#AND YOU KNOE WHAT THE WORST PART IS.

[shirlai]

I've read hundreds of fics by now and I can confidently say that at least half of them was written better than all the shit that's been getting published recently.

reblog if you’ve read fanfictions that are more professional, better written than some actual novels. I’m trying to see something

[h7jfangirl]

MONSTER GOOP THEORY

What if Henry turns into a shapeshift goop monster in the climax?

"The fuck are you sayi-" i know, but let me explain:

You guys see that shit its coming from not only his eyes and mouth but his SKIN?

Now, the skin melting didnt happend before, it was always the inside of the body what blows... but this time its his skin, and HAIR what are blowing and melting

So you can say what im meaning with this; "The more unstable Jekyll and Hyde are with each other and their emotions, the more unstable their body becomes" so what will happend when Jekyll finally loses his mind?

Henry will do something with Hyde after this, he fucking will, this is shown in the chapter´s cover

Even if it dosent seem likely right now, we can see that for Henry´s smile in here that he is about to finally lose it permantely, reaching his final breaking point into pure madness

Beacuse if you think about it, everything that Hyde has been trying to ruin from Henry´s life, his reputation, his relationships and his mind are the things that are keeping Henry from going full bersek. Think that in the begining of the comic, Henry did admit that wanted to go to the Blckfog but couldn´t beacuse of the society and his reputation, and dont forget this beautiful moment when he went mad of what Hyde did back in chapter five

So imagine how he would be if Hyde finally took all from him, that he lost his life for Hyde. Henry will have literally NOTHING TO HOLD HIM BACK and this moment its a little taste of Jekyll´s wrath. Its like breaking the chains that had been keeping a beast from set itself free, if Hyde breaks Jekyll´s chains WHAT YOU THINK IT WILL HAPPEND!?

So, we now that the only way that Jekyll and Hyde can be face to face is being the both inside the mindspace at the same time, and this confrotation its going to happend

BUT WHAT ABOUT THE BODY!? Once Jekyll loses his mind... I think it would be something like Steven Universe Future, where the main protagonist; Steven, views himself as a monster so he literally turns into one and then goes back to normal when his family made him feel human again, so after what Jekyll its been through he´d probabily dosent see himself like a decent person, thinking that everyone he knoes hates him and all that sad stuff, so the feeling of being a monster will be so strong that his body will literally turn him into a big mindless monster lead by his emotions, because he if gets ride of Hyde, where is going to go all the feelings he represents? and if he gets ride of the important part of himself then it would completely mess up not only his form without a human vessel but also his sanity

Also, we need to do something with the mob outside, they are about to set the society on fire with them inside.

But it would make it worst? maybe, but it would be nice to see how Laynon and the logders finally get to understand Henry more and for Jekyll and Hyde to finally stop hating each other so unheathly.

[danieyells]

. . .what if the advisors also need to be loved/trusted by their ghouls for the tree to thrive? That way it's not just related to the ghouls(and possibly the general students) but the faculty as well. . . .

We know Dante acts harshly towards Frostheim and Vagastrom, but he's actually much kinder and warm hearted than most anyone but Hyde realizes. Meanwhile I imagine the only member of Frostheim who's really spoken to Dante is Tohma. And Leo doesn't trust Dante and is trying to investigate him, while Alan is on edge around him because he killed Dante some years ago.

Hyde acts like he loves his students but Dante says he's actually very cold. He behaves in a shady way and gives Romeo secret missions and disregards if his ghouls do wrong and practically shrugs off that Haru damn near could've died with an 'oops' lmao. Haru knoes he's tricky though, and Taiga doesn't trust him. Hyde seems to be able to understand Towa(as he says to ask him if you have a hard time with Towa and he understands it's safe to let Towa head a mission because the PC will be with him) and he told Ren that Haru transferred to Jabberwock, although we're not sure why yet. Romeo sweettalks him half the time but they're working together. But there's still a degree of distrust and discomfort.

Moby is arguably the worst of them because he just does not trust Hotarubi or Obscuary it seems? To the point that he won't go to either of their dorms and makes them--including the guy who kills anyone he touches--go to his office for any business whereas others are implied to at least try to go to the dorms(hell, Dante's in a wheelchair and he made it down the stairs into The Pit somehow! Moby keeps his distance from them and it's a problem for everyone involved.

Nicolas is a little distant from Mortkranken too but he's super busy and he at least tries to look after them. While he seems to like the Mortkranken ghouls, in contrast Yuri dislikes and distrusts him and sees him as a rival at best. The general students like and trust him, which doesn't help as they don't seem to feel the same way about Yuri or Jiro.

I wonder if maybe these next parts are going to be about the ghouls' troubles with their advisors(Hyde is clearly aware of the auctions as Romeo mentioned being in the auction room to him on the phone and they, perhaps, have to do with Romeo's secret missions for him, though how Sho fits into this remains to be seen.)

[notahorseindisguise]

i wish i could do something drastic enough that would make everybody whos ever cared for me know that i need help and support. something to just..bring someone running to my aid. which is stupid because like tbh i probably dont even need aid. its hust late at night and that makes me feel depressed and im sure ill be fine tomorrow. but its just like. i dont know i guess like. i used to be super depressed and i used to need help so bad. and nobody came to my aid. but even when i was at my worst i would always help other people as best as i could. and i guess part of me really wants to know what it feels like to be on receiving end for once . of someone noticint my absence. and like. specifically seeing how i am..but now im at a point where i dont need that anymore i almost feel cheated out of that experience. tbis doesnt make sense and you can and should ignore it but posting on tumblr makes it feel more right tban putting it in my notes app. anyway you all knoe me ill be fine in the morning

[mc-lukanette]

I knoe you said you only post things if people ask for them which I totally understand, but at the same time I also wonder if maybe you could give an estimate of how many times is too many times to ask? or something?? bc there is def stuff I'd like to ask for but I can't help worrying about being a bother, since I'm very aware that you have a life & no one is paying you for any of this; so it becomes very hard to ask for something when you might not want to give, if that makes sense??

Oh my gosh, the fact that you felt so polite as to ask is precious.

Anyway, I wouldn’t say there’s really a rule of how much is too much. If you’re worried about stressing me then you could always ask me to give more details rather than giving actual written pieces, but really, I have ideas all over.

My private index of ideas is basically extensive ideas (fleshed out ideas, usually some tiny written bits here and then), expendables (ideas that will never see the light of day outside of me giving them away - not bad ideas but just not my favorites because I’m picky even with my own work - but I figured no one really wants them so I haven’t done much there), and ideas that are more thoughts than fleshed out things (you’ve seen such things in posts like 42 Lukanette ideas).

I get notes when I post stuff about them and that’s great but I really don’t need people to reblog if they don’t want to; that’s why I just ask for asks since it doesn’t require any extra effort on their blog’s part. I don’t require any sort of validation via notes, so if people just wanna be like, “hey, can you give me more details on [x],” or, “oh hey throw out some more random thoughts,” or, “show me some of your scraps just because,” that’s totally cool and I'll probably provide!

Honestly, the only reason the “this blog runs on asks” exists is because I literally wouldn’t know what to do if it didn’t lol. You guys would be getting different Lukanette ideas, like--daily, and that’s not an exaggeration!

It would be very overwhelming and I’m not about that life ahaha, so really, asks are okay! At worst, I’ll let it stew in my inbox for a while so I can think about whether I can provide anything or not. This is MC-Lukanette so I will never be like, “okay guys you need to stop talking about [x],” provided that it’s Lukanette related.

[chanelhamitlon]

i mean 10|| Philip Hamilton x Reader

word count: 900+

warnings: mentions of sex, nudes idk, lack of proofreading, cursing

A/N: I just saw this in tiktok and It lead me to make a fic about it 🙈 this is pretty short lol

You sat on the couch as Philip left to see his friends. You just got home from a trip to Greece and you let him see his friends for a while. Of course, watching How I Met Your Mother for the 5th time got boring. You started thinking of ways to annoy your best friend so you start spamming her with random tiktok vids, no matter the vid or the context, you just spammed her like theres no tomorrow. Which lead you to calling her.

'Y/n what the fuck?? dont you have a boyfriend to bother?"

'Philip's out for the day, hes with his friends'

'Probably got tired of your bullshit HAHAHA'

'Maam-'

'You bored?'

'Obviously'

Suddenly the doorbell rang. You remembered that you ordered new lingerie last week while coming home from Greece. You propped your phone on the table getting the door. The door opened to reveal a slightly toned delivery guy with the Amazon uniforms bright blue and black colors on his shirt. It was a rather big box of lingerie since it was on sale and why not treat yourself. You did the usual when getting a package delivered and said goodbye to the delivery's guy. You go back to your best friend staring at her phone possibly scrolling through tiktok. You snapped her out of the video she's watching to tell her:

'I bought a shit ton of lingerie from amazon holy shit'.

With your best friends attention onto you now, you opened the box, making sure to not cut through anything inside. You look at the first piece on top, opening the plastic, it was a black two piece with detachable knee high mesh stockings. 'Y/n that looks so good!! Philip's gonna freak!'. You now had a wave of confidence flow through you. This is definitely gonna make sex interesting. You rumage through all of what you bought, showing your best friend each delicate piece if fabric.

The call ended after a couple of hours of just chatting and you trying one one piece for her trusted judgement. You were just cleaning up the little mess you made with all the fabric on the sofa. You each place them back in the box with the intention of hanging them later. You watched a little bit more How I Met Your Mother till you got a message.

Pip👁👅👁: Heyy babygirll, im gonna be here longer than i thought, they invited me to drink out :(( imy so much

Y/n😽💅: Babyyy miss u too!! just get home safely and i'll be ok :)) love uu 😻

Pip👁👅👁: Love you too baby :))

You prop down your phone to get back to the episode your on. It gets boring to do this over and over again, so you decide to pull out your phone and scroll through tiktok. You come across this one video that gave you an idea. You just bought new lingerie and maybe you could snap a couple of pics in them while trying them on.

For once you felt confident to maybe send Philip a little something while he's away. You try on a couple of pieces deciding which few you're going to send pictures in. You look at yourself in the mirror, you were wearing a blue lace piece covering just the right parts. You remember looking at this particular outfit on the website, feeling the worst that might happen is that your fat is going to just overflow out or whatnot. It was actually a really good fit. You snap some pics of yourself in this and maybe some more in the pink and red fit you tried on earlier. You only needed 10 pics anyways.

In the middle of your mini photoshoot, your phone chimed. It was your landlord saying the due of the rent and whatnot. You replied with a simple ok and that its Philip's turn to pay, it should be within the month. You quickly returned to your mini photoshoot, signaling yourself that time flew and its already 6:00 pm. Philip should be home around 11:30 maybe.

Once you had at least 30 photos, selecting the few 10 and deleting the others was pretty easy. 3 photos in the blue one, 4 photos in the pink one, and 3 other in the red one. You got dressed properly and went to the laundry room to wash the lot of lingerie you had on your hands. You had time to make a little dinner so you decide to make some chicken wings, of course following a recipe on your phone. You had to make sure Philip was maybe a bit tipsy before you do what you were going to.

About 3 hours passed and you were already on your way to bed when you decide to text him.

Y/n😽💅: Philippp!!

Pip👁👅👁: Y/nnnsn

Y/n😽💅: Choose a number between 1-10

Pip👁👅👁: whYyYyayYyY

Y/n😽💅: 🙈

Pip👁👅👁: 4??

Y/n😽💅: *sent 4 photos*

You finally sent it, waiting for Philips response was kinda scary considering its your first time sending him risqué images. You wouldn't knoe how to react.

Pip👁👅👁: I MEAN 10!!!

BABE I SAID 10 SEND SOME

MORE

Y/n😽💅: come home to see more 🙈

You see Philip read what you said, he didn't reply which made you question whether he would rush home to you or hang out with his friends for a little while longer. Nevertheless, you were waiting.

You were reading a book when the key shift at the front door which lead you to peep outside. Philip had his curls all over the place. He'd been rushing for sure. When he saw you leaning on the doorway to your bedroom, he looked like a child just got their christmas gift early.

[yuvon-writes-letters]

Hey guys :)

Maybe I'm going chronological for one time, so I can sort my thoughts easier.

Yeah, Goldie's much mire active than I would've thought, too. But they did all those things to keep me alive and kind of save, since we still don't know who they are exactly working against. (I mean, we don't know who Goldie exactly is either, but you get my point)

Honestly, I am pretty sure the TSB timeline is continuing, at least if my theory that Goldie just set me back in an alternate timeline is true. In this case I feel sorry for TSB, though..Extremely sorry. He still was 'my' Jake back then, even though he acted weird in the end (maybe was manipulated by entities). I mean, if what he wrote was true he went with authorities. And in the end..this could've been his downfall.

And yeah, maybe I'm not exactly safe, but I just have to go back. If I go, and if I lose my job, I have some things to sort out. And Jake luckily agreed with me that clearing up my desk isn't the worst thing I can do before leaving. We're still thinking about a location, which I could luckily deside myself. Max agreed on that. Even though he still has some doubts. (I mean, of course...His cousin opened the door with bruises all over her face.) He did promise to not ask any questions until I feel ready, though. That gives myself and Jake some time to figure that out.

And also, Jake is right! We have three Jakes and three smart people. YUVON. And of course Goldie, like you said Yu :) And some information about the previous timeline. (And that was it with being chronological)

So yeah, like I said, Max and I'll go. And I also think we can be pretty certain now that the message came from Goldie not the MWAF (which is relieving). I saw the messages and they didn't make Jake the bad guy. I honestly just don't think I can quote them yet. (They're too good, but I probably start daydreaming if I do) But they talk about Jake being an important part of my life and my heart and Max protecting me when he cannot. My dear cousin jumped to conclusions when he saw my bruised face. About Max' phone...I'll probably throw it in a river or something if he brings it with him. I told him not to, also because of Jake (he's not only worried about the MWAF apparently...He didn't exactly say it out loud, but I think it's pretty obvious) but he loves this device.

And I emphasize with you about the being kidnapped thing, you'll manage it, I know it :) And if I need to jump dimensions and box some sense into your Crow-Crew xD

No but for real, you can do that. I know it :)

Jake, find a good point in time to talk to her. But do it :)

Otherwise, I still think the 'underlying desire' theory is a possibility! But, like always in the moment, we could be wrong.

As for my stasis, I really do not wish to talk to more people who think I've been kidnapped. And I am a bit scared that could somehow lead to either them or me being in more danger again. But for now we have to wait.

I for now will pack some important things and paper & pens xD I don't want to leave y'all behind :P

Liska🐾🔥

[A screenshot is glued to the back of the letter and the quick sentence "Jake wants to talk to Jake" is written above]

Hello Jake, it is a pleasure to meet you. I am not quite sure in which way Liska will handle giving you my message, but she promised me to not read it for now.

I don't know whether she told you before or not, but as far as I am concerned she realised I am not only worried about the MWAF chasing her.

With me breaking out of this stasis I am sure that my followers aren't that far behind. And I know you can't do anything from where you are, but cross checking way to protect her doesn't seem to bad to me. Especially since we are similar but still fairly different from each other. At least it seems like that from what I have read.

For my part, I recently improved and updated Nym-OS which allows me access to Liskas whereabouts. If Yuvon should read this, she knows and agrees to it.

Still I am yet stuck on one little detail: I am trying to help Nym-OS in counterattacking. So, even though I am sure you already knoe this yourself, Nym-OS gets the ability to access location of the people attacking Liskas phone. I am almost done with that, so we are able to see a bit easier if and where people are that could be a danger.

Do you have any other ideas for ways I could help? Or even improve what I am doing momentarily. I wouldn't normally ask this since I know and trust my skills, but I think that this is fairly different from a 'normal situation'.

~ Jake

Lis,

Um. I don't know if you've seen the newest person to send in a letter, but we now have an issue.

Jessy, if you're reading this, I was sort of trying to avoid talking about this right away but I'm sort of trapped in a weird place, and Jake's here too because I'm a dumbass. I did not, so you know, let him read your letter or my reply. I figured you wouldn't want that. Sorry for dancing around the issue earlier :/ But at least you can get a good sample of the complete insanity we go through on the regular now!

Yeah... you're getting thrown into the deep end right now, aren't you. Sorry. There's no way to ease into this. You should probably either stop reading these entirely or start reading the letters from the beginning, so this will all at least make some sense. The first letter should start with the words "To whoever reads this," just so you know you get the right one.

Back to you, Lis. Yeah, I feel pretty bad for TSB Jake too. I honestly can't imagine being in his position right now.

Alright. So, you can choose the place. Great! There's way less chance of you being caught that way...

Tragedies just seem to be happening to all us Duskwood detectives, recently, don't they? Rai is chronically overworked and barely has time to sleep, I'm stuck in this hellhole and I've been forgotten by most everyone, you were shot, and poor Matt died and... well.

I never knew him, but I feel really bad for him :(

You could give Max half the truth. Tell him you have a stalker, and he's starting to get physical. Jake has been trying to help you get away from the asshole. It's not even a lie, just... not the full truth. Because. You know. The whole truth is completely fucking insane.

Writing to Jessy just put into perspective how insane everything is, I think. Gimme a sec.

Oh, fuck. My Jessy just texted me. Great timing.

Jeez that whole thing with me leaving myself out was just a joke XD If I knew you and Jake would take it so seriously, I'd never have said anything. I'll steer clear from now on.

Yeah, okay, definitely Goldie. That makes way more sense. I don't think you have to be quite so drastic as destroying the phone. Just get him to leave it at home for the trip.

Ahaha, thanks. I don't think that's necessary, though. Actually, seeing future!Jessy's perspective has caused a bit of a paradigm shift. I think I might need to reconsider what all to tell and not to tell the Crow Crew. I just sort of default to keeping things secret, now, but you've seen how well that worked for me with you and Rai, and with Jake.

Again, you probably should wait for them to contact you first, but you WILL need to talk to them when that happens. What you say to them and what you don't is up to you.

Pack a couple different pens XD We're all a bit long-winded.

That's all from me :)

(The handwriting changes to Jake's.) Hallo, Lis.

Yuvon refuses to tell me what precisely she means about Jessica. Was she somehow contacted by an alternate version of Jessica? If so, how?

I am glad it was Goldie who contacted Max. Yuvon's suggestion for an excuse seems a good one, as there are far less things to remember that way. You simply need to oversimplify everything.

I do not, unfortunately, entirely believe that Yuvon was joking when she made that comment, based on previous comments and her ongoing guilt. I can't understand sometimes why she feels the need to lie so much. It is difficult for me to read people, much less her.

I will speak to her eventually. Early tomorrow, perhaps, if nothing else rears its head. Yuvon looks tired, and I am also admittedly not at my peak. I sincerely hope she does not wake up as early as she does every single day. It may get somewhat taxing, what with the lack of coffee here.

I think that is all from me to you, Lis. If you would kindly find a way to send the next section to my counterpart without looking at it, it would be greatly appreciated.

Thank you :)

—Jake and Yuvon

Jake,

It is a pleasure to meet you as well, despite the unusual circumstances.

That our pursuers may be freed from the stasis is a logical conclusion. Seeing as the last known location I had on them in my universe was approximately five hundred miles from Duskwood, they will likely be some of the first to free themselves from the stasis. I do not believe I need to warn you that time is of the essence.

It seems as if I am a small distance ahead of you in the development of countermeasures, perhaps because I have had more linear time to develop them. If you are where I think you are at in the development, you likely have or will soon hit a bug you cannot pin down that makes the pinpointing mechanism simply refuse to work at all. Presuming your and my version of NYM-0S are similar enough, the issue should lie in the public bool set in line 132 of the third part of the targeting script, the script that decides what constitutes a target; you have it defaulted to "false" where it should default to "true".

As for additional countermeasures: I was attempting to work on a rudimentary automated system of pattern detection when I was brought here. Essentially, its function would be such that it would be able to triangulate using the locator features already installed to find a rough estimate of where their headquarters might be. However, I have not found any way thus far to eliminate outliers, and as such the feature is currently next to useless. I am no longer able to work on the code, but perhaps you will have more luck than I did.

That is all I can think of for the moment on that subject. However, I have an odd theory on what may be part of the reason we vary so. If you have a moment to spare, please answer me this:

When I was very young, back when Mother was still around, she took me to a doctor for odd behaviors. This included not looking people in the eyes, but there was a list. I was given a diagnosis; if you had the same experience, you should likely know which one.

Did you have this experience? If so, please prove it by stating what the diagnosis was.

Do not worry if you do not know what I am talking about; I would rather you did not guess. Simply state that you don't know. It will confirm my theory.

Good luck with your pursuers.

—Jake

(The letter tucks itself in the paper clip with the others.)

[rose-tinted-wings]

2am thoughts.

I show a lot of signs of ASD.

(or would they be symptoms?)

But like... Does that mean I should follow up on this?

I know quizzes aren't diagnostic tools but like, all that I take kinda point in that direction but neurotypical Nancy over there (my husband) takes them and is all a-okay so it kinda checks out.

I don't know. I can't turn my brian off.

I'm cycling through all my precious hyper fixations and kinda going, symptom, symptom, symptom.

And I honestly don't know how to feel about this.

I kinda freaked out a little because my husband moved my toothbrush but I can't control my emotions well when I'm tired.

And it just makes me remember all the times my family would call me "weird" or different.

I'm kind of a chameleon (I don't know if that's a symptom), but like, I try my best not to be weird. I attach to people and emulate their behaviour so I'm not picked on as weird and freaky and yeah sometimes I'd have to go from group to group so I wouldn't show how weird I am.

I can't seem to help it. People don't like me jumping my leg up and down to try and soothe myself. I literally got told to stop it once by a stranger sitting in front of me at a festival because she was trying to take a picture and I was wobbling the floor too much for her to get a steady shot so I've never done it since.

My husband notices when I wiggle my feet when I'm sleepy so now I only do it under the covers which kinda helps because I like the pressure and the tactile feel of the sheets on my feet.

I know I'm weird. I've always been weird. I can basically tell you a breed of dog just by looking at it because I used to study dog breeds after seeing a poster in the vets when we used to take our dog.

I used to be told that I even ate wrong. Hell, I was told that today! Because I seperate my skittles and you have to eat them in order from worst to best (yellow, orange, red, purple then green, unless you're American because American skittles are different flavour and I don't really like those when I went there, sorry). And I like all my food to be separated. If they're on the same plate they should have a good half centimetre between eat item so they don't touch but preferably eat item would be in seperate bowls but that's a lot of washing up to do so I don't ask for that anymore. I used to be told I ate things wrong or upside down or the wrong way round because of I could I would take the filling out my sandwich and eat that last because that's the better bit. But I do TRY not to get upset when my food touches, like, in a restaurant, I don't expect them to seperate my food, it comes how it comes, I'll seperate it myself. I was told to stop being weird, eat the pepperoni ON the pizza. My mum would purposefully move my sweets when they were all in lines which was really distressing but I knew it was just me being weird, again. And I don't like soft food. Like, I can't eat a sandwich that has a salad filling and a tomato was on the bread. It just makes it soggy and disgusting in my mouth. Like if you have too many crackers and then try to have water after but then there's mushy cracker in your mouth. No. Just no. Yoghurt is bad. I grew some in a lab once at different temperatures and I do not want to ingest that.

But yeah. I'm just like... Is this why people think I'm rude? I've literally been called spikey and aloof by people in therapy.

But then my hubby says this could all just be trauma brain trying to put things "right" or "orderly" and just trying to grasp at control from a time where I had none. (I call it trauma brain because I'm not diagnosed with PTSD and even though I stand with self Dx I can't personally agree to something unless it's like, officially on paper and such, another lovely quirk)

I don't know. He says I need sleep, which, yes, I do. But I cannot turn my brain off.

Like I keep thinking about Greek mythology and how I was really into that, and knitting and crochet and the different kinds of fibres you can use, and like, dimaond art, and psychology. And I wanted to be a mortician because I don't wanna be around people because talking is HARD.

And people are always "why didn't you talk to me?" when I have a mental health crisis but I don't know how to do that! How do you pick up a phone and go "hey! Just wanted to drop a line and say I'm suicidal but there's nothing anyone can do about it anyway seeing as it's all wonky brain chemistry so I don't really know why I'm telling you!" yanno? I don't know how to talk. I don't. Like. I've said it to people before. I see you. We've spoken. I see you as Friend but like... Talk? Uh... Weather? Music? Life? Philosophy? Where... Do we start?

I love my brothers, very much but I do not Do Sport and that's all I can think they're into. I am not Sport Person. I am not Ex Military. I am not Parent. How do we do this? Do we HAVE anything in common? Since the pandemic we haven't been able to play D&D and they don't seem interested in picking that back up so like... Where do we start?

I know people don't get to know me. I put people off by being blunt about my past abuse. It makes them uncomfortable. Like, casually dropped in having sex around 13 once and my friend about fell off his chair. Casually mentioned my father nearly killing me once and again he did not know what to say. Hell, again, it happened today. Talking about when I fell off my bike and broke my arm in two places and nearly my knee and my head bounced off the pavement and I could have died off not for my helmet and they thought THAT was dark until I said I also got told off for bleeding on the sofa and instead of calling an ambulance my dumbass father called my mother from work who took an hour to get home who then took me to the hospital. (and now I'm saying it all again to freak more people out. Awesome.) and I didn't even say how I needed a cloth over my knees because they looked so mangled I couldn't stop looking at the wreckage that was my body and the worst part was I walked home on that knee and when my brother found me he said are you okay? And all I could worry about was my stupid bike that I got for Christmas because I knew they would kill me if it got damaged. My self worth was lower than a bike. At 8.

So is this trauma? Is this ASD? I don't know. All I knoe right now is that I'm weird and I freak people out and I don't know when to shut up but I need all this out my head to be asleep.

And no one understands when you just and a word stuck in your head over and over again. And hubby was like, oh like when a line in a song plays in your head over and over and I said yeah but sometimes it's just a word like hypotenuse over and over and over and it won't stop.

Like now. I can't stop typing because this is all my inner monologue and it just won't stop. It won't let me sleep.

When I used to be like this as a kid I used to look out of the window. No matter whose (is that a word? I'm tired) house I was in. And the world would be still, and quiet, and I wanted that. But my brain doesn't like shutting down and right now I can't sleep until the sun comes up because that's when Trauma Brain says, ah, yes, safe now.

And my husband likes the door open to the bedroom even though I've told him it's a fire risk and no we haven't had a fire but my mum was freaked out by fire after she was in hospital next to a burn victim once and now I've got that trauma. Like, I have to have a safety plan on how to get out if there is a fire and even though it's still only a wooden door you'd be surprised by the amount of protection it brings.

And he likes night lights which, yes, can be helpful sometimes but I don't like light in my bedroom at night. So now I wear an eye mask but I hate the pressure on my face but I don't tell him that but now if I don't wear it I can't sleep because I'm used to the pressure even if I hate it!!

This is tiring. I've been typing for like, 40 mins and I just want to cry and sleep and punch his stupid snoring face because he can sleep and I can't and it's not fair. It's like he's rubbing it in my face. Oooo look how well I can sleep, snoring away next to you ZzZzz!! Ugh. I know it's stupid and petty but I'm tired. I've not slept more than five hours a night for nearly two weeks now and I know that's actually quite a bit for when my body decides to be in these moods and it's got to the point that my body is just fighting my sleeping tablets like an evil villain trying to thwart me.

But I need to wake up WITHOUT a migraine tomorrow as hubby had clinic at hospital but thankfully his dad is taking him but I have to pick him up and if I have a full migraine I don't k ow how I'll drive and I'm just. So. Tired.

Maybe this has helped. Maybe I'll put my phone down and just... Sleep.

Wow I've had to correct myself so much because I'm typing weird.

Weor Weor word word weird. That's it. Weird. That's me

Weird.

[sergeant-donny-donowitz]

One Last Time: Aldo Raine x Fem!Reader

@owba-chan, @war-obsessed, @inglourious-jules 

Let me know if you want to be tagged in these! :)

Requested by @inglourious-jules

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 Aldo sighed.

He was sitting on the concrete ground, his back against the metal bars separating him from you.

He should've known you couldn't be together... He lost his head over you and Hugo...

Now look where all that got his team.

You had all been captured, and he couldn't help but blame it on himself.

He wondered how he could be so stupid?

He should've known a girl like you could never really fall for a guy like him. You were an educated girl from up north, you spoke any and every useful language to their side of the war... Aside from your ability to scalp a nazi, you were a proper, well-read, intelligent young woman, capable of deciphering intricate codes, from Vermont.

He was a redneck hilllbilly from the deep south. A basterd, through and through.

Even you were surprised at yourself for falling for him...One of many surprises since you became a part of the basterds. 

You never thought you'd be in the war to begin with. As of December, 1941, you thought the most you’d ever have to do with the war would be with war bonds. By mid 1942, you were well within the OSS’ ranks, and dispatched to the basterds.

It was almost imaginable to anyone that you of all people would befriend the short-tempered, quiet, stubborn German basterd, Sgt. Hugo Stiglitz.

In fact, that was part of the problem.

No one else in the world had ever made him smile like you did, let alone laugh. If it had been anyone else, Aldo would have been more than happy with it. 

But it was you.

It had to have been you.

It crushed Aldo to see you with Hugo...to see you talk to Hugo for hours on end. It shocked every single one of the basterds. Hugo barely tolerated anyone to begin with, then you came along.

Aldo fell head over heels with you.

He couldn't bear to see you with anyone...the basterds' joking flirts were of course just jokes, but it drove him crazy.

He especially couldn't stand to see you with Hugo.

The thought of losing you scared him. So much, that he had to ask Wicki what you and Hugo were talking about.

Because of course, all your conversations were in German.

Wicki chuckled. Opera, ballet, concerts, your favorite symphonies, and records Hugo hoped to find after the war.

It terrified Aldo.

He thought he wasn't good enough. He didn't know much about those things, and it broke him to think he'd lose you to Hugo...or anyone, if you ever realized Aldo wasn't enough for you.

Aldo's little bout of jealousy, however, was what distracted the basterds at the worst possible moment.

It was, in fact, the reason you were all currently in cells.

"So...would you be so kind as to tell me what the fuck happened back there, lieutenant?"

It practically sent a shiver down his spine, froze his heart, and crushed him  to hear you talk like that.

You were a basterd, but you were also 'the best goddamn lady' he ever met. It was rare to hear you curse, even rarer to hear you call him 'lieutenant,' and almost unheard of to hear you with a spiteful tone.

Still, he stood his ground.

"I think you owe me a goddamn explanation."

You didn’t hesitate in firing back. You never did. According to Aldo, that was what made you one of the best goddamn basterds. But at the moment, it hurt him... something he never really admitted to anyone. "Owe you? The only thing I ever owed you was one hundred nazi scalps, seventy eight of which have already been accounted for. Try again."

Aldo sighed in defeat and mumbled under his breath. "I just wanna know where the fuck we went wrong..."

He didn’t think you heard him.

“We never went wrong, Aldo." You leaned against the bars dividing you, your back against his.

He was startled for a moment, then managed to get his words together, and retorted, "The fuck you call this then?"

"War." 

He growled, "Then what the fuck do you call that?!" He raised his voice. You could tell he was pointing to the cells down the hall, where Hugo was being held.

You lowered your voice, trying to salvage at least his friendship with Hugo in the darkest moment. "Hush..."

"Don't you tell me to hush. I wanna know what the fuck-"

You understood Aldo had misunderstood it all. "Leave Hugo out of this."

"So you do care for him." Aldo crossed his arms, and shook his head, even if you couldn’t see. 

"He's a basterd. I care about all of you."

Aldo wasn’t budging. "I didn't say about, I said for."

"No."

"Then?"

"I don't care for anyone. I love."

There it was. The decisiveness. The stong cold truth you always seemed to carry on your shoulders.

Aldo knew that. He’d once fallen for that part of you, but he scoffed this time, "Love, huh."

"You know me, Aldo. You know what I feel for you."

"Yeah. But I don't know what you feel for him. I don't know what you and I are gonna be." He looked up at the ceiling of the pitch black cell in exasperation. 

"Nothing."

Your answer was bleaker than the cell itself.

His heart stopped...

It took him a moment to get his words out.  "Nothing to which one?"

"I feel nothing for him, and you and I will be nothing."

No one had ever talked to him like that before. "What?"

"I don't see us getting out of this, lieutenant." You sighed as you watched guards walk down the hall. It was odd to you to call him that...even when you first joined his team, you called him Aldo with a blushing smile or a sly wink. Now you distanced yourself from him, not wanting to die with an aching heart, knowing it all could have been different... As the guards’ footsteps echoed and disappeared, you gave up. "They have it in for us. We're not going to be anything because we are out of time. You know that, and I knoe that."

Aldo was silent. He never heard you talk thay way before. He never heard you give up. He had to pry you away from firefights more times than you cared to admit, You were always the first one in, and last one out. You were always optimistic, always rallying the basterds, even in the worst times. You were like a ray of sunshine to them... that was why not a single nazi could ever get away with so much as a glare at you.

You were known for being blunt and brutally honest, but you were always positive. You never gave anyone false hope, but you gave them hope nonetheless.

You meant so much to the basterds...

And to Aldo, you meant the world.

That was why hearing you being so bleak, and hopeless was heartbreaking to him.

If you gave up, there was nothing left...

"Don't talk like that."

"And why not? You like the truth, don't you?” You looked up, trying to find an ounce of patience, as you muttered, “That's what you wanted to hear."

"Hey..."

You felt him shifting, but you didn't turn around. You couldn't bear to look at him. But you held your ground, "We're not getting out of this one, Aldo...it’s over..."

Hearing you say just his name gave him some hope. He shook his head, "You don't know that. Team full of smart boys, we'll be fine."

"They're lining us up in front of a firing squad at sunrise. It's over."

Aldo nodded slowly at the news... He knew she'd known that for at least a few hours.

 And you chose not to tell him, somethingn that never happened before.

Aldo realized you must have overheard the guards...

It felt like a boulder was pressing over his chest... maybe you were right.

Maybe it really was the end.

"I didn't think it would end like this..."

"What would?"

He sighed, "The war, the team...you and me."

You were both silent for a moment.

You sighed, annoyed at yourself...for such a smart agent, you always seemed to be getting into some unfavorable predicaments.

This one might just be the worst of all.

You were proud, but you knew when you had to back off, and ease the coldness.

You knew Aldo loved you. Hell, you loved him. You didn’t want it to end like that.

"Seeing that these are our last few hours together, I'm going to say this once, and once only. I don't care if you believe me or not. I don't care if you’re still pissed at Hugo, or if you don't care anymore at all. I'm saying it one last time. I love you, Aldo. More than anything or anyone I've ever loved before. "

He stopped frowning. He uncrossed his arms. His heart softened up, and he wanted more than anything to hold you one last time.

After everything, he couldn't lie to you. Not if it was the last thing he’d ever say to you

"I love you too, darlin'." 

He realized it night be the last time he's ever get to say that. It was his last chance to redeem himself to you. "I'm sorry, y/n."

"It's not your fault. That's war...that’s life."

"I'm sorry. I just never thought I'd love anyone as much as I love you."

"Aldo, don't." You sighed. You didn’t want this. You didn’t want to hurt him, or anyone... And yet, there you were, waiting to be executed. 

"I have to. I don't want to die knowing the last thing I ever done was make the woman I love angry. This ain't no way to die..."

"I'm not angry."

"Y/n..." Aldo laughs a little at the absurdity of it all... "I imagined a life with you. I thought we'd end the goddamn war together. I dreamed we start a life together. I dreamed we'd end the war together. It was stupid of me to think you'd move down to Maynardville with me after all this."

"What's stupid about it?"

"You and Hugo talk about them operas and ballets, all those paintings and museums you want to to see. You don't belong in Maynardville. You-"

"I belong with you, Aldo. Here, or Antartica, or in Tennessee."

He smiled warmly, appreciating the sentiment, but realizing you were still right. "Come sunrise, that ain’t gon’ matter no more."

"When you love someone, it never stops mattering. Dreams never stop mattering."

Aldo smiled a little.

"Tell me about your dream, Aldo." You needed to hear something to take the edge off it all...even if it was just a dream.

"Damn good one..." He smiled again, "Thought I was gettin' too old... didn’t think I'd meet anyone, then I met you."

You smiled a little. Silent tears streamed down your face as you desparately hoped for a change of fate.

"I thought we'd leave all this behind some day, take you up em Smoky Mountains... maybe some day a little 'un or two runnin' round. I just wanted to make you happy."

"You do."

He muttered, "I got us killed..."

You shook your head, "Not yet."

"There she is..." He smiled. There was the girl he knew. He felt your hand slip throufh the bars and into his hand.

Aldo turned around and faced you.

You wrapped your hands around the bars and pressed your forehead as close to his as possible.

He realized you’d been crying...

He managed to reach through the bars and told the side of your face.

“Don’t you cry now, darlin’...I ain’t leavin’ you.”

He smiled softly as he felt you gently press your hands over his.

Suddenly you heard metal clanging. You both turned around to see a smiling shadowy figure at the entrance of Aldo’s cell.

The door was wide open.

For a moment, you were petrified, your blood ran ice cold, you lost your senses.

You could hear the smirk in his voice, "Hol dir ein Zimmer, ihr zwei."

The old, familiar voice...

'Get a room, you two.'

You smiled and got to your feet, "Hugo?!"

You heard jangling from keys, as you realized that he tossed the keys to Hirschberg. You turned to see the rest of the basterds waiting outside.

Somehow...Donny was already covered in nazis’ blood. Useful...and unsurprising.

You and Aldo looked at each other, then ran out of your cells. He picked you up and spun you around.

It wasn't over.

Hugo chuckled as he watched you and Aldo kiss.

He wanted to you be happy, even if it was with someone else.

"Du brauchst definitiv diesen Raum."

'You definitely need a room.'

You rolled your eyes at him as you smiled, and took your place with the basterds, and cleared your way to freedom.

You were a step closer yo the end of the war. You were a step closer to Maynardville, Tennessee apparently.

It wasn't "ideal" but it was what you wanted.

You looked at your lieutenant, Aldo the Apache.

He was everything you could ever want. And more.

You loved him. You'd follow him to hell. In fact, that was where you met. In the middle of Nazi occupied France, deep behind enemy lines, in direct line of fire.

You would walk to the ends of the earth, if it meant spending the rest of your life with him.

The war went on, and you still had a debt to pay.

But you caught a glimpse of that familiar knowing smile and loving eyes as he glanced at you.

You knew from that moment that you were going to make it to the end.

You looked at the basterds, your brothers.

They all would make it...

You held Aldo's hand as you marched back through nazi-occupied France, to a tavern called La Louisiane in a small town called Nadine.

[minnimari]

Enderal Character Ask – Fill it out yourself or reblog as is to use as an ask meme. Have fun! <3 So i start to work, but only in short answers :D ————————————— 1. The basics – name, age, etc… Her name is Mya Megles, 28 years young, female and quite normal.

2. Describe their appearance. I would say her hair is dark brown with little bit red. The red you can see in the sun.

3. How do they like to dress? She likes to wear trousers best and a linen shirt. Leather shoes not more. Yaaa.. its not special, but the most comfortable without armor. And dressesonly for nice occasions.

4. Do they have any markings (scars, tattoos, birthmarks)? Hehe.. a heroic scar on the face from a fight with a domestic cat ;D Big scar on the hip and a few small strokes through the birth of son.

5. What are they like? Describe their personality (use whatever tools you like- MBTI, D&D alignment, astrological signs, Hogwarts house, words/phrases): Ouw yes this ancient civilication. They call them starlings, i thing. So the stars are really beautiful, and plants, right. Astrology, Symbols and all this magic things.

6. How would they describe themselves? Mya is a little bit shy, but a happy person. She loves beautiful things such as sunsets, candles and flowery meadows. Just an almost typical woman. As far as trust in others is conserned, she is rather careful, because shes been hurt badly in the past.

7. Education level? On a scale from 1 to 10 she is a 7/8. Mya is a "Bookworm" and reads everything she can get her hands on.

8. What are they proud of in themselves? What are they embarrassed about? Proud? Rather happy to finally be able to decide for yourself about your own life. And possibly ashamed of being laughed at because of their height. Not to be taken seriously. As they are now by most in the Sun Temple ;D

9. Do they know any languages other than Inal? Only Inâl and native language.

10. What, if any, aspects of their mother’s culture influenced them growing up? Mother always sang songs about the old gods, no matter at what time. It always cheered her up. Mya´s forgotten many things in recent events :(

11. Name a song (or a few) that remind you of them. Almost all songs remind me of previous life with my family.

12. Speaking of songs, can they sing? What is their voice like? How about instruments? Mya can sing, but she doesn´t like singing in front of people. She´s got a deep voice for a woman. Hm.. She doesn´t know much about music, and she doesn´t play any instruments.

13. What was their life like before coming to Enderal? Before we noticed the real war, it was a nice quit life with son Kaleb and partner. Since he disappeared and mother died of a serious illnes and old age. She was lonely with son for short time until she met Sirius.

14. How did they decide to leave Nehrim? When Sirius opened Myas eyes to begin a new life. Kaleb (4) was too young to make this journey. With a heavy heart she placed him in a kind of monastery. The abbot knew her and her mother from befor. Now she doesn´t even know if Kaleb is still alive. Not a day goes by without thinking of him. The plan to go to another country came from Sirius. Different perspectives, different opportunities. He never told her how old he was. She suspected he was younger than she was. He had a lot of plans for the new life.

15. Describe their relationship with Sirius. Sirius will always remain Mya´s best friend, or like a brother. He was the only one she could trust after the thing with Kalebs father. Mother said she couldn´t sit in the house forever, she´s still young. So she made contacts with the outside world. They understood each other from the beginning.

16. Who do they blame for what happened to their family? Hmm... fate? The Nehrimese? Why must we always look for fault in others? Perhaps there were reasons for what happened.

17. Apart from stowing away, have they ever broken the law? On the run, Sirius and Mya stole to keep from starving. They couldn´t take much food with them on their journey.

18. How honest are they? Under what circumstances would they lie? She would only lie if the lives of the innocent were at stake. Better to be honest and hurt, than to be dishonest and have a bad conscience.

19. Worst memory(s)? Best memory(s)? Worst: mother on her deathbed with that whitegrey face. When she brought Kaleb to the monastery. Best: Mother always cooked and sang, and everyone laughed. Even Sirus was there. The birth of Kaleb. 20. Fight, or flight? Fight!

21. Describe their combat style. In short words: defensive and with full energy!

22. Have they ever killed before? What is their reaction to combat? She killed, yes. The blood is shocking at first. But it was easier to get through, when you were distracted.

23. How do they react to having magical abilities? Do they use them? Mya uses Restoration- spells after combat. Thats all she can take. She can´t handle potions. Fear of arcanistfever is very real. 24. What do they think of Enderal? Enderal is a beautiful country. Big Forests, great coastlines... The people are a little too much led by their trails. A little limited in their ability to think ahead. :D If she wanted to live in a place like this, it would be the Sunshine coast.

25. Did they do the Biggest Egg Hunt Ever quest? Of course! She got all the eggs Kurmai wanted.

26. How do they feel about joining the Order? What do they think of Arantheal? About the joining the Order, uh... it all happened very quickly. There was no time for Mya to get at least a little bit of information about it. She could have simply accepted smaller tasks, like Jespar. The life of a mercenary. A beautiful title. Myas opinion about Arantheal is very divided: He´s a nice guy, could be Myas grandfather. Strange was only that he put so much responsibility and trust in her. Apart from that she is a foreigner and has no idea. But she soon realized that he was selfish.. The opinions of his advisors were not important to him at all.

27. What is their opinion of the gods (or lack thereof)? The people of Enderal would be better off without the gods. They´d just ahve to learn to turn their own heads. That´s what it´s for. Each man should choose his own path, decide which vocation is best. A mayor or king would be quite sufficent for rules.

28. Wine, or pipe? Both! More wine, less pipe. Mya´s only weakness.

29. Do they spare or arrest Hallys, the farmer-turned-bandit in the quest, Deus Ex Machina? Why? Arrest him! He puts his own life before that of 100 poor people. The family should go to the food bank itself. If they´re not too proud.

30. What are their feelings and opinions about the Undercity? Mya´s disappointed about the undercity. The roads are destroyed. The "houses" aren´t even made of stone. It stinks everywhere. In the uppercity not a word is spoken about it. This is no life for a human being. If Mya could, and had the means, she would change so much. Not to see herself in a better light, but to prevent suffering. At least for the children or the sick.

31. How do they react to the beggars of Ark? When Mya sees a beggar, she supports him/her. Either with food or coins.

32. Where and how do they spend their time when in Ark? She´s home a lot. Sometimes in the dancing nomad with Jespar, when he has time. When Mya needs her rest, she also goes to Undercity in the Tavern.

33. What would they do with three wishes? Good Question. She would save them for important moments.

34. How do they feel about death? Do they fear it? Fear death? No, he´ll come one day anyway. Or if you´re not careful.

35. What (else) do they fear? Mya´s afraid of spiders. Big, hairy spiders... Fear of heights.

36. Do they have any secrets? Secrets, yes... Everyone has their secrets... :P

37. How is their behavior around people they like? People they dislike? If one of her loved ones needs help, she is there. But when she really likes someone, she shows it with little gestures and specific word. If she does not like someone at all, she tries to avoid them as much as possible. For example Natara.

38. What is their relationship with the companions? Who, if anyone, did your prophet romance? It´s difficult. Mya was initially very fascinated by Jespar. He is a good friend. Both have the same view of freedom and relationships. It is always an adventure to travel with him. He always has something to say. But Mya is not sure if she wants to start a romance with him.   As for Calia, besides Arantheal, she was the only person of the holy order who talked to her normally. She´s like a sister. Unfortunately, she is too devoted to her sacred duties. So spending time with her is very difficult. In herself a beautiful woman and very trustworthy, but not suitable for a romance. Now Esme: She doesn´t really know anything about Esme. She is a nice girl yes, but she is too attached to her partner. Esme and Mya finished a mission together, but when they finally met at the Tower, there was not much to talk about. The ways parted. Let us come to Tharael.. If Mya had never entered the arena, she never would have met him. In short words: He´s an asshole, but one with good intentions. Mya always wonderes if he had ever seen the uppercity. In all his conversations, everything he said referred to the Undercity, the father and the bad sides of the people. He definitely needs to relax. ;) Finally Dijam. A very strong personality, very dominant. The meeting with her were pleasant. But Mya can´t imagine spending a few days with her. Dijam is always convinced of her opinion, so Mya would never dare to speak her own mind. It would definitely lead to a fight. Currently, there is no Romance with Mya.

39. Was there any non-companion character that they were close to? That they particularly disliked? + Konstantin was an old unfriendly guy, but still quite cool. If Mya was interested in magic, he could be her mentor. She´s still wondering, was he like that in Nehrim? -Natara didn´t even knoe Mya and thougt she was going to be judged. Does she really think that Mya chose this path?

40. How do they feel about myrads? They are respectful animals. Loveable if domesticated, as the keeper said. Mya prefers the horse because of her fear of heights.

41. What dreams or ambitions did they have before coming to Enderal? What about afterwards? She never had big dreams. Just a simple life with her son.  Now her only dream is not to be alone and see Kaleb again. Maybe there are bigger dreams and Mya just doesn´t know it yet.

42. Do they like cities? Or do they prefer the country? Is there a region of Enderal that they like or dislike more than the others? It´s too loud in the city. Life in the country is much more relaxed. The suncoast was impressive from the beginning...

43. What do they do to lower their considerable stress? When Mya comes home after a mission, cooking something or meditating by the fireplace.

44. Describe their perfect day off. There are so many things you can do. Like take a bath in a water hole. Or lying on a flower meadow by the lake with a good book.

45. List three of their favorite things. Three things they hate? Her favourite things are her books. She likes listening to other people´s stories. Wine!.. hehe What she does not like are loud noises, ignorance and bad food :D

46. What’s in their pockets? Oh it varies from trip to trip. Myas diary is always with her. A few coins. Food. Everything you find interesting on a mission.

47. Pets? Mounts? Treasured possessions? A cat that always hides in the house. Then there is Hurricane the horse. Myas prized possessions are her books. Nothing about material things is more important to her.

48. How are their cooking skills? For regular food, Mya cooks very well. She learned that from her mother. She likes to bake things.

49. Do you consider any particular quest or side quest to be definitive for your prophet? Which one(s) and why? Every secondary task that involves making decisions is difficult for her.

50. How forgiving are they? For example, if they were yelled at in a brothel after searching high and low for this little sh*t, how would they react? Hm. It depends on what situation Mya´s in. If she sees a boy steal an apple, it´s her. But if she sees someone taking money from the poor. Then Mya´s not forgiven. (Hallys)

51. What do they think of the Veiled Woman? The first time, Mya thought she was in another dream. Whether she´s s ghost or a god, it doesn´t matter. When the veiled woman really plays a major role in this matter, why can´t she help? It will always be a mystery. She has no opinion for her. She doesn´t show herself enough.

52. If they had been a victim of one of the black stones, how would it have affected them? What would they have used its power to accomplish? Similar to little Rhyneus, she would have created a world as it was before. When everyone was alive and with her. Sirius, Mother, Kaleb,... In the end she would go crazy, because it´s all up to her wishes.

53. What was their reaction to the Black Guardian’s revelations? Do they accept or reject his offer? Even though it all sounds very lgical what the black guard says, she refused. The reason is: If he really comes out of that device/Goliath( How ever;)), the whole thing would start all over again. He would be a "god", yes. People would be subservient. And as it was depicted in the Star City, it would all happen again. Over and over.

54. How does their story end? With Mya, the story will never end. All solutions have good and bad sides. If she doesn´t start the purification and the construction of the beacon, everything is fine. All her loved ones stay alive.

55. Do they change over the course of the story? In what ways? No.

56. Anything else you’d like to share about them? At this moment, not no.

I am not a big writer but... enjoy it, please :D Big Thanks for @enderalappreciationblog

[paninimaker]

I wanna rant a bit bc i studder and like,,,

So yes, i studder sometimes, i dont intend to fix it because i usually can talk without studdering but sometimes i just studder, and even when i do nobody really comments on it, i actually joke about it being like 'wait gimmi a sec' do i can actually talk (i usually studder when im talking about something i like because im excited, but it can be triggered by other things too)

But then theres my sibling, lets call them S (My Sister can be Si but she really wasnt in the wrong here)

So i was trying to explain that i found it annyoing that in Sims 4 i wouldnt make it so my sims clothing preference was both (i was making Zim and i gave him a skirt) but since i enjoy Sims and Invader Zim i was having a hard time getting my words out

I heres what i said (putting it in script form bc its easier for me that way)

Me: So i was- so i was (those were my exact words, and yes repeating stuff is occasionally studdering for me, the worst time its happened is when i was trying to get Jason to watch camp camp but i was getting excited about it cuz i loved camp camp at the time, and i was repeating short sentences over and over again, but Jason being the cool lad he is actually understood me and helped me say what i wanted to say)

S and Si, in a mocking way: [repeats what i said, trying to make fun of me]

Me, deciding not to continur my sentence because i couldnt even get past 3 words:

S, still in a joking way: aww, no continue

Me, not wanting to:

So that was the first thing, and btw we were having icecream at night with our mum and there were a couple strangers around so not only was the studdering part embarrassing for me, but the whole asking why i wouldnt continue part was embarrassing too, like

So after a bit of shopping, we were in the car going home, me and S being in the back of the car

S decided to start making fun of my studdering thing again

Me: hah, stop please

S: why, i always make fun of [Si's name] the same ammount as you

Me: i know but please stop (ill admit i did sound like i was joking)

S: [now mocking me and Si while i keep saying 'yeah but please stop']

Finally our mum stopped us by saying '[S's name] stop, Sam is genuinly asking you to stop'

They stopped after that, and we quickly moved onto some family gossip

But like,,

S also deals with studders when theyre nervous, and when theyre really excited (like me but not as much) so they should know what its like to be mocked

And i never mock them because of their mental state, but they always mock me and Si (btw S is the middle child, im the youngest) even though they should knoe that both our mental states arnt the best (Si tecently coming out of voluntary mental health stay and me going to a psych evaluation very soon) and they know that my studdering and saying stuff wrong (i also accidentally pronounce stuff wrong all the time, like asethetic (i pronounce it as a-stetic and i physically cannot pronounce it in any other way) is a big insecurity for me, as i usually say 'oh i cant say that/stop that'

And this is the only area where ive asked them to stop mocking me and they havent listened, with all the other places they respect my boundaries

But studdering and pronouncing things inncorectly are some of my biggest insecurities

Btw of someone tells me how to properly pronounce something and i try that but sometimes i physically cant, which i tell them and they are respectful (and i wanna meantion that i go to school with dick heads but none of them make fun of something the person has specifically asked them to stop making fun of, and no i dont get made fun of)

But like

If someone studders, ever, dont mock them for it, no matter how close you are. You can occasionally poke fun of it, but if they ask you to stop you stop

For e.g, Jason sometimes pokes fun at my way of saying things, and i do it back to him, and we both understand that we arnt going to relentlessly mock eachother for it, and if we stari poking fun of something the other is insecure about then the other will tell them and they will stop (which usually dosnt happen as we have almost the same insecurities), but then with S, i never poke fun at their studder but they relentlessly mock mine even when i ask them to stop

Idk, sometimes it annoys me

But yeah, so if you meet me irl (please dont unless we organize it first, which mosylikely wont happen) i will most likely pronounce stuff weird or studder

Btw im also poked fun at by my whole family for saying american things (stuff like 'gas station') but that's all good

[imfantastic04-blog]

Unpopular Kpop opinions

This was a script for a video that i was lazy to make so i thought of posting it here :

Excuse any video terms or references

Hey there it's your boiiii, never have I expected to remember this channel existed but oh well. Hope yall are doing great I guess. Well considering the fact that I am an atttention seeker and for some reason this trend didn't due yet… Y'all we are doing an unpopular K-pop oppinion video “cue the confetti” no confetti for me ? Okay I guess

Anyway warning, disclaimer, disclosure whatever u want to call it I guess … technically I shouldn't do this cuz u have prob watched 1 or 2 unpopular K-pop opinion vid but oh well ; Anyway Ill do it anyways ; I'm not trying to offend anyone, if you are offended I appologize before even starting and if u have a different opinion that's okay share in the comment section. Okay yall ?? Let's start them

Considering the fact that RV is my ult group I should start with them cuz I have opinions

1. Sassy me should've been the title track for their November comeback. I have prob listened to Sassy me a million time more than RBB cuz issa bop and low-key sounds like it wouldve been an amazing title track. That chorus tho whew.. but oh well stream RBB

2. RV needs more rap lines similar to ICC and red flavor but on a velvet concept that would be liiiit and Russian Roulette is their best song… fight me

Enough of red velvet now

3. I miss bts's old style.

I know I knoe they matured they couldn't comeback to being students in love.  But honestly I really really enjoy their “The Most Beautiful Moment in Life” era

I can listen to Young Forever (the repackaged ver.) on repeat all day, it is by far their best album and I love it

4. Mamamoo are queens of concepts. Thats all I can say . No explanation needed. Stream GOGOBEBE

5. Fanwars are dumb ; ouf I have to include this one but srsly. Fighting a fandom and bashing an artist doesn't make your fav better you are just showing to the world how toxic K-pop fandoms can be.. not only are u attacking ppl and offending them but also destroying K-pop image in general. If a non Kpop  artist saw how toxic y'all are, their will be no collabs with your fav. Think twice before fighting a fandom and bashing a group for literally no reasons. And that is the reason I quit Twitter haha

6. Tempo is better than love shot and Call me baby is still their best song.. again “it's my opinion”

7. Asking for a girl crush concept for twice is like asking for a pizza with brokoli. Wait is there a pizza with brokoli ? Wait there is !! Is it good ? I need to try it

Forget that, I can't think of twice in a girl crush concept at all and I think they are better off with what they are doing now. I'm excited for their April comback

8. Also BTS paved the way. I don't get why you guys are even arguing. Sure other K-pop acts tried opening the doors to the west, like PSY, SNSD, wonder girls and others oh yeah Sunmi is the one starting this debate just because she said it was BTS not her former group but you are bashing her like. Sorry but this doesn't make sense to me at all

9. Whistle is BP best song to date. Rap/visual/vocals and instruments are on point. But underrated

10. Mamamoo's fandom is the friendlier. What did u expect from a group always having fun and being them selves?

11. There is nothing as the worst / best Kpop entertainment company. Each one has it's strong suits and weak point. They all focus on the business side so I don't know why you guys are comparing

If a company is strong on something it is weak on something else.

That's all for today. If someone commented to make a part 2 I would absolutely do it haha agn attention seeker

Jokes aside if u have different opinion, the comment is welcoming you and let's all have a pieceful mature convo in there. Piece

Ma'am im hungry

[gwen-ever]

This is very well done, made it even better when you see the extended edition of Lotr. But i have two points which are for me the biggest differences between both of both of them and why one had to die and one the other didnt (talking about the movieverse even if also in the book Thorin death is still for me the worst catarsis of all time... as in the movies.)

Boromir if full of himself, but like a lot, even in that little scene in Minas Tirith we can see it. If we think about Thorin in Boromir situation, so as he would be a part f the company Thorin would have never said such things or do other things, he would have never, ever, think to take the ring for himself of for Erebor, because he knows the risk, he would have know. Yeah Boromir knew but since the first second we see him on screen we already know what he is thinking and what will be the tragedy that will strike. He is depicted as an “anthagonist” since the first second. With thorin there is no such a thing, in the movie its something really unexpected, he was full of himself but only to get what he wanted, infact he was just proud and stubborn (in the movies). He basically becomes Boromir during dragosickness because they (screenwriters) had to give us a good reason to kill him....but it didnt work... as in the book...same with Fili and Kili. (but it is a topic for the future, and something that i need to expell to the world so maybe i will write something about it). If we think about it also Thranduil had to die as Bard, they were waaaaay more unreasonable than Thorin was in the first place, they were as greedy as them. To me in the movies, he is a mix of Aragorn and Boromir, like the perfect mix, not too perfect,not too bad.

As i said i can see like some points in common, but they approach to some things differently. I think that if Thorin had lived in Erebor for his whole life yeah maybe they could been even more similar, but Thorin acts in some ways because he never had one, a home to defend. As RA said he is a dying spark, Boromis if a full ass blaze.

lol

So...I wish to hear the parallels.

OH IM SO GLAD YOU ASKED, HOW PLEASANTLY UNEXPECTED (/s /j)

Ok so I’ve seen too many posts comparing Thorin and Aragorn. I mean I get it?? But it’s surface level compared to Boromir and Thorin. The first is a given; both Aragorn and Thorin are lost kings. They’re also not the main protagonist (Frodo/Sam and Bilbo respectively) but they’re still pretty significant characters. That, and having dead parents is abt as far as it goes for me. (If anyone has any more im happy to hear them.)

However, Boromir and Thorin’s storylines and characters as a whole are so similar it’s crazy.

We’re gonna bulletpoint this bitch. Just off the top of my head:

Boromir and Thorin are sons of rulers. Now I know what you’re gonna say. “What’s Aragorn then, just some bum that everyone liked well enough to hand over the Throne of Gondor to? Did you not read the book at all??” Again, going back to the “lost king” idea. I know. But the thing is, Denethor and Thrain we’re still ruling over their people; a people that had once been renowned in Middle Earth for their might, majesty, wealth and knowledge but have since “sunken low” through some form of great catastrophe. For the dwarves of Erebor it was Smaug and the loss of their home and riches, for Minas Tirith it was decades of constant battle with the growing strength of Mordor. Both Boromir and Thorin lived through it (or in Boromir’s case, had been exposed to it his entire life) and watched their fathers and their people as this was happening. Aragorn has seen some of this, true, but it wasn’t as personal and the times when he did witness a part of it, he was really just a passerby. There’s emphasis put on the fact that the line of kings (of which Aragorn is a descendant) was broken well before his time.

Next, their arcs are very similar as well. Both, after watching the steady decline of their once might people, are made aware of a chance to restore it and end their people’s suffering. They go on long journeys trying to fulfill this goal (though aiding Gondor is more of a secondary goal in FOTR, it’s still a goal (Elrond, Aragorn and Boromir even vaguely make a plan in the books for Aragorn and Boromir to go to Minas Tirith, and it’s also part of the reason why Elrond agrees for Boromir to be a part of the Fellowship), and Boromir’s main motivation for even going with them in the first place). As the journey goes on, you can feel their sense of urgency to make it back. Thorin has a physical deadline, Durin’s Day, whereas Boromir knew the dire situation Minas Tirith was in and wanted to make it back to make sure there was even a city left to save. Although Thorin manages to physically make it back to his home in his lifetime, both die before their goals are completed.

Which brings me to my next point: their deaths play a big part in redeeming them. As we know, Thorin is overtaken by dragon sickness, which as we understand it is extreme greed beyond ones control. It’s interesting, because that’s also how we come to understand the effects of the Ring too. One could even go as far as to say that dragon sickness is like the effects of the ring, only less extreme at its end stages and being caused by different things. You see both Thorin and Boromir feeling the effects of that greed akin to illness early on in their journeys, and it appears to worsen slowly but steadily until the very end, when both seem to snap. Thorin does this by going back on his promises to the men of Esgaroth and being (partially but significantly) responsible for starting the Battle of the Five Armies. They even have a more personal episode with them and the main protagonist of their respective stories. Thorin, upon finding out Bilbo stole then gave the Arkenstone to his enemies, attacks him. Boromir attacks Frodo in an attempt to get the Ring in Parth Galen. It seems to be fleeting, because both also seem to snap out of it soon/immediately after. This also comes just before their deaths.

Once again, their death arcs are almost the same. Upon snapping out of it, they realize the wrongs they’ve done and immediately try to make amends, by stepping up and doing what seems right. Thorin does this by coming to the aid of Dain, the Men of Esgaroth and the Elves of Mirkwood, and providing much needed support. For Boromir, it comes by helping to search for Frodo. Then, by following and protecting Merry and Pippin. Both ultimately lead to their deaths.

When they die, they both have had time to think over their wrongs and prepare a sort of confession. In the books, it’s said Boromir was laying there dying “for no small amount of time” before Aragorn finally found him. Thorin was the same before Bilbo was lead to him. Then they give this final confession, stating their specific wrongs and begging for forgiveness. Aragorn and Bilbo do forgive them, and they give a final farewell before taking their last breath. Though both were tragic, they were crucial to their redemption.

Finally, their personalities are incredibly similar. (maybe it’s because of how similar their storylines were, who would have thought?) Boromir and Thorin are both very honor driven, having strong moral codes that guide their decisions. For example, in the book, part of what gets Thorin to not kill Bilbo is Gandalf reminding him of all Bilbo had done to help him get there the first place. I can’t remember specifics for Boromir off the top of my head, but I’d argue that it’s still very present in his character. Both have seen many battles. This links to their sense of honor. They also value loyalty. (This one is probably a bit of a reach, but they’re also distrustful of elves. I say this because of how Boromir is in Lothlorien, especially after Galadriel does her mental test thing with the Fellowship when they first arrive.) Both also are bound by a sense of duty to their people and their ancestors. You could say they also hold a deep sense of nostalgia and pride for the former glory of their homes.

Granted, they have their differences, but those dwarf (sorry) in comparison to their similarities. I should also note that this is just off the top of my head. I’m sure if I looked harder I’d find more. It makes me wonder sometimes if Tolkien made them so similar on purpose, or if it influenced his decision to change Boromir’s storyline from a traitor that sides with the enemy (like Saruman) to that of an otherwise noble hero brought down by an antagonistic element in the story.

But yeah. There you go.

[momtaku]

SnK Chapter 91 Poll

I’ll be closing the chapter 91 poll tomorrow, so this is your last chance if you’d like to chime in.

Take the Poll

I’ve gotten 350+ responses thus far and tbh these results are the most interesting I’ve seen in terms of lack of consensus. 134 people have left their chapter thoughts, I’ll share a bunch of those below the read more. My favorite is listed first :)

*patrick star voice* WHO ARE YOU PEOPLE

If Levi is taking down the beast titan and he finds out that not only is Zeke already dead, but his replacement is a weak-brows version of Erwin, I really hope it gives him pause.  That could be such a heartbreaking, earth shattering moment for him and I hope Yams handles it right.

GABI! Just Gabi. She's perfect

Timeskips should be illegal

Seeing the extent of Marleyan brainwashing was exceedingly well done.

Imagine how the poor kid that inherited "Cartman" felt like upon learning that that thing was their award for winning the marleyan hunger games.

Very unexpected change of character view from our beloved heroes to their"enemy"'s point of view. But I also think it's come at a good time in the overall SnK storyline...let's not forget that the walled society probably has no records on how to build ships or sail on the sea.

Can someone just tell Isayama‚ preferably someone close to him so the message gets across‚ that this isnt how trench warfare fucking worked? WW1 didn't have pre-teen, half-naked Genki girls hopping over trenches, tossing dynamite sticks at armored trains. This chapter destroyed my suspension of disbelief beyond repair.

I liked we got more info about Marley, but the fact that Isayama isn't willing to confirm Ymir and Annie's fate is getting a bit annoying

I thought this chapter was actually pretty cool. I've fallen hopelessly in love with Gabi! Fingers crossed that Annie gets the f*** outta that crystal soon though!

The time skip was needed for story progression but a lot of important questions and interactions were skipped in terms of character development. I just hope we get some of them in flashbacks and not have them completely disregarded don't care about the new characters, but I'm okay as long as they don't take so much screen time and we can go back to our main cast soon enough

I honestly dislike how Isayama uses these new characters to show us what Marley and being a warrior is like, instead of showing us RBA and Zeke's past :(

I think the after-chapter freakout was a big overreaction. I mean we could kinda forsee the direction the manga was going to take after we learnt about the whole Marley/Eldia thing.

After reading the full chapter and talking to someone else about it, I feel better about the timeskip. This chapter made me feel for RBA more, because they must've started out like Gabi and the rest. I only hope that those kids don't have the same fate (but considering that it is snk, it's likely that they are going to suffer lbs). I'm just worried about the 104th and what's been going on with them. They've all grown, and Eren and Armin are closer to their death now :( I don't think I would've had a problem with the time skip if it wasn't for the 13 year thing. But overall, I'm pretty optimistic with where the story is going. I trust Isayama with his story telling. I just have to prepare myself in case of the worst.

Warriors were cool. That's what I consider to be AoT. But without actual Titans, it's just not as interesting. Neither are the WW1 vibes. I just want titans back.

I thought this was a pretty good world building chapter (despite the jarring time skip), especially since we've been waiting many chapters to see this place.  I don't ADORE these new characters, I'm more intrigued, which is better then hating them.  This is also a good set up chapter.  I'm interested to see if Reiner will interact with these new characters.  Since they look so similar to the 104th (design and personality), will he constantly be reminded of his past relationships with them?  Plus, will he see some of himself in them (specifically Gabi) and through them reminding of himself we'll see his backstory?  And is he going to just except his fate and get eaten, or be like "Screw this, nope, not dealing with it."

"WHAT" was legitimately the keyword for this chapter but I trust Isayama with the story and with our heroes+ I hope we'll get to see the Jaegers reunion before anything bad happens to Zeke...

Gabi is such a badass, omg, do you see it Eren? This is how you gettting out of horrible situations!

This chapter has really grown on the more times I read it.

Really enjoyed the way the characters were presented. It gives the reader the chance to see Marley's side of things without being forced to have a story-generated opinion on them (aka screaming at us to hate them) because quite frankly, I was rooting for those Warrior kids to succeed with their plan!

I think it is a very unusual way to tell a story,  however I also feel this could work for the best.... I think this time skip can actually go a long way towards making the coming conflict realistic. Rather than our protagonists taking them on with nothing but grit, hope and friendship, we have the possibility of them having actual time to prepare. I think this might lead to a battle between Marley and the people of Paradis that will be more evenly matched, and most importantly, realistic in how that happened.

i like the much needed change in perspective

While this chapter was certainly not a bad one, I only wished that more of the spotlight was on the original characters, seeing that there's only a few more arcs before the end of the series.

Dammit you Gabi! Fresh Face, Fresh Outlook in Life and Cute! I want to cosplay as her!

Next chapter : Gabi's underwear vs Survey Corps hundred of casualties.

UGH. This is no longer the story I used to enjoy. It's deliberately shifted from inspiring, against-all-odds heroism to a pile of absurdist, everything-is-relative garbage determined to prove that our 'heroes' are no more heroic than their opposition. If I wanted to be slapped in the face with a message of humanity's grayscale depravity, I'd read the news, thanks. :( I'm probably done with new chapters at this point, this isn't what I signed up for :P

I understand why the story is going in this direction and why it makes sense to skip three years...but I feel like we're moving further from our emotional center of the series, like the characters we love and their reactions to recent events.  I'm also concerned about the dwindling lifespans of Armin, Eren, and Reiner.  So I'm excited but scared for the changes our kids have gone through in three years...wish we could've seen it but I get why it's not feasible.  The world is cruel....:'(

if i pretend that this is a new manga i just started, it's interesting I guess. Wish we could have seen the warriors story from the Titan Trio's Pov. The fact that we get these new kids instead tells me that they will be sticking around. Not sure whether my investment in the story will ever go back beyond mjpopcorn.gif if that's the case.

I will like this chapter, but only if Isayama concludes this story with a good twist, that is. If not, chapter 91 will in my opinion be the beginning of the end (end in a bad way).

In the four year time skip, it could have been possible for the sc to build a ship (or multiple ships) which is good enough to cross the ocean with. Which leads me to think that the main characters will cross the ocean in some of the next chapters.

This chapter shows the bigger picture. what to come & what was in plan for years. This is the real thing now.

This was obviously a set-up chapter for things to come, but unfortunately I found it to be dull except for the part where they talk about the mission in the wall. That's all I care about, and this chapter did nothing to make me care for the plight of Marley and whatever stupid war they have to deal with.

Part of me wants to say that some key characteristics about Gabi not only resemble Eren or a younger version of him, but may also express some of the characteristics Isayama originally wanted to use for Eren when he considered making him female (I mean, Gabi even has nearly the exact same hair style as fem!Eren). But although they both are quite similar in a sense and could have had potential of being even more similar, until you reach a certain degree, they split in very different directions. Gabi tends to appear significantly more childish and carefree in the sense that everything is a game, while Eren has always been quite serious and often characterized as "angry". She and Eren both make similar reckless decisions and both speak similar dialogue, but they're quite different at the core based on assumable experiences and the environments they grew up in.

There are so much new good elements, I hope Isayama will do well 'cause the story is really interesting. Aside from that, the fact that Eldians (Gabi&Co) seem to enjoy fighting with their oppressor is disturbing, it's like a Stockholm syndrome...so different from Grisha and the revolutionist but to me they're all too radicals. Can't wait to knoe more about other nations

While there were definitely aspects that deserve creation (for instance we all know the amnesia thing was lazy writing) but overall I don't think the chapter was bad. I think the kids' unrealistic attitudes in battle was purposeful juxtaposition to the way our main cast has experienced war--it shows the extent of the brainwashing (I don't think it's that Isa is unable to consistently portray war's effects on people in a realistic way, like some claim). I'm wary but I think the story could be taken in some interesting directions. It would be really interesting to be reintroduced to our main characters through the eyes of the new ones, especially if our heroes come storming in like enemies--really playing into the moral grayness.

Time skip means we will see older version of the main characters and that's both exciting and terrifying af

One can only hope that Isayama graces us with Levi wearing a ponytail after this.

I was waiting for the story to explain what's going on the other side of the ocean. But not from these "copy and pasted" brats. Reiner is seen in just one panel and Zeke is barely mentionned. That's a shame.

I'm not buying the racial war yet. Grisha's sisters death was a stand out moment where I actually felt the horror of the war/racial conflict. So I have faith Isayama still has some gut punches left. But the clunky worldbuilding and shallow new characters are just not doing it for me. Isayama needs to invest in character moments because the human war narrative he has going right now doesn't have enough nuance or intrigue to stand on its own as of right now. This new outside of the walls world isn't immersive enough yet. Thanks momtaku for having these polls! They are always fun. :-)

I personally don't like Gabi that much. She put herself in danger, and I'm sure Marley would prefer to have someone much more tactical, or at least someone who doesn't put their whole life/operation in danger by pulling some silly stunt in hopes of getting noticed. I thought it was a very risky thing to do. But that's just my opinion.

meh

[babbletop]

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[elhagyott-plussmaci]

You know what?

This is my Tumblr. My feelings. My thoughts.

I just can't do this anymore. I just want everything to stop. The school. My friends. My family. Everything. I can't handl with this. You think I'm happy. You think I'm happy because I have a big loving family, I don't have problems because I've got everything. Yeah. I get, what I need. But you don't see my hole life. You don't see how our family works. I love them. More than anything. I would do anything for them. But when they don't get you. They don't understand you. They don't notice that they are hurting you. It's ok. I get used to it. But it's still hurting. Sometimes I just lie on my bed and listen to some music and think and cry. What about? I don't know. About anything little. Maybe I have somthing in my memory that just pop up. Maybe the song is sad. Maybe both. But, you know what hurting me? The worst. That somebody I love, don't love me back. I undersand him. I totally understand him. How could anybody love me? I'm a nothing. Nothing with feelings. So so many feelings. Most of the time, neither I understand them. Anyway. He is in love with someone else. But, I know he feels something for me. Or maybe I just hope it. He hurts me. It is not his fault. Maybe he even doesn't know. Maybe I am the one who is super-sensitive. I don't understand him. I think I never will. I wnat him in my life. But i can not stop love him. He doesn't belive me.

If you read this, I love you. But I understand. You don't. You love her. You live for her. I'm out. Just please, stop doing things like.. You know what things I am talking about. You are in my heart. You will always have a part of it. You are a really important and special person to me. Please don't live me. I am the same person I was. I am here for you, if you need me. I don't know what is next but I hope we can handl with that.

I am just lying on my bed. I have to write. I don't know what, but I have to. I would write about my feelings but I am empty. Actually I knoe that I am not. But I feel empty. No music. No tv. No chat. Nothing. It is just me, and my Tumblr. I think nobody will read it. Maybe I won't post it. I don't know. I am not sure.

I just want to be at home. With my little phone. With my music. With my cigarettes. No. Not here. Not this home. The place where I really feel home. Just go out to the lake. Sit there for a while. And then if I want, go home. Just a fee days. I just want to cry out myself. Just cry and shout and sing and drink until I feel better. Just go and don't know anything about the world. I would see how many people care. How many friends would worry about me.

Nevermind. It was good to write. Feel a little bit better. I think I can sleep now. Goodnight.