#BUT YAGAMI DOESN'T AND I CAN'T INTERACT WITH HIM AND-

[atanx]

Chapters: 4/4

Fandom: 龍が如く | Ryuu ga Gotoku | Yakuza (Video Games)

Rating: Mature

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Relationships: Kashiwagi Osamu & Nishikiyama Akira, Kashiwagi Osamu & Nishikiyama Yuko, Nishikiyama Akira & Nishikiyama Yuko

Characters: Kashiwagi Osamu, Nishikiyama Akira, Nishikiyama Yuko

Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Nishikiyama Yuko Lives, Nishikiyama Akira-centric, Kashiwagi Osamu-centric, Suicide Attempt, Hurt/Comfort, Nishikiyama Akira Needs A Hug, this is basically kashiwagi decides to be a good older brother for once, well 'good' is maybe a bit too strong he still fucks up, no beta we die like men

Series: Part 1 of Yuko Lives AU

Summary:

“Why did you do it?!”, Kashiwagi interrogates. “What made you think that you could get away with it, huh?!”

Nishiki briefly looks up and in his eyes, Kashiwagi sees tears rising up. Nishiki immediately lowers his head again, pressing his forehead against the ground. “I’m sorry!”, he repeats, without offering up an explanation.

“’I’m sorry’ isn’t going to cut it!”, Kashiwagi bellows. “I want an explanation!”

[smartzelda]

Not to step on anyone's toes or anything about this, but uh

Just...make an oc

Is that a fun rewrite concept? Absolutely. With Light Yagami as the protagonist? Ehhhhh

By the time you fix up canon and Light's personality to make this all possible (especially with the comment about keeping him from making stupid mistakes in front of L) you'll have a different character anyways (who will be Light Yagami only in name)

I mean, it's whatever. Everyone can do whatever they want, but I suspect it would be more fun making your own character than trying to make the protagonist of Death Note into a character you personally like or find interesting, would it not?

light was such a loser cuz he didnt just google the 100 richest people and start writing down names

[corviiids]

ok here is a playlist about light yagami

| light | no surprises - radiohead // | the death note | uprising - muse // boulevard of broken dreams - green day // | misa amane | starlight - muse // | ryuga hideki | do you want me (dead?) - all time low // | memory | i love you - woodkid // | the death note ii | NOSE BLEED - stand atlantic, sueco // you're gonna go far, kid - the offspring // when your heart stops beating - +44 // dead! - my chemical romance // wake me up when september ends - green day // | yagami | mama - my chemical romance // disarm - the smashing pumpkins // father and son - yusuf / cat stevens

also on youtube

(thoughts and context under the cut)

no surprises - light's nihilism and disillusionment pre-kira - without the death note i think light would have gone down this line faster.

A heart that's full up like a landfill A job that slowly kills you Bruises that won't heal You look so tired, unhappy Bring down the government

uprising; boulevard of broken dreams - self-explanatory i feel

Rise up and take the power back It's time the fat cats had a heart attack You know that their time's coming to an end

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me 'Til then I walk alone

starlight - misa towards light

Far away from the memories Of the people who care if I live or die ... My life You electrify my life Let's conspire to ignite All the souls that would die just to feel alive

do you want me (dead?) - light and L's early rivalry and interactions in college are largely exploratory, simultaneously more and less openly hostile, still cautious and uncertain where they stand with each other.

There's no such thing as a perfect crime Don't play that You've said it enough Cause you want me Or you want me dead

i love you - self-indulgent haha i couldn't resist. takes place in a similar continuity to my fic where light and L start a fake relationship for the investigation but when light briefly thinks it's real after he loses his memories. i think canonically light is too irritated with L's poor moral compass to develop true feelings for him even during this arc, but i do think it's reasonable to think light might develop a bit of a puppy crush and a desire for L's attention lol. simultaneously it's kinda a bit of L at kira.

Is there anything I could do Just to get some attention from you? In the waves I've lost every trace of you Where are you?

NOSE BLEED - i think this is the most lawlight song ever. (this also made me think of a couple of my fics.) after light gets his memories back i think his attachment to L transforms into a bit of disgust directed both at himself and L

I'd rather be lonely and hate myself Than someone you think about ... So this is what you get For messin' with my head Don't wanna end up dead (Dead) Six feet in the ground

you're gonna go far, kid - nobody wants to hear that this song is about light yagami but it is. lowkey this is L to light while those bells are ringing

There's something in your way And now someone is gonna pay And if you can't get what you want Well it's all because of me Now dance, fucker, dance Man, I never had a chance And no one even knew It was really only you

when your heart stops beating; dead! - self-explanatory and victorious in a hysterical about to start crying way

I'll be there when your heart stops beating I'll be there when your last breath's taken away In the dark when there's no one listening In the times when we both get carried away

Have you heard the news that you're dead? No one ever had much nice to say I think they never liked you anyway Oh, take me from the hospital bed Wouldn't it be grand? It ain't exactly what you planned

wake me up when september ends - listen i concede this one doesn't make a ton of sense but i've included it because the vibes work for me. something something a melancholy coming back to the self, a rude and painful awakening after a loss of innocence you cant run from. look over there, a distraction

The innocent can never last ... Here comes the rain again Falling from the stars Drenched in my pain again Becoming who we are

mama; disarm - light to his family, to the world, a manic little soliloquy

Stop asking me questions, I'd hate to see you cry Mama, we're all gonna die And when we go, don't blame us, yeah We'll let the fires just bathe us, yeah You made us oh, so famous ... You should've raised a baby girl, I should've been a better son

I used to be a little boy So old in my shoes And what I choose is my choice What's a boy supposed to do? The killer in me is the killer in you

father and son - are you ever just so god damn sad about the yagamis.

FATHER I was once like you are now, and I know that it's not easy To be calm when you've found something going on ... SON Keeping all the things I knew inside It's hard But it's harder to ignore it

[bookwormbynight]

the take that lawlight and other ships involving Light and an older character are not problematic because “Light Yagami is incapable of being groomed” is doing rounds on dntwt again and holy shit it drives me insane every time i see it because

(“you” below refers to people with this take, not you)

1. what the hell is this victim-blaming logic when you’re literally talking about it as something applicable to the real world. no one is immune to being groomed.

2. to speak of the idea in-universe, I’m pretty sure that is just factually untrue. Light can definitely be groomed and has many traits that make him susceptible

3. no one is immune to being groomed. Light being manipulative, “evil”, intelligent or ““mature for his age”” (oh boy) does not prevent him from grooming in any capacity. in fact those traits combined with his arrogance make him a easy target as long as the perpetrator knows what to say

4. if you’re uncomfortable with the idea that lawlight is grooming, you can just think and say that you do not view lawlight’s dynamic as grooming. that would be reasonable, at least in comparison to fucking “light is immune to being groomed”

5. (pardon my language but) why in the fuck would you phrase it like “I’m sorry but if you can *insert a bunch of things that don’t prevent anyone from being groomed* then I’m NOT gonna believe you got groomed” like do you know how you sound right now????

6. have I mentioned that no one is immune to being groomed.

frankly, as someone who doesn’t usually prefer to view lawlight as full-on “adult grooming child” (I do think the existing age gap is a very intriguing factor but generally it is not my top preference to take it to the extreme in my own conception of it; it is very interesting to see as an alternative though, I respect it), I feel MUCH safer around everyone in this dn tumblr circle than people who say that shit. respect and salute to you all 🫡

Oh, ick!! Thank you for sharing!

Dude I am so afraid of dntwt I refuse. Of course the drawback to that is Tumblr doesn't allow the kind of images that Twitter does so I miss out on that but with the combination of Elon Musk and the nazis and whatever nutcase discourse that regularly happens over there, I'm not touching that shit with a ten foot pole even for the sake of porn 😭

Yeah no the solution to something that makes you uncomfortable is never ever to blame the victim. (Honestly, and I'm psychoanalyzing again, I think part of what makes this circle so safe is that we treat this shit with the gravity it deserves, even when we're sexualizing it. Because what we're sexualizing IS the horror. The horror is what's hot about it, but the horror reaction implies that it's something terrible and serious. It's not normal or okay or impossible.)

I'd like to explore the mention of discomfort with the topic. That shit is normal and human. Not everyone likes sexualizing horror, not everyone understands everything you need for it to feel safe, AND, and this is a wildly different but still important factor in fandom interaction, not everyone DOES think it's plausible for the universe. You can think things don't match your headcanon for how you interpreted the work! I made a post yesterday along those lines about a fanfic I was reading! The thing is, don't attack real people (if you think someone's handling a subject in fiction in a way that does real harm, like E.L. James for my example, you don't send hate mail, you tell people why it's harmful and boycott the work); be aware that canon is subjective even if you have some textual evidence to back your view up - feel free to present said evidence, but nobody has to take it to heart and you can't make them; and above all, if it's pertaining to these types of topics, DO NOT USE THE VICTIM TO CONTRADICT IT. USE THE SUPPOSED PERPETRATOR. If you don't think L is a groomer, say so, if you don't think lawlight involves grooming, go for it, but Light Yagami better not fucking be a pillar of your argument because victims are never the reason something happened to them, which means they are also never the reason something didn't happen. People astound me.

Be kind everybody ❤️

[undercooked-spaghetti]

There are SO MANY chances RGG had with showing off how Higashi and Sugiura interact without anyone around, but they're always OFF-SCREEN and we never see any of it!

Sugiura and Higashi bring Kaito to some back-alley doctor (Emoto Medical Clinic, perhaps?) to get him patched up after being shot. There's no way they didn't talk a little. Sugiura would have still had the device to listen in on the Matsugane office, and it's clear he overheard what Higashi was doing in terms of going against Hamura's orders and getting beat up as a result of his defiance. It also explains how Sugiura knew where to find Yagami when he and Kaito got ambushed by Hamura.

After Saori agrees to a date with Kido at the batting center in Kamurocho, Yagami mentions that Higashi and Sugiura are going ahead to keep an eye on the place.

After Yagami and Sugiura get back from Shono's secret lab, Kaito leaves Higashi in charge of staying with Sugiura.

In Lost Judgment, after Sugiura and Yagami bring Mamiya over to Charles for questioning, Yagami leaves them to go meet up with Kuwana.

It's obvious that the two interact enough to get on friendly terms by the end of Judgment. Higashi gets uppity when Sugiura grabs the Charles phone and hands it to Yagami, and Sugiura briefly mentions that Higashi acts like he's hot shit. But after Matsugane dies, Sugiura lends his van to Kaito and Higashi to keep an eye on Kuroiwa. It could be that Kaito just can't drive and Higashi can, but it feels trusting for Sugiura to allow Higashi to drive his vehicle.

After Sugiura and Higashi stay together at Charles and that month passes awaiting Kuroiwa's trial, Higashi taking the time to stop in the middle of action to direct Sugiura to go with Yagami feels like he knows that it would mean a lot for Sugiura to help get Shono.

Even at the end of Lost Judgment, Sugiura comments on Higashi's boredom in Kamurocho. Which means at some point, the two caught up on what's been happening in however long it had been since they saw each other. Higashi probably told Sugiura that Charles was doing better, but it left him with too much time on his hands and nothing to do.

Don't get me wrong, the lack of screen-time together means that for me, as a writer, I can fill in the blanks with my own interpretation, but... man, I just would love to get an idea of how they are together alone. RGG has put them together in situations, but of course we don't get to be flies on the wall for any of them.

And yeah, it doesn't further the plot to see how they interact with each other, but I feel like them getting along by the end of Judgment was character development for the both of them. Especially when you consider that, really, they were in similar circumstances during Judgment and just doing their best to get by.

[aihoshiino]

An ONK question that's been on my mind a lot is that what does ch109 serves to the character of Kamiki. The chapter felt out of place to me when it came out, because it's a (supposed) murder and no at all tied to the entertainment industry. It's criminal activity with no nuance. Many read this as an implication that Kamiki has been killing people left right and center and Ai was one of his victims. But... Now I wonder if this is a retcon of some kind. Yura's death was mentioned once (1) after the chapter and I kept wondering how the heck is it possible for Kamiki, a pretty high profile guy in the industry, to be going around killing other high profile people without anyone noticing. It also doesn't feel like the current ONK plot is leaning towards "Kamiki is a psychopath murderer". Don't get me wrong, I like what we know about Kamiki now and how his past shaped him. It feels more in line with the theme of ONK. It's just hard for me to forget that a woman died on screen! I want to know your thoughts on how this might play out / tie into his character? Your character analysis are always on point & your HKAI posts helped me processed a lot of the 15YL plotline.

NGL at this point I really don't know what to make of it LOL. Back when I was first trying to figure out what was going on with Kamiki, I revisited that chapter and actually came away feeling pretty certain that he hadn't actually killed Yura and the presentation there was a red herring to make him seem more actively villainous to the reader and mislead us as to what his intentions were.

Part of this was because we had gotten the reveal of his victimisation at Airi's hands shortly before this chapter (just shy of 10 chapters before, iirc?) and that reveal combined with Akane's revolted horror in reaction to putting those pieces together had me pretty sure we were heading towards a place of Kamiki being portrayed as sympathetic and someone to emphasize with. Thus, it would be weirdly incongruous with that setup for him to also be a yandere serial killer who was wandering around sniping sparkly actresses.

The other (and tbh, probably more influential in hindsight) factor was that we don't actually see Kamiki killing her. The chapter being set up to make him so overtly suspicious while refusing to show him actually committing murder ironically made me less inclined to think he was responsible for Yura's death. The way I interact with murder mysteries and also just like, fiction in general is pretty much entirely filtered through the ways Umineko specifically and When They Cry as a whole warped my brain and the way 109 was presented read to me exactly like the sort of narrative trick R07 would have used to make a character look suspicious of something they didn't actually do.

Now though… I really dunno lol. Like you said, it feels out of place - not just in Kamiki's arc but in the story as a whole. My best guess is that Akasaka maybe did originally intend to write Kamiki as a serial killer targeting women who would surpass Ai but in the process of actually putting his arc to paper, he evolved into a different character for whom that kind of arc wouldn't make sense. Which I actually prefer! The Kamiki we get in the manga feels a lot more nuanced and human to me compared to the yandere Light Yagami serial killer mastermind people were making up in their heads. But it also means that Yura's death is this weird snarl that I don't think Akasaka knows how to reconcile.

Actually - literally as I was writing that I suddenly realised, this might be why Nino suddenly came out of nowhere and started being written like she was? Akasaka has said in the past that he's had OnK's ending in his head for a really long time and I can't help but wonder now if part of that ending involved the twins' father playing an antagonistic role that ultimately did not suit the character that he became. So the character's antagonistic traits and role in the endgame were grafted onto Nino because she happened to fit the bill.

[seventeenlovesthree]

I really enjoy these posts. Something I had commented makes me wonder if you could go into more detail about.

And that is how Takeru and Yamato have inverse perspectives when it comes to sovialdynamics.

Takeru notices things about individuals from a personal perspective, however Yamato notices things about others from a group perspective.

Just wondering if you could go into that some more.

Taichi and Hikari also have a similar but different dynamic. I just think these dynamics between the sibling pairs is awesome and it’s amazing to contrast them!

Mhhh, that is definitely an angle I have never thought about before. Whereas I believe that I have the dynamics of the Yagami siblings pretty much figured out for the most part, the Takaishida brothers are a completely different beast.

But what you said there really got me thinking - it makes sense that they've got different perception styles, based on how their priority systems are functioning.

Throughout the course of Adventure - keep in mind that they're pretty much both still children here -, their main focuses are very different:

Yamato's main objective is to take care of Takeru, so the majority of his actions, decisions and even his aggravations revolve around this perspective. While he obviously still interacts with most of the other characters, his bonds are not as elaborated on - he even realizes that he doesn't fully understand what "friendship" means by himself. And I maintain that this is BECAUSE he is hyperfocusing on protecting Takeru at all costs, mending their bond, being there and being needed by him. If he gets mad at Taichi and his decisions, you can assume it's because he is worried that they may affect Takeru negatively. The same applies when he gets mad at Jyou, at Sora, the pattern continues. He IS observant of his surroundings, but more as an outside observer who has to keep everything - and thus, the whole group - in mind to keep his brother safe. He may also project his own perceptions onto the group, which is why he shouts at Taichi to be more considerate and leave everyone time to mourn.

Takeru's main objective on the other hand is not to be perceived as a burden. He is painfully aware that he is the youngest member of the group, "a kid and a crybaby", he already deals with abandonment issues that are only fueled further by the events taking place... It's pretty obvious that he adores his new found family and wants to be part of it at all costs, he wants to be equal, not to be underestimated. That's why he seeks to be close to those who validate him - such as Taichi or Sora, who don't belittle him and his emotions, but encourage and even give him tasks of higher responsibility, such as protecting Hikari. And since he hates to see the group drift apart, he will go out of his way to keep the team together - like I pointed out, he knew exactly how to cheer Sora up and validate her in return!

Analyzing their behavioural patterns in 02 and onwards is a little bit more difficult. 02 in particular is turning their characterizations on the head a little; Takeru is more prone to "generalization", he still watches and observes the behaviour of people around him and adapts accordingly (like playing the troll towards Daisuke or the protective shield towards Hikari - whom he also hyperfocuses on btw.), but he tends to think very black and white when it comes to the power of darkness. And considering his past experiences, that makes perfect sense, because darkness threatens his found family and he can't let that happen. Yamato on the other hand, ever since his own dark cave moment in Adventure, is a lot softer in 02 and approaches people a bit more personally (like when he drags Taichi out of his self-doubts, talks to Iori about Takeru's trauma or explains to Koushirou's mother why her son is worried about her).

Tri isn't exactly making Yamato anti-social again, but puts more emphasis on him getting angry and shouty once more; sure, he had those moments in 02 too, but this time, his hyperfocus does not revolve around Takeru, but Taichi. I still believe that he has moments where he is observant towards others (like whenever he is protecting Meiko), but the majority of his actions, group-related or not, have Taichi, his state of mind and behaviour, at the back of his head. He investigates things on his own and offers to abandon Omegamon because he feels Taichi is not ready for the burden, he takes over the role of the leader for Taichi's sake, etc. (A similar situation happens in the stageplay, even though the main focal point here is Gabumon.)

Takeru feels a little more like an extension of his Adventure self here, he is still dealing with self-esteem issues (hence why he and Meiko keep apologizing to each other whenever they talk), his biggest fear is to see the found family or even just single members (Digimon included) disappear and so, paying attention to them individually is crucial (like validating Sora, taking care of Koushirou, teasing Yamato, etc.).

In Kizuna onwards, Yamato has a hard time staying in touch with the majority of the group aside from Chosen Children duty, but he is still resourceful and goes investigating on his own, knowing that the 02 group may be capable of providing vital information. Takeru on the other hand is fully engulfed in focusing on his writing career, so him being observant has not only manifested as a part of his personality, but it's a thing he enjoys for the sake of his future profession as well.

Tl;dr: I personally feel like Yamato is a lot more goal- and less people-oriented, which may sound contradictory, because his goals DO revolve around certain individuals he hyperfocuses on. He tries to be empathetic, but not for the sake of the individuals, but for the sake of THAT one individual. (I hope I could put that into words well, maybe I need to sleep over it once again, it's just really difficult to convey what I mean.) Takeru on the other hand is more people-oriented due to his abandonment issues, which is why he may be paying closer attention to how and why people act in certain ways.

[four-white-trees]

6, 10, and 17 for rgg (in general)! also 19 for judgement specifically

Oda. I mean. I don't think i have to elaborate lmao

it's not even that he's human trafficker (dont...take that out of context) or that he trafficked Makoto at all. It's that he NEVER expressed one ounce of regret for his actions outside of how they affected his unrequited crush Tachibana. He never even fucking apoligized to Makoto. But the narrative and Kiryu act like had a redemption arc and it drives me up the wall.

I also really hate Nishitani...but I've gotten into fights about this so i shant say any more

ALL OF RGG? Hmmm...Blood of a Lion by Beast in Black! Very thematically resonant to RGG

Such a cool question. RGG has been such a presence in my life for so long it's shaped some of my tastes so I'll need to think about this

In general I do prefer dark, more grounded stories. When it comes to crime fiction, my favorite subgenre is noir. And I mean REAL noir, bleak and dark and a dismal ending. RGG's levity and...pushing suspension of disbelief beyond limits is unique for me.

Gameplay-wise, i do NOT like brawlers and I usually play on easy to get through the combat. This doesn't apply to Ichiban's games obv (the opposite for me there - i LOVE the gameplay) and Judgment's combat is so good and smooth that it MAKES me enjoy the brawling gameplay. But Kiryu and the protags of Y4 feel so sloggish to me that I'm more withstanding their gameplay than enjoying it.

Also all the objectification of women. Really not into that.

now i AM writing a sequel fic but as it's specifically a kuwagami fic, it has a large dose of self-indulgent contrivance so I'll pitch a J3 I think RGGS would make

With the Kaito Files we've seen Kaito is a formidable detective himself and can handle his own case load. Also we're LUCKY Kimura has returned for this. But he's expensive so we can't use him too much.

So let's make this a dual narrative told between Yagami and Kaito sections. They will still interact with each other at certain cutscenes so we get plenty of their nice chemistry but for the main plot they are working on their own. Yagami will team up with Saori and Sugiura at points and Kaito will lean on Hoshino and Tsukumo.

Let's start with Team Yagami. Saori has a case where she must defend a client on a robbery case. Problem is, even tho he's been caught on camera, he INSISTS he was not in Kamurocho at the time of the robbery. And he is not lying. Yet when Saori tries to press him for more info, he clams up. So she conscripts Yagami to do a private background investigation on him.

Meanwhile Kaito is out with Higashi when he sees an old Matsugane family member. He goes over and starts catching up with the guy but he's acting a little weird. He then dies quite suddenly in front of Kaito, the victim of a poisoning. Kaito follows up with the police on this clear murder but they're going to rule it as a choking and close the case. Kaito is immediately suspicious and decides to dig deeper.

From there, the plots will grow more complex as always and introduce a cast of delightful villains to fight. The Health Ministry will be involved. The plots will dovetail at the end where Kaito and Yagami (and Sugi and Higashi and Tsukumo on support drones) will kick major ass 🥰

Thematically it'd tackle the further consequences of the Great Dissolution, including some of the shit that happened in IW, and it'd also explore Kaito's inner life a little more. Yagami's side would have him unpacking a lot of what he went through in LJ. And Saori will NOT have to get dressed up as a hostess. But Hoshino will 😈

[passthroughtime]

coming to your ask box to tell you that what you said about kuwana being protective of yagami is real and true actually. if kuwana weren't so busy trying to keep himself safe, he'd be doing more to try and keep yagami out of this (though he also desperately wants to be with him more). kuwana knows that yagami can handle a few scratches (and an explosion apparently, lmao) but he would take it very personally if anything ever happened to yagami ....i think. perhaps we're having shared delusions

thank you jichan, you're still the only one ever

yeah. though, he knew if he just went and disappeared without letting yagami know where he's going, it would kinda slow his process of getting into shit and endangering himself, even if for a bit. if kuwana actively and purposely involved him into everything, yagami would be in much more trouble i think. killing him was always an afterthought for RK, but if he'd be involved with kuwana more, well... it just paints a target on his back. and yagami wouldn't try to hide. he has ties to other people, he has something to lose.

so pushing yagami away and out of this all was a bit "two birds with one stone" kind of situation

though he also desperately wants to be with him more

yeah lol, i just realized that when kuwana gives him the pendant so he'd help ehara, he says that yagami is the only one he can trust with it, and like, really? you have lots of accomplices whose actions you can literally control, jeez, man xD

and of course kuwana suspected (or anticipated) that yagami would use this against ehara, so there's that also. but. his motivations are a mess, so we can be a little delusional about this as well i think

and an explosion apparently, lmao

explosion is nothing compared to all injuries yagami suffered in the end of JE, kuwana figured, he can survive a little explosion <3 it'd be good for him <3

but he would take it very personally if anything ever happened to yagami

no no, you're right. i mean, he does beat himself up over sawa, as well as mitsuru. he couldn't not feel responsible if this case would lead to yagami's demise as well. if anything, i can't say that kuwana doesn't care about other people. he even cares about his students even knowing that they despise him (i can't stop thinking about the fact that he agreed to meet with yagami so they'd release mamiya... it's not like he was afraid she'd spill everything, i mean, he tells yagami about a lot of things himself)

or maybe i really want to think that kuwana is a better person than he actually is. idk.

tbh i doubt my characterization of them a lot, hence all these disclaimers lol. and i really want to know other's opinions and why i can be wrong in how i view them? i mean, we are a small community. i can see people disagreeing with me, though in silence. but i want to discuss this, because i strive to see all sides of things, and i think it's fun to take their relationship apart again and again

i re-watch quite, uh. let's say, often the cutscenes featuring the two of them, and sometimes the moments where there's only mentions of them. i've started to write an "analysis" of each scene and their (presumed) reactions to their interactions, because it really does make things clearer in my head. i'm replaying the game rn, trying to see anything beyond my insanity lmao, but it's still just one view on things, you know? i really want to have a discussion and see where i can be wrong. and just... it'd be fun to listen other people talking about my favourite characters.

(is this approach insane? of course! but i'm having fun at the very least, and if i can have fun two years after i've finished LJ for the first time, well, i'll take it.)

when i say that i think about them a lot, i really mean it lol. (that's not my first rodeo, so business as usual for me.) but even if i strive to open-minded, and even if i re-visit canon again and again, it's hard to not be biased about lots of things.

and, yeah, i'm really glad to hear that you agree with me on this hc. but even if you, or anyone else, didn't, i'd want to hear all about it

[quidfree]

bestie… thoughts on richard x henry because while im a papenathy girlie at heart…… they intrigue me terribly

inhales. ok.

i get where people get into it, what with richard's immediate 'henry is a god' vibe and also henry's protective instincts (paying for the bunny fiasco, rescuing him from hypothermia, etc) and general interest where richard is concerned. there's clearly some 'i'm just a broke-but-brilliant not-like-other-girls small town girlie and now i'm at college the hot smartest guy in class is suddenly looking out for me' romance novel energy there. plus it's arguably like... The most important study group relationship?

from myyyyy perspective, the interesting thing is kind of what henry sees in richard, and where that goes. his assessment of richard is so intriguing to me?? like.. original disdain for his homer comments and general Poor Vibes (hysterical) vs acknowledging him as a friend but still excluding him from bacchanal attempts (lmao) vs when he finally tells him about the murder fiasco- there's Very Obviously at least some part of it that's pure cold manipulation ('oh richard i knew You would get it'), but is that it? there are several moments throughout the book where despite henry's de facto position as group leader and richard's as group add-on, henry seems to turn to richard as something of an equal, whether that be because of his background (poisoning tips) or because richard is (somehow) easily the most pragmatic person there and henry trusts him to keep everything together. my personal favourite henry and richard interactions (besides the funny ones) are the rare occasions on which richard gets actually mad enough at him to speak frankly to him, whether that be going 'no henry you can't fucking poison bunny jesus christ' or yelling at him towards the end of the book bc he's gone full light yagami. it's when he comes closest to just seeing henry as a normal person. but henry to richard in so many ways is more of an aspiration than anything, bc he's so enamoured by/impressed by him from jump, and i think it's sooo telling that henry is what haunts him years down the line. he 'can't think of himself as a murderer' and he has no bunny ghost, but twenty year old henry winters still walks his dreams to cut him down and leave. if that doesn't show both the messy depth of his feelings vis a vis henry AND the way in which his feelings towards henry are also a reflection of his self-hatred(/later guilt)....

overall i do find the whole haunting / worshipful abstraction stuff very sexy conceptually. and i really genuinely enjoy what we see of their actual Friendship in the book. but for me at the end of the day the former stops the latter from really taking effect, bc henry imo never would reciprocate the depth of richard's feelings. there's too much of an imbalance there, and even when the disillusionment settles in richard never gets henry off the pedestal bc henry kills himself at twenty and immortalises himself in doing so. i like my relationships between parties who are on equal footing and who have similar feelings towards one another, whatever those may be (#egalitarian #leftist), so in terms of romanceee it's just not my gig.

[smartzelda]

for the author ask meme: 3, 5, 7, 19!

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Thanks🥺💖

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3: I mostly write start to finish? Like when I started out I vehemently wrote start to finish, but nowadays it's common for me to write in order and then occasionally skip ahead a small bit while fleshing out my outline to type a rudimentary version of an interaction or thought process so I don't forget it by the time I get to that point. Every once in a while I'll hop around by choosing to just write whatever point in my outline that struk me in the brain on how to do, usually because I have writer's block on the scene before, but rarely do the stars align for this.

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5: I am ngl, the perfect environment is basically just cozy and homey and comfortable, but it wildly shifts between "No sounds. NO SOUNDS WHATSOEVER" and "Play that music that you're obsessed with on repeat it will give you the energy". Although the sound thing probably depends on how over or understimulated I am

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7: Hmm probably...the getting myself to write bit?

Coming up with ideas? Mostly figured out. Doing the outline? Let my brain go wild as it gets obsessed with the idea. Dialogue and fight scenes? Sure there can be struggle here and there, but got that. Editing? Only freaking sucks when the fic is long or when I'm stressed and also can't tell if I hate it because it's bad or because the brain is bad

But getting myself to start writing takes the most struggle and can often feel like I'm just waiting for the stars align and for it to just happen (which it can actually, just not reliably enough to rely on it)

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19: Ooohoo this is a good question and it'll probably not have an easy answer

So, in general, I have the easiest time with characters I am 1. Obsessed over and 2. Have spent a lot of time thinking about and/or writing meta for. For example, I've done a lot of Riku pov in my kh fics, and I think even today Riku's pov is one that I can fall into naturally, even if it's been a while since I wrote kh fic or back on my hyperfixation bullshit (and sometimes if I'm not on it at all). Even if I haven’t written a fic, just the act of doing media analysis and thinking about them and having gender envy can get me in the headspace enough for them to be easier, because I have an idea of them in my head and I feel as if I almost *get* them

In general, the hardest are ones for properties I have just gotten into or for characters that I might love but haven't quite fully dissected yet. For example, I've been a zelda fan for ages, but writing the Ghirazim fic was difficult. And you wouldn't think that, cause it's a dumb crackfic for a crackship, right? But on top of having to balance two character who are from completely unrelated properties, make their personalities play off of each other, make their similarities obvious but make sure to balance this and make it clear what makes them different so you're not equating them as the same person, and try to make them convincingly have feelings for each other while also being in character, I had to write Ghirahim. And even though I love Ghirahim and have been a Zelda fan since I was young, it's only recently I've been digging deep into him, and I just barely had at the time, so it was hard writing him while also not having it from his pov. (Wow I just realized how that fic probably prepared me for writing lawlight wtf). And it gets harder if the character isn't one I'm currently obsessed with. For example, I can sink into Riku so easily, but even though I wanna wrote Terra ship fic, it would take perseverance to start, because I've never really written Terra Kingdom Hearts and I he doesn't live in my brain rent free, even though I do like and relate with him.

The easiest answer I can give you to this question is Light Yagami. He is easy yet hard. I can easily fall into his headspace but he takes so much work. The reason being is that I have done the first thing I meantioned. I think about him a lot, even if I don't always talk about him. There's scores of meta on the brain for him as to his morality, what an act is to him, the difference between his acts and the real him, pulling at all the strings to work out what is closest to who he is and thinking about what he's been through that makes up him, etc. I need to kiss him, I need to see him wrecked, he looks the best when he's on the verge of death, I have gender envy and just regular old envy for a few things (I also love when he gets kicked and punched in the face. I also love when he looses. Duality of man and all that. He's my seemingly put together and perfect neurodivergent bitch loser). I feel as if I can sink into his headspace. And yet....he's still so hard at the same time? No matter what iteration of him I'm writing, I always have to keep in mind what makes the versions of him different, how he would react in a specific situation, what times he would be fine letting go and which he would choose to hold back. It's like I'm playing a perfect balancing game of all the things that make up him and his acts, channeling my meta and character analysis of him through him, dealing with my own perfectionism. He is not easy. He is not hard. He's so easy. He's so hard. He's easyhard idk what to tell ya, but the outcome of writing him always feels so satisfying to me. So, at least all the effort and thoughts taken up pay off😂😂😂

[diagonal-queen]

HI STILL NIGHTGOWN ANON. im a silly little fella. I JUST SAW THE OTHER POST. IM MOTIVATED. IM GLAD YOU LIKE THE IDEAS! ILL TRY AND THINK OF MORE.

- i see... so you have showed poe popipo?? alright next up on the chopping block: 'AaaAaaaAaa'

- i personally LOVE rabbits. Just imagine little karl with little holland lop bunny :) OKOK THATS MY PERSONAL PREF HAHA

- imagine reader is a fellow writer, and they meet at like.. this writing convention or something like that, going to like the same publisher/editor?? thats how they met

- what if you met through ranpo? again, reader also writes and has like weird ideas and hes like: i gochu. i introduce you to racoon man! you: .o. hes perfect.

- reader reviewing poe ideas and just being like: bro that wont work r u stupid

- reader sitting on poes lap while he writes and complaining about him writing too much

- poe gets a hand injury bc he writes too much and reader has to take care of him (babying him)

- poe and ranpo have 'friendly' playdates (although they like to call it a debate between skills) and reader like you said, is the mediator between the two.

- reader and ranpo are besties. poe being the sugar daddy he is, buys reader everything they want. reader then proceeds to take all snacks and stuff to share with ranpo. poe then has to monitor both of their sugar intakes because... well...

- poe babysitting reader and ranpo

- ranpo babysitting reader and poe

- trio being unsupervised (jk kunikidas there to save the day)

- ranpo dies and reader uses poe as therapy/replacement. poe accepts their date proposal because he liked them. OF COURSE RANPO WOULDNT DIE THOUGH BC HES TOO SMART I LOVE HIM

- vice versa. poe dies and reader uses ranpo as therapy/replacement. ranpo accepts their date/proposal because he had his eye on them. SAME THING THO HES TOO BABY TO DIE

IDK these thoughts came randomly to my head while i was writing them. TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF MY LOVE! ❤️

nightgown you're like a stray cat that shows up every now and then but instead of me giving you treats you're giving me headcanons and i appreciate it because poe is the blorbo ever 🤧 i love all of these so much WHAT

poe can't get behind miku he'd be like 'BUT SHE'S A ROBOT ON THE COMPUTER. HOW CAN A ROBOT BE REAL' 'no edgar she's a vocaloid' 'THAT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE' lol, also poe lowkey really does seem like a bunny type. those rabbits are very cute <3

it would be very cute if poe and author!reader met because they had the same publisher but it would also be adorable if they met at a convention that they were both featured at and they were like huge fans of each other, so all the bookworms there who went to meet you and poe just watch the two of you awkwardly interact ksjskskjs

there are SO many ways you could fit ranpo into a poe x reader. i've written myself a little bit of a 'ranpo with a younger sister who likes poe's books meets him and falls immediately' already lmao but ranpo, knowing that poe can be awkward sometimes, would probably deadass just lock you two in a room with a bunch of pens and blank manuscripts and be like 'go on then' LMAO

poe's books and poems are basically always a hit but when he's tired and suffering writer's block some of his manuscripts are a bit iffy. you've had to help him out of his slump a time or two. get all the terrible drabbles out of his system before he finally presents you with another banger of a novel. don't be too relentless with him though he might cry

and of course the beloved poe scenario where reader is like 'POE STOP' and he's just writing light yagami style like 'NEVER'. he won't stop if you sit in his lap or complain though. he is a hard worker and very creative, and much like myself must get his ideas out or he'll forget them immediately. maybe if you manage to distract him somehow? put on the nightgown JYGSJKHKKJBRKTW IM SORRY

if he hurts his hand...imagine poe being so sad because he's physically unable to write- he'd definitely try anyway, but you need to be like NO, BAD. you do get to spend a bit more time together than normal which is nice, but once he's healed it'll take a miracle to pull him away from his desk

trying to be the diplomat for these two would be a nightmare. ranpo's silly, poe's awkward, they're both bickering ;-; at least if you team up with ranpo you can convince poe to buy the two of you candy (he really doesn't wanna, but...T-T). you two are far too excitable and talkative for his own good. on the flip side, ranpo would just give up taking care of the two of you immediately because EUGH romance and EUGH being quiet and EUGH socratic circles lmao

also you three are lowkey a menace to society. like in all honesty you solve crimes together and work towards a safer society but also, two chatterboxes being followed around by a tall awkward man wearing a cape and accompanied by a raccoon? yeah.

i would HATE to write a fic in which either of my beloved boys die but picture this- you're dating poe and he dies somehow. you and ranpo are very sad, you bond a little more after his death and eventually begin dating. it's been a while and you and ranpo are still together, but then poe reappears out of who knows where and sees that you're dating his best friend... (vice versa works too- either way it's the WORST)

[grievedifferent]

Do you think that in the same vein of your answer about how intensely Light feels, he’d preferably like to feel nothing at all? Or if there was a way to feel nothing, he’d do it?

On a tangent, do you think Light’s obsession with being in control / being the most powerful / being the ruler of the world has anything to do with his emotions, their intensity, or the only way he has to control them is total suppression? Do you think or write him as if he believes that’s shameful for him (that he doesn’t have much of a handle on his emotions except to lock them in a cage)?

oh man ... so, i'll tackle the first part more quickly if i can: it's more complicated than a yes. i think yagami losing all feelings would lose some of his personality, which to him? might make him either judge more effectively or more poorly. having this emotion allows him to remain able to sees those shades of grey. without those emotions? he would see only logic and fallacy, not human heart or change. what reason would there be for him to care about this new world if he can't feel anything for it, even if he generally feels a lot of disdain and boredom right now? he won't feel that way forever, right? right? that's the goal. i think if he could "turn off" his emotions sometimes, he would, but i don't think he'd disparage them. without them, he also wouldn't be able to act as naturally as he would, thus his mask would crumble. he is as emotionally intelligent and manipulative as he is mentally and intellectually (and even physically, sensually, sexually, etc). without emotion, he cannot effectively manipulate others. while he doesn't feel the same way they do, again, he does feel, so he does understand how these feelings matter to people (even if they are annoying or not able to be understood by him).

i think for the second tangent, this comes from partially that idea combined with basically nature and nurture. he was nurtured into this.

i don't really write him as feeling shameful for feeling this way if only because he's never been told to feel shame for being this way because all of his indications through life have told him he isn't "thinking he is the best" ... he is the best. so, without any sort of social guidance saying "hey, act this way", he was never going to be anything other than what we get. he is a product of his environment more than anything. he was literally born into this role, he was the perfect specimen, and that just can't be recreated. he has the right temperament (oddly enough, despite being privately kind of explosive ... i kind of forgot to mention for some reason, but he does actually start freaking out like he does privately in front of misa, which tells me he just doesn't even acknowledge or care she's there, she is a resource at that point to be used at his beck and call, not a human to him (how can she be? he's halved her lifespan like ten thousand times)).

from the first time we see him interact with his mom, he comes in says, hello, tries to ask how she is, and gets asked (not verbally but with an extension of the hand) for his grades, he then provides, is told he's wonderful, and then is prompted that he can "have whatever he wants!". as he ascends the stairs into his room, he says that isn't nessary (for the audience) because he has what he wants: the death note.

but what satisified him before the death note? what did he ask for? likely nothing special tbh he's getting a great allowance (he buys bag sealers, tvs he can throw away, etc). maybe spikes in that? concert tickets? he would never ask for a car, but he does end up driving, so idk, and he does ask for an apartment, so he's comfortable getting what he wants. also his parents pay for that apartment (until i assume he's actually working as an officer, but not before when he's a student, they would never make him get a job!! in college!! even though that's normal to even have in middle school BUT OKAY OKAY OKAY fine fine let him live). he even mentions in the manga specifically to his mom to not clean his room for him anymore, which she does say she hasn't been doing for a while, and obviously this is bc of the death note, but it's just interesting that even sayu notes that "light is growing up" or something to that degree. actually, it's in this post here if you're curious. was he seen as immature before? likely by his sister, sure, he's kinda silly with her, but idk, it's interesting to speculate on.

[randomx123]

Tomo duo as the actual siblings (Shodashi is a Mahavidya after all).

Sotyo duo are band members and the found family (Sarada as lead singer, Bhairav as the Guitarist).

Rojo duo are the extrovert and Her adopted introvert (who is Her senior in school or something, and maybe He's an absolute vacuum of rizz and needs Padma's help to try and date Gayatri)

I don't have the post now, but there was one about a guy and whoever interacted with him apparently came out as trans or gay or smth. Imagine if Padma was like that lol (She'd reject a guy, and later on he'd start questioning his gender identity)

Okay, the original myth had them all returned to original, but this could have some of them realise that being cis doesn't mean you can't look pretty, and how society gendering things is disastrously bullshit.

Padma and Jyeshtha doing hathapai, and the other kids cheer like those school/college/tuition lafdas. Or just like parar kaku-kakimas looking for future pnpc korar maal-moshla

Also, there are myths about Dhumavati or Swet Kali being there during the Mahapralaya, as the Destroyer. So what do you think about those?

BTW, is it just me or does @h0bg0blin-meat 's Kalipurush kinda give Light Yagami/Kira vibes?

Yk this reminds me

What if DURGA took an avatar like Kalki... And defeated Kali

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We need to make an avatar for her now.

AND OFC SHE'S GONNA BE BUTCH (by her late teenage years at least)

OMG YES SHE SHOULD

Like they can be such a cool duo like (BUTCH) wonder woman and superman

DO IT MAKE IT name her

ABSOLUTELY SHE'S

Here take this inspo art I made this night (it was supposed to an OC who's inspired by both Kalki and Durga but make her Butch Durga idc)

@randomx123 see this

[izzyizumi]

Digimon Adventure: (2020 Reboot anime) ~ Episode 54 (Japanese version) Featuring Character: Taichi Yagami [Taichi (Tai) Kamiya in US] (speaking to Rebellimon [also known as Ogremon])

(cue soft sentimental music as the scene starts)

“Hey, Rebellimon. You say you don’t know the {reason} why you’re fight-” - Taichi

“I don’t need one.” - Rebellimon

“...Really?” - Taichi

“For example... What if it was to protect something {important}?” [TAISETSU NA MONO, - Important / “a Precious thing”]

”Something {important}/{precious}...” - Rebellimon

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“Yeah, like Agumon and {my friends}/{comrades}. [“NAKAMA”] There’s a lot to {protect}. I can’t describe it well though.” - Taichi

(Note: official subs use “important”, can also be translated as meaning “[a] Precious thing”) {Official Toei subs also use “friends”} Original Poster’s {Mine} Commentary: If someone in this fandom ever tries to tell / convince you Taichi Yagami, in any form of Adventures canon media, is a so called “bad friend” compared to others, that “doesn’t care about” putting value / effort into his friendship with his friends, or returning value in his friendships with them... That Taichi Yagami, in any series, would 100% move on from connecting with his friends in any way, shape or form / utterly drop his friendships with them... If they genuinely try to convince you that “Taichi” doesn’t value his friends..... (Including in any form of canon featuring “Taichi” as a character / concept); That the Adventure Chosen as a whole “do not care about furthering their friendships with each other as strongly as” {insert other series characters here} and that’s why {insert other characters here} are “so much better than” Taichi or the Adventure Chosen due to the level / strength of their friendship... Show them this photoset and tell them they’re WRONG. (Anyway, I never want to hear anyone in this fandom tell me “Taichi doesn’t consider his friends important” completely unironically ever again.)

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[welivetodream]

Characters that fascinate me:

1. Albus Dumbledore (Harry Potter): after re-reading HP again, I started to put more effort on dissecting the interactions between Dumbledore and other people, especially Harry and Snape. Dumbledore's strategies, plans and the use of emotions of other people for his favours and for the greater good is for me unlike what most people consider, admirable. I have heard many people mention the fact they hate Dumble's because he is "evil", I like morally grey characters and the fact is Dumbledore's actions were not evil in any way. Did he raise Harry to die? Yes. But that doesn't mean he did that for fun (or ounce presented a way to save Harry he didn't make sure to prevent his death). Every step Dumbledore took was to defeat Voldy in the end, who was committing mass genocide. To prevent deaths of hundreds, thousands of people, it was okay for him to sacrifice certain people (mostly Himself, Harry and Snape). I also think Dumbledore could or should have been in Ravenclaw or Slytherin because his qualities matches those houses more than Gryffindor (also can you imagine how conflicting it would have been for Harry if Dumbledore causally mentions he is a Slytherin or if he was a Ravenclaw there could have been more characters in that house than Quirrell and Lockhart of all people)

2.  Daria Morgendorffer (Daria): if there was a character that I could relate to the most, it's her. Daria's cynical outlook, her quick wit, her quotes are so entertaining to watch. Its really amazing to be able to have a character that represents the perceptions of the quiet kids. As one of them, Daria is the representation of rebellion against the power hungry, capitalistic and tone deaf world we live in.

3. Amy Dunne (Gone Girl): this woman sacres me. She is the epitome of the perfectly imperfect villainous yet fascinating character that captures your attention. She is a psychopath. She is a liar. She is deranged. And I can't help liking her as a complex person.

4. Wanda Maximoff (Wandavison): from her ability to manipulate the minds of all the original avengers (except Hawkeye) in age of Ultron to her batshit crazy powers in multiverse of madness (including the fact defeating the entire illuminati while dream walking), Wanda had come far from being just another avenger to one of most powerful beings in the current MCU. And all of that due to a mother's love, shows you how powerful loss and love can be.

5. L. Lawliet (Death Note): world's top three detectives, the boy who stopped WW3 as a kid, the blueprint for Wammy's house, the deductive genius who almost captured the worst serial killer in history. L will never cease to be interesting. His backstory reveals that L was always the best, no matter if he could defeat Light Yagami or not (he sort of did defeat Light as he knew Light was Kira the 1st time he met him). The most interesting aspect of L is how neutral his moral ideals are, on one hand he spends all this time (literally, as he doesn't sleep) to solve the Kira case, on the other hand he isn't reluctant to play with people's emotions and sacrifice certain people to reach his end goals. While L is the antagonist, everyone loves him as the hero to Light's protagonist villain. I do love L as much as the next person; what I love more than that is how he is just as morally grey as Light but stays on the grey part and never becomes the villain he could be, something that Light became.

6. Allison Dilaurentis (Pretty Little Liars): in my opinion, the most evil of the onscreen Mean girls (except for Courtney Shane and Chanel Oberlin). Allison in the first few seasons was the most fascinating aspect of the show, the sheer power she holds in Rosewood, the way she manipulates all her friends, the way she could destroy lives of anyone she wants is the best part of her character. But after her return from the "dead" she became kinda boring and not the fantastic villain we wished she was. Like, they could have made Aria "A" instead of evil British cousin and made Allison the one controlling Aria, as it was clear Aria was hiding something about herself, the show also gave many clues about her and she seemed be the person Allison liked the most among the liars (she also got the least torment from Allison as well as A). It makes sense if they were both working together. But no, that's too predictable! You have to pull the evil twin plot for shock value!!!!

7. Regulus Black (Harry Potter): he is the best example of a good Slytherin (*ahem* Snape *ahem*). The best thing about his arc is he used to be a death eater but changed sides after knowing how shitty Voldy is, protected his house elf and sacrificed his life for the world. And had a better reason for changing sides than someone very similar to him (*ahem* Snape *ahem*)

Ps: I did not die. Next time.