#9 1 1 season 2

[thebigooof]

9-1-1 does Angela Bassett so dirty with the hairstyles they put her in like she’s still stunning but like that Karen cut was nasty

Like only she can rock those side sweep bangs

Also I’m adding more photos of Angela Bassett that I have saved

[schrijverr]

Haunted by Your Own Final Words

Post-s02e03: Help Is Not Coming, Hen tries to deal with nearly dying in that hotel, of recording her final words just in case.

On AO3.

Ships: Henren

Warnings: near death experience aftermath

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Hen can’t get it out of her head. She tries, of course. Of course, she tries. She wouldn't be a good firefighter if she didn’t have some tricks up her sleeve to forget the hard days. However, putting a hard day behind you isn’t the same as having your final words recorded on your phone.

She hasn’t listen to it yet, hasn’t even changed the name from untitled in her app. She just opens her phone sometimes to look at it.

The message isn’t long, only 1 minute and 36 seconds. But she can still remember every single word she uttered on it. She can still remember that burning need to leave something behind for the ones she loves, so that if she died down there, they’d know how much they mean to her when they recovered her body.

Right now, she tries not to think about how she didn’t say any of those words when she actually got home.

Of course she told them that she loved them, but that was it. When showing them Paisley, she mentioned how she helped her rescue Kat, but never told them how Paisley also helped rescue her from that garage.

Hen doesn’t feel the need to inform them of just how close she’d been to not coming home. Of scaring them like that retroactively.

She made it home. She’s safe. She should be fine.

However, knowing you’re safe, that you’re fine, isn’t the same as feeling it. She still feels that same pressure on her chest, that crawling need to get herself free. That scared refusal to die like Russell, who’d given up fighting and who died on her watch.

Russell isn’t her first loss, far from it, but the one that hit the hardest in recent times. It could’ve so easily been her in his place. Could’ve been her that was trapped. That stopped fighting. That didn’t make it home.

So, she sits in the station, looking at her phone. At that audio file named untitled that’s 1 minute and 36 seconds.

She meant it when she said that she didn’t stop fighting, that she won’t. They’re going through a lot with Karen only just returning home and Eva suing for custody, but Hen knows she’s going to fight until she physically can’t anymore. It’s just a reminder that with her job that can’t is closer than she might like.

It’s not healthy to think like that. If you get stuck on how dangerous it all is, you’ll freeze up in the field and get yourself killed. The better course of action would be to remind herself that she didn’t die in that building and the recording was for nothing. A just in case that wasn’t necessary, thus can be deleted.

However, every time she has managed to convince herself of that, she opens her phone and goes to the message, only to freeze when she sees it. She hasn’t managed to delete it.

1 minute and 36 seconds.

Is that really how much she has to say? After years of marriage and raising a kid together, did she really have nothing more to say than that to the love of her life? If she had died there, sitting on the garage floor next to Russell’s corpse, would those 1 minute and 36 seconds really be all that is left of her? Does she have nothing more to leave behind?

Ever since her troubles with Karen – since she stupidly decided to sleep with Eva – she has been wondering who she is. If she is a different person now.

She knows she isn’t. She wants to fight for her family, for Karen, she more than proved that during the earthquake. But what if she had died down there? Would those few words spoken be enough to console Karen? Would it be enough to explain to Denny why mama was never coming home?

Maybe she should re-record a message, one that explains everything better, just in case. But if she were to die on this job, her body might not be recovered. And her phone can break. She could entrust someone with a written note, like Athena. Athena can be trusted. But that feels like too much of a suicide letter.

Hen isn’t suicidal. She refuses to die, actually. The fear that still clings to her is the fear of a person, who doesn’t want to die. The last thing she wants to do is worry everyone. It’s the whole reason no one knows about the audio file on her phone.

She lets out a sigh. A part of her wishes the alarm would sound, so she’d be forced to put her phone away and focus on something else, but of course that never happens when she wants it to. So, she remains stuck.

Her gaze drifts over to the other. Chim and Buck are egging Eddie on in the work out area, trying to get him to lift more and more weight, while Bobby is working on dinner in the kitchen.

If she wanted to talk to someone, now would be the prefect time to get a moment of privacy with Bobby to get it off her chest. However, she doesn’t want to talk. About any of it. She just wants to put it behind her and move on. It was a bad day, nothing more.

Sure, LA is still recovering, buildings everywhere are still under construction and they have to remember where the roads are fucked up whenever they drive to call. But the worst is over. They are no longer pulling bodies out from the rubble, no longer finding the few ones who survived for days below the rubble. It’s fine. Everyone is fine. Hen is fine.

She should just fucking delete that audio file. She knows she’ll keep fighting for her family, that she’ll make it home no matter what.

However, instead of clicking on delete, she clicks on the title, her keyboard coming into view. She renames the file to final words. It isn’t much, just 1 minute and 36 seconds, but Hen knows that next time she might not have a moment to record even that little.

It’s her little compromise. Not a whole new note, not something premeditated, but something more than nothing. Just in case. She hopes Karen never has to know that file exists on her phone, but know it’s there… it helps.

Hen knows that it’s a little fucked up that knowing that message exists helps, but she can’t change that it does. She wants to shake it off, leave it behind her, but none of her other tricks worked. She’s had close calls before, but never so close she felt the need to have her final words recorded.

Having that happen to her, made her realize how lucky she was. Not just to be rescued, but to have the time to record those words.

She knows it would be healthier to delete the message all together, but no one who is a fire fighter is entirely healthy.

And for now, having that message there, is enough for her to concentrate, to do her job knowing that if she doesn’t make it, her words will make it home and Karen will never have to think Hen planned those words, while still having the closure of knowing that Hen would never willingly give up on her and their family.

She doesn’t want to leave things unsaid every again, even if she can’t bring herself to talk about it right now. Maybe one day in the future, she can tell Karen about that day, how she nearly didn’t make it home. Maybe then she can finally delete that file, but not yet. Not now.

So, she nods to herself decisively as she takes one final look at the audio file and its new name, before closing the app and moving it to the very last slide of her phone screen. Out of sight, out of mind and all that.

With that done, she puts the phone in her pocket and makes her way to Bobby, hoping she can sneak a few bites before dinner, since it’s likely to be interrupted by the alarm. She is trying to move on, if having her final words in her pocket is a part of that, then so be it.

[goldenhand9107]

Buck, Actually’s tragic old gay men emotionally destroyed me, i am absolutely bawling rn

[perseus-jackass]

OH FUCK I JUST FINISHED THE CHRISTMAS EPISODE

[me-beef]

@strangeravatar made a great point

i was gonna focus on the spike-hotboxing-celestia aspect but i got distracted somewhere along the way and i think i forgot what joke i was trying to make

but dont you think its interesting how many guards of the exact same color/body type she's managed to accrue?? i do

ooohh you want to go look at our stickers so bad

[tommykinard6]

“See, I don’t get it. She’s too dark and brooding for me” - Tommy Kinard, once upon a time.

Proceeds to date Mr. Sunshine and Golden Retriever Energy Personified

[jackwhiteprophetic]

This scene is so funny to me, it's not even the first time the audience has to question "okay why is Buck there???" LIKE THE WRITERS SIMPLY JUST START INTERTWINING THEIR LIVES TO THE POINT WHERE THE AUDIENCE JUST HAS TO ACCEPT "well yeah of course buck is there I guess"

[italksstuff]

Been watching 911 for the first time and I’m only on s2 but why tf did buck just basically admit to a stranger that he was dating Eddie. I’ve heard people ship them and I wasn’t quite sure why until Maddie said buck had a boy crush and then on Merry Ex-Mas… Scuse me? Buck don’t just say “thanks” when that woman basically said that you and your husband raised your child right. I’m gonna get brain rot over you guys if you keep this up.

[solarockk]

Decked out sketches

[buddhamethods]

Evan "Buck" Buckley 9-1-1 | Season 1, Part 2: Electric Boogaloo

Bonus: POV local firefighting trio cackle over your pathetic misfortune

[911-on-abc]

Eddie Diaz is so funny, because after Buck says he loves kids the first thing out of his mouth is essentially "I'M SINGLE" and "my son's mom isn't around, so that positions open, if you're interested... haha 👀"

[thebigooof]

[renegadesstuff]

TV SHOWS' (SHIP) WEDDINGS 🤍

9-1-1 (2018 - present)

ATHENA GRANT-NASH & BOBBY NASH (BATHENA)

[moomoorare]

Autumn Gem inspired by my Scales of Fate AU and based on Alfons Mucha's Autumn painting. This will be the first of four art pieces, hopefully coming soon.

In the meantime you can find my SOFAU ao3 fics here, and Alfons Mucha's The Seasons Paintings wiki page here 🍇🧡 leave your thoughts in the reblogs if u want, have a nice day, it's Autumn!!! 🍁���💜

[perseus-jackass]

STOP THE CHRISTMAS EPISODE. THE LADY SAYING TO BUCK THAT HIM AND EDDIE HAVE A CUTE KID

[cannibalistic-vampirefag]

this really is a month for messy bi guys who didn't realise they were flirting with a man until said man did something explicitly queer about it huh