#Azazel did it

[shanastoryteller]

The day his deal comes due, Sam goes missing.

Dean tells himself it’s nothing, that he’s gotten caught up in some research, some last ditch, hail mary nonsense and that he’s just turned his phone off and everything’s fine, that he wouldn’t do something stupid, that he wouldn’t break his promise.

He tells himself that for the first two minutes after he cracks his eyes open and sees the empty bed across from him, and the first time his call goes straight to voicemail, and not much after that. Sam’s broken his promises over things significantly less important to him than his brother’s life.

Dean is dressed and in the Impala five minutes later, heart thudding wildly in his chest. He calls Bobby, Ellen, everyone he can think of, but none of them have heard from Sam, none of them have eyes on him. Sam was with him last night, even if he boosted a car, there’s only so far he can get.

He keeps calling, keep searching, desperate to stop whatever he’s trying to do, to find him, to see his brother one last time before he’s dragged to hell. To make sure Sam is going to be okay after he’s dragged to hell. But the hours tick down, the sun sets, and he can’t find a trace of him. He’s so exhausted and heart sick that when he goes to call Sam again it takes him a long time to read the number on his phone, eyes swimming, the time not making any sense.

1:03

That’s not possible.

That’s not –

His phone rings, blocking out the time with Bobby’s name across the screen, and he answers it but his throat is too thick to say anything.

“Dean?” Bobby says tentatively. “Are you – I got an email from Sam. It just said, I mean, did–“

“What did it say, Bobby?” he asks, even though he’s sure he knows.

Bobby sucks in a breath at his voice, because he knows just as well as Dean that he should be screaming in hell right now, not answering his phone. “To take care of you.”

Dean drops the phone, hears Bobby still talking as he grips the wheel and presses his forehead against the back of his hands. This is what he’d been afraid of. This is why he hadn’t wanted to mess with the deal in first place. This is the one thing he’d begged Sam not to do.

It's easy to find a crossroad.

The demon is laughing at him when it shows up, wicked grin in a pretty face. “That didn’t take you long, boy.”

It’s a different demon than the one he delt with, obviously, but Dean figures they all know the same shit, since demons are a bunch of gossips. “This wasn’t the deal. My brother lives and I die.”

“You traded your soul for your brother’s life,” she corrects, so amused by all this that all he wants to do is kill her, to exorcise her, to make her scream. “Just like your father traded his for yours. There’s no reason Sammy can’t make his own trade. Man, but is your family fucked up. Maybe if you’d just settled down like little Sammy wanted, you wouldn’t all be bargaining for each other’s lives like haggling at a flea market.”

“Untrade it,” he snaps. “My soul for him alive, come on, no year, no waiting, you bring him back and take me to hell right now.”

She laughs in his face. “You don’t have anything to bargain with, boy.”

“My soul,” he repeats, “That’s what this is about, isn’t?”

“Oh, it’s what it’s all about,” she says. “But Sammy’s a clever boy. You know that, don’t you? He didn’t trade his soul for your life, he didn’t have to. You didn’t die. No, he traded it for your soul. Sorry, honey, but your credits been declined.”

At first he doesn’t understand. Sam traded his soul for Dean’s, exactly, so there’s no reason he can’t trade it right back. Then he gets it.

She sees the exact moment it clicks, the moment despair and horror sweep across his face too quickly for him to stop them. “That’s right. Little brother owns your soul now. For some reason he didn’t think you’d take proper care of it. You have it because that’s where he wants it, but no one will be making any deals with you, Dean Winchester. You can’t sell a soul you don’t own.”

“You can’t,” he has to clear his throat, “you can’t just come in and change things at the eleventh hour-”

“Eleventh hour?” she interrupts. “Sammy made his deal eleven months ago.”

His mouth is so dry he can’t speak.

“Isn’t it funny?” she asks, head cocked to the side. “All this time, the deal he’s been trying to get out of wasn’t yours, but his own. Maybe the two of you might have even managed it, except you just wouldn’t help, would you? Insisting that he not research, that he not look for a way out, and he spent so much time trying to convince you, coaxing you to talk about your feelings when he knew you were safe, all he because he thought it would make you feel better when he was gone, because he couldn’t tell you the truth and talk about how scared he was, so talking about your fear was as close as he could get.”

Dean’s going to be sick. “Don’t – please, please, I’ll give you anything-”

“You don’t have anything,” she says, gleeful. “You want to know why I agreed? The thing that made it just too delicious to refuse? Sammy’s down there, just starting in on an eternity of torture, and all he has to do get out of it is give up your soul. It’s his, after all, and he can put the original deal back in place any time he chooses. Just one moment of weakness on his end and his beloved big brother will be on the rack instead.” She sighs happily. “It’s almost as good as anything we’re doing to him down there, the knowledge that if he slips up for even a moment then it would all be for nothing. I couldn’t have found a way to twist the knife deeper if I tried.”

There’s vomit crawling its way up his throat and he has to swallow it down before he can speak. “I can’t – I’ll do whatever you want, please, there has to be something.”

She leans forward, cruelty and delight shining in her eyes. “The only thing you can do is what you’ve been telling your precious baby brother to do for the past year. Accept it. Move on. Live a good life so his sacrifice isn’t in vain.”

God. How can she – how can Sammy expect him to –

He’s doubling over, finally upchucking what little he’s ate today, and he’s dry heaving on the dirt when he hears the fading sound of her laughter.

This can’t be real. This has to be Hell, he has to be in it right now. He has to be.

[lonewolf638]

hypothetically what if i said they should have fucked

[wowieeitsisa]

Miscellaneous tboi doods

[candycryptids]

Malta and Azazel go to the carnival for a spirited night out OuO There's a new haunted house that Az thinks Malta will like...

... And of course Louis is there to meander about while Malta bullies Az with all the jumpscares...

Azazel uses He/Him and belongs to @meatybits Malta uses They/It

[horrorshow]

You’re the one I’m rooting for. It was about you. It’s always been about you.

SUPERNATURAL 2.21 All Hell Breaks Loose (Part 1)

[aliusfrater]

[tainted-esau]

Woa

[pragainfernal]

Azazel

(alt ver)

[incesthemes]

as i've rewatched seasons 1 and 2 of supernatural i've been pondering and hypothesizing reasons why john was so adamant on not letting sam know about his destiny. why he was so intent on keeping this secret, why he didn't want sam knowing about monsters, why his role in their hunts appeared to be research-oriented and thus away from the action. my perspective on ignorance and censorship is that it enables further harm, so if john were going to effectively protect sam, it would stand to reason that sam should have a comprehensive understanding of his destiny and what he's up against: give him the tools to fight.

this is obviously not the route john went, so then i have to question why that is—what about censorship was so appealing to him that he thought it not only the best way to keep sam safe, but perhaps even the only way to keep him safe, based on how he begged even dean to keep sam's fate a secret from him in his final words?

so i got to thinking. namely, about the fact that azazel wants sam to be hunting: he killed jessica with the intent to drag him back into the life, which implies that if sam is hunting, he is going down the path azazel wants him to go—he's following his destiny. this aligns with the everpresent theme throughout season 1 that hunting is a monstrous lifestyle, that hunting turns people into monsters. if sam is destined to become a monster, then hunting is the most sure-fire way to get him there.

if azazel wants sam to hunt, then john would need to take the logical opposition and keep sam out of hunting—so, he wouldn't tell sam about monsters until he has to, he'd give sam more passive roles once sam is participating in hunts, he'd train sam in self-defense but not explain why. and importantly, he wouldn't talk about mary, who is the root cause of this lifestyle, the impetus for their revenge quest, more than he has to. if the goal is to keep sam as far away from hunting as possible, and if john is someone who thinks ignorance keeps someone safe, then this more or less explains most of how sam was raised: on the fringes of the family, excluded and sheltered.

but weirdly enough, it wasn't until i was reading east of eden the other night that i finally understood the perspective being presented: late in the novel, the character lee says "when the first innocence is gone, you can't stop."

it made me remember that sam picks. he is a character who wants to understand the world around him and his place in it. if something is bothering him, he turns it over in his head until it consumes him. dean places doubt in sam's head in 2x10 and it obliterates him by 2x11. he's convinced he's going to become some horrible monster because he never stops thinking and trying to figure things out. when his memory is wiped in 4x17 and normal guy sam wesson finds out his coworker is the guy from his weird dreams, he pursues him relentlessly until they're back hunting. when he discovers the wall death put in his mind to keep his hell trauma out in season 6, he pushes and can't stop until it starts crumbling around him. he's intelligent and clever and he wants to know everything. and when he doesn't know, he picks.

and the only way to stop a person like that from picking is to not let them know that there's something to pick at in the first place. that's what the quote from east of eden means: once you catch wind of something, you want to pursue it until you're satisfied. curiosity kills the cat.

and what john is up against is fate itself. something that isn't supposed to be messed with, something that's supposed to be unavoidable. so trying to thwart it is tricky business. he has to be careful.

i think working under that logic his response makes sense, even if it wound up being a self-fulfilling prophecy anyway—sam was always going to find out, and sam was always going to pick. there was nothing john could do in the end to stop it, and trying to keep sam ignorant only made him that much more desperate to know. but that's the great tragedy of it all: john was given an impossible choice, and he's a deeply flawed character. he did what he thought was best, and it only made things worse.

i like this interpretation because it ties all of john's choices together really well; it explains a lot about his character and gives a nuanced and rather reasonable explanation for why he did what he did: a dad who wants the best for his kid does what he believes will set him up on the path to success. when the first innocence is gone, you can't stop—so john does his damnedest to keep sam innocent, even to his dying breath.

the problem comes down to that someone's damnedest isn't always good enough, and that sometimes someone's damnedest ends up benefiting the enemy instead.

[bardicious]

It did not register to me that it took Erik literally a year to get imprisoned into plastic hell. LMAO. A YEAR. Homeboy is actually not very good at the whole terrorist thing.

[finalgirlsamwinchester]

1.22, "Devil's Trap" | 10.3, "Soul Survivor" | W.B. Yeats, "Purgatory"

[paula-gio]

Redesigned Ameri cause I think her original outfit is so ugly. Godbless 🙏

[bobbole]

@windsweptinred The Corinthian praising Daniel

[mayoiayasep]

nooo irumafia amelie dont confine iruma to the role of a helpless princess in a tower to be saved even when he's trying to tell you that he does in fact have agency now and drive a rift between the childhood friendship bond that you share dont do that ur so sexy haha

[androids-insides]

Head cannon, or is it?

Idk. It’s a world I created*, based on something that already exists, so 🤷‍♂️

AI’s Good Omens Swapped Universe Headcannon 🎉

(I guess??)

I designed Azazel (the fallen Aziraphale) with Michael Sheen’s sort of Signature Hair, and made it a dark grey just because, but I imagine that he dyes or miracles it to be darker, because his hair is still white :]

AND

Guess what?

Tee hee :)

I know it’s sloppy: I’ve been doing original character art recently.

I also have most of the plot for this world so, if we wanted, I could start writing about it and post it here?? Is that a good idea, or is this one more pictures 🤨 (I could get the plot through pictures, but it will take SIGNIFICANTLY longer.)

*I say “created.” I didn’t create most of it. Mostly character add-ons and designs. I’m not that special 🙃

[neonmetro]

HIIII ULY ANON IS BACK, Sighs it's finally the weekend, school has been eating me alive !!!!

I hope you are doing so well neon !!!!

Soooo *looks around* for no particular reason. . .whats the relationship with Arakiel, Moloch and Azazel. . .

Azazel and Moloch. . .they are so terrible I love them. But to be completely fair they all are and I LIVE for it

Also Aishire and Bezaliel appreciation. . .I LIVE FOR THESE TWO SMMM CHAT WHAT. They are honestly so. . .they are such goobers. . .the babies ever. . .

And out of curiousity do you listen to Fish in a bird cage. . .and if you do. . .do you think any of their songs fit any of your OCs. Wink Wink nudge nudge

ALSO POLITES AND EURYLOCHUS???? I'M KILLING MYSELF THEY LOOK SO CUTE JDAJDOVOJDGRY THEY ARE SWEET MY LORD BLESS MY EYES NEON

Please. . .I need to know more about Polites, Eurylochus, and Uly. . .The babies ever !!!! What a cute friend group, nothing will happen to them surely /j

Also I honestly might just write a whole Ulysses appreciation ask. . .thanking the blorbo ever for getting me through this long week. (Theres a reason I am Ulysses loving anon chat I just love this guy) /SILLY

ALSO WHENEVER YOU SEE THIS JUST KNOW YOU ARE GREAT👍🏽REST, AND TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF, YOU ARE IMPORANT !!!1

*fades into the darkness*

-Ulysses loving anon

HI ULYANON!!!! I'VE BEEN DOING.... SMTH I HOPE YOU'VE BEEN DOING WELL!!!!

arakiel, azazel, and moloch originally had a trio sibling relationship but as im writing projmar and arakiel starts having more of an antagonistic role i don't think that dynamic will come to fruition... originally azazel and moloch kidnapped arakiel and they only got to that point by slowly warming up to them? so that should give a basis of how fucked up their relationship w each other are (its p bad tbh, arakiel does NOT like moloch and straight up wishes to kill them so they can assimilate into being one person again, and feels a strange attachment to azazel but is very much afraid of them)

bezai is terrible awful. i hope they kiss and die. literally so awful that they deserve each other

yess... i listen to fish in a birdcage...

for songs!!!! rule 4 is eve, rule 21 is death, rule 27 is ulysses, and rule 34 is kalypto. unfortunately i think kalypto is self explanatory.

POLITES AND EURYLOCHUS ARE GOING TO FUCKING DESTROY ME. I HATE IT HERE (CREATED THEM MYSELF THIS IS MY OWN DOING) THEY'RE THE WORST FRIEND GROUP EVER. THE LOUDEST ASS BITCHES EVER.

i really need to write more about them but it's pretty awful. i would say ulysses and polites only really became friends in hs, then when ulysses married penelope, eurylochus became friends w polites who is just a friend magnet.... (unrelated but agamemnon kinda forced all the achaeans to have constant meetings together so diomedes and ulysses got to bond a lot while eurylo and polites bonded a lot more)

following etm's interp of polites, his philosphy of welcoming the world with open arms is still there but he isn't stupid. he knows he has to kill because they are in a WAR and he encourages his other men to only kill in self defense, while reassuring to ulysses he won't hold the deaths of its men against it.

its a pretty big contention between eurylochus and ulysses, eurylochus wishes to kill everything after the cyclops bc he saw ulysses get a curse contract but ulysses has to hold him back

eurylo: let's kill them before we can get hurt.

ulysses: if you hurt them first, we'll all end up dead.

I WILL HAVE SO MUCH CONTENT TO FEED ME IF YOU ARE SO INCLINED TO SEE.......

THANK YOU ULYANON AHDGRVRHGGHGG i will power through another week (gripping my head