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kpforpresident · 2 years

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Clexa #46 please

~out of envy or jealousy~

“Clarke, wait,” Lexa calls out desperately behind her, sighing in slight frustration as the mane of blonde hair whipped around the hallway of their apartment building. Fading footsteps pounded furiously up the slightly tilted stairs that lead to their cozy third story apartment. Keys rattled in the door, and then the resounding sound of that same door slamming echoed in the hallway.

Lexa slumped against the very bottom stair, pinching the bridge of her nose tiredly. Letting her head fall back with a thump against the wallpapered hallway, she dug her phone out of her pocket with a weary hand and pressed two on her speed dial, waiting.

“Hey, kid. What have you done now?” An amused voice blares out of the small speaker as Lexa presses the speakerphone mode and taps the phone against her forehead, holding up her head with a weary finger to her temple.

She wiggles uncomfortably in her suit, undoing her jacket with one hand as she tries to sit without wrinkling it more. She had only worn this particular green one, slightly tight as it was, because she assumed that Clarke would be peeling it off her as soon as they had gotten home from the law school gala. Preferably with her teeth. Clearly, she muses as she looks up at their very shut front door, that was not happening tonight. She scrubs a tired hand over her face, remembering at the last moment that she had put on eye makeup tonight. Damn, double damn.

“Ahn, why do you assume that I am the one who has fucked up,” she snarls slightly, looking with betrayal at the phone. As if Anya can see her through the speaker, all the way out in sunny California.

“Because,” the knowing voice on the other end of the line says, “you wouldn’t be calling me at-” a shuffle as Anya leans over to peer at her kitchen clock- “two am New York time if you hadn’t fucked up in some manner.”

Lexa nods slightly. Then, remembering that Anya can’t see her, says quietly, “yeah, I mean you’re not wrong. The problem is, I don’t think I’ve done anything. But Clarke clearly thinks I have, and now I am locked out of my own apartment because she has the only set of keys we brought out!”

A tinny laugh oozes out of the speaker and Lexa rolls her eyes as she smiles slightly, waiting for Anya to get her kicks. Then a crackly sigh pours out of the speaker, followed by the whoosh of what Lexa assumes is Anya’s fridge opening. The bubbly crack of a beer can follows as Lexa can hear Anya getting settled again. She can picture her, slinging herself onto her kitchen counter as she gets comfortable, long legs dangling off, beer in hand.

“Ok, Lex. I’m ready. Hit me with whatever fuckery you’ve managed this time.” Lexa rolls her eyes for real this time as she wiggles out of her jacket fully, draping it carefully over a higher step as she toes off her favorite dress shoes.

“I don’t know what happened, Ahn. The night was going well, we had been having fun. Clarke was wearing this insane midnight navy dress that I was honestly losing my mind over-”

“Ew, Lexa,” Anya interrupted, sounding horrified. “I’m really glad you've been sickeningly in love since you were like, eighteen, but I do not need to hear how badly you want to bone your girlfriend. Believe me, we all know it.”

Lexa smiles for real as she conjures up a vision of Clarke’s dress- strapless and shimmering in the soft lights of the ballroom, clinging to her legs and generous curves as she moves and dances. Lexa had barely been able to keep her hands off Clarke, the liquid silk appearing as it had been simply painted on her girlfriend. Clarke had topped off the look with strappy black heels that made it so she was able to look Lexa squarely in the eyes as they danced.

Lexa had had visions of those shoes in particular throughout the night, them falling into bed after, light off of expensive champagne and tiny plates of appetizers supplied by Lexa’s law program to celebrate the end of their third year. Clarke wearing only those shoes, creamy alabaster legs wrapped around Lexa’s shoulders in their bed.

Lexa shakes the image out of her head as Anya’s inquiring, exasperated “Hello, earth to Alexandria,” blares into her eardrum.

“Sorry Anya, I’m here,” She says as a faint blush steals across the tops of her ears. “Anyway, everything had been going so well, we had been having fun. Clarke had sat for a little while because her feet were hurting, and Costia and I were dancing-”

“Wait, wait wait,” Anya cuts her off, sounding decidedly less amused. “You were dancing with Costia? Lexa, anyone with eyeballs and a pulse can see how badly that girl has it for you, she practically makes up excuses to come talk to you at your internship. You know it bugs the hell out of Clarke!”

The friendship between Anya and Clarke wasn’t one that Lexa completely understood, as they teased the hell out of each other. But at some point over Lexa and Clarke’s six plus year relationship, Anya had become as protective of Clarke as she was of Lexa.

“I know Anya,” Lexa growls back, wiggling down completely now to lay on the rickety wooden step. The accusing face of her watch reads 2:45 am.

“But Clarke needed to sit, and Costia’s date Echo was off schmoozing up one of our law profs, and she asked and I felt like I couldn’t say no. It was one dance, Ahn! We talked about Clarke the entire time! We were talking about her latest exhibit!”

“Does Clarke know that??” Anya demanded through the speaker, pitch of her voice stepping up incredulously. Lexa’s arm that isn’t holding the phone shoots up into the air, gesturing in exasperation as she clamps the phone between her jaw and shoulder.

“I didn’t have a chance, Anya! Clarke was so pissed after that dance that she barely said another word to me as we cabbed home, wouldn’t listen to me. Then she sprinted off in those damn heels and now I’m here, talking to you while my girlfriend fumes inside. What do I do?!”

Silence.

“You know what to do, Lex,” Anya’s unamused voice said. “Go up there, and fucking grovel. Tell her exactly what you told me. Relationships are based on trust and mutual love, but Clarke has communicated to you clearly that she’s uncomfortable with Costia, and you danced with her anyway. Your intentions were good but your execution needs a lot of work, little sister.”

“Love you too, Ahn,” Lexa snarls, but there is no heat behind it.

“Bye, Lexa. We’ll talk tomorrow?”

Lexa murmurs an affirmative before hanging up, dropping her phone on her chest as she sits, thinking, for a long moment. She hoists herself up, tucking her phone into her back pocket as she grabs her shoes with her right hand, slighing her jacket over her left shoulder as she slowly walks up the meandering staircase. Before she can hesitantly knock on the door, it creaks open.

Liquid blue eyes meet her apologetic gaze. Clarke’s face is scrubbed clean of makeup, the skin around her eyes slightly red. Golden curls tumble around her shoulders, the glamorous waves from the event falling slightly. She’s dressed in one of Lexa’s oversized Columbia sweaters, the sleeves rolled so that her hands are free, legs and feet bare. It’s Clarke’s go-to comfort item when she’s upset. It hurts something in Lexa’s chest to see how sad this made Clarke. Lexa drops her shoes again as she reaches for Clarke, instinctively wanting to comfort her.

Clarke lets herself be folded into Lexa’s embrace, tucking her chin into Lexa’s shoulder. They stand in silence for a moment in the doorway.

“I heard everything.”

Lexa’s shoulders slump in silent relief. While she doesn’t exactly love that Clarke was listening to her phone call with her sister, if it has turned the angry lioness back into her pliant and loving girlfriend, she’s willing to let it slide.

Clarke tugs her into the apartment, door closing behind them. After Lexa has changed, shedding her beautiful but impractical suit for a threadbare Artists Do It Better tie dye t-shirt that they had found while thrifting, they curl up in bed together.

“I get jealous, Lex,” comes the quiet admission into her shirtfront as Clarke’s arms twine around her for comfort. Lexa stamps a loving kiss to her hairline, waiting for her to finish as she smooths an encouraging hand down her spine. Clarke props her chin up on Lexa’s sternum so they can lock eyes.

“It’s hard for me to feel like I compare sometimes, with Costia being in your law program and your internship, and you’ll probably work at the same firm after graduation, and I know I’m good at what I do, but it’s just hard to feel like I fit into your world,” comes out in a shaky whisper as those heartbreakingly blue eyes fill with a ream of tears.

Lexa grabs her tighter, rolling them so they are facing each other on their sides.

“Clarke, you are it for me,” she states honestly as she smooths her tears away. “You are my world.”

Clarke nods into her shirtfront. She doesn’t say anything for a moment before she lunges at an unsuspecting Lexa, their mouths clashing together. They kiss heavily for a moment, lips and teeth and tongue battling for dominance. Clarke eventually pulls away first, breathing heavily. Lexa’s eyes are still zeroed onto her lips, eyes dark and wanting.

“What was that for?” she asks huskily, running a lustful hand over Clarke’s hip.

“Because, you’re mine,” Clarke snarls back, somehow rolling them so she pins Lexa underneath her. She reaches behind her to pull the baggy sweatshirt over her head, preening slightly as Lexa’s eyes zero into her chest.

“And I intend to show you that.”

#this somehow took on a life of its own #i just really love this little stupid mid twenties clexa #kiss prompt #clexa #thanks for asking anon #anya is two on speedial because the assumption is clarke is one #kpprompts #ny au

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tinyshinysylveon · 2 years

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Do you mind if I ask your top 10 favorite characters (can be male or female) from all of the media that you loved (can be anime/manga, books, movies or tv series)? And why do you love them? Sorry if you've answered this question before.....Thanks...

ahh thanks for asking! i believe i haven’t had someone ask me this question before so i’ll try my best to answer! _(:3 」∠)_

my top 10 favorite characters (not in any particular order)

1. katsuki bakugo (BNHA) - i’ve grown attached to him since the first season aired, but he didn’t became my absolute favorite until the episodes keep coming in and he started changing his ways ;;

2. anya forger (SxF) - i love the silly faces that she makes! and her power of reading minds is so interesting! plus the “waku waku!” she says is so cute!

3. killua zoldyck (HxH) - okay, i thought he was cool with the way he fights as an assassin and how he slowly mellowed out while he was with gon 👀

4. gojou satoru (JJK) - I IMMEDIATELY FELL IN LOVE WHEN HE FIRST REVEALED THOSE BLUE EYES OF HIS SUE ME OTL but i also hate him at the same time i-

5. ichimatsu matsuno (osomatsu-san) - i can relate to him bc he’s a shy character and loves cats (but i also like dogs too). he’s so antisocial that i just want to bundle him up in a blanket and hide him from the world ;;

6. zenitsu agatsuma (KNY) - sooo my first impression of him was.. annoying, i should say? but he grew on me when he didn’t judge tanjirou’s sister or tanjirou himself for harboring her in the box and still fell in love with her. the icing on the cake was his revealed powers when he falls asleep even tho he can be a coward asdfghjkl

7. nagi seishirou (blue lock) - i fell in love with nagi bc he’s just so lax (and i find his personality funny!) and since i’m up-to-date with the manga, i like that he’s been improving his play while also getting more serious while in blue lock

8. karma akabane (assassination classroom) - let’s just say he was interesting to me when he first appeared and there’s actually sides of him that’s cute even tho he can be a little shit sometimes lol

9. luffy (one piece) - once upon a time, i was caught up with this dang anime while watching it for about a month and it was already like 500+ episodes in until i stopped bc i couldn’t wait for the next episode anymore orz anyway, he has such high regards for his fellow crew mates and y’all don’t know how much i have cried while watching this show ;; i even drew him and everything a long time ago when i was obsessed

10. last but not least *drum rolls* comic batman! - if i could, i would own a lot of batman comics, but it’s his dark and brooding character plus having a double life playing as a “rich playboy” while also being a hero of gotham, i had a lot of fun reading up about him!

i feel like i have more characters (not just anime but tv shows as well) that i like but not particularly love so i didn’t include them bc if i did, then the list will just go on, so these are just honorable mentions of who stuck by me ;;

#i also didn't want to elaborate more bc then this post will just be even longer asdfghjkl #ask #elaine2895 #tysm for asking me this question!

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inannasdream · 3 months

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just finished watching the off broadway musical adaptation of anastasia and im so sorry to any fans of it but i could not take this musical seriously omg

things i liked: the costuming was really cool, and the dresses were awesome to see. i watched it with a bootleg in 360p but they looked very high quality and well done from what i could tell. the sets were immersive! the cast and their singing were obvs good too. of the songs, once upon a december was the biggest standout.

lastly, i liked the change of main antagonist from evil sorcerer rasputin (???????) to the soviet officer gleb (in theory). honestly i haven't watched the 1997 movie since i was like, baby, so i have no attachment to that movie's main villain, and a plot that's more sensical for the specific locations and characters it's supposed to be based around are welcome imo.

things i disliked/didn't care for: everything else lmao. every five minutes i swear i was rolling my eyes (mostly for its royalty/bourgeois ass-kissing but lots of other smaller things too).

right off the bat smth i thought was rly funny was how in one (only one but still) of the songs they consistently pronounce paris the native way, but with anastasia they just use the english pronunciation the whole time. anastasia, dammit, not ann uh stay ja >:/

more seriously, i could not stand the pretentious sucking up to aristocracy and monarchy throughout literally every line in this musical omfg. no lily i can not give less of a fuck abt you missing being part of the monarchy in russia when you are lamenting this in your expensive ass dress surrounded by french aristocrats. the way they vaguely mention russian people disliking the tsarist rule and completely brush that off, with every other portrayal of the common people being abt how much they obsess over the romanovs and how poor they are (bc they were.... less poor during the monarchy????? ??? ????) was funny in a "wow these writers are NOT self aware" way. maria in particular is so much less sympathetic to me when she also has to spend her on-stage time waxing poetry about how lame the ussr is lol. fitting i guess tho considering broadway's monetary gatekeeping

other big thing is the amnesia just being a very obvious plot device, with her remembering events from her past seemingly at random. i guess i don't have a big criticism for this but it was another thing i really couldn't take as seriously as the musical probably wanted me to.

the ending is probably the only part where i have actually constructive criticism -- it felt like they were going back and forth on whether anya cared about being royalty or not. the ending speech about anastasia being a fairy tale would suggest that she's been able to move on from her whole quest and that anastasia (the royal princess who was purported to have died with her family) could rest for good while anya could marry dmitri... but that monologue is narrated over her marrying him in her aristocratic red dress, like a few minutes after she asserted herself as grand duchess anastasia romanov to him, sooo?????

i think they were going for a "anastasia is reclaiming the childhood she was robbed of her memories of by cOmMuNiSm and now she can live out her prestige in paris" theme but then why include that ending monologue other than to be an obvious "this story is fictional" disclaimer that no one needed in the first place? idk, i would've preferred if she just let that title and name rest with the music box left to maria, and married him as is or smth. probably would've gone better with her amnesia that's basically almost totally forgotten about after act 1, having a new identity as anya that she can actually realistically live out now that the tsar has been abolished in the ussr. but then i guess she'd have to go back to the ussr to complete that theme, which we can't have bc cOmMuNiSm or smth, so she just has to stay in paris.

i'd be more fine w the above stuff if the music was like, showstopping, but idk it was fine i guess. besides once upon a december, they all felt like very standard songs to have in a musical to move the plot forward. i know there are some songs they added in the broadway version, but mehhhh i don't rly care enough to check them out. im sure they're ok. anddd afternoon spent ✅

#chirp chirp!#theatre

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firemanwhenthefloodsrollback · 2 years

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reasons I have thirsted over every single buffy character at some point in my life (bearing in mind I was 11 when I started watching and 26 now so I’ve been the right age for some characters in the past but nooooot now):

buffy and spike I’m not even going to explain. those two characters, between them, are my bisexuality and my whole romantic identity. separately and together, you have no idea, but particularly together, wow. can’t get into it because this post would be 100k words.

willow - everything in season four where she and Tara were becoming friends and then friends and it was all unspoken and very breathy. dark willow in her military jacket. there weren’t that many moments when I was attracted to willow because I felt deeply that I was willow but there were some.

xander - when I was 11 I felt really bad about buffy turning him down, i felt he deserved better and she should consider him because he was funny. This is something I’ve examined and reconsidered in the last fifteen years.

giles - completely skipped over him as a teen but now, yes. i thought he was like seventy when I was a preteen but I realise the error of my ways. when he rolls his sleeves up.

angel - no one ever kissed me like that in graveyards I’ll tell you that for free.

darla - I stopped writing this post to stare into space and think about Darla’s breathy voice and the fact she woukd definitely kill me.

cordelia - I grew up in britain where there were no cheerleaders and therefore no stereotypical mean cheerleaders making barbed comments standing very close to me. I could have learned some things about myself earlier if I’d considered why that was something I wanted.

jenny - it’s the gently barbed comments about the internet with the flawless 90s hair. I had no teachers like her at the time or since.

oz - I did not give him what he deserved in the show then I started dating someone a lot like him who was just so calm, respectful, good and funny and it opened my eyes to oz. I’ve never read fanfic about oz, he’s not my type on tv, but in the real actual world oz is who I want.

faith - this is tumblr I don’t need to explain.

riley - I did like riley at the beginning of season four particularly! Not so much as a military dude but as a cute TA who has books dropped on his head. Those first few episodes were absolute gold.

anya - anya was portrayed so much as funny rather than sexy on the show but she had so much thirst potential! I don’t think this got converted into reality while I was watching it. I adored anya but more as a friend.

tara - fingers intertwining in hush? falling back on a pillow in a deeply magical way? the last bit of under your spell? anytime spells made tara fall back on a pillow or bed I was there with my urgent little preteen brain.

dawn - as a 12yo I honestly didn’t get why her dressing sexy in Him was that big of a deal because she was about the age of main cast in the first few seasons? I think because at that age she didn’t seem young and powerless to me, she was still older than me and s7 dawn was just very powerful and cool.

robin wood - again not til I rewatched as a grownup but now I have watched as a grownup I am absolutely on board with a passionate education professional with a sense of humour and a dark past. he suffers from being so directly contrasted against spike in first date but in any and all other circumstances, yes to robin wood.

characters I have never thirsted for and my provisional reasons:

the master - not a lot to get on board with here kinda just a priest in an odd outfit with fruit punch mouth.

drusilla - I love her as a character and she is very beautiful but I think she was a bit odd for me? I find her poignant and that interferes with me finding her attractive

harmony - harmony was always standing right next to people I had much stronger feelings for

joyce - I think it’s the hair. even tho I’m probably old enough now to date joyce and it not be creepy (?) the mum hair means she will always be my mum. that’s my mum right there.

most villains? - mayor, adam, glory, caleb. I know some people fancy glory and she is very beautiful but buffy was right there being powerful and blonde.

the trio - this is just not allowed, obviously. I do find tom lenk funny in the post buffy world tho. I’d get lunch with him, but that’s v different to fancying andrew.

all the potentials - eh

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wikiangela · 2 years

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I saw Riley in 6x15 and I started to rant and it turned into a fucking commentary (but also a rant) as I was watching so:

fuck I so didn't want to see Riley again so when I saw him in the previously on and then the "special guest star Marc Blucas" I was like ugh why

but when they showed him I literally burst out laughing lmao what even is this 😂 why is this so funny 😂

oh I have so many feelings about Buffy just leaving her job like that, and about how she's looking at him right now after everything... I'm still livid that they made the whole situation Buffy's fault when he left

God i hate him so much why did they bring him back and pls tell me it's only for one episode because I was enjoying this season 😂

I didn't know I'd ever hate another character as much as I hate Karen Page but here we are 😂(and if you know me, she's my most hated character ever lol)

also, I couldn't give less of a fuck when it comes to Xander and Anya's wedding, I'm so over them sns she had some good moments lately but I still don't like her 💁🏻‍♀️

jfc what was that weak-ass fight with the demon? 😂 she just kicked it and it fell down wtf 😂 😂

and he's married lmao (omg is that Diyoza from the 100??)

if he had backup from his wife, and if she's so good she's just fighting the demon while they're standing there.... why the hell did he need Buffy's help?

yeah, that whole fight was fucking weak, Buffy just killed it like it was nothing 😂

excuse me, he was gone a year and he's been married for four months?? wow, that boy moved on quick 😳😂😂😂

I need a friend like Willow 😂 she's the best ❤️

I miss Tara, where is she, why isn't she here come on 🙄

I think I kinda like Sam tbh

"he thinks I let him go" oh my fucking god I rolled my eyes so hard 🙄 it was his fault because he's a stupid fucking asshole!!! 😑

"lots of time" well not that much time from the looks of it since he managed to start a whole new relationship and get married pretty soon lol

I'm getting so frustrated with how guilty and sad and embarrassed Buffy looks jfc he's not worth it

this episode feels long lol between having to deal with Riley and fucking Xander and Anya's wedding stuff, I'm so annoyed

BUFFY is sorry for what happened between them and she's apologizing to HIM............. I'm so frustrated I'm literally going to scream into a pillow

I just don't see how everyone loves him so much wtf

I get why they like Sam, she seemed cool but like... what's so great about fucking Riley?

Buffy uses and plays with Spike so much - it's getting annoying too tbh 😂 she looked cute in that scene when she was breaking it off tho haha

I didn't enjoy this episode sns it felt fucking long (like, I feel like I've been watching it for at least 2 hours) and it was so annoying why did we even need that? personally I never wanted to see Riley again, he's the worst and I'll never understand why people like him - there's just something about him that made me dislike him from his very first episode (maybe second, I took some time before forming an opinion lol) my blood literally boils at all the Riley praise fuck him

and I hate that this whole episode was essentially: aw, look how perfect Riley's life is now while Buffy's life is awful, look at how embarrassed she is and how good it could be for her if she got Riley to stay because of course the break up was obviously only on her and Riley never did anything wrong in his life - that's the vibe I got and fuck whoever thought this plotline would be a good idea lol

#Buffy s6 #Buffy season 6 #buffy the vampire slayer #btvs #btvs s6 #anti riley finn #I hate Riley Finn so much #long post #this turned into a rant #watching buffy

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spencstan · 3 years

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Six of Crows re-read

(i also did this for the shadow and bone trilogy so read that if you want to)

spoiler alert obiously

i'm SO EXCITED FOR THIS this is my comfort book (with crooked kingdom of course)

JOOST HI

oo fun fact this was my first grishaverse book and i read it with no context whatsoever except that the mc is an emo boy and morally grey

so IMAGINE my pure confusion when JOOST appeared

i was like ?????? weird take on morally grey character but ok

joost trying to figure out how to flirt with a girl is a mood

anyone wanna teach us how to???

i kinda wanna skip this part so i can see the crows..

but i won't don't worry

(won't I?

"I think Yuri may be quarantined"

aaaand?

so are we you are not special

i feel like it's very important for me to mention that i read this book in spanish first

and then i got into the fandom and i was like who the fuck is the wraith? i only know El Espectro

Heartender who??? ooo you mean Cardio

Tidemakers? nope, i only know Maremotores

for real i was so confused i had to re-read it in english (not that i mind tho)

say whatever you want about the spanish version but we have to agree that this design is pretty af

another one yay: "Retvenko was a Squaller" vs. "Retvenk era un Impulsor"

(should i also say that in my pfd english version the book is 294 pages long and in my pdf spanish version its 532????) (i think it's because in the english one the speces are way less like the lines are so close together wtf

i've decided that i'm bored so i'll be skiping this chapter

anya is super badass tho

skdgfalsdgfliaysvfascvhjl yesssssss inej

Kaz Brekker didn't need a reason.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

KAZ

INEJ

I MISSED THEM

omg now i can picture amita and freddy SDJGKASKGLASG THIS IS AMAZING

we interrupt our regularly scheduled program to watch the shadow and bone trailer once again to hear freddy's beautiful voice

ok moving on!

now hear me out i'm giving you all permission to make fun of kaz for this one: Dirtyhands = Manos Sucias

hello i am Kaz Manos Sucias. nice to meet you!

AAAAA

AAAAAAAAAA

JESPER FAHEY

JESPER LOVE HI

SJDGHFKAHSGDLAJSDFSJ,AHFLHDSGF

I MISSED HIM OMG

OMG NOW I CAN PICTURE HIM AS KIT

can you tell jesper is one of my favourite characters?

i really love the fact that kaz is pissed about the murder of that ambassador ONLY because he can´t figure out how it happen

he´s such a nerd

i can't believe one of the firts things we hear jesper say is threathen to kill someone by writing "forgive me" with bullets

AND HE CALLS HIS GUNS "BABIES" OMG

picture saying hi baby and wylan thinkin he's talking to him but actually jesper's talking to one of his guns

Jesper rolled his eyes. "It's about sending a message. What's the point of a dead guy with forg written on his chest?."

"Compromise," Kaz said. "I'm sorry does the trick and uses fewer bullets."

ooo thank god we have kaz to come up with creative solutions /j /s

honestly i love how they talk about kaz's cane like it's the scariest weapon ever (which it kind of is)

nothing will ever disappoint me more than finding out that in english their gang name is "the Dregs". like i don't even know for sure what that means

in spanish is "Los Indeseables" (the undesirables?) which sounds a lot more badass

no hate tho i like the dregs

but i was confused af bc i expected it to be sometihng like "the undesirables" or"the unwanted" or whatever

and it said "the dregs"

which in the translator means something like shit or something

anways moving on:

If he'd (kaz) ever been a little boy

i love how lowkey all the crows think he was just born exactly like he is now

imagine a baby kaz all dressed in black and threatening people

cute

"No mourners," Jesper said as he tossed his rifle to Rotty

"No funerals," the rest of the Dregs murmured in reply. Among them, it passed for "good luck".

YES

YESSS

i wonder what wylan's doing right now :))

i can't wait for the next book where he has a pov

the first time i read this book i literally looked at the title of every chapter to see if he ever got one (i was disappointed to say the least :((((

Besides, she was the Wraith - the only law that applied to her was gravity, and some days she defied that, too.

ma'am

marry me please

i'm gonna cry so hard once the show is out and we get to see inej omg

me simp

That Kaz had chosen Jesper to be one of his seconds was no surprise. Twitchy as Jepser was, with or without his revolvers, he was at his best in a fight, and she knew he'd do anything for Kaz.

idk why but i just love it every time kaz implies or shows that he cares or trusts jesper

it makes me soft

But every one of Inej's senses told her that was not how this was going to play out. Her father would have said the shadows were about their business tonight. Something bad was going to happen here.

underrated saying from Inej's father right there

"I'm a business man," he told her."No more, no less"

"You're a thief, Kaz."

"Isn't that what I just said?"

i see no lies here

not to be annoying but i hc jesper as adhd (i mean is pretty much as canon as wylan's dyslexia) so i'm gonna write here every time i see evidence :)

jesper with adhd part 1: impulsivity

Jesper snorted. "Stomach, spine. What's next, spleen?"

"Shut it" Oomen snarled. The rules of parley dictated that only the lieutenants could speak once negotiations had begun. Jesper mouthed "sorry" and elaboratedly pantomimed locking his lips shut.

he know he couldn't speak but couldn't stop himself from making a comment (i relate way too much to that lmao)

hoestly poor jesper he had to watch hid friend get shot and kaz do nothing about it

i would've been mad too

"I like it when men beg," she said. "But this isn't the time for it"

KAHGFAHLGSFGASFLGSAFS

this is one of the best quotes in the book by far

YASSS KAZ POV

Kaz could have tol Jesper that he knew he wasn't dirty, reminded him that he'd trusted him eough to make him his only real second in a fight that could have gone badly wrong tonight.

cute

but kaz is petty af

he didn't even have a reason not to tell jesper that!

i love that kaz knows inej is following him but doesn't say anything because he wants to wait until she's ready

i LOVE the scene where kaz in in the van eck mantion /srs

idk why but it's so good

And, of course, there was the mystery of Van Eck's son.

wonder what that could be!!! /s

He grinned at her (...)

"Hmm." she said noncommittally, pretending to examine one of her knives, determined to ignore that grin.

KANEJ YESS

HE'S BASICALLY SHOWERING IN FRONT OF HER OMG

this is so funny poor inej is getting flustered

"And I'll need Wylan waiting at the Crow Club tomorrow night."

YES WYLAN OMG

One minute he made her blush and the next he made her want to commit murder

happens to the best of us :/

"Please, my darling Inej. treasure of my heart won't you do me the honor of acquiring me a new hat?"

if kaz doesn't say this on the show we riot

agreed?

it's so amazing how nina found a way to use her powers to get money instead of having to like steal and murder like the rest in the gang

NINA'S POV YESSS HIII

nina and inej omg

their friendship is just perfect

POOR MATTHIAS HE HAS TO FIGHT THE WOLVES

i would straight up cry

Matthias was dreaming again. Dreaming of her

i'm gonna cry damn it

this is the enemies-to-lovers we all needed

jesper has adhd part 2:

"Jesper was supposed to wait until three bells." said the pale boy

"It is three bells, Kaz." replied a small girl (...)

"Since when is Jesper punctual?" the boy complained with a glance at his watch

the time blindness come one

(btw i love the fact that kaz plans around jesper's time blindness instead of like threatening him to be on time)

i really love how every one feels the need to take the time to say/think that the masks are ugly

its so unnecessary lmao

yessss inej is a badass that kills monster we stan

and matthias is lowkey impressed lmao

as he should

"Thank you, Jesper," said Nina

"You're very welcome, gorgeous. See, Kaz? That's how the civilised folk do"

THESE TWO OMG

JESPER IS THE LOML

INEJ OMG LOOK:

She stepped aside as if she's known he was coming, languidly hooking her heel behind his ankle. Matthias let out a loud grunt as he landed on the stones

(...) "Clumsy, this one," the bronze girl said impassively.

that's what happen when you underestimate her bitch

AAAAAAA

PEOPLE

TIME TO FREAK OUT

WYLAN IS HERE

AND HE'S DOODLING STOP IT'S SO CUTE

ok jesper has adhd part 3 i think:

"Just how crazy is he?" asked Jesper, fingers drumming on the pearl handles of his revolvers.

ok first of all: stimming

second of all: hyperactivity

i rest my case

ok 2 or 3 things here

"I believe you know Nina," Brekker continued. "The lovely girl freeing you is Inej. (...) and this is Wylan, the best demolitions expert in the Barrel"

"Raske is better," Inej said

The boy looked up, ruddy gold hair flopping in his eyes, and spoke for the first time. "He's not better. He's reckless"

"He knows his trade"

"So do I"

ok 1: kaz calling inej lovely omg kanej

2: YES WYLAN STANDING UP FOR HIMSELF

2.5: kaz calling him the best cute af

3: honestly why do people think wylan is like an innocent soft boy or whatever. he's in a room full of murderers and thieves and the first thing he does is correct them and stand up for himself

like i wish i could do that

i would be crying like a bitch

AAAAAAAA

"Meet Wylan Van Eck"

KHDSGFALSGFIASGFAL

HI WYLAN BABY

YESSS JESPER'S POV NOW

I'M SO HAPPY also look at this it's the first thing in his pov

Jesper stared at Wylan

do i sense some wesper?????

ok everyone is being so mean to him right now

they are aclling him useless and an idiot and other shit

poor boy honestly he had to deal with this + taking part of a heist he is definetly not ready for + he has to hide the fact that he can't write or read

it so distrubing that kaz is literally the nicest one to wylan right now

"See that? Hidden depths." (...)"He's good enough at demo, and he's got a fine hand for sketching, thanks to all those pricey tutors."

(...)

"There you have it," Kaz said to Jesper. "Marketable skills. Wylan is watching you, Helvar"

GET READY

ARE Y'ALL READY?

OK THEN:

"Scheming face," Jesper whispered to Inej.

She nodded. "Definetly."

THEIR FRIENDSHIP OMG

AND THIS QUOTE

I NEED IT ON THE SHOW THEY BETTER GIVE IT TO US

"Who's Mark" damn wylan (but pretty good comeback to jesper tho)

"What's the easiest way to steal a man's wallet?

"Knife to the throat?" asked Inej.

"Gun to the back?" said Jesper.

"Poison in his cup?" suggested Nina.

"You're all horrible," said Matthias.

tag yourself i'm jesper

KJSFGAL kaz just told wylan to tell him everything he know about his dad's company

and he said he doesn't know and kaz was like "and you never looked trough his documents????

AND THEN HE GOT SAD AND SAID HE HADN'T (and kaz believed him this is sad)

AND NOW JESPER CALLED HIIM USELESS

ok you know i love you jes but if you keep this up

idk i can't do anything you're a sharpshooter

but stiiiiiil

LMAO MATTHIAS ACTUALLY THOUGHT HE COULD BEAT KAZ

nice try

demjin

*insert spongebob voice* demjin

WE'RE GONNA TAKE A MOMENT NOW TO APPRECIATE INEJ GAHFA

BECAUSE KAZ DOESN'T

The heart is an arrow. It demands aim to land true.

*ugly crying*

Many boys will bring you flowers. But some day you'll meet a boy who will learn your favourite flower, your favourite song, your favourite sweet. And even if he is too poor to give you any of them, it won't matter because he will have taken the time to know you as no one else does. Only that boy earns your heart.

*uglier crying*

TANTE HELLEN IF YOU DON'T GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE

SOMEONE PLEASE STAB HER FOR ME

jesper has adhd part ?? (i have dyscalculia you can't expect me to remember the number):

That sound - the swift, shocking report of gunfire - called the scattered, irascible, permanently seeking part of his mind into focus like nothing else.

do i really need to explain this?

ok just in case.. an adhd brain doesn't actually have a deficit of attention(the name just sucks) it's problem with controling that attention. the brain is always looking for new sources of dopamine which is why it shifts its focus so much

i love that jes thinks of matthias as "tha giant"

like sir

have you seen yourself?

you're tall af

HE GOT SHOT

WHY DID I FORGET JESPER GETS SHOT IN THE LEG HERE

"Close your eyes!"

"You can't kiss me from down there, Wylan"

"Just do it!"

i love the energy BUT NOW IT'S NOT THE TIME JES

YESS WYLAN SHOW THEM THEY WERE WRONG CALLING YOU USELESS

inej just stabed some guy int the d

good for her!

KAZ YESSSS HI

AWWW SHE'S WORRIED HE DOESN'T HAVE HIS CANE

KANEJ FOR LIFE

oh no wylan got shot too???? (just barely but stilllll por baby)

my Wraith omggg

ok 3 things about this:

Without another word, he tipped Oomen into the sea.

"No!" Wylan shouted, leaning over the railing, his face pale, stunned eyes tracking Oomen in the waves. (...)

Jesper set his hand on Wylan's shoulder. "Let it go."

"It's not right-"

"Wylan," Jesper said, giving him a little shake."Maybe your tutors didn't cover this lesson, but you do not argue with a man covered in blook and a knife up his sleeve"

1. wesper yasssss

2. wylan just argued with a mant hat had just tacken the eye out of someone. he literally called him out for being an asshole. like damn wylan is brave af i love him

3. do you think seeing kaz trow the guy out of the boat reminded wylan of when the same thing happened to him???? this makes me sad

he's brave and a good person and i just-

"Man with a knife, remember?" he said over his shoulder.

"Man with a gun!" Jesper called after him

this had no right being so funny

AND THEN KAZ GAVE HIM THE MIDDLE FINGER STOP I CAN'T

nina is the biggest kanej shiper no one can tell me i'm wrong

unrelated but if jesper had gone to the Little Palace and had studied there with nina they 100% would've had a crush on Zoya and bonded over it

like you can't tell me those two bisexual disaster wouldn't be absolutely in love with Zoya

jesper has adhd part ??:

Jesper scrubbed the back of his neck, touched his hands to his gunds, returned to his neck. He always seemed to be in motions

hyperactivity right there

and restlessness

"Do you know the best way to find Grisha who don't want to be found?" (...)

"Seems to be if they don't want to be found, you should just let them be" (jesper says this)

this conversation must be so stressful to him omg

LMAO JESPER CUT MATTHIAS HAIR THIS IS SO FUNNY

AND HE SHAVED HIM

ok you all know i love all of them but they can be sooo stupid

like wylan wrote no names on the drawing and he's excuse is that he doesn't know fjerdan?

AND THAT'S NOT EVEN TRUE he literally said he learned school fjerdan which means he should know how to write it too (we know why he can't but the tohers don't)

and even then like the excuse doesn't make any sense. why would having the original name be usefull if no one can fucking read it????

the worst part tho? NO ONE QUESTIONED HIM

THEY WERE LIKE "yup makes sense" AND WENT ON WITH THEIR DAY

i wondered how they didn't figure wylan's secret sooner but now i now

it's because theya re idiots

"I'm just doing my job. Stop glaring at me"

wylan baby let's not make the gigant mad

Jesper knocked his head against the hull and cast his eyes heavenward. "Fine. But if Pekka Rollins kills us all, I'm going to get Wylan's ghost to teach my ghost how to play the flute just so that I can annoy the hell out of your ghost."

Brekker's lips quirked. "I'll just hire Matthias ghost to kick your ghost's ass."

"My ghost won't associate with your ghost," Matthias said primply, and then wondered if the sea air was rotting his brain.

i had to put this here i don't want to get murdered by the fandom

jesper, inej and nina have the BEST friendship

I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE JES AND INEJ TOGETHER ON NETFLIX

"I know some people don't understand, but Kaz told me ... he said it was my choice, that he wouldn't be the one to mark me again."

i love this because it happen when they had just met

he did it because he understands her trauma and he respects her not because he loves her (i doubt he did at the time)

Kaz had been impressed with the sketches. (...)

"Just learn to take a compliment. Kaz doesn't hand them out often."

I'M SO PROUD OF WYLAN

and yess kaz only compliments wylan (and inej but that's sarcastic so it doesn't count) because he's a proud dad

"And you don't belong here, either."

"I beg your pardon, merchiling?"

"We don't need a sharpshooter for Kaz's plan, so what's your job - other than stalking around making everyone angsty?"

He shrugged. "Kaz trusts me."

Wylan snorted and picked up his pen. "Sure about that?"

DAMN WYLAN DESTROYED HIM

also

"If you aren't born with every advantage, you learn to take your chances."

"I wasn't-" Wylan left off and set down his pen. (...)

aww cute neurodivergent boyfriends bonding

Wylan had turned back to his work, his disappointment obvious. For some reason, Jesper felt disappointed, too.

ajgflasjgfjagslfiuusgflgdfsgdflasdgfsd

wesper

aww jes checks on inej every morning and every night i love him

"Thank you for keeping me in this world when fate seemed determined to drag me to the next. I owe you a life debt."

Nina blushed deeply. "I was teasing, Inej"

LJFGALKGFALGA another cute friendship right there

(and i can see why people ship them romantically)

STOP INEJ AND JES ARE BONDING SO MUCH (page 127 so i can go back and read it lmao)

Van Eck writes to Wylan every week, and Wylan doesn't even open the letters

"They just said the same thing again and again: If you're reading this, the you know how much I wish to have you home. Or I pray that you read these words and think of all you've left behind."

should i kill him? anyone want to join me?

Inej bumped her shoulder against his."Then at least we're both the same kind of stupid." (...)

"You're too good for him, you know?"

"I know. So are you"

jes and her bonding over their stupid crush on a white boy

Because I've been looking for an excuse to talk to you for two days.

jfsfdajdhmgkfutdjrgsg ok i can't blame them for having a crush on him anymore

this chapter is full of kanej i love it

"What do you want, then"

You, Inej. You forever.

jksdgfoagsdfgsdgfklasgdflaghsldfgksdgfkahgsdfghjlkf

kaz's backstory makes me sad

"When we get our money, you can burn kruge to keep you warm," said Kaz. (...)

"I´m gonna pay someone to burn my kruge for me."

Kaz fell into step beside him. "Why don't you pay someone else to pay someone to burn your kruge for you? That's what big players do."

"You know what the really big bosses do? They pay someone to pay someone ...". Their voices trailed off as they tomped ahead, and Matthias and the others followed.

JES AND KAZ HAVE THE BEST CONVERSATIONS

i can't believe we get to see nina and matthias meet and their whole backstory in less than a month omg

"It's not natural for women to fight."

"It's not natural for someone to be as stupid as he is tall, and yet there you stand."

QUEEN

YOU TELL HIM

oh no the dead grisha

this part breaks my heart every time

"Do you have a different name for killing when you wear a uniform to do it?"

.....i'm just gonna leave this quote right here

anyways acab

stop nina tried to kill the survivor so they wouldn't suffer but she couldn't do it

and jesper did it for her without hesitation i wanna cry

and inej didn't want to do it either i want to hug them

"Because our crime is existing. Our crime is what we are"

..........

i'm gonna leave this here again

do with it what you will

"Don't mock what you don't understand."

"My mockery offends you? My people would welcome you laughter in place of this barbarity"

i- this conversation is so important

AAAAA JES AND WY ARE A GREAT TEAM I LOVE THEM

WYLAN TROWS BOMBS TOGIVE JESPER TIME TO GET READY TO SHOOT

INEJ AND KAZ ARE A GREAT TEAM TOO

THEY LITERALLY DID THE SCENE LIKE IN THE AVENGERS (but without the shield WHICH MAKES IT BETTER)

Jesper shouldered his rifle. "Wylan earned his keep."

Wylan gave a little jump at the sound of his name. "I did?"

YES BABY YOU DID GREAT

kaz getting self-conscious for his hair is pure comedy

but nina how can you say that have you see his hair on the show???? it's perfect

"Remeber our friend Mark?"

HELP I CAN'T

"Any other impossible feats you'd like us to accomplish?"

The bearest smile flikered over Kaz's lips. "I'll make you a list."

once again jesper and kaz being besties

unrelated but nikolai and jesper would love each other

the amount of sass they have between them it's unparalleled

"Mmm," Inej murmured, taking a sip from her mug. "Maybe you're just not enough."

DAMN

ma'am marry me please

kaz fainted damn poor boy

unrelated unce again but this is so much betetr than shadow and bone

like you can tell leigh improved so much

her characters are better and their arcs are better developed

the writing itself it's better

or maybe i'm just biased because i love soc so much but i think she definetly improved

INEJ IS TRYING TO GIVE HIM SPACE EVEN WHEN SHE'S TRAPPED AND LOCKED ON THE WAGON

I JUST - THEY KNOW EACH OTHER SO MUCH

Though he'd trusted her with his life countless times, it felt much more frightening to trust her with his shame.

Inej had once offered to teach him how to fall. "The trick is not getting knocked down," he'd told her with a laugh. "No, Kaz," she's said, "the trick is in getting back up"

inej is smart af

Kaz was usually unshakeable during a job, but now he was on edge, and Jesper didn't know why. Part of him wanted to ask, though he knew that was the stupid part, the hopeful farmboy who picked the worst possible person to care about, who searched for signs in things that he knew deep down meant nothing - when kaz chose him for a job, when Kaz played along with one of his jokes. He could have kicked himself. He's finally seen the infamous Kaz Brekker without a stich of clothing, and he'd been too worried about ending up on a pike to pay proper attention.

ok i got a couple of things to say about this part

first of all it makes me so sad that jes cares so much for someone who dosn't deserve him. because no hate to kaz but they would never work as a couple and kaz already treats him like shit most of the time

i think this part shows who a lot about who jesper really is. a boy that grew up having to hide parts of himself, who thinks he's worth nothing but it's smart and capable, who's loyal and brave and caring but doesn't even know it himself. he's someone who feels he doesn't deserve good things and thinks he's not good enough, and that's why he unds up in all the wrong places with the wrong people. he left uni bc he fell in with the gangs, because he didn't think he was smart enough or even prepared to be in studying in the university. jesper is constantly hiding behind a mask or running from things because he's scared of not being enough

an kaz is everything jes in a way wishes he could be. kaz is secure in himself (at least on the outside), he's stable, he's smart, he's "unshakeable". and most of all, he doesn't care about others (we know that's not true but that's how he presents himself)

and that's the thing that causes jesper all his problems. because he's insecure because he thinks he's not good enough for the poeple or things he cares about. and he's always trying to do what's best for his loved ones: he went to the ice court to pay his debt for his father, he follows kaz everywhere beacause he cares about him, he offered to read to wylan (knowing it wouldn't be easy for him to be still that long).

and yeah it often doesn't work out becuase he's messy and he has problems but he tries. and he hates that. he hates that he cares so much about people because at the end of the day, that's what makes him feel like he's not good enough

one more thing and i'm done i promise

unpopular opinion but i love that leigh made jesper have a crush on kaz. 1 beacuse it's refreshing to see someone not get otgether with his first crush. and 2 because i love that it shows that we sometimes get attached to people that are not good for us, but that we can learn to move on. jesper ended with wylan who respects him and values him, unlike kaz

ok i'm sorry that was probably all bs

oo one more thing, jesper definetly has rsd (rejection sensitive disphoria), which is something most poeple with adhd have

"My father used to take me everywhere with him"

this is so sad. bc they probably had a good relationship when he was little. and then they figured he coudln't read and now his father treats him like shit

it's even worse than if he haf been horrible from the beginning because wylan knows he can be a good father. and so he thinks it's his fault and he deserves to be treated like that. i hate van eck

"You're cuter when you're smart"

(...)

"Definitely cuter when you're smart"

wesper yesssss

i love them so much

ok but why do people think jesper is stupid. like the boy just made a bunch of criminals pass out by mixing some chemicals

and he was going to the university at like 15

AAAAND NOW THEY KNOW HE'S A FABRIKATOR

amazing plot twist

also:

Wylan coughed. Flirting with him might actually be more fun that annoying him, but it was a close call.

oooo come on jesper we all know you just love getitng him to blush

and you love him

who said that? definitely not me, nope

awwww jesper misses being around animals that's cute

imagine him coming home to wylan one day with a puppy because he just couldn't resist

cute

Better terrible truths than kind lies

just leaving here more of inej's wisdom

ok this may be a reach but jesper has adhd part ???

Yellow Protocol? Red Protocol? He couldn't remember which was which. (...)

"The alarm was Yellow Protocol, a sector disturbance."

Jesper pushed at his temples. "I don't remember what that means"

a bad working memory? sounds familiar

kaz loves puzzles

it's canon

"I love puzzles. Trickery is just my native tongue."

this part where wylan and jesper see the banner made with grisha's kefta kills me every time

I would have worn purple, Jesper thought, if I'd joined the Second Army. (...) He'd beenwilling, even eager to risk capture and execution as a thief and hired gun. Why was it worse to think about being hunted as a Grisha?

this makes me want to cry so much

another thing super sad: the fact that since his father is Kaelish and had some supersititons towards grisha, jesper grew up wondering if his own father was scared of him. he had to hide his powers and he was almost taught to be afraid of them

"Is it safe to leave them, you know-"

"Alive? I'm not big on killing unconscious men."

"We could wake them up"

WYLAN

damn the boy needs therapy

it's amazing how nothing went like they planned

not a single thing

PEOPLE GET READY

ARE YOU READY?

NEITHER AM I BUT WHO CARES

"What do you like?"

"Music. Numbers. Equations. They are not like words. They...they don't get mixed up."

ok dude the clues are right there he's basically saying it

"If only you could talk to girls in equations."

There was a long silence, and then, eyes trained on the notch they'd created in the link, Wylan said, "Just girls?"

Jesper restrained a grin. "No. Not just girls." It really was a shame they were all probably going to die tonight.

wylan really said a straight man?? couldn't be me

this is the definition of bi panic "jesper restrained a grin" bitch we saw that

btw i love the slow burn

like they hint something here but they don't actually start liking each other until much later and they don't get together until almost the end of ck

i also love that the fact that they both like guys is like out in the open now. bc i'm not a fan of when queer characters have a crush and there's the whole thing of "are they queer too or not?"

like they both know htey are queer. but they don't get together right away bc they have to start liking each other before. they don't get together bc they are the only queer mlm characters

matthias fake betrayal killed me

i tought it was real

I have been made to protect you. Only in death will I be kept fom this oath.

this is just-

also foreshadowing?

YAYY KUWEI HI

There was no part of him that was not broken, that had not healed wrong, and there was no part of him that was not stronger for having been broken.

She's laughed, and if he could have bottled the sound and got drunk on it every night, he would have. It terrified him.

if i ever have a s/o and they don't tell me this at least once i don't want it

He needed to tell her... what? That she was lovely and brave and better than anything he deserved. That he was twisted, crooked, wrong, but not so broken that he couldn't pull himslef together into some smeblance of a man for her

THIS

THIS IS LOVE RIGHT THERE

they are the only straight couple that matters

everyone else go home

Wylan had scratches all over his cheeks and neck. He was beaming. Inej grabbed his hands and sqeezed.

so cute omg

"You can explain why our illustrious Shu scientist looks like one of Wylan's school pals along the way"

KAZ

i mean it's true but you didn't have to say it

KAZ IS SMILING OMG

EVERYONE FREAK OUT WITH ME

HE'S "grinning like and idiot" STOP I LOVE HIM

"We are all someone's mosnter, Nina"

"I will have you without armour, Kaz Brekker. Or I will not have you at all"

this part breaks my heart and i love it

"Stay," she oanted. Tears leaked from her eyes. "Stay till the end"

"And after," he said. "And always."

i just- helnik is perfect

AWWW JESPER MISSES WYLAN

my daily dosis of wesper :)

ok but in like 2 pages jesper tought of wylan like 10 times bc he's sad wy isn't with him

Jesper scanned the empty deck. He's assumed Wylan would come up to see them off. (...)

Jesper knew he was being selfish and stupid, but some petty part of him wondered if Wylan had deliberately kept away from him on the journey back. Maybe now that the job was complete and he was on his way to his share of the haul, Wylan was done slumming with criminals.

*charles boyle's insinuating voice* and why do you care so much???

btw YOU ARE WRONG. HE'S LITERALLY GOING OUT OF HIS WAY TO BE WITH YOU EVEN THOUGH HE CAN'T SPEAK

this scene where we find out the truth about wylan hurts so much but it's one of my favourites idk why

I LOVE THAT EVERYONE IS AS MAD AS I AM ABOUT THE LETTERS NOW

"Your're a fool," Jesper snarled. "He smarter than most of us put together, and he deserves a better father than you."

YES TELL HIM

the fact that wylan just heard him say that omg

"Deserved" amended Van Eck. He blew the whislte twice.

SOMEONE BETTER GRAB ME BEFORE I KILL HIM MYSLEF

THAT IDIOT

I HATE HIM SO MUCH

I'M GONNA CRY CAN SOMEONE KILL HIM FOR ME

Jesper screamed in rage and raised his guns.

YES EXACLTY WHAT I MEANT

JUST KILL HIM RIGHT NOW

"I'm not big on bludding, am I Inej?"

"Not as a rule"

Van Eck's lip curled. "And why is that?"

"Because he'd rather cheat," said the boy who was not Kuwei Yul-Bo in perfect, unaccented Kerch.

THIS WAS PERFECT

THE BEST WAY TO REVEAL THAT

(...), and Jesper flinched

baby he recognized wylan's voice

The Shu boy held out a hand. "Pay up, Kaz"

BITCH THIS IS AMAZING

THIS BOY MADE A BET WITH A CRIMINAL THAT HIS OWN FATHER WAS GOING TO TRY TO KILL HIM

AND HE WON THE BET

A nearly perfect replica of Kuwei Yul-Bo stood before them, but he had Wylan's voice, his mannerisms, and - though Kaz could see the fear and hurt in his golden eyes - Wylan's surprising courage, too.

i love it when they compliment him

my boy deserves all the compliments ever

AND KAZ IS PROUD OF HIS SON WE ALL KNOW THIS

Wylan cuold draw a perfectt elevation. He's made a drill that could cut throu Grisha glass from parts of a gate and scavenged bits of jewellery. So what if he couldn't read

this is taking me to some real places

i may cry you've been warned

WYLAN DIDN'T CARE THAT HE MAY BE STUCKED LOOKING LIKE KUWEI

this is making me cry

"A fool would have been waiting to be smashed to bits on that ship. And as for "traitor", you've called me worse in the last few minutes alone."

EXACTLY

YOU TELL HIM WYLAN

Instead, in that moment of threat, when he should have thought only of the fight, he looked at Inej.

BABY

i would've done the same tho she's pretty

amita is sooo pretty i'm gonna die when the show comes out

Jesper was staring at Wylan, his eyes roving over the black hair, the golden eyes. "Why?" he said at last. "Why would you do this?"

nothing to say here except: wesper

You... how many times was it you standing beside me on the deck at night when I tought it was Kuwei?"

"Every time."

i want to cry so bad

"Why does it matter?"

"I don't know!" Jesper said angrily. "Maybe I liked your stupid face."

a very staright and platonic thing to say of course

i know jes we all liked his stupid face

"Jesper made a mistake," said Wylan. "A stupid mistake, but he didn't set out to betray anyone."

YES WYLAN DEFEND YOUR BOYFRIEND

And maybe he'd kept him in the dark about Wyllan because he wanted to punish him a little

even kaz know they like each other come on

Jesper sat with elbows on knees, head in hands. Wylan deside him wearing th face of a stranger.

wylan give him a hug fro me please

he needs it

"Scheming face," murmured Jesper.

"Definitely," agreed Wylan.

i miss inej already

And I'm going to get my girl. Inej could never be his, not really, but he would find a way to give her the freedom he´d promised her so long ago.

i'm ugly crying and so what?

and now we're done....

i want to read this book again omg this is unhealthy

#shadow and bone #s&b #six of crows #jesper fahey #wylan van eck #kaz brekker #grishaverse #inej gahfa #matthias helvar #nina zenik #freddy carter #kit young #amita suman #soc #helnik #kanej #wesper

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luvutomoonandtosaturn · 3 years

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Child of Blood and Salt - Chapter 3

It would be fair to say that a coughing Inej, a murdersus and bloodied Kaz, and a strange dark haired girl who looked like she’d been through the ringer to be the burglar that would have broken into the Van Eck Mansion. Jesper glazed quickly at his boyfriend beside him to make sure he wasn’t going crazy and that the two deadliest people in Ketterdam and some random pirate chick just hadn’t broken into their house. “Ya,” Anya said passing Kaz while dusting herself off already making herself at home in the mansion, “You definitely missed me.” It was Wylan who spoke next, now giving Anya a curious look. “Saints Kaz! What-” “Sorry to barge in,” Kaz cut off now giving Anya a deadly stare that if Jesper had received would of sent him running to the hills , “but we needed a safe place to hide out.” “From what!” Jesper said, now looking over their bloodied and bruised bodies. “Sandwatch,” Kaz said, giving a look to Anya and leading the group to the main sitting room.” Jeseper and Wylan were left in a state of utter astonishment, and caught up just in time. “You know what, call me crazy, but haven’t we all been here before. I thought I had settled into a life of ease and comfort!” Jesper explained. “Ya,” Kaz said, now making himself comfortable and shooting Anya a pointed look, “I did too. But I’d really love to hear your excuse you promised me” “Who is this?” Jesper mouthed to Inej who shook her head just as easily confused. “Come on!” Anya explained to Kaz, who both now seemed to forget there were three other people in the room in the heat of their argument. “I think we're overdue for a family reunion,” Kaz scoffed. That's when Inej noticed. The dark hair, the same chocolate brown eyes. She would kick herself for not noticing it sooner because now it was so obvious. Even their noses looked the same. They were related. “I’m in a bit of a situation,” Anya starts. “An understatement.” “Kaz, please,” “No, no, because this is what you do An, you show up at unexpected moments and rain down hell wherever you go. And who's there to fix your mistakes? Me. ” Kaz exploded jumping out of his chair. “And what- what happened to you sailing around the world. Aren't you supposed to be pirating around on Sturmhond's boat right now? Whatever happened to that? And what about that house in Nova Zem?” Kaz looked accelerated, Jesper and Inej had never seen him worked up like this before. The room was dead silent as Wylan, Jesper, and Inej silently waited on the edge of their seats to see how the story played out. The housekeeper was now bringing out more kavs and glasses which Jesper accepted happily.

“Kaz” Anya said, now losing her humorous energy, “I’m one of Sturmods most trusted crew members.” She explained looking Kaz in the eyes. “I know.” Kaz didn't let his surprise show but said “and how does this change anything?” Anya opened her mouth to say something but words to tell Kaz all the things that she was hiding could't find her.

“Okay!” Jesper finally exploded, “I’m sorry Kaz, but can someone please explain what in saints name is going on here!” Kaz and Anya were finally broken out of their transe of anger and stared at Jesper as if they just realized they all were there. She sighed. “You're Jesper, the sharpshooter, right?” Anya gestured to him, to which he gave a nod. “So that means you must be...Wylan,” Anya continued, “And of course you’re Inej.” She finally turned to Inej who could now clearly see that resemblance between Kaz and Anya in the better lighting of the Van Eck Mansion. “And you are Kaz’s sister,” Inej said with confidence. Jesper spit out his Kavs with a loud unpleasant sound and Wylan's eyes widened in shock. Anya stood still, not denying the accusation. “Wylan, please tell me I’m dreaming, this is all a dream. There is not a female verson of Kaz Brekker in our living room. ” Jesper said turning to Wylan who rolled his eyes and turned to Kaz, “Kaz, I never knew.” “Yes, well that wasthe point wasn’t it.” Kaz said with an annoyed glance at Anya, who rolled her eyes. “But, you’re Grisha,” Inej said with confused glances between the siblings, “aren't you?” Anya opened her mouth to respond but Kaz got there faster. “She was tested when we were children,” Kaz explained, “Before our parents died. You were to be brought to the Little Place but our parents struck a deal with an orphanage in Nova Zem, a place where Grisha children could live in peace, outside the second army. It's wear she grew up .” Kaz sat down again now knowing he couldn't keep his secret sister from his crows any longer. “We met years ago, and Anya had gotten a position of Sturmhond's crew. We had other meetings throughout the years, it’s where I went those two weeks last year.” It was all making sense to the crows now, but Anya’s head was down listening to Kaz tell her story. “That's where I thought you were,” Kaz said, turning to his sister, “Look, Anya I have enough on my plate as it is. I'm sure you have more than enough resources to fix whatever problem Sturmhold - Nikolai - has gotten himself into.” Anya finally looked up at her brother, cane in hand, sitting in front of her in a big leather chair. Inej was standing by his side, a look of concern on her beautiful features. Wylan was looking like he was in a state of shock sitting next to Jesper who was looking at Kaz like he was dressed in rainbow colors and juggling baby tigers. Anya knew then that if she was going to get her brother's help she needed to come clean, about everything. “I’ve never been Novia Zem, Kaz” She said after a long moment of silence. Kaz’s head shut up quickly. “No,” He reasoned, “after you were tested-” “No Kaz. There is no secret magical place where Grisha children can be who they are outside of the second army. It’s fiction.” There were no tears in her eyes but her face displayed a look of trauma as she recounted her story. “There was a slaver in town, he offered our parents a lot of money if they would give me up. You know we were poor, we were really poor, and besides they were always terrified of my power, I displayed it so young. So, they took me, but the slaver he wasn’t, well he wasn’t really a slaver was he. Markin Yaroslavovich.” “Wait,” Jesper piped in, “I’ve heard that name before. Something about a raid on his estate in The Wandering Isle, but that's all." “Most people don’t know him, always kept under the radar.” Anya said and she gave a harsh dark laugh suddenly changing from her humorous demeanor. “He called himself a “collector” of Grisha. He was maniacally obsessed with our power and collected corporalki, like myself, and Etherealki and Materialki from all around the world. It was his life mission to create his own army, outside Ravka. That’s where I grew up, in a dark palace along with thirty other helpless Grisha. You think the conditions of the Little Palace training was bad, this was- it was hell. He experimented on us, controlled us, wanted something like Judra Palm to make us, him, more powerful. More than half of us died. Luckily he wasn’t able to get his hands

on it the judra parlm tho. Then finally when the second army got wind of what was going on they sent a rescue mission. Only three of us survived the escape, me, a squaller, and one durast. When we got to Ravka, they said we could go to the Southern Colonies and the squaller and durast did, but I- I don’t know I couldn't go to the colonies and not use my power, it was all I’ve ever known. So, I stayed.” Anya finally met Kaz’s eyes who she’d been avoiding though her own speech. “I’ve one of the best Heartrenders in the second army Kaz. I used my full name and now I’m training new Grisha in the second army. But, I am on Sturmonds crew, Nikolai does need some grisha backup every once and while.” Kaz didn't yell or glare at his sister, but listened carfully just if she was reading him a bedtime story. “Why didn’t you tell me?” Kaz said now speaking, “How did I- how did I not know” “You're used to knowing everything about everything Kaz, but Yaroslavovich was an expert of not being noticed and the whole mission was covered up by the second army, but I’m sorry I didn’t tell you. When I first met you I was traveling with Sturmhond and I just didn't, I couldn't relive it then.” “I don’t blame you for anything, Anastasia.” Anya smiled at this. “But that doesn’t explain-” “Why I’ve shown up unexpectedly with people trying to kill me, yes I know. Can Van Eck and the Sharpshooter be trusted?” “Debatable, but we’ll probably need them for whatever scheme you're planning.” Anya cocked her head in agreement. “Nikolai’s been taken.” At that Jesper spit up, yet again, his drink. “Who-” Inej cut in. “His brother Vasily, he’s always been jealous of him, but most importantly he wants the crown and he’ll do anything to do it and that means killing his brother. Nikolai, as Sturmond, was on one last recon mission before returning to Ravka, and he was ambushed. Vasily, is playing it off as a tragic accident and the whole palace and army is with him. Only me and a couple other Grisha, Zoya, Nadia Genya,a durast named David, and heartrender twins Tamar and Toyla know the truth. I left a days ago, and they are probably already questioning everyone. It’s hell at the palace now, Vasily has got everyone in a tight grasp and he's not letting go.” Kaz nodded his head, the life changing information unfazed his cold features. “How do you know that he’s not already dead? I mean why not just assassinate him and finish the job why kidnap him?” “They need him. He’s the only one who knows the secret plans for the peace treaty with Fjerda I don't even know them. They can’t risk killing him without that information, but they’ll do a lot to get it out of him. David’s narrioided down his location somewhere in Novyi Zem,” “That’s a pretty big peraminter.” Wylan piped in now sitting up in his chair. “I know, but I have several contacts there so I think I can narrow it down a bit when we get there, if you are still in.” “And what exactly would be our role in your little king rescue mission.” “I have none of Ravka’s resources with me, plus we will probably be breaking into a heavily guarded place, isn’t that your guys' thing.” “Know that does sound like fun.” Jesper said “There’s also the added benefit that you’ll be saving the entirety of Ravka from a Vasily rain. So what do you say, big brother, wanna rescue a king?”

#nikolai lanstov imagines #nikolai x mc #kaz brekker #pirates #black widow #nikolai lantsov #inej gahfas #jesper fahey #wylan van eck #inej my beloved #loml nikolai #scary pirate bi couple energy????

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szopenhauer · 4 years

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Give me a random word in another language. Tell me what it means. ulica - street or czekolada - chocolate *I bet you read/spell those wrong :P

How long does it roughly take you to do grocery shopping? depends, I’m pretty fast, especially if I buy local but sometimes there’s no product I need in the store so I go to another

Which city would you like to visit- Rome, London or Paris? London, then Paris, then Rome

Would you rather visit Australia or Germany? Germany, I have no interest in Australia at this point

Would you prefer a pet rat, mouse, snake, lizard or spider? rat or mouse, definitely not a spider because of M.

Can you play the violin? If not, would you like to? no and no

Can you keep a pokerface and not show your emotions easily? often

Are you a good liar (tell the truth this time)? can be but I don’t like to lie

Are you wearing shoes, just socks or nothing on your feet? ugg slippers and fuzzy socks

Do you prefer to write etc, etcetera or something else? etc itp itd and such

Do you think rainbows are pretty or overrated? overrated

Are you more skeptical or gullible? skeptical

How often do you drink sodas or fizzy drinks? never

Do you currently live in the same country you were born in? sure

Do you struggle to articulate your thoughts and feelings? sometimes

Do you like carrot cake? gross

Don’t you hate it when people say ‘I don’t mean to be rude but…’? omg

How good is your memory? ha ha ha

Is there anyone you love, whose name starts with M? XD

Have your neighbors ever complained that your music/TV was too loud? weird but they actually didn’t!

How many zeroes occur in your mobile phone number? none

Are you currently wearing anything green? am not

Name an animal that starts with the 2nd letter of your middle name. -

Have you ever had feelings for someone whose name started with S? yup

How many red lipsticks do you own? old one, past expiration date

What are you doing to improve or maintain your health currently? my best lmfao which is not enough, if only I had money...

Do you ever look at someone’s social media posts and feel a little jealous? who doesn’t?

Do you like how your hair looks today? I washed them last night but didn’t look at myself in the mirror in the morning just yet

What health problem are you struggling with currently? list is too long

Do you take life day by day? I’m on survival mode

Do you have a lot of questions? would say so

List 10 fashion trends you like/dislike. current? I’m not aware... let me check according to Vogue there are puffy sleeves that I’m not into but they’re not gross, gold - fine if not too much I suppose, cardigans - I prefer not open tops but sometimes they’re useful indeed, check pattern (no surprises here - checkered stuff for summer? groundbreaking) - same opinion as with puffy sleeves, maybe it’s the fact of popularity and fall stereotypes that pushes me away from the thing but... nvm, lets move on! fringe - bags with it are noice but I prefer to not use smth that might cause an accident... matrix coats? why not?! Nat’s Spike mode - count me in? gonna feel like a leather couch again, red color causes my anxiety and anger issues but in small doses is like gold I mentioned above, suits are Vinnie’s but I don’t mind ‘em for specific occassions, inflate bottoms aren’t casual so not no chance of using that in everyday life, masculine fashion? POSITIVELY TRIGGERED - love me some bad boy vibes - excited AF, back to black - classy, what else is there to say? ;)

Are you ready for Jesus to come back? please

Do you believe that Jesus lived and is returning? hopefully?

Do you have too much clutter in your home? we are hoarders/maximalists

If you were rich, would you get a professional photoshoot done? *shrug*

Have you ever taken a photo every day for a year? no patience for shit like that, sorry

Do you have way too many photos stored on your computer? oh well...

Do you take a lot of selfies? probably

Do you ever multi-task? usually

Are you multi-tasking right now? not really atm

Are you “with” the very last person you kissed? we’re engaged

Have you ever broken up with someone for someone else? poniekąd na koloniach był taki chłopczyk, którego nikt nie lubił, najmłodszy, no i mi go było żal, że Aneta (w jego wieku, moja koleżanka) nie chce z nim tańczyć to się nad nim zlitowałam i od razu mnie polubił, przyniósł mi kwiatki jakieś wodne i potem po prostu przestałam się nim zajmować bo nasza opiekunka szukała dziewczyn dla takiego grubszego chłopaka nieśmiałego i dzięki temu miał grono fanek, ale wybrał akurat mnie i to mi pochlebiało, dał mi swoją czapkę z daszkiem na trochę (potem wyjechał szybciej niż inni więc mu oddałam i w sumie trochę szkoda było iż nie miałam z nim kontaktu bo się wstydziłam poprosić - mówili na niego LODÓWA), w końcu zdeterminowana wziąć kolonijny ślub uczepiłam się wręcz Łukasza (kolegi tamtego - Piotra czy Pawła) i nawet miałam pierścionek zrobiony specjalnie dla nas przez kowala oraz dyplom, wykonywaliśmy zadania i wyniósł mnie na rękach (ledwo) i suknię ślubną skleciłam hahaha, a tak na serio robiłam to tylko żeby się pochwalić, że ktoś mnie chciał, nie ważne kto, a tamten pierwszy malec mnie za to kopnął w dupę (serio) i musiałam się z nim godzić przy wychowawcy, ale mnie unikał jak ognia obrażony potem, wszyscy byli ode mnie kilka lat młodsi ^^” taka byłam, albo to była Anya/Amy, nie wiem, chciałam się dopasować, moje BPD ze mnie wyłaziło ehh jeśli to się nie liczy to były potem też przecież momenty kiedy przerzucałam się z jednej dziewczyny na drugą zainteresowaniem bardzo szybko, czasami wracałam do poprzedniej byleby dostać odrobinę uwagi, czuć sie potrzebna, nie być taka samotna czy coś - ale nie liczyłam na nic poważnego, żyłam tu i teraz, żeby nie odstawać, bo przyszłości przecież i tak miałam nie mieć, więc dowartościowanie się jedynie wchodziło w grę lub poczucie przynależności, bycie opcją, wręcz masochistycznie nawet jak wiadomo, swego rodzaju bezpieczeństwo - flirt/zabawa

How many windows are open on your computer? shitload

Have you ever laughed at something that wasn’t meant to be funny? whoops

Have you done anything sneaky lately? maybe

Does someone have feelings for you? it seems

Are you hard to please? am I? I’m picky about some things but usually it’s not my fault like food, sigh...

Relationship to the last person you called? my doctor

What color shirt are you wearing? grey

Is there anything you wish you did today? Why haven’t you done it? I plan, I’ll try

What were you doing before you started this survey? bunch of things

Can you honestly say that you love yourself? umm...

Do you think you spend too much time feeling upset? sadly

Do you own a pair of uggs? have ‘em on! as I already said above

Has the person you have feelings for ever told you that you’re attractive? I don’t believe her

Do you hide your feelings or show them? depends, usually show tho

Do you like to have long hair or short hair? short

Do you think relationships are hard? everything is but point is if it’s worthy

Any friends who are constantly venting about their significant other? luckily no longer have any friends like that, no friends at all actually

Have you ever been ice-skating? just once and don’t wanna

Does the sound of rain at night help you sleep? often

Have you ever seen an albino person, in person? I haven’t

Have you ever worn a pair of scrubs? nope

Do you obsessively apply lip-gloss or lip balm? eww, hell no

Have you ever walked into a massive cobweb? yeah, gross

When you can tell that someone’s lying, do you call them out on it? sometimes, I might

Do you like Musicals? nooo

Do you live with anyone that you try to avoid at all costs? no comment

When was the last time you cried? that night from happiness :3

What kind of bottoms are you wearing? my SW pajama pants but gonna change now

What do you hear right now? my mom talking <rolling my eyes>

In the past week have you got your hair cut? nope

In the past week have you felt sad? obvi

Has someone disappointed you recently? yep

If you could pack up and move, would you? asap

What is something in your life that you feel hopeful about right now? I’m scared to...

What was the last thing you worried about that turned out better than expected? my gf proposing to me for example?

What is a meal you eat extremely often? Or do your meals & food choices vary a lot? bread, I wish I had variety :(

When was the last time you felt unable or unwilling to speak your mind to someone? with my mother it’s frequent

What was the last thing you changed your mind about? it’s a rollerclaster XD

Who do you feel you can count on the most in life? Is there anyone you wish you could count on more? dad and M. - I wish I could count on my other parent and sister...

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lexa-griffins · 2 years

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For the glory hole prompt, Lexa is a down on her luck college student who lost her scholarship and needs to make money fast to pay for tuition. Her solution, she works at a sex shop with a "hole in the wall" for her mouth. Her first customer is Clarke

Anya works at the sex shop just off campus and she lets Lexa run her little business in the bathroom if she helps her out cleaning the shop and it helps make sure the only dick Lexa sucks is girl dick. The shop is extremily queer friendly and it even holds classes for safe sex in all its ramifications so it shouldn't be to hard for Lexa to find the clients Lexa desperately needs.

First day on the the job and Lexa kinda just sits around the shop for a bit chatting with Anya when a pretty girl comes in and declines Anya’s help as Lexa occupies herself with the display of small gag sexy gifts behind the counter. She starts to browse around and when her head gets lost in the shelves Lexa whispers to Anya about how hot the girl is and how she wouldn't mind sucking her dick for free.

Right on cue the girl comes back and asks Anya for the "glory special" quite confidently and Anya quickly gives her the key to the bathroom and tells her to wait a bit and to use the left stall, which Clarke does, winking at them both as walks into the bathroom. Lexa is trying her hardest to hide her blush by pretending to still be working on the display and Anya nearly bends down laughing at Lexa, who barely ever really calls any girl hot, being payed to suck the one girl whose dick she'd suck for free.

Lexa waits for a good two minutes before going after her very first client.

Now Lexa has sucked sick before. Not much but she has had sex with a few girls who have dicks. To be fair her glowing reviews on her blow job reviews might have been the reason she decided to go for this unorthodox method of money making. She figured, why not make a skill into a job?

Once Lexa enters the right stall the circular hole that connects the two stalls is already very nicely filled. Like... really nicely field. Not that the girls Lexa has been with weren't a healthy mix of sizes but she has never quite sucked a dick so... girthy. Pretty girl, pretty dick, Lexa thinks.

The sound of the door stall closing behind her seems to make the girl on the other side of the stall jump just a bit, the hard cock twitching with it which prompts Lexa to approach the hole and get on her knees, not wanting to provide bad service to her very first client.

Once she's face to face with it tho.... it looks even bigger if that's possible. It is leaking already and Lexa can't help but let her thumb graze the tip of it, letting her hand slide down the shaft realizing she can barely close her hand around it, needing to readjust her grip just so her fingertips touch. She must be taking longer than she expected calculating just how she's gonna approach this new challenge, breathing hitting the girls dick in warm puffs, when a breathy chuckle is heard from the other side of the stall.

"Think you take it all?" A challenge more than anything

Of course she'd be a cocky shit about her size. Lexa rolls her eyes but doesn't answer. Her job here is to use her mouth for much more enjoyable things.

Lex smirks when she jerks the girl twice and let's her tongue slide against her tip, hearing her take a shaky breath at the feeling. The sound of a body hitting the separator between them echoes through the bathroom, Lexa's tongue causing the girl to thrust involuntarily to try and force Lexa to take more.

If they were in bed, Lexa would have kept her waiting, teasing her until she was shaking and begging her to suck her. Lexa enjoys staring up at the women she's sucking off, watching their eyes go black and she looks up with big eyes and their dicks in her mouth. She can't recall the color of the girl's eyes but she smiles to herself knowing there probably isn't much of it left by now, mostly overtaken by black pupils for sure.

But they are not and Lexa fights her natural instinct to tease without mercy.

She cannot fit her fully inside her mouth she quickly decides, not without spending some time on it, time she most definitely does not have so Lexa fits half of the girls dick inside and let's her hand work the rest, settling into the head boobing and tongue work she's been highly praised for. She cannot say when or how, but her own finger are now pumping inside her own cunt as she perhaps underestimated how turned on this job would make her. Or maybe it's just this girl, whose raspy moans and groans have left her a wet mess and whose praises of

"Fuck you're so good at this" "Your mouth is fucking shit"

make her clit throb and beg for attention, the smirk Lexa cannot fight gaining her a humorously moaned "don't let it get to your head" from her client.

They cum at the same time, the feeling of Clarke cumming inside her mouth making Lexa quicken the pace of her fingers, falling apart right as the girls dick softens and falls from her mouth, her muffled moan still loud enough for the other girl to hear.

"Did you just cum too?"

Lexa does not answer with words, instead ridding her orgasm to the max, moaning louder this time as a confirmation.

"I'm Clarke btw."

Lexa isn't supposed to - and she'd prefer not to actually - know the name of her clients. Still, she's happy to know hers.

"I'm guessing you aren't going to tell me yours." Clarke is clearly not even slightly mad about it but Lexa is still glad she understands. The silence seems to answer her questions. "I figured. Well, that was... fuck, that was amazing. Exactly what I fucking needed let me tell you."

Lexa smiles bright now, glad her first client is satisfied.

"Well, I- I'll be for sure returning. Bye. And thanks"

And with that she's gone. She pays more than Lexa's fee was and despite no one else showing up for her Lexa already made more with Clarke than she thought she would make in a week.

She gains a few more clients. Clarke keeps coming back. She knows her well by now and although Lexa would prefer people not identifying her for her voice, Clarke is talkative enough for them both, mostly unimportant stuff but Lexa feels comfortable sucking her off as she talks about her day.

They keep at it until the end of the semester and Lexa makes enough to cover that semesters tuiton. When February comes, she starts back up again, Clarke once again showing up regularly. Her voice and laugh is still fresh on Lexa's mind as she walks in her lesson for the new semester and the voice of her TA takes her by shock. She quickly stares ahead, hoping it is just someone with a strictly similar voice.

Sure enough. That's Clarke.

#letter opened #wanheda's dagger #once again i got carried away apologies 😅#'why didnt clarke where a condom?' cause i didnt want her to 🤪😂#id say lexas a senior #and clarke is on her first year of her masters #anyways why did i add drama to this? idk #but its there now shaisis #enjoy ✨️#my hastily put together.... whatever this is 😅

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fratboykate · 6 years

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I feel like Lexa buys all the presents for the kids and Clarke wraps all of them. Is that true?

Not exactly? It got better with the years but Lexa was kind of a cheapass at heart. She grew up with nothing. She knew how to treasure money because for many years she never had any. Sure, once they moved to NYC and she was out of foster care Anya provided for them well enough but they were never even middle class. And because Anya legally pretty much kidnapped Lexa out of foster care they couldn’t get food stamps or any type of government assistance for Lexa because she had to be as off the records as possible until she was of age. The two of them had what they needed but never beyond that.

In comes Clarke with her borderline reckless approach to money because even though her parents weren’t millionaires (Jake’s life insurance and inheritance is a different deal) she grew up pretty well off. Lexa was horrified at first lol. They eventually started to balance each other off but Lexa was a mixed bag. She spoiled the kids, HARD, but at the same time “THAT TOY COSTS HOW MUCH? FOR A DOLL?!!!!!!” She eventually bought it but she had to be indignant about it for like two minutes first lol.

Like...Lexa would drop $600 to buy Costia a loop pedal on a random day of the year and not think twice about it but when they had to shop a few “expensive” things together or even worse for all the kids at the same time and Lexa started to see it add up her blood pressure would spike lololol. Christmas, birthdays, and back to school shopping were a headache and a half for Clarke if Lexa came along.

“Clarke...they don’t need all of that.”

“Clarke...those two dolls are $70 bucks each and thats just one thing on her list.”

“Clarke...look...this one is cheaper and it looks almost the same.”

Clarke had to do what my mom did to my dad and strategically send him off to look for something she knew would take him forever to find that way we could go to the register and pay before he could see the totals or he would have a heart attack on the spot lol. Like...Lexa dropping 3k on the kids in a week but in increments of $200? Totally plausible. If you ask her to drop that money at the same time it’s Offended Face central lol. So Clarke had to go along when they had to shop for more than like two things and do a lot of eye rolling and cart pushing away from Lexa or the kids would’ve gotten two marbles and cup of sand for Christmas and Birthdays. They could’ve easily made up for it throughout the year tho because if they asked for things one at a time they would get it but if they were special occasions/holidays Clarke couldn’t let Lexa’s neurosis get in the way of things being done properly.

#cfau #cfaut #Anonymous #KG Answers

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reyskyber · 7 years

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The 100 ask game

I was tagged by my bae @asroarke. But it was like 6am and I was on mobile. (I got some pretty weird looks at the bus stop while I was near cackling at your answers Alex omg!)

rules: answer as many as you want if tagged and then tag three more people OR just reblog it and treat it as a regular ask meme!! have fun xoxo

1. What would you get arrested for on the Ark? So I thought about this a lot, I’d be shouting at my siblings for doing shitty scottish accents or singing wonderwall at me and I’d scream and someone would hear me and then I’d go to prison for helping my mum to harbour extra people.

2. Would you take off your wristband when you landed on the ground? Um, maybe? I probably would to get food but I doubt I’d pull a Finn and try and take it off for the sake of it.

3. What would the necklace Finn would make for you look like? (Clarke: deer/Raven: a raven duh..) a fox? idk tbh if finn gave me a necklace I’d give it right back

4. If you could resurrect any MINOR character who would it be? WELLS JAHA omg

5. Create a squad of 5 characters to go on missions with. Who are they? Bellamy bc he seems to be the only one who can drive the rover? Raven because she’s amazing does this even need a reason? Monty because we could geek out over plants even tho i hate biology. Jasper just so I could keep him safe. I feel like if I include Clarke I’m asking for trouble since her and Bellamy can’t get in the rover together without some kind of accident happening. But I love her with all my heart and we’d need her.

6. Minty or Briller? Minty for life, I just didn’t like Bryan :/

7. What would your name be in Trigedasleng? (example: Octavia=Okteivia…just make it up!): Iylah(?) I’m juts using Niylah without the N, soo

8. Thoughts on Finn? Omg don’t get me started. I just don’t understand how you can grow up with Raven Reyes and fall in love with her and have her love you back and then get to earth and act as if she doesn’t exist? Granted, I am also a sucker for beautiful blonde girls, but I’m not dating Raven Reyes sooo. I think my main problem with Finn was how he was always like “yeah, Clarke I know I didn’t tell you about Raven but I miss you.” or “Raven, you’re telling me I hurt your feelings? But what about my feelings?” Like he was just so self centred. I’m gonna stop rn before I make this entire post about Finn.

9. Be honest. How willing would you have been to take the chip without knowing all the horrible things it does? Idk really, probably really easy because I literally follow what everyone else is doing at all times. If they advertised it as a fashion thing oh boy, I’d be right there.

10. What character do you relate to most & What character do you like the least not including the obvious ones like Pike, etc… I once did two of those “which character are you?” quizes, and I got Clarke in one and Bellamy in the other. I think i’m more like Bellamy though, in that I’d do anything for my family and I go with my emotions rather than thinking things through first. Also riddled with regret and guilt. Idk about liking the least, I personally don’t like Niylah but I really don’t know why? She’s a really well done character and everything but idk something doesn’t sit right with me and I can’t put my finger on it (?)

11. Describe your delinquent outfit: Black skinny jeans, but that’s a given. I think a t shirt like Clarke’s and then either her iconic s2 leather jacket or Raven’s red bomber jacket bc I love them both. And the combat boots that everyone has. And I think I’d style my hair like Raven’s bc it’s so pretty.

12. Favorite type of mutant animal? Pauna idk?

13. What would your job be on the Ark? making food with the Greens. I’d be the judgy older friend that told Monty and Jasper not to do drugs but then just rolled my eyes when they did it anyway.

14. Would you have willingly pumped Ontari’s heart if Abby asked it? If Abby asked me to jump from the top of the tower in Polis I would do it with little to no hesitation.

15. If Lexa wasn’t Heda, then who would make the best commander? Anya, she always deserved better <3

16. If you were a grounder, then where would you live and who would be your mentor? Just for purely selfish reasons: Azgeda so I could train with Echo.

17. How would you act if you ate the hallucinogenic nuts like Jasper and Monty? I get headaches from smelling weed near me so I’m terrible near any kind of drug, I think I’d end up like Jasper and get really scared of something that wasn’t there, or go the complete other way and discuss changing the tides with Monty.

18. How would you have dealt with Charlotte’s crime? I’mma leave that for Clarke and Bellamy. I would not be involved in that conversation at all. Sort of like Finn, just stood at the side watching them eye fuck each other.

19. Who should be the Chancellor, if anyone? I really loved Abby as chancellor, and Kane. That being said, Kane, Abby, and Jaha all have a tendency to still be going for “adults vs kids” when it comes to problem solving, so maybe have one of the 100 as chancellor? But everyone’s in the bunker now so idk how relevant that is?

20. Mount Weather had a lot of modern commodities. (example: Maya’s Ipod)What is the one thing you would snatch while there? I would grab Maya’s ipod so fast, I hope she has good taste in music.

21. Do you think you’d have caught the virus spread through camp or would you have been immune like Octavia? I’mma touch wood rn but I’ve never actually had the flu or anything so I think I might have a strong immune system??

22. What would your grounder tattoos look like? Hairstyle? War paint? I like the swirling ones that Lincoln had so maybe some like that? For hairstyle I’d go for Octavia in s2 because that’s a look. And I doubt I’d be going to war so no war paint for me.

23. Favorite quote? She stopped being a kid they day you sent her down here to die.

24. Can you forgive Murphy for his actions? How about Bellamy? Yes and yes.

25. If one of the characters was in the Hunger Games, who would have the best shot at winning? I think Murphy would have a really good shot, like he’d trick everyone into thinking he was dead or something and then he’d murder them all while they were asleep or something.

26. Least favorite ship? Favorite ship? NOT INCLUDING CLEXA OR BELLARKE. Still not set on Clarke and Niylah, but like I said that’s bc of some weird thing I’ve got against Niylah that I’ve not figured out yet. Obvs bellarke are my faves, but other than that I really like Minty and Braven because their dynamics are both really interesting and I love them <3

27. A song that should be included in the next season, like when Radioactive was? So, I thought about this a lot. I really wanted a slow or instrumental/guns n roses version of knockin’ on heaven’s door for the bellarke reuinion. BUT the lyrics and the meaning of that song were really important for 216. So, what if they played knockin’ on heaven’s door again but like at the end of s5 after someone (maybe octavia) dies or something??? Or like in the middle of the war?

28. What would you do if you were stuck in the bunker with Murphy for all that time? He’d make jokes, I’d laugh, he’d scowl, repeat for the next 5+ years

29.Opinion on Emori? Roan? Loved Emori in s4, hyped to see her in s5. OMFG do not. Roan did not deserve to die, and death by drowning?? I thought we were gonna have a call back to 302 when he tried to drown Clarke and she thought she was done and he jumped back out in typical extra Roan style. Then we could have had some really good Roan/Octavia scenes where they talked about Bellamy???

30. Would you want to be an extra that is killed off in a brutal way? Not really, can I not just survive in the background like Shawn Mended?

31. A character you’d like to learn more about and get flashbacks of? I’m gonna agree with Alex on this one and say we needed back story on Roan. But I’d also like to see more of the Jahas, like what happened to Wells’ mum and what Wells did to get on the dropship. What were things like when Diana was chancellor???

32. A character you’d bang? So many, that’s a whole other post tho.

I’m gonna tag @the-most-beautiful-broom, @bellamyblake-kru, and @nathanmillers (sorry if you guys have already done this <3)

#about me #the 100 #this took a lot longer than I thought it would

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toddcowardd · 7 years

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uhhh bj and anya and/or finnrey

Bj/Anya (Banya? Anj? Oliwicz? idk well figure this one out)

proposes - BJ! its very unceremonious after they all get to America and have been fighting for a while, he does it like mid fight as they are hiding from panzerhund thats sniffing around the debris. Hes got no ring or anything but hes like “i love you sm Anya Oliwa would you do me the honor of being Anya Oliwa Blazkowicz” and Anya’s like “of course! but i dont think now is the time!” then when they get back to base its like “hey guys guuuessss what!”. They get married post war after they kill all the nazis.

shops for groceries - they both go together!

kills the spiders - bj!

comes home drunk at 3am - neither, they are basically the designated drivers. so they come home tired after dealing with everyones drunk asses (thats not to say they dont drink they are just the ones who stay the most sober)

remembers to feed the fish - Wyatt, its his fish so its his responsibility

initiates duets - both! Anya will start up upbeat poppy duets while Bj will start the slow jams ones

falls asleep first - Anya, she just curls up next to him and she out like a light

plans spontaneous trips - BJ, after years of fighting Nazis and seeing all that ugly bullshit, hes ready to see the nice parts of the world

wakes the other up at 3am demanding pancakes - Anya but, shes not demanding. Shes just like nudging BJ in her sleep and murmuring “William,,, can you make pancakes” “In the morning” “no nowww” and with a sigh BJ rolls outta bead and goes and makes her some pancakes

sends the other unsolicited nudes - BJ, Anya doesnt mind tho ;) (and will send her own sometimes)

brags about knowing karate even though they never made it past yellow belt - BJ!! Anya just sides eyes him whenever its brought up bc “William where did you even learn karate. Kicking and punching stuff randomly doesn’t count”

comes to a complete halt outside bakeries/candy shops - BJ, after years of army rations and just rations in general, he rly appreciates sweet treats

blows sarcastic kisses after doing ridiculous shit - Anya

killed the guy (also, which hid the body) - they kill together, no bodies are hidden but they are looted for more armor and ammo

wears the least clothing around the house - BJ, walking around in his boxers and a t-shirt: Anya where did i put my throwin’ knifes?

has icky sentimental moments for no apparent reason - BJ, HAVE YOU HEARD HIS INTERNAL MONOLOGUES??

Finnrey

proposes - rey! She force floats are ring to Finn with the biggest grin on his face. He accepts without hesitation! they marry on Ahch-to

shops for groceries - Finn, when rey goes shes just randomly grabs stuff shes never seen and its like “rey we dont need theses pls”

kills the spiders - They dont kill spiders, they pick them up and set them back outside

comes home drunk at 3am - They come home drunk together! then they drunk cuddle and drunk watch bad holodramas

remembers to feed the fish - Rey, Finn feeds the space puffins with Luke

initiates duets - they start together in perfect sync

falls asleep first - Finn!

plans spontaneous trips - Rey, theres a lot of green in the galaxy to see

wakes the other up at 3am demanding pancakes - Finn shakes rey awake and is like “im feeling pancakes babe, do you want any?” and rey nods a lil and finn’s like “okay well you gotta help me make them bc im super sleepy”

sends the other unsolicited nudes - neither

brags about knowing karate even though they never made it past yellow belt - they both do and ghost Chirrut is just sorta,,, standing to the side shaking his head bc they are still learning to fight

comes to a complete halt outside bakeries/candy shops - Rey! That girl is itching to try every food she can find

blows sarcastic kisses after doing ridiculous shit - They blow those kisses together at others

killed the guy (also, which hid the body) - they kill the troopers that attack them but they leave the bodies to rot bc fuck hiding them thats way too much work and they got more important shit to do

wears the least clothing around the house - they’re both walkin around their house in their underwear, they’re so fuckin comfortable around eachother!

has icky sentimental moments for no apparent reason - they both do and different times of the day, sometimes finn just wraps her up in a big ol hug and tells her how much he loves her and sometimes rey brings him a whole bunch of plants and flowers she grew specially for him and peppers his face with so many kisses !

#bj x anya #finnrey #asks #star wars #Wolfenstein

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sarahjane0886 · 8 years

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A Time to Grow 83

Chapter 83 - Broken Frame

Addie - 13 years old Clara - 7 years old

"Babe, are you sure you're good with taking them out? You haven't been feeling well lately." Maks said as they laid in bed one morning.

"I've been fine Maks." Peta said but the truth was she had felt like crap lately. She couldn't quite pin down what the issue was but she had just been extra worn out lately and just felt weak. She thought she had played it off well but she should have known her husband would have caught on.

"Pretty girl....." He said softly as he pulled her into him. He knew today was important to her. Ever since Clara started kindergarten, Peta would take both girls on a shopping spree for back to school clothes and supplies. The girls loved it. They were always so excited to just have a mom day. They would shop and have lunch and just enjoy the day. Then the girls would come home and show off everything to Maks and finish up with pizza and a movie. It was a tradition and he knew Peta wasn't going to cave on it.

"She's starting high school Maks." Peta said simply and he knew he wasn't going to get her to budge.

"I know, I just....I know you don't feel well even though you haven't said anything. And so I want you to enjoy this."

"I will, I've just been extra tired lately that's all. And I promise to rest after today okay?" She said leaning up to press a kiss to his jawline. They heard their door creak and they turned to look to see who was coming in. Addie very rarely came in anymore in the mornings now that she was older but it did happen sometimes.

"Morning Momma, Morning Papa." Clara said as her tiny form appeared the door.

"Morning buttercup. Did you have good sleeps?" Peta asked as Clara scurried over to their bed and climbed up.

"I did. And then I woke up excited cause today is our shopping day! And I get to get all my stuff for 2nd grade! Can I make sure I get the same backpack that Anya got? We decided since we're best friends that we need the same backpack. And hers is purple." Clara asked as she slide in the covers next to Peta.

"Sure baby, I'll text Aunt Sharna and see where they got the backpack and what it looks like." Clara's best friend was non other than Sharna's little girl, Anya. Right before Clara had been born Sharna had started to see her old DWTS partner, Noah Galloway. There had always been some lingering interest there but neither of them had ever acted on it. Shortly after Clara was born, Sharna found out she was pregnant. It had been an interesting road from there but eventually her and Noah had gotten married and he and Sharna were raising his three children from his first marriage and their little girl Anya.

"Thanks momma." Clara said as she laid there.

"Are you going to miss me today little one?" Maks said as he leaned over his wife to look at his quiet girl.

"I always miss you papa. But today is more fun because we come back and model our clothes for you. But I'll still miss you. Will you miss me?" She said sweetly. Peta smiled at the interaction. Clara was definitely a daddy's girl.

"Ohhh, you know it! You want to help me make breakfast for you guys before you leave?"

"Waffles?" She asked with big eyes.

"Sure, we have some time and your sister isn't up yet." Maks said as she kissed Peta quickly and hopped off the bed.

"I'll meet you in the kitchen papa, I gotta make my bed." She said as she scurried out of the room.

"We have to make batter, close your eyes for a little longer pretty girl." Maks said as he kissed his wife before climbing out of the bed.

"Mmhmm, will you wake me?" She asked as she shifted to his pillow.

"Either me or Adds." He said tucking the blankets around her.

"Love you." She murmured as she drifted off to sleep.

"Love you too." He said smiling as he pressed a kiss to her head. He headed downstairs and he and Clara set to making breakfast. They found some fruit for a salad and then made up the batter. They were just pulling the last waffles out when Addie appeared in the kitchen.

"Morning papa, morning Clara, where's mom?" Addie said confused. Usually her parents got up at the same time.

"Clara, can you scoop some fruit into each bowl for a minute?" Maks asked so he could talk to Addie. She agreed and he got her set up before moving over to Addie.

"You're scaring me Papa. Where's Mom?" She said softly.

"She's still sleeping. She hasn't been feeling the greatest the past few days even tho she hasn't told any of us. Nothing bad, she said just tired and worn out."

"We don't have to go today." Addie said immediately.

"I know, I told her that this morning but she wants to though. So just keep an eye on her. You'll have your phone with you today since you guys will be out so you can text me if you think she needs to be done okay?"

"Alright, are you sure it's okay that we go? I don't want anything happening to her."

"It'll be okay sweetheart. You're mom is stubborn but she's pretty smart at knowing what she can and can't do. Now do you wanna set the table & serve drinks with Clara or go wake your mom up?"

"Mom." She said immediately. Maks had known that's what she would pick especially after he explained everything to her.

"Okay, I'll help Clara." Maks said giving his oldest a quick squeeze before sending her off. He returned to finishing breakfast with Clara before the rest of his girls appeared in the kitchen. Addie looked slightly calmer however Peta still looked beat. Maks sighed, he knew Addie would do her best to keep her eye on Peta but he still didn't want to put that responsibility on the girl. He just prayed that the day would go quickly.

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"Hey Clara, after this, let's ask mom if we can get smoothies." Addie said as she helped Clara try on the 5 sundresses she had picked.

"Ohhh, do you think she'll let us?" Clara said excited as she spun once Addie zipped up the final dress.

"I'll bet so. Ask her now when you go out and show her this dress. Make sure she's sitting too, okay?"

"Okay Adds." Clara said as she skipped out to show Peta the dress. Addie pulled out her phone to text her papa.

'How's it going Addie-girl?' A text from Maks read.

'Ok. I convinced Clara that we should fashion show for mom so I made her sit while I help Clara. She still seems horrible though Papa. I'm worried. Clara is asking if we can get smoothies now. Hopefully that helps some. We only have supplies left to get.' Addie texted back.

"She said yes! And she said that I can pick 3 of the 5 sundresses. Then we're done with clothes. We just need shoes and supplies." Clara bounced back in.

"Okay, sounds good. Let's figure out which dresses you want." Addie said holding up the other 4 they had. Clara pointed out which 3 she wanted to keep and then switched back into her clothes.

"Addie, my hair fell out. Can you fix it?" Clara asked after she pulled her tank top back on and noticed her ponytail was lopsided.

"Sure come here." Addie said moving her sister to in front of her as she finger combed her hair and then pulled it up into a neat ponytail. She handed her sister the no dresses and they went out to meet Peta.

"Mom, after we pay, I can take all the bags to the car before we go okay? That way we don't have to carry them." Addie offered once she saw her mother. Peta was pretty pale at the moment.

"Thanks sweet pea. That'll work perfect. Then we can load up on supplies and shoes." Peta said and wobbled a little when she stood. Addie caught her arm immediately.

"Maybe we should be done." She said softly.

"No, it's okay. I think I just need some energy in me." Peta said smiling at her daughter.

"Yeah, my thoughts exactly." Addie murmured under her breath. She gathered as much of the clothes as she could and handed Clara some too keeping Peta from having to carry much. They went and checked out and then Addie ran the bags to the car while Clara and Peta watched from the door.

"Smoothie time!" Clara cheered once Addie came back cause both of them to smile.

"Yup, come on you two." Peta said as they headed over to the escalator so they could go to the food court.

"Here Clara, you want to try to jump on?" Addie asked trying to keep her excited sister with her rather than with Peta.

"Really?" Clara asked.

"Yeah, hold my hand and then when I say go just hop, okay?" Addie explained she new she had to make sure she was holding on to her tight and that her balance was good as well.

"Addie." Peta said nervously

"I got her mom." Addie said as she remembered her father doing the same with her in the past. Peta got on the escalator first and then Addie and Clara took their turn. As soon as Addie stepped she yelled for Clara to hop which she did.

"I did! Momma I did it! Look! Addie helped me do it!" Clara rambled excitedly. Peta turned around and began to smile at her girls but suddenly her face turned to a sheet of white and Addie saw her eyes roll back. Before she could even think both her and Clara watched Peta collapse and tumble down the escalator. She came to a stop at the bottom of the escalator in a crumbled up pile.

"Momma!" Clara screamed alerting just about everyone around them. Someone saw the incident and must have hit the stop button cause the escalator to jerk to a halt. Addie dragged Clara down the stairs as they both tried to get to their mother.

"Mom, Mom, come on momma. Wake up." Addie said as she gently tried to shake her mother's crumpled form. Addie could hear Clara crying next to her but wasn't sure what to do. Comfort her sister or try to fix her mother. Suddenly there were emergency people near them making Addie step away from Peta. She fought for a few seconds but then let them do their job.

"Addie, Momma, Addie, Momma." Clara sobbed on repeat. Addie's brain seemed to kick in and she wrapped her arms around her little sister holding her tight. An officer came over to them at that point.

"Hi girls, I need to see if you can tell me some information so we can help your mom, okay?" Addie nodded and the cop continued. "My name is Officer Clint, what is your mom's name?"

"Peta Chmerkovskiy." Addie responded.

"And your dad?"

"Maksim Chmerkovskiy."

"Okay and do you know what happened with your mom? How she fell?"

"She hasn't been feeling good but we always do a shopping trip before school and so she still came and I tried to make her be relaxing as much as I could but she fell and I don't know...we were going to get smoothies and I made sure I had Clara and then she turned to look at us and she just turned white and then collapsed." Addie rambled.

"Okay, okay, it's going to be alright. We're going to take her to the hospital so the doctors can check her over okay?"

"But, us, my papa. I.." Addie muttered as she kept holding Clara.

"I know, we're going to call your dad, do you have his phone number?" Officer Clint asked.

"I do, it's in my cell phone." Addie said as she dug it out with shaky hands.

"Okay, you pull that up, I'm going to tell the paramedics what you told me. Then I'll come back with you girls okay. Don't go anywhere." He said as Addie nodded. He came back a few moments later and took Maks's number from Addie and then proceeded to call Maks. Addie could only hear the conversation on their end but she could only imagine Maks right now.

"Alright, so you two are going to ride with me to the hospital and your dad is going to meet us there." Officer Clint explained.

"No, Papa." Clara sobbed out and Officer Clint looked at Addie confused as he began to lead them to where his police car was.

"We call him Papa." Addie said.

"Okay, okay, I got it. So your papa is going to meet us at the hospital." He said. They finally got to the car and he helped the girls get in the back. Clara refused to let go of Addie.

"Clara, just let me buckle you. Then..." Addie said getting slightly worked up. She gently pried her sister's fingers off her arm and then reached for the buckle quickly snapping it around her and doing hers just as quickly. Clara immediately gripped back on to her sister.

"I want Papa." Clara whispered into her sister.

"I know, me too. He'll see us soon."

"Momma?" Clara asked

"She's going to be okay." Addie said with a hint of conviction in her voice.

"How do you know?" Clara asked.

"Because she's momma." Addie said. That was the only real reason she could come up with. Clara didn't seem convinced and just clung to her sister a little bit more. Finally they arrived at the hospital and Officer Clint took them to a waiting room and sat with them until Maks arrived.

"Papa." Clara yelled once she saw him and burst into tears. He immediately scooped her up and held her tight pulling Addie into him as well.

"Are you guys alright?" He asked holding them both tightly.

"Yeah, we were behind her." Addie whispered as she held onto her father.

"Thank you so much for bringing them and letting me know. Do they know anything yet?" Maks asked attempting to remain calm for the girls.

"It was no problem sir. I know that's what I'd want to happen with mine if the roles were reversed. I don't believe they know anything yet. She got here probably about 5 minutes before us and from what I know she was still unconscious when they got here. I can let the nurse know you are all in here."

"Thank you." Maks said gratefully to the kind officer.

"Papa, what happened to Momma?" Clara asked pitifully.

"I don't know baby. The doctors are working on figuring it out, then they'll let us know." Maks said as he moved them over to a set of chairs.

"I don't want anything to happen to momma." She sobbed.

"I know baby, the doctors are going to check her all over." Maks said.

"I'm sorry." Addie said as she looked at the floor.

"Adeline Jane." Maks said looking at her quickly. She looked up at him with big eyes.

"I was supposed to keep her safe." She said as her eyes began to fill with tears.

"Baby, you did the best you could. If something else was wrong, that's not your fault. And you told me you were doing everything you could to make sure she was resting and relaxing. You have nothing to be sorry about."

"I want Aunt Sharna." Addie said as the tears began to slip down her cheeks.

"Okay, we'll call her." Maks said nodding his head. Clara seemed to have fallen asleep on Maks thankfully. He called Sharna quickly and explained what happened. She said she'd be over as soon as she could.

"Addie, you do believe me that you didn't do anything wrong don't you?" Maks questioned.

"I....one minute she was standing and the next she was at the bottom of the escalator. And Clara was so scared and I didn't want her to know how scared I was so I just was super super quiet and I tried to keep her calm." Addie said as her tears began to fall harder.

"Shhh, I know sweetheart, it had to have been super scary and I can't even tell you how proud of you I am for how brave you were. You gave all the information to the cop, kept Clara calm, and did your best all day. I'm just sorry that I wasn't there for you then." Maks said as he held her as tightly as he could while her body shook lightly.

"I should have went first." Addie muttered.

"No baby, no. You did what you should have. You kept Clara. If you guys would have went first you all would have fallen." Maks said trying to settle her. She didn't say anything else back and then he just decided to just hold her for now. Hopefully Sharna would be able to talk to her some. Those two had always had a special bond.

"Maks." A voice came from the doorway after a bit of time had passed. Sharna was standing there.

"Aunt Sharna." Addie said letting go of her father and moving to her aunt.

"Oh sugar, it's going to be okay, she's going to be okay." Sharna said holding her.

"She was so pale and then she just fell." Addie said as her body nearly gave out and Sharna caught her. She directed them over to the seats near Maks and Clara.

"I can only imagine sweet pea. I do hear you were super brave and took care of Clara until your Papa got here though."

"She was scared. I just held her." Addie said clutching onto her aunt.

"I know baby, but you've always been super protective of Clara though. However today I'm sure everything scared the crap out of you and you probably wanted to lose it too."

"I was afraid she was dead." Addie whispered.

"Oh Addie." Sharna said pulling her in tighter.

"And I was afraid I was going to have to tell Clara and Papa. And it was going to be all my fault."

"Baby, why would it be your fault?" Sharna asked looking at Maks's sad expression.

"Because....Papa..." Addie said between gasping for breath & sobbing.

"Whoa baby, breath. It's okay. The doctors are going to figure out what's going on and then it'll be okay. But deep breaths and then you can tell me why this would be your fault." Sharna said letting her bury into her as her hand ran through her curls and up and down her back. Eventually she calmed down and decided she was ready to talk.

"Before we left, Momma didn't feel good. So Papa asked me to keep an eye on her, because she refused to stay home, while we shopped. And I tried and but now." Addie said dissolving into a mess off tears again. Sharna pulled her in close as she looked over at Maks questioningly.

"I asked her to let me know if they needed to end. And she did her best all day. She kept Clara with her without letting Clara know what was going on, she made it fun, and kept her eye on P all day. And she texted me updates. None of this is her fault. But she thinks she didn't do well enough. And I tried but she wanted you." Maks said rambling.

"Family of Peta Chmerkovskiy." A doctor appeared in the doorway. Maks stood up immediately followed by Addie and Sharna.

"Addie...maybe you should wait here." Maks said slightly concerned at what they'd hear.

"No Papa, I wanna hear too please? You'd tell me later anyways. You always explain things to me." Addie pleaded. Maks sighed and relented glad that Clara was still sleeping so she wouldn't hear anything.

"I'm her husband, Maks, and these are her children and best friend." Maks muttered as he stood in front of the Doctor. Addie and Sharna stood next to him while Sharna kept Addie tucked into her body.

"I'm Dr. Bay. I've been working on your wife since she came in. She's still unconscious buy from what we've determined it looks like she passed due to an irregular heartbeat, something we call Atrial Fibrillation. The heart doesn't beat each beat like it normally would so it causes the things your wife was experiencing which luckily we knew all that information from your daughter. We were able to catch that quickly. Has she had any illnesses lately?"

"Umm, she has a sinus infection a few weeks ago." Maks said as he racked his brain.

"Okay, infections can cause the A Fib so that may be where this started. What we can do is shock her heart. It should make it start beating regularly again and then we'll monitor her during her stay and make sure it doesn't happen again."

"And if it does?"

"Then we have other options we can discuss when we get there but it's manageable. Now the other thing, during the fall is seems your wife's spleen ruptured. So we need to remove that. They are waiting for me to get your permission to sign off the on the surgery."

"So you'll shock her heart and do the surgery at the same time?" Maks asked not liking the sounds of that at all.

"Yeah, we'll actually shock her heart and monitor the rhythm and then go in and remove her spleen. I understand it all sounds scary but we are going to keep very close eye on all of your wife's vitals and make sure everything is on point before moving to the next step."

"I...okay...I'm...we're just..." Maks stammered looking over at Sharna who seemed to be attempting to process all this too.

"It's okay. I understand, no one is really ever prepared for this to happen. I do promise you we are going to take the best care of your wife. She will be monitored the whole time. The surgery can take between 3-4 hours. I can have a nurse come update you as we proceed if you would like."

"Yes please. There's no way to see her before she goes in, is there?"

"Unfortunately not. They were prepping her when I came out. So as soon as I returned we could move forward." Maks could see Addie's shoulders collapse at the news but he had expected that to be the answer.

"I understand. I can sign what you need me too." Maks said as the doctor handed him over the paper and he signed off. "Please, take care of her."

"I will. I'll make sure a nurse comes to update you."

And with that he walked away. Maks almost could feel this massive weight settle on his shoulders as a million thoughts ran through his head. He couldn't imagine life without his girl. He just hoped and prayed that everything would go as planned.

"It looks like we're going to have a bit of a weight ahead of us. Addie, why don't you come with me and we can get everyone a drink." Sharna suggested.

"I....but...." She said looking between Maks and the area that the doctor had just walked into.

"It's okay Addie Girl, go ahead with Aunt Sharna. They won't be out for a bit to update us. And I can text her if I hear anything."

"Okay." Addie said after a few more moments of silence.

"Okay, come sugar." Sharna said leading them out and heading towards the snack bar. The walk to the snack bar was quiet and Sharna could almost feel Addie's mind spinning. Finally they got down there and Sharna led Addie to a table so they could talk a bit first.

"Aunt Sharna, what if...." Addie's voice trailed off not even able to stay the words.

"No baby, that's not happening. While every surgery is scary and dangerous, there are some that are common, both of these are. They just have to be careful to make sure everything is in line before moving to the next area. I don't mean that what's going on with your mom isn't serious but I don't want you to think the worst either."

"And her heart? What if that happens again?" Addie said.

"Well now we'll know the signs. And the doctors will be able to explain to us some other things to look at. And they'll probably put her on medicine and make her have checkups just to make sure everything is okay."

"Is she going to be mad at me?"

"Why would she be mad at you?" Sharna asked quickly in concern.

"Because I let her down."

"Adeline Jane." Sharna said as Addie's eyes snapped to hers. She had probably heard her aunt say her full name twice. "You did not let anyone down today, not Clara, not Papa, and definitely not your Mom. If she heard you say that right now, she'd probably be pacing in front of you yelling and hugging you. If anything right now, she is going to be so proud of you for how grown up you were in such a scary situation."

"I had Clara." Addie said shrugging.

"I know you did baby, but that doesn't mean you couldn't lose it and melt down. You remembered everything to tell the police officer so they could help your mom as best as they could and then you made sure that even though Clara was terrified, she knew you were there for her."

"I know but I was supposed to let Papa know if Mom got worse. I should ahve texted him."

"Baby, did you know she was going to pass out?"

"No....well I knew she wasn't feeling any better though."

"But you didn't know she was going to pass out? Right?"

"No."

"And you kept Papa informed all day?"

"Yeah."

"And you made your mom rest as much as you could?"

"Yeah."

"Well then you did everything that you could have. You know yourself that once your mom sets her mind to something, there's no changing it. She would have taken you girls shopping today no matter what. And this could have happened at home if it didn't happen here."

"Then she wouldn't have fallen down the escalator."

"No, maybe not, but she could have fallen in the shower, or on the steps, or off the balcony. Right?"

"I guess. I just don't want anything to happen to her. I'm scared." Addie said as her eyes filled up with tears and she just put her head in her hands.

"Come here sugar, I know. Me too." Sharna said moving next to her niece and wrapping her arms around her tight. She held her as she let everything out.

"Will you stay?"

"Of course sweetheart. I won't go anywhere I promise."

"Thank you, I love Papa, but right now, if I can't have mom, I'd rather have you hear please?" Addie asked as she continued to hold onto her aunt. Over the years Sharna had become like a second mother to her which was no surprise considering Shar and P's relationship.

"I understand baby. I won't leave until we hear something or you're ready okay?"

"Thank you."

"I love you sugar."

"I love you too Aunt Shar." Addie whispered into her aunt's neck.

"Let's go get every one their drinks and then go see if Clara's awake. We may need to work together to distract her while we wait okay?"

"Yeah." Addie said standing up with Sharna. The two gathered drinks and headed back to the waiting room to find Maks and Clara sitting there waiting. Clara had woken up but hadn't moved from her place on her father.

"Addie!" Clara whimpered as she saw her sister walk in the room.

"I'm right here, Clara." Addie said as she held her sister tight.

"I thought you went away too." Clara said squeezing her tight.

"No, I just went to go get us a drink. Aunt Sharna even let us have a treat. So I got us root beer."

"Really?"

"Yup. We have to share though is that okay?"

"Yeah, can I sit with you again?"

"Sure, come on. Addie said as her and Clara moved over to a couch and the two sisters curled up leaving Maks and Sharna to talk.

"How is she?" Maks asked.

"Still worked up. I get it but I tried as best as I can to let her know that no one is upset with her. I'm not sure she believes me or not but she seemed calmer before we came back. I think she's more scared than anything else."

"Right. And you know I didn't blame anything on her right?"

"Oh my god Maks, yes. I know that! I figured she was doing it to herself. She's very you like in that matter. Taking everything as their own and needing to be everyone's protector. These things come with that though. We just have to teach her it's not her fault. She's also afraid P is going to be upset with her too."

"What? Are you kidding me? Why?"

"Same reason as you."

"Oh that girl." Maks said. He couldn't be mad at her for being so loving and caring but he wanted to protect her all the same. He did take comfort in watching his two babies across the room.

"Papa, can we get a book on your phone?" Addie asked. Sharna smiled remembering a simliar situation when she read to Addie when she was scared.

"Sure sweetheart. What book?" Maks asked pulling out his phone.

"Charlotte's Web?" Addie asked looking at her aunt with a smile. Maks nodded and then found the book on his phone before ordering it and handing it to Addie. He and Sharna then moved over next to the girls and they all took turns reading while they waited. The nurse updated them between each procedure and it seemed as Peta was doing well. Finally they were told she was done and was being moved to a room. They were going to be moved to wait with her now.

"So we did everything we wanted too. We removed the spleen and shocked her heart back into a regular rhythm. We'll monitor it while she recovers here for a few days and then she'll have regular appointments at first. So far it looks good and like it worked. From the cat scan and x-rays we did, it doesn't look like she has anything broken or sprained that was visible. Nor does she seem to have a concussion."

"Even after she fell the whole way down?" Addie squeaked shocked.

"Even after that. When a body is unconscious like that, it doesn't tense up and so there's nothing be thrown out to try to stop the falling. Now she does have quite the nasty bump on her head but otherwise it all looks good. She's going to be pretty pale and look worse off than she is but don't let that scare you."

"How long until she wakes up?" Sharna asked.

"She was awake once in the recovery room. She was pretty disoriented which with the anesthesia is to be expected. So she should be up in the next hour or so for small increments depending on how she handles coming out of the anesthesia."

"She's usually pretty groggy and it takes awhile." Maks noted.

"Okay, so you know what's normal for her. If anything is out of the ordinary don't hesitate to call the nurses. I've also let them know that you are all okay to stay in there with her for now. It is past visiting hours but these are out of the ordinary circumstances."

"Thank you sir, we really appreciate that. More than we can say."

"I understand. You can go ahead in." He said allowing them to enter Peta's room. Addie's gasp was the first audible one as they all took in the paleness Peta was sporting. She also had quite the number of bruises on her face as well as the tubing and usual wires of the hospital. They also could hear the steady beep of the heart monitor as well. Clara began to sob immediately.

"Shhhhh baby." Maks said holding her tightly.

"Momma." She muttered as she clung to her father.

"I know baby, she'll be awake soon. And then you can see that even though this all looks scary she is going to be okay." Her sobs didn't calm down though. Addie was desperately clutching onto her aunt.

"Clara." Sharna said softly.

"Maybe I should call Val and ask him to come get her." Maks said.

"No no no no no stay with you, stay with you, stay with you." Clara's sobs escalated.

"Okay, okay, okay, you can stay with me. It's okay sweetheart. Shar, I'll be right back." He said walking her out of the room to try to calm her.

"Addie?" Sharna said quietly.

"She's so pale and...." Her voice trailed off.

"I know. It's scary. She'll get her color back. Once she's awake and gets stronger. Surgery like this takes a lot out of someone. This is what you looked like after your tonsils came out." Sharna said softly.

"That pale?" Addie asked.

"Pretty much. It was summer so you had some tan but you were pretty white to begin with." Sharna said softly. She reached for one of the chairs and pulled it over next to the bed and settled into it with her niece. It wasn't the most comfortable position but Sharna knew she didn't want to be far from her so this was their best option. Addie took her moms hand and held on tightly while leaning into Sharna. Maks and Clara eventually returned and Clara ended up crying herself to sleep in Maks's lap. Addie eventually nodded off on Sharna who dozed off as well. Maks was the only one left awake. He shifted Clara in his arms and slide closer to his wife, holding her hand in his.

"Come on P, you have to wake up." Maks whispered as he brought his hand up to her mouth and pressed a soft kiss to the back of her hand. He watched her face closely and took comfort in the repetitive breaths she was taking as well as the beeping of the monitor. Eventually, he laid his head down next to her hand and just prayed.

"Maks." A soft voice croaked out making him jerk up in shock.

"Babe." He said as relief flooded his body and his eyes filled with tears. He gently shifted Clara and laid her down the chair next to him wrapping her in his jacket before moving closer to his wife.

"What happened?" She said slightly confused and weakly.

"Your heart." His voice caught and he had to control his emotions before continuing. "Your heart was beating irregularly, which in turn caused a lot of issues thus making you pass out. You fell down an escalator and ended up rupturing your spleen. They removed it and fixed the heartbeat as well."

"Oh my god, the girls." Peta said as it all slowly came back to her.

"They are both here, they were behind you. Other than both being shaken up, they are okay."

"I'm so sorry." Peta said quickly as Maks could feel her breathing pick up and she began to panic.

"No baby, no. It's okay. You had no idea. None of us did. You didn't know, and everyone is here and safe and now we can get you back to you." Maks said as he leaned down to kiss her and hold her.

"Momma." Came a scratchy voice from beside the bed. Addie pulled herself up and out of Sharna's arms as she heard her mother's voice. Sharna woke up as well and bolted up with her niece.

"Come here sweet pea." Peta said holding her hand out. Addie suddenly looked terrified and leaned back into Sharna.

"Go ahead sugar. She wants to see you too. It's alright." Sharna coaxed.

"I don't want to hurt her." Addie whispered even though she desperately wanted her mother's embrace.

"You won't, just watch her stitches. The nurse showed us where remember?" Maks said pointing to where they had done the incisions to remove her spleen. Addie nodded her head slowly.

"Come here sweet pea. I need an Addie hug." Peta said softly. That was all it took at that moment. Addie moved quickly to her mother as she curled up next to her holding her as tightly as she could without hurting her. Peta could feel her body start to shake with sobs as she just held her baby.

"I'm sorry. I was so scared. I didn't...you can't leave. Nothing can happen to you." Addie rambled over and over again.

"It's okay sweet pea. I'm sorry. I'm right here. I'm not going anywhere. I love you so so much." Peta whispered over and over until Addie slowly began to calm down. Which was when Clara woke up in another round of sobs.

"Momma, Papa, Momma, Papa." She whimpered. Maks immediately scooped her up and held her tightly letting her calm down some.

"Hey buttercup." Peta said softly and Maks could see her fading.

"Momma?" Clara asked softly looking only at Maks as if looking anywhere else would remove the sound from the room.

"Look and see who's awake baby?" Maks said turning them so she could see Peta.

"Momma." Clara said softly again as she looked at her mother in amazement.

"Come here buttercup." Peta said holding her free arm out.

"P?" Maks questioned not wanting her to exert herself in the first 5 minutes she was awake.

"Bring her here. Addie is on the stitches side and she's tiny." Peta demanded. Maks nodded knowing his wife probably needed this just as much as the girls needed it.

"Ok Little One, be gentle and be careful of Momma's belly. That's where her boo-boo is." Maks explained. She nodded and just waited for Maks to put her near Peta. When he finally did she curled up on the opposite side of Peta's chest from Addie and clutched her mother's hospital gown tightly. Peta could feel her soft tears soaking her gown.

"It's okay baby, Momma's here. Momma's safe." Peta said as she ran her fingers softly through her hair. Eventually both girl nodded off just clinging to their mother while Maks and Sharna watched on in utter relief. Maks could see Peta starting to nod off and went to move the girls.

"Leave them, please?" Peta asked.

"Babe?" Maks asked.

"I need this Maks. Just put the bed up a tiny bit. They are okay. I promise." Peta said locking eyes with him and he could see the tears and fear in there.

"Okay." Maks relented and moved the bed up a tiny bit and fixed the blankets around his girls as best as he could.

"Will you both stay?" Peta said looking between her husband and best friend.

"Sure babe." Sharna said settling back down in her seat and resting her hand on her friends.

"Always pretty girl always." Maks said as he laced his fingers through her hand that was resting on Clara's back. They both mouthed I love yous back to each other and with that Peta drifted off back to sleep. Maks let out a slight sigh of relief as he took comfort in the fact that his two babies were finally calmly sleeping on their mother. And that his girl was awake and hopefully out of the woods. He knew it would take a long time to put this day behind him but he also was glad it was over.

**That's a wrap for this update! I hope you guys enjoyed it. Don't forget to like it up and let me know what you thought in the comments. Thanks for all the support and for always reading! Love you guys! Xoxo

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