#Anyways this isn't even going into my tag I'm just salty
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Okay, but Tumblr Eurofans stop being extremely toxic challenge (impossible)
#same thing every year smh#I get it my favourite didn't win either#in fact most of my faves are on the right side of the board lmao#but I swear y'all will just say the most awful things like it's no big deal#it's okay my dudes. it's literally okay.#I still haven't forgotten what y'all were saying about Duncan Laurence and Jamala#among other entries (especially the winners)#Anyways this isn't even going into my tag I'm just salty#I'll reblog some memes tomorrow when things calm down
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hrrghgh . noo don't add a silly-ass thing to uur dni that will is unwarranted except for the fact uur immature and bitter and kinda childish that'll make uu seem like a heartless immature bitch and also probably just make uu lose a lot of mewtuals for a silly immature thing aka basically no reason . uur too sexy . aha .
#➳ valentin vents#sawrry for being annoying again blocking my vent tag is available for the low low price of 0$#sigh . losing a lot of kewl mewtuals is nawt worth it .#but like stiiiiill . maybe it is . ok it isn't but like .#and i KNOW im being immature i KNOW it's not warranted my dni is literally so limited it's basically just Be Fucking Normal#and why would i do that anyways !! it's fine i am just being immature it's fine#but it isn't rlly fine . god damn it . why do i have to have emotions .#i don't even get sad anymore i get salty and spiteful . and it's probably super misdirected . but where the fuck do i direct it#that is deserved ? who's fault is this ? nobody's . so . where does my anger go .#ok i am going to shut the fuck up nyeow but if i update my dni or smth then . yea !#god i hate being at school bc i can't fucking talk 2 sora#or willow or tisse or damselle but specifically sora .#zhi has been like . keeping me from venting abt every single emotion on here . bc i just tell them .#and zhi understands ! i can be spiteful and say mean things because they know i don't mean any of it . it knows i'm just . upset .#siiiiiiigh ok actually shutting up nyeow . go reread the second tag on this post before uu decide to be annoying abt me being annoying
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Hiii! Your crush posts got me thinking. And I feel like we are missing one last scenario for them, where xdz realizes that y/n has a crush on them (before they even realize it themselves or have the chance to confess).👀👀 May I request that to complete the “trilogy”?
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XDINARY HEROES REALIZING YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON THEM
── .✦ tags; swearing, drinking
── .✦ a/n; wow my first emoji anon!!! hihi <3 you're so right. here's pt 3 to the crush trilogy (edit 11/13/2024: now with a part 4!) :)) (pt 1 | pt 2 | pt 4)
── .✦ gunil;
the only thing more shocking than the bottle stopping on him is the fact that you had agreed to play in the first place.
he's not one to deny his own feelings—the mere possibility of being shoved into a closet with you was the reason he had joined this game. honestly, he could take this whole situation as a sign in his favor. but with the way you had flattened yourself against the opposite wall as soon as you had entered, your silence palpable in the dark, narrow space, he knows that this is not the time to confess.
so, heart beating against his rib cage, he does what he does best.
you know, i actually have a funny story about getting stuck in a closet.
it works like a charm. before long, you let slip a giggle, and by the time he's done the nervousness emanating from you has receded significantly. gunil feels quite proud of himself.
i'm glad i'm in here with you. nobody else appreciates my stories like you do.
o-oh? well, they're funny, so … you trail off, and gunil thinks that is all, but then you keep going. i'm glad it's you, too.
keep it cool, gunil tells himself, but his hopes soar anyway. really? why?
w-well, you're nice, and you're always making sure i'm comfortable. and, u-um, i know what this game is usually for, and if that happened, i—um, u-uh …
he takes the plunge. you wouldn't mind kissing me?
you audibly gulp. then you take a deep breath. i wouldn't mind.
gunil doesn't care how many minutes you have left in the closet. his face almost hurts from smiling as he steps forward, finding your shoulder and then your hand, mindful of the way your breath hitches and your hand clings to his.
how about now, then?
── .✦ jungsu;
it's a bit of a thing between the two of you, sharing things. one may even consider it the basis of your friendship. from jackets and umbrellas when it rains to sections of fruit and chunks of bread during lunch, jungsu has come to cherish the way one of you is always looking after the other.
today, it's a sweet and salty pretzel from this new place just down the street. the price of the pretzel is split between the two of you, but you've each bought your own smoothies as well, and jungsu eyes the bright green of your choice with curiosity.
you take notice. it's really good, you say. do you want to try?
he does want to try it, and therein lies the dilemma. sharing a pretzel is fine. chips, apple slices, ice cream if you each have your own spoons—all of these things he can share with you without a second thought. but drinks? he looks at the straw in your cup and imagines tasting where your lips have been, and the terrible fluster of heat crawling up his neck has him stumbling over his words.
it takes a moment before your eyes widen and you let out a small oh, gripping your drink in realization.
i-i guess that would be weird, wouldn't it …?
do … do you think it's weird?
it is then that jungsu notices, completely without intention, the way your eyes flicker down and linger on his mouth before you look away.
you shake your head softly. no. not if it's you.
it's just one glance and a couple of words strung together. but as if a veil has been removed, understanding begins to dawn on him, and he gets the fluttering sense that maybe this stupid crush isn't so stupid.
tentatively, he offers his own drink to you. you swap smoothies and the way you try to hide your smile when you take a sip, looking like something out of a movie, makes him smile too.
── .✦ gaon;
his friends have been calling it a situationship. and they've started scheming, and jiseok is just about ready to dig a hole and bury himself because the last thing he needs is for you to catch wind of how down bad he is.
he should've brought a shovel today, because he's ninety-nine percent sure that the "outing" he's on right now is a double date.
your two friends sit together, coordinated outfits and all, on the train ride to the maze park. jiseok and you, with your non-matching outfits, are seated just across the aisle.
he shares a glance with you, hoping against hope that his face isn't too red.
did you know they were together?
nope.
i think we're third wheeling.
you laugh, and yeah, his face is definitely turning red.
the maze is even worse. you and jiseok somehow (and he's not dumb, he knows the others wouldn't get lost that easily) end up wandering it by yourselves. he's not complaining about it. he's thrilled, actually. but it's just ... it's you, and he likes you, and he wants to hold your hand so bad and he's not because he's not dating you.
his hand bumps against yours.
he holds his breath—then almost chokes on it when your ring and pinkie fingers hook around his without a word. balking at the sight, jiseok searches your expression for something, anything.
you shrug, seeming almost nervous. it's safer this way, right?
all he can do at the moment is nod vigorously. a dopey grin plasters itself to his face as your hand shifts to wrap around his fully, and you continue walking, not particularly concerned about racing to the exit anymore.
── .✦ o.de;
he figures it out immediately.
you have always grumbled about how seungmin can read you like a book, deciphering every carefully worded phrase and facial twitch with a swiftness that would make sherlock holmes jealous. so when he sees your expression that fateful night in your room, so soon after your heartbreak, he makes the decision to act as if everything is normal.
the problem is, you can't seem to do the same.
he wonders if you know that he knows. that he can feel the split second of stiffness when he wraps an arm around your shoulders, catch the higher pitch of your replies when he compliments you, see the new softness in your eyes when you share a smile. probably not.
romantic relationships haven't treated you kindly. seungmin wants to do it right, and that means going at your pace. he is your best friend first and foremost, and he'll always be that no matter what you decide to do.
so with every family dinner, every chaotic moment wrangling your siblings, every time you lean in just to pull away, he remains by your side. expecting nothing, hoping for everything, loving you always.
(but, god, it's torture sometimes.)
── .✦ junhan;
he isn't supposed to know.
your band is working on your latest mini album, and at your request, he stops by the studio to help out with the guitar part. it's a bit late, and he's more than a little tired, but the thought of working on music together has him feeling excited anyway.
it's fun. really, as long as he gets to play and spend time with you, hyeongjun is happy, and once he overcomes the anxiety of doing so in front of your friends, he even wonders when he can do this again.
during a short break, he excuses himself to the restroom. he checks his phone and replies to a couple texts, so it takes a little longer than planned.
the door to the studio is open a crack when he returns. but just as he's about to push it open further, the mention of his name stops him in his tracks.
—and hyeongjun?
have you not been here the past two hours? i'll bet 30,000 won that they're sneaking around right now.
please. with the way our precious guitarist looks at him, i'll bet 50,000 that they wish they were sneaking around.
what are you doing?
hyeongjun internally thanks himself for appearing calm at the sudden sound of your voice, even as his heart jumps into his throat when he turns around to blink at you. the gossiping in the studio hushes.
ah, nothing.
when he shuffles in with you, your bandmates alternate between avoiding eye contact or staring straight at him, and he knows he's been found out. you seem none the wiser.
the way you look at him. hyeongjun's brain goes a little fuzzy at the edges as he picks at his guitar strings, your presence next to him warm and lovely.
he is willing to wait.
── .✦ jooyeon;
for the most part, jooyeon is willing to behave himself around you.
what does that mean? well, for starters, he doesn't run off every single person who hits on you whenever you go out for drinks. hell, he doesn't even interrupt the conversation unless you seem uncomfortable. he's not your boyfriend, after all.
but this guy is making you uncomfortable, and jooyeon's more than happy to abandon social niceties and punt this clown into orbit.
he strolls over and presses himself next to you, smiling blankly when your suitor sends him an irritated look. hi. you mind fucking off?
who the fuck are you?
before jooyeon can reply with a properly unpleasant remark, you beat him to it. as far as you're concerned, my boyfriend, so get lost.
thankfully, the guy seems to be too drunk to notice how sharply jooyeon turns his head to look at you. he grumbles something and stumbles away, and jooyeon is left standing by your side, gaze wide and smile stretching into a grin as you stare into the crowd.
boyfriend?
i'm drunk, you say.
you didn't call me your boyfriend the other times you were drunk.
it's different now.
what do you mean by different, jooyeon wants to ask. what do you mean?! but you've already squeezed his forearm and gone back to everyone else.
the rest of the night is a blur. he doesn't sleep a wink when he gets home, thinking about what you had meant, and by the time the sun rises, jooyeon has concluded that it could only mean one thing—
he has a fucking chance.
#xdh imagines#xdinary heroes x reader#xdh#xdinary heroes#gunil x reader#jungsu x reader#gaon x reader#o.de x reader#junhan x reader#jooyeon x reader#xh#xh scenarios#beecee's writing#beecee's requests#✨ anon#anon
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; where you go, i go
“Just because he is my best friend, it doesn't mean I'm gonna listen to him all the time.”
“You never listen to anyone, Barty. You just act like it. Anyway, it doesn't matter anymore,” He put his glass down right next to his knee and squeezed the bridge of his nose.
“It isn't?” Barty asked, there was something in his voice. It wasn't a cocky reply, it was genuine.
Regulus slowly turned to him, knees touching Barty’s. He could cut the tension with a knife, he could climb on his lap and settle there too. There were many choices he could make.
He slowly raised his hand and touched Barty’s cheek, he could feel his stubble poking his skin but he didn't care, he slowly caressed his cheek and Barty closed his eyes, slowly melting under Regulus’ touch.
“I missed you,” Barty whispered, eyes still closed.
Regulus trailed his thumb under his eye, he was being careful as if he was touching something that could break any minute. There was nothing that could break Barty, not even Regulus. He was sure of it, but Barty didn't seem to acknowledge that.
“Did you, now?”
np tags: @salty-wench @star4daisy @ninety-two-bees @veryinnovative @sommerregenjuniluft @orchideous-nox @bellaxisworld @spacexcowgirl @malchai @a-lilypad
#bartylus#fic: where you go i go#regulus black#barty crouch jr#stalker james potter#trans james potter#trans james/cis regulus#stalker au#snippet
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hello, sorry it's me again, you've basically become my comfort blog-
I was on reddit and out of curiosity typed in "Circe rant" because idk, I was feeling salty about the book.
I saw a post that had some legitimately good reasons and indicated that this is all just the person's opinion.
But when I checked the replies everyone was just disagreeing with them and being very rude?
Like, they complained about how the book doesn't feel feministic because Circe isn't that likable of a character? And then half the replies were "Uhh she's supposed to be morally gray" "I disagree, Madeline told her story very well." "What gave you the impression this book was supposed to be feministic??"
(Disregarding half the reviews on the cover are calling it a "great feministic piece")
I was kinda pissed so I went to post my own thought about why I really dislike Miller's take on Circe. And 80 present of the replies were just flaming me-
Some guy said people can interpret her anyway they want because she's not real. Someone said I should be more humble and that I just don't like Circe as a character (which is not true). And so on.
Something I've seen is that the Circe book fans are so sensitive good god- Whenever someone criticizes their book they go full defensive mode. Trying to reason with you when most of the time you're the one who actually knows more about the actual character-
They act like all of our concerns on the book actually have a reason and make sense? Honestly, props to us for being bold enough to voice our concerns on a book that basically has a cult following-
Again, really sorry for coming here to bother you. I'm just salty and I genuinely really like your takes
That's really sweet that you feel safe and comfy on my blog. That's what I'm trying to be. Thank you 🥹
You're not bothering me <3 I can understand being salty about the book. It makes me salty too. It's why it's honestly good to block the tags and avoid most of that stuff. Make friends and find the community that actually understand what actually went down in the Odyssey and what happened to Odysseus. There are plenty on here! :D Also quite a few who have really neat and fun stuff about Odyssey Circe while still being respectful of Odysseus!
I don't recommend trying to fight with these folks. It's frustrating but they're not gonna change their mind. As they don't want to. Inform and educate sometimes especially if people ask but don't waste so much energy on it. It's not good for you. It's okay to vent and rant but I don't recommend searching it out. <3 You'll just stress yourself out :D
I think the book is almost like, the most "basic angry feminist shlock in a bland and easy to consume can for pre-teens" book, you know? And that's why so many people cling to it. I can see SOME people taking comfort in the anger maybe?? But idk. Anyways it has so many classic "YA shit". Girlboss who has "no flaws and can do no wrong" who actually isn't a very nice person (what's with so many characters being so mean and moody???), the mean, MEAN men who are just soooo awful to her and try to push her down. The other women who are just slutty and so dumb. They don't get it. etc. etc.
I think it's a lot of younger fans who are JUST starting to see a lot of "adult shit" and it's scary so it's nice to have...idk this?? I don't understand it. As I was never really one to be into that or really even behave that way. Odysseus is much relatable and hopeful as insane as that is.
#Mad rambles#shot by odysseus#ask#tamaruaart#anti circe#anti madeline miller#odysseus#circe#tw sa mention
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Why I hate Jack Krauser for all the right reasons
Okay, so before I get lynched by someone; this is just my opinion and thoughts, I haven't played much of the original and so I'm solely going off the remake here. [I'm sorry in advance if I end up upsetting anyone. I'd be more than happy to hear other's thoughts on the topic of Krauser.] I wanna start with the obvious reason why. Killing off one of my favourites, Luis Serra. [Listen, I know it was different in the original RE4 where it was Saddler instead but let me be salty for a moment.] Luis had the Amber, he had his ticket out. He could've escaped with Ada yet helped Leon and Ashley at the same time (I know he technically still does help even after he dies by giving the lab key) But then Krauser had to come in, kill the beloved Spaniard to retrieve the Amber and proceeded to duel Leon with the intention of killing him. Just the pure malice in his voice when he says the word "Rookie". It's enough to practically send a chill. And then when Leon had originally reached for his gun and Krauser puts the same knife he killed Luis with to Leon's throat. The speed at which he moves at is terrifying. I know there's the counterargument of Krauser being controlled by the Plaga. But I still wanna go over the boss fight Krauser was Leon's mentor, that is pretty common knowledge. But just the build up to the fight. The dog tags that were left on display and the photo of rookie Leon with the words "I'M WAITING". Like, he didn't need to do that. But he did anyway.
And then the back and forth between them before the actual fight. Leon tries to talk sense into Krauser, but it's evident that Krauser was already too far gone. That is a shell of who he once was, and now he just wants to end Leon. Also the way his body mutates during the boss fight really puts the final nail in the coffin. The line "Dead? No, I've been reborn..." really shows just how lost the actual Krauser is inside that body. Now it was just a husk of a man, a mindless mutant that's set out to kill.
And by the end, when Leon hold Krauser's knife, he sees a reflection of himself in it. Unlike earlier when in that one sequence after Verdugo it was Krauser's reflection looking right back at Leon. It really just reflects for a moment as to what had occurred. Leon had defeated his mentor, the very person who had trained him to be the agent he was today. I know this isn't normally the type of stuff I post and this is just a rant that could've been summed up with "I don't like Krauser because he killed Luis :(" and me being salty about it. But I do see the appeal! I can see why people like him. Hell, I think he is a pretty damn good rival to Leon due to both their past together and how Krauser matches his skill and strength level (I know, he used to be his mentor, no shit). [Though I don't see why some people ship them. That's just not my thing.} Anyways, if you read all of that: I'm sorry. Why? It felt like I just pointed to the obvious things that happened in game with some parts probably being overlooked. Okay rant over. Have a nice rest of your time awake.
#resident evil#resident evil 4 remake#jack krauser#major krauser#resident evil krauser#re4 krauser#re4 remake#re4make#resident evil 4#re4#re leon#leon resident evil#resident evil leon#leon s kennedy#leon#leon kennedy#leon kennedy re4#leon kennedy resident evil#leon scott kennedy#re4 leon#re4r leon#luis sera resident evil#re4 luis#luis serra navarro#luis serra#luis sera#luis sera navarro
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I remember your details for things I've never considered, in your fanfics! Oddly its mostly the pregnancy fanfics that stick out to me the most, how Arthur warms up the stethoscope before using it on her, or the one about Abby waiting for vincent to come home. They've always stuck in my mind due to some of the details and how easy it was to visualize them super well, so thats what I remember the most! Good details and great at putting together scenes.
I also remember the zoned out mitsunari fanfic hehehe
Anon or not, tell me what passage, fic, line of narration, or anything you remember about me as a writer (ask was sent to the wrong blog, but I'll answer it here anyway since it is a writing related question!)
About details! I usually try to keep two main things in mind when I come up with them. First one is to keep who I'm describing in mind. With the Arthur x Reader pregnancy fic in particular, I remembered that he was a former doctor and that he has an knack for noticing and remembering small details. In the fic, he says that his partner complained last time he had checked in that the bell was cold, so for this checkup, he warmed it for his partner's sake.
Funnily enough, the stethoscope moment almost didn't happen as when I looking through my original notes, it was up for debate. Screenie below to show how the thought process sort of went (and with the timestamp pictured because I wasn't kidding when I said this fic came to me in the middle of the night, not even fully convinced I was gonna participate in Arthur Week then)
Same can be shown with the Abby waiting for Vincent fic. I'm assuming you're talking about the 'First Kicks' fic where Abby is waiting for Vincent as a storm brews outside as I also a WIP Wednesday where Vincent comes home to find her sleeping, but I'll go with First Kicks for example's sake.
Abby's a nervous person, especially worried when Vincent was caught in the storm. She calms herself when she looks at her reflection and sees her anxious self, realizing that's she's making a mountain out of a mole hill, and talks to her son to settle her nerves.
The other thing I keep in mind is an offshoot of 'show don't tell' in that, to help enrich a scene, evoke the five major senses (sight, sound, touch, smell, taste). The quiet of the room while Arthur's listens to the baby's heartbeat (so quiet, a pin dropping would sound like a gun going off), the blue satin ribbons on the reader's clothes, how the stethoscope tickles when it makes contact, etc.
Same thing with Abby's story: Abby looks at herself in the window with the rain pouring down, which breaks up her reflection as rain does on windows; hearing the door open and some muttered Dutch lets Abby know that Vincent's back; smelling the rain on him because he was just outside and got soaked in it; feeling those cold hands on her belly and her jumping back because cold (previously wet) hands touching your belly? It'd be a surprise at the very least!
And because I'm feeling cheeky, all the things can also be applied to the zoned-out Mitsunari fic (mind the summary and the tags, this is a smoot fic). Keeping both characters in mind (Houki is a proper lady that wants to try something but is a little embarrassed about it so she sneaks around to get what she wants, while Mitsunari is also a curious critter and wanted to see what Houki was trying to do and isn't judging her for tricking him) and scene-chewing in describing things with the five major senses (salty taste of Mitsunari's finger, feeling the cool air on her [redacted], hearing his whispers against her ear, seeing that Mitsun has two hands (two hands!) and where they decide to travel), things like that.
(No, I'm not screenshotting an example from that fic for propriety's sake, ya filthy animals.)
So, yeah, that's a little bit about me explaining how I do some details and how it all can come together to make a scene in a story. Kinda sorry for the rambling if this was something you knew about already, but I had fun discussing details either way.
Thanks for the ask, Scummy!
#krys talks#ask meme#writing advice#cw: pregnancy#I'll ramble some more on main's reblog tags to keep this one relatively clean in tagging#lol
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Being a Frye defender hurts so much, I get ya. My first splatfest win was Splatoween, and I'm pretty happy that Shiver didn't win this time but it kinda sucks that Frye can't win. My friend and I were screaming in the school yard when team handshake won because... Shiver man, she has won so many times it isn't fair. And I think Frye's first win was because she has the advantage of "general opinion" because spicy and sour aren't the popular preferences in general. Imagine if either Shiver or Big Man got the "Salty" option then Frye's probably gonna lose too.
I get ya, bud. I get ya... We're on the same boat floating on our river of blood-sweat-and-tears of Splatoon players. I'mnot motivated to play Splatoon again, yes I still fixate on the manga but I mostly play cookie run these days.
I was convinced fustbump would win! Yeah, we had mirror matches, but shiver always won cuz if that anyway, and then...we didn't?
In Japan they got a sweep, so I don't even know what we are doing wrong anymore, I just want to have fun, I want to be silly, I want to enjoy my time playing splatoon, I don't want to feel stressed during splatfest, anxiously going to bed after reset and dreading opening my phone cuz I know my friends are going to update me on who won, and then seeing shiver won again and going to school on a bad mood, I hate this cycle!
I've reached a point of just wishing big man wins more, just so shiver stops winning
I don't wanna be right, but after seeing the the intro dialogue of Shiver, I just gotta except she'll win...again
My sister joked that "watch Frye constantly loose but then win the final fest as a final fuck you", and it'd be funny but man, this is sorta still a shitty situation, but at this point, I'll take it 😭😭😭
Cuz like "Oh it's family, family will totally win!"
But then we look back at first bump and 😐
We get the least amount of votes we loose but shiver wins
We get the most amount of votes but still loose yet shiver wins
Yeah, anything can happen really and I am I'm constant stress about it, imma rant on my tumblr during splatfest, probably, but I won't look into the tag, I am already stressed as is with school
#salty rants#salty answers#splatoon#splatoon 3#splatfest#frosty fest#frye onaga#frye splatoon#frye splatoon 3
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Yeah I've had a S4 poster on my wall since middle school and I still have a deep deep fondness for the show, I mean I'm reading fanfics for it still, but if you think that Eurus Holmes was a good and well executed idea I don't know what to tell you :')
Unstoppable force (I really really want to rewatch some Sherlock BBC episodes and my brain won't let me do anything else) vs immovable object (none of them are actually good and I don't want to go through that experience again)
#season one is okay enough. it does the job there are things i'm not a fan of there but it's watchable it's fine#season two is where it starts. i cannot stand a scandal in belgravia for um. obvious reasons#(whatever the fuck they decided to do to massacre my girl irene and the BOOMERANG???)#hound of baskerville is okay too i suppose especially compared to the mess of the precedent ep but you can definitely see issues starting#i'll be extremely honest i've watched the great game exactly Once because it just bums me out lol#like it depresses me. the handcuffed handholding isn't enough for my heart#and then the rest uuh. well all the mary plotlines are a huge mess and reading the summaries on wikipedia makes my head hurt#it feels like trying to read soap operas summaries or something. why did it exaggerate that far mofftiss!!#in general i tend to agree with hbomberguy's video on the topic. like okay not making it a series of independent stories can be interesting#you have to make that decision knowing what the pitfalls are but i can understand wanting to do something else#(even if steven moffat really is much better at writing one-off episodes than whole seasons. i'm also salty about dr who)#but the moriarty stuff is... apart from the queer coding it doesn't work very well#especially by the end when he's dead but not but he is but no but yes? like just find a new antagonist please pl-okay maybe don't if what y#anyway yeah and also just. if you're adapting sherlock holmes you should try to keep a certain coherency with acd canon#like if what you want is just loose inspo you can go the house md way! they're not Them so they had more liberties#but (and i love him okay) this sherlock is pretty different from acd canon holmes but in a bad way#like acd holmes is so. he's super endearing? like so very very endearing#there was a post about that but it all boils down to mofftiss (especially moffat) having a specific vision of geniuses and kind of fucking#i say moffat because the 11th doctor is the same and it's so weird and frustrating#and then last of all but the actual worse stuff (because all the rest you could ignore. it has been ignored by fans a lot)#they just fucking hate the fans?? laughing at people mentioning the fandom in cons. that whole thing before ep3x1 with the theories.#the queerbaiting. they just. didn't like us at all?? for some reason?? like babe you gotta tolerate us we're the only ones watching lol#i mean the fandom wasn't doing anything wrong (or mostly it wasn't) but in cons and interviews esp moffat acted like he hated them#which. cardinal sin. like jenny nicholson said if your ending makes the audience feel like idiots for getting invested it sucks#and the queerbaiting is really bad holy shit. atrocious.#that said i'm rereading some beautifulfiction works and excellent excellent fic from this fandom + i love the characters dearly#i say canon acd holmes or like granada holmes are super endearing but i'm sooo attached to bbc sherlock it's insane#the poster is staying UP on my wall. i made a sherlock inspired pottery skull okay. this show is not giving up its place in my heart#i just love it so much that it hurts when it's bad because we could've had it all babygirl :((((#wow i have a ramble tag now
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Finally rereading The Outsiders like I said I would. I think I'll probably be doing a chapter a day, even though it's short enough that I could probably bust it out in one or two sittings. I'm really prone to burnout and I am trying to write a bit each day and I have a job to work and adult tasks to do and such, so a chapter sounds like a good goal with that considered.
Also, I'm sick as a fucking dog while reading this first chapter. Not relevant, just a little fun fact.
Anyway, have my thoughts while I read it!!
The Outsiders Reread : Chapter One Notes
less than a page in and I'm already tired of Ponyboy being Not Like The Other Girls
he's 14, that's positive, I should not be able to stomach a well-written 14 year old on account of them acting very 14, but also shut the fuck up
"yeah, I read books, unlike EVERYONE ELSE" go to hell
not to intentionally misread and water down a character, but Ponyboy saying "but sometimes I just don't use my head" is literally all you need to fucking know. that's it, that's the book
we get it, Pony, you come from a very hot family, yall are all conventionally attractive. paragraphs, ffs
also, I love that Soda doesn't drink. that he has a drunk on life attitude. could absolutely never be me, love that for him, unfortunately I fw Two-Bit's vibes with alcohol a bit more--
and the fact that Soda is the only one that can tease Darry.
there isn't a single positive thing said about Dallas besides "I didn't like him, but he was smart and you had to respect him." but frfr he's so great.
but if I met any of these fuckers irl Soda is the only one that I'd have a chance in hell at not hating. and that's only because he seems like he'd be enough of an emotionally/socially intelligent people-pleaser to actively try to get someone to like him, lol.
kinda salty about Johnny being called the gangs pet, wtf Ponyboy. not like he's one person's main reason to live, is SUCH fucking ride or die, later kills a man for Pony. but yeah, he's a pet. he tags along. what the fuck ever, man. if anything, Ponyboy (you know, the person that's mainly part of the gang bc he tags along with his older brothers, the BABY of the group, the quiet & sensitive one that doesn't have a single braincell outside of pure booksmarts) is the pet. like, sure, Johnny has trauma and is really quiet, but let's be so fr right now.
despite what is said in the book (bc it's Ponyboy's pov so we only get his perspective, obviously) I'm sure Darry gets after Soda too.
also, oldest children that become parental figures in some degree are allowed to be mean to their baby siblings. it's our right. as a 20-something year old with a young teen baby brother with common sense in the negatives, I am very biased in saying that Darry is always objectively 100% correct in every situation ever (heavily exaggerating, I just relate a lot).
forever mad that we don't get more Sylvia!!! my most random fav!!! so much love to her!!! she's basically an oc with how little we get of her and how many headcanons I have, I don't even really like the main fanon version of her either, but GOD she's my girl fr
NO BECAUSE WHEN I WAS 14 IF SOMEONE PULLED THEIR OWN KNIFE TO DO A DISSECTION THE WAY MY TONGUE WOULD BE DOWN THEIR THROAT. Ponyboy, babygirl, you did NOT deserve for that girl to hate on you like that. RUDE.
"Dallas deserves everything he gets, and should get worse, if you want the truth." agreed, that's my though process as I'm making the nastiest headcanons for him. my life's goal is to make this man suffer or make him into a loser, and all my hcs do both
breaks my heart so much how Ponyboy talks about Darry, leave my boy ALONE, dude!!!
my headcanons for Darry are usually the exact opposite of my hcs for Dally, I just want this guy to have the very best ong. I'll get so unrealistic with it too, bitch, YES I'll give you an absolutely stunning sugar mommy, babe!! just stop being stressed and stop having bad things happen for a few minutes!!! I almost struggle making in character, good headcanons for him because I just want to give him fluff and filler only and nothing else--
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Thai BL Favorites List
@recentadultburnout tagged me ages ago, and i finally got around to answering 🙈 thank you for tagging me 🥰
Favorite Thai BL:
kinnporsche, hands down. no competition there. second place is more difficult to determine, however... if be my favorite sticks the landing on friday, it might win out against moonlight chicken for me, which was firmly in second place until bmf started airing 👀
Current Obsession:
be my favorite. laws of attraction. only friends. (does watching the trailer several times a day count as an obsession even though the series hasn't actually aired yet?? i think so)
Favorite Pairing:
oh boy. that's a difficult one. i'm inclined to say vegaspete. other s-tier pairings: akkayan (not counting the our skyy 2 episode 😫), guncher (ESPECIALLY counting the our skyy 2 episode 😏), seanwhite, tiwpor, palmnueng, pisaengkawi. if we're talking non-canon pairings then definitely khathachan and runzero (yes, zero had less than a minute of screen time. yes, i want him and run to fuck nasty. shut up.)
Most Underrated Actor:
book kasidet. ever since i watched abaab i've been like, why the hell are people sleeping on this guy?? he's absolutely fantastic and i am hoping and manifesting that only friends is going to be his big break-through. he's going to to be acting opposite of heavy hitters like first and khaotung, and i believe with all my heart that he's going to hold his own AND THEN SOME. my biggest wish for only friends is an emotional firstbook scene because i truly believe they'll be able to make magic together.
now, if this category were most underused actor, i'd say nodt nutthasid. GIVE MY BOY SOME ACTING ROLES!!!
Favorite Character:
oh. vegas kp? kawi bmf? cher abaab? gun msp? por msp? tiw msp? tinn msp? sound msp? every one of the msp kids??? idk
Favorite Side Character:
por msp. again lmao. he's my son and i love him.
Favorite Scene in a BL:
moonlight chicken episode 5 part 1/4, alan and wen at home before and after their breakup. i regularly rewatch that scene, it's one of THE absolute all-time highlights of television for me.
Favorite Line in a BL:
"love for our bodies, love for our minds." (bmf episode 8)
this line gave me fucking therapy. if i'm lucky, one day i will be able to put into words just what this line means to me.
Most Anticipated BL:
only friends of course. but i'm also looking forward to dangerous romance, i feel you linger in the air and man suang. i'm just hoping the movie's going to be available in europe in some way shape or form 🥺🙏
Healthiest Relationship in a BL:
this is a very weird category. why does a fictional relationship even need to be "healthy"? isn't it more important to be fun to watch? (my personal "most fun to watch" award goes to kinn and porsche.) anyway, i'd say tinngun msp.
Most Toxic Relationship in a BL:
third and khai on theory of love. also pat and jeng on step by step. and yes, i'm still salty about both of those.
Guilty Pleasure Series:
i don't feel guilty about pleasure, i'm not catholic. that said it's definitely kinnporsche 😂😂
i'm tagging @burnsuncomet and @sparklyeyedhimbo 😘💖✨
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I was tagged in this post ages ago by Yuki (@yuuugay) planned on doing it, forgot, then couldn't find it again, then finally found it the other day! So after that journey, I thought I should actually do it! Anyways, here's closeish to what I look like irl. Well, not the hair, I'm currently in dire need of a haircut. Here's the picrew I used, it's probably my favorite one because there are so many options! All the colors are slightly off from my own coloring, but I don't think I can get any closer with any picrew I've seen. (The one Yuki used is very cute. But I struggling to find hair that looked close to mine, and I feel like short hair and glasses are the two things that people notice about me first.)
Not tagging anyone because the heat has fried my brain. But feel free to consider yourself tagged if you'd like to do it too!
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The first is what I look like when out, and the second is when I'm home and my partner just told a bad joke. If it's really bad I'll throw in an epic eyeroll along with the face, lol! Under the cut is a little rant about my hair taking it's sweet time to go gray. Yes, you read that right, and yes I'm salty about it!
Ever since I was a little kid I knew I'd have pretty gray hair, because most of my older family members do. And a lot of people in my family start graying quite young, late teens to early twenties is pretty common. I didn't find my first gray until I was in my late twenties and I was so excited! I could finally start looking forward to the pretty gray hair I've always known I'd have. It has been over a decade and my hair still isn't even 5% gray! What's up with that? Apparently it's too much to ask that I have a head of sparkly silvery-white hair! No offense to my brown hair, it's a nice cool-toned medium brown, but it's kinda basic. But my gray hair is so pretty and actually sparkles and I want more of it! For all the shit my body puts me through you'd think it could at least give me this, lol!
#no one asked for that rant but I was in a mood I guess lol#yes I'm pretty much that pale - my face looks a smidge darker because I have a hint of a tan and mild rosacea#not that I can really tan (or want to because skin cancer isn't a fun time)#but even a little bit of time outside and I'll get a faint tan and then burn not long after that if I'm in direct sunlight lol#am I practically a vampire with how much I avoid direct sunlight? yes#fun with picrews#tag game
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ughh ty for ur amazing tags it was so disgusting how they were 1. telling on themselves claiming poc and fat people aren't attractive and 2. wishing racism and body shaming on an actor in the name of justice(??). not that im surprised anyway their crowd was the one that demonized lucas and ignored caleb for years. one of my favorite characters is patrick and he wasn't allowed even a nightmare sequence he was just forgotten by the narrative and brushed off. a Black victim of abuse not even given a voice, just forcibly suppressed and used to move the plot along to fuel jason's satanic bullshit. he is ignored by the large majority of the fandom that focuses all their attention on white boy of the week but think hating billy is enough to compensate for their favouritism and racism. i hate how poc are treated in this show but its not enough for ppl to just direct all their performative criticism on a character they want actual racist harassment directed at them too. so disgusting.
i don't normally beef on the internet (i much prefer throwing hands irl actually, but ppl seem to enjoy hiding their shit behind a screen lol), but i really did such a hard double take at those tags.
i really can't fathom tearing down another character because your fav gets shit. i fully understand that characters like lucas and argyle don't get a lot of attention and that's likely a combination of a) the duffer's own bias sidelining those characters, and b) fans' bias in ignoring poc. that doesn't mean i'm gonna throw hands with your average eddie or steve stan or whatever, i don't find that productive. i'd rather engage with fans that already enjoy my fav or are open to consuming content about them and encourage (in this long winded example) eddie stans to enjoy argyle content without making them feel guilty about their blorbo.
same goes for every time i see someone thinking that if they kick down billy it will elevate nancy or lucas or max or eddie or steve. it's petty, it doesn't work, and the only things that result from it are a) an echo chambers where all your fellow salty mutuals will yes man you, or b) ppl who like what you just talked shit about are gonna roll up asking what your damage is. lo and behold.
even putting all of the dumb nancy vs billy nonsense aside (and for the record i think the duffers badly wrote both characters in different ways), those fucking tags were just. SUCH an accidental slip reveal of what that person really thinks. i don't think they're a horrible person or whatever but they're definitely a dick and think that as long as they hate the right character they're correct and good.
like you said, wishing bigotry on a person/character just because you don't like them is a weird fucking thing to say. at that point i barely care what the context of the post was. can you imagine saying that out loud in a room full of fat ppl/poc? i don't think any of them are gonna come to the conclusion that you mean it as a roundabouts insult against a popular hot white actor/character and go 'oh yes haha you're so right i totally think fans hating him for being brown/fat is preferable'. i personally would have torn down whoever said that shit to me irl, that's some white ass performative activism i don't have time for, but it seems like ppl don't think about how the shit they say would sound out loud irl to the very ppl they seem to be trying to support
nevermind that any given piece of billy fanfiction and an awful lot of fanart explores the trauma billy has gone through more than it goes 'ah yes blonde boy hot'. we can have tho conversations without being pricks saying shit in bad faith about it. like, most billy fans i see are huge fans of patrick and mourn his lost potential. because we know how the duffers treat their abused characters.
this shit isn't a contest, but often the shit you say about a character affects ppl who are similar to/identity with that character. if in your pursuit to hate and spit about a character, you say shitty things that make poc, fat ppl, abuse victims, etc., feel like you're insulting them or just using them as props for your wokeness, then you need to take a step back and ask yourself if maybe you needa chill and reevaluate what you're doing. it's not a good look, and neither is the mindset that revenge and punitive 'justice' should be prioritized above healing, growth, and connection.
(like c'mon we can redeem fictional war criminals but we can't let an 18 year old being abused by his dad work through his racial biases? like the latter isn't a much more common situation that happens irl to real abused teens with bigoted parents? alright)
anyway, i'm glad you appreciated my tag rambles, i really was just word vomiting in a fury lol
if you love patrick and enjoy the idea of patrick and billy interacting, i have a # patrick mcckinley tag and a # kingr*ve tag for each respectively (i lump all my patrick and billy stuff under their ship whether platonic or romantic bc patrick stuff is scarce enough as it is). cheers!
#billy hargrove#apologies for the wank but oof today was a doozy#poc fans of billy once again and holding your hands in mine#srry if this is a bit of a late reply anon i had class#ask sketchy
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I'm not going to put the tags I'm reacting to in here because I don't want anyone to feel called out, that's not the point of what I'm saying, but I also think AC3 has a bit more nuance than is perhaps allowed for.
Even the writers felt the way they handled AC3 was a mistake. I heard this idea in a fan podcast interview with one of the writers (I'm so sorry, I can't remember exactly who, possibly it was Alex Hutchinson because I think he was the lead for 3?), and that they either should have made the game entirely about Haytham or entirely about Connor, but not both. And that writer is correct. While it does come down to Ubi making the final decision on which games get greenlit and which don't, and they're definitely not as likely to say yes to another long family saga with "unproven" characters, especially when they've just come off a long family saga and fans are possibly saying they want something different or they suspect fans want something different, I can at least sort of understand why they didn't go the obvious route, which was one game per Kenway. I'm not sure when work on Black Flag was started, but that may not have really been a thing yet, either.
To be fair, they should have trusted their writers more, and quite frankly, their fans, too. It's hard to know which characters are going to take off, but again, having that trust in your team helps instill confidence in audiences and players. You see this all the time with films and television, too.
I've always felt it was rather unfair that Ezio got three games to himself, whereas an entire family got two altogether. Now, this is down to personal preference, but to me Ezio isn't nearly as compelling a character as any one of the Kenways are, not even close. If I could go back and magically make Ubi do what I think is best, you can bet Haytham and Connor would get their own games. Would it work? Who knows? But at least each character would have been given the same time and space to develop as even one another, much less someone like Ezio.
The cuts in AC3 are really, really bad. Like, really bad. And even with that, the game is still so compelling and Haytham and Connor, two of my favourites of all the games, are still pretty well fleshed out and interesting in their own ways. But imagine if they could have been given the space to flourish like Edward (who, of course, didn't come until later, but still). Or even like Ezio.
Plus, it feels a little dirty to force the indigenous character to share a game with a man who is essentially his coloniser father. But all of that could have been explored, too! One thing I really am salty about for AC3 is how they dealt with Achilles, for lots of reasons I won't get into here. If nothing else, I wanted very desperately to know the sorts of things he was telling Connor about Haytham, because even though Rogue wasn't a thing yet, he clearly, from the dialogue, knew who Haytham was and who he was to Connor. But there's never a word about it, you're just meant to infer that Connor told him at some point or Achilles knew anyway.
So, yes, it's a pretty terrible decision all around to have made AC3 a single game for two characters, but from a certain point of view, I can understand it as a decision, even if I don't agree with it; it's a little unfair to lay everything at Ubi's door when even the writers admit they wish they'd handled it differently.
Ubi is pretty bad, but they're definitely not the most evil thing in gaming.
That's probably EA. Or maybe ActivisionBlizzard.
i do love assassin’s creed 3 but GOSH i wish it didn’t rob us of some story points…
like i know we see connor reading haytham’s journal at the beginning, but i wish we’d gotten MORE of a reaction out of him when he realized the head Templar was his father.
Likewise I know Haytham was able to put things together and figure out Connor was his son before they properly speak for the first time, but like…I wish we’d seen that realization. I wish we’d seen how Haytham initially reacted to that. How Haytham’s goonies reacted.
They give us this juicy juicy central conflict of Connor fighting against his own father and then they don’t…give us these moments. And it’s frustrating because i LOVE Connor. He’s one of my favorite assassins. But he’s got this Shakespearean level conflict going on and the game doesn’t dig into it the way it should.
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Hey, thank you for tagging me @therese-lokidottir !! :)
Now let's see if I can do this in a non-messy way lol. So in no particular order:
Loki (of course, I mean - this is my Loki blog after all! XD)
Particularly from Thor: The Dark World, tho tbh I love almost every version of him (or at the very least I care about/feel bad for him, which basically sums up my feelings for TVA Loki.
Sansa Stark (tbh my girl deserved so much better both in the writing dept and in fandom bc she was constantly crapped on by fans for basically being a traumatized feminine 13 year girl - until of course the writers botched her whole character up by turning her into Lady Vengeance bc then everyone liked her like wtaf)
I mean don't get me wrong I love Lady Vengeance Sansa - just not at the expense of her more compassionate core. She should have had more scenes with Theon as Reek damnit - we should've seen her conflicted feelings of wanting to hate this man who betrayed her family and "killed her little brothers" (in her mind bc he didn't actually kill them) and yet undeniably feeling immense sympathy for him (bc that's her goddamn character David and Dan! She's not heartless and she's definitely not revenge-driven like Arya is - like she is literally the opposite of heartless you damn hacks!) Not to mention her ultimately relating to him - not only as Ramsay's victim but as a hostage herself being as she was held captive by the Lannisters while Theon was held captive by the Starks. Like she empathizes with Theon, in a way that none of the other characters do. And tbf the series does show this aspect of her character with Sophie Turner's wonderful performance but it would've been better if the writers hadn't tried to mess that all up with Sansa and Theon's earlier scenes. (I will never not be salty about the whole "if I could do what Ramsay did to you I would" - like GIRL NO YOU WOULDN'T!) And I'm not even going to touch what those hacks made her do in the last couple of seasons bc this rant is long enough and I don't have the patience to get into all that. Which leads me to -
THEON!!! Theon Theon Theon Theon Theo-
(I mean, um, Theon Greyjoy, ha ha. 😅)
Valkyrie (Brunhilde???)
(Still salty that we never found out her name! 😤)
Margaery Tyrell
Tbh I didn't know who else to put bc I had to pick a woman character (otherwise this list would've had too many men and therefore wouldn't be even) and I was running out of mcu ladies. (Look I know there are so many to choose from but unfortunately I haven't actually seen Black Widow or Black Panther/Wakanda Forever or Moon Knight so I don't feel I can actually use such great characters like Yelena Belova or Shuri or Okoye bc tbh I feel I haven't actually seen them at their best - or at all if we're talking about Yelena. And why am I like this??? Hel if I know, I have OCD so it's probably something to do with that.)
Anyway all this to say Margaery's underrated af and while some of the writing for her was kinda sus (woman who uses sex as manipulative tactic cliche) she was still salvaged by Natalie Dormier's awesome performance so yeah - I'm putting her on the list!
Peter Parker/Spiderman
Wanda Maximoff/Scarlett Witch (how the hell did I forget about her???)
Like I related to her way too hard in Wandavision to just leave her off the list...
Dr. Jonathan Crane/Scarecrow
(Oh hey look - I have an excuse to include my babygirl here! I haven't gotten around to gushing about this guy yet but don't worry - pretty soon this blog will be infested with posts of me just rambling about him and why he's my perfect poor little meow meow. :) )
Natasha Romanoff
(I was never a huge fan of hers but after Endgame I've grown to really love her. Plus she gives off protective big sister vibes.)
Honorable Mentions:
Black Noir from The Boys. He isn't on the list simply bc I haven't actually watched The Boys, only several scenes really. But it's wild bc I ended up tearing up when I saw Black Noir's/Irving's background, who he was, what had happened to him, why he behaved the way he behaved... like even without all of the context it's hard not to get emotional about his story, especially the conclusion - all I know is I will never be able to look at Buster Beaver (a cartoon mascot that's the Chuck E Cheese of The Boys verse) without tearing up. :'(
Ramsay Bolton (aka Ramsay Snow) from Game of Thrones.
The Joker from The Dark Knight.
Yelena Belova
Alicent Hightower from House of the Dragon.
Lord Eddard Stark (aka Ned) from Game of Thrones.
Jon Snow from Game of Thrones.
Robb Stark from Game of Thrones.
Prince Zuko from Avatar: The Last Airbender.
Princess Azula from Avatar: The Last Airbender.
Bruce Wayne (aka Batman) from Batman: The Animated Series, The Dark Knight nolanverse films, and The Batman (2022).
Selina Kyle (aka Catwoman) from The Batman (2022).
Terry McGuinness (aka Batman) from Batman Beyond.
Yara Greyjoy from Game of Thrones.
Oberyn Martell from Game of Thrones.
Spike Spiegel from Cowboy Bebop.
The girls from Euphoria. Particularly Rue, but tbh I feel for all of them (yes even Cassie).
Princess Shuri, particularly from Wakanda Forever tho I already liked her even before then, I just love her more now.
Andrea Beaumont from Batman: Mask of the Phantasm.
Namor from Wakanda Forever.
Will Byers from Stranger Things.
Max from Stranger Things.
Lucas from Stranger Things.
Jonathan Byers from Stranger Things.
Robin from Stranger Things.
Eleven (aka El, Jane Hopper) from Stranger Things.
Eddie Munson from Stranger Things.
Hela - though I fully blame Galaxy (affectionate 🖤) for my growing love for her. Not that I didn't like her before but I'd never given her much thought... I read Galaxy's meta and fics.
Cersei Lannister from Game of Thrones. She is quite possibly one the most vindictive bitchs (affectionate and derogatory) to ever grace mmm)
Thor
Steven Grant Rogers
James Buchanan Barnes (aka Bucky)
Sam Wilson
Link from The Legend of Zelda series.
Prince Nuada from Hellboy: The Golden Army
A-Train from The Boys
Kimiko from The Boys
Billy Butcher from The Boys
Guts
(I'm just going to put this right here and not elaborate any further...)
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hi i uh usually don't post personal things but i don't really have anyone to talk to about this but I'm so fucking anxious rn
so i work in a pretty casual office space of about twelve people that intermediately has to work front desk type work with a different organization. technically im supposed to wear a particular polo when I'm at this location but i don't typically do cause its a pretty chill environment and no one seems to mind.
however, this last week I've been on vacation and I've been kinda salty with work contacting me about non essential things during that time (I'm hourly). but today i came in on my day off of my own free will to help cover one of the front desk positions
my director, whose management style is very micromanagey and I've had issues with boundaries before and has been the topic of discussion in various capacities with my peers and other higher ups for a while, was very weird about me being there even tho this is the one that was mainly contacting me the week before. i was gonna stay a bit later to catch up on some general office tasks after covering the position when i was informed that "you need to do that when you're actually scheduled"
which fair, but this is the first thing they said about it when my general manager was fine with it in the morning and i had done something similar before going on vacation and my cfo and another director were fine with it
anyways I'm like. alright fine I'll head out then and tell my other coworkers bye
then my general manager pulls me aside to speak privately in the hallway to the bathrooms before i leave and informs me that the next day i was to have a meeting with the director and cfo about my dress code because the other organization had made a complaint
okay, i understand that I'm at fault and I'll apologize and be like my bad, no big deal
but my manager kept prefrencing that I'm not getting fired. while i know they most likely said this due to me noticeably and verbally voicing about how i hate having to have private meetings with superiors (lots of past trauma with authority figures) even if they haven't ever been bad or negative at this job and also my just very public dismissal (we have an open concept desk arrangement and my manager sits behind me while this director sits in front of me)
so now I've been fretting and analyzing every little thing that could be what got the complaint sent in about me which would have had to be either yesterday from my first day back or from like three weeks prior the last time i was at the front desk
was it just about the polo? was it about being perceived as showing too much cleavage as an overweight big tiddie person with the recent heat? was it the funny name tag that said frog man that was a good conversation starter with visitors that one weekend? was it the asexual shirt i wore under an opened button down that one time? is it that i don't shave my legs but i sometimes wear skirts and sundresses? is it my piercings that I've had since before i got hired last year? is it because i have beef with one person in the other organization for always mansplaining and ignoring me even when they expect things that would go against not just my work's policies but actual federal law?
am i just over thinking it? yes. but also is this something that's an honest mistake, a fuck up by me, or something that is not something that i should have had a complaint filed about?
(i do typically wear business casual when at the front desk places, usually a patterned button down and jeans, or skirts / dresses with some shirt / shawl to not have bare shoulders since i see a lot of old white men when sitting at the front desk and also im slowly but surely working on my body image issues and gender dysphoria.)
i do really like this job, but if I'm going to get in serious trouble over something little like this do i even want to work here? the pay isn't great but i love the team there (outside of that one director) and the work i do.
and yeah my fashion sense is a little eccentric but it's more your dad from the 80s meets miss frizzle than anything offensive, but I've literally been thinking about this for almost eight hours after crying on the drive home and i just needed to say something to the void about my feelings and honestly i feel a bit better now
thanks for coming to my Ted talk, hopefully the next one is funnier or about my specific blorbo of the week
#personal#just thoughts and rants#please ignore me screaming into the void atm#work bs#dress code#anxiety#gender dysphoria#body image issues
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