#ALSO PEOPLE NEED TO STOP HURTING HIM PLEASE
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Yandere Weeping Clown Thoughts!!
CW: Nothing too bad, just your usual creeper, manipulation, and analysis(?) on his character. Tbh hes so yandere coded that everything blurs together atp (and I'm using "yandere coded" sort of loosely bc that makes me sound like a yandere enabler or smth, which like, lol no but in fiction yeah funne). Called him Joker bc it was easier to use/remember than Weepy, and also bc they called them that in all the lore drop so đ¤ˇââď¸
A/n: Just saw the new Hullabaloo lore drop and IDV has taken me back into its clutches. He is so yandere material 𫶠Proof read enough to go "that's postable."
Joker is quite sensitive to his darlings perception of him. He always tries to do the right thing, tries to please you so that when you smile at him, that strangely unfamiliar warmth spreads through his chest. A smile tugging on the corners of his mouth, stringing his lips up as if he were a puppet. And a puppet of your design he shall be if you wished it so.
Joker is definitely a worshipping sort of yandere. He'll do most of anything for his darling if it made them just a teeny bit closer. Any progress is better than no progress. Even if it means visiting you in the dead of night to "check on you," or often "bumping into you" in places that you frequent at the manor. He'll stop bothering you if you reject his advances, but he'll come back around sooner or later. Joker doesn't want you to hate him, but he also doesn't want to be away from you! Although you may say some hurtful things like, "It's making me uncomfortable, sorry," or, "Can you leave me alone for a while," he knows deep down that if he teeters around the boundaries you set for long enough, he can wiggle his way through and to your heart. At least, that's what he hopes.
Despite his subservient nature to his darling, Joker isn't so obedient around others. He has his more introverted traits for sure, but his sensitivity to anger is fragile, especially when it comes to you. Joker doesn't have many qualms about taking a stand for you or himself if it came to it. He wants to be your protector, so he isn't very afraid to say something if he feels the need to. It can become quite the scene if the other party doesn't back down, making either you or someone else the mediator of the debacle. It's exhausting to have to manage your persistent follower, but it's better to handle a situation rather than let it spiral out of control, leaving the consequences of his mental break to you.
With his fragility also comes his keen eye for any chances to take advantage of a situation. Joker isn't very intimidating physically or feared for being calculating, but he is usually dismissed, and that makes for perfect cover if he plays his cards right. Framing people for his crimes can be a walk in the park depending on the situation, and manipulating those weaker than him isn't something he wholeheartedly takes pride in, but if it's for you, if it's for you, the singular most important person and one he adores most in his rotten life, then he's happy to oblige. If it wins you over in the end, then that's all that matters, right?
Joker will try to convince his darling to stay by his side and will get more desperate depending on the circumstances. He's not a kidnapper type, more of an idealist. Not to confuse that with delusional though. Joker knows full well how you probably feel about your strained relationship, but if he doesn't try now, he'll never get to be with you, and that's unacceptable. He wants to live a romantic and sweet life with you day in and day out, so he'd hate to see you miserable and locked up. If he can't love you the way he wants to, then what would be the point?
Even with that, Joker isn't above guilt tripping or petty manipulation tactics like that. He really can be unpredictable at times and can become very dangerous if his darling constantly shows no interest. Although he is a romantic idealist in his mind with you, he's also the type to slip into the "if I can't have you, no one can" mentality. He might just end up hurting his darling, but it won't be anything too drastic by the time it happens. Joker would feel terrible, terrified, and utterly disgusted with himself after seeing your petrified state. He'd drop to his knees and attempt to mutter consoling words, somewhat even begging for your forgiveness.
"Y- Y/n, no, oh no, no... Y/n, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, please. Don't cry, I didn't mean to. I truly am sorry. I had just- I wasn't thinking straight. I would never hurt you. If only you hadn't done this, then... No, just come back to me Y/n."
He is still quite demanding even while apologizing, which would make your fear even greater. Joker doesn't want to force his darling's hand, but if it really came down to it, he'd give his darling a grade A verbally manipulative beat down. He'll use anything and everything against you so that all else but him looks ugly in that moment. Sure being at the receiving end of his unstable anger was horrifying, but be honest with yourself, were it not for him who has saved you countless times in both matches and inside the manor, you would be long dead by now. Anything is on the table, anything just so you will come back to him once more. He has little to no guilt in it, just the fear that he will seriously break if you're still in a right state of mind. So, in turn, he'll unfortunately have to break you first.
#yandere idv#yandere identity v#yandere weeping clown#yandere weepy#yandere joker#yandere idv x reader#yandere identity v x reader#yandere weeping clown x reader#yandere joker x reader#yandere weepy x reader#idv#identity v#idv x reader#identity v x reader#x reader#yandere#yandere blog#male yandere#yandere x reader#okay we r so back#wit idv aw yeah bby#the tag is so dead but call me evanescence bc#im bringing it back 2 life#i redownloaded it and im scared to play bc im rustier than a bad of pipes#but 4 weepy my luv#yes i will try him out â¤ď¸â¤ď¸#im so into him#his voice actor did him so good#waiter waiter#MORE WEEPING CLOWN PLEASE!!!!
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As funny as Spite is when he's being a chaotic gremlin who wants to eat candles and is jealous of Curiosity's feet, I'd like to see his dangerous side being explored more, along with the dangers of possession.
Possession is a big deal. We see it in Anders, whose anger and past trauma twists Justice into Vengeance, and their emotions being intertwined creates an endless feedback loop of misery and obsession until Anders can't stop himself from doing something drastic, very similarly to Solas. They have different goals/ideals, but they have similar (near) unstoppable drive to fulfill their perceived purpose no matter what the people around them say, a purpose that sends them hurtling along a road paved with destruction. Anders at the end of DA2 is very similar to a pure spirit/demon in the sense that his purpose is pretty much all that he is, consumed with the need to liberate mages and avenge them against chantry and templar oppression (also a similar flavor to Mythal in a way. Benevolence (help people) -> Retribution (avenge people))
Spite as an emotion can have a positive effect for a person (succeeding/persevering out of spite), but it's not a positive emotion. Spite as a demon is a creature of pettiness/anger/resentment, a cousin or brother to Vengeance pretty much. Spite physically hurts Lucanis (only once that we actually see in the actual game and I would have liked it to be a more recurrent/tangible problem) when he doesn't get his way. He attacks Illario and would have killed him if he had his way. He doesn't process emotions as mortals do, so outside of anger/resentment etc, he doesn't really get genuine affection or love or any positive emotion that isn't motivated by hurting people and/or not doing what they want, because again, he's a being of raw emotion with a specific realm of purpose.
So what about Lucanis and Spite? Does them being intertwined change Lucanis' personality in any way? Enhance his anger? Make him more determined than he already is, but also less able to forgive? Does Spite change because of Lucanis in any way? Does it make his emotions or thought processes more complex? Is the particular way they were bound together, different from Anders' willing possession, make them more separate entities, considering Anders basically absorbed Justice until they were fused together? Does spending time outside of the Fade let Spite learn like it did for Cole, even if their situations were different, without changing his core nature?
The âlearningâ part is kind of alluded to in the hardened Lucanis path where he wants to find a way to part with Spite once he's done with his contract, and Rook can mention that Spite might have evolved because he's a demon who's âlearned to work alongside peopleâ (or something to that effect). I would have liked a bit more of that topic in both paths for Lucanis. Spite likes Rook when they're being vengeful or making dark jokes, because they're acting in a way that pleases his nature, and he does ends up trusting them/being fond of them in his own way. Is he also partly influenced by Lucanis' emotions and fondness for Rook (whether friendship or romance, without truly being able to feel or understand these emotions for himself)?
I feel like Lucanis' possession is simultaneously presented as a big deal but also doesn't end up having much of an effect in the grand scheme of things. Spite was introduced as a threat and treated as one in the scene with Illario, but he's written as a very lukewarm demon otherwise and he doesn't feel very dangerous at all. I would have liked more from him, more details, more possible negative consequences, more actual danger to Lucanis' wellbeing if Spite gets his way.
Is there a possibility in an alternate universe where Lucanis could have gone down a darker path similar to Anders', considering he wasn't in the best mental state when Rook gets him out of the Ossuary (an understatement)? Maybe if Rook lets Treviso get blighted? Could Lucanis' caring nature lose against Spite because of the despair and resentment he feels in that route? Spite would feed off his anger and also fan its flames, creating the same kind of endless negative loop that Anders was stuck in, until Lucanis was changed as a person. Angrier. Pettier with any perceived slights. More Vengeful even towards less deserving targets.
Again, we kind of get that in the sense that we can't choose what to do with Illario at the end of his quest but he just... gets imprisoned. (which is the choice I made in my first playthrough with unhardened Lucanis anyway because I just can't see in what world what Illario did would be forgivable with just a slap on the wrist. Maybe I'm also a demon of Spite, who knows)
It's a very lukewarm vengeance at best because in the canon hardened path, even if we get *told* Lucanis is more depressed and less trusting, he doesn't actually change much as a person and retains his love for his family and his caring nature, so it doesn't seem like Spite has influenced him in any way.
So yeah. Maybe in an AU. Or maybe I just like angst a lot, don't look at me I'm just bouncing ideas off the tumblr wall!
#lucanis dellamorte#veilguard spoilers#dragon age veilguard#also mildly veilguard critical I guess but it's more me musing about alternate universes
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Ok you guys I went to sleep at 1 am and woke up at fucking 5 am to watch arcane so here are my thoughts/review:
After I finished it, first of all, I was mad lmao, then I thought about it for a moment and I started crying, but like ugly crying with sobs and everything because holy shit Jayce and Viktor, then I stopped crying, thought about it a bit more, and I got mad Again lmao
Now spoilers
It was a fucking mess lmao
Like seriously what the fuck fortiche, what the fuck Riot, it was such a fucking mess, it was all over the place, the story was rushed, the characters arcs were rushed, there was a lot of things that felt very forced because they didn't have time to let it happen naturally and I can tell a lot of things that would've been good were left in the inkpot
About Cait and Vi: I truly and honestly couldn't have care less about them lmao
I know I know
But I already fucking knew they were going to end up together that Vi was going to forgive Cait for being a fascist etc etc, for me their arc was already finished and I didn't have time to care about them because I was more worried about what the heck would happen to the other characters and how in hell would they wrap up that mess. If they would've cut all their scenes and gave that time to Mel or something, I would've been so fucking happy
Also, the sex scene annoyed me so much lmao, I was thinking "IF YOU WANTED A SEX SCENE YOU SHOULD'VE ADDED ANOTHER SEASON FORTICHE! WE DON'T HAVE TIME FOR THAT NOW!" lmao
Mel: I liked the concept of her arc, I like the theory, I can see their vision, what they were going for
But in reality it wasn't fucking that
Like, I like the idea of having Mel realize that she was much more than the daughter of her mother, that she had her own value for who she was instead of simply being the blood in her veins. But boy, it didn't feel at all like she realized that lmao
It just felt like she was "now I'm confident enough about myself to confront my mother because the writers said so" like what? This is what I mean when I say that a lot of things felt forced
Viktor: ok, ok I'm just like *heavy sigh*
To be honest part of why I was mad at first was Viktor's character, I was like "So what? You stop being a humanity loving pacifist to become a fucking control freak who hates free will and emotions just like that?" But then I thought about it, and if you frame his arc through Jayce, it actually made sense, because you see, everything he did was for Jayce. When he came back and went to build his cult, I mean, Commune, he was doing their hextech dream, the thing they always wanted, the thing Jayce always wanted
When Jayce went and rejected him by shooting him in the chest (thanks Jayce) he was hurt, he lashed out and wanted to get rid of all emotions, ironically it was a very emotional reaction. So then as soon as Jayce was back with him, he realized his mistake and stopped
So yeah, it makes sense, the problem is that I shouldn't have to stop and piece together a character motivation like that Fortiche what the hell. I know some people say "let the audience do some work!" But I feel like I'm doing all the fucking work here
What they did was great! Good! But just like Mel, give it more fucking time please
And the machine herald design was a bit ugly lmao, like his design in the game looks better, but thinking about it, and looking at the other robots design and how Viktor dresses in the series. I think it makes sense that this specific Viktor would design something like that
EDIT: Oh! I Also forgot to add:
My favorite scene of him was when Jayce was taking out all of those things one by one and Viktor waited until he was done to push them all back LMAO he didn't need to do that
Jayce:
Jayce, what the hell
Like, I understand why Viktor acted like he did, but like, what was up with you?
I mean, the end implied that he knew all along what was going to happen (machine herald, save Viktor etc), but like, why did he acted so angry at the commune then? He seemed so erratic and Angry like he didn't know what was going to happen, but he knew, and then he switched back to normal but like, what was up with all of what happened before? If anything, why didn't just he let Viktor get to the hexgate peacefully and then talk to him? Idk, it just seems to me like Jayce was the character the most affected by the crossfire of the plot happening because the writers had a very specific ending in mind and no time to get to that ending naturally
Also "hextech is bad" Then proceeds to let everyone keep using it lmao
Ambessa and Singed: of all the characters I think these one were the worst of all lmao
Like the plot completely changed Jayce and forced Mel, but like, these two just were put aside? Lmao
Everyone at Fortiche was like "Fuck Ambessa and Fuck Singed" which is a shame because these two were really interesting
Ekko and Jinx:
I think of all the other characters, these two were the best ones
I didn't feel like their arc was forced, it felt like they were given enough time, but you know why? Because their arc started in season 1, in this season they just finished it
The only thing I will complain about is Isha, because it just feels like they used her and completely discarded her after like a broken toy. Like Silco was waaay better handled than her
Heimmerdinger: I mean, I didn't care much about him lmao, he was only there because the plot needed him, and when he wasn't necessary anymore they got rid of him lmao
But it was less obvious than Isha at least
Viktor and Jayce: now, this is the part that got me fucking crying so much, and this along with Ekko and Jinx are the things that make me feel conflicted about this ending and not hate it as much as I would otherwise
It was all left ambiguous, and the cynical part of me thinks "of course they can't make it any more obvious because then the dude bros who main Viktor and Jayce in LoL are going to cry about how they don't want to play as a man who wants to kiss another man"
But if I take it at face value... Ngl guys, it was good
Like how Jayce chose Viktor after everything he did, how Viktor tried to push Jayce away to protect him but Jayce refused to leave, how all they wanted wasn't progress, or fame or power, but simply be together. And they got to be together in the end
Damn, I'm crying again
I JUST FUCKING WISH EVERYTHING AROUND IT WASN'T A MESS!
And I wanted to add, when everyone in Zaun went to help everyone in Piltover to deal with Ambessa, I wouldn't have done that, fuck them, they put a fucking fascist dictator on power, probably made a lot of people "dissappear" and just like that they are like "Guys, we're sorry, we need your help now :(" fuck that
In the end, it doesn't feel like Fortiche earned this ending. Season 2 should've ended with Arc 2, and Arc 3 should've been a whole season
And I can't give it a rating, because I don't know, I didn't like a lot of it, but there were some parts that I really fucking loved
But if someone asked me if it was worth to give the series a try, I would say yes, but don't get your hopes up for the ending lmao
#ramblings#arcane#jayvik#viktor#viktor arcane#jayce talis#ekko#ekko arcane#Jinx#jinx arcane#caitlyn kiramman#vi arcane#arcane season 2#timebomb#mel medarda#mel arcane
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Uujh,,, I just saw a post talking about these two. Not gonna tag it cause I did exactly 2hat it criticized lol
Anyways, idk what I was going for here. But I've heard it before and I really agree that these two would work out together.
I think Cross' inner lieutenant comes to life everytime it happens, tho. This man is sadistic in a whole another brand. And masochistic. Exercising hurts.
I think Dream would start out kinda afraid, too. If you've ever stepped on somebody's feet so that they can do pull ups (I am unsure whether this is the right name. Very unsure.), you simply CANNOT not be afraid that you will harm them. You only really stop fearing after they step on you, because you're assured everything is fine.
Tbh I think Dream would be somewhat afraid even after this. He's stronger than average, and I'm sure he knows.
Overtime I think he'd start getting more used to it. It becom3s pretty casual. Like, yeah, its midnight and Cross is doing push ups. It is midnight and Cross is silently implying that they have been slacking off, because he's obsessing over routine for the eleventh time this week and he won't stop insisting that they're slacking off until he's sore enough that he is sure he has improved from yesterday in some form.
I'm not sure why Dream would join in. I thought it would be about feeling somewhat pressured to fit in, because he strikes me as the sort to do so. If he sees anybody near him working really hard on anything, his people pleaser instincts get triggered and he just decides he needs to work just as hard.
Perhaps it's not even people pleasing, but a mindset closer to these you can see in school. Every second you're not doing something, you're giving your opponent the advantage.
Really half baked concept tbh, but yeah.
Also, look, they were meant to be drabbles. I spaced out while paying more attention to the video on the left side of my screen and this happened.
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LOUISâ E4 COMMENTARY âźď¸
(i had a feeling this would be his favorite and it is certainly the most notes heâs had yet!)
Dead Boy Detectives Episode 4 Initial Notes:
Alright lads lassies theys and gays weâre breaking out the good soup for this one
Another suicide warning hm
JENNY LESBIAN EPISODE
Snail mail sexting lmao
Secret admiring is almost never your soulmate Iâm so sorry Niko
Also, just noticing the neck tattoo, metal as hell, that had to hurt sweet Jesus
Edwin reading that book like heâs 100 years old, fantastic subtle acting
Skipping around and reading astrology god if only
Men will do anything to avoid talking about their dad tsk tsk tsk
The type of melancholy that attracts me to large bodies of water
âPeople keep killing themselvesâ welcome to America, dead boy detectives⌠too much?
Wanna dress like this fucker when Iâm old and crusty
âThose fish stick commercials that I likeâ
To be an itinerant young person
Hmmm memories or hints of joy and love lure them to their death⌠people without love torments by the promise of it??? Themes?? Too early???
Age gap discourse between a ghost and a furry I live for this kind of television
âI like your secret partsâ ehh 𤎠but also thatâs what sheâd say to you fucking got âem
Lilith again
Dangerous womenâŚ
Kite enthusiasts too precious to die
Emotion and illogic THEMES
âLOVE REQUIRES NO LOGICâ I KNEW IT
Oh Edwin đ
We all need a friend like Niko
âProbably highâ
Stop looking without look within in crisis stop looking for answers of identity in other people and start looking at yourself
Tragic Mick!
Attracts evil seagulls â¤ď¸
Sheâs gonna find the little people
NOPE WAY OFF ITS THIS FUCKER
Hit her with the cleaver immediately
Everyone needs a go to weapon
Come on my man NEEDS to become a walrus
Green represents emotional stability đ
bait
YEAH
Damn Monty with the fit
Also Niko with the fit
Also Jenny with the fit
Ghost coffee!
Ah, close enough
ahhggEEWWWW AHHH
Mistreatment of dead children⌠institutionalization of childcare leads to suffering⌠eternal suffering in some cases
âYou donât belong here anymoreâ QUEER. THEMES.
OH MY GOD THEY STONED HIM FROZE HIM HOLY SHIT
Highlighting all the worst parts of life to make the child feel like they need you and your system
PUNK ROCK CHARLES PUNK FUCKING ROCK
Yeah it was a bit extreme now that I think about but sheâll be fineeeee
Need for love, false need for control, hurts him, themes
Case closed I guess indeed Niko
Please let Mick have some happiness by the end of the show
I love Niko and Edwin best friends so much UGH
SHES OPENING THE LETTERS AHHHHH
THEYRE BEING CANDID WITH EACH OTHER RAHHH
THE MUSIC IM CRYING
+bonus
[nobody tell himâŚ]
GUYS I ANNOYED ONE OF MY FRIENDS WNOUGH TO WATCH DBDA!! im gonna be posting his live updates in the reblogs HEHEHEHEHE (the score is what got him to cave đš)
#dead boy detectives#dbda#my friend watches dbda!#save dbda#we will save this show#savedeadboydetectives#save dead boy detectives#renew dead boy detectives#revive dead boy detectives
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brb on my way to red london to protect rhyâźď¸âźď¸FUCK
also KELL MY SWEET BABY ARE YOU OK?!?????
#rhy just thinking âfuckâ is so iconic honestly#UNKILLABLE KING HEâS SO DRAMATIC (rightly so) I FUCKING LOVE HIM#i wanna protect him man heâs so precious#i wanna be his bestie so bad#ALSO PEOPLE NEED TO STOP HURTING HIM PLEASE#FUCK The Hand#terrified that somewhere in the world kell is losing his absolute mind panicking#lila please be taking care of him rn#adsom#a darker shade of magic#v e schwab#kell maresh#shades of magic#rhy maresh#threads of power#the fragile threads of power
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can i just say. and this is probably a niche hill to die on. that i am so gobsmacked every time someone vaguely hints at the idea that jotaro doesn't care meaningfully for the other crusaders, usually particularly kakyoin and joseph, when those two actually tend to be the ones he reacts to being hurt the hardest
like he cares for his loved ones!!!! that literally plays into his character motives in every single part he shows up in!!! stop lying to me!!!!!!!
#me.txt#jjba#i'm going to ramble in tags actually. excuse me#ok. rereading sdc and so confused at the general perception of jotaro and his friends/family. he's not NEARLY as flat or as dickish#i understand that the anime (particularly the dub) tends to slander him but even then he still clearly cares for them! i'm confused#i also understand that a lot of people dig against jotaro and kakyoin as a dynamic because 'they're popular' and that generally disliking#popular things across media is a thing that i've seen consistently everywhere but the discredit to them simply as a DUO and not even as a#pairing is so..... odd..... like they're considered to be a duo that clicks for a reason. i enjoyed them even before i got into the fandom#every time i see someone say jotaro is overrated/dull i take a shot and assume they're an anime-only or only read the manga like once btw#joseph and jotaro also have a neat dynamic and they obviously both love and care for each other. like they're not going to go around loudly#or anything but literally the entirety of the lovers and the prelude to the dio fight IS jotaro being worked up over joseph getting hurt#equally i don't know if it translates to the anime as much but joseph is VERY complimentary when it comes to jotaro. like he sings his#praises so often and reminds everyone that he's his grandson so frequently (d'arby the gamer is a good example of this). either way it's so#peculiar....... there's not enough avdol and jotaro content btw (also in canon) because jotaro obviously looks up to him and avdol jokes#around with him on the occasion they interact after their intro which doesn't start very well. it's very cute#i do think an important thing to note about jotaro's character is how he acts AFTER his intro because he's so drastically different. early#jotaro and later jotaro aren't the same character and i do not mean this in a character development way. excluding the jail incident he's#completely different and probably shouldn't really be taken into account (especially considering the amount of slapstick in araki's intros)#and i think that's really???? what people center on for his character? Which sucks balls bad!#anyways. i could ramble more about this if asked i have so much to say but sigh. jotaro cares so much for his friends and family he's not a#flat fully cold asshole character regardless of whether you watch the anime or ova or read the manga. you just have poor media literacy#i wouldn't recommend watching solely the anime for his character though. the dub also changes a lot so it's... questionable#i love the anime and it's still important for him though. also adds neat stuff. i need to stop myself. i have many thoughts on the matter#jotaro kujo#joseph joestar#noriaki kakyoin#adding in case anyone sees: i am not saying that he is perfect about this. in fact he is very ass about it with jolyne and holly and that's#very important. he also is in fact an asshole sometimes. NOT as much as you guys are making him though!#please don't get me started on how much of a dick etc people make kakyoin to veer away from the 'woobified' characterizations of him#in fact i think that's bad if not worse because it CLAIMS to be in character. hes a prim asshole at times but not that angry or dishevelled
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I HATE how much people do to defend noah on here and on twitter like why are you all forgetting heâs a zionist?
#Iâm tired of the excuse that he is young and that heâll grown and learn because heâs already grown and should know whatâs right and wrong#what he said and what he did was NOT a mistake#calling zionism sexy is not something heâll be forgiven for EVER#there are people his age that know better#maybe he could have changed after what he posted on instagram#but he really proved he doesnât gaf after that video of him calling zionism sexy leaked#and i do not feel sorry for him because he put himself in that position knowing the amount of criticism he was gonna get#but he doesnât gaf and i can guarantee you that apology on TikTok was just so people wouldnât boycott season 5 đ#which also yeah reminder to not watch the season on netflix when it comes out and pirate it instead#if people donât like noah thereâs a valid reason and itâs because of what he did back in october 2023#you guys also need to remind yourselves that noah and the show most likely had lots of palestinian/muslim fans#and i can not imagine how hurt and upset they must have felt when they saw what noah did#so please stop shaming others for disliking noah because we have every right to#and this is coming from someone who was a huge fan of his and i even defended him from haters#but i can not defend him from this because what he did was just beyond wrong#stranger things#will byers#byler
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This is far from my best work, but it's 1:30am, and I needed to get this down before I slept or lost my mind. So here, take a snippet of Rook seeing Zara again for the first time in 3 years.
Trying, and failing, to keep his voice from shaking, [Rook] said âHello, Captain.â Mouth still open in surprise, [Zara] replied âWell, hello yourself.â The reality of what she was seeing seemed to hit her as she rounded the desk. âRook, is that really you?â He nodded. âItâs me.â Zara ran towards him, stopping just short of touching him, and said âWhat did she do to you?â Rookâs heart stuttered and he had to brush his fingers together to confirm Sigmarâs ring was still in place. Could she possibly see through its illusion? But then he remembered what Lanny had said. She knew where you were. His throat clenched and he choked out âTwo years.â A wave of grief swept across Zaraâs face as she said âIâm so, so sorry.â Rook shook his head vigorously. âItâs not your fault.â Zara ignored him. âIt is my fault. I failed you. As your captain, itâs my responsibility to keep you safe, and I failed you.â Rook wanted to say something, to reassure her, but she pushed on. âShe sent me letters, told me all the terrible things she was doing to you. I⌠I let you down.â Those words hit Rook with the force of a dozen cannonballs. Lanny had said that Zara knew Wolf had him, but knowing that Zara had been aware of what Wolf was doing to him⌠somehow that was more painful than any wound Wolf had ever inflicted. He barely managed to force his next words out around the lump in his throat. âWhere were you?â And why didnât you come? âShe said sheâd kill you if I came to get you. Or if I hired anyone to get you. Youâre standing here because I stopped sailing.âÂ
(honorary one-time tag for @space-writes bc I remember you enjoyed my other bits about Rook and Zara.)
#morrigan.text#my writing#dnd writing#oc: Rook#oc: Zara#btw when I say that what she said was more painful than any wound wolf inflicted I'm not just talking about her not saving him.#it also just hurts him to know that she was hurting too.#she left him with that woman for two years (to save his life yes. but she left him there all the same) and yet half of his thoughts are#''I'm sorry I hurt you.''#ROOK. MY BELOVED BABY BOY. PLEASE.#STOP APOLOGIZING.#also if anyone needs a cheering up after this please know that their conversation got interrupted by a giant snake showing up and zara#immediately asking Rook ''WHAT DID YOU DO???'' bc she knows her boy.#and he's like ''idk I just woke up like an hour ago'' and then he suddenly remembers that he swore like 3 times (town rules say no to that)#and he just goes ''SHIT'' and Zara fucking clamps her hand over his mouth and says ''take that back!''#and through her hand he says ''how the fuck am I supposed to take that back?'' and she just clamps his mouth harder.#oh. and the time he swore earlier was bc he stepped outside and got spit on by a bull and he was like ''is this normal??''#and someone said ''I've never seen that happen but these animals are part of [big snake almost-god]'s menagerie'' and hands Rook a paper#with all the town rules (there are many). And he goes ''what the fuck?'' and then he gets to the rule that reads ''no swearing'' and he goe#''SHIT!'' and then he realizes what he says and goes ''AAAHHHH.'' and I was cackling.#I was doing this on purpose btw. I knew that this would make the snake mad at me and I did it anyway bc I am a chaos gremlin.#however I did NOT know I would get Rook's only friend from before the party killed by doing this. RIP Jay. I loved you so much.#but yeah. my boy swears like a sailor bc he is one. and it did in fact get people killed. But it was funny to me.#ALSO when she met the party the first thing she said was ''thank you for saving my boy'' and I almost sobbed.#like yeah. he is her boy.#I'm going to explode just thinking about it.#okay if you read all these tags I love you forever and please feel free to yell at my idiot boy in the comments/tags/wherever.#maybe if enough of us join in he'll actually listen. (no he won't)#OH RIGHT. And the party is finally staring to realize how much of a capital L Liar this man is.#because they can literally see him catching himself about to say ''I'm fine'' every time they ask how he's doing
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sooooo
I'm 32 now
when can I expect to finally grow out of getting obsessed with men people stuff? I'm waiting....
#I doooo not want it#it's embarrassing#can it stop please#BUT also can I not feel depressed and like an empty shell when it's not happening#I mean I can handle it when it's things. hobbies. shows. whatever#sure it usually ends up being expensive as fuck but#at least I don't go around humiliating myself by talking about nothing but a random guy for months on end#how embarrassing! I think a man is hot! I must jump off a cliff immediately#but whyyyy can't I be normal about it at least#other people get obsessed with normal things! like. idk. anything else#soo anyway the opening narration for the texas chainsaw massacre is great isn't it? he did such a good job :) what a nice voice :) I am not#going to be weird about this man any longer :) no I won't! I'm normal about him! I don't want to bite him or chew on his face or anything#like that. just normal things. uh. sex? that's what people usually want. yeah fine that. I mean I do. want. oh I think I'm doing it again#haha no it's fine I just think he's neat (he's the only person on earth no one else exists anymore he's so beautiful oh my god have you seen#his little face he looks like a cute little potato I've never seen anything prettier in my life haha I need to run my hands through his hair#and have you seen how tall he is and he's so cute and I need to. be taken outside and shot. god.#I keep. shrieking. every time I see him. at such a high frequency that it hurts my own fucking ears. because. I can't believe that he exists#I'm. so. stupid!!!!#annnd repeat this every time this happens blah blah blah i should jsut delete this blog right now oh my GOD.
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currently thinking about how ive managed to make a character who is completely capable of raising hell but it's completely misunderstanding the point of that character if you only see them as the hellraiser. glad to have officially inaugurally announced nolan williams/afton of the machine theory fic series as a member of the 'you're not understanding the point by idolizing their actions' club tbh. also read tags please
#honestly i love it#accidentally filtering people is so entertaining but also soul-crushing#no. nolan isn't supposed to be this admired badass. his frequent combat encounters are supposed to be interpreted as self-harm#and the fact that he's so strong and capable is also a sign of his horrible past and familial grooming.#the man needs a break please stop giving him guns. chain him to the fucking bedframe so he can't keep hurting himself#fic drabble#springtrap fic#my writing#writing#fanfiction#ao3
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i am, um. really upset. btw. i keep pulling myself together and then bursting into tears again like jesus christ iâm mad at myself for trusting this show so much
#i donât think itâs bury your gays but it still fucking hurts like a slap in the face#it was so unfair. it was so unfair#also iâm gonna need people to stop being sooo parasocial about david jenkins like you literally donât know him and maybe you should sit and#listen to peopleâs complaints about the finale before leaping to his defense PLEASE understand all the criticisms are coming from people who#also love this show. also heâs not gonna fuck you idk#lu.txt#ofmd s2 spoilers
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many people were confused about some of my previous posts, so for the sake of clarity i am condensing everything! tumblr has extremely transphobic moderation practices, often flagging completely innocent posts as explicit, solely for containing trans women in them or mentioning transgenderism. while letting untagged porn in sfw tags (ive literally seen porn tagged as "sfw agere") and blatent hatespeech, especially twards trans people (just look at the "gender critical" tag) go completely unchecked recently the CEO of tumblr had a big public hissyfit about people (rightfully) calling him transmysogenistic, going into random trans womens dms to harrass them, and saying that predstrogen saying she "hopes he explodes with hammers and then explodes again and hammers fly everywhere" is a death threat and saying he is calling the FBI on her (repeatedly misgendering her and calling her "it") and many bloggers, apon speaking out about it or even making harmless jokes (one trans woman posted a picture of a car and a hammer with the caption "reblog to scare matt" and got nuked for it) and many are very very angry (rightfully) about this whole affair and tumblr in general. if you would like to look into it i reccomend scrolling the "predstrogen" tag as she is the case most people are talking about at the moment. So, what can we do? this is clearly an ongoing issue, and, dispite having lost a lawsuit about their transphobic moderation in the past (see : https://www.documentcloud.org/documents/21274288-tumblr-nycchr-settlement) its clearly not gonna stop with just user complaints, as staff members are perfectly content to just go scorched earth on users who even so much as lightly poke fun at them well if you want to help you should contact the human rights commision (i will give clear details further down) ! you dont have to be in the US, nor be an adult to file, and it only takes a few minutes. this is the best and most effective method to fix this, because it hits tumblr where it hurts. human rights acencies have a lot of legal and financial power and tumblr CAN NOT just ignore them, and given that this will be the seccond time this is happening, the commisions shouldnt be playing nice anymore eaither. its really important that AS MANY PEOPLE AS POSSIBLE FILE, and with different examples! while maybe your case might not be enough to prop up a lawsuit on its own, we need to prove a general trend. so every little bit counts! to respond to another question abt this ive gotten, as for what exactly to report, you should a) write about an act of discrimination youve recieved on tumblr that was eaither administered by a staff member OR that staff refused to give adequate moderation action in for example : a terf posted some blatent hatespeech targeted twards you, and you reported them, and staff looked at the issue and refused to persecute it. example 2 : you were unfairly flagged, deleted, or otherwise punished by a staff member and you are queer ( AND the post they banned you for has some kind of tie to your gender, ex : a sfw transition progress photo ) OR b) if you have not personally recieved something like that, please look for other peoples stories (THEY SHOULDNT BE HARD TO FIND, within the last couple of hours trans people have been being banned LEFT AND RIGHT for trying to speak on this. i would reccomend checking some of the tags related to what happened with predstrogen) and you should describe that incident as best as possible (be sure to disclose that you are speaking for someone else, ideally you should tell the story of someone you know, if possible.) you can also mention any reports you have made twards people posting blatent hatespeech that, opon reveiwing tumblr refused to prosecute dispite it being very obviously against terms of service. just so nobody gets confused about the filing process, im laying it out in more plain languadge!!
first you should email the SF HRC (san francisco human rights commision), at [email protected] and say something along these lines :
Hello, I am [full name] from [country or state] and I am filing a complaint against Tumblr, witch is owned by the parent company Automattic Inc. located at 60 29th St, San Francisco, CA 94110.
Tumblr has had previous issues with the NYC DHR for their moderation being unfairly biased against trans women (see : https://www.documentcloud.org/documents/21274288-tumblr-nycchr-settlement).
Despite a legally binding agreement with the NYC DHR, staff members still regularly harrass users based on their gender or sexual orientations. For example : on [date of most recent infraction] [describe incident] (if you are describing an incident that did not happen to you specifically, say something like) This incident involves the user [username] who I am not affiliated with (or/) who I am filing on behalf of.
I can be reached for further inquiries about this incident at [email you want to talk over] or [phone number you want to talk over]. (if you would like to be anonymous) However, In the event of legal prosecution against Automattic I would refer to be kept anonymous, where possible, in court proceedings. alternatively, you can also call the SF HRC at : 415-252-2500, you can use the above text as a starting point for this as well, next you want to fill out the form for the NYC DHR (new york city department of human rights) here : https://www.nyc.gov/site/cchr/about/report-discrimination.page for company you wanna put : Automattic and/or Tumblr for address you wanna put : 770 Broadway, New York, NY 10003 for phone number you wanna put : (646) 513-4321 and for category of discrimination you can put : Discriminatory harassment and basis of discrimination you can put : Gender; Gender identity you can then use a similar script on the written section of the form. when describing a specific incident, you should attach as many screenshots and links as possible! (for links, include both a live link and an archival link, so take a capture with the internet archive and have that as an alternative, incase a staff member gets petty.) this should only take a few minutes at most, and it helps alot! you can fill this out if you are a minor, and you dont have to be a us resident, please please take the time!!! and, just to clarify because there are many posts going around that are confused about this tumblr moved offices to san francisco recently, so their main HQ is at : 60 29th St, San Francisco, CA 94110 they DO still have an office in new york city, and thats where their PREVIOUS HQ was, the address is : 770 Broadway, New York, NY 10003
#art#my art#mspaint#rowens liddol guys#mspaint animations#the beast speaks#important shit#transgender#trans#predstrogen
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.â đđđđđđđđ. itâs late at night and you try to cuddle with sukuna. keyword; try.
wc. 1.2k
tags. true form!sukuna x female reader. fluff, angst (+comfort). heian era. size difference (readers referred to as small). sukunaâs a bit mean, but he also has a soft spot for you. miscommunication ? it gets solved. reader gets called âwoman, dollâ.
âwhat are you trying to do?â sukuna sighs. youâre up to something again, he figures. his red eyes follow your body as it crawls up to him on the bed.
youâre both tired after a long day of fulfilling some duties here and there around the estate. all you need is a big beefy man wrapping his arms around you to keep you warm and safe.
the perfect man for that is sukuna. those four arms of his wrapped around your small body feel like heaven.
âitâs called cuddling,â you retort. the sarcastic tone you used triggers a deep sigh from the sorcerer. sukuna holds back the urge to say something sarcastic as well.
he doesnât utter a single word once you snuggle up to his chest. youâve taught him how to cuddle during the first time you asked him to hold you. sukuna was awkward with showing any type of affection back then.
. . he still very much is.
âhug, please,â you remind him. the cold-hearted man scoffs, though listens to your polite request. all four of his arms imprison you against his chest, your small body nearly disappearing behind his limbs.
thatâs what you like most about those cuddles you share together; how you fit so perfectly in his strong arms. itâs much more comforting than you thought it would be.
a pair of hands rests on your waist, the other pair on your hips. sukuna glances down at you and immediately notices that smile on your lips. even after all this time, he still cannot fathom why youâre so carefree around a monster like him.
and that inability to understand you and your love for him is accompanied by an urge to push you away.
âyou got your hug, now get up,â sukuna interrupts the silence. his voice is cold and devoid of emotionâhe uses that voice when he talks to other people. not with you, âi have better things to attend to.â
thus, it hurts. when he talks to you like that. like youâre not the person he secretly cherishes most. though, you remind yourself of sukunaâs own words. the ones you heard him say a while ago.
âlove is meaninglessâ, he said. you remember. and yet you kept hoping that heâd change his mind about that statement. you hoped and eventually saw exactly that: your presence and your affectionate gestures mellowed his heart of steel.
but all that effort seems to go down the drain every time sukuna pushes you away.
you know itâs because heâs unfamiliar with the feelings of love. he may not say it nor show it, but you know that sukunaâs afraid of hurting you. so, he creates a gap between you two every now and then.
you know and yet youâre patient.
âoh, âkay,â you nod in understanding. you pull away from his embrace and get up from the bed. your bottom lip trembles.
sukuna is not gullible. heâs anything but oblivious. especially if itâs about how you feel and act. he notices every single change in your mood; whether you mask it or not.
you walk to the sliding doorsâready to open them and step out into the hallway. your eyes are a bit watery, but you quickly blink the tears away and take a deep breath in. you reach for the door.
âcome back here, woman.â
sukunaâs booming voice makes you stop. you glance at his form over your shoulder. heâs leaning against the headboard of the bed, arms crossed and eyebrows furrowed.
is he. . . upset?
âwhy? you said you had better things to attend to.â you answer with a shrug. you try your best to not make it seem like his earlier words had effected you. you turn your head towards the word with a huff, âgo on, then.â
sukuna narrows his eyes. he sucks at communicating what he actually desiresâwhat he actually wants. right now that want is for you to stay. even though that completely contradicts his previous words.
the sorcerer doesnât know what to do. when youâre with him, he pushes you away out of guilt. when youâre away, he wants you back with him.
love is complicated.
âyou. . .â sukuna grunts in frustration. all those feelings for you inside of his heart are playing with his rational thoughts. he doesnât like seeing you upset. he wants the usual you back, âtsk. fine then.â
silence, followed by the creaking of the bed frame. seems like sukunaâs getting up to do whatever âbusinessâ he needed to attend. at least, thatâs what you thought.
you slide the door open and set a foot outside of the chambers. before the other could follow, youâre suddenly lifted up in the air by a strong pair of hands. your vision turns upside down as your body is effortlessly hoisted onto a shoulder.
âwoah!â you gasp and feel the blood go to your head. your eyes are fixed on the back of your lover. you kick your legs in protest, but only get a smack to your ass in response. you whine at that, âput me down!â
âwatch it, doll,â sukuna hisses at your fierce demand, a warning to fix your tone. he puts you back down on the soft mattress. heâs surprisingly gentle when he settles you in placeânot throwing you on the bed or anything similar, âshouldâve listened when i told you the first time.â
your eyes meet sukunaâs and you notice how much theyâve softened. that alone makes the lump in your throat disappear. your love for him isnât one sidedâyouâve always kept that in the back of your mindâyet your thoughts made you overlook the little things he does for you.
his actions speak louder than his words. thatâs the kind of man he is.
sukunaâs trying to open up more, though that process is slow. youâre fine with that.
especially when thereâs that faint pout on his lips as he stares at you. his eyebrows are still furrowed, his crimson eyes sharp yet warm.
âoh, you want me back in bed this bad?â you tease once you get the opportunity. the man in front of you clicks his tongue and grabs your cheeks with one hand, turning your head up to face him.
sukunaâs eyes are focused on yours. the eye contact is intimidating, but youâre hypnotised. you physically canât look away. he leans in and bites your lip with his sharp canines, âshut up.â
that raspy whisper alone confirms your assumption. you giggle at his attempt of refuting your point. youâre used to all those intimidating words and actions he pulls to get you to stop your teasing.
those empty threatsâitâs becoming rather cute with how hard he tries to deny everything. he fails nearly every time, however.
âcome,â sukuna lays back against the pillows after placing a quick and sloppy kiss against your lips. he pulls your body against his and presses your head against his chest, right where his heart is beating, âcontinue with your.. âcuddlingâ thing.â
he put your ear right above his heart, because he remembers listening to his heartbeat calms you down. you told him that a while back. sukuna doesnât understand why you like it, but his fingers massage your scalp either way.
thatâs also something that brings you comfort.
youâre surprised by how much he knows about you, but appreciate it anyway. he remembers both the big and small things about you. âthatâs how he probably shows his love,â you conclude silently.
#sttoru writes.#jjk x reader#sukuna x reader#jjk fluff#sukuna x you#jjk x you#jjk x y/n#sukuna x y/n#sukuna fluff
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probably an unpopular opinion: but i didn't hate this situation
stolas looked to blitz for permission. even after all the fighting and hurt feelings, he still cares enough to see if blitz is okay with stolas dancing with this guy, and blitz gives him permission.
stolas has never had any experience outside of stella and blitz. his relationship with stella was toxic, and he wasn't happy. his relationship with blitz has been solely built on sex, with a lot of stolas having to tiptoe around his own feelings. stolas never really got to experiment outside of his relationship with blitz, and with how blitz treated him, i think he should be allowed to do what he wants.
stolitz is endgame (ofc), but i see nothing wrong with stolas having his rebound and expressing himself. he's never been openly desired in such a way, and he deserves to explore that. if blitz is allowed to fuck other people, so is stolas.
also, this dude was nothing but nice to stolas, and i see no reason to hate on him. he's giving stolas an opportunity to have a kind of fun he's never had before. with stolas' lifestyle, he's never been able to attend a party just for the sake of having fun, dancing, and getting drunk.
can we please stop infantilizing stolas? just because his experience is limited, doesn't mean he's incapable of making his own choices. he doesn't need blitz, and i think it's important that he discovers himself more before the two of them rekindle their relationship. if he wants to party and kiss a guy, then so be it. if blitz did the same, no one would careâso let stolas fuck some random guy if he wants to!!
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desperate people find faith
summary: your first mission ends with you in Jean's lab and a very worried Logan who's had trouble leaving your side wc: 2.0k a/n: thank you thank you so much for all of your very positive feedback on the previous fics with these two!!! I am really looking forward to writing more for them, so please feel free to send any requests for them my way, or Logan requests in general! And yes, the title is from a Taylor Swift song again. Lots of hurt/comfort in this one, talks of mushy gushy feelings, very worried Logan find the previous part here! all empath!reader fics here!
You took the cold table underneath you as a sign that something had gone wrong. You peaked one eye open before quickly squeezing it closed, the bright florescent lights too much to handle. You took a beat, trying to make sense of your surroundings.Â
You remembered the jet landing in what seemed like the middle of nowhere, you and Jean searching an abandoned building looking for the young mutant that Charles had promised would be there and coming up empty. The two of you had made your way back to the jet and.. shit. The kid had freaked, and you distinctly remember taking enough damage to warrant a swift retreat back to the school. You must be downstairs, in Jeanâs lab. Itâs probably a bad sign that the first thing you worry about how much shit Logan is going to give you for this.Â
You reached out with your power, too cautious of the lights (and the judgment of the rest of the team) to look with your eyes. A few people were mildly worried just across the room, but it was hard not to be distracted by the huge amounts of anger and exhaustion on your left. You debated facing him head on, being a grown up about it and fessing up to the fact that you were wrong. Thankfully, you could be immature when the situation called for it. You attempted to even out your breathing and smooth out the crease between your eyebrows, anything that could give you away.Â
âSweetheart?â Loganâs voice is so much softer than you were expecting, based on the waves of pure fury currently radiating off of him.Â
You shush him, blinking one eye open. âIâm sleeping.â You whisper, letting your eye fall shut again.Â
You felt his hand gently brush over the top of your head. His voice is closer, air tickling your ear as he leans down beside you. âBeen sleeping for three days, bub. Need you to wake up now.âÂ
You turn your head to the side and are treated to Logan dropping a small kiss on your forehead. You canât help but smile at the affection, eyes half open against the bright lights. After a few moments, they dim. Jean takes her place on the other side of the table, lab coat on and stethoscope in hand. You expected her to shoo Logan away in the name of a more thorough analysis but she doesnât even attempt it.Â
Loganâs hand finds your own, gripping tight enough to be just short of uncomfortable. Jean makes quick work of taking your diagnostics, and gently informs you that besides feeling fatigued, you are just fine.Â
That canât be right.Â
You know that you caught the brunt of the impact, it was beginning to come back to you. The young mutant had lashed out, and before youâd had the chance to get close, heâd sent a car flying towards you and Jean. Sheâd managed to counteract it with her own mutation, firmly shoving you out of the way. But she hadnât been fast enough to catch the small metal spikes heâd also thrown. There was no way you should be âjust fineâ by now.Â
Either Jean was in your head or the confusion was showing clearly on your face. She gave you a tight smile, eyes darting between you and the door. She took a few steps back, clearly intent of making her exit. âJean, wait, thereâs no way-â
She gave you her please stop talking smile. âI think itâs best if this comes from him,â she nodded at Logan, placing her stethoscope and clipboard on the side table. âIâll be back in a bit to do one final check before we clear you.â She gives you another smile that didnât meet her eyes, and then she was gone.Â
You began to sit up slowly, still in shock that there was little to no pain, only stiffness from being immobile for too long. âWhat is she talking about?â Logan huffed, supporting you with a hand on your back. âWhatâs going on?âÂ
One hand made long, slow strokes up and down your spine, while the other had not loosened itâs grip on your own since youâd woken up. His eyebrows were scrunched together, the tell tale sign of his thinking face. You tried your best not to rush him, but everything about the situation was so confusing and your mind was racing. You were far too healed, and he was being far too calm for the anger that was rolling off go him, still.Â
âDidnât expect me to just sit around when you came back one foot in the grave, did ya?âÂ
âIâm sorry if me coming back banged up gave you extra work, I just donât understand why youâre so upset with me.âÂ
His eyes went wide, the hand on your back stilling. âIâm not mad at you, sweetheart.â The tremble in his voice almost had you convinced.Â
âDonât lie to me about it,â you help up your hand, still firmly entwined with his. âI can tell.âÂ
âIâm notmad at you, bub.â He brought the back of your hand to his lips, peppering it with kisses. âIâm mad at the little fuck who did this to you, Iâm mad that they let this happen, and Iâm furious with myself that I wasnât there.âÂ
âHeâs just a kid, Logan.âÂ
His shoulders shook with silent laughter, a stark white dancing at the edge of his emotions now. Shock. âYou almost died, and your first instinct is to defend the little asshole responsible.âÂ
You leaned forward, bumping your shoulder against his chest in warning. âI feel fine.â He nodded, taking a deep breath in through his nose while his hand not currently locked with yours resumed itâs path up and down your back. You let it go on for a few moments, appreciating the silence and the grounding effect of his touch. âDo you⌠wanna fill me in on why exactly that is?âÂ
He sucked in a breath, shoulders visibly tense. âWe were lucky that Hank was stopping by for a visit.â He played with your fingers, distracting himself. You tilted your head to the side, wondering why that information was important at a time like this. âWhen they brought you in, god there was so much blood. Jean managed to take care of a lot of it, but she didnât know when, or uh, if you were going to wake up.â He blew out a breath, steadying himself. âYou know that Hank has been asking for a long time-â
Both of your hands gripped his tightly. âTell me you didnât.âÂ
Hank had been asking for ages to use some of Loganâs blood to synthesize a more advanced healing serum for the X-Men. It was rare they came back with more than bumps and bruises, but he was a worrier and felt that Logan was the key to making something truly effective. The only problem? Logan hated needles. Youâd only gotten bits and pieces from him about why, but you had a hunch that when you were alive for as long as he had been, people were willing to poke and prod for some answers. Heâd never admit it, but you had felt how terrified he was the last time heâd been down hard after a mission, and Jean had tried to give him an IV of fluids to speed up the regeneration. It hadnât ended well, to say the least.Â
âI shouldâve done it sooner. Seeing you like this, knowing I could have done something about it.â He shook his head, clearing his thoughts.Â
Cautiously, you fit yourself against him, arms tight around his neck and your chest flush with his own. You half expected him to reprimand you, to remind you that you should be careful, not to move too much. Instead, he held you tightly, the side of his face pressed against the top of your head. The two of you stayed like that for a good long while, reveling in the comfort of the other.Â
âI know you think that you only did it because,â you paused, steeling yourself. âBecause it was me.â You can feel him trying to pull away, but you mold yourself to him even more tightly, knowing that if he really wanted to he could break away from you like it was nothing. âYouâre wrong. You would have done this for anyone.âÂ
âExcept for-â
âEven for Scott.â You were quick to cut him off, unwilling to hear him being so harsh on himself.
You pulled back, just enough so that you were able to meet his eyes. You needed him to know that you are being earnest. âYou are a good man, Logan. And before you even try to deny it or say Iâm lying I know you can hear my heart beat. And I know you can tell when people are lying. And besides, Iâve never ever lied to you, have I?â He shakes his head slowly, one tear falling, and a few more after that. You reached up, brushing them away. He grabbed your hand, gently placing a kiss on your wrist, and then your palm.Â
âYâscared me, sweetheart.â He murmured, voice muffled by your palm still against his lips. âDonât ever do that again.âÂ
You slide your hand to cup the side of his face, prompting him to meet your gaze. âYou know I canât guarantee that.â His eyes closed for a moment, and you knew he was doing his best not to shout. âI will always be careful, but I canât stay back and leave the work to everyone else. If I can help, Iâm gonna help.âÂ
His eyes narrowed, the tiniest hint of a smirk playing at his lips. âFine. But weâre getting you trained up and you arenât going out there without me again for a good long while.âÂ
You rolled your eyes, the both of you well aware there was no ill will behind it. âIf you insist.âÂ
âI absolutely do.â He pulled you back into his chest, keeping you there until Jean peaked her head in through the door.Â
âIf you two are done being mushy, there are a few people who have been dying to see you.âÂ
Ororo rushed into the room, playfully shoving Logan away to scoop you into her arms. She gently checked you over, ignoring the fact that youâd already had several medical professionals on the case. Scott clasped you on the shoulder, reassuring you that for a first mission, this was a success. You laughed before shooting Logan a look that begged him to let it pass. He huffed, but nodded all the same.Â
âShocked we didn't have to keep him from trying to tear the kid apart, but he refused to leave the lab.â Scott nodded his head at Logan, who was continuing to shuffle closer to the table where you sat.Â
Well, you would be dutifully ignoring the latter half of Scott's quip, instead choosing to focus on the young mutant. âYou mean he's?âÂ
Scott smiled, nodding. âHeâs settling in upstairs.âÂ
You grinned, glad to know that it hadnât all been for nothing. You fixed your gaze on Logan, narrowing your eyes at him. âDonât even think about failing him out of history as some kind of weird revenge, Iâll know and I will find a way to get back at you for it.âÂ
Your friends laughed around you, let you know that Charles has ordered in your favorite take out for dinner and started to filter out of the room. Eventually, you and Logan are left alone again, sitting side by side on the metal table.Â
âYou still owe me an important conversation, ya know.â You bump your shoulder against his. You stay there, pressed against his side with your head leaning on his shoulders. His hand rests on your shoulder, holding you close.Â
âMaybe wait until you arenât in a hospital gown, sweetheart.â You rolled your eyes, clearly aware that he was deflecting, but still content to take in his warmth and quiet support. You were safe, and you were home. Not just at school, but with him.
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