#AND BOY HOWDY DO I RAMBLE

[itsohh]

Ohhh!! When Ghost straight up sat down and said “I don’t love you anymore.” My heart!!! Because you know this is exactly how he’d do it! He wouldn’t budge he’d just try and steamroll through it as quick as possible! Blunt and to the point with no remorse.

I don’t normally read angst because it’s just not my style but I really liked these, each was different and unique to the operators in their own way and showed their individual personalities. None of them felt copy pasted from the other and that is a feat in itself.

You knocked another out of the park, as usual. I hope you have a fantastic day! 💕

(⁠◍⁠•⁠ᴗ⁠•⁠◍⁠)⁠❤ Deep down Ghost would be of course upset, because he certainly cares but he knows that the harder he rips the bandade off the easier it's going to be in the long rate. He's rather your heart be broken for a few months and eventually get over it than the alternative.

Now that I look back of then I lowkey kinda realise they all cause a different state of grief. Gaz with anger, Price with bargaining, Ghost with acceptance and I suppose Soap with denial.

How easy it would be to destroy or hide that note and pretend one day he's going to wall through that door.

I think each person in 141 is really quite distinct in their own way. They all have that same level of passion certainly for their job and their team but they just express it in different ways.

Like Price has a team to look over so he's always got that calmness to him. He can control his anger and his emotions but in a way he still lets them show? That entire scene with him confronting Shepard is one I think back to a lot. He's pissed, he's offended, he's angry. These are his people that Shepards attacked but ultimately he's in front of a laptop. He can't do anything to Shepard. Not yet at least.

Ghost's care is in a similar position as Price, he's a lutentiant. It's his job to look after his team but he does it in a less emotionally charged way than Price does. Still makes the same impact. In Alone he keeps the mood light, he keeps chatter up with Soap else the gravity of the situation may bare down upon him. An entire army is hunting them. Soaps head needs to be clear and Ghost keeps him in the game. Especialy that scene when they reunite with Rudy after Alone.

Theres not a single hesitation for him to say he would wait for Soap. I think Ghost may be a distant and careful person but he also cares about the people in his charge. His own person experience may shape the way he goes about them but they won't cause any type of deglect.

This is one of the reason I think Ghost has gone to at least some type of counseling or therapy or something. Like he has some PTSD but that man isn't ever going to have a meltdown or an attack on the job. He wouldn't risk it. Ghost has full control of his emotions and everything. I know that you also have to be very much mentally fit for the military too.

Gaz I think is the most obvious with his care. He cares about people obviously. He puts it up front. Like that line when Kate gets taken 'I thought Laswell was your friend.' she's his friend, even if she's his employer it's a very straight up simple way of thinking. It's not his responsibility but he will do anything he can to help. Just like everyone else, he doesn't want people to hurt but I do feel like he will try to do things to soften blows. More of a short term in the moment thinker aposed to Ghost who sees the end goal rather easily.

Soap is a wildcard in my opinion. He's got a decent amount of experience with life but also learning. He knows how he will respond to things aswell. Personally I think he's quick to bend to the will of his friends. Not in like a bad way but in the way of he wants to see those around him happy. He likes seeing people laugh. The whole situation of him leaving I think he knows if he straight up told you he leaving and you started crying, he would give in.

Hmm. Whoops got away with that for a bit. As you can tell I do put some throught about these guys. I think also playing the game gave a different experience from just watching it. Having that small preasure to actually have to do it. But then again it was on Veteran difficulty. Oh! I missed one shot as Gaz with the suppressed rifle and Price had to shoot them. He does this dad voice and tells you to 'wait for his call and if they are walking to lead them into it' and god damn I really felt bad. That being said I also felt like I learnt something with that 'leading people into the shot' it was good. A different atomsphare.

Then again I was living under his praise. 'Good shot'??? Kill me. Anyway! I'm glad you liked it. It's been a while since I wrote something and same day posted it. I'm really enjoying cod, even PvP which totally surprised me. fuck knife players it's been good! I'm hoping to eventually do the raids with a friend but I've heard they are long and time zones n everything. I haven't watched anything with the raids so I'm excited to know what happens in terms of plot.

[sanji-outfit-tourney]

Well I finally sat down and worked out the schedule for the whole tournament (probably should've done that at the start but oh well). The pictures are under the cut for those interested, you'll see that I continue with the usual "Mon-Thurs with a 3 day break at the end of the week" routine for Round 2, and then Rounds 3 and 4 are going to be one poll everyday with (almost) no breaks, and then there's going to be some break time before the semifinals, and then the finals will be on November 4th. Sorry if it's all kinda confusing, scheduling a tournament turned out to be a lot more complicated than I thought it'd be lmao

[your-subby-creature]

All the Dad(dy) bloggers getting hyped for father's day is so fun and cool, you all are so sexy and also need to come fuck me NOW

[roboraindrop]

One day.... One day he will be mine..... Djdbsksh

[listen-to-the-inner-walrus]

Human pet guy showed up on my dash again (via puppy play sick skateboard tricks post) and I decided to look at what he was up to these days, and

what do you mean he was born in 1995?

[fire-branded]

Continued from here:

There were times when it felt as though his dear wife and he were a world apart -- not just because of the differences in society and customs between Oriflamme and Rosalith, but also because of their differences in opinions. Elwin tried never to take the Archduchess's absences during his departures and upon his returns to heart, because he did understand her stance when it came to the matter of him leading campaigns himself. And though he wished he could bring himself to respect Nunnally's wishes and remain behind, it was one of few decisions that he found himself unable to compromise on. After all, how could he sit behind while knowing that others fought so hard out on the battlefield on their behalf?

If it was House Rosfield's age-old duty to serve and defend the Grand Duchy's people, then he would do so unflinchingly, just as his father and their forebears had done. But there was now something else, too -- a desire, a yearning, to protect Nunnally as well(not that she needed it. She was far more than capable of taking care of herself, a fact which had made him admire her from their first chance meeting, and continued to do so onward 'til this very day). Along this same vein, he found himself thinking more and more of seeing her again during his times away, and it was this thought above all others that urged him to return, no matter what.

In this, he finally fully understood first-hand the sentiments shared by his men, when they spoke fondly of their families back home and held close to their hearts the love of those who awaited them.

Home is not a place; it is the people within it.

Elwin respected Nunnally far too much to demand her presence in public during farewells and greetings. It was something that he wanted her to choose for herself whether or not to do, social etiquette be damned. Besides -- their private moments were more than enough to see him through, to fill his heart with warmth enough to weather even the coldest winters of the far north.

The weight of his steps as he proceeded through the corridors seemed to lighten as the Archduke drew nearer to their chambers, until his fatigue seemed all but gone. The door was eased quietly open, allowing him to enter; no sooner had he crossed the threshold and closed the door behind him then Nunnally was right there with him. Waiting for him here, perhaps, as she had done on their first night of marriage. And in that moment, time felt as though it was slowed down, and Elwin's heart leapt within his chest just as it had back then. Nunnally's natural radiance shown bright as the sun; but it was more than just physical beauty. No, it was so much more than that. When that slender little hand graced him with her touch, the shyness found within her kiss was mirrored by a shy aversion of his gaze. When she spoke, he held each word as dearly as he now held her -- because with a slight shift of stance, his arms wrapped around her to bring her as close as possible. Even her very smile brought a sense of comfort and ease to the man, and it was a beautiful sight to behold, one he would never grow tired of seeing.

In her arms, he was home.

And then a bout of playfulness washed over him. Breaking into a warm smile, and with a soft and adoring expression, Elwin's hands held her waist. Then he lifted his wife so that he could twirl around with her. Was it unbecoming behavior of the rulers of a nation? Maybe so. But their private chambers were, as far as he was concerned, a sort of refuge from the scrutinizing eyes of the nobles in particular, where they could place aside their titles and ranks and simply be.

Politics and other discussions about the state of the realm(particularly where Sanbreque and Rosaria were concerned) could wait. In this moment, he was not Archduke Elwin Rosfield; he was simply Elwin, overjoyed to be in the company of his wife. In this moment... In this deeply personal moment, she was simply Nunnally. He could only hope that the woman would forgive him for viewing her as such, rather than thinking of her only as Her Royal Highness Nunnally Lesage, or Archduchess Nunnally Rosfield.

When Nunnally's feet were returned to the floor, he wasted no time in lifting his hands to her face. With utmost gentleness, her husband cradled it within calloused palms, even as he leaned in to rest his forehead against hers.

"You need not apologize, my dear," Elwin assured, a sentiment punctuated by a kiss to her lips -- lingered there a moment longer to enjoy the softness of hers. Then he nuzzled the tip of his nose playfully against hers before going on to quietly tease: "I missed you as well. Though I deeply appreciate your kindness and consideration... pray permit me to stay here a little longer with you -- if my lady is able to forgive the scent of chocobo, that is."

@lured-into-wonderland

[motoroil-recs]

Did all the requests I could today, hopefully I can get more done over the weekend, I don't like having requests older than a week in my inbox. Once I'm down to single digits again I might try out other request types, but I've been debating what I should try...

[waveoftreasures]

I’m seeing critical thinking posts about ACOTAR (which I love, it’s never bad to be critical of the things you like and sjm books have some hard pressed ones😬) and some keep bringing up that it feels like a fanfic of something else and!!! IT IS MY DUDES ITS LITERALLY SAILOR MOON.

The cauldron is literally just the galaxy cauldron reskinned!!! Velaris is based off of Crystal Tokyo!! Feyre is pretty much Usagi, with Rhys having a lot in common with Mamoru. Like I’m pretty sure it’s been talked about in the past but imma bring it up again LOL SJM used to write sailor moon ff back in the day, that’s why ACOTAR reads like one. It’s literally just sailor moon fan fiction reformatted.

Like whole battle in ACOWAR is just the Cosmos/Stars story arc in a nutshell with more blood and violence.

Also this isn’t me singing the books praises, there’s a lot of stuff I find issues in with her writing (don’t even get me started on the blatantly terrible attempts at “representation”). I’m just an aro/ace who read them for the politics and characters 😂

[itsohh]

I'm going to chop of Ubisoft's dick I swear to god.

You know what? This isn't a terrible change. With the addition of Thorn, Lesion did feel a little meh. So it's nice to have another mechanical trap operator. These changes does kinda bring him back to more OG style but at the same time: lol echo treatment invisible get fucked.

I do love the super shorty as a secondary.

I mean this will make my friend really happy, she's always complaining about the inconsistencies of shotguns. Idk how I feel about the ads improvement. I feel like this is something I'm gonna have to experience in game to decide as it could make or break shotguns. (Ubisoft if you ever even THINK about touching the BOSG I will hurt you.)

Now for the shit I hate. WHAT THE FUCK IS THIIISSS CUNNNTTT??? Like bro if I'm the only one setting up then there's no way imma have time to do it??? Also revealing to the attackers??? Talk about a fucking nerf to mute and Solis. Like your better off leaving your drone at spawn now and picking it up to drone later on when u get close. Unlike your rushing there's no point. Being on to it and killing all drones in prep phase then having the object hidden used to be a strategic reward. I've had matches win because attacks didn't actually know where the objective was and vice versa.

Like I get this is a solution to a problem that they have created but FUCK OFF literally quick match was completely FINE. It's quick because it didn't go a maximum of NINE ROUNDS. This is such some BS babying level stuff. Like sure spawn peaks and run outs can be annoying but that's part of the game. You can counter them, like YES you should be checking every window! Your in fucking training for combat! If your invun for the beginning of the round what if your Kali and just long range snipe??? Like I can see this going wrong for plane.

I mean... Now that comp rank doesn't mean anything I can understand the changes with unranked cause no one plays it but also??? I want to play like quickplay the way it is now, if 'standard' is still the same length as comp then idk man that's gonna suck.

If standards legit just current quickplay then they really should have just been like 'unranks removed we now have baby mode'

Idk what maps have been removed but I swear to god if they touch my boys Tower and Plane I'm gonna cry. I know it's a controversial take by I love both of those two map as is. (And plane got a rework not too long ago) They can take stadium tho. Take it out back and put it down because it's the worst map in the game.

I'm just confused by those 'base changes' what does this apply to? Everything? Are they removing bans from the game???? Same with the overtime thing is this for all game modes, like comp and unranked or????

Idk what clearance level is?

I feel like Ubisoft is reworking the game so much like at this point.... Just make another game lmao. I guess then there's always the fear of the ow2 syndom so I understand but then r6s is a really old game. This sucks cause like I love the game I do (I know it's a bad game) but a the same time this doesn't make me excited to play the game. It feel like it's audience is being reduced, like I love hehe funny skin pizza mozzie gaming but those premap set up cookie cutter shit? I fucking hate that. I bet the roations aren't gonna be where I like it either.

Ive been playing a little bit of comp recently but I've always been a quick play player. I could forgive the recent operators being so...eh.

Like don't get me strong Solis is really strong pick but I hated the addition of her and Brava SO much. Solis isn't to bad but Brava? I hate her addition. On both attack and defence, like why would you ever pick twitch anymore? Twitch doesn't even have any like really good guns either. She has the marksman I guess but all her guns are meh.

Fenrir I feel like is just a glorified proximity mine 80% of the time. He's just kinda eh and meh. His ability doesn't activate fast enough to normally be a big threat and then the fact you don't get his codes back is lame.

Grim is a niche, he's not bad. I just feel like he isn't that fun to play? I think him getting stickies is cool but I still feel like people won't play him.

Sens is powerful AF in a 5 stack with good coms. But without coms? I feel like their good for like a couple of strats but they aren't very versatile and are a very situation operator.

Like these operators aren't bad but I feel like they don't really add to the game in a positive way. Perhaps it's just a personal preference but idk I don't find any of them fun. I'm not running to try play them. I don't feel like the game has gotten better with their additions. Just worse.

(I hate Brava (gameplay wise) so much. On both attacking and defending)

First thoughts on Ram was 'oh an operator that focus's on playing vertical that's good we don't have- wait yes we do, there's sledge'

After this shocking revelation she's a weird automated version of sledge idk how to feel about it. I don't think she's gonna be picked much after initial release. I think she's going on the bench with Senz.

I'm still gonna play the game but like R6S vs CoD on a fight to see who can kill their game the fastest.

I hate being that guy but I do miss the way the game used to be when I started, I miss the UI. I miss being able to pick your fire mode, I miss old house I miss old consulate. I miss not having to worry if my own claymores gonna kill me, I miss the sense of accomplishment in the game.

Like I started playing just before Oyrx was released (hate Oryx players btw because they always break above hatch and then attackers get the advantage when they take it) and the games lost so much charm? Im glad they are tying to get out that entire 'stadium eSports incorporated into lore' phase but I feel like Ubisoft has an idea for the games future and it's just not a place I like.

I mean sure the games dying and I think addressing the RNG with shotguns is a nice step (that being said I like the risk vs rewards with them tbh) but at the same time if they addressed the true biggest problem things could change

That right

TICK RATE BABY

UBISOFT INCREASE YOUR TICK RATE FOR THE GAME. FIX YOUR DOG SERVERS TOO.

If they just went and fixed all their shitty bugs, if they didn't make the game feel like it was on early access it would be sooo much nicer. Like ngl? CoD? Feels like it registers properly, it's poorly optimised and horribly unbalanced ptw ect ect but the fact it feels like I registers my shit? Breath of fresh air sometimes. R6S could have been soooo good if they just hardcore fixed all their bugs glitches, server issues and tick rate. Like I shouldn't be able to look do and slightly to the left and then melee through a shield.

Old man yells at a cloud but come on man, don't fuck with my quick play.

[lorebird]

WHY R THERE SO MANY NOTES ON MY HARVEY PAINTING....... HELLO THERE

[last-flight-of-fancy]

Backstory exploration time for WoL~

WoL: Hallima, he/they Au Ra

Timeline: Heavensward up to Dark Knight Level 50 (Wages of Mercy)

Hallima thought he was some sort of mutation his whole life. There might be some trauma around that.

Hallima was an orphan.

Well, he is an orphan. It's not like this fact has changed- he may have gained some troublesome pseudo-siblings recently, but the fact remains that Hallima spent a great deal of his life until recently hopping from town to town taking odd jobs from whoever would hire him to get by.

He considers himself lucky, in a way. He's hardier than the average eorzean, covered in scales and thick skin, and most illnesses seem to pass him by. It offered him advantages most wandering urchin's simply don't have. That said however, he is not immune to things like exhaustion and hunger, and it was not without the ocassional helping hand that he had made it to adulthood.

He considers himself lucky to have made it to adulthood at all.

People rarely ask him about his past, a fact he is quietly grateful for. The calamity had rendered so many with lost loved ones that it has become considered somewhat gouche to ask after such things unless needed. Perhaps that's why it surprised him so much when Alphinaud- prim, proper, polite, Alphinaud- had done exactly that late one night as they rested in the Fortemps residence.

"Does anyone worry for you?" He asks, laying on his back in his cot and staring at the darkned ceilings. Hallima looks up from the weapon he's doing some maintenance on, lit by only a dim candle on a nearby table.

"Why?" A practiced evasion, though it feels somewhat wrong to use on Alphinaud in particular. To say he's come to care about the kid would be something of an understatement.

"Ah, that was rude, wasn't it? I'm sorry. I just... started thinking about Alisaie and wondering what she's doing... if the Crystal Braves had targeted her too..."

Hallima hums softly to indicate he's listening. A thought spiral, common to these sorts of late hours, and considering everything that has happened... He gets it.

"Then I wondered if she worries for us in turn... And then I realised how silly that was. She sent the carraige for us, of course she worries. Not that she would admit it, mind."

That tracks from what Hallima has seen of the girl. Stubborn and independant, but fiercly loyal besides. He's met the type before.

"Anyroad, the thought crossed my mind and it left my mouth before I could consider it. Forgive me."

"It's fine." The darkness within writhes at the lie, but is mollified with a glance towards Alphinaud's contrition, mixed with his own fear and anxiety hidden just beneath the surface. "... No. No one worries for me."

"I see." Alphinaud sits up then, and the candlelight makes the bags under his eyes all the more distinct, but it does not lessen the earnestness of his gaze. "Well. You may increase that number by at least one."

Hallima doesn't really know how to react in the face of Alphinaud's sincerity, so he gives a generic smile and a thank you before encouraging the boy to try and sleep once more. It's only after Alphinaud's breathing slows into a steady snore that Hallima smothers the candle with a bare hand and lets the mask drop.

-

Hallima grew up thinking he was some form of monster with ideas above its station. Or perhaps a Mi'quote who's fur turned hard and rough instead of soft and downy. Or any number of things that might occur to a child who has never met anyone quite like them. By the time he hit adulthood, Hallima thought that he had come to terms with the reality that he would probably never know.

And then he'd met Yugiri, who kept her face covered at all times, but there was no mistaking the rough texture of her tail or the shape of things beneath her hood which are too stiff and improperly placed to be even the strangest of mi'quote ears.

Hallima had not asked.

She had stared at him, long and hard, and in the end she hadn't asked either.

(or maybe she had, in her own surreptious way. She was an expert ninja and infiltrator after all)

Why hadn't Hallima asked, despite his suspicions? He's still not sure.

He can imagine the scoffing his companions would give if he told them it was fear.

He has no other words for it, though.

-

Hallima looks into Fray's face- their face- and feels at once rage and grief. His face, their face, and one both familiar and not. It tugs at memories long buried, and Hallima doesn't want them.

Reality has never cared much for such things, however.

Fray- or rather, Esteem- falls defeated, and two become one once more.

-

Hallima's earliest memories are of horrible, biting cold and numb fingers that he cannot bend.

-

There's no time for that, not with the war between Ishgard and the Dragons looming ever present.

-

Midgardsormer had called them kin.

-

Meeting Sidurgu was like looking into an inverted mirror, and after their experiance with Esteem there is an undeniable moment where Hallima is sure that their other has somehow made their own form somehow.

This is not the case.

Sidurgu asks their help with Rielle -the girl soft and familiar in ways that Hallima can't quite pinpoint- and they quickly agree. They see the bond between the two easily, one simultaneously fireforged and silk-web delicate, and want to protect it.

(They do not say this. Sidurgu would probably hate the sentiment. but still the sentiment remains).

But then Sidurgu tells them of his people's arrival in Ishgard, fleeing the Empire and seeking refuge, only to be cut down by fearful Ishgardians who assumed them in league with the dragons.

"Everyone." Sidurgu stresses. "Man, woman, child. None escaped the slaughter."

Hallima's earliest memories are of freezing cold, staggering through snow drifts and desperately alone.

They do not ask.

[dootznbootz]

I know I gotta do things but I really don't WANT to do the things 😞

[eternally-tired-cryptid]

I have on. More than one occasion with more than one therapist had a therapist ask me probing questions along the lines of if I'm missing gaps of time or have times where I black out bc the level of dissociation and depersonalization is so. Out there. They gotta check

[perditionanddiatribes]

THE WRAPPED IS HERE AND I GOT CALLED A YEARNING FAG

[squigglywindy]

If anyone’s wondering what the downside to brain damage is it definitely includes drinking a big bowl of in-date-but-still-somehow-spoiled milk and not realizing it was bad until your roommate smells it and tells you and then fast forward a day and a half and oh no

[mmorpg-escapism]

I'm on staycation this weekend which means three things:

Daily Nap Roulette

LOTS of FFXIV grinding (if I don't get two jobs to 90 I'm doing something wrong)

Writing, probably

Nap Roulette, if you're curious, involves not setting an alarm and seeing how long the nap actually lasts, risking completely ruining your sleep schedule. Day 1 was 2 hours, so I came out ok.

It did not, however, fix the writer's block that's got me stuck on chapter 3 T_T