#AND DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON THE OSTS LIKE THAT MADE ME SOB EVEN HARDER

[baeshijima]

...

they should have kissed.

[hol-eage]

hi, I'm in my 20s and female and have had a lot of mental disorder diagnoses throughout my life and almost every psychologist I've seen has said I should get tested for autism, however I haven't. and now I'm older I find myself relating very heavily with autistic traits in women and I'm like wow I'm definitely probs autistic, what do you think the perks of actually being diagnosed are and would u reccomend it

Hi sweetheart! I’m 25 just for ref, I would fully recommend it if possible, some reasons are:

You have something solid to show your friends/family/employer that will make them listen and (fucking hopefully) respect your problems and needs

For me it gives me a deep deep sense of relief

There are somethings that just didnt make sense when i thought i was just mentally ill,

I couldnt understand why everyone around me seemed to be able to make their way through the world

It lead me to being extremely suicidal, just the idea of staying alive as i was, was heartbreaking. I was furious with myself that i couldnt work shifts without turning mute (burnout, shutdowns and nonverbal periods), couldnt cook myself basic meals (executive dysfunction), couldnt make friends and was constantly isolated in social settings, couldnt have a romantic partner (touch aversion),

I thought i was wrong somehow, bad, a bad person

And then......

finding out that im just autistic,

just an autistic girl who had no support structure (or the wrong one), it was the most beautiful thing,

Suddenly i made sense to myself, i could value myself and my experiences

If mental health professionals are treating your shut downs/melt downs as anxiety (tho lots of autistic people have anxiety too!) then they will be giving you the Wrong guidance, unlike anxiety you Cant Push Through Shut Downs, the more you push yourself the more you hurt yourself

Mental health professionals insisted that i MUSt be thinking something when i burst into tears and melted down, before they knew that it was sensory based,

I remember this one summer day,

My headphones had broken and the sun was bright bright, i went to walk up a busy street that i walked up everyday to get coffee, half way up the hill i started sobbing

It hit me then that it was the sunlight and traffic sounds, something so ordinary had me wanting to crawl into the smallest dark space i could find,

It makes a world of difference to KNOW whats wrong,

Now i never leave the house with out headphones,

I always have a hat if its sunny

And now i never cry like that

Sure i still have sensory meltdowns but theyre in more complex situations than simply existing

I dont know where you live but im receiving so much support, even in the uk it changes region to region but i have a team who look after me, my nurse coordinator, occupational therapist, consultant and therapist

Theyre giving me cbt with the expectation that i wont reach neurotypical goals, never telling me im not doing well enough

Sensory groups to teach me how to sensory regulate etc

Among other plans for the future

(And for me personally i need medication to stay safe, they found the right ones for me that turned my world upside down)

Most of all it gave me the vocabulary to understand myself

I encourage you with my whole heart to learn about yourself, learn how to sensory regulate, learn what support you need, learn what to avoid and how far to push yourself, learn how to make a stable environments with routines,

You need it to keep you safe

Though, if you dont have the power to get a diagnosis because of your situation, then i fully support self diagnosis, if you haven’t already then use the information in the online autistic community to teach you how to look after yourself, communicate your needs and keep yourself safe

If you have any any any more questions im here, caring and rooting for you

[hiraethstill]

THIS WEEK ON DAIYA NO ACE (7/2)

SPOILERS UNDER THE CUT! 

LIVEBLOG:

ah yup, i remember this, furuya being mature

LOWKEY FORGOT MOCHI LOOKED REALLY GOOD HERE

TOUJOUUUU

SASUGA HARUICHIIII

eijun has so much faith in haruichi im cry

ooh i really liked that mini-sequence where amahisa pitches to harucchi

come on mochi!!!!!

aww harudanji still got a teeny blush

lmao i forgot how much of a fangirl oowada is

oh good takami knows to talk to his pitcher

ummm rude?????? im trying to focus on this at-bat?????

and you hit me with carloshira????

ooh teito bbies!! 

lmaoo and mei’s face

omg amahisa going :plane: glow eyes

for some reason the art isnt on par with the previous episodes? 

i like to think miyuki and mochi made eye contact for a split second uh

cmon amahisa! do the zone thing! 

hmmmmSTDVE amahisa x takami rights?? 

ooh i mightve forgot that amahisa has a curve

NABEEEEEEEEE

miyuki brought mochi homeee

BABIESSS

YES BBYS THOSE ARE YOUR SENPAIS 

HAVE I MENTIONED

I LOVE

TAKU’S 

GRIN

AND TAKU

AND HIS HAIR

AND TAKU

BREATHES HEAVILY

hyahaha and koushuu’s aura

GO SHIRASU-SAN

HELL YEAH HARUCCHI THATS WHAT I CALL BASERUNNING

rip masashi lmao 

ah man kousei’s gritted teeth poor thing

smol yui helping with catcher gear aw

HYAHA still mei’s face 

furuya my dude u okay there

damn bases loaded on walks thats rough

i did like that bit of animation of him pitching tho

HELL YEAH TOUJOU NOTHING BUT RESPECT FOR THIS CENTER FIELDER

WTF HOW DID I JUST THINK ABOUT THEIR HEIGHT DIFFERENCE

asada you lovely beanpole

amahisa’s voice is nicer than i remember?????

S H I N J I 

i mean i knew toujou called him that but it gETS ME EVERY TIME

and they lowkey have telepathy????? im dying???

HOLY SHIT FOR A MOMENT I THOUGHT THEY ANIMATED RYOUSUKE INSTEAD OF HARUCCHI

“haruichi nice!” was so CUTE omg

oh my god is tetsu narration back im dead

“sankyuu kominato” aww 

BOIIIII FURUHARU WITH THE WHITE BACKGROUND AND EVERYTHING

“so the fielders dont have to work that hard” furuya das gay-

LMAO both miyuki and harucchi telling him to put the aura away

and harucchi said it too and thats the fastest ive seen it go away UHHH TERA TRYNA TELL US SOMETHING HERE

LMAO THAT BLURRY BACKGROUND EIJUN

harucchi handsome! 

yui being so observant i love 

wtff what is this discount taku you animated him so well just this last episode??

okay at least koushuu looks better

man i also love serious/intense mei 

oh my god KOUSEI WE DONT CALL PEOPLE UGLY LIKE THAT DAMN

lowkey savage tho

also this bg ost im not sure if it gives me chllls of suspense or displeasure hm

uhm hYELLO INUI-SAN I WANNA BE YOUR FRIEND THANKS

honestly wtf kousei your bisexual isnt showing its RAGING

and this odd social convention - facial score?? you can just say theyre attractive damn 

mm he’s kinda right about masashi, needs more plate discipline

I GET IT, ANIMATORS

BABY GAYS DO DO DODO DODOO

LMAOOO

INUI IS LITERALLY LIKE “LOOK AT THE POT CALLING THE KETTLE BLACK” 

IM MCFUCKING DYING

we stan nori + fielders being supportive! 

loving that slow motion shot of furuya

and of course the BALL ANIMATION

YAAAARGH SHIRASU-SAN

WHY ARE THESE FANGIRLS DRAWN BETTER THAN THE ACTUAL CHARACTERS LMAO

sachiko....... please marry me

for the tax benefits

WAIT 

WAIT

W    A   I            T

Y A   LLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL

I WAS N O T PREPARED FOR CARLOS VOICE I DIDNT

HOLY SHIT

I NEARLY FORGOT THE QUALITY TO IT AND I 

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

UHM AND SHIRAKAWA’S VOICE TOO IM

I NEED TO REWIND AND WATCH AGAIN

oh gosh carlos’s voice is right between my collarbones and shirakwaa’s voice is right above it i LOVE 

i dont usually have furuya shots but this was very nice

BALL ANIMATION WITH THE LIGHTING NICE

UHHHHMMMMMMM EVEN MORE RUUDEE

CARLOS AND SHIRAKAWA KILLING ME RN 

hyaha!

mukai inui rights!!!

“kazuya” every damn time man, right in the kokoro

oh god itsumei 

mei being mature........ i like

also they really gave up on animating mei’s arms in that shot wow 

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

DO YOU SEE THIS 

MASAMEI RIGHTS

mei... masa-san’s shoes as a leader are very big to fill......

oh god mei with flat eyes.........

YOOOOO ENDING IS SO CUTE

eijun lmao wyd

eijun and asada with pictures on their phones! 

MANAGERSSSSSSSSS

OH MY GOD IS THIS THE PHOTO THEY SENT TO RYOU-SAN

AAAAAAAAAAAAAA

lmao kijima, a cripid

eijun + asada and laundry yesss

YESS KURAMI AND SACHIYUI 

omg the coaches 

FIRSTIESSSSSSSSSSSSS

lmao is that miyuki’s legendary flip phone

batting lessons from harudanji-sensei! 

HYAHA koushuu dont want no pictures of him, relatable

and taku you DORK I LOVE YOU

TIRE SQUADDDD

minabe rights!!!!!

miyuki watching over firsties hyaha what are they even doing

uhh furusawa rightsss

OMG ASADA WAS TAKING THOSE PICTURES? CUTENESS OVERFUCKINGLOADDDD

AND LMAO WHAT A DISASTER SET OF PICTURES I LOVE IT SO MUCH EVERYTHING ABOUT THEM IS PERFECT I LAUGH THE MORE I LOOK

THIS DRAMATIC DORKY FUCKER IM 

preview

ah i guess we’re trusting furuya? 

and yui in catcher gear ooh

eijun... is he gonna get called up?

SUMMARY / TLDR: 

lots of asakuki!

animation ain’t up to par

rip furuya & amahisa starts

HARUCCHI APPRECIATION

"facial score" 

Inui Kengo 

ATTACCING ME WITH CARLOS/SHIRAKAWA VOICES WTF??? RUDE

mature mei tryna fill masa-san shoes

NEW ENDING

sobbing over asada taking all the pics

[kirakirachiizuru]

21 Questions COMEON!

YAH HO! I got tagged by lovely people @atsushihijikata & @hakuouki-rules :3c Thanks!

Nickname: Chii (since 2003) has been my internet name it was first Chidori but then my friends started to call me Chii. Sometimes Chiise-cake (cheesecake lol). & because of that I take the pleasure to become CHIIzuru once im in Hakuouki fandom circa 2011 ^^

Zodiac: Scorpio (but my friends say my mild attitude is more of a Cancer XD;; )

Height: 155cm

Last Movie I saw:  Kamen Rider Build & Ghost / Kazemai Tsurune Koukou Kyuudoubu

Last Thing I googled:  Two Set Violins on youtube

Favorite Musician: I actually dont have any I listen to what’s nice according to my mood like Monkey Majik, Arashi, SMAP. But if you ask my iTunes apparently I have listened to Hakumyu mp3 more than 5000x (since I listen to LIVE 2 everyday, in car, in train and during work)

Song Stuck in my Head: Kingdom Heart’s OST - Dearly Beloved (I’ve been listening to this non-stop too) and Kimi no Na wa OST

Other Blogs: kirakiraonizakura@tumblr was my side blog for translation: Matsuda Ryo-kun & Miyazaki Shuuto-kun daily blogposts on daily basis back until 2015? before I went hiatus -AND- Hakumyu LJ Fan Community, I am rawr2buny the mod who’s doing all the oddjobs for fan’s happiness lol :p

Do I get Asks: Yes sometimes. I get a lot back then before I went to a 2 years + hiatus. And when I came back I am lonely now most of my friends have moved on :( So talk to Chii please /slapped XD But the hakumyu fandom friends I made back then are mostly my internet real life friends. We have stayed friends until now. They are from Philippines, Mexico, Spain, Greece, US etc ^^

Following: 194. I wanna follow more Hakuouki / Hakumyu blogs! Please let me know if there is any that i should be following!

Followers: 440. This is my first time checking O v O WOW! Thank you!

Amount of Sleep: 5-6 hours(?) I am a working adult now and I also take my Master studies as a part time student now… so… 8D /sobs

Lucky Number: 9

What I’m Wearing: A big yellow hoodie. And a cute girlish boxer(?) lol

Dream Job: I am a Quality Engineer now, it is something I love doing. But if possible I’d love to have a job that surrounds me with people who speaks Nihongo / Japanese. I like teaching too.

Dream Trip: Although I have been to Japan. My dream trip would be going to Japan EVERY YEAR on different seasons.

Favorite Food: Japanese or Korean food :3c I LOVE GUMMIES, gummy bearts esp cola flavoured!

Play Any Instruments: Nothing XD My instrument as an IT person are laptop, gadgets.

Languages: Malay language, English. My self-study Nihongo.

Favorite Songs: Hakumyu songs (lol). I usually listen to soundtracks. So.. dunno.

Random Fact: I am that anime girl who is super shy and lacking confidence but actually would challenge herself to little little things like recently I suddenly took up Iaido (Japanese sword art lesson) which my friends thought as WJHOA ARE U SERIUS?!

Describe yourself as Aesthetic Things: A princess who shines white light — aiming for a golden heart. (Funnily I started to joke around on my instagram and always saying that I am an AWE-so-me Princess. and eventually out of my persistency, it started to rub off on my friends and they started to call me Princess. Even my ex-boss started to acknowledge it and people started to call me by that name lol) I don’t know who I should be tagging, it is okay if you’re not up for it since now I dont know many of you here :’) /sobs but here goes sorry if you dont like being tagged: @shibuemiyuu @impracticaldemon @ladyshiranui @koyuki1401 @pepperychip @bureau-pinery Have a nice dayyy you girls! Thanks for making tumblr a nice place for me to nest in XD

[imriya]

K Drama List Part 2

Bc I have no life I have watched a lot of drama’s so here’s part 2. Part 1 will be linked HERE . So here’s part 2 reviews and all 

1. Doctor Stranger

Rating: N/A 

I was recommended this really highly but honestly I couldn’t sit through past 2 episodes. I was so disappointed especially because I love Lee Jong Suk. I definitely won’t even try to watch this again. I really could not get into it at all. 

2. Kill Me Heal Me 

Rating: 9/10

I WAS HOOKED FROM THE FIRST EPISODE! I highkey fell in love with every single personality and I just can’t! I still talk about this drama all the time! It was so different from any other drama I’ve watched and the acting was absolutely brilliant! The way each personality is portrayed and how everything comes together in the end...If I had emotions I would have cried throughout but because I’m dead inside I only teared which is still a big deal considering how only 3 drama’s have made me cry so far 

3. Because This is My First Life 

Rating: 9/10

I literally just finished watching this like two seconds ago! IT WAS AMAZING! The side characters and their romance was just as well developed as the main! Soo Ji is a frickin badass and I love her so much! The female relationships as well as the male ones were just brilliant! There was no ‘villain’ in this one like there is in typical dramas which made me happy. This drama will have you crying, laughing and squealing! 

4. 49 Days 

Rating: N/A 

I’m really disappointed. I heard really good things about this drama but I could barely sit through 2 episodes. I was cringing the whole way through. I would really only continue this because of the traveller but right now I can’t. I watched one episode and stopped for two days, having to hype myself up for the second. 

5. The K2

Rating: 3/10

Maybe I’m just having really bad luck with drama’s but I couldn’t get through this either.  Dont get me wrong, Ji Chang Wook was brilliant and the storyline is interesting too but god damn that female lead is so frickin annoying. I was so bored and done with her by the third episode. I just had to stop halfway through

6. Page Turner 

Rating: 8.8/10 

So, I binged this in one sitting. I’m not usually one for mini drama’s but after reading some recommendations I saw this one pop up in like 80% of it. BEST DECISION I HAVE EVER MADE! It’s such a relatable and mature drama whiile also making you laugh and tugging on your heartstrings. If i had emotions I would be bawling! I honestly need like 2 days to just savour this before starting on any other drama. It’s amazing and so is the acting and the storyline I AM IN LOVE

7. Marriage Not Dating 

Rating: 6/10 

This started out really well and had some good development including all of the K Drama Tropes plus a shit load of slaps but kinda lost momentum half way through. It could have ended 3 episodes earlier but they kept dragging it on. I had my fair share of squealing and what not but then I got bored. 

8. Fated To Love You 

Rating: N/A 

Sigh... I really tried to stick it out with this one but I just couldn’t. The first two episodes were so cringy and everytime the dude laughed i seriously wanted to burst my eardrums. The female lead was really good but the storyline and the acting from the first male lead was just so bad I stopped halfway through episode 5. I heard the Taiwanese Drama was better than this one so watch the TDrama instead of this. 

9. Hwarang 

Rating: 7/10 

I’ll be honest, the only reason I started watching this was because of Kim Taehyung aka. V from BTS I know im a terrible human being BUT i stayed for the amazing bromance! I found myself looking forward to the bromance more than anything and anytime something bad happened to the guys I winced and almost teared up. The female lead for this started out really good but then got cliched and slightly annoying but no where near as annoying as the lead for K2 sooo yeah the bromance in this will never be beaten i swear

10. Oh My Ghost 

Rating: 6.5/10

It started off well and was incredibly interesting. I did put this off for a bit because i thought it would be scary and I’m honestly a wimp but save for one or two scenes the rest was alright and not scary at all. There is romance and mystery and comedy and one or two cringy scenes but other than that it was wow! The romance kinda overshadowed the mystery which for me was a little annoying but it was cute enough to let pass but it kinda goes at hyper-speed the last 3 episodes. 

11. I’m Not A Robot 

Rating: 8.9/10 

IF I HAD EMOTIONS I WOULD BE AN EMOTIONAL WRECK RIGHT ABOUT NOW! OH LORD THIS DRAMA! okay so the reason it didn’t get a 9 and above is because I was expecting a lot more from the Aji 3 closing story but everything else was absolutely brilliant! The acting, the cute, the sad, the angry, the oh lord i wanna punch something, the squealing was just amazing! I had such high expectations for this drama and IT MET EVERY SINGLE ONE! This definitely goes in my top 10 list i just wished they did a little more for the tying up of the Robot’s storyline

12. Just Between Lovers 

Rating: 9/10 

OH MY HEART! This drama just proves that I seriously don’t have a tear duct because if I did I would be a sobbing wreck on the floor by now oh my lord where do I start?! So this drama is basically about an accident and how a shopping mall collapsed and it builds up from there with some flashbacks but wow I am so ASGSFKSGKF it made me laugh and almost cry especially the last two episodes oh lord This is deffo in my top 10 

13. Cinderella and the Four Knights 

Rating: 3/10 

God, I really tried to stick this one out because I heard such good things about it but after the 5th episode i just couldn’t. It was so repetitive and boring and just plain. Everytime that OST played I wanted to bang my head in. It’s so mindless. 

14. Emergency Couple 

Rating: 5.5/10 

It started out reallllly bad and i mean like properly bad even Thumping Spike 2 had a better start but I stuck with it and it was a cute drama, funny as well but I think the angst was played out too much. 

15. Ask Us Anything/ Knowing Brothers

Rating: 9/10 

Okay I know im cheating since this isnt like a drama but ITS SO FUNNY! Honestly the best time pass thing to watch ever! Its basically these 7 guys in a classroom setting just taking the piss out of famous people who come on their show omg i love it! It’s a weekly thing and i think they’re on season 3 or 4 but seriously hilarious 

16. The Moon Embracing The Sun 

Rating: 8.8/10

First of all MY HEART! Second of all THE CASTING OH MY LORD THE CASTING IS SO ON POINT! If you read my KDrama Rec List 1 you would know that Moon Lovers basically ruined all of the period dramas for me and Hwarang was the first period drama I watched after that but THIS ONE OH MY LORD THIS ONE! THE KIDS WERE AMAZING AND BRILLIANT AND BASICALLY GOT ME ADDICTED TO THIS DRAMA and dare I say it, even more amazing than the adults! Also like Hyung Sun is the real MVP. My heart is both full and broken at the same time. There was tearing but no tears. 

17. Eulachacha Waikiki / Laughter in Waikiki 

Rating: 9.5/10 

THIS SKYROCKETS ALL THE WAY TO MY TOP 5! I was waiting for this to finish so I could watch it and I had high expectations - IT MET EVERY SINGLE ONE! It was hilarious and had me on the floor the whole time! It also had romance and sadness and kinda reminded me of Fight For My Way in the group of friends growing together part. I absolutely loved it and if I didn’t have responsibilities I would have literally finished this in two days! All I’m going to say is - #ProtectDuShik2k18 

18. Chicago Typewriter 

Rating: 5/10 

I was recommended this by literally every single K Drama Rec that I saw but I just couldn’t get into it. After 5 episodes I was still kinda meh about it and was just watching it for the sake of watching it. The storyline of past lives and lovers and the switching of timelines was interesting no doubt but perhaps it just wasn’t for me.

19. Problematic Men 

Rating: 8/10 

Again, I know Im cheating ‘cause it’s not exactly a drama but more so a variety show but omg it’s so good! I started it because of Namjoon but I stayed for the rest of them! It’s basically these men who are really smart and they try to solve problems and puzzles and test their IQ, which i know sounds really boring but trust me it’s anything but! It’s hilarious and really challenging and like i was so determined to solve it myself as well. The first episode is really meh but i promise it gets so much better! 

20. Great Seducer 

Rating: 6/10 

I’m not going to lie, this started out so well! I absolutely loved the concepts and the characters and the character building but after episode 22 it just got SO REPETITVE and i was so bored. I just watched for the sake of watching and had to hype myself up for the next episodes. Soo Ji and Se Joo are an amazing side cast, way better than the leads if you ask me but it was an alright drama overall. It just wouldn’t be off the top of my head reccomendation if someone asked me what to watch 

21. The Liar and His Lover 

Rating: 3/10 

I think my bad luck streak with KDrama’s has started again. I got 4 episodes in and was already so damn annoyed. The female lead was crying for a good 90% of the whole drama. The male lead was whining and I wanted to punch the both of them. The OST and Chan Young was the only saving grace of this drama, well them and Crude Play. Those people are cuuuute. There kind of is a second lead syndrome but it’s not that bad.

22. The Universe’s Star 

Rating: 6/10 

I was recommended this by a friend who said it gave off Goblin vibes. It was cute but really cringy. Basically its about this fangirl who died and is now a grim reaper who is ‘protecting’ her favourite idol. The acting was amazing but... the lines were just cringy. 

[fluffi]

i think it was because god's menu was released around the same bp and svt made their comebacks. same thoughts tho on gm > bd and i was also glad that bd got the wins gm didn't. and same with the streaming mvs while studying : ] ahh, the easily distracted people we are. (reading cut and litol font bc poor ppl who see this on the dash TT)

i've heard chinese ballads (usually osts of films and from a chinese friend) and their songs really tend to tug on my heartstrings. i hope sm gives shotaro more stuff to do soon :[ with some of the units being active and sungchan being an mc on a weekly show, it makes me wonder what he's doing. do you think nct will form a new subunit?

no, i'm not lactose intolerant so it really took me by surprise. it was a one-time thing. hopefully it doesn't happen again. i can't really say i'm a big fan of ice cream but it's good occasionally yk as a treat to yourself. and ahhh, i miss drinking smoothies. my favorite stall has been closed for nearly two years now, idk if they ever re-opened since our city mall burned down :[

i think it's an nct thing? it's why i never get tired of them bc they're always active in a way. you should've seen how things went down last year! march 127 album, april dream mini-album, may 127 repackage, june wayv album and the whole nct 2020 thing. it was a wild year. about the track, i listened to it once and forgot about it. might give it a few more listens but it might not grow on me at all. yes! wasn't a big fan of hot sauce at first too bc i thought the intro was weird (not jaemin's part, like the first thing that plays). and yes, that hook loops in my head 24/7. i even made it my instagram bio.

stray kids world domination indeed! and i agree that their performances were really impressive (specially the deadpool one, best one yet) but sometimes i would fancy ateez' more. i didn't watch kingdom too bc it stressed me out as a multi. always caught between being happy for one group and being sad for the others. and atz and tbz! you're still getting into nct and you're thinking of adding 19 more boys! judging from what i know your taste in music is, i think you'll like tbz's music better since there are a lot more soft songs there than in atz. but do give both discographies a listen in the future!

oh izone! i've only heard of them at music shows and dance choreo compilations bc of them being in sync. they're really satisfying to watch! i thought their title tracks were catchy as well! quite unfortunate that i never got into them really. but again, i dont think i can handle stanning temporary groups.

i'm starting to see a pattern in your biases :D i wouldn't be too surprised if you'll be drawn to jeno at some point in your dream venture. dream is soooo easy to love so if you really end up ulting them, i would understand why. and also, YES PLEASE WRITE FOR DREAM AND TAG ME IF YOU WILL. THANK YOU ><

thank you! :c don't get your hopes up tho, the masterlist must've been interesting to browse but are the fics truly worth it? XD i think not. since you already know koe, i'm reccing users @/rouiyan, @/nsheetee and @/loonacitys. i don't have that much fluff in my ficrecs blog. i think, i've heard of lvdsc before (maybe even read a fic or two) but i can't find their blog now. be careful in privating your works, you might end up losing them forever if you don't keep track of their links...(?) that's what happened to the works that i privated :/ take me with you if you move blogs ;n;

seungmin frequently left updates abt what he was doing, left good nights and good mornings, the occasional i miss you. he called fans 'baby' once. not sure if it was a mistranslation, or really just a one-time endearment. other than that, nothing beyond the usual. seung vlives always make me cry ;n; he always look so adorable and precious. also the gif, the fic was more on fake head-butting really but yes you could say it was also a fake nose boop bc it sounds cuter. i'll make sure to tag you on future seung content on the dash. (time to officially claim him as your ult, yes. dont make him secret anymore :3)

sorry it took me a while. tumblr went batshit. the ' werkl;' stopped working midway and i got busy with school yesterday. also haechan birth today and i'm so emo abt it. it's literally just a boy turning 21.

little font and cut saga lets go!!

(just kidding, i cant do little font typing for long periods of time, makes my eyes go beserk haha.)

true true, im afraid for txt on music shows now because theyre going against some big names (literally bts like whatj jsdf what was hybe thinking). yeah, streaming mvs while studying aka watching mvs on loop lmao. i still want to stream skzs final kingdom performance on instinct but i remember that theyve already won!! hehe

ah chinese ballads always make me emo, i like to scream out lyrics to the songs at the top of my lungs and sit there on the verge of tears. its a cultural thing maybe *sobs*. ooh, what show is sungchan mc-ing in? ill check it out. i thought sm would make nct japan for sungtaro (i heard sungchan speaks japanese) so it was a shocker when they made...nct hollywood lmao. given the current circumstances we're probably not going to get a new subunit anytime soon :( hopefully taro will have stuff to showcase during that period of time.

burned down?? oh my, what happened to your mall? that sounds terrifying. i remember when the front of my school caught on fire and we were all ushered out but we thought it was a drill and didnt find out till years later lmao.

oh true, since theyre such a big pack too. constant comebacks and promotions haha, nctzens never catch a break with 23 members. i listened to the new track again (ive forgotten the name already) but i cant- i cant do it. its just not my style hhh. i rewatched the mv for the godly visuals though. i dont know if youre talking about that 'bibididibibidiododo' part by that female morphed voice at the beginning of the song, because i wasnt a fan of that too. it grew on me though.

same, actually! im not an atiny and dont stan any other group in the show besides skz but i watched each groups performance and ranked them haha. at times ateez would rank over skz, it was wild. also yeah, my other multi friend was freaking out about kingdom and ended up abandoning the show because she was so scared of the fanwars and having to deal with her 'conflicting feelings'. about the stanning thing, in my defense, i have a list of groups i want to stan and ive recently added tbz and atz. the list is long, i have a long way to go! also yeah, i dont prefer ateez's songs and i have a bunch of tbz title tracks in my playlist but if i approach their discography like i did with nct then i think i would like at least five songs.

izone are my queens. theres a reason why theyre the only girl group who made it to my ult list haha! super talented and filled with variety and visuals, a perfectly concocted group (literally, sobs in pd48 scandal). ah, temporary groups. yeah i cried about their disbandment for like 3 days straight, it was bad.

a pATTERN?? INTERESTING. DO ELABORATE. jeno, oh my gosh hes like bang chan. an intimidating-looking bear whos actually filled with love and softness on the inside. im currently having a jaemin run though, his make a wish fancam is doing some wacky things. also yeah, dream is really easy to love. i fell for them so hard, theyre all talented and cute and adorable and the team ambiance is so nice. really rising up my stan list now. i mightt write for dream! ill have to see, hehe.

personally i think the fics are going to be worth it. i can feel it in my boOOnes. ooh, recommendations! fun :D ill check them (and yours) out after i finish this 30k jisung fic. ive been trying to finish it since yesterday but i keep getting sidetracked. also, i made a mistake. its luvdsc with a 'u', maybe thats why you couldnt find it? ahh. thank you for the privating tip though! will keep in mind. and of course ill take you with me if/when i move blogs. we're friends now! <3

SEUNGMIN CALLED STAYS 'BABY'???!!@)(@#*()! I SHOULDVE BEEN THERE ASKDFJDF. im exciting for the fake nose boop drabble!! i love soft couple moments hehe. also yeah maybe its time to make him my ult...hes going to have to compete against jake my beloved ope.

dont worry about being 'late' or anything! we all have our own stuff to do. also yeah tumblr is weird asf sometimes. if you havent realized i typically answer longer asks around the same time everyday, when i get to sit in front of my computer and pull out my clickity-clackity keyboard. super relaxing.

AND YES HYUCKIE DAY!!! HES SO ADORABLE HONESTLY. im in love with all seven members of dream, my fic rec blog is currently filled with fics for them haha.