#BUT!!! comp het and internalized homophobia LMAO

[crimsonkenjii-writes]

My persona? Very fem. Video game characters? Very masc. Me in my head? Androgynous. Me outside? Whatever people want to perceive bc I’m fine with any.

maaaannn wtf is gender???

[ramblingsfromthytruly]

me, a closeted lesbian who only two people in my life know about but i'm too scared to ever bring up my sexuality:

me, a lesbian who has never actually had a relationship or even "crush" on another girl yet could never imagine herself with a guy:

me, a LESBIAN: what if i'm faking??? what if i'm actually straight and i'm faking for attention????

[jelestes]

jennifer jareau has possibly the WORST case of internalized homophobia/comp het i’ve ever seen in the history of television, like she legit has a coming out scene in 3.17 (they made it about will but WE KNOW what she meant by saying the unsub was targeting gay people because they saw the freedom in their victims they wished they had like BE SO FUCKING FR) also her small town/implied religious upbringing?? another unsub calling her a lesbian in 9.20 for legit no reason?? (jigsaw spewing facts lmao), the whole fight she has with her mom where her mom goes “a daughter who never saw 17 and the other…” and jj is like “the other WHAT mom?” and after a considerable amount of silence her mom replying “…left”, the fact her own family is broken so it’d make sense she would marry the father of her children so she could give them and herself some stability??? pls i could honestly go on and on and on… free my girl from that closet.

[gingus-arts]

AH YES ANOTHER ONE OF THESE!!! with my thoughts again ajdjsj- this is one of my favourite ships so i had to

tIME FOR ANOTHER SHIP "ESSAY." this time on keishima >:) again, the heights r just what i found on the wiki (i think it's cool that mishima is taller than keiji, his height fits him) and their sexualities & ages are a mix of what i've seen and what i think fits. which is to say, i saw this neat fanart of mishima being gay sjdhfns. generally i think they go together really well so let's start!

1. big spoon vs. little spoon — i just think keiji would want to be the big spoon asjhfshfn. mishima wouldn't be too set on either but he'd default to being the little spoon most of the time just cos keiji likes to be the opposite

2. lends clothes vs. borrows clothes — i think it'd be harder for mishima to lend keiji clothes with keiji being such a Beefy Boi, but he'd be totally okay lending whatever would fit him, generally stuff like ties and other accessories. i could also see mishima borrowing clothes once in a while, like if he forgot to do laundry and needed a dress shirt for work (it's not ideal because it'd be a bit baggy, but it's better than nothing) or if he wanted something comfortable to wear at home. he'd probably always ask keiji before he borrows things despite keiji saying that he doesn't need to, and he starts asking less as they're together longer (since he doesn't do it often anyway)

3. doesn't use pet names vs. uses pet names — mishima just doesn't seem like one for nicknames or pet names KFJSJDN. keiji absolutely does though— i think keiji would be more likely to flirt overtly in general so it just makes sense that he'd use pet names more. he'd probably stuff like "babe" a lot lol. but also, mishima would use an occasional "my love" whenever he's feeling lovey dovey (also this bouta sound hella cheesy but the way he says keiji's name sometimes is a term of endearment in itself)

4. extroverted vs. introverted — i think keiji would be kind of extroverted in the sense that he likes being around people (even if he's not particularly talkative, he can hold a conversation decently) and would prefer that to being alone, mostly because being around other people makes it easier to distract himself from his thoughts. i don't think he'd be drained by social situations either, but moreso envigorated by them (most of the time, anyway). that last part goes for mishima too! i think mishima would be significantly more extroverted than keiji just cos he seems extremely open to talking with everyone and seems to connect easily with them (and, he also seems more likely to persuade or push people into conversation than keiji is) though mishima is comfortable with having time alone too.

5. affection thru words vs. affection thru actions — i think keiji would generally have a hard time getting out affectionate words, so he just settles for doing small things like getting mishima food when he's @ work and kissing him or putting his arm around him. i think mishima would say really sweet stuff to keiji sometimes (though it's often more subtle & poetic than a straight up "i love you") and also compliment him often, so he'd be pretty comfortable voicing his affections, though he also does stuff with his actions.

6. confesses first vs. waits for confession — mishima just has a lot more confidence and self-esteem than keiji so i think he'd feel more comfortable opening himself up to rejection,,, though he would get the same nervousness about it that everyone gets. keiji distanced himself from even the possibility of being /friends/ with mishima, there's no way he'd think mishima would want to handle the burden of being his s/o, and it's possible he would just flat out deny that mishima likes him even if it's really obvious, if mishima doesn't say it upfront. so, he wouldn't even be waiting for a confession, he'd just try to get rid of his feelings (he'd probably feel somewhat guilty for "spoiling" their friendship with his feelings.) there is a small, small chance he'd tell mishima in a very unceremonious, way too casual sort of way, but this would definitely be an impulsive decision and he'd decide against doing it if he didn't blurt out in the minute he considered it (if that makes sense)

7. screams about bugs vs. squashes bugs with shoe — i just think it'd be funny if mishima was afraid of bugs LOL, tho i think it'd be more accurate to say that he's intrigued by bugs as a knowledgeable person (fr he just seems like he'd know a bunch of random ass information about a shit load of things) but likes to keep his distance from them. even though he's unnerved when they get too close to him, though, he makes an effort to not kill them. keiji does not care lol he'll just squash

8. drives the car vs. can't drive lol — i don't think keiji would necessarily be a bad driver, but i don't think he'd be good at it for one main reason– anxiety, or specifically, ptsd. the loud noises that sometimes come with driving, honking horns, the sharp rush of air and tires on gravel when a car passes you by, i think, could get overwhelming if he was in a relatively busy area. i don't think he'd be too good at concentrating either, he seems like he'd be somewhat prone to zoning out. mishima would Definitely be better at concentrating at keiji, and even if he zones out a bit, he's driven more than keiji (assuming,, he drives 2 work) and isn't bothered by loud noises. i don't think keiji would be too keen on admitting his problems with driving but mishima would probably pick up on it after it then call keiji out on it, /then/ he'd insist on driving most of the time.

9. can't cook for shit vs. makes dinner — i Actually Have a specific cooking hc for keiji which is that he can cook pretty basic things just fine, but he doesn't really feel the need to cook for himself so he barely cooks. like, if he was living alone, he'd probably live off of fast food and microwave meals KDJSJDN. now, if he was living with mishima- i think he'd moreso let mishima take care of the cooking, considering that mishima is Actually Good At It, but would offer help getting ingredients out or anything else mishima might need. if he wants to surprise mishima or give him a break from cooking, he'll order something to eat instead of cooking bc 1) his cooking ranges from mediocre to kinda bad and 2) he knows how to cook like 4 meals tops and 3) he doesn't want to embarrass himself lol (tho he won't admit that he doesn't want to..) mishima may coax him into at some point, though, and in that case, he'd try it out.

10. dislikes pda vs. loves pda — i think mishima would like to stay professional & within social norms in public, but he wouldn't be opposed to holding hands or a kiss on the cheek. keiji, on the other hand, has Less Shame and would nearly make out with mishima if he let him lmao- i think keiji would like teasing mishima with pda to some extent

11. overprotective vs. chill going — overall i think they'd both be pretty protective over each other! mishima seems like a protective person in general, (presumably that kinda comes with how nurturing he is) so i think that'd go doubly for his boyfriend with mental health problems up the wazoo who DOES NOT TAKE CARE OF HIMSELF NEARLY ENOUGH.... i think keiji might get annoyed with mishima's overprotectiveness but mishima stands firm in it and keiji eventually comes to recognize it less as a lack of trust & babying him, and more as a sign that mishima cares about him (and occasionally, is concerned about him.) i also think keiji would be protective over mishima, just as a base level of people he cares about, but less so than mishima is over him because mishima's pretty well adjusted and generally doesn't need protection from anything (except bugs maybe, lol)

12. has more relationship experience vs. has NO relationship experience — ok so,, i'm a little conflicted on my takes here, because if i was going with canon, it wouldn't make sense that mishima is gay because he was skeptical of kugie's same sex relationship, /unless/ he hadn't figured out his sexuality yet, which is not entirely implausible (or, if it's the internalized homophobia hittin-) i still want to headcannon him as gay so imma go with those explanations. however, if that's the case, it doesn't make sense to have him date any younger than he is now– unless, he had a serious case of comp het, which is also plausible. that may have helped him understand how relationships work, but they wouldn't be truly fulfilling if he's gay. if we're taking the relationship experience to be inclusive of platonic relationships, though, mishima would definitely have more experience than keiji. and whether we're talking platonic or romantic with keiji, i don't think he'd have very much AJDHDJ. i think he'd have like 2 or 3 girlfriends when he was younger, but nothing serious, and i don't think he'd have any really strong friendships either, in school i think it'd mostly just be the type of friends that u don't rly hang around with too often after school & then you kinda just don't see them afterwards, and in adult life it'd be coworkers, so like,, even less of a purely friendship thing. i think not having a support system would really jack him up when the trauma hit bUT i'm getting off topic so let's move on!

13. HORNY LEVEL — keiji is a horny fool don't @ me, mishima is a functional level of horniness

14. AWKWARDNESS LEVEL — so, if this was general awkwardness levels, i'd put keiji's a lot lower and mishima's a bit higher-- HOWEVER. i'm taking this 2 mean their awkwardness levels in the context of a relationship and that's why they are what they are. i would think keiji is pretty awkward in romance due to his constant deflection and tendency to distance himself– mishima would be better suited to it but A Bit Unsure either because he hasn't had relationships before or he hasn't had relationships with men before. figuring out gey things. ah but yeah i dunno, i didn't come to a conclusion in my previous rant on this :')

15. JEALOUSY LEVEL — i think keiji would b jealous mostly because he's insecure and feels like he's not enough for mishima. he wouldn't voice it and would just try to get over it, though mishima would probably notice him pouting or being a little distant. mishima, on the other hand, is quite secure in himself, and even when he isn't, i don't think he would feel particularly jealous. i feel like he'd be really happy when keiji gets close 2 other people and makes friends and stuff because that'd be good for him.

[swirlingyouintomypoems]

Oml thats so adorable 

Also TAG ME IN THESE THINGS!!!!!

i couldn't find any picrews with three people where i could change the race, sooooo

TADA!!!

if you want to make one like this, here is the link

[punksarahreese]

I hope your friend’s okay!!! and I feel like you haven’t talked much about la douleur exquise 👀 or you might have when I was asleep but anyway. any thoughts about that you want to share? 👀👀

Thank you 🥺 I hate that I’m so far away from her right now but I know she’s strong so she’ll be okay 💜

And I actually haven’t talked about it so 👀 okay leggo

CW: blood, vomit, internalized homophobia, hanahaki (obviously)

So it’s set in canon med but like,,, obviously still an au because hanahaki isn’t real

I figure everyone knows what hanahaki is but just in case someone doesn’t it’s a fictitious disease that’s the physical effects of unrequited love where the person in love has flowers grow in their chest and it slowly suffocates them and can only be cured by surgery (which would kill the feelings they have), returned love from the other person, or the patient’s death

And in this AU it’s a real condition and it’s like, not common but not abnormal or anything

Sooo

Soon after Ava came to Gaffney, Sarah regrettably caught feelings

They were working on Robin’s case together in the beginning and she didn’t like the snarky surgeon at first but also she couldn’t help but think she was very cool

Because Ava just seemed so good at everything and so sure of herself

Not to mention she didn’t let Connor or anyone else push her around

Sarah wanted to be like that

And Sarah wanted to be with someone like that

Not to mention Ava is absolute gorgeous and that accent is to die for y’know

But Sarah was also kinda dealing with internalized homophobia at the time so she’s very :// about it

She realized how charming and charismatic Ava is and she hated it because she doesn’t want to admit how much Ava had grown on her and how much she admired her

Especially not when she was kinda always dismissive of Sarah

She was just a resident after all and Ava didn’t have time for residents who thought they had a valid opinion :/

Albeit Sarah was one resident Ava didn’t hate because she saw that she was competent and intelligent and not a bumbling idiot

But she just didn’t have time to play games with the “baby doctors”

She’s definitely not one for teaching or hand holding I guess you could say

So Sarah tried to push her feelings aside as we know Sarah does and just tried to forget about it

And it did work at first because once robin’s case was basically wrapped up there was no need for her to see Ava every day

They didn’t cross paths much unless they had a joined consult or there’s a big trauma that means Sarah gets to be a real doctor lmao

So Sarah just pushes everything out of her head

She tried to go on dates (with shitty men 🤢) to get Ava out of her mind and keep any gay thoughts suppressed

CJ making sarah endure more comp-het 🤡

Eventually she gave up on that though and just focused on work

And she was okay

As long as she tried to forget about how Ava’s low, accented voice always gave her butterflies and how even the thought of the surgeon made her chest clench

Because she shouldn’t feel like that

But she couldn’t help that she still admired Ava from afar 🥺

All on a professional level of course

Time goes on and Sarah developed a bad cough but she just assumed it’s a virus and takes some cold medicine

She definitely shouldn’t have ignored the clenching chest pains she started getting soon after the cough showed up :/

She’s fine

Until one day she passes out at work

And the ED staff called a CT consult because Sarah had major tachycardia (like 160 BPM) and Nat was confused about the weird fuzzy sound in her lungs

Ava comes to the ED and Sarah immediately asks for Connor instead

Ava was like ??? Connor’s not here just let me treat you

Sarah refused though and argued that they just let her go home and rest

Eventually they do, against medical advice, and she took a few days off work

And maybe Sarah should have been a bit more concerned when she woke up unable to breath that night

Especially when she started coughing up flower petals??

But she just flushed the bloodstained purple petals down the toilet and went back to bed 🥴

Sarah Reese you absolute walnut

The next few days off were spent on her computer, a million tabs open as she poured over articles and forums

Hanahaki disease

Unrequited love... pain... loss...

Suffocation...

...Surgery to remove it

And then Sarah knew what it was and who caused it

And she knew she should immediately see a specialist and get the flowers removed

But a part of her brain was screaming in protest at the thought

Why didn’t she want to just fix it right away? There was no way Ava Bekker would return her feelings, so why let herself suffer?

Maybe some part of her mind was insisting she deserved this as punishment for liking another woman

Or maybe she didn’t want to kill these feelings for Ava because it was the first real love Sarah had ever felt and knew was real

Even if the feelings ended up killing her in the end <3

[sapphicambitions]

So, a while ago, you identified as bi but you've now realized you are a lesbian. What made you realize that?

ahhh this is an excellent question! thank you!

short answer is i had to work through my internalized homophobia and compulsory heteronormativity before i could accept myself.

so around my sophomore year of college i realized i was attracted to women and it lowkey freaked me out. i was like “yeah i like women but im DEF going to end up with a man because i have to because that’s how i was raised so i’ll call myself bi and forget about the whole thing” and like kind of swept the issue under the rug because it didn’t matter if I liked women or not I was gonna end up with a man. fast forward a year or so and through some really terrible dating experiences and to the end of my junior year of college. 

long story short there was a girl i was best friends with and we stopped being best friends and it made furious and I was angry all the time that we were no longer friends yada yada (if you’ve seen She-Ra, I was Catra.) and one night I was super drunk and i uhhhhhhh hooked up with her ex boyfriend (oops). and there was LITERALLY a moment while I was kissing him that I was like “he’s terrible at this. i wish he was a girl.” and then i kind of like froze and I was like “oh my god im a lesbian” (while making out with him) and I was like “oh my god i wish i was kissing HER instead” and then like a week later I saw Love, Simon in theatres and I sobbed my eyes out in the theatres because I knew I was gay and didn’t know how to handle it

and so im like freaking out and unsure about everything because I was like “I think i might be a lesbian but what if I dont WANT to be a lesbian because im supposed to end up with a guy!!!” and that summer I did summer stock in Oberlin, Ohio, where Alison Bechdel went to college. And for the first time in my life i was deeply surrounded by queer people. One of my best friends from college is bi and was instrumental in my realizing of my sexuality (Sup, Kara) but my college was mostly filled with straight people. In Oberlin I was SURROUNDED by queer people who were confident in themselves and I made a lot of really great friends who helped me find myself. I also dove into queer culture: movies, tv shows, books, yada yada the works. That was the summer I learned about comp het. and I was like iM A LESBIAN! 

for like. three weeks.

and then i panicked again and said I was bisexual and shoved the issue under the rug. (I had a bit of a rocky road to accepting myself lmao)

so for a few more months I allowed myself to truly get comfortable with the idea of being a lesbian and being gay and on October 14th, 2018, I was out at a bar with the cast of the show I was working on and honestly, i dont remember a lot of the details because I was SUPER drunk that night but I was talking with another girl about sexuality and I remember being like “I really WANT to be a lesbian but I just dont know that i am” and she was like “if you want to be a lesbian, you’re a lesbian. you dont need anyone’s permission to be who you are” or some shit like that. idk. the details are fuzzy. and i was like “oh my god I’m a LESBIAN” and i even went home that night and posted to tumblr “so i might be a lesbian” lmao

the next day i went to the library and checked out two books on sappho and three books on lesbianism and read them all.

Three days later I called my parents and told them.

and I started living my life openly to my friends and people in my immediate area. My extended family didn’t know until i came out to my grandmother on thanksgiving of 2019. My brothers didn’t find out until March 2020. I came out on facebook in April 2020. It was a gradual process. but now I’m fully out!

So really, when you look back at my whole life, there were MANY signals that I was a big ole lesbian (like getting it on with a guy and thinking “I don’t know what I’m doing with his body. maybe if it was a girl I would know what I was doing” and that was BEFORE the ex best friend ex boyfriend incident) but I was too scared to admit them. I had to take my own journey and work through a lot of internal stuff before I could admit what I already knew in my heart. 

[mourgenstern]

i dont ship f*briz (i am, in fact, happy that f*briz didnt happen) but i think that there being other lgbt+ characters in fh doesnt mean that fabian/aelwen cant be "comp het". comp het, as i understand it, isn't based on anyone around you but rather on one's own personality and having been raised to see being straight as "normal" and thus finding it harder to recognize your actual sexuality because you're subconsciously forcing heterosexuality on yourself

Ya I guess I was more saying that there is no way that Fabian would see het as normal because p much all of his friends and family are not straight. I’m trying to think of a 100% confirmed straighty in fh and.... maybe Gilear lmao. Fabians had a rocky relationship w/ masculinity but to get meta for a second Brennan & the gang would have absolutely unpacked and explored internalized homophobia in Fabian but the repressed gay jock arc was gobbled up by my boy Ragh already. Fabian was raised on tales of his dad boning his way across the Celestine sea lmao. Aelwyn is another matter entirely I could absolutely see her fucked up family life leading to a repressed sexuality along with the repressed 90% of the rest of her. I feel like people are more put out about Fabian tho, I just find it annoying that people would take his incredible arc of learning to be his own person in the face of expectations, helped along by his squad of gay bffs, and think that he only feels attracted to a woman because he feels like that’s his only option. He may well be bi!! This could all quite possibly be explored and expanded upon in junior year! I would love to see aelwyn n fabians doomed relationship play out while they’re unpacking their trauma because I know the d20 folks would do it really well! I just can’t help but feel like folks are cranky because their hot boy fave didn’t get his kisses in with the people they wanted him to. Thanks for the ask! I live for talking about d20 and you were very polite. Sorry if I’m not explaining my thots clearly

[positivityforlesbians]

So speaking of comp het, do you think it’s possible to like...(trying not to be too nsfw)like making out with guys and do other things even though you know you’re not attracted to them? I wish I could just say I’m a lesbian and be done with it but my past with men is really tripping me up and it doesn’t help that I’ve never been with a girl in any way to compare. I’m afraid I’ll realize I really *could* love a man if I say I’m a lesbian.

It is possible that a lesbian kisses men and have sex with them if she has very strong internalized homophobia and specifically compulsory heterosexuality yes. However she wouldn’t feel like what she’s doing is natural, in such a scenario she forces herself because “it’s what people do” but she doesn’t love these men and isn’t actually attracted to them, that’s why it is a problem: we aren’t being honest with ourselves, whether it’s intentional or because we are completely detached from our feelings and body, therefore being in a complete fog of ignorance of ourselves, even if we can tell we’re not satisfied at all or that there isn’t any spark with men, we just think all women feel this way. Attraction is active, not passive. Women are told the latter that’s why so many women struggle with their sexuality_

Thinking that a man is good looking doesn’t equal attraction to them, i personally like the example of the parallel with looking at paintings in a museum: the paintings can be aesthetically satisfying but it doesn’t mean we want to have sex with them in any way, lmao. Your past with men doesn’t matter if you realized you were never genuinely attracted to them and thought you were because it never crossed your mind that you could be a lesbian ignoring the signs. It only mean things got clearer with time and now you know you only love women. A bisexual woman is actively attracted to both sexes and doesn’t feel like something is off when she’s with dudes. She can be unsatisfied with a man but that’s just because of his personalities or his physic, not because she doesn’t feel whole with men in general. Lesbians aren’t able to love men, not this way. When we understand that we were living a lie (a heterosexual life motivated by compulsory heterosexuality) it’s impossible to go back to ignorance, the person cannot indulge in this grey life anymore or they’ll be even more miserable than before, living in cognitive dissonance (when you do things in contradictions with your thoughts/ with who you are). I hope i explained this clearly anon. If you aren’t attracted to men there’s no reason why you would put yourself in situations where you’d kiss them and have sex with them, you have to live your life for yourself and to listen to your guts. Xx

[indeliblemarking]

Catradora Fic Rec

I’ve been wanting to make one of these for a while but I’m lazy omg. anyways here’s some of my favorite catradora fics. but before you check them out, here’s a shameless self promo to my fic✨: https://archiveofourown.org/works/18344996/chapters/43432055

shots and sincerity by: yesimgay https://archiveofourown.org/works/16784578 (one shot, college au) catra and adora are best friends and decide to drunk together. and idk what else to say without spoiling it besides that they’re pining for each other so,, go read it!!

You Got Cool by: explosionshark https://archiveofourown.org/works/16744141/chapters/39280405 (multi chapter, boarding school au) god tier fic. catra and adora are roommates at the Horde Academy until adora gets a scholarship to brightmoon. catra is upset and angry with her. the way catra’s character is written in this is>>>

please could you be tender by: erce3 https://archiveofourown.org/works/17994278/chapters/45240661 (multi chapter, modern day au) catra and adora are best friends until middle school. they reconnect years later. another god tier fic, that flashbacks in this are amazing.

upper west side by: ceruleanstorm https://archiveofourown.org/works/16851757/chapters/39564448 (multi chapter, modern day au, catra is an uber driver) GOD TIER. so, catra and adora were best friends growing up in a foster care home until adora is taken away by her godmother. this one is kinda emotional and deals with a lot of childhood trauma but it’s written so freaking well. go read it like, right now.

hang tight (all you) by: TechnoSkittles https://archiveofourown.org/works/17746466 (one shot, highschool au) catra is a lesbian while adora deals with internalized homophobia and just homophobia in general. they’re best friends, and this deals with internalized homophobia and comp het so well. go read!

Skinny Love by: maychup https://archiveofourown.org/works/16678159/chapters/39110902 (multi chapter, takes place after S1) catra is supposed to spend time at brightmoon and gain adora’s trust to get intel on the rebellion, but obviously her feelings get in the way. catra’s character is written amazingly in this. another god tier fic.

how can anybody have you by: lavendersgreen https://archiveofourown.org/works/17547425 (canon events in S1 happened, one shot) catra is horde lord and captures adora. this fic is kinda funny lmao. there’s a nsfw part at the end but it’s kind of emotional somehow.

Seconds That I Cannot Replace by: Recourse https://archiveofourown.org/works/17397002 (takes place pre-canon, one shot) basically catra and adora are best friends and they’re in love, but shadow weaver doesn’t approve so she erases adora’s memory. she constantly does this but adora always finds her way back to catra.

What drove her insane... by: Bow_woahh https://archiveofourown.org/works/17203517/chapters/40452089 (4 chapters, pre canon and after canon events) idk how to explain this one but catra and adora Love each other and it kind of tells events from both of their perspectives. catra is redeemed. it’s so cute,, I’ve reread this like 3 times. go read!!!

we’ve been making shades of purple out of red and blue by: darklady21 https://archiveofourown.org/works/17449385/chapters/41086505 (multi chapter, roommate au) catra and adora are roommates and adora desperately wants to be catra’s friend. this fic is so cute and their interactions are so adorable.

i like me better when i’m with you by: lesbians_harold https://archiveofourown.org/works/16753750/chapters/39305299 (multi chapter, high school au) catra and adora are best friends in a foster home until adora’s adopted. catra ends up going to the same high school as adora. it’s kind of angsty at the beginning, but they become friends again and pine for each other. it’s really cute,, go read it!!

The perfect confession by: thethirdphiladelphiavireo https://archiveofourown.org/works/16812925 (modern day au, one shot) catra and adora are best friends that are very clearly pining for each other. catra is kinda oblivious. adora asks glimmer to help her ask catra on a date.

Faded with feelings by: yesimgay https://archiveofourown.org/works/16888269/chapters/39666246 (multi chapter, modern day au) catra and adora are best friends and share an apartment. catra smokes a lot of weed to calm her down because she has adhd. adora eats one of catra’s edibles and chaos ensues. this is one of the first fics I read and one of my favorites. go read it,, it’s so cute!!

[spelllingandthemysteryschool]

(abt ur posts abt being comp het) i’m literally so scared of having a crush on another girl that i can’t even admit to myself that i might be in love w my best friend. i’m just like “oh i just really Like her” as i’m sitting here thinking about writing love letters Lmao shes bi but she has a bf rn (who is 20 and shes 17 sooo thats fucked) and i want to kms :/ sorry if this is too much do not feel obligated to post this lol

oh baby :-( i was at that point a couple years ago too & i know how much it hurts to know in your heart that Something’s Up with your feelings towards girls & knowingly repress it anyway. it takes time to work through the fear of being gay/loving girls & admit to yourself what you know to be true. for now, don’t pressure yourself and don’t rush. it only makes it seem more daunting. just think things through, let yourself feel, & in time i promise it’ll all feel so much more comfortable. internalized homophobia is a bitch but she CAN be defeated! grappling with her is annoying but things will feel better very soon!

as for the whole deal with being in love w your friend: idk what kind of relationship she has with her boyfriend, but from the age difference alone, i’m assuming it isn’t a healthy one. there’s not much you can do about it besides be the good friend i’m sure you are & maybe help her realize the relationship is probably doing more harm than good. besides that, you can always admire her & love her from afar for now! it’s not always a bad or painful thing. love letters are always a good outlet! maybe someday things will change between the two of you & maybe they won’t, but for now at least it’s good & beautiful that you’re in each other’s lives and that you care for each other so much

[heartsfemme]

my male friend rly questioned my lesbianism bc i once tweeted about a hot waiter i wanna die and if we're being real here, that tweet was just me questioning myself and also some sweet comphet and/or internalized homophobia bc god i cant be gay if i find one man hot!!! anyway

comp het sucks!!! plus just because ur a lesbian doesnt mean u dont have eyes and can recognise that a man is attractive lmao

[shaydixons]

we need gay emma hcs. cuz she gay

emma was always interested in men not so much for their personalities or because she liked them as people but because of what they could give her (validation, status)

she finally realized she’s into girls when her best friend lea admits to being in love with her and they start dating

lea is bi and they talk a lot about their experiences and emma realizes she can’t relate to lea’s experiences with men because her interactions with men were all forced & a result of comp het

she comes out as a lesbian during her third year at Nissen but her experiences in the closet make her think of how she outed Isak so she reaches out to him and apologizes

everyone in emma’s friend group comes out as gay/bi/pan and they’re the Gay Group at the school (since the girl squad will have graduated)

emma eventually gets over all her internalized homophobia and becomes really active in lgbt politics etc. to compensate for the years she spent being homophobic lmao

she and lea eventually break up in college but emma marries some like femme academic gay and they live a long happy life together

[lizzibennet]

hey i dont wanna sound pushy but the split attraction model doesnt really work if youre not ace/aro (ace lesbian, bi aro eg) if you id as something like bisexual homoromantic or heteroromantic hom*sexual that it is most likely the cause of internalized homophobia / compulsary heterosexuality and like... its not possible to be a bisexual lesbian. im sorry if this sounds aggressive but i just worry bc a lot of ppl repress their true sexuality and go through a mogai phase that feeds into comp het

hoooooonestly, honestly tbh to be honest, do you hoooonestly think you’re helping? like in all ur honesty? like i really don’t feel like i need to expose my sexuality to prove a point but if i was really struggling deeply with internalized homophobia, do u think ur message helps? i say “i think i’m this” and you come forward and say “that’s impossible” and say i’m repressing my ‘true sexuality’??? ex fucking cuse me?????? is that honestly your idea of worrying about someone because lmao that’s twisted af

also i was the exact opposite of what u just described btw, i identified as only bisexual for years and only recently started testing out the term homoromantic

i don’t support tumblr mogai hell and i definitely don’t think young people should be obsessing over the split model because it confuses the heck out of people but i never fucking said i’m a bisexual lesbian lmao. if i wanted to identify as a lesbian, i would, but i don’t, not as of right now at least. if you think five years of undoing compulsory (with an o yes, at least know what you’re talking about) heterosexuality isn’t enough and if you think coming at me like this on fucking anon is of any help let me just tell u straight on: it isn’t

thank u but not really, have a nice day

[lesbitchka]

(nsfw m) is it comp het if i like the concept of having sex w a woman (as a man only) but not liking the concept of the same w men? like i could/would date a man but i dont feel like that w women?? like. if heteroromantic/h*mosexual was a thing, thats the best i can describe it

hey sorry i might be the latest comp het anon, i thought "comp het" implied that i was a girl! i apologize, i shouldve been clearer             

the “as a man only” bit confused me, i didnt know what to make of it without a clear statement lmao

if you cant imagine yourself having sex with women as a woman, that sounds like internalized homophobia rather than comp het. so does not wanting relationships with women

i’d consider that you might be bi with different attraction levels/types to different genders, but the fact that you can only imagine yourself with women as a man makes internalized homophobia the more likely answer

also “could/would” date a man over “want to” does sound like comp het

[toomanyfeelings5]

ok so i ended up watching the second and third eps for black sails season 2 with my dad, so sorry for not liveblogging whoever reads these??????

but uh, brief thoughts:

1. season 2 is already so much better than season 1 thank god.

2. billy’s alive!!!!!?????? i guess this does make sense lol. 

3. ELEANOR WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU SLEEPING WITH VANE INSTEAD OF SIDING WITH YOUR DAD, AKA CAPTAIN FLINT. that is a dumbass move on her part, like i understand it, but it’s a dumbass move. i’m here for her learning from her mistakes and growing into the leader we all know she can be, the leader she is becoming. but like. lmao. that was a bad move.

4. also i don’t give a single fuck about vane so i’m rooting for flint in this situation, and then afterwards a reconciliation between eleanor and flint. (her little smile and their hug!!!! he really is the dad she’s always wanted....where is their wlw and mlm solidarity) 

4. I AM SO INTRIGUED BY FLINT’S BACKSTORY IT’S NOT EVEN FUNNY.  LIKE, LISTEN, I KNOW HE’S GAY, THAT’S 50% OF THE REASON WHY I DECIDED TO WATCH THIS SHOW IN THE FIRST PLACE (the other 50% being Max) BUT LIKE, JUST BECAUSE I KNOW THIS INTELLECTUALLY DOES NOT MAKE ME ANY LESS EXCITED TO SEE THIS PLAY OUT. 

5. that conversation between young miranda and young flint about propriety and perception is so so interesting and i’m so so here for it.

6. eleanor’s new bodyguard!!! what is his name he’s so cool???? also eme!!!! we see her for 2 seconds and i love her and i hope we see more of her.

7. MR. SCOTT!!!!! GIVING ELEANOR THE PERFECT ADVICE, WHICH SHE THEN IGNORES. UGH. I LOVE HIM, WILL HE EVER GET A BETTER ROLE IN THIS SHOW. im going to write fic about him it’s going to happen. 

8. the bits about pirates and monsters and civilization and self-perception and changing the world for the better!!!!!!! and if civilization is a good thing or not!!!!!! ahhhhhhh i’m so here for this. 

9. LAST BUT NOT LEAST, MAX IS OFFICIALLY THE LESBIAN ICON OF NASSAU, I CANNOT BELIEVE (that’s a lie i totally can believe it) THAT SHE SPOTTED ANNE STRUGGLING WITH COMP HET AND INTERNALIZED HOMOPHOBIA FROM A MILE AWAY AND IS NOW USING THAT TO SECURE HER POSITION AS CO-BROTHEL RUNNER AND SPY WITH JACK AND ANNE. holy shit. i fucking love her. giving vane that information? deploying her brothel spy network to exchange information and get more power? fucking brilliant. also obvs she’s helping anne too, like....wow :’’)))) i can’t believe anne bonny gets to slowly and carefully and gently learn to accept herself surrounded by people who care for her. (by this i mean max and jack, who, by the way, is shaping up to be a solid on true ally, though he strikes me as gay, so.) anyway surprise my love for max only grows and i have a lot of gay feelings about her and anne. bonus: “are you telling me she did all that because she secretly wants to fuck you?” THE ///LOOK/// MAX GIVES JACK, THAT SMIRK....WHAT THE FUCK SHE IS SUCH A LESBIAN AND THAT WAS A LESBIAN POWER MOVE I LOVE HER SO MUCH. also that was really fucking funny.