#ANYWAYS....... i leave monday morning so
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im kinda over this trip (hello darkness my old friend (anxiety that makes it v v hard 2 leave the apartment)) BUT i am. decidedly NOT looking forward 2 the weather back home..... in the 30s and it's barely fucking JUNE???? 💀💀💀💀
#WHAT is the point of going on a vacation to lie in bed asleep or on my phone???? i could do that at home!!!!#unfortunately. anxiety-brain disagrees. took me 3 hrs yesterday 2 work up 2 going on a walk 2 buy lunch.#help#where tf is this coming frommmmm#kinda hate 2 admit it but ik at least part of it is that im alone...... much easier if theres another person i dont wanna drag down#desperation 4 independence vs. limitations i dont wanna recognize.... fight!#(the desire 4 independence is losing. :| but i dont rlly have friends 2 travel with bc $ + diff commitments)#ANYWAYS....... i leave monday morning so#heres hoping i manage 2 kick my ass in2 doing SOMETHING at some point in the next 2 days#besides torturing myself thru refreshing a particular reddit thread every hour (iykyk 😬😶😶🌫️💀)
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if I had a nickel for each rottmnt trend I set I would have 3 damn shiny nickels
#I inspired 2 other people to do a collab comic (neither are finished/posted yet but hey one I participated in and im excited for it!)#I made the peepaw leo cowboy trend go from a 2 to a 10 on the popularity scale#now all my mutuals are all also wanting to make keychains/merch#oh my god#nonsense#is now a good thing to mention that the next thing I want to do is one of those ask events#where for a full day people just send asks and instead of me (ell) answering its the 2al boys#drawings of them answering and everything#will probably do this sometime in december/early january#anyways leaving for a plane trip first in the morning tomorrow#and good news!#I finished lines for next 2al update#I think it was 59 panels...?#I think it was 59 goddamn panels.#so that will get posted whenever I get around to coloring it#which will probably be monday or tuesday#<3#wish me luck imma be dying all day tomorrow btw#also keychain preorders are closing tomorrow#ok goodnight tumblr#I am just having many many thoughts tonight ig#also that 2al cameo in the cass video still feels like a fever dream.#that does not feel like it happened.#that did not hapen.#nope#I dreamed it#good lord is this a tag wall
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applied to a bunch of jobs! 😅🙏
#took me three days bc i really wanted my dad's input on my resume and he took a while to get back to me#but i reallyyyy wanted to have applications in my monday morning and now i do :)#also feeling much better aboutbthe whole thing now that i have stuff to be excited about#still really really sad abt leaving the kids at my current job tho#but i drove by some of the places i applied today and researched them and im really optimistic about some of them#i even heard back from one already which i was not expecting at all#she literally emailed me like half an hour after getting my application and started asking me questions#like a pre interview#so thats nice#we went back and forth a couple of times#its not my top top choice but that place isnt officially hiring and might take forever to back back to me#this place is a smaller home daycare type place and urgently hiring but the pay is super good and a home daycare environment might be nice#and the pay is pretty decent esp compared to what im making now#the top top place is a fancy pants private school that going to be way more thorough abt references and background check#so they'll take longer to get back to me#but i found out after applying that my friend's mom works there 🤯#so she's gonna ask her to put in a good word for me :)#but they're not officially hiring according to their website it just says they encourage people to inquire so i did#so p unlikely i would get that one but you never know#anyway!!!!#finally excited abt things and not just filled with dread and sadness abt leaving the current place and kids#still makes me sad but im not on the verge of tears thinking abt it anymore lol#this has been a shitpost
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The way I had every intention to be productive this weekend and did none of it bc I know I’m in for some shit the minute I walk into that stupid office
#I finished the t-shirt design for HR lady right and she came in twice about it (could’ve been an email truly)#then when she DID said an email she just forgot that we fully did discuss putting the gross 75th anni. Logo on it#so her email was just that#and I did forget to respond to the email- like I skimmed it and then went ‘we talked about this’ but I’m not allowed to be a smart ass over#email anymore because when sales reps were being especially rude and disrespectful to my coworker and I#I’d waste no time to put them in their place#it took two fucking years of complaining for them to not treat us like shit and to give us deadline that aren’t same day/next day#like two years of me forcing my bosses hand to actually stand up for us for him to tell them to back off#I stopped dealing with it#my coworker does now bc I can’t be bothered to argue with assholes anymore#anyway yeah I- I truly do not check my email often so by the time EOD rolled around I wasn’t checking#but I know HR lady will be in my inbox bright and early :/#but on the bright side I’ll have the art room to myself Monday+Tuesday bc my coworker is leaving~~~~~#so I’m gonna try and be productive Monday so I can rest and relax at my desk Tuesday#then pretend I’ve been productive when I meet with my gross awful boss Wednesday morning#ugh#I need a new job bad#I hate this one#it’s fine but god is it boring and not creative at all#I love graphic design I do I really do but when it’s just sign making with pre-made templates it’s soooo fucking boring#So this weekend I just got high and yesterday a lil tipsy to feel a lil crossfade#I truly haven’t done shit bc if I think about Monday I’ll scream#personal
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What we say over the loudspeaker: The library will be closing in fifteen minutes. Please log off all computers, and if you have any materials to be checked out, please bring them to the front desk at this time. Thank you.
What students hear, apparently: Time to start your online math homework!
#random personal stuff#I thought they would never leave#it was like pulling teeth to rip those girls away from the computers#just one more problem! always just one more#but anyway I survived the first Saturday of work and it overall went pretty smoothly#and I get Monday morning off so SLEEP
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School started back up and every monday I gotta fight the urge to get sucked back into the fandom because of Teecup's Eagle of Alamut and Beloved Moon and then ALSO RussianHatter's Linked
#every monday morning I wake up and read those fics like its the morning newspaper#and then have to force myself away from my phone to actually do school stuff#but I'm in my upper level courses so I gotta FOCUS because I'm so close to finally leaving#anyways Im in the middle of some hw as Im making this post so gotta go back lolol#see you guys next blue moon#Wait actually before I go#the way RussianHatter wrote Clay in the latest chapter???#damn damn#so good
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i hate cars and driving and i hate that its set up to require a car to get literally fucking anywhere unless u have an extra several hours to walk TO the nearest town that doesnt even have anything of interest in it
#i dont want to go out i want to just chill here on my day off#like i have one thing i NEED to do but i havent gotten the okay to do it yet so im like. great. thanks.#with any luck i get a response monday morning & i go hey boss i need to leave early & hell say okay.#bc this is. time sensitive#anyway maybe i'll clip rime to my bag & we can have a day out.#my friends got me a mafuyu plushie so shes on my bag now but its not the same shes not my friend like the isotopes are#my wrists are FUCKED i cant even draw this weekend. sad#theres no point to any of this im just oversharing
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My work schedule is shot to hell this week and it's definitely going to confuse me and possibly make me miserable
#i could get used to not having to work til monday afternoon but i also just love the monday morning crowd#also leaving tonight and having to be back for 7am tomorrow is gonna SUCK#and i get to work sunday! i can't wait! I'm so excited!#(she is not excited and is in fact dreading it severely)#sundays are slow and also pairs me with coworker i was hoping to avoid for at least a couple more months#anyway....#just rambling it's fine#hopefully
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when the yuutsu of the getsuyoubi gets too out of hand yk—
#i wanna complain about my monday so hi tags you’re my rant victims now—#so like i was already super crabby this morning after sleeping through 2 alarms. which was the perfect start to the monday really.#i ended up leaving the house late (as you do) and when i finally got onto the train that’d take me to my workplace… there weren’t any seats#standing for an hour-long journey across the country when you wanted to nap along said journey is unwarrantedly angering y k ಠ‿ಠ#and when i finally reached my stop… the bus that i had to take to my workplace was right there at the bus stop. i could make it if i ran!!!!#so i ran… but there were these two ladies walking at a snails pace down the stairs leading to the bus stop. ಠ‿ಠ#so ofc i missed the bus by a single second. like,the bus pulled off from the stop the moment i ran up to it. not. fun.#so i was a little late to work (still within the grace period though which was cool ig)#then i was told that i’d be stationed at the worst workstation and i!!!! aaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!#the freakin’ calibration check thing kept failing by 0.20!!!!!!!! it was soooo closeee but nooooo it just had to fail.#thankfully my coworker helped me with part of the workstation while i suffered. nice dude.#i kept (almost) falling asleep in front of the computer while waiting for the checks and stuff though. but i couldn’t actually sleep so :(#it’s too early in the week for this nonsense </3 i hate it here </333#and then i found out that ✨drama✨ happened at work on saturday… but i was completely unaware of it bc i’m oblivious af. truly saddening#i could’ve witnessed greatness— but noooo i just had to loop my music at full blast instead#anyways the workday passed exhaustingly. i gained my energy in the afternoon though. which was dumb bc it meant my morning was unproductive#and ofc when i was about to clock out… i got a scam call while i was in the workplace bathroom. how auspicious#and thanks to the few minutes that i wasted on that bs i missed the earlier bus out of the workplace. yay#and ofcccccc when i finally got a seat on my commute back… i’m stuck between 2 manspreaders. the temptation to kick their legs is real ngl#literally hate it here </3 i should’ve called in sick today#i just hope that i won’t have to teach the interns anything tomorrow… fingers crossed mans#i’m just. sooooooo tired. and done with this. why can’t sunday come sooner </3#inedible blubbering
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I signed up for a mentorship scheme back when I still had some hope in my heart, and today I had a call with my mentor and needed to share my screen and I completely forgot I had a tab open on LinkedIn job postings
#and if “I don't want to stay in this team” wasn't clear enough.#also actually my boss asked me if I want to switch to another team. the role that I interviewed for ages ago#which rendered that call with the mentor a bit pointless#I don't fully trust that it's happening yet. I just said yes sure I want to switch#bc our team is horrendous#I also told my colleague -- the one who's also desperate to leave#who also wanted to move to this other team (but she knew I had applied too)#its a long story. anyway she took it bad#like really bad. like “I'm resigning on monday!!” bad#and perhaps I shouldn't have told her but she asked me what the meeting was about#and idk I didn't even think not to tell her?#I mean if its really happening she will find out soon enough#but just this morning I was complaining to her about this weird meeting with our boss#and how it was probably gonna be about some stupid new project I didnt want to do#but that I had no idea what it was gonna be about and so on. so obviously she asked about it#and it would've been weird to brush it under the carpet#she literally said 'what if its about changing teams??' and I was like 'lol yeah as if'#I genuinely didn't think it would be#but she suspected it so. her reaction was even worse than expected#I don't feel excited or anything I just feel stressed and guilty now#I don't even care about the new stupid team!!#I just want to leave ours#uuggggh#corporate drama#*
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I did it!! I finished the next chapter of You Know Where the City Is! I'm going to do another read through and post it tomorrow 🥰 Thank you so much for everyones patience!
#allylikethecat#fanfiction#you know where the city is#matty x taylor fake dating fic#matty x taylor#the updates that only i care about#but they're fun for me so im posting them anyway#i ended up having to stay an extra THREE HOURS at work#after waking up at 4am this morning to go ride the feral creature i call my horse#so i was like i am going home and refusing to leave it tonight#and now im going to bed again because wow i am tired#im actually really happy he was a lil feral today though#after he tried to die on me on monday its super nice to have him back to his semi psychotic self#like his two settings are perfect angel boy i would trust with my mother who is scared of horses#and feral demon that i constantly threaten to send to the glue factory#today he was a demon pony because taytay went past super fast on the golf cart and he decided to use that as an excuse to be naughty#as if that wasn't something he sees every day of his life and usually doesnt care about- but today it was HORRIFYING#he finished up really good though and got all his lead changes... where they were SUPPOSED to be instead of just randomly added for ~flair~
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Should leave this reminder in my phones calendar or something…. (Funny typo I almost posted it without realizing I typed colander, yeah that’s not gonna work.)
Or have Burroughs register it as a quest….
Got to remember to fast for bloodwork Sunday night into Monday morning ~~~
Which means, and idk why….. water and coffee w no food after a certain time.
Idk why coffee is allowed, cause I thought it dehydrates you somehow? And herbal teas aren’t allowed?
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Fast for getting bloodwork drawn on Monday morning~~ water and black coffee, no herbal tea.
I hope I get it drawn easily; I’m notoriously hard to get blood from sometimes cause my veins are scarred from baby stuff and also they roll… idk how.
Also the last couple times I almost passed out and for the love of (censored) I doth know not why. It was just white static afterwards, my vision clouded w white static and my ears rang so bad I almost could t hear.
I posted about this last time too but what the heck was that?? I’m not afraid of getting my blood drawn. So hopefully not anxiety. But what was that??
Is this what ‘life drain’ is or is it more magical in nature?
Stupid post about a thing I’ve gotta do in a few days. Should’ve had it done a lot sooner cause I’ve had the order for like a month, but my sleeping patterns were backwards for that month… so rip getting it done fast. Glad such orders can’t expire.
#personal#thoughts#thinking#but of fun with a reminder to myself#reminder#could also leave it in the calendar too#blood test#blood work#hope they can get me#I’m hard to stick sometimes#fast#fasting#hope I don’t get hungry before bed that day#I can’t sleep if I get hungry#oh no#why isn’t herbal tea allowed? I don’t get it#just water and coffee#without any sugar or milk obviously#I drink it straight black anyway tho so that’s fine in my case#sorry for random medical stuff#just thought of it so why not post it#Sunday night into Monday morning
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crisis averted, i got my things and now i'm all set for the first rehearsal on monday!!
#there was some minor miscommunication but it's ok it only cost me 3.50€#and i was able to pay separately#so it doesn't even show up on the receipt#which means no one will ever know and i don't have to go through the anxiety of the embarrassment#plus it left me with a new notebook#never say no to an extra notebook#so was it even a mistake in the end‚ really#airenyah plappert#only thing left to do before i sit down and watch 23.5 is to wash my hair#i've still got about 4 more hours until my friend shows up 💃🏻#wait i just remembered that i was thinking about bringing some cookies to rehearsal on monday#so i might have to hop into the grocery store around the corner real quick#although wait my friend and i were planning on going grocery shopping tomorrow morning#so actually i can just pick the ingredients up then#so that leaves me more time for 23.5 this afternoon hehehe#gonna set a reminder to buy ingredients for tomorrow morning immediately#anyway my first task as an official assistant director has already gone great lmao
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At least schedule more than one person the day after major sales and not just the day of (if that), you stupid sadists. Or, y'know. More than just two people for the entire day, trying to fill the pit you're providing excavators for.
#Black Friday? Three people per shift all day; actually wasn't a problem; so little work people did filler jobs#Cyber Monday? Like 150 fluctuating orders and manageable with the two people per shift#Literally the day /after/ Cyber Monday? When people are known to be ordering up until midnight?#One person in the morning shift; one person closing#With a 'surprise coupon that we don't even tell our storefronts about beforehand because f you'#We ran out of shipping boxes this past week. Our supply orders are delayed. Triple digit orders all day#Can barely dent it before the number goes up. Fucking UPS has just. Not picked up packages a few times.#One was after a weekend; when they don't pick up anyway; so an extra no show was just. Us drowning in packages#Why is it that the stress test I'm prepared for (Black Cyber) isn't what makes me want to commit arson#I told myself I wouldn't volunteer for the Hours ever again after last year but I have weak conviction and bad memory#Usually I go for it because it means I do overnights but we didn't even /get/ overnights this year#Instead I was bounced between openings and closings and having to work with /customers/ roaming around#Overnights have fucked up my family time and probably my mental state before#But not as badly as me having constant mental shutdowns because /there are people everywhere/#/And I hate getting stopped 10+ times per shift when I'm trying to focus on an already overwhelming task/#Price check? That's fine; I just scan something and leave. Bare minimum helpfulness#But 'do you have this product'; 'can you help me find my size'; 'when do you get [product] in'#Sometimes I wanna be honest instead of helpful#I wanna say 'I just know where to look for stuff; I don't actually know anything about this department or what we have'#'Do I work here; in the shoe area? No. I work at the store and search for very specific products'#'I can't even browse and shop for myself because I am laser focused on what I'm looking for for other people'#'I know we have nobody on the floor and I'm the only one wandering around for you to see'#'But I'm not wearing a nametag for two reasons and one is to dissuade people from flagging me down'#(I am not mean and do help people; but then there's also 'I want to help but I can't because you don't even know what you want')#('Or because what you want doesn't exist and I don't know how else I can say 'we don't even seem to have it online; sorry'')#(Which is also demoralizing on top of my social interaction tolerance already being drained)#(Please stop making online orders; people; you already missed the famously good sales; I don't even know why you bother)#/I/ feel like there should be a lull; we don't even have anything good right now#The next big sale is Soon; and really no one should feel like buying right this second#Please stop making me deal with hundreds of orders on my own for no discernible reason
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manager is about to go on vacation and then shortly after he gets back, coworker is moving. But I guess while manager is gone, boss is gonna be in here which means... I might lose my job before the week is up lmao
#personal#thankfully manager already told boss about my next job so he cant be upset when i dip early on mondays and Wednesdays#so thats cool#but already hes asked some stupid shit of me this morning that im like yea thats not gonna fly actually#and him bitching about how someone always needs to be in here? np#no lol#ive been here two hours now and have received zero emails and zero walk ins#ive gotten three phone calls but they were all spam so it doesnt even matter#oh but someone always has to be here#for what???#then hes asking me to fucking cold call people#no<3#so i sent a bunch of emails but thats all youre getting out of me#so i feel like we might be clashing and idk man you cant be mad at me for wanting to call more shots#especially since im in here far more than hes ever been#anyway. if he gets weird on me for crocheting i will simply leave for the day
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Going to be going overboard as a host at the sign in day of my big event. I’m making Three baked goods and pre making a big carafe of coffee too. I cannot help it I love to make the fucked up hoops I’ve made people jump through bc of poor event management worth it.
#It’s gonna be crumb cake and biscotti and madeleines btw#I’m making them all Sunday so that way they’re ready for bright and early Monday Morning#And my boss Loves that I’m effectively body blocking the current committee chair from talking during meetings#Bc we’re using google meet that has a time limit of an hour#And this woman Just wants to talk about how it’s sooooo difficult having a busy job and attending these meetings and doing nothing for us#We’re kicking her out of the committee for next year btw#She moved over 3 hours away so she can’t even help#Oh she was supposed to last year but all she did was push my sign in time forward an hour with a days notice and leave#Literally the worst person to talk to#Anyway my boss Really wants to make me committee chair#Which would be fun seeing as last year someone had to Heckle her to include me in her announcements about who helped#When anyone who asked anything was given me to talk to#So lol man#I actually am gonna dip out on the reception day to go to my childhood friends wedding#She’s marrying one of my childhood bullies#Which is its own thing but I hope he’s changed#And I hope he shaves his beard at the bridal shower was Horrendous#He’s platinum blonde and his beard was red#But oh well
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