#uuggggh

[kbthebearcat]

Venty post

Am I the only one who like… gets afraid of watching something and getting inspired, because I think about failing to do anything with that inspiration? Like I watch a show, the stuff in it gets my brain going, gives me ideas for my own characters and worlds, but I can’t actually seem to do much with it… I still don’t how to actually express it or put out what I feel or what I’m thinking about in my head. It’s kinda blurry or seems far away to actually make into anything, yet… it also feels clear and strong enough to make me want to do something. Like I know I could do a lot with what I’m seeing, and apply to my own things, I just don’t know how. Idk, it’s a very frustrating thing for me that I struggle with a lot, and it makes me not want to watch things that I think will give me those feelings, even if I do want to watch them. I don’t want to feel the disappointment and sadness of not being able to execute anything that I might get as a spark of inspiration. It makes me sad, angry, all sorts of things…

[gwensy]

i wish spiders were the size of cats i wish i could have a tarantula the size of a beagle crawling around at my feet while i make my morning coffee is this too much to ask

[transvampireboyfriend]

looked it up. it's the anxiety innit

[averysmolkirbo]

as much as it seems like im procrastinating (wow what a suprise) i cant start pokeblogging yet cuz i dont have my drawing tablet!! reeeeee i left it at home and now i gotta wait for my parents to mail it up to me and theyre on vacation

(´；ω；`)

[queersnack]

I love my job but I am exhausted!

[mithrava]

My favorite flavour of jayvik fanfic are those where s2 Jayce appears to s1 Viktor and Jayce just cries and worships Viktor because he is so full of regret and he loves his partner so much and Viktor is still so young and sweet and full of life uuggggh it always gets me a bit teary

[puffyboa]

Uuggggh keep thinking about them

Plus lil 2nd design for Spring👇🏼

Drawing Ocs for fandoms>>>> drawing the canon characters

[fatimaah7580]

April showers

Oh, to breathe the air after rain and to watch the moon and to read Quran quietly – I am literally so happy.

(may edit this later if I will feel like journaling at night)

edit:

Prepared a gift for Mary today because I felt like it. Those days I try to give more presents to my loved ones in case we won't meet the next year. I mean my classmates and some friends who might fly abroad for studies. And like it or no I'm pretty sure after the graduation everything will change and of course my friends will turn into old friends, we might not interact the way we do usually because time is a friendship killer. The less time you spend together, the more time you spend apart - the weaker your friendship becomes.... can't run from it, it will all come naturally. But at least we will have something to remind us of each other, be it a little souvenir or letter.

I still keep old letters from yaz just to read it when I feel nostalgic (should I place them in that new journal that my uncle gifted me?)

I think I will - should keep them all in one place.

Don't really know what happened between us but she's coming to Samarkand, not replying to my texts and not picking up my calls, and fucking hanging out w our mutual friend...kinda want to block her because gurl wtf, can't tell I'm jealous, I'm just confused.

Anyway,

we got new roller skates for my sis and she seemed so excited today. I think she liked it (also, i promised her to paint seashells together after school) . She's living my childhood dreams because I used to feel like the only girl among boys(which I was lol) and it sucked - so I don't want her to want a friend-sister when she already has me.

⊙⁠.⁠☉

Clouds are especially beautiful at night when they are surrounding the moon, I mean, just look at those stars behind them, sparkling as if someone accidentally dropped millions of diamonds across the skyline.

I feel sad for no reason those days. This sadness comes randomly and then goes away but comes back later and makes me wanna cry. That's stupid. What is happening UUGGGGH.

April 14, 2024.

(but um... actually, my week was kinda cool)

[boom-baebee]

Uuggggh i had to take an uber ://

[http-paprika]

hi, friend!

just wanted to let you know that i love your blog. i also truly appreciate how active you are with my posts as well; seeing your likes and comments hypes me up. really gets my monkey brain to cooperate enough to think of new silly things to keep adding to my blog, ya know? such a huge motivator for me, honestly! 💕

fair warning, i hope you don’t mind me stalking your posts to return the favor!!

Uuggggh this made my morning 🥹🥹 Your posts are so amazing, I love them! And I’m glad you enjoy my stuff so much, it’s always an encouragement to my writing!

[jaysmood-42]

That was such a good episode and made such a good message uuggggh that SUCKS

Just watched the banned Moon Girl episode.

>the episode addresses the topic of trans kids in sports >the entire episode is about how bigots will always move the goalpost, and playing by their rules is pointless >the solution is not to play their game and break the rules >it also states that trans people should never feel like a burden >the character Brooklyn is explicitly stated to be trans >there is also an explicitly nonbinary character >multiple mentions of pride and depictions of pride flags, trans flags and progress flags

I'm not at all surprised this didn't get past the censors but I'm so mad that it didn't, because this could've been something really special, and the fact it was canned after being fully finished is downright painful. This episode was wonderful and I'm grateful to all the people who worked on it, and angry that their hard work was wasted. Disney did not deserve you.

Here's a link, as long as Disney doesn't take it down

[pudgy-planets]

Uuggggh wanna write, but burnout from college has hands-

[mutipede]

UUGGGGH I've got so much fucking debris. "I can never look at it or think about it again, but I can also never get rid of it."

[destinys-system]

I hate that i struggle to say "i love you" so much.

Its easy with family, but with both my partners it feels like choking. I can't get the words out.

I feel shitty bc i feel like im implying that i don't feel that way towards them, but i do! Its just. I've had so many issues around relationships that these words hold an insane amount of weight in this context and im scared.

They never seem bothered, they comfort me and tell me its okay and to take my time but uuggggh

Sometimes im almost mad about how good they are lol

It feels too good for me, and i have to fight the urge to self sabotage. Im trying to be better, they deserve better, but fuck why is my brain like this

[shivtomdivorce]

uuggggh forgot crucial dinner ingredient grocery store trip TWO

[elegantdestinyhologram]

neeeed p0rn sites full of detrans n misgendering uuggggh