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The animatic is done!! 💕
#look outside#look outside game#look outside spoilers#art#digital art#fanart#animation#animatic#IM SO HAPPY WITH THIS#especially the ending bits... I drew some of them up to 3 times just to make SURE I got them right#Which my lazy ass almost never bothers with#THE BITS WITH SAM UNSPOOLING ARE MY PRIDE AND JOY#I wanted to make the part where they talk to the Visitor a bit worse actually#Their body being barely held together by this creature who only vaguely understands what a human being is even supposed to look like....#and if they move to fast their body literally lags and uncoils..#I wanted to have them sharply move their head and have them look distressed when their eyes lagged a behind#but oughgh I couldnt get it to look right and I was already dying from how long I spent on it so just pretend that happened and imagine it#Other notes ermmmm. I think I got the order that the astronomers joined a little mixed up. Sorry Beryl and Aurelius.#Also while drawing the DnD scene I imagined Lyle and Masked Thing holding hands now I feel like theres something there but idk what it is#Anyway do with that what you will#Also I remembered that half the reason I gave Sam a cleft pallet was cause I wanted them to keep a recognizable feature when they mutated#so on the last frame one of the breathing holes has a notch in it bcs thats the breathing hole that used to be Sams mouth :3#Idk if thats like. wholesome to anyone else but I like it. Its some remnant left of their humanity that they'll always have#Youtube
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so brown eyes, I'll hold you near, 'cause you're the only song I want to hear...
- death cab for cutie, where soul meets body (inspired by @edgebug fic of the same name ❤️)
wip detail inspired by @edgebug's fic series where soul meets body. part 3 is currently being updated so go forth and read‼️
https://archiveofourown.org/works/58664485/chapters/149477867
#wip detail#poolverine#deadpool and wolverine#deadclaws#post time ripper incident shenanigans#it's canon sorry their souls got all mixed up and shit kip said so#fanfics#fanfic recs#I imagine them getting so close they are atomically intertwined#and kip took it one step further and gave them a psychic bond wherein each of them contains a small piece of the other???#deadpool#wolverine#logan howlett#wade wilson#old man yaoi#anyway this fic is fucking me up big time please read it and let it do the same#(in a good way)#it's beautiful they are so in love it's ridiculous but Stuff Keeps Happening#and it feels sooooo right it's like damn this should be fully canon what do you mean it isnt#deadpool & wolverine#this is vaguely supposed to be like... their souls intertwining#hence why they arent wearing their suits#but wolvie still has claws so idk#just a concept idea
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Okay I'm gonna be so cringe fr but like-
I only recently started hyperfixing on my own actual original character of mine, but I figured that I'll bring up one of my fandom OC that a few people in my blog will probably understand.
His name is Sharp Sight and he's an watchdroid that formerly served under lord hater's command before being forced into decommissioned after his sudden rampage and aggression he got thanks to the error in his programming (specifically the error that caused him to act out was just him gaining a bit of sentient and not knowing how to handle an intense feelings of emotion that he developed: causing him to go berserk.)
As much as I like to ramble (I have all the notes about him stored on my phone), my brain just went blank and I can't explain them all at once. All I can tell you is that I mostly shipped him with this one canon character in the show named Killbot 86 and they're madly in love with each other your honor-


making oc's gotta be my favorite thing ever
i've got hundreds actually-
mostly for my own stories BUT !!!!
making them and designing them to be in an already set universe? figuring out how to make them interact with canon characters? FUNNIEST SHIT EVER IS SO ENTERTAINING
PLEASE, ANYONE WHO READS THIS.
REBLOG WITH YOUR OC'S !!! I WANNA SEE THEM !!! TELL ME WHATEVER YOU WANT ABOUT THEM AND I'LL READ IT ALL !!!
#woy ocs#woy#wander over yonder#oc x canon#sharp sight#Fuck i have too much to tell#Ummmm idk#Im actually thinking about my actual original character of mine#but i figure i should tell this one cause my followers might understand who he is#Anyway so sorry if i got mixed up#i got exitced to talk about my robot oc#i even have a playlist of him on Spotify#Omg#Love the fact i can listen to my favorite band and it'll remind me of him#Fuck#Anyway i can't explain much cause i have too much info but so little time#i may be cringe but at least i am free
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"The outer reaches of space remain unexplored by humankind to this day, but its greed is relentless. We grasp and yearn and hunger for knowledge— answers to questions we cry out into the endless void expecting to understand, expecting the stars to respond. The stars will not, but one day something else will— and we will not like what it has to say." — Rome Solomon, Beyond the Exosphere (1965)
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#obscura#edit:rome#nuclearocs#nuclearedits#ok so. ok hi. red and i made a new universe hi. sorry. morris quincy victor and eleanor belong to them the rest belong to meee :3#the pictures i used are basically the patron saints of their occupation / line of work! so that's not what they look like#anyway it's a mix of paranormal stuff + lovecraftian horror + sort of zombies :^)#they're like. the domains of lucifer (demons) behemoth (zombies) and leviathan (the eldritch horrors that happen in space and oceans)#who are like. the three evils that torment the mortal realm#it's all in a historical setting kind of parallel to our world? so a bunch of historic events are the same but it's like#a little bit more advanced with technology but at the same time it's not. it's Just A Little Different y'know#rome's sister went to space for a mission and just straight up went missing which prompts him to become an astronomer#and he's the first one to start speculating the existence of leviathan as eldritch god#morris is a technician at the academy who has an angel stuck in his computer#eve is a nun and herbalist who witnesses the influence of behemoth firsthand through some sick travelers#that she and the other nuns of her convent take care of#anatoly and quincy are both from different space missions who end up as the only survivors who are not basically a plant#the other two survivors have secretly been replaced with some sort of parasites. annihilation style if you've seen that movie#eleanor is a demonologist and works together with her brother victor who's her cameraman#clarence is a blind psychic who lost her sight because of an angel trying to warn her and in return got her psychic abilities#and lazarus is one of the two most famous demonologists in the world but his wife (the other one) passed away#so now he's alone and since he's not from an upper class family like his wife was he's not all that loved as she was#there's a lot going on but it's SO fucking fun to work on so far. feel free to send any asks i would love to explain more :^)#if you've made it this far also hi i love you. kiss for you
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actually i want to talk about my fic to cradle your heart for a moment because !!! there is a very significant importance about the ending of it, when venti was blinded.
one.) is that he notes his friend leaving first—venti was fully, one hundred percent, half-assing this fight. he could have finished that fight as quickly as it started, but what would that have done? what message would that send? his friend knows he is going against a god, one that used to be his friend, one that he is scrambled to keep hating. and the god the bard knew before Loomed, venti wants to be on the same leveling with the bard. venti is more so focused on the bard’s well being than his own at this point—besides, anything will simply regenerate itself, so there is not much to worry about anyway! (and. well. how that worked out.)
two.) the braids being cut off? that was a calculated move on the bard’s part. such an important and integral part of both their designs, this was bard’s attempts at rejecting venti’s gentle words and offerings. this was him saying, “there will only be one of us to do this, and it will not be you.” this was him lighting and adding to the fire to burn the bridge between them.
#there is also significance in where the bard HAD struck#at the cape. the chest. the thigh#where his wings sprout from in archon form and where his tattoos lay#the one to his wrist was a move made in frustration—the bard aims again for the area around his throat after#i ALSO wanted to get across that even though this was half asses from vens point—the fact that bard could keep up at ALL was impressive#he planned an overthrow !!! he will not win. but he will not go down without hits of his own weakening his opponent#i tried to get that across with him being a bit attuned to the anemo—such as the Near hit to when ven teleported himself behind the bars#the swinging in between the small gaps of teal#that bard 🫵 the wind is fond of#even still ….#anyways uh 🙏 got brainrot and wanted to infodump about . my own fic 😭#“why did ven not teleport out in time#for the blade” his friend !!! crying !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! he was got off guard. let the wall down for a moment#by the time the bard had the sword up to swing ven was still looking at the tears#bard vc why do you love me so much …. stop this immediately#<- feeling horrendous amounts of mixed guilt and sadness and Anger and despair woo hooo !!!!#lantern says stuff#wow there’s a lot of typos in tags. it is 1am sorry
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what’s Bright Storm like? Since she didn’t get fridged like every woman in the original dotc series
She was always curious and dependable. Bright Storm's the kind of gal who would give you the shirt off her back if she wore a shirt to give you!
Long before they set off on the Sun Trail, she would occasionally confide in Clear Sky how much she wanted to see the world. Travelers aren't unheard of; this was before the Tribe split into its 3 separate Wards and welcomed a lot of comers and goers, but it's not that no one had ever left before. It was more that she had friends and family she was committed to.
Clear Sky pressured her into it, reminding her of how much they'd see, how they'd raise their kits somewhere new, and that he'd be sad and alone forever if she didn't come. Every chance he got, he was bringing it up. He was always her weakness, she hated letting him down.
Her dependability was based on how good of a listener she was, even Gray Wing the Wise appreciated it. She was always keeping an eye out for people's wants and needs, making connections between little 'tips' she'd heard from one source or another. After Gray Wing's death, she found herself in demand for this ability.
She couldn't make a plan quite AS good as xem, but she was better at making a plan into a 'group project.' She'd brainstorm and encourage everyone to join in, putting their brains together until it all fell into place. She could be good at delegating authority based on it, too, though Tall Shadow had much more confidence than her.
And really it's her confidence that holds her back, and can you blame her?
She tried to keep Jagged Peak alive for a moon, but barely caught enough for herself, let alone him AND her unborn kittens. But how could she go back to the camp and just pretend he wasn't out here, dying?
When she goes shuffling back with her son in tow, it was humiliating, it was heartbreaking. It became soulcrushing when Clear Sky rejected her again. With just a few words, she doubted everything.
...was she capable of knowing if she was interpreting this sign correctly? ...had she done the right thing, or did she just make everything complicated? ...he's right, it must be her fault the other two died, if she hadn't--
Tall Shadow interrupted this thought spiral, but Clear Sky is like an infection in her mind. She'd tell you, in a moment of shame many years later,
"I wasn't strong enough to beat him. No no honey, I mean it like the truth. Clea-- Skystar now, he's powerful if nothing else, and he makes you believe it too. It's a special sort of person who can say no to that. I said a lot of his words before I even realized I still had his tongue in my mouth."
Bright doesn't realize how smart she is, because she's so smart she realizes how little she knows. And that can make her doubt herself. She's genuine and caring, but susceptible to more self-assured people making her doubt her own judgement.
But there's no one else Thunder Storm would rather have in his corner, that's for sure.
#BB!Bright Storm#Better bones au#BB!DOTC#She's a mix of Storm and Bright Stream#But more Bright Stream than Storm#Storm is... unfortunately a very typical WC fridgewife. A bit sassy and curious#Though I do like her slow realization that she's in a bad relationship#which of course they throw out the window by making her apologize to her shitty ex LITERALLY while she's in her deathbricks.#''ough tell him im sorry for leaving after he got my friend killed in a pointless border dispute'' shut the fuck up erins.#She Would Not Say That#But Bright Stream... she was actually super interesting and no one talks about her OTL#Girl who gets pressured into leaving her family behind when she doesn't want to!!#Friends with Gray and doesn't really know about his crush!!!#Was FRUSTRATED with Clear and how he wouldn't LET her make her own choice!!!!!!#BRIGHT YOU WERE DONE DIRTY IM SO SORRY#I TAKE A HAMMER AND I FEEX THE CANON#So yeah she's a bit more Bright Stream than Storm but still very much a composite#She's taking all of Storm's roles anyway
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Fuuta x Kotoko?
Waah I hope the fact that this ran a little long makes up for the lateness -- I really love the idea and was so excited to get the request!! They'd be so interesting and affect each other so much...... it makes me crazy...... It becomes canon divergent at the end because I genuinely think being in each others' company more would influence them both
Kotoko was nothing if not observant. Over the years, she’d found herself in – and gotten herself out of – enough situations to get a good read on the people she interacted with. No matter what this world threw her way, she could always rely on those abilities. And from the moment she met Milgram’s third prisoner, those abilities told her he was nothing but trouble.
“Oi,” he’d called across the dining table during the first meal they all had shared. “What did you do to get here?”
From the moment she woke up in this strange place, Kotoko had kept to herself. It’s dangerous to charge forward and introduce oneself to a group of mysterious murderers when there are no locks on the doors. She hadn’t spoken a word to anyone, the others smart enough to heed her intense look and stay away.
Fuuta, on the other hand, was the first to speak directly to her. He stared impatiently.
“Well?”
She noted his directness. His volume. The brashness and vulgarity she’d heard earlier in the day. His motivations and values he’d let slip in his early defenses. His anger and his fear. The suspicion in his gaze, as well as the need for reassurance in his voice. In that moment, the information clicked together in her mind, and Kotoko realized two things:
Kajiyama Fuuta was a lot like her, in the obvious ways.
Kajiyama Fuuta was nothing like her, in the ways that really mattered.
“The same reason as everyone else, I suppose,” she said carefully. He may have revealed his whole hand, but from experience she knew better than to do the same.
A lot of her experiences returned to her as the trial went on. She went through the motions of coaxing secrets out of quiet men, or playing along with cheery girls’ games to uncover what she was looking for. She remembered how it felt on stakeouts as she kept her eye on the warden’s door, and recalled the thrill of negotiation when she had a moment alone with them. And unfortunately, she recognized the immediate sensation of being tailed. She was used to shaking an unwanted follower out on the streets, but it was difficult to do the same when the only places to go consisted of three rooms and a corridor.
No matter how inconspicuous Fuuta thought he was being, Kotoko got a glimpse of that bright hair retreating around corners just behind her. She could feel his eyes boring into her back, always conveniently whipping away by the time she turned to look. The only thing that seemed to affect his permanently blaring volume was when she was speaking nearby – unlike a real stalker who would tactfully pretend not to be listening in, Fuuta would use the opportunity to jump into all her conversations.
Kotoko was in the middle of her morning stretches when she became aware of his presence lurking around the doorway. After several weeks of the behavior, she’d had quite enough. Kotoko knew that if you can’t shake a tail, there’s only one other option.
She stepped out of her cell, swiftly reaching for Fuuta’s collar. With a handful of his uniform, she shoved him back against the cell bars. For someone that had creeped on all her daily exercise routines, he seemed awfully shocked at how strong she was.
“Stop following me.” She kept her voice low and even. “I don’t know what you want from me, nor do I care. I will –”
“I don’t want anything from you!”
He raised his voice in an attempt to sound tough, but only succeeded in coming off desperate. He tried to weasel out of her grasp to no avail. She’d had practice intimidating guys three times her height – it was almost too easy now that she had an inch or so on Fuuta.
“Don’t give me that oblivious crap. Every day. Every single day, you –”
“I don’t know what you’re talking about! You’re the one who acting fucking crazy!”
Even after knowing it was in vain, he kept squirming under her harsh look. His eyes flicked frantically around the room, only able to take in her stone cold expression for a brief moment at a time. He kept shouting his own defenses, his cheeks growing more red by the second.
This time, the information gathered took a bit longer to fall into place. One of her conclusions was something Kotoko was very used to. The other was something she’d never quite experienced before. For the first time in long career of poker faces, she visibly started upon realizing two things:
Kajiyama Fuuta was downright terrified of her.
Kajiyama Fuuta was hopelessly attracted to her.
She hurriedly released him, jerking herself away. “Just… stay out of my way.”
“I was never in your way!” He shouted after her, his voice still shaking.
She should have stuck to her own demand and kept her distance; she was already aware of how much trouble this prisoner was capable of. But she took pride in her abilities to gather information of interest. And god, was Fuuta interesting.
Between his constantly running mouth and his never running filter, he was always keeping her on her toes. She’d never met anyone who pressed her for answers like that – Fuuta was never satisfied with the explanations that could placate everyone else. He was always questioning, always pushing back. Though his talk could be as shallow as the older prisoners' melancholy musings, or the children’s gossipy chatter, it was different when he and Kotoko really went at it in a debate.
Fuuta talked shamelessly about society, about the other prisoners, and about her. The others kept their distance from someone as quietly calculating as her, but Fuuta would pour out his thoughts right to her face. He had her back when she was trying to prove a point to the others, but was too stubborn to compromise on any of own opinions when they conflicted. It was refreshing.
And that was all it was, she would remind herself. The man would be insufferable if he was ever under the impression that she so much as tolerated his company. For everyone’s sake, he should remain completely unaware.
Awareness, however, was the very thing Kotoko prided herself in. She picked up on exactly what the warden was trying to communicate by granting her innocence. She was aware of the opportunities that arose with their disappearance. She noted the best time to fulfill her duties to them. She knew the optimal order to attack each prisoner in, to guarantee success.
It was due to her beloved observation skills that she found herself in cell 003 in the middle of the night. It didn’t matter how many training sessions Fuuta had spectated, or how many she’d invited him to join – he wasn’t as perceptive as she. He couldn’t predict or counter a single one of her movements. It only took a few moments for her to have him pinned on the ground.
“Y-you were serious?” Fuuta managed, even as her weight made it difficult for him to breathe.
She’d confided in him about her deal with the warden, one late night long before verdicts were announced. She didn’t know what had driven her to do it. It had been a rare lapse in her judgment. The current situation only confirmed why she should never reveal more information than necessary. Why she should get closer to someone than necessary.
“I am always serious.”
“Kotoko…”
She knew all of Fuuta’s typical arguments and excuses, and she had a rebuttal for each. She wound her arm back, her brass knuckles reflecting in the dim panopticon light.
“...J-just… do it fast.”
Kotoko’s arm wavered.
“What?”
“I’m not a fucking idiot. Even before that brat called you innocent, I knew that y-you were the one in the right. I used to think that you and I were the same, but I know that was all a lie. You were always the real hero. M-more than anyone else in this shithole. So…” Fuuta closed his eyes, squeezing tears from them. “Make it quicker than you did for that asshole, will ya?”
Kotoko gripped her fight tighter. It was trembling.
Fuuta’s eyes remained shut in fear. In trust. His breathing was erratic as he pretended not to be crying or struggling from the pressure on his lungs. He grit his teeth, preparing himself for what was to come. Kotoko prepared herself as well.
Releasing a cry, she swung forward. The moment before her brass knuckles clashed with the floor, just to the left of Fuuta’s face, Kotoko realized one thing:
Kajiyama Fuuta was indeed nothing but trouble.
#milgram#kotoko yuzuriha#fuuta kajiyama#0310#this was already more than i planned but i would have loved to include a symbolism comparison somehow --#the wildness and destruction of fire to a wild and violent animal#but with patience and care humans have domesticated both into beautiful helpful things#im defintiely down for a toxic they-beat-each-other-up ship but i really think it wouldnt happen#i think being around kotoko would make fuuta second guess himself and slow down (just a tiiiiny bit - not a lot lol)#but enough where hed face her punishment with dignity#and being around him would make kotoko confront her own stubborn views think about how good intentions can go awry#i was torn for characterizing kotoko... i always picture her secretive and stuff but then i remember shes very upfront in canon#so i tried to find a mix of honesty with caution#which works well with fuutas honesty and recklessness lol#also IM SORRY this is from kotokos pov and you got straight up paragraphs of 'oughghh this is why fuuta is so cool!!'#but i feel like its easy to see why hed be starstruck and inspired by her#but tougher to understand why shed fall for him back 😅#anyway thank you again for the request!! i love them and think theyre so interesting!#this was super fun#drabbles
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INSANE VIDEO: drifter ray gets the first romantic kiss of his life from the hottest smoothest man in höllvania!1!1!1!1!1! (i want him so bad its making me stupid.)
#SPOILERSSSS#warframe spoilers#GIANY SPOILER#KIssing my man quincy KAAYYYY#i waited all year for this#RAY LOOKS SO AWKWARD ITS SO CUTE UHGRGHHH#i wish mixed british jamaican men were real…#sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh diabolically gay about this i’m do sorry chat#i got rdy for the day extra early today SPECIFICALLY for this#and NO I DID NOT FORGET THE RELATIONSHIP#I CANT BREAK UP WITH HIM#IM COMMITTED FOR LIFE#anyway enuf ranting in the tags…#warframe 1999 spoilers#quincy isaacs
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I'm FINALLY through with Dressrosa which means I'll be seeing our main man again soon, but now I'm thinking about how long I'm going to be in Whole Cake Island... like it took me a (relatively) long time to get through Dressrosa and Sanji wasn't even there for most of it! With WCI I'm going to be pausing every 5 minutes to get screenshots! Lord help me, I'm going to be stuck there for the rest of my life...
#I've got mixed feelings about wci‚ I can't decide if I'm looking forward to it or not#on the one hand‚ SANJI'S THERE WOOOO MY GUY I MISSED YOU SO MUCH I LOVE YOU#but on the other hand he has such a terrible fucking time there and it genuinely makes me kinda sad seeing my fave like that#when I read the manga I remember blasting through wci as fast as I could cuz I didn't like seeing sanji so fucked up#but anime arcs always take a lot longer to get through...#PLUS I dunno if this is just me but I don't really like his wci outfits at all??#the prince outfit looks kinda ridiculous and I don't think a fully white tuxedo suits him at all#which I'm pretty sure is the whole point of course#people parading around like they're better than everyone else are probably going to dress kinda ridiculous#and him being forced to wear a tux that doesn't suit him fits the whole theme of him not belonging there#so like... I GET it‚ I just don't like looking at it lmao#although the wedding part and the escape were both really great‚ mostly cuz sanji had finally accepted luffy's help at that point#so I'm looking forward to that at least!#ANYWAY SORRY FOR RAMBLING SO MUCH#the point is: there's gonna be a HUGE chunk of wci screenshots once the queue catches up so have fun with that#god I can't wait to get to wano‚ I LOVE his wano outfits (except for the raid suit imo)
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Do you have the links to ashswag on internet archive ? (Hyperfixation has gone brrrr recently lol) ¤3
I can do you one better, and link you over to the lifesteal vod archive! It is honestly a godsend in the age of streams as lost media, and the archivists have my heart
You should be able to cell search if you’re in desktop, but mobile can be a dick about it, so if you’re not in the mood to column sweep:
House arrest vods one and two
He did WHAT to the mothership???
Zam gets sent to hell
Genesis SMP (one, two, three)
Kaboodle SMP (one, two, three, four, five, six)
KabSMP with lifesteal near the end
PVP legacy with a bit of gensmp at the end
PVP legacy part two electric boogaloo
Their health is linked?!
Lifesteal season five (one, two, three, four (marriage edition))
Minecraft singleplayer
Skyblock randomizer with Zam, Redd & KyleEff
Lifesteal public
#sorry for the copious amount of links! I love digging through the spreadsheet (as my friends can testify)#so I figured might as well go all out and grab all the ones I can find#I might have mixed up some of the gen and kab smp vods - I never really got into either so it was a bit of guesswork#anyways the hyperfixation going brr is SO real I cannot describe how many times I’ve watched the first four vods (all from lifesteal s4 lol)#thank you for letting me do this!! it was a whole bunch of fun <- autistic guy strikes again#have a wonderful day!! ^-^#asks
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Now why do u have that as ur pfp… thats disgusting and disrespectful
hiiii hello xx I’ve always loved Saki from 177013! (and the doujin as a whole ofc) haha I remember I watched an interview with ShindoL once where he talked about how it wasnt even meant to be thaaat horny but more of a horrific story that spiraled out of control, and he never anticipated the reception of it.
anyways I’ve always just really related to her and take it as a cautionary warning of how I could’ve turned out were it not for a good support system around me! I just really see myself in her with how I used to be and my mentality and naivety and everything so xx
#urusai! baka#i actually remember when i first stumbled upon it when i was like 16? 17?#and i didnt read the tags bcos im dumb and brazen and i actually just expected a cheeky 20-30pg doujin for a fun n fresh goonsesh#and i watched on in shock horror as everything unfolded and just spiraled completely out of control#and i actually had to stop for water#bcos it was just so visceral to me#bcos its ironically rly raw and realistic for a doujin#minus the fucking in every instance thing#but something about a naive girl trying to change herself and wanting to be liked#noticed by boys and invited out by girls#and being sheltered not understanding yhe repercussions of drugss and#all the dangers out in tne world#feels very real and relatable to how i once was#in a way hahahaha#(i mean ive been chronically onlune so i wasnt that naive but the desperation mixed with no irl experience was definitely there)#(the blind trust and like people pleasing and not standing up for urself)#this got really deephaha but i feel like i always get kinda deep when i talk abt 177013#every once in a while it gets brought up on my blog haha#im sorry to everyone ive influenced to read it and hated it!!#and this is ur warning that if u DO go look for it (if youve not already HAHA) theres like every triggering theme in there ever so#READ RHE TAGS DONT BE ME HAHA#ANYWAYS thats so much yap sorry anon this is not what u signed up for haha#xoxoxo#omg i just remembered this come sup so often on my blog i deffo used to have a tag specifically dedicated to it#is it maybe juat#177013#we’ll try it iguesss
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IF YOU COULD be at any airport in the world rn which one
the bangkok one i wanna go home but also to look at this cool statue :)

#I DONT REMEMBER WHAT THE STORY IS BEHIND THIS STATUE THOUGH :(#my mom always explains it to me but by the time we arrive there im hella sleep deprived because i dont sleep on the plane#theres also a bunch of giant statues around the airport too to welcome arrivals ^7^ those are cool (i mean intimidating BUT COOL)#something something mixing a sea of milk#i dont remember T_ T#answered#anons#(i dont really remember any airports well because im usually spaced tf out at them laksdjafh)#anyways i havent been to thailand in so long :( like 4/5 years#i was supposed to go sooner but then i had covid and that makes me sad :(#AND I HAD PLANS TOO :((( I WAS LIKE BEGGING MY MOM CAN WE GO TO THE ANCIENT CITY PLEAAAASE and then my ass got sick#*angry punching*#my mom and sisters didnt even wind up going to the city either because my sisters were like 'BUT THATS BORING THATS ALL HISTORY#I WANNA GO SHOPPING'#T _ T i need friends who are also into historical stuff. we can make an adventure team and go travel everywhere together (the dream life)#i say im into history but i have no brain to remember anything btw so dont ask me anything asljkfaslkjh#sorry i seem to be >_> chatty today (procrastinating)
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okay i give up i cant write this pjo fic percy loves sally too much
#which is good! love that he loves his mom i think that’s so realistic#maybe i just need to do a re-read but i dont ever remember him being angry/bitter about it which. i do not understand#like i don’t need to understand it i just need to be able to write it but like. okay.#in those situations there is a lot of manipulation involved from the mothers side esp when the men are introduced to the kids young#so that part was easy like gabe prob smacked percy and sally was like im sorry hon next time just try to be more careful ok#but i have no idea how this didn’t lead into him resenting sally as he got older#esp since i don’t think he knew gabe was hitting her too so it’s not like he was putting up w gabe to physically protect his mom#which would be another issue in itself bc he’s literally 12#anyway this is all being said to reiterate that i still do have so many sally jackson thoughts even though this fic crashed and burned#shoutout to sally jackson your efforts as an accomplice to your child’s abuse will forever be tossed around in my mind#also while i’m here talking about her i need to talk about that scene in the pjo show where she told him off#so many ppl were tryna “um actually 🥸☝️” the entire thing by saying book sally would do the same cos she’s fiery in canon#which is so true sally did stand up to gabe#and i have no doubt she would have told him off in the book to#o#but i also have no doubt that she would have gotten the shit beat out of her for it later#it’s a double edged sword people who get abused aren’t 100 percent meek or 100 percent strong willed all the time#its an ugly little mix of everything and depending on the day some of the traits present more strongly than the others#ok i’m done in a fr way now
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sorry people are annoying about your chronic illness lou i think you rock and it sucks that you have migraine 😔 you deserve to have so much fun at tit no matter what tho. love you x1000
thank you <3 i am really excited for tit!! i was talking with some friends the other day and i'm trying to convince a friend to visit for the show so we could go together and even if they can't make it it's going to be so fun. i'm for sure going to be meeting up with a friend who i met up with at WAD and there should be a few other tumblr people there who i'm excited to meet :) i'm planning to take a nurtec beforehand to hopefully help prevent a migraine from the lights/general excitement of the experience and i will have my nsaids and triptans with me in case that's not enough!
my real hope though is that whatever we do at my next neurology appointment will actually help this time (which it should... i think i've finally jumped through enough hoops for botox or a cgrp antagonist but i've thought that before and insurance has told me i am wrong) and i will maybe not need to worry so much about all the migraine stuff. summoning circle or whatever
#asks#castrotophic#i am excited for it!! and Right Now that's the only emotion i'm allowing myself to process bc i'm not on anxiety meds and if i am negative#i will spiral :)#look at me being positive. my therapist would be so proud#i'm not pinging ppl but. chicago mutuals/phriends you know who you are <3#i know you didn't ask about the specific drugs i'm planning to take to try to avoid having a bad migraine but i'm sharing with the class#actually i failed to specifically name rizatriptan and diclofenac that's on me#i'm flexible though lmao i have leftover (pill) sumatriptan still and also aleve#i used to also have a bottle of aspirin thankfully i was able to pawn that off bc quite frankly i had too many nsaids in my medicine cabine#even currently i have a lot more migraine rescue meds than anyone should need to have on hand#and the worst part is i actually take most of them frequently enough that i can't get rid of them#i regularly mix and match between- rizatriptan aleve diclofenac nurtec excedrin tylenol#in case anyone was wondering. i have excedrin aleve and diclofenac on me at all times#if you have a headache at tit chicago. hit me up lmao#honestly if you have a headache anywhere in the chicago metropolitan area. i've got you covered#anyways!!#sorry i'm kind of insane i slept like shit last night and my brain is being real weird today
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Having brain worms. What if uhhhhhh SOS Mianite au
#this is a fully undeveloped idea but it is simmering#initial thoughts. mog is so champion of ianite. fwip is dianite's.#I'm not convinced of who mianite's is yet but i feel like sausage is desperately vying for the role and getting repeatedly rejected#oli ends up as a reluctant ianitee. he was originally a dianite follower but dianite found him annoying and was a dick so oli ditched him.#ianite finds him funny and decides to pick him up and now he's trying very hard not to mess it up bc she actually respects him#joel would claim not to need any stupid god until he sees how much fun fwip is having causing problems on purpose with dianite and gives in.#his wife joining up with dianite probably also doesn't desuade him in that department#jimmy isn't particularly keen on any of them. he's off doing his own thing#katherine feels very classic mianitee to me.#I've got mixed feelings on Pix. i kind of feel like he should be on his own thing (priest? wizard? something like that)#if not he's ianitee i think. but it takes him awhile to commit#joey's dianitee. eloise feels ianitee to me. shubble probably mianitee.#is that everyone? i think that's everyone#idk if this would be a scenario where the world/plot was more based on mianite or sos honestly#maybe a healthy mix.#do we keep the death/fate coin element? idk idk maybe not? but it doesn't feel like sos without some hardcore element#gotta sit on it#this is the first time in a long time I've just done like straight up stream of consciousness brainstorming in the tags of a post huh#feels very 2020#OWEN I FORGOT OWEN. UH. i feel like he might help balance out the mianite team. i can't put it into worlds but it feels right#he's the type of guy that you look at and immediately think dianite and you're wrong#but i could be tempted to switch him and joey. cause joey did have the whole prison thing in sos which is very mianite#even if he's generally the most dianitee guy i have ever fucking seen#i. i also forgot scott.#embarrassing. I've been watching him the longest and he's the only one on this list I've actually written into mianite crossovers before#uhhhh anyways he feels very true neutral to me. he's another one who i feel like maybe he should be off doing his own thing#if not probably mianite#this is such a mess lmao#i had to put the idea down somewhere before my head exploded sorry
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ASK MEME HUH? 😏 prepare yourself here :^)
okay okay so. (for the kid fic ask) 2 or 8 (toddler) or 3 (teenager)? with any parent child combination you feel like
I know this is a prime chance to write some angst but I have entered silly mode at some point lately so you get AU silliness only SLIGHTLY tinged with angst, I hope that's alright ssadkajshdnkbfk
(It also got longer than I'd anticipated, F in the chat for us all)
Kid/Parent Fic Prompts
3. "Everyone makes mistakes, it's okay."
"Hey, August, your dad said I'd find you..." Emma trails off, stopping halfway through the door as she takes in the scene before her. "...here. What are you guys doing?"
To Marco's credit, his son is, in fact, sitting in the shed just like the man had said. The only issue is that he's not alone - in fact, a swooping three of the kids in his care are crowded around him, typewriter pushed to the side as they peer at something taking center place on the table.
August looks up from it momentarily to shoot her a slight grin, which does nothing to soothe her confusion. "Scientific research."
"On a lamp? Thought that had been patented a while ago."
"Yes, but this is a monad lamp. We're trying to figure out if there's actually a cricket in here."
Emma's gaze moves to the object in question, eyebrows raised. "And that other guy's letting you? Isn't this literally attached to his hip most of the time?"
"We traded for the day!" The smallest of the puppets chirps excitedly, all but bouncing on August's knee. "Gina's showing him around, and we get to hang out with Gemini!"
"I see."
The problem with these kids, in Emma's mind, is that while they might have fairly contrasting personalities, there's something in them that betrays their connection even at first glance. Cedar's a sweet girl and the strange one with the metal arm is prone to brooding, and the two younger boys (she needs to find better nicknames to differentiate them than Big One and Little One, honestly - they bring to mind Tweedledee and Tweedledum, sometimes, but they'd probably take offense to that) are just unruly children like any other, and still they all share faint traces of past events that make her understand August a little bit more.
Right now, for example, the man has got a boy perched on his lap and Cedar leaning onto his shoulder, the other boy sitting on the tabletop with his ruined legs dangling over the edge, and yet they're all looking at her like they're about to tell her to take a leap of faith...or blow something up and ask her for help, at least, given Big Pinocchio's tendencies and those of the guy they call P. Emma should be backing away before it's too late, honestly.
"Doesn't that thing talk, anyway?" She hears herself asking instead, as if that were the most pressing matter. "Can't you just ask?"
"He's recharging," Cedar replies, ever the most helpful of them all. "That's why P left him at home. Grandfather said Gemini's not allowed to be around us unsupervised anymore, since the last time he tried to teach some nasty words to-"
"Hey!" The Pinocchio sitting on the table glares at her, a thunderous look on his face. "That's none of your business! Don't be a snitch!"
"It's not snitching if it's true! You only want to know because you've got a point to prove, anyway."
The boy sniffs haughtily, turning away. "I don't need to prove anything. I'm right. We've all got a cricket, so P should have one too."
"You're wrong. I never got a cricket, and Dad doesn't have one either-"
Emma can clearly see August barely stifling a laugh, the bastard. "Don't let Jiminy hear you say that, Cedar- I can assure you, he helped me quite a lot before he got a degree."
"I don't have a cricket," the little one says, beaming, seemingly unbothered by the squabble. "I just have Gina."
"Gina counts."
"Gina does not count, she's a duck." Cedar sighs, shaking her head of dark curls. "Why are you so worried about this, anyway? Your cricket isn't here, either."
One would expect Big Pinocchio to have a snappish retort for that, as well, and yet, none comes. Instead he seems to curl even further into himself, his glower even deeper, like a turtle tucking head and tail into its shell. "Yeah, but he was there," he mutters, much lower than before. "No one else could see him, so they thought I was making him up, but I wasn't. He was real, and I wasn't crazy."
The two adults exchange a look, the mood grown a tad more somber all of a sudden. This, perhaps, is the other thing these children have in common, and it's much less amusing than the first one - they have had some awful experiences already, for being so young, and sometimes they mention it in such an offhanded way, it sounds like everyday stuff, like making the bed or running errands.
Maybe it was everyday stuff for them, before. That doesn't make it more reassuring, either.
"That's okay." August sounds softer, too, as he leans closer to the boy and tries to meet his eyes. "We know you're not crazy. Those boys in your old school- they didn't have the full picture. Everyone makes mistakes, when they don't have the full picture."
And that, a smidge more teasing, once he has finally gotten Pinocchio to look up: "And I mean everyone. You know, Emma here, she didn't believe I was made of wood, in the beginning. Guess who proved her wrong later."
"Seriously?" Emma exhales heavily, relieved that her friend has been able to handle the situation so well and yet resigned to the fact that August continues to be, well, himself. "You only butt into this argument to throw me to the wolves?"
"You wouldn't want me to get in the way of a scientific debate, do you?"
If this were a normal conversation between the two of them, she would tell him to stop being so cheeky; but as it is, there are three more people in the room with them right now, people who have barely stopped looking wary and guarded before returning to their analysis of an otherworldly piece of machinery. There is little Emma can do beside playing along, distracting them from whatever effects the past still has on them all. She owes them that, at least.
"Alright," she says, dragging a spare stool closer and finding a spot near the table, mindless to how Cedar moves to lean on her instead, as is the nature of things.
"Let's crack this, then. I came over to ask something else, but you guys got to me. Show me what you've got, Gemini."
#okay I know I wasn't very good at looking out for henry but I DID try so#please keep an eye on these little idiots if I can't#lizardthelizard#ask meme#fanfic#ouat#au: stray saplings#LOOK I SETTLED ON A TAG#also I'm going to go on a tangent now sorry not sorry#because I'm an “emma and august are besties” truther first and foremost#but I am CERTAIN that eventually he'd be like#she's like. their fairy godmother but better cause she isn't a fairy#she's got...mixed feelings about her godchildren tho#cedar? wonderful. genuinely looks up to emma. as normal as a kid in her situation can be#the baby? traumatized but sweet. you can't have beef with a 5yo#but p and mokku? they would TEST her patience even though the former isn't even a child technically#regina would find it extremely amusing#pinocchio#kashi no ki mokku#anyway august as a passable father figure who at least is TRYING and emma as the tired aunt who loves those kids a lot but needs a fk drink
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