#6/11/2005

[remembertheplunge]

June 11, 2005

Beginning of last volume of my 40’s I guess. It’s Saturday.

So, since Gay Pride  Parade in San Fransisco is June 27, from now until my birthday on June 20th will be a study of my first 50 years and of gaydom at large!

Age and gay: Elephants in the living room.

“Poets, artists, writers, rebels, and thinkers. “Fringe” people. From the book “Gay Money” page 117.

“Their councils are largely closed to us.”

“…if that means pushing us aside, tossing us out, or running us over if we get in their way.”  Gay Money page 123.

“Looking back, we now understand why we had to abandon that which seemed to define our life before. In many ways that life has ended…”.  Gay Money. p. 106

Jim and I sit in the den and watch “Next Food Network Star!”

A commercial.

A man has a big mansion. A fancy car. A sining group entertains him

15 minutes of fame.

Next scene: The house is in foreclosure. The car is being towed away.

Jim said to me “It’s you!  Ha ha. “Oh, I’m sorry.”

(After being fired from the Public Defender’s  office in 1997, I lost my house to foreclosure and had to declare bankruptcy.)

Ellen Kushner’s National Public Radio’s show “Sound and Spirit is on now.

It’s theme is marriage.

“Marriage is full integration into human society, the wedding results in a social unit. The union is recognized.

 My margin note to above dated 6/19/2006:   (Regarding my relationship with Jim:)   “ Our wedding is imagined. As if it happened and is vaguely forgotten."

End of this part of the entry

[hickeygender]

downloaded wolfenstein after going on a jacob geller rewatch binge and getting intrigued by blazko. for reference i've played one fps in my 23 years and got stuck on the third level, so i'm either gonna cry and shit my pants or actually learn how shooters work. if you see me spamming ben affleck smoking reaction pics in my posts tomorrow then that's your explanation

[sugaryoats]

Another furb has gotten yassified. Say hello to Blossom!!

[utsuroyihon]

(Xユーザーのりん@名古屋CLEAR'Sさん: 「19年前の今日生まれた👶🏻💜 https://t.co/NoDglTL1I7」 / Xから)

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[dilf-in-peril]

Oh, hello there! So you've just watched CM Punk wrestle for the first time and you're enchanted with the way he suffers on his knees?

Check out these matches if you want to see more of that.

1. CM Punk vs MJF Dog Collar Match at AEW Revolution 2022 [link]

2. CM Punk vs Samoa Joe III at ROH All Star Extravaganza II 2004 [link]

3. CM Punk vs Brock Lesnar No DQ at WWE Summerslam 2013 [link]

4. CM Punk vs Mystery Opponent (it's William Regal) on WWE RAW #792 [link 40:45]

5. CM Punk vs Jimmy Rave Dog Collar Match at ROH Manhattan Mayhem 2005 [link] [link 1:49:30]

6. CM Punk vs Eddie Kingston at AEW Full Gear 2021 [link]

7. CM Punk vs Jon Moxley at AEW All Out 2022 [link]

8. CM Punk vs Wardlow on AEW Dynamite 01/12/2022 [link 10:40]

9. CM Punk vs Raven Dog Collar Match at ROH Death Before Dishonor 2003 [link] [link 2:32:45] <- 2nd link has more of the post match angle

10. CM Punk vs Curtis Axel (ft. Paul Heyman) on WWE RAW #1057 [link] <- this is a post match angle, I lied to you

11. CM Punk vs Luke Harper on WWE RAW #1067 [link 0:30]

[3liza]

here's what I've learned to never pay full price for, because people are giving these items away for free or almost free on Craigslist, Nextdoor, Facebook, at Goodwill, and on eBay (which has a local pickup section) in every sufficiently populated location in the USA.

cost of acquiring these items ranges from "carrying it home from the sidewalk" to "getting a friend with a car to help you pick it up" which is the same amount of effort as going to IKEA for worse quality that costs more, with the notable exception of it being a pain in the ass to coordinate with craigslist sellers, and you often have to wait and watch for what you want to actually show up. it took me about a year to find an acceptable gamer chair left out on the sidewalk, for example. but they cost $100+ new, so I chose to wait.

a lot of this stuff is the kind of thing you don't necessarily intend to keep, just to use in transitional housing or until you can afford a better one.

1. printers of any kind. basic office inkjets are free. ink is easily refillable or has generic ink cartridges way cheaper than brand name for any inkjet up to about 2015, not sure how difficult the newer smart printers are to hack but there's no reason to own a newer one because printing technology has not improved since about 2005. you want a color laser for making zines and wheatpastes? it's on Craigslist RN and someone's mom is desperate to get rid of it

2. bedframes

3. desks

4. tables

5. chairs

6. bookshelves, nice oak bookshelves that don't bend like al dente spaghetti when you put books on them, are rotting on sidewalks rn because they didn't fit in someone's house. go get them

7. scanners. I find a working scanner by a dumpster at least once a quarter, and I don't pick them up because I already have one that I picked up from a dumpster years ago

8. hot tubs. everyone thinks they want a hot tub and that the maintenance and upkeep will be worth it, and they are wrong. Craigslist.

9. sofas, with the caveat that if you are in a bedbug region like New York State you need to be very confident in your bedbug screening skills

10. quality leather shoes. these last forever and are expensive new. eBay is best for these

11. plates, glassware, silverware. all of these are able to be sterilized to whatever standard you feel comfortable with but if you eat in restaurants you've already put a fork in your mouth that hundreds of people have drooled on so try not to fool yourself

12. televisions and computer monitors

13. houseplants. similar to the bedbug warning above, you need to screen these for pests like fungus gnats and mealybugs

14. dressers, wardrobes, china hutches, cabinets, chests of drawers, etc

15. mirrors

16. clothes hangers

17. moving boxes

18. mattresses to a certain extent. I don't like secondhand used mattresses but unstained, unused mattresses are surprisingly common, especially since the foam mail order mattress boom started and people keep getting told by the mattress companies to just get rid of/keep any mattresses they want to return for flaws or wrong sizes or whatever. bedbug warning on this obviously

19. sheets and towels. you gotta launder them obviously

20. basic clothing, especially for kids. normie type clothing is so numerous people often just throw them away because they can't get anyone to take them

21. kitchenware like cooking utensils and pots n pans. don't use chipped or scratched Teflon/nonstick if you can help it. everyone needs one basic steel chef knife, which can be sharpened and maintained indefinitely. people throw these away CONSTANTLY

22. household consumables like laundry soap and dish soap. people often accidentally buy the wrong brand, scent, or develop allergies and want to get rid of extra

23. pet supplies like collars, leashes, dog crates, litter boxes, litter itself, dog beds, toys, carriers, etc

24. medical equipment of all kinds. people who take care of all kinds of patients end up with tons of leftover, sealed, miscellaneous stuff when that person recovers or dies, and they often give it away. adult diapers, hospital beds, IV stands, crutches, walkers, wheelchairs, fracture boots and splints, knee braces, canes, catheter packs, ice packs, heat packs, sterile paper sheeting, gauze, slings, over-the-door stretching and rehab pulleys, mattress protectors, etc

25. washers and dryers, both the basic household cube type and the small twin tub or rock tumbler type. people upgrade these when the old ones are still working, just squeaky or a little weird or sometimes just old

26. vacuum cleaners. secondhand ones are sort of icky but you can get rid of the ickiness by wiping them down with a rag and isopropyl alcohol inside and out. use an exacto or utility knife to slice off the hair and string wrapped around the roller. buy a new filter on Amazon. people throw away vacuums that work perfectly all the time because they don't actually know how to clean them out or do maintenance. bedbug and pet hair warning obviously

27. microwaves

28. refrigerators

30. lamps

31. any kind of exercise equipment including stationary bikes, ellipticals and weights/weight benches

32. any kind of piano. there's a grand on my local Craigslist for free rn

33. scrap wood and lumber

34. pallets

35. wood shipping crates

36. newborn, toddler and baby equipment like breast milk pumps and storage, bottles, bottle racks, diapers, etc. anything a little guy will grow out of fast will end up being given away

37. air conditioners, humidifiers and dehumidifiers. these will be most numerous during their respective off seasons

list updated 2/13/24 based on recent Craigslist trawling

38. jars, both canning type jars and clean food jars like from pickled or jelly bought at the store

39. rugs. most of my rugs are sidewalk finds. rugs will almost always be dirty. a decent consumer grade rug cleaner costs under $100, it's cheaper to just buy one if you have the space to store it. flushing the scavenged rug with soap, hot water, vinegar, alcohol, etc will clean almost anything but huge bedbug and allergen warning on this item

[wisteriasymphony]

Émilie (born Émilie Genevieve Mary Graham de Vanily; 15 August 1962 — 15 March 2004) was a British fashion model who began her career as an actress. She has been regarded as one of the most accomplished and influential models of the 1980s and 1990s, and has been featured in over 800 magazines, including La Mode, Style Queen, and the eponymous Émilie. As heiress to Graham de Vanily Film Productions, she made her acting debut in the 1974 film The Diamond Lady. Émilie went on to star in Andre Bourgeois's Solitude (1979) before signing with Elite Model Management and attracting attention in her runway debut at the Paris Fashion Week SS1979 for Maison de Mode Gabriel [1].

Émilie was one of the most famous women in the world throughout the 1980s and 1990s, and is primarily known for her collaboration with the fashion designer and her husband Gabriel Agreste [2][3]. On occasion, her ubiquity as a fashion icon and symbol for women's growing autonomy in the 1980s has led to her being compared to the likes of Marilyn Monroe and Princess Diana of Wales [4][5][6][7]. Her early and unexplained death in 2004 at the age of 42 further drove these comparisons across various news outlets [8][9][10].

In 2005, she was posthumously awarded "Greatest Female Supermodel of All Time" by viewers of the French television show Le Monde de La Mode. This gendered distinction was implemented that year to accommodate for repeat winner Adrien Agreste, who was awarded "Greatest Male Supermodel of All Time" that same year at the age of 15 [11].

[doyoulikethissong-poll]

Sugababes - Overload 2000

"Overload" is the debut single of British girl group Sugababes. It was released on 11 September 2000 as the lead single from the group's debut studio album, One Touch. At the time, the group consisted of young teenagers Siobhán Donaghy, Mutya Buena and Keisha Buchanan. "Overload" was co-written by Sugababes together with the song's co-producers Cameron McVey, Paul Simm and Jony Rockstar.

"Overload" reached number 6 on the UK Singles Chart and was nominated for "Best British Single" at the 2001 BRIT Awards. It peaked at number 15 in Ireland, number 3 in Austria for two consecutive weeks, number 3 in Germany, number 5 in Switzerland, and number 2 in New Zealand. The song features on the soundtrack to the 2001 film High Heels and Low Lifes, and the 2002 film 40 Days and 40 Nights. English indie pop band Bastille covered the song for the soundtrack of the 2015 film Kill Your Friends. Mattel teamed with the Sugababes to create a new themed Barbie collection, which was released only in the UK in May 2007.

One Touch became the only album featuring the group's original line-up, until 2022. Donaghy left the group in 2001 and was replaced by former Atomic Kitten member Heidi Range. With her, Sugababes released three multi-platinum albums. In December 2005, Buena was replaced by Amelle Berrabah. In 2009, after 11 years in Sugababes, Buchanan, the final original member, was sacked without her knowledge and replaced by Jade Ewen. In 2011, the original lineup re-formed as Mutya Keisha Siobhán and released the single "Flatline". The trio regained the legal rights to the name Sugababes in 2019.

"Overload" received a total of 53,2% yes votes.

[sconesfortea]

Blue & Red in Doctor Who: part 1 [part 2 here]

So I noticed that 15's Sonic was red in Rogue, and that sent me fully down the rabbit hole. So this is part 1 of some rambly connections.

In S1 (2005) the time vortex was blue for journeys into the past and red for journeys to the future.

In S2, 10 usually wears a brown tie with a white/light shirt in the present/future, and a blue shirt with no tie in the past.

In S4, 10 usually wears his blue suit in the future and keeps the brown for past adventures.

In S5/6, 11 wears a blue bowtie, braces, & shirt details when they're in the past, which are all red when they're in the future.

In S11/12, 13's tshirt is usually red/burgundy in the past and blue in the future.

[planesawesome]

LOCKHEED EVOLUTION.

1. Lockheed Vega (1927)

2. Lockheed Model 10 Electra (1934)

3. Lockheed Lightning (1939)

4. Lockheed Hudson (1938)

5. Lockheed Constellation (1943)

6. Lockheed Shooting Star (1944)

7. Lockheed T-33 (1948)

8. Lockheed Starfire (1948)

9. Lockheed U-2 (1955)

10. Lockheed SR-71 Blackbird (1964)

11. Lockheed S-3 Viking (1972)

12. Lockheed F-117 Nighthawk (1981)

13. Lockheed C-5 Galaxy (1968)

14. Lockheed C-130 Hercules (1954)

15. Lockheed P-2 Neptune (1945)

16. Lockheed L-188 Electra (1957)

17. Lockheed P-3 Orion (1959)

18. Lockheed L-1011 TriStar (1970)

19. Lockheed C-141 Starlifter (1963)

20. Lockheed Martin F-22 Raptor (2005)

21. Lockheed Martin F-35 Lightning II (2006)

22. Lockheed Martin F-16 Fighting Falcon (1974)

23. Lockheed Martin A/F-117X Nighthawk (1981)

[mintchoccy]

12 Days of Yandere Christmas

well, this is it.

for the first time of my writing career, I formally open my series named "12 Days of Yandere Christmas", inspired by the "12 Days of Christmas".

in this series, I will use 12 different dimensions of yanderes with different idols.

in my limited time but my desire to do this, I want to push through this with the help of different roleplays with my discord friends and chatGPT. (I'll admit, I need to do it)

DAY 1: YANDERE IDOL

DAY 2: YANDERE STEPSISTER

DAY 3: YANDERE GIRLFRIEND

DAY 4: YANDERE EX-GIRLFRIEND

DAY 5: YANDERE SISTER (INCEST)

DAY 6: YANDERE CEO

DAY 7: YANDERE MOTHER

DAY 8: YANDERE FWB

DAY 9: YANDERE SCHOOL BULLY

DAY 10: YANDERE SCHOOL NERD

DAY 11: YANDERE BEST FRIEND

DAY 12: YANDERE CHEATING IDOL (FINALE)

sorry for the short and rushed intro, but I hope you guys liked it!

anyways, SOTD:

[uniteds]

stuff that happened in the 2022/2023 football season that should send us into a coma but we’re too desensitized:

1. the whole ass world cup in the middle of the season. what was that

2. manchester united sacking ronaldo and announcing a sale of the club in the middle of the world cup

3. ronaldo getting dropped at the world cup and his replacement scoring a hattrick immediately after

4. keeping up with the belgians (world cup edition)

5. keeping up with the belgians (courtois saying he doesn’t respect kdb after stealing his missus)

6. ronaldo stans beefing with a little moroccan girl

7. the kingdom of saudi arabia buying newcastle united and then telling the premier league that they didn’t and the premier league going “oh okay if you say so”

8. megan thee stallion being romelu lukaku’s date to lautaro martinez’s wedding

9. pique cheating on shakira and then shakira releasing a diss track about it

10. shakira figuring out pique cheated on her because someone ate her strawberry jam and pique doesn’t eat strawberry jam

11. apparently the girl pique cheated on shakira with (clara) cheating on pique with pep

12. wagatha christie libel case

13. real madrid dropping a video accusing barcelona of fascism and the government of cataluyna getting involved

14. the pope coming out as a manchester united fan

15. the one napoli fan that basically made zielinski strip on the pitch

16. mount vesuvius park shutting down because napoli fans wanted to fake an eruption as a celebration

17. frank lampard taking everton into a relegation battle, getting sacked, and then taking chelsea into a relegation battle

18. on that note: chelsea were in a relegation scrap and finished 12th

19. mourinho lost his first ever european final to sevilla europa league black magic

20. whatever the fuck borussia dortmund did on the last day of the bundesliga season

21. anthony martial’s ex wife chasing his first wife down a french motorway with a baby in the passenger seat

22. psg suspending messi because he took an unsanctioned trip to saudi arabia and then unsuspending him two days later because they didn’t want people talking about geopolitics

23. the absolutely bizarre messi apology video released by psg

24. spurs refunding their fans’ tickets after being embarrassing

25. pep’s heartbreak over the fact julia roberts is a manchester united fan

26. chelsea scored one goal in the month of april

27. chelsea and spurs had six managers between them and won one match combined between march and april

28. mourinho fighting anthony taylor after the europa league final

29. milan derby in the ucl for the first time since 2005

30. luis enrique saying he’s cool with the spanish players having sex during the world cup as long as they’re not having orgies

31. luis enrique saying he doesn’t have sex anymore unless his wife wants to

32. man city charged with 115 counts of financial doping and trying to get the barrister in charge disqualified because he’s an arsenal fan

33. mourinho wire-taping himself to catch referees being corrupt

34. ryan reynolds and mac from it’s always sunny in philadelphia buying a football club and that football club getting promoted

35. pele died rip

36. women football awards sponsored by shein and klarna having a category for “male football ally of the year” and it’s just random men that went to one (1) women’s game

37. barcelona negreia case (how do you say calciopoli in catalan?)

38. infantino saying he feels gay, african, like a migrant worker, disabled, arab, and qatari

39. infantino saying he was oppressed as a child because he was ginger and italy is not safe for gingers

40. david alaba’s father in law getting arrested for being one the leaders of a far right group plotting to overthrow the german government

41. richarlison being tumblr’s it girl for a month and then not scoring a goal for the next four

42. juventus being in the middle of another corruption scandal and being docked points because of it

43. two teams getting investigated by the british government for playing football the weekend the queen died

44. gavi getting a yellow card in the first minute of a football match

45. pogba’s brother was arrested by french authorities for being part of a group-organized extortion attempt against pogba

46. richarlison getting a tattoo of neymar’s face and neymar paying him 30k to get it removed

47. iker casillas coming out, puyol implying they had a thing, and both of them retracting it in the most misha collins way possible.

48. sane and mane fight

49. zlatan retired from football

50. barca withholding about 50 million in wages from their players and somehow frenkie still didn’t want to join manchester united

[rogersandclarke]

mutual 1: see the thing about obi wan is that even if he could get pregnant he would do a force-abortion on himself because he believes that strongly in adoption

mutual 2: do you think matt damon was seething and coping when j-lo dropped "dear ben" or do you think matt and ben were still hooking up at this time? essentially if the album dropped in 2002, the bennifer engagement is nov 2002-january 2004, and matt gets married in 2005,

mutual 3: my ebay bidding war for paul reubens's spit in a jar is going really well due to the psychic attacks i've been sending to the other bidder

mutual 4: local authorities wont let me into this abandoned hoarder house in rural wyoming. dies horribly. #i love drunk driving

mutual 5: listen ive studied rpf for years you dont understand. the homoerotic undercurrent of britpop is a different breed than what george and bob had going on. theres a playful aura facilitated by the early 90s

mutual 6: i am going to pound philip seymour hoffman into the ground so lovingly

mutual 7: im doing crazy things to davy jones pussy over here

mutual 8: thinking of writing my thesis on the evolution of rpf #no don't look at my lb diary yes i watched 10 martin & lewis movies this week

mutual 9: you see robbie and bob were having on and off trysts ever since robbie stopped him from killing himself in 1966 but it took martin scorseses tender devotion to show robbie how unhealthy that was

mutual 10: thankfully neil young started estrogen in early 1970. otherwise she never couldve made harvest

mutual 11: how minutes of semi-truck sound effects do you guys think i can play on my radio show before people start tuning away

mutual 12: put this post underwater sorry. but i just feel so angry when people post about their mutuals like they're people they never talk to. i've moved to different countries three times for my mutuals.

mutual 13: [picture of orson welles and anthony perkins laughing on the set of the trial] do you think they ever fucked #hot! #who said that

mutual 14: i think i could fix norman bates if we got married and adopted the eraserhead baby together.

mutual 15: [picture of a computer fucking itself]

mutual 16: m sooooo girl drink drunk daveeeeee

mutual 17: eroticism of the machine? uhhh yeah only if the machine is a sexy car #STOP PUTTING THOSE COMPUTER PICTURES ON MY DASH

mutual 18: my warriors in maine are one step closer to slipping cocaine back into stephen kings food so he can be a good writer again

mutual 19: you don't understand. walton goggins isn't just gay in the show. he also walks gay in real life. you have to understand this.

mutual 20: im going to kidnap mike stoklasa and only release him when he makes a post coming out as bisexual

EDIT: ETHAN LET ME POST THIS: mutual 21: do you think lana del rey and joan baez are hooking up. why is lana with her everywhere and introducing her documentary and doing all these things. we KNOW joan is bisexual. do you think

[selinakylesupremacy]

Favourite Batcat quotes in comics:

Bruce to Selina:

There exists such a thing as longing, for two hearts beating across time, space, and dimension, then perhaps she helped provide a beacon. A reason to return. Someone to come back to. - Bruce Wayne: The Road Home: Catwoman #1 (2010)

When we kiss the pain goes away - Batman #12 (2020)

Her smell. Chanel. Wet leather. And sweat. I want to get lost in that smell. - Detective Comics #800 (2005)

Nothing matters as long as we're together - Batman Chronicles #11 (2014)

In any world, I love her - Batman #132 (2023)

There has only been one woman who has really held my heart - Heart of Hush (2009)

All I can think about is Selina. Beautiful, fascinating Selina Kyle. - Batman: Black and White #6 (2016)

When I first met you on that boat, the diamond you stole, after I got it back. I bought it. I've had it for years. I knew, even at the beginning. I knew I'd need it. I... I needed it. Just like... I need you. - Batman #24 (2017)

I'd do anything for you. - Catwoman #51 (2023)

She's more important than the galaxies. - Batman #68 (2019)

She's the only one who...who understands what... she knows who I am. What I am. And she loves me anyway. - Batman #15 (2017)

I love you Cat. I always will. - Batman #85 (2019)

Something passed between us - a spark of electricity. The shock of recognition. It was as if I'd suddenly found a part of myself that I never knew was missing. - Batman Chronicles #11 (2014)

Without you, I'm lost - Batman/Catwoman #6 (2020)

When I do let myself dream, Selina...in that life. I'm with you. - Catwoman: Lonely City #3 (2022)

Even in the middle of death and madness she makes my heart skip - Batman #143 (2024)

My world is dust without you - Batman #78 (2019)

Selina to Bruce:

By now we both know we can't stop it. This. Might as well try to stop the planets orbiting the sun. It's more than love. It's gravity. - Catwoman #1 (2023)

You and me. The Bat and the Cat. In the dark making sparks - Batman #392 (1986)

When the world blows up around us we reach out for one another. - Catwoman #58 (2023)

The Bat and the Cat. We are forever. - Batman #85 (2019)

You are part of the night, just like me. We're not afraid of the dark - we come alive in it. - Catwoman #40 (1996)

I'd rather die with you than live without you. - JLA: The Nail (1998)

When I fall he catches me - Batman #37 (2017)

Just for today don't be Batman. Don't be the mask. It's okay to let it go, just for today. You can fall apart, I'll hold you together. - Injustice: Gods Among Us #17 (2013)

I hope somewhere deep down you know I will never let you fall - Detective Comics # 1077 (2023)

I liked the smell of him - leather and sweat - Batman #66 (2019)

I liked how he held me, like he could do anything, but he couldn't let go - Batman #66 (2019)

I love you too, Bruce. Just like a fairy tale, I could live with you in your castle forever. - Batman Returns Comic (1992)

His love is my great escape - Catwoman #58 (2023)

I love you, Bat. I love you so much - Batman #85 (2019)

[nikadd]

im going to the spn picket on thursday (before any bad faith piss on the poor readers start, ive been going on the other days as well, not just for spn), but i've just been thinking abt the importance of letting a show live and develop and not cancel it after the first season. like, many of us got into spn many years after it premiered, both bc of our ages but also maybe just bc what the show was in s1 wasn't for us. anyways all that to say is this: