#BRUH I COULD ONLY USE BTS ONCE

[octuscle]

Hey support. Quick question. Lately this group of guys on campus has been gravitating toward me in a kinda weird way. They’re super preppy guys: polo shirts, cologne, pressed khakis, conservative haircuts, that whole sort of thing. They’re really nice and honestly very handsome—prettyboy faces with some nicely toned muscle—but, frankly, the way they all talk the same, always hang out together, and have the same (properly preppy) interests kind of freaks me out. They’re like pod people. Idk why they’ve taken such a curiosity in me: I’ve never been very preppy or stylish at all. Anyway, they invited me over to their dorm tomorrow, but I saw one of them carrying a chronoviac…any idea what I should expect if I go? Should I go?

Well… In my opinion, you should definitely go there. From what I see in my files, these guys are virtuosos in the use of the Chronivac. You can look forward to the results.

You put on your clothes that are most likely to pass for "preppy". You comb your hair. And go on your way. Another student is waiting in front of the house. Similar appearance as you. Pretty average. Quite preppy. But could just as easily pass for a member of the chess team. The door opens and an immaculately dressed frat guy invites you in and leads you into a library. There are two tables, each with an iPad on it. You may sit down. There would now be a small entrance test for the fraternity. If you pass, you will become probationary preppies. Otherwise you will leave the dorm and will not get a chance to repeat the test.

Hey, you think to yourself, that's great. So, worst case scenario, nothing happens. Let's do it.

The test only takes a few minutes. You are to enter for four abbreviations what they stand for. Please use the iPads for this. You and the other candidate look at each other, shake hands and take your seats. The first abbreviation is BMW. Fuck! "Bavaria" and " Motors" is what you guess. But W? Ways? Your tutor congratulates your competitor. Yes, it stands for "Bayerische Motoren Werke". You look enviously at your opponent's iPad. Did he already have manicured fingers? You look at your hands. Okay, the nails aren't exactly clean. And you have quite a few horny calluses.

The next question is what "bt" means on an invitation. You have no idea… You've never read it. You write beer time. Fits BMW somehow. The tutor congratulates the other guy again. The solution was "black tie". Who should know something like that? The idiot grins over his clean-shaven face. You're itching your three-day beard. Shit, now you have to try harder!.

Now they ask for LVMH. What the hell? LVMH? Might have something to do with the British king. Long Vita Majesty Highness? Shit, time's up. Of course the other guy knew it stood for Louis Vuitton Moët Hennessy. You don't even know what that means. You scratch your tousled hair. Your opponent, grinning, corrects a less-than-perfect strand of his slicked hair.

We come to the last question. Your last chance not to make a total fool of yourself. But you're getting tired of these stuffy wimps. What does Snob stand for? Hehehe! That's a trick question. Snob is not an abbreviation at all. You write that down. To learn that it stands for sine nobilitas. Fuck!

A few other preppies enter the room and ask your opponent to come along. He puts on his expensive looking jacket, nods at you once more and turns around.

Your tutor says he's sorry, but unfortunately you have no chance of being accepted into the frat. You scratch your hairy six-pack and are relieved. You'd rather be throwing some balls with the other guys anyway.

"Nah worries, bruh. It's been fun. See you on campus" you reply, grabbing your glove and ball and you head out of this boring house.

[wewebaggit]

I think it was because he was abused or something and apparently had drinking problems? Like bruh you cannot claim to use subversion of 80s horror genre tropes and at the same breath make your black character one of the victims without even focusing on it. Its just...? St can really use some criticism sometimes

Yep it was because he had drinking problems and was a disgrace to his family as per the voiceover that Patrick and we hear as he's riding in the car with Jason n the gang. And then Lucas mentions that he once saw him with a black eye. That's it. That's all.

Patrick deserved way better. Even discounting the fact that he's black. The same episode had the stupid mid air fight between Murray Yuri and Jim's girlfriend. That lasted longer than necessary. That existed. Both valid reasons for having a more fleshed out buildup to THE MOTHERFUCKING SACRIFICE FOR ONE OF THE FOUR (NOT FOURTEEN) GATES.

Maybe if they cooled it on Eleven slow jogging through the lab, eyes wide, breathing heavily and emoting nothingly, Jopper doomsday fucking, Elmike/Mileven, (God stop milking it, it's not great writing, we are gaslighting ourselves to believe it is cuz there was a time we thought the most they'd do for gay Will is have his best friend say something INCREDIBLY HOMOPHOBIC to him), a Russian plot sillier than season 3's - fucking talent, I could go on we could've had something justifying (at the risk of sounding repetitive) A MOTHERFUCKING SACRIFICE FOR ONE OF THE FOUR (NOT FOURTEEN) GATES.

Also leaving you with some of this:

Jason to Patrick

Mike to Lucas

Billy to Max about Lucas

Mike about the science fair contest

(Let me elaborate: It was a state competition and the result was political? MY conjecture is it was not because of frogface or a boy with no teeth or a boy who his town thought was queer - I'm suspecting it wasn't a statewide consensus. Who's left?)

Jason with Lucas

Andy with Erica

I'm not American so I'm not someone who gets the whole American experience of it. But American cultural colonisation means I'm somewhat aware of the tendencies in media. N to me personally I don't resonate with a white/black/brown American character on a racial level but just by how they're written n how well the work is performed. I do not live in a post racial world bt my country has its own different version of racism. That is to say any character being white/other colour is of ZERO value to me. So when I am consuming foreign media, I'll be like this is well written that is not. But then when I arrange them in order of well written to not or underwritten, it's a shade card alright. (🙋🏻🙆🏼🙅🏽🤷🏾🤦🏿) So ya. It's like white ppl tend to write white ppl better. What a discovery. Idk if to call it racist or "I don't see colour" in that I only see white cuz it is not a colour. (How is that for colour theory?) That is NOT to say that X CANNOT at all write about Y. Writing is after all a collaborative effort. It just means you gotta do both: collaborate and put effort.

ST exploits the tropes more than / before it subverts them. And like not in a good way. It's a fantastic show with plenty of opportunity to love it and shit on it in unequal measure tipping more in favour of shitting. And I'll be doing both. Especially regarding the characters that don't go by the name of Mike or Eleven. But them too.

You'll also see me Kali raging soon. Very soon. She might also be (DEFINITELY IS) why I have this whole new account anyway.

El's abuse > Kali's abuse. Okay. At least accepted within text by the writers. Want the "yass girlboss El shoulda snapped Angela's neck for....er...breaking your diorama and ....er......throwing milkshake on you" crowd to respectfully go. Just go. Go Away!

[jayhoee]

Song Game!

Tagged by my bby @mygukandonly !!THANK YOU ILYSMMMMMM 🥰🥰❤️❤️

Rules: You can only repeat one artist and only one time, so we can all kind of spread new music to the people we tag! try to listen to at least one of the songs people rec here! Music is fun! 

1. One song that you loved the first time you listened to and never got tired of? - Location ( Khalid ) 

2.  One song you cry everytime you listen to or makes you emotional?                     - Forever Rain ( RM ) 

3. One song that always makes you happy/ smile ?                                                           - No money ( Galantis ) 

4. One song that you would dedicate to your best friend and/ or your family?     - Call on me ( Ryan Riback remix ) -  Starley 

5. One song with a production ( the sounds , the beat , the mood ) you love?         - All I want ( Manilla Killa remix ) - Dawn Golden

6. One song with perfect, amazing, outstanding lyrics?                                                       - Magic Shop ( BTS )

7. One song you would recommend to anyone?                                                               - SUGA’s interlude ( Halsey , SUGA & BTS )

8. One song you don't understand why you like so much but you do anyways?         - 92 Explorer ( Post Malone ) 

9. One song people in general wouldn't like but you do?                                                   - Trampoline ( Kero Kero Bonito ) 

10. One song people normally like but you dont like/ hate ?                                 - I dont really have any???? lmao I'm boring 

11. One song you recently ( 30 days max) discovered and really liked?                          - Levanter ( Stray Kids ) 

12. One song you listen to get pumped like you wanna tear down the fucking government or something?                                                                                     - Hard Carry ( GOT7 ) 

Tagging my loves💜: 

@napofamikrokosmos @khaleesionjupiter @favjoon @tiernamente @yeettmeplease @arimvv @chaotic-taetae @dimpled-gukkie @daze-six @taeicci @mi-sol-en-seoul @yoongisdumplingcheeks @bangtaninparadise @ahh--lexia @acc3ssdenied @illuminss @hobissunshiness @spaceprintesa

[thebangtancloud]

Hey dear <3 Hope you are doing well ^_^ How would BTS react when they found you vaping

He finds you vaping / He finds out you vape~ BTS Reactions

Genre: Angst, Fluff Warnings: Mentions of dependence and withdrawal symptoms. Mentions of smoking.

A/n: I have no personal experience with vaping, neither have I ever seen nor held a vape for me to know much about it. Thanks to my dearest best friend who gave me an in-depth explanation of how it works. If there's any information that may be wrong, please don't mind ~~ :)

Kim Namjoon:

"Stressed?"

Namjoon's hand slid across the expanse of your clothed lower back, naturally sliding into the little space between you and the corner of the railing of the balcony.

"What're you doing here?"

A puff of smoke left your mouth when you chuckled, a brief raise of your eyebrows greeting Namjoon.

"Came to ask you if you needed something to eat," he explained with a light smile. Averting his gaze, Namjoon looked across at the buildings that he could see from where the two of you were standing, continuing to run the pad of his thumb across a small area over your back subconsciously

"Not too hungry," you responded. "I lost my appetite."

"Something happened?" He only looked towards you to catch sight of any discomfort in your eyes.

"Meh," you shrugged. "Work. Life goes on."

"Sure does," he chose not to push further. "Not with you being alone, of course. I'm here to stand with you, walk with you."

"Not in the mood to cry, Namjoon," you deadpanned, slipping the vape into your pocket. Only then did Namjoon let his gaze linger, finally reflecting the concern that he felt towards you in his warm brown eyes.

"Since when did you start?"

You looked away but simultaneously leaned into him, letting his arms wrap around your shoulders. Your back rested against his chest, feeling him move just a little step closer so that he could let you mold into him.

"It's been years," you chuckled dryly, "if you're asking me when I started."

"Yeah?"

"I don't use it unless I'm really stressed. One or two puffs used to get me through the day but I just can't control it anymore, y'know?"

"Mhm," he hummed against the side of your head. "It's okay."

"I want to stop," you said. "But it's not easy."

"Can I help you in any way?"

You simply laughed in response.

"I'll help you," he vowed instead, knowing that you wouldn't allow yourself to feel vulnerable, even if you needed it.

"When you can't be strong anymore, I'll be there for you. I'll hold you when you fall, I promise."

Kim Seokjin:

"Can I try?"

You looked across at Jin who was walking towards the car that you were in with a grin on his face.

"I've seen this in your bag but I've never seen you use it. Also - you look hot."

"Get in the car," you rolled your eyes at the way he was flirting with you.

"I'll get in, but I wanna try. Lemme try."

"Jin," you warned but broke into a giggle anyway, reaching your hand up to lightly slap the edge of his jaw.

His eyes widened comically.

"Did you just hit me?"

"You barely even felt it," you spoke, shaking your head and refusing to entertain his whines, turning the car back on and reaching for your seatbelt.

"But you gotta let me try it once! It's good to try everything once in a while, you know?"

"Get in the car, will you?"

"Or what?" he sassed, walking towards the passenger seat nonetheless.

"What time's the train?" you tried to distract him, but the unimpressed look that he gave you made you snort.

"You booked the tickets, why're you asking me?"

"Right," you nodded in response. Just when you were about to pull out of the driveway, Jin's hand reached up right in front of your face.

"Let me try it."

"Bruh," you scoffed, slapping the vape onto his palm and pushing it towards him. "Go ahead. Do what you want and stop annoying me."

"Too bad, that's what I'll be doing for the next five days. Oh? What flavor is- YUCK!"

You almost choked at the way he began to gag, watching in fascination when he threw the vape onto your lap.

"Oh my god I wanna throw up," he groaned, leaning his head out of the window for some fresh air. "That tasted like sand!"

"Why do you think I didn't want you to try?"

"You're insane to actually like something like this. Oh god, my throat feels weird now."

Min Yoongi:

"Wow," Yoongi gasped under his breath, eyes wide in surprise when they met yours.

Your hand immediately lowered, hiding the vape away from his sight.

"No, no," he quickly shook his hands, "don't worry, it's just me, I don't mind."

"What're you doing here, Yoongi?"

"I could ask you the same, honestly," he murmured when he was close enough to you.

"You just left."

"You gave me no choice," you defended your decision, turning to look away from Yoongi. "How could I have stayed after all that?"

"I was wrong," he admitted, a trembling hand reaching up to touch your arm. "I'm sorry, I really am."

"I'm not coming home tonight, if that's why you're here, Yoongi."

"That's not why I'm here," he quickly came up with a response. "I didn't come to take you home. I came to be with you instead."

"Yeah, right," you rolled your eyes. "Didn't see that one coming."

"Don't be such a meanie," he whined, finally attaching himself to you and resting his chin over your shoulder, hoping you'd be able to hear the pout in his voice.

"I learn from you."

"Ouch."

He didn't bother adding to the conversation, instead, he reached for your hand that was rigidly holding the vape in your pocket, his cold fingers taking you aback.

"Can I use it too?"

"Do as you please," you muttered with a light shrug. "Who am I to stop you?"

"You're being so mean," he shook his head lightly, knowing that he deserved it. Holding the vape to his mouth, he could barely pull a puff before a smirk grew on his face.

"We indirectly kissed just now."

You blinked, too numb to reply.

"Ooh, apple. This reminds me of the-"

"Why are you doing this, Yoongi?" You swiftly turned to face him, his arm dropping from your side. He gazed up into your eyes, feeling his heart sink at the tears that were already shining in them.

"Why are you acting as if everything is fine? It's clearly not! I'm hurt by what you said and I find it unfair that you're pretending as though the fight never happened!"

"I'm sorry," he urgently apologized. "You know I am. That's why I'm here. I couldn't let you go."

"Yoongi- I... ugh," you sighed in exasperation. "This isn't fair."

"I'm sorry," he repeated sincerely, taking a tentative step towards you. "I'm sorry for making you leave and stressing you out so much. I really am sorry, baby. Give me one chance to make it up to you, please."

"Why?"

"Why?" he parroted lamely, looking deep into your eyes and simply reaching for your hand once again.

"Because I love you too much to give up on us."

Jung Hoseok:

"Damn baby," Hoseok whistled, the flash of the polaroid camera immediately making you bend forward and cover your eyes after he took the picture.

"That looks so cool!" Hoseok exclaimed, taking the picture and shaking it in the air as he waited for it to develop.

"I almost forgot how to vape," you chuckled humorously, throwing it against the side of the couch and leaning back in exhaustion. "Ah! You make me so nervous with all those instructions! My back hurts now."

"That's what you do in order to have a good picture taken," he smiled gently across at your figure, quickly diverting his attention to the polaroid in his hand.

"Look! It actually did form a proper circle!"

"Thank God," you groaned. "We tried that so many times - I'm surprised I can breathe just fine."

"All I'm going to taste on my lips will be bubble gum," Hoseok sang under his breath, quickly sitting down beside you to show you how the picture came out.

"Damn, I'm going to put this on the back of my phone."

"People will notice," you reminded him.

"My personal phone," Hoseok kindly told you. "Not the office phone."

"Careful, though," you warned with a chuckle. "People could misunderstand."

"I don't care," he shrugged, turning to completely face you and hold your face within his palm. "You look pretty in this picture, that's all that matters to me."

"Stop," you giggled, pushing him away with a shake of your head. "I don't even know why you'd want a picture of me blowing out smoke. It's a surprise you didn't get angry when you caught me vaping this morning."

"Why would I ever?" He asked you incredulously. "What's wrong with that? I respect you and every decision you make, and this isn't any different."

"You're truly an angel, you know that?"

Hoseok smirked, delicately placing the camera down on the table before lunging forward to grab your face within his hold.

"Yeah, I do. I'm an angel who loves the taste of bubblegum, especially when it's from your lips."

"I won't taste like bubblegum, Hobi," you laughed at his words. "It's only the- umph!"

He wouldn't let you complete though. Angels have work to do, too, y'know?

Park Jimin:

"Are you feeling okay now?"

Jimin was extremely worried after having witnessed you experiencing a panic attack moments before he had to leave for work.

"Can I get you something else? Please tell me."

"I'm okay, Jimin," you gently took a hold of his hand. "I've just been really... I don't know. I've been on edge for a while, my heart was racing for some weird reason."

"Do you want to go to the doctor?"

"No, no," you shook your head, reaching for his arms and attempting to pull him up from where he was on his knees in front of you. "I'm okay now."

"Are you sure this helped?" Jimin briefly glanced at the vape that you had placed on the bed beside you. "Tell me if you need something, please."

"I'm alright," you touched the side of his face. "Don't worry so much, I might get even more stressed."

"How can I not worry, (Y/n)?" Jimin frowned deeply. "After what I just saw? Is your health alright? Let's just go to the hospital (Y/n), please."

"Jimin," you managed to laugh lightly. "I've just been extremely stressed and I really wanted to... break my dependence on this," you pointed to the vape. "But I guess my body couldn't take it."

"How long has it been since you last used this?"

"Almost four days," you responded. "It's the longest I've gone without using it for almost three years now."

"(Y/n)," Jimin's voice dropped in concern. "Why didn't you ever tell me?"

Jimin never once let go of your hand, noticing the slight tremor in your fingers and continuing to run his warm palm over them.

"I guess I was a little ashamed," you spoke softly. "This isn't something to be proud of, y'know?"

"Whatever it is," Jimin shook his head. "It's a part of you. A part of your life. I want to be a part of your life and I want to take care of you, (Y/n). Just like you always take care of me. Please... just don't hide things like this from me. It scares me to think that you would've had this panic attack after I left. You would've been alone - I hate to think that you could've felt-"

"Jimin," you stopped him by placing a shaky hand over his lips. "I'm sorry I kept this away from you, but I won't do that again. I promise."

"I'm so worried, (Y/n)," Jimin admitted in a low whisper, taking a hold of your hand and placing it back on his lap.

"I don't ever want you to go through this alone."

"I'm sorry," you murmured. "I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner."

"It's alright, now," Jimin gently placed a warm kiss on your temple. "I'm here now."

Kim Taehyung:

"Can I borrow your vape?"

"My what?" You looked up at Taehyung in shock.

"Your vape," he repeated casually. "I left my pack of cigs in the car."

"Oh," you nodded numbly. "Yeah, sure. It's in my bag."

"You look surprised," Taehyung chuckled when your eyes looked unfocused. "It's no biggie, I don't mind if you vape or anything, sweetheart."

"No that's not it," you shook your head. "How'd you know?"

"I saw you this morning," he explained.

Your lips pursed into a straight line.

"Really? Why didn't you tell me before?"

Settling down beside you with your bag in his hand, Taehyung briefly paused to shoot a smile your way.

"You looked like you needed some time to yourself, so I didn't want to disturb you."

"Really?" A dry chuckle buzzed through your chest. "To be honest, I was... I mean - I just wanted to be with you at that moment."

For just a moment, Taehyung froze, his eyebrows pinching together in concern.

"All okay?" Taehyung reached a hand out for you to place yours in. "I'm sorry, I should've known better."

"No, don't worry about it," you slipped your hand into his warm palm, smiling gently at the contact. "I'm all good now."

"Are you stressed, my love?"

You managed to shake your head bravely.

"Not too much. I promise."

"I love you," he reminded you gently. "I hope you know that."

"I do. And I love you more."

"Nice, but I love you most."

Jeon Jungkook:

"That's fancy as hell," Jungkook gasped lowly, eyes wide in fascination. "When I first saw this in your bag, I thought it was a massive lipstick or a tiny toothbrush holder or something."

"You're such a dork," you slapped Jungkook's shoulder lightly. "Toothbrush holder?"

"You know, those travel toothbrush packs? The ones we take on tour with us?"

"You're really a dork, you know that?"

Jungkook's eyes rolled playfully at you. "Only for you."

For a few moments, the two of you slipped into a comfortable silence, Jungkook's hand reaching for the side of your face to tuck some loose hair behind your ear. A gentle breeze just happened to blow some more hair onto your face which brought a slight giggle from you.

"You're pretty, you know that?"

"Should I be really cheesy and say 'only for you'?"

"Aye," the man laughed, pinching your cheeks lightly. "I'd love for you to be pretty only for me, but unfortunately every guy who sees you thinks you're pretty too. What if they come and steal you away from me?"

"Too bad, I have a thing for dorks," you chuckled, squeezing past his arms that were raised to hold your head and resting the side of your face against his chest.

"Never been more thankful for being a dork," Jungkook commented lightly. "But babe - I wanna try this."

"You can," you placed the vape in your hand. "But don't overdo it, you might-"

"Yeah, yeah, I won't," he nodded. "I just want to try it once. Taehyungie hyung looks cool when he smokes, even though it's bad for his health. I might just convince him to switch to this or something."

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[bangtanger]

CONTENT CREATOR YEAR IN REVIEW

was thinking for 84 hours where should i post it but as its my creator blog i m doing it here <3 i was tagged by @taemaknae @suhdays @ynki @honsool @jjeongukie @taeyungie @dearbangtansonyeondan @lifegoesmon @everythingoes @flipthatjacketjiminie @yoongi-bts @jiminslight @hopekidoki @cowboyjinbop @yoonqiful @jcngkooks @pjmsdior @hobeah @balenciaguks​ @jinvant @hobibestboy @vjimin @yoongikook AND THANK U SO MUCH FOR INCLUDING ME T_T ik maybe its not a big deal but its a big deal to me and im touched :(((((((((((( also gimme some time to check all ur posts 👉👈 also im in a mood to say that ive collected many pokemons here djfksfhsakjddld ok nvm 

also sorry for a long post ik tmblr fvcks things up sometimes when there is keep reading so dont fight me plz <3

❀ first creation and most recent creation of 2020 

ok this is the fist one (still very pleased with colouring here T_T the stage lighting was,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, well yeah as always lmao) and this is the most recent (TBH DKJSKDSDK I WISH MY MOST RECENT POST COULD BE A DIFFERENT ONE THE ONE I WANNA MAKE FOR A MONTH NOW THE ONE ID PUT A LOT MORE EFFORTS IN SO IM A LIL FRUSTRATED i literally just missed giffing but couldnt watch anything new so took an old vid i wanted to gif once I DIDNT EVEN USE MYCOLOURING PSD IT LITERALLY HAS ONLY COUPLE OF LAYERS uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh :( but whatever,,, it just kinda doesnt show the difference -_-)

❀ a creation u r really proud of 

well 👁👄👁 there r quite few,,, and the main reason is colouring most of these r comps and i a b s o l u t e l y sucked at comps and esp at making the colouring consistent there lol so lets begin lol  1 (u have no idea how muchi love this set) 2 (i fucking mastered it i wanted to remake it for two years and i finally did!! 60 fps smooth good moments iconic performance iconic hair colour his attitude bruh and ofc the fact that i could do sth with colouring,,,,,, and chose such an unusual colour scheme that i doubted jckdckfdk and it still worked out 🥺) 3 (lol i had this idea written down since 2018 as well and this year i could finally collect all moments i needed and oh boi yeah,,, AND COLOURING I COULD ALMOST yeah almost do sth decent with it there r still couple moments id changed but im pleased) 4 (im so happy whenevr i see this CUZ IT ALL WORKED OUT it was such an impulsive comp i literally only saw couple moments for past few years as well where i could see three of them in one frame and suddenly I WAS LIKE I FUCKING MUST POST THOSE MOMENTS SOMEHOW and im so proud of colouring it looks so well T_T) 5 (the colouring ofc im still :o that i could get rid of that shitty shit dkksjkj AND THE MOMENTS ITSELF?????? AND BLACK SWAN???????? EVERY PERFORMANCE???? HAIR?????? OUTFIT???????? EVRERYHTIGNM???????? HIS FUCKING STARE? FACE??? DONT MAKE ME CONTINUE AAAAAAAAAAA also if im not wrong this set in particular made me start my before/after posts 🥺) 6 (i jujst love everything about it e v e r yt h i n g also i could made ppl believe that jin fr has purple hair here when in reality its brown djhfdhskdf one of blending modes or adjustment layers worked this way lol) 7 (i wont even comment this tried a great tutorial with great beautiful resuls for the first time ever and it worked out so well and i like it so much and the whole yoongi here,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, also love me some borders that add cinematic feels to some gifs or just make them pretty in a dif way just like i did with prev post i mentioned imo lol) OK LAST ONE 8 (I USED A VIDEO OF STARS AND ADDED IT TO THE GIF FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER I FUCKED WITHMASKING FOR 3 HOURS GRRRRRRRR THIS IS SO HUGE FOR ME!!!!! i cant even explain whew IVE NEVER DID ANYTHING LIKE THIS BEFORE SO I WAS REALLY PROUD TOO even tho i fucked masking up on some layers lmao but lets not pay too much attention to it 👀)

❀ a creation that took u forever

ohhhhhhhh i think this one cuz the moments were long i couldnt decide what do i want to include + it ts file so u kno,,, the speed,,, of processing,, + somehow decided to put them all together + fucked with colouring + had to get rid of the logo and as we know japan likes a lot of big braight text around haha and draw hair in moments where logo made it look blurry + had to adjust the order and all that stuff but getting rid of logo was the longest part 

❀ a creation from 2020 that received the most notes

whew this iconic one im still amazed tbh they looked soso incredible and im glad how everything turned out here <3 (could change some colouring on bg tho so it could look better and more hq :c)

❀ a creation u think deserved more notes 

lol this one cuz i was so hyped to make it cuz their concert in saudi arabia is one of my fav things in the world and i waited for so long to have mood and energy to go throught it to find jk moments and i couldnt choose some for this comp for so long and just,,,,,, overall,,,, the way he looks here............................................................... its a special comp to me haha ill def gif more of it i have shit ton of clips left and also there r other members and i just want to sit and enjoy yhe whole thing to so may find more stuff to gif here lol

❀  a new fandom u joined an a creation u made for it 

i didnt join anything heurheru

❀ a creation u made that breaks ur heart

OKAY LISTEN DSJAKDJHFDKJ THIS ONE IF U KNOW U KNOW AND IM SURE IT BREAKS ALMOST EVERY HEART tbh whenever i see soft smiles or soft interactions or anything like this im just :’( <3 even my serotonin boost tag does it to me cuz its too precious T_T

❀  a ‘simple’ creation that u really love

this one cuz everything about it ah and this one 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

❀ a creation that was inspired by someone else

ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmm idk maybe this one ? cuz i never did anything like this before and maybe i saw someones beautiful headers and decided to try one too ? i could do a lot better there is not enough depth but oh well,,, lol

❀  a favourite creatin created by someone else

oh its gonna be hard :) dear every conten creator i hope u dont mind if i wont go though the whole 2020 gif tag but choose form the most recent ones i loved? u know how much i appreciate ur content cuz i never stop screaming about it in tags but truly there r more content makers and i want u to know that i really love ur content :(

@syubb welllllllllllll i wont even comment this is iconique.....

@jinv T_T val i miss u but there should be bday comps with that BIG ASS IMAGE THAT HAS ITS PARTS ON EVERY SINGLE GIF I CANT EVEN EXPLAIN that icant even find dfjksfskj

@jung-koook i literally couldnt choose ehdskjdjksd but i decided this one cuz its sososososososososososososososososososososo well made every single detail here is chefs kiss

@kkulmoon i truly really cant get enough of ur colouring lately T_T

@minhope !!!!!!LITERALLY EVERY PANTONE COMP OR ESPECIALLY 7 YEARS WITH BTS PANTONE ONE IM AAAAAAAAAAAAA and lmao i think this is one of the most reposted things ive ever seen on internet T_T

@jjoon hng amy u know how i feel about ur content T_T decided this one cuz f l a w l e s s 

@hopekidoki stuff like this makes my jaw lie in the floor dsjkdj

@flipthatjacketjiminie idk whats up but it makes me scream like a madman every time i see it.........

@lifegoesmon i cant even explain why i chose this one but everything here is so incredible !!!!!!!!1

@hobeah one of those good fucking bye ones.....

@taeyungie this made me feel so many things and a whole ass a w e so cool T_T

@jiminfilter i will never shut up about bts core jungkook one should also be here

@seoksjin THE COLOURS I SCREAM OH MY GOD O HMY OGD I JUST WENT TO CHECK OUT AND SAW THIS AND IMMEDIATELY DJKSJD DECIDED THIS IS CRAZY THE PASTELS THE PINNKS AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA EVERYHTGIN but also those birthday posts ahhh T_T

@jinvant i wanna YELL but also u know how much i love ur quality and blacks  T_T and gfxs too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

@yoongi-bts i love everything here with my whole heart!!!

@everythingoes SHOUWLD I EVEN EXPLAIN WHY

@hobibestboy THIS IS SO COOL AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA THE COLOUR SCHEME

@joenns  I WONT EVEN EXPLAIN IM SO HURT HES SO THIS IS SO T____________________T 

@jjeongukie idk i cant get enough of skin tone!!!!!!!!!!!!

@chaylani i really love the colouring and love these posts with highlights T_T

@eklipxe COLOURING AND EVERYTHIGN

@oncupid cant get enough of every colouring ive seen <3

@jiminslight THIS WHOLE GIF RIGHT HERE

@6dis-ease COZY AND PRECIOUS T_T

@ofkimtaehyung I LITERALLY HAVE NO WORDS ITS SO PRETTY

@taee it was really hard to choose too T_T decided to go with this cuz,, u kno

@yoonqiful CUZ THESE COLOURS DRIVE ME INSANE

OK THIS IS GETTING TOO LONG KDSFJSAKDL I WOULD ADD A LOT MORE CUZ THERE IS A LOT MORE TO ADD BUT IVE BEEN DOING THIS FOR THREE HOURS I BETTER CHILL 

❀  some of your favourite content creators from this year

ok i may forgot someone + in no order in particular + literally every creator that i follow/whose content i reblog @taeguks @tearuntold @cyphertaehyungie @love4hobi @kimnamtaejin @taejoon @jimiyoong @namkook @taeyungie @jinvant @jinv @6dis-ease @jiminrolls @daechwitas @syubb @syuga @jjeongukie @cowboyjinbop @hope-film @minhope @hopekidoki @joonie @namgination @jung-koook @faerieth @kooksv @lifegoesyoon @yoonqiful @j-sope @chaylani @jiminfilter @jjoon @everythingoes @varietae @seoksjin @dearbangtansonyeondan @ofkimtaehyung @yoongi-bts @gaypeople @seokjinyoongis @agustdfeatrm @joenns @houseofarmanto @namjoon (will miss forever) @thebtsgenre @honsool @vjimin @seokjinite @jiminswn @taee @hobeah @lifegoesmon @taemaknae @gukgi @kkulmoon @flipthatjacketjiminie @jintae @jcngkooks @ynki @yoongikook @yoongiandthebiaswreckers @jiminslight @gwkie @oncupid @eternalbulletproof and many more <3

OK SO i wanna say a special thanks to every content creator ever and also i wanna say that im really glad to be a part of this community all of u r so cool and creative and make such beautiful things and many of u made me feel EMOTIONS with ur sets or not only sets ill be forever grateful that i discovered bts and for everything they do to me without even knowing ALSO THANK U FOR STILL BEING HERE ON TUMBRLDSDFKJ yeah this year was less active there were few issues many ppl went on twt but thank u for still being here also happy new year <3333333 i think i sounded deeper and more emotional when i was commenting ppls gifs :| but its almost 2 am so i hope u will understand dkfjkfsjk im happy there is this corner on the internet that feels cozy and so welcoming <3 i love u i wish u a better year ahead <3 ok for checking notifications purpose ill tag my blog lol @eternal-bangtan

[lefthandsuzukimethod]

tag people you want to get to know better

tagged by @captain-apostrophe! <3

tagging (but only if you want to): @vexingcosmos, @spectralprongs,  @brehaaorgana ,  @grandsairs, @christinismithe, @serendipitysunnyflower and anyone else who wants to do it!! <33

your name and then what you would have named yourself: ana! i am good with my name tbh idk that i'd change it

astrological sign (sun/moon/rising if you know them): libra/leo/capricorn

when did you join tumblr and why?: i just checked and i have been a part of this hellsite since feb 2009 fladkfmaf i remember there was like a week that almost all of ontd_ffa joined @ once because one of us was like HEY THERES A COOL NEW SITE and i'm still here lmao

top 5 fandoms: like active fandoms or just Things I Like? obv rn like… mdzs/the untamed lmao, but also bnha and ffxv pero like in tiny circles??? idk fandom for me is better when u curate your experience, also yk when people are like hey what do u want for christmas and your brain decides it suddenly doesn't know anything? that's what my brain is doing right now lol, UHHHH lemme get back to you on the rest of them. OH i am also dipping my toes into the bts fandom with @spectralprongs's help!! <3 i'm also still very mad that in the flesh was canceled after 9 episodes

top 5 favorite films: pan's labyrinth, pacific rim, coco, jurassic park, the devil's backbone probably 

go to song when you wanna Feel something: when i want to feel WHAT THO? so many moods, so many songs if you get specific i might have a better answer lol

what’s your religion or faith if you have one?: i was raised catholic, so there's a flavor of catholic jokes that will always make me laugh

a song that makes you feel seen: la respuesta lmfaldfmllkm YO NO NECESITO UN HOMBRE QUE ME JODA

if you could have any career: i wanted to be a photographer traveling the world taking pics and getting paid for it, but idk i'm p ok where i am rn working in immigration law if only because i can help people

do you have a type?: sweet gremlin men with nice bone structure, women who could probably beat me up

what does your heart/soul yearn for: for unprecedented times to be OVER please a bitch is tired

if you had to describe yourself in 5 words to someone who doesn’t know you: I Cannot for some reason it's so hard for me to describe myself lol but if anyone else wants to answer this for me GO FOR IT

favorite subjects in school: photography! art! languages! english! french! music classes!

where does your soul feel most at home: anywhere i can relax with my favorite people <3  

top 5 fictional characters:                                        

top 3 moments in a show that made you ugly cry: OOF moments??? the first ep of futurama with seymour the dog, the season finales of itf, idk i try not to watch shows that are going to make me sad lmao i'm cheating and putting the beginning of up here too

the earth, the sun, the moon or the stars: the earth we are not nice enough to her she's doing her best!!!! the stars are a close second but i don't get to look @ them enough thanks light pollution

favorite kind of weather: SNOWSTORM you can spend all day playing in it and then be cozy inside after with blankets and soup

top 3 characters you relate to: I CHANGED THIS QUESTION BECAUSE I DIDN’T LIKE HOW IT WAS WORDED LMAO but every oldest sibling from the untamed who raised their younger siblings oldest siblings deserve financial compensation!!!, prob the weasley twins who are v smart but also v much not about their grades lol (that's 6 it counts)

favorite medium of art: all of them i refuse to pick one!!! well no i can tell u my least favorite art medium is art made from trash and/or period blood

introvert/extrovert/ambivert: extrovert allegedly

a favorite literary quote: bruh i haven't read an actual book in SO LONG i need to make more time to read

some of your favorite books: remind me about this one i am at work and have forgotten every single book i've ever read

if you could live anywhere in the world where would it be?: i think i'm ok here! i love traveling and visiting new places, but i live super close to a big city and i like having Four Seasons (total landscaping ladfkamdf i'm sorry it was right there)

if you could live in any time in history when would it be?: mmm like cap said, history hasn't been particularly good to female-presenting people, and i'm gonna add that it's also been sorta terrible to not white people. NOT THAT NOW GOING PARTICULARLY WELL LMAO BUT UHHHH. if i could go just like watch history, maybe a period when art/music was having a big boom

if you could play any instrument masterfully it would be: piano!!! i have one but i can only play by ear lmao (it was an inheritance) i should be able to read music after many years playing different instruments but nope none of it stuck

if you have one, what mythological god or goddess do you feel a connection to: i do not have one

and lastly, favorite recent selfie in your camera roll: all of my recent selfies have been mask selfies i sent kie or pics of office puppy on the selfie camera WHOOPS i don't really take selfies

[caandlelit]

so theres this girl in the grade below me right??? im Kind Of friends with her bc i saw her and i was like Fuck shes beautiful so obviously i made friends with her really lesbian bts stan friend but didnt have the Balls to start up a friendship with her bc shes beautiful and lovely

so now im super good friends with bts stan lesbian alright . shes chill and we’re tight now. but tragically ive only reaLLY talked to hot girl Once when me and her and lesbian bts stan talked abt taylor swift and other music and i found out her favourite song off of lover is cornelia street and i listened to it on loop since then. this was when lover came out. meaning Months ago

and now i stare at her pathetically from a distance daily and occasionally she graces me with a smile of acknowledgement. im really really tragic ok like

the other day i was talking to lesbian kpoppie (sorry, aRMY) in front of her and after i was done talking to her i turned around and saw her and swallowed the lump in my throat and said ‘h-hey’ and she was so fuckwkdjfhgd. Hot ok. her hair was in twin ponytails for some fucking reason????? its usually open but that day it was tied in twiN PONYTAILS and i was like wHAT THE FUCK and i couldnt speak

 so i blurted out ‘your hair looks really good today’ could i get gayer at this point. ‘looks good’ fUCk off thats so fukcing gay of me ‘looks good’ thats REALLY GAY and she was just like ‘thanks lmaoo <33′ and her smile im 😌🥰🤡

shes just so beautiful ok im . fuck

but the only reason im holding out a hope at this point is bc !! shes bffs with a lesbian man maYBE shes like bi or something !!!!! 

so im talking to some other girl from her grade bc i have a free class and so do some people from her grade (including her!!!!)

and she comes over at some point bc she knows us both

so i start being funnier alright its the obvious reaction and im always more confident when theyres someone else there too

and shes laughing so much and shes so cute and pretty im ,,,

and then we’re talking abt music ok and hot famous people??? and hot girl rants abt how Godly zendaya is for like a minute so im like !!!!!?????

and im being really fuckin funny other girl has her laptop out bc she was writing some essay or some shit and shes looking up pics of celebs we’re talking abt and im being fUNNY she searches bella hadid and i take the laptop and change bella to gigi and give it back and go ‘fixed it for u lol’ and hot girl laughs for a minute an dim swooning

and then other girl opens up a picture of the weeknd and i dIDNT KNOW WHAT HE LOOKED LIKE so i go ‘who the fuck is that’ and hot girl loses her shit and shes so hot and other girl gets so offended and shes like iTS tHe wEEkeND and i go ‘oOOOO FUCK THAT GUY !! nO fuckiN WONDER i didnt know who he was he fUCKIN SUCKS’ and hot girl is basically crying shes so hot bruh i felt like id ascended 🥴

and she was like ‘same i Hate him’ in between laughter and i was like ‘shes the love of my life’ and other girl gets so offended shes sO mad and im on a roll i go ‘well i mean God i was rIGHt in hating him and his Shit music if he looks like tHAT’ and she fc7djsing gets up and leAVES and hot girl immediately takes her place and we talk for ages

we talked for like the whole hour we were both free we talked till literally school ending it was the last few classes anyways

but in between our bonding during which we became great friends and i fell slightly in love with her

she mentioned that she was straight

and like . she talks like a hip twitter stan and . id been hoping she was bi . 

but she was, in retrospect, obviously a chill and very hot ally who was Fantastic but was tragically only attracted to men like She Said That and i literally said out loud ‘well thats a fucking crime what the fuck’ and she laughed but id already gone through all the stages of grief,,,,,,,, like we can be friends but ,,,,,,,,,

i was laying it on thick after that i was straight up flirting with her by the end of the convo like she hUGGED ME before she left and i told her she smells nice and she giggled and said she doesnt know how to respond to compliments and her smile is. the only reward

im gonna be crying abt how shes straight for like a month,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,im gonna become a songwriter and im Only gonna write abt how she makes me wanna be a butch but also makes me weak and no thoughts head empty only worship the beautiful girl

so anyways rant over im in mourning peace out <3

[saltpepperbeard]

Okay I’m officially back on my Joshifer bullshit thanks to you lmao. What are your thoughts on all the drama surrounding JH and CT? Do you think she’s the reason Joshifer never came out and admitted they were dating? Or was it because of JL and NH? I figure it’s been long enough that you can talk about it freely without starting the Discourse™️. Feel free to ignore this though if you think otherwise, I don’t want you to get any hate lol.

I feel like my blog should come with a disclaimer honestly. Like, CAUTION: CHANCE TO GET BACK ON YOUR JOSHIFER BULLSHIT UPON VISITING lol. But oooh goodness we’re spilling tea of THAT caliber, huh anon? I don’t mind talking about it at all these days though. Because yeah, I believe we’re definitely out of the shipping war/Discourse™️ days, and I’ve also reached the level of Fandom Veteran where I just…No longer Give A Care lmao. TOO TIRED TO CARE.

But BECAUSE I have a tendency to get ramble-y, let’s go beneath the cut~

Okay so first off, I’ll start out with my honest thoughts on Joshifer, and what I think they had and/or what happened between them. The thing I lean towards the most is that they messed around at Hawaii. I think it’s the most likely thing, given that they were both young, pretty newly single, and alone on that island together. And looking at all the BTS footage, plus every promo that followed? Come on now. And maybe it wasn’t sex necessarily. But at LEAST making out/heavy petting or SOMETHING, my dude. I WANT TO BELIEVE lol.

So, what I LIKE to think happened is that Jen and Josh messed around/had sex/attempted to get into a relationship during the filming of Catching Fire filming somewhere. But in the midst of that, Jen got a little too scared with the whole idea, and ended up breaking things off to eventually go back to Nick. Which, in turn, hurt Josh enough to attempt to mend his wounds by starting a new relationship with Claudia that following summer.

And then that’s where things get…ROCKY lol. Because back in the day, I definitely used to think that Joshifer’s story didn’t end there. I thought that, somewhere down the line, they had to start messing around again or dating in secret, because there were some pretty eyebrow-raising events that took place.

The two ones that instantly jump to my mind are of course, Cannes and the MJ1 Promo. And hell, even MJ2 promo honestly. Cannes because of Jen giving Josh a LAPDANCE and the two of them leaving the party BY THEMSELVES, TOGETHER, “INTO THE NIGHT.” Mockingjay Part One because of them both contracting strep throat, but no one else in the cast/crew seemed to get it. And Mockingjay Part Two because of all those random kisses/bouts of physical affection.

Bruh, I was just CONVINCED that they were going to come out as a couple following the wrap of Mockingjay Part 2. I really really was. But then…they never did. They both seemed to go quite separate ways for that matter. So that’s left my mind to kind of shift a bit and to start questioning things.

Because, almost all throughout the Mockingjay Promos, both Josh and Jen were linked to relationships. Jen with Nick for a bit, and then Chris Martin for a bit, and Josh with Claudia (See I’m to the point where I don’t mind dropping names lol FIGHT ME). So like…BACK IN THE DAY X2 lol, I thought that they were just “cover up” relationships. Or PR relationships, if you will. I kind of hopped aboard that bandwagon because of how CONVINCING Joshifer seemed.

That, and Josh’s relationship with Claudia and Jen’s relationship with Chris just seemed…weird lmao. They didn’t seem anything like what I was seeing during promo with Josh and Jen. So that made me even more convinced that I was on the right track.

But then Jen broke it off with Chris only to move on to Darren, and then to Cooke, and Josh remained with Claudia. The ship I was nearly certain was going to take off never did. So it left me reevaluating tbh.

It made me think that Josh and Claudia had to be an actual relationship. Because, come on lol, there’s no way. Why the hell would he stay with her for six years now, for anything other than…a relationship? Because Paradise Lost lmao; who is she? We don’t know her. It never even made waves in the states at all. And that was FOREVER ago. Josh was never even that big of an actor to really properly “stunt” in my opinion anyway. That seems to be reserved more for the actors who are really on the media’s current radar. The talk of the town lmao.

BUT, that doesn’t mean I’m 100% a fan of them. Because I’m not. Never have been lol. And nor do I really like how they’ve presented their relationship. I’ve definitely seen enough sketchy stuff to make me wrinkle my nose. Which is the drama you were referring to I imagine lol. Claudia using Josh for her career’s benefit, their friends using him for their benefit, yada yada. Idk, once I kind of realized Joshifer wasn’t going to be an immediate thing, and once I kind of stepped away from Josh (which is a whole DIFFERENT story in itself lol), I just…really never jumped into that drama/cared about it at all.

AND, despite talking to a few different people about it, I feel like I never really gathered enough information to really formulate proper opinions on it. AND X2, I kind of realized that hey, these are actual people and we really don’t know what’s going on behind the surface level stuff we’re seeing. We could be 100% right, but we COULD be 100% wrong. So I just kind of stayed out of it, sighed whenever Josh was in Spain or she in the States, and just kind of moved on.

Same thing goes for Jen and Nick. Saying his name makes me shudder, but I think that’s only a self-inflicted gunshot wound lmao; THANKS, TWAAL. I had a lot of issues with him, but I think they were mostly…fandom driven? Like, it was one of those “I don’t like you because you’re interfering with my OTP and because your fandom hates mine” kind of dealios. I really didn’t have any VALID reasons to dislike him at all lmao.

People will say otherwise. I know a lot of Veteran Joshifer Shippers think that relationship was ENTIRELY fake/PR driven too. I can’t say I entirely agree? But again, it’s practically the same thing as my thoughts with Josh and Claudia. I didn’t dive that deep into things regarding that relationship, so I really know nothing, and so I REALLY can’t form a proper opinion.

*Wheeze* SO lol. Where does that leave me now. Well, since things did not go the way I and probably a lot of other people anticipated, I’ve just been…confused? Like yeah, there were things that I DEFINITELY thought were indicative of a possible fling/relationship. But Josh and Jen were with other people…? It seemed so so SO real, but then they moved tf on?

So yeah, I really don’t know what happened at all. I can’t prove anything. Josh and Jen genuinely could have been just friends all throughout promo, hence why they have nothing to tell. Or, they could have genuinely fucked all through promo, and their relationships WERE just indeed PR cover ups at the time. It’s literally impossible to say for certain.

I think if anything did happen though, it’s probably way too soon to tell. Especially with Jen in a rather new and very serious relationship now, and Josh still in the relationship that he was in all throughout promo. I feel like if something did happen, they’d probably open up about it like, a decade or maybe even more down the line. Or who knows, maybe it’ll be their little secret, and our little speculation.

Like, the both of them definitely don’t need anything “cheating scandals” or anything like that running rampant with their current situations. So yeah, if there was something, we likely won’t hear of it for a while, if…ever.

Which Goddddd gets my GOAT lmao. Still bitter to this day. And still can’t fathom what happened between those two. Because I was rooting for them so very hard, anon. I think everyone was at a point. There was just so much RIDICULOUS shipping fuel between them.

And I think for that reason, I’m always going to be rooting for them in one way or another. They’re the equivalency of a “first love” for me lol. Like, I’ll always always remember what I saw between them/have a soft spot for them regardless. And I’ll definitely ALWAYS have fingers crossed for ANY tidbits.

[wonderlustlucas]

a rant no one asked for but you’re getting

recently i’ve been thinking how different things are this year compared to last year. maybe it’s because i was fairly new to kpop & everything was just cheese & sprinkles to me, but honestly a lot has changed in the past year. this time last year nct was my ult group, i had just gotten into got7 & i really only stanned nct, bts, day6, monsta x, & got7 along with a few other groups i wasn’t stanning, just listening to. around this time i didn’t realize how influential & shitty companies could be. the first big event that really shocked me was hyuna & e’dawn getting kicked from cube. & ever since then i feel like every week i’ve heard of something new that a company is doing. when i think about how i first got into nct, i’ve never been so in love with a group. boss was one of the first mvs i watched, obviously that’s where i first saw lucas & immediately fell in love, & then after that the next few months was constantly just an amazing time full of such great content. then i guess when empathy era ended i was kind of just eh, not much going on but i still love these boys so much. but as time went on & i got into exo & stray kids i kind of fell off with nct once i realized how shitty of a company sm is. i thought with the wayv debut i’d be more hyped up but honestly i feel like there’s been nothing but problems with sm & the chinese members that i can’t even enjoy it. & the whole thing with nct dream being a graduating group? it’s honestly just so stupid; obviously i know mark was crazy busy & not being in dream probably took a lot of stress away, but that shit was so sad & i feel like dream will never be the same!!! & if sm keeps adding more & more members... bruh. can’t they try & take care of their current members first? the longer i stan exo the more pissed off i get from how terribly wrong they did them, & honestly i’m starting to get worried sm is going to do the same thing to nct. i feel like they’re so caught up in wanting to make them big they’re forgetting that they’re humans & need to rest & interact with other fucking people & AHHH. maybe i’m just salty that nothing will ever compare to empathy era but i just feel like there’s been so much drama recently. like you’d think sm would learn from exo how to great their chinese members? this whole thing with winwin has been going on since i’ve started stanning, he’s always been pushed to the back, given no lines & no attention yet he’s always so happy. you’d think finally having a chinese subunit would make things better but no, shit has only gotten worse since then. the rest of nct can’t even talk about him anymore? what? is he some sort of outlaw? first he was just kind of dropped out of 127 for wayv, & now the other members have to forget he exists? he really needs to get the hell out of sm, he deserves so much better than the way he’s been treated. i know 127 was on tour, but trying to get ot21 interaction is like trying to pull teeth & i just miss 2018 nct. i felt like there were vlives every day with nct members from one group with another. this is dream’s first comeback for what— a year? 127 has been nonstop for months & i guess nct u just doesn’t exist anymore. i thought wayv was going to give some great content but that didn’t happen, we’ve barely gotten any original songs & i don’t even know what’s happened since take off. it really just sucks because nct truly was my first love yknow? i’ve invested so much time & emotion into getting to know each member but sm has really just ruined it for me, obviously i know jyp has its flaws too but i guess that’s why stray kids has grabbed my attention so much, there’s just constant content outside of promoting & they are such a genuine group. i miss when nct was like that. i feel like sm is trying to make them big but always shut them out at the same time. it’s like they want them to be this flawless group & that’s just not going to happen. maybe when tour is over things will be different but man do i miss the way things used to be.

[jae-ffrey]

🌸 50 Questions Tag 🌸

tagged by this wonderful person, right here 👉@taurusjaehyun 💗 hope you're doing well, dear! loved the new fic btw 🤭💞

What takes up too much of your time? being on my phone

What makes your day better? food especially if im craving something and i get to eat it

What’s the best thing to happen to you today? getting tagged to do this 😂

What fictional place would you like to go to? Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry (From Harry Potter) or Wakanda (From Black Panther/MCU)

Are you good at giving advice? I think so, since a lot of my friends irl ask me for advices.

Do you have a mental illness? I used to have anxiety, I still do tbh, but it's a lot worse when I was younger.

Have you ever experienced sleep paralysis? ONCE, AND IT WAS SCARY

What musician inspired you the most? Bruno Mars, BTS, Yeng Constantino

Have you ever fallen in love? Yes

What’s your dream date? Anything related to the night sky and space like, stargazing while on a picnic or going to an observatory

What do others notice about you? im smart yet clingy cuz i give too many hugs apparently 🙃

What’s an annoying habit you have? getting second hand embarrassment on everything everybody does

Do you still talk to your first love? yes, cuz we're currently together?

How many exes do you have? 1, we lasted for 1 and a half months 😃. He broke up with me, thank god.

How many songs are in your playlist? I have like 200+ songs in my favourites playlist.

What instruments can you play? uhh i can play the recorder? 😂 other than that, none, zero.

What do you have the most pictures of? NCT, mostly jaehyun

Where would you like to go before you die? i actually do not have one in mind, but i guess to Spain?

What’s your Zodiac? Cancer sun (astrology zodiac), Metal Dragon (chinese zodiac)

Do you relate to it? At some points yes, but am not as vulnerable as people think a cancer is.

What is happiness to you? Being with my whole family (btw my brother's now here so yey! we're finally complete after 18 years), Being with my closest friends, Being able to make new friends, Discovering new music/songs, Food that are actually good, and many moreeee

Are you going through anything right now? nothing too big of a deal, I'm just anxious cuz my grades aren't out yet and most of my instructors are out of town.

What’s the worst decision you ever made? i honestly don't know cuz there's a lot 😂

What’s your favourite store? H&M, bershka, Stradivarius, Zara. basically, all stores where i get my clothes from 👌

What’s your opinion on abortion? neutral. as a future nurse, i choose not to have an opinion on it.

Do you keep a bucket list? YES, i have a notebook just for it although i kinda forgot where i kept it ahahahaha

Do you have a favourite album? the BTS Love Yourself albums

What do you want for your birthday? a car even though i still dont have a license

What are most people’s first impressions of you? they mostly think I'm serious cuz i tend to have like a glare type of look (i have poor vision okay?) but tbh im a huge softie idk what they're talking about

What age do you seem according to most people? early 20s

Where do you keep your phone while you’re sleeping? on a table beside the headboard of my bed, so like when i lie down it would be above my head, if that makes sense

What word to you say the most? i used to say "b*tch" in most sentences (e.g "b*tchhh, you would NOT believe....) nowadays i do self-censoring and go "bih/bish/bith","gurl/bruh", or "sis". other times i use terms of endearment (sweetie, honey, bby, etc.)

What’s the oldest age you would date? 6 years older than me

What's the youngest age you would date? 1 year, MAX

What job/career do most people say would suit you?  Anything medical related tbh (they're not wrong tho)

What’s your favourite music genre? i really do not have a favorite genre. it really depends on my mood, but i do listen to a lot of pop and R&B

If you could live in any country in the world, where would it be? Spain or Canada

What is your current favourite song? Legs by Eric Bellinger (warning: it is explicit, so i dont recommend listening to it if you're not into smutty hoe things 🤧)

How long have you had this blog for? I've had it for about 6 months now 😲

What are you excited for? I'm excited to watch Avengers: Endgame with my bf

Are you a better talker or listener? Listener 👂

What is the last productive thing you did? doing my whole family's laundry 🙃

What do you want for Christmas? i honestly do not know 😂

What class do you get the best grades in? Academic Writing

On a scale of 1-10, how are you feeling right now? a flat 7

What can you see yourself doing in ten years? Working on a patient's case as a Forensic Nurse

When did you get your first heartbreak? when my grandma died

What age do you want to get married? maybe in my 20s. somewhere in your mid-30s, there may be a decline in fertility 🤭 and we wanna, ya know, keep the family bloodline going or whatevuh

What career did you want to have as a child? Nurse, Doctor, Chef yes, all at once

What do you crave right now? Spicy Chicken Ranch Pizza 😋

I'm tagging y'all @sunshine-jaehyun 💕 @seofter 💕 @nctream 💕 @ouryoonoh 💕 @jaehyunay 💕 cuz i wanna know you better! but of course only if you want to 😗💕💗

[lolbtsaus]

(1/14) another long one but I quite like this one, not sure how you feel about it tho! hacker and thief au with jimin. BTS is a crew of thieves who steal anything and everything for anyone who had the funds to hire them. They live a lavish life from the riches they earn off their crimes, indulging in partying, exotic cars and of course Gucci for th. you on the other hand, is a legend within the cyber world as one of the top black hat hackers who also works for hire. So when a kingpin of a

(2/14) syndicate hires both you and BTS for a joint operation, you meet jm for the first time through the cctv footage displayed on your desktop. Meeting at some secretive warehouse, BTS was expecting to be introduced to their employer and co-worker for this assignment, but was however met with a stack of files in an empty room and a huge computer screen. With the use of voice distortion, you briefed the crew on their hit job and monitored from your screen. But what had caught your eye was this    

(3/14) striking young man with silver hair that did not say a single word throughout the whole duration but just continuously and knowingly stared into the cctv camera as if he knew there was someone on the other side watching. tbh it kind of made you uncomfortable but you gotta admit he was cute, I mean it’s not often that you get an assignment with 7 really hot guys. Anyhow, on the day of the mission, you supervise from your den, hacking into security systems and monitoring the surroundings                  

(4/14) while BTS begin to infiltrate and steal the subject. Occasionally you’ll inform them of a bogey through their earpieces and quite often you’ll hear dad jokes (courteously of jin) and video game commentary (who else but jk) from the boys as they move through the building. Tbh they’re quite entertaining and you can’t help but smile a little, by far the best co-workers you’ve had. The boys have retrieved the subject and have all returned to the haven of their cars, except jm & th. th      

(5/14) goes out of sight on your screen and he doesn’t respond to your calling. Your desperately trying to find out whats happened to th and the boys have gone dead silent and nothing can be heard except the sound of your fingers rapidly hitting keys. That is until you hear this grunting from jm’s piece followed by not so pleasant sounds of possibly fractured bones and groaning from a foreign person. and not soon after that, you catch vision of a bloody nosed th and a disgruntled jm dashing out              

(6/14) of the building before joining the boys in their cars and zooming away. You must say, jm took you by surprise, you did not expect that little lump of fluff to have that much spunk, because I mean, last time you peeked *hacked* into their lounge at the top floor of some luxury hotel, you found the mochi curled up in a ball on the sofa playing with jk’s hair as he and th played video games. Basically ya’ll did such a good job that the kingpin decided to get you guys together again for a             

(7/14)another mission, obviously with higher commission because dollar dollar bruh! anyhow, many missions later (commissioned or independant), BTS obviously become curious about your identity and you’ve accumulated enough funds that you have excess for a new apartment. and coincidentally (what a lie), you move into the building adjacent to theirs, where your balcony has a direct view of jm’s balcony. and of course, jm’s caught sight of you a few times sipping on some tea and browsing on a laptop             

(8/14) on a late afternoon and tbh he’s been secretly enjoying the view for a while now. Okay so you guys happen to get another assignment and from the beginning you were a bit angsty for this one because there were just so many inconsistent factors, but you guys decide to go ahead with the plan anyways. So all is going okay until, you hear shots. 3 rounds fired total and your body freezes. The image of jm taking a bullet to the shoulder is fixated on your screen and you’re at a loss for words.             

(9/14) when jm is hoisted out of the building by nj and jin with the rest of the crew scrambling to cover their asses, youre dead silent and focused on solely your job of navigating them to a hospital. At the sound of tyres squealing to a stop, doors slamming close and the gps locator indicating that they’ve arrived at the nearby hospital, you reach out to switch off your entire system. Only after a few days do you find the courage to dial the digits of jm’s cell. A croaky voice picks up and you             

(10/14) freeze for a second. only after the second hello? do you muster up the courage to reply to him and ask in a soft voice how he’s holding up. and tbh he’s shocked, because 1. some random stranger is calling him and knows he’s been shot which probably means they know his identity, 2. this stranger has a really nice voice and 3. - wait hang on, he knows this tone of speech, hang on could this possibly be….? jm’s just like, omg i finally figured out who mastermind behind our missions and oml             

(11/14) it’s a girl, a girl with a really soothing voice and this boy is a bit in love. and jm unconsciously finds himself dialling or texting this number every once in a while when he just needs someone to speak to or after a mission where he’ll brag about his skills like hey did you see the way i shimmied past that laser in the hallway of the museum? and ur just like yeah jm, i saw because i was the one that was monitoring you and making sure your ass doesn’t trigger the alarm. BTS kind of             

(12/14)catch on that their jm is acting a bit strange, often hiding in his room to make phone calls or smiling at his phone. That and the fact that at every assignment briefing, jm seems to be very comfortable with the mysterious hacker. Only one day does jm blurt out your name and everyone is like eh?! and jms just like dude just drop the voice distorter already your voice is beautiful without that stupid thing. and BTS is like EHHH?! and jm is like oh crap that wasn’t meant to come out whoops.

(13/14) but you end up getting rid of the voice distorter and crew is just like holy crap its a girl, and regretting all the stupid shit they’ve said on their missions that you must’ve heard (but we all know yg was secretly regretting that one time he stopped to pet that puppy on the street, completely cooing over it forgetting that he had his ear piece on and that you were sitting on your balcony watching his every move taping the whole thing for future black mail uses). anyhow, one day, you’re                    

(14/14) sitting on your balcony sipping on some tea when you get a text from jm. a lil smile appears on your face and you continue to exchange. But little did you know that jm, who coincidentally happened to be looking out his balcony window, noticed that every time he sent a text to you, the girl in sitting across from him picks up her phone. highly suspicious, he dials and only when you pick up, he opens the door and steps out to his balcony and you guys lock eyes. (I cant write fluff 😅) -🥀     

oh my g o d I love this so much I want all of it rn plz and thnx 

[trashboiiz]

The End of the Honeymoon Phase (James x Reader) TW: Abuse

(A/N: Of course I can’t write anything happy so this is the end result. I know James would never act like this in reality but bruh, it’s a fic. Enjoy~)

You’ve never had a major argument with James. Usually you bicker over what movie to watch or what to eat but nothing actually important. You were still in your honeymoon phase, coming up with dumb nicknames and sneaking kisses whenever you could; it was a seemingly never-ending paradise. But a storm was coming.

For the past few weeks, Cow Chop has been keeping James busy, leaving him with little time for his channel and even less time for you. Because of the late nights, you usually end up hanging out at the warehouse, talking to whoever was still there. You’ve grown accustomed to watching the crew record dumb videos on the couch and their crazy antics. Though at night it’s pretty calm, since everyones tired from hours of filming.

Due to all the time you’ve spent at the warehouse, you’ve ended up becoming quite close with a few of them, especially Aleks. Both of you bonded over your awkward emo phase, laughing about the music you used to listen to and your awful haircuts. Of course you’ve spent more time talking to Asher and Anna since they spend most of their time editing instead of being in videos, but they’ve had to interrupt many of your discussions to continue working on videos. You’re not phased but that though; you connect more to Aleks on a personal level, anyways. He’s a good friend. A friend you’ve talked to about the new problems arising between you and James.

One night you’re at home, waiting for James to come back from an especially long day. He left early that morning to shoot the podcast and has spent the rest of the day filming BTS, gameplays, and editing. You look at the clock and see it’s already midnight. Sighing, you pick up the plate of food left out for James and put it in the fridge for when he comes back. You expected him to be home by now since he still had to record for his own channel; you guess it’ll be another late night for him.

His erratic schedule has started to worry you, not just because of the stress it puts on him, but because of the change in his mood. Small things have begun to annoy him, like your unconscious tapping on the steering wheel and when you forget to turn off the lights. You know it’s probably due to anxiety, but the consistent complains have begun to wear you down. Even with your own problems and issues to deal with you still try to help James. You get it, he has his own big channel and another one that he’s expected to put effort into, but it would be nice if he put effort into your relationship.

Your phone buzzes and you see Aleks’ name on the screen. You turn on the kettle to make some tea while you open his message.

James back yet?

You sigh, Not yet. Did he leave the office?

Yea, not so long ago

The kettle begins to whistle so you get up from the couch and pour the hot water into a mug. You take your tea back to the couch and plop down, seeing another text from Aleks.

You doing ok?

I’m fine, just getting a bit strained, ya know?

I keep trying to tell that idiot to go home earlier but he says he has to finish all his editing. I even tried to con Trevor into doing all his work but James cares too much for that boy.

I think everyone cares too much for Trevor, you chuckle

True. I’ll keep trying to calm him down and such. I guess you know how stressed he’s been.

Yeah…

You can talk to me if it gets to be too much. I’m both of your friends and I’m a master at fixing problems.

Sure you are ‘Aleks that sets everything on fire’ Marchant

Just because I’m a pyro doesn’t mean I can’t make people happy. Anyways, I’m driving home now. Let me know if you need anything Y/N.

Get home safe Aleks, talk to you later.

As you put down your phone you hear a car door slam and heavy footsteps reach the front door. The door swings open, revealing a disheveled and tired James. He drops his bag on the ground and heads straight for the kitchen, searching for food.

“Hi Y/N! Oh hi James! Nice to see you after such a long day!” You say sarcastically.

James only grunts and grabs the plate of food you prepared from the fridge. Sitting down at the kitchen table he shoves the food into his mouth while scrolling through twitter on his phone. You pick up your tea and walk over to him, putting your free hand on his shoulder, but he shrugs it off.

“Is everything okay James? You seem upset”.

“I’m fine” James snaps, quickly glaring at you before going back to twitter.

“You don’t seem fine” you say, sitting down across from him.

“God fucking dammit, Y/N. Are you going to turn this into a big thing? I’m fine.” His voice beginning to rise and the smell of alcohol wafting from his lips.

You’re taken aback. Why was James drinking, especially so late at night and when he had to drive home. Was he angry at you? You couldn’t remember if you said or did anything to make him mad, so you assumed it was just stress.

“Do you want me to do anything?” You ask, trying to diffuse the situation.

James slams his first on the table, scaring you.

“Stop fucking nagging me, Y/N. Try focusing on your life instead of mine for once!”

Although his mood was beginning to frighten you, it was also pissing you off. You could feel yourself becoming hot with anger, distracting you from your fear.

“What the fuck James? I know you’re stressed, I’m just trying to help out!” you snap.

“Maybe that’s what I don’t need, your goddamn help. Maybe I need less of you Y/N” James stands up, seething with rage, “All you do is complain about how busy I am and yell at me about how much work I’m doing”.

“I don’t yell at you!” You shout back, “and you’re the one that complains while I try to help you!”

“I complain? You text Aleks all the time whining about me,” Your mouth drops open, “you think I don’t know? I’m not a fucking idiot. ”

“I just vent to him sometimes!” You say, frustrated, “James I think you should just get some rest and sober up”.

“I’m not drunk! I’m as rational as I’ve ever been!” He throws his hands up in anger, “I’m pissed because I know you want to fuck Aleks”.

You have no idea where this is coming from; this accusation was completely out of the blue. How could James accuse you of wanting to cheat on him, with his best friend of all things. That thought has never even crossed your mind. James was all you wanted and needed, no one else could take his place.

“I-I…” You stammer.

“I bet that’s been your plan all along,” James walks over to you and sticks his finger in your face, “I bet you’ve been using me to get to Aleks. God knows how fucking lonely he is and you knew you could scoop him right up.”

Those words cut you deep. Your boyfriend, your best friend. Why…how could he think that?

“James I would never!” tears begin to stream down your face.

“Bullshit!” Enraged, James slaps the mug out of your hand, causing it to shatter on the floor, “You’re just like everyone else! Using me to get to know other people!”

You’ve never seen James so angry and you’re pretty sure no one else has either. You want to diffuse the situation but you have no idea what to do; you’re mind is spinning as fast as your heart is beating.  You flee to the couch, trying to distance yourself from the furious man that you couldn’t believe was your boyfriend.

“I’d never James,” you hiccup, “James I love you”

“Sure you do, Y/N. You probably fantasize about Aleks saying that to you. How it’d feel to have his lips against yours, holding your waist while slipping his tongue into his mouth. Not before long he’d have your clothes off and his cock up your-”

“James!” You interrupt, “Stop! He’s a friend! He’s just a friend! He’s never come on to me, James. He wouldn’t do that to you.”

Your tears turn into sobs that wrack your whole body.

“I’m so sick and tired of all these lies” James growls.

He storms over to you and grabs your wrists.

“You’re scaring me” you cry, “James, you’re hurting me”.

“You’re hurting me, Y/N, with all your lies and going behind my back.”

“James you’re drunk”

“I’m not!” He screams, causing you to fall backwards onto the couch.

You scramble to get up and rush to the door, James hot on your heels.

“Come back here!” He shouts as you run to your car.

You’re muted by your sobs and blinded by your tears. You speed out of the driveway, leaving James yelling in the distance. This was a first you’ve never wanted to experience. You’re limits have been reached with how much you could tolerate James. He’s been angry before but never like this; you didn’t even know he was capable of such anger, such fury. You replay the events in your head over and over until you reach a house with its lights on even though it’s past 1am. You quickly park your car and run up to the door, knocking furiously in the hopes you’re heard. The door swings open and a confused blonde man greets you.

“Y/N? What are you doing? Why are you here?”

You swing your arms around his neck and sob into his chest.

“Al-Aleks,” You choke out between breaths.

Aleks hurries you into his house and places a blanket on you as you sit on his couch. Sitting next to you, he places his arms around you, letting your tears stain his shirt. Neither of you speak for almost an hour, Aleks caressing you hair and rubbing your back as you let all your emotions pour out. He hums to calm you down, the vibrations soothe your beating heart. Soon you drift off into, you troubles and worries an issue for tomorrow.

[softredvelvet]

100 Questions You Have Never Been Asked Before

l1. DO YOU SLEEP WITH THE CLOSET DOORS OPEN OR CLOSED? Closed, a lil bit open for my cat. My orange cat named Garfield. Who once actually ate lasagna. 

2. DO YOU TAKE THE SHAMPOOS AND CONDITIONER BOTTLES FROM HOTELS? I was about to say I have never  slept in an hotel, but I did in Germany! And nah. I wasn’t interested in it.

3. DO YOU SLEEP WITH YOUR SHEETS TUCKED IN OR OUT? I tuck them in, then I move around alot while I sleep and wake up with them tucked out and I leave them tucked out. Guess that is where my energy goes to..moving in my sleep. I actually tuck them in to be a little bit neat, but I prefer them out when I sleep.

4. HAVE YOU STOLEN A STREET SIGN BEFORE? Nope, how the fuck do people get them out of the pole?

5. DO YOU LIKE TO USE POST-IT NOTES? It’s funny, but I never use them cause it doesnt help anyway.

6. DO YOU CUT OUT COUPONS BUT THEN NEVER USE THEM? I dont use coupons. I give them to my mom. She is addicted.

7. WOULD YOU RATHER BE ATTACKED BY A BIG BEAR OR A SWARM OF BEES? I mean....they say that if you play dead, that the bear will go away so...

8. DO YOU HAVE FRECKLES? None. I think.

9. DO YOU ALWAYS SMILE FOR PICTURES? Not always. I often put on the ‘bitchy-eyebrow’ + slight smirk or no smirk. And sometimes I do smile (sometimes together with the bitchy eyebrow’)

10. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST PET PEEVE? I have a few but I have forgotten them....

Oh remembered two! When people are arrogant. And manipulative people. Ugh.

11. DO YOU EVER COUNT YOUR STEPS WHEN YOU WALK? No.....but I did skip some steps on sidewalks. Like only walking on the black stones, just because I can. Only when I am bored or stressed tho.

12. HAVE YOU PEED IN THE WOODS? Yeahhhhh, first time when I was like 4 or 5 years old. What an experience. 

13. HAVE YOU EVER POOPED IN THE WOODS? Nooooo, bruh I cant even poop anywhere but at home. Or when someone really isnt around. I cant even really poop when my parents are around. So uncomfortable

14. DO YOU EVER DANCE EVEN IF THERES NO MUSIC PLAYING? Lol bitch too often! It makes up for a nice mood and you know you need to lose energy, and dancing!! It’s dancing! Dancing is fun!

15. DO YOU CHEW YOUR PENS AND PENCILS? Used to do it everytime I had one in my hands, however I stopped. People started associating it with unhygiene and childishness, and I listened lol.

16. HOW MANY PEOPLE HAVE YOU SLEPT WITH THIS WEEK?

:)

17. WHAT SIZE IS YOUR BED? Just one person, but two can fit in! I tested that! And it helps that I am skinny. 

18. WHAT IS YOUR SONG OF THE WEEK? Hmmmmmm...... I think Not Today by BTS! I have been in the mood for some confident energetic songs.

19. IS IT OK FOR GUYS TO WEAR PINK? Ofcourse. And it actually looks good! 

20. DO YOU STILL WATCH CARTOONS? Hm Ghibli movies (hm it is anime tho). Avatar the Last Airbender. That is kind of it. I dont watch lots of movies anymore or series tho.

21. WHAT IS YOUR LEAST FAVORITE MOVIE? I have saw so many movies that I did not like, I really just cannot remember.

22. WHERE WOULD YOU BURY HIDDEN TREASURE IF YOU HAD SOME?Why would I tell? What if someone finds out where I hid my possibly owned by me treasure? I see what you are trying to do.

23. WHAT DO YOU DRINK WITH DINNER? Water! Sometimes tea. But specially water, because I forcing myself to drink more water. Water is good for you!

24. WHAT DO YOU DIP A CHICKEN NUGGET IN? When I used to eat meat I dipped my chicken nugget in sweet-and-sour sauce

25. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE FOOD? Pizza, seafood, bami. All very different but sooooooooooo goooood!

26. WHAT MOVIES COULD YOU WATCH OVER AND OVER AGAIN AND STILL LOVE? Serendipity,The Illusionist, Inception, Midnight In Paris, Now You See Me series.

27. LAST PERSON YOU KISSED/KISSED YOU? I shall not speak of him since he is not worthy.

28. WERE YOU EVER A BOY/GIRL SCOUT? Never, such a myth for me. What is that scout thing that kids do? What?

29. WOULD YOU EVER STRIP OR POSE NUDE IN A MAGAZINE? I mean...I would strip in private to my future bae ;) Dont think this is what the question meant, but always include the details ha

30. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WROTE A LETTER TO SOMEONE ON PAPER? 1-2 years ago? To my grandfather.

31. CAN YOU CHANGE THE OIL ON A CAR? I dont even drive nor really know how it can be changed.....oops. My family loves to do that shit

32. EVER GOTTEN A SPEEDING TICKET? I dont drive. And I cant predict whether it will happen lol

33. EVER RAN OUT OF GAS? Nope

34. WHAT’S YOUR FAVORITE KIND OF SANDWICH? Don’t eat sandwiches. I often just eat bread with butter or hagelslag (Dutch).

35. BEST THING TO EAT FOR BREAKFAST? Pancakes, or scrambled eggs....I am hungry.

36. WHAT IS YOUR USUAL BEDTIME? Midnight - 2 AM. I am trying to change......

37. ARE YOU LAZY? Not really, just unenergetic and unmotivated. I should be more hardworking.

38. WHEN YOU WERE A KID, WHAT DID YOU DRESS UP AS FOR HALLOWEEN? Never participated in halloween. 

39. WHAT IS YOUR CHINESE ASTROLOGICAL SIGN? The Tiger....rawrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. No srsly, the tiger is one of my favorite animals so I was so happy to have it as my Chinese sign. 

40. HOW MANY LANGUAGES CAN YOU SPEAK? My mother tongue is Portuguese, I speak Dutch as a second language and now even better than my mother tongue, I speak English almost fluently, speak some Spanish/French/German (school level). I do understand almost everything in Spanish obviously. I can also read Russian....I was bored so yea. I am pretty good with languages. Would be awesome to know how to speak more languages. 

41. DO YOU HAVE ANY MAGAZINE SUBSCRIPTIONS? Nope

42. WHICH ARE BETTER: LEGOS OR LINCOLN LOGS? Legos because I dont know what Lincoln Logs are.

43. ARE YOU STUBBORN? I was stubborn in not being stubborn. Aka yes I am stubborn and at first I denied it, but know I have realized it....plus most people saying it is an evidence.

44. WHO IS BETTER: LENO OR LETTERMAN? I dont watch either, and I dont really care lol

45. EVER WATCH SOAP OPERAS? Portuguese soap operas used to be my life until I moved away when I was 9 years old. Then I never really watched it again.

46. ARE YOU AFRAID OF HEIGHTS? YES! yes, but I am trying to beat it bit by bit....by putting myself near heights :))))))

47. DO YOU SING IN THE CAR? Yes when I am with people I feel comfortable with. But I am sure that when I get more energy and less social stress, that I will sing no matter who I am with. It is supposed to be fun!

48. DO YOU SING IN THE SHOWER? Sometimes. I usually just daydream. And die thinking about the thought of getting out in the cold outside of the shower.

49. DO YOU DANCE IN THE CAR? Fuck yea! Doesnt help that I get car sick, but you know,....fuck yea!

50. EVER USED A GUN? Water guns yes!! Oh and I also had one very middle age old gun at my house in Portugal. Didnt work, but it was funny to hold it and pretend I was a pirate who actually rescued people.

51. LAST TIME YOU GOT A PORTRAIT TAKEN BY A PHOTOGRAPHER? When I was 6 years old or something like that. A typical Dutch photograph with clomps from Volendam. First time in The Netherlands on vacation.

52. DO YOU THINK MUSICALS ARE CHEESY? Mua, not all of them. Dont really watch musicals tho.

53. IS CHRISTMAS STRESSFUL? Apparently. People around stress so fucking hard, it is sad and hilarious at the same time.

54. EVER EAT A PIEROGI? A what? Had to google it. Polish dumplings.....would love to try it! And no meat I have just read. Interesting.

55. FAVORITE TYPE OF FRUIT PIE? Raspberries...I think it were raspberries. So fucking good. Orange is also good. Appleeee! That is yummy. 

56. OCCUPATIONS YOU WANTED TO BE WHEN YOU WERE A KID? Lawyer, a writer or a teacher. Or a singer/dancer/rapper! Hahahaha!

57. DO YOU BELIEVE IN GHOSTS? Nope, but I do believe in demons. Is that something?

58. EVER HAVE A DEJA-VU FEELING? Too many times. Dont know if I like it or dislike it.

59. DO YOU TAKE A VITAMIN DAILY? No, but I should really start taking it. Specially D and B12... I bought them but I forget to take it everytime.

60. DO YOU WEAR SLIPPERS? Noooooo. Bare feet in the house! Or socks.

61. DO YOU WEAR A BATH ROBE? Nah, only when I am cold.

62. WHAT DO YOU WEAR TO BED? A different pyjama every 1-2 weeks.

63. WHAT WAS YOUR FIRST CONCERT? The Script. With my ex-best friend hahahahah. ‘Bestfriend’. 

64. WALMART, TARGET, OR KMART? I live in  a non-English country, so I have never been to these

65. NIKE OR ADIDAS? Nikes, I guess. Never wore Adidas so cant judge.

66. CHEETOS OR FRITOS? No idea, dont eat them. 

67. PEANUTS OR SUNFLOWER SEEDS? No really either, but sunflower seeds I guess.

68. EVER HEAR OF THE GROUP TRES BIEN? Nope, are they French or something. Why is this being asked hmmmm

69. EVER TAKE DANCE LESSONS? Yeahhh! Streetdance! Years ago tho, lost my moves a bit. They are still there somewhere tho. I miss dancing

70. IS THERE A PROFESSION YOU PICTURE YOUR FUTURE SPOUSE DOING? Don’t really care

71. CAN YOU CURL YOUR TONGUE? Yeaaas... ;)

72. EVER WON A SPELLING BEE?

Don’t have those

73. HAVE YOU EVER CRIED BECAUSE YOU WERE SO HAPPY?

Nope lol

74. OWN ANY RECORD ALBUMS? Nope

75. OWN A RECORD PLAYER? Nope

76. DO YOU REGULARLY BURN INCENSE? Nope

77. EVER BEEN IN LOVE? Yes!

78. WHO WOULD YOU LIKE TO SEE IN CONCERT? Red Velvet and BTS.

79. WHAT WAS THE LAST CONCERT YOU SAW? I saw BTS concert online

80. HOT TEA OR COLD TEA? Hot Hot Hot

81. TEA OR COFFEE? Tea Tea Tea!!!

82. SUGAR COOKIES OR SNICKERDOODLES? Noneeeeeeee

83. CAN YOU SWIM WELL? Very well very well. A swimming champion from England said I was naturally gifted lol..

84. CAN YOU HOLD YOUR BREATH WITHOUT HOLDING YOUR NOSE? Yes! Are there people who can’t??

85. ARE YOU PATIENT? HAHAHAH...no.

86. DJ OR BAND AT A WEDDING? DJ

87. EVER WON A CONTEST? A multiply contest. Multiplying man.

88. HAVE YOU EVER HAD PLASTIC SURGERY? Nope.

89. WHICH ARE BETTER: BLACK OR GREEN OLIVES? Neither

90. CAN YOU KNIT OR CROCHET? Nope

91. BEST ROOM FOR A FIREPLACE? Living Room! Or my bedroom, but it has to be a big room.

92. DO YOU WANT TO GET MARRIED? Yes!

93. IF MARRIED, HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN MARRIED? N/A

94. WHO WAS YOUR HIGH SCHOOL CRUSH? There were a few lol. When I didn’t crush on them anymore, I suddenly got confident in talking to them nice.

95. DO YOU CRY AND THROW A FIT UNTIL YOU GET YOUR OWN WAY? Never.

96. DO YOU HAVE KIDS? Nope and don’t want them.

97. DO YOU WANT KIDS? Nope.....I could go for adoption tho!

98. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE COLOR? Black!!!! And purple. And I guess blue too.

99. DO YOU MISS ANYONE RIGHT NOW? Not anymore. I am free :)

100. WHO ARE YOU GOING TO TAG TO DO THIS NEXT?

@4hyyh @kittaee @rvelvts @softyeri @wendyismyfavouritederp @jinsasleep @2awake

[omanu]

i have a few tags to do, so im gonna do them all in one post so i dont keep tagging the same ppl in multiple things idk. dont worry, you dont need to do them if u dont want to ♥

i was tagged by @nashira , the angel ♥

¤ nickname: well, irl is manu, but tbh my name is manu. i have another nickname my family uses, that is budi lol

¤ zodiac sign: sagittarius 

¤ height: the best scenario here is 167cm, idk how much that is in ft or whatever lmao

¤ orientation: ….. like everyone 

¤ favourite fruit: cantaloupe 

¤ favourite season: winter and fall

¤ favourite book: i dont think i have one, but like, the last book i read was fucking amazing everyone should read, it’s gay, it’s a series of three books, and it’s called when women were warriors.

¤ favourite flower: all of them? i love flowers in general

¤ favourite scent: RAIN, and ngl the scent of matches 

¤ favourite animal: dogs and cats

¤ favourite colour: light colors and also black and blue

¤ coffee, tea or hot cocoa: hot cocoa

¤ average sleep hours: well now i sleep a lot i would say 8-12 

¤ cat or dogs: BOTH

¤ n° of blankets: just one

¤ dream trip: ANY GOOD BEACH

¤ blog created: idr well, but 2015? or maybe late 2014. but ive been on tumblr since 2009/2010 lol

¤ favourite song: ……..dude idk rn is any song of bts, but on my last fm it’s probably a song by adam, the love of my life. and i love too many songs so i cant just write them all

Rules: Use the first letter of your name to answer each question. Real answers only. If the person who tagged you has the same initial, you must give different answers. You cannot use the same word twice. Once you enter your answers, tag 10 other people! i was tagged by @superunknwn​ , another angel ♥

Your name: Manu

A four letter word: mole *looks at nashira and sara* A boy’s name: … Manu An occupation: Musician Something you can wear: mittens  A place: McDonald's  A reason for being late: … idk … Moving? Medical matter? idk i used two words but they both begin with the letter m lol Something you shout: mYLES A movie title: Moana Something you drink: Martini An animal: Monkey A type of car: Mercedes  Song title: Ma City by bts lol i was just singing this

i was tagged by @bensun​ a looooong time ago sorry, but i too love doing these so why not. this one is similar to the first tag game, but im doing it anyway

Answer the questions and tag 20 followers you would like to get to know better! —————– Name: Manu

Nicknames: budi. i want new nicknames tbh, cute ones.

Zodiac Sign: sagittarius

Height: 167cm 

Orientation: same, i like all genders but the s*x part is……. uh, idrl

Ethnicity: native brazilian (indigenous) (wow i just saw this on the internet and im using it), mixed with whi*te some time in the past. i would know better if whi*es hadnt done that

Favorite Fruit: Probably blueberries or just berries in general and I loooove smoothies …. with any fruit to be honest

Favorite Season: Fall and winter

Favorite Book: to mention another one im reading the third book of the vampire chronicles, i love the second one, i love lestat

Favorite Flowers: yeah i like flowers, but idrn their names, i just love it

Favorite Color: light colors, but also black and blue again

Favorite Animal: dogs and cats

Coffee, tea, or hot chocolate: hot chocolate

Average Sleep Hours: 8-12 ay

Cat or Dog Person: BOTh

Favorite Fictional Character: MIDNIGHTER

Number of Blankets I sleep with: just one

Ideal trip: beach!!

Blog Created: 2015 ig 

dear @superunknwn​ tagged me on this a looooooooooooooong ass time ago, sorry ily (actually she didnt tagged me but i wanted to do this so i just saved on my drafts) 
Rules: 
1. go to this site: https://www.random.org/lists/ 2. Pick 15 of your favorite characters or favorite people from your fandoms and list them 3. Tag at least 5 people 4. Have fun with it! 
— 
1. Mom/dad: Apollo!!!!!!!!!! yes!!!!! 2. Your sibling: jim halpert lmaoo thats fine 3. Your grandma/grandpa:  michael jackson 4. Haunts you: park seo joon 5. Your boyfriend/girlfriend: adam lambert (ok…. i would prefer jhope but ok) 6. Your ex: taystee hdsfkhfdksjh 7. Your best friend: MIDNIGHTER 8. Proposed to you: MYLES KENNEDY DHJKSHFDF 9. Your boss: slash….. thats not ideal but glad that i know him 10. The random person you met at the bar: lestat fdkslsd friend 11. Your rival: seo in guk NOOOOO he is my bf wtf 12. Gave you your first kiss: rothen skljkld 13. Drunk and singing karaoke with: lzzy hale my love 14. Played 7 minutes in heaven with:  JHOPE DFHKFSDJKSFHKJSD 15. Gave you your favorite dessert: chris traeger, my favorite dessert is not raisins

tbh im not gonna tag ppl anymore, ive already tagged everybody, yall just can do it

@lionesslindsey tagged me on this a looong time ago too, no surprise

RULES: answer all questions, add one question of your own and tag as many people as there are questions. (but that’s so many D: I’m too awkward for so many) (relatable lmao) Tagging: everyone i tagged on this long ass post Whoever wants to do this though, go ahead!

1. coke or pepsi: i dont drink soda heh 2. disney or dreamworks: I love them both, but my absolute fav movie is The Lion King. lindsey i just copied ur answer bc BITCH ME TOO, just addin Mulan here 3. coffee or tea: i dont like coffee and i never really wanted to try tea lmao 4. books or movies: Both!!!!! 5. windows or mac: only tried windows 6. dc or marvel: DC pls 7. xbox or playstation: even though i dont have and console, i like ps better 8. dragon age or mass effect: never played. dont have a console lmao 9. night owl or early riser: if those are video games…. never played i dont have a console 10. cards or chess: cards! 11. chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate 12. vans or converse: converse, never owned vans bc im poor af, so i would probably like both 13. lavellan, trevelyan, cadash, or adaar: have no idea what those are 14. fluff or angst: fluff pls 15. beach or forest: beach!!!!!!! 16. dogs or cats: BOTH 17. clear skies or rain: BOTH 18. cooking or eating out: it depends on my mood tbh 19. Spicy food or mild food: both 20. halloween/samhain or solstice/yule/christmas: what 21. would you rather forever be a little too cold or a little too hot: a little too cold 22. if you could have a superpower, what would it be: stop time 23. animation or live action: animations 24. paragon or renegade: what 25. baths or showers: baths, even though i dont own a bathtub 26. team cap or team ironman: Iron Man 27. fantasy or sci-fi: Fantasy 28. do you have three or four favourite quotes? not really 29. youtube or netflix: youtube 30. harry potter or percy jackson: hp, but pj was pretty awesome and diverse than hp.... actually I think I only like hp more bc of the movies, but pj... is very awesome too idk 31. when you feel accomplished: 6. dc or marvel: when i finish a drawing 32. star wars or star trek: star wars 33. paperback books or hardback books: as long as i have books 34. horror or rom-com: yikes rom-com 35. to live in a world without literature or music: death 36. pastel colours or dark colours: i love both!!!!!! 37. tv shows or movies: bitch everything is both here 38. city or countryside: city, but i too love contryside 39. if any other zodiac sign could describe you, what would it be: i have no idea 40. if you could only listen to one album for the rest of your life what would it be: dont ask me that omg 41. cinema or theatre: cinema 42. if you could be any fictional character’s best friend, who’d you be: midnigher’s 43. smiling or smirking: slut for both 44. are you an ‘all or nothing’ type or are you more consistent: i dont do anything so idk dude 45. playlists or your whole library on shuffle: shuffle 46. travelling or staying at home: traveling, but i would love staying at my own home 47. books or fanfiction: Both 48. If you could live in a fantasy world, what world would it be: huh, i had never thought about this, i cant answer now. but probably i would choose to live in one of my daydreaming shit 49. your favorite cartoon: idk i live irmão do jorel, a brazilian cartoon 50. name the weirdest five songs on your itunes, current or past: bruh im dont know 51. mountains or plains: both! 52. favorite anime (or tv show if you don’t watch anime): YURI ON ICE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 53. which social media platform are you most like yourself on: Tumblr AND youtube 54. What are some of your passions: music 56. If you have a pet, do they do anything interesting/weird (like a cat that plays fetch, a bird that can say funny things, etc)? : not really. my cat sleeps funny sometimes hsajkdhas

[transformationattack]

Y’all, I’mma keep it real. I’mma Bang Bang Con Reject. I didn’t make it through 24-hours worth of concert footage and I’m fine with it LOL!

I make no qualms about being in my thirties, hell, I’ve written that all over my blog. What I can’t seem to come to grips with is…homegirl can’t hang all night.

YES! I’m a night owl till about 1 AM, maybe 1:30 AM at the most then I need to go to bed. Staying up 12-hours until noon the NEXT DAY isn’t one of my superpowers.

Omg, can we admit it’s no fun seeing perfectly good nighttime sleeping conditions slip from your grasp with the slow creep of sunshine crossing your windows and with the increasingly booming cheerfulness of tweeting birds outside? Yes, I meant for it to sound dreadful. Can’t sleep to the call of the morning!

So, when news of Bang Bang Con was released along with Big Hit waving the ARMY Bomb connection in my face, I believed I could do anything to experience the entire 12-hour concert LOL! Guess what I did do, tapped out an hour before The Red Bullet Tour (The WHOLE reason I was trying hard to stay up on day 1! (*>д<)) and slept in till midnight the same day, then I caught some of the Wings tour and all of 4th Muster (only cause by Day 2, my sleep rhythm was hella off and I couldn’t go back to sleep). I think I caught some of Love Yourself too before I said eff it and took some melatonin LOL!

Bruh, thinking on Reflection, why does RM make such heartbreaking songs knowing he has to sing them on tour? I truly sympathize because the emotion is the song is so raw that there’s no way he’s not reliving those feelings with each stage. I cried with him ( ˃̣̣̥᷄⌓˂̣̣̥᷅ ).

There was a little bit of an internal struggle. I thought:

“You’re ARMY! You can do this!”

“Don’t give up now or you’ll miss out!”

“What about seeing all of BTS’ special messages they promised us?”

But…in essence, these are just recordings Big Hit is allowing us to watch for free on an authorized service with a synchronized ARMY Bomb flashing a rainbow color pattern LOL! Once I remembered I’ve been with The Boys since 2017 and have had two ARMY memberships, I was like who cares what people think or my silly negative feelings judging me for wanting to catch some sleep, my ARMY status is still valid and I LOVE BTS! I’ll catch the recordings y’all KNOW will be EVERYWHERE LOL!

YO! I ain’t NEVAH crashed so hard from sleep deprivation on a Monday. The day didn’t even exist, that’s just how powered down I was. Omg, it was the PITS! LOL!

Granted, I totally understand this experience was many ARMY’s first true concert experience and I appreciate that. In fact, I truly believe this experience was mostly for them (and just a little bit of tiding over Map of the Soul Tour ticket holders due to the pandemic). I’m hella glad many new and tenured ARMY got to enjoy Bang Bang Con.

With what little I caught, I did have some takeaways which made me love BTS more:

The ARMY Bomb would turn purple during ments and special footage. It really made me burn with ARMY pride and I’m sure it was BTS and Big Hit saying that they love us back.

Also! What other idol group and entertainment company is legitimately, philosophically and psychologically teaching their fandom HOW TO LOVE during times where love is needed more than ever?! None. They’re the GOAT!

Speaking of ARMY Bomb, even though the Bomb cycled through the colors of the rainbow, I had a HUUUUGE burst of energy on only four hours of sleep when it was on (once I got it to finally work (-_-)). It got me dancing and cheering much more than before (and it could’ve been that my determination paid off and I was just celebrating that the damn thing was on LOL!). I’m sure this was the engagement Big Hit intended (ღゝ◡╹)

  The personal messages BTS recorded in between concerts were adorable and yes, not only did I do my stretches but I also took Jin’s behavioral cues (cause Big Hit didn’t translate NOTHIN!) and bought the special edition Map of the Soul lightstick LOL!

Stage cameramen have had a come up! There were cameras panning EVERYWHERE in HYYH on Stage and HYYH: Epilogue as if they didn’t know where to focus! I wanted to see the full OT7 formation in Butterfly and the cameraman was like NOPE! Second time around we got a GLIMPSE! But Wings and 4th Muster were juuuust right LOL!

I TOTALLY loved seeing all the representation on the LCD screens behind BTS during Miss Right but I ESPECIALLY loved the black kinky haired girl! #SheBeMe

Nevermind was on EVERYTHING during HYYH era, so I can see now why Jimin got that word tattooed on him. It definitely has very strong significance for him let alone his 3rd Muster stage (Also, I think JK had something to do with it being the tattoo-head he is *shhhhh*).

  It was amazing to see physically how and hear vocally how BTS matured. It was like seeing the growth I missed out on because I wasn’t a fan of theirs until later in their career. Ain’t gonna lie, the sexy choreo during HYYH had me cringing. They looked like babies! I kept going, “NOOOO! I dun wanna!” (;´Д`).

Cause I’m weird like this and know the feeling very well, I thought BTS is gonna look back at these concerts and GO, “Damn I was pretty slick back then.” You know like older people talk about their aesthetics like “You couldn’t tell me nothin!” They’re also gonna be like how the hell was I ever that small cause teenage and 20s weight is NOTHING like 30s+ weight LOL!

I didn’t believe ARMY’s interpretation of the 4th Muster VCRs but…BTS really did get high on their own supply! I mean, Jin didn’t mean to, he was just an accidental overdose, but Hobi and the rest of The Boys TOT-TAH-LEE did! LOL! I’d flippin love a pic of Jin trippin with alpacas around him if any of you have it 💜!

The BIGGEST takeaway is that millions of ARMY got to celebrate together. #BangBangCon was trending, friends were posting pictures of themselves with their Bombs, snacks and soju. ARMY were checking on each other like “Did you make it?!” There was a lot of love being shown all around and I think that’s most important. I’ve never felt so much love from a group, including ARMY, that I’ve never met but the feeling was genuinely there.

That’s it for this super long post! I hope you enjoyed reliving some moments with me. Post what you loved most about Bang Bang Con below in the comments (I wanna relive your moments tooooooo! (*˘︶˘*).:*♡) and don’t forget to like the post!

Borahae and Stay Fighting 💜

Y’all, I’mma keep it real. I’mma Bang Bang Con Reject. I didn’t make it through 24-hours worth of concert footage and I’m fine with it LOL!

Y’all, I’mma keep it real. I’mma Bang Bang Con Reject. I didn’t make it through 24-hours worth of concert footage and I’m fine with it LOL!

Y'all, I'mma keep it real. I'mma Bang Bang Con Reject. I didn't make it through 24-hours worth of concert footage and I'm fine with it LOL! Y'all, I'mma keep it real. I'mma Bang Bang Con Reject. I didn't make it through 24-hours worth of concert footage and I'm fine with it LOL!

[flightykickback]

Y’all, I’mma keep it real. I’mma Bang Bang Con Reject. I didn’t make it through 24-hours worth of concert footage and I’m fine with it LOL!

I make no qualms about being in my thirties, hell, I’ve written that all over my blog. What I can’t seem to come to grips with is…homegirl can’t hang all night.

YES! I’m a night owl till about 1 AM, maybe 1:30 AM at the most then I need to go to bed. Staying up 12-hours until noon the NEXT DAY isn’t one of my superpowers.

Omg, can we admit it’s no fun seeing perfectly good nighttime sleeping conditions slip from your grasp with the slow creep of sunshine crossing your windows and with the increasingly booming cheerfulness of tweeting birds outside? Yes, I meant for it to sound dreadful. Can’t sleep to the call of the morning!

So, when news of Bang Bang Con was released along with Big Hit waving the ARMY Bomb connection in my face, I believed I could do anything to experience the entire 12-hour concert LOL! Guess what I did do, tapped out an hour before The Red Bullet Tour (The WHOLE reason I was trying hard to stay up on day 1! (*>д<)) and slept in till midnight the same day, then I caught some of the Wings tour and all of 4th Muster (only cause by Day 2, my sleep rhythm was hella off and I couldn’t go back to sleep). I think I caught some of Love Yourself too before I said eff it and took some melatonin LOL!

Bruh, thinking on Reflection, why does RM make such heartbreaking songs knowing he has to sing them on tour? I truly sympathize because the emotion is the song is so raw that there’s no way he’s not reliving those feelings with each stage. I cried with him ( ˃̣̣̥᷄⌓˂̣̣̥᷅ ).

There was a little bit of an internal struggle. I thought:

“You’re ARMY! You can do this!”

“Don’t give up now or you’ll miss out!”

“What about seeing all of BTS’ special messages they promised us?”

But…in essence, these are just recordings Big Hit is allowing us to watch for free on an authorized service with a synchronized ARMY Bomb flashing a rainbow color pattern LOL! Once I remembered I’ve been with The Boys since 2017 and have had two ARMY memberships, I was like who cares what people think or my silly negative feelings judging me for wanting to catch some sleep, my ARMY status is still valid and I LOVE BTS! I’ll catch the recordings y’all KNOW will be EVERYWHERE LOL!

YO! I ain’t NEVAH crashed so hard from sleep deprivation on a Monday. The day didn’t even exist, that’s just how powered down I was. Omg, it was the PITS! LOL!

Granted, I totally understand this experience was many ARMY’s first true concert experience and I appreciate that. In fact, I truly believe this experience was mostly for them (and just a little bit of tiding over Map of the Soul Tour ticket holders due to the pandemic). I’m hella glad many new and tenured ARMY got to enjoy Bang Bang Con.

With what little I caught, I did have some takeaways which made me love BTS more:

The ARMY Bomb would turn purple during ments and special footage. It really made me burn with ARMY pride and I’m sure it was BTS and Big Hit saying that they love us back.

Also! What other idol group and entertainment company is legitimately, philosophically and psychologically teaching their fandom HOW TO LOVE during times where love is needed more than ever?! None. They’re the GOAT!

Speaking of ARMY Bomb, even though the Bomb cycled through the colors of the rainbow, I had a HUUUUGE burst of energy on only four hours of sleep when it was on (once I got it to finally work (-_-)). It got me dancing and cheering much more than before (and it could’ve been that my determination paid off and I was just celebrating that the damn thing was on LOL!). I’m sure this was the engagement Big Hit intended (ღゝ◡╹)

  The personal messages BTS recorded in between concerts were adorable and yes, not only did I do my stretches but I also took Jin’s behavioral cues (cause Big Hit didn’t translate NOTHIN!) and bought the special edition Map of the Soul lightstick LOL!

Stage cameramen have had a come up! There were cameras panning EVERYWHERE in HYYH on Stage and HYYH: Epilogue as if they didn’t know where to focus! I wanted to see the full OT7 formation in Butterfly and the cameraman was like NOPE! Second time around we got a GLIMPSE! But Wings and 4th Muster were juuuust right LOL!

I TOTALLY loved seeing all the representation on the LCD screens behind BTS during Miss Right but I ESPECIALLY loved the black kinky haired girl! #SheBeMe

Nevermind was on EVERYTHING during HYYH era, so I can see now why Jimin got that word tattooed on him. It definitely has very strong significance for him let alone his 3rd Muster stage (Also, I think JK had something to do with it being the tattoo-head he is *shhhhh*).

 It was amazing to see physically how and hear vocally how BTS matured. It was like seeing the growth I missed out on because I wasn’t a fan of theirs until later in their career. Ain’t gonna lie, the sexy choreo during HYYH had me cringing. They looked like babies! I kept going, “NOOOO! I dun wanna!” (;´Д`).

Cause I’m weird like this and know the feeling very well, I thought BTS is gonna look back at these concerts and GO, “Damn I was pretty slick back then.” You know like older people talk about their aesthetics like “You couldn’t tell me nothin!” They’re also gonna be like how the hell was I ever that small cause teenage and 20s weight is NOTHING like 30s+ weight LOL!

I didn’t believe ARMY’s interpretation of the 4th Muster VCRs but…BTS really did get high on their own supply! I mean, Jin didn’t mean to, he was just an accidental overdose, but Hobi and the rest of The Boys TOT-TAH-LEE did! LOL! I’d flippin love a pic of Jin trippin with alpacas around him if any of you have it 💜!

The BIGGEST takeaway is that millions of ARMY got to celebrate together. #BangBangCon was trending, friends were posting pictures of themselves with their Bombs, snacks and soju. ARMY were checking on each other like “Did you make it?!” There was a lot of love being shown all around and I think that’s most important. I’ve never felt so much love from a group, including ARMY, that I’ve never met but the feeling was genuinely there.

That’s it for this super long post! I hope you enjoyed reliving some moments with me. Post what you loved most about Bang Bang Con below in the comments (I wanna relive your moments tooooooo! (*˘︶˘*).:*♡) and don’t forget to like the post!

Borahae and Stay Fighting 💜

Y'all, I'mma keep it real. I'mma Bang Bang Con Reject. I didn't make it through 24-hours worth of concert footage and I'm fine with it LOL! Y'all, I'mma keep it real. I'mma Bang Bang Con Reject. I didn't make it through 24-hours worth of concert footage and I'm fine with it LOL!