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It's February why is my sad acting up
#probably bc when it's supposed to be dark and cold and snowy#IT'S SUNNY AND WARM AND NONSNOWY#God I hate spring and summer#And now that the days are getting longer again I can feel my mood tanking#It's 15°c for FUCKS sake#IN FEBRUARY#IN WINTER#Climate change does make you go insane#Bc I remember meters of snow when I was a kid#And now there's nothing#Anyways I'm cranky#I hate this weather#Summer and spring is always when my mood sinks into the abyss#Soy una creatura de invierno
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probably will be FORCED by Pomp And Circumstance to go to the CLOWN HOSPITAL, for a CLOWN INJURY (may or may not be An ALLEGEDLY Fractured Foot...a MOURNFUL MALADY incurred in the most PATHETIC and LAPSIDAISICAL Fashion of TRAGICALLY UNFASHIONABLY Events......
Anyway. Forgot what I was saying. Buy me 1/25th of an x-ray or whatnot I guess
#ASK ME#ASK ME HOW I ALLEGEDLY BROKE MY FOOTSIE BONSIES!!!!#shall come up with a different answer EACH time and they shall ALL be curious concerning and browraising#no but really ASK ME i have SO. MANY. ANSWERS.#(the actual answer isn't even mundane if anything it is...Up There.)#(my personal curse is the inability to give a straight answer Even And Especially when the actual accurate answer is funnier!#sometimes the actual truth of the matter is funnier! life just works like that occasionally!!!#and still it is my duty--my god calling--to decieve#anyways an object fell on me or I fell on an object. that object maybe or may not be a planet. or may or may not be an undisclosed oblong.#or both. or neither. mind your business before i suck your tax evaded beeswax right under you#...i May be slightly loopy on the adrenaline aftermath of (ALLEGEDLY) breaking some damn bones#I'm cranky and i want to hobble to the kitchen to Procure some Frozen Breakfast Food#and yet i am bound to bed for the sake of Elevating The Limb#I Am Basically Tantalus Do You Comprehend I Am Tantalus I Am A Tortured Mythological Figure And You Are Standing By Like Impotent Cupbearer#s#YOU ARE AN IMPOTENT CUPBEARER AND I AM PROMETHEUS SCREECHING AS MY INNARDS ARE WOVEN INTO STATEMENT ART#......motherfricker my ice pack is leaking
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Honestly, Crank is such a mood and might just be my MOTA spirit animal
Exhibit A : He is just so done, all of the time it's so funny
1) "What I get a passenger?" Sassy Crank who then decided to sleep through the rest of the briefing because if he has Bucky the Yapper on his plane, he will need the extra sleep if they both want to make it alive to Algeria
2) Any sequence where he is flying and Bucky's behind him and/or asking for updates on Buck. The way he just... closes his eyes like he's praying a higher deity to take the Yapper of his plane before answering is so funny. I don't know if it's because of Bucky's poorly hidden attempt at making it look like he's not asking after Buck specifically by saying "the stagglers" and Crank realising exactly why Bucky "couldn't skip this one" or simply because he's just been through hell and the war wife that yapped his way on his plane won't stop asking is he's a war widow yet but it's funny. Reminds me of a parent who just wants some sleep but their kid keeps asking questions.
3) His "Oh that makes me feel better" when the mechanic tells him of the plane's condition ("won't go very far but you won't need it" because Münster isn't far and not because Crank gets shot down not 20 minutes later mind you). I know he was probably still angry and bitter after his altercation with Bucky and the fact that Crank does Not agree with the mission's order but I just love him. He reminds me of a cranky, wet kitten
Exhibit B : He is hella competent
Every pilot is good, that's a fact. There hasn't been much focus on the pilots except for the Buckies (even though we've never seen Bucky in the left seat except that one time he was smoking in it during his war widow era), Rosie and Curt (a bit of Brady and Blakely too) so there isn't much to say about Crank specifically. BUT when Bucky, lead pilot, goes down, Crank immediately takes the lead to avoid formation going into chaos like was the case during the Bremen mission ("There was a lot of confusion when lead (Buck and DeMarco) went down, it was chaos"). And don't forget that he flew through the Regensburg mission, which was absolute hell!
Exhibit C : He is Not Afraid to speak his mind or call people on their bs
1) Him being the one to ask Bucky how he managed to be put on the Regensburg mission while very clearly already having an idea, only confirmed by Bucky's vague answer
2) Famous moment but his confrontation with Bucky (and Brady) about the Münster mission. Nobody mentioned Buck to Bucky, except Ken, but no one really mentioned the fact that the Münster mission was a revenge mission. Everybody knew it but there was that fear that mentioning Buck would set Bucky off so nobody did. But Crank does, because Buck was also his friend and so is Bucky and neither of them would have approved or encouraged the mission if they'd been here/in their right mind.
Look at the devastation on his face when Bucky tells him that "it's a war and it won't end until they hit them where it hurts". That's the face of someone seeing a friend absolutely drowning in grief turning to revenge to cope.
So Crank says "None of the people we're going to bomb today shot down Buck" and he sees the look in Bucky's eyes and knows that he may have hit the bull's eye, but it was the wrong move. Only accentuated by the fact that Bucky then makes Crank call him "sir" something that he has never done before, clearly separating himself from his friends and Crank understands that this isn't really Bucky, at least not the one he knows. Buck may have been the only one to go down but the truth is, the 100th had already lost the two Buckies
Exhibit D : He loves his people soooo much
1) The hug he gives Dougie when the goblin fort crew comes back from the dead??? Just looking at that hug I could feel how warm and comforting it was. Crank is one of the best huggers of the 100th I bet. Also Dougie being taken aback at the force of the hug that he has to take a few steps back?? Can you imagine how good and relieved Crank must have felt after losing so many friends but, just this time, one crew came back and intel was wrong, they weren't dead!! They came back!!
See Gif below :
Look at his face when he goes to hug Dougie, he can't believe he gets to see them again 🥺
2) The grief on his face when he comes back from Bremen? Not having the words to say Buck went down because they all thought that no one bailed out and the entire crew was dead? He just shakes his head in defeat. All he can think about is that they lost Buck but someone will have to tell Bucky that he lost Buck. Look at his face and tell me he didn't know it'd destroy Bucky.
3) Him calling for Bucky at the fence when the latter arrived at the Stalag. The pure joy and relief on his face ("You made it!!!"), so overwhelming that he has to take his beanie off because he arrived at the Stalag and Bucky wasn't there and he didn't arrive even days after Crank. And if Crank arrived before Brady did, then he must have thought that the entire crew was dead because he saw them go down, even took the lead afterwards. But then Brady arrived, and Bucky wasn't there and that couldn't be because if Bucky's dead then the last time Crank had ever seen him it'd been in anger and for all Crank disagreed with the mission, Bucky's his friend. But then Bucky comes and Crank is so relieved because Bucky's alive and the Buckies are back together so everything will be fine and Crank's with his friends again.
In conclusion, I love my cranky but affectionate Crank from New England, he deserves more appreciation, thank you for coming to my ted talk.
P.s.: I haven't seen MOTA post ep 6 so this post might be edited if the last 3 episodes give me Crank content :)
#crank is just so... cranky#i love him#this became a whole thing i'm sorry#at first it was just the first line and then I figured I had to justify myself a bit#anyway#more crank please#he deserves more#like being freed from the buckies#charles cruikshank#crank#mota#masters of the air#bucky egan#john egan#also formidable acting
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vega my best friend vega
#my art#oc#vega#anthro#furry#cat#i LOVE you old women i love you cranky washed up irreverent deeply unhappy old women with issues#i downloaded a new brush pack (thank you thedawner) and i finally have what is known as a ''noise brush'' - we are so back#rendering is soooooooo difficult for me. shading. texturing. etcetera#but i'm carrying on regardless and this brush helps#through death of self belief. and torrents of bad practice and neglect of studies at an early age#the self-improvement in art comes to you direct regardless. no amount of procrastination can keep it down#anyway i'm trying to make some better refs for my characters (kind of. as close to ref sheets as i can make anyway)#and this will be part of one#vega has always been a bit elusive for me to draw for whatever reason but i'm pleased with this vega face
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The thing that I think gets me about Neve the most, and this is past the point where I personally am in the game, is that you can still romance her after you've chosen to prioritize Treviso (which you can't do for Lucanis if you do the reverse). The thing is, it makes sense. Neve judges you negatively for trusting her. There's a dialogue in the Shadow Dragons hideout where Tarquin (Shadow Dragons faction agent) gripes about The Viper (Shadow Dragons faction agent and leader) running background checks on him, before admitting he'd probably do the same. And the thing is, if you tell Tarquin that this seems reasonable he accepts it, but he seems irritated. Neve doesn't.
You meet Neve striking a pose, having frozen her assailants, needing none of your help. Neve does not, on the whole, ever seem to want your help until she begs you to save Minrathous. She approves of you taking her to interrupt the ritual, and seems to be entirely unbothered by the fact that it leaves her badly bruised - indeed, you have to actively choose to leave her behind later when you go looking for Bellara.
Neve loves Minrathous and Dock Town, which means she also hates them. She takes you there, if you do the companion quest, which you should. She invites you after Bellara fangirls out over some news pieces about her (Neve drily remarks they were hit pieces), to go pick up some leads and some serials Bellara wants. For all she's sarcastic, gruff, and even a little snide with Bellara (and with my playing of Rook, who is fairly direct and positive with the Veilguard companions) and doesn't believe a Tevinter serial would ever truly end happily if it were remotely realistic, she still wants to get those serials for her teammates. She's not here to make friends, though she's slowly doing so, but she also believes in working with your allies even when they're sunny and scatterbrained or bracingly positive and you're an exhausted, cynical detective.
Exhausted is I think the most salient point. Neve is fucking tired. She tells you she's lived in Dock Town her whole life, and she became a detective, taking on cases for people who weren't helped by the Templars (who, you learn in one of the core missions prior to your choice to save only one of Minrathous and Treviso, are corrupt all the way up to the top). After solving a missing person case successfully, with an implication that she freed a slave in the process, the Shadow Dragons recruited her, but she's been doing the same work she always done. And the Shadow Dragons, meanwhile, in addition to attempting, with limited success, to infiltrate the Magistrate and fight for abolitionism, also do a lot of work like Neve's: helping people on the street. Their basement is full of unhoused and hungry people with nowhere else to go.
Neve is tired because, I think, she doesn't really believe Minrathous will get much better in her lifetime. She tells you in her companion quest, as you eat street food on the docks, looking out into the ocean, that she treasures the small wins because that's what she gets. Whereas the Crows remember a free Treviso and fight for that, Neve, in particular, feels like she's just trying to keep things from getting worse, and maybe help a few people. She's cynical because dreaming big probably won't pan out and she knows it so she's not going to waste her time.
Her work is her life. Her gift is literally just more evidence. Harding, Lucanis, and Bellara all reminisce about friends and family, but Neve still hasn't yet. You get the sense that Rana, one of the few clean Templars with whom she works, is probably the person she'd put down as an emergency contact. She doesn't even really get along with Tarquin, though, to be fair, doesn't seem like anyone does. Her world is a network of people who are useful.
I'm going somewhere with this, and that's, unsurprisingly, to Critical Role Campaign 3, because after all that here's my thesis: Neve is what people want some of Bells Hells, but especially Ashton, to be.
I've seen defense of Ashton's abrasiveness because many leftists are abrasive people, and the thing is, that's not untrue, but they're abrasive because they're like Neve: they're doing endless difficult work with very little reward or thanks, and at most they get small wins.
What has Ashton done for their communities? The Nobodies and Krook House aren't feeding the hungry or fighting corruption; the former is a group of thieves with no particular cause and the latter a punk co-op house. What was Ashton doing for the people of Jrusar or Bassuras? I struggle to find anything tangible. There's a lot of talk and no action - punk aesthetics and a lot of talk about standing for the weak, but when do they actually do that? It's all very surface level, and so the defenses of Ashton must focus entirely on what and who they are (nb, disabled, punk, had a terrible childhood) and what they say but never, ever, what they do. It's posturing.
Neve? It's entirely what she does. She is, for what it's worth, disabled and queer (and played by a woman of color, though whether she's coded as such in-game probably requires an academic background in both the history of Thedas and the history of the real-world Black Sea region) but we don't know a damn thing about her childhood yet. We don't know if she's been hurt or heartbroken or abandoned until we, as Rook, have to decide whether to do that to her. And when we do? She takes her time (she's not back yet in my game) but in the end, she blames the actual root causes of the elven gods sending the dragon and blight, and the Venatori working with them and, as far as I know, gets back to work. As she always has.
#m guards the veil#cr tag#or to be a little bit meaner about it neve is cranky in activist meetings but shows up every time and does the work#ashton posts a whole lot on social media and has never gone to an in-person meeting and then complains the world isn't fixed#anyway. neve. character of all fucking time. i'm THRILLED someone made a woman who is Like This. it's so fucking rare.
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Cranky villagers my beloved <3
This is totally not supposed to be relatable-
Don't look at me like that-
#dimple speaks#art#digital art#my art#cartoon#animal crossing#animal crossing fanart#acnh#acnh villagers#animal crossing rocco#animal crossing apollo#animal crossing marlo#acnh rocco#acnh Apollo#acnh marlo#I've been in Animal Crossing hyperfixation hell for two weeks please help#animal crossing new horizons#acnh fanart#comic#funny#i have so much art of Marlo and my oc-#im going to die cringe#i kinda want to post them but i don't know if i should#me when a fictional old cranky hamster calls me kiddo: *sobs in childhood trauma accent*#i have do many headcanons for my villagers I'm not ok-#ALSO- IDK WHY TF MY FAVORITE IS EVEN MARLO#I HAVEN'T EVEN SEEN THE GODFATHER LMAO#I'm too afraid to ask what the plot is at this point#Let me know if you want to see my human ac designs#And if you dont; I'll probably end up posting them anyway-
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Adariel Hades & Persephone AU
Where there is love
there is life ...
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"In you is the illusion of each day. You arrive like the dew to the cupped flowers. You undermine the horizon with your absence. Eternally in flight like the wave."
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the quotes are from : Mahatma Gandhi, Pablo Neruda
(( Ps: i love how the only antique source I found about his appearance says "Black-haired Hades” -Homeric Hymn 2. ))
#adariel#galadriel x adar#hades and persephone vibes#i wanted to make something because I've not seen it yet in the tag regarding AND c'mon it fits them so much!#It's basically like a vision board thingy just vibes and such - can you tell i have a thing for telling story with hands#Maybe for inspi;)#((But I'm crying! that I can't manage(d) to make a better edit as#i can't have a normal editor nor edit better anyways because my new phone is a potato!! in this matter#plus I'didnt mske edits in a long while But had to let go my maximalism to spend too much time on it because of my chronic illness flaring#Basically venting for myself eheh I'm in a cranky phase :3 anyhow..)) here here^^
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weird green triangle thing
#can you believe SU fans still exist in the year of our lord 2023#I'm trying to work out how to combine my style and the su style when drawing su characters#it's pretty difficult#anyway enjoy this sketch of the neurodivergent ace space triangle#i honestly preferred her pre-redemption arc#i loved her limb enhancers they were so cool#though redeemed goofy peri is good too#and that weird inbetween where she was cranky but kinda coming around was good#rant in tags#long tags#triskelion soda art#triskelion soda fanart#steven universe#peridot#steven universe peridot#su#steven universe fanart#su peridot#peridot su#sketch#fanart sketch#fanart#doodle
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Scenes of a Peaceful World: Sokkla Saturdays 2024
Day Six - Discipline
Rated: T
On FF.net//On AO3
The Preservers were a unique faction within the White Lotus. The group had been built, by Sokka's express demands, all training overseen by him, so that they could see to the protection of a unique location in their world.
The hardest part of such an endeavor, of course, was taking his leave from his family occasionally in order to see this enterprise succeed. If asked, of course, Sokka would always claim that the average period of time he could endure without them was five minutes, but where the world's progress and stability were concerned, both he and Azula were ready to make whatever sacrifices were necessary.
Now, the world reaped the benefits of such sacrifices… of the success of a venture many would have considered too dangerous, too worrisome to be carried out at all. Humanity could not be trusted with this kind of responsibility…
Truthfully, Sokka agreed with that notion: thus, Sokka ensured to set all kinds of boundaries and limitations around any visitors who sought to enter Wan Shi Tong's Library.
"It's amazing that this is even possible…" Aang laughed, standing in the grand, golden halls of the library, eyes glancing over the Preservers, standing guard by the Library's entrance and its main halls. Katara smiled, looping an arm around his. "But humans and spirits are actually working together."
"I might just be crazy, but… it almost sounds like there's greater balance between our nations, and worlds, than there ever was," Katara said. Aang smiled and nodded.
"It's not effortless… but the hard work is worth it. We can teach people better… show them the right path," he said, with a proud smile.
Wan Shi Tong had been persuaded to trust humanity one more time: the grand building rose out of the desert anew. The grand doors had spread open once again. Even now, however, there were limitations to the spirit's leniency: he still probed and tested newcomers, and whoever failed to earn his approval, whoever answered his questions poorly, would have to settle for waiting for another visitor to make a copy of whatever books they wanted to check or borrow.
It could be a complicated system, but one that worked fairly well: Sokka had come up with many of its solutions, including the rather obvious one of crafting safekeeping copies for every tome, for Wan Shi Tong's reassurance. The owl spirit seemed pleased with his support and cooperation… enough to allow what Sokka had never imagined he would, once he asked it of him:
A large family, either astride or walking beside dragons, crossed the Library's golden gates on the morning when the Preservers began serving in the Library.
"Wow… wow!" Shun gasped.
"This is… it's a miracle!" Rei gasped, tears in her eyes as she covered her mouth with her hands.
"Where's the owl?" Yuuna pouted.
"So many books…!" Hotaru gasped. "N-no one would be able to read them all!"
"Fortunately, Wan Shi Tong's helpers will be around to ensure you find the ones you're interested in," Azula smiled, clapping her daughter's shoulder. "Now, then… keep your dragons in check. I'm afraid that when he turns up, they'll…"
On cue, all the dragons tensed up: a dark presence, lower down the hallway, caused Yuuna's nervous dragon to squeal, jolting back with the child riding on his back.
"Hey, hey…!" Sokka clasped the dragon's reins, ensuring he wouldn't topple backwards. "No need to worry. He's not going to dissect any of us: he promised."
"It's illegal," Yuuna said, firmly. "No one can dissect a dragon."
"Yeah, I'm sure Wan Shi Tong would feel bound by that law… right?" Sokka said, turning around with an awkward smile: the owl approached gloomily, eyeing their family with an unreadable expression. Xin Long, while also tense, appeared to reassure Hotaru and Shun's dragons, though they still shivered while hiding behind him.
"I see you have arrived. The Avatar and the Preservers said you would be here today, Sokka… and you brought your family, indeed."
"Hey there," Sokka smiled, waving at Wan Shi Tong. "Guess introductions are in…!"
"No need. I know who they are," Wan Shi Tong stated. "Rei, the eldest, a scholar. You are welcome to browse my collection."
"I… I am?" Rei gasped: Azula smiled as her daughter shivered with excitement. "Y-you'd let me…?"
"Provided you do not stay until after the doors close. Our service hours are much stricter nowadays," Wan Shi Tong declared.
Rei couldn't contain her excitement, hugging Azula eagerly at the thought of examining countless books she'd had no access to before. Wan Shi Tong turned to the next child, though:
"Hotaru. You may find our collection on firebending and swordsmanship to your liking… though I suspect you would prefer to read fantasy books, today."
"I…! W-well… maybe a few. I can… I can study and have fun, right?" she said, looking at her mother expectantly. Azula smiled and nodded.
"You're free to do as you wish, provided you follow the rules," Azula assured her.
"Shun. You may browse the firebending section with your sister," Wan Shi Tong continued: the boy blushed upon being addressed, shrinking in place. "It has expanded thanks to your parents' contributions. Ensure to thank them for it."
"I-I will. I… thank you," Shun said, bowing his head towards the owl.
"Yuuna… zoology section: third floor, fifth wing."
"Good."
The child didn't bother waiting to check with her parents: she spurred her dragon to take flight, and the whole family gasped as they took off through the floors of the Library, right towards her favorite subjects.
"Sorry about…! Oh, hell," Sokka groaned.
"I'll keep an eye on her," Rei laughed, clapping Sokka's shoulder before setting out to the third floor, too.
The children scattered, with Hotaru and Shun lingering not too far from the entrance, meeting up with Aang and Katara, while Rei chased down the restless Yuuna. Wan Shi Tong watched the two kids, though it seemed his attention lingered on their dragons.
"You fulfilled your many vows to me, in your last visit," he said, turning his head towards Azula. "I feared I shouldn't have risked trusting any of your nation anew… but I took a gamble with you, and you did not disappoint. Where I have seen much of the worst of humanity… I appear to have discovered the best of it, through the two of you."
"That might be too flattering," Azula smirked. "We're hardly upstanding in every sense…"
"Indeed. Ensure not to sully my Library with improper acts this time."
"H-hey!" Sokka squeaked. "We weren't doing anything that bad! I mean, well…!"
"He walked in on us getting slightly too comfortable in his planetarium room, Sokka: he's not going to forget that," Azula said, with a dry grin.
"Indeed," Wan Shi Tong confirmed. Sokka's cheeks flushed. "That being said, you have been rather successful across the years, building a family, bringing back the dragons, as you promised… you reclaimed peace in a world that seemed beyond all hope. While I remain vigilant, and the Preservers will continue to keep tabs on all who may enter the Library's premises, I find myself at new ease with your kind. History shall always remember what humanity owes to the both of you. I will make certain to make records of it."
"Thank you," Azula bowed her head. "And… for letting my family browse your collection. We told them what a great honor you had bestowed upon us by allowing this. I know they're hardly the most disciplined children…"
"We'll keep an eye on them anyway," Sokka smiled reassuringly. "Thanks, Wan Shi Tong!"
"It is I who thanks you. Truly."
Wan Shi Tong bowed towards them, stunning Azula with the gesture: he spread his wings after, taking flight across his Library anew.
The place truly was different compared to Azula's last visit: the whole place appeared brightened with knowledge, with renewal, with the promises fulfilled between the regal couple and the ancient spirit.
"So… what do you think?" Sokka smiled, throwing an arm around Azula's shoulders. Xin Long shook his head before pressing it against Sokka's chest, startling him. "H-hey! He's gone, no need to be scared anymore…"
"He's thanking you," Azula smiled, reaching over to stroke her dragon's fur. "For everything you've done for this place… and, of course, for successfully fending off the big owl, too."
"He'll never stop being unnerved by him, I'm sure," Sokka chuckled, hugging both Azula and Xin Long with each arm. "So… what section do you guys want to start with?"
"How about we find out if anyone has written stories about us yet?" Azula smirked. Sokka snorted. "I'm curious! There's bound to be so many outlandish tales about how on earth you and I wound up together…"
"I'm sure there's a lot of sordid, raunchy ones too…"
"Eh, well. Either we've already done those things, or it'll serve as useful research for the future, right?"
Sokka snorted and cackled: Azula's mischief never failed to delight him.
They took off together, meaning to explore the place on their terms, to enjoy themselves, keeping tabs on their kids while under the watchful supervision of the Preservers, who greeted Sokka respectfully: humanity had succeeded at reconnecting with its most ancient valuable knowledge, and they had finally learned the wisdom, as well as the discipline, to honor the vows that had finally built true peace between the imposing owl and humanity at large.
#sokkla#sokka#azula#sokkla saturdays 2024#sokklasaturdays#am I taking advantage of this for some loose-end-tying-up#when I dunno if I'll get to it in the main story#MAAAAAAAAAYBE SO...#:'D#gladiator spoilers#yeah why not#anyway#I hope you guys enjoy this one#he is the man of the hour always#they are such a power couple even outside of battlefields#even the cranky owl knows it#I'm pretty proud of how this whole thread turned out srsly#I feel like I'm doing something very uncommon in the fandom with this but#hopefully it works well :'D#enjoy!
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chronic illness is so funny because everyone around you is shitting screaming throwing up wanting to kill themselves from the despair of it all but you're literally just chilling
#:)#my parents have trapped themselves in a psychological torment dimension where i have a soap opera esque terminal illness#meanwhile outside of just being sleepy 24/7 there is nothing symptomatically wrong with me#kinda stresses me out despite the fact that i'm basically the healthiest you could possibly be with this condition#like the only reason i'm doing nothing rn is because my 1 million hospital appointments make it impossible to live my life#it's very funny because to hear them talk i'm withering away and all my meds are poisoning me#even though genuinely i wouldn't even know my kidneys were fucked if i hadn't had that hypertensive migraine#anyway bluhhh just cranky at how everyone around me acts like a constant funeral procession#gonna be absolutely hilarious (unbearable) when i get biopsy 2 done and i get my probable autoimmune disease diagnosis#everything is so fun all the time yippee ^_^
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Moodboard Monday/Tidbit Tuesday ☔️
I finally managed to make a mood board for the mudslide fic that I actually kinda like, so here, have this and a tiny snippet.
Buck was still trying to wrap his head around what had happened, it was all so quick; the rain, the debris, the mudslide and then the moment of radio silence before the chaotic explosion of noise. “We’re not giving up on him.” Bobby had said at the time, but after four days, it has become abundantly clear that instead of a search and rescue, most people have already started to treat this as a recovery mission; except they still haven’t recovered the person who mattered the most. Buck buried his face into his palms, trying to breathe without choking on his own tears, cursing at Eddie in his head for leaving him here, disappearing without a trace. He took a few deep breaths and pushed himself off of the couch — Eddie’s couch, where he was sleeping the past four days, unwilling to go into the bedroom. He wanted to be close to the door in case someone else had found Eddie while Buck was wasting his time with sleep, so he could welcome Eddie home and let him take his rightful place in his own bed. It was almost childish how much Buck was clinging to this fantasy, but it was the only thing keeping him on his feet; and he knew Christopher needed him standing, now more than ever.
tags under the cut 💛
I was tagged by @daffi-990 and @wikiangela thank youuu~ 💛
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#this fic is so dear to my heart I really hope I get to finish it soon and then share it with you all 🫶#and no I still don't know where this sudden enthusiasm for mood boards is coming from lmao#also ngl buck is a right mess for the entire first half of this fic#cuz I just like to hurt him a little or a lot sometimes#eddie is going through it in a different way#also I put this into my drafts yesterday but since then I became incredibly cranky and even more insecure than usual so... TA-DA#ugh anyway one more day and I'm off work and I can finally focus on my boys full time 🫶#buddie#911#wip#the mudslide fic
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Hey. I've deleted all my pictures on here which was honestly a little painful but had to be done for reasons I'm too lazy to get into. I'll be reposting some of them (and any new ones) on another blog so if you enjoy average-quality amateur nature photography, you can find it on @greycatbird 💖
#basically i wanted to give myself a space to develop the skill & share it more broadly. huh guess i wasn't too lazy to get into it. anyway.#i don't know how to say this without sounding like i'm begging for attention which i'm not (🫵LIAR the crowd shouts) but truly#don't feel like you have to follow. the option is there but i'm not gonna be cranky if you don't. ok bye.
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okay so genuine question
why do some people feel the need to point out and explain in HEAVY detail why a certain ship "wouldn't work in canon" or "isn't realistic"
like
i have people telling me i don't have comprehension skills or media literacy because i enjoy fyolai as a ship
????
literally just leave me alone tf
firstly, these characters are fictional and we can do whatever the fuck we want with them even if that means some people are going to mischaracterize them to the point they're unrecognizable. you don't have to consume fan content like that but it is allowed to exist.
i just feel like it's pointless and it makes a lot of people (especially younger more impressionable fans) feel bad about the things they enjoy when you see these huge rants about why two characters can't be shipped because it's not canon and in canon "they would never" etc.
i respect canon. i also take canon and set it on fire then turn the ashes into whatever i want because it's fun and transformative
bsd canon has a questionable relationship with its female characters. bsd canon has made plenty of questionable choices with both its plot and its characters.
bsd canon is also a wonderful piece of media that we all enjoy for different reasons and interpret in different ways so just like...stop, y'know? it's not that hard to just not look at a certain ship's content if you dislike it, there's no need to keep screaming into the void about how it's not the way it's "meant to be" in canon
#sorry for the rant#but i just get so tired with shit like this#because it's soooo pointless#fandom is supposed to be fun and creative not policed and full of arbitrary rules#it makes me sad that so many people feel more and more uncomfortable sharing their interests online#and people tear each other down for the most unimportant things#anyway i'm gonna take a nap cause i'm clearly cranky#bungou stray dogs#bsd#fyolai#soukoku#fandom#fandom culture#bsd fandom#mini rant
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i wish i wasn't a real human person i wish i was a stupid little cartoon cat or something 😔
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Having ADHD but only having it just enough to get the like 2 symptoms left out of every conversation about ADHD fills me with an apathy that has no practical solution. Rolling up to the ADHD conversation like "Some days I can't focus and everything pisses me off and the best I can do is lay on the floor with music on and scowl at the ceiling until it stops because if I don't then I'll be mean to other people because I have no patience when I get like that" just makes everyone side-eye you because they immediately jump to the conclusion that you want to commit unspeakable acts of violence.
But a lot of people don't know that this is something people with ADHD can experience. The only time I ever see it mentioned is when I go out of my way to find research on it...
#textpost#I'm actually in a really good mood right now and had a really good day but I've been thinking about this for a while#Like I've been to a behavioral specialist this IS ADHD albeit a milder form of it but NO ONE ever talks about the Grumpy Threshold™️-#-in conversations about ADHD. It's always about how it makes people loud and easily excitable#Which are also symptoms of ADHD and I recognize that those symptoms are significantly more common than the main ones I experience#But it would be nice if there was more awareness about the cranky side of it lol#It doesn't make me physically violent or an absolute asshole it's just like being annoyed by everything cranked up to 11#Turbo grumpy. Low heat simmering frustration#Wellbutrin's helped a lot and I've figured out most of the things that causes it so I can avoid them#(shrill sounds/voices and ASMR are two big ones. *Especially* ASMR)#But some days I wake up and my brain chooses anger and there's nothing I can do about it besides ride it out rofl#Anyway thank you for coming to my TED Talk I have to go to sleep now good night
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Ollie spends their time learning about family and friendship? They're so Twilight Sparkle- *gets dragged out*
#I'M SORRY IT'LL NEVER HAPPEN AGAIN SORRY#Anyways Cranky is one of their only friend/family which is unfortunate :[#qsmp#qsmp liveblogging#badboyhalo#qsmp ollie
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