#AGHHHHHHHHHHHH FUCK

[tshifty]

damn i woke up around 1am and i just CANT fall back asleep 😭

[julsbeinggay]

You couldn't have kept him.

And he couldn't have kept you.

[heavywithsecrets]

again

Ten minutes.

"No one makes me feel like you do." He slurs into my ear, grasping at my shoulders like a newborn.

I stare into his eyes as liquid wells at the bottom eyelid, covers the surface like a lacquer. I'm a little annoyed. He doesn't usually do this, it's not typical behavior. This time I was really looking for something quicker, dirtier.

He pushes harder into me, whispers nothings into my ear, gets his teeth into the flesh of my shoulder. He's biting really hard now.

Liquid warmth, bodily in heat, crawls down my side.

That's my blood, I'm thinking to myself. I'm excited at first, thinking I might actually get off tonight, but the moment passes, and it's not getting me going like it did the other several times. I'm not even dizzy. Frankly it just hurts.

Another thought, unbidden: He's like a dog having his favorite chew toy taken away.

Stop that.

Five minutes.

"Please don't leave."

"I love you." I breathe the words with my face right at his cheek, where I know he's going to hear it, going to squirm, try to kiss me again.

I lean in to take his lips into mine but at the last second I dip away, even though it's what I wanted. He whimpers into my breast and I can feel his voice resonate in my organs. I'm trying to remember what I'm supposed to say here, but I'm blanking, so I just hold him, stroke his hair, tangle my fingers in his.

Two minutes.

The words come to me, I think. I say, "We'll meet again. It's a small world. I'll find you again. I promise. I will never stop loving you." I'm lying again, but I still can't bring myself to tell him the truth, and what does it matter anyways if he'll never see me again, it's not like he's gonna find me and bring me the consequences on a silver platter I mean really what type of good promise doesn't have a deadline anyways otherwise it's totally unenforceable and shouldn't he really know that by now but of course he won't because he's stupid and he never remembers anything.

Sixty seconds.

He's sobbing into my chest now, biting me, clawing at me, leaving little red halfmoons in my back. I'm out of words. I'm sure I prepared more, but I can't remember anymore. Not that there's time.

He's not supposed to be this emotional. This isn't typical.

It's not his fault.

Ten seconds.

Nine.

For fuck's sake, do something. Anything.

"I--I'm sorry."

Eight.

"God, I'm so sorry."

Seven.

He sniffles, locks me dead in the eye. Shakes his head.

I can't look away (LOOK AWAY STOP DON'T LET HIM SEE YOU WHEN IT HAPPENS)

Three.

Two.

oh my god i remember what it was what i was supposed to

One.

The world winks out like a lightbulb.

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On the back of a receipt, scrawled in ballpoint ink, is a number. Every time I write it now it looks the same, as if my hand's forgotten that the digits could look any other way. The angle of the strokes, the size, the spacing.

I am walking into the store. He'll be at the first register, telling an old lady that they don't accept checks anymore. The receipt is carefully folded in my palm. There needs to be anticipation when he opens it. He needs to see me like a winning lottery ticket.

It's going to be different this time.

[hedgehogsaretheultimatelifeform]

Prepping for kinktober and realising that Gaz is in literally a fucking third of the prompts

[tiptapricot]

Read the new Moon Knight issue. Exploding.

[wolfowls]

...

[james-is-nasqueer]

tbh,

[jmkho]

Three Words | Josh Kiszka X Reader

Warnings: None, just a lot of fluffy fluff

A/N: I needed to feed my craving, so here's what happened!

Word Count: 1.5 K

Summary: Watching one of Josh's favorite movies...turns into a snooze fest

“Are you sure you actually want to watch?” Josh asks you as you both walk into the house from your shopping adventure to find the best movie-night junk available.

“Josh, I already told you,” you say as you close the door behind you. “I’d watch paint dry with you, you’d still find a way to make a compelling story out of it.” You grin at him, watching his expression brighten as he sits the bags on the counter.

“Besides, I’ve only seen bits and pieces of the Shining, anyway. I’ve always found it super creepy, so I couldn’t watch it alone.”

Josh pulls the box of microwave popcorn out of one of the bags, ripping it open and grabbing a pouch. “I promise I will protect you from the fictional murderers, Y/N. I’ll throw them fistfuls of popcorn as an intimidation tactic.”

“I’m sure they will be scared shitless,” you eye him sarcastically as you bend to grab a large bowl for the popcorn, handing it to him.

“Kubrick is one of my favorites–he really thinks about everything…” he pauses, turning to press start on the microwave. “I’ve watched this movie hundreds of times.” He leans against the counter, and you reach into another bag, pulling out the king-size package of twizzlers that you had bought, tearing two pieces from the wrapping before handing him one.

“You have terrible taste in candy, Y/N.” He looks down at his piece of candy, taking a bite of it. His face contorts as he chews hesitantly.

“Rude people don’t get candy then,” you say, yanking the piece back from him. “Hey, I didn’t say I wasn’t going to eat it, '' he says, shooting his arm out to grab the piece back from you. “Nope, you missed your chance. Beggars can’t be choosers. You’re a hater.” You take a bite from his end of the candy, grinning triumphantly as you watch him.

“I’ll remember that, Y/N. I’ll remember that you sullied my good name,” he says, pulling his hand against his chest, turning when the microwave beeps.

“I have a feeling you’ll get over it,” you say, waltzing to the living room and plopping on the couch, raising and crossing your legs on the coffee table in front of you.

“Okay, but you forgot the best snack though.” You turn as you listen to him rustle through the bags, pulling out salt and vinegar chips and raisinets, A.K.A., the absolute worst combination of snack foods to exist on the planet.

“You can’t be fucking serious,” you say, chuckling as you raise a skeptical eyebrow.

“Hey, they are delicious, stop it,” He says, pulling the snacks into his chest, the popcorn in the other arm.

“So let me get this straight. You judge me for liking twizzlers, yet you think salt and vinegar chips and chocolate covered raisins are a good combo? What?” You throw your hands in the air, watching him as he strolls into the living room to meet you.

“I have my taste buds and you have yours. Stop attacking me,” he says, whining playfully as he sets the food on the table. “You’re a loser,” you retort, moving closer beside him.

“You still love me though,” he responds, pulling you to him with his arms around your shoulder. You notice his cheeks flaming as he realizes what he had just said. The word throws you off guard. It had been a careful dance of not throwing around that word with him. You don’t answer the question directly. “You’re lucky,” you say, squeezing him as you speak. He pulls the movie up quickly, pressing play. “Now, it starts out quiet–no big deal, but there are jump scares, so don’t fall asleep.” He eyes you with a knowing expression. “I won’t–I don’t fall asleep watching movies.” You reach for another twizzler, twirling it between your fingers before taking the first bite.

“So give me the lowdown–what should I prepare for?” Josh adjusts his body so that he is sitting in the crook of the couch, bringing you closer against him.

“So, it’s a psychological thriller. This guy named Jack and his family move to this really secluded hotel in the mountains to oversee it during the off season. Well, crazy shit happened there before. This guy murdered his entire family there. We know because Jack’s son has psychic abilities to see visions of everything happening.” Josh’s tone rises with interest, his hands gesticulating wildly. “Well, Jack goes crazy because he can’t get any work done as a writer. He’s also an alcoholic. Eventually, he goes on a murderous tirade and–well, I’ll leave a bit of a cliffhanger.”

You find yourself absently dipping your head “yes,” as he talks but really, you weren’t listening in the slightest. You were just thinking about how lucky you were to have him in your life. “Wow, sounds so–interesting,” you reply, your head a million miles away.

“You are a horrible liar. You’re not listening, are you?” He asks the question, already knowing the answer.

“Of course I am. Press play,” you say, cuddling into him, letting him begrudgingly pull his arms around you.

The opening scenes are quiet with a car driving up a mountain to the hotel, a sense of foreboding for the drama to follow in the rest of the movie.You both let the movie play out for a while, the plot intensifying and the drama becoming imminent.

“Jump scares incoming, beware,” Josh says, lifting the remote in the air, turning the volume down–you don’t hear him speak; you have fallen asleep, breaking your promise. Josh reaches around you, adjusting so that your head rests on his lap as he finishes the movie. His fingers trace shapes along the softness of your skin. Peaceful moments like these were his favorite, just getting to hold you, watching you sleep peacefully in his arms. He spends the rest of the movie barely paying attention. Instead, his mind wanders, most of the pictures playing in his head are of you. He doesn't realize that the movie has ended until the credit roll ends, flashing a bright white screen. He moves you gently off his lap to not wake you, turning to pick you up in his arms and take you to your bedroom down the hall. He did wake you when he moved you, but the moment was too sweet to ruin, so you keep your eyes closed as he walks to your room, laying you on the bed and pulling the covers over you. You let your eyes flutter open. “You broke your promise. You fell asleep on me,” he says softly when he notices you waking up.

“I'm sorry, I got too cozy and comfy,” you reply groggily, pulling the sheets up and around you.

“It’s okay, you’re beautiful when you’re asleep.” His smile is gentle and soft, his attention pointed downward before he flicks his eyes back up to you.

“Josh?” You ask the question without really thinking about what you were going to say next.

“Hmm?” he answers, sitting at the end of the bed.

“I need to tell you something.” You sit up with your legs crossed as you anticipate what to say.  He turns to you, running a free hand through his curls.

“What is it?” He asks. You sit for an extended second before deciding to just say it. “I’m in love with you, Josh, I-, I love you.”

His eyebrows raise as you speak, his cheeks glowing bright red. “You have no idea how long I have been wanting to tell you, Y/N.  I just haven’t found the right moment,” His answer is physical, leaning into you immediately, bringing his hands gently to your cheeks, planting the softest of kisses upon the curve of your lips, leaning you against the pillows with his weight. He falls further into the kiss, bringing a hand to the back of your neck, kissing you with all of the passion, security and honesty you had ever wanted in a relationship.

“I love you so much, Y/N, So much,” He murmurs against your lips before pulling you to him once more. With your free hand, you reach and turn the bedside lamp off before asking him to finally take you.

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[aliceanimates]

GET ME THE FUCK OUT OF HERE! I DONT LIKE RAVENHOLM!!! GET ME THE FUCK OUT OF HERE! I WANT ALYX BACK! I MISS EVERYONE! AGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

[kaionyx]

On my hands and KNEES to be noticed by someone like you, I love the way you write, how you interact with everyone else that sends you their depraved thoughts URGHHHHHHH FUCK MEEEEEEEEE AGHHHHHHHHHHHH <33333

I want to be absolutely ruined by a dom with ur experience ^//////^ may I ask how you treat virgins? Do you ruin them or do you treat them gently?

- 🌻 anon

Oh my haha, that’s adorable the way you get all excited for me. So sweet knowing you crave your first time to be by my hands, especially when you know easily I could get carried away with your fragile body. It’s not my fault when you’re so desperate for me to taint that pretty mind of yours right?

In all honesty, it’s whatever my pet wants. I can be sweet and gentle and guide them through their first pleasures, or I can strip it away from them like they’re some ripe bunny in heat just begging to be mounted and bred after all this time. So I guess the real question is, how bad do you want me to hurt you sweetheart?

[bubblepopsims]

Sorry not sorry for bringing this back because 🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾

That’s all

“Soulmates are more than just lovers” -quote by @lostsoulsnovel

Previous

The two had fun over all and most of it was them being all over eacother but you know they were cute! also got some pictures in the photobooth and a selfie

[sloppysequinz]

Omggggf Mommy Im like way to fucking embarassed to send this off annon but like you fuckin know uts me 🫣🫣🫣

Youve givencme such the piss kink with some recent posts Im so fucjing drunk and alll I wanna do is drink till I acvidentally wett myself 🫣🫣🫣🫣

Aghhhhhhhhhhhh fucj im so fucking embarassed 🫣🫣🫣🫣🫠🫠😵‍💫😵‍💫✨️✨️✌️✨️

I've been saving this in my inbox but I think it needs to be shared with the world~ It's just too cute.

I'm so happy to have given you something new! :P Now drink up, sweetie pie...

[sunfudge]

Need to make a scone with jam and cream but I have to move from my fucking bed aGHHHHHHHHHHHH

[bsaka7]

frisbee report today: played every single point. was playing so so so so so so hard especially at the end i was so fucking mad bc our opponents weren't that good but we didn't have any fmp subs. feel so good and honestly think i played fairly well but missed a couple d's just by a hair.... literally just barely missed getting a d on the last point of the game that i bent over halfway and almost started crying because i was playing so hard and i was so close and that was game.... honestly brutal :( we haven't won in a hot second. but also good to remember how much harder i Can go when i don't also run even if it's just 3mi. BUT GOD WE JUST WEREN'T CONNECTING!!! WE ARE GOOD ENOUGH TO GET THE DUB WE JUST WEREN'T PLAYING LIKE IT. AGHHHHHHHHHHHH. also had 3 bids but NONE OF THEM I GOT THE DISK. admittedly i think i scored like. the most points on the team today so it wasn't like it was a BAD game personally but IDGAF BC WE DIDN'T WIN!!!!!

[sk3l3t0n444]

the stages of a breakdown

i feel nothing

why am i sad

wdym its 5 hours later?

im better than all of you eat my dust you stupid fuckers

who am i kidding i fucking suck

yk what sounds good rn...enough jack daniels to get an adult man blackout drunk

FUCK IT IM THE BEST BITCH IN THE WORLD I WANNA DO SHOTS

i never asked to be born into this

ooh dr. pepper with cherries :D

im bored as hell

leave me alone ffs

AGHHHHHHHHHHHH

why arent you paying attention to me :(

go away im gonna bash my skull in

wdym its 7 pm???

its music time :)

how long would it take to suffocate myself in a pillow

why am i like this rn i didnt even do any shots

whats the meaning of life

what happens after death

does anything really matter

im bored x2

every minor thing makes me want to rip out my hair

i have no motivation to do anything anymore...whats wrong with me...

sleepyyyyyyyy

ooh wait dr pepper with cherries!

AND ANIMAL CROSSING FUCK YEAH

HAPPY TIME :D

[biological-catastrophe]

WAGH I HATE BEING AFAB. I HATE ITTTTTT I WANNA RIP OUT MY UTERUSSSSSS AGHHHHHHHHHHHH

I’ve been cramping all day <3 I’m gonna take a nap fuck this