#Aziz 1x10

[academyofbrokenhearts]

Nothing to add to this excellent analysis, except I do kinda judge Dilruba a bit for telling Efnan that Aziz's favourite colour is red, and then appearing at the engagement party in a red dress. It came off so petty, and for what?

Nobody can convince me the show didn’t know EXACTLY what it was doing by having Aziz feed Efnan by hand, putting his fingers into her mouth as she opens it.

Ummmm

But on a less salacious note, I do adore that he noticed she missed her meal.

The thing that I love is that this is a very shippy scene but even in the midst of their blissed out bliss we see some of little issues that become an avalanche by the end of the ep - she is gorgeously dressed by his aunt but that dress is not great for weaving and in general she’s finding it tight and uncomfortable - her finding the fancy beautiful clothes constraining and her hair up uncomfortable is a running theme through this episode - her fairytale crown has thorns in it.

And the thing, there is zero Aziz’s fault in it - he clearly doesn’t care what she wears, he lets her choose to be a weaver after a marriage or not, he prefers her hair down, he makes it explicit that if what others want makes her unhappy, she shouldn’t do it even if that other is him. He tries to put them on equal footing over and over, for example in this lovely scene:

But the thing is, she still won’t tell him she is not happy with dresses etc - he asks her point blank in the feeding scene if the dress is too tight and she lies - just as she won’t say she’s not happy the engagement party thrown by his aunt is a fancy event with society people and none of her factory friends. Because everything in society has told her that his class is superior and his class’ clothes are superior etc etc - so it does not occur to her to say to him she prefers her clothes and her friends; but also because she realizes (correctly) that this is a huge messaliance, an aristocrat from the most influential family in town marrying a village weaver daughter of a beggar.

And she loves him and does not want him to be ashamed of her. And he’s perceptive but he can’t read her mind if she lies and he really IS upper class and this is his default. She insisted to Pierre early on that Aziz loves her the way she is in terms of behavior but even there she thought changing her look was required and events of this ep defeated even that - when she tells Pierre at the end she wants him to teach her how to be a lady, that is a defeat for her and that is not even anything current (as compared to former, “who is she even?”) Aziz wants but it makes so much sense. I love that fairytale is not easy. Cinderella is all great but Cinderella was an aristocrat before her evil stepmom and her prince a personalityless perfection. How would it work to live in a palace if Cinderella only knew cleaning and kitchens and the prince had a metric ton of baggage?

Because that is the thing - Aziz loves Efnan truly but he is also looking into his father’s death which is emotionally draining and there is Dilruba. He does not love her any longer but she is a huge part of his past and it attacks all Efnan’s insecurities - like when Dilruba tells her of Aziz’s various likes and how red is his favorite color blah blah. To his credit, he tries to protect Efnan and make it very clear to D to stop messing around…

But even if he is no longer in love, she is always around and every single insecurity Efnan has starts ringing - Dilruba is gorgeous and a lady and Aziz’s first love and hell she saw them banging! And then the scene where Aziz sends a beautiful red dress to Efnan for their engagement party (because red is his favorite color) and she’s so pleased and he says she is beautiful and all so sweet 

but she then sees D come in also in red. And I don’t even hate D, because she’s only human and it would be too saintly not to try to at least make Aziz think of what he’s missing but poor Efnan!

Not to mention she’s already nervous because in addition to her being a fish out of water, Aziz is late to the engagement party, because he just got a bunch of new info about his father’s death.

To Aziz’s credit, as spun up as he is (and he’s spiraling), he can still demand the right thing from D when she shows up in his dressing room, and automatically know what is right and wrong and try to do right by Efnan.

But then D brings out info about his uncle being there the night his father died and yeah - I genuinely don’t think she tries to ruin the engagement consciously, but it’s not really real in her eyes and all she wants is to show Aziz she still cares and she doesn’t think about fallout at all. And Efnan comes in and is understandably wtf about her fiance alone in a room with his ex and Aziz is too fucked up from all this to even reassure her properly though even a minute ago he was so conscious of her possible concerns and tailored his actions accordingly. And then he gets a note from an important witness who says it’s the last chance to meet him before he leaves and his brain shortcircuits and he stops thinking of anything but that and rushes out to meet the man even as Efnan pleads - because he’s so consumed and messed up by all of this he can’t even think how it would look and make her feel to have the fiance walk out on the engagement party.

And i honestly get it, I get both of them - he actually kept it together for longer than I thought and he didn’t peace out to enjoy himself but to ultimately attempt to murder his uncle.

But that is the problem - it’s understandable but it was horrible for Efnan and is yet another consequence of being with someone with baggage. And of course, her supposed happy day turned into horror is not over yet. The day where her fiance who arrived late walked out on the engagement party seemingly on the words of his ex (he didn’t even explain to E, he was in such a rush) leaving her among haughty strangers looking down on her, is about to get way way worse, when her horrifying father crashes the party, insulting her and demanding money.

And she walks out of the house, distraught, and asks Pierre to turn her into a lady, as I mentioned…

But you know what hit me so hard? This was one of her worst moments and Aziz was not there to protect her. He’s protected her constantly since he came into her life (to be fair she protected him just as hard), but here, in a moment she needed protection so hugely and when he should have been the most at her side, he was not there, chasing the past instead of caring for his future. And it makes sense, it makes sense, but I hope that she won’t just be heartbroken, I hope she will be angry for his failing her - he did not when they were strangers and now they are engaged and he’s nowhere - I don’t want her to just be “if only I were worthier,” I want her to lose it at him. The show realizes transforming into a lady is not a solution and would make her miserable for no reason (Aziz walked out because of murder investigation, she could have been a princess and he still would have) - she does not need to change, she needs confidence in who she is - but I also want him to realize he fucked up.

I do so love that class differences and the fact that he’s older and so with a bunch of baggage don’t magically go away!

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Aziz, 1x10

[katherine-mcnamara]

love YOU!!!!!!! what gifs are you working on right now? *chinhands*

LOVE YOU TOOO!!!!! I hope your week is going well!! 💖💖💖

OKAY SO, I have a bunch i'm mulling between but right this minute the gifs i'm probably going to complete in the next few weeks are:

Katherine McNamara in Untitled Horror Movie Katherine McNamara in Shadowhunters 1x01 Katherine McNamara in Shadowhunters 1x02 Katherine McNamara in Shadowhunters 1x03 Katherine McNamara in Shadowhunters 1x04 Katherine McNamara in Shadowhunters 1x10 Katherine McNamara in Trust Katherine McNamara in Arrow S07 Katherine McNamara in The Scorch Trials Katherine McNamara in The Death Cure Lucy Hale in Pretty Little Liars 7x20/21 Lucy Hale in Fantasy Island Maggie Q in Fantasy Island Veronica Ngo in Furie Omari Hardwick in Power 1x01 Omari Hardwick in Army of the Dead Omari Hardwick in Spell Casey Deidrick in In the Dark 1x01 Hande Ercel in Azize episode 1 Bruna Marquezine in Deus Salve o Rei Episode 2 Madelyn Cline in The Giant Dakota Johnson in Black Mass Dakota Johnson in How To Be Single Marina Ruy Barbosa in Deus Salve o Rei Episode 1 Aurora Burghart in October Faction 1x01 Thaddea Graham in The Irregulars 1x01 Daniel Wu in Into the Badlands 1x01 Lindsey Morgan in Walker 1x06 Daisy Head in Guilt 1x01 Andrea Bang in Kim's Convenience 1x01 Maddison Jaizani in Nancy Drew 2x18 Rinko Kikuchi in Pacific Rim

And those are just the ones I count as 70% done and above I have uhh so many wips but those are what's coming soon!

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Aziz, 1x10

[academyofbrokenhearts]

He angsts so beautifully. :')

I love how in love they are!

His aunt dresses her up and the way she shyly hides her head and his first words when he sees her aren’t even hello but “you are so beautiful.” My heart!!!!

Honestly, I love how he somehow looks helplessly smitten….

Just as well since his next order of business is to have a nervous breakdown with the gun his father supposedly shot himself with.

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Aziz, 1x10

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Aziz (1x08 · 1x09 · 1x10)

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Aziz touching Efnan's hair (Aziz, 1x10)

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Murat Yıldırım as Aziz Payidar in 1x10 of Aziz

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Aziz, 1x10