#LOOK AT IT AGHHHHHHHHHHHH

[heavywithsecrets]

again

Ten minutes.

"No one makes me feel like you do." He slurs into my ear, grasping at my shoulders like a newborn.

I stare into his eyes as liquid wells at the bottom eyelid, covers the surface like a lacquer. I'm a little annoyed. He doesn't usually do this, it's not typical behavior. This time I was really looking for something quicker, dirtier.

He pushes harder into me, whispers nothings into my ear, gets his teeth into the flesh of my shoulder. He's biting really hard now.

Liquid warmth, bodily in heat, crawls down my side.

That's my blood, I'm thinking to myself. I'm excited at first, thinking I might actually get off tonight, but the moment passes, and it's not getting me going like it did the other several times. I'm not even dizzy. Frankly it just hurts.

Another thought, unbidden: He's like a dog having his favorite chew toy taken away.

Stop that.

Five minutes.

"Please don't leave."

"I love you." I breathe the words with my face right at his cheek, where I know he's going to hear it, going to squirm, try to kiss me again.

I lean in to take his lips into mine but at the last second I dip away, even though it's what I wanted. He whimpers into my breast and I can feel his voice resonate in my organs. I'm trying to remember what I'm supposed to say here, but I'm blanking, so I just hold him, stroke his hair, tangle my fingers in his.

Two minutes.

The words come to me, I think. I say, "We'll meet again. It's a small world. I'll find you again. I promise. I will never stop loving you." I'm lying again, but I still can't bring myself to tell him the truth, and what does it matter anyways if he'll never see me again, it's not like he's gonna find me and bring me the consequences on a silver platter I mean really what type of good promise doesn't have a deadline anyways otherwise it's totally unenforceable and shouldn't he really know that by now but of course he won't because he's stupid and he never remembers anything.

Sixty seconds.

He's sobbing into my chest now, biting me, clawing at me, leaving little red halfmoons in my back. I'm out of words. I'm sure I prepared more, but I can't remember anymore. Not that there's time.

He's not supposed to be this emotional. This isn't typical.

It's not his fault.

Ten seconds.

Nine.

For fuck's sake, do something. Anything.

"I--I'm sorry."

Eight.

"God, I'm so sorry."

Seven.

He sniffles, locks me dead in the eye. Shakes his head.

I can't look away (LOOK AWAY STOP DON'T LET HIM SEE YOU WHEN IT HAPPENS)

Three.

Two.

oh my god i remember what it was what i was supposed to

One.

The world winks out like a lightbulb.

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On the back of a receipt, scrawled in ballpoint ink, is a number. Every time I write it now it looks the same, as if my hand's forgotten that the digits could look any other way. The angle of the strokes, the size, the spacing.

I am walking into the store. He'll be at the first register, telling an old lady that they don't accept checks anymore. The receipt is carefully folded in my palm. There needs to be anticipation when he opens it. He needs to see me like a winning lottery ticket.

It's going to be different this time.

[ispyspookymansion]

all good theater should make you want to kill yourself But should also fill you with the steadfast shining light of humanity so you wont go through with it

[phatcatphergus]

[iregreteverythingpleasehelpme]

I CAME SO CLOSE TO FULL COMBO-ING ROLLIN GIRL AHHHGHH

[plounce]

TFW YOU ACCIDENTALLY POST YOUR SILLY FFXIV TIMELINE HEADCANONING TO YOUR CAT ART BLOG BC DESKTOP TUMBLR NOW DOES NOT DEFAULT TO YOUR MAIN BLOG EVEN WHEN REBLOGGING!!!!!!!

[wolfowls]

...

[skrunksthatwunk]

my roommate's going home for the break so I did drag for the first time in months and may or may not have shed a tear over it. I LOVE DRAG SM I WISH I HAD FACIAL HAIR SO FUCKING BADDD i wish i could live like this all the time... aughhhhhhGGGAAAAAHHHHHHHH

[aiixen]

hi :( i hope life has been treating you well !!

EARTH !!! care and miss u lots !!!

IM TRYING TO SURVIVE,,,,,,,but I'll manage hOW ARE YOU !!!

[bubblepopsims]

Sorry not sorry for bringing this back because 🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾

That’s all

“Soulmates are more than just lovers” -quote by @lostsoulsnovel

Previous

The two had fun over all and most of it was them being all over eacother but you know they were cute! also got some pictures in the photobooth and a selfie

[crippling-pages]

You literally don't know how excited I am to find another Cole x Vania shipper! I'm absolutely thrilled! I seem be finding a lot more lately. So I thought I'd give a shout out of some of them for you!

@only-lonely-stars She has some great fanfics for them! I love her writing! And she is an all around lovely person! :)

@nocturnal-nexu She has some great art for them! And is an absolutely BRILLIANT writer! She's helped me flesh out my ideas many times! She's awesome!

@trashnotfound She recently joined the Cole X Vania fandom too! And is looking for more shippers too! So you might like to say hi to her! She'd probably love to chat!

Oh, and I'm @the-ninjago-historian! Also known as Ink Dragon! (But you can me Inky!) I make all sorts of stuff for this ship! Art, headcanons, even a whole flipping FANSEASON. (I'm obsessed. I know.🤣)

Anyways, hope you have fun in this fandom! If need anything, just let me know! - ✒️🐉

AHHHH OMGKMG

first off; you are so kind for doing that AHHH I’ll definitely be looking at each and everyone of those people!!

second: AGHHHHHHHHHHHH VANILLACAKE SHIPPERS WORJEORJWOJEOWJTBGOWHOWHRIQ

third: I will DEFINITELY chat with all of them and you about conia!! I love that ship sm and tbh for a while I didn’t know people didn’t ship them 😭 so TYSM FOR PUTTING ME IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION!

I’m definitely going to be chexking them out (already did a little too XD)!! Again tysm!!!! ❤️ I’d love to become friends!!!

[baby-y-y-y]

update of J

today we had a few conversations, some looks while reading his book in class, in the church (god won’t approve this), and also some looks outside school, this man makes me feel so aghhhhhhhhhhhh

[desultory-novice]

Weirdly, I sketched this before reading @cauli-flawa​ ‘s cool theory that Marx is the Snake in Magolor’s proverbial Garden of Eden, but looking back at it, I realized that...I accidentally drew the theory??

-

PS: I have several more really good post-game asks to get to, and I will; I’m pretty much just, err, well, uh... stalling??? Because one of those asks is “Is Magolor really apologetic?” and HOMG I COULD WRITE A NOVEL ON WHAT THE REMAKE TOLD US ABOUT MAGOLOR’S PERSONALITY & FEELINGS (and I’m scared once I start typing that I will write myself into a corner and not get out everything I want to say about him aghhhhhhhhhhhh)

[slashingdisneypasta]

I headcanon that when Smarty is about to comfort someone or show softness in any way, he makes his boys turn around.

Omg y e s. I can so clearly picture this XD Haha XD

Look away, boys. I need a moment with my doll.

-Aghhhhhhhhhhhh

-Yessir, boss. C'mon guys, let's give the boss some space~~ Hey, Smarty, you'll let me know what happens later, sí? (;

-Whatever you say boss, I'll be outside.

... -huh?

[darkjusticiar]

AGHHHHHHHHHHHH JANELLE WAS SO GOOD YOU ALL WISH U WERE ME.... and ur not getting photos bc hashtag im not doxxing me and my friend but boob window top + 2 yrs on T chest hair... do not fret I looked most transgender at the function

[shadowdemon-esq]

Sherlock Holmes: look Watson! A stick!

Watson: what does it mean Mr. Holmes 🥺🥺

Sherlock Holmes: it means There is a tree somewhere. Maybe even nearby. It could be anyone of us.

Watson: oh dear that's very worrying *coughs up a leaf*

Me watching TV: SHERLOCK ITS WATSON HES THE TREE

Sherlock Holmes: hmm. Yes it's quite the mystery..

Me: SHERLOCK! SHERLOCK YOU FUCKING IDIOT ITS WATSON!

*Watson beats Sherlock to death with a stick*

Watson: muhahahahaha! Yes! *Lays eggs in his corpse*

Me: NOOOOO

*tree sprouts from Sherlock's corpse*

Tree Sherlock Holmes: thank you for liberating me from my limiting human form Watson. Let us go tree the rest of the planet

Me: NOOOOOOOO NO NO WHAT THE FUCK NO!!! THAT'S THE END? AGHHHHHHHHHHHH! *Grabs my tv and tosses it out the window* im never watching TV ever again. It's time to read a book! Hey what's this one *picks up Sherlock Holmes book* OH GOD HES EVERYWHERE AHHH *book sucks me in* AHHHHHHH

Tree Sherlock Holmes: let's tree him Watson

Me: NOOOO

Watson: yess...

Me: NOOOO AGG - ugh *tree rises from my corpse*

Tree Me: I love being a tree

[piningapple]

look... im not usually this emotional but- i get REALLY HANGRY and- and andrew scott keeps banging on the door in the middle of the night going wHeN aRe wE hAviNg bReAkfAsT wHen aRe wE hAviNg bReAkfAsT i nEEd tO eAt nOwww...christ look at the yellow of my eyes ...my skin...my nose!!! OH GOD MY TEETH ARE FALLING OUT AGHHHHHHHHHHHH