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Oookay here are my final thoughts written out a little clearer than they were late last night lol:
- it feels pointed and a little sad that silna's name is only revealed in the final episode. The men are content to just assign her an identity and dont think further of it, which i think speaks to the wider attitude towards the land itself, and its people.
- expanding on that point i love how we see crozier latch onto her real name immediately. I think at some point close to the end it becomes obvious that he's abandoned his previous identity/life, his sympathies seem to lie with the inuit and he understands that killing the tuunbaq is cause for sadness. I think the fact that he's irish (so as i pointed out a few times his relation to the empire is a little different) is relevant here and to his general development.
- again relevant to the last point, it sounds crazy to say bc it was SO bleak but i also think episode 10 was just as full, if not moreso, of kindness. In the end crozier is motivated almost entirely by an unselfish desire to remain by the sides of his men - who are less his men at this point and more his friends, beloved companions. Brothers even, in fitzjames' case. Im not sure if at that point he truly thought they would live through it but not once does he think of letting someone die alone or abandoned. He sits with the final man alive as he dies, and comforts him. Goodsir dies thinking of the beauty of the world around him, and an unfailing belief that the world is good. I said before that the men think the land evil for rejecting them, but goodsir manages to surpass this. Even though jopson dies thinking crozier betrayed their friendship ('friendship' lol that man was in LOVE) - which transcended their naval positions, crozier DOES go back to him - we spend time watching him mourn, and that matters. The show chooses to focus again and again on the intimacy - in contrast to the animosity - that develops between certain characters, an intimacy that provides them comfort at the end. Crozier goes through what is almost a symbolic death - telling the men who come after that everyone is dead and theres no passage through, sacrificing his old life to stop any more men from following in their footsteps and causing further damage to the people living there, as well as themselves. That being said at this point he is a different person, and i dont thinm he could have returned even if he had wanted to. His end is gentle, and contemplative.
- through crozier and hickey we see the two directions you can go in after having made such a fatal error of hubris; you can learn from your mistakes, let it shape you and make you a better person, or you can remain blind, and let pride consume you (in the form of a bear ha ha get fucked mr hickey). And that idea of letting go of pride and allowing yourself to be shaped by the world around you is relevant i think because the terror and erebus were like thorns in the side of the land they were encroaching upon, because the expedition was about conquest for the british empire, about bending the land around you to your will. Until you get to a place that refuses to be bent. And so the choice is either to throw away pride or die. So in a way this environment is kind of perfect for examining empire, how it impacts identity, and what these men decide to define themselves by in the face of death. So its very fitting that it end with the swan song, that was a super cool detail.
- Not showing what happened to the men left on the boats is kind of worse because you just have to imagine based on what you've already seen🧍♂️
- on the topic of kindness again, i love the way they killed hickey so much. It strips empire (the values of which it seemed to me he came to represent) of its power, saying you can beat down and damage this place (the tuunbaq) all you want, but it will never be yours. And his actual death is so quick, like a footnote to the rest of the episode. The highest punishment for a man like him is inconsequence.
- not analysis but if anyone has any thoughts on jopson's death i would be very interested to hear them bc i was WEEPING. It felt very much informed by class commentary to me which definitely lines up with the other stuff but i just loved the imagery of him crawling across the table so much OUUGHH that poor man. Sir john franklin i hate u so much.
- I think its so hard to watch also because you know that they - for the most part, though some of this was the unfortunate result of a single man's actions - did it to themselves. THEY did this and there's so much shame in their deaths, so much waste. Leaving each other behind out of cowardice and desperation, taking the easiest route out only to end up dying just the same. Causing yet more suffering and all for nothing (thinking of jopson again 💔). But a lot of them learn to be better, and thats worse! Its so much worse because this is what it took and its too late!
- i was kind of getting the impression of some parallels to satan/god(or christ) in terms of the hickey/crozier dichotomy? Like crozier 'loves his men more than god' and forgiving everyone and just sort of being a neverending well of love in the end vs. hickey turning the men against each other through fear, literally whispering evil shit in their ears, inciting them to violence. Murdering everyone within arms reach. Im not religious so i dont really trust my judgement on this but it felt like kind of an interesting point? Idk
- the fact that its the british empire sending a bunch of guys (mostly working class sailors) to the arctic and as a result fucking up the natural food supply and being forced to cannibalise each other is just so good like its SO good. This is one of those stories that would probably be harder to fuck up than to get right bc of how much it just objectively works. Like the titanic. Imagine failing to make the titanic story into a warning about the evils of hubris and wealth.
- small detail but when crozier first got to the netsilik camp there was a shot of a child running scared into a tent. The last time we see crozier there is a child lying contentedly at his side as he hunts seal (previously mentioned as taking years to learn), which is such a lovely contrast.....He let himself be shaped.........
- i will be watching this vicariously through my sister as soon as possible like i need to rewatch this within the week or i'll go crazy probably
- i just remembered today it was fitzjames' jawbone they found with evidence of cannibalism congrats to 'The Terror' (2018) for having the gift of prophecy i guess
And that wraps up all the notes i made! This has definitely become one of my favourite shows of all time, i've been thinking about it all week and also i have some cool ideas for artworks jotted down so keep your eyes peeled👁👁
THE TERROR LIVEPOST HAPPENING NOW🫵🫵
#the terror#the terror livepost#longposting#hope everyone enjoyed my rambling#this show is incredible if ur seeing this pleeeeeaaaase watch it please please please ple#also these threads are just my immediate thoughts as they come#so theyre kind of scattered lol. sorry about that#i read over them and try to make them as coherent as possible
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I cant help but notice that quiet a lot of people who dont like Zuko and/or Uncle Iroh happen to be Azula stans. Now I am the last person to put everyone in a Box because that sucks so I want to make clear that I am not putting every Person who like her with these Kind of people.
But it gives me an icky feeling when they somehow make Azula the victim and Zuko the abuser when it was very clearly the other way around (never read the Comic but in my humble opinion there is nothing Zuko could do or say that would even be close to the abuse he suffered from Azula).
Also somehow giving Iroh crap when All he does during the show is protecting Zuko from Azula and only calling her crazy and she needs to go down after she almost kills him
Kinda a rant but I just blocked one of these Zuko hating Azula loving Accounts because due to the Zuko Tag they repeat to show up on my feed and it was nagging at me.
I would love to hear your thoughts on that matter. (Sorry if you already talked about it)
I don't like putting people in boxes either, but the tumblr fandom is infested with Azula stans, and what I've found is that if you scratch almost anyone with a bad take, they will turn out to be an Azula stan. Funnily enough, when people say the fandom is toxic, they don't mention this. But it isn't a surprise that people who are fandom bullies with victim complexes overidentify with a character like Azula and that they dominate the conversation. They even have been known to use sock puppet blogs to make themselves seem like their numbers are larger than they are and that many people agree with their opinions. It's just a shame because she's such a great character, but the discourse around her has been shaped by these people.
When Azula stans say that Zuko or Iroh are really the abuser, they're engaging in classic DARVO behavior: deny, attack, reverse victim and offender. It's a common abuser tactic to make the victim think that they are actually the abuser or that they have some kind of mutual abuse dynamic. I've read The Search, where most of those accusations against Zuko come from, and as badly written as that comic is, it pretty accurately depicts this kind of abusive relationship. Azula accuses Zuko of mistreating her because she no longer has complete power over him like she did before. Ozai also does the same thing to Zuko in The Promise. And the kicker is that even from her diminished position, Azula still has psychological power over Zuko, which is how she's able to convince Zuko that he's mistreating her in the first place. Zuko believes Azula because he's been subjected to this crap his whole life and is terrified of being like his abusers. Essentially, the reason he falls for Azula's attempts to convince him that he is like her is because he is not like her. Azula is able to convince Zuko to let her go free and trusts her under the guise of giving her "dignity" when she's actually been lying to him and manipulating him the whole time, along with insulting and degrading him and putting him and his friends in danger.
Iroh's great sin is that he won't let Azula harm Zuko, yes, but also, like Zuko, the reason he is hated by these people is because he got redemption and Azula didn't. Sometimes he is more hated than Zuko because he's an adult and didn't change until well into adulthood, whereas we should give Azula leniency for being a kid. What these people fail to realize is that all the leniency in the world will not make Azula change, and she has never expressed any indication towards redemption.
Whenever people are like "but Iroh did bad thing," I just don't know what the argument is here. Is it that nobody should ever change for the better?
Nope, the real problem is that Zuko and Iroh changing for the better highlights how Azula didn't. That Zuko did what Azula couldn't gives the lie to the "she's just a kid" excuse, and that Iroh did what Azula couldn't gives the lie to the idea that her age means she's more likely to change her ways and that we should judge her on that.
It is true that it's harder to change the older you get, but that only highlights that redemption has to be chosen, it can't be forced. Anyone can change no matter who they are or what they've done, but Azula simply hasn't and doesn't think she needs to.
It's also very easy to imagine a redemption for her and use that idealized fantasy to judge the characters who actually got redemption in canon. But this is just more of engaging in abuser-logic fantasies.
It's not shown a lot, but there is evidence in atla that Ozai also thought he was a victim, and used that to defend his own abusiveness, even sometimes directly to the son he burned. He had to teach Zuko respect, didn't he? His own wife committed treason, didn't she? Nevermind that Ozai manipulated both of these scenarios so that they would come out in his favor. He certainly thinks of himself as the victim and that's the reason he won't change. Iroh knows this, too ("I've never known my brother to regret anything"), which is the other reason Azula stans hate him. He sees right through Ozai and he sees through Azula when she lies and manipulates, too.
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Can I get aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa-hhhhhhhhhhhhhhh-YAAAAAAAAAAA
IM SO SORRY IM BUSY RELEARNING GRADIENTS BUT UMM AAAA YAAAAAAA
#SOBBING RN#DID YOU KNOW HOW EASY COLOURING IS ??#I CAN JUST. SELECT PARTS#AND THEY DONT HAVE TO BE. LIKE. CLOSE SHAPES#WHAT THE FUCK IS UP WITH THAT !!#sid answers#sid rambles#HOLY SHIT MAN#not bar sanses
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Was looking at refs and since Viktor has two different leg braces I was wondering, do we think he wears them simultaneously?? The refs don't perfectly line up perspective-wise so it's hard to tell but parts of the one he wears during the Hexcore scenes look like they could maybe line up with the brace that he wears over his clothes, but also some parts really don't and look like they'd be super uncomfy. Also HOW does he take these on and off. Experts weigh in
#viktor#arcane#ig my assumption would be that he wears both simultaneously cause in the scene where he injects the shimmer#it seems implied that he just threw off his clothes and kept experimenting#so one might assume he was already wearing the smaller one underneath#tho it is a funny image to think of him just being like 'one sec i gotta go all the way home and grab my other brace to do this'#he can take off the back brace too cause hes not wearing it in the scene where he's in the hospital bed and you can see his shoulder#where the strap would be#but that one seems to make even less sense functionality wise#everything looks like its screwed together#or screwed INTO him#but only the top bolts on his spine are i think#in the close ups of his back brace model it looks like theres cushioning underneath the parts of it that cover the rest of his spine#so he can take it off. but HOW#what parts of it unscrew/detatch to pull open and off#does it not do that at all and he just has to shimmy it off his shoulder and all the way down his legs to get it off like a romper#the shape language of the designs are cool but like. tell me how it wooorrkkksss#forgive me if im just dumb and dont know at all how braces work and theres a very simple practical explanation for all this#any king who wants to infodump about mobility aids at me....the floor is yours#something to be said i suppose about the fact that zaunites have crazy prosthetics with wild augmentations that work flawlessly#and piltover's like. idk heres some fucking uncomfortable ass metal. salo gets wheelchair in non ada compliant place#they havent ever needed to adapt to accommodate disabilities etc etc#or maybe artists were just like 'heres a design' and everybody clapped and didnt give it a second thought#and then they just turned off the visibility on the mesh when they didnt need it knowing thered not be a scene where its taken off#dont even wanna THINK about what that rig would look like#like 40 different controllers#soft body and rigid hard surfaces needing to move together....#a cold chill just shot up my spine#<- guy who is only an animator and doesnt know how to rig#forgive the magic wand tool with zero cleanup. i am lazy
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something bad did indeed happen to that man. spent abt 25 minutes trying to find a better picture of that one (1) offical piece with his eyes open that wasnt compressed or tiny
#library of ruina#yan library of ruina#getting comfortable doodling some objects and mannequin shapes for very obvious reasons. i read the keypage story and now it has a grip on#my brain. wanting to go ahead and plan it out and then draw the mangled memory and nightmare that replays behind the eyelids in the darknes#it was cool to see the reason confirmed from my speculation. twas indeed another reason of blocking out present pain with closing of eyes#considering they made angela have a plot important reason for doing so it would only make sense for another to have a reason for it as well#well. after having a prominent part inside the thumb/index story line. its just going to be yapping about yan now i think#let me add a spoiler tag i suppose? vauge but just incase i dont want to be an asshole. even if most already have played rhe game#library of ruina spoilers#lor spoilers#i really liked the typewritter effect over the voice after distortion. especially so when the effect finishes before the actual garbled voi#does. it makes it feel as if it were being read out after it being written down rather than of own words or volition. along with the text#upon the screen during the fight being just prescripts rather than anything relating to the man himself like the other instances with such#text had been. paired w the name of distorted yan being untranslated to keep the intent of the name being unreadable or not understandable#more into the idea of stripping away of the self or any sense of a self. not personal and not even him anymore. the following of a goal for#the goal for it is given and there isnt any hope of having the ability to not do such a thing. people yearn for a reason and something to d#and for it to be given to them to not hold responsibility nor have to do their own choices anymore. once a crushing weight weighs down#inside the face of an absolute cruelty that is perpetuated and that crushed the dreams or even desires having them be but nothing how can#one move on? it was really nice to see at the end of the fight. its easier to just say such things than to actually do them. even if the ac#ions dont even feel as if they are ones own or that there isnt any say in the matter having to endure all the pain for seemingly nothing it#still is pain. that feeling inside is still real. it still happened. regardless of the circumstances that brought them about#the thumb/index or just fingers seem to be an exaggerated to the extreme showcase of how the colletivist mindset in an unhealthy manner#could be exhibited. the thumb with its hierarchy and absoluteness and the demand for respect along with its strict layers of showing who is#below and who is above. the ability to have power over those underneath . the participation inside of it and the already brought up yearnin#to be apart of a group and to have a title and position inside of a group and of power and even a desire like from pete to join one iirc#the index being of the cruel perpetuating cycle of pain people inflict upon one another a behavior beaten and upkept by the systems as they#drift and desire to live. which causes them to partcipate in that cycle out of necessity. cruel acts upon another in order to live and seei#a need to go ahead and do such things for if they dont they die and another will just do the same to them. social sciences talk and rolands#talks abt how the city opperates reinforce that fact. the index and prescripts are really just a show inside that extreme manner and in a#more literal sense of that. it was really cool to read it..
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soft (and some bittersweet)
#trigun stampede#trigun#vashwood#vash the stampede#nicholas d wolfwood#i think they both spent majority of their lives in solitude and ofc vash went town to town and made friendships promises and etc along the w#way + he had his home and whatnot in the long years he's been alive but he still just seemed so lonely.#in prior versions of trimax he had friends at home at least and maybe he mightv made some but luida and brad are basically just his#guardians in this adaption. like brad used to be a homie.... vash watched that little dude grow up.... and jessica too.... but he doesn't#have that in this adaption. nor a town like july where he had grown close to the townspeople and shaped that tragedy to be closer to his#heart. and wolfwood spent years fighting under the eom and doing shit under their jurisdiction when we saw him so adamantly try to reject#and fight back against that fate. i dont think he had a second at all to get familiar with townspeople or even care to#so its just these two lonely ass souls and vash immediately seeing the good in ww and points it out#ww who is under orders again to be involved in vash's business but he's also SO touchy about it bc vash is so careless and lack that self#regard and also just is not seeing the world that ww is seeing. but then vash helps him and saves him by sharing a piece of what /he/ sees#and it fucking. rescrambled ww's brain for a sec. HE GAVE HIM HOPE!!! he gave him hope!!!! and in turn ww gave vash hope too and its#all done in like 3-4 eps. there's so much fervent attachment in what they managed to give each other in such a short time#but theyre limited to the contract to the inevitable confrontation with knives - so while theyd want to give into that chance to love this#person who managed to give them smth special they just can't at all#ruporas art
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A few silly little small sculptures that I made with some of the leftover clay from the main one I did recently
#sculpture#birds#neopets#sparkly little aishas my beloved.....#Though I actually kind of liked them with a matte finish more?? I wanted to try out making them sparkly and shiny..but#I think they might have looked better before adding all the shine. BUT I kind of like both. Maybe I should make two more that aren't shiny#just to have variation lol... an entire army of tiny aishas.....#The little house is so bad lol I hada headache at that point and kind of just wanted to get everything over with#(I bake the clay all at once so I had to get the smaller ones done to go with the main one)#and was like.. zero effort into making things line up or measuring at all. one window on one side is like twice as big as on the other lol#but I think from afar ifnot examined too closely it's still kind of cute. The birds were also just random like 'what can I shape out of thi#s small blob of clay I have leftover' etc. I did actually put irridescent eyeshaow on the pigeon but it just doesnt show up in photos ToT#The other bird is not anything in specific... some sort of random fantasy creature bird with slight purple on it's wings or something#The strawberry is exclusively just a quickly done accessory for the birds.. I wanted them to have a little meal to share#even though I dont know if birds eat strawberries#the last picture in the set is them all sitting on a shelf (the most well lit place I could find) but looks weird#since it has all of my avocado pit eyes in the background......... ominous backdrop for such peaceful little creachures..#you kind of cant tell what they are from that angle though i guess lol
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examining a seemingly normal image only to slowly realize the clear signs of AI generated art.... i know what you are... you cannot hide your true nature from me... go back where you came from... out of my sight with haste, wretched and vile husk
#BEGONE!!! *wizard beam blast leaving a black smoking crater in the middle of the tumblr dashboard*#I think another downside to everyone doing everything on phone apps on shitty tiny screens nowadays is the inability to really see details#of an image and thus its easier to share BLATANTLY fake things like.. even 'good' ai art has pretty obvious tells at this point#but especially MOST of it is not even 'good' and will have details that are clearly off or lines that dont make sense/uneven (like the imag#of a house interior and in the corner there's a cabinet and it has handles as if it has doors that open but there#are no actual doors visible. or both handles are slightly different shapes. So much stuff that looks 'normal' at first glance#but then you can clearly tell it's just added details with no intention or thought behind it. a pattern that starts and then just abruptly#doesn't go anywhere. etc. etc. )#the same thing with how YEARS ago when I followed more fashion type blogs on tumblr and 'colored hair' was a cool ''''New Thing''' instead#of being the norm now basically. and people would share photos of like ombre hair designs and stuff that were CLEARLY photoshop like#you could LITERally see the coloring outside of the lines. blurs of color that extend past the hair line to the rest of the image#or etc. But people would just share them regardless and comment like 'omg i wish I could do this to my hair!' or 'hair goallzzzz!! i#wonder what salon they went to !!' which would make me want to scream and correct them everytime ( i did not lol)#hhhhhhggh... literally view the image on anything close to a full sized screen and You Will SEe#I don't know why it's such a pet peeve of mine. I think just as always I'm obsessed with the reality and truth of things. most of the thing#that annoy me most about people are situations in which people are misinterpreting/misunderstanding how something works or having a misconc#eption about somehting thats easily provable as false or etc. etc. Even if it's harmless for some random woman on facebook to believe that#this AI generated image of a cat shaped coffee machine is actually a real product she could buy somewhere ... I still urgently#wish I could be like 'IT IS ALL AN ILLUSION. YOU SEE???? ITS NOT REALL!!!!! AAAAA' hjhjnj#Like those AI shoes that went around for a while with 1000000s of comments like 'omg LOVE these where can i get them!?' and it's like YOU#CANT!!! YOU CANT GET THEM!!! THEY DONT EXIST!!! THE EYELETS DONT EVEN LINE UP THE SHOES DONT EVEN#MATCH THE PATTERNS ARE GIBBERISH!! HOW CAN YOU NOT SEE THEY ARE NOT REAL!??!!' *sobbing in the rain like in some drama movie*#Sorry I'm a pedantic hater who loves truth and accuracy of interpretation and collecting information lol#I think moreso the lacking of context? Like for example I find the enneagram interesting but I nearly ALWAYS preface any talking about it#with ''and I know this is not scientifically accurate it's just an interesting system humans invented to classify ourselve and our traits#and I find it sociologically fascinating the same way I find religion fascinating'. If someone presented personality typing information wit#out that sort of context or was purporting that enneagram types are like 100% solid scientific truth and people should be classified by the#unquestionaingly in daily life or something then.. yeah fuck that. If these images had like disclaimers BIG in the image description somewh#re like 'this is not a real thing it's just an AI generated image I made up' then fine. I still largely disagree with the ethics behind AI#art but at least it's informed. It's the fact that people just post images w/o context or beleive a falsehood about it.. then its aAAAAAA
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Several months late, the landlord finally picked up the dehumidifier from my kitchen
Would've been nice had I been told they were coming though 💀 so I could've cleaned up the grocery bags on the floor that I hadn't put away yet 💀💀💀💀💀
#speculation nation#at least i did do the dishes yesterday so the kitchen is in much better shape than it was before. still not great though.#i wonder if i could put in a complaint lol. like Please dont enter my unit unannounced 😭 that's a violation im pretty sure 😭😭😭#actually i might call them. like Hey. can you guys um..not lol#well. the office is closed now so i cant call them. but i wonder if i should email.#i also wonder if it's even worth the fuss. like if they dont bother me about the state of my apartment then like oh well ykno?#except i very much did have a hospital bank statement out in full view which is kinda personal information lol. lmao even.#... actually yknow what i think i will email. bc like. even if they dont complain. it's kind of embarrassing lol.#had i known they were coming i wouldve done that little bit more before leaving. and i shouldve had the option.#this certainly wasnt an emergency. i should have gotten notice. they conducted a violation of tenants rights.#and YEAH ok people might say i should just keep my apartment clean always regardless of if someone is coming.#and while thatd be nice. get this. im a full time student with adhd and ive been having a HELL of a time lately.#so no i hadnt fully put away my groceries. and i left some empty bags on the floor. bc i didnt think itd matter.#so Yeah im going to email them with a friendly 'hey next time could you guys pls give me 24 hour notice? like it says in the law? thanks :)
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i like overthink everything now it makes me feel so dumb. i used 2 be able to just talk 2 ppl but nowadays every single thing im like Is that actually going to make them hate me. Yes probably. and then i just dont respond which makes ppl hate me. this is how it is
#ive been overthinking 1 light and casual mildly funny response to something but im worried itll come off as disrespectful and dismissive And#make me seem stupid and uncaring all at the same time. and also be seen as insulting. but like idt itd be insulting right like. im not#saying what it is so ig for all you guys know im like I mean if i say All your shit suck ball and i hateit kys. <- thats not the thing i was#going to say#like it doesnt matter now the window for response is closed now but i feel stupid bc i shouldve just said it it was light and casual. im so#bad at keeping convos gojng im convinced im not going to survive. In like a light and casual way like in a He will not make it through the#winter joke way. dw. im not going to do anything bc i had One failed interaction. if i was going to do anythjng itd be bc of the 8000000#other failed interactions. But im not. anyways. it just makes me feel so useless 😭 like i want to respond i want to talk to ppl so bad but#i feel like i mess things up Irreparably every time i speak OR i take too LONG overthinking my response and then i just cant respond bc its#been too long and then its been 3 years and the only messages ive ever sent r my intro message and 1 message 2 years ago that nobody#responded to at all. or the conversation stopped immediately after. and like i used to be better at this i was lkke. talkative in a couple#muts servers like. i talked 2 ppl daily in those servers and i had fun and like. I was an important part of the group and i felt like it#but i just feel like such an outsider for Everything and its literally my fault bc i cant just like. Talk. The explosion. bc im always like#im gonna try im gonna do it this time im gonna get it back im going to finally be Good connor and im going to fix it all and make a Good#solid friend group and ill find HEALTHY LOVE and i wont selfsabotage and ill move out and have a job and ill balance it well and ill start#all my hobbies and ill have a great routine and be so loveable and on top of it and not stressed and content and happy and roll with the#punches and then theres a single hiccup and im like Well fuckinf whatever im going to be an unemployed hermit forever and im going to die b4#im 25 anyways so Who cares and also im digging a little hole for myself. and its like. AUGHH ik i just have to persevere and overcome but#even saying that feels so stupid its not fucking hard its Talking to ppl. like. i literally if ive ever said a word to you i had to think#avt it and strategize how to respond right even for like. like. it makes it sound like its not genuine it is#like for example i want to say hey i love your art! but then i freak out and im like thats not normal thats like a rly generic comment they#hear that all the time theyll thjnk im being polite and my brains like hrmmm rewrite Your art changed my life. It shaped me. Ill never be#the same. Nad im like ok too far overcorrected go back and the sentence generator is like Your art has colors 💯 like. GOD. WHY IS IT SO#difficult. and then usually i either just dont say anythinf and feel awful abt it 4ever OR i send it on anon and then i spend like 15#minutes ibsessively slightly tweaking the apelling and capitalization and punctuation to make sure it doesnt seem like its me just in case#it Is the worst possible thing to say but then i see the response and itll be like AWWW TYSM :] THIS MEANS A LOT or whathaveyou and i feel#stupid bc i couldve just Told them this to their face and it wouldve been a good positive interaction we had. but instead i had 2 hide and#tyoe entirely differently so they couldnt sniff me from my typing style. and it soesnt even feel like the thanks is actually 4 me bc i#tweaked the message sm. and it still makes me happy that the oersons hapoy but its like. that couldve been a nice mutual interaction#like not that i need a personal ty i compliment ppl when i Want to compliment ppl and when its genuine yk. i dont do it so i get mutualpoint
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For you ✨❤️pookie❤️✨another work in progressssss~
⬇️original sketch below⬇️
#i get to draw my babies again#I GET TO DRAW MY BABIES AGAIN!!!!!:3!!!!#i love drawing my tribbles and i love to think of their interactions with each otherX3#and i just realized that I haven’t really drawn these silly siblings really interacting with one anotherrrr….gonna have to do thatt#but anyways#i finally decided how i (think) i want to draw their eyes when closed for resting#i was on the fence about either doing them the way i did before(which was a while ago) when i did the closed eye line and then just the top#lid visible or doing the way shown(which i actually first did when i did my frank&eddie piece X3)#and i think i like it this way!!!#took my a few tries but i feel pretty good about doing them where its their eye-shape with a low-line if that makes sense#phew i really hope some of that made sense#but now ive only got the faux-rendering(?) and background to do#the background shoundnt be too hard bc i want to keep it simple since its just supposed to be the ground#(i say this as if i dont say that each time i do a background that always ends up taking a whole day)#welcome home#welcome home clown illustrations#welcome home puppet show#welcome home oc#welcome home mitt#welcome home tibbers#welcome home houi#mitt n tribbles#tibbers t tribbles#houi d tribbles#<i dont care that nobody else will probably ever use these tags gotta make sure my babies have their own#artists on tumblr#wip#wip tag#sketch#digital art
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A smile is a valuable tool, it ensures that no matter waht comes your way, you're the one in control
#hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel spoilers#i thought perhaps that alastor couldnt NOT smile cause his face is just shaped like that#but after the finale im 100% convinced he that he did some fucked up shit like say SEWING his face into a permanent smile#cause self harm is always an easy way to regain a semblance of control and ALSO it psychologically fucks with his enemies#two birds one needle#anyway i dont really have the technical skill to pull this off as viscerally real/gorey as i want#but you understand my vision yes?#gore#self harm#hh#my art#painting#anyway i know its like about intent or w/e but why did he do like. ladder stitches across the center of his mouth#bro those are for like. closing up stuffies and pillows#alastor
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I'm slowly playing through the Final Shape campaign. And it has me over here almost crying and getting all emotional. Cuz the message it's giving, of Ghosts being there for their Guardians all the time, whatever it takes, because they're "made of the same stuff," and all that...that's always the bond I've envisioned for my guardian Cerys-8 and her ghost Pepin.
Yeah I bet most players who created characters for their guardians feel that way, but the way they're wording it here speaks SO much to how I feel that Pepin cares for Cerys. She deals with a lot of mental health issues after the loss of her awoken hunter friend, Arjun, to Taken. She has been slightly suicidal in the past as a result of it. She's done stuff that has worried Pepin. And that just made him dig deeper into being someone who Cerys can rely on, her last line of defense. Because he brought her into this life as a guardian without any choice from her. So he is going to try his best to help her heal and keep going. He knew that from the start, and felt it even more after she declined.
Pepin had Cerys name him because he didn't have a name before and he didn't care to give one to himself. So Cerys picked Pepin, because it sounded like a play on saying that he was peppy. Happy. Cheerful. Bringing light to dark moments. He isn't an overly cheery and emotional ghost, but he always tries his best to find the positive in a situation. Or at least, make the dark not seem so strong. Cerys saw that from the start, which made him feel even stronger about being a protector for his Guardian when it comes to her internal struggles. He wants to be there for her, almost like a parents or an older sibling she can go to in her times of need, especially after she lost Arjun. And then during the Red War. And after losing Cayde- and so on. Cerys struggled to accept his caring at first, but as she healed, she realized just how much she actually appreciated it. How glad she is to have Pepin as her ghost and closest friend in the world.
I've felt that about them for years. So. Needless to say. This dialogue in the game about the ghosts caring so much about their guardians and their struggles- more than I remember it being talked about ever before- is making me kinda emotional.
#wish i could have a little companion just like a ghost to have with me at all times for real for real#would help so much#im gonna be emotional about this for a while dont mind me#like this just hasnt been discussed like this in the game as far as i remember. at least not to this extent. and its just really making me#so happy and emotional cuz it reminds me SO much of the bond i have felt exists between Pepin and Cerys for years at this point#also doesnt help that this campaign seems to have much more of a somber emotional vibe to it like the red war had. with the red war being#what made me get so attached to my guardian and make a character out for her and her ghost. cuz before D2 cerys and pepin didnt even have#names. but the second i opened D2 and saw my D1 guardian there and ready to go...man that hit me hard. felt like she was an established#character or some shit. then the beginning of the red war campaign....man. utterly heartbreaking in the best way.#i still think about when the light was taken and ghaul took out light. and how much it clearly hurt the guardian and ghost. how the guardia#immediately grabbed their ghost and held them close until ghaul knocked ghost out of their hand by kicking them. and the guardian reaching#in despair for their ghost after they fly off to the city before. followed by the guardian moments later#man.........#i started d2 not long after it came out and that whole beginning to the campaign still sticks with me. along with the emotions i felt#during it. i dont think any other game has hit me as deeply as that. it was devastating but then so goddamn empowering and it makes me#emotional. and this campaign is giving me some of that emotional vibe to. far more than others have since the red war#theres a reason why the quote 'eyes up guardian' is so so important to me and makes me so happy#and why my guardian is so attached to her ghost and why hes so protective of her...yeah....#red war campaign my beloved#the final shape even has cutscenes that are FAR more of the same style and vibe as the red war! unlike any of the other campaigns!#that one cutscene while entering the traveler thats just light and dark struggling for dominance my beloved. there wasnt a single word#spoken in that cutscene but it conveyed SO MUCH. i keep thinking about it and it hasnt even been out for a week. it was also a flat out#STUNNING cutscene. so beautiful#loving this campaign so much. ive always so adored the red war campaign- def one of my fave in the game if not my fave- and this one is#coming very close to it#i know its the emotions and beauty in the cutscenes thats a big selling point for me.#anyway#destiny 2#destiny 2 the final shape#dragon lady letters
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are they putting piercings on ii's mask???
#trying to think of what else they'd be doing with those and with that comment#it's awkward with only one end having anything close to a barbell so i dont think a bridge piercing or similar would be that doable#though i guess depending on the mask material it'd stay in place better. idk. you'd want to show off the drumstick shape though right?#something surface-level like an eyebrow maybe..?#i forget if his mask has ears orz would a fake industrial piercing on each side be doable? fr i'm wracking my brain over this now#eepy toking
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Helloooo popping in to say I love your art! It’s cute and feels soft (reminds me of when you’ve got a really smooth pencil and it just ghosts across the paper) but your poses and anatomy also give it a good feeling of realism :D
classic question here; do you have anything you’d say is a big influence on your art? I love seeing what people answer and trying to connect it back to the kind of thing they currently make :]
!! thank u!!! i do wish i could get more creative with angles, but im happy knowing my art gives u that feeling ^_^
I really enjoy comics!! I like poking thru graphic novels and webcomics, so I've fallen into the habit of exposing myself to lots of different styles over time that I'm fairly explorative with my art. It gives me a lot to study, especially since different artists have different strengths and preferences
I also think of myself as a simple person, so I'm not strongly attached to anything in particular... I notice a lot of artists find their ground in certain interests or aesthetics. But since I'm not really like that, I try to put a bit of myself in whatever I draw to connect with my art better. Its probably why I like taking creative liberty when making fanart lol
im also drawn to indie creative work like games and animation! they tend to be extremely varied and unique from each other, which is great since I work from my own sense of curiosity. I also hate repetition, so having things that set themselves apart visually or otherwise is something I like to look for.
#thank u for sending this in!!! i had fun answering this.. i had to think really hard so im glad it helped me do some reflection ^_^#on top of all this im a very visual person so i look at things if theyre eyecatching and then see if i like it for any of these qualities#afterwards.. so i do tend to lean to cutesy styles like soft shapes and big eyes but i wouldnt go as far as making it a calling card for my#art style since i love to keep shaking things up whenever i can. if that makes sense? or u could say im impulsive and u would be right#i rly like gigi dg and plushpon since theyve been a huge inspiration for my art over time.. as for comics i remember being really into#always raining here and colorless... its been a while since ive looked at any webcomics though so maybe i should make time to do that#BONE was one of my favorites as a kid because of the storytelling and art style even if i could never read the books in order#although im also really picky so even if i dont have a set taste there are some things i dont really find interesting like superhero comics#i do wish i had an interest that i could pour my art into instead of just drawing whatever on a whim#i think nature comes pretty close but thats more of an appreciation than smth like. birdwatching or camping or animals#so rather than wanting my art to be known for a certain thing i think ill try and be happy with drawing things i know i like and people#liking whatever that might be. shrugs#yapping#ask
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Reading dense book after years of not doing that, explained everything about my academic experience
#perspective yeah bro#i'm audio learner but with good unoptimized visual memory#unbalanced build. kinda fucked up. need a refund.#what good is remembering the block shapes of text? particular spacing? lettering? or zoomed in specific word out of context#thanks brain thats what i was reading for#there could've been a diagram there but nooo#on audio you have to focus and its more obv to me when i zone out - more effective with snapping back but harder to remember#oh you tired? no focus for you#what they dont teach you is how to process and deliver that info to yourself - the learning#or how to get yourself interested#throwing info like a meat into inclosure for a decade wow. teach me how to hunt you cunts#maybe somewhere/now they do#you have to invent makeshift shitty systems with your child mind that's never examined closely as long as they work#and how will you know when it doesnt work or that you have to replace it? without paying attention you might not#imo school needed to be heavily revamped once internet happened from the ground up#great awesome discoveries are happening#im reading but im angry
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