#literally ignoring what a % means. like maybe id vagely believe you if it was 0 but it wasnt??
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b0mblover · 11 months ago
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low doesnt mean 0
By: J
Cw; denouncing (the christian one specifically) god.
Religion (its entirely about me and my mothers fights about religion)
Probablt dont read this if you’re religious, or do, your life.
your proof of a god- starts and ends at my birth- and his death
“your chances were so low they mightve well have been 0” “its near impossible that you were born perfectly healthy” -except i wasnt, it was 14% chance, not 0% there was still a chance- if theres a ball to gamble, then theres always going to be some kind out outcome, no matter the unlikelyness of it all.
“What do i have to do to prove to you that theres a god”
change the past, change the past, 
“you have no proof that hes not real”
if “he” were, why can i not see? why did that happen? why is life the way it is?
“If he isnt real then how did XXXX happen?”
because. there was the physical possibility, just as everything else, there was the possibility to become whatever i call myself at this point in time, there was the possibility to meet the people in my life, there was the possibility to be happy. My so called “luck” has nothing to do with it, your so called “god” has nothing to do with it, to be harsh, however, “everyone is unique” sure, lets go with that, youd say the exact same line with any other people- as long as they were vagely good people, even if they werent, you said it still then. “The you dont value them” i love them, no matter what? of course i don’t believe that they’re replaceable, ive already learned, however, theres no such thing as “the perfect friend group” for anyone, sure, some can be much better or worse, but as you said “everyone is unique” so, if theyre all different, you cant compare then to each other- theyre separate people, with completely different lives, you, as an outsider in my life, have no say of whos better in my life or not. 
If your so called “god” is real, then why is this low-end still manipulating me? -æŹĄ
(funny thing, i wrote so many more tags than whats showing up- apparently theres a tag limit!)
#A little treat for the people who scroll through my blog since im not linking this to anywhere#yes i put j/æŹĄ in twice. its because how i format. this was supposed to be a drabble in my notes app. sometimes i just need to have it wrote#that i wrote it. to feel real or whatever#fun ish fact! there was a low % of me being born. and my mother loooves using that as a “god is real” argument.#literally ignoring what a % means. like maybe id vagely believe you if it was 0 but it wasnt??#sho if your some how reading this#Hi#and sen whos probably reading this?#Hi bae#god theres so much shit on my mother that i could just expose#yk might make a thing on that. itd be funny#(chill she ruined my entire and i mean literally my entire life. i couldnt give a damn about her feelings. she deserves it)#why do my fingers smell like caramel atm??????#ive just been laying in bed??? we dont even have caramel????#god i love ranting in the tags#did you guys know that im veeeery gay and have a crush on [redacted]?#yk what might aswell post my life update in the tags#Tw! my entire life#basically i have a crush on one if my friends. which is already painful enough for me bc my mother teases me about if i do and i keep sayin#that i dont bc i didnt. and i do now so i cant let that slip. anyways. theyve been showing up in my dreams more and more. literally this#and its kinda embarrassing? bc i really hate being in love (ik shock to someone probably) its bothered me allll of my life#and usually id just yk ~confess~ and get the feeling to go away over time#but it isnt going away and no way in hell am i telling them bc yk. were friends. and i sure as hell dont wanna ruin that or make them#uncomfy. so whenever i talk to them i feel all weird bc yk. i dont wanna fuck up and flirt with them or smth (even more annoying bc i#normally flirt with my friends even if i dont like them romantically) so i just dk what to say to them. bc i obviously wanna talk to them#but i get a pit in my stomach. weve talked for months idk why i feel like this now#plus idk how to get rid of the feeling. someone just bash my head in already please.#[redacted] im so sorry. for everything (shut up with the “you did nothing wrong” idc if i did or not) (scratch that. it goes for everyone)#the urge to post my main on this is consuming me but i wont bc
 well uh 🧍 ~things~#J’s misc shit
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