#3 am rambings

[gayafsowhat]

I really don't have a basis for this but I am always surprised to learn that other people think of me when I'm not there. Which is. Silly. But. People randomly reminding me they are aware of my presence and pay attention when I'm gone is like??? Whoaw. U noticed that?

[bitegore]

shut the fuck up shut up. shut up shut the FUCK up

[misunderstandings-georg]

Yearly spotify psych eval dropped

[viothecrapbot]

Warning major gender angst and other stuff ahead, you get a look into my uncensored thoughts on this for a while here. If you read this you have been warned. If you proceed that's on you

Someone needs to talk me out of buying trans tape at 3 am like right now

I have no self control and recently had gender crisis part 2: electric boogaloo and came to a vastly different conclusion than I did in the previous one. So as it turns out, I was not demigirl, I'm actually genderfluid. Whoops.

As it turns out, I do suffer with disphoria.

Hense the 3 am online shopping.

Also tidbit of advice here, do not have a gender crisis in the middle of a mental breakdown, it does not actually help things, it will infact make things worse. (As will work and stress, but having gender crises actually does take up a lot of mental energy and emotional bandwidth. Who knows?)

Where's the older sibling figure that comforts and helps you when you need it? No judgement or questions asked, just support. Where's the "I would kill you but also kill for you" ride or die in my life? I really do need a friend who can guide me here.

It's not like I can just talk to anyone about this in my real life, where do I turn to? To whom? Not like anyone will help me out no questions asked, not like I would trust anyone near me.

I suppose this kinda snuck up on me for a while but I really shouldn't have been surprised, the "hating what's in the mirror" did in fact get old very fast. There's also a reason I tended to lean towards giant hoodies and sweats that dwarf me.

And all this leads to the 3 am shopping. What do I do. Do I spend the 40$ or not. What if I don't like it? What if *I do?* Then what? Not like I can wear it with no questions.

I haven't even told anyone about the aroace flag in my room. I bought it, and immediately folded it up and placed it away. How do I have those conversations with people who don't understand? The Ace descussion went terribly enough the first and second time. I don't want that to happen again, especially with a much more abstract concept to me.

There's a reason I did not come to this conclusion until now. I've been so relegated into this role as "la señorita" in my family. My hair has to be long because it's so pretty and if I cut it short it looks "too boyish*. (As I've learned my hair is actually causing disphoria so... Fun) If I wear jewelry it has to be pretty, of it's something that my family does not find "pretty or cute" then it gets immediately disapproved.

The other day my father noticed that I has some facial hair, as all humans do. He suggested that I should get it laser removed so it doesn't grow back. He said it was gross to have. I looked in the mirror that morning and loved what I saw, and now I can't help but think of those words every time I look into the mirror. Just another "mistake of word choice" on his end that I will have to forgive.

They don't need to physically do anything, words are enough. The looks are enough to make me stop. But now? I don't know how I'm going to cope with that. Not with awareness. I think I will die like this. I don't want to.

Over a year ago I cut my hair. It was for my birthday. I cut it up to my shoulders, it was light and fluffy and healthy, and I could breathe. For the first time for as long as I can remember I could breathe. My family didn't like it, "it doesn't suit you it's too short". And they've never needed to lay a single finger to hurt me.so now my hair reaches to nearly my mid back again. The curls, thankfully, shrink it quite a lot.

I don't know why I keep it long anymore. The thoughts of what I can do with it are endless in my head, yet I don't do any of it. Just toss it into yet another ponytail and call it a day. It would be so much easier to convince myself that perhaps this isn't real if I didn't break down every time I brush my hair now.

I let my hair dry naturally the other day. The curls were flat, heavy with the weight of my world. It was so long. I felt like I was staring at that little girl 6 years ago. I look exactly like her. I've changed so much, yet nothing has changed for me. Yet now here I am, now 4 am sitting in a bathroom praying to dear whatever god is out there, listening to my desperate prayer, that I find peace one day. That one day I will not be scared of myself, that one day I will be happy and me and everything I want to be and have always been.

I want out let me out of my prison that you called my body. I feel pain everywhere all of the time, my joints constantly hurt, even a slight touch make me feel like I'm brusing myself. What this the life I was made for. Of pain, misery, books and words. I refuse to believe that, but what am I, a febele mortal in the face of the fates themselves? What right do I have to ask for things to be better when they are by all accounts they are very well. What right do I have to complaining about the good?

Is that even me talking anymore? Or just the words I've heard so many times thrown at me? Am I me? Or just a reflection of what others believe what I should be? I didn't even get to pursue my passion, instead I'm going for something entirely different, at the behest of others. Not even just my family, everyone around me.

So when I look at myself in the mirror I'm no longer shocked I hate the things I see. My curves, while a blessing on some days are curses on others, my hair, while fun is something that causes great strife. The soft rounded face, the presence of 2 glands. I don't want to hate myself. I refuse to. My circumstance makes that hard, if only because a silver tounge is deadlier than a whip ever will be.

4:15

Will I ever leave my bathroom? I don't think I'll even make it out of the closet. It's cramped with my skeletons. With my flags. With my clothes. With my heat.

I

Want

Out

[mac-3-impact]

READ THIS: In the 1970s we moved to automation with industry but we did not charge a tax on mechanized factories as all other businesses and they continued polluting the earth, using their same methods as before. They accelerated their manufacturing methods but charged us for their waste when people were not creating any of their waste. Industry got away without paying taxes for the extra waste and they had been paying fines for pollution already, without doing any of the cleanup the bills for water and air cleanup which had already been passed in the USA to clean. Then they went to other countries to lower their costs even more. Industry owes us the savings their automation gave them as they continued violations our politicians allowed them to violate us with in America. They owe us all the taxes they are trying to charge us for climate change. Industry should be taxed for all the taxes violated from 1970 to present. Planned obsolescence cost the average consumer tremendously as they scientifically calculated when things should break, purposely selling everything at periods to lower the usage and create even more waste than before. Industry cost us more when they used our scientiststo find out when stuff would break with an attitude of not caring about the consumer during the 1970 s also. We should have a 1970s corrective tax from industries attitude toward the consumer as computers allowed these calculations to defeat the consumer and reflect poor attitudes onto the public while destroying our world. The privilege given the consumer was denied as factories ignored public service as a servant were ramb pant testimony against not only the consumer but all products given this lack of tax to balance our earth and that was a product given by all previous politicians in office from the 1970s to Date politicians need to correct these errors of the past in our era and stop allowing the indutial revolution the breaks they began in 1970 toward pollution and lifestyle due to poor governing by those members of Congress creating the world of today. Can anyone argue these points written by a 100% disabled man who witnessed all that has happened since the 1960

Thank you John. You either are the only one who got it or the only one who read it my sister just told me the wrong address was showing up so she is checking on it for me

pass this forward because I am not being seen on tumblr. If you do not believe I am being censored still try looking up mac-3-impact or mac3impact.com anywhere and see why I named my website: uncensoured.com because even President Trump has gotten the ability to be uncensored but I have not so I cannot sell my i blame B¡// G8[s] for the blackballing using Microsoft to try to destroy my life just because I think he is insane and using his money to destroy the world a long with dr Anthony Fauci Heads of the WHO and CDC trying since 2020 to destroy the world as we know it with medicine and patents aimed at killing instead of following the hypocritical oath to save people. Mr. Krause (Ms) and the other elites wish to create their own insanity worldwide and if you object they will poison us other ways, infecting our food rather than allowing us the means to save ourselves any way we can

[redbleedingrose]

I just have to tell you that I LOVE when people send you things and you write a little something based on what they sent! Your writing is not only incredible, but it’s also fun to open up tumblr and see what you’ve written!

At the same time though, if you ever need a break from those kinds of asks, we totally understand! We want you to take care of you too!! 🥰

Hi love omg 🥰🥰🥰🥰

This is absolutely the sweetest message and I am so freaking glad that everyone is liking the interaction because it has made things a lot better for me and easier, and honestly?? I love it too!!!

To be honest, I’ve been pretty upset with my lack of output in terms of actual requests and finishing up Always.

I’ve started rotations in the hospital and am studying for board exams and my education always comes first for me. It’s just frustrating because I’m also loving this new creative side to me, and it is so so so shocking to see other people enjoy it too.

I’ve said this one and I’ll say it again, I genuinely do not deserve all this support. It has been unreal and just sends me over the moon. I never ever thought myself to be a creative person. I never ever thought my writing was good enough. So much so, that I never even attempted to write anything.

I basically kinda just winged it with Always part 1 and shockingly, people liked it??? And then I was like okay let’s make a part 2, and then part 3 and so on and so forth. And it all came so fast for me, and it was just so amazing to explore.

I still think people are exaggerating when they say they like my writing 😂 like I only started a couple months ago and it’s just insane to me.

But nevertheless, I am so so so freaking grateful and happy and lucky to have built this little platform and have people like you who are supporting me. And omg the friends I have made on this app?? Unreal. Un-freaking-real!

Anyways, I think I mentioned this before but my fic requests are officially closed for now but for headcanons and maybe some mini drabbles I am totally open. I just request some patience and grace for me to take my time writing it up!!!

I absolutely loved this anon message and I want to thank you so much for your kindness and support. Truly it had me smiling so hard. I’m so freaking lucky 🤭🥰💓😚💞

Sorry this turned out super long but I just adore people like you and then get in a rambely mood

[bassguitarinablackt-shirt]

hi i saw this post and i want to tell you some shit from experience

as a maniac who oscillates between " shit i love my work" to " i fucking hate this i fucking hate this when will it end fuck shit shit" i will tell you that BRO IT'S COMPLETELY FINE TO FEEL LIKE THAT.

idk i hope i know how you feel but obviously im not you. so im imagining some horrible gut stomach feeling, you're tired, you're burnt out and you feel so shit.

i am obviously not going to tell you to carry on writing. forcing stuff like that is not healthy at all and it's better to quit than to suffer. BUT!! JUST BECAUSE YOU'RE NOT WRITING IT DOESN'T MAKE RAMBING ABOUT YOUR OCS LESS VALID!!!!! YOU'RE SO SMART!!

you do realise that not many people have the ability to make ocs let alone make stories let alone make awesome ones!?;!?

who ever heard of a more angsty ship than mathew and alex??? and literally no one can make ocs like aria (kin frf) . and have you heard yourself talking about your wips??? the amount of backstory in power doesn't guarantee glory is insane. ajdjdjf vixen and antoine are so so adorableeee. your ocs are valid even if you don't write them down!!!!!!!

now for some advice for my tumblr bestie cool person:

pleaeolaseplase distance yourself from anything that's making you tired or burnt out.

spend time on pinterest!!! it's so soothing

listen to music!!!! turn up the volume and imagine cool scenes with your ocs!!!!

go out with people you like!!! talk to people!!!!

ESPECIALLY!!! YOU SHOULD DEFINITELY WRITE THAT NO PRESSURE SHORT STORY YOU WERE TALKING ABOUT!!!

if it makes you feel any better i hadn't written in 3 weeks until yesterday, and i only wrote 10 words yesterday.

your ocs are valid. your worlds are valid. no one is forcing you to write them down. i would literally listen to you rambing about them and it doesn't matter if they're not being written.

lots of love <33333

okay wow this is alot and you have no idea how much it means to me

for a while with my writing i felt stuck, like i had been digging myself a hole without even realizing it and i had no idea how to get out, i didnt even know how i got there, i didnt know how i went from writing silly little ocs to calling myself a writer and stressing myself out over everything

it keeps shocking me that people actually perceive what i write, they listen to me rant and actually take that information in and have opinions and feelings about it and thats just insane to me because my writing has always been a representation of me and i am making absolutely no sense right now

ill try to distance myself from whats stressing me out but that might be hard because now that i think about it i somehow manage to find a way to stress myself out over anything and everything

i just seriously can not tell you enough how much all this means to me and thanks so much tea

[lady-lycany]

I can go from zoomies and tailwags to whining and howling in like... one minute

all it takes is to remind myself, that I once again was just a part of someone's life until they felt better and didn't need me anymore. (or at least this is what my mind is telling me)

vent incoming in 3. 2. 1. (yes this topic again)

I don't wanna be alone again but at the same time, I don't wanna go through the "getting to know you" process with someone again. 😒

If I could fulfill myself one "impossible" wish in my life, I think, it wouldn't be the ability to transform or anything. I would snap with my fingers and let Eric and Alan become reality. The way I imagine us since 2015. I would never have to be afraid, to end up alone anymore, cuz I could count on them anytime.

...or maybe being able to transform would help with the loneliness too? Cuz I wouldn't rely on others like I do now? I dunno...

I'm really working on having a great time by myself, and depending on what it is, it can work well, but there are still a few things, that I would prefer to do with others, mainly because there's always the fear of being judged for doing these things alone.

Hell, I can't even go to the cinema without the ticket sellers be like "you're alone? really? why?" and I'm always like "oh, no one had time" when in reality, I just have no one, and the only two ones I have, are invisible 💀🤦🏻‍♀️

Also, end of this month, there will be a fair in our town, that I was so excited to finally visit with my bestie. But surpriiiise, I caaan't because that mf won't be there for me. Same with this december, where even she was excited to visit with me a tradition that we have in the bavarian alps. And once again, I can't do shit. I was waiting for so long, for nothing. we even talked about that when I help her moving here, that we both would move into a different state together cuz I want to leave my past here behind too, with all the bullying that was going on here...

Then she comes with comments like "I was on a walk and imagined you to be with me🥰" BITCH I COULD IF YOU WOULD HAVE THE FUCKING BALLS TO MOVE YOUR ASS OVER. We were. so. fucking. close. She told me this new years eve, that this would be our year. I feel so stupid that I believed her.

My anger makes me don't want to talk to her anymore... Which I haven't for a week now...

And yet, I still rely on her. Like a dog that gets slapped from it's owner. What can it do, other than to accept it, because it won't survive alone?

The stupidest shit is, that I brought us in this situation. Cuz I wanted a clear yes or no, instead of "maybe, idk, ect." Now I got my no. I told her, that it's her decision. And I still am thinking like that. I just can't believe, that after these years of planning, she actually decided against me. It could've been us. No one would've ended alone. But she picked the way, where I stay alone and she with many, she just met?.

The fact, that I was also ready to move over to that workshop, that I visited two weeks ago and didn't really like. Cuz otherwise, she would've had to go there alone. I didn't like it there and would've done it, for her sake.

Why am I like that? Why am I willing to do so many unasked favors, when I receive nothing in return.

*sigh* sorry for always rambing here about it, but I have no one else to talk to. I know, no one will respond but that's fine. I just feel more heard here, than writing it in private notes.

Edit because I don't wanna reblog:

even tho I'm so hurt, I wonder if she actually destroyed a nice future, or if this move could actually keep our friendship in tact and save it. cuz what if, we would have a big conflict when she's here so a distant friendship would actually work better? like a sister that lives in a different town? I always had this mindset that siblings can have a conflict and yet stay siblings. and she's not born from the same mother, but we're soulsiblings... we just have so many things in common and the same mindset...

I wish someone up the sky, could tell me how to move on with this situation. Cuz I know, that I probably care more about that whole situation than she does. While she's hanging out with friends, I only question, if I wanna go the 'sibling' path, or the 'I can't believe you let me fall like this'. I don't know, if she actually thinks about me rn. Idk if she regrets hurting me like that with that decision. Idk if she cares about me enough, cuz she knows, that if she loses me, she still has others, and so has nothing to be afraid of... not like me...

I can't even ask her, cuz then her words would feel forced. I just wish she would let me know from time to time. If she would actually care about my absence when I would decide to go the other way instead of staying in contact... if she would forget me easily...

[nyaoi-warrior]

Hiii, your ace attorney post are intriguing. Hoow does one start with the series? There's are like bazillion games 😅 And do you need an older ds to play? Or are the games on switch?

OMG!!! I GET TO SHARE THE BRAINROT

There's 6 mainline games and few spinoffs. I reccomend starting with the mainline games. They are originaly DS and 3DS games but all of them have been remastered and packadged into collections and rereleased on steam and switch.

The first three are the Phoenix Wright trilogy and they are the og ones. They are released as one game on steam and switch and include Phoenix Wright: Ace Attorney, Justice for All and Trials and Tribulations (AA1-3) and they just altered my brain chemistry.

Then there's 3 sequels that recently got released in the Apollo Justice trilogy, also packed into neat bundle that includes Apollo Justice: Ace Attorney, Dual Destinies and Spirit of Justice (AA4-6). I will admit I don't know much about those bc I have just started playing them.

Then there's few spinoffs, the one I am currently playing is The Great Ace Attorney Chronicles, which is also bundled rerelase of the two Great Ace Attorney games which are sorta prequel from 19th century which follows Phoenix's ancestor Ryunosuke Naruhodo who I love and adore. I am nearly at the end and they may be my favourite Ace attorney games honestly. But I do reccomend playing those maybe after the first trilogy. Like you don't need to, but there’s cute nods to the older games.

That being said there's currently Capcom Steam sale so if you are thinking about grabbing them on your pc there's: Ace Attorney Tournabout collection, which includes the first trilogy and the chronicles games for like 19 eur which is honestly steal I feel like.

I am SO sorry for rambing so much but the Ace Attorney games have done something to me and they are near and dear to my heart. If you ever feel comfortable to come off anon and maybe shoot me a dm or something I will always be happy to ramble more. I am also terribly sorry for not tagging spoilers and I can start of you want me to.

[aoife136]

I totally disagree with you and your anons. is this what the world wants to see? a front man lying in his bare ass? Well, I do not. I understand what Olly always wants to counsel? we already know it now so stop it. I think it's filthy

If you don’t wanna see it; then don’t look? Not everything is for you. If the world doesn’t want to see a gay man embrace his sexuality then is that a reason not to do it? No; that’s even more of a reason to do it. You can’t let the world dictate how you choose to present yourself, because guess what, the world doesn’t always want to see gay people (or black people or trans people or fat people or disabled people or-) because we still live in a bullshit heteronormative patriarchy where people where have to unlearn damaging untruths about gender and sexuality every single day. Did you read the interview the photoshoot is actually from? Olly talks about suffering with bulimia (as a result of body image issues) and being scared to talk openly about being gay. Do you not see how a photoshoot like this could be empowering? It’s not filthy (at least not in the bad way) it’s Olly owning his narrative. Not the narrative society has written for him, where he can be gay, but not too gay, where he can have sex, but never talk about it, where he has to adhere to respectability politics to be worthy of respect. Do you think straight musicians get told not be too straight? Do you think The Weeknd gets told if he’s “too straight” it’ll ruin his career? Hell no! Why do you think you have the right to tell Olly to stop doing anything? He’s not hurting anybody? I think it would be good for you to reflect upon that.  

[acefruit]

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[a-menagerie]

I posted 110 times in 2022

That's 64 more posts than 2021!

66 posts created (60%)

44 posts reblogged (40%)

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I tagged 101 of my posts in 2022

Only 8% of my posts had no tags

#ellie talks - 30 posts

#critical role x reader - 18 posts

#critrole reader insert - 11 posts

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#caleb widogast x reader - 4 posts

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My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

You don’t have to write this if you aren’t comfortable but I am going through an absolutely awful time and would enjoy Vax cuddles. Could you maybe write Vax trying to help a depressed reader if you are okay with it?

You hear the door to your room crack open and burrow deeper into your blankets. Maybe if you pretend to be asleep, he’ll leave you alone.

“Love?” The side of the bed dips down as Vax sits behind you, resting a hand on your shoulder. At your silence, you feel the bed shift as Vax stands. You can hear his armor falling to the floor before he eventually slides into the bed behind you.

Vax carefully wraps an arm around you, his other arm working it’s way between your head and the bed. Once he’s got both arms around you, he pulls himself closer, pressing a kiss to your shoulder.

This is what you loved about Vax. He doesn’t press you to share what’s on your mind, even though it eats him up to watch you struggle.

With a sigh, you roll over and press your face into the curve between his neck and shoulder. Vax runs a hand soothingly along your back and presses a kiss to your head.

“There you are.” He says with a small smile. “Bad day?”

You hum in response, pressing closer to him. If only you could crawl into him, press yourself into his skin, forget where you start and he begins. Maybe that’d make you feel better.

“Can you just hold me a little while longer?” You murmur. Vax pulls the blanket tighter around the both of you.

“Of course. Whatever you need.”

90 notes - Posted March 29, 2022

#4

Hi, so if you’re comfortable writing this, would you be willing to write something for Vax where the reader finds out she’s pregnant (however they find that out in a fantasy world anyway) and how she tells Vax and his reaction?

You had to tell Vax.

That was the long and short of it. However, that thought made anxiety flutter in your belly. Leaving the healer had your head in all sorts of a mess. You could’ve gone to Pike, you muse, but something about that was even more intimidating.

You paced the room you shared with Vax in Whitestone, carving a path among the various items strewn about. Your cloak, a box of trinkets Vax keeps, the small pile of dirty laundry.

The sound of the door opening spooks you and you’re caught between staying standing to greet him versus trying to sit casually on the bed; when Vax fully gets the door open, he finds you wide eyed and in the middle of the room.

“Were you in the middle of something?” He asks, eyebrow raised and a smile dancing across his face. “I can leave and come back.”

“No, no!” You step towards him, grabbing his wrist and tugging him into the room. Vax lets the door fall close behind him as he follows your movements, his free hand raising to run his knuckles along your cheek. You lead him to the bed and let go of his wrist. “Will you…would you sit? For a minute? I need to tell you something.”

Vax eyed you curiously as he slowly lowered himself to sit on the bed. He rested his hands lightly on your hips, tipping his head to the side as he peered up at you.

“Did I do something wrong? That’s usually why people want to talk to me.” Vax says, squeezing your hips with a teasing smile on his face. “If I did, I’m very sorry and I’ll never do it again, probably. If I didn’t-“

“I’m pregnant.” You blurt out in the middle of his rambling. Vax stills, his grip at your waist loosening. After a long, loooong moment of his blank stare, you take a step back.

The movement seems to jostle Vax back to reality and before you can blink he’s stood, gathering you in his arms and swinging you in a circle.

“Say it again.” Vax says, breathless. You repeat yourself, a grin growing across your face as Vax’s face lights up even more. He peppers kisses along your face and you can’t help but laugh. Your feet are barely touching the floor but the smile on Vax’s face is all you can focus on.

Telling the rest of Vox Machina went about as you expected. Grog and Scanlan were quick to tease Vax with crude jokes but you could see how happy both were. Pike and Keyleth were thrilled, immediately asking a dozen questions. Percy was more politely congratulatory and Vex…at first, Vex gave you a very long, hard look. But that dissolved away into a warm, small smile. And if you saw tears in her eyes, well, no you didn’t.

Through the whole process, Vax could hardly take his eyes off you and one hand was always resting near your middle.

119 notes - Posted March 4, 2022

#3

Could you write some fluffy headcanons for Percy x reader but also the whole Vox Machina crew with a totally stressed, overworked reader?

I'm having a million things to do at work, teach prepare experiments, while also applying for jobs and prepare my practical and theoretical graduation exam.

Sometimes it can be overwhelming, some fluffy headcanons would be very appreciated. :)

Sorry it’s taken so long dear ! I hope your exams went/go swimmingly, that you find an enjoyable job, and that you are doing well ❤️

Percy

i think we can all agree that Percy is pictured in the dictionary beside “overworked” and “stressed”

So I’m not sure how long it’ll take for him to catch on that you’re in a similar position

once he notices though, he’ll gently fuss at you to take more breaks or share your work with him (the hypocrisy lol)

if the work can be done by anyone other than you, Percy does not hesitate to shove it on someone else.

If you tell him that you’ll relax so long as he joins you, he’ll moan and complain but put his work to the side. He wants you happy first and foremost and honestly, his work can wait

Enjoys strolling the Whitestone gardens with you as a way to unwind. He’ll tell you the history of the gardens or point out new plants Keyleth has helped him plant

Secretly takes on some of your workload for himself. after you’ve gone to sleep, he’ll slip out of bed and tackle a problem that’s been giving you trouble, leaving you a sweet note when he’s done

Vex

Let’s you keep working…for a little while. But when she picks up on you being stressed and overworked, she’s watching you like a hawk

The minute you stop, just to take a breath or grab a snack or whatever, she’s covertly dragging you away to do something else. But like, as a favor to her

“I didn’t want to interrupt your work, darling, but can I borrow you for a moment?” said with a soft smile, her hands already pulling you away

Doesn’t actually need you for anything, Vex just wants to make sure you’re taking breaks and relaxing

Vax

If you so much as mention being slightly stressed, Vax is swooping in and pulling you away from whatever work you’re doing

He absolutely does not enjoy seeing you be anything other than happy and content so he does anything in his power to help you relax and feel better

Overworked? Helps to figure out if you could delegate to anyone else. If it’s not a necessity that you do the work, then someone else can handle it.

Stressed? Immediately offers a thousand ideas of how you can relax. Let him play with your hair and give you a scalp massage. Go flying with his wings (you don’t think that’s nearly as relaxing as he thinks it is). Just lie in bed together and chat.

Keyleth

Prone to worry and stress herself, she picks up on your troubles quickly. But she hesitated to interfere- she doesn’t want you thinking she’s trying to order you around or that she thinks you’re incapable

She’s gonna try and help you through your workload, to the best of her ability. If it’s really outside of her capabilities, she’ll resort to bring you snacks and reminding you to take breaks

When it comes down to it, she’s not afraid to put her foot down. Whatever work that needs to be done can’t be so important that you’re harming yourself along the way.

Keyleth gets you to take walks with her, maybe go swimming if that’s an option where y’all are, picnics, or even just hanging out with the rest of Vox Machina

I feel like Keyleth is very much an empath. You being stressed makes her stressed. You’re supposed to be the level headed and pulled together one!

Pike

kind of goes into Mom mode tbh

See the full post

130 notes - Posted July 1, 2022

#2

Campaign 2 you say? 🤔

Could I please request something with Caleb being totally smitten with the reader since day one, meeting in that tavern? And maybe just little moments within the campaign where it's so blatantly obvious?

(thank you if you decide to write this, but do not feel obligated to! x)

“It’s just that you smell.”

“Jester!” You smack her arm. “You don’t just say things like that!” You lean around to look at the guy. “I’m so sorry for her.”

“I have heard worse.” Caleb reassured you.

“See!” Jester said and you let out an exasperated sigh. You give him an apologetic look and earn a small smile in response.

-

Kindness is the easiest way to win Caleb over, especially if you are just so intrinsically kind. No motivations, just straight up a kind person.

Looking out for him and Nott is also a way to get his attention. Keeping them safe during fights, maybe helping them out with a few gold here or there.

-

“You in there?” Caleb finally managed to peel his eyes open and you stop patting his cheek. “There you are.”

His eyes wander past you to the sizzling remains of the priest and you frown, patting his cheek softly again.

“Come on, Caleb, let’s go.” You rose to your feet and Caleb followed you shakily, thankful for your hand on his elbow.

-

Being understanding of Caleb and his past goes a long way to earn his affection as well, though he’s a bit hesitant about it. He doesn’t feel like he deserves any understanding.

The less you judge him, the more he’ll be inclined to share, which leads to a stronger camaraderie between the two of you and growing affection on his part

-

A rapid knocking comes from your door. You open it to find Caleb, a wide grin on his face.

“Are you busy? I would like to show you something.” At your agreement he leads you up to the rooftop of the Xhorhaus, to a patch of bare rooftop away from the giant tree.

“It is not- it is not finished but I - I am excited to show you!” Caleb rambled, tugging you to one side then kneeling along the roof.

“Well, I’m excited to see it!” You grin, crouching beside him. He took out some string and started twisting it this way and that, making a cat's cradle. Caleb ignites it and the flames crawl across the strings then further, across the roof, in the form of a web. “Whoa!”

“It will, hopefully, be a bit stronger once I figure it out.” Caleb explains, watching the fire sizzle out.

“Gods, Caleb, that’s so cool! Did you come up with this yourself?” You ask as you place a hand on his shoulder. He nods, a faint blush across his cheeks. “You’re so fucking smart, that’s incredible.”

-

Reading in the same room is also a good way to spend time with Caleb- it takes the pressure off him to socially entertaining and y’all still get to be together

Even if you’re not magically inclined, showing interest in magic is a good way to connect to Caleb. Especially if you show particular interest in the spells he designs himself.

-

It takes a while but eventually, Caleb is reaching for your hand in the quiet moments. Soft whispers, pouring over tomes and maps. A firm body against yours at night. Caleb does not think he’s deserving of much but you convince him that he is, at least, deserving of your love.

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Reader likes cuddling with Frumpkin, while Caleb wishes he was Frumpkin.

Finally finished up this drabble from ages ago, and I’m not completely happy with it but I hope y’all enjoy regardless 🌼 feel free to send in requests that you’d be interested to see ❤️

Caleb jolts back into his body, looking quickly to his side as Veth pulls her hand back to herself.

“I’m sorry!” Veth said, patting Caleb’s arm where she’d given him a slight slap, to bring him back to his body. “You weren’t answering me, I was getting worried…”

Caleb’s gaze drifts to Frumpkin, who was curled up against you. You who, fast asleep, had one arm thrown over Frumpkin, holding him to you even as you curled around him.

“Sorry, I’m fine.” Caleb replies to Veth, dragging his eyes away. Veth gave him a concerned frown, glancing quickly towards you and Frumpkin.

“Were you...were you Frumpkin?” Veth asks. Caleb flushes a bit, pointedly not looking back at Veth.

“No.”

Caleb watches as you let out a huff in your sleep, readjusting yourself and pulling Frumpkin closer to you. He’s pointedly ignoring the knowing and sad look Veth is giving him. It had been easier in the Tower. He could bury himself in a blanket of cats and pretend he wasn’t alone. He knew you did the same, choosing different cats each night - not unlike Jester. You didn’t need Frumpkin when there was a kitchen full of cats to choose from.

On this one night, when they’d had to fore-go the Tower, he’d let you borrow Frumpkin and he’d let himself have one selfish evening of pretending you were holding him.

“That’s almost creepy, Caleb.” Veth says quietly. She doesn’t want him angry but she also knows this isn't good for him.

“I-I know, okay? I’m working on it.” He pulls the hood of his coat up, effectively cutting Veth off. He could put his vision back into Frumpkin, but he won’t. Not tonight. The guilt of being caught, on top of the usual guilt of doing this, was enough to dissuade him.

-

“Caleb!” You called out, jogging a bit to catch up to him. The Mighty Nein were taking a break in Nicodranas for a while, much to everyone’s relief. The group had kind of splintered off, each doing their own thing, but you found yourself getting lonely. Spying Caleb seemingly unbusy was too good of an opportunity to miss.

He jumped a bit in surprise, but slowed and turned to face you. As you reached him, you looped your arm through his and leaned against his shoulder.

“Whatcha up to?” You asked.

“Ah, oh, nothing much. Jester said there was a book shop somewhere nearby so I thought I’d take a look.”

“Mind if I tag along?” Caleb shook his head, a slight blush rising across his face as he leads you down the street. “Oh! Maybe we can find another trashy romance novel for Jester, I’m pretty sure she’s read Tusk Love at least 3 times by now.”

You chatter at him as y’all walk the streets, searching for the bookstore. Caleb is mostly quiet, his arm a bit tense in yours, but you try not to let it get to you.

It took another ten minutes of wandering to find the small shop but it was worth it. Every open surface was crammed with books. Both you and Caleb stalled in the doorway to just take in the whole place. A small gnome woman greeted you both from behind a towering pile of books and beckoned you to take a look around.

Nearly an hour later, you and Caleb finally emerged from the shop. Coin purses lighter but a few books richer. You’d mostly grabbed books for some of the others; trashy romance for Jester, a flora guide you thought Yasha might appreciate, and a small cookbook written in both common and what appeared to be Zemnian.

Caleb had his own small pile of books, mostly anything he thought could be useful in the Mighty Nein’s adventures. Conversation came easier as the two of you discussed your picks. You split ways once back at the Lavish Chateau.

That night, you begged Frumpkin off Caleb again, turning him into your own personal teddy bear for the night. Not that Frumpkin ever seemed to mind, if the constant purring was any indication.

You told Frumpkin about your day, as a way to wind down. You even told him about the little cookbook you’d bought and confided in the cat that, just maybe, you could figure out a recipe to make for Caleb, to maybe remind him of home. Frumpkin just blinked up at you slowly.

The next morning, you sat at one of the tables in the Chateau as you slowly ate breakfast. Yasha had adored the book you’d bought her and was perusing it as she sat near a window, her food forgotten.

“Morning.” Caleb appeared on the stairs, coming to sit with you.

“Good morning, Caleb.” You replied, speaking around the fruit in your mouth. As Caleb settled in you noticed that Caleb seemed…less tense? Almost relaxed.

“Is that the book you bought Yasha?” He asked, gesturing towards Yasha.

“Yes! She’s really happy with it, thank goodness.” You grin, casting a happy glance towards her.

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I posted 2,312 times in 2022

That's 1,828 more posts than 2021!

325 posts created (14%)

1,987 posts reblogged (86%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@twipsai

@modmad

@seafoam-taide

@s0ckh3adstudios

@gigilefache

I tagged 914 of my posts in 2022

#sock talk - 214 posts

#a hat in time - 50 posts

#ahit - 45 posts

#moi &lt;3 - 39 posts

#afa - 35 posts

#ahit au - 33 posts

#a hat in time au - 33 posts

#omori - 28 posts

#ame from above - 25 posts

#ghost mcdonalds - 25 posts

Longest Tag: 139 characters

#since they were supposedly the blank slate protagonist and i heard something about how they were up for interpretation on what their gender

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

Guess who's on another Omori mod team.

:)

https://twitter.com/HIKITO_Mod?s=20&t=llxMJzAZuGqGduZYI7-weA

GO CHECK OUT HIKITO!!!!! I promise you, this is going to be an amazing mod.

176 notes - Posted November 14, 2022

#4

THIS QUOTE FROM THE SNATCHER VA STREAM IS MELTING MY HEART HELP

"Hat Child has been writing me some notes in crayon, as a pen pal. We've been keeping up with each other. She seems to be traveling across space and time. She seems to be doing well for herself, as far as I'm concerned. I try to stay out of her business, I don't wanna know, y'know, when she's coming back, or... if she's coming back to help me out with a few things or anything like that- That's not like I think a lot about her!! She- I- Auhgh- She has a forgettable face."

(mumbling) "..........................i don't know if i'm going to see her again but i hope so."

"hUAH? AS FAR AS HAT KID GOES SHE CAN DIE OUT THERE FOR ALL I CARE HAHA (WHEEZING)"

WAUUUUGHHGHFJHJGFJGAJHJKGAKHK

the stream is here if you wanna see

181 notes - Posted October 30, 2022

#3

@ask-omori-ageswap I made these to spite Miles /j

217 notes - Posted July 25, 2022

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Deltarune Spamton Takeover Secret Web-Pages!

Trying to put all the page links into one post for easy access. I'M LOSING MY MIIND. (Thank god other people are making lists I can find more links)

/Egg/

/Code/

/Ramb/

/Chair/

/Man/

/Dog/

/Shadowmen/

/Icee/

/December/

/Lancer/

/Sighting/

/https://bluebubble.rodeo/

/Blink/

245 notes - Posted September 17, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

BASIL'S PARENTS?!?!?!??!!??!?!?!??!!??!?!

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3 o'clock in the morning is a really weird place to be. like being in between floors on an elevator. you're not here, but you're not there. you’re around.

-what color is 3 am anyway

[anothertimdrakestan]

Set In Stone - Telling Tim

If this is the first of this series you’re seeing click HERE

I put a read more so these don’t eat up my entire blog! Enjoy <3

You took a deep breath, knowing this would probably shift the future, you had to prepare yourself for the brain power it would take to overcome it. “Tim I need to tell you something” Tim’s eyes lifted from the bed sheets to yours, look intently for you to continue.

“You know I’m not faking my powers, and when I checked I saw something scary. Far in the future for some reason there’s two distinct things that happen. One is that you and I end up together, like getting married and all of it, and Bart Allen dies. The other is the opposite, Bart and I are getting married, and you are dead. I’ve looked everywhere, at every possibility and no matter one of you dies. I don’t know what to do” you finished, you felts millions of timelines vanish, you’d ruled out about a million different endings by telling Tim. “I- are you sure?” Tim looked beyond shocked. “I am, I’m the surest I’ve ever been” you confirmed. 

“So it’s me or Bart?” Tim looked terrified. “Yeah, unless we can come up with something” you confirmed, taking Tim’s hand in your own. “It’s a while out! We have time, time to do something” you couldn’t hide your doubt. “Well if it’s me or Bart you’ve gotta meet him, fair chance and all. There’s no hacking the future is there?” and you agreed. 

As you entered the zeta tube with Tim you appeared besides him in a huge tower. “Totally crash” you whispered. There were super-teens everywhere. Hovering in mid air, turning into different animals, and truly living among each other. Then a blur appeared in front of you. “Did you say crash? Like the mode? Like crash the mode?” he looked like the embodiment of fun, slightly vibrating his bright red hair stuck up in spikes, almost like little lightning bolts. “You must be Bart, Y/N, I’m also from the future so yes, totally crash I know” The widest grin you’d ever seen spread across his face. “Totally crash! What was it like for you? I can’t really talk to anyone about cuz ya know - future mess ups but you know too so we can know together!” Bart was gesturing excitedly, the grin still beaming. 

“Yeah! I totally need to vent - and get this, my power is that I can see the future so talk about knowing how the mode crashes!” you high fived Bart who didn’t need any more confirmation, he scooped you up at lightning speed and zoomed you into his room before Tim could protest. Bart’s room was a shrine to someone else. Whoever the Kid Flash was before him, his room littered with posters, notes, pictures and anything that Kid Flash had shared with the current KF. 

“Okay so since you know how the world ends tell me. Or tell me if I become the Flash! And what’s with the future now that we stopped the mode in this time?” Bart rambed as you sucked in another deep breath. Tim deserved to know his future because he was knowledgeable and steady, Bart was a rampage of energy that could get really scared if you told him how he possibly died. Should he know too?

Yes, tell Bart too, he deserves to know regardless of reaction

No, he’s not ready, you should do more research with Tim now that you’ve met Bart

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{ I finally get to use the picture I drew a week ago for when I hit 100 followers!

First want to say thank you each one of you as I finally hit 100!!(more like 104) Thank you so much! Really it means so much to me! ;w; I honestly didn’t think I would as I am an OC and I was worried no one would like her and or want to interact with her since she is an oc. [HD yelling in the distance,”WHAT DO YOU MEAN?! LEIA IS CANON!!”] Clearly I’ve been proven wrong many times and it gives me all those feels and my heart ;w; Thank you again!

If you aren’t mentioned or tagged here It doesn’t mean that I don’t love you as I do and super grateful for you following / interacting with me. Ooc or Ic. Everyone I’ve ever talked to here has been nothing but super nice and supportive ;w; Just thank you!

Read more so it isn’t too long on the dash!

In no particular order~

Sweet beans who I want to shower with love and give them everything as their amazing lovely people!

@unsuccesscr HD! You are one of the sweetest people ever and the first to suggest that your Izuku (then all Izuku’s and Katsuki’s eventually) Should be childhood friends with Leia and then she was canon and I still get flustered and cry whenever you say that ;w; thank you. I love each and every Izuku that you play all of you are amazing~<3 ILU SO MUCH !

@hxwk-eyes Flowers! You are an amazing Hawks and one of the first people to follow me and I was and still am super excited to rp with you. I love interacting with you IC or OOC! I love you both as your both fantastic! (Sorry I fail at words but just amazing!)

@tskymi​ LANI! I love you and each and every bnha character that you play (Not linking them all cuz holy so many xD) I adore your writing and how you play each character and their all amazing just like you! ILU SO DAMN MUCH~<33 (Again fail at words ;w; but just fantastic

@hxllo-sunshine​  Mel!! I adore you and your muse Ariel. Both of you are so awesome! I love you both! I love Ariel’s moody weather quirk and she is a sweetheart. I love the headcanons you made for American heroes too and just everything ok? She is an amazing OC! (I still fail at words but I love everyone and don’t wanna get too rambely ;w; )

@floatiisms  Kerri! I love your Uraraka, Bakugo, and Midoriya! Love how you play each one of them and you are so freaking nice and sweet! Love talking to you ooc and ic! :D ILU!! (I feel this is short but ilu~<33)

@sappines Kona! I love you and Kazue so much! The pair of you are so freaking nice and sweet! Kazue is also fucking adorable with her affection and it is super sweet and she deserves all the friends just like you and and ILU!! (I fail at words *rolls around*)

@watersplxsh Roi! I love your angry little duckling Kouta! He is so grumpy and cranky and all I want to do is make him smile along with Leia. Your both so freaking cute and ILU!! Also love your oc too :D

Okay I don’t want to make this super long ;w; but I love all of you okay?! Also I fail at words besides saying each of you and your muses are amazing and I love you all~<33 I’m so happy to have followed you / you following me! I want / need to rp with some of you more! Curse my shy beaness

@bxllseyed  /~/ @hgkre  /~/ @zerogrcvity  /~/ @superrncva  /~/ @stxicherxics  /~/  @sunshinesoftware  /~/ @quamxmulti  /~/ @blazinghct  /~/ @heroicquirk

People I want to interact with more as we’ve only talked mostly ooc and I am a shy bean ;w;  I still want to shower with love and give them everything as their amazing lovely people!

@steelhardpecs  /~/ @ksri  /~/ @msclr (for bgku too)  /~/ @dad-for-one  /~/ @needlxd  

And everyone else!! Like I mentioned up top that if I didn’t mention you it doesn’t mean that I don’t love you as I do and super grateful for you following / interacting with me. Or those who haven’t interacted with me either! 

This is all rambly and prolly doesn’t make sense *rolls around* I just love you all ok? ;w;

Just thank you all so much for following, interacting, and just loving my Oc sweet bean Leia~<33