#A little treat for the people who scroll through my blog since im not linking this to anywhere

[b0mblover]

low doesnt mean 0

By: J

Cw; denouncing (the christian one specifically) god.

Religion (its entirely about me and my mothers fights about religion)

Probablt dont read this if you’re religious, or do, your life.

your proof of a god- starts and ends at my birth- and his death

“your chances were so low they mightve well have been 0” “its near impossible that you were born perfectly healthy” -except i wasnt, it was 14% chance, not 0% there was still a chance- if theres a ball to gamble, then theres always going to be some kind out outcome, no matter the unlikelyness of it all.

“What do i have to do to prove to you that theres a god”

change the past, change the past, 

“you have no proof that hes not real”

if “he” were, why can i not see? why did that happen? why is life the way it is?

“If he isnt real then how did XXXX happen?”

because. there was the physical possibility, just as everything else, there was the possibility to become whatever i call myself at this point in time, there was the possibility to meet the people in my life, there was the possibility to be happy. My so called “luck” has nothing to do with it, your so called “god” has nothing to do with it, to be harsh, however, “everyone is unique” sure, lets go with that, youd say the exact same line with any other people- as long as they were vagely good people, even if they werent, you said it still then. “The you dont value them” i love them, no matter what? of course i don’t believe that they’re replaceable, ive already learned, however, theres no such thing as “the perfect friend group” for anyone, sure, some can be much better or worse, but as you said “everyone is unique” so, if theyre all different, you cant compare then to each other- theyre separate people, with completely different lives, you, as an outsider in my life, have no say of whos better in my life or not. 

If your so called “god” is real, then why is this low-end still manipulating me? -次

(funny thing, i wrote so many more tags than whats showing up- apparently theres a tag limit!)

[theramblingvoid]

Different anon. If i am the blog you and another have been vaguing about, ive opened up my own anon asks so if a direct approach is too awkward, there's that.

If ive been radicalized, i didnt notice. In all honestly i just dont think anyone should be dying and ive never understood war. Ive been called naive before and i doubt ive changed much since, so im willing to listen, and i hate arguing.

Whatever's going on feels too complicated to put into an ask or even a post and i feel like my words always fall short of my intent to begin with (or end up in the opposite direction). Im not even sure if i should send this so im going to end it here

Hello anon! It's perfectly alright that you sent this and I respect you a lot for doing so. I am admittedly extremely sleep deprived right now, so my words and thoughts might be a little jumbled, so I'll do my best.

Long post ahead, but I think it's very worth it.

The main couple of issues I've seen with the posts you've reblogged (if you are the same person) is that, first of all, they either minimize or blatantly ignore the death toll and suffering in Palestine, and secondly, they tend to link human rights activism (a separate thing from political support) as well as political support of Palestine to having antisemetic motivations 100% of the time (for example, that post claiming that scrolling down on "any" blog that speaks up in support will reveal antisemetism). This is harmful because of the leaps in logic that the posts are designed to make you overlook. It makes a false equivalency between caring about human rights of a population and a stance in favour of a terrorist group working from their country, and then claims that is the same as a hatred of a cultural/religious group that is much more expansive and varied than just the country of Israel. The aim is to have readers accept these jumps so that they stop believing anyone cares out of true empathy, and start associating people speaking out against the killing with antisemetic bigotry.

Similarly to a lot of conservative talking points, these posts also tend to fixate on terminology and technicalities to either minimize an issue, or make it look like something it often isn't. For example, a large number of the posts get quite angry about the current events being called a genocide and claim that it's been definitively proven not to be, but that is blatant misinformation. There is disagreement as to whether Israel's actions qualify as genocide or if ethnic cleansing or a variety of other terms might apply, but it has never to my knowledge been proven in court not to be. They have very proveably been systematically driving Palestinians from their homes in a pattern moving south, hitting civilian targets such as hospitals and refugee camps, and using many other tactics typical of genocide, but in order to be officially named that there has to be intent to wipe out a culture or group and intent is hard to prove. If you'd like more information on where the debate stands, you can find it in a fairly readable format here. (Apologize for using Wikipedia as a source, I am quite tired.) All that aside, though: treating what this mass killing is called as more important than the fact that it is happening is a distraction tactic and an overall weak defense against how horrific the scope of what's being done to Palestine is.

I know this post is getting long, but if you don't mind bearing with me for one more moment I can share some of the news I've seen that the people who focus on tearing down activists are overlooking. I have spent a good chunk of time collecting info from credible sources like CNN, the United Nations, Amnesty International, and Doctors Without Borders, and I highly recommend reading a few of these articles all the way through. (They are very easy reads and shouldn't contain anything descriptive enough to be triggering, based on a quick scan by me.)

- 47.3% of Gaza's population is under 18 (this source also contains a lot of useful information on the ongoing effects of oppression in Palestine prior to this year) (keep in mind that it was written in 2023 so the death toll numbers are no longer relevant)

- Israel is a top 20 global military power with an estimated 670,000 active military personnel. The total population of the Gaza strip in 2022 was only an estimated 2,375,259, with no official military.

- the UN states 34,622 Palestinian people have been killed in Gaza since October 7th, including 7,797 children, 4,959 women, 1,924 elderly, and 10,006 men. This does not include an estimated 10,000 not recovered from the rubble. Only just over 1200 Israeli people have been killed in the same time period, the majority on October 7th.

- Israel has been unlawfully attacking residential buildings in areas they promoted as safe for civilians to evacuate to

- Air strikes by Israel on refugee camps

- Israel has banned Gaza residents from collecting rainwater

- Israel has used drones that play recordings of babies crying and people screaming for help to lure out and kill people who come to investigate

- Israel is blocking humanitarian aid shipments containing essential food, medical equipment, and generators from entering Palestine

- Israel targets journalists who try to document and broadcast what is going on

Antisemetism is an undeniable fact that is ongoing in the world around us and is causing active harm. There are no doubt people using this conflict as an excuse to further their own bigotry, and the people suffering from that have every right to speak on it and point out ways it might fly under the radar. When they do it by minimizing the gravity of the tragedy Palestinians are experiencing right now, though, and by implying dissent against a brutal colonizing government is the same as antisemetism, they are only making the issue worse by attaching the struggles of real individual Jewish people worldwide to the defense of sickening acts against humanity by Israel.

I hope this has been informative and kind as it was intended to be, and I hope you can leave better equipped to spot the differences between honest spreading of awareness and veiled bigotry, and decide which approaches to the situation you would rather show support for. Thank you again for opening yourself up to discussion like this. I think it's a deeply valuable and necessary tool against the Internet's current decent into echo chambers.

[rjalker]

oh my god, im so sorry, it was anything but my intention to come off as condescending! I just assumed you hadn't read the whole series because both its *stupid* long lol, and most people who have your opinions on it haven't read the entire series (including me at first)! I'm actually autistic and have had Animorphs as a special interest since the third grade, so I've read it more times then I can even count at this point, lol. Anyways, I really didn't mean anything by it, so sorry! I just think I want people to enjoy something like this as much as I do, and when someone calls something I like bigoted, it just makes me feel bad by proxy and it gets all blegh, you know? Lol

I'm so sorry people have lied to you about things in the book though! I know that can't feel nice, especially for another person that's read the series so much. I've just met so many wonderful people in the community and it feels like not everyone can be bad, right? A little open-mindedness goes a long way :)

And about my account, I just never use tumblr, and when I do I'm normally logged out. I'm sorry if that puts you off, and if it triggers you I'm totally okay with not messaging you anymore!

(continued) Also, there were just a few things you posted that kinda made me feel like you didn't read the whole series, because I felt like it was a bit more clear if you had read the whole series? Like Jake and Marco grappling against having a controller so close to them, Tobias' identity crisis after becoming a nothlit, Cassie struggling against her own morality and the reasons as to why she's really fighting. It was still wrong of me to assume that, though, and I sincerely apologize.

my problem with empty blogs is that a lot of them are people who I've blocked who are making new blogs so they can harass me/keep accessing my posts, so as long as it's just because you don't use tumblr often, it's fine.

Apology accepted. You aren't a bad person for liking the Animorphs, it would only be if you were actively defending the bigotry that you'd be a bad person.

https://rjalker.tumblr.com/tagged/rjalker-reads-the-animorphs

^ here's a link to my Animorphs tag which you can scroll through if you want to find my reasoning for calling the books and characters bigoted. You can also try searching for their names, rjalker.tumblr.com/search/(insert the character's name here) but tumblr's search function is terrible so that's not guaranteed to actually work.

The short version is:

If Jake wanted to rescue Tom, he could have done so at any time, especially if we are expected to believe that these books take place over the course of three whole years. He could have rescued Tom at literally any point. It would be so easy. He can literally just fake his death if he doesn't want him to be recaptured. Jake never attempts to rescue Tom after the first failed attempt, despite the war apparently going on for three years. If he actually gave a shit about Tom, he would have kept trying to rescue him no matter what.

And the same goes for Marco. Killing his mother is in no way required for them to kill her Controller whose name I can't be bothered to remember right now because I don't care. Marco just immediately jumps straight to murder when capturing people is infinitely easier, especially with the Chee available to help.

I hate Tobias with every fiber of my being. He is an asshole, a misogynist, and just obnoxious. You can just search my blog for his name because there is too much to list. He says he won't accept charity and then he breaks into Cassie's barn to kill her patients. He treats Rachel like shit and laughs when she's upset. There is nothing good about him at all. And it especially pisses me off because he could have been such a good character, but no, he's just an asshole in every respect.

Cassie has also done too much horrible crap for me to just summarize it. Re-read book 19 if you have it, and put yourself in Karen's shoes. Cassie prioritizes making friends with the slave owner who is currently torturing their slave over rescuing the slave, who is a little girl being tortured. Cassie, at every opportunity, places her standing on the moral highground over the safety and wellbeing of everyone around her, including literally everyone on the planet.

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the salty af munday meme

♥ - What's the WORST thing that has happened to you rp wise?

I dunno if Im really 'salty' about this still, considering I've long forgiven the people who did this and apologized to me for and I actually consider some of them good friends now.

But, um, the worst thing definitely has to be a long drawn out incident from back in 2013 that lasted until summer 2014.

I ran a Sonic the Hedgehog roleplay blog at that time, and I don't want to big myself up here, but it was getting quite a lot of attention within the Sonic community at the time. This was back before multi-verse and multi-ship blogs were really a huge thing, and I was initially determined to make this Sonic as close to canon as I could get him. But the more I wrote him, the more I began to ship him with miragessplit's Shadow at the time. We had loads of fun with them, did a lot of ship teasing, but some people were unhappy when I eventually made the ship canon on the blog.

We'll call these people Blaze, Shadow, Silver and Amy, since those were the characters they roleplayed at the time.

Silver was someone who I considered a very close friend at the time, I'd drawn him quite a lot of art for his blogs, I had spent a lot of time talking to him and coming with ideas with him, he was involved in a lot of my plots and I really got on well with him. But around the time of my birthday, he began to behave strangely with me(this was about a month after we made the ship canon). He was upset that I wasn't on a really old blog of mine much anymore and I was spending a lot of time on my Sonic blog, I apologized, but we couldn't quite work it out and he decided to stop speaking to me. I come to discover after that that Shadow and Blaze(two people I did have a little contact with but not much) had unfollowed me after that and no longer wanted to speak to me either. Fair enough. They ranted a little bit about me on twitter, nothing really all that big at first.

I was pretty upset, I remember having quite a few rough days in college afterwards and even taking a break from roleplaying on Sonic blog.

Over the next few months though I begin to notice a weird pattern. A lot of friends I thought I had in the Sonic community were unfollowing me, and when I went to ask why they would either ignore me or block me without saying anything back to me. When someone does get back to me about it, they tell me that Blaze told them that they should avoid me.

So little old me decides to go and check on Blaze and Silver's blogs. Nothing out of the ordinary on Blaze's, just roleplays, but on Silver's I discover that he has stolen the AU I made for that old blog he fell out over me for. I also find Shadow's vent blog and discover some more mean posts about me.

So, not only are these people telling others to avoid me they're also stealing from me. Cool.

There's virtually nothing I can do though, and at the time I was in my final year at college and had other more important things to concentrate on, so I left it. Again, I was definitely upset, miragessplit and me had a lot of emotional conversations about it but again, nothing could really be done apart from me taking down my about/bio pages on my blogs so people couldn't steal from me anymore.

Summer rolls around, I just finish college(with distinction stars!!!) and my mom treats me to a holiday to Malta. I have limited internet during this time and can only get on during the evening with my phone, so I'm having a great time, celebrating my results and the fact that I could now get into the uni I wanted to go to. But on my second to last evening, i'm browsing the Sonic tags on the tumblr app(which had only just become the search feature) and I find an interesting post about Sonic roleplayers shipping Sonic/Shadow. So I click this blog and instantly discover... Silver made it.

A quick scroll through these blogs and I find links to other ''private'' blogs made by Blaze and Shadow and someone else who I did believe was my friend(and still had contact with me at the time) Amy. These blogs consisted purely of posts about me and Miragessplit, about how disgusting we are for shipping Sonic/Shadow, about how we were fetishizing them and fetishizing transgender headcanons because my Sonic happened to be trans.

These blogs dated back to when I stopped being friends with Silver and were just full of in depth rants about my character, about my blogs and about SHIPPING. There were plans on there to sabotage my name, to keep people from roleplaying and interacting with me and just general awfulness confirming everything that I had been told by the few people who did reply to me when I asked why people were cutting ties with me.

I was pretty messed up about this, and in a blind fit of rage, I called them out on it pretty publicly. I spent the last day on holiday pretty shaken up, and when I got home I did get apologises.

Amy was very apologetic, Silver agreed to take down the blog and we didn't speak again after that. Blaze and Shadow though? Well... Blaze insisted that I apologize to her, I still don't understand why(apparently because they were private blogs despite not being password locked and I shouldn't have called her out for her behaviour), and dragged it out for as long as possible, Shadow refused to even acknowledge that he did anything wrong and just blocked me everywhere.

I later discovered from Amy, who is a close friend now, that the group frequently had skype calls were they would pull up my blog and comment on how gross my posts were because I was roleplaying Sonic/Shadow. They even told her that she couldn't ship Sonic/Shadow.

So basically... It was all over the fact that I shipped Sonic/Shadow.Safe to say, I wouldn't go anywhere near the Sonic fandom anymore and my own views on Sonic/Shadow have been tainted due to the stress and upset it all caused.

TL;DR - Four people made ''private'' blogs about me, turned a whole community against me and ruined me emotionally for half a year because I shipped a ship they didn't like.