im bored...
1. stats:
H: 164cm, hw: 53kg?, cw: 50kg, gw1: 48kg, gw2: 45kg, ugw: 42kg
2. height and do i like it?
164cm. im happy with my height but not my bone structure. it doesnt fit me well.
3. fav thinspo and why
her arms, legs, upper body... shes so tiny.
4. greatest fear about weightloss
eventually gaining back all the weight ive lost.
5. why do i wanna lose weight?
because i think im ugly. i feel like if i lose weight, i'll atleast have something about me that is beautiful and/or desireable.
6. do i binge? if so, why?
binge as in emotional eating? no, i dont, luckily.
7. do my parents know that im tryna lose weight? do they care?
they dont know but even if they did, i dont think they'd have a problem with it or prevent me from working out and losing weight. but when it comes to eating less, they, especially my mom, will definitely not leave me alone.
8. my workout routine
unfortunately, i dont workout regularly. i only do it when i feel like i overate, but then also only a little, light workout from youtube.
9. did anyone ever comment my weight negatively?
yeah, many times by nearly everyone. especially my sister as she has an eating disorder along with anger-issues. she always used to attack me for my weight when i was a (chubby) kid (keep in mind she is 12yrs elder than me).
10. the hardest thing i gave up during weightloss?
nothing until now!
11. my fav thinspo blog and why?
my own blog which got deleted a few days ago lol. it was my fav thinspo blog obviously cause i reblogged everything that i liked the most.
12. what do i normally eat?
i eat whatever i want as long as its below my calorie limit. that includes fast food, anything my mom cooks, proteins, etc
13. am i losing weight in a healthy or an unhealthy way?
healthy i believe. i mean, i allow myself to go up to 1100 calories a day, sometimes even 1200. i dont starve because i know that it has no benefit whatsoever.
14. whats my ugw and when do i expect to reach it?
my ugw is 42kg, thats a total weightloss of 8kg. i wish to lose it by march, basically in about 2⅔ months.
15. am i a vegan/vegetarian and would i consider becoming one?
no, not for weightloss purposes nor moral reasons. meat and milk products contain a lot of vitamins which i wouldnt want to give up!
16. when did i first decided to lose weight?
when i was 12. and i did lose weight succesfully (from 53kg to 46-47kg)
17. do i have an eating disorder?
luckily i dont.
18. what food is my weakness?
easy, cheese cake... i could eat a whole cake on my own.
19. when was the last time i ate fast food?
today, actually. i only ate sweets today.
20. fav diet?
eating-below-1100cals-and-work-out
21. what are my clothing sizes?
european sizes: my pants are 36 and my clothes also 36 i believe, not sure.
22. what was my lowest weight and how and why did i gain?
my lowest was about 47kg 3yrs ago. i gained due to puberty/growth and food, obviously.
23. did media play a role in wanting to lose weight?
i dont think so, atleast not consciously. i barely know any celebrities and all the women i see on the internet are thicc.
24. how do i feel about the term "proana/mia"?
"pro" is definitely disturbing to me. its like saying "pro suicide".
25. have i ever purged?
nope.
26. what excites me most about reaching my ugw?
wearing smaller sized clothes, having sticky legs that dont touch, constantly looking delicate, being treated more nicely, being taken care of, no insults on my weight by anyone ever again, jealous looks of other girls, not feeling ashamed to undress in front of somebody else, not being scared to get intimate with somebody, etc etc...
27. how do i deal with being around food?
when im really hungry or have high appetite, i'll probably eat some of it. if i dont, i just ignore the food.
28. do i want a thigh gap and why?
i do, because i find it aesthetically pleasing.
29. my definition of beauty?
a kind, honest, polite and respectful nature.
30. ten facts about me:
i'm 16 years old.
i am practically religious (muslim).
i developed an obsession for mukbangs over the past few years.
im extremely shy and awkward in real life.
i love animals but im afraid of them in real life (literally every animal... even birds or cats).
i cant eat meat off of the bone (e.g. drumsticks). it just disgusts me.
i actively try to improve my character.
i have a naturally athletic and fit body.
i live in germany.
im addicted to chocolate and other sweets, i need them nearly every day
if you actually read all of this, ily and wish you all the best 😙
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I was on the beach a few days so i forget about this.
sorry if my einglish is a little bit broken but spanish is my mother tonge and i’m not really used to speach einglish.
𝔻𝕒𝕪 𝟚
5′3ft /1,63 cm, i like my height because i think i’m medium and people tend to find me cute and tiny but if i were taller i would look skinnier
𝔻𝕒𝕪 𝟛
Momo from twice.
I really like how she’s thee same height as me and she looks so elegant and cute. Her legs are so pretty and her stomach is so toned.
𝔻𝕒𝕪 𝟜
I’m afraid to lose my ass or that my face look ugly with less cheeks, i have big eyes.
𝔻𝕒𝕪 𝟝
I want to lose weight because i’m tired of feeling ugly or less than other people just for my size. I know my face is pretty and i have an awesome personality but i want to be percived not only like a good person, i want to be a bad skinny bitch.
I do it for myself, people around me are always telling me that i’m cute the way i’m but i really dont feel it.
I really want to have pretty privilage, and look like a rich skinny girls who is an asshole and no one tells her nothing.
𝔻𝕒𝕪 𝟞
I binge cause i like the taste of food and sometimes people around me, like my boyfriend force me to eat. I fell bad because this is my biggest problem, i can’t find the way to not binge.
𝔻𝕒𝕪 𝟟
Yes, my mother know that i want to lose weight and she aproves it. (Not the way i’m doing it) It’s obvious she doesn’t mind, i’m her obese daughter who is mentally ill and of course she has an undiagnosed eating disorder too, she’s so skinny because she starve herself and for her thats normal
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