#AKA June maybe hopefully

[castoff-comic]

Question: when will Castoff return to having Monday uploads as well?

When my brain is no longer on fire

After Momocon maybe

[yellowloid]

I'm kinda new to Milex, despite loving both AM and TLSP for years, and like so many questions.......What happened to those sweethearts, what are the divorce allegations, why they don't hang out anymore, is there any tension between Miles and Alex's girlfriend?�� I need to know

hiii and welcome to the milex fandom!!

first of all, you can check out this post to know more about the divorce allegations - but of course always remember it's just theories, no one really knows what happened (if anything happened at all)

second of all, they do still hang out! they're just very private about it and rarely ever get spotted together, but over the years after the tbhc and cdg eras we got to see them together a few times, usually hanging out in london like here (august 2020):

and here (july 2021):

but also in jnstances like this one (september 2021) (it's not confirmed that they were together but miles posted this with the caption 'ARRABIATA HEAD X' and arrabiata is Their Thing + those are alex's sunglasses and the photo was most likely taken by him idc i will die on this hill)

then we got to see them together in june 2022, hanging out at some pub:

and also at zackery michael and lola mcdonnell's wedding aka the wedding of the century aka i wish i was a fly on the wall there. this was also in june 2022, they were both there but sadly we didn't get any interaction nor photos of them together:

we did however get a few interactions between miles, (nadya) and louise.

in may 2023 they were spotted having a cute little date night at a scott walker tribute concert in london (feat. the one and only brown leather jacket):

and then of course we got to see them playing 505 together in june (💖) after five whole years of not sharing a stage:

and then again in dublin, miles opened for them on all four nights of the irish leg in october and joined them for 505 on the very last one:

during both the cts and omb eras miles has mentioned alex and tlsp quite a few times (both spontaneously or because of annoying interviewers asking him about it).

speaking of miles and louise, they ignored each other for a long time since alex started dating her back in 2018, which was quite weird considering miles usually seemed to have great friendships with alex's girlfriends (he was very close to taylor, and he's still friends with alexa). recently they started interacting more, liking each other's posts or leaving comments there (see miles commenting on her latest birthday post for alex). as i mentioned, they interacted a bit during zack and lola's wedding (katie posted a video on ig where her, kirstin, louise, miles and nadya were all hanging out together). i think at this point it's safe to say miles and nadya aren't together anymore, but her and louise were hanging out quite a lot during 2022/start of 2023 and they probably got introduced through their respective boyfriends. there's no official drama between miles and louise but they don't seem to be friends, just close acquaintances at best.

and... i think that's it anon! in conclusion they're still very much close and hanging out with each other, it's just much rarer to get a glimpse of them but maybe in the (hopefully not so distant) future we'll get a tlsp3 announcement and then they'll finally be touring together again, planet earth will heal and we'll be well-fed once again. in the meantime, i hope this little recap was helpful <3

[legendary-defender-of-fandoms]

Pros of seeing Beetlejuice by myself either before or after seeing it with my family:

My sister in particular hates seeing stuff live with me because I get too invested. Idk if I clap & cheer too loud, or whisper too much about the stuff I like as the show is going on, or if it’s just a Me Being Her Annoying Little Sister thing, but it always feels like her agreeing to be seen in public with me is a huge sacrifice on her part. If I see the show by myself, I can have one Core Memory of enjoying the production without worrying about embarrassing her.

My brother’s being a bit of a sad sack right now, and God knows how long his moping will last (long, stupid story not worth recounting). Hopefully he’ll be better by June, but I’m not holding my breath. Again, seeing the show by myself means I’ll have one memory of it being just me & the Bug Man (and a few hundred strangers).

My relationship with my dad is . . . complicated. He said yes to seeing the show, but I think it’s because he had nothing else going on that night. He doesn’t have the ambition to reach out & ask others if they want to hang out, and I got tired of always initiating. And it might be kind of awkward watching Charles & Lydia go through THEIR complicated relationship while my dad is right there.

Our seats for the show aren’t the best in the house. We’re way in the back next to the sound booth. Good shot of center stage, I’m sure we’ll see everything that happens. But I wish I’d bought the tickets sooner so I could be in one of the Audience Interaction Zones. If I’m gonna be the only weirdo saying “AWWWWWW” while the rest of the audience is laughing at Beetlejuice’s abandonment issues, I want to be HEARD, God damnit!

Stinky lonely pansexual bug man make brain go brrrrr.

Cons of seeing Beetlejuice by myself either before or after seeing it with my family:

Money. I think tickets are a little over $100 a pop. I make enough money to make it fine to spend almost $500 on tickets to see a show with 3 others, and I can definitely swing an extra ticket to see it by myself. It’s more the principle of the thing. Is it WORTH spending an extra $100 to see the same show twice? (The part of my brain that’s hyperfixating on Beetlejuice is screaming “HELL FUCKING YEAH!!!”, but the practical side of my brain is annoying & whispering “you have bills to pay, your cats need to go to the vet, what if you lose your job even though you have crazy stupid job security”)

Availability. If I decide to see the show by myself, I have to decide NOW because tickets went crazy fast (or maybe they went super slow but were available for ages & I didn’t know because I just got bit by the BeetleBug last month). I was lucky to find four seats together for the show I’m already booked for. Finding one seat by myself won’t be quite as hard, but they might be gone by June.

My family will judge me. Not really a con, more of a fact of life. They already judge me for the rest of my “personality quirks” (aka my problems that they’re already aware of). Does it really matter if they have yet another reason to give me the side-eye at holiday gatherings or complain about me to friends, coworkers, and the rest of the family? I can think of at least one company of performers who would say life is WAY too short to deny myself simple pleasures.

Pathetic as it is, I DO have a life. Sort of. I don’t want to be dead on my feet at work or when I’m supposed to be taking care of my niece, and I don’t have the time to spare for the matinee. Or maybe I do - I probably won’t know until it’s too late to get my ticket.

I have no idea how long this brain rot is going to last. It’s burning hot & bright right now, but it could burn itself out before I see the show in person. It seems unlikely, but there’s still a risk.

[caramelstarlight]

Tighnari|Event-Interested|

Hello! Thanks for being interested and willing to dedicate time. Or you’re here just curious or maybe you’re scrolling… However which way you found it does not bother me.

Above is how much I’m looking for. I’m not planning to triple crown as soon as I reach 90. Below the cut is more information. If you’re scrolling you can simply ignore. Please reblog to others. <3

Information:

Hawaii Timezone

Tighnari grinding,(only certain stuff)

7am-11pm most likely.

Taking effect on June 20th

Ends on… October 8th. Most likely.

exp books/mora/quests/commissions etc for first 20 days. Still joinable.

Uid: 63083256, Yoimiya pfp, Jean Namecard

Will I skip days? Most likely. There’s just some days where I’m too busy.

No negative stuff in chat, lmk if you don’t want to be recorded. I’ll either record others with interviews and stuff or just not record completely.

Be patient if a video does come out. It could revive my channel maybe. I’m CaramelStarlight with a Tighnari PFP.

(FateTracker)

(Active on June 20th-Oct 8th. Playing actively on 10am-11pm my time.)

NOTE: I do NOT have sassy fox boy. This is just me preparing for when he comes home. (Hopefully.)

(Lmk in comments and/or ask box. With name,uid,pfp.)

(120 days= 4 months. Aka October 8th. Those first 20 is for books and mora then the rest is actually for Tighnari where I’m getting his stuff,artifacts,ascension etc)

G A T H E R E D: •Dendro ascension •Crowns •Raiden boss drop •Nilotpala Lotuses •Mushroom drops •Talent Books N E E D •Mora •Exp books •Beaks

A R T I F A C T S (WIP) / W E A P O N 2pc wanderers troupe.(WIP) •Crit rate wanderers troupe hat -Crit dmg=12.4% |EM/DEF= +37 |HP= +568 -Lamp of the lost (DEF) •Crit dmg= +21%, 2.1% Crit rate| HP= +568| ER= +11.7% -Concerts final hour •EM +16|Crit Dmg +12.4% |ATK +18 | HP +1018 (TOO MUCHH) -Bards arrow feather •HP +508|Crit Dmg +12.4% |EM +58|ER +12.3% -The first days of the city of kings •EM +65 | ER +5.2% | Crit Dmg +14% | Def+42|

Weapon: Hanayumi, r2 Stringless or Ibis piercer r3.

[tweedledj]

Thinking of making an actual website for my art and cosplay portfolios!

Meta's policy change in June has made me super disheartened and unmotivated to share my work on Instagram, so I've been trying to decide how I want to pivot and protect my work while still letting other people see my art (aka. I do not consent to my art being used to train AI).

I've just started a cosplay blog on here @tweedledjcosplay which I'll use as a traditional blog, posting updates on cosplays in progress and thoughts about crafting and cosplay. I'll see how that goes, and hopefully I'll make a formal website as well!! I'd love to hear tips from anyone with their own art or cosplay portfolio website, since I have never made a proper website before!

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I'm hopeful that this'll be a positive change, since I've always hated how social media treats art as content and expects you to create posts consistently and frequently. I love sharing my work, but I like to take my time and create things I'm proud of!

Anyway, stay tuned for a possible website announcement?!?! maybe? and if you like handmade cosplay, check out my new side blog!!

[purecommemasolitude]

outsiders week 2024 progress report to hold myself accountable

Sunday, Nov 3 - "gang" or "Ponyboy"

already chosen the fic for this one, it's the one i've been working on for the longest (literally since at least june last year) and i am soo close to being done. there's just one exchange i need to refine because i'm not satisfied with it. but it's book-verse about ponyboy after the track tryouts the same year as everything goes down* not getting the placement he wants and finding a moment of understanding with darry about it because darry's the only one who #gets it. this fic was spun out of that one line in the book where ponyboy says soda never got the importance him or darry placed on athletics

*when i was combing the book to figure out the timeline of track/what grade he was in there was a) never a concrete answer b) a lot of things that could be interpreted in conflicting ways, so i just went with he's a sophomore who was on the track team last year and track tryouts happen in like may or whatever

Monday, Nov 4 - "gold" or "Cherry"

there is a fic already started that's hopefully going to be the one for this day, but also it's probably gonna be long and it's an exploration of musical!cherry's turmoil after bob dies seeing the witch hunt against the greasers (basically it's inspired by the fact that she takes her promise ring off after JFT and not after the break up) and i want to try and do my vision™ justice instead of rushing it so this may not be done in time we'll see. if it's not done i may extract the bit where she finds out about two-bit's jumping from marcia and just post that because it's the part closest to being completed

Tuesday, Nov 5 - "rumble" or "Sodapop"

so i have two started but incomplete fics that could go for this day. one is following musical!soda & darry at home in tulsa while ponyboy is out in windrixville. it's probably my first choice, but this one is also an i don't want it to rush and lose some of its potential in the writing process so we'll see. the other one is a stevepop fic that's largely centered around sodapop's queerness (it's basically a 5 + 1 of members of the gang realizing/revealing that they know that he's not straight. evie is in it with her and steve as each other's beards and she's the catalyst for soda's own realization that he likes men)

Wednesday, Nov 6 - "hair grease" or "Darry"

fic chosen and started for this one too! (this is what i was up until like 2:00 yesterday working on 🤪) it's musicalverse again and it's gonna follow a possible explanation for why darry's called darrel now, aka him slowly transitioning to going by darrel after the death of their parents and the reasoning and rationale for that change

Thursday, Nov 7 - "rodeo" or "Bob"

...okay for this one i truly have no idea. i want to keep it vaguely on-theme for the prompts even if i end up not following them, but the two other soc-related fics i have simmering are ones that i want to also not rush and really make sure they're the best i can get them (asian!paul exploration and marbit's journey post-book) so probably not those two tbh. two ideas that i have are snapshots of various characters reacting to his death, though i haven't picked a universe for that yet, or something following the non-character prompts for once and maybe some of the characters as kids at a rodeo? i'll be honest the only rodeo experiences i've had that i can really remember are riding the docile horses on like a real-horse carousel so basically i'd just be planting outsiders characters into that experience

it is also possible that i'll end up with nothing (midterms go crazy), in which case i'll post my backup that is semi-completed, a whooole bunch of outsiders characters recreated in this picrew

Friday, Nov 8 - "tuff" or "Dally"

this one is not only decided upon but finished if y'all can believe it. i might make some revision edits before i actually post it but this one is a product of me going insane over the course of three days and writing a character exploration of dally on the train tracks delving into his relationship throughout his life with suicidal ideation

Saturday, Nov 9 - "vacant lot" or "Johnny"

unfortunately once again no idea lads. actually i lied there is something but it doesn't follow any of the prompts very much so we'll see. following the prompts i have no idea, most i've got is maybe a short thing about johnny some quiet night in the vacant lot (both prompts in one fell swoop). maybe he's looking at the stars idk. if it's the other one, which could also function as a backup for any of the days, it's a sickfic about two-bit that's actually just an excuse to write two-bit appreciating his mom. the google doc for that one is called sick TB mother appreciation to illustrate how central that is to the fic

if you've read all the way to the end hello 👋 and feel free to send any thoughts or questions my way! i need to lock in and start hustling on these soon and interaction is always a great way to improve willpower

[moonylilies]

2023 Art Summary!!

so here's a single piece from each month i did!! i really wish i did more art this year, so hopefully (and most likely) next year i will!!

below under the cut are links to the ones i managed to post along with my art goals and some thoughts for the next year

thank you so much for those who have been following me this year and i hope we can continue to grow doing what we desire in the next year :3

yall can skip reading this if you just wanna go see the links; most of you probably know i went back to college in january, which unfortunately caused me to gain major art block (ew) when my depression creeped up. i also had like no time this semester with the large ammt of courses i took (i took 6 classes and it killed me with the course load since most of them were online. never again i will be making that mistake). when i go back to classes in january, i hopefully will not be as dying as i was this semester since i am taking a majority art course load. im even taking a printmaking class which means yall will be gettin some goodies posted hopefully

my art goal for next year besides getting more commissions lol (which if you are interested can see about here) is to be able to draw full bodies - i still can't and ive been drawing humans as my main thing for at least 6 years now. i will def be practicing next year by doing many figure studies lol. i also hope i can manage to figure out how to do backgrounds besides the basic ones i tend to do i also hope that with my shop i can break some of my records like getting new states i haven't shipped to yet so that my state ammt goes up from 8 to maybe 10, having my total ammt going up to around 50 sales from 35, getting more fans for my art who love the stickers and prints i am making, ect ect i wasn't able to this year. while i am on winter break, i am trying to set up a shop update for before classes start again which i will be updating on here about when i remember to do so (honestly the hardest thing for me while having an art acct to promote my art and shop is making content besides just posting my art online and hoping people like it)

links for art + what the ones that don't have links are lol: january: lunar new year rabbits feburary: ft ferris bueller's day off au (this one is the one i am the most proud of) march: lucy redesign april: team shadowgear hehehe (this one's my favourite i did this year) may: yuki got hit by a car june: sketch of my oc alyss july: levy for part of my colour wheel challenge that is still a wip (tiktok one two ; reels one two) august: wally ice cream (aka a future sticker) september: art of my oc adora october: the sun tarot card feat sting eucliffe (wip portion is linked) november: bisca icon december: ramen sticker (a sticker soon to drop in my shop once i do a shop update soon)

[a-taupe-fox]

White Collar D/s AU: Sub Frenzy

Intro Pt. 1 Pt. 2 Pt. 3 Pt. 4 Pt. 5 Pt. 6 Pt. 7 Pt. 8 I am being fucking HAUNTED by this White Collar concept, but I haven’t written a proper fic in like. Several fuckin’ years, and I am too realistic to think I’ll be able to keep it up once my life gets busy again in the fall. SO. White Collar D/s AU Which I Will Not Properly Write: (AKA the Sub Frenzy AU) SUB FRENZY. - Sub frenzy is when a sub starts acting out, reckless, unsustainably attention-seeking, in order to attract the attention of a Dom; behaving in a way that will hopefully prompt a Dom to reign them in. Dom!El, (Dommy!)Switch!Peter, Sub!Neal  - P/E/N OT3, but at the moment, the focus is non-sexual D/s.

(Worldbuilding Stuff) MY STANDARD D/s AU RULES (If anyone cares about these, I will write a meta for it at some point, because I have SO MANY THOUGHTS about worldbuilding and language. (and also how VERY FUCKING MUCH I absolutely HATE the way that the stupid fucking traffic light system has invaded fucking BDSM fics EVERYWHERE.))

D/s is a hormone/biology thing, designation pretty much follows standard bellcurve.(20% Dom 20% sub, 60% switch.) YES = MENAYOM.  NO = KISTIKA Dom (is gender neutral in this AU) = Nithdem (English term, corruption of Knight/Dame) Sub = Shuf (I did search for these, to try to make sure I'm not accidentally using terms that are actual words in languages I don't speak, and none of my searches for these turned up anything, but if I'm wrong PLEASE LET ME KNOW.) (But El and Neal switch to the French terms as pet names) NEAL: - Sub - (Came up early - around 8? which is not like. UNHEARD of, but is generally considered early enough that he should have gotten medical attention. Instead, he hid it.) Neal has SO MANY fucking self-soothing mechanisms that he has come up with over the years, and definitely some of them are more sustainable than others, but the one that works best for him is FORGING ART. He can take himself down while he’s forging, because the point is to do the exact thing that was done before. His job is to match, stroke-for-stroke, the painting that he’s copying. - In this AU, he only ever signed the shit that he made during Frenzy.  The shit he makes for himself when in his headspace - it feels like betraying the Dom to sign (?) ELLEN:  was the one who said things about how it was easier for subs to hide as Doms, because no one would be watching for it. She would have been his Dom, also, when he was growing up. The only long-term Dom that Neal has ever had(?)) MOZZIE:  knows Neal is a sub, but Mozie's a switch, helped Neal through a drop once (?) Or found an emergency Dom? for when Neal Dropped (after Keller shot that dude who thought he’d lost his passport.)(maybe?) EL:  DOM. This is a woman who knows what she wants, and fucking GETS it. She notices small things about Neal - (HE MATCHES BREATHING ALL THE TIME. (maybe that’s a really common trait for subs who come up early? Or subs who had platonic doms.)) Also little things about the way defers to Peter - ETC. And the reason is that Neal is A.- FUCKING IN FRENZY, but also. B.- Neal does the thing, - which REALLY proves he is OFF HIS FUCKING GAME - but where he’s too focused on fooling Peter, so he lets shit slip around Elizabeth. PETER: - Switch - Peter has WEIRD dynamics, because his is ENTIRELY DOM at work, and like. Pretty fucking sub at home? and this is partially why he struggles so much with work/life balance, maybe? But he is SO HAPPY to sub for El, and - even though it isn’t like, a bio-need for El to sub, they have figured out some things they can do together, where it’s enough for when Peter needs to Dom at home. JUNE; - EMANCIPATED SUB. Subs can’t do a lot of stuff, without permission from a Dom - but there IS an emancipation process. It is difficult and expensive, but Byron and June went through it. It’s not impossible, it’s just expensive and time consuming. (similarities to citizenship, maybe? It often takes years, just because there’s like, one office in every state, and it’s open two days per month.) BERRIGAN: - Dommy switch? JONES: - Switch CRUZ - Switch? ALEX HUNTER - Switch KATE - Switch SARA - ??? Sub?? (also emancipated)(I have not gotten to S2 yet, so thoughts on Sara at this point are tragically minimal.)

Next - Part 1

[elsternwick-rp]

Elsternwick Spring Update! (04-24-24)

Good evening, everyone! We hope your day and the month of April has been well, we've been busy at work planning a number of events, and encounters, and while we've been excited to share them with you, we only feel now they are finally ready to be seen, and we hope you'll look forward to them! So, why don't we begin with some new arrivals?

New Arrivals (Circa 04-24-24)

The train has pulled into station, bringing with it many fresh new faces to Elsternwick, we hope you enjoy your stay here!

Zayne 'Delights Marcus (Original Character) - Pichu

Friend/My Friend (Original Character) - Mari

Morcant Ruben Mar {aka Ruby} (Original Character) - Aster

Sandalphon (Granblue Fantasy) - Clarity

Mithrun (Delicious in Dungeon/Dungeon Meshi) - Fionn

The Scout (Team Fortress 2) - Fish

Eoghann (Dungeons and Dragons {Original Character}) - Pact

Izu (Kamen Rider: Zero-One) - Bee

Starlo (Undertale Yellow) - Rook

Ingo (Pokemon Black/White - Fionn

Cole (Dragon Age) - Fionn

Dexter Douglas (Original Freakzoid Remake) - PIchu

Kvothe (Kingkiller Chronicles) - Fionn

Reserves

We also have a  few reserves, hopefully soon, we’ll be seeing them, and look forward to whatever plots you may do with them!

Magolor (Kirby) - Carmine

Sari Sumdac (Transformers Animated) - Doot

Harrier Du Bois (Disco Elysium) - Vin

Dropped Reserves

We only have one dropped reserve this time around, sad this vampire didn't work out, but maybe one day we'll see him around!

Astarion (Baldurs Gate 3) - Vin

That about does it for the character update, we hope this clarifies things, and if you do not see your name on this list, please do not fret!

This run of new characters had a larger than usual amount of applicants who we could not reach via Discord, if you sent an application in the past three months and have not been accepted, please check in with us and we'll clarify if you've been accepted or not!

As a reminder, please have an alternative way to contact you if you send in an application! Sometimes Discord doesn't let us add you to send your invite! (Be it because of settnigs or other issues!)

Now, onto the second part of the announcement!

As you may have seen in our previous update, we have an update planned for Spring! Enough time has passed, and we believe that is is all ready to go!

Overabundant Life (Spring Event: April - Mid June!)

With the death kneels of a mushroom man who was preventing the cycle of life and rebirth, an explosion of pent up natural and life energy has saturated Elsternwick and the surrounding area, Spring was delayed for a month or so, but now it is here in full force... perhaps a bit too much full force!

Plants and vines are growing all over town, on buildings, on people, everywhere! There's even a few rare plants that hunger for human flesh... and herbs that many will pay a pretty penny for, hope you've got your shears at the ready!

Not only that, but an explosion of animal life has brought new life to the forest, all types of creatures are wandering in and around the forests of Elsternwick, baby animals, protective mother animals, and a few odd ones you may have seen before, you'll have to be careful, if you're feeling daring, maybe you can go hunting...? Make sure they're cleared to hunt!

With melting ice and flowing water, the Lakes and Rivers of Elsternwick are brimming with latent life, hungry fish, and unusually clear water, it's a fine time to fish, or perhaps explore the lakes around town, you may even find some long forgotten treasure...

And finally, as Spring begins, Arcadia Carnival begins with a grand festival, tents and games of all types are visible around the board walk, with portals to other worlds freely open, wonderful visitors of Fae Nobility wander freely, and promises of endless joy surround the carnival... there's even a promotion to get extra Arcadia Tickets! Perhaps just this one you can trust faeries...?

And that's just a few things planned for our Spring Event! As you can see, it's focused mainly on how Spring has life growing all over the place, and we think there's plenty of opportunities for interesting roleplays, we look forward to what you may end up doing!

It ends in Mid June, so don't fret, you've got plenty of time before our Summer Events!

Upcoming Features

Finally, we have a small update on some of our upcoming events for 2024!

In 2023, a majority of the events were serious and focused on Story, including alternates, curses, and emotional energy running amuck, for 2024, we decided that this year's events would instead focus inward, with a majority of our events focusing on Locations within Elsternwick, and expanding on the lore of our fair city!

This was player voted on thanks to Discord's brand new Poll feature, which also helped us decide which places to focus on with upcoming events, and we're pleased to give you a small teaser of what's to come in Mid-May! Hopefully you won't be waiting too long...

Elsternwick's rivers have long run through the town, with many passing over it, unaware that another long river flows beneath...

When problems begin to plague Elsternwick's water, citizens will have to traverse into the maintained sewer sections and find various surprises, and perhaps a glimpse into something forgotten in the town's past.

You'll be surprised by What Lurks Beneath. As Above, So Below, as they say...

We're still ironing out the details, but we hope you'll look forward to it when it's ready in May!

Once this is finished, why not cool down and head to the beach?

Amazing things are beginning to wash up on the shores, and the roar of the ocean hides many things, valuable and wonderful things that the Museum and Library may be very interested in...

With the return of an ancient book, strange things are happening there, and perhaps some of these beach curios could help calm whatever has taken root in the library, bringing history to life...

Our next Event will likely overlap with Summer, so you'll be waiting longer for it, but we hope you'll look forward to it!

Update Done!

This should about do it for this update! Sorry to keep you waiting, and we hope you'll look forward to the upcoming events, and any interactions with our new arrivals!

And we also hope the rest of your Spring is amazing! In Elsternwick, or otherwise!

Spring will give way into Summer in just 50 days, and we'll have activities planned for then as well, and we can't wait to see what creative things you'll do with our events for this year! Whatever may come, you're sure to learn more about Elsternwick and perhaps those who live in it...

But until then, we hope the rest of your night is well and wonderful!

We look forward to whatever you may be up to, both within and without Elsternwick!

See you again soon!

[indianasolo221]

Taking a break

I want to let you all know that I’m not going to log into Tumblr for the month. My activity here is already rather sporadic, and I’m beginning to realize that I need to take a step back from all my fandoms and most of my social medias. I’ve already stopped posting on my other fandom accounts due to lack of motivation and inspiration. Yeah, I know I have only been on the Tumblr side of CATS for a short time, but this isn’t really about a certain fandom or platform. I’ve just come to realize that I have spent so much time in the last few years on fandom. It doesn’t mean that I won’t come back to my fanfic accounts, Discord, or Tumblr, just that I feel the need to take a step back. I have some things about myself that I want to improve, I want to grow up, move forward, etc. I feel that for me personally, part of that improvement and growth is learning when I need to take a break, and now seems as good a time as any.

I won’t be here for June, but I plan to give myself this month and hopefully come back refreshed in July. I will be grateful to those who continue to follow my blog during this time, but I also totally understand if you decide to unfollow me due to inactivity! I’m not abandoning this blog (or my sides), and I won’t forget my fellow fans, but I think this break will be good for me.

Who knows? If this helps me, maybe I’ll take a little hiatus every so often and just see where it takes me.

Until next time,

Indy (aka. Your resident Jemima fangirl)

[chaosoftheages]

Father & Son Timeline:

December 3rd, 2022: Okeh just this one book and I'll be done.

January 3rd, 2023: Ok I'll make a sequel I'm quite proud of book 1 hopefully it'll do good.

January 23rd, 2023: Ok I guess I'm making a trilogy

Febuary 10th, 2023: Okay this is the LAST BOOK

March 30th, 2023: Ok fuck it book 4

April 1st, 2023: Ok now it's the last book NOTHING MORE AFTER THIS

June 9th, 2023: Book 5 I guess

June 11th, 2023: Actually why not work on something different for a while *Writes To Heaven & Back*

July 1st, 2023: Hmmm I've had this idea sitting in my drafts for a while let's write it *Writes Made To Ruin*

July 10-11, 2023: Shit AO3 is down...WAIT FATHER AND SON ISN'T DONE YET FUCK

July 11th, 2023: Okay I'll postpone the AU I was working on

July 12th, 2023: Okay just one more book

July 13th, 2023: AND OF COURSE I MAKE A BOOK 6 TO MAKE ANOTHER TRILOGY

August 1st, 2023: *Writing chapter 13 of book 5* December 2022 me is probably looking at this rn and going "How the fuck did we get here"

AKA

Me in 2022 watching episode 30: Ok I got a good idea for a book let's see how this plays out

Me writing book 1: Hmm seems like this book is gonna do good maybe it'll be my breakthrough. But just this one book I don't wanna go to crazy.

Me in August 2023 writing the 5th book in the series knowing damn well I'm gonna be writing a 6th right afterward: Ok where did these other plotlines and ideas come from what the fuck brain

In short, F&S started as a small little project and now it's turned into my writing breakthrough that 2022 me would've thrown out the window in 2 seconds flat.

2023 me both questions how I got here and is proud asf that I got here

Thanks for whoever on Tumblr supports me on AO3

Anyways, AVM quote for the series:

Purple in book 1: Ok let me just stop my dad and not get anymore trauma than that.

Purple in book 5: IS THE TRAUMA OVER YET?!?

Me: No.

Purple: JUST KILL ME ALREADY

Me: The near death is one thing and I've already done that

Purple: WHY WASN'T IT PERMANENT!?!?

Me: Your my protagonist. You have plot armor.

Purple: Omg you actually believe in that.

Me: KING'S SEEN ENOUGH I CAN'T JUST DO THAT TO HIM-

(The reason Purple has somehow survived: Plot armor)

Series Link: https://archiveofourown.org/series/3288039

[spacetravelwriter]

Langblr reactivation challenge

Week 1

Day 1: Create an introduction post about yourself. What's your name? What languages are you studying? What languages do you hope to study? What do you hope you'll get out of this challenge? Add whatever else you’d like to your introduction post!

Name: Kanita

Nationality: Bosnia and Herzegovina

Native in: Bosnian(+Serbian, Croatian), English

Languages learning:

Spanish (upper intermediate) - I haven't taken any DELE exams, I don't really learn Spanish, I use it on a daily basis and I gotten myself up to a high level like this;

German (B1 from 2 years ago) - I haven't used German in over 2 years (since I started uni I haven't had much use for it) and the German I knew was from school, I plan on getting back my level and exceeding it one day, but for now I'm not in the mood to get back to it, maybe next year;

Basque (beginner) - I'm not a total beginner, I have been learning it since May, I can express some of my thoughts, I've been learning it mostly with the book "The Basque language: A practical introduction" by Alan R. King and I had done a 14-day challenge before that to get myself into the basics. I'm totally in love with this language and I plan on being conversational until May-June 2023, aka in around half a year

Special mentions: Arabic(Syrian), Japanese - I'm really interested in learning these languages but I'm making myself put it on hold before I get a bit more comfortable in my Basque

Main target language: Basque/Euskara + I want to take a DELE Spanish exam next year (C1 hopefully)

I've already explained it here that I'm far away from the Basque Country, and that I don't plan on working there (at least anytime soon, my love for the culture of Euskal Herria is growing every day) but that I still somehow fell in love with this language. I might not need to use it anytime soon, but I feel happy learning it. Plus, I did use it once in real life. Here's a fun short story:

In the same post I've mentioned where I got the idea of studying Basque from. This August I visited Madrid to watch Real Madrid's women's team play in the Champions League. Long story short, I met the player I mentioned in the post (Nahikari) and while most of the conversation we had was in Spanglish, I told her something in Euskera. I totally messed up the word order (also giggled) the first time I said it but she asked me to repeat it and understood me. So, I count it as using the language even though I said one single sentence (it was pretty long though, I had to think about it a lot).

What do I hope to get out of this challenge? Well, hopefully connect with more people that are studying the same languages I mentioned, especially Basque because it's really hard to find another person studying Basque.

[polizwrites]

WIP Update -  3 May 2023

A very productive writing week -   I touched 7 fics (5 WIPs  & 2 new works)  for a total of  3104 words.   For the first third of the year, that gives me almost 43k words, which puts me well on track for over 120k for the year -- let’s see if that holds! 

On Ao3, I posted:

Chapter 2 of  Making All Things New  - Stucky omegaverse with Cap!Alpha!Steve and Sex Worker!Omega!Bucky. 

Truth and Consequences  -  TFaWS scene retelling -  Sam & Bucky reconciliation. 

On Tumblr, I posted:

Getting Prepared  - an A:IW missing scene featuring Bucky. 

I  have  14 active WIPs  with my  current  deadlines being  the Stucky and Avengers Bingos events.   Attack Plan for those two events.

See  below cut for what I’m working on/planning to work on - arranged more or less by bingos/challenges/etc.  As always, feel free to send me   prompts or plot bunnies as well as asks regarding  any of these projects  or any other WIPs I’ve got out there.   Interaction really helps feed the Muse and keep me motivated!

Seek & Destroy Collab

After reading @psychiccatpanda‘s amazing   Morguna and the Green Queen, I  got the itch to explore the Soldier’s POV and talked  Faustie into   collab’ing with me!  We’re working on a new part of the series, and I’ve  contributed about 900 words towards the  2500-ish we have so far.   Going to see if I can squeeze any of my BBB squares into this fic.  

Stucky Bingo Round Four [SB_R4] (Ends 31 May 2023)

Twenty fills with two bingos and 2 WIPs with a couple of other vague ideas. Targeting completion of at least three more squares - stretch goal of a blackout.

* B1 - Mutual Pining -  Leaning toward the Centerfold fic idea I’ve been toying with for awhile: a Modern No Powers AU where Bucky’s high school crush (skinny!Steve) is a model in a softcore porn mag.   Backup plan = Chapter 3 of   Making All Things New)

* r G5 - SHIELD   – soliciting ideas!   (possible crossover with Bucky Barnes Bingo - Forgotten Things?)

* O4 - AU: Supernatural -  got inspired by a dream to start a Stucky fantasy AU (magician!Steve/ensorcelled!Bucky) that @bill-longbow   is collaborating on with me. We’re currently sitting at 1640 words (984-ish of which are mine).    I really need to pick this back up & get it going 😬   I can use it for my BBB  AU: Medieval/Fantasy square and with some re-writing, I may be able to squish this into the Myths and Legends monthly prompt  and my BB_C4  Myth square.

*Adoptable1 - Remix one of your own fics – Finally cracked this thanks to another 3 Prompts –> Summary game: Wings, Transformation, Confession.  I’m planning a Bucky POV of part of Take What Was Wrong (And Make it Right) the obvious title - Half of the Flesh and Blood That Makes Me Whole. 😁  I’ve got 715 words in so far  and am crossing over with my WIB Mutual Pining square.  I may try to crossover with something from my new BBB card as well.

Avengers Bingo Round Four [AvB_R4] (Ends 2 June)

This  time around the card is a 3x3,  so am looking at writing different   pairings for my two favorite Avengers - Tony and Steve.    I have 3 fills  completed and three WIPs, with a couple more ideas in play.   Need to get moving on this as well - see  my Attack Plan

*A2 -  “Don’t leave me, please.” - Leaning toward a Steve POV of the post-battle scene where Tony’s just fallen out of the sky.  Something short, but hopefully sweet.  Other option - maybe combine with SB Adoptable -Remix own fic 

* B2 - Crossover AU –  picking up my Star Wars fusion Stucky/Stuckony fic:  Never More to Go Astray.  Pleased to discover the latest WIP chapter was already sitting at 942 words - just need to figure out how to wrap up the chapter.

* B3 - Mistaken Identity -  Chapter 3 of   Decision at Sundown  (based on the ficlet I wrote to fill the “Wet Your Whistle”  FFC23 prompt) is in progress and sitting at 737 words. I need to work the prompt in a bit more clearly before I can consider this finished - maybe another 300-500 words?

* C1 - Babysitter AU -   Started working on a collab with MagicaDraconia16 - tentatively titled Peremesnik (aka Three Avengers and a Baby). This will crossover with my  ACB Babysitter square and will involve  Steve, Bucky & Tony kidfic shenanigans.  Chapter 1 is sitting at  2205 words (my part - roughly 1400 words)  with another 500-ish already in chapter 2 (300-ish are mine).

* C2 - Accidentally in Love - posted  chapter 2 of Making All Things New on Friday -  this fic features Omega!Sex Worker!Bucky falling for  Alpha!Cap!Steve  (and vice versa) during an assignment and crossed over with my BB_C4 Omegaverse square. The chapter came in at 1501 words and am already 857 words into Chapter 3 - which may or may not be the final chapter.  😁

* C3 - Dog Tags - I drafted a short ficlet  A Piece of the Past  late last week - Sam POV  where he helps Steve with the titular item.  This will cross over with my SWB Steve Rogers square and is sitting at 404 words. 

Bucky Barnes Connect Four Alt-Juniverse Event (BB_C4)[ends 30 Jun 2023]

Signed up for this event over at @buckybarnesevents - you get a four-square card featuring ideas for AUs.  The prompts can be used as stand-alones or combined with each other or other events.   Thanks to crossovers, I have  two fils and WIPs for the other two squares!  

* C1 - Omegaverse -  see  AvB - Accidentally In Love above.

* C2 - Rich – see Stucky Bingo Identity Porn above.

* C4 - Myth - thinking I can combine this with the SB  Supernatural AU square idea above, possibly with a little re-writing.

All Caps Bingo [ACB_R1]  (Ends 30 Sep 2023)

I’ve got nine completed fics, four WIPs and  will be pursuing the One Fill, One Bingo  Challenge for Row 5.  

* I1 - Mutual Pining - see Stucky Bingo Mutual Pining.

* G1 - Isaiah Bradley -  Planning to add more to The Fist, Defeated.   (possibly present day)

* G3 - Established Relationship -  see Stucky Bingo - Remix Own Fic

* G4 - Babysitting - see  AvB Babysitting AU above.

* O3 - Pararescue Sam Wilson - may try to squish this into an expansion of   A Rising Star -  a previous Flash Fiction Friday fill.  

* May Adoptable -   I’m going to use either   AU: Sex Worker or  Scenting  for Chapter 3 of  Making All Things New, which is already up to 857 words. 

Sam Wilson Bingo [SWB_R3]  (Ends 15 Oct 2023)

I have two fills and one WIP -  I need to work on cross fills between this and the All Caps and Bucky Barnes bingo!

* B2 - Miscommunication - Posted Truth and Consequences  this morning. It’s a TFatWS compliant  Sam & Bucky Sam POV ficlet and came in at 352 words.

* G3 - Joaquin Torres - see ACB Pararescue Sam Wilson above.

* O2 - Steve Rogers  – see AvB  Dog Tags  above.

WinterIron Bingo  - [WIB_R1]   (Ends 16 Dec 2023)

I have 3 fills completed and two WIPs for this brand-new bingo event that I’m helping mod!  Still getting my thoughts together on what to match up with other cards, but   think I’m going to try to combine my B column squares for the Iron Soldier badge (complete a bingo with a single work). – Alpha Tony Stark, “That was not my intention.”, James Rhodes,Alpine loves Tony and Blind date.

* I1 - Edging - using this with Chapter 2 of   Surrender (But Don’t Give Yourself Away),  my WinterIron –>Stuckony  Steve POV WIP based on the following 3 Prompts –> Summary game prompt :  Praise Kink, One Night Stand, Identity Porn.  It’s currently sitting at 624 words and is crossing over with my BBB KINK - “Please let me come.”  square.

* I4 - Identity Porn - this will go along well with the drafted  Chapter 7 of   Takin’ What They’re Givin’ (‘Cause I’m Workin’ for a Livin’) where Bucky meets Tony and they find a way to keep his identity a secret after all.  This chapter is coming in at 2988 words and  will post May 5th.

* O4 - Steve Rogers - Using this for chapter 8 of   Takin’ What They’re Givin’ (‘Cause I’m Workin’ for a Livin’), where camboy!Bucky’s worlds start to collide.  The chapter is coming in at 2152 words and will get posted probably by the end of the month.  

* O5 - Gentle – use this poem  as inspiration?

* ADOPTABLE1 - 1990′s   -- picked this to prod me into picking My Love is Vengeance back up.  I do have a nice chunk of the next chapter  written (1039 words) -  and had a bit of inspiration that may allow me to wrap this up in  two more chapters beyond this one.  

Bucky Barnes Bingo  - [BBB_R5]   (Ends 10 Jan 2024)

Am still trying to match up squares to crossfill, but have 2 fills,  five WIPs and a couple more Vague ideas already.

* B1 - AU: Medieval/Fantasy -  see SB AU: Supernatural above.

* B4 - Shapeshifters -  a potential crossover with my SB  AU: Changed into an Animal square - but  I need  a plot bunny and it is a low priority fill at the moment.

* U2 - Clint Barton/Hawkeye -  Dredged up my year-old Winter Soldier/ young Clint WIP   You Can’t Stop It With a Gun.  Chapter 3 was already in progress and is now up to 548 words.    

* U5 - AU: Flower Shop -  see  BBB_C4   No Powers AU above.

* C2 - Yelena Belova

–  see AvB

Babysitter AU

* C4 - KINK: “Please let me come.”  See SB  Identity Porn above - Chapter 2.

* C5 - Marriage of Convenience/Pretend Couple -  next chapter of   Lady Natasha’s Consort and Lord Steve’s Companion.    Not quite sure where to take this next at the moment.  😕

* K3 - Magic -  Aro!Bucky sickfic idea? 

* Y2 - [image: IW Bucky with the good hair] Last week’s Flash Fiction Friday prompt [#FFF198 What Comes Next]   was a perfect match for an idea I’d already been playing around with to fill this square.   I banged out Getting Prepared -  an A:IW missing scene set between the time that T’Challa and Okoye come for Bucky and the moment he sees Steve again.  I will post it to Ao3 sometime in the next month or so.

* Y3 - Alpine  - see WIB Iron Soldier combo.

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On  other creative fronts:  I have a POW Bucky Stuffed With Character figure in progress. I have multiple commissions from the Hall of Heroes  Comic Con to work on and am prepping for a con in June  so am  pretty well booked up through early summer.

That said, if  you’re looking for one of a kind gifts for birthdays or other celebrations later in the year, check  out Stuffed With Character    over on Facebook for a full list of my designs (now over 100!).   These soft stuffed figures are  mostly Marvel and monsters, but I have some Star Wars, Star Trek, DC   and Disney figures as well. Plus I love to take custom design   requests  for any fandom!

[a-force-dyad-in-space]

I feel like it's time for another "What the Hell is Up with Your WIPs, Jen???? Any Updates?????" post, so let me tell you what the current status is on all them. 🙈🙈🙈🙈🙈🙈🙈🙈🙈

This includes both fics I've already started posting (marked "on AO3") and fics I haven't posted yet, some of which you might not even be aware of because I haven't talked about them before. 🙈

The Untamed

The Angsty SongXue Fic (on AO3)

I gotta be honest, I haven't really worked on it since, like, May or June because my brain keeps semi-fixating on other fandoms at the moment. Chapter 52 is still a work in progress, but I hope I'll get back to it soon.

The It Follows AU (on AO3)

Has it really been TWO YEARS since I posted the first five chapters???? I know, I really need to get back to it and finish it.

The XXC Grew Up in a Cult Fic

I know, I haven't even started posting this fic yet and tbh, at this point I don't know if I ever will, but it is more or less fully outlined and I've written the first chapter, so I don't know, maybe the mood will hit me again one day.

The Color Rush AU

This one I haven't touched in several years and, similarly to the one above, I don't know if I will ever write enough to start posting it, but the first chapter is already done and I have a plan for how it's supposed to go, so maybe one day.

The Observer series (on AO3)

I did write the first chapter of part 2 several years ago, but I have yet to write the other two chapters in this part. I'm not in the biggest smut-writing mood in the moment, so this one will probably stay on the side for a bit longer, but I definitely want to continue it.

The Fierce Corpse Therapist SL meets Reincarnated XueXiao Fic

I don't remember if I ever told you about this one. I wrote a little bit of the beginning for this one and I have an outline for a good portion of this story, but it will probably be a while before it sees the light of day. I do still really like the premise, though, so I will hopefully pick it back up at some point.

Others

There are some others that I have outlines for, but haven't actually started writing, so I won't mention them for now, but the ideas exist and are simmering at the back of my creativity dungeon. Maybe they'll see the light of day, maybe they won't, we'll see.

Word of Honor

The Xie'er Deserves the World Fic (on AO3)

I just realized I only posted the first four chapters of this fic, even though chapter five has already been done for years. I guess I wanted to use that one as a buffer while I work on chapter six (which still isn't done because I haven't worked on it in ages). Even though I haven't worked on this one in a long time, I still eventually want to finish it. Guess I'll post chapter five in the meantime. Really, completely forgot I never posted that chapter, even though it's one of my favorites so far.

Night Has Come

Night Has Come...Again

Remember when I was semi-fixated on Night Has Come and made several gifsets for it? I also started working on a fic that basically picks up where the end of the drama left off. Unfortunately, my semi-fixation died before I could get more than 1.5 chapters into it. I do want to come back to it at some point but right now, my brain is jumping around too much for me to focus on it.

Sailor Moon

Sailor Moon Celestial

Ah yes, my Sailor Moon epic that I've mentioned a few times. I do come back to it every now and then, and I will definitely finish it some day, but it will probably be a while before it will see the light of day, aka AO3.

Love and Redemption

Five Times Linglong Tries to Forget (And One Time She Doesn't)

Another one I have fully outlined and started writing, but since I'm not in the mood for writing smut at the moment, it will probably be a while before I finish it.

Star Wars

The Episode IX Fix-It Fic

Also come back to this every now and then. I WILL get it fully out of my system one day, I just don't know when yet.

Crossovers

Twilight × The Chronicles of Narnia

I've been back in my Twilight era recently and had a look at a crossover with the Narnia movies I started writing like 10+ years ago again. I still really like the premise and I had a good portion outlined back then, so I started rewriting it from the beginning. I hope this time I'll really pull through. At the very least I already got farther into the story now than I did when I first started writing it, so I'm gonna see that as a good sign. This one's angsty.

Twilight × MCU

I wrote 8 chapters with the ninth as a work in progress back when I started working on it. I've done some editing in the last few weeks because I wasn't really happy with a few of the scenes, but other than that I still like what I wrote. We'll see how I'll get into it.

[sleepy-ogre]

12:25am, 30th June, 2024

I enrolled into Psych coz gotta do sumn in life after taking gap years for far too long. Even though I didn't really know much about it and have felt somewhat skeptical and I still do [more in the sense that most of life problems not including the debilitating ones can be solved by ourselves (hence my confusion over the role of a counsellor) and that the root cause of the proliferation of major disorders is failures at a systemic and societal level, so the solution should also be of the same orientation] I've always wanted to do something that involves helping people.

But ever since summer vacay started, I have this never-ending existential crisis abt what it is that I'm doing here coz I genuinely don't have that passion as I did in the 1st semester.

Everyday I get this nagging thought that this isn't the right thing to do. And it doesn't help that I've enrolled in online classes-type "internship" in which the instructor is too informal and sometimes that borders on insufferable. Coupled with the countless posts by certain Psych counsellors and interns on insta I come across almost everyday (yes I have a doomscrolling problem and I'm not proud of it) basically bragging abt the kind of money they make by charging exorbitant prices (I'm talking 3k to 5k) for mere 1hr sessions (saw this one woman who only has a Masters brag abt it and how she overcame the problem of lack of income by "changing her financial mindset" aka charging enormous amounts).

Idk the financial condition of these influencers, hey, maybe they really do need the bag (although they do seem to be pretty well off) but I honestly believe that counselling shouldn't have to be this expensive and that if these people really are in a dire situation, they should prolly choose some other field like organisational Psych or get into teaching (which I guess that lady bragging abt exorbitant fees was already doing through her training programs she advertised on her acc). Other people's finance really shouldn't be of my business but it bothers me because I've felt first hand how unaccessible therapy can be.

This has got me spiralling into an existential crisis all over again if this is the reality of working in this field. And I really don't feeling like getting into the instructor line coz it feels like we already have a lot of those plus I feel that's what most ppl who choose Psych end up doing.

Idk if its the curriculum, and I somewhat regret saying this but, sometimes I genuinely don't have much of an interest in this subject. I feel I've started losing even more interest after enrolling for this online course. Maybe I've taken more than I can hold and I just don't know what to do about it. Plus there's not much I can do abt it coz it's too late.

I'm not really that worried abt this online thing coz there's 1 month left b4 it's over and hopefully I can get that certificate towards that end if it means something. I really don't know how to deal with this existential crisis at hand. I really want to talk to someone but even after all that, its upto me how I figure this out.

I really don't want to discredit the field since we do live in a broken world with broken people and we as a species need to look out for each other. But sometimes it feels like the way its evolved really doesn't work for the benefit of the ppl. I'm trying to look for a side gig in the future but on the topic of pursuing one's academic endeavours while doing a job at the side as an extra means of income, I have seen people online say its easier said than done. So I really don't know how I'm going to figure this out but hopefully I will.

I've been typing these posts in the hopes of clearing my mind a bit regarding this and while it does feel good just getting it off my chest and it also does instill in me the will to do better, I've also noticed that the same existentialism will be back to haunt me again. Its a daily struggle ig.

[pizzaqueen]

Thought I'd put together a masterlist and do a little bit of an intro:

You can call me Queenie! Pronouns are she/her. I'm old to some and young to others. I'm mostly here for Steddie but other ships may pop up occasionally (like Chrissy/Robin aka Buckingham or Jancy)

I co-ran @steddie-week in 2023 and will hopefully run it again in 2024

Fanart, podfics, moodboards, fanmixes, and translations of my fics are all welcome! Fanbinding is also welcome :D

Please credit me as 96tears on AO3 and/or pizzaqueen on tumblr and I'd love to know so I can gush over it!

Asks are always open for fic talk or headcanons or anything else 😊 or even feel free to just say hi!

Some tags:

My fic / text/ headcanon posts / writing / art prompts

Some playlists:

Steddie / Eddie / Steve / Buckingham

And a timestamps post of all Steve's scenes in ST

(All fic links below the cut because it's long; updated November 2023)

MULTI-CHAPTERED FICS

alone again, or

20k / M / June 2022

It’s 1991 and Steve is still in Hawkins, still living with his mother, still single, and still working at Family Video. At least he’s the manager now, for whatever that’s worth. But he’s stuck here while Robin and Dustin and everyone else have moved away. Moved on. Well, everyone except for Eddie. They're best friends, spend most of their time together, and it's nice to have a friend like that. But Steve is still looking for love with a capital "L". At least, he thinks he is.

Playlist / Podfic by @cottagepodfics

Till I Kissed You

18k / T / August - September 2022

When Eddie confesses he’s never got the big deal about kissing, Steve teases him about it, saying maybe it’s because Eddie’s a bad kisser. Pride wounded, Eddie can’t let that go and decides he needs an unbiased opinion on his kissing skills. It’s weird but it’s only one kiss, no big deal, right? So, Steve says yes. Eddie gets the answer he wanted, but then he and Steve are left with a whole new set of questions to navigate. Now they just have to find new answers.

Moodboard / Playlist

uh-oh, love comes to town

13k / T / December 2022

It’s not like Steve thought Eddie would stay single forever, but he figured he’d have a girlfriend by the time Eddie got a boyfriend. So, when Vickie and Robin set Eddie up on a blind date with Vickie’s cousin, Steve figures he feels weird about it because he’s the only one without a date.

But an annoying little voice starts telling him maybe there’s more to it than that. He just has to figure out what it is.

Moodboard / Playlist

picnic time with you

12.2k / T / April-May 2023

“Why are you so keen on this, anyway?” Steve looks at Eddie, pulse skipping. He drums his fingers on the floor. “You can’t be that bored.” Eddie turns to Steve, lit by the flickering glow of the projector, and says, “I like knowing things about you.” When Eddie convinces Steve to show him some old family photos and home movies, it unearths a happy memory of a picnic Steve went on as a child. It was just an ordinary picnic, but it was weirdly special to Steve, and, more importantly, it gives him an idea. He's going to take Eddie on a picnic—a romantic one—and finally tell him how he feels. And Robin’s going to help him plan it.

The Pizza Box Pact

24k / T / November 2023

Eddie and Steve have been living together, working together, and raising their cat together for a few years, now, but they’re not together together. They’re friends—the best of—nothing more, and they’re happy. At least, Eddie is, and he thought Steve was too. But then he finds a pact they made, one drunken night ten years ago, where they pledged to ‘marry’ each other if they were still single by the time they’re thirty, and everything changes. Steve isn’t amused by the reappearance of the pledge, seems almost upset by it, and Eddie figures it’s because he’s going to be thirty soon and doesn’t have a girlfriend. So, he does what any best friend would do: promises to find Steve his perfect woman, setting him up on a series of unsuccessful blind dates. But somewhere along the way, Eddie rediscovers feelings that he thought he’d put aside years ago. He just hopes he hasn’t discovered them too late.

Art by goingsteddi3 / Art by Cousin Itt / Promo / Playlist

ONE SHOTS

fighting monsters, holding hands

387 / G / June 2022

As much as a huge part of Eddie still wants to wait here, cowering, he manages to nod. And that’s when there’s a loud boom, and he just about jumps out of his skin, hand flailing out to grab onto anything solid. Anything grounding.

stumbling in

1.3k / T / June 2022

The thing is, it was just one kiss. And it’s not… Steve’s not… It’s not like he wants to kiss Eddie again, or anything. And if it wasn’t a joke, and Eddie is gay, then, whatever. That’s fine, isn’t it? Steve’s fine with Robin—well, more than fine, obviously—so he’d be fine with Eddie, too.

But it’s… It’s natural to be curious when someone kisses you, right? Anyone would be.

Eddie's Badass Metal Mixtape (For Steve)

2.4k / T / June 2022

This is the closest thing in existence to a definitive collection of Eddie’s favorite songs. No, they’re not just his favorite songs. These songs are a part of him. They are him. Or maybe he’s them. Whatever.

The point is, this tape has taken him a week to put together, with one particular person in mind, and it is perfect. Finally.

Podfic by @daysarestranger

turn on your light

2.5k / T / July 2022

After they take down the bad guy, there’s still the issue of a gaping hole in the roof of Eddie’s trailer. Not exactly ideal living conditions. But Steve Harrington, who is not only not a douchebag but a genuine good dude and real-life superhero, says Eddie can stay with him. So, Eddie is in Steve Harrington’s bedroom, wearing Steve Harrington’s clothes, and about to sleep in Steve Harrington’s bed. It’s not the weirdest thing to happen to him this week, but it’s still totally fucking surreal.

a brush with love

1.8k / T / July 2022

“Dude,” Steve says, “when was the last time you brushed your hair?”

The one where Steve brushes Eddie’s hair (because Eddie hasn't done it in...a while, much to Steve's horror.)

when bad dreams become

3.9k / T / July 2022

A movie night during a storm leads to nightmares and the nightmares lead to some confessions. The urge to put his arm around Steve is almost overwhelming, but Eddie fights it. He hooks his ankle around Steve’s, though, which might not be any less obvious, but Steve seems to relax a little at the touch. At the next boom of thunder, Eddie runs his knuckles down Steve’s bicep, letting his hand rest in the crook of his elbow a moment, before he pulls it away.

Bowl Me Over

3.7k / T / July 2022

Eddie’s been kind of different lately—nothing Steve can really put his finger on, but not exactly himself. Steve figures he’s missing the guys from his band, or something. Whatever it is, Steve feels bad about it. It will be nice to do something to cheer Eddie up, so Steve, Robin, Nancy and Eddie go bowling. And then Steve figures some things out with the help of a stray comment from Robin and a stuffed toy bat. Across the table, Robin makes a strangled noise and says, “Holy shit,” eyes wide. Steve clears his throat. “What?”  “I can’t believe I didn’t see it.” Steve folds his arms over his stomach and Eddie sobers, setting the bat on the table and poking at his food. Nancy’s brow furrows and she says, “See what?”

strange currencies

4.3k / T / August 2022

When Steve steps in to break up a bar fight at The Hideout, the owner thanks him with free booze. A lot of free booze. By the time Eddie gets him home, Steve can barely stand, let alone wash his hair. But there’s puke in Steve’s hair, and he can’t sleep like that, so what’s Eddie to do? He washes Steve’s hair for him, and he expects it to be weird, but he doesn’t expect it to come with any revelations.

(Basically: Steve is drunk; Eddie gives him a bath and has feelings)

fix you up

2.5k / T / September 2022

It’s been a while since someone touched him like this. With this kind of…tenderness. And it’s all because he got punched in the face. Again. It’s not because Eddie wants to. Then again, Steve thinks as Eddie takes his time tending to Steve, he could’ve steered Steve toward the bathroom and let him patch himself up. He didn’t have to do it himself. Maybe… Eddie patches Steve up after he gets into a fight at The Hideout.

more than a feeling (that’s the power of love)

5.6k / T / October 2022

This was meant to be a fun weekend away for Steve and Eddie. Leave Hawkins, and all the memories there, behind for a few days. Drink some beers, maybe do some fishing or outdoorsy shit. Get some R&R. But now they’re tied up in some weirdo’s basement, facing imminent death, and Steve’s never told Eddie he wishes they were more than friends.

Not exactly the relaxing weekend he was hoping for.

never can say goodbye

2.3k / T / November 2022

Eddie watches as Steve slips his keys down the back of the couch, followed by his wallet on the other side. Then he takes off his jacket, balls it up, and stuffs it under the coffee table.

It’s like he’s setting up a bizarre treasure hunt, that’s the only way Eddie can explain it; Eddie’s about to say something along the lines of Having fun? or maybe What’s my prize if I find everything? when Steve takes off his watch and slips it under the couch. That’s when Eddie decides not to say anything, see where this goes. If Steve wants to play whatever game this is, Eddie’s more than curious enough to let him.

but the fire is so delightful

6.6k / T / December 2022

When Robin and Dustin back out of a trip to Steve’s grandparents’ cabin over Christmas break, Steve’s a little disappointed. But he can’t lie: the idea of spending the weekend alone with Eddie is pretty damn appealing. He’d been hoping to get Eddie away from the others, so he could finally tell him how he feels, and now he’s got the whole weekend to do it.

a single resolution

1.8k / T / December 2022

It’s New Year’s Eve and Steve doesn’t want to be the only one without someone to kiss at midnight, so he slips away to spend the rest of 1989 alone in his room. And then Eddie finds him.

(A New Year’s Eve first kiss)

Another year—another decade—is coming to a close and Steve is still alone. A burst of laughter sounds behind him, reminding him of his apartment is full of friends, the ones who called earlier because they can’t be here, and he amends alone to single.

Most of the time, he can bear it, but it’s harder at night. And harder still on New Year’s Eve, surrounded by happy couples. He loves his friends and he’s happy for them, but seeing them so in love only makes the ache in him grow.

Podfic by Amanita_Fierce

little things mean a lot

1.7 k / T / January 2023

Shafts of light dance over the room as a sweetly cool breeze flutters the curtains. One catches on a small glass bottle sitting on Steve’s dresser. It reminds him there’s something he’s been wanting to ask Eddie for a while now:

“How come you don’t bring me stuff anymore?”

(The one where Eddie used to bring Steve random trinkets but there was a small misunderstanding)

single / taken / pining

4.4 k / T / February 2023

When a girl Steve’s trying to flirt with starts flirting with Eddie, Steve says the only thing that comes to mind: he tells her Eddie’s married. It’s not his smoothest moment, but it works, and Eddie goes along with it. It's not like Eddie was interested, anyway, and he figures Steve wanted the ladies to himself. So, Steve figures that must be it, too.

But a little later it hits him: he doesn’t want to keep the ladies to himself. He wants to keep Eddie to himself.

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Table for Two

3.4 k / T / February 2023

And maybe Eddie still thinks Valentine’s Day, specifically, is kind of bullshit, but looking at Steve standing in front of him, so fucking handsome and making Eddie’s pulse skip just by being there, he gets why so many people fall for it.

Eddie doesn’t think when Steve mentions Valentine’s Day, just goes into his usual spiel, not realizing he might be trampling all over Steve’s hopes and plans until it’s too late. And that’s how he ends up determined to give Steve the best Valentine’s Day ever.

to be close to you

1.6k / T / March 2023

Eddie picks up the sweater, cradling it in his hands. It’s soft, and Eddie already knows it smells like Steve, but he brings it to his face and inhales anyway. Fuck, it smells good. Steve smells good. A wave of heat washes through Eddie, and he flops back again, face still covered by the sweater. What is he doing? Steve leaves his sweater behind after he and Eddie hang out, and Eddie has feelings about it.

those magic fingers

2.4k / T / March 2023

Eddie has a sore back, Steve offers the solution: one back rub. Totally platonic. No ulterior motives or hidden feelings whatsoever. “Okay, just—” Steve pauses, suddenly wondering what the hell he’s doing and why he offered to do this. But he did, and if he backs down, Eddie will know something’s up. So, he draws in a deep breath and says, “Tell me if it hurts.”

the sweetest words

1.2k / T / March 2023

“Why do you have a favorite part of my face?” “Why wouldn’t I?” “Why would you?” “Because.” “That’s not an answer.” “Oh, my friend, but it is.” (Wherein Eddie likes Steve's face and tells him all about his favorite parts)

Whenever you need shelter

4.4k / T / May 2023

Steve locks himself out of the house on a stormy night when his parents are out of town. It’s not an ideal situation, but it leads him to Eddie’s where he gets warm and dry and learns a few things about himself. “You know, seeing Steve Harrington in a Slayer shirt might just make my whole week.” He pushes off the dresser he’s leaning against and claps a hand to Steve’s arm. His brows shoot up and he says, “Shit, dude, you’re freezing,” rubbing his hands over Steve’s arms. Warmth flows through Steve and, distantly, he thinks it might be from more than the motion of Eddie’s hands making Steve’s blood circulate. He raises a brow, heart beating inexplicably hard.

half as much

1.8k / T / July 2023

A wish. The last thing Steve needs tonight. But he closes his eyes all the same, wishes coming too easily, the first that he could have this every night. Or, not this exactly, but being with Eddie. More and more, all Steve wants to do is hang out with him. Be near him. There’s something about him, and the way being with him makes Steve feel—he wishes it was like this with the girls he’s been dating lately.

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always be like this

2.1k / T / July 2023

This thing with Eddie started on the first day of summer, and Steve feels good about that. Every now and then, he wonders if it’s a summer romance, period, wishing the summer could last forever so he’ll never have to find out, but… No. It feels more solid than that. Like it's going to last. He splashes Eddie again, and Eddie splashes him back, and it turns into a game of who can splash each other the most (Steve wins, no matter what Eddie says) and they wrestle and dunk each other until Steve’s lungs ache with laughing and Eddie finally admits defeat.

Under the Porch Light

1.9k / T / August 2023

After that, it kind of becomes a thing: the two of them on the step outside Eddie’s trailer, talking and talking. It’s gradual, and it’s not something they do consciously, so Eddie doesn’t realize that it’s becoming a thing, but it’s not long before those nights with Steve become a highlight in his life.

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