#AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. anyway

[dendrochronologies]

when i get up there. i am asking god why everything that matters is Scary

[h20milk]

various blurbs from 2022

[urcrowley]

WE'RE SO BACKKKKKK 🔥🔥🔥🔥

everyone say hi to dobby- i mean dabi,,,,

I love todoroki family lore (aka i love doomed family trope) also the fanfics are on hold, im having writer's block LMAOO

[ardenation]

just finished sweet tooth season 3(netflix show).

*sigh*

if you haven’t watched it yet, I’m about to convince you why you should.

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASEPLEASEPLEASE WATCH IT IS SO SO SO SO GOOD IM SERIOUS TRY IT OUT AT LEAST YOU WILL CRY NO LESS THAN FIFTEEN TIMES WHEN WATCHING IT THE PLOT THE TWISTS THE CHARACTERS PLEASE OH MY GOD THIS FUCKING SHOW CHANGED MY LIFE FOREVER

also, the main character is a cute little deer boy who suffers. like a lot. so there’s a lot of angst for your angst feeding pleasure!

[theivesofhearts]

“i opened my heart to you…”

okay so one of the saddest scenes between shawn and angela (which also happens to be one of my favourite) comes from season 6, episode 11, called Santa’s Little Helpers (probably one of the more emotional episodes of the series in general, to be honest). for further context, it‘s the scene where they talk and angela tells him that she can’t wait for the day he’s finally ready to be with her, that it’s over between them, the one that wasn’t a breakup but felt entirely like one anyways. and like, every time i watch this scene i’m met with an overwhelming urge to burst into tears, and honestly? it’s one of those moments that got progressively more upsetting, but also far more compelling, the more i thought about it and the way it ties into their characters, arc, and (imo) acts as a catalyst for future events and puts them into perspective.

starting with shawn, who despite technically being the “problem” here, still evokes a great degree of sympathy because he’s had such a problem coping with his own feelings, on numerous occasions, and had such prevalent insecurities that manifested as a result of his turbulent home life and strained relationship with his parents. he absolutely is in love with angela, that’s very clear, and probably what’s so frustrating about the whole thing for him. he’s showed to be miserable without her (and starts isolating himself from her, cory and topanga in s6 ep. 8), so what exactly is making it so hard for him? After all, despite his insecurities, he was very much willing to give it a shot in senior year. But that’s the thing, it was high school. A protective environment in a sense, which sheltered him somewhat from the world and his life that exists outside of it, one that has been very difficult. Even though he thought he was excited to finally leave, he still found himself sneaking into the building and reminiscing over the time spent there. going to college, finally entering the world as an “adult”, no feeny (at the time), but a vast array of opportunities and possible experiences waiting for him. note that shawn grew up quite disadvantaged, and he struggled with even believing he’d get into college and succeed, so it was likely such a different feeling, so overwhelming that he made an impulse decision to break up with angela to feel free, as he describes himself. This isn’t really the first time shawn tries suppressing his feelings for her, i don’t think, a similar instance happens in the first episode in that season (granted everyone was kind of freaking out about the cory and topanga possible wedding, so i don’t think it was super bad or anything)

now angela… i feel absolutely terrible for her here, which should honestly be a given. shawn’s kinda been putting her through it up to this point, and she’s done with it. now, the thing here is that angela’s commitment issues were hinted at back in season 5, episode 8, which is the episode where they become official (again, but for real this time instead of with a two-week notice) and she was clearly hesitant to give shawn a chance. one thing about all this is that it wasn’t at all because of shawn’s reputation as the school’s heartbreaker, but her own insecurities regarding being in a serious/long-term relationship. in her own words.. “i figured it was best to get away before we hurt each other… is someone gonna get hurt here shawn?” (or something along those lines). And another aspect for consideration is that they both bonded over this feeling and it was shawn himself who convinced her to give their relationship a chance. (also something to possibly note is that shawn’s internalised conflict seems to be out of a fear of getting hurt due to inadequacy, whereas angela’s seems to be more out of the fear of hurting someone else the way her mother did her father, or not being worthy, so it’s kind of a contrast in a sense, but i’ll get to that later). he was so willing to put himself out there because of how much he clearly cared for her, and she was willing to do the same for of him, willing to take that chance despite their worries and own issues stemming from their respective childhoods. and she fell for him hard, she really did. so once again, she was willing to pour her heart out to him in this moment. her telling him to give into his feelings for her kind of broke me, cause that’s really the only thing she wants from him here. to love her openly and freely, and to stop holding himself back out of his own fears and insecurities. and you can tell he wants to, but he can’t. and that’s probably the most frustrating part out of all of this for her. “i can’t just sit around waiting for you to be ready,” she tells him. she loves him too much and it’s inflicting so much pain to see him emotionally closing himself off from her. it’s an ongoing act of self-sabotage from him. she states that it’s over between them (even though it already technically was but its more of a declaration that she’s not going to entertain things between them anymore), it has to be.

to be honest though, as heartbreaking as it was for the both of them, it seemed inevitable to some extent that things were going to turn out this way. they were very obviously neglecting to be open and honest with each other, in spite of their agreement to remain good friends in a rather desperate effort to dissipate the increasing sense of tension between them. It wouldn’t be fair to sawn or angela if he tried forcing himself into something he wasn’t ready for, and as understanding & patient Angela has tried to be up until this point, it must be extremely frustrating on her end to witness him go through this turmoil and not know how to help him. nor would she want to spend her time painfully waiting in anticipation for a moment that may never arrive.

but something else, something so saddening is the thought that she believes she’s putting him through all this pain. from angela’s viewpoint, it’s because of her that he’s suffering like this, feeling so confused and overwhelmed by all his feelings.. what helps create this perspective is actually when they get back together, in season 7 episode 3. when she tells him she loves him, she follows up by saying “i just don’t want to hurt you anymore.” she says it before that moment, too. and honestly, that entire episode is about angela’s clear hesitancy to commit to shawn, but it doesn’t necessarily seem to be out of the fear that shawn would hurt her again. instead, it’s her battling with her own feelings of unworthiness, or rather, that she’d end up hurting him further by leaving him. the event that transpired at the university lounge likely spooked her to the point where she was actively beginning to doubt herself, being so scared by the fact that he was too, and moving forward, her own capacity to love (it’s also possible that everything that occurred with shawn and his dad after the fact had served as a bitter reminder of her childhood, but i believe the what happened before played a larger factor).

[that-was-anticlimactic]

*deep inhale* stAAAAGEPLAYS UUYGJJUYHVFBNJKGBVCTGRFBHNYJMKJNBHGVBFGHGYNJM

[ahatintimepieces]

The painter fights to reclaim his name, but Ven’s hold on him grows tighter and tighter. Still, when he learns about a certain bookseller’s whereabouts, perhaps he can find comfort in the fact that he’s not alone.

Or maybe it’s just a grim reminder of what kind of future awaits the painter if he fails to escape.

[q-starhalo]

Guys I'm so incredibly normal (watched the thing that was posted for The Founders Cut)

[renegadeknight]

I am going to be riding the high from these particular fic comment snips for the rest of this week, thank you kind reader

[windupaidoneus]

(falls to my hands & knees) BUT WHO SAID I CANT HAVE A MAGE HAWKE POSING AS A ROGUE

[carnationcutie]

tumblrrrr please stop with the horrifying medical ads thank you!!!

frog is good. show me more frog.

[fangirlingpuggle]

I had an idea for an AU of your "the twins are bill and Fords kids AU"

So bill finds out about the kids before they hatch(?) a bit of time before it happens in your AU Bill basically kind of just remembers "oh shit I did that with Ford I should see if it actually worked"

and then he hatches(?) them and takes them and at first because it's a ✨manipulation opportunity✨ but then oh no at least some parental instinct has emerged as he takes care of them because they're his and they're wonderful

And as they grow they develop personalities and Mabel oh how she reminds Bill so much of himself the little creature of chaos she is

And Dipper reminds him of Ford (and himself too) with that insatiable hunger for knowledge to see the secrets the universe has to offer

(And when Mabel starts becoming a bit boy crazy Bill just tells her that when she's a bit older he'll let her start her own cult)

And instead of creating things with glitter Mable creates things with the stardust her dad stole from the sky when she wanted to bedazzle her scrapbook (and also glitter because it is an item that breeds chaos and that is something Bill approves of)

And Dipper has a journal that never runs out of pages where he writes down the secrets and stories of the universe (both freely given and stolen by Bill)

And they are Bills children because how could they not be they are so fundamentally weird these nigh impossible creations that were made in a drunken haze a combination of magic and science that somehow breaks the laws of both

And Bill dreams of how when the time finally comes he shall finally bring Weirdmageddon

and he'll give them like a 10th of the planet where they can do whatever they want (because he may be a parent but he still likes to party and also doesn't want his kids to accidentally eat some hard drugs so it's basically a dedicated area for the kids where he doesn't have to worry about them too much because sometimes you just need a little you time okay!!!)

And getting back on track with the original plan surely when Ford meets the kids surely he'll at least love them as much as Bill and they can finally play one big happy Family ruling the world together

[In the meantime Ford had no idea any of this was happening didn't even know he had kids so imagine his surprise on Weirdmageddon

(Should Ford even trust these children they are Bills kids not to mention the fact that he's the one who raised them

a part of Ford wants to protect these kids another part of him thinks that Bills spawn shouldn't be trusted shouldn't exist)]

Anyway do you like my idea do you have anything you'd like to add (please say you like it 🥺🥺🥺)

(I just thought this would be a fun AU for your AU I got a bit inspired do you like it? you better like it because you have infected my brain with your ideas it's time I returned a favor with mine)

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! I LOVE THIS SO MUCH!

Bill being so ready to use these kids as pawns and then he sees them and his heart instantly melts and 'I have only had these 2 for a moment and if anything happens to them I will burn the worlds down to the ground'

Him telling Mabel she can start her own cult is hilarious!

Dipper being like him fascinated by things out of his reach like the stars were for Bill and Bill encouraging him and making sure he can get all knowledge he wants.

Them breaking both magic and science is just perfection.

Bill giving hids a part of the world to have fun and sew their own chaos so he can have some me time, 'Ok kiddos go and do some destruction Dad is going to hang out with some friends and make a throne of human suffering ok'

OHH Ford's reaction to them is brilliant him being torn between wanting to protect his kids, but also these kids are Bill's and like him and raised by him. Probably twisted and manipulated by him and what if these kids are a trick a trap just a manipulation... he'd be in full paranoia mode.

This is so awesome!

[knwatchesninjago]

S1E9 The Royal Blacksmiths

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THIS EP!!!!!!!

MY BELOVED COLEY POLEY!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OH MY GOSHHHH!!!! Y'ALLLLL!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THIS EP WAS SOOO GOOD!!!!

Okay, so I got some time today so I decided to finish rewatching this ep and OH MY GOSHHHH!!!!!! <33333333

Well, LETS GET STARTED!!!

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#Pythor's weird face

Dude... Pythor. Who do you think you are? Night Ninja? I mean like you wearing a beard, doesn't change who you are, lol. (Kudos to y'all if you figure out the reference, lol)

Sighhhh. At least these 4 Ninjas weren't dumb enough to actually fall for the whole beard "disguise", lolll. Looking at you Newton Star, loll

Man... I miss that show so much... the nostalgia... loll

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ANYWAYS!!!!

This ep had SOOOOO much of

#SiblingBonding

Honestly, I was so happy that they were seen in different outfits!!

Cole especially looks sooooooo cute in the gray hoodie!! <333 But he always looks cute!! Lol.

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Speaking of Cole!!!!

OH MY GOSHHHH!!!! His and his dad's dynamic is soooo GOOD!!!!!

Honestly, I love this relationship soo much because it's so relatable in many aspects!!

And Y'ALL!!! I KID U NOT!!!

I squealed so hard when I saw this scene again!!!

MY LITTLE BLACKBERRY!!!!!!! <333333

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There were also some more sibling bonding!!! But this time it's with Wu and Garm!!

Due to the annoying 30-image limit, I can't show all of my screenshots.

"Just like old times?"

"Just like old times."

*wipes a tear*

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AALSOOOO!!!

#Lloydster_Enters_the_Scene

MY BABY!!!!!!! YOU LIVEEEE!!!! <3333333

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Alas.. I am up to 30... I have to say, this ep was just what I needed after a long day at school!!!

I leave you all with this:

#NeverPauseNinjago

Byeeeeee!!!!!! See y'all at ep 10!!!!

https://www.tumblr.com/kittenninja14/731916269075480576/hey-yall-i-just-found-this-incredible-video-and

[gods-graveyard]

You know that audio "Id love to date a woman, marry a woman, but im in love with a MAN right now- AHHHHH" thats me rn.

This motherfucker sent me his grad speech (I asked out of curiosity) along with the voice memo practice and hes so fucking passionate and such a goddamm nerd I swear to god why is this my type???

He used a fucking butterfly metaphor for the fact that "The potential of flight has always been there, long before you sprouted wings-"

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Anyways!!! im so fucked

[dwaekkicidal]

I ACTUALLY WENT INSANE WHEN I SAW THAT PHOTO IM LIKE THERES NO WAY IM JUST NOW HEARING ABOUT THIS BC I THOIGJT IT WAS REAL AJD I WAS LIKE WTF YOYRE TELLXING ME THIS GUY DOESNT FUCK AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HES SO HOTI KNOW ITS NOT REAL BUT AHHHHHHH

😭😭😭😭Is this about the Jeongin pic? cause real as fuck

He originally had a snack there (but it lowkey looks like a condom anyways..) but whoever made that is a fucking genius

he knew what he was doing. i refuse to believe he’s as innocent as he acts sometimes,,, he HAS to know😭

[lookismaddict]

Lookism Chapter 439 Memes/Thoughts I Have:

(SPOILERS !!! I don’t own any of the Lookism panels and the translations. Only the memes that I made.)

God, I was looking forward to doing this chapter review today but then my day really started off not as good as I hope for. But it’s ok. I just hope that this review will be uplifting for me while it’s being made. Anyways, CH. 439 EVERYBODY!! WOOOOOOOO!!! I LOVED READING THIS CHAPTER. SO, LET’S GET INTO IT.

Um... Jichang? Try him. 😀

UMMM... SORRY JICHANG, WHAT WAS THAT? CAN'T HEAR YOU FROM THE SOUNDS OF GETTING YOUR ASS BEAT... 🙄

Wow. So it really has come to this, huh? I didn't wanna do a Master vs. Student comparison because Daniel was trained by Gun, not James. Although James didn't personally train him, Daniel did get some of his moves from him so he's clearly a beast... Damn.

Daniel Park, a model? 👀 I can't believe I made a clothing brand flyer out of these panels. 💀💀💀

Tbh the Allied shirt that Daniel is wearing looks so fucking dope. 🔥 If PTJ ever drops the actual merch for Allied, I really wanna purchase one so badly. The design is so sick, and you already know Imma stunt on them hoes if I ever get my hands on a shirt. 🤪

He's really just playing around with them, huh? Especially Daniel. 😭

I swear, Hudson and Jay are only in this chapter to provide reactions to the fight. They really do be representing the crowd. 🔥 THE CROWD SAYS :O

This shot of Jichang is so cool ngl... and hot. 💀💀

Bruh he really do be thinking this.

JESUS CHRIST- DANIEL IS GETTING SLICED AND DICED LIKE HE'S A STALK OF VEGETABLES. PEPPERS? OK! ONIONS? YOU GOT IT! GARLIC? I GOT YA COVERED!!! 😜🌶🧄🧅

Jichang looking all sinister, like he about to end Daniel with the most deadliest Karate chop of the century. BUT OH GOD, DANIEL NOOOOOOOOO!!! 😭😭😭😭

*inhales* Bro... you guys had no idea how much I was jumping at that first panel right here. Jumping and running around and shit. My reaction was literally, "No... Noooo wayyyy... Nooooo FUCKING WAAAAYYYYYYYYY... PTJ, YOU'RE LYING!!!!!! IS THIS REALLY HAPPENING????? OH MY FUCKING GOD!!! LET'S GOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! UI DANIEL IS BAAAAAACCCCCKKKKKK!!!!!!!" 😤😤😤😤😤😤😤

And not me anticipating a Gun Park memory because it always happens whenever Daniel is in UI... (or at least, Gun is mentioned whenever he's in the zone... Auto Zone. 😩 If you get the reference, ily.)

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH IT'S GUNNNNNNN!!!! I KNEW IT, WE'RE GONNA GET ANOTHER SCENE WITH THIS HOT ASS MESS OF A MAN. 😩😩🔥🔥🔥🔥 UGGGHHHH IMMA CREAM ON HIM I SWEEEAAAARRRRRRRRR. HE CAN EAT ME UPPPPP AND BEAT THIS COOCH UP ANYDAY. GOT ME QUIVERING SHIIIIIII 😩😩😩💢💢💢💢💢 Also, is he NAKED??? 😳 Bruh. He's naked around Daniel, but he isn't naked around his previous successors. Hmmm... do I sense... favoritism? And why is Daniel kneeling down in front of him. Don't tell me they "fought". 👁👁 Or he gave Gun a good suck. Pero come on Daniel, tell us that his dick is huge. GINORMOUS. MASSIVE. LENGTHY. THICK. HEAVY??? LMFAAAOOOOOOOO OK, I'LL STOP.

Hehehe, if you aren't familiar with this by now-

*N S F W M E M E W A R N I N G*

(If you're not comfortable with inappropriate memes, then just scroll past them.)

This really is my mind 24/7. You should know me by now and how I want this man soooooooo badlyyyyyy. God, I want this man to ram me so goddamn good. Legs shaking, loud moaning, ass smacking, hair pulling, back blowing... AEUUUUGGGGHHHHH. 😩😩😩💗💗💗💗 I just wanna keep it real. I'm not ashamed or sorry. 🤷🏽‍♀️ If you don't want me to simp so badly, then you shouldn't have followed a Gun simp in the first place. 😤

OH MY GOD- OF COURSE HE'S INTO CHOKING. 😩😩 PTJ, YOU'RE DOING THIS ON PURPOSE. MAKING ME EVEN MORE NEEDY FOR HIM, FUUUUUCCCCKKKKK.

"Leave your body to Lady Death." God, that gave me chills. 🥴HNNNNNNGGGGHHHH EVEN THAT SMIRK TOO. GOD, I'M GOING FERALLLLLLLL. HE'S SO SEXY!!! CHOKE ME, DADDY GUN. 😭😭😭 HE REALLY GOT ME IN A MENTAL CHOKEHOLD, I'M JUST SAYINGGGGGG.

CALL ME DELUSIONAL. IDC AND IDGAF. I WANT GUN TO CHOKE ME. 🤷🏽‍♀️🤷🏽‍♀️🤷🏽‍♀️

Ok I'm done. *sighs*

*E N D O F N S F W M E M E S*

Man... I love psychotic men. Men who go crazy insane with power. Men who are overpowered. Men who can silence anyone. Men who can dominate others. Men who can beat the shit out of anything and anyone. MEN WHO CAN RUIN OTHER PEOPLE'S SELF-ESTEEM. MEN WHO CAN TAKE AWAY THEIR WILL TO FIGHT. MEN WHO CAN SLAUGHTER ALL OF THEIR ENEMIES ONE BY ONE WITHOUT CARING. MEN WHO- ok I'll shut up about my taste in men.

Oh my lord, look at UI Daniel fight so diligently and so swiftly too. AND DAAAANNNGGG DUDE, LOOK AT THE IMPACT HE HAD ON JICHANG'S BACK!!! He for sure is a menace, no doubt about it.

I love how hyped their fight was. LOOK AT JICHANG'S FACIAL EXPRESSION TOO!! HE REMINDS ME OF SAMUEL IN SOME OF HIS FIGHTS HAHAHAHAHAHA INSAAAAAAANE

BRUH, ISN'T THAT THE OLD MAN ON THAT TRACTOR??? 👀

I KNEW ITTTTT BRO. IT'S THE SEOUL GRANDPA. Also, I'd like to point out how interesting it is that UI Daniel suddenly faded away as if he doesn't exist anymore, when Daniel suddenly retreated from subconsciousness. I almost forgot that it took UI Daniel a while to cease due to the drugs that Daniel's other body was on in that room full of shrooms, back in that arc with Vivi's Club.

YEAH BRO, YOU BETTER RESPECT DANIEL NOW. And how did Jichang not notice that he looked like Jinyoung Park? Like... everybody did except for him. Come on sir, get with the program. 🧍🏽‍♀️

OMG...??? GAPRYONG KIM'S DRIVER??? 🤭🤭🤭 DAMN, EVERYONE WHO WAS A PART OF GAPRYONG'S FIST CAN BEAT ANYONE UP. EVEN HIS DRIVER CAN KICK ASS. 😧 Also... bro. Wtf. Does that mean that they fought for no reason? They got THEIR ASSES BEAT FOR NO REASON??? MAAAAAANNNN WHAT DID I FUCKIN TELL YOU, JICHANG AND DANIEL??? IN THE PREV REVIEW, I SAID THAT YOU COULD'VE SETTLED THIS THE CIVILIZED WAY, BUT WHAT DID Y'ALL DO? Y'ALL THREW HANDS. And poor Jay and Hudson. They fought their asses off against some people of Chungcheong and FOR WHAT??? 😭😭😭 WELL, I GET IT. IT'S FOR DANIEL. BUT COME ON MAN, THEY BEEN THROUGH SOME TRASH-TALKING AND SOME INJURIES FOR NOTHINGGGGG. Idk, that just pissed me off. But, the purpose of those fights was to show how much they improved. I admit though, they did improve A LOT and I'm proud of the both of them. Even Daniel too, who just fought with a First Generation King to the point that Jichang had to get into serious FIGHTING MODE. Here kings, your crowns. 👑👑👑 I keep saying this repeatedly, but we better get the full explanation of Jinyoung's backstory or else. Imma go over to PTJ, grab him by the collar, and- 😤😤👊🏽👊🏽👊🏽👊🏽 /j

Not kidding. Oops-