#BUT IM SLOWLY REGAINING

[kyeomyun]

OK I HAVE RISEN. HELLOO MY LOVEEESSSS

now this is the earliest i have woken up. it's 11 AM HAAHAHA

i will not try to catch up on moots stories and also try to talk to you all :3 sorry for being MIA...

BUT HOW WAS/IS YOUR DAY?

[papers-pamphlet]

I FINALLY FINISHED READING THE RON CHERNOW ALEXANDER HAMILTON BIOGRAPHY

[mittens-10]

hm.

[shinji-hibiki]

It’s my friend FA-san’s birthday again!! Happy 43rd to the only person online who loves shinji hibiki more than I do

[vigilskeep]

so tempted to canonise arthur & josephine politically betrothed as children before arthur was sent to the circle

[bingobongobonko]

so yea i did just sort of sleep that off but. hopefully i stop doing this? that ill stop sleeping on it and put it back together with my bare hands and be shockingly normal and the only way i can do that is destroying all the awful shit in my head i think. and being more honest with how i feel about people doing specific things and at first its fine and its like. well thats okay. and then its not, anyway yeah. funny how it work. i just feel not greattt. the more and more i get a grip over how i really am, the more conflicted i feel. i dont really want a personality thats purely aggression but i dont want my personality to be the embodimenr of. you can do whatever you want to me and ill like it

[spacealiencafe]

hyperphantasia

[seariii]

Huh... /pos

[eightylinesofvergil]

wuh woh

[crab-withaknife]

i woke up from a super restless half-dream that was just me struggling to compose spiderman fanart and now im having to like slowly clear this weird mental fog where every time i close my eyes to form a mental image its all fragmented and haphazard like shag carpet fibers? i feel like i ate mold what is happening

[veradragonjedi]

I LOVE MY FRIENDS AND I LOVE MY WIFE AND

[vagueconfusion]

I finally finished Park Cruising, about to start Stiff

[legoyuri]

being a sports lesbian growing up and then having to stop playing my entire teen years for disablity reasons. sucks. sucks so much.

[anakinthetrashking]

..

[ehnrat]

i would actually like to take commissions monthly while i did my studies if it can be steady and if i manage to draw regularly

i have been working on some art styles and such and fixing up a new commission site in my free time :0c

[tacticalprincess]

ok ok but imagine being simon’s gf and könig just being so infatuated with u :( he likes you so so much, believes you deserve better than simon and just pines after you ^_^

very im on fire of him

könig’s never been one to be discreet about his feelings, especially toward you. he doesn’t owe simon anything, much less loyalty. his crush has become an inside joke amongst the crew, has gotten dirty looks thrown at him by simon too many times to count for being just slightly too touchy to be friendly, too intense in his yearning. tuning in intently whenever you talk, doing small favors for you whenever he gets the chance, asks after you when you’re gone. too close for comfort, oughta get himself in trouble, simon says.

its hard to ignore a stare that burns a hole in the side of your head, weighted like a caress on all the exposed parts of your body. könig gets some sort of satisfaction out of watching you squirm under his intense gaze, eyes trained on you most of the time he’s around, because at least he makes you feel something. he wishes to sliver underneath your skin and infiltrate your thoughts just as you’ve done to him, sending his emotions into haywire just by way of existing. smiling at him so brightly, extending a fraction of the warmth and kindness that comes naturally to you, craves it when he’s alone at night. your boyfriend can’t blame him.

simon’s weird, quiet teammate, helplessly infatuated with you, his too cute, too sweet, too soft girlfriend. could only dream of experiencing the parts of you that are exclusively for simon — wonders how someone like you even ended up with a man like him. looking far too out of place under his tattooed arm, bottom lip tucked between pearly teeth bashfully while he chats to the group of guys in typical boyish manner. the occasional ducks of his head to kiss your forehead when he remembers you’re there is not enough attention showed to such a pretty, doting thing like you, in könig’s humble opinion. it’s not even that he believes he’s better than him, but a selfish part of him would rather you end up in his calloused hands than anyone elses. his mind strays the longer he observes you, imagines all the ways he’d treat you better, take care of you like you deserve. would’ve probably already proposed to you by now given the chance. you might seem happy enough, but that doesn’t stop him from searching for cracks in the polished porcelain. always waiting for a spot to slip in.

he finally gets you alone one night, finds you where you wandered off into price’s basement to fetch more beer. coming behind you to grab the case from your delicate hands like lifting a feather off the ground.

“boyfriend not here to do this for you?”

after you regain your composure from the startle, you scoff, peering up at könig through your lashes. “just thought i’d do something nice for him.”

“sweet. does he always allow you to do a man’s job?” sarcasm bites at his words.

“allow me—?”

“do you think he even noticed your absence, maus?” he presses a bit harder, his face holding the same indifference it always does under his mask, tone flat around his accent. “as i did?”

his eyes search yours for a second, looking for any sign of reciprocation for his feelings, and somehow you can tell he knows you don’t know how to respond. as a show of mercy, he steps to the side to let you squeeze past his frame and up the stairs leading back inside the house, heavy footsteps following slowly behind. he watches as you so easily slip back into simon’s side, how his arm finds its home around your shoulders without effort. concern knits your boyfriend’s eyebrows together as he leans down to peck your lips, never breaking eye contact with könig over your shoulder, a petty display of ownership. he watches.