average-joe of a human that you thought you once were, you're forced into an ultimatum: enlist with the Seekers, or live out the rest of your life in a Human compound on Therius. But your horrors extend far beyond the threat of the dragons; your monsters are at home in your head, but they might just be the key to stopping all of this madness… if they don't take you out first.
The gears turn, the worlds spin inwards like ever-onwards like painted tops. You will undergo a journey of self-discovery, of potential romances and of incredible loss. And somehow, you can't shake the sensation that this has all happened before…
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A customizable protagonist: Customize your gender, your body type, your pronouns, and personality.
Five ROs to romantically pursue—some in the most conventional sense, others in… a not so conventional sense.
Engage in brief flings, one of which is... an RO's estranged divorced mother. (Your crewmates will disapprove.)
Train your body or your mind to perfection. Are you a frontline fighter, or do you prefer the aethereal arts?
Cute cat dog wolfboy…?
The female version of a himbo
There's no good way to put this: you remember things you shouldn't. The end of your story is not the end; something awaits you at the place where your endings converge. What is it? What are you?
There's an egotistical mind entity in your head, and the flags aren't just red; they're blood-crimson. Romanceable, but at a steep cost to your sanity. Or maybe…
Skippable, customizable NSFW content. My friends have advised me not to continue.
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Avett Ironsturm
Role: RO
Gender: Male (he/him)
Race: Kattish
Age: 20
Specialization: Arms specialist
Appearance: Avett is a Kattish man of average height. His complexion is fair. Perched upon his head are two swivelling cat-like ears, and at the base of his spine is a prehensile tail that is about the length of his arm—both are adorned with soft, black fur. His hair is black, hangs just below the shoulders, and he keeps most of it in a messy ponytail. Most of his frontal hair frames his boyish, youthful face. His irises are copper colored, his pupils slitted.
Personality: Avett is bristly, prickly, and very easy to anger if he's not trying to get into your pants. He's a flirt through and through, and knows how and when to be charming, just… not with his coworkers. Or you. Though if you can get him to let his guard around you, you might just find him a lot more bearable.
Your impression: Once upon a time, you saw his old ID, stuffed in a cabinet along with his boxers and body spray, and you realized he was smiling in his photo. Not outwardly—they don't want you smiling on those cards, but behind those eyes was a laugh ready to bust out at any moment. That was four years ago. Now? All he does now is sulk and yell at people. Something happened in those four, long years, and those years have only been getting longer since.
Sexuality: Bisexual (woman-leaning)
Yuda Hellsbridge
Role: RO
Gender: Female (she/her)
Race: Half Gallian, Half Kattish
Age: Secret?
Specialization: Restrainer
Appearance: Yuda is a half-Gallian, half-Kattish woman of above average height. Her complexion is a pale, seafoam green—common for most Gallians. Her hair is white with blue undertones in the right lighting, and is short and choppy. If you look too closely into her metallic gray eyes, you will notice a swirling, foggy substance within her irises, as is common for all Gallians who are at least a bit adept in magic… which is to say, almost all of them. Yuda is extremely fit and exercises often, and as a result her build is stocky and muscular—very uncommon for a Gallian, though she claims that she's half Kattish.
Personality: Yuda is outwardly cheerful, loud, and brash—tact is not her forte. But behind every sunny smile is a shadow, and Yuda keeps her shadows well away from the spotlight.
Your impression: It's not trauma. It's not a blip in her personality. There is something genuinely terrifying hiding behind Yuda's eyes, and that's not including the fact that you don't know how old she is. Oh, she's nice, and she's got no ulterior motives, you'll give her that. But it's like she's wearing her own body like a shadow.
Sexuality: doesn't care for labels, but for clarity's sake she is pansexual.
Ysh'vanna O'Raal
Role: RO
Gender: Female (she/her)
Race: Draconian
Age: 26
Specialization: Captain/Pilot
Appearance: Ysh'vanna is a short girl with wispy, white hair that topples down to her waist—if she doesn't brush it out of her face, it has a tendency to smother her slight frame like an oversized scarf. Her irises are orange, with a ring of emerald green around her pupils. Trailing from her ears are two, small, green webs that resemble translucent dragon wings.
Personality: Everyone onboard the Seeker is a wreck, yes, but Ysh'vanna is always at least two crises away from a mental breakdown everyday. Sorting through admin, funds, Avett's shenanigans and the odd dragon attack has left her riddled with anxieties. She has difficulty forming bonds outside of work because of this, so her relationship with Avett isn't great. After any particularly grueling mission, she will often be found comatose in front of the navigation panels, staring off into the skyline. Otherwise, Ysh'vanna tries to be cheerful. Most of the time. Some of the time.
Your impression: She's probably by far the most average person on this ship. Every morning she takes her coffee with three sugars and a cupful of milk; every night she takes a nail-sized tablet along with a full glass of water. "For the anxiety," she says. She's incredibly open about most things... until it comes to her family. What's the deal?
Sexuality: bisexual (woman-leaning)
Auren Draksparrow
Role: Platonic Option
Gender: Male (he/him)
Race: Gallian
Age: According to Avett, "Like, a hundred or something." He looks about forty in Human years to you.
Specialization: Warder
Appearance: Auren is a Gallian man of above average height. His frame is gaunt, almost frail; his hair is platinum blond, and is secured in a low ponytail that reaches down to his waist. His complexion is seafoam green, and his eyes are a faint violet. Swimming in his irises is a fog, a trait most Gallians share. His facial features are long and soft, but his cheekbones sit high upon his face.
Personality: Auren is cold, aloof, and it can be difficult to discern what he's thinking from speech and body language alone. He is clear in mind, even during high-pressure situations, until his abilities as a caster fail him.
Your impression: Here's the deal about living past one hundred and one; you're going to mess up. You're going to mess up a lot more than the average person, and your book of guilt's going to be pushing a trilogy if you don't start forgiving yourself for some of those mess-ups. You know for a fact that Auren has never forgiven himself, not even once, because he's yet to save the Seekers. Because he's yet to, in his eyes, make himself useful. But you're his lucky break: he's the only one on the ship who can see that thing in your head for what it is, and he knows it's a threat.
Sexuality: he's not looking for a relationship right now, if ever. He's married to his tomes and the study of aether.
Liam Salazar
Role: RO
Gender: Male (he/him)
Race: Human
Age: 24
Specialization: Researcher
Appearance: Liam is tall with an athletic frame and broad shoulders. He usually keeps his dark brown hair in a nest of curls atop his head. His skin is a deep umber, and his eyes are an even deeper shade of brown. He often wears a white lab coat over a simple sweater and dress shirt.
Personality: Quiet, but goofy; aloof, but sensitive. You sense that this boy would rather bury his head in a good book or some other complicated research than look you in the eye. That's not to say he's meek, though—come any threat, and he'll lash out swinging. You had to be a special kind of tough to have survived the Migration as a Human, and Liam is no exception.
Your impression: You didn't expect to make friends at the IRC training facility—most Humans there wanted your head on a stick for the cardinal sin of having a deal with a merc ship already. The Migration wore everyone's patience thin, but not Liam's. For a hot moment at that facility, you were two renegades against the hateful world. Until your training period finished up.
Sexuality: Panromantic demisexual, though initially he believes that he's straight.
The Entity
Role: RO
Gender: Customizable/it
Race: Something intangible. A voice in your head.
Age: It laughs when you ask this. "How old is a concept? The fear of death, the love of life? How old? Are you counting? Think about that."
Appearance: A dark wisp of smoke that occasionally shifts to form parts of a person.
Personality: Loves you, like an overbearing parent. Punishes you, like a torturer gleaning for answers. It maims you and calls it affection.
Your impression: When you're not talking to it, it's rummaging through your memories. Why? For fun. It knows about that time you did this and that in the locker room and almost got caught for it. It knows about that time you stopped someone from leaving after class just so you could hit on them, unsuccessfully, for ten minutes before they had to beg you to leave. It knows everything about you, all the bad, all the good—and it loves you anyway. That's the purest kind of love, isn't it?
Sexuality: Wouldn't you like to know.
With that all said, thank you for checking out this post, and DOUBLE thank you if you decide to try out Shattered Earth. 🙇🙇
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raayllum · 4 months ago
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it doesn't happen often but sometimes you really do just end up writing meta in the discord DMs with your friends re: why the main trio will eventually come to understand Aaravos & the Cosmic Council even if they haven't questioned/understood them yet
1) The show is always very critical of dismissed intentions.
Whether it's Rayla being Ghosted (only for Ethari, "so i know you did not betray them out of malice, but that doesn't matter," to deeply regret and atone for it), or Leola's trial ("this act, however motivated, is the beginning of the end"), not considering WHY a person is doing something is seen as a roadblock to understanding and forgiveness. This is why Rayla pushes Callum on WHY he'd do dark magic again in 6x03, this is why Soren and Claudia's refusal to engage with the other person's viewpoint at all is so intensive, why rather than being reactive and angry in 4x03 (like Soren) over the defaced painting Ez instead comes from a place of empathy, and why the 1-2 times Karim is right it's about "you must show that you understand their anger (aka why they're angry)". This all comes back to Harrow's advice (our most consistent thematic underpinning being his letter): "You must free yourself from the past. Learn from it, understand it, and let it go." The show both consciously and unconsciously demands us to understand why characters are doing things by giving them understandable reasons, even if the actions they take are often flawed (this is true for the entire main cast) and Not Understanding someone (Viren overruling Lissa, Viren & Soren, Claudia w/ King Harrow in s1, Rayla & Callum growing to understand each other better, etc etc) is what causes all the relationship breakdowns in communication/aid.
This is particularly seen in 1x01 using Ziard's dark magic use to be our initial "dark magic is (always, unconditionally) evil and scary" only to steadily strip that away over each season (particularly S5-S7) and in 3x01, wherein we as the audience realize that Ziard's context / intentions and movations were intentionally withheld from us, only to be seen as pretty damn reasonable if not heroic.
Therefore, the show letting the audience understand Aaravos as much as we do (even if we don't understand everything) is critical and crucial and very on par, even if the main characters are still playing catchup.
2) My base assumption was always that the main trio were going to grow to understand Aaravos and the Cosmic Council, while also learning/becoming Better than them, was because first they were going to Become them.
S7 did a Ton of ground work in this in particular, given that Ezran has his journey of forgiving Runaan somewhat because -- unlike in the beginning of the season -- by the end he's Become Runaan, willing to kill (assassinate) someone. We also know thanks to S7 that the Archdragons and First Elves used to have conflict while having a season of set up for Ezran and/or Aanya's brother (first elf stand ins) to have conflict with the dragons / Zym in future seasons once project ruby fire starts going off the rails.
Callum also had a very explicit arc in this way. In a lot of ways arc 2 was seeing how he could become like Viren, down to using/acquiring the staff. The other undercurrent throughout arc 2 (particularly S7) was how he could become Aaravos. This is evident through his possesion of the cube, the Book of Destiny / Primal Book just as a Concept, and him becoming a primal mage who ALSO uses dark magic + an Archmage™️ in arc 3. Callum is already on the road path to becoming / being like / understanding Aaravos ("Callum sees the world as I do, understands the need for compromise") and carries all the thematic weight of Being The Thing that Leola was executed over.
Additionally, the main characters (thanks to their political & magic power) are going to get to decide things like who has what / be judge jury executioner (a la the Cosmic Council) / what mercy is. S7 also pushed them more into these roles and these choices more than ever, of the choices you can make when you're scared or sad or angry, and the harm/consequences they can cause.
They'll understand them by becoming them and then progressing past them ("their fear, the Great Unravelling" / "i had to work to unravel all the hatred of my upbringing" / "in mercy, in compassion" / "sometimes the line between mercy and cruelty can be thin" / "evrkynd, a place where we will always be kind to one another") by unifying the magics / peoples / the land in a Better Restoration compared to what it had ever been in the olden times (a la Soren & Viren both having restoration arcs of becoming better versions of the roles they started out in as crownguard and high mage, etc.)
Like to me we are very much Well on our own on all fronts, with plenty of arc 2 providing set up / introducing ideas and complications so that arc 3 can bring it all home
"this is justice! the humans attacked us unprovoked" never being true and that's the whole Point understanding/seeing yourself in your enemy is amaya's entire character arc ("she was callous, she was cruel. and in truth so was i." / "you know who you sound like?" "who?" "me" / "i understand you, karim.") and like. s7 was a massive neon sign of "we're getting there w/ Aaravos & the Cosmic Council" flashing at me every episode
even arc 3 being set up to interrogate the ethics of abandonment/isolationism with the Cosmic Council just dipping ("Callum, I know my leaving hurt you" / "She left us. She left" / "take your people, and build your own future far away from here") when exile/isolationism has always been a Huge problem for Xadia culturally to begin with like. we're so There
like the main trio is acting very harrow in him and sarai's convo about the magma titan and i Believe in them bc basically every time i've gone "huh idk what that's about / that thread is going" (lissa leaving the fam, ezran being so passive in s1/s2 with decision making, the archdragons not just killing aaravos and imprisoning him instead, the sun-moon emphasis in early seasons, the 2x08 dream foreshadwing, etc) tdp has taken me by the hand and gone "oh it's on purpose hun don't worry" and kissed my forehead
like even Claudia BECOMING a dragon (the thing she hates and refuses to meaningfully engage with) like. they are Screaming it at us
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alpaca-clouds · 3 months ago
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Some things about the BEYOND PV
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So, let's quickly (well, you know how "quick" I am in these) talk about Digimon Adventure BEYOND, aka the PV that they dropped at the Digimon Con yesterday. Before I talk about anything else, let's quickly address again what this is and what it isn't.
This is not a trailer. This is a PV meant to release and stand on its own. According to @ayukaze's translations of the website, this is basically based on some stuff that once upon a time was planned to tie into the final episode of 02 but in the end did not make it into the actual show. Though, obviously there is some fanservice in regards to the stuff that released since then going on with possible cameos of both Meiko and Rui.
But general, yeah, it is not really surprising that some of what we see does not line up with events from tri., Kizuna and The Beginning, because if what the site says is true, and right now there is no reason to doubt it, this is based on stuff that was written or at least pitched long before tri., Kizuna and The Beginning were written or even thought of.
Now, again, this is not a trailer for either a Trailer or OVA. Though, let's be fully honest: If fandom eats this up, chances are that Toei & Bandai might milk the Digimon Adventure cow a bit more and make this into a movie or OVA or something else. I mean, let's face it. Even with this just being a darn PV, they probably are going to make some merchandise of the designs of the adult kids in this video. lol
This being based on ideas thrown around in 2000 also explains why there are some call backs to some stuff that has been brought up in 02 and never mentioned again.
Before I am starting with overanalyzing this thing, let me quickly once more invite everyone to the Digimon Rewatch Discord Server. A general SFW Digimon Discord Server - mainly for a community rewatch, but you can also just join to discuss the show and games.
But let's go through some of the stuff we can see here, and what we can tell from it.
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We start with the intro calling back to the epilogue of 02 with Takeru's novels and him writing. I did a translation of this writing of his yesterday. No guarantees of the correctness, my Japanese sucks ass. But I let a friend check it, so I guess it is not totally wrong.
“It's okay, you don't need to worry about it from now on [...] The Digimon next to you is [...] [...] is the Digimon behind me. [...] They look completely different, and [...] [...] me and you have partner Digimon. [...] I heard that you can't go back to your family [...] [...] and that you've been going through a tough time. But it's okay now. [...] I'll take you to a place where you can live safely. [...] [...] They'll be here soon. [...] They're really reliable people. [...] They've saved the world from danger many times before [...] I'm not much older than you, but [...] do you know the country of Japan? I'm from there. [...]
This is where the video cuts over to Kuwagamon flying away while a car is on the road.
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With the Kuwagamon we hear some thanks to "Yuri", which will obviously is a reference to the Russian Chosen Child Yuri, whose partner is Kuwagamon.
If you look at the license plate of the car this also confirms that we are in Russia right now and this is happening in Russia. (And yes, the license plate is an easter egg: DM 2581B - Digimon 2025-8-1 Beyond. No, do not expect them to release anything related to this on August 1st. It is just because we have the year 2025 and August 1st is Odaiba Memorial.)
Referencing the translation by @ayukaze again, there was apparently this idea that with more and more Chosen Children appearing, some militaries would try to forcefully recruit those kids and their Digimon. And it makes sense in this regard that the dialogue above is Iori talking to the kid he and possibly Yuri and maybe the other Russian chosen have just rescued.
It is kinda ironic, if this idea had been around forever, given how rosy the actual epilogue let the entire "everyone has a Digimon partner" thing seem. Because, yeah, I absolutely do agree with this idea. The militaries trying to recruit those kids who might or might not end up with a nuclear missile shooting dinosaur makes a hella lot of sense. lol
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The kid in question has a Kyaromon as their partner. The kid seems to be probably between like 10 and 13 years old - it is kinda hard to say in this artstyle. Just as the gender is not quite clear, though given they do not have eyelashes, I guess they might be a boy.
Kyaromon obviously would not have featured in the anime in 2000 or 2001 (when that last episode aired) given it was only introduced in 2005.
While they are driving, Taichi and Yamato talk. Apparently Yamato got himself an international driver's license, and also calls out Taichi for still not being good with English. Mind you, this is something I will still give 02 credit for back in the day: While with some of the kids the language issue did not come up (especially in America, where they just handwaved the issue with "Oh, Mimi taught everyone Japanese") they generally addressed the issue of cooperating with folks who speak another language. That was neat.
Taichi also mentions that he has recently learning some French from Yamato's grandpa. Which is a nice callback. Though if I am understanding the way Yamato speaks in his reply correctly, it sounds as if said grandpa has very recently passed away.
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They then get attacked by a Digimon - Yatagaramon to be exact. Yatagaramon like Kyaromon was introduced in the Digimon Accel in 2005, so yeah, it also would not have been around back then. But I guess in general those enemy Digimon are quite exchangable. I guess if something like this would have featured in 02, it would have been Airdramon, which was kinda 02's go-to Digimon for "random flying Digimon to fight" lol
Something I found cute though, as Taichi pulls out a smartphone for Iori to open a portal to the Digital World, the phone has the Pinable Logo on it.
For context: Back when Adventure was written, it was really super hard in Japan to bring in actual brands into anime and manga. That was also why you would regularly see "WcDonalds" in anime, as they could not just use "McDonalds". So Koshiro has technically a MAC, but they could not use the Apple brand. So they turned it into a pineapple. Which is adorable and a nice callpack with the iPhone here.
Obviously I am going to argue that very likely this smartphone would not have featured either in a possible version in the last episode, given that they probably did not see the smartphone coming.
Though I really enjoyed this little thing, given that just days ago I had been talking to a friend on whether or not it would be possible to open the Digital Gate from a modern smartphone or not.
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What follows is Iori and the Russian Chosen child disappearing into the Digital World, while Agumon and Gabumon evolve into Greymon and Garurumon. Not much to say here, other than that I really liked how they designed the evolution sequence here. It is neat. :D
From there we cut a bit more.
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We have this scene with Takeru and Shuu who seem to be meeting in the real world somewhere. I base this on the fact that the Digital World in this trailer once more uses this kinda aquarell look that they had been using for it in the Adventure/02 series.
I am honestly kinda psyched to see Shuu here (as well as later on Shin and Daisuke's sister Jun), given that I always was a big fan of the siblings and families in the series.
As some of you might know: Back in the day there was one of the Drama CDs that also featured Shuu, Jun, as well as Miyako's sister Chizuru and Momoe meeting their partners. Which obviously then was fully ignored by tri., Kizuna and The Beginning. Yes, I get that I am probably one of like three people who cared about those characters, but man, I really would have loved to see their partners. xD
They are also turning around in this scene to a figure that might be Lui? Though given again that Lui definitely was not thought off back when 02 aired, this obviously would not have been a part of that episode.
It obviously could also be another character, given we only see the legs.
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We have then some shots of Koshiro in a labcoat with "Izumi Labs" written on it clearly doing some research that also involves Kabuterimon firing an attack into some technical thingie.
The only thing I really can say here is that him having his own lab makes me wonder about the epilogue, where it seemed he was working for some international organization. Though I absolutely see Koshiro having his own research lab.
Still: no idea how this is connected to anything else we see going on.
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We also see Jyou on Ikkakumon putting on his Doctor's coat, which makes me think he gets ready to take care of some other kid or maybe some Digimon. Notably this seems to be happening in the real world as well - as once more there is not this "aquarell" effect either.
And also notable: There is a rope around Ikkakumon's horn, meaning they seem to be transporting something across the water.
Again, given the lack of context - and knowing the context only exists probably in some notes that Kakudo has taken many, many years ago (clearly being more organized about his notes than Konaka, mind you, but that is a story for another day)... Ah, it is frustrating, eh?
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We also see Mimi and Sora with Togemon and Birdramon - both clearly in the Digital World given here we see the aquarelly dots in the background.
I have seen a lot of posts since this was dropped yesterday noting how both look a whole lot more like their Adventure and 02 designs than they did in either tri., Kizuna or The Beginning. Which makes a whole lot of sense though if you think that this was originally based on something that might have featured in 02.
Though it also makes a whole lot of sense that it did ultimately not feature in 02, given that 02 was struggling for time and budget at times, and asking the animators and designers to design some "20-somethings designs" for the characters additionally to the epilogue designs for like one episode worth of content or something would probably have send someone over the edge.
There is however one thing I do note.
Mind you, I have currently a post scheduled for the Tuesday after next where I am ranting about that accursed epilogue. And part of the rant is also me going into the girls being reduced to their feminity.
Now, one of my big beefs with Kakudo has always been his tendency to defend the decisions for certain... traditionalist aspects both in regards to the epilogue and generally some of the writing in Adventure/02. And he will obviously again and again maintain that the epilogue had always planned and was always planned and is always considered and Kizuna and The Beginning totally did not contradict the epilogue whatsoever, which makes me just roll my eyes - because obviously it does.
Like, I do not doubt that certain aspects of the epilogue were being thrown around all along and it was talked about during the making of Adventure, but not for a minute I am going to buy that every single aspect of it was planned all along.
And one thing here that is noticable and has been called out by quite a few folks: Sora is a lot more tomboyish again, while basically everything since tri. worked very hard to make her more a girls' girl, given that is where she eventually ends up in the epilogue. Which makes me do a bit of a doubletake here.
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Then we have this shot of Mimi and Togemon facing a cloud of black somethings (I mean this is Adventure-verse where "Black XYZ" was a very usual plot device to make Digimon go evil, so there is definitely that) in the Digital World. Though something I find a whole lot more interesting is the apparently falling tree-thingie in the background.
This made me instantly go "Yggdrasil". Which is ironic, because Yggdrasil was only added to the Digimon lore in 2003.
This might just be a freakishly large tree in the weird Digital World. But the association is still there.
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And then we have a scene that possibly features Arachnemon in a hospital where seemingly both Shin and Jun are working by the looks of it. It is not quite clear if the nurse is Jun, but it definitely looks like her, I gotta say. Especially given that the red hair color was not particularly common in Digimon.
And again: I love Jun. She is annoying, but in a cute way. She is just this typical teenage girl, but in a way that I actually found quite amusing.
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Then we have this shot of Sora and Birdramon again in the Digital World fighting seemingly again against "Black Somethings" - though here it is a bit easier to see that those things seem to be some sort of hexagons. Does this mean anything? Nope, for now it doesn't, but yeah, seems to be hexagons.
Also we see some large thingies behind the clouds, that also might be really big trees? I don't know. Just wanted to note that.
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Then there is this scene of Taichi, Agumon, Yamato and Gabumon jumping into the light. Which... Uhm...
Okay, frankly, I have no clue what is going on there. But something clearly is going on.
First association obviously is kinda the Internet scene from Bokura no Wargame, as it featured the shadows being quite similar, but that is just a very typical design for very harsh shadows in animation, so... yeah, that might be nothing. *shrug*
Certainly mysterious. Which is great for a standalone PV that is not a trailer for anything... lol
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Then there is this shot of some folks standing around in the Digital World. Those folks clearly are international children. We do see some familiar faces among them, too. Most notably Yuehon, Mina, a boy that might be Yuri, and a guy who at least has the same scarf as Steve. Not sure about the others. (Kinda sad we do not see Chicos or Catherine.)
Those Chosen stand in front of a hill or something on which we see then Daisuke and Ken in their adult designs. (No screenshots for them due to tumblr limiting the amount of pictures I can post.)
It is noticable that while V-mon and Wormmon are with Daisuke and Ken, the international Chosen... uhm... Young Adults are without their partners it seems.
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Then we get this shot of Hikari and Miyako flying on Nefermon and Horusmon in the Digital World, which clearly is a callback to the 02 Opening - of which we have a couple of call backs happening in the next few seconds. lol
The two of them are dragging also some sort of line or something along, which we see more off in the next shot.
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They seem to be opening up some sort of portal - though the weird thing about this shot most certainly is that there is like several Horusmon. Sure, like, there can be, but... This does seem weird, right?
I mean, we have seen the Digimon multiplying in the finale of 02 of course - and who knows what kind of portal they are opening... But yeah.
Given that we see a similar effect to this portal with Koshiro and Kabuterimon in the lab sequence before, I am somehow assuming this is related to Koshiro's research, but... Again, we do not have a whole lot of context for any of this.
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And then we get the really weird stuff. We see Daisuke rising along in a clear callback to the opening of 02 again on Lighdramon. However, it is not just Lighdramon, but also Boarmon (Armadimon's evolution with the Digimebtal of Courage), Elephamon (Armadimon's evolution with the Digimebtal of Miracles out of all things), Goatmon (Tailmon and the Digimebtal of Hope), Lynxmon (Tailmon and the Digimebtal of Courage), and Bullmon (Wormmon and the Digimebtal of Hope).
Most notably: While in the coming two shots we see more Armor Digimon, these have only the common through line of "they are all named [animal]mon" lol This is a really weird collection.
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Then we have Ken and Puchiemon (who was tradionally Wormmon and the Digimetal of Kindness) with some more Armor Digimon: Pipismon (Patamon and the Digimental of Love), Searchmon (Wormmon and the Digimetal of Knowledge), Harpiemon (Hawkmon and the Digimental of Light), Thunderbirmon (a really weird one because it was not part of the original Armor Digimon but released only when Frontier came out, so it is either Gottsumon or Impmon and the Digimental of Friendship), Flybeemon (Hawkmon and the Digimental of Knowledge), Pteranomon (Armadimon and the Digimental of Love) and Honeybeemon (V-mon and the Digimental of Knowledge).
(If you wanna hear something sad: I knew most of these without looking them up. Thank you brain, for holding onto this information for 25 years. I guarantee you, it was more important than French.)
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And lastly we see Iori and Submarimon surrounded by even more Armor Digimon: Orcamon (Hawkmon and the Digimental of Reliability), Manbomon (Patamon and the Digimental of Light), Depthmon (V-mon and the Digimental of Reliability), Mantaraymon (Patamon and the Digimental of Reliability), Seahomon (Armadimon and the Digimental of Light), Tylomon (Tailmon and the Digimental of Reliability), and finally Archelomon (Wormmon and the Digimental of Reliability).
Why are there so many of the Armor Digimon?
I have no clue in hell. Especially as sometimes Armor evolutions of the same Digimon can be seen in these shots. Sure, most of these Armor Digimon can also be another Digimon either as an adult evolution, or an another one using the same Digimental... But it is still hella weird.
But then again, we never saw the Digimentals being used in anything that took place post the end of 02, so... Yeah, there is that, I guess.
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We also have these shots of Hikari closing this door on Meiko before being attacked by a dark cloud that then gets dispearsed by Tailmon. Note that this clearly takes place in the Digital World once more, given that we see the splotches of aquarel in here.
Again: Whenever this was originally conceived Meiko clearly was not part of it. But yeah, whatever. xD
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And we also have this shot of Takeru and Patamon going into what certainly looks like the Dark Ocean - another thing that we have not heard from since it was a concept fully underexplored by 02. Which certainly is a choice here.
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Lastly we have a shot of Imperialdramon Dragon Mode flying over a dark forest towards a castle, that clearly is a callback to the Imperialdramon evolution sequence, where we see exactly the same thing happen. The castle looks a bit different, sure, but to be fair, the evolution sequence is a 3D thing that has aged horribly on the basis of being 3D created in the year of our lord 2000.
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From this we basically zoom out into this shot of the goggles, where we see the goggles of Taichi/Daisuke, Takato, Takuya, Taiki and Taiki/Tagiru (in Hunters). Which probably does not really mean much other than being some symbolism that this is also something that lay beyond the ending of 02, I guess.
All in all, as I said: This is a standalone short film so to speak, not a trailer. However, let's face it, there was at least some thought to hope that folks would be begging to get the full story now in the hope to milk the DIgimon Adventure cow further dry.
And I mean, like many people I am kinda sick of everything being about Digimon Adventure and stuff - though I will also say, that I am actually kinda relieved we did not get a whole lot of post-canon DIgimon Tamers stuff. And be it just because I have my own very established headcanon for that.
Still, even being sick of Adventure getting more and more stuff... I kinda would watch a movie or OVA of this, I gotta say. Preferably an OVA, I think.
Especially as this has a lot of the stuff that I wanted to see in tri., Kizuna and The Beginning and never did: More of the international kids, Shuu, Shin and Jun (possibly also Momoe and Chizuru), and some more evolutions than just again and again Omegamon and Imperialdramon.
So yeah, if they should decide to turn this into something real... I would probably not hate it.
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redfoxwritesstuff · 10 months ago
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For Eternity, Chapter 12 of 13 (Alastor x angel!Wife!OC)
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Alastor x Angel!Wife Oc (Isabel) Rated: Adult Chapter Warnings: Alastor's a bit unstable. If you're not interested in smut, you can call this the end, chapter 13 is smut heavy and wraps things up a little neater though.
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“You too, Isabel.” Sera smile was small and sadistic in a way Isabel couldn’t explain as she held her arm out. 
“Maybe we could use some explanation?” Husk seemed to be the voice of reason, “So that the Princess can repeat this success.”
“Yeah, how the fuck did I get redeemed suddenly?” Angel Dust made a show of taking a long drink out of a bottle he snagged from Husk. 
Sera rubbed the space between her two eyebrows as she collected herself. After a few deep breaths, she set off on the story of redemption. 
“You were tested of your character, Isabel of her faith and you have been deemed pure.” 
“Ain’t nothing pure about me,” Angel Dust countered, only to be ignored. 
“You were offered a chance to violate one of the most divine beings in the universe. Resisting gained you nothing and yet, you worked to free her, putting your own life at risk.” 
“I’m going to tell you something, right now,” Angel Dust finished his drink, “If that’s what you’re basing this on- Ol Tall Dark and Murdery over there would have never let me have a moment without more pain than I can imagine if I didn’t. He scares the piss outta me more than Val any day of the week. Self preservation, baby.” 
Isabel knew the lie of that. Angel Dust was horrified from the moment they had met with the task he had been given. That was true before he had known who her husband was. 
“It matters not how you wish to deflect it. Your heart has been judged pure.” 
“Isabel- they decided that you can come home too!” Emily’s eagerness died as emotions warred across Isabel’s face. “Adam’s gone, so he won’t be bothering you anymore. You know what happened to your late husband-” 
“Current.” Alastor’s voice cut through the space. 
“You’re not married,” Sera challenged. “You haven’t been since the day she died. A marriage is until death.”
“Our vows were rather unique,” Alastor’s grip on her waist was growing painful but she welcomed it, letting it ground her as her mind seemed to spin out of control. 
“You don’t have to stay in a realm of violence and death,” Sera ignored Alastor, instead speaking directly to Isabel again. “You do not have to remain with a bloodthirsty murderer.” 
She was tense in his arms. He could feel the way her body trembled under his hands. He could lose her. Because of what he had done, his little hobby, he could lose her again. He couldn’t. He wouldn’t. They had vowed for eternity. 
“We modified our vows,” Alastor insisted, “We changed ‘till death do us part’ to instead be a promise for all eternity. I have remained faithful, as has she. We are still wed.” 
“You are not.” Sera's smile reminded Isabel of the way Vox smiled at her when he realized he had her caught.
“Why?” Isabel felt like she was spinning, as if the floor was falling out from under her. She didn’t know if she was asking why her marriage was considered void or why she was being called to return to heaven’s gates.
“While you vows may be been spoken for and intended to be for eternity, though you’ve remained faithful- since death you’ve not lain together as man and wife nor have you spoken your vows again. You will return to Heaven today and you will move on.” 
“Wait, now-” Angel Dust was the first to speak up but was quickly cut off by Emily.
“Sera, that’s not exactly-”
“And if those conditions are met?” Alastor’s voice was thick with the filter. Static felt like it was crawling over Isabel’s skin. Shadows danced in a way that reminded her too much of the night prior, when Alastor had let blood fly through the air of the studio hidden in shadows. 
“If she were to accept laying with a man such as you, a man who takes pleasure in the ending of human lives, she would damn her soul.” Emily was quick to speak, wanting to be factual before Sera could do whatever she had planned. “It doesn’t have to be right-” 
“But she hasn’t. She will return with us. They both will. We will be leaving momentarily.”
“And if I don’t want to go?” Angel Dust asked, downing another drink. “And if I want to say fuck you to your offer, come get me next time I die, maybe?” 
“For you, that would be agreeable.” Emily again spoke quickly, feeling the situation spiraling out of her control. “We simply wanted to offer you passage now. You don’t have to risk losing redemption while waiting to die.” 
“Or, I can earn redemption through this stupid ass hotel the way Charlie intends and not from being a pawn in some fucked up God’s game.” Angel Dust slammed down his bottle. 
“You’d be free of Valentino if you left now,” Husk pointed out. 
“Fuck it, I can take Val. I’m not done here.” 
“He can choose to stay but I cannot?” Isabel asked, wrapping her fingers around the strong forearm that had creeped up her front as Alastor gripped her shoulder tightly. 
“Regrettably,” Sera didn’t sound like she regretted it at all, “let’s go.” 
“Is Heaven not merciful enough to allow a hus-” Alastor’s smile twitched as he cut off his title in order to humor the seraphim whom he’d rather be ripping the wings off of, “a man a moment with the woman he loves to say goodbye?”
“Alastor!” Charlie’s outrage was clear on her face, “Wait, we can discuss this, find a solution. Maybe you can be redeemed too?!”
“There will be no discussion.” 
Alastor’s smile simply twitched as the shadows violently came to life, dancing with his power rather than simply deepening as they had been. Inky shadows came off the floor, spilling and plashing up on their feet as Alastor’s shadow itself pulled free from the wall. 
Fright filled Isabel’s eyes as her head whipped around. The seraphim were likewise uncomfortable with the display over power, pulling on their own wells of power to push back shadows that strayed too close. 
Cold black arms wrapped around both Isabel and Alastor. An icy chin rested on her shoulder as it curled in over its master and its love. Fingers as dark as the void hooked her chin and pulled her to look at its face. 
The face of the other Alastor looked back at her. The face of darkness and unhidden emotion that somehow spoke more than Alastor’s schooled face ever did frowned for a moment, sharp mouth pulled down at the corners before it began to smile again. Fingers that shouldn’t have been real caressed her skin as the floor became soft under her feet. A black shadow heart flew up above the black head of the shadow man as its shadows swallowed them.
“Where is he taking her?” Sera demanded, her voice lost to the roaring static in Isabel’s ears.
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The shadows pushed them up from again. He held her as she regained her balance, her heels clicking against the cracked tile floors. The room was dark, lit only by the dim red daylight that spilled over the landscape from some unseen or light source. 
Though the windows were large, overlooking the vast city below them. In the far distance, she could see the gleaming tech district that had been her prison for a few days. 
Alastor’s arms fell from around her as she stepped forward, taking in the broadcasting room decorated with deer skulls, rich wood and puddles of the bayou. It smelled like home in every way she couldn’t have been able to explain. It smelled like his workspace and their home mixed together. 
In a way, she guessed that’s exactly what he intended. 
“Where are we?” She turned to face the man she had always considered herself married to, shadows still dancing around him. His shadow twin still loomed, as agitated as the rest of the shadows. 
“The hotel still,” Alastor stalked up to her, looking very much like a predator. Was that how his victims had seen him in their final moments? “My broadcasting tower. I fear those meddlesome angels will not give us much time.” 
“Alastor, I-”
“I have honored your memory. I have honored your love, never once thinking I’d get to hold you again. Yet now you’re here, with me and you know- HA! You know everything now! But they dare come here and disrespect our marriage based on what?” His fingers dug into her arms as he bent down to be at eye level with her. “You must decide now, ma chérie. I need you like I’ve needed nothing in life or death. Do you accept me? Do you want me? Will you have me?” 
“I’ve always loved you,” 
That wasn’t the answer he needed to hear. Love wasn’t enough for those damned demons in angel’s wings. They cared not for their love. They spat on the face of their sacred vows. 
“It’s not enough.” Her lower back hit the hard edge of his workstation as he drove her back. “They don’t care that you love me. They don’t care. As long as they see you as unwed and pure, they’ll take you from me. Is that what you want? Do you want them to take you back? Do you regret finding me?” 
Alastor’s hand wrapped around her neck, grip soft as she looked timidly at the madness behind his eyes. She was sacred. No, that didn’t give enough weight to what she was feeling at that moment. She was terrified, but she didn’t want to run from him. 
“I said our vows again and again over these years,” she whispered. “Alastor? I don’t- I’m scared. You’re scaring me, but I don’t want to go with them.”
His lips crashed against hers, greedy to taste her lips again. They had decades to make up for, but unless he claimed her, they wouldn’t have the chance to make up for so much missed time. Tilting her head with the hand around her throat, he enjoyed the feeling of her gasp race down her trachea under his palm when he bit down on her lip.
Sweet blood filled his mouth as he drank her up. Not a lot, no- he never wanted to cause her any serious harm, but he needed to taste her. A lifetime of wondering what her blood tasted like. He finally had his answer. 
It was the sweetest wine. 
His lips left hers, tongue dragging along her jaw as he clutched her, thumb caressing her waist as he continued to taste her skin. He nipped and sucked at the exposed skin as he reached behind her, undoing one button above her wing. 
“I want to stay with you, Al.” Tears gathered in her eyes as she ran her hands along his shoulders. It took all the focus she had to unbutton his coat and send it off his shoulders. “Please, I don’t want to go.” 
“You’ll let me defile you?” He whispered as his hand left her neck so he could toss his coat absently toward his coatrack. 
It fell in a heap, unnoticed, while his large hands gripped her waist. He pushed her to sit up on the control panel as if it was nothing, setting her between dials and not sparing a thought to what buttons she could be pressing.
“You’ll let me dirty you? Let me rub the very sins of my soul off on you? Stain your soul dark with the darkness in mine?” His words were coming hot and heavy as he gripped her knees, just under the hem of the front of her dress, and pulled them apart while he ran his hand up her legs. 
“Yes,” she whimpered, craving the feeling of him. 
His firm chest under her hands left her wanting more. She pulled at the collar of his shirt, battling with his bow tie. 
“Please, Alastor-” 
He looked up at her as his fingers traced the line of her underwear, another garment he had materialized out of nothing by his raw power for her. Another demonstration of the world he could give her. 
“There will be no going back. No changing your mind. No turning your back on me. No divorce. No leaving me. There will be no heaven. There will only be eternity, with me.”
“Without you, it was never Heaven.”
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max1461 · 2 months ago
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Have you ever cared about something with your whole heart, felt an unshakeable sense that this feeling was part of you and always would be, and then... you watch as your own mind twists this feeling into something else over the course of a few seconds? On the basis of nothing at all? Says "you know that way you've felt for years and years? Well, I'm gonna fuck that" and it literally, over the course of 3-4 second, feels like your feelings are being violently overwritten? And it's so viscerally wrong, not just in a moral sense but like, incorrect, based on nothing, discordant with your whole personality, that it literally makes you sick? I've thrown up multiple times when this was happening. And the feeling (or memory—it's even wilder when it's a memory, because then there's an indisputable factual component to the wrongness) is rewritten, based on total nonsense, based on nothing at all? And the rewrite is so convincing that were it not for the visceral, violent wrongness of what you just experienced, the certainty you had in this feeling just seconds ago and for the entire however many years of your life, were it not for that you feel you could have always felt the way you do now, whatever horrible sick wrong thing you brain just came up with?
Now what if this happened ever day or so for a few months, and throughout it you tried to hold on to some semblance of who you are, as your brain says "you know what, no. You don't get to feel that way. You have to feel some other way".
I literally feel like I am not allowed to feel how I feel about things. I'm not allowed to just feel what I feel. It's—to be clear for anyone not keyed in, this is not depression or something it's some kind of neurological problem. It's wild, it's wild. Uh. You know the law of excluded middle? Well, in this 4-5 seconds as my brain is fucking me, I literally have the cognitive experience of witnessing a true contradiction. I know what that feels like now, I know what it would feel like for LEM to fail. Really bad by the way. I can't describe it to another human, how do you describe the experience of "feeling something you don't actually feel?" And then, it's stuck that way. It doesn't go back. I wake up the next day and it's stuck in the wrong way, no matter how nonsensical it is, it's like that's how I've always felt. It's vile. It makes me want to rip my skin off. I can't explain it.
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dtupdating · 5 months ago
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DREAM replied to a Reddit post!
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Transcript under the cut!
Not everything is black and white, so in my opinion these editors are probably being completely (or at least mostly honest), and that part of my video is also not dishonest.
I obviously know a lot of editors, and my statements were based on first hand accounts from (multiple) editors and also screenshots provided by editors. I am not in that discord myself to take screenshots.
Obviously my first screenshots are direct references to specific dollar amounts (in regards to Jack, and the text on screen says it's about Tommy's friends, not Tommy). The context of those screenshots is Jack's editor saying how much they are paid per video ($50), and then another editor asking who they edit for so they can avoid working for them because of how low the pay is. That's exactly what's expressed in the video.
The secondary screenshots were to demonstrate proof of editors in that circle using fans to get very low cost/free labor. I have multiple first hand accounts from editors being paid what works out to be dollars an hour, specifically for Tommy videos, especially for captioning, and some of these accounts are of captioning/cutting work being outsourced to stans for essentially nothing. I think that it's questionable in this case to outsource editing work to stans due to the parasocial relationship problems, not even accounting for extremely low wages.
I have also seen instances where editors are paid fairly by Tommy, but due to "time pressures" push the work onto stans/others for a ridiculously low amount. How much of that Tommy is aware of, I'm not certain, and Tommy has me blocked so it's not like I can ask!
Due to Tommy's video being 5 minutes, I condensed mine as short as I could while containing whatever information is absolutely necessary. The less information there is, the easier it is to misconstrue things, and the easier misinformation is. In a case where money and work is involved, it's not going to be very common that someone is willing to talk bad publicly about their past or a potential future employer.
Obviously the main point of that section was to point out another reason that Tommy's critique of me that he puts effort into his content and I don't is ridiculous. Given I edit my own videos, and have heard horror stories like the above. Obviously I'm HAPPY to see that his main editors are saying they are fairly paid and treated well, and I will always hope that is the case. Obviously it's also dramatized, and I'm overexaggerating to make a point, using a phrase "editor sweatshop" that is commonly used in the editor community to refer to being overworked and underpaid.
Summary-
Factually true:
Stans have at some point, on multiple occasions, assisted with editing Tommy videos for below minimum wage, to the point where it's essentially for free.
Unknowns:
How much Tommy pays his main editors. How involved Tommy is with the editors editing process. How much this happened other than the instances that I know of. If this is still going on, or if it was only happening at peak dream smp.
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