#Assassin!Peeta

[kitsune024]

Hunger Games Fanfiction

Monster by heathenpesticide (orphan_account)

| Part 1. Having Them Both | Part 2. Always |

A continuation and final installment of Having Them Both and Always. The attempt to subdue Snow has failed, and the rebels have retreated to Thirteen, but Peeta alone is captured in the City Circle. In order to avoid further torture and to protect those left in Thirteen, he accepts a bargain from Snow: replace Finnick Odair and sell his body to the Capitol. Explores Peeta's journey back to sanity as he struggles to rediscover his feelings for Katniss. The usual warnings apply: violence, torture, rape, substance abuse, self injury, language, and sex.

Chapters: 17/17

[turian]

i love seeing other people on the dash who know gale did nothing wrong though

[zenkor123]

Annie and Johanna join squad 451 WIP

Johanna and Annie join squad 451

"annie ,annie!"

"Fiiinnnick"

I told you to flee

I tried and they Found me by the lake"

Then Johanna comes in "ahh aren't you two cute,you both need a shower"

She has morphing, I take an arrow and shoot it out of her hand and then do the same with her suitcase. I hate the smell of morphling.

Johanna is angry and puts her hand in the air."

what's wrong with a little morphling? Just becuase it cuases harm in District 6 does not mean that it is any different from acahol, geesh!"

"I'm not tolerating drugs in this unit" I respond.

Behind her is Enoberia. She had agreed to defect to the rebels in exchange for immunity prior to the fall of the nut. These propos have targeted the remaining loyalists of district 2.

"Great, now there's two assassin mutts in one unit which I think should be renamed the victors purge squad "Peeta says

Finnick hears this and glares at Peeta

"Sorry" Peeta says.

Boggs has a 24 hour watch put on Annie and Annie is cuffed.

[notsocooljess]

“katniss got peeta back but she never got peeta back”

says who? like really says who!?

because suzanne collins never wrote that peeta never returned to his normal self. all she wrote was that peeta continues to have flashbacks which is plenty common for survivors of war.

if anything, she shows a number of snippets of the “old” peeta coming back through his hijacking. his memory coming back as they battle in the capitol. him not letting katniss eat the nightlock pill after she assassinated coin. planting the primrose bushes. carrying katniss to bed after she cries with buttercup. bringing fresh baked bread to breakfast the following morning. providing and receiving safety and comfort while sharing a bed with katniss at night.

seeing this common sentiment that peeta never became himself again after the war is such a crazy take to me. like yes, the war changed him. everyone who faced the war is changed. but while he was stripped of his identity, it’s clear throughout the novel that peeta and those around him fight hard and succeed at helping him come back to who he was as much as is possible for anyone who survived.

[patrickzvveig]

i keep seeing the take that "Katniss doesn't love Peeta she's just trauma bonded to him" it's making me lose my mind.

First of all, all the superior TikTok and Twitter psychologists aren't even using that term correctly. A trauma bond implies an abuser using the trauma as leverage. Neither Katniss or Peeta are abusive and you can't even make an argument about that so automatically this idea is untrue.

but more importantly- what's wrong with, outside of the abusive context, using trauma as a bond? Why does that mean that they can't love each other? This idea is so ridiculous. Peeta understand best (more than Haymitch and the other victors) what Katniss is going through. Very few people can provide emotional support to her. She has severe PTSD and the most powerful man in the entire country is attempting to plot her assassination because she's been made the face of a rebellion, in an act of defiance Peeta was also present for. Peeta, already astoundingly sympathetic to her (and others), is able to fully empathize with her. They have a shared past and have an experience that nobody else in the entire history of the games has ever had. Like are you saying Katniss feels strongly towards him because he understands and can relate to her? literally what is unhealthy or weird about that? It would be one thing if Peeta was abusive but he's not. In his normal state, he has never used the games or the shared bond they have against her and his basically only used it to help her, as well as himself.

like the basic implication is that people who have similar trauma don't actually love each other, which is just so astoundingly untrue it's really hard to even wrap my head around the idea. and if the idea is that Katniss and Peeta never would have been together if they hadn't been reaped (or she hadn't volunteered) is also not very smart, because it quite literally doesn't matter. These are the events that happen in the book and the alter Peeta and Katniss' understanding of both one another and the world at large. 2 hunger games and a rebellion is bound to fundamentally change a person in some way.

[m4sonn]

✧*̥˚ The outsiders Modern AU Headcanons *̥˚✧

- Credits to @stevelovbot on Tumblr for the inspo for this post! And also credits to my friend @peachyponyboyy who I collaborate with for these!! :3

ᴺᴼᵂ ᴾᴸᴬᵞᴵᴺᴳ : Ponyboy

• Is a big fan of the Simpsons and can quote almost any episode word by word.

• Says that The Godfather is his favorite movie ever but it’s actually Mamma Mia. He secretly loves musicals.

• Is the only one with a Tumblr account and he’s pretty active in there.

• Definitely writes fan fiction or character studies in AO3.

•The only person that knows about that and gets to read them is Johnny.

• His pfp always matches Johnny’s in any social media platform.

• When he feels annoyed/pissed by his brothers, he likes signing them up for random ass newsletters and whatnot, making sure they get spammed constantly.

• He loves digital books and owns a Kindle but he feels like nothing compares to real books.

• His bi awakening was watching hunger games with dally and seeing peeta, made things worse when he saw the fnaf movie, he’s just a wh0re for josh hutcherson. (He would’ve made the whistle baby edit /j 😣😣🔥🔥)

ᴺᴼᵂ ᴾᴸᴬᵞᴵᴺᴳ : Sodapop

• Is the only one who can actually use TikTok and he’s pretty popular. He loves doing trends with the gang, probably forcing them to do the cinnamon challenge. (they agree bc they're all stupid)

• Loves avocados a lot and gets teased for posting pictures of his meals.

• His favorite game is Assassins Creed but isn’t a big fan of the community and fandom around the game. He just wants to play it and have fun.

•Facetimes the rest of the group whenever he wants, specially Ponyboy and Darry.

ᴺᴼᵂ ᴾᴸᴬᵞᴵᴺᴳ : Darry

•He’s the owner of the only Netflix and/or any other streaming accounts of the group and is the one who pays for it. The rest of the gang add their own profiles and watch everything they want. (Or they share one account, there is no inbetween)

• Likes to keep up with the news and current affairs, so he follows a lot of reporters and activists on Twitter and Facebook. He’s subscribed to lots of newsletters for sure.

• Was the biggest football star of his school and got a scholarship thanks to it. He went to college but had to stop playing football eventually due to a freak accident on the field. However, this didn’t sadden him, since he got his diploma and works in things related to football anyways, he works as a coach for the local youth football team.

• His phone password is Ponyboy and soda’s birthdays mixed together.

• He is a big fan of No Doubt, when he found out that they were performing at Coachella, he absolutely lost it and started saving for a ticket immediately. When he went and saw them in the front row he cried, absolutely WEEPED.

• Constant listener of destiny’s child and connects with survivor on a personal level and he’s not scared to admit, you’ll sometimes hear him singing it while he’s doing stuff around the house while listening to music

ᴺᴼᵂ ᴾᴸᴬᵞᴵᴺᴳ : Dally

•Has been blocked by multiple celebrities on Twitter AND instagram, on various occasions.

•Is a very big fan of The Hunger Games and one of his favorite characters is Peeta.

•Makes sure to be the first one to text Johnny on his birthday, even if they’re standing next to each other.

•Loves crime/serial killer podcasts and has good knowledge about these topics.

•Hates going to the dentist. There is a very embarrassing video of him being out of it after getting one of his wisdom teeth removed that Johnny recorded (Dally forced Johnny to take him since he was scared).

•Is always listening to music and doesn’t like sharing his earphones unless it’s Johnny.

•Has practiced a lot of sports during his life and his favorite one so far is boxing.

•Got drunk one New Year’s Eve and confessed that Darry was like the brother he wished he had had, and that his New Years Resolution was to make it up to Darry (He never did, since he had forgotten). and nobody has ever let him live it down.

•Secret fanboy of the neighborhood, one time he thought nobody was home and started singing daddy issues at the top of his lungs, two-bit has it on video and never lets him hear the end of it about it.

• Still enjoys stealing and robbing old ladies and young children and still enjoys annoying random pretty girls on the street (so basically still and ahole)

ᴺᴼᵂ ᴾᴸᴬᵞᴵᴺᴳ : Johnny

• Wears denim overalls with cute sweaters and loves jackets with lots of pockets.

• Loves spicy food and is the only one in the group who can actually eat it without any problem.

• Has always wanted a puppy or any kind of pet but his situation at home always made it impossible. Because of this, Pony gifted him a goldfish one Christmas and they set the fish tank at the Curtis’ so Johnny could visit it as much as he wanted without risking getting his parents angry.

• He gets really attached to that fish pretty fast and treasures the gesture behind it. Pony and him name is Frost.

• Pony and him use Twitter DM’s just to send memes to each other and store them.

• He has a private Twitter account that only Pony gets to follow.

• Can speak Spanish and French.

•Owns a leather jacket that had been Dally’s a couple of years ago and takes care of it as if it was made of gold.

ᴺᴼᵂ ᴾᴸᴬᵞᴵᴺᴳ : Two-Bit

• He’s the reason why Darry had to get a Disney+ account.

• Knows all the songs from Frozen I.

• Wanted to have a mouse as a pet (since…mickey mouse, duh.) for a while but Darry refused.

• He doesn’t admit it, but he loves sweet drinks made of fruits and cocktails more than beer.

• His socks never match and they all have at least one hole in them.

• Is the one that gets the most excited about Christmas. He’s not particularly religious but he loves the decorations, and the lights, and the whole mood in general. He’s the one that always makes sure the rest of the boys have presents, even if it’s something small.

• His first time going to disney world he bawled his eyes out, like full on mental breakdown inside the park, Ponyboy and Sodapop saved up all their birthday money, allowance, and paycheck money for about a year and a half to buy the tickets. (they wanted to get a fast pass and like the entire deluxe trip for him, that's why it took so long.) Ponyboy was SO embarrassed from two-bits crying, “You’re 22, Stop. Crying. Over. Mickey.” but still was happy for him.

ᴺᴼᵂ ᴾᴸᴬᵞᴵᴺᴳ : Steve

• He tells everyone his top artist is Limp Bizkit but it's actually Queen, his top song was good old fashioned lover boy.

• Wakes up early to watch the F1 races and has never missed a season of Top Gear since he was little. His favorite was Hamilton, but ever since he saw that race with verstappen vs hamilton, his opinions have changed…

• He’s the best at playing video games, and he especially likes horror ones like Resident Evil. (absolute wh0re for Leon Kennedy, i am too tho so no shame)

• Sodapop and him are always playing online together and they sometimes let Ponyboy join them. Him and Sodapop gave ponyboy an unplugged controller once and said it was wireless (for the shitz and giggles and to see how long it took for him to notice), he realized half way through the game and told Darry who then yelled at them for 5 minutes.

• Doesn’t like TikTok and is always going about how Vine was just much better. (He’s stuck in 2014..)

• Gets angry when his texts go unanswered in the group chat (they do it on purpose since they know it pisses him off.)

• He listens to cotton eye joe on repeat, change my mind.

[thesweetnessofspring]

Worst Adapted Scene in The Hunger Games goes to...

Here we are, another worst of poll. This time we're looking at scenes that are in both the book and the movie and voting for which one was adapted the worst.

[margojacksonpotter]

Parts in Mockingjay book that should have been in the movie:

-Katniss really disliked living underground at 13. She felt claustrophobic and missed being outdoors and hunting. She never followed the schedule to train and just hid in supply closets and took naps. If anyone tried to question this, she’d show them her medical bracelet and tell them she’s mental.

- Katniss and Annie traveled from 13 to 12 with Katniss’ prep team to find Annie a wedding dress in her house in Victor’s Village. Katniss’ wedding dresses were sent back to the Capitol but she still had a few dresses from the Victory tour. Annie chose a green one. Katniss says Annie laughs at wrong times in a conversation and drifts off mid sentence but Finnick likes her so she does too.

- Peeta decorated Finnick and Annie’s wedding cake. It was part of his therapy after getting hijacked. He decorated it with blue and green waves for their district.

-Johanna and Katniss’ friendship: Johanna wanted to fight in Capitol with the Katniss and Finnick. She and Katniss were deemed too “mentally unstable” to fight. They had to start at the lowest level in training and work their way up to the top. They were even roommates for a while. Katniss noticed Johanna avoided showers and was scared of training outside in the rain. She later finds out Johanna developed a fear of water after being tortured in the Capitol by being waterboarded and electrocuted.

- Katniss was mad that Peeta was sent to fight in the Capitol so she calls Haymitch. Haymitch gives her the ultimate reality check, delivering the best line in the series: “I think it's time you flipped this little scenario around in your head. If you'd been taken by the Capitol, and hijacked, and then tried to kill Peeta, is this the way he would be treating you?” demands Haymitch. I fall silent. It isn't. It isn't how he would be treating me at all. He would be trying to get me back at any cost”.

- In the last part of the training, Johanna and Katniss go through a combat stimulation in which the person must face their greatest weakness. Katniss’ weakness was taking orders (no surprise). In Johanna’s stimulation, she faced a flood, had a flash back and panicked. She was sent back to the hospital and wasn’t allowed to the Capitol. To make her feel better, Katniss combined pine tree needles with a bandage to make a sort of fragrance bundle. Johanna said it smelled like home. 🥹

- After the silver parachutes bombs and Prim’s death, Katniss was also affected by the fire. Her skin became discolored and patchy. Peeta was also at the Capitol Circle during the bombing and was burnt as well. He and Katniss have burn scars all over their bodies that never fully go away.

-After the bombing, Katniss is described as a mental “Avox”, refusing to speak for weeks after her sisters death.

-All the stylist and prep team of the Hunger Games were assassinated, with the exception of Effie and Katniss’ prep team. The victors of the Hunger Games were killed as well except for the ones who were imprisoned in the Capitol and saved by District 13.

- The bombs decorated as silver parachutes to m@rder Capitol children was Plutarch’s idea. A Gamemaker’s touch as President Snow described. Plutarch was just as bad as Coin. He thought it made for “good television”

-After Katniss murdered Coin, she was kept in the Training Center for weeks till they figured out what to do with her. She considered s@uicide many times, either by overdosing or refusing to eat. She wouldn’t speak and sang to herself constantly. All the songs her father taught her. After the war ended, Plutarch asked her if she wanted to be a part of a singing competition he was televising in 4.

-Katniss and Peeta wrote a book about all the people they knew and details about them: Primrose, Cinna, Finnick, Peeta’s dad. Peeta drew the pictures. Haymitch helped them too, giving them information about the tributes he was forced to mentor. They plan on reading the book to their children one day.

-What happened to District 12: Hundreds of people left 13 to go back home to 12. They began finding bodies in the rubble and burying them. Madge and her family were found dead. A large hole was made in the Meadow to bury them. Then people began rebuilding the town. With the mines closed, a factory was built from the Capitol to make medicine.

[adsosfraser]

someone needs to please draw the “I’m not calling you good boy” meme with everlark where it’s peeta saying “I’m not calling you “good girl” katniss you assassinated the new dictator” or katniss being “I’m not calling you “good boy” peeta you deprived me of kisses before death match round 2” etc etc

[thgcommentfeast]

THG Comment Feast-October Round

Hello All!

Thank you so much for your input on the poll about whether or not an October feast would be on the table! The poll showed that most people would be down to have an October feast. With that said, we need to select a prompt!

Important!: This October Feast will run like the July 2024 feast. Therefore, works do not need to be newly written works. You can submit something you already published, as long as it fits in with the prompt given. Again, these fics will not be hidden from the public at any point!

The winning prompt will be announced once this poll closes and we will begin seeking already published works fitting that prompt to add to an ao3 collection (as bookmarks) AND new works to be released October 13th, 2024 at noon EST.

An AO3 collection will be released once the poll has concluded with further details!

If you have any questions, comments, or concerns feel free to shoot a message!

-E

[thgfanfictionlibrary]

Teen and Up Rated Fics Masterlist (40)

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Created: March 24th, 2024

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i'm here, sweetheart-folkookie97 (ao3) Summary: Peeta comforts his wife during her crying spell. I've Got Snacks-Hutchabelle (ao3) Summary: Katniss has had a terrible day, but Peeta’s about to make it all better. I Just Can’t Remember Why- Epilogue-endlessnightlock (ao3) Summary: A look ahead at Katniss and Peeta’s life I Like His Face-endlessnightlock (ao3) Summary: Katniss has a thing for watching Peeta. She likes his face- likes it a lot, actually. In The End-FanficAllergy, RoseFyre (ao3) Summary: The Tributes of of the Seventy-Fourth Hunger Games deserve to be remembered and some want to be forgotten. In the Jaws of the Monster-Gamemakers (ao3) Summary: Joining Squad 451's mission to the Capitol will destroy Annie Cresta. That is, if her own mind doesn't do the job first. It Can Never Be Enough-everydayescapeartist (ao3) Summary: In the Quell, Finnick and Peeta share a few words during their shared watch after Katniss goes to sleep. It Started with a Contest-Xerxia (ao3) Summary: A modern AU look at college!everlark. Fluffy. I Wish I Would Have-hutchabelle (ao3) Summary: Peeta Mellark desperately wants to return to District 12 from the Capitol after Coin’s assassination, but he can’t go home without his doctor’s approval. Even though his life is in ruins, his biggest regrets revolve around his relationship with Katniss. By facing those, he can find his way home and back to her. Just Another Dysfunctional Holiday-FanficAllergy, RoseFyre (ao3) Summary: Thanksgiving. A time for food, fraternity, and family. A time for good thoughts, good wishes, and good feelings. At least that’s how it’s supposed to go. In Madge Undersee’s family, it’s more of a competition between her mother and her Aunt Bobbi Mellark. So when she brings her brand new beau, Gale Hawthorne, home to meet the family, things are bound to go wrong. Because it wouldn’t be Thanksgiving without a little family drama.

[kait-bait8]

The thing I love the most about the Hunger Games is Katniss’ character arc.

Katniss Everdeen in book 1 is like Harry Potter in book 7. That is to say, the Katniss we follow in THG is the strong and resilient fighter. She is brave and selfless and tough and she digs deep despite tremendous pain. She has already overcome the loss of her father and the dire circumstances of her youth. And the 74th Hunger Games should have been her boss fight.

The end of THG shows us a Katniss who is a champion, a winner, a Victor. It feels like we are at the triumphant end of a story. Until she is told that the Capitol is not happy.

In Catching Fire we learn about Katniss’ nightmares. We learn that she sometimes can’t look at Prim without seeing Rue. We see her relationships begin to strain and change.

Katniss finding out that she will be going back into the games is one of my all time favorite scenes. Because in THG Katniss is in Survival Mode from the second she steps onto the platform. She holds back her tears and tries to look indifferent for the sponsors. But in CF she shatters. She flees. She cries and drinks and screams. She isn’t strong or resilient or even a little brave. And you just don’t see heroes react like that in other stories. But you can’t tell me it’s possible to read that scene and not feel your own stomach twist at the thought of that reality.

When Peeta hits the barrier and his heart stops Katniss loses it. It’s clear she knows about CPR from watching her mother, the same way she knew about blood poisoning and tourniquets in the last games, but it doesn’t even occur to her until after Finnick starts kissing Peeta. She isn’t sharp and quick and able to think on her feet. She is desperate to keep Peeta and the rebellion alive and that is it. People say that the victors keep Peeta alive because “if they didn’t Katniss would kill everyone and then herself” but Katniss knew her fate. She knew she wasn’t going to survive the arena. And she knew a life without Peeta was pointless. She would have “stopped living” like her mother.

When Katniss is rescued and Peeta is not, there was no “what is the plan? How are we going to get Peeta back? How are we going to save him?” There was only enough energy and emotion to try to claw Haymitch’s eyes out.

And then we get to Mockingjay. I’ve heard people complain that they couldn’t get through the book because it was just Katniss sleeping all the time. But of course she is sleeping all the time. Of course she can hardly qualify to be a soldier. Of course she finds solace in Finnick and his rope tying.

She doesn’t assassinate President Snow on her rogue mission. She gets her friends killed. She can’t even save Prim. Katniss gets knocked out and wakes up with the War already won. She secures the safety of Panem for a time by killing Coin but even that is the act of someone who no longer cares for her own safety and well-being.

I’m not saying she doesn’t do anything, she does an incredible amount for her mental/emotional state. But she isn’t Strong or Brave or Resilient. She doesn’t dig deep because even if she did there wouldn’t be anything left. She is completely broken.

That is what makes her epilogue so beautiful. Because at the end of her story she isn’t a Victor. She isn’t The Hero. She just, learns to be okay. She falls in love and finds peace and happiness and safety. I don’t know if I would say that she ever becomes unbroken but she picks up the pieces she can salvage and does her best with them.

Katniss Everdeen’s character arc is not one of Strength. There are many strong characters. It is a study of weakness and the beauty and love and community that comes from weakness.

[mollywog]

A New Recipe

Inspired by this post by @rosegardeninwinter

“This is a lot of lemons… You’re sure this is right?”

Peeta’s peering through the opening at the door separating the kitchen from the storefront, listening with amusement. He’s been excited about this delivery all day, but had been preoccupied with a customer when he’d heard the knock at the back door. He has big plans for this citrus: plans he had apparently neglected to tell Katniss.

The kid delivering today doesn’t look familiar. Nor does he seem to realize he is speaking to The Katniss Everdeen: one half of the star-crossed-lovers of District 12, the Victor, the Mockingjay, the assassin. Right now she’s just a small obstacle in him completing his delivery run.

“It’s not all lemons, there are some oranges, and limes, and some pink things in here too.” He says defensively as he leans over, shuffling through contents within the crates and sacks, exclaiming as he finds the order form. She accepts the papers, shooting him a small smile before reviewing the contents against the list.

The delivery boy surveys the supplies wearily at the prospect of returning to the train with several pounds of unwanted fruit should she refuse it.

“Ah, here it is. You’re right!” She looks up to find the boy eyeing her quizzically. Peeta snickers imagining this boy’s confusion: why would the baker not know her own order?

Katniss must also realize the absurdity of the situation, because she looks at him apologetically. “Sorry. My husband put the order in and he definitely didn’t mention this.” She waves her hand in the direction of the fruit. “I’m just surprised.” She finishes with a small shrug.

Surprised is an apt word for Peeta’s feelings as well at present, because Katniss Everdeen just referred to him as her husband.

Continue reading on Ao3

[notsocooljess]

Do you think Peeta realises how hard Katniss is on herself?. We know from reading her inner monologue how deep her self loathing is but she doesn’t necessary wear that on her sleeve.

hey anon! i think i’ve been sitting on this ask for awhile so thanks for your patience :p

i think the victory tour probably gives peeta a lot of insight into this. realizing she has nightmares multiple times a night, the way she responds to the man’s death in district 11 like she killed him herself, the overall despair in her mood until snow confirms it wasn’t enough i think would give him some idea. also, i think her willingness to self-sacrifice so he could win the quell is a little telling, and her suicide attempt after assassinating coin, too.

this is somewhat complicated because of the nature of their relationship and general outsider’s perspective. her actions on the victory tour can be seen from a response of anxiety/fear without factoring in the self-loathing. coin’s assassination has so many possible explanations that self-loathing could be ignored. also, katniss’s greatest self-loathing happens in mockingjay where peeta is largely absent/hijacked. i imagine after the war when they are growing back together he takes notice of it.

side note: this reminded me of my deep deep deep desire to know peeta’s thoughts about katniss trying to sacrifice herself for him. like what does he think is her reason why?

[zenkor123]

Peeta on the Brink(Peeta joins Squad 451) katniss POV

trigger warnings: False SA

After s Boggs came to talk to me about Peeta's arrival we both walked back to the tent,

I overheard Peeta say: "...my final end but in all likelihood your lover will be safe, you will kill me before she gets hurt.” Gale shook, he was nervous and lookin at peeta like he was insane. He responded with contempt in his voice

"Well mutt then you should die!"

Gale pointing his gun at Peeta to kill him but Peeta had become good at moving undetected from his work at smuggling. He applied this, kicking Gale in his nuts with his iron prosthetic leg while grabbing Gale's gun. The gun fired a burst of shots that all missed Peeta who was under the ground, the fabric in the tent ripped from the impact of the bullets. Gale collapsed to the ground, Peeta threw his gun with such force that it broke a nearby window before resuming his attention to Gale. Peeta kicked his sides with such force that he moaned and rolled until he was before me and Bogs many yards away from the camp. Gale was practically thrown in the air before rolling. Gale screamed in pain and Boggs looked down to him his eyes filled with anger and screamed. "how dare you try to murder a member of the squad! and how stupid of you to mess with Peeta Mellark, next time you do this shit I am going to have you shot on sight! You are hereby stripped of rank" Boggs brought out handcuffs and cuffed Gale. "Katniss you walk gale to the nurse, I am expelling former soldier Hawthorne from this unit." Gale was bleeding in his sides from the force of Peeta's kick. I saw Peeta sipping his morphling as Jackson was cuffing him. "Won't this interfere with combat?" He asks, but Jackson answers "We shall take these off for the propos." Peeta continued to protest, "With what just happened with Gale how am I going to fight the capital if I will be gunned down beforehand by the people with the keys to my cuffs before I can snap a single peacekeepers neck?" But then Peeta's expression shows a frustrated empty look. "You know what? fuck it! just get it over with. I don't want to watch every last one of you all be blown up on suicide missions ordered by Coin to have you killed just fucking shoot me. Here I will go get Gale's gun. Have fun with those pods. Dealing with a unit who hate me and will gun me down before I can show the capital my wrath is not how I want to spend my last days on earth " "no you fucking won't! " Boggs says entering the tent after having Gale cuffed. As I watch Peeta begin to walk towards the broken window 3 guards tackle him. Boggs walks to Peeta who says to him "Your leader, Coin supposed that the propos needed 'colour' but I'm not here for propos and I suspect neither is anyone else. There never was avoiding the 76th Hunger Games, no matter which side won, but I will not play by the rules, I will take Snow’s men down with me!"

How am I going to take Boggs holo and assassinate Snow without Gale? There must be some way to get Boggs to reverse the decision.

Boggs ignores all the insinuations Peeta makes and says

"First of all I'm sorry about what happened with Gale, he is being cuffed, and will be expelled from this unit, you saved alot of lives in 13, and have worked tirelessly for the rebellion ever since, your efforts will not be in vain"

Peeta responds "no my efforts were In vain, and still are, you shouldn't be here Boggs, you don't deserve to die! I don't know what I was thinking I should have let Gale shoot me"

"The will to live is very hard to snuff out, dont chicken out on us now, soldier Mellark" Boggs replies before walking out.

Peeta is now deep in thought.

Peeta mutters

"What is this idiot thinking sacrificing himself for coin, why?" a tear forms from his eye as he watches Boggs leave and says the word "why?"

I tend to Gale who is in handcuffs and ask what happened while I was gone, Gale tells me how Peeta made insane ramblings about how he died in the capital 10 days before his capture and how he is his ghost seeking revenge, when confronted about choking me Peeta didn't bat any emotion talking about how the rescue came too late for Peeta." Peeta was never this open in 13 but much of this I already knew from monitoring him and hearing him reference peices of this. I always wondered what Peeta meant when he told Prim "I watched Peeta die" and Gale gave me a clue: the point where Peeta was replaced by the mutt, I imagine the capital burning down Peeta until there is nothing left of him we were only late by 10 days! Peeta is in a much worse state then when I left to squad 451. He is on the brink of going full mutt and he knows this. Gale asks "why does district 13 love him so much?" I do not answer, his concerns about the squad members from 13 hating him are unfounded. The way he looks at Boggs show they have interacted before and 3 of the 13 guards were determined to keep him alive. He is there Jabberjay symbolizing bravery and resilience. But he is a person to 13 and not just a symbol unlike me. Though some like Leeg 1 glare at him as he goes off about Coin, I just want this mutt to leave me alone!

Boggs returns and mentions a watch. When I ask about my rotation Peeta looks exacerbated. He does not mind or care when I say killing him would be like killing a capital mutt and that Johanna's right in response to Jackson's question about if I could kill him. Holmes interjects after I answer "See, you didnt need to ask, everyone in district 13 knows that she was with Gale even when Peeta was in the capital." But Peeta looks dead inside when I am confirmed for the watch. Then when he notices me, his eyes narrow and lips curl, he looks disgusted. Many are glaring at me.

Holmes said in response to Katniss "Peeta's right your a piece of work aren't you, jumping up so eager to shoot him look at you! It's disgusting! What is Boggs thinking! Holmes is smoking morphling.

Peeta looks at Finnick and says "ouch" referring to how cutting Holmes is being.

"I said last resort" Katniss said "All I meant is that I won't let Peeta's past interfere with my duties as a guard" Katniss says wiping tears (that she shed during her outburst)

Boggs: "That's right, Jackson when her shift?

Jackson: Midnight, and also she saved Peeta's life, you weren't there for that, soldier Everdeen won't kill Peeta unless she absolutely has to.

Finnick gives him a rope.

"""When I heard that Katniss was sent to this squad, It was clear that the intertwined pain of our rotten history was coming to some sort of resolution, and in doing so it would have a profound effect on me. She has owned me, consumed me for 2 years after all. It isn't fair to say that Katniss owned me but whatever progress I make towards rebuilding hasn't gotten rid of the pain that she is still there, and I will never know just how much she is there. "Peeta sighed "In my sleep, either Katniss represents a Peeta that will never exist again, which is probably for the best, particularly for her or she is ripping my throat out manifesting lost memories" Peeta scoffed "and now she wants a guard over me, clearly acting out of a wound that is un-healable. but an escape from Katniss, from our sick history, is still possible, It's with this morphling that I will escape this pain, that my final days will not be spent reliving it." Peeta chuckled and held up his bottle of morphling, Finnick just nodded. After he put the bottle down Peeta thanked Finnick for the rope and concluded: “I'm so sick of the capital, and I'm so sick of Katniss, I don't think there is a resolution, she was touched, and suffocated and she hates me simple as that, with her outburst just now these actions continue to bring her pain and suffering."

No one gives Peeta any glare, they must think Peeta's right. Leeg even says "Peeta need not care about her that much, I'm glad he's trying to move on from her"

Peeta's comment hits me hard and I run out of the tent clutching the 13 bread and dropping my trey. He will leave me alone, as if he didn't try to choke me as if it's my fualt. It twists me He will die viewing me as a disgusting misfortune. I'm glad he is avoiding me. "So sick of the capital so sick of Katniss" begins playing in my head and the more I try to tell it to shut up the louder it plays. It becomes harder to monitor or stalk as Johanna calls it as Peeta acts like he just touched a hot oven whenever he notices me. And whenever he notices me? Peeta either gets right up walking to his tent or the mutt gives me a dirty look and begins drinking morphling to "escape" me. I have to be really stealthy, becuase I think he tolerated me stalking him before, but he isn't having it now. When he looks at me, indignation and an eye roll is added to his disgust. Sometimes when he is in an intense morphling haze he mutters, unable to notice me I hear him mutter "Kat-nis sm mm Lover Gale too should only be in me fucking memories!" I begin wondering what look his smug face would have if I shot his morphling bag with my bow. I will never be a memory! These thoughts overshadow the questions about what occurred with Peeta and Coin.

He later says to Boggs: "the real star crossed lovers are Gale and Katniss, the capital and Peeta did everything to keep them apart." Boggs says to Peeta "I know it's hard your life is falling apart but I would be a wreck just like you if I didn't have a plan,your right that this unit is more then a propo unit"

"What's the plan, Peeta asks? "Is it worth leaving your family to their fate for this plan?"

"No your right I'm destined to fall in battle but I will do more then dignify my death"

Peeta looks like he's about to cry again and chugs his morphling. "Boggs if you need any morphling I have plenty!" Boggs takes a bottle saying "Thanks!"

As I wince in disgust at Boggs taking Peeta's bottle I wonder the same thing, does he know about my plan?

Gale is put under arrest but Boggs cannot find a transport so Boggs is unable to have Gale sent to the prisons of 13. He is still cuffed, with Peeta the cuffs are only on as necessary like when parts of Peeta's body instantly gain rashes shaped like the cut from a knife or claw, not a punishment but a precaution, with Gale he has to sleep and eat with the cuffs on.

Peeta walks to Boggs his eyes filled with tears. He pleads with him to take me saying that the capital ordered pornography to be produced of the star crossed lovers. That I was a prostitute from the Seam but my true love was Gale. He claims that took advantage of this to rape me. "Peeta got what he deserved!" He says with conviction. Peeta concludes with "now do you see why she must be taken of the watch?" But Boggs is not having it, he replies simply "I don't care what shit the capital put in your head,Katniss is a member of the squad like any other." The worst thing is that there is no way the capital fabricated this, if anything they probably told Peeta I assaulted him but Peeta came up with this on his own probably drunk on morphling. Many happy memories are turned into sources of guilt for this Mutt, and are defiled. If the capital made Peeta forget he loved me, Peeta made himself believe that he hurt me. If it was possible for Peeta to come back to me, the images of rape would provide a stronger barrier to that then any amount of depictions of me as a mutt ripping his throat out. Even if he is lost taken by Snow, seeing the memory of Peeta and I in the train mutilated is enough to make me want to get out of the tent. But he follows and breaks his third window since he joined the squad. Since he came my plan to kill snow has been made more difficult first Gale tried to kill Peeta, and I can't take my mind off this assasin mutt as he calls himself. That's not mentioning that he is one fantasy knife stab away from trashing the tent. Peeta Is also urging everyone to desert the squad at every opportunity. Gale told me he told finnick that Coin would hurt Annie, Finnick has been drinking out of Peeta’s morphling supply ever since. I have not seen Mutt Peeta look so miserable since he returned from the capital his stares are cold enough to freeze the mellark bakery oven and are freezing everywhere he looks. At the rate hes going he's going to convert the squad into morphling addicts.

Peeta has music buds in his ear and he is playing a ancient metal song called "meltdown" the song sounds like my image of Peeta's head during an episode. It plays over and over again until Boggs tells him to turn it off. He sometimes drinks so much morphling that he vomits but he does not clean it, he wallows in his filth like Haymitch. There are empty morphling bottles all over the tent attracting flies. Finnick calls Annie and tells her to run to the forest and not look back everyone hears him. I tell gale that this is Peeta's 10th bottle, he says he only sees 6 but I tell him he drank some earlier and threw out the bottles. With Peeta this drunk, he doesn't notice me when I monitor him.

Boggs does nothing as he shares Peeta's views but thinks about a plan.

It's clear Peeta is in great trouble and his execution will involve me. I wonder if he is right about this unit being an execution and I begin to make plans to escape with Gale with Boggs holo. Whatever is planned with Peeta involved me and if me and Gale simply disappeared Coin would need to think of a new way to kill squad 451 giving Boggs time to figure out a new plan.

Boggs summons me to his tent I overhear him say "Peeta is right squad 451 is an execution not a propo unit and I'm sick of pretending it isn't"

Jackson says "then what should we do"

I walk in and Boggs says "I've heard you want to kill Snow, what's your plan?"

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If I Die- Get it On Camera

Finnick and You go to what’s left of District 9 to shoot more propos for Coin, but you won’t both be coming home. 

TW: Hunger Games level violence, Blood, Death

WC: 1190

No use of Y/N

Authors note: sorry in advance

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The brisk air tickled your nose as you walked through the rubble of District 9. The capital had shown little mercy on the factory workers after the riots, leaving nothing behind but charred walls and drifting ashes. Your eyes wandered over the smoking ruins, hopelessly scanning for survivors. The smokey air choked in your throat. You tried your best not to think about all the lives that had been lost here. 

“Come on, Coin said in and out,” Gale reminded you. Coin had requested more footage for the propos, but seeing as Katniss was still recovering from Peeta’s assassination attempt, you and Finnick were her next best options. So here you were, trudging through the debris. 

Finnick’s fingers squeezed tightly around yours, “You okay?” he whispered. His soft eyes met yours.

“Yeah,” you half-smiled in return. He nodded, seeming to understand.

“Let’s have you right here,” Cressida pointed. You followed her finger to a mostly standing alleyway just off to the left. 

Everyone began to move towards their respective positions when gunfire erupted from behind.

“Get down!” Boggs shouted. Everyone scrambled to safety. You felt Finnick’s hand guiding your shoulder. Following his lead, you sat down behind a broken wall and shielded your head with your hands. A short spurt of gunshots pierced your ears, stopping after a couple of seconds. 

A deadly silence fell over the air. 

“Stay here,” Boggs ordered as he crept into the now-settling dust. You sucked a breath in through your teeth and grabbed for Finnick’s hand. Together you braced for gunfire you hoped wouldn’t come. 

Luckily it didn’t, but the unsettling feeling in your stomach remained. You had felt this feeling twice before, once in your first games, and once in your second. Neither instance was a particularly happy memory.

“All clear,” you heard someone say. The others began to crawl out from hiding. You began to move as well, but for some reason, you just couldn’t make your legs stand.  

Finnick shifted to get up, keeping his eyes on the alley for potential danger. A shiver spread throughout your body, and were you lightheaded? What was wrong with you? You’d been through the games twice, and you’d never crumbled under pressure before. You had always- Oh. Oh. Your eyes sank down, beholding a dampness spreading in your jacket. The thick black material masked the color of the substance, but your intuition told you all you needed to know. 

“Let’s get this filmed and leave,” Boggs ordered Cressida, and once again everyone began to get set.

“Finnick,” you called out faintly. At the sound of your voice, he stopped and turned to you. One look at your face caused goosebumps all over. His brow furrowed as he rushed over to your side. At the sudden movement, the rest of the group’s attention shifted over to you. 

Finnick took your hands into his. You hadn’t even noticed you were trembling until he grabbed them. Tears clouded your vision as you glanced downwards, too afraid to confirm your thoughts for yourself. Finnick swallowed heavily as he moved his hands to your zipper. Cautiously guiding it down, he revealed exactly what you were afraid of. 

“Oh my god,” His voice cracked out, “We need a medic, please!” The blood already covered most of your abdomen. The metallic tang of it punched you in the nose, stirring your stomach. A soldier appeared at your side, frantically tending to your wound, but you were disinterested. You couldn’t really feel it anymore anyway. You were more focused on the boy in front of you with panic laced in his expression.

“Finn-” You whispered and his hand came to your face. 

“You’re okay sweetheart, you’re okay,” he comforted you, sweetly caressing your cheek. His eyes searched your face up and down, begging for a sign that you were okay. In your peripheral vision, you saw a camera raise.

Before you flew out you had both told Cressida, If we die, get it on camera, and show everyone exactly what the capitol does to their victors. You figured he might play it up for the camera, but you could tell by his eyes. He wasn’t acting.

“Stay with me, alright? Just look up here,” he soothed. Both his hands cradled your cheeks now, attempting to keep all your focus on him.

Beams of sun hit the blonde curls falling lightly over his forehead. He really was beautiful, even in a time like this. You smiled softly up at him, if you were going to die, you were glad he would be the last thing you would see. 

“Honey, stay with me. You’re not going to die, I won’t let you.” He pressed a hot kiss into your brow, still holding your face with his soft hands. 

“Finn,” you hushed his anxieties as a tear rolled down your cheek, “It’s okay.” You smiled sadly. His eyes frantically combed your expression, not understanding how you were so calm.

Your heartbeat slowed in your ears as your limbs grew heavy. Little black blurs crept into the edges of your vision. It didn’t take a genius to know what would happen next. You know that you should be freaking out, but for some reason you weren’t scared. An overwhelming calm had settled into your skin. It felt like the waves back home. That feeling when the sun kissed your cheeks while the salty water lapped at your toes. You could practically see Finnick’s cheeky smile staring back at you from across the beach. After a lifetime of hunting and being hunted, you finally felt at peace.  

Finnick’s pleas brought you back to reality, “Stop it. Please don’t leave me,” his lip quivered. He was crying now too. It was evident by his face that his thoughts were racing. You only hoped that he would feel peace like this one day too. 

A sad smile crept onto your lips, heart aching for your lover. Tenderly, you pulled his chin down to press his shaky lips against yours. They were swollen and chapped, perfectly Finnick. A glowing warmth spread through your chest to your fingertips. Whether it was from the kiss or the blood loss you weren’t sure, but you chose to believe the former. Your body tingled as you felt one of his hot teardrops hit your cheek and slide away. That’s the last thing you remember before the world went dark.

He pulled away from the kiss slowly, his heart wrenching as your body went limp against him. Trembling, he shook you lightly, a last-ditch effort to keep you with him. 

“I’m sorry,” He wept, clutching your head to him, “I’m so so sorry.”

The medic began to pack away his things, “No! Please! Help her!” He screamed, desperately looking around for anyone to help. Instead, he was met with a crowd of sympathetic eyes.

Finnick clung to your body as he pressed his face into your hair. The cameras stopped at the command of Cressida. Your death may be broadcasted all over the districts, but his grief was too personal to share. The group mourned for you in privacy as Finnick wept by your side.