#7/21/24

[klaudia2646]

Crazy! We went to say goodbye to my mom then went to the airport very early, we were in line for a very long time. Then when I got to the counter they wanted to send me to another very long line. I told the lady that I would not move because they asked several times if we were going to NYC OR Atlanta. Another 1.5 hours and they got us in an airplane to JFK tonight at 7:30. Meaning we’re getting there super late. Then we need to find a flight to Memphis hopefully tomorrow and as I understand, they also need to put us up at a hotel.

[mikeywayarchive]

Instagram story by mikeyway

[Jul 21, 2024]

[theswandragon]

Daily Poem 7/21/24

Gonna let loose Let the chaos all flow For a small spark of time

Let all the rules drop All but one— That one's for good luck

So what if it's silly So what if it's strange If everyone is laughing

I've been serious for too long Even when I'm playing the fool So for a little bit here I'll let my impulse take the wheel

~Swan

[dandelion-eyelashes-sf]

I do not have wings love / i never will soaring over the world you are carryin’ / if these heights should bring my fall / let me be your own icarian carrion /

I had this song on repeat in October / November 2023 and i was unemployed and i was scared and stressed and my chest felt tight and hollow and i couldnt see how things would turn out. I was in the process of applying to a job that would potentially take me out of state and i was deeply sad and wistful and i had let down my sib big time and i was stuck and paralyzed by anxiety and couldnt stop myself from hiding in my room and i was ashamed and sick with worry and tired of myself and tired of this feeling of dread and desire. I would sit in the balcony and watch the sunset, feel the autumn cool. I was yearning for the end and yearning for that job and yearning for what it could be and praying to a god i dont believe in, promising that id make the most of the opportunity, that id use the money for good, that i wouldnt take it for granted. That id be worthy of it. Maldita pobreza la odio.

I felt guilty for wanting to leave, for wanting to escape the disappointment i created. I was sad cuz i didnt want to go either. My bank account felt like a ticking time bomb and the only way out was this job. But i didnt actually want to leave my sibling. Not after realizing how much time i let go, how much time i wasted. Why did i do that? Why couldnt i change quicker?

Its been a while since then and we’ve talked about it and seen each other and we’re good. But also i miss them and i wish i had moved under different circumstances. I feel like i only made their life harder unnecessarily during that time. All cuz why? To get a job cuz i couldnt find a job in that city, cuz i didnt get off my ass and go irl to coffee shops and stores to ask for a job. Cuz i was too scared and anxious. I dont know. I just miss them all. I miss that city. Im so tired of being anxious all the time.

-I was looking for a job and then i found a job heaven knows im miserable now-

Im not miserable, per say, but the anxiety doesnt let up. Its been about 7ish months in this new job and at this old city. And ive seen my sib a handful of times and i miss them but also know they love me. I hold on to that knowledge for dear life. I feel like i crash landed in this job and hit the ground running without pause. Ive been so tired. I been so stuck in my bad habits and vices to numb and escape. I feel like now is the first time ive been able to feel and begin to process all of that.

[sukiiwake]

HAPPY BROPPY DAY EVERYBODY!!!🩷💙

[shutupshutupshutupshutupshutupsh]

[15]

Need Help?(Having A Hard Time)

[beesbeesbees42]

Every instance of One I could find in the new episode!!!

[jtl-fics]

TBD for wipw please?

7/17/24 WIP Wednesday (Closed) | TBD AU

“The training involves Neil, he’s on my team.” Andrew says taking a long sip from his drink, it is a virgin drink as Aaron and Andrew have taken to not drinking with Katelyn in solidarity. Andrew only does it when he’s in front of her, but Aaron’s been cold turkey for almost half a year at this point.

“Neil?” Katelyn asks, delight evident in her voice.

Andrew realizes what has her so excited but he refuses to acknowledge his mistake in referring to Neil by his first name in front of the two of them.

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[michaeldance]

Red eye flight >>> After party ✈️ this so funny, Molly on her grind 🤣

[glyphes]

The blood 🩸 and the weave 🔮

[klaudia2646]

Plane to Atlanta was cancelled. Now we have to go to the airport earlier to see if they can accommodate us in another flight.

[secrettreestuffidk]

you ever think about how pretty much the only reason we use base10 is because we have 10 fingers and if everyone had 6 fingers on each hand we'd use base12 and never even think a thing of it and also math would be pretty much better in every way?

[thedailyvio]

Day 75 - 82

Concept for @enjoliquej

WIP Below:

[cringespace]

Spankofski brothers photo album

[yakultii]

ever since I was little I never gave a fuck if anyone else liked me, I just wanted to like me and eventually I did for a little while but then I forgot how

[forcebookish]

whumptober 2024 masterpost!

no.1: panic attack (only friends / top tanin / gifs)

no.2: trust issues (only friends / topmew / gifs)

no.3: (alt) no-holds-barred beatdown (serenity / mal reynolds & the operative / gifs)

no.4: hallucinations (burn notice / michael westen / gifs)

no.5: healing salve (bleach live action / ichiruki / gifs)

no.6: not realizing they're injured (burn notice / sam axe / gifs)

no.7: (alt) forgotten (bleach live action / ichiruki / gifs)

no.8: sleep deprivation (burn notice / michael westen / gifs)

no.9: bruises (a boss and a babe / guncher / gifs)

no.16: wound cleaning (a boss and a babe / guncher / gifs)

no.18: revenge (burn notice / michael westen & tyler gray / gifs)

no.19: blood trail (firefly / mal reynolds / gifs)

no.21: let the bedsheet soak up my tears (only friends / top tanin / gifs)

no.23: I'm doing this for you (burn notice / mikefi / gifs)

no.24: I never knew daylight could be so violent (serenity / the serenity crew / gifs)

no.25: surgery (firefly / the serenity crew / gifs)

no.26: nightmares (burn notice / michael westen / gifs)

no.27: muzzled (burn notice / fiona glenanne / gifs)

no.28: (alt) friendly fire (burn notice / michael & jesse / gifs)

no.29: burnout (only friends / mew witsarut / gifs)

because tumblr cut off my tags: i meant to complete using one of my fics (the weight in her heart, ch.3), but i didn't finish in time. i know, i know, mods said you don't have to finish to be a completionist, but much if not most of it wasn't written in october and the prompts didn't really inspire anything; they just kinda coincided with what was already planned. so it felt like cheating. but! i had a lot of fun, and i'm proud of what i got done. i even got to gif for fandoms i hadn't before! 20/31 ain't too shabby.

thanks for organizing a great event, @whumptober!