#AND SHES SO LONELY. THE LONELINESS
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Head in my hands I love Ann Takamaki with my entire being
#i say this so often but its TRUE#doing her link in royal (prince finally playing royal again huge shocker)#and shes so funny#shes so KIND#a little bit scatterbrained#so honest (maybe to a fault)#i dont even have anything coherent to say i just love her#AND SHES SO LONELY. THE LONELINESS#IT HURTS#the way she did modelling because she feels it was the only way she could connect to her parents#she just wanted it as a hobby she says but like. idk it feels like shes downplaying that#shes so sincere#but shes not a pushover either#and the way shes INSPIRED by mika... despite how mika treats her...#me when a character is red: 🥺😍🥹🥺😍💖🥰🥺🥹💖🥰🥺😍🥹💖🥺🥺#<- something i noticed recently LMAOO#i should say confidant instead of link but whatever
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I love how BBC Ghosts once a series is like 'and here's a new flavour of Robin being the most tragic character you will ever see' and it brings me to tears every single time
#BBC Ghosts#Robin the Caveman#Lizzie watches BBC Ghosts#sort of lifeblogging#i'm sorry i am so hung up on him being sophie's friend even though she never knew#how utterly powerless he was and still he offered her companionship#and how she didn't even die at button house so she never found out#do you think her nursemaid told her in the beyond? that there was a friendly caveman whom they taught french#just because he recognised loneliness and tried to share it to make it a little less lonely#bbc ghosts spoilers
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it's so sad that talia still doesn't have good friends when her loneliness is what allowed nyssa to get talia to lower her guard
#she was her father's daughter. and then she was free but so alone#and then she had a friend who was her sister and doesnt that mean she'll never be lonely again? to have a sister is to#eternally have a companion. but to nyssa talia was still their father's daughter and an object to steal.#and to use against him.#then she was free of nyssa and alone again. and then trapped in another of her father’s plans#fighting to protect her son who chose the possibility of earning his father’s love over her existing love#(or what damian and talia saw as just the possibility. bc bruce rlly hadn’t shown damian he was valued but he did love him)#and talia was alone again. alone always over and over#who is she if not a daughter a sister a mother. no wonder she clings so hard to those relationships even#when they hurt her. what else does she have in this world#that post i reblogged yesterday about loneliness…that’s her she’s the lonely girl#it was like 2 days now actually but yeah. her#talia al ghul
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are we on the same page here?
#steve who takes after his mother in every aspect#he has her eyes and her nose and he even carries himself with her confidence#but he’s also scared of being left behind just like his mother who follows her husband around to be sure he’d never cheat on her#she’s lonely and steve belived he somehow inherited it#he inherited her loneliness just like he got her eyes and her nose and her confidence just as much as he got her insecurity#AHH SORRY steve is the poster child for mommy issues#his eldest daughter syndrome is so real#HES AN ONLY CHILD TOO#my little loser man#stranger things#steve harrington#also i really love#TV girl#steddie#steve/eddie#stranger things 4
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when you think about it clive and flora are actually perfect narrative foils on complete accident. like what's up with that. professor layton and the completely imagined literary devices
#what did they talk about when they were alone for that one segment of uf . . . humming#i'm sure this post has been made before by someone more eloquent but i don't shut up. ❤️❤️❤️#it's like the fact that they both lose their parents at a young age#both are succeeded by a large fortune#both are incredibly insurmountably lonely in a way they are not equipped to deal with#both develop poor coping mechanisms (though one notably more poor than the other . . . el oh el)#both develop a one-sided codependence on layton (or rather. more like the Idea of him. the concept he represents)#they also both spend a lot of screentime poorly disguised god bless ❤️#flora just seems to shrink inward while clive. Well#flora is seemingly willing to accept any type of mistreatment so long as she's told she won't be left alone again#whether because she can't bear the alternative or if she genuinely believes them every time is debatable#she's fine with being temporarily abandoned because she is used to it. as long as she's kept around some of the time she's fine#but clive internalizes every slight and files it away in some increasingly grandiose and frankly childish revenge fantasy#on a small handful of people that HAVE wronged him and a couple hundred thousand that never will#everything he sees is taken as proof of a worldview he doesn't even seem to necessarily hold himself#that at the end of the day is simply a manifestation of a seeping debilitating loneliness#they both have people that care for them. but not really in the type of way they need or want#i have more to say but . . . alas. not intelligent enough for it#my point: both of these characters ard the same coincidence? i think not. Transgender;#t#professor layton
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probably the most constant thing of my life has been the social isolation and loneliness i experience
since i was a young child, i’ve always struggled to make and find friends, and often was left alone
for a long time, nothing could defeat my spirits and will to make friends, and even the loneliness wasn’t enough to make me stop
nowadays, it gets to me, the loneliness, and i often wonder if i’ll have all the friends i’ve deserved all along
#audhdrhys#lonelyrhys#i had a lot of fake friends growing up#and i was gullible a lot so people act one way and then another and i fell for it each time they did it#often times my “friends” were just there to use me as playmates and not real friends who cared about my boundaries and interests#and some of them didn’t consider me their friend and forgot about me the minute i left their daily lives#some ran away from me cuz i was weird#but most of the time i just remember being alone#i remember not knowing how to make friends#i remember being too scared to and asking my sister to make friends for me#which she would and they would always favor her#i was just the tag along nobody really wanted there#and that’s how it usually went#and i was homeschooled growing up and i didn’t go to many groups or anything like that so i was already isolated from society just from tha#but the loneliness through that all has stuck with me#i still don’t know how to make friends very well#i still wonder if everyone finds me offputting#and i still wonder if they’re faking being my friend and don’t actually care about me#even though i have some and am grateful for them#the loneliness stays#lonely#lonely childhood#childhood memories#childhood#friends#audhd experiences#audhd#audhd problems#audhd child
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Between commissions I finally managed to finish this OC set of parent characters! If the looks aren't enough to show you who their kid is, the background colors match them ^_^ but of course more details below!
Name: Thuban
Name origin: The former pole star, before the north star (Polaris), it's name means "Large snake" and is referred to as the “Dragon's tail”
Pronouns: He/him
Age: N/A
Relation: Raised Polaris, though they're not related by blood and have a somewhat distant relationship, until he suddenly went MIA
Weapon: Spear (Same as Polaris's)
Ethos (Power): N/A
Flaw power is based on: N/A
Notes: Make no phallic jokes about the large snake thing and you'll be rewarded
Name: Ananke
Name origin: A moon of Jupiter, named for the mythological spirit of necessity, inevitably, and compulsion
Pronouns: She/her
Age: -
Relation: Bella's mother, she raised her to be a warrior
Weapon: Bardiche
Ethos (Power): Indomination (The ability to freeze the movement of objects and people, and lock them in place)
Flaw power is based on: Her strict enforcement of obedience through authoritarianism, and a lack of concern for the wishes of others
Notes: She believes in tough love. It's better in the long run to give your kid strength rather than affection.
Name: Rhea
Name origin: A moon of Saturn named after the Titan known as the mother of the gods
Pronouns: She/her
Age: 38
Relation: Saiph's mother, though she gave him up to the guild when he was very young
Weapon: None
Ethos (Power): None
Flaw power is based on: N/A
Notes: Was unable to take care of a baby at the time, and gave Saiph to the guild. She wishes she'd visited beyond that but it's probably too late now...
Name: Arche
Name origin: One of Jupiter's moons, it's name comes from the muse of new beginnings and is associated with springtime
Pronouns: He/him
Age: 7
Relation: Saiph's half-brother. Neither currently knows the other exists
Weapon: None
Ethos (Power): None
Flaw power is based on: N/A
Notes: He's just a little guy. He likes flowers and playing with toys. He wants to be a cool hero like his dad
Name: Poerava
Name origin: A star in Tucana, the Maori word for a black pearl of mystical beauty and perfection
Pronouns: She/her
Age: -
Relation: Al's mom. She mostly raised him on her own while her husband was with the knights.
Weapon: None
Ethos (Power): None
Flaw power is based on: N/A
Notes: Probably the best parent of the bunch if we're being real.
#Finn's ocs#Finn's art#oc references#i wrote the descs while w the kids so hopefully they make sense. my attention was split#but anyway here in the tags I'll talk about the designs in relation to their kids lol#polaris is emulating thuban moreso than anyone else. her color scheme and outfit motifs are the same as his- they ARE his#her original outfit is clothes she took and diy'd into her own so she could go off into the world and well presumably look for him at first#the truth is she always wanted to see the world that's why she loved maps. in a way this was an excuse. in another way she was just lonely#but doesn't understand loneliness. also the fact that she's not his daughter by blood is part of that#bc of her actual parents (not as relevant character-wise) she sees all relationships as temporary and she has issues connecting#ananke i wanted to mostly look intimidating in a way that Bella really isn't#Bella puts on skull hairties and fishnets and stuff but she's very much. a cute softie trying to look edgy. she has pink twintails#she's so different from her mom in pretty much every way but she still did have that ideal of strength drilled into her#still her take on it is softer. she's the team leader now but she's really pretty lenient aside from the important No Killing rule ofc#w Rhea and Arche i had a bit of a flower theme. pussywillow (lol) means motherhood and buttercups mean childishness#so. mother and child#but rhea is interesting bc she's raising a whole different kid now that she's in a different place in life#if you do the math she had Saiph young. and it was alright for a while until his dad (again not as important) died#so she didn't have support or money. but she had a connection to the guild because his dad's old sword teacher is a member (hmm)#but she was too scared/ashamed to visit. she just left him his dad's old knife because that's all she had (THE KNIFE IS IMPORTANT)#arche is her kid with her second husband and her new beginning. this will cause some inner problems for Saiph when he meets them...#Poerava was kinda designed to have rich lady vibes because remember Al's family is practically nobility#but more importantly she's designed to look like a mom. with the low ponytail and tired eyes#the black pearl of her namesake as the centerpiece of her outfit too#again she's got the healthiest relationship with her kid here by a longshot#but i mean don't worry Al still got the daddy issues so he's not getting away unscathed#I already drew Taurus with the zodiac knights though so i didn't feel the need to reintroduce him#anyway Mira really has 0 connection to any family at all she was found as an orphaned baby after a monster attack#obviously she had parents but beyond town of origin it's unknown who so she has no connections to any sort of past parental figure#the guild is her one and only family and that's how she wants it. she wants to be with them forever the past doesn't matter
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The Akutagawa siblings are fun to think about for the way they are really, really similar to each other with only a few key differences, but by far one of the most notable to me is this.
Akutagawa: There's no point in trying to untangle the maze that is Dazai's mind. He is brilliant and unknowable. Try to dig too deeply and you will be ensnared in a web of darkness.
Gin, in Beast: This guy's lonely as fuck
#ok ok so this all stems from the very different situations they were in and the way dazai chose to present himself#but i'm intrigued by whatever interactions gin and dazai had in the main series and if she came to same conclusion as she did here#i mean. it's not a lie that's the thing. he is lonely. he's also dangerous and manipulative.#it's just intriguing because the point of dazai's manipulations of gin was to feed into her hurt and mistrust#over ryuunosuke choosing revenge over both of their well-beings.#but none of that entails him letting his own loneliness come across. so like. did he just look that miserable? anyways.#bsd#bsd akutagawa#bsd gin#bsd beast
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Chappel Roan saying she’s sad she’s demisexual and then there’s me being aroace as a whole like don’t you think I’m even more sad 😭
#not saying she’s not allowed to feel sad at all#just makes me think about myself LOL#I hate being aroace it’s like everyone’s part of a secret club I will never be a part of#and that people don’t tend to understand and if they do they never uphold that fact#like I actually have thrown up before from the concept of being in a relationship because it’s horrifying#and disgusting to me in a practical sense#like I don’t want to throw up every time I start thinking about those things I just want to be normal#and not panic like a relationship sounds like even worse than a death sentence#ppl think aroace is cute and problem free but it’s literally so uncomfortable and inconvenient when you’re in a world which a) doesn’t#understand wth aroace is b) doesn’t respect it at all c) has shit povs on what friendship is and how it can be more fulfilling than somethin#and d) how badly it impacts some ;-; like ik it sounds easy but try telling yourself omg I want to have a forever bestie#but then said forever bestie will never end up truly putting you first because they’d have a partner who will be their number one#and as usual you won’t even be second place you will be last like always#because I’ve noticed that the moment ppl get a partner suddenly they become their forever bestie role and then I can’t have that cause it#freaks me out and disgusts me all at once so I’m literally just cursed with forever feeling lonely and not meaning anywhere near as much to#someone who you wish could even look your way the way you do to them …#honestly by the day these reminders make me feel more and more aplatonic but it’ll simultaneously always feel like a hole in my heart#because apparently being aroace is like being some weird person and some freak#and not in the 𝒻𝓇ℯ𝒶𝓀𝓎 type of connotation LMAO I mean just plain freak#and then that loneliness will always accumulate and accumulate and accumulate until I physically cannot handle it anymore or I take matters#into my own hands and just off with her head to myself LMAO#dora daily#and that is why despite aroace being cool to me it’s just not placed in an environement which makes it cool#as those assholes tend to say oh meh meh meh you never struggled girl … we’re in the 21st century every person in the lgbt community is#living the life dating who they want and being with who they want#but allegedly it is but a crime I can’t like anyone and that nobody fucking listens to me when I say I have an attraction deficit#and that they take it upon their hands to define what I’m attracted to or head canon me as whatever they are#I swear I’m not even fucking worth that shit just leave me alone 😭#I promise like if I was with somebody they will regret the day they were born by being with me LOL I am not all that in fact me being aroace#is saving them from torture ☠️ anyways ! rant over :3
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my bi friend got offended at someone asking if she was a lesbian. I guess I forgot how disgusting people find it.
#she complained about it to me knowing fully well im a lesbian#i am so tired#lesbian#lesbophobia#idk what to tag this i just hate how lonely it is being a lesbian#omg i forgot to tag#lesbian loneliness
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therapy cant fix me because i will still go home and be alone after it
#yeahhhh so i just dont think therapy can fix loneliness#and shut... the... fuck... up with your 'learn to be alone' kys#im alone and lonely every single day and i have been for 10yrs stfu i CAN be alone better than most ppl ever will#i mean take a normal person w any kind of social life and put them in my situation and they'll be depressed af after a week#so just stfu i hate that fucking bullshit#i need connection and closeness. i can get years of therapy#but tbh sitting with some random bitch who only 'cares' abt me bc she's getting paid will only make me feel even more alone.#i dont fkn need therapy i need people#but im always alone whatever i dont care i cant wait to kms anyway thats all i want i'll never have anyone :)))))))
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How specifically does Lu Ten survive in the au?
The short answer: his betrothed.
The long answer: in this au, Lu Ten is betrothed at quite a young age to Makei, a noble woman's only daughter. They're both nonbenders, who both train separately to be equally deadly (Lu Ten under Piandao, and Makei under a retired Yuyan archer by the name of Izuki) and are probably each others only real friend at court, just due to the cutthroat nature of the court.
They both go to the siege of Ba Sing Se, probably a year into it, Lu Ten is an officer and Makei is a healer. They are very quickly disenfranchised with the whole idea of The War.
This is mostly because they were both very lonely children, Lu Ten moreso. When Lu was little, his mother was dead, his father was off at war more often than not and there were very few people who were consistently around him (Ursa would be around a bit but since Ozai does not want to be around him, even that's limited), but he made his loneliness better by basically saying that Winning The War will make it all better.
Newsflash: the war sucks and when fighting it begins to feel entirely pointless, and Lu Ten is very quickly like...oh. My childhood just sucked for No Reason.
(Listen, Iroh loved his son but I am of the firm belief that their relationship was not an easy one)
And then, Iroh dies on the front lines. Maybe Lu Ten should have been the one to die then - he certainly came close - but Makei is a skilled healer who makes sure he pulls through. But Lu Ten is neither the leader his father was nor someone who wants to be, and the siege is called off.
Still, he's angry and bitter and has a burning hatred for the war for taking his father from him in so many ways (and, later, when he's spent time among the earth kingdom, he'll be angry for them too), and when he returns to the palace, he does not exactly go along with everything Ozai has to say...
By which I mean he does multiple kidnappings but that's another post.
#Makei is the adaptation of an older oc#also I had feelings about Lu Ten and parallels to his mother#also about loneliness it's a really big theme in this#Lu Ten's mother was lonely for the arranged marriage she got put in and then she died lonely only a few hours after having Lu#and then Lu Ten has all these years of built up emotional neglect that really took it's toll#and without having the friend there that Makei is he would have thrown himself into the war effort to get the emotional acknowledgement#he wants#but because he has had that he isn't quite so enthusiastic in his war attempts and so sees the horror a bit easier#which caves in his entire paper thin worldview very quickly#Lu Ten#OC: Makei#Fae's OCs#Lu Ten Lives AU#AtLA#Ask#Anonymous#god have I had so many ideas for this au tonight#please ask me more questions :)
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Do you think Shizuku actually had any friends of her own before meeting Airi and the rest of MMJ? 🤔
Because I personally don’t, especially how Shizuku’s supposedly “friend” put her name into an idol contest without her even knowing.
Definitely sounds like something a bully would do to try and embarrass Shizuku imo. 😡
Poor Shizuku… 🥺
YOUUUU DEFINITELY GET IT ANON.
shizuku mentions how she already was put aside by her classmates bc 'a pretty girl like her shouldnt be stupid' so she definitely had No long terms friends bc ppl were either put off by her personality, her looks, or a mix of both.
and as we know shizuku literally Never bears ill feelings towards ppl. she literally justifies what cheerful days did to her as well as the agency pressuring her image as Her being the root of it all. so her hanging out with friends before that time who have thoose soft bullying methods of fakely including u into the group only for their own entertainment. and the Peak entertainment to them being putting you in a contest without telling you about it. yeah i definitely think it was out of bad intent.
#ask#anon#and it KILLS me how. the outcome of that prank looked like salvation of shizukus loneliness for the glimpse of a moment#bc she had an ok time at first with cheerful days. and got to meet airi#but then. yeah.#pick your poison of Which shizuku is the most lonely between the one who didnt become an idol and the one who was at her peak popularity#i do have a au in mind of Shizuku didnt become an idol and it is the starting point so
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I think Modern Au Suletta would be a Glass Child
#Eri would probably have a chronic illness that kept most of the Samaya/Mercury family at the hospital#Suletta loves her sister but clearly doesn't realize the neglect she's experiencing#like it got worse when Nadim (?) died and Prospera/Elanor would sometimes guilt trip Suletta whenever Suletta tries to ask for something#Suletta ending up just not asking or speaking up on anything#and feeling lonely and sad makes her guilty cus she has it better than her sister#Eri is still able to do stuff but just very limited activities and she's just always fatigued#i feel like Eri would feel like shes an awful older sister bcs of her condition#They both love each other so much they fill each other's loneliness.#sorry ive been thinking about this so much.. its microwaving in my head and i cannot draw it rn#Eri puts up a more confident but also a chill front because Suletta is usally so anxious#heheheh#im just making up angst#man#i miss g witch#g witch#gundam the witch from mercury#gundam#suletta mercury#ericht samaya#the witch from mercury#elnora samaya#prospera mercury#Nadim samaya#i think#i forgor
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how much fear and slander of the label lesbian can one take of a dear friend who is questioning
#friend i love you and i am so patient with you#but if you are not a lesbian that's fine#if you are that's also fine#if you're afraid of the label or it makes you uncomfortable don't use it#but maybe it is time to stop approaching it then#and telling me every time that you freak out about the word#do i know if that is because you're dealing with internalised homophobia or not?#i can't know sorry#i'm here for her always but maybe today i don't wait to hear that the label 'lesbian' is scary and makes one freak out#whether she is or isn't one that strong reaction is kind of painful#i am a lesbian and i love being a lesbian#i love other lesbians#i find community with other lesbians#discovering that i am a lesbian saved me#it made me love myself again through loving women#it made me love my body#love myself entirely for who i am#today i don't want to hear that the label is scary#sorry rant#i do care for my friend so so much but maybe today i don't want my identity to be harmed#and also i wish i had lesbian friends in real life#it's incredibly lonely actually to be the only lesbian amongst queer friends#i love all my friends but i do experience lesbian loneliness a lot#i could talk about this for hours#lesbian loneliness
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(AU, as is most the ttcc art I post)
Into the wilderness once again; the meaning of the word 'defunct' unearthed
Robotic gore under cut
#Misty managed to escape Cogs.Inc again while the office district was shut down for power maintenance#(due to a murder underneath the cashbot traintracks; a toon had thrown a cog into the electrical line and blew out the conglomerate's power)#Misty managed to escape the second through the second tunnel again using Spruce's code 141477953#she got to the middle of nowhere in the woods with Prester's help... fire teleportation#but that's our secret#he gave her the most powerful magic weapon of all so she could defend herself and left her to go out on her own#Misty is terrified out in the woods right now#she misses Chip and Mary and she regrets going alone#but she found out William was working as the molemen manager underneath Cogs.Inc and she needed to leave#her memories of herself and loneliness haunt her but Evils knows more about her inner turmoil methinks#she's currently in Spruce and Chip's old cabin with Spruce and Alton#she got a toon portal from a cat toon who recognized Spruce from a picture they had seen in an abandoned cabin#the cabin is dirty and weather damaged and graffitied by toons and a tree is growing in Spruce's room#but something about it feels quiet and serene but also so lonely#so many pictures broken on the floor of Spruce and Chip#and Chip's old room has scenery paintings in it that match the style of the one he has in his house at Cogs.Inc#Misty pieced together that he must have painted them#lots of old things around#and a trunk in the attic that has some personal things of Spruce's... but that's to be lore dumped another day#imagionary rambles#ttcc#misty monsoon#rainmaker#spruce campbell#treekiller#alton s crow#land acquisition architect#horror#chip revvington#chainsaw consultant
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