#ARC 1: Dissociate
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mgsr-sing-to-me · 2 months ago
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ARC 1: Dissociate
So I kick back, and I dissociate.
Around late 2019, Raiden is suddenly kicked out by Rose, handed his belongings and told to never return. Distraught, as he notices a gap in his memory to understand why she chose to end their relationship so suddenly, he returns to the US and Maverick's Headquarters in Nevada because he has nowhere else to go; running out of money because he's bad with that, and completely out of options, because he's also bad with that.
Raiden has been straight up ruining his life with the decisions he made in the past and now all these consequences are right thrown into his face. He has reached the edge of society with seemingly no way to return, having cut all ties with everyone  —  and now his family, the last people he seemed to have a connection to, is gone as well.
But he's not even sure of everything, considering that his memory keeps giving out, again and again and again, finding himself in situations he didn't remember how he got into them  —  covered in dirt and blood, or reeking of alcohol, or finding himself in the possession of things he should not even own in the first place.
At Maverick, he is not received with the same reception he has hoped for, but they don't kick him out either. Better than nothing when you got nothing in the first place.
He is presented with the fact, however, that Sam survived and has now taken his place at the PMC.
It confuses and irritates the hell out of him, especially that Sam seeks his company and wants to 'make up', that Raiden cannot even begin to fathom.
He rejects Sam, and Sam seems deeply hurt by that.
Not to mention that Sam seems like a different person. They gave him different armour that is completely white, no longer bearing Desperado's logo nor that same metal arm. The new one is of a similar design to his combat form, so it was clearly designed by Doktor. More punches in Raiden's gut.
Unlike his former teammates and his family, Sam receives him positively.
While everyone else seemingly rejects Raiden, Sam wants to be around him, what seems to be almost something like desperation. So Raiden gives him a chance to talk and make 'friends'.
Maverick asks him how “fighting his own war" is going, and Raiden cannot tell them much, other than that he makes sure to deal with what's left of Desperado that somehow still is active despite him ending its sponsor and leadership. Sam asks to go with him, but Raiden tells him he won't need his help since he does not trust him at all.
Just a few days later he is asked by Kevin to sign an NDA about Sam, and it makes him so suspicious of everyone and everything. Who can he really trust, if he cannot even trust his former employer and teammates? Why is Sam out of all people suddenly the only person who tells him the truth?
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mgsr-sing-to-me · 1 year ago
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Me talking to my dev team about Chapter 1: "Maverick organising a meeting between Raiden and Sam was important to avoid a bloodbath. It's similar to when you're having to carefully introduce your cat to another cat that you just adopted and brought home: You need to treat the first meeting between your cats with lots of caution and prepare for it in advance."
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Samuraiden as cats
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solxamber · 18 days ago
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Trash Novel Chronicles: Gaslight, Gatekeep, Get Married || Deuce Spade
You get isekai’d into a garbage novel as the villain, so you take it as a sign that morality is optional now. So, you do what any reasonable person would: you set the world on fire (metaphorically… mostly) and somehow bag your knight, Deuce Spade in the process.
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You sat in absolute silence. Reeling. Processing. Dissociating. The book lay in your lap like the aftermath of a terrible crime, and you were its sole witness.
This was it. This was the literary phenomenon your friends had been screaming about. The novel they had sworn up and down was “life-changing,” “revolutionary,” and “the best thing since sliced bread.”
They had lied.
You had just spent the last twelve hours raw-dogging the most deranged piece of fiction known to mankind.
Your soul had been ripped from your body. Your IQ points had been forcefully extracted like an amateur lobotomy. You were but a husk of your former self.
A single thought floated through your shattered psyche:
I will never know peace again.
With shaking hands, you closed the book. The sound was deafening. A death knell for your last two remaining brain cells.
And then, like a corpse freshly risen from the grave, you stood.
This could not go unanswered. This could not go unpunished.
Your friends would explain themselves.
You stomped through the dark streets like a vengeful ghost, guided by pure, unfiltered spite. It was 1 AM. Civilization had long since gone to sleep. You didn’t care.
Your mind replayed the sheer buffoonery you had just endured.
The heroine: an overpowered dumbass with the survival instincts of a chicken nugget. She was supposed to be a Saintess, and yet she spent 80% of the book actively making things worse. Entire villages burned because of her holy powers, and she had the audacity to be shocked every time it happened.
"Oh noooo, I accidentally summoned divine lightning again!"
AGAIN. AGAIN.
Then there was the Crown Prince, the supposed male lead. A menace. A plague upon this world. He was in love with the villain but too emotionally constipated to deal with it, so instead, he had chosen the path of delusion. This man pursued the heroine not out of love, but out of sheer desperation
"If I can’t be happy, then no one can."
That was his entire character arc.
And let’s not forget the second male lead. The butler. The SPY. He was somehow working for both the villain and the heroine at the same time while also being madly in love with the heroine for reasons that science could not explain. This man switched allegiances like he was flipping through TV channels. You were convinced he woke up every morning and rolled a die to decide whose side he was on that day.
And then. The villain.
Your one hope. Your one saving grace.
A man who started the book as a calculating mastermind and ended it as a broken shell of a human being. You did not blame him. You were right there with him.
By the final chapter, he had stopped trying to kill the heroine. He had stopped plotting world domination. He had stopped everything.
He just sat there, staring into the abyss, wondering how his life had gone so, so wrong.
And honestly? Mood.
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You reached your friend’s house.
You did not knock. No. That was for reasonable, rational people. You grabbed a rock from their garden and hurled it at their window with the force of a person unhinged.
A light flicked on. Your friend’s groggy, half-conscious face appeared.
“Holy shit, what the hell—”
“EXPLAIN YOURSELF.”
You pointed an accusatory finger at them, your eyes wild, your soul fractured beyond repair.
“Explain WHAT?” They blinked, rubbing their eyes.
“The book.” Your voice was hollow. “The—thing—you made me read.”
Their face lit up. “OH MY GOD, YOU FINISHED IT?? WASN’T IT AMAZING??”
You had never before in your life wanted to commit a homicide.
You took a deep breath. A slow, shuddering inhale.
Then, in the most broken, haunted voice imaginable, you whispered:
“…I need you to pay for my therapy.”
You stomped down the street, vibrating with pure, unfiltered rage. That book—that war crime bound in paper—had single-handedly destroyed your brain cells, faith in storytelling, and will to live. You couldn’t let your other friend get away with this. No, you were going to kick down their door too and demand compensation for the IQ points you lost.
Unfortunately, fate had other plans.
Just as you turned the corner, a man—no, a menace to society—came hurtling toward you at ungodly speeds.
On a unicycle.
Juggling three live pigeons and a tray of scalding hot coffees.
His face was locked in an expression of sheer, manic concentration, like a circus performer who had just realized—mid-act—that he had made a terrible career choice.
You had exactly 0.2 seconds to process this before he crashed into you at full force.
The pigeons exploded into the sky, shrieking like war victims.
The coffee—boiling, lava-hot coffee—doused you from head to toe, scalding your skin and soul simultaneously.
And the unicycle? Oh. The unicycle was the true villain here.
Because as you staggered back, reeling from the assault on your dignity, the wheel rolled perfectly under your foot.
And then—
You flipped.
Like a medieval peasant being yeeted off a catapult.
You did a full midair somersault, knocked over a trash can, ricocheted off a parked bicycle, and crashed directly through the window of a sketchy pawn shop, where you landed face-first into a display of cursed porcelain dolls.
Your last conscious thought before darkness took you?
This is less painful than reading that book.
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At first, you thought it was a dream.
Someone was shaking you. Like, aggressively. Like a demonic chihuahua trying to alert its owner to impending doom.
"Five more minutes," you groaned, swatting at the offending hands.
But then your barely-functioning brain remembered something very important.
You lived alone.
Unless the dust bunnies under your bed had finally formed a rebellion and achieved sentience, nobody should be waking you up.
Your eyes snapped open.
A person.
A man, actually. A very serious-looking man in full medieval armor, staring at you like he was expecting you to start speaking in tongues.
You blinked.
He blinked back.
Your first thought: Wow, the Ren Faire is getting really immersive these days.
Your second thought: WAIT A GODDAMN MINUTE.
Your hands flew to your face—your very much not-your-face face. Your voice, when you gasped, wasn’t your voice. The tailored nobleman’s coat draped over your body? Not your clothes. The ornate bedroom you were in? Definitely not your apartment, where your furniture was 70% discount IKEA and 30% “found on the sidewalk.”
Dread settled in your stomach like a badly microwaved burrito.
Slowly, with the growing horror of a person realizing they've walked into a live horror movie, you turned toward the giant antique mirror across the room.
And fuck your life, you recognized the face staring back at you.
It was him.
The villain.
The villain from that absolute garbage fire of a novel.
You whipped around so fast you almost took yourself out on your own cape.
"You," you pointed at the knight, brain desperately catching up to reality. "What happened?!"
The knight—Deuce Spade, if you remembered correctly—winced.
"Uh," he started, rubbing the back of his neck, "the Crown Prince tried to lean on your shoulder, but, uh… tripped and accidentally drop-kicked you across the ballroom."
Silence.
Absolute, dead silence.
Your eye twitched.
"…What."
You almost died because some love-obsessed dumbass with main character syndrome missed your shoulder???
Your soul nearly left your body, and it wasn’t even because of an assassination attempt, a duel, or a curse—but because the male lead had the motor coordination of a newborn giraffe?!
Your knees buckled. Deuce lunged forward like he thought you were about to die again.
Honestly? Not off the table.
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Fine.
Fine.
If the world wanted you to be the villain, then so be it. Who were you to deny fate when it had already drop-kicked you into this absurd, brain-cell-destroying mess of a novel?
Because that was the only way to describe your new reality—an unhinged disasterpiece where the male lead had the grace of a giraffe on roller skates, the heroine had the problem-solving skills of a concussed pigeon, and the villain—you—was doomed to suffer through all of it.
At first, you'd been horrified. Who wouldn't be? One moment, you're in your normal, rational world, and the next, you're waking up as the antagonistic nobleman of a bargain-bin romance novel. The kind of villain who existed solely to sneer in the background while the male lead juggled his misplaced affections and the heroine flailed through life like a lost duckling.
And now?
Now, you were done.
If this world wanted a villain, then you would give them a villain.
You had wealth. Enough to singlehandedly disrupt the economy if you felt like it. And honestly? You were tempted. Imagine the chaos. The sheer financial devastation. Maybe you’d buy every bakery in the capital just to make sure the male lead could never have a romantic “we bumped into each other while buying bread” moment with you. Not on your watch.
You had power. Both in social standing and in actual, real-life magic. The kind that could level mountains, summon storms, or—more importantly—discreetly trip the male lead every time he tried to monologue. And who were you, really, if you didn’t abuse that privilege just a little?
And, most importantly, you had a loyal knight.
Deuce Spade. Unreasonably devoted, painfully adorable, and more earnest than a golden retriever at a job interview. The kind of guy who would probably cry if you gave him a gold star for effort. It was almost enough to make you feel bad about your impending villain arc. Almost. But hey, if you were going to be the villain, at least you had one (1) extremely dedicated dumbass on your side.
So.
Why not cause some chaos?
Why not live your best, most dramatic villain life?
You could weaponize rumors so ridiculous that even the nobility wouldn’t know what to believe anymore. “Oh, the male lead? I heard he serenades his pet goldfish every night.” “The heroine? Trained in mortal combat by a secret society of warrior nuns.” “Me? Oh, I eat diamonds for breakfast and only cry during perfectly aesthetic thunderstorms.”
You could throw lavish, over-the-top parties where instead of dancing, people had to duel for your amusement. Invitation only. Dress code: Regal Menace.
You could buy every single black horse in the kingdom just to ensure that only you could have a proper dramatic villain entrance. What would the male lead ride? A mule? A cow? His own sense of self-importance? You’d pay money to see it.
If you were going to be stuck in this nonsense world, then you were going to make sure it regretted ever summoning you.
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The original villain was a man of principles.
And those principles included:
• Never lowering himself to the chaotic cesspool of idiocy that was the crown prince and his tragically uncoordinated heroine.
• Never attending frivolous social gatherings, especially ones that involved said heroine falling into desserts face-first every five minutes.
• Never acknowledging the crown prince’s deeply repressed and painfully obvious feelings for him.
But you? Oh, you were going.
Why decline when you could make things so much worse? Why ignore a golden opportunity for chaos when you could embrace your inner agent of destruction and ruin someone’s day?
So, with Deuce Spade in tow, you marched into battle.
And the game began immediately.
The second you sat down, the crown prince shoved a cup of tea toward you.
You blinked at it. Then at him.
He looked too casual. Too composed. Like he hadn’t been hovering near the tea table for the last five minutes, perfecting a custom blend like a barista going for his final promotion.
Oh, this was rich.
“Oh,” you said, already locked and loaded. “I don’t like tea.”
The prince, who had definitely memorized your preferences in secret, froze.
“Give it to the heroine,” you added, voice laced with malicious delight.
There was a moment of pure, unfiltered suffering.
He recoiled. He made a noise. The tea remained exactly where it was.
And then, after one (1) full-body existential crisis, he stood up, walked away—
And returned.
With coffee.
Which was exactly how you liked it.
“Oh,” you said, even sweeter. “You really didn’t have to.”
“I didn’t,” the prince snapped, gripping the cup with white-knuckled desperation. “I was just—there was extra.”
Sure.
Deuce, the most bafflingly wholesome person present, leaned in conspiratorially.
“You know,” he whispered, “I think he likes you.”
You turned and stared at him.
It was a look that said: Deuce. Buddy. Companion. Do you have even a single brain cell dedicated to social awareness?
“You don’t say,” you muttered, astounded.
“Yeah,” Deuce nodded. “You should put him out of his misery.”
You considered it.
You truly, deeply, wholeheartedly considered it.
And then you did the exact opposite.
With all the deliberate grace of a seasoned actor, you picked up a fork, cut a tiny, delicate piece of cake, and hand-fed it to Deuce.
With the most lovesick expression you could summon.
Deuce, completely missing the emotional warfare in progress, chewed thoughtfully. “Oh, it’s good.”
The crown prince dropped his cup.
The sound was deafening.
He stood up so fast his chair screeched.
And then he stormed away like a scorned Victorian widow.
Checkmate.
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The night was young, the chandeliers were gleaming, and the ballroom floor was filled with nobles pretending they liked each other. The air was thick with the scent of expensive perfume, political marriages, and deep-seated dissatisfaction.
And you? You were bored.
So, naturally, you decided to ruin some engagements.
You adjusted your cuffs, took a sip of your (hopefully not poisoned) champagne, and set your sights on your first target.
Victim #1: Some Poor Fool with a Fiancée and No Survival Instincts.
He was standing beside his beloved, smiling like a man who had never known fear. So you approached him, flashing your most dazzling smile.
“You know,” you said, leaning in just a bit too close, “I always thought you’d end up with someone a little… taller.”
His fiancée, standing right there, gasped.
The surrounding nobles gasped.
He gulped. “W-What?”
You tilted your head, studying him with faux admiration. “It’s just—you have the posture of a man who could sweep someone off their feet. It’s tragic that you’ll only ever lift one person.”
His fiancée immediately looked down at her shoes like she’d just realized she was, in fact, shorter than him.
Engagement status: Cracking.
Victim #2: A Woman Who Was Already Looking for a Way Out.
She was sipping champagne and ignoring her fiancé, which meant she was exactly the kind of person who would enjoy a little trouble.
“Lady,” you greeted smoothly, plucking the glass from her fingers and taking a sip. “You have the eyes of a woman who’s tired of monogamy.”
Her fiancé, standing beside her, choked on his drink.
She laughed.
“You’re terrible,” she purred.
Her fiancé, pale, tried to recover. “H-Haha, what a joke—”
“It’s a shame,” you interrupted, brushing a nonexistent speck off her sleeve. “If things were different, perhaps I’d be the one at your side.”
Her fiancé turned a frightening shade of red.
She sighed dreamily.
Engagement status: Shattered.
Victim #3: A Man Who Looked Too Loyal to Be Swayed.
He stood with his hand in his beloved’s, looking like he’d rather die than betray them. But that had never stopped you before.
You smiled. “It’s rare to see a man so committed.”
His fiancée beamed.
You reached out, lightly tracing your fingers over his palm. “A hand like this… was meant to hold many hearts.”
His fiancée’s smile disappeared as the man leaned into your touch.
The crowd held their breath.
And then.
His fiancée fainted.
Engagement status: Annihilated.
At this point, Deuce—your ever-loyal, increasingly horrified knight—had begun to sweat profusely in the corner.
You waved at him.
He did not wave back.
But just as you were about to go for your fourth victim, you noticed something strange.
The prince—the male lead—was staring at you.
And not in the way one should stare at their supposed rival.
No.
He was staring at you like a man who didn’t understand his own feelings and was handling it terribly.
Deuce noticed before you did.
“Oh no,” he muttered. “Oh no no no.”
The prince stalked toward you, his jaw clenched, his eyes burning with repressed emotion and possibly indigestion.
“You,” he said, pointing an accusatory finger at you.
You raised a brow. “Me?”
“You cannot go around—” He waved his hands wildly, struggling to find the words. “—charming people!”
You blinked, feigning innocence. “Oh? Why not?”
He twitched.
A noble gasped. “Is he… jealous?”
The crowd whispered.
The prince turned red.
Deuce, watching from the sidelines, looked like he wanted to fling himself off the nearest balcony.
Then, just as the tension reached its peak—
“MARRY ME!”
The man whose fiancée just fainted, caught up in the whirlwind of drama and avant-garde societal rebellion, had dropped to one knee and grabbed your hand.
Silence.
Deuce inhaled so sharply he nearly passed out.
The prince’s eye twitched.
And you?
You smiled.
But before you could say yes, no, or something that would make the situation worse, Deuce lunged forward, grabbed your wrist, and hauled you away.
“YOU CAN’T JUST GO AROUND SEDUCING ENGAGED PEOPLE!” he hissed, physically dragging you out of the ballroom.
“Why not?” you grinned. “The nobles love it.”
“I—BECAUSE IT’S WRONG?!”
You hummed, thoughtful. Then, because you were a terrible person, you tilted your head, looked him dead in the eyes, and said:
“You’re kind of cute when you’re flustered.”
Deuce short-circuited.
The prince looked ready to challenge the concept of marriage itself.
And the night was, truly, a resounding success.
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Deuce was the perfect knight.
Reliable. Strong. Steadfast. He never faltered in his duties, never hesitated to follow your orders, and—most importantly—he never questioned your absolutely necessary purchases, even when they were, objectively, not necessary at all.
Which was precisely why he was the perfect person to accompany you to the market.
The morning sun hung high in the sky, warming the cobbled streets as merchants called out their wares, their voices blending into a lively symphony of haggling, bartering, and excited chatter. The scent of freshly baked bread and spiced apples drifted through the air, wrapping around you like an old, familiar comfort.
And there was Deuce, ever-dutiful, ever-loyal, ever-patient.
The bags he carried had long since doubled in number, hanging from his arms like trophies of your victorious shopping spree. He bore the burden without complaint, as expected of a knight sworn to your service, though he did glance down at the latest purchase—a third bag of sweets—and furrowed his brow.
“That’s the third bag of sweets you’ve bought.”
You shot him a look, hugging your ill-gotten gains like a dragon hoarding gold.
“And?”
He sighed. “Nothing, I guess.”
Good. That was the correct answer. This was a judgment-free zone.
Everything was going well. The two of you meandered through the market at an unhurried pace, pausing to browse through silks, admire trinkets, and—most importantly—glare at the latest portrait of the crown prince displayed in the town square. It was a routine you had come to enjoy, something almost peaceful in its predictability.
And then—
Deuce stopped.
It wasn’t a gradual pause. It was sudden, abrupt, a full-body halt that nearly sent you crashing into his back.
“Hey—?” you started, but he was already moving, already reaching for his own coin pouch, already stepping toward—
A flower stall?
You blinked, watching as he carefully selected a single bloom, one of the freshest ones in the bunch, its petals full and vibrant. You stood there, bewildered, as he handed over a few coins, nodding his thanks to the merchant.
And then—
Before you could even begin to process what was happening—
He turned and held the flower out to you.
The world tilted.
You stared.
At the flower, at Deuce, at his outstretched hand.
At the way he looked at you, open and earnest and so painfully sincere that you felt something deep in your chest twist.
“…Why?” you asked, voice caught somewhere between confused and breathless.
Deuce tilted his head slightly, a sheepish sort of smile tugging at the corners of his lips. “I dunno,” he said, rubbing the back of his neck. “I just—thought you’d like it?”
Thought you’d like it.
That was it. That was the entire reason.
Not out of duty, not because he had to, not because of some unspoken obligation—but because he wanted to.
Because he saw something and thought of you.
Your fingers curled around the stem almost too tightly, as if the delicate flower might vanish if you weren’t careful. The petals were impossibly soft beneath your touch, fragile and fleeting, and your heart did something suspicious in your chest.
Deuce had already turned away, already resumed walking, already moved on as if he hadn’t just unknowingly unraveled you.
And you—
You lingered a second longer, staring at the flower in your hand, your face growing entirely too warm under the summer sun.
Then, swallowing against the sudden tightness in your throat, you hurried after him, grateful that he wasn’t looking back to see the ridiculous, helpless smile you absolutely couldn’t fight off.
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It started with a passing insult. Something entirely unoriginal, really—one of those tired, rehashed attempts at wit that nobles regurgitated when they had nothing better to do.
You weren’t even offended.
But you were bored.
So, naturally, you smirked, sighed dramatically, and placed a hand over your heart.
“Wow,” you mused, voice dripping with mock despair. “If only I had a loyal knight to defend me. Sigh.”
Deuce didn’t hesitate.
He didn’t even pause to think.
He just whipped around, locked eyes with the offender, and threw down the most aggressive glove slap in recorded history.
“DUEL ME.”
The noble flinched. The entire gathering flinched.
Even you, for a moment, wondered if you’d just summoned an unstoppable force of nature.
Deuce stood there, rigid with unwavering loyalty and violent intent, hand hovering over the hilt of his sword like an Old West gunslinger about to end someone's bloodline.
The noble stammered, looking around as if waiting for someone to intervene. No one did. The nobles had all collectively agreed to stand back and watch this disaster unfold.
You, however, recognized an issue.
“Deuce,” you started carefully. “Buddy. Pal.” You placed a hand on his shoulder, a gesture meant to calm him down.
It did not calm him down.
If anything, his conviction doubled.
“You don’t actually have to fight for my honor—”
“Yes, I do.”
He didn’t blink.
You blinked for him.
The realization sank in with all the subtlety of a grand piano dropping from a three-story window:
Deuce would throw hands for you. Without question. Without hesitation. It was pure muscle memory at this point.
You had too much power.
The nobles were whispering.
The prince was watching.
Some fool in the back had already started placing bets.
And Deuce?
Deuce was ready to kill a man.
“Okay,” you muttered under your breath, “I may have created a monster.”
The noble, sweating profusely, waved his hands. “I—I think there’s been a misunderstanding—”
“There’s no misunderstanding,” Deuce gritted out, stepping forward. “You insulted them. Now, we settle this properly.”
By all accounts, Deuce had just challenged a man to medieval combat over you.
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It should have been a simple duel.
Just a normal, everyday case of your overly loyal knight throwing hands because someone vaguely insulted you.
A Tuesday, basically.
And yet, somehow, by the time you arrived at the dueling grounds, it had turned into a full-blown public event.
The stands were packed. Nobles gossiped in hushed whispers. Vendors had set up food stalls. Some particularly enterprising soul was selling commemorative handkerchiefs embroidered with Deuce’s face.
And standing right in the middle of this absolute circus were Riddle and Ace—your reinforcements, arriving at maximum velocity to make your life more interesting and significantly more stressful.
Riddle’s expression alone had the same effect as a guillotine blade. His hands were clenched into fists, his face a vibrant shade of red, and the moment his sharp, judgmental gaze landed on you, you had the distinct feeling that your days were numbered.
Ace, meanwhile, looked like he was having the time of his life.
“You. Absolute. Menace.” Riddle bit out, his words dripping with disappointment and barely-contained rage. “I leave you alone for one week and suddenly you’re challenging people to duels, seducing engaged nobles, and destabilizing the entire social order?!”
“Okay, first of all, I didn’t challenge anyone. That was Deuce.”
“Because you provoked it.”
“Debatable.”
“No, it’s not!”
Ace clapped a hand on your shoulder, beaming. “Don’t listen to him. In fact, I’ll actually pay you to keep this up.”
Riddle’s head snapped toward him, betrayal written across his features. “You’re paying them?! You’re encouraging this?!”
“Duh?” Ace grinned. “I’ve never had this much fun in my entire life. If it means watching them do more insane things, I’ll move the entire city to accommodate them.”
Riddle made a noise that was somewhere between a strangled scream and an impending aneurysm.
You, feeling very smug, turned back to the main event.
Deuce, your knight, your absurdly loyal human wrecking ball, was already standing in the ring, eyes burning with righteous fury.
The poor noble who insulted you was sweating bullets.
The duel started.
The duel lasted five minutes.
The duel ended spectacularly.
Deuce dismantled the guy so thoroughly, so efficiently, that entire bloodlines were probably questioning their place in the universe.
And then, with a smoothness you had not thought possible, Deuce turned, knelt before you, and bowed his head in silent, knightly devotion.
Which was horribly unfair.
Because, up until this moment, you had been so certain that nothing in this world could ever make you weak in the knees.
But this?
This was a problem.
Because the combination of Deuce being stupidly strong, stupidly devoted, and now stupidly attractive in the aftermath of his absolute annihilation of a noble in your name was doing something deeply unsettling to your brain chemistry.
You, a seasoned chaos gremlin, had not been prepared for the sheer level of attractiveness that came from watching Deuce absolutely demolish a man in your honor and then kneel like you were some kind of divine ruler.
And absolutely no one in this arena could be allowed to witness that.
Which is why you did the only logical thing—
You grabbed Deuce by the collar and dragged him the hell out of there.
“We’re leaving.”
Deuce, stumbling after you, genuinely confused: “Wait—? But—?”
“No questions.”
Behind you, Ace hooted.
Riddle yelled something about propriety
The crowd was whispering in scandalized awe.
And the noble who insulted you?
He was probably questioning every life choice that led him to this moment.
Congratulations.
You had once again caused a spectacle.
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You had always known that your butler—the tall, brooding, vaguely tragic second male lead—was spying on you.
You just hadn’t expected him to be this bad at it.
At first, you thought he was just terrible at being subtle. The way he lurked behind obvious cover, like a potted plant that was two sizes too small for him, was almost insultingly blatant.
But then, after watching him trip over his own feet and drop his little spy notebook in front of you, you had a stunning realization:
He wasn’t just bad at this.
He was disastrous.
And you—being the responsible, morally upstanding villain that you were—decided that it was your duty to take full advantage of this situation.
So when he inevitably got caught, you gaslit the absolute hell out of him.
“You failed the test,” you sighed, shaking your head with deep, world-weary disappointment.
He froze. “Test?”
“Yes, a test,” you said, folding your arms. “Did you seriously think I wouldn’t notice one of my own subordinates spying on me?”
He blinked. “I—I don't work for the heroine.”
You smiled dangerously. “Don't you?”
The silence that followed was long, painful, and deeply existential.
“…I don't?,” he said, but there was now a distinct lack of confidence behind his words.
Deuce, who had been standing off to the side, vehemently disagreed with everything that was happening.
“You knew about this?” he asked, looking at you like you were a criminal mastermind unveiling your latest scheme.
You ignored him.
Instead, you rested a hand on the butler’s shoulder, offering him a kind, understanding smile.
“Since you are so clearly loyal to me,” you said, gently, “I’d like you to deliver a very special report to the heroine.”
Deuce let out an exhausted groan.
The butler stared at you warily. “…What kind of report?”
“Oh, you know,” you mused, smirking. “Just a few details about my daily routine. The way I conduct myself in my estate. My methods for staying eternally youthful.”
The butler squinted.
“What do you mean, eternally youthful?”
You grinned.
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The heroine stood in your ballroom, pointing an accusing, trembling finger at you.
“You’re a witch.”
You grinned.
Then you turned to your butler—who looked increasingly uncomfortable—and hummed, “I see you did your job well.”
Deuce pinched the bridge of his nose. “What did you make him tell her?”
The heroine narrowed her eyes at you, vibrating with righteous fury.
“You—you bathe in your servants’ tears to stay youthful!”
You tilted your head.
“That’s an odd way to phrase ‘providing an excellent workplace with fair wages and health benefits,’ but okay.”
The heroine was not having it.
“And—and you drink phoenix blood to maintain your strength!”
“Well, now, that’s true,” you admitted. “It pairs nicely with a dry red.”
The heroine let out a horrified gasp.
Deuce stared at you like you had personally betrayed him. “You made him tell her you drink what?!”
“I was curious to see how far he’d go.”
The butler, now pale and visibly sweating, looked like he had experienced a crisis of faith during his conversation with the heroine.
And when she reached the final, most egregious offense, he seemed to finally, fully break.
“…And I was told,” the heroine whispered, voice trembling, “that you—” she took a deep breath “—have personally seduced your own knight, corrupting him with your villainous ways.”
You glanced at Deuce.
Deuce turned bright red. “What did you tell her?!”
Your butler, who had finally reached his limit, just turned on his heel and walked out of the room.
“I quit,” he muttered.
Success.
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You had been accused of many things since you woke up in this absolute joke of a world as the villain.
Corruption? Sure.
Scandal? Naturally.
Inducing moral panic in the aristocracy because you decided to flirt with engaged people at a ball? Absolutely.
But today was new.
Today, you had apparently brainwashed Deuce Spade into a life of crime.
"You’ve brainwashed him!"
The heroine’s voice rang out across the royal gathering, loud and full of self-righteous fury, as if she had just caught you mid-scheme, cackling over a bubbling cauldron, weaving a spell to turn Deuce into a mindless delinquent henchman.
You, who had been mid-sip of your expensive champagne, slowly lowered the glass.
Deuce, who had been standing beside you like a human wall of pure knightly devotion, blinked in further confusion.
The heroine took a dramatic step forward, looking at him with heartfelt sadness, like she expected him to suddenly start frothing at the mouth and looting everyone in your name.
“Sir Deuce,” she said, voice trembling with emotion, “It’s not too late. I can save you.”
Deuce tilted his head, utterly lost. “Save me from what?”
“From this!” She gestured wildly at you, as if you were some demonic manifestation of lawlessness, corrupting poor, innocent knights into a life of wanton villainy and casual public indecency.
The male lead, who had been hanging around in the background like a disgruntled ex, suddenly perked up at this. “Wait, are you saying we can steal Deuce?”
“Not steal,” the heroine corrected, with the solemnity of a saint bestowing divine mercy upon a lost soul. "Rescue."
And then, in a stunning display of completely unfounded confidence, she pulled out a golden envelope and extended it toward Deuce.
“A direct invitation,” she declared, eyes shining, “to serve under His Highness.”
There was a deafening silence.
Then—
“No.”
The refusal was instant.
No hesitation.
Not even a single second of consideration.
The heroine’s jaw practically dislocated.
The male lead looked personally victimized.
Ace, who had been standing off to the side with Riddle, slowly turned to face him, nudging him with his elbow before whispering something so profoundly stupid that Riddle physically winced.
Then, as if processing a truth he had been avoiding all this time, Riddle sighed, closed his eyes, and pinched the bridge of his nose.
Ace, meanwhile, had the absolute audacity to look like he was having the time of his life.
The heroine, still struggling to process this complete failure, managed to find her voice again.
“I—I don’t understand.” She looked between you and Deuce, visibly distressed. “Why? Why would you refuse?”
Deuce gave her the most straightforward, obvious look in existence.
“I don't want to.”
The heroine gasped.
The male lead looked like he had been personally slapped.
Ace, meanwhile, had the absolute gall to let out a quiet, knowing cackle, like he had figured out the ending of a dramatic novel before the characters did.
“I fear he’s too far gone,” the heroine whispered, mourning the loss of Deuce Spade as if he had already perished.
You, meanwhile, had been too busy enjoying the absolute disaster unfolding in front of you to process what just happened.
Not until much later, when the two of you were walking back from the gathering, and you finally turned to him with a frown.
“Wait,” you said, still trying to wrap your head around it, “Why didn’t you take the offer?”
Deuce looked at you like you had just asked him why fire was hot. “Because I’m your knight.”
Oh.
That was—
That was kind of—
Warm.
An unpleasantly warm feeling spread in your chest, like you had just accidentally drunk an entire cup of molten sentimentality.
You didn't like it. You didn't like it at all.
ABORT. ABORT. ABORT.
You cleared your throat, deadpan as possible, and said, “Right. That makes sense.”
Then, with all the grace and subtlety of a spooked alley cat, you turned on your heel and walked away at high velocity, because you were absolutely not dealing with this today.
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It doesn’t matter what you do.
You could ignore him. Insult him. Dramatically throw a glass of wine in his face and accuse him of high treason.
Nothing works.
The male lead only seems to fall harder.
And tonight?
Tonight, it’s worse than ever.
Now, he was finding excuses to touch you.
You had arrived at the royal ball with the intention of causing mischief—maybe ruining a few engagements, maybe flirting with people’s spouses just for the fun of it, maybe convincing a few nobles that you were an ancient demon cursed to live among them in disguise—you know, the usual.
What you hadn’t planned for was the crown prince himself swooping in like a predatory falcon, seizing your wrist, and dramatically pulling you onto the dance floor.
There was no escape.
And the worst part?
The entire room was watching.
Which meant you had to grit your teeth and endure it.
The music began.
You stepped forward. He stepped forward.
You tried to maintain a respectable distance.
He?
He did not.
Instead, he pulled you closer—his grip firm, his posture rigid, his expression unreadable as he held you just a little too tightly.
And then—oh, and then.
You felt it.
The slight intake of breath.
The subtle tilt of his head.
The near-invisible shudder that ran down his spine as he inhaled deeply, as if committing your scent to memory.
Your entire body locked up in horror.
What. The. Hell.
Was he—
Was this bastard—
Was he sniffing you?
You immediately tried to pull away, but his vice-like grip did not relent.
“I—” His voice came out a little strangled, and his eyes darted away suspiciously. “You—” He swallowed. “I was just making sure you didn’t smell like poison.”
You stared at him.
Poison.
Poison.
He said that with his whole chest.
Like it was a normal thing to do.
Like it wasn’t the most deranged, lovesick, absolutely unhinged thing you had ever seen in your entire life.
“You think someone poisoned me?” you deadpanned.
“Yes,” he said, nodding a little too quickly. “I thought—I thought maybe one of your enemies slipped something into your drink.”
“So your first instinct was to smell me?”
“YES.”
The sheer delusion in his voice was astounding.
You pushed him off you the moment the song ended, practically flinging yourself across the room in search of sanity, reason, and possibly a priest.
The moment you reached Ace, Riddle, and Deuce, you collapsed into their presence, gasping like you had just escaped the jaws of death.
Riddle took one look at your disheveled state, grimaced, and immediately handed you a handkerchief, as if he could wipe the entire experience off you.
You snatched it up and aggressively scrubbed at your neck.
Ace?
Ace was dying.
He was bent over in laughter, hands on his knees, completely losing his mind.
And Deuce?
Deuce looks like you just drop-kicked his puppy off a bridge.
He is staring at you like you personally betrayed him, his ancestors, and the entirety of knighthood as an institution.
Ace sees an opportunity and takes it.
With zero hesitation, he grabs Deuce by the shoulders and shoves him closer to you.
“You gonna let that slide, man?” Ace teases, grinning like a madman.
“I—” Deuce blinks, still looking dazed and vaguely devastated.
Ace pushes him again. “Dude, do something! Your boss just got publicly defiled.”
Deuce finally snaps out of it, reaching for his own handkerchief—the one with his knightly crest embroidered on it—and gently, carefully wipes at your neck.
It was different from Riddle’s.
Riddle had handed you his like a noble disgusted by filth.
Deuce, however?
Deuce was careful.
His touch was light, his eyes too focused, too serious as he dabbed at the place where the prince’s lips had nearly brushed against your skin.
He was not just cleaning.
He was removing.
It was as if the very idea of another man touching you physically revolted him.
So, in a desperate attempt to make the moment less weird, you forced out a mocking smirk and teased,
“Aw, Deuce. What’s wrong? You don’t like it when he touches me?”
Deuce, sweet, earnest, painfully loyal Deuce, did not hesitate.
“No."
Oh no.
Bwcause something in your stomach flips and your face feels suspiciously warm.
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It was bound to happen.
Honestly, with the way you had been leaning on him lately, whispering too-close teases in his ear, and throwing casual flirtations like daggers at his heart, it was only a matter of time before he cracked.
But you—oh, you hadn’t expected it to be like this.
You were lounging on him again today, your head resting against his shoulder, basking in the solid warmth that only Deuce could provide. He had long since stopped complaining about it—stopped stiffening up every time you got close—and instead, he had simply accepted his fate as your personal resting post.
Which, of course, meant it was your duty to push your luck.
So, you did.
With a slow, lazy grin, you tilted your head, let your lips brush a little too close to his ear, and murmured,
“Y’know, Deuce… you’re kind of my favorite.”
It was supposed to be a joke. (kinda)
It was supposed to be just another tease, another drop of fuel onto the fire just to see him sputter and turn red like he always did.
But this time?
This time, he didn’t laugh.
Instead—
He froze.
His entire body went rigid beneath you, his hands clenching into fists, his breath coming sharper, heavier, like he was wrestling with something too big to contain.
And then—he exhaled.
“Are you playing with me, too?”
The words were low.
Rough.
Like he had been holding them back for too long, like they had been simmering inside him, growing heavier with every glance, every touch, every stupid, careless flirtation.
You blinked. “What?”
Deuce shifted, just enough to look at you head-on, and oh.
Oh.
There was something in his eyes—something raw, something vulnerable, something that made your stomach flip in a way you weren’t prepared for.
“You keep doing this,” he muttered, his voice tight, frustrated. “You flirt with me like you do with the other nobles. You—you act like it’s all just a game. But I—”
His breath hitched.
And then, with a quiet, almost desperate laugh, he whispered,
“You know I love you, right?”
Your heart stopped.
“I—”
“I do,” he interrupted, the words spilling out like he couldn’t hold them back anymore. “I do. I’ve been trying to ignore it, trying to be just your knight, just your friend—but every time you look at me like that, every time you say stuff like this—” His jaw clenched. “—I feel like an idiot. Because I know you don’t mean it. I know you’re just playing around. But I—”
He swallowed hard.
“I can’t take it anymore.”
The air between you went still.
Your heartbeat was too loud, your pulse a slow, insistent drumbeat in your ears, and oh.
Oh, this was real.
He was serious.
Deuce squeezed his eyes shut, inhaled sharply, and then met your gaze once more, firmer this time.
“The next time you flirt with me,” he said, voice low, steady, “I’m going to take it seriously.”
“I mean it,” he continued, as if warning you. “You—you don’t get to joke about this anymore. Not with me. Because I’ll—”
His fingers trembled at his sides.
“I’ll take responsibility for it.”
It took you a second to process the words.
Oh.
Oh, he was adorable.
Because even now—even after basically confessing, after baring his heart to you like this, he was still looking at you like he was waiting for permission.
Like he needed you to say it first.
Like he needed to be sure.
And, well—
Who were you to disappoint your favorite knight?
With a slow, lazy grin, you grabbed him by the collar, pulled him close, and whispered,
“Deuce.”
His breath hitched. “Yeah?”
You leaned in, close enough that your lips brushed against his cheek, and murmured,
“Do you want my last name?”
The moment the words left your mouth, his entire body locked up.
And then—
Then he kissed you.
It was clumsy, heated, desperate in the way only Deuce could be—like he had been holding this back for too long, like he was afraid you’d slip away if he didn’t take you now.
And you—
You melted into it.
Because of course he was serious.
Because of course you had always known what you were doing to him.
Because—
Because you wanted it, too.
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The ballroom is packed, glittering, expectant.
The chandeliers glow like stars, the music swells in the background, and every noble in attendance is on the edge of their seat, waiting for whatever ridiculous display you’re about to put on this time.
And, oh, are you about to deliver.
You stand tall, your hand resting comfortably in Deuce’s as you make the grandest announcement of your life.
“We’re engaged.”
The room erupts—gasps, whispers, the sharp clink of dropped silverware.
Deuce, standing proudly beside you, looks both smug and overwhelmed, like he’s still processing the fact that you actually said yes and also fully prepared to duel anyone who disagrees.
Ace is counting coins, no doubt because he made a bet about this happening.
Riddle looks like he’s two seconds away from both congratulating you and strangling you for causing another scene.
And the male lead—
Oh, the male lead is not handling it well.
He’s standing there, frozen, his eye twitching ever so slightly, his mouth opening and closing like he’s trying to form a sentence but can’t because his brain just blue-screened.
The male lead—in all his tragic, oblivious, love-stricken glory—then has the nerve to act like he’s concerned.
“I just think it’s irresponsible, the difference in your status.” he says.
The words hit you like a divine insult.
Like the heavens themselves have chosen this as your actual villain origin story.
There is a moment of stillness.
It’s the kind of moment you read about in dramatic novels—the eerie, anticipatory silence before an executioner swings his blade. The nobles are motionless, caught between the sheer audacity of your engagement announcement and the dawning horror of whatever is about to come next.
Because they can feel it.
They can feel the storm brewing inside you, the kind of apocalyptic fury usually reserved for fallen kingdoms and plagues of locusts.
Deuce grips your hand a little tighter, as if sensing the catastrophic levels of rage that are about to explode from your very soul.
And then—it happens.
You let out a slow, incredulous exhale.
And then, at the top of your lungs—
“OH, MY GOD.”
The chandelier shakes.
Somewhere in the back, a noble collapses onto a couch.
A waiter drops an entire tray of champagne glasses.
The heroine, bless her soul, gasps like she’s just watched someone get impaled.
And the male lead?
The male lead flinches.
But he does not back down.
Which is his second biggest mistake tonight.
His first was being born.
You take a deep, suffering breath, and then—oh, you absolutely let loose.
“JUST SAY YOU’RE JEALOUS, YOU PATHETIC, EMOTIONALLY CONSTIPATED DISASTER.”
There is an echoing thud.
Ace has fallen to the ground.
He is actively pounding his fist against the marble floor in a fit of laughter so violent that one of the nobles attempts to call a doctor.
Riddle is gripping his temples, already mourning the loss of his peace.
And Deuce?
Deuce nods along.
Like, yeah. That makes sense.
But you are nowhere near done.
You take an intimidating step forward, pointing aggressively at the male lead’s absurdly symmetrical face.
“Do you think I don’t know?!” you demand. “Do you think I don’t notice when you materialize out of thin air whenever I so much as sigh?? Do you think I don’t see you hiding behind pillars, staring at me with the same expression as a neglected golden retriever!?”
The male lead opens his mouth—probably to deny it.
But you immediately cut him off.
“DON’T EVEN TRY ME, YOU NOBLE IMBECILE.”
The heroine physically recoils.
A duke mutters a quiet prayer.
Ace has fully ascended to the next realm.
“I have proof!” you declare, waving an accusatory finger. “Every time I enter a room, you’re already there, lurking in the shadows like a deranged, overgrown bat. Do you think that’s normal behavior?! Do you think people don’t notice?! I HAVE SEEN THE TOWN CRIER TAKING NOTES.”
Riddle’s entire body twitches.
Because, unfortunately, that is not an exaggeration.
The town crier really has been chronicling the male lead’s unhinged pining in weekly installments.
You take another step forward, voice rising.
“Just admit it! Admit that you have absolutely lost your mind over me, and you’re just mad that I don’t give a single, microscopic shred of a damn!”
The male lead is visibly sweating.
But you are still not finished.
“Listen to me,” you say, voice lowering into something cold, absolute, and devastating. You step forward until the male lead is cornered against a column, towering over him like a vengeful god.
Then, with as much venom as you can possibly summon—
“I value you less than a piece of moldy bread.”
Carnage.
The room erupts into madness.
The male lead physically staggers.
His soul leaves his body.
His knees tremble like he’s about to collapse.
Ace is choking on laughter, beating the floor like a medieval peasant begging for mercy.
Riddle has his hands over his eyes like this is the most humiliating thing he’s ever been forced to witness.
The heroine is looking at the male lead like he’s a dying animal.
And Deuce—sweet, loyal Deuce—just crosses his arms, nods approvingly, and says,
“Yeah. What he said."
You smile, victorious.
You dust off your hands like you’ve just completed a particularly satisfying chore.
Then, you turn back to Deuce, loop your arm through his, and promptly walk out of the ballroom with your beloved knight at your side.
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The sun melts into the horizon, casting the ocean in gold and rose, waves curling onto the shore. A warm breeze rolls through the open balcony, carrying the scent of salt and flowers and Deuce Spade trying to subtly overthink again.
Which is unfortunate.
Because you had expressly banned thinking on this honeymoon.
Yet here he is—Deuce , your devoted, beautiful, terminally self-doubting husband—standing by the railing, arms crossed, jaw clenched, deep in Thought.
You know that look.
It’s the look of a man about to say something stupid.
And indeed—
“Do you regret it?” he asks.
You blink. “Regret what?”
Deuce doesn’t look at you. His gaze is on the horizon, all noble knightly brooding, except it’s Deuce, so it just makes him look like a golden retriever contemplating the meaning of life.
“Choosing me,” he clarifies. “I mean, you—you could’ve had anyone. A prince, a noble, someone with status. Someone who actually deserves—”
You physically grab him.
Like, you latch onto him like a barnacle and manhandle him around to face you, because this is quite possibly the dumbest thing he’s ever said, and you refuse to let him say another word.
Deuce, being Deuce, just lets you do it.
He stares at you, startled, lips slightly parted, eyes big and blue and breathtaking.
And you sigh.
“Sweetheart,” you say, voice dry, “you are the densest person I have ever met.”
He blinks.
You take his face in your hands.
“I love you, dumbass.”
A beat of silence.
Then—
Deuce grins.
It’s small at first, hesitant, like he’s still processing the words—like some part of him is still convinced he’s dreaming, that any moment now, he’s going to wake up in the barracks and realize none of this is real.
But then, you thumb over his cheek, gentle, certain, grounding him in reality.
And that’s when it happens.
That’s when his grin breaks into something helpless and bright, something that crinkles the corners of his eyes, something that is so very Deuce that your heart trips over itself.
He hides his face against your shoulder.
“Shut up,” he mumbles, muffled against your skin, voice warm, embarrassed, happy.
You laugh, wrapping your arms around him, pulling him closer.
“Make me.”
His arms tighten around you, and for a while, neither of you move—just standing there, on the balcony of some faraway villa, wrapped up in each other, with nothing and no one to interrupt.
No scheming nobles.
No pushy male leads.
No ridiculous duels or political scandals.
Just you, Deuce, and the rest of your lives ahead.
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1. Hi! Thank you for all the work you do ❤️ and please forgive the vagueness of my request: looking for a fic that is a modern AU with dad! Lwj and child a'yuan where Wwx is visiting and sleeping on the couch covered in a'yuans stuffed animal toys and when he wakes up they all fall over .... It had some sort of angst because it was a toy on his throat that startled him and woke him up... I cannot for the life of me find this again but the scene is so vivid to me 😭😅 @abijo2024-blog
FOUND! Come Around and Stay by trippednfell (M, 160k, WangXian, NieLan, Slow Burn, Kid Fic, Found Family, Modern AU, It Gets Worse Before It Gets Better, PTSD, Blood and Injury, Dissociation, Angst with a Happy Ending, Musicals, POV Alternating, Baking, Yunmeng reconciliation (eventually), Friend Zoning, Literal Sleeping Together, Hurt/Comfort, Panic Attacks)
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2. Omg I can’t believe I’ve lost this fic. I’ve searched everywhere!!
Young Lwj decides to rebel against his uncle and stay a (white) fox forever. His mother is alive. One day while admiring some newborn bunnies he meets another (he thinks wild) red fox. So annoying bc the fox keeps bothering him, wanting to play. At the same time there’s a visiting cultivator in cloud recesses who is always picking lwj up and petting him. Lwj is a white fox for 90% of this fic.
FOUND!🔒 A Mother’s Curse (A Mother’s Blessing) by Eudoxia (E, 33k, wangxian, A/B/O, Omega WWX, Alpha LWJ, Huli Jing LWJ, Huli Jing WWX, Everyone Lives, Curses, Case Fic, Animal Transformation, Arranged Marriage, Misunderstandings, No Sunshot Campaign, No Yīn Iron, Cloud Recesses Study Arc, LXC is a good brother!, He tries so hard!!, Mentions of Ace LXC, Mentions of Ace WN, Knotting, Rimming, Blow Jobs, Oral Sex, Mating Cycles/In Heat, Mating Bites, Mating Bond, Size Kink, 69 (Sex Position), Mpreg, Pregnancy, Pregnant Sex, wangxian Have a Breeding Kink, Intersex Male Omegas, Vaginal Sex, Vaginal Fingering, Cunnilingus, Squirting, wangxian Have a Non-Con/Rape Kink, but no actual CNC/rape play occurs in this fic. It’s only discussed. there is also discussions of monster fucking but no actual monster fucking)
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3. Hiii!! I'm looking for this specific fic where wei wuxian is still in mo xuanyu's body but after time has started to bulk up resulting in jingyi noticing and lan wangji being jealous. I've lost it to the vast forest of AO3.
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4. Hi! I’m trying to find a fix that takes place in the modern universe. Lan Wangji and Wei Wuxian contented on an app and Wei Wuxian knew he wanted to match with Lan Wangji after seeing his picture and that their kinks align. They met at a bar and discussed term like getting tested routines if they decided they meet often and to expect each other for warts or guts. Wei Wuxian isn’t experienced and Lan Wangji is his first. They both enjoyed come play but Lan Wangji never comes in Wei Wuxian only on him until the end when they decided to become exclusive after Wei Wuxian accidentally tells Lan Wangji that he is his first. There Wei Wuxian says he would marry Lan Wangji if that’s what he wanted and Lan Wangji say yes and tell him to call out of work to go to the courthouse the next day.
FOUND? my thoughts (I confess) verge on dirty by whetherwoman (E, 2k, WangXian Snowballing, wangxian-typical breeding kink, wangxian-typical speedrun from hookup to marriage, Facials, PWP, Modern: No Powers, Comeplay, Safer sex (the r is doing a lot of work there))
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5. hey! ty for ur work! i vaguely remember a fic i read a few years ago where lsz began to remember more of his memories from burial mounds, including times when wwx was more unstable and angry, and had to process the duality of the ideas of re-finding a parental figure that he had lost years ago, but also remembering that that parental figure wasn't perfect and was in fact, incredibly unstable? tysm!
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6. Hello! Thank you for all your help! I’m looking for an arranged marriage omegaverse fic where LWJ and WWX are married and they don’t get along. There was up a scene where a Lan spouse had to plan a charity event and WWX did such a great job that Lan Qiren came to care for him a lot . At some point, WWX is hospitalized and it turns out he has scent deprivation or some form of pack deprivation because he never had a true family and that’s when LWJ starts to change a bit. There’s also a scene where WWX ends up leaving LWJ and moving in with the Wens.
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7. I'm looking for a fanfic from MDZS fandom, but ffs I can't find it. I remember it was about a woman who died and was transferred to the body of Wei Ying before he was found by Jiang Fengmian. She was actively avoiding the Jiang Sect at the beginning. She was also using the leveling (???) system, just like in SVSSS. I don't remember the title and I can't find it on ao3, but it was definitely on ao3 and I'm dying to read it again, even though I think it was not finished when I stopped reading it @snugglespook
FOUND! 🔒 A Game for the Fool by LadyCroft_Undead19 (T, 292k, WangXian, JYL/JZX, WIP, Canon Divergence, Gamer-fic, BAMF WWX, YilingWei, For Want of a Nail, Slow Burn, oc-self-insert kind of, Unreliable Narrator, Massive World Building, Fluff and Angst, but mostly angst right now, we start way before canon)
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8. There is one I can't find where Lan Wangji ends up in the Burial Mounds with the Wen. They end up taking the bunnies with them. There is something like a tree in the backhills that disrupts the wards and allows Wei Wuxian to sneak in and take the rabbits. Later Lan Xichen requests 3 breeding pairs as tribute or something to allow his brother to leave the sect. @unaffiliatedmagpie
FOUND?🔒Unpack Your Heart by Terri Botta (Isilwath) (T, 22k, wangxian, Romance, Everybody Lives, Canon Divergence, LWJ Has Feelings, Protective LWJ, Burial Mounds Settlement Days, LWJ Stays at the Burial Mounds, Burial Mounds Ensemble as Family, Wangxian in Love, YLLZ WWX, Lan Clan Elders are Assholes, Minor Transgender Character, Qiongqi Path Divergence, LWJ loves his bunnies) Some of the details are a bit off, but #8 is still recognizably
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9. Hiya.
I’ve been trying to find a Nielan fic and have tried all the search terms under the sun. It’s a modern AU, and Lan Xichen is Lan Jingyi’s adopted father. They’re in a supermarket and Lan Jingyi specifically asks for oranges. And while Lan Xichen says he doesn’t know what they can make with oranges, Nie Mingjue overhears and suggests some recipes. It takes a while but they start dating.
It’s not “You Made a Rebel of a Careful Man”, though that’s still great. Thank you so much in advance!
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10. I want help finding this story. Wei ying saves eight or more baby dragons while living in yiling and keeps it a secret from Everyone other than his siblings and the dragons disappears one day leaving wei ying heart broken But they comes Black to burial mounds to help their mother. @youngkryptonitewonderland
FOUND?🔒By The Dozen by trulywicked (M, 25k, WIP, WangXian, Canon Divergence, Dragons, Dragon LWJ, Dragon LXC, WWX Adopts Dragons, Yiling Street Days, Burial Mounds Settlement Days, LXC & WWX Friendship, Good Sibling JC LWJ Chugging Vinegar, nonbinary characters, JC Gets To Keep His Puppies, LXC Ships LWJ/WWX)
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11. hello and thanks for all you do! i had a vivid scene pop into my head and it's driving me nuts trying to find the fic to reread it... modern au, the scene i think is actually the start of the story. lwj arrives at an abandoned field/site and basically punches the ground, i think busting through concrete? and wwx is there under it, curled up and no-longer-dead because lwj has just resurrected him. case fic most likely... help?? thanks again! - starsie :) @starsgoblue
FOUND! Little Light by MimiSpearmint (E, 25k, WangXian, Modern with Magic, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, Curses, Getting Together, Horror Elements, Imma call it Road Trip-adjacent, Time Loop-adjacent, Haunted Houses-adjacent, Canada, Case Fic, air magician!lwj, oracle!wwx, off-screen beloved character death but I won't tell you who, Single Parent LWJ, Memories, Under-negotiated Kink, Top LWJ/Bottom WWX, Breathplay, Anal Sex, Oral Sex, Canadian Gothic, Halloween, Tarot, Light BDSM)
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12. Hello! For the next Fic Finder: I am looking for a fic that takes place in the Cloud Recesses where WWX is non-consensually drugged by a Lan disciple who is obsessed with him/obsessed with painting him? I think it takes place during the CR Study Arc, but it could also be a No War AU. Most of the fic was focused on solving the mystery and helping WWX recover, with like some pre-relationship WangXian, if I'm remembering correctly. Thank you in advance!!
FOUND! obscura: ink stain by AvoOwO (M, 20k, wangxian, Cloud Recesses Study Arc, Canon Divergence, Emotions, Heavy Angst, Painting, Temporary Amnesia, Drugs, Drug Use, Non-Consensual Drug Use, Date Rape Drug/Roofies, Drink Spiking, Victim Blaming, LWJ Has Feelings, LWJ Has a Crush, Soft wangxian, Holding Hands, Blood and Violence, Good Sibling JC, Protective JC, WWX is a Mess, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Politics, Protective LXC, Good Sibling LXC, Good Uncle LQR, LQR Tries, OCs, It Gets Worse Before It Gets Better, WWX Needs a Hug, someone gets punched a lot, LWJ contemplates murder for a moment, JC almost gets it done, not quite about romance, as much as romance elements there, more so about the small things, LWJ loves how WWX smells, some nasty things are said, WWX def needs a nap, he gets one dw, LQR Gets Shit Done, NHS Is A Little Shit, Scheming NHS)
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13. Hello! Please help me I'm going ballistic searching for it so the story goes that Wei Ying was an immortal? God? Or whatever but he lives for a long time but he was trapped there for centuries but when he woke up (it's a time travel fic but he is not aware) he saw himself in the street as a child, just as when he touched the child, it just merged between himself.
I remember him killing Jin guangshan and meng yao resents him for it because he didn't have a chance to kill his father and every time Wei Ying goes to unclean realm he attempts to kill him and every time it fails because it's either Wei Ying knows it or he was immune to any poison
Also lan wangji thought they were fiance because when he was a child his father sent him to the yiling Patriarch because his wife died and he wants to revive her (?) and when lan wangji goes to the burial mounds he was rejected and taken care of by Wei Ying himself and Wei Ying promised him to marry him when he got older because lan wangji won't let go of him and amaze him (also what happened to his father qingheng-jun he died joining his wife) about the engagement only Wei Ying didn't know of it because lan wangji let it slipped that he was going to marry Wei Ying.
That's all! @lanwuxian0725
FOUND? Practical Mythology by metisket (T, 17k, WangXian, Time Travel, YLLZ WWX, myths and legends, apparently the burial mounds has to fix everything itself, zombie farm collective, accidental deities, Families of Choice)
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14. Can you help me find a fic pls :,0 I’m pretty sure it was on ao3 but I can’t find it.
Most memorable details: nie huaisang thinks lan wangji could be the most spoiled lan if he took advantage of his pout. Something about even the elders excusing his misbehavior at times because of this?
Paraphrased quotes I remember “Even nie mingjue can’t say no to him when he pouts” “lan wangji grew up a stickler to the rules just like his uncle, so he never takes advantage of this”
I saw screenshots of it on X so it might have been an unpublished work but I want to check just in case. No worries if you can’t find anything, I don’t have much to work with. @maxbunniii
FOUND? The Perfect Gift by BurningTea (G, 5k, WangXian, Drunk LWJ, Cloud Recesses Study Arc, From a threadfic, Omega LWJ, Alpha WWX)
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15. Hiii! This one for the next fic finder,
I'm looking for a fic where at some point wwx stayed at cloud recesses,,,, I forgot the details how but probably got married to lz, maybe both a time-travel and fix-it fic, anyway what I remember is that he trained the juniors through creating an illusion (in which he recreated the yi city arc?) that was so good that even lan Quran was impressed and later asked him to teach him, also wen Qing was there and she even supervised the training.
FOUND! ❤️ And Time Is But a Paper Moon by sami (M, 138k, WangXian, XiChengQing, Time Travel, Fix-It, Everyone Lives/Nobody Dies, Healing, Mental Health Issues, PTSD, Hurt/Comfort, Depression, BAMF WWX, BAMF JC, BAMF LWJ, BAMF JYL, Getting Together, And Time is But a Paper Moon [PODFIC] by sami, Winterstar1412, [Podfic] Cold read of And Time Is But A Paper Moon by kisahawklin, multiple translations available) multiple podfics and translations into multiple languages available
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16. Hello! For the next ficfinder, could you please search for a WangXian fic, in which WWX saved a child from water ghouls and the child's mother was a seer of some sort, reading WWX's fate, given him a magic stone or something. It resulted in him having an early crush to LWJ and ended up confessing after almost getting drowned in the abyss and sees an image of him and LWJ in the future kissing (that phoenix mountain kiss). But LWJ thought of it as a prank, WWX was hurt, but few days later, LWJ realized that WWX isn't joking and also confessed and they kissed. It's in two chapters and still ongoing. I was sure I bookmarked it but it's gone! Please help me. Thank you! @dragoniangoddess
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17. Hi! I am currently looking for a fic wherein post canon wwx time travels back to mo village when he was summoned by mxy. He told lwj about the future and they solved the mystery very quickly which left nhs confused why not everything is happening according to his plan idk if this is chaptered or one-shot. I hope you know this one thankssss @akosichellejoanne
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18. Hi!
I think I've lost a fic, since I can't find it even after changing the tags a million times, and I'm afraid it was deleted.
It was an amnesia fic (modern AU), where WWX got into an accident and forgets that he was married to LWJ and had a son (teenager LSZ).
He went no contact with the Jiangs, but doesn't remember that, so he went home with JYL.
I remember vividly that there was a sex tape situation, where he found one of him and LWJ in his phone and that helped him (re)discover his sexuality.
Also, after this scene, he went on a date with his husband, where LWJ played the guqin for him and took him to the spot where he proposed (and he remembered that).
Can you find it? Or if it was deleted, does someone have it saved somewhere? @blueghost13
FOUND? When I Was Older by jadztone (E, 60k, WangXian, Amnesia, Modern AU, Angst with a Happy Ending, low key pre-slash zhuiling)
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19. Hi! Hello! I hope all of you beautiful people are doing great. I am looking for a fic where WWX and LWJ get married in secret in the Qishan archery tournament bc of the forehead ribbon I think, but end up planning on telling their families later, but canon happens. WWX got pregnant on their first time and was pregnant throughout the cave and Wen Ning is the one to tell him in the indoctrination. I don't remember much, but he ends up having his son in Yiling along with A-Yuan's mother and both kids are taken to the camps, but he manages to find them and claims they are twins and expose the Jin. Thank you in advance!
FOUND? Take Responsibility by draechaeli (E, 187k, WangXian, Canon Divergence, Mainly Novel with a few CQL and Donghua bits, Everybody Lives, Original Children Characters, Adoption, Adoption but WWX birthed them all, Mpreg, Teen Pregnancy, Pregnancy Kink, Male Lactation, Lactation Kink, Consensual Non-Consent, Light Bondage, Pregnant Sex, easy to skip nsfw chapters, Fix-It, Happy Ending)
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20. hi i’m looking for a fic. it’s time travel, wwx and lwj are both sent back in time to when they first met in the cloud recesses after the first siege. they tell jc and lxc about how wwx uses demonic cultivation in the future, jc and lxc are upset but the four of them work it out later. jc and lxc are both aro/ace. i think madam yu also leaves the jiang sect later. the sunshot campaign still happens, meng yao marries wen qing and nie mingjue marries another female character, but the ships are actually meng yao/nie mingjue and wen qing/that female character, they just get married to have heirs. jc also adopts mo xuanyu. i think the fic was 50 chapters long.
FOUND? We Can See a New Start by preciousbunnynoiz (M, 127k, WangXian, XiCheng, XuanLi, MingYao, Soulmates, Time Travel Fix-It, Biting, Implied Sexual Content, Implied/Referenced Underage Sex, but mentally they are adults, Making Out, Fluff and Angst, Humor, Happy Ending, PTSD, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Supportive LWJ, Communication, Soul Bond, Blood, Found Family, Parent-Child Relationship, aromantic JC, Lesbian WQ, Queerplatonic Relationships, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Emotional/Psychological Abuse, Verbal Abuse, Disassociate episodes, disassociating, Suicidal Thoughts, Self-Harm, Self-Hatred, Depression, Delusions, Mental Health Issues, Mental Breakdown, Attempted Sexual Assault, Therapy, Supportive JC, Implied/Referenced Suicide, Family Feels, Implied/Referenced Torture, Revenge, Self-Sacrifice, Accidental Bonding, Brotherly Bonding)
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wingheadshellhead · 2 months ago
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any recommendations for tony stark hates himself comics -loservenom
essentially the entirety of iron man comic canon, except during the runs where the author explicitly and implicitly hates tony and thinks he really is the 'textbook narcissist billionaire playboy philanthropist' that mcu perception popularised.
but some notable favourites are below, which you can download from my masterpost:
iron man: director of s.h.i.e.l.d. - tony directly post civil war, at one of his all-time personal/professional/psychological lows
iron man vol. 1 demon in a bottle arc #120-128 - the arc that deals specifically with tony's alcoholism
iron man vol. 3 #26 - 32: tony relapses, the sentient armor is involved, the villain later in the arc is yinsen's son
iron man: fatal frontier #1-13 - some excellent tony monologue and character introspection
iron man vol. 4 - #1-6 are in the infamous extremis arc, with lots of interesting worldbuilding and transhumanism core to modern tony tech. #7-12 gets into execute program which is spicy self-loathing and dissociation era and the precursor to civil war in #13-16
the darkhold: iron man - some excellent body horror and tony character analysis
invincible iron man vol. 5 - decently well written and references tony's demon in a bottle arc
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byemambo · 8 months ago
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4Minutes EP. 3 - My Takeaways
I went back and skimmed through the previous episodes 1 and 2 (which I've already posted my takeaways for in the previous weeks) to confirm a few thoughts I have now that I finished episode 3.
Tyme's Temperament (Childhood Trauma)
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I found this small exchange between Tyme and Great to be pretty insightful in terms of how Tyme's attitude affects his every day outlook on life. This seems to be a common trope in films and TV (especially in thriller/crime genres) where a main character has motives to avenge the death of their parents, which I'd assume would be the case with Tyme as well as the series goes on and we're given more context to why Tyme is caught up in Great's family organized crime scheme. Given that his motivation for being a surgeon isn't rooted in being a contributing member to society through hospitality but by making ends meet for him and his grandmother, it's no surprise that Tyme's attitude towards his patients is distant and impersonal. This dissociation can also stem from experiencing a huge loss at a young age, and putting the burden of financial responsibility onto himself.
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We see this by a shift in Den's disdain for Tyme's lack of empathy towards his patients by going against their wishes for the mere sake of not letting his patient die, which we can already see this dependence Tyme has with being unable to let go and allow the laws of nature to run its course. Given that this seems to be a recurring theme of Tyme's from how Den's attitude was when reminding Tyme of the patient's name, we hope that his story arc will consist of Tyme learning what it means to "let go," especially because he's taught himself for many decades to "hold on."
Win and Tonkla (Your Wish is My Command)
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The way these two establish their relationship in this episode isn't surprising to me, but what became evident was the juxtaposition in how Tonkla's treated by Korn and by Win. Korn became someone who shoves Tonkla to the side, someone who he had successfully hid away from his personal life and making a deliberate choice to keep a distance from him. This lack of communication burdens Tonkla to a point of heightening his grief, which we know how corrupted it is for officials to rendezvous with victims of a case assigned to them, but ultimately sparks codependency between Win and Tonkla, which Tonkla relied on Korn for until he became an after thought mourning the death of his younger brother (thank goodness Dome is alive btw). The stark difference between Win's approach versus Korn's is simple: fulfilling the wishes of Tonkla. Although we've only seen this exchange occur during the heat of sex, we see Tonkla ask the same of both people (fuck me raw?), Korn saying nothing while protecting himself while Win speaks up for the sake of their safety. However, this will become a losing game if Tonkla still seeks validation from Korn, pushing him beyond his limits and may contribute to harming the individual that we saw in the opening of episode 2. I also want to know whether or not this will heavily affect Win's desire to help Tonkla with his younger brother's case, revealing his chief to be one who's accepted bribes in the past and has a strong sense of justice.
Great Documents the Timeline
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Thank you for Great having a head on his shoulders and taking the time to document his findings on how his visions and powers work, giving us a chance as the audience to continue with our own theories and assumptions. I don't really have any plausible reasons for what each minute in Great's visions represent just yet, but I'm leaning towards each time Great and Tyme make a decision significant in keeping their paths crossed.
When it was 11:00 - Great runs into Tyme in the ward after leaving flowers for the patient. When it was 11:01 - Right after Great and Tyme exchange phone numbers. When it was 11:02 - Great finds Tyme attacking his brother, but is revealed his true identity when confronted outside the lounge.
Foreshadowing
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I found the inclusion of the message "Can you forgive me Great?" to be the most interesting in the entire episode: because the message only becomes important once we're revealed that Tyme is connected to Nan, the woman who infiltrated the crime scheme and sending evidence back who we can assume right now is either Tyme or the police investigators. But then it makes me wonder: how is Tyme associated with her, is he more than a regular surgeon at the hospital with a connection to the police or is he actually a part of the police which is already iffy for me because if he's also an undercover investigator AND surgeon good fucking god...? Are both of them individuals who are outside of the police investigation as it seems Win isn't aware of their participation as a potential fellow investigator? Since Win was forced to step down from Tonkla's brother's case (I can only assume it's treated separately from the gambling investigation), does that mean he will invest more into the online gambling case since now not only was there a hacker and shareholder mole involved in episode 2, but now we have Nan being held hostage (which I'm still unsure of whether she's working directly with Tyme or with the investigators as well)?
Honorable Mentions: Meeting Between the Two Visionaries
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I'm curious to know how Den will set up his patient with Great, since he's been doing extensive research into their prospects. Will they meet in person beforehand: have they already met in his "gallery" that Great described it as when he wrote down his findings? Will this "gallery" be a recurring setting we will encounter as the series progressed (since it's featured in the trailer and teaser photos prior to the first episode's release?) And I just rewatched the trailer again: I'll still be shocked if Tyme is actually undercover while still doing his doctoral duties cause that'd be a little insane to me...
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a-secret-bolton-vampire · 6 months ago
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I finished arc 13 of Ward today. So far, arcs 9, 12, and 13 have been my absolute favourites. In finishing 13 it really hit me just how incredible this story is.
I was scared to read Ward at first, because I loved Worm so much and I wasn't sure how it could top Worm. I was also scared because it hit a lot of personal trauma triggers and became very much worried that it wouldn't do justice with it. In my mind, the worst things that Ward could do was try to get Victoria to forgive her abusers, that her bio family is the most important and she should reconcile with her mother.
My best friend (my co-author for Mending Constellations, etherealDesign) sang the praises of Ward and I eventually decided to try it out. I expected that it would be almost or just about as good as Worm. I'm more than halfway done, and I know how the rest of the story goes, but I honest to god think Ward is even better.
Taylor as a protagonist rules, she's one of the best characters I've ever read and she is insanely compelling and her arc is so beautifully tragic that I can't help but watch that tragedy unfold in awe. There are some parts of her I relate to, such as the bullying, the feeling of being a sort of social outcast, an introvert who loves reading and learning. I also really love the way her morality is written and it's so unbelievably rare for a female character to be written that way.
But Victoria is far far far more relatable. So many takes on her are so shallow and missing the nuances within her. She's so different from Taylor and yet so similar they work perfectly as foils. Taylor didn't have a social support network but had a loving family. Victoria had a social support network but not a loving family. The writing for her PTSD is so insanely on point as someone with PTSD that it hurts to read at times. I'm so happy the narrative is not punishing Victoria for not wanting to forgive her family, especially her mother and Amy, for what they did to her. In so many stories, so many that it actually boggles my mind, family is the most important thing and something that can transcend any and all hurts. Makes that moment in arc 1 where Carol wants Amy and Vic to reconcile mean so much in that context. Sometimes, a hurt cannot be reconciled with, no matter how close you once were to the person who hurt you.
I feel people who haven't experienced familial abuse might not get how much Ward gets right about it. For sure, she has a complicated relationship with her parents still, it isn't pure hatred like it is for Amy, but there is no doubting that the relationship is strained, to put it mildly, with her parents. And also, very very very much happy that there is no attempt at rehabilitating Amy's image to downplay what she did to Victoria. This is not something you downplay and even if Amy is still (somehow) a sympathetic or even relatable antagonist, this is something that just cannot ever be forgotten or forgiven.
Also, Victoria reads as unbelievably transgender. She spends 2 years as the Wretch in the hospital, and in Ward her forcefield makes her visibly uncomfortable with herself and her body. And then her costume is literally a dysphoria hoodie... Her and Sveta especially are such great examples of transgender allegories (and in the case of Sveta she literally, canonically IS trans). And on top of the PTSD, the abuse, the gender dysphoria, all these things that make me relate to Victoria so heavily... then there is the very blatantly textual dissociative plurality. There is no way that Wildbow didn't intend for Victoria, the Warrior Monk, and the Scholar to be all different people in a plural system. Not even a doubt in my mind.
Oh, and this is JUST talking about Victoria! I could go on and on about how well Ward writes mental illness, including some really, really vilified mental disorders. Ashley is (at least likely from what I've gathered from the notes Dragon sent to Vic's laptop) bipolar and definitely a clinical narcissist, but it isn't vilified, and in fact she is heavily, heavily humanized. Even Cradle, someone I'd call as close to pure evil in Parahumans as you can get, has some really really phenomenal writing that shows that he could have lived a normal life as a functional person despite a lack of empathy or remorse.
In general, mental illness in media is important to me as someone who has a personality disorder, and being able to show people who are narcissists or have antisocial tendencies as ultimately just being people and not inherently dangerous is very, very big for me.
There's so much more I could say, but Ward is nothing like I was initially led to believe. It's miles better in every way than I could've hoped for, and it has quickly come the vector for some of the best and most relatable writing of trauma and mental illness I've ever seen in media.
Ward is a story first and foremost about trauma recovery. The fact it is in the backdrop of a literal post-apocalyptic setting is not accidental. It's the best way to frame a sequel to Worm in my mind.
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yingdu-lover · 3 months ago
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shoutout to @whispersoflullaby because I remember (even before we had ANY discussion on plot and theories available) her spotting Lu Guang's lost gaze in season 1 and going : the way he sometimes looks at cheng xiaoshi (or actually he doesn't)...makes me uncomfortable. That's the look of someone who probably had a history of trauma and...abuse.
Well, for me, season 1 ep 1 was also enough to say : that white hair guy is dissociating. He's got that gaze that hides a lot of unfathomable, unutterable stuff.
Didn't s 1 and s 2 Lu Guang make you uncomfortable this way? Like you look at him and go : there is something deeply wrong with him. I can feel it.
And probably that's a lot to do with his cold demeanour in s 1. He is numb. He actually doesn't feel a lot of things at this point. Whisper and mine thoughts go haywire destructive and dark when we think in this line 🙏 and for god's sake I don't want all of our hc coming true. (I don't want even subtle hints, because that will be more explicit for me)
and now congratulations, we already have HD quality PTSD dreams of lu guang in Yingdu so far.
also, exactly how bad is Vein? I am not thinking about him much because if I analyse and come to a conclusion I'll no longer be able to enjoy this arc ☠️ I wanna enjoy so. Let's say, I am actively not acknowledging a lot of things to make it easy
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betweenthescarletmoon · 3 months ago
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Hey 👋
So I saw your reblog and post about jayce, and I just wanted to say you managed to genuinely encapsulate what I was thinking about jayce and just how weirdly the fandom treats him and I am so happy about your post!!!
I wanna bring another discussion point to this. What do you think season 2 jayce's arc would have been had arcane not lost its political messaging because I was totally under the impression that after season 1, jayce was going to boarden his views and understand a lot more about zaun and the undercity through his interactions with other characters like ekko, jinx and vi. I thought we were gonna get jayce leaving politics and high society and going back to his roots as a labourer, understanding his original dream to help the people with hextech and improve lives. I thought we were gonna go back to jayce, who has a family that owns a forge factory and that the show was gonna go and link It back to renni and her kid. I thought we were gonna see jayce comment on the zaun child labour.
I thought so much more was going to happen but it didn't. In the end we didn't even get jayce introspection on the weapons he made and its not even clear why he made them (I have my theory as to why) and we don't get his reaction to cait gassing zaun because I can tell you for a matter of fact jayce wouldn't have been cool with that not after he found out what the hexgates were doing to the undercity and not after he came out from the AU where he had to consume pollution that included the grey daily (I fully believe that when jayce came back he was dying from all that pollution)
Jayce is a creator destined to die young and suffer a fate similar to his father
Thank you for letting me ramble
oh man you COOKED with this!!
i gotta say, this rapid-fire hype train after every weekend for s2 didn't help me think much about what could've been, but your ideas are so wonderful that i'm now even angrier that they reduced him to just viktor without properly expanding on his grief and his guilt about it ifywim? like, he lost cassandra too, he almost lost mel, i do see why he would lose that Very New unlearning of his biases after surviving perhaps the most traumatic event of his life before the Anomaly. i loooooove the opening sequence of s2. his shock and dissociation were absolutely delicious. but it's strange that we don't see any more of how that trauma affects him or mel.
i also feel so confused as to why nobody cared that the de facto Head Councilor and Man of Progress disappeared before publicly resigning. yeah we get it man, you love Viktor, but the people needed leadership, and the fact that they all just moved ON?? from him??? without a single explanation? they didn't even extend a notice to him about the meetings, nor mentioned that he was a "coward" in them bc they obviously didn't like him except for mel, etc.
i think what i was most excited about was that, given jayce is not a politician (and it would've been cool to explore him being forced to be a man he isn't given that's his whole s1 arc), but a man who sees the world through the people he cares about, it would've been so awesome for him to learn to work together with vi and ekko to help zaun. i still love his apocalypse arc, but i think it came too fast, too conveniently, and by separating him and ekko even in act 3 it just falls apart for me kinda.
and you're so right. not a SINGLE mention of renni's child? [points at the writers] what have you done to my boy? even just a quiet, short scene of vi and jayce just...processing, as he stares at the weapon that took the kid's life, but saved his, would've probably sent the message home as to why he once again, thanks to fear and trauma, he makes the weapons despite his massive guilt. it would've been nice for us to see him give vi and cait the weapons, and there we can see that he either isn't allowed to know what they'll do but he trusts them, or doesn't want to know bc he's sick of being aware of all this violence in a more selfish way haha. so many possibilities to express his moral dilemma and how the precarious growth he'd built started to fall apart, not JUST because of viktor, but because he is once again faced with the violence he thought for a long time was coming for him from zaun. it is a prejudice, viktor did call him out for it, but in jayce's mind, it could've been proven. he was attacked TWICE by the people he accidentally hurt the most (bc jinx is who she is thanks to hextech), but is he going to be aware of that, or think that all of zaun is out to get him now? a big part of him is his paranoia, to the point that his cave scene sountrack is called that, so it could've been a great theme to foreshadow from the very beginning. if we did all this, then that would explain what they had going for him in this season in a way that didn't erase his character the way they did
i loveee your points on ethical production and labor, and how that would question even his own name's business. all those hints about his father never went anywhere, and they could have if that was explored. but sadly i don't think there would've been enough time for that with the plot they set in motion of the anomaly and multiverse. (despite how i have grown to accept the multiverse ret-con of the mage, and that i adore ep7, it still irks me that we cannot let the multiverse rest, especially in a story that used to be so grounded in our social reality). also yeah i would've loved a bit more portrayal of his new disabilities!! how he struggles now even with his brace, and what that illness/corruption consisted of. but then he died so it doesn't matter :')
i think i've mainly been coping by writing fanfiction. a lot of my gripes with the season are going to be tackled in my ghosts in the hearth series. it may not be exactly what you're looking for bc it takes place after act 2 but i needed it for my sanity XD
thank you for sharing your thoughts! let's be moots :D
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fortheloveofwonderland · 2 years ago
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Rusty | S.R
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Series Summary - After suffering unimaginable horrors in his three months spent in prison, Spencer Reid struggles to bounce back to his former glory. And when he almost dies at the hands of Benjamin Merva, it’s one trauma too many to bear. So Spencer ups sticks and relocates to a ranch in the middle of nowhere, leaving behind his job, his friends and his relationship.
And then he meets you, a mysterious stranger, who helps him out of a tight spot. You’re looking for a place to lay low and he’s in need of assistance. It’s a match made in heaven. Isn’t it?
You both have pasts you’d rather remained buried. But when those pasts both collide in your present, it can either tear you apart or force you close together.
You’re both just a little rusty, but practice makes perfect.
A/N - yes I’m writing a new series. No I cannot be stopped. Thank you @andiebeaword and @pinkiceee-prose my angels for coming on this ride with me.
Paring - Spencer Reid / Fem! Reader
Category - strangers to friends to lovers | angst | smut minors DNI
General warnings - past sexual abuse, past physical abuse, bad coping mechanisms, PTSD, dissociative amnesia, accidental self-harm, lying, secrets, bisexual Spencer Reid, post prison arc, smut.
Chapters under the cut.
Chapter 1 - Wanted Dead or Alive
Chapter 2 - Take Me Home, Country Roads
Chapter 3 - I Walk the Line
Chapter 4 - The Ballad of the Lonesome Cowboy
Chapter 5 - Gunpowder and Led
Chapter 6 - Tumbling Tumbleweeds
Chapter 7 - Where Were You (When the World Stopped Turning)
Chapter 8 - A Horse With No Name
Chapter 9 - A Cowboys Cowgirl
Chapter 10 - Back in the Saddle Again
Chapter 11 - All My Ex’s Live in Texas
Chapter 12 - Slow Dancing in a Burning Room
Chapter 13 - Friends in Low Places
Chapter 14 - Even Cowgirls Get the Blues
Chapter 15 - Heavens Just a Sin Away
Chapter 16 - Take Your Memory With You
Chapter 17 - Gunfight at the O.K. Corral
Chapter 18 - So Little I Wanted
Chapter 19 - So Little I Got
Chapter 20 - Fires Don’t Start Themselves
Chapter 21 - Night Riders Lament
Chapter 22 - If Tomorrow Never Comes
Chapter 23 - Only the Lonely
Chapter 24 - Bless the Broken Road
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The wonderful and amazing @andiebeaword drew this for me of two of the horse you will meet in this story. They are both driving forces of the fic and I think everyone should see them.
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mgsr-sing-to-me · 1 year ago
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With the addition of ARC 3.5: The War in Heaven, there's also a new playlist (still a WIP, like all of them for the most part) btw.
Hi! Do you have something like a playlist/soundtrack (on Spotify/Deezer/YT) for this fanfic? If not then, in case you were to make a playlist, or a soundtrack which songs would you choose?
Hey anon! Yes, in fact, there are multiple playlists because of the sheer length of the story (I have no exact idea how long it will be in chapter numbers, but I am afraid it will be around 100-125 total chapters for the main fic alone. I suspect the first arc to be around 35-40 chapters long already). Sing to Me has three major arcs and I made playlists for each on Spotify. Occasionally I add new songs to the playlists as I see them fit. All playlists are sorted by the order of events happening, and I may also at some point go into detail explaining each song choice and which chapter or scene it belongs to. Music is one of my main sources of inspiration, which is also reflected in the story title itself (it's named after Sing to Me by MISSIO, the song is also a part of Death Stranding's original soundtrack).
ARC 1 | Dissociate (titled after the song Dissociate by my friend @andynial)
ARC 2 | Parasite Eve
ARC 3 | Dark Matter (The War in Heaven)
I Come with Knives, Sing to Me's prequel story which is entirely about Sam's past before running into Desperado and Armstrong around March 2016 (because his DLC was lovely but not enough lore for my liking) also has a Playlist of its own, but it is not nearly as consistent or close to finished as those for the main story.
Sing to Me • I Come with Knives
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sacredwrath · 10 months ago
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Action and Echo
Here we go fellas...
Arc 1 in which a rebel hero gets caught and tortured by a sadistic villain. Will their team rescue them before its too late?
Arc 2 is a recovery story that I will post more of, but is incomplete for now lol
Arc 3 is a revenge story! In which the heros team catches the villain who tortured them and caretaker decides to get revenge. But the villain isn't exactly what they expected
Oc whump, nonbinary whumpee, male whumper, torture, graphic violence, mental health issues, angst, happy ending (eventually)
Arc 1 and 2 are more tame than arc 3 and can be read independently if you aren't into heavier mental health themes, gray morality, and revenge stories.
Also let me know if I should warn for anything else, I'm not sure which things might be triggering
Arc 1
Captivity, torture for information, breaking whumpee, vague military setting, self-worth issues, mental decline, confusion, dissociation
Three days
Optimist
Fight it
Permanent Damage
Bite me asshole
An invitation
Happy ending
Arc 2
PTSD, flashbacks, recovery whump, past torture, memory issues, hallucinations, angry caretaker (not at whumpee), polyamorous relationship
Logan
Care
Are you ok?
Sunshine
Breakfast
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Arc 3
Revenge, torture whump, gray morality, whumper turned whumpee, caretaker turned whumper, defiant whumpee, aggressive whumpee, ptsd+ cptsd, TRAUMA, suicidal ideation, self harm, suicide attempts, psychological whump, masochism, sadism, severe self hatred, dark and violent headspaces, unhealthy coping mechanisms
Warning! Arc three deals with some heavy themes I can't fully articulate. Whumpee has a fucked up relationship to pain including self harm, sadism, masochism, suicidal and homicidal tendencies.
You
A little rage
Meeting the monster
Guilt
A good man
What's cookin'
Hot Stuff
A little extra suffering as a treat
Residue
Revelations
Remembering
Whip em 101
Be Afraid
Be Very Afraid
Isa
Cats out of the bag
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Arc 4
Don't worry about it >:)
Extras!!
Arc 2 the other side
Again
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j0kb0x · 10 months ago
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A headcanon I love is the wizard getting absolutely fucking traumatized from killing Mali on accident during arc 1. Like imagine being a fucking high school student, being the only one willing enough to stand up to a nasty adult, and fighting so viciously to stop the dragon titan from awakening, so hard in fact that you end up accidentally killing the person you knew full well was only fueled by his own heartbreak and desperation to quell his own grief.
The fucking dissociation they encounter upon viewing Mali in Morganthe’s memories and realizing he was once respectable even if a bit of an asshole, because he purposely uses weak spells against the young morganthe to ensure he doesn’t kill her but rather at the very least stop her. The dialogue afterwards is fucking devastating as Raven describes the protagonist as being pale-faced.
That’s why by arc 3, the protagonist wizard is absolutely fucking brutal. After witnessing the genocide of Morganthe’s wrath and failing to save Azteca, nothing really surprises them anymore. They feel a need to go to bartleby’s rescue without question. Because this is the destiny that was indirectly written out for them now: “It’s up to me to take upon the spiral’s burdens.”
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localcanadiancreature62 · 5 months ago
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Lobotomy Husbands Prompts
I decided that i actually want to write/draw the entirety of their 10 year marriage via a bajillion prompts for the funsies. This is a random prompt list i made for myself to make the load of writing Perfect World!Billford's marriage arc easier on me loll,so if you see an influx of Lobotomy Husbands posts,this is why. I wanted to post this which originally came from my notes so that i could give people context on what i'll be doing. This is entirely for me,i repeat ONLY FOR ME,meaning this isn't an event and i'm just doing this for the funniez.
Drawing Prompts
Fluff
1. Stargazing ✓
2. Rainy day ✓
3. Proposal (ok this one doesn't count cuz it didn't technically happen lol but still it's fun to think about) ✓
4. Picnic
5. Sick/Injury
6. Protecting
7. Reading together
8. Library
9. Ramble
10. Holding hands
11. Snuggling/Cuddling
12. Kiss (es)
13. Nightmares
14. Gift giving
15. Sharing clothes
Writing Prompts Angst
1. "But i love you" ✓
2. First argument (angst. angst/memory erasure) ✓
3. Dissociate ✓
4. Forget
5. "Everything is fine"
6. "You're a monster"
7. For your own good
8. Possessive
9. Torture
10. Human Pet
11. Dear husband
12. Obey
13. You're my property
14. Control
15. Hopeless.
Here are all the ups and downs of the lobotomy husbands lolll.
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wangxianficfinder · 8 months ago
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Aug 26th
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1. hi, this is for itmf! pls rec me trans wangxian fics :3c no modern au tho pls, thank you!!
In Reflection, Truth by Shadaras (T, 55k, WangXian, WWX is summoned into a woman’s body, Canon-Typical Violence, Canon-Typical Gore, this is a story about being transgender, Dysphoria, Misogynistic Slurs, Ableist Language, it’s not slow burn if it’s going to be faster than canon, Trans Male Character, Trans wish fulfillment, Canon Divergence - Yunmeng Brothers Have A Real Conversation) has wwx reincarnated as a women and trans!lwj if i remember correctly
You might be able to find a few in our Trans Wangxian Compilation
The waters and the wild by SecretStorm (T, 62k, WIP, WangXian, Alternate Universe, Fairy Tale Elements, Pied Piper WWX, Trans LWJ, Many juniors, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Kid Fic, Sexual Tension) It's a wip that hasn't been updated in a few years, but really good! Trans LWJ in a canon-adjacent setting.
try author 🔒withbroombefore; they write a bunch of canon-era trans lan zhan and it's all *really good*
🔒 Water Sweeter by deliciousblizzardshark (E, 8k, WangXian, Historical, Rogue Cultivator WWX, Some kind of fairy or spirit or something LWJ, Intersex LWJ, Intersex Character, Fluff and Humor, Crack Treated Seriously, Thirst Trap WWX, Topping from the Bottom, WWX’s Canonical Cottage-core Fantasy, First Time, Domestic Fluff, Vaginal Sex)
hold her where you want her by damnslippyplanet (E, 6k, WangXian, Gender Changes, Trans Female LWJ, Female WWX, Burial Mounds Settlement Days)
scarcely trust my candid heart by Deastar (E, 6k, WangXian, A/B/O, Non-Traditional A/B/O Dynamics, Beta/Beta, Demisexual LWJ, Trans WWX, Fluff and Smut, Female WangXian, Partial Cisswap, Cloud Recesses Study Arc, poor LQR is just trying to be a supportive ace elder and doing a great job actually, too bad it goes right over his niece's head)
you can always find me here by ScarlettStorm (E, 15k, WangXian, Post-Canon, Getting Together, Genderswap, Cisswap, yes it's BOTH, trans woman LWJ, cis woman WWX, they're lesbians harold, the excuciating beauty of night hunting with your bestie, who you're very much in love with, and hoping they love you back, (spoiler: they do), First Time, Vaginal Fingering, Oral Sex, gratuitous descriptions of summer weather)
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2. Hi! This is for ITMF. I want a semi-serious (?) And slice-of-life fic. I dont know how to explain it. Just an example like WWX in his yiling laozu ers tells people in yiling that that person who sells talisman from yiling laozu is a fraud. And then it snowballed to people ask his service to banish monster or something and WWX reputation gets better. But the story focus on WWX everyday life like he make new inventation or trying to describe his cultivation. An example maybe something like Just as the Snow Melts by draechaeli or if a modern fic it is something like I Don't Want to Debut! By countingcr0ws or Anything For Wei Ying by panda_desu. Thanks! @idontknowwhattowriteforusername
Grave dirt by esama (T, 92k, WangXian, canon divergence, yiling wei sect au, demonic cultivation, farming, found family, pre-slash, politics, fix-it of sorts) is one that focuses on basically the life in burial mounds
🔒 the thread may stretch or tangle but it will never break by RoseThorne (E, 93k, WIP, WangXian, Canon Divergence, Soulmates, Self-Esteem Issues, Fix-It, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Nightmares, PTSD, Handfasting, Panic Attacks, Getting Together, First Time, Aftercare, Implied/Referenced Alcohol Abuse/Alcoholism, /Referenced Torture, Scars, Chronic Pain, Golden Core Reveal, First Time, Switching, sex-related injury, LWJ Stays at the Burial Mounds, LSZ is a Wèi, Good Sibling JC, Dissociation, Burial Mounds Settlement Days, Disability, Scheming NHS, Disabled Character)
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3. Hii!! for the next itmf can I please request some dark lwj?? sugar daddy vibes or just possessive lwj? i read a few mafia fics and I'm craving this trope a bit more now .thank you!!!
🔒 At heart by apathyinreverie (M, 36k, WangXian, WIP, Dark LWJ(Ish), Amnesia, WWX gets to be Not Okay after the BM, Hurt WWX, Recovery, Caring, Protective LWJ, Possessive LWJ, some definite manipulation, but not everything is as it seems, not nearly as dark as the tags make it sound, Canon Divergence, Golden Core Revea, Golden Core Transfer Fix-It, kind of, Domestic WangXian, Fluff, WWX Goes to Gusu, Possessive WWX, WWX happily atticwifing away, Sunshot Campaign, BAMF WWX, BAMF LWJ)
🔒 As good as by apathyinreverie (T, 6k, WangXian, LQR & WWX, Fix-It, Canon Divergence, not a good uncle LQR story, but also not not?, Golden Core Reveal, Kind Of, Golden Core Fix-It, Also kind of, Addiction, Manipulation, not between wangxian, just...War politics, Sunshot Campaign, Not As Dark As The Tags Make It Sound, Possessive LWJ, Protective LWJ, Tired WWX, Genius WWX, Dual Cultivation, LQR is too old for teenage drama, Developing Relationship)
golden when the day met the night by glitteringmoonlight (Not rated, 95k, slow burn, sugar daddy LWJ, light, angst, fluff, developing relationship, eventual smut, WIP)
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4. Hi! For any future I'm In The Mood For, i'm looking for Wangxian fics that are cozy, like being wrapped up in a warm hug. @emrinalex
crystalized by gusuvibes (M, 25k, WangXian, Modern, Bakery, Pining, Getting Together, Baker LWJ, Nurse WWX, OYZZ in a STARRING ROLE, Bunnies With Bad Names, Elaborate Descriptions of Delicious Baked Goods, Frottage, Eventual Smut, Sexy, Baking, Time) is all cafe, cakes and kisses
🔒 and in the spring i shed my skin by wvlfqveen (T, 11k, WangXian, Modern with Magic, Professors, Shapeshifter LWJ, Not Quite Necromancer WWX, Mutual Pining, WWX being an oblivious idiot, Fluff, Love Confessions, yunmeng trio, Family Feels, get JC therapy 2020, Kissing)
i’ll have you and you’ll have me by sundiscus (T, 5k, WangXian, Modern, Established Relationship, Marriage Proposal, fluff with a sprinkling of angst (for flavor), Podfic Available)
Love Cats by so_shhy series (T, 14k, WangXian, Modern, Meet-Cute, Fluff, WWX is wet and adorable in a tree, With a Cat, LWJ had no chance, Don't Try This At Home, First Dates, LWJ likes ducks, WWX does not like dogs, They just have a nice date, picnic dates, Falling In Love, LWJ is briefly less than graceful, there is a spider, but like barely there and totally harmless, LWJ Loves Rabbits, Office Party, LXC is a Good Big Brother, WWX is an excellent boyfriend, POV Outsider, they are in love the world is full of joy, Everything is Beautiful except for baby coots)
The Late Great Custody Debate by stiltonbasket (G, 9k, wangxian, JYL/JZX, LXC/NMJ, JC & WWX & JYL, modern, Domestic Fluff, baby a-yuan, Single Parent WWX, LWJ is a confused rabbit owner, nielan are married, nhs is: xoxo gossip girl, Custody Arrangements, engagement, Confused WWX, WWX voice: if i’m the one with the kid why are you suing ME for child support?, LWJ kills his own love life in the worst way, Happy Ending)
Pigtail Pulling by protos_metazu_ison (G, 3k, WangXian, Fluff and Humor, Crack Treated Seriously, Cloud Recesses Shenanigans)
Just Say Yes Series by edenwolfie (T/M, 338k, WangXian, Matchmaking, Pining, Getting Together, Canon Divergence, POV Alternating, Fluff, First Kiss, Declarations Of Love, Humor, Cloud Recesses Study Arc, Good Uncle LQR, Engagement, Hurt/Comfort, Fix-It)
🔒 yearned for by spookykingdomstarlight (G, 3k, WangXian, LXC & LWJ, Future Fic, Pining, Rabbits, Fluff, Kissing, Family)
If your heart is in your dream (No request is too extreme) by Spodumene (G, 1k, WangXIan, LWJ's Birthday, Fluff, Modern Setting)
Oh, your love is sunlight by feyburner (M, 9k, WangXian, Drabble Collection, Tags specified in each chapter, But it's all pretty soft and goofy)
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5. I love your blog so much! It helps me find fics i sometimes unknowingly overlook, so...thank you so much! Itmf fics in Lan Wangji's POV, any AU works but if its canonverse, may I request it be novel or donghua canon please? Also have another request for wangxian recs...jealous Lan Wangji because Lan Xichen flirted with/dated/fucked Wei Wuxian in the past (could be a rumour but I'd prefer him to have heard/seen it happen and decide he wants Wei Wuxian for himself)...any AU!
🔒 The Price of Old Wishes by SoManyJacks (E, 67k, WangXian, Minor canon divergence, Angst, POV LWJ, Depression, Suicidal Thoughts, Eventual Happy Ending, Eventual Smut, Slow Burn, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, semi-verbal!LWJ, Implied/Referenced Homophobia, Implied/Referenced Suicide) Retelling of the novel from LWJ's pov
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6. hii this is for itmf!! modern au or not but just anything where wwx gets pregnant with lwj's child and runs away for whatever reason without lwj knowing that they have a child together and then years after they will have a reunion and the big reveal. I just love tropes like this and idk what tags i have to place to get these results (so if anyone can kindly guide me on what tags are the best to look for these fics, i will be so grateful!!) Thank you!!!
The Winner Takes It All by YilingSani (M, 46k, WangXian, Modern AU, Single Parent WWX, Old Friends, One Night Stands, No Smut, Angst with a Happy Ending, PTSD, Panic Attacks, Forgiveness, Second Chances, Inspired by Mamma Mia! (Movies) Teen Pregnancy, Mpreg, mention of miscarriage, Birth Trauma, amniotic fluid embolism) Both feature Wei Ying leaving because he's led to believe that Lan Zhan wants nothing to do with him.
All The Years Lost by UseMyMuse (T, 26k, WangXian, Teen Pregnancy, Angst with a Happy Ending, Single Parent AU, Forced misunderstandings, Forced miscommunication, Mpreg) Both feature Wei Ying leaving because he's led to believe that Lan Zhan wants nothing to do with him.
Family Pictures (Or: “Mark Rothko is very, very dead, Wei Ying.”) by belleweather (M, 37k, WangXian, Kid Fic, Post Mpreg, Modern AU, Cindarella Story, Mistaken Identity, Mistaken for Being in a Relationship, art conservator lwj, idiot WWX, (he gets better slowly), shockingly little actual sex omg what happened to me, fake/mistaken cheating, no actual infidelity)
Nothing but your heart by airinshaw (E, 21k, WangXian, Modern AU, A/B/O Dynamics, Implied Mpreg, First Time, Getting Together, Angst and Drama, Angst with a Happy Ending, Anal Sex, Whump, Breeding Kink)
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7. Hello, for itmf id like ask for work in modern premises where lxc and others accidentally or semi intentionally killed wwx and conspired to never talk about it. Lwj is relentless in searching for wwx. Canon period is ok if there is no canon conflict as the reason @best-before-end
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8. Hi! For the ITMF, I wanted to ask if there are any fics where WWX died at the end of the war? I don't know if it's hc or canon but I keep having the thought that he didn't expect to survive the war without a core. I was wondering how it would have been if WWX over did it or something and died. I'm looking specifically for him dying at the end when the sun shot campaign isn't hindered by it, I suppose. Thanks to everyone in advance! @hikato-chan
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9. heyo! can you rec me a canon compliant/canon divergence wangxian fic that
A) has one of them explore his sexuality, identity, all that good stuff
B) has both of them explore the above together
basically i just want fics where wangxian explores and accepts their own queerness and sexualities and it's a verh lovely time, hehe
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10. Itmf fics that highlight how sweet wen ning is, and his friendship with wwx. (Also any sweet-yet-badass wen ning stories, esp if wen ning gets the recognition he deserves, with a good title/respect etc.)
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11. For the next imtf, can you recommend me some of your favorite non English FFs on Ao3
I’m sorry, Good bye by NHaraki (M, 35k, WWX/WRH, WIP, Jiang Family Bashing, Time Travel Fix-It, YZY Bashing) I translated it via Google Chrome and it was fine. It's an WWX/WRH fic where WWX returns to his childhood after the Siege. Stuff happens, YZY throws him into the burial mounts and WRH finds him. It's a lot of healing and hiding WWX. Found family. WC is raised better. It's adorable
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12. I recently finished reading a wangxian fic told from Jingyi's POV and in that post-canon fic, everyone loves and lusts for wei wuxian to the point many believe its not even possible for his original body to have been better in terms of attractiveness. So itmf of wangxian fics with like...sorta similar premise in the way everyone loves/lusts for/is awed by wei wuxian to the point of hero-worshipping/using him as a standard for future spouse, etc. Lots of wei wuxian swooning and sighing about not finding someone better than him and so on please!
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13. any truth spell/potion fics for itmf? as long as it’s not a sad ending i’m game for anything involving the truth being revealed in some manner like this!
🔒 in the shadow of moonlit flowers by Reverie (cl410) (T, 56k, wangxian, LXC/NMJ, Cloud Recesses, LWJ & NHS Friendship, Developing Relationship, POV LWJ, Minor Injuries, Autistic LWJ, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, aka the Madam Yu warning, Genius WWX, Light Angst And Hurt/Comfort, WWX Protection Squad, Gusu Lan Sect, Slow Burn, Protective LWJ, LWJ-centric) is not quite the ask but its about lwj who can tell lie apart from truth because of a spell his mother gave him
the breaking of your soul (upon my lips) by sunsandships (M, 40k, WangXian, Canon Divergence, Fix-It, Mutual Pining, Golden Core Reveal, Happy Ending) Not sure if these fit for 13, but Wei Wing develops a talisman to trace curses back to their caster
The Fire Lapping Up the Creek by notevenyou (E, 66k, WangXian, Canon Divergence, Hurt/Comfort, Canon-Typical Violence, Injury, Injury Recovery, Blood, Respiratory Illness, Major Illness, Fever, Grief/Mourning, Burial Mounds, Angst with a Happy Ending, Implied/Referenced Suicide, Hunger and food scarcity, Surgery, Fix-It of Sorts) Not sure if these fit for 13, but Wei Wing develops a talisman to trace curses back to their caster
when you’re doing all the leaving (then it’s never your love lost) by tardigradeschool (T, 26k, wangxian, canon divergence, hurt/comfort, canon-typical violence, sharing clothes, sharing a bed, fix-it, golden core transfer) Not sure if these fit for 13, but Wei Wing develops a talisman to trace curses back to their caster
All Things Belong by kuroi_atropos (M, 65k, WRH & WWX, wangxian, WN & WWX, Wen WWX, abuse, whipping, manipulations, smart WWX, possessive behavior, implied/Referenced rape/non-con, past rape/non-con, WIP) Wei Ying develops a way to show blood relations/family members
And Time Is But a Paper Moon by sami (M, 138k, WangXian, XiChengQing, Time Travel, Fix-It, Everyone Lives/Nobody Dies, Healing, Mental Health Issues, PTSD, Hurt/Comfort, Depression, BAMF WWX, BAMF JC, BAMF LWJ, BAMF JYL, Getting Together) Wei Ying develops a way to show blood relations/family members
Debts of a Child Part 2 by Hauntcats (M, 111k, WangXian, YZY Bashing, Not Jiang Family Friendly, Angst and Feels, lots of anger, JC Bashing, not Jiang friendly, Angst with a Happy Ending, Content warning for icky spiders in later chapters., hurt no comfort for Jiang siblings.) Wei Ying develops a way to show blood relations/family members
🔒 this body yet survives by RoseThorne (T, 57k, WangXian, WIP, No War AU, Recovery, Trauma, Dissociation, Courtship, Courting Rituals, Near Death Experiences, Attempted Murder, Eventual Happy Ending, Panic Attacks, Vomiting, Siblings, Protective Siblings, Soup, Triggers, Protective LWJ, Protective LQR, Yúnmèng Siblings Dynamics, Bad Parent YZY, POV Third Person, POV LWJ, reference to poisoning, reference to assassination, Reference to chronic illness, reference to infanticide, Depression, Minor Injuries, Painting, Gift Giving, WWX Has a Fear of Dogs, Good Sibling JC, Good Sibling JYL, BAMF WWX,, Jealous SS, WWX Protection Squad) Wei Ying develops a way to show blood relations/family members
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14. Looking for a fic where it’s like “we just did something super duper gay what happened”
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15. I always see fics about people falling for lan wangji’s cold beauty but for the next itmf, do you have any fics for people are crushing on wei wuxian for his looks or charms? it can be existing characters or ocs, idm!
Endgame wangxian though, please!
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16. Hello! ITMF Jin Guangshan surviving until Wei Wuxian comes back to life, so that Wei Wuxian can take revenge/get justice from Jin Guangshan himself. Thank you!
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17. Based on one of Kay's commentaries on a fic rec, I was wondering if anyone had any fics that put Wei Wuxian through an "emotional blender" lmao.
Silenced by Tasharene (M, 63k, WangXian, Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Rape/Non-Con, Hurt/Comfort, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, PTSD, Temporary Blindness, Aversion to touch, Fear of crowds, Panic Attacks, Post-Canon, WWX Whump, Hurt WWX, Whump, Angst with a Happy Ending, world-class troll LXC, see the archive Warnings BEFORE you accuse me of not tagging things!!!) warning- ALOT of angst like alot lot but its a happy ending
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lakesbian · 1 year ago
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rachel and alec are specifically interesting to me re the undersider Situations as of early worm posting. thats right for the first time in my life im saying rachel specifically is interesting to me. everyone on the team is at least a bit lonely i think but it's so loud and obvious with rachel, because she's loud and obvious about everything. she's a disabled teen who's been homeless since she was very young. she was deeply abused by the foster home system, and the legal system responded to her wounded and confused outbursts as an autistic child by criminalizing her and hunting her down. she can't exist in public without the cops being called. society has done everything to demonstrate that it doesn't want her, and then blames her when she doesn't trust people.
brian says that the undersiders are the closest thing she can have to friends. alec says that they're the closest thing she has to a family. (which is an entire can of worms in itself wrt alec's relation to the undersiders.) and both of those things are true, but there's also something so tragic in their assumption that their tenuous connection w/ rachel where she can only just barely tolerate them is the best she can ever have. they're the only people she can even remotely trust to have her back or treat her somewhat fairly instead of fucking her over, but they're still fundamentally considering her beyond close connection, less of a friend or someone to attempt befriending and more of someone to keep on a leash. of course taylor is the only one to actually get close to her--taylor is the only one who tries to engage with her, as a person, on rachel's own terms, instead of begrudgingly tolerating her. rachel :(
& alec is the other team member who's in the Extra Lonely Isolation Club...he gets silly with the team sometimes, he has his little teenage banter w/ brian, he and lisa are clearly very familiar with each other in the way ppl who've been living together for a year and a half are. it's really good for him. it's the first time in his entire life he's gotten to have a consistent home with his own belongings, and he's getting to have it because he's part of the undersiders. the undersiders are literally the first people in his entire life that approach counting as a friendship. he gets SO FUCKING MAD!!! when he leaps to assuming that rachel stole the money from them. he gets So Mad he immediately goes "i vote we kill her" and then goes on a seething rant about how he wouldn't have thought she'd do that since the undersiders are the closest she has to family, but apparently she would. and the projection is so obvious! he's not wrong about applying the sentiment to rachel, but there's a reason he goes farther than brian's "closest she has to friends" and into the more intimate territory of "closest she has to family"--the two-way street there means that the undersiders are the closest he has to family, and the idea of being betrayed by one of them hurts enough to trigger the aggression he always displays when he's feeling vulnerable.
and he still doesn't tell them Jack Shit. he obviously lies to them all the fucking time, because brian is under the impression that he "dropped out" of school, when the reality is that he never went. even lisa brings up heartbreaker to taylor without any awareness that he's the father of the boy she's been living with for over a year. alec spends most of the early arcs in worm in dissociative, depressed fugues. the other undersiders have lengthy conversations where they're sharing personal info and he's just trailing along behind them, not speaking for so long that even the readers can forget he's there. lonely broken little shell of a boy who is so empty all of the time and does not even know it. aisha cannot get here fast enough if i have to see him being depressed and disconnected for one (1) more chapter i will explode
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