#ANYWAY that all scared fitz shitless
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#like look obviously the narrative that ~wah no one loves fitz~ is stupid he is so very very loved by so many people#but hes taught himself that if theres a part of him others dont like or if someone can use him#then their love for him might as well not exist#and thats how most people love. it's not wrong.#he just thinks it is because hes used to being treated as an item by everyone who doesnt love him unconditionally#up to his adulthood the only person who did ever seem to love him unconditionally was patience#so he made sure to take away from her the opportunity to see something in him she'd find repulsive#--like the wit--because she didnt have the chance to fully know him#which sucks because patience is the best person in the whole series#if he'd like her know him she'd love him all the same#anyway where im going with this is after the accidental... skill coupling??#and understanding for sure and for real there is no part of him that beloved does not know and does not love anyway#that despite his love of the world in general beloved is only continuing to use him as his catalyst because it's the only way fitz lives#(the fool weeping with makeup running down his face saying he doesnt want to be a prophet he wants this to end#but he cannot watch fitz die again had ME weeping)#ANYWAY that all scared fitz shitless#'it's too much. no one can give that much' is just. devastating to me for both of them#fitz because he still cannot see himself as worthy of being loved and not used#and beloved because all he does is get shit on for what fitz demands of him#I'm so tired#and fitz has yet to notice it was the fool making sure he had food/water/fire in the tower even when they were fighting#because unconditional is unconditional. not liking at that moment is not not loving#i hate it here#also fitz violently breaking the skill connection because 'he would know my secret. he would see my deception' is absolutely crazy#repression go brr#says kenna#kenna reads rote#ALSO when the coterie was healing him and he was begging beloved through skill to not look at his heart or his mind#what the hell!!#one flesh one end bitch!!
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Roller coasters!
Here’s how I think some of the KOTLC characters (The teens) would react to going on a rollercoaster at amusement parks in some AU where they do that (like a scary rollercoasters with loops and big drops and stuff).
Sophie:
She would be less terrified than you’d think. She rides Silveny all the time so she used to that kind of thing and she’s also used to human machinery so she’d be nervous but have a good time regardless, though she has her limits. She’s perfectly okay with waiting behind while others go on some life destroying roller coaster. She loves the rides that are like those swings that spin around (you know?).
Keefe:
Daredevil extraordinaire. He’d be so down to do it but you’d hear him praying for his life once the ride actually starts. Like full on confessions but once the ride is going he’d be doing that happy yell thing you do on a roller coaster. He’d also be the most likely to loose a shoe or smt on the ride.
Biana:
She would love rollercoasters and I know it. She’s the type to be smiling and laughing and enjoying the sound of her friends screaming. When you go and see the pictures she looks so happy. She’s a rollercoaster enthusiast.
Fitz:
Scared shitless. He’d squeeze his eyes shut and scream for his life. As soon as the ride stops he’d be the type of person to just flop over his seatbelt or something dramatic. His photos at the end look goofy as hell and always cause the most laughs. He still is convinced by his friends to go on every ride somehow though.
Dex:
Personally Dex would be my favorite rollercoaster enjoyer. He’d be the type to sneak food or something on there so as you’re going up the hill you just watch him whip out a meal or a board game. He’d be the type to somehow be wearing sunnies in the photo because he’d just KNOW where the cameras are.
Maruca:
She’s lowkey the most enjoyable person to go on a rollercoaster with. She’d get butterflies and you could see her get nervous about it but in a way that makes you more excited and less worried. She’d be the type of person to look at a roller coaster and say “there’s no way I’m going on that” but go on it anyways. She’d also be the type to have her hands up the whole time. Also, in line, she’d sit down and start crocheting something. For real.
Tam:
It’s not for him :/.He wanted to go on one once to be with Linh and didn’t show any fear for the sake of others but when the ride was done he’d fainted! He may or may not throw up after riding rollercoasters. He still goes to amusement parks with friends because he carries all their stuff and looks great in a visor.
Linh:
So excited about rollercoasters. She’s kind of like Biana in that they make her laugh but she does not have an endless appetite for rollercoasters. She got a lil ambitious and went on four in a row and threw up (like Tam did) but she wasn’t fazed and went on another half an hour later. A true trooper. She likes watching the world do a lil spin on loop-de-loops (spelling?).
Wylie:
An ambitious rollercoaster consumer and tries to predict where the cameras are so he can make sure to have a comically stoich face. He likes to sit next to Dex so his poker face stands out more in photos. He’d definitely panic while up there but love the thrill! He wasn’t a natural rollercoaster daredevil but built up his stamina. He’d also be the one to help convince other people who don’t want to go on the rollercoaster to yolo and try it.
Marella:
Do I even have to write this? She’s literally out there risking her life to go on the most horrifying rollercoasters. Some rollercoasters even relax her. I’m scared of her. She LOVES spilling the HOTTEST TEA while waiting in line too.
Stina:
Super skeptical about the human technologies. Consistently doubting the whole time in line, but she’d have such a good time on a rollercoaster she’d have to admit they’re not so bad. She won’t go on ALL rollercoasters, she does decently well. She’d be the type of person to squeeze your hand or need to like hug someone while the rollercoaster is going. It’s not so bad ngl.
Thanks for reading all of it. Like seriously you made it to the bottom congrats.
#KotLC#keeper of the lost cities#kotlc fitz#fitz vacker#kotlc keefe#Keefe Sencen#kotlc biana#biana vacker#kotlc dex#dex diznee#kotlc wylie#wylie endal#kotlc maruca#maruca chebota#kotlc sophie#sophie foster#kotlc stina#stina heks#kotlc tam#tam song#kotlc linh#linh song#kotlc marella#marella redek#kotlc au#kotlc meme#keeper of the lost cities au#kotlc headcanons#kotlc fandom
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Being May’s Daughter and an Older Sister to Daisy would include:
SPOILERS FOR WHOLE SHOW!
Being Melinda May’s daughter means you are an expert at control.
She always urged you pursue whatever passion you wanted.
But she always saw that part of you would be a fighter.
Andrew wasn’t exactly thrilled.
But he was supportive father and cared for you both.
In fact, an argument between the two was part of what made them split.
Neither ever told you that.
May, however, suspected that you always knew.
When you met Skye, you saw an innocent girl dragged into this world that looked fun, but one that held a lot of pain inside of it.
So, you trained her when May had to fly.
Despite that it had autopilot, May seemed to know the role you were choosing to play in her life. So, she let you be.
Skye was always wanting to let people in, but always waited for the other shoe to drop.
You seemed to recognise it and didn’t force her into talking about anything.
You just acted like an older sibling and friend in subtle ways.
Checking in on her when it was late and talking to her if she was up.
One time, when she had a nightmare, she woke to you waking her up.
She returned that favour to you when you had a nightmare.
It was about losing your mother.
Now, Phil Coulson always had fatherly instincts.
He knew you and May, obviously.
He played the role of a father to you.
But, assured you that he wasn’t replacing Andrew.
“He’s your birth father, Y/N. I’m never going to beat that. Just know I’m here if you need.”
Anyway, back to Skye.
That night when she woke you, you talked for hours.
May found you the next day asleep in the bed, with you having a protective arm around her.
May let you rest in.
Skye trusted you with a lot of things about her past after that.
She even trusted you about the usb stick with information about her parents.
When they found out about her ties with the Rising Tides not being cut, the team were disappointed.
You, however, took her side.
Your mother wasn’t exactly pleased, but only showed that through a look.
You, like the others did forgive her. But, in your eyes, she didn’t really have much to apologise for.
You took her aside before her talk with Coulson, “I know you’re probably nervous, but he won’t throw you out. I won’t let him…. I just wished you would’ve told us.”
She apologised, but you just shook it off.
She then came out of the office and sat with you, telling you about her actual goal of joining the team.
You just listened to her the whole time and didn’t judge her.
In the end, you hugged her assured her you would be there for her and help her in her search.
While you didn’t know much about hacking, you tried to help her where you could
When your mother kicks her off the plane and she go looking for Coulson, you sneak off to help her
“Y/N?! What the hell are you doing here?!” She asked
“Helping, obviously.” You respond as if it’s nothing
“But what about May --?”
“I’ll handle her when we get back with Coulson.”
She doesn’t say it, but she appreciates your company
She doesn’t have to though, as you can just simply tell
So, you follow through with her plans, including the one to drive into the water to get the car sent
“Sorry.” She says
“We’re alive.”
When you both play dress up, you play the role of your mother and Skye plays the role of Coulson
You’re a lot more convincing
You find Coulson and call the rest of the team
You’re the one who speaks
When your mother picks up the phone, Skye looks at you with a worried expression
But you don’t seem too bothered
“Y/N.” She greets
“Mom.” You return, politely
“Where are you?”
You look at Skye with a, “See? Easy.” Look as she drives you to where Coulson is.
After that, you become a partner to her in the field.
When she gets shot, you are one who beats Quinn up instead of your mother. She watches the door for you.
You stay with Skye whenever you can as she heals. You are just elated to have her be alive.
While you play older sister to Skye, you also do to Fitzsimmons.
If any of the three ever need anything, they come to you.
Normally starts of with “Y/N, can I ask you something?” If it’s either of Fitzsimmons with their manners.
You, of course, say yes.
When Ward betrays the team, it shocks and hurts you.
You are with Fitzsimmons on the plane and fight Ward to try and protect them.
You end up being caught, but a SHIELD team get you out.
When the team reunite with Jemma, you pull up in a car and enter the place.
May, in a rare moment of vulnerability, runs to you and hugs you tight.
She doesn’t say anything, just hugs you.
Skye is next in her hug, “I’m so glad you’re ok.” She says voice cracking.
You just hold her and rub your hand on her back in comfort.
Jemma thanks you for protecting them.
During the time, May starts training you again and you spar with Skye.
May see’s the sisterly bond between you two now: the loyalty, the laughs, the late-night talks.
Neither you nor May say it, but you can tell that Skye is a part of the family now.
You are the third partner in their little SHIELD team.
You try and be the one who goes in while Skye hangs back out of protectiveness. But she’s stubborn.
“No, I’m not letting you go in there alone, Y/N.” Seems that protective spirit has gone to her as well.
You ruffle her hair whenever you go past.
She’d act annoyed, but kind of find if nice in a way. With you openly being affectionate and showing her that you care.
If you’re ever hurt on a mission, she’s by your side either on site, or when you return.
“Hey, Y/NN, you need to stay with me, ok? You’re not dying, not now. May’ll kill me.”
When she gets taken by Ward, it’s you she has to convince last.
“I’m not letting you go with him, Skye.”
“You have to. You guys taught me how to look after myself. I’ll be ok.”
You sigh but let her go.
Then she gets her powers.
She’s scared shitless, but you stay with her as much as you can like you did when injured.
When the team argue about her showing them, you argue her case.
“She was scared.”
“She kept it from us!” Mack would say passionately.
“To avoid this reaction!”
“It’s ok, Y/N.” She tells you when she arrives at the door. She gives you a sad smile, but in her eyes, you can tell she appreciates it.
You visit her in her cell, so she doesn’t feel alone. But she can tell that you aren’t quite sure how to handle it.
“It’s ok, you know. I’m not hurt by it.”
“By what?”
“My powers. It’s ok to say that you don’t know how to handle it.”
There’s the last tenet of your sisterhood: honesty
When she leaves, you stay in contact as much as you can. She asks you how it’s going back at base, and you ask her how she is.
Then SHIELD go after her, and real SHIELD enter the scene.
Now you’re all having to careful and tread lightly with this new SHIELD.
When Bobbi comes back, she tries to explain it.
“Y/N, just let me –”
“If you so much as lay a finger on any of my friends or look at them the wrong way, I swear, we are going to have issues, Morse.”
However, your mother see’s it and reigns you in.
“I understand that you’re angry.”
“So, you want me to, what? Bottle it up?”
“No, use it for something more. They’re after Coulson, and he’s after Ward. We need to keep her heads on straight.”
“…Ok, you’re right. I’m sorry.” May just nods, forgiving you.
When Fitz leaves, you help devise the scam for him to get away with the real toolbox.
“Are you sure about this, Y/N? What if it backfires on you?” Jemma asks you, worried about your wellbeing with this situation.
You just smile at her caring nature, “If it does, then it hits me, and not you guys. Now go on.”
When Skye comes back, your smile is as wide as it can be.
You hug her so tight, “Welcome back, Skye.” You tell her in a soft voice.
“Thanks, Y/N.”
When you see her power, you are in awe, “Look at you!” She smiles and sends a wink.
She even pushes a bullet away that was coming for you.
Having to work again with Ward is difficult, but it’s a necessary evil. Just like your mother on the SHIELD board to argue Coulson’s case.
“Are you sure you have to go back?” You ask Skye when it’s her turn to do just that
“I wish I could bring you. I do, really. But they have a thing about outsiders”
“It’s ok. Go on, kiddo. Go be with your family.”
You know that she has her parents now, but it still hurts a bit that you might lose her.
“Hey, I’m not moving on, alright? I’ll still come back, and we can even team up! I’m not leaving you, Y/N.” She assures you.
Then it all goes to shit.
Everything happens quickly, but two team ups happen: Yourself and Skye/Daisy; you and your mother.
Now it’s you, Mack, and Daisy (Skye’s birth name) as partners
Daisy and you are almost completely in sync. She doesn’t even need to yell, “Duck!” anymore before using her powers.
You know each other so well.
Mack plays big brother and adores it when you both have that synchronisation. Makes him proud to be your partner.
Not that you don’t forget about him, you always include him in your fights and activities such as games.
You pass the controller to each other when someone dies in the game.
Late night game sessions and drinking buddies don’t go well.
Then Ward comes back and kidnapped you.
Oh, you bet your ass that Daisy is working day and night to find you.
You’re her best friend. And she nearly lost Simmons (her other best friend), so she’ll be damned if she’s going to lose you too.
May tries to pull her away but fails.
“Daisy, you need to take a break.”
“Not until we find, Y/N.”
“I’m worried about her too. But she can handle herself.”
“Not with Ward, though! I should’ve killed him!”
If you can’t beat ‘em, join ‘em. And that’s what May does.
When they find you, they burst through the doors, more pissed than they ever have been.
Ward isn’t there, but you are, and that’s what matters.
Now they’re super protective over you now. Not only them, but the whole team.
Ward does a number on you mentally.
Jemma is extra careful with your wounds and keeps assuring you that you are doing well.
Fitz makes you some sleeping pills to try and help and makes you coffee every morning.
Mack gives you more and more hugs every day.
May checks in on you more.
Daisy…. well.
Daisy stays with you as much as she can. Whether that be in the same room as you, talking to you or being silent, going on missions with you.
She has your back all the way.
Whenever you flinch, she’s quick to withdrawal and apologise.
Sure, she’s worried and misses the spark that you had. But it’ll either take time to come back or it’ll be different.
Whichever it is, she’ll adapt. You’re her sister and best friend.
Then a version of Ward comes back and takes Daisy away from you guys.
Now May is very concerned about you. She can tell this is all building up to something with you.
Despite being her daughter and Daisy joking that you are pretty much May but bubblier. You are human after all.
Whenever they get closer to Daisy, May keeps you away.
You want to help Daisy, but you also know that you wouldn’t be able to handle it.
You start doubting yourself. Starting spinning ideas of, “What if?”
The whole team notices a shift in you. You miss more, take more hits in fights, you’re acting reckless more and now that your father is gone too, you’re spiralling.
And May is genuinely afraid that she can’t stop it.
One day, she goes to find you, only to find you gone and a note left behind.
It reads: “Mom, I know that this isn’t enough. But I can’t with this life anymore. You told me you’d support me through whatever I wanted to do. And I don’t think SHIELD is this. I’m done watching people die, mom. I’m done losing friends. I’ll make contact at some point. Just, let me be for now? Love you always, Y/N. PS. Find Daisy.”
Then there’s nothing for almost a few months.
When Daisy comes back after being freed from Hive, she doesn’t see you and fears the worst, “Is she…?” She can’t get the words out.
May shakes her head, “No, she’s just gone. She left.”
Then Daisy is gone too after Lincoln. Now May has lost two out of her three daughters.
Daisy, however, manages to find out what you are doing.
And what is that, exactly? Smuggling Inhumans out.
She watches from afar with her little scope, making sure you’re ok and safe.
She’s just happy that you’re alive. But doesn’t dare go close.
As Coulson chases leads on Daisy, May does the same for you.
She has a file that becomes bigger and bigger as she slowly pieces together just where you are and what you are doing.
Then Fitz finds it, “What is this?” He asks.
“It’s everything I’ve found on Y/N since she left. She’s running a smuggling operation of Inhumans to get them out.”
Fitz just nods, promising to keep it safe.
However, May does find a burner phone on her bed the next day.
She keeps it in her back pocket.
Daisy comes back first, and May is delighted to have one of her two missing daughter’s back.
However, it’s when Mace calls herself and Daisy in that shit gets real with you.
“There’s a situation developing.” The two share a look, worry filling them up.
“There was a fight between SHIELD and the watchdogs, some Inhumans were killed. But Y/N got away. But we think we know where she’s going.”
(Episode 4x13 - BOOM) They both capture the Watchdogs and find that they have been hunting you for a while.
When Shockley is going on a rampage, he see’s you in the road.
“Well, hell. There she is, Y/N May.”
You started firing your pistol at him but doesn’t do much.
Your gun clicks, “Sorry, sweetheart. I’ll make this quick.”
Just as your life is about to end, he is stopped –
By Daisy Johnson.
She moves to your side, holding out a clip for you. You take it, loading it in.
“You don’t touch her.” She snarls at Shockley.
So, it’s just like old times. Even if it cuts it a little close.
When Fitzsimmons arrive, they activate the machine and stop him.
Now, it’s silence, as the three stares at you.
You’re here, you’re actually here. They’ve found you.
Daisy doesn’t talk, she just hugs you.
You are taken aback by the action. But, before you can do anything, Fitzsimmons join the hug too.
“Come on, Y/NN, let’s go home.” Daisy says, taking your hand and pulling your dazed form along with her as Fitzsimmons flank you.
When May see’s you, that silence returns. You both can’t really seem to believe that you are seeing the other.
Coulson approaches you and put’s a fatherly hand on your shoulder, “Welcome back, kiddo.”
You might be about to cry here, but that’s besides the point.
You approach your mother with caution, “Hey mom.” You say, trying and failing to keep your voice steady.
“You’re back?” She asks you.
“I don’t think a normal life is for me.” You say, chuckling a bit.
She hugs you, squeezing you tight.
Her baby is home.
It takes a bit of Tim getting settled back in with the gang. But they’re patient with you, even with everything going on.
Then the LMD secret comes out. Your mother wasn’t the one you hugged.
You find Jemma and Daisy in hiding, close to losing it once again.
Daisy, being more in control, calms you down and sits you next to Jemma. She goes to leave, only to you try and get up.
“No, Y/N, I need you to stay with Jemma.” She asks of you, before she leaves on her mission of holding the LMDs off.
You all get out, holding hands in the Jet.
Then you enter that world.
The world where your greatest mistake is fixed.
However, as Daisy finds, your still May’s daughter. However, something is different.
You’re a TA for Coulson at his school. You aren’t a SHIELD agent.
You have a normal life.
It’s jarring to you at first, but you sink into the role as if it’s natural.
Meanwhile, you see that you and May are a bit distant here in this life, but there’s still a parental-child dynamic.
Jemma finds you first, at the school.
Then you meet with Daisy and all hug, having found one another.
Then you’re all right back in the thick of it, this time with Ward as you knew him: Kind, loyal, genuine.
To make it worse, you’re then stuck.
The rest of it goes pretty much the way most things do for you guys: badly.
However, when Daisy is caught, she brings up the fact that she knows you and that you are in the resistance to May.
You’re phone then rings, but you don’t answer, too busy helping the civilians in the base.
Now May is worried in this world too.
She springs Daisy, all in an effort to find you.
When she see’s you, she’s surprised to see you.
You’ve been a bit estranged as of late in this life.
She sees you are helping people and being in a natural element.
She’s reminded of the little girl who she used to be so close too.
“Y/N.” You turn in surprise to see your mother.
“Hi Mom.” You say, not quite sure how to act.
“I’m guessing you sure the report on the news?”
“Yeah, you’re footage. You did good, Mom.”
Tears come to her eyes at your praise.
Daisy smiles as she see’s the interaction.
You meet her eyes as you and your mother hug, you mouth to her “Thank you.”
You all get out, but you can’t even celebrate as Space them comes around and grabs you all.
You, like Jemma, are taken as a maid/slave and deafened.
You’re just kind of numb to this world, bottling it up.
You’re used as leverage against Daisy. She wouldn’t act brash if it would get her sisters killed.
And that bet was right.
When you are escaping and go to the lift, you’re shocked when Daisy wants to stay. You want to go to her and stay with her but May stops you.
However, Coulson stops that before it can even happen, Icing Daisy.
While May understands the reasons for you wanting to be with your best friend, she’s now a bit on edge with you.
So, when you go back to present day, she makes sure to keep an eye on you more.
Daisy, meanwhile, is a bit more evasive. Always fining ways to not go on missions.
It all culminates in the fear dimension.
You’re fear has always been losing your family. So, as you leave your room, the lights flicker before coming back on.
It’s everyone, dead.
You scream as you see it.
However, while this is going on, Daisy is also being tortured by the Doctor side of Fitz.
When that ends, your screams are still being heard.
The team (minus Daisy and Fitz) rush to you and see what you’re looking at.
Jemma quickly runs to you and assures you it’s not real. It takes a moment before you go with her logic.
Then she drops it, “Daisy needs you.”
You’re still a bit angsty after your trip with fear. But you’re little sister needs you.
You enter the room and see her lying on her bed.
You sit at the foot of it, knowing that she wouldn’t want to talk.
You just sit there, hoping your presence would be enough.
May enters a bit later, sitting next to you and taking your hand in her own.
After this incident, Daisy is a lot bossier and pushier.
You don’t mind it at first, but you do clash at times.
Then Ruby dies.
Then Coulson.
Then Fitz.
Then you’re in space and looking for your brother and you both have time to fix the gap in your friendship.
“I’m sorry.” She says.
“You’re good –”
“No, I mean it, Y/NN. I shouldn’t have been like that.”
“Daisy…. you couldn’t help it. We process things differently. Yours was more external.”
“And yours? I heard about your fear.”
“…. I don’t know if I have yet.”
“Me neither.”
So, that’s what you both do when alone together. You try and help each other through the shit you’ve gone through.
You just sit together in a room, writing reports, or in silence and looking at space.
You remind each other that you aren’t alone.
That you both have family right here.
Daisy even tells you about the kiss between Coulson and May. You both share a laugh at the story.
Returning home and reuniting with your mom is a blessing. You both hugs.
She’s even smiling!
But then you find out that Phil Coulson has sort of returned. This time with no knowledge of who he is.
Kind of like a shadow of himself.
Daisy and you are both freaked by it. Your father figure has returned but has no knowledge of himself or you both.
Despite being the older sister, Daisy is the one who snapes to attention and pulls you away. Pulls you around the corner before your breathing picks up.
“What the fuck?” You ask.
“Y/N,” She keeps her voice soft, “I know that this is fucked up. I know, trust me. But we can get through this, ok? You and me against the world, right?” She holds a hand to you.
You grasp it with your own, “Us against the world.”
That mantra is a thing you keep repeating as the two of you go on the truck journey with Sarge (Coulson’s shadow) along with your mother.
You can tell May is rattled too, but she seems to hold hope that this can bring Coulson back.
You aren’t so sure. You and Daisy both share that.
But you go with it for your mother’s sanity.
Coulson was the closest you had to a father after Andrew’s death. So, you understood with the way May felt about him would make her think this way.
You are the one to talk to May when she shoots Sarge.
“Seriously, Mom?”
“I don’t – I don’t remember doing that, Y/N.”
“…. I believe you.”
Then Izel starts taking over people, your mother being one of her victims.
When it comes to sharing information that no one else would know, Daisy is the one who clears you.
“When Y/N was on the run, she made a little grave for Andrew. It held a little silver box.”
May looks at you with sadness, but you nod and confirm it.
You are with Daisy when you hear that May is down.
While Daisy s hurt and blaming herself, she immediately looks to you.
You just stare at the radio.
“Y/N…. hey. Hey, look at me.” You do, “We’ll get her back, ok? We’ll fix this.”
“She – She’s dead, Daisy. My mom’s dead!”
“Hey, no! She’s just down. I promise you; she’ll be ok.”
It’s enough to keep you going, but now you and Daisy are fuelled by one of the most powerful things on earth: Hate.
She uses her powers; you fire every bullet that you have.
When your mother returns, you see that she’s weakened. She looks like a corpse.
She falls, but you catch her.
“Mom, mom, mom. I got you, I got you.”
Dais kneels next to you but holds one of May’s hands as you stroke your mother’s hair.
“Y/N…I – I wanted it to be him.”
“I know.”
Your mother gives you a smile that communicates something she doesn’t have a strength to say: I’m so proud of you.
Then she closes her eyes.
She’s gone.
Melinda May is gone.
Your mother is gone.
You let out a sob as it fully hits you.
Then a different version of Jemma enters the room and puts May in a pod.
Well, tries, but you interfere.
“No! Don’t you touch her!”
“Y/N They need to –” Daisy tries to stop you. But it’s Jemma who does it.
“Y/N, May will be ok. The pod will keep her alive.” She assures you.
“It better.”
Now you’re back in time. For you guys, only a few minutes have passed.
Robot Coulson is here, and May will live.
Your family is back together. But you aren’t the same.
You’re still processing.
Just before you leave to go out, Daisy stops you.
“Are you ok?”
“I’m fine.”
“Y/N, you don’t have to shut me out. It’s ok if you –”
“She died, Daisy! She died. And now she’s not. Coulson did, and now he’s here. I mean – I – I don’t.”
Daisy told you to stay on the Zephier. You did.
Then May woke up, as an empath who felt others’ emotions, but not her own.
She did, however, feel your familial love for herself and Daisy full on. Along with your conflicted feelings about her being back and alive.
However, it allowed her to be more in touch with you. As she could tell when you were lying.
That led to lots of looks from here that just told you that she knew.
It was nice though, like you guys were when you were younger.
When it all came to an end, May was a teacher, and you were her assistant.
You guys did the calls with the others.
Your family.
Sometimes, it would just be you and Daisy, catching up and having chats that lasted hours. May didn’t dare interrupt you then.
#daisy johnson x reader#daisy johnson imagine#agents of shield imagine#agents of s.h.i.e.l.d imagine#agents of shield x reader
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Anachrophobia
Some highlights of the last EDA I’ve read (Anachrophobia).
I took these screens while reading, along with my reactions. As usual, this is full of spoilers. And screaming.
I’m glad this book is over.
Some of you might already know that if you want to really f█cking scare me, you have to go as abstract as possible. This is why I’m such a big fan of Cube, and even Cube², its terrible sequel with terrible, terrible CGI, which gets even more abstract and surreal than the first one. What happened? How did the characters end up there? How does it work? Are they even on Earth? We don’t really know. We do know, however, that if they don’t get out of the Cube as soon as possible, they’re all going to die.
Similarly: what really happened in Anachrophobia? Were Eight, Fitz and Anji really on another planet? Was it even real? Who are the clock people possessing everyone? We don’t really know. I do know, however, that at some point, I was so scared to read the last 50 pages of this thing that it took me two weeks to pick it up again.
Does it really deserve such a high note? I don’t know. I might come back later and change it. I’m not sure. I’m too busy being scared shitless. 9,5/10
WE’RE OFF TO A GOOD START, I SEE.
Well, this is an EDA, dude.
Oh, they are fighting a literal “Time War”! This has potential.
This shouldn’t be so cool.
Meanwhile, poor Fitz isn’t very good at playing chess and I’m laughing.
Excuse me I love that room
That’s the weirdest time travel explanation I’ve ever seen and there’s quite a lot of them in this series.
Try to keep up, Anji.
Hoping it's better than a certain other Narnia-like episode seriously am I the only one who hates The Doctor, the Widow and the Wardrobe
Try to keep up too, Fitz.
Eight no
That kind of reminds me of Longest Day.
Eight oh my god
OKAY WHAT’S GOING ON IN THIS F█CKING WORLD
DOCTOR THIS IS A BAD IDEA
EVERY TIME YOU TRIED TO PRETEND YOU WERE AN EXPERT SOMEONE WAS WAITING FOR, IT ENDED BADLY. ESPECIALLY IN DARK PROGENY.
“And the man yelping in pain is Fitz”
Holy shit
This is an excellent idea!
Okay so this world is, like, capitalism on steroids
IT’S BEEN GOING ON FOR 400 YEARS EXCUSE ME
ANJI SDSDFGHJKIH YOU COULD HAVE WARNED HIM
Well at least Anji is keeping up
How much do you wanna bet that the opposite side is doing the same shit?
Okay now I’m starting to panic too
This is peak Eight right there
SAVE THEM
Why is this so f█cking stressful
THIS IS SCARY, STOP
Roll credits!
So Anachrophobia isn’t a phobia per se, more like a neurological trauma?
MhhhhhMMMMMMH NOPE
“I have some rather unsettling ideas”
You mean more unsettling than what is currently happening?
WHO. AM. IIIIIIIIIIIIII
Okay this is even worse
Eight please try to focus
Why is this book so scary
BAD IDEA
None of this is okay and this book needs to stop, which really concerns me because there’s more than 170 pages left.
Are.... are you hoping to spy on him too
So even after losing a heart, he doesn't need to sleep more. Interesting.
Holy f█cking shit
On the other hand, this is cute.
Ok ok honestly, fuck abstract horror, give me some gory bullshit over this any day, I’m going to have nightmares about this, I swear.
Also friendly reminder that this world is terrifying.
“Or out” oh no
Bad idea Doctor
BAD IDEA FITZ
Oh wow, that happened way sooner than I expected.
Fitz being an anxious little shit as usual, but really, who can blame him in that situation?
THIS IS ONLY PAGE 77, HOW CAN IT GET ANY WORSE
FFFffffffFFFFffFffffFFfF
GET THEM OUT OF HERE
Go Anji!
Can't they breathe for two seconds
Hey, some typical Eight echolalia, it’s been a while!
You idiots I love you
Hello Mr Mistletoe. You have a very silly name.
sdfghgfdsdfghj Eight no
The only weird thing about him so far is his name.
Oh no, what a pity, uh?
This is getting rather complicated.
NOPE nope no nu-uh no
N O P E
More echolalia!
I laughed
I’m so sorry for Anji though
ALL ABOARD THE NOPE TRAIN TO NOPEVILLE
NNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNOPE
Eight speaks fluent sarcasm but can't recognise it when other people use it and that’s extremely relatable
“Clocky” asdfgfdsdfg
Okay
Can I breathe now
Apparently not
Please don’t come any closer to that thing, this is very bad for my nerves
Okay.... now this is weird.
GOOD
Well this is abstractly horrible, thank you very much for that.
Poor Fitz isn’t going to get a nice rest in this adventure either
Well, you gotta stay positive, right.
Also you gotta learn to enjoy the small victories, right.
“I’ve been wrong before”
You don’t say
WELL, YOU SPOKE TOO SOON
Nice.
This is also nice.
On the other hand, this sounds extremely ominous. Is the war not really a war, but something else entirely?
Is... is it because that’s good for business?
That’s it, isn’t it?
How... how do you beat something that can rewind time? I’m sure there’s a way, but at the moment I’m too busy being scared to think of any clever solution.
I... I need a pause.
Usually, “base under siege” stories do nothing for me, but that one has a terrifying abstract menace, and that changes everything.
I’m back from my pause!
And we’re straight back into the scary!
I swear, this liveblog’s notes are 60% “nope” and I’m struggling to find new ways to express how hard I’m nope-ing
What ARE those things?
More importantly: do I even want to know?
Too soon.
Okay, now this is interesting. Because Fitz’s most traumatizing “life milestone” happened to the original Fitz, not our current Fitz. Would he be able to change the events from Interference? I’m not sure.
If he couldn’t change them or anything that happened before the “birth” of his current self, what else would he change? I’m curious.
I F█CKING KNEW IT. THEY MAKE THE WAR LAST FOREVER FOR PROFIT.
Have I mentioned recently that I love Anji
Because I love Anji
Also excuse me but why and how is Mistletoe still alive?
Why are you coughing?
Is it the heart loss? Is it something new? Am I being paranoid?
Awwww
Oh my god so that’s what he would change.
I have no words.
That is an interesting possibility, honestly.
How... how desesperate must Eight be if he’s seriously starting to consider gasing the whole station?
Ooooooh. Okay. That’s how you get rid of something that rewinds time!
This is very clever!
This is also horrible!
Thanks!
“Can I just shoot him now?” “No.”
Wait.
WAIT.
WAIT WAIT WAIT.
ARE YOU SABBATH
THAT WOULD MAKE SO MUCH SENSE
At this point I’m so scared I kinda want to cry
This book is like a collection of all the scariest things possible for me
I’d say “I can’t wait for this character to die” but if he’s Sabbath that’s gonna be a bit more difficult.
“I think things are going to get nasty”
IMPLYING THEY AREN'T ALREADY?
He’s way too happy about this very disturbing situation.
F█CcCkK
Please make it stop
Okay!
All right! Okay! Good!
But there’s 60 pages left!
That’s somehow more terrifying than everything so far!
I’m fine, I’m fine I’m fine
Have I ever told you that I really like the “Hurt & Comfort” trope
You cute idiots.
FffFffygtfghgfcyuCk
I need a break from this book.
Two entire weeks later, I’m picking this book up again.
And a weird roadtrip has started. And this is pretty funny.
No, we’re not. Ask again in three hours, Fitz.
Oh. I was way off.
As if they didn't have enough problems already.
In case you’re wondering, yes, I’m screening all the scenes where Eight goes into echolalia mode because it’s relatable.
This NOPE juice is delicious.
Poor guy, though.
No they’re not, are they?
Make it stop, I kinda feel sick
“More than anything, she wanted not to feel terrified”
F█CKIN’ SAME
They... they’re all already clock people, right?
I’m scared and I’m crying a little bit
I didn’t think the author would go that far
Clearly I was wrong
THAT’S
THAT’S AN EXTREMELY SPECIFIC FEATURE OF A LOT OF MY NIGHTMARES
A PLACE WHICH LOOKS LIKE IT SHOULD BE OUTSIDE, BUT WHICH IS ENTIRELY INDOORS BECAUSE IT’S IN A GIGANTIC CHAMBER OF SORTS
THIS IS EXTREMELY SPECIFIC
WHO ARE YOU AND WHO GAVE YOU FREE ACCESS TO ROUGHLY 17 YEARS OF MY PERSONAL NIGHTMARES
Ah, yes, great, please add more nightmares to the nightmares
That was predictable, actually.
This is Time Works all over again.
Please tell me the plutocratic empire doesn't even exist anymore.
I knew it.
Also that basically makes these things Capitalismisators 2000.
Oh. So they just wanted to get clear instructions.
AHSDFGHJKJHGFDERTYUHGB
Okay. Okay. He can control it. Good.
This book really needs to stop giving me fresh ideas for nightmares.
He won’t change anything anyway.
Wait. Will he?
Good.
Honestly, I'm pretty sure he'd unmake the entire Earth arc if he could.
“He’s having some sort of nightmare”
AREN’T WE ALL
How can they solve this in 13 pages??
WAIT
WAIT I HAVE AN IDEA
WHAT IF HE UNMAKES A THING WHICH HAS NO IMPACT ON ANYTHING THAT HAPPENED SO FAR, BUT HAS AN IMPACT ON THEIR FUTURE
What............. what is he doing
HOLY SHIT WHAT THE F█CK
BUT
But that’s a paradox, surely?
It worked??
Wait, is that why he suddenly felt really ill right after the mustard gas plan succeeded? Because that’s the point where he went back to kill himself?
So it didn’t change anything, did it?
I KNEW IT. I KNEW IT.
Wait, who are his associates?
THAT'S HOW IT F█CKING ENDS
ARE YOU KIDDING ME
If you wanted me to read the next book straight away, good job, though.
#Anachrophobia#Eighth Doctor Adventures#Eighth Doctor#Fitz Kreiner#Anji Kapoor#EDAs#Doctor Who#an EDA liveblog full of useless comments#long post#really long post#caps lock#body horror tw#A LOT OF IT#gif
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hi my name is fitz and i’m about to tell y’all this story get ready:
alright so the other day i was playing overwatch with my pals whom we shall call the six stack spice rack (my friend hannah came up with that one!). so we’re queueing up for a game nothing out of the ordinary, we’re all watching videos while we wait but i so happened to be listening to the rogue one soundtrack by michael giacchino. a very good movie and even better musical score. you’re probably thinking “yay friendship!!! wholesome goodness!!!” well yes. but also no. playing games with my pals is pretty much a nightly ritual (i say nightly because those darn time zones). now you’re also probably thinking “fitz what’s the story” and i’m getting there i swear but i feel this is just a story that needs to be told in detail just so you can imagine the feeling of it all.
to get straight to the point. eight legged monster the size of a quarter chilling by my flip flop. JUST CHILLING THERE, as if it had any right to do so. this damn thing was so big it should’ve been helping pay the bills. ANYWAYS,, i freak the fuck out while in the voice group chat i can’t hear anything else besides my own screaming and i scramble to the closest object i could smash it with. the climax of this story you may ask?
well you know how i said i was listening to the rogue one soundtrack? it was gearing towards the end of the score, i knew this because the piece that plays during the scene on the beach with jyn and cassian was ending. so as i scramble towards my shoe to smack this big ass spider into oblivion, my phone plays the next track; that being hope by michael giacchino. now this is the track that plays during darth vader’s final scene in rogue one so it’s pretty badass. NOW JUST IMAGINE THIS. my pals are still with me through all of this and i’m sitting pretty close to my speakers and i’m about to whack the shiz out of this spider. and as i’m doing so the most riveting part of the track plays in the background as i just wham away at the floor killing this spider.
AND I FELT LIKE A TOTAL BADASS. i was scared shitless but this was just the funniest thing. there was also another smaller spider may it rest in peace, it too felt the wrath of my unforgiving shoe. but after this all ends all you hear is my pals just laughing their asses off on the other end.
‘twas a great bonding moment.
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courage enough, or resolution enough
Fitz + Daisy (background Fitzsimmons). Canon compliant.
[AO3]
Summary: Fitz asks Daisy to go ring-shopping with him. Maybe a favour and ice-cream cones can't fix everything, but they sure are a good place to start.
Written for “M is for March is for Mates” at @aosficnet2
When someone knocks at her bunk’s door, she just shouts for them to come in, in automatic mode; maybe she should have figured that it was Fitz (May doesn’t knock, ever, and you can hear Mack coming from like a mile away, and there is a "Jemma Simmons’s knock", trademark pending; so, it was either Fitz or Coulson: there is not many other people left on base with whom she is close enough to receive a visit).
“Oh, Fitz. Hi.”
“Um, Daisy. Would you, um, would you mind helping me with something?”
He is stuttering a little, which means that he is nervous, and stuttering makes him more nervous, and that is a never ending cycle, so she puts him out of his misery.
“Sure.”
She doesn’t say that he is the only one that worries too much about it, that she doesn’t even notice it most of the time. He has changed in so many ways in the last four years - and so has she- that this is just one small thing on her book. (Of course, she also doesn’t have to live in his body. Maybe it’s better that she keeps her mouth shut.)
He hangs around in the door, dubious, and she raises and eyebrow.
“Is there any problem?”
He blushes a little and gestures vaguely to her upper body.
“Um, yes. It is, well, it is not in the lab, it’s, um. Outside. So maybe you want to change? I can wait for you to put your things in order a little, if you want. No problem.”
Daisy looks down at her loose tank top and then at the mess around her. He is right about the clothes, probably, but nothing can be done about her room. She hasn’t had time to properly settle in again, but she can’t fix it in a couple of minutes. It doesn’t bother her, though; she has lived in much worse conditions for much longer spans of time.
“I will just put on some more cozier clothes. Hangar in five?”
He nods, and hangs back again a little, but just when she is about to ask him if he needs anything else, he leaves.
He is already on the van when she arrives, and that has to mean that he is in some sort of cahoots with May. Daisy isn’t sure if that makes her feel better or worse. She gets in and he smiles at her a little, but he doesn’t say anything, and she doesn’t dare either until they are way into the road. She can count the people she trusts this much with the fingers of just one hand, he could be taking her anywhere and she would probably go willingly, but she wants to know anyway.
“Where are we going, may I ask?”
He is silent for a long while even then, his eyes fixed on the road, and Daisy tries not to feel too nervous, and fails.
“There is something I need to buy. And, um, let’s just say that a woman's opinion would do me good.”
Daisy frowns. Why on earth can he need to buy that he can’t take Simmons with him for advice? Unless…
Realisation dawns on Daisy suddenly, and her body can not decide whether she should be delighted, touched, or scared shitless that she could mess this up big time. This is about him and about them, and she can't ruin this in any way. She jus can't.
Maybe she shouldn’t ask, but she can not keep quiet for that long without being sure.
“Are we going to buy a ring?”
His response is not what she was expecting: he blushes crimson and a smile emerges from his mouth, like maybe he tried to keep it in, but couldn’t succeed.
“Am I that obvious?”
She feels like crying for some reason, so she turns around to look out of the window instead of at him before answering.
“No. But I know you very well.”
She screwed up. This is not going well and now he is going to turn around and take them to base and take Simmons out shopping for her own engagement ring and she can't even blame how emotional all this makes her, because her best friends are not engaged yet. She just can't help fucking it up. She takes a big breath, but no air seems to reach her lungs, and she can't loose control in an enclosed space with someone she cares about.
“I don’t know when or how I’m going to ask her yet. But I thought that maybe having the ring would inspire me, and also spur me on, you know?”
She takes another very deep breath, but this time it's not shallow, it's the kind of breath that May made her practice for a half week when they first started training together. He is not turning the van around, and he is not yelling at her, and he is doing small talk and his voice is soft, and Daisy doesn’t dare look at him yet, but maybe her entire world is not falling apart just yet.
“I will try not to spill the beans, I swear.”
Her voice is strained, and she is glad that he doesn’t comment on it or move his eyes away from the road, even though she swears he can see a sad glint in his eyes.
“You better.”
They are who they are, specially when they are together, and even after everything that has happened, so they arrive to the jewellery store with an ice cream cone each. It’s nice, Daisy thinks, to be able to do normal, regular stuff with him. Maybe they should talk more about what happened, because she still feels she did the right thing, what felt right in the moment and what she thinks was best for all of them, if not for her. And well, he is entitled to his own feelings and to his hurt and his disappointment, she supposes, even if they hurt like a bitch.
They are both glued to the windows display, and she can see that he is panicking a little, because his cone is trembling slightly and she wonders if maybe she should ask him about his budget or if he has anything he would like on mind, try to make this less stressful for him. But instead she grabs his wrist, and how ironic it is that she can get someone to stop shaking.
“Come on, let’s get inside and look at all the ugly ones and you can tell me all the ways you would have made them much much better.”
He freezes, and she thinks that she knows him well enough to not offend him with something like that, but when she turns around she grabs both her wrists with his hands and she looks at the floor and sees his ice cream spilled and melting. His skin is warm as usual, and Daisy swears that there is warm waves going up her arms from the point he is touching them. This must be really important, for Fitz to drop food and everything.
“Daisy, you are a genius.”
“Am I now?”
“How did I not thought of that before? I should make her the ring. Come on, let’s get another cone or two and then we should head back to base.”
She can’t help but smile, because, really, it’s like she has gained back five years of her life.
The trip back is mostly silent, but much less tense than the previous one was. Daisy feels very hopeful: her best friends are getting married (because there is no way Simmons wouldn’t say yes) and maybe her and Fitz can be okay again, sometime in the future. She has had worse days without even getting out of bed.
“I know we didn’t do much in the end, but I also know we aren’t, um, in the best of terms, and I wanted to thank you. You know, for wanting to share this with me.”
He is silent for so long that she starts doubting herself again.
“Daisy, things have been hard, hell, things are hard, and maybe in he near future I would like to explain myself and apologise to you, but nevertheless that, you are still my best friend. That doesn’t change easy.”
Her emotions are so strong and so overwhelming that she reacts on automatic mode with a joke.
“Tell that to Simmons.”
He groans, he actually groans, and there is something tight on her throat, she just isn’t sure if it’s laughter or tears.
“I take it back. You are the worst. Like, the actual worst. I will design an experiment to prove it empirically and everything.”
Okay, it’s probably both laughter and tears.
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