#BUT SAMMY !! MY BOY !! i wish there was more of him in the book tho

[vanana-r0tat3]

i bought dreams come to life and it came in today so i read it all in like 5 hours in one go

i am not okay

i didnt expect the book to get so. real with like real world issues

AND I DIDNT EXPECT IT TO HURT ME SO BAD

I AM SO UPSET OH MY GOD. i enjoyed the book so much but FUCK.

[olivarryprompts]

Fanfic Friday #12

Welcome to Fanfic Friday! Each Friday I post a new here and on A03. Enjoy x

Read and save it on A03 here https://archiveofourown.org/works/34123603

{whatever it is a scar rememebers}

Ships: Sam Wilson/Bucky Barnes

Warnings: mentions of underage drinking, smoking, swearing, mentions of canon typical violence. it's a fluff piece tho :)

“She’s just a little girl. Come on Buck, we have to help her,” Sam said, cuddling into Bucky’s side. “Sam, she’s, she’s our enemy.” “That depends on how you view it.” “Come on.” “Buck, please. She is just trying to make a statement. She hasn’t done any real bad yet.” “Yet, Sammy, see how you said yet. You know how much she is capable of.” “Yes, without our help and guidance. She’s just, just lost.” “I will always back you. Always. It’s not me you need to worry about.” “This is our mission. We get to decide how it gets done, the other avengers have their own.” “That’s directly ignorant of the fact we all need to sign off on mission plans. That’s the deal, that’s why we get to operate in our wide jurisdiction.”“Baby, step back. Look at this for real.” “I know Sammy, I swear. She’s just a girl, and you’ve always had more compassion than me. So convince all the Avengers and I will follow you wherever.” “I’m putting together the mission plan, and I will get it signed.” “Good. Now, can we please go to sleep.” “Yes. Love you.’ “Love you more.”The next morning when they awoke, Sam did not bother waking for Bucky to wake up. Naturally, when Bucky did wake he reached over for Sam and did not find him. Bucky panicked, they had fallen into an unbreakable routine. Sam would always wait up for him. What had happened to his boy? “Friday, is Sam okay?” he asked, panicked. “Yes, he is just on a run with steve. He asked me to inform you that he was planning to get Steve to sign first.” “Oh, oh, thanks Fri,” he said, and then under his breath muttered, “I’m going to kill him.” “Kill who?” Sam said, entering all sweaty. “Samuel Thomas Wilson, how dare you?” Buck said, only half joking. “What baby?” “I woke up without you next to me.” “Had things to do sweetheart,” Sam explained, changing into some sweatpants and a hoodie. “More important than cuddling me.” “Unfortunately so,” he said, putting deodorant on. “You're supposed to say nothing is more important than you.” “Buck, cut the melodramatics.” “Sam, you stole my morning cuddles from me. That is a serious offense.” Sam climbed back into bed and pulled bucky in. “You okay now?” “Yes.” “Got all the Avengers signatures.” Bucky just smiled. Sam and his determination. “When do we leave?” “Two days time. Flight out at 8 O’clock in the morning. We got intel Karli will be stationed in Latvia.” “Okay, guess we’re going then.” “Yes we are.”Somehow they ended up with Karli in custody, and as negotiated by Sam, she would be staying in the compound under his guidance, following a strict routine each day. “So, in the morning you will be woken at 8 am sharp. Breakfast is from 8-8:30, then your school day starts. School is from 8:30 till 2 Monday through Friday. After that there will be therapy for an hour. After that you have training for 2 hours. Any additional activities you wish to take can be negotiated.” “Sounds like hell,” she commented. “Hey it’s either this or prison, pick your poison.” “Oh how I wish it were poison. What does training mean?” “Learning to fight with control and releasing your anger.” “Sounds alright.” “Good.” “And I’m off the hook anytime after 5?” “Yes. Free to do what you wish on the compound. You’ve been fitted with a GPS, that’s the bracelet, and so you can’t really leave.” “Is this legal?” “Yes, very. Oh and you’re required to be at dinner, whatever time that may take place.” “Dinner?” “Avengers are a family, and we have family dinners. Sort of.” “That’s uncomfortable.” “Get used to it.” “No thanks.” “You need help getting settled in?” “Nope.”It was her third day and it was 8 in the morning and she was being woken up. “JUST FUCK OFF YOU STUPID MACHINE,” she yelled. Bucky almost instantly showed up at her door. “Aren't you supposed to be awake right now?” “Everyone needs to fuck the hell off before I beat the shit out of you.” “Alright girlie, calm down. I’m a super soldier too ya know.” “What the hell.” “Take a chill pill.” “Did you really just say that?” “Yes. Now what is going on? Use your big girl words.” “I swear to god.” “What?” “Everything is so goddamn structured

here. Family dinners are so awkward. Therapy is downright stupid, and school, school just sucks.” “Fair enough. It’s your own fault though.” “Huh?” “Shouldn’t have gone for the whole terrorist vibe. Anyway, the more days you complete, the more freedom you get. We have some kids in the compound. Get to know them, they’re a good time. Especially Peter. They have their own thing, and they have a good time together.” “Are you actually dumb? They don’t want to be my friend.” “On the contrary. Most of them understand youth discussion and want to make the world a better place.” “Everyone here is so nice, what the fuck. You’re supposed to hate me.” “I’ve done enough hating for a lifetime. Plus, everyone here is supposed to hate me, too. Turns out that’s not how it works. I’ve become a big brother, a boyfriend, a friend. They make you better, just let them. Let Sam. He really does care about you kid, he put in a real shift to get you here. He gets it.” “I-” “Don’t worry about words. Get ready for school, see you at breakfast a bit, yeah?” “Yeah.” she said hesitantly.Bucky went back into his and Sam’s room. “To think you said you were bad with kids.” “I- eavesdropper.” “More like an attentive listener.” “I just told her what she needed to hear.” “You made yourself vulnerable to make her feel less vulnerable.” “Sure, whatever.” Sam leant into Bucky for a kiss, glad to have him backing his plays. Always.After some time, Karli was seemingly getting the hang of this whole new life. She was saying more than a word per day, actually doing the work assigned to her, and finally she was speaking to some people around the compound. “Hey Karli, how’s the day?” Peter said, swinging round to the gym she was training at. “Yeah alright. How ‘about you spiderboy?” “Heyyyy it’s man.” “Sure, sure.’ “It was fine, too. Pretty easy to be honest.” “You’ve got to help me get this maths shit sorted.” “Wanna head to the lab?” “Gotta finish up two hours, almost done though.” “Haven’t you got a trainer?” “Yeah, used to. Prefer doing it alone, sparing with you and nat on occasion.” “Makes sense. Never liked the guy to be fair.” “See you in the lab in 20?” “Sure thing. Bring your books.” “Alright,” she said, and Peter began to leave. “Hey Peter.” “Yep?” “Thanks, really. For all of this.” “Course, your family now, aren't ya.” Karli just smiled. Then, once Peter had left, she let the few tears that were welling up fall.“Dinner’s in 10,” Sam said, entering the lab. “Fanks Sam.” “Yup.” “What do you think it is?” “One can only hope Loki cooked.” “Hmn. And that Doctor Banner didn’t.” Peter laughed then agreed. “We should go up and help with the set up,” Karli suggested. “Yeah sounds good. I’ll meet you up there, just gotta finish this blueprint” “See ya mate.” “See ya.”So, Karli was settling into her new life with her new people. It was scary. She wasn’t used to being cared for and looked after. If she drank too much one night, no one would care. If she smokes, no one gives a crap. If she never did her homework, it didn’t matter. Those things took some getting used to.“No, it is a big deal.” “It was a drunk night, come off of it Sam.” “Come off of it? What do you think this is?” “What? I’m legal in England, drunk all the time before.” “This ain’t before anymore. Plus, you are not legal in England, you’re seventeen.” “Yeah, I can get a drink at a pub with a parent's consent,” Karli muttered, fighting a meaningless battle. “Well you don’t have that consent.” “Good thing I don’t have a parent,” she rolled her eyes. “Come on kid! It doesn’t matter if you don’t have a parent, you have a family. A family that cares a lot about you. They don’t want you to drink to be happy or smoke and get yourself cancer. How hard is that to understand?” “We ain’t a family.” “What are we then? Last time I check we qualify for a stupid, messed up, family.” “Just fuck off about it,” she said, trying to end the conversation. “Why? Why Karli? Because it’s so hard to imagine that we love you and value you in our lives.” “Yes! All that shit!” “Oh for fuck sake. Bucky, then Steve, fucking

Peter, you’re all the same.” “What are you on about?” “You don’t think you deserve it.” “I-i-” “You don’t think you are good enough for all this.” “Cause I’m not! I’m not like you guys, I’m not good. I’m not a hero.” “Why? Because you were a kid and you made some dumbass mistakes. Because you’re more a pessimist than an optimist. Last time I checked, that does not make you a bad person.” “Whatever.” “Not whatever Karli. You did and do want to help people, that makes you a hero.” “Not how I did it.” “Maybe not. But how you are doing and how you will do it. That does. And none of that shit matters anyway, you belong here, with us. In this family. And you, more than anyone, deserve it.” “Fine.” “Fine?” “Yes, alright. Thank you,” Karli said, finally smiling, “Don’t get all sappy on me.” “Wouldn’t dream of it, kid.” “I love ya.” “I love you, too,” he said, giving her a hug. “We done with this self-hate thing?” “Workin on it, alright?” “Alright.” So, Sam left with a smile and headed downstairs to get some actual work done.

Read and save it here on A03 https://archiveofourown.org/works/34123603.

*Also this was posted many days late and it's deffo not a friday, sorry :)

[thatmultifandomhoe]

The Extremely Large Tag Game

ATagged By: @dreamystuffers​ thank you sweet pea and HOLY SHIT THIS REALLY IS THE ULTIMATE TAG GAME BUT I AM READY.

SECTION ONE: First and last tag: post the first line of a wip as well as the last line you’ve written so far!

So I have several Wips at the moment and whelp, I’m gonna do them all lol.

The Size of a Heart: Wonho and Reader (Drabble)

First Line Written: The sky was burning as the sun set for the night, cloaking the city in its familiar darkness.

Last Line Written: “I tell myself that it’s better if it hurts, but I…I can’t anymore…I can’t.”

Tentatively Falling: Vampire Jongdae and Reader (Series)

First Line Written: Strobe lights flashed around the dark bar, drawing your attention every now and then when they went wild as the bass dropped.

Last Line Written: It was more than you ever thought, but it was exactly what you dreamt about hearing him say.

Heavenly Father: Boyfriend Yoongi, Priest Jimin, Alter boy Jungkook, and Reader (Smut Crack Drabble - Title May Change)

First Line Written: The stain glass windows in the Church were a sight to see during the day, the sunlight streaming through and bringing life to the images during the service, and brought a sense of comforting to those during times of trouble.

Last Line Written: Jimin groaned and your eyes watered when your nose was pressed against the base, his dick down your throat.

Knitting You a Home: Wolf Hybrid Namjoon and Reader (Series)

First Line Written: The wind howled while rain pelted your house as the storm refused to let up.

Last Line Written: For the moment, his thoughts were cleared, allowing him to fall asleep with you safely in his arms.

SECTION TWO. Enter 15 of your biases and put them in this order to discover the story of your life

Parent: Hongjoong

well I mean he is pretty daddy at times

Sibling: Jongdae

Grandparent: Sammy

Haunts you: Vernon

Significant other: Jooheon

HELL YEAH BITCHES

Ex: Yuta

damn that’s...that’s a change

Best friend: Chanyeol

Proposed to you: Yoongi

Was this before Jooheon or after Jooheon? Who’s my ass with?

Your boss: Taeyong

Random person you meet a the bar: Seonghwa

Rival: Bang Chan

BUT HE’S THE SWEETEST HUMAN BEING THO

First kiss: Namjoon

Drunk and singing karaoke with: Wonho

Played seven minutes in heaven with: Felix

Gave you your favorite dessert: Jackson

I...I can see this one. He’s sweet to do that

SECTION THREE. Describe your bias by their vibes as if they were someone in your life. (I’m doing my Ults, 1 from each group.)

Jongdae (EXO): The guy that everyone knows because he’s the one with that distinguishable laugh. The class clown that knows the limits and only crosses them on rare occasions. You think you know him but then he’ll say something that you never knew about him. Craves his independence but is the quiet one when in a large group, smiling as he watches the more energetic ones run about. An old soul trapped in a young body.

Yoongi (BTS): The one who devotes himself to his work and rarely sees the light of day. His room is littered with empty to go cups of coffee mixed with his own assortment of coffee mugs Coffee ring stains on furniture. You think he’s not listening or paying attention but when you least expect it, he’ll quietly do something or hand you a gift that he knows you treasure. He’ll never ask for cuddles, but he’ll always give them to you and refuse to let you go when you try to get up. Wise beyond his years because he’s suffered and doesn’t wish it on anyone else.

Yuta (NCT): The popular guy that at first everyone warns you about, but once you get to know him yourself, you don’t know why they warned you in the first place because he’s a total sweetheart. The guy who flirts with everyone and anyone, but remains loyal to his girl. He’s never without his iced coffee, and he’s dyeing his hair in the bathtub with a friend to help make sure it doesn’t go too wrong. Will entertain your drunk texts. He’s the one to text at 2 am when you’re feeling alone and down and he’ll do what he can to lift you back up with nothing but the truth.

Hongjoong (Ateez): He’s the guy who doesn’t give a shit about trends or styles, he creates his own. The guy who does the piercings at the local tattoo shop knows him by name because he’s gotten so many of his piercings done there. He is the Fashion DIY King. Will roast his friends the hardest  because he loves them the most and takes it when they dish it back. Somehow manages to rock hairstyles - long live the mullet - that no one thought should have ever existed. Don’t let him cook though. If he cooks you’ll end up with food poisoning. He’s the one who will let you try makeup tricks and new products on him. Secretly amazing at painting nails.

Wonho (Monsta X): He’s the guy friend that you never expected to be friends with. Him? You? Total opposites on a physical scale. On completely different levels. Once you get to know him, he’s a total teddy bear. Doesn’t question it when you suddenly appear and hug him without saying a word, he’ll simply hug you back while maintaining the conversation he had going. Or he’ll simply surprise you with a hug because he likes them.

Bang Chan (Stray Kids): He’s the one that always has his earbuds in even during class. Like he’s the guy that has the earbud going through the sleeve of his hoodie and is pressing his palm against his ear to listen to the music. Listens to everyone, even if he doesn’t know them that well and gives really good advice if they ask for it.

Jackson (Got7): The guy that you can hear a mile away. Hyper. Can’t sit still to save his life. He was the guy that you’d see doing laps in the hallway with his friends when he should have been in class, but he was the nice one. Passionate and when you ask him about what he’s working on, he’ll talk about it for hours. Will also apologize multiple times for going on but then continue to go on.

SECTION FOUR. Search your name + “core aesthetic” on Pinterest and make yourself a moodboard

SECTION FIVE. Make a normal and fantasy version of yourself using this !

SECTION SIX. Writing tag game!

What is your ideal setting for focusing on your writing?

A quiet office where I can play music softly in the background and be at a desk with a comfortable chair.

 What Genre do you prefer to write?

Slice of Life, Young Adult, College Age.

Do you prefer to write on paper or digitally?

Both.

It’s the middle of the night and you suddenly wake up with an idea. What do you do?

Make a note of it in either my notebook or in the notes section on my phone.

Who is your favorite person to write about?

Jimin and Hoseok

Do you like making your own characters, or do you usually write about real people?

I like to do both. Honestly, it’s kinda like a mix of both. With some of my fics, the only thing that makes them fanfics are that I’m using the real person’s name, and I’ll pin point on certain aspects of their physical features. In Brotið Hjarta, the only thing that connects to it being Namjoon is his name, and maybe his hair style/color and ear piercings, everything else was what I imagined it to be.

Have you ever written a book/story with more than 15 chapters (100K words)?

Yes. Strawberry Cream and BBQ

How often do you get ideas?

From everyday life, sometimes I’ll be daydreaming and it kinda morphs into a story or a fanfic and so I’ll make notes so that I don’t forget it.

Do you ever get an idea that you really like, but just can’t seem to finish?

Yessss, all the time.

What is your least favorite plot?

I don’t know about least favorite plots, but I do hate it when fics dive straight into a story without any background or anything. Wait, so maybe that’s pwp fics????? I don’t want to be a hypocrite, but even with my fics that primarily focus on smut, I still add in those background details and give them a teeny tiny plot.

SECTION SEVEN. Put your music on shuffle and reveal the first ten songs that come on.

The Kids Aren’t Alright - Fall out Boy

In the Dark - Bring Me the Horizon

Teeth - 5 Seconds of Summer

All In - Monsta X

To the Beat - Ateez

Shot - Lil’ Jon

Daechwita - Agust D

Treasure - Ateez

Adore You - Harry Styles

Guys My Age - Hey Violet

SECTION EIGHT. Questions tag:

Relationships: 2

Break-ups: 2

Kids: Right now? 0

Brothers and Sisters: 1 older brother.

Pets: 0

Surgeries: 0

Tattoos: 0

Countries you’ve been to: 0

Been in an airplane: yes

Been in an ambulance: yes

I sing karaoke: hell no.

Ice skating: I like it but I suck at it and have only been able to go during school events in the past.

Been on a cruise: hell no

Driven a motorcycle: nope

Ridden a horse: yes

Stayed in a hospital: nope

Favorite fruit or berry: Raspberries

Favorite color: Magenta

Last text: “Perfect! I’ll let you know when I am able to send yours out!” - I do pen palling and was letting someone know when I could send them a post card in exchange for the one I’m getting.

Cat or dog: Cat

Favorite pizza: White sauce pizza with chicken and feta cheese

Met a star: nope

Flown a helicopter: nada

Been on TV: nope

Broken my leg: nope

Seen a ghost: don’t believe in them.

Been sick in a taxi: nope

Seen someone die: no

SECTION NINE: Fifteen questions tag:

One ; it’s your birthday! what did you ask for?

Gift cards, um...(this is bad because my birthday is actually coming up) maybe some things from my Amazon list?

Two ; what was the last song / album you listened to?

WAP by Cardi B

Three ; what is your go to snack when you’re hungry?

Chocolate, cookies or cookies dipped in peanut butter

Four ; what is your morning routine?

Wake up, check messages on my phone while still in bed, get up, make coffee, maybe eat breakfast, drink coffee in bed, listen to music/watch videos or read on phone while drinking coffee, get dressed, brush teeth and skincare routine, make bed.

Five ; what mythical creature would you be?

An Elf? Or a Forest Witch. Something that has to do with the Earth and nature.

Six ; how do you interact with someone you don’t like?

I give short and straight to the point answers, if I’m working on something and they come up to me I’ll pointedly focus on that task instead of them.

Seven ; how do you define a toxic person?

Someone who lies, who makes you feel bad about the things that you do, that puts you done while lifting themselves, who is constantly bragging about their own things, who puts down others, who acts like they’re better, who acts like they’re way of life should be the only way of life.

Eight ; have you ever been to a concert or a fan-meet? if not, would you want to?

I have not, but I would like to one day because they seem fun and it would be nice to see a performance in person.

Nine ; do you believe in astrology? why or why not?

I do, mostly because it’s fun and interesting and I tend to find that I do a lot of the things and act like my zodiac sign without realizing it (aka I’m a Virgo).

Ten ; if you could have only one sense (hearing, touch, sight, etc.), which would you keep?

Hearing.

Eleven ; who is your favorite celebrity or idol?

At the moment, BM from Kard.

Twelve ; if you could talk to your favorite celebrity for a limited time, what would you tell them?

How do you keep going when it gets hard?

Thirteen ; I’m taking you out on a date. where are we going?

Maybe an art museum, or somewhere with flowers?

Fourteen ; do you prefer sweet or savory?

Sweet.

Fifteen ; do you have any Merch from any of your favorite artists?

I have several BTS albums and an EXO album.

I AM Tagging: @mygsii @myforeverforlife  @peonybane  @hobicomeholla29  @loser-dot-com @jeonsdear @namsjoon  @kpopcinnamonswirlroll @eashmo201 @1997jk @soulofatiny @cherryeoo​ @minniepetals​ @minniesmarshmallow​ @yoongi-sugaglider​  @crystaljins​ @taestfully​  @hyyunjins​ @i-am-delaney​ @worldwidebt7​ @flurrys-creativity​  @apurpledheart​ @holyfluffly​ @yunception​ @boymeetsweevil​ @chans-chair​ @brokecollegenerd​ @jinyoungsir​ @writersrealmbts​ @kpophoneybunny​ @actuallythatwaspromise​  @ladyartemesia​ @haylo4ever​ @ggukcangetit​ @kpopfanfictrash​ @wwilloww​ @jingabitch​ @kigurumu​ @jamaiskook​ @thatlongspringnight​ @ot7always-main​  @hauntedlilies​ @koophoriia​ @lorealchanelll​ @sweetheart--sannie​  @sweetae-tae​ @iniquitouspoppy​  

[ain-t-bovvered]

15x04 Commentary

bunch of tired and caffeinated Europeans ( plus a sleepy American) scream together, and then die and try to get on with their day ( lol AS IF)

Hello and welcome:

@purpleskiesandcherrypies​  (Nat)

@dean-winchesters-bacon​  (Kat)  

@waywardbaby​  (Zee)

@ain-t-bovvered  (Giulia)

Giulia: Ok so in my haste of things i just spilled all my hot coffee on my self.  I’m burning but the ep is ready. But fuck

Kat: Oh shit. Go rinse with cold water

Zee: You alive ??

Giulia: No i burned my self with coffee

Nat : Where did you spill it

Giulia: Leg

Nat : You need a minute?

Giulia: No i think I’m good

Zee: Any blisters ?

Giulia: Well i’ll see tomorrow won’t I.  Whatever just start the episode I’m already angry. Just...start the ep so I can deal with the mess later on , can’t wait for that

Nat : ok

Nat : 3

Nat : 2

Nat : 1

Nat : go

Nat : "We're gonna be free"

Giulia: No i don t wanna see this again

Zee: Becky ?

Giulia: Gasps

Zee: Wtf?

Nat : is

Nat : that

Kat: BEARDED DEAN BEARDED DEAN BEARDED DEAN

Giulia: AAAAAAH

Nat : AHHHHHHHHH

Giulia: jesus christ

Nat : BAMF

Giulia: Yes please

Nat : I THINK I'M WET

Kat: I KNOW I AM FUCKING HOTNESS IS WHAT IT IS

Giulia: YUM

Nat : I JUST SQUIRTED?

Zee: Are you asking ?

Nat : I'M NOT SURE IT'S ALL WET

Giulia: THE FUCK THE FUCK

Nat : FUCK

Nat : I'M NOT OK

Giulia: I HATE HOW MUCH I LOVE THIS

Nat : IT'S MORE THAN I HOPED FOR

Giulia: YES

Giulia: YES SAME

Kat: SO MUCH BAMF BEARDED DEAN

it’s what we deserve

Giulia: FUCK AAAAAAH

Nat : LUMBERJACK

Kat: BBBEEENNNNNNNNYYYYYY

Zee: Benny?

Giulia: AAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Nat : BENNY

Giulia: BENNY

Nat : I KNEW IT

Giulia: BEEEENNY

Nat : BENNYYYYYY

Giulia: NO

Nat : I TOLD YA

B: I'll see you on the other side, brother

Giulia: NOT THE SAME LINE

Zee: I can’t type

Nat : I'M CRYING

Zee: Bye

Giulia: FUCK OFF

Giulia: FUCKING HELL

Nat : OK BACK TO THE BEARD

Giulia: NO WHERE

Nat : THE VOICE

Kat: SAME THING HE SAID BEFORE HE WENT INTO DEANS ARM

Giulia: FUCK OFF

Nat : HE CAN LITERALLY HAVE ANYTHING HE WANTS

Nat : WHY ARE WE ALL SCREAMING

Giulia: AAAAAAH

Kat: FUCK HES SUCH A BADASS

Zee: OHHH FUCK

Nat : SHIT

Giulia: HATE THAT

Nat : CAN WE HAVE A PARALLEL SHOW WHERE EVERYONE IS BAMF

Kat: BOYKING DEMON SAM

D: What you did to them...what you did to Bobby...to Jody...

S: They tried to stop me. But I will not be stopped.

D: Sam, you listen to me.This is the demon blood. You have to fight it!

Giulia: JENSEN MY GOD

Nat : SHIT

S: Why would I do that?

D: Sammy Please

Giulia: MY GOD I CAN T

Nat : "SAMMY" I HATE IT WHEN HE SAYS IT

Giulia: SAMMY PLEASE

Nat : SAMMY PLEASE

Giulia: HOW ABOUT NO

Nat : NO

Giulia: WOW OK

Nat : FUCK YOU SAM

Kat: OUCH

Nat : Is that chucks book

Kat: And bye bye bearded Dean. Gone too soon

Already missed

Giulia: Well Sam do see his shit now

Nat : The beginning with Dean sounds like something I would write

Nat : I WANT MORE OF THAT DEAN

Giulia: Don t we all

S: Dean, you know I don't eat --

Is Sam vegetarian now?

Nat : VEGGIE BACON

Zee: VEGGIE BACON

Nat : WHY ARE WE STILL SCREAMING

S: "I don't want any of that hippie, Sarah McLaughlin grass-eater crap in the Meat Man's kitchen."

Giulia: MEAT MAN

Nat : THE MEAT MAN DOES HE KNOW WHAT IT MEANS?

Zee: ARE WE ALL GONNA BE TYPING IN CAPITALS?

Giulia: YEAH

Kat: It means he has a big dick

Nat : I KNOW, BUT HE DOESN'T

Nat : Anyway, I'm done watching am I not? That's it. That's the whole episode

Kat: My boys need hugs

D: Look, man, I get it, okay? With Jack...and Rowena..

Giulia: ARE WE GONNA ADRESS

Giulia: SEEMS NOT

Giulia: OK FINE, IT’S FINE, WE’RE FINE

Kat: What

 Zee: What?

Giulia: Nothing . We just gonna push it down in true Winchester style. 

Nat : Of course not, it's a filler episode

Kat: Oh, I think I know If it’s what I think, it’s not mentioned at all

Giulia: What else is new

S: That’s real bacon

D: You're damn right it is

meat man

Nat : Ok bye guys

Kat: SIT YOUR ASS DOWN

Nat : I WANT TO THINK THAT I SAW EVERYTHING I WANTED

Zee: No you didn’t

Kat: But it’s Jensen’s last ep. And I really like it.

Giulia: Anyway

Nat : lAcrOsS

Zee: The end of the world

Zee: He knows

Nat : The little prayer thing at half time

Kat: Ugh parents

Nat : me talking to someone

Nat : SIR CONTAIN YOUR EYEBROWS

Zee: That’s awesome

Giulia: That’s awesome

Giulia: Ok but u know what i don’t like about filler eps tho. That they are like these oases outside of everything where seems like things don’t matter .... Whatever

Nat : Gag me

Zee: Kinky

Nat : please do

Kat: What she said

Nat : SHOULDER TO HIP RATIO

Giulia: Oh the flask again.  What esle is also new, this day is already ruined anyway

Kat: So good

Nat : also it's been shot in the beginning, I hardly think that Jensen knew what happened the episode before that.

Zee: Why is dean drinking and eating all the time?

Nat : don't you do that?

I mean....same

S: We keep them from dealing with the truth, with what's out there, and we carry the weight. It's great. They have no idea What's out there.

Kat: Sammy is a little disillusioned

Giulia: OH WHAT

Nat : oh no

Zee: Becky?!

Giulia: awe

Kat: She’s so normal now

Nat : There's something wrong with Becky

Zee: Great

Giulia: No fuck off

Nat : Ah, there it is

Kat: Not with her lol

Nat : God is fucking desperate

Giulia: That’s not everybody’s else problem tho so can he fuck off

Zee: Somebody’s got a fetish

Kat: Okay Dean

Nat : Don't we all

Kat: Cheerleader fetish lol

Nat : Mine is Dean

Kat: Many

Giulia: Of course she is

Giulia: Oh becky

Nat : mY WOrK

Zee: Oh honey

Nat : A little obsessed

Giulia: Oh honOh look she is us after the show ends

Nat : What show ends?

Kat: The one you’re not watching

Kat: At least she’s not a complete wackadoodle now

Nat : A little bit of a falling out

Zee: Poor God,  Nobody wants to hang out with him

Nat : God is a fucking child throwing a tantrum

Kat: Because he’s a douche

Giulia: Awe that’s so pathetic it’s almost cute

Nat : It sounds wrong

B: I am married to an amazing man, I have two great kids,and I like myself, Chuck. For the first time in a long time, I like myself. So I don't need you.

YOU GO GIRL

Nat : you do you, becky

Zee: By Becky nonetheless

G: You don't need me. No one does.

Zee: Boo fucking hoo

G: I feel so lost.

Kat: Oh shut up with the pity party chuck

B: Then, Chuck, you have to write.

Giulia: Oh no he doesn t

Nat : Dean is eating his way through the episode

Kat: Rob plays annoying so well

Kat: thicc arms

Giulia: Sure she wants to help you lol

Kat: Dean with the slow clap

Zee: That smile

Nat : I can't with Dean's eyebrow this episode

Giulia: Felt that

Kat: I need wine lol

Nat : It's the dad?

Giulia: Wow

Nat : Anything stronger than what? Water?

Zee: What does he want with Becky ??

G: I mean, I used to be able to see Sam and Dean in my head, wherever they were, whatever they were doing. It was all just there, ripe for the picking. And now it's just gone.

Nat : oh god, chuck annoys the fuck out of me

Nat : throw him out, becks

Giulia: Hey

Zee: Fan fic isn’t the same ?? Excuse you dick

Nat : I read EXPOSE your dick

 Kat: I wish she wouldn’t push him to write

Giulia: Awe look at that maniac stare

Kat: Bad idea

Giulia: Ew no

Kat: Of course

Nat : Ah, it's both of them

Nat : Sam walks in with a puppy look

Kat: He looks like that the whole ep

Giulia: How they know

Zee: TheY seriously need to control their ducking faces

Zee: Fu

D: We're not FBI.

Giulia: Well that was hot

Nat : Where did he keep the machete

Nat : in his pants?

IN HIS MEAT MAN PANTS 

Kat: A holster under his many layers

Giulia: Not great

Nat : The way he says Sammy

Kat: JUST WAIT

Nat : But right at his ass

Zee: FOCUS

Kat: She is. On his ass.

Nat : I can't. I wanna see how he pulls it out from another angle

Zee: What she said

Nat : finger guns

B: No one even mentions Cass.

Giulia: AH

Zee: Thanks Becky

Giulia: I LIKE BECKY

Nat : Becky gets it

Giulia: chuck angry

Kat: SHUT UP BECKY

Nat : Ah no,

Giulia: Fuck. No thanks

Nat : I give you danger

Zee: Fuck you becky

NO, WE LIKE HER NOW

Nat : get off my dick god

Nat : Ah

Kat: Now you know

Nat : Well

dad: You don't have children, do you? Because if you did, you would know that to see your child in pain rips your heart out. And you'd know that you'd do anything. You'd die for them.

Giulia: AH but he does. They all do

Nat : He had a child, thank you very much

Giulia: JACK

Zee: And Ben

Nat : EMMA

Giulia: Meh whatever

Giulia: Hate this

Kat: This whole thing is sad

Nat : I mean, I kinda feel for them

Zee: The kid wants to do good

snorts.....like Jack....lol ring any bell?

*sound of someday starts to play*

Nat : AH

Giulia: AAAAAH

Zee: NOOOOOOO

Nat : SOUNDS OF SOMEDAY

Giulia: FUCK

Nat : WHAT

Giulia: STOP

Nat : MY GOD

Giulia: SOB

Nat : Great, now I will associate it with that scene?

Giulia: UGH

Zee: IM DEAD

Giulia: WOW OK

Nat : I'm sads

Zee: SHIT

Giulia: WELL OK

Nat : It's so sad

Giulia: oh no this is so sad. This shot is beautiful tho

Nat : Cuz it's true, the lengths parents are willing to go

Giulia: Chuck fuck off

Zee: FUCK YOU CHUCK

Nat : CHUCK SHOULD FUCKING GET OFF OUR DICKS

Giulia: Yeah it is dark af

Kat: IT GETS SO BAD GUYS

Giulia: Nice

Kat: HOLD ME

Zee: FUCK YOU

Nat : GO TELL HIM BECKY

Kat: Winchester 😭

Zee: WHYVIS BECKY US ?

B: You can't do this to the fans.

Nat : It's good right?  Fuck off

Giulia: I already hate this

Kat: OH NO OH NO OH NO

Nat : Ah no

Giulia: OH COME ON

Nat : WTF

Giulia: CHUCK

Nat : FUCK YOU

Kat: IT GETS WORSE

Nat : FUCK YOU CHUCK

Zee: I can’t

Giulia: Ah babe dean already did that. Remember when Dean prayed to God about Mom, Crowley and Castiel? lol Bet this fucker made the exact face , maybe munching on popcorn 

Nat : WHAT IS THIS SHIT

Giulia: and we are at 5 goodbyes . So: Kevin, Ketch, Rowena, Becky, Benny

Nat : I SHOULD HAVE STOPPED WATCHING IN THE BEGINNING AFTER THE RIDICULOUSLY HOT DEAN

Kat: See she shouldn’t have encouraged him

Giulia: With my leg burning

Zee: Shut up both of you

Nat : Go look after your leg

Kat: Now for the BM scene

Giulia: My room smells like coffee

Zee: Not bad

Giulia: Coffee i did not drink

Nat : Ah stop it Dean

Giulia: Why they look so much all over the place tho

S: we'd have done the same thing. For Jack. If we had the chance.

I can’t decipher Dean’s expression right now . idk.

D: I get it. We have lost way, way too much. And it's hard not to feel like just...cashing out. I felt like that.  After Chuck, back at the crypt. But you know what brought me back?  You did. By sayin' that what we do still matters. I mean, that's why I wanted to drag us out here  That's why I wanted to -- to work a case, to save lives, you know? 'Cause it is -- it's a -- it's a crap job.  We do the ugly things so that people can live happy.

S: lucky them

D: We still do the job. But we don't do it for us We did it for Jack,  for Mom, for Rowena. We owe it to anybody who has ever gave a damn about us to keep putting one foot in front of the other. No matter what. And, hey, man, like you said, now that Chuck's gone,

Giulia: AH THEY THINK

D: we're finally on our own.  We are finally free to... move on, you know?

Nat : Sam with his stupid puppy face

S: I can't forget any of them. Dean, I still think about Jessica. I -- I can't just let that go.

Giulia: aw sam

Kat: I still think about Jessica

Zee: Someone hug Sam

Kat: Damn it not the hearts

Kat: Sammy is broken af 😭

Nat : "I can't even breathe"

Nat : Same, Sam

Giulia: Hate this

Giulia: Hate

S : But maybe tomorrow. You know, maybe I'll -- I'll feel better in the morning.

Giulia: Can sam stop crying

Giulia: Asking for a friend

Nat : Can Sam just stop Period

Kat: Ugh chuck again

Giulia: Asshole

Nat : We all know it

Zee: I hate it

Nat : Promo?

Nat : So young,  and the way he's so full of himself "obviously", so proud

Giulia: So cocky

Giulia: Bastard

Kat: Makes me giggle bc the fandom always says he doesn’t age

Zee: I can’t wait for the million red gifs

Kat: I’ve already reblogged a few sets

Zee: I saw

Kat: And made a post about his beard

Kat: Did you look before the episode?

Zee: I can’t hear you. I’m entering a tunnel 

Why am I not even a bit surprised.

Zee: I’m talking about the gifs Giuls will start slapping us with

Giulia: Idk I don t feel like it. I’d would love to make them nicer BUT NO ONE I ASKED TOLD ME HOW so....

Nat : I’ll rewatch the first 5 minutes and keep on squirting

Zee: TMI bb?! lol

Nat : Is there anything like TMI with us?

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[dreamgirlbreezy]

CHAPTER 21

LISA

 I was having fun with my friends in club ENSURE when something caught my eye I thought I saw Donnie but that couldn’t be hi he told Rocky he was studying tonight so I went back to partying when a hour went by I was going to the bar and happen to stop and look towards VIP and saw Tony and Donnie Donnie was there the Donnie who told my daughter he was too busy studying to see or speak to her I was staring at him until he looked dead at me. I went walking towards VIP section I was going to have a few words with him about himself. No one hurts my baby and gets away with it.

I was let into the VIP section and I went walking right to him and the girl that was all over him looked at me.

“Hey Lisa” I looked at Donnie as he smiled at me then I looked at the girl.

“Hey Donnie you mind if I speak to him a few minutes please”

“It’s cool Stacey I'll be back” me and him went walking off over to the side. “What’s up how you been?”

“What’s up? How I been? I been dealing with my daughter who’s heart you broken and here I find you in a club living your best life while my daughter can't get you off her mind”

“Wait a minute your coming at me like I stepped out in the relationship? As if I was the one who cheated it was your daughter who broke me not the other way around so you pointing the finger at the wrong person I have the right to be out I’m motherfucking grown I can do what I want and when I want your daughter thinking about me has shit to do with me being here or you being in my face right now.”

“How can you say that you are here best friend she cares about you and loves you and you just going to throw it all away for some bitch shaking her ass up on you”

“No I didn’t throw shit away your daughter did the moment she kissed that nigga the moment she went out with him knowing good and damn well that it wasn’t as friends she ruined it all the moment she kept it from and started lying on her friends just so she could see him, you need to be home telling her all this not me I was cheated on you think she was the only one having sleepless nights, up crying at night wishing that we was together again well she wasn’t know your facts before you shoot off at the mouth and I’m done, I came here to have a good time not talk about this shit here.”

“No wait don’t walk away from me my daughter--”

“Your daughter what look I was given so much of myself I thought I’d die I loved your daughter and I was good to her great to her had pussy being thrown at me left and right and I never acted on it and all I wanted was the same love and loyalty from her and she couldn’t do it that was too hard for her to do when she got the first chance to cheat she took that shit and didn’t give a damn about my feelings. So I don’t give a damn about hers I hope you do let her know you saw me out I don’t care and I know for a fact that she still seeing that other nigga so before you came at me check your child bye” he walked away from me I stood there looking at him as he went back to his friends I couldn’t believe all he said I know she’s not seeing Rodney well I need to ask her that she said it was over between them, I walked out of VIP and went back to my friends I will talked to Rocky when I get home.

 ROCKY

 I was sitting in the livingroom watching TV when my mom walked in from her night out with her friends.

“Hey ma how was the club?”

“It was good and I saw Donnie there”

“You did how was he did he look good?”

“He looked like him we had words and he told me you were still seeing Rodney thought you ended things with him?”

“I saw him twice and ended things with him he was sorry for breaking me and Donnie up when I told him about what happen the first time and the second time I saw him he was out with his friends and stopped to talk to me to see if me and Donnie was able to fix things yet so who ever told him that didn’t know all the details.”

“Oh well he think yall are still seeing each that boy is still in love with you he’s just hurt and not being with you is hurting him too, but I think it’s time you move on to someone else”

“I rather be single ma if you don’t mind my heart can't take much more of love right now”

“I think you should think about dating again”

“Ma I don’t wanna date right now I think I need to get over Donnie first”

“It’s been almost a month and Donnie is out here living it up with other woman and you haven’t”

“I’m not into woman” I smiled at her she giggled.

“You know what I mean”

“I know but with finals next week I just wanna get through that and deal with finding a man later.”

“Okay”

“Thank you now off to bed looking for a job tomorrow”

“You don’t have to work you know that”

“I know but I need to do something with my time out of school”

“Oh okay if you say so you know you don’t have to but it’s up to you”

“Thank you now off to study a little then bed see ya” I got up and went upstairs to my room and sat on the bed pulling out my books I started studying.

*2 WEEKS LATER*

 Finals has come and gone and I think I did good on it right now I was out with Sammie, Jada, Mia, Tiff and Trina we was at a bar having a good time even tho I don’t drink I was still having a good time it was late I was probably going to call it a night soon the time was 1:30 in the morning.

“I would work at a topless bar I love my titties” Sammie said we all laughed

“I don’t know about all that I would really need money to do a job like that”

“Yea I agree I couldn’t do it”

“How many job apps did you fill out?”

“I did a lot at least 20 pull I did some online so hopefully someone calls me I wanna work”

“I know you do” my phone was going off and I checked it.

*Donnie*

‘Hey you’

*me*

‘Hey how you doing?’

*Donnie*

‘I am druunk yup yup I feeling noooo pain right now’

*me*

‘Are you home your not out are you?’

*Donnie*

‘I am wit Tony eh si driivingg ‘

*me*

‘Oh okay good your not driving glad about that’

*Donnie*

‘I I have to tell yoou somethiing’

*me*

‘What do you have to tell me’

*Donnie*

‘Oour friendshi was the best preamble for our love storye. Ill never forget the day I meet u, an I will always remember the day I loved u.’

“Who are you texting?” Mia asked sipping her beer.

“Donnie he is drunk texting me”

“I love drunk text they tell the truth” Mia said

“I thought Donnie had a new girlfriend?” Sammie ask

“New girlfriend?”

“Yea I saw him out with some chick they was at Local restaurant together”

“WOW well I don’t know all about that”

“How do you know he got a new girl she could just be a friend” Jada says

“Yea did you ask him?” Mia asked

“No but they looked like they was on a date together” Sammie said I just nodded and looked back at my phone.

*Donnie*

‘you hearddd me ? huh’

*me*

‘Yes I did, so you still love me?’

*Donnie*

‘YEEEESSSS’

I smiled “What did he say?” Mia asked looking at my phone “Awww he still loves you, you know a drunken man speaks sober thoughts”

“That’s what I know” Jada said

*Donnie*

‘Does u still loovve mee’

*me*

‘Yes very much’

*Donnie*

‘YAYAAAAY GOOD WE SHOULD GO OUT SOMETHING TIMEAND SEE WHAT HAPENS’

*me*

‘Do you know who your talking too?’

*Donnie*

‘Raaqueel Rosse Steelee my bestfried somoe I miss’

“He misses me”

“Awww” they all say

*me*

‘I miss you too’

*Donnie*

‘U r myy girrl I loovve u bby’

*me*

‘I love you too’

*Donnie*

‘I looove u cause wit u I I  dot feel alone on Sundas an my Mondas are not that bad. u make my week, my month, my year and my life!’

“LAST CALL!” the bartender says

“Let’s get out of here ladies, I’m feeling x rated so I need my man” Jada said we all giggled and left the bar walking to the car with Mia she was parked next to me.

“What are you going to do about Donnie?” Mia asked

“Let him keep drunk texting me until he falls asleep and text him tomorrow see how he feels I mean it’s good to know how he feels but I need the sober man to tell me these things not his drunken ego”

“Yea I feel you” Mia said as I got in my car and checked my phone.

*Donnie*

‘If u feeel alone, I I will bee ur shadow. If u want too cry, I will be ur shooulder. If u r sad, I will b ur smile. Ever time u need me, I I will b there.’

“No texting and driving” Mia warned looking at me.

“I’m not I was checking it before I started to drive I won’t text and drive I know the law ma’am”

“Good see ya later” Mia said smiling at me I smiled back.

“Yea see ya” I started up my car and was off, I was thinking about Donnie I was driving playing some music when my phone went off again I wanted to check it but no texting and driving so I wasn’t going to look until I got home I was driving through the green light when the next thing I knew BAM my car went spinning and everything went black!!

[misha-moose-dean-burger-lover]

this is SS! How was your travelling so far?? Good, i hope. Anywayy since tumblr messed up like i said before, i will replay some of your ask now. I was born AFTER Harry Potter. However, i'm not really interested to watch the whole of them, i watched snip of them tho on my TV whenever they broadcast it. based on your url, i would've thought your fav is either dean or cas, but it's sam winchester. do you have a reason why you like him the best? is it the hair? anyway, as always, have a great day!

Haiiii, SS! Oh sure, let's get to answering your answers to my answers!

After Harry Potter, as in *after* it ended? Because then wow, you're a young santa XD I was born after it started being made, share my birthyear with the Prisoner Of Azkaban!

That's perfectly fine to not be completely nuts about Harry Potter, I got over my phase too, though it'll always have a special spot in my heart! Howeverrr, if you, uh, have time? And enjoy reading?? I recommend reading the books once :D The movies are pretty fun, but the books are *way* better!

Don't be mistaken, I looove Cas and Dean, and I love Destiel just as much, but Sammy's just something else. I don't know, sometimes I come up with millions of reasons why I like him best, and other times (like this one) I can't think of a properly formed one. I don't know. I relate to him a little bit, maybe? And I feel that he's been wronged a lot by the show, so then I feel for him even more. And then I think about how, like a true hero, he always brings out the best in everyone, tries to give everybody a second chance, and is generally the most noble man out there?? And then I remember how his dimples light up my day, his eyes glitter, and his hair falls around his fave. And then i -

*runs out of breath*

I just love him so much. Whew, boi.

Thank you <3 I wish you a fantastic day as well! You certainly deserve it <333 Great talking to you, Santa! I'll be off to bed now :D

[benevolentsam]

for the ask game: bela, anna, gabriel and sam!

Bela:

general opinion: fall in a hole and die | don’t like them | eh | they’re fine I guess | like them! | love them | actual love of my life hotness level: get away from me | meh | neutral | theoretically hot but not my type | pretty hot | gorgeous! | 10/10 would banghogwarts house: gryffindor | slytherin | ravenclaw | hufflepuffbest quality: Smart, quick witted, and resourcefulworst quality: idk, she tried to shoot Sam and that’s a big no in my bookship them with: Charlie!brotp them with: Joneeds to stay away from: Any man, she deserves bettermisc. thoughts: I genuinely love Bela, I think she was screwed over by the writers and she’s discredited by the fandom but she had the opportunity to be such a cool, in depth character

Anna:

general opinion: fall in a hole and die | don’t like them | eh | they’re fine I guess | like them! | love them | actual love of my life hotness level: get away from me | meh | neutral | theoretically hot but not my type | pretty hot | gorgeous! | 10/10 would banghogwarts house: gryffindor | slytherin | ravenclaw | hufflepuffbest quality: Her independenceworst quality: Again with the whole killing Sam thing, not my jamship them with: Ruby (Annby is one of my favourite ships of all time ngl)brotp them with: Deanneeds to stay away from: Sam, pls misc. thoughts: Another character screwed over by the writers! She was awesome in s4 when she served as a parallel to Dean and Ruby, she helped Cas as well. Then the writers did a 180 of her character and made her a bad guy bc… idk they needed to get rid of her? tie up loose ends? there was no need tbh

Gabriel:

general opinion: fall in a hole and die | don’t like them | eh | they’re fine I guess | like them! | love them | actual love of my life hotness level: get away from me | meh | neutral | theoretically hot but not my type | pretty hot | gorgeous! | 10/10 would banghogwarts house: gryffindor | slytherin | ravenclaw | hufflepuffbest quality: lover not a fighterworst quality: traumatising Sam in Mystery Spot (can u sense a theme stay away from my boy)ship them with: Kali (I wish they’d explored their relationship beyond like uncomfortable exes)brotp them with: Cas and Balthazar, they would have made such a fun trio and I’m actuall pissed Gabe and Balthy didn’t meet on the showneeds to stay away from: Lucifer. Luci is a piece of shit and Gabe deserves a better brothermisc. thoughts: Gabriel used to be one of my favourites, I used to write so many fics with him in (mostly sabriel tbh tho I don’t ship it anymore) but I think I ended up liking the fandom version of Gabe more than the canon one

Sam:

general opinion: fall in a hole and die | don’t like them | eh | they’re fine I guess | like them! | love them | actual love of my life hotness level: get away from me | meh | neutral | theoretically hot but not my type | pretty hot | gorgeous! | 10/10 would banghogwarts house: gryffindor | slytherin | ravenclaw | hufflepuff (may be bc I am also a gryffindor and I like projecting onto him)best quality: There’s soooo many I could say but I think his general compassionworst quality: Probably his shitty self esteem or something like boy believe in urself a bitship them with: Sastiel (ultimate otp tbh)brotp them with: a lot of people tbh, but like Charlie mostly I think (wlw mlm solidarity and u can rip that headcanon from my cold dead hands)needs to stay away from: a lot of people. luci mostly but around the 100 people who continue to hurt him and he keeps putting up with themmisc. thoughts: ahhh Sammy my boy. I love him literally more than life itself and like, I know I project horribly onto him but also he has genuinely helped me so much and i love him for it

[camillescloset]

(Almost) Nothing.

Summary (Sam x reader) : Sam quited, got married with Amelia that was far from being an hunter. You sticked with Dean,as always. Months after that, Amelia asked you to come to Sam’s birthday. Little do you know that, by saying yes, it would bring back some strange feelings you had for Sam. Not much�� to worry about tho after all, it was nothing. Warning : Language (sorry guys)

Author note : I need some feedbacks (in my askbox if it’s no problem) about this one. Hope you’ll like it ! My first Supernatural fic, that I think will be 8038338% angst. I’ll try not to break too much our boys...Their pain is actually my pain. Enjoy !!

@etudaire  : Here we are. Don’t judge me, I’m pretty sure there’s a lot of faults... Hope you’ll like it tho ! (Give me your feedback sweetie)

  « Dean would you please turn this off, I’m trying to sleep.»

« Yeah. Sure. » He said, before turning up the radio.

He had this capacity to piss you off so quickly that you couldn’t believe you were still working with him. You opened your eyes and caught the grin playing on his lips. “You’re such a child.” He laughed and when his eyes met yours, you had to take a deep breath to remain calm. ” And you’re such a fun-killer. Come one, we're going to party tonight.” “Exactly, I'll not make it till the morning if I don't sleep right now, jerk.”

How were you supposed to fight against him ? Dean Winchester was happy today. In fact, he had his reasons. His brother’s wife invited you both to Sam’s birthday, tonight. It was unusual as she was trying her best to keep Dean and you away from her beloved.“ Don’t you think it’s strange, that Amelia invited us to a party ? ” Dean’s smile faded. He just shrugged. “It’s not a normal party. It’s Sam’s. Why ? Don’t you want to see him ? You’re grumpy.”

“ No, I do want to see him. It’s just…Strange.” Dean wanted to tell you that if there was one person acting strange it was you but his thoughts were cut of by the view of a notice saying «Welcome to Hood River.» “Here we are !” He shout, and you smiled. Despite this strange feeling you were happy. First because you had to meet again Sam, and truth was you were missing him. Then because seeing a joyful Dean was a pure bliss in this time.

After all, what could possibly go wrong ?

Nothing. You repeated to yourself avoiding all the scenarios your head was making to explain its anxiety. You were glad that Sam had a normal life. You were glad he was able to built something new. You were glad to have some sort of holidays. “Where is he living ?” You asked, letting your eyes flowed around watching the mountain starting to grown their trees and flowers again. “Somewhere, next to a…a park I think ?“ “ You think ?” “ Don’t worry, I know where we are going.”

He sure didn’t know. Amelia was waiting for your arrival at 4 PM and it was nearly 6, still you were still driving looking for some sorts of park. “ Dean, please, admit it, we’re lost.” “No, we’re not.” “ Stop the car or we’re going to end up in Europe with knowing it.”

He did stop the car, with violence, before facing you. His green eyes were shinning in annoyance. “ What are you going to do about it?” You should have been angrier, but his serious and condescendant face made you laugh. “What ?” He said, now pouting. “What ?!” He repeated as your laugh didn’t stop. “I’m sorry..I’m tired, that’s all..”

Dean sighed but you knew when he turned his head to look around that he was smiling. You could read the guy like a book. After a moment, your laugh died and you finally grabbed your phone. “What are you doing ?” Dean’s voice was softer than earlier. “I’m calling Amelia because it seems like I’m the only responsable adult around here.“

Dean rolled his eyes and turn off the radio, you smiled at him before leaving your sit to walk a bit. The air was cold even if the sun high in the sky.

                                                            ***

“Amelia, honey, your phone is ringing !” “ Sam ! whoever this is, do not answer !”

Sam rolled his eyes and took the phone to see who had the bravery to call his wife a tuesday morning. When he saw your name, he frowned. What did you want ? Was Dean in danger ? Why would you call Amelia and not him ? Amelia appeared as soon as Sam pressed “answer the call”, quickly she grabbed her phone and ignoring the fact she was just in a towel push her husband out of the room. “Wait, this is [Y/N], it must be important..” “ Yes, I hear you Sam,please leave the room.” “But Dean…” “I said : Don’t worry sugar, I’ll take care of this. Love you.”

A strange feeling held your heart for a moment, and you had to remind yourself to breath to let go this unpleasant weight in your chest. Your face must have twisted because Dean’s eyebrows arched and you just shaked your head to tell him everything was alright.

The sound of a door echoed and the voice of Amelia filled your ear. “ Yes [Y/N] ? What is it ? Are you alright ?” “Yes, we’re alright.” You said, hoping your voice didn’t shown your trouble. “Dean is just dumb enough to go in a town without checking out where we are going.”

Dean protested “Hey, that’s Sammy’s role ! Not mine !” “Yes, you always say that Sherlock. Now shut up I’m trying to hear what’s Amelia saying.” Dean’s smile widened as he sat back in his sit. You sighed in relief, your eyes searching for any signs telling where you were located. “Well, we’re leaving near a river so if you’re in the center of the City you need to go back and…”

                                                              ***

You took notes of everything, she was saying and before you knew it Dean and you were on the road again. But this time, no music, no talk, the more you were near the house the more you felt that strange feeling grew in your belly. Your hands were tapping nervously on your lap as you were eyeing the forest and the habitations. “[Y/N], are you okay ?” “Yes, don’t worry about it.” Dean was actually worried, how would he not be ? you were pale as hell and looked quiet lost in your thought. “Look, if you do not want to go…” “I’m fine Dean.” “No, listen, I know that Sam…” “Sam what ? Everything is normal with Sam, he’s like a brother to me.”

Dean didn’t answered, kept his eyes on the road and suddently you wanted to apologise for being so harsh to him. But he talked before you could. “Sorry, I shouldn't have talked about that. Can we please stop arguing because we're doing that since you're awake.” You nodded and smiled at him, after all arguing was completly useless. It was Sam's birthday and everything was going to be alright. You hoped, nonetheless.

                                                         ***

“What did [Y/N] wanted?” “Nothing, she wanted to know if you were ok.” Amelia lied, because she knew her husband would believed her. He was so oblivious when it came to you and Dean that it was almost funny. “And about my birthday?” “She didn't say anything about it, I'm sorry honey. Dean didn't called you ?” “No, he didn't” Sam's voice faded. Amelia would have reveal the truth if only Dean and you being there wasn't part of her surprise. Therefore she just opened her arms for Sam to hold her tight. “I'm sorry.” Said Sam, his voice was tremolous with tears. “I just wished I'd spent my birthday with family.”

“Yes, honey, I know.” Amelia said, felling cruel to lie to Sam in such circonstances. Sam let her go before smiling at her. “I have you.” He said, calmly, and his hand managed to replace a lock of blonde hairs behind her ear.  “Yes, you do.” She responded and they just laughed like teenagers, looking at each others and knowing nothing was more important than being close to the other. Amelia took his hand, forcing him to sit on the bed so that she could sit on his laps and, as she was afraid to talk too much she placed it on her belly. “I had to stay quiet till tonight but I have to tell you.” Sam's eyes widened, his hands felling so big compared to the little bulge forming under Amelia's skin. “We're going to celebrate your birthday with a family.” “You mean..” “You're going to be a dad.”

[vintagevalentinex]

Smile

So…I wanted to try my hand at a Dean fic so here it is! :)  This started as a present for @bovaria​ for writing that delicious Benny fic of hers, but it quickly turned into a ridiculously angsty fic.  If you guys like it, I’m ready to dive into a second part!!  I really hope I kept Dean in character, because I had a super struggle writing this, but I definitely wanted to see it through.

This fic is loosely based on the song “Smile,” which was originally by Charlie Chaplin.  I listened to this really emotional, gorgeous version by Judy Garland, here.

It’s also based in part on the quote that Frank Devereaux (remeber him?  that paranoid dude? :P) said to Dean about smiling.

As always, please let me know what you think! :)

@bovaria​ (Bae-varia :3) @icecream-and-winchesters​ (REVENGE IS UPON YOU) @abaddonwithyall​ (Girl did you read that Gadreel fic I wrote yet?! :P) @but-deans-back-tho​ (Because I know you love your Dean, sorry about the angst! :P )

Title: Smile Author: vintagevalentinexx Words: ~1725 Pairing: (Dean x Reader) Warnings: Angsty as all hell (Sorry, not sorry. :3)

“I’m tired of this shit, Dean!  How long have I waited around for you?!”

“Sweetheart, I—“

“I’ve had enough.”  Your voice grew quieter.  “It’s always been about everything else.  Sam, Cas, Charlie, your car.  I can’t remember the last time anything has been about me.  I can’t do this anymore.”

“(Y/N)…(Y/N), please…”

You blinked away the tears.  “I’m tired, Dean.  I’m so very tired of all of this.  You don’t even let me hunt anymore.  How am I supposed to live?  Who am I supposed to be?  I love you, but I can’t do this anymore.”

“We can fix this. Please…please (Y/N).  Don’t go.”

“Please don’t try to find me, Dean.  It’s better that way for the both of us.”

Smile though your heart is aching Smile even though it’s breaking. When there are clouds in the sky you’ll get by. If you smile through your fear and sorrow Smile and maybe tomorrow You’ll see the sun come shining through For you.

That had been three weeks ago.  Dean stumbled back into the bunker after another whiskey filled night, miserable as ever.  Sam looked up at him from the long table, up to his elbows in research for the next job.  He furrowed his eyebrows; it had been a long time since he had seen Dean so distraught.  He completely understood though.  Anyone who had eyes could see that Dean was head over heels in love with you.  Sam knew that Dean had loved Lisa, but the moment he laid eyes on you it was as if the entire world stopped.  He thought you had felt the same, but you had moved all of your stuff out of the bunker, and didn’t leave any contact information.

Sam stood up, helping his brother into a chair.

“Dean, you have to come out of this.  We have a job to do, and I need to know you’re going to be at your best when we’re out there.”

Dean looked up at Sam, a bittersweet smile on his lips as he chucked to himself.

“Save it, Sammy.  I messed up.  I messed up bad and there isn’t a damn thing I can do to make it right.  I let her walk right out of my life and I did nothing but be an ass to her the entire time.”    

Sam ran his fingers through his hair, sitting down across from his brother as he poured the both of them another glass of whiskey.  They clinked glasses as the downed the liquor.

Light up your face with gladness, Hide every trace of sadness. Although a tear may be ever so near That’s the time you must keep on trying Smile, what’s the use of crying. You’ll see that life is still worthwhile- If you just smile.

It had been three weeks since you saw him.  Those hypnotizing green eyes that could make you do almost anything.  Thoughts of rolling around in bed with him every night haunted your every thought, remembering how long you would spend counting every single freckle on his face.  You took another shot at the bar as you sat there, scanning the place and watching the people.  It was getting increasingly more difficult to watch couples together, knowing that you had that up until very recently.  You knew it was for the best.  Was it?  You were so tired of Dean treating you like an accessory, like just a pretty face.  You were a hunter way before you met him and you knew you’d be one until the die you met your maker.  On one hand, you understood the need to protect something that was precious to you; something you loved that you wanted to keep safe, but it was getting ridiculous.  Dean became furious at you when you tried to run out on a salt and burn, telling you that it was too dangerous.  That was the last straw for you.

There was no denying it, though.  You were still hopelessly in love with him.  This was for the best, though.  You just knew it.  The monsters and demons were starting to realize the relationship that the both of you had, and they were figuring out how to use it to their advantage.  Hunters just shouldn’t be romantically involved.  No one gets hurt that way, and no one gets killed.   Despite all of this, the gravitational pull you had towards Dean was indisputable.

You knew it the moment you met him that his soul was supposed to be paired with yours.

“Looks like you could use some help there, cowboy.”

“Yeah, yeah, gee thanks, sweetheart.  Mind helping me out here?”

You chuckled as you circled him, chained up by a siren that you just ganked.

“She did quite the number on you, huh?  Tell me pretty boy, do you like to go home with all the monsters you’re supposed to be hunting?”

“Are you going to help me or not, sweetheart?”

“I guess I could…it would be a shame to leave you hanging like this…”

He rolled his eyes at your terrible joke as you chuckled to yourself, freeing him from his restraints.  He rubbed his wrists as you looked around; making sure that the threat was neutralized.  When your gaze finally returned to his, his eyes were softer, full of a tenderness that you hadn’t seen before.

He outstretched his hand to you.  “Dean Winchester.  And what do I call a badass lady hunter like yourself?”

It was your turn to roll your eyes as you shook his hand.

“It’s (Y/N).  And you smell disgusting.”

He smirked at you, taking in your form.  “How’s about I freshen up and buy you a drink, (Y/N)?  You know…to thank you.”

You shook your head.  “I’ve heard about your reputation, Winchester.  And I’m not interested.”

“We’ll see, sweetheart.”

“Don’t call me that.”

A month after that, the two of you got together.  And shortly after that you moved into the bunker with him and Sam.  But now, now everything had gone to hell.  Dean had become obsessed with the Darkness.  He needed to find it (her?).

You had no idea what to believe anymore.  You had weathered so many trials and tribulations with him, been through so many things.  You stayed by him when he went full demon, knowing fully how he cheated on you, the things he said to you.  You know I think you’re gorgeous, sweetheart, but I’m just not a one woman kind of demon.

You were there for almost everything.  When Sam was finally able to cure Dean, that was when things changed.  He became super protective of you, and wouldn’t let you go anywhere.  He yelled at you for wanting to go to the grocery store.  At first it wasn’t too bad, but things continued to escalate.  You had finally had enough when you had that blowout with him.  

Yet your heart ached.  It was growing increasingly more difficult to wake up alone every morning, but you knew you had to be strong, not just for yourself, but also for Dean.  Stay strong.  Stay strong.  Stay strong.

“No cupcake. What I did when I was 26 and came home to find my wife and two kids gutted on the floor. Decide to be fine til the end of the week. Make yourself smile because you’re alive and that’s your job. And do it again the next week.”

Dean couldn’t get Frank Devereaux’s words out of his head.  He sat straight up in bed, his hands rubbing at his face as he groaned.  He had finally had enough.  He sprang up, grabbing his duffel, and started to stuff his clothes into it, grumbling as Sam entered his room.

“Where are you going?”

“Where the hell do you think I’m going, Sammy?”

“She said she didn’t want to see you.”

“Don’t care.”

“She’s not going to let you in.”

“Doesn’t matter.”

Sam sighed, feeling bad for his brother.  He had never seen him have it so bad for a woman before.  He picked up another large book as he sat down at the table in the library, hearing the roar of the Impala driving off in the distance.

Dean gripped the steering wheel of the Impala tightly, his mind completely focused on one thing, one mission, one person.  You.

You down one last glass of wine before you started to get ready for bed.  Hopefully the wine would help you settle your nerves, your thoughts lingering on the one person in the entire universe that it shouldn’t be.

Dean walked victoriously out of a bar in the middle of God-knows-where in Tennessee, holding a crumpled slip of paper in his hand.  He had been hot on your trail, asking around with mutual hunter acquaintances, ducking into bars, and somehow he finally found you.  He looked at that little piece of paper in his hand, your address scrawled on it in barely legible handwriting.  He gripped it tightly as he nearly threw himself back into his car, hoping to whoever was up in Heaven that you would at least let him in.  At the very least talk to him through the door.  Because if there was one thing that he knew was true, it was that things were not supposed to end that way between the both of you.  You had stayed with him through hell and back and there was no way he was going to let you go without a fight, even if he had to fight you for it.

You tidied up a little in your small apartment, clad only in a tanktop and panties, just about ready to turn in for the night when you hear a knock at the door.  You furrow your eyebrows.  Who the hell is knocking at this time of night.  I don’t even know anybody in this bumblefuck of a town.  You grab your gun off the coffee table, taking quiet steps towards the door, cursing everything as you wish you had a peephole on the door.  Great, I guess I’ll just wing it.  Gun in one hand, you pull the door open wide, gun cocked right in the knocker’s face.  It takes you a moment, but you finally lower your weapon, eyes full of confusion and sadness.

“How did you find me?” …. …. ….

“Hello, sweetheart.”

Read Part 2

[littleforestfairy]

ALL OF THEM FOR MY MAIN BOY LUCAS

God damn it. You’re lucky I love talking about my ocs and that I love you.

1. What’s their full name? Why was that chosen? Does it mean anything?

Lucas Alexander Whitestone. I’m p sure I’ve answered this before, but he chose his dad’s name. 

2. Do they have any titles? How did they get them?

Uhhh nope, no titles.

3. Did they have a good childhood? What are fond memories they have of it? What’s a bad memory? 

He had a fairly good childhood up until he was 8, when his dad died. Most of his fond memories are of all the fun times he spent with his dad, like going to the park, playing games with him. A bad memory is definitely the day his dad died, and his mom started to become abusive and neglectful. From then on, had a pretty terrible rest of his childhood.

4. What is their relationship with their parents? What’s a good and bad memory with them? Did they know both parents? 

He had a great relationship with his dad! He doesn’t have many bad memories with his dad, just probably little moments when he got grounded or something. A good memory he has of his dad is going ice skating on his 7th birthday. As you can tell from the above question, he has a terrible relationship with his mom. All the bad times really overshadow any good times he might’ve had with her.

5. Do they have any siblings? What’s their names? What is their relationship with them? Has their relationship changed since they were kids to adults?

He’s an only child! But a lot of the kids at Amore Safe Haven are like siblings to him. Also, he’ll eventually be adopted by a caretaker there, Anya Dawn, and gain a little brother, Sammy! He loves little Sammy and Sammy really loves him!

6. What were they like at school? Did they enjoy it? Did they finish? What level of higher education did they reach? What subjects did they enjoy? Which did they hate?

He was kind of a loner at school, never really had many friends, always ate alone. He didn’t really wanna get close to people. He hated most of it. At the beginning of the story, he is a senior in high school, but due to everything that happens, he drops out and eventually gets a GED.The subject he hated most was math, and a subject he actually enjoyed was history.

7. Did they have lots of friends as a child? Did they keep any of their childhood friends into adulthood? 

He was friends with a few of his neighbors! He would play with them sometimes after school. He didn’t stay friends with any of them though, after they all eventually moved away and they didn’t stay in contact.

8. Did they have pets as a child? Do they have pets as an adult? Do they like animals? 

Nooope, no pets as a kid! He does love animals, and maybe when he moves in with Anya, he’ll get a cat.

9. Do animals like them? Do they get on well with animals? 

Yeah, usually! Stray cats like him.

10. Do they like children? Do children like them? Do they have or want any children? What would they be like as a parent? Or as a godparent/babysitter/ect?

He loves kids! At Amore Safe Haven, he plays with the younger kids a lot and they all love him because he’s like a big brother ! And then of course Sammy loves him. He’d be a pretty good parent, but he doesn’t know yet if he really wants kids of his own. As of right now, he can’t see himself actually raising children.

11. Do they have any special diet requirements? Are they a vegetarian? Vegan? Have any allergies?

None that I’ve come up with yet.

12. What is their favourite food? 

Mac & cheese with tuna!

13. What is their least favourite food?

Probably like, anything with steamed vegetables.

14. Do they have any specific memories of food/a restaurant/meal?

Uhhh not really!

15. Are they good at cooking? Do they enjoy it? What do others think of their cooking?

He’s good at cooking simple stuff, like pasta or scrambled eggs. He does enjoy it, and wishes to learn how to cook more stuff! His friends like his cooking!

16. Do they collect anything? What do they do with it? Where do they keep it? 

He collects photos! He has a Polaroid camera he got from Anya and he takes pictures all the time, of his friends, scenery, animals, and sticks them in a journal Lucy gave him.

17. Do they like to take photos? What do they like to take photos of? Selfies? What do they do with their photos?

Well as stated above, he loves taking photos! He has both a digital camera and a Polaroid camera, the digital one being for more practical use, and the Polaroid for collecting. Already stated what he takes photos of. He doesn’t really take selfies unless it’s with his friend. He much rather prefers being behind the camera.

18. What’s their favourite genre of: books, music, tv shows, films, video games and anything else

Fiction, fantasy, and sci-fi !

19. What’s their least favourite genres?

Horror

20. Do they like musicals? Music in general? What do they do when they’re favourite song comes?

He does like musicals, and loves music in general! Music was always kind of his escape when living with his mom. When his favorite song comes on, he passionately lip syncs to it and dances (only if he’s alone tho, he gets embarrassed if someone sees him)

21. Do they have a temper? Are they patient? What are they like when they do lose their temper?

He’s a pretty patient person, it takes a lot to make him angry. When he does lose his temper, he screams and starts crying cus he’s so frustrated.

22. What are their favourite insults to use? What do they insult people for? Or do they prefer to bitch behind someone’s back?

He’s not really the kind of person to insult people a lot or talk bad about them. The only people he’ll talk bad about is his mom, and even then he hates bringing her up. Don’t really think he has favorite insults.

23. Do they have a good memory? Short term or long term? Are they good with names? Or faces?

He’s got a fairly good memory overall! He’s pretty good with both names and faces.

24. What is their sleeping pattern like? Do they snore? What do they like to sleep on? A soft or hard mattress?

He’s kind of in between heavy sleeper and light sleeper? He won’t wake up at little noises and it takes a few times for his alarm to wake him up, but he does wake up instantly if someone just jostles him a bit and calls his name.

25. What do they find funny? Do they have a good sense of humour? Are they funny themselves?

He likes puns and ridiculous jokes, and will laugh at something really funny way too long. Got a pretty good sense of humor. He doesn’t consider himself funny, he prefers to hear other people be funny.

26. How do they act when they’re happy? Do they sing? Dance? Hum? Or do they hide their emotions? 

He hums and grins and does a lil dance when he’s super happy! Which is mostly bouncing on his feet and hopping around.

27. What makes them sad? Do they cry regularly? Do they cry openly or hide it? What are they like they are sad?

He tries not cry a lot, but he’s pretty sensitive. He tends to hide his emotions a lot, but his friends can usually tell when he needs a shoulder to cry on, even if he doesn’t show it. He tries to keep to himself and block everything out when he’s sad.

28. What is their biggest fear? What in general scares them? How do they act when they’re scared?

His biggest fear is losing everyone he cares about and being alone. The future, horror, insects scare me in general. He’s generally really shaky and jumpy when scared.

29. What do they do when they find out someone else’s fear? Do they tease them? Or get very over protective? 

Very overprotective! Would never tease someone for something like that.

30. Do they exercise? Regularly? Or only when forced? What do they act like pre-work out and post-work out?

Doesn’t exercise regularly, but he tries to. He’s very determined pre-work out, but he’s pretty out of shape right now, so he’s exhausted and sore post-work out. 

31. Do they drink? What are they like drunk? What are they like hungover? How do they act when other people are drunk or hungover? Kind or teasing? 

His mother is a violent alcoholic so he steers away from alcohol at all costs, and seeing as he’s mostly around teenagers that know about his mother, no one ever gets drunk around him.

32. What do they dress like? What sorta shops do they buy clothes from? Do they wear the fashion that they like? What do they wear to sleep? Do they wear makeup? What’s their hair like?

He wears a lot of big sweaters, in mainly pastel colors, lotsa blue and purple and pink. He just buys all his clothes from stores like Walmart or Target or thrift stores. He does wear stuff he likes, but he kinda wishes he was confident enough to wear super stylish clothes like Shane. He wears cute printed pjs, with prints like owls or cats. No makeup, and his hair is a messy pixie cut that hangs in his face a lot.

33. What underwear do they wear? Boxers or briefs? Lacey? Comfy granny panties?

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

34. What is their body type? How tall are they? Do they like their body?

He’s fairly slim, 5′3″. He doesn’t like his body until he starts on testosterone, and then he slowly starts to feel more comfortable with his body. 

35. What’s their guilty pleasure? What is their totally unguilty pleasure? 

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

36. What are they good at? What hobbies do they like? Can they sing?

He likes ice skating, photography, doodling. He can’t really sing that well, but he does like to sing for fun with his friends.

37. Do they like to read? Are they a fast or slow reader? Do they like poetry? Fictional or non fiction?

He’s a pretty fast reader, loves fantasy and sci-fi, isn’t really into poetry but there are a few select poems he likes.

38. What do they admire in others? What talents do they wish they had?

He wishes he could sing better, could play an instrument, wishes he was more confident in himself. He admires all that in his friends.

39. Do they like letters? Or prefer emails/messaging? 

Emails/messaging

40. Do they like energy drinks? Coffee? Sugary food? Or can they naturally stay awake and alert?

He prefers tea more than coffee. Doesn’t like energy drinks. He has a bit of a sweet tooth. He’s used to staying up late, so he’s pretty good at naturally staying awake.

41. What’s their sexuality? What do they find attractive? Physically and mentally? What do they like/need in a relationship?

Bi-demisexual! He wants someone who can be there for him, who will be patient with him and all his issues, and someone who is sweet and fun and easy to talk to.

42. What are their goals? What would they sacrifice anything for? What is their secret ambition?

He would sacrifice anything for his loved ones. He wishes he could someday be completely rid of memories of his mother, could be happy without her in his thoughts.

43. Are they religious? What do they think of religion? What do they think of religious people? What do they think of non religious people?

He respects people’s religions and choices, but he’s not really religious himself. He’s not sure where he stands on believing in God.

44. What is their favourite season? Type of weather? Are they good in the cold or the heat? What weather do they complain in the most? 

He’s a winter fae, so he love loves the cold! He’s best in the cold and snow, and haaaates the heat.

45. How do other people see them? Is it similar to how they see themselves? 

He sees himself very negatively. His friends see him as sweet and helpful and someone who is strong and tries hard every day to get better.

46. Do they make a good first impression? Does their first impression reflect them accurately? How do they introduce themselves?

First impression of him is very quiet and nervous. Though once he’s more comfortable around someone, he’s more open and genuine.

47. How do they act in a formal occasion? What do they think of black tie wear? Do they enjoy fancy parties and love to chit chat or loathe the whole event?

Doesn’t really like fancy formal occasions. He much rather prefers small gatherings, or just hanging out at home.

48. Do they enjoy any parties? If so what kind? Do they organise the party or just turn up? How do they act? What if they didn’t want to go but were dragged along by a friend? 

He likes small gatherings with friends. Organizing a party is way too much responsibility for him. If he was dragged along, he would just sit in a corner or stick close to his friend. Or make up an excuse that he was sick and wanted to go home.

49. What is their most valued object? Are they sentimental? Is there something they have to take everywhere with them?

He’s very sentimental, he keeps everything his loved ones give him, even if it’s something small. His most valued object is a little fairy tale book his dad always read to him.

50. If they could only take one bag of stuff somewhere with them: what would they pack? What do they consider their essentials?

Clothes, toothbrush, phone and headphones and charger, first aid kit, books, food and water, some kind of entertainment. 

[mycasandstarrs]

SPN 5x13: “The Song Remains the Same”

“Cherry Pie” by Warrant.

A different layer of Dean’s dreams.

Hello, Anna.

“This is what you dream about.” Not always.

Oh I see you throwing Cas under the bus early, you jerk.

“I broke out.” Yeah. Sure.

So sometime between Dean waking up and Cas confronting Anna, Cas would have had to talk to Dean (and Sam, if he were awake) and tell them to stay away.

Cas is being extra about this entrance.

“They didn’t send me. I escaped.”

“No one escapes.”

Don’t lie to Cas.

“I want to help.”

“You want to help?”

“Yes.” 

“Then what are you doing with that knife?”

OOHHH CALL HER OUT CAS

OOOOHHHH

“Sam Winchester has to die.”

Whoomp, there it is.

“Sam is the only vessel that matters.” That’s a bunch of baloney now.

Anna is the third angel to taunt Cas about his search for God.

“If you want to stop the devil, this is how.”

“The answer is still no, because Sam is my friend.”

Awww.

The roles are now reversed with Cas and Anna.

“Anna, we've been through much together, but you come near Sam Winchester and I'll kill you.”

Lay down the law, Cas!

That’s a sweet ass car.

Anna was lucky enough to land on the car of such friendly people.

If Anna is Glenn Close (from Fatal Attraction ) would that make Dean Michael Douglas for having sex with her?

“Cas, what do you think? Does Anna have a point?”

“No. She’s, uh, Glenn Close.”

:’)

As soon as his family’s in danger, Dean is all in.

Classic Cas line. 

Back to 1978.

“I’m much better than expected.” *coughs up blood and passes out*

“So I paid for Cas for five nights up in the, uh, honeymoon suite. I told the manager, 'Do not disturb no matter what.' You know what he said to me? 'Yeah. Don't sweat it. Want to buy some dope?'”

...why the honeymoon suite tho. w h y. Cas was most likely passed out that entire time, he wouldn’t be able to enjoy that. Also, gotta love the fact that the manager had two MEN book a honeymoon suite, was told not to disturb “no matter what” and he was just cool with it. Bless. 

“He’ll wake up. He’s, you know, tough for a little nerdy dude with wings.”

Sam “tell them the truth” Winchester.

A full Winchester family reunion. The first since Pilot.

I’ll never get over Sam's face when he sees his mother.

But the way Dean immediately straightens up when he sees John makes me sad.

Sammy’s in tears, omgg.

“You okay, pal? You look a little spooked.”

Sam I get it, but please stop staring.

(x)

“You are so beautiful.”

“He means that in a—a non-weird, wholesome, family kind of a way.”

Yeah he does. :’)

Mary internally screaming this entire time.

“Uh, look, please stay. You know, it would mean a lot to me.”

John was so sweet.

NOOOOO DON’T GO.

RIP Mr. Woodson. Killed by Anna.

Anna couldn’t just zap him to sleep??

At least John fought back.

“I wish I could say it’s good to see you, Anna.”

“You too, Dean.”

Well that’s awkward.

MARY’S A FUCKING BADASS.

She quit hunting years ago, but she’s fighting like a hunter.

Mary fucking Winchester.

Sam’s first angel banishment!

The only Winchester family car ride. That’s rather sad.

(x)

I’ve always wondered if this was the old Campbell house.

Sam and Dean teaching their parents about angels.

John immediately jumps in on the supernatural thing tho.

“Y’all might have treated me like a fool, but I am not useless. I can draw a damn--whatever it is-- a sigil.”

I can say what I want about John, but he ain’t no punk.

This moment between Sam and John is incredibly painful to watch.

“I used to be mad at him. I—I mean, I used to... I used to hate the guy. But now I—I... I get it. He was...just doing the best he could. And he was trying to keep it together in—in—in this impossible situation. See... My mom, um... She was amazing, beautiful, and she was the love of his life. And she got killed. And...I think he would have gone crazy if he didn't do something. Truth is, um, my dad died before I got to tell him that I understand why he did what he did. And I forgive him for what it did to us. I do. And I just—I love him.”

This is so cathartic for Sam. He deserves this.

Oooh, younger Uriel.

“In the future, these people are going to kill you, Uriel.” OOOHHH WHAT A LIE.

“Okay. You said you'd explain everything when we had a minute. We have a minute.”

Dean is very much like Mary, and vice versa

“I’m your son.”

Well, he ripped that band aid off..

I love the clarification that the angel that brought them back (aka Cas) is friendlier, therefore not a threat, should he come around to help them.

(Actually, it’s kind of a shame Cas didn’t meet a younger John and Mary Winchester. The meeting between him and Mary in S12 would’ve been a tad bit more interesting than it already was.)

“Our names are Dean and Sam Winchester. We're named after your parents. When I would get sick, you would make me tomato-rice soup, because that's what your mom made you. And instead of a lullaby, you would sing "Hey Jude", 'cause that's your favorite Beatles song.”

It’s incredible that Dean can remember so far back into his life. Mary would’ve had to have told him about her mother making tomato rice soup at like, 4 or 5 and he remembers.

That’s a great Beatles song to choose as your favorite. Again, Mary would’ve told Dean this at a very young age...and he remembers.

So Mary is not only being informed that her children were raised hunters, but that she is dead, and John is the one who chose to enter the family into the hunting life. This is a lot for Mary to be told all at once, good lord.

“Listen to me. A demon comes into Sam's nursery exactly six months after he's born. November second, nineteen eighty-three. Remember that date. And whatever you do, do not go in there. You wake up that morning and you take Sam and you run.”

Dean once again trying to save Mary.

Sam has entered the conversation with a horribly sad suggestion: Mary has to leave John.

“There's a big difference between dying and never being born. And trust me, we're okay with it, I promise you that.”

“Okay, well, I’m not.”

I really do love Mary tho.

Little fetus Dean has been with them this whole time!!

c r a p. Anna and Uriel have arrived.

It’s only now just occurring to me that this is the only time the Winchester family has worked a case together, so to speak.

“Go.” Sam’s last word.

RIP Sam Winchester. Killed by Anna. Death #3

“I’m really sorry.” What bull.

“Michael.” Anna’s last word.

RIP Anna. Killed by Michael.

Mary's first encounter with Michael...to know it won’t be her last, and now she has to see him possess her son? *shudder*

John was told he could save Mary, and he said yes. Dean had the chance to save Sam and Jack (and the rest of the world) and he said yes.

“Six degrees of Heaven Bacon.” Dean still cracks a joke, even at the grimmest of times.

Michael’s as big as a dick as Lucifer.

“Because I got to believe that I can choose what I do with my unimportant little life.” :(

“Free will's an illusion, Dean. That's why you're going to say yes.”

“I won’t leave you a drooling mess when I’m done with you.” I hope AU!Michael can still attest to this. There’s still hope that Dean will be ok, at least physically.

And here is how Mary won’t remember Dean when they meet again in the future.

“I’m gonna do your mom and dad a favor.”

“What?”

“Scrub their minds. They won’t remember me or you.”

Dean is the only brother to have met both Lucifer and Michael possessed as his family members.

Cas!!

Ooohhh, I’ll never get over Dean showing concern for Cas.

“Team Free Will. One ex-blood junkie, one dropout with six bucks to his name, and Mr. Comatose over there.”

The Birth of Team Free Will!

“They all say we'll say yes.” They’re unfortunately right. It just might be prolonged for Dean.

Oh boy.

I’d be thoroughly creeped out by that final line...if it weren’t for Cas.

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spn rewatch 12x02

tagged as ‘spn for ts’ those who want to block. enjoy!

summary:

"Preform. Drink. Sleep. Repeat." Is this them calling out dean winchester

ok its an empty tea cup but u tried sammy

Mitch just tryna get that promotion ....

ok to start with i just ended up watchin 3 seconds of something called better things ... thanks random website im watching spn on. I wish it was better things.

Preview showing me sams pain please stop im crying.

is this why people ship them... this one scene where sam isbeing manipulated by toni by sex. i hate this. i hate non con and everything it stands for

FCUKING EAGER SAM LMAO

WINE IN BED if that spilt it would look like blood

we report to no man.... we free souls

also is sam saying this all out loud??

bed scene to dean and cas okkkk transitions where

NO SIGN OF SAM COS HE FUNKING

“check real estate” .... get us a flat soon bb

no dont leave me with my zombie mum thanks

cas googling quick like "how to b supportive bf"  but only loads the first bullet point lmao

mary ears were burning

IM EMO AGAIN HES THRILLED HES SO DAMN HAPPY I CANT STAND IT

mary and dean do that thing pretending they good when they not ... tears

“forwards hopefully” lol.

OHMIGOD I SEE NOW

“I STARTED ALL OF THIS THE YELLOW EYED” THING.....GASP theres a leaked spoiler about this that it blows up into a big thing so ///early points/// wow. they PLANNED this wow.

Hallucitoni

why u asking .... dont like her again... brain would liquify stooop

i dont like these less pleasant methods dude. At all. Leave sammy 😢😢

it looks like a raptor claw. dino baiting in spn why

NO THE SHNK NOISE i hate the shnk noise

ahh the next morning.

MARY REMEMBERING JOHN AS GOOD ME CRYING AGAIN

CAS CALLING

CAS CAN U BE MY EMO SUPPORT PLEASE

cas out there fully looking at real estate for dean and found a farm.... he got a hay truck now, he blends in perfectly he doesnt need that tree camo

"We never kno we are hunters" mary my heart is breaking please stop

and she damn well can handle herself as u will see

O BOI 😂😂😂😂

Tonis calendar blocked out as "torture sam" for how long ew *shudder*

ooo first evidence that bmol is out of date

how did they dean did it hmm

ROWENA. Ok but i love her so much.

CROWEWEY. i love them so much 😍

their banter im 😂😂😂

she just wants a normal life crowley leave her alonnne

PFFFTTTT thats not a tiny favour crowley cmon. work out ur favour sizes

ahhh vnc vncnt he worked well as lucifers vessel. outdated rockstar who drinks. and he wears eyeliner so im down.

"Preform. Drink. Sleep. Repeat." Is this them calling out dean winchester

Tomi leave with ur 2002 split down the middle hair style. Let him look at some model stock photo

i thought that they could only use vessels from blood lines but ok ....

dean appreciating mary as a hunter

also all these wide sweeping statements about hunters

"It changed dad" u can say that again. DEAN CONFESSING STUFF

SAM WANTED OUT HE WENT TO STANFORD

also .... no dean thats what u think ...... sam was learning and had a gf ..... why u tell ur mum these things please.

hAHHH - scream of terror me too vincy

everyone knows whats going to happen why they drag it out for so long

why does lucifer have to ask for permission for vince vincenenety???? he didnt for any of the other vessels except sam .... what kind of bs .....

swallowing those pills was selfish but she was in an abusive relationship. thats so sad.

😂😂😂😂😂 I LOVE CROWLEY AND ROWENA

he has an aura of supreme evil 😂😂😂

"Its exactly why im retiring" 😂😂

"He makes oatmeal look interesting"

why not the location? mother / son team up!!

rowena doesnt care about ben tho lbr. Shes a beautiful funny women who could like magic women up. Why does she need a man....

they should bring sam fresh clothes honestly how long has he been stewing tf

"Dude help me" ..... "i cant believe that worked" see mary and cas have no expectations for each other so they act get on better than mary and dean *cries*

brother are you okay ..... isnt this what kelvin says. hair split guy cares about you....

CLASSY ONE LINER THat ive heard 20 times

where is dean even walking. he got his gun out like its not a crime tf. Oh wait americs ... never mind

THATS IT DEAN THATS THE PLACE

BEAM ME UP SCOTTY "son of a bitch"

so was dean just standing there and got grabbed wtf? Underestinated tonis strength

get off my throne would have been better but i appreciate it.

Beiber more ur style 😂😂😂 i like crowley

Real estate has been mentioned like 5 times this ep. They all want to move away.

"Mani mani mani"cure lucifer jeez cut ur nails.

why would sulfuric acid hurt them LOL they literally made of sulfur dumbs

no hesitation strike hurt the nation

Passcode??

Spit blood hunnyyy

“tea and a beating” 😂😂😂

THEY MENTIONED BENNY HOW TF DID THEY KNO

THEY KNO ABOUT DEANS GAY ESCAPADE IN PURGAYTORY LMAOOO

ew ew ew ew face melting. Good acting of being burnt alive.

his vessel struggling to be healed or melt away

RED EYES

WIIINNGSSSSSSSS HOOOOOEEEEEEEE

THIS IS LUCIFER

HES DOING SOME KPOP FACE DANCE MOVES

damn this is what lucifer should have been from the first of the series....

also lucifer snapped lucifers next last time

Posh spice angry spice 😂😂

she missed some juicy gossip

archane topics - this probably explains why they so out of date tbh

EYE GORE I HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE

MY BOIS

Sams like tripping out right now

WHY SHE HIT SAM LMAO HE IN A CHAIR 😂😂😂😂 sam still tripping out hard

Dean u got one hand free tarzan swing over there

U can make spells by cutting ur hand ... ok ... rowena teach me ur rich witch ways please

THESE APES READ A BOOK

SAMS TRIPPING SO HARD IM DYING 😂😂😂😂 dean and his mum came back knocked out toni then cas and cas british twin turned up

WHY THEY SO CHILL

um ..... toni didnt face those consequences in london.... why winchesters obeying their code?

Mitch just tryna get that promotion ....

LMAO AND NO HE CANT FINISH U OFF his ass got beat in 1 min flat by ms watts

where cas

SAMS FACE. i didnt like early mary in this like the way she was written.

FAMILY GOOD NEWS

CALL THE INTERNET

no ... not now....

WHERE CAS THO

why dean wanting pie when he be wanting cas

pftt okay lucifer talking about snapping her neck. Glad that plot point was adressed

PFT ROWENA RELATING REPUBLICANS TO DEMONS LOLOLOL #shade

empty throne oòooo

SAM IS HERE HOLDING TEA

ok its an empty tea cup but u tried sammy

sam pulling that hsm "i dont fit in the status quo" vibe and marys like .... u dont get it sam.

another puss in boot reference .... marys boots.

also sam had to read johns journal about catching up. Deans the only one who stayed  a winchester thru everything ..... sunshine please .....

SAM GETTING EMOTIONAL. TEARS. BIGGEST BLANK IS ANYONE WHO DIDNT CRY AT THIS.

HUGS

H U G S

SOMEONE HYGGED SAM

dean be here looking at pics with beer. But. Where. Is. Cas.

Welp there he is ... from an episode 20 years old

OH THE SONG IS LOST ANGEL ON A PIC OF CAS UM......

sam is thinking of that "a potato flew around my room" vine looking at that fan

"Honey not vinegar" thanks mitch.

Anyone who works one case (1) case with the winchesters get cursed with winchester feel syndrome.

hes sent for ketchup.... oh no....

james bond vibes .... still no face

he should have worn a mask the whole season honestly lol

That place is def not london 😂😂😂