#2018 Tundra

[shinigami-striker]

Mega Man 11 | Monday, 10/02/2023

Exactly 5 years ago, Mega Man 11 was released on this day.

It's also the first mainline entry to be released since the 2010 release of Mega Man 10 (and the first since Mega Man 8 to feature voice acting).

P.S.: as of 2023, Mega Man 11 is currently the best-selling installment in the Classic mainline series, a record in which Mega Man 2 previously had (compilations and remakes are excluded).

[lynxnothinks2]

FR Fanart Stats

Have you ever wondered which FR dragons are the most popular to draw? No? Well clearly you're not a university student with looming deadlines, a severe procrastination problem and unlimited access to research grade statistics software let's dive in

Originally I was doing this to see which dragons I'd drawn the most for commissions over the years, but then I got curious generally about if the popularity of dragon breeds correlated with the amount of fanart produced. We artists are always fighting algorithms and trends, so this info may be useful to those of us looking to utilise them!

A brief intro/some disclaimers to the data:

I've only included modern breeds as they are more numerous than ancients on-site, have been around for less time (excl. Obelisks) and Excel was already protesting with what I had so I saved myself the headache. Look forward to the ancient breed sequel ahahahah :P that's a joke i'm not doing this again

For my 'tumblr popularity' data, I counted the breed of dragon of the first 100 featured in the '#flight rising art' tag. I excluded ancients and any unidentifiable breeds. Each individual dragon was counted in multi-image posts, unless if the dragon(s) in question were in a comic, series etc. in which case each unique dragon was counted once.

Assuming my personal commission stats are the least interesting to most people, but I'll give some background. I started doing comms in mid-2018, producing art at a relatively impressive volume (rip my time and motivation.) I do a lot less FR art now, but if we assume breed popularity has stayed consistent since then the only breed this should really effect are Obelisks as the newbies.

And then finally, on-site breed popularity. I used the dragon search feature on FR to identify the number of named, active dragons for each breed. Total dragons as of 27/01/24, if you were curious: 12,924,070! That's a lot of guys!!

I threw everything into percentages, then made a graph. it's got issues probably but my degree isn't in niche pixel dragon info and i was getting bored at this point

I ran some stuff through statistical tests but they don't show anything remarkable that you can't see in the graph. Rstudio claimed a few more years from my lifespan for naught

Conclusions:

Skydancers and Imperials are crazy popular in all categories, but SDs are Tumblr's favourite

Obelisks and Ridgebacks do disproportionately well on Tumblr compared to their site popularity

Snappers and Bogsneaks are pretty unpopular across the board. I've never drawn either! But at least snaps are getting a bit of love on here

The popularity of Faes and Guardians on-site is not significantly reflected in fanart (excl. Guardian comms for me which is? an odd outlier??)

Mirrors and Nocturnes are not popular on Tumblr - found the latter interesting as I thought there may be lingering bias from NotN, but apparently not

Coatls, Pearlcatchers, Spirals and Tundras are pretty consistent between categories. Nothing really of note for these guys except for less people wanting me to draw spirals (good they're complicated)

I could draw a Wildclaw with my eyes closed and although that will not make me popular, it can make me money

Well that was a good use of 4 hours I'm going to write my essay now

and if you'd like to show your support for this cool art stats guy check out my main @lynxnothinks commissions are open thank you byeee

[dire-vulture]

my progens..haven't changed very much since 2016 haha

i forgot tarragon used to have gardening gloves..the corsage update made it not work anymore fdsgsfd that one actually features the pre-2018 tundra eyes too! (the 'first' version of Tarragon is a recreation i did just now though so it features the current wind common eyes)

[lafresnaya]

So, how old are the grandpas of the apocalypse really? Ft. - Jonah Magnus - Simon Fairchild - Peter Lukas - Maxwell Rayner

I MADE A PART 2 OF MY CHARACTER AGES RESEARCH (part 1 incl. og archives crew, 3 avatars + gerry here) after a few days of really wanting to detective the ages of this lot, i finally caved and decided to dig out the magnifying glass! same disclaimers apply! including an extra disclaimer to say that I've changed the formatting for this a lil because there was a Lot More Research done compared to part 1. Necessitated bc these mfs are OLD. (except for peter lukas. peter lukas is surprisingly young??)

(All ages are as of S1 / 2016 & the highlights are in bold if you don't feel like reading my essays)

Jonah Magnus

Age: ~216 Birth Year: ~1800

There are a few landmarks we can use, but because of how shady most are (old-ass letters) I also can’t pin down any solid dates because all the characters involved are fictional ._. Basically the only clues I got were: The Magnus Institute was established in 1818, but Jonah was old enough to travel alone to Germany and exchange letters with a friend (Albrecht von Closen) by 1816. So birthdate around ~1800? 1790?

I tried to find an ‘upper limit’ by using the life expectancy of the time since he also was able to live a ‘natural’ life until the (failed) Watcher’s Crown was carried out ‘at some point closely after February 13th, 1867’, BUT the average life expectancy of men was at most 41 years. So there was some Fairchild-esque shit going on there.

Simon Fairchild

Age: 439 - 488 Birth Year: 1528 - 1577

SPEAKING OF FAIRCHILD - sky grandpa! love him, he’s such a bastard. Anyway, in his own words, he’s had ‘an absurdly long life’. In MAG151 he says he was apprenticed to the Italian artist Tintoretto. Apprenticeships in the Renaissance started at approximately 11-14 years old & lasted for 1-8 years, and I’m assuming this was the same for the 1500s. Hopefully.

Given that Tintoretto became a renowned artist in ~1542, my estimate of the oldest Simon could be would be 14 in 1542. On the other end of the scale, Wikipedia says that his last notable work was Il Paradiso, finished from 1588–1594. I can’t find any mention of works post-1588 so this puts the absolute youngest Simon could be at 11 years old in 1588. From those two estimates, it was just a matter of mathing it out :)

Note 1: Simon mentions that his Becoming was while painting a church, likely a ceiling or high wall since he ‘should have broken his neck’, which should narrow it down – except it doesn’t, because Tintoretto painted a lot of churches x_x Note 2: I’ve just spent half an hour researching an Italian painter & art conventions in the 16th Century, which is of no relevance at all to my STEM degree in the 21st century. Simon’s age doesn’t even particularly matter because it was so long ago that the centuries quite literally blur together. This rabbit hole is incredibly fascinating, but this feels so ironically pointless, which is really, really fitting. Note 3: Simon definitely deserved to get ripped apart by the mob. His time has long, long passed lmao

Peter Lukas

Age: ~49-61 (at the very youngest; 36) Birth Year: late 1950s - late 1960s

Peter appears to be the youngest of these four – surprisingly so! – which makes it a lot simpler to pin down his age. He first meets JamesWright!Jonah between 1973 and 1996 & also he was old enough to have the option of watching TV when he was a child. TV became common in UK homes in the 1960s, so his birthdate at the earliest may be in the late 1950s/1960s.

However, he’s known Jonah as ‘Elias’ for most of their acquaintance by late 2018, meaning that they met at the earliest 1975 (21 years before 1996), but was probably more like 1980ish or later. I don’t think he would have met him too long after becoming an avatar some time after he became ‘old enough to run away’, which I’m assuming means he became aware of the Lonely when teenager-ish.

But spending some time on the Tundra before meeting other avatars makes sense for the Lonely, and so my vague estimate of his birth year would be late 1950s - late 1960s. I don’t think that his birthdate was anywhere later, though it is possible that it could have been as late as 1980 (if he began running away when very young & was introduced to ‘James Wright’ very early into avatar-hood), if incredibly unlikely.

Note: My ‘very youngest’ estimate for Peter Lukas is… younger than my estimate for Mike Crew’s age. I find this inordinately funny.

Maxwell Rayner

Age: 357 Birth Date: 8 November 1658

I have excellent news for Rayner! Good ol’ Jonny has made his original body Edmond Halley. A very famous person with a wikipedia page of his own that conveniently states his date of birth :)

Thanks, Jonny.

Rayner died in February 2017 at the age of 358 years 3 months 2 days, though he did spend a decent amount of time host-less. Unlike Gerard Keay, I’m unsure of how ‘alive’ he was during this time, so I’m just going to count it as ‘alive’-time because it means I get precise numbers for the first time since I started researching character ages!

[woozihaes]

pairing: mingyu x f!reader warnings: a:tla au. mingyu as a firebender, reader as a waterbender, talk of an arranged marriage. i wrote parts of this back in... 2018? or earlier? i don't know. i just wanted to post it. no plot, lots and lots of fluff, though it's suggestive at the end. notes: two fics from me in a span of two weeks? who is she?!

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at the end

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dusk had begun to settle over the fire nation.

the view from their window was spectacular—the capitol glowed orange, and though she couldn’t see the people milling about as the palace was too far from the streets, she could see street lanterns light up one by one, thanks to sharp, precise strikes of fire by the resident benders.

the edges of the sea that touched the land—yours now, you reminded herself—was painted purple, soft curves of white cresting back and forth over the shore in a soothing sight. a flock of birds swelled over a patch of trees in the distance and flew over the island, and out of your line of vision.

the fire nation was magnificent. its people were alive and passionate, its land rich and fruitful. its cities were warm and inviting and interesting, filled with good food and celebrations yet teeming with secrets. it used to be such a scary place to you, because compared to the vast white tundra you'd called home for all your life, a foreign land that looked like a prison from far away, with its black houses and dark palace.

at the time, it felt like you was giving your life away.

someone called your name, and you turned to smile at your husband. he was still wearing the fire lord's pin on his head, but he'd already taken off the robes he often wore to meetings. "hello."

mingyu shut the door behind him and rubbed his temple as he walked into your bedroom. “hi. um, i'm sorry about earlier. i didn't mean to snap.”

you shook your head. "it's fine. i shouldn’t have been a nuisance to you in the middle of a meeting.”

pulling his hand away from his face, he sent you a tiny scowl. “you’re not a nuisance. you’re my wife.”

you cocked your head, walking over to him. "still. you're the fire lord. there are more important things for you to deal with."

his face soured. "i know you're trying to tease because i got short with you earlier, but please don't remind me. i just got over that meeting."

you suppressed your laugh. while mingyu's heart was in the right place, he often found himself at the mercy of the bureaucracy that ran the fire nation. he'd tried to keep his frustrations from you, especially that as the fire lady you'd had inadvertently signed up for the obligation to serve the public in some capacity, but you would always pry. at one point, you'd gotten into a rather heated argument about how he didn't seem to care about your opinions, which had led to a very upset mingyu because that wasn't the case at all, he just hadn't wanted you to see how hard of a time he was having.

you'd understood, really. running a nation was hard. but he didn't have to do it alone.

"you can always call me to come in, you know," you teased, laying your hands on his shoulders. "you know i love terrorizing old geezers."

mingyu's chuckle was deep and pleasant. "i'll remember that next time." he leans forward to kiss your forehead. "but seriously, you should join more meetings."

you hummed when he trailed his lips lower to place them on your mouth. you accepted his kiss before pulling away and walking towards the bed.

when you turned, you caught his open-faced admiration: the way he looked from your bare feet up to your exposed shoulder, peeking from beneath your robe. he didn't even try to hide that he was checking you out.

mingyu had always been such a gentleman to you since the day you'd met him that it still catches you off guard whenever he looks at you that way. it was such a guy thing for him to be caught doing, but you weren't going to lie and say that you didn’t like it.

as soon as mingyu put his hair ornament down on the dresser he walked over and stands in front of you. his hand came up to pull up your robe. "cover this up," he pouted. "people might see and i might get jealous."

you laugh. "sorry, fire lord."

he takes off his undergarments and you unabashedly admired his body; the way your husband kept himself up was very… easy on the eyes. the hard planes of his chest and abdomen finally revealed themselves, and you reached out to trail your fingers from his navel up to gently press against his chest.

mingyu hummed and changed the subject. “what were you thinking about by the window, my waterbender?” 

"the fire nation," you answered truthfully. "how it's so different from the south pole but just as beautiful."

"that's all?"

you climbed your hand up from his chest to his shoulder. "how scared i was when i had to move here after marrying you. it felt like i was giving away my soul." you climbed your hand higher, until it rested on his jaw. "in a way, i was."

"i'm sorry," mingyu murmured.

you shook your head. "don't be. i—" you caress the curve of his cheek with your thumb. "i think it's the best thing that's ever happened to me." you smiled. "you're also here, which is a bonus. gives me something nice to look at every once in a while."

mingyu snorted out a short laugh before letting out a comically loud sigh. "i knew it. you only married me for my body."

you kissed his cheek. "being a queen is nice too, but yeah. the main thing i'm here for is your body."

he sighed again before pulling away and dramatically falling against the bed, eyes closed and arms outstretched. "do what you must, wife," he cries, "i'm prepared to be ravished for the good of my people."

you laughed. "'for the good of your people'?"

he opened one eye to look at you. "whatever. i've had too long a day to come up with something less lame. can we skip to the ravishing part now, please?"

"i never agreed to ravish you."

"can you do it anyway?"

you laughed again. "is it okay if we put the lights out, then?”

"what?" mingyu's head popped up. "why?"

"to set the mood. hey, i'm doing the ravishing here, aren't i? lights off, please."

he pouted. "but what if i want to watch you?"

you rolled your eyes. mingyu was by no means an idiot, but he had a tendency to lose common sense when he was preoccupied with... other things. "then light them up again later, mingyu."

"oh. right." he cleared his throat. with a wave of his hand, the candles and sconces flickered and died, plunging the room into darkness, which was a mistake in hindsight.

"wait, mingyu, it's too dark! i can't see!"

you heard him snap his fingers and two of the furthest of lamps from the bed lit up.

"thanks," you chirped, climbing atop of him.

he gave you a pointed look. "i was promised a ravishing and i still haven't gotten it."

"you can never run a country if you're this impatient."

"we're wasting precious ti—ime!"

"can i start ravishing you now or should i wait for you to finish whatever you were saying?" you asked.

his answer was squeaky. "no, i'm good. i'll take the ravishing, please. thank you."

[swampgallows]

I wanna learn to appreciate Garrosh as much as you do can you recommend any resources

1. me 😊

(some of these posts are a little old so bear with me if they are clunky. i should really clean this up)

2. canon resources in (lore) chronological order:

world of warcraft: the burning crusade (game) - nagrand

world of warcraft: wrath of the lich king (game) - borean tundra - ulduar (trailer only) - trial of the champion - trial of the crusader - icecrown citadel*

world of warcraft issues #15-19 (vol.3) (comic books)* these are THE ugliest comics known to man and theyve been mostly retconned but it's technically garrosh's first appearance outside of the game so im including them

heart of war by sarah pine (short story)

the shattering: prelude to cataclysm by christie golden (novel)

world of warcraft: cataclysm (game) - silverpine forest - stonetalon mountains - twilight highlands (intro + dragonmaw recruitment quests which i cant find good footage of) - most of the horde campaign quests since he's warchief but those are the big ones

wolfheart by richard a knaak (novel)*

world of warcraft: mists of pandaria (game) - horde campaign intro cinematic - pandaren intro quests (horde) - jade forest* - scenarios*: theramore's fall, dagger in the dark, dark heart of pandaria, secrets of ragefire - landfall (dominance offensive, horde + operation: shieldwall, alliance) - siege of orgrimmar: cinematic trailer, full raid + alliance ending cinematic, combined horde + alliance ending cinematic

jaina proudmoore: tides of war by christie golden (novel)*

hearthstone (game) - book of mercenaries: rokara vs garrosh - book of heroes: garrosh - book of heroes: jaina* - book of heroes: thrall* - book of heroes: anduin*

war crimes by christie golden (novel)

gul'dan and the stranger (short comic)

hellscream by robert brooks (short story)

world of warcraft: warlords of draenor (cinematic + game) - nagrand ...2!

afterlives: revendreth (animatic)*

world of warcraft: shadowlands (game) - sanctum of domination (raid + cinematic)

*not directly about garrosh but he features prominently (either making an appearance or it's tied to his story)

if you are looking for the comics/novels you can find them and more on @/wrathion's warcraft content archive (last updated around the beginning of BFA / ~2018 so it doesnt have everything but it's got the garrosh stuff)

[tinysmileyrose]

Hey there!

Are you--yes, you--in the SCP and/or IHNMaIMS fandom and interested in roleplaying? Want to meet other people with your interests and share your headcanons? (writing this like an ad pains me)

Well well, you've come to the right place! This here is an offer for you to join one or both of my servers:

SCP:

The Area-371 server! Where I will be maining as our lovely Alto Clef, as well as other characters. There is a 10 canon/10 original limit!

Welcome to Area-371, an Armed Biological Containment and Research facility, located within the icy tundra known as Antarctica in the year 2018. A multitude of anomalous entities are contained, researched, and tested on underneath the surface; with ample room and personnel to strike when needed, the secluded placement renders the place safe, albite a bit (very) chilly.

To put it simply this is basically Site-19, but not. The place being "original" gives a bit of creative freedom.

IHNMaIMS:

The Darkened Groves server, where I shall be AM. Since there's only 6 canon characters, it's first come first serve with that, but you can have 5 OCs! (get it? if you get both you have 6 total characters, I found that funny)

After 109 years of being tortured in their own catered hells, the five humans turned AM's game around and overthrew the machine, as well as kicking off the terraforming of Earth for the Lunar colonists to be able to return; a thing that would take roughly 300 years. Although this enraged AM deeply, it resolved to fester within itself to prevent ruining the possibility of having the humans on Luna to torture, simply making an occasional microaggression or jab to prevent the humans from both getting too comfortable as well as keeping its own emotions at a less suffocating level. Sometime after the colonists settled, AM retaliated and readied itself in a world where it was the god of the five humans, and they were the gods to the colonists.

Basically, this is over 409 years after the world ended, since the colonists had to get settled and all. For roleplay purposes AM has a body!!

this was a pain in the ass why do we do this to ourselves lmaoao

[sims4cars-breezemotors]

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[htr2a]

climate change blackpill megapost

there are several climate tipping points identified in the united nations intergovernmental panel on climate change sixth assessment report (chapter 3, specifically). tipping points refer to critical thresholds in a system that, when exceeded, can lead to a significant change in the state of the system, often with an understanding that the change is irreversible. they are:

the greenland ice sheet

the west antarctic ice sheet

the atlantic meridional overturning current

monsoon systems

el niño-southern oscillation

tropical rainforests

northern boreal forests

thawing permafrost

extreme heat

current (2022) global warming of ~1.1°C above preindustrial temperatures already lies within the lower end of some tipping point uncertainty ranges. several tipping points may be triggered in the paris agreement range of 1.5 to <2°C global warming, with many more likely at the 2 to 3°C of warming expected on current policy trajectories.

greenland's ice sheet is in disequilibrium and we are committed to 2-3 meters of sea level rise from its melt alone in the next 200 years.

greenland's ice sheets have been melting twice as fast in the last twenty years as they were during the previous century.

rapid increase in the rate of melting of the west antarctic ice sheet is unavoidable.

the west antarctic ice sheet is retreating twice as fast as previously predicted

because of widespread seawater intrusion beneath the grounded ice of the thwaites glacier.

the west antarctic ice sheet will raise sea levels by four meters when it melts.

this is causing the atlantic meridional overturning current to collapse.

the gulf stream (aka amoc) is weakening. 99% confidence. measured volume through the florida straits has declined by 4% in the past 40 years

the gulf stream will collapse between 2025 and 2095. 95% confidence.

the north atlantic is four standard deviations above its historic temperatures.

when the amoc collapses, the arctic sea-ice pack will extend down to 50°n. the vast expansion of the northern hemispheric sea-ice pack amplifies further northern hemispheric cooling via the ice-albedo feedback.

a collapse of the atlantic meridional overturning circulation would have substantial impacts on global precipitation patterns, especially in the vulnerable tropical monsoon regions in west africa, east asia, and india where they will experience shorter wet seasons and longer dry seasons with an overall decrease in precipitation

although recent studies indicate that the amazon will experience net benefit from the collapse of the amoc with cooler temperatures and increased rainfall

increased el niño intensity will increase the frequency and severity of droughts in the amazon rainforest.

even if we were able to stabilize global mean temperature at 1.5º C, el niño intensity will continue to increase for a century

and the amazon rainforest is currently in the worst drought on record, which may indicate it has passed its threshold to maintain its own wet climate.

while widespread and persistent warming of permafrost has been observed in polar regions and at high elevations since about 1980, the highest permafrost temperatures in the instrumental record were recorded in 2018–2019 (data from 2019-2020)

as of 2019 the southern extent of permafrost had receded northwards by 30 to 80km

soil fires in the canadian arctic are burning the peat underground and melting the permafrost. stat from the study 70% of recorded area of arctic peat affected by burning over the past forty years has occurred in the last eight and 30% of it was in 2020 alone.

nasa finds that tundra releases plumes of methane in the wake of wildfires.

in 2023 eight times more land burned in canada than average.

russian siberia experienced a similarly massive fire season in 2021.

a methane source we weren’t expecting was warmer, wetter conditions to increase organic decomposition in tropical wetlands which is releasing ever increasing amounts of methane.

we have been experiencing exponential rise in atmospheric methane since 2006. historical data indicates that we may have entered into an ice age termination event fueled by these methane releases.

we have been over 1.5º C above pre-industrial temperatures since the beginning of 2023.

this may be because of the extreme el niño conditions of the 2023-24 cycle, but breaches of 1.5°C for a month or a year are early signs of getting perilously close to exceeding the long-term limit

and the world meteorological organization expects us to permanently break 1.5º C of warming from pre-industrial levels within the next five years.

the united nations environmental programme (unep) emissions gap report found that current fossil fuel extraction commitments leave no credible path to keeping warming below 1.5º C. based on current policies we will experience 2.8ºC of warming by 2100. even if all current pledges were implemented and followed through with (which they never have been), we will only be able to limit that to 2.4-2.6ºC of warming.

[crestfallen-infatuation]

They figure me a dead motherfucker

Oddy Nuff da Snow Leopard in a deep slumber

Hibernatin' for another three summers, slumped in a deep tundra

Still a mean mugger even though my eyes froze shut, uh

Tell 'em, "Keep comin', I'm the Don"

Gather my foes and then I cut out their tongue

Gather my hoes and then I have 'em eat each other

'Cause I make a mean supper, tryna [?], uh

Always lookin' down, my habits, like one time

Heavy lies the crown, locked up and the Don shine

Got that bag like five times now, Ruby's got like nine lives, how?

Live from outside, Nine Five'd up

My enemies on my side now

Isn't it so convincin' how that noose hang 'round my throat?

Still here longer than I hoped, all I know is I don't know

Dreams of me vanishin' in the abyss

Thinkin' Hell gotta be better than this

Music or dope, either way, I don't miss

Solutions like Ruby, they just don't exist

Still wakin' up every day, but I still ask "Why?"

2018, why couldn't I die?

Was it all worth it? I can't decide

Been lookin' everywhere except my insides (Yeah-yeah)

Look into my eyes, you can see what it costs

Lookin' for my day, you can see that I'm lost

But heavy is the crown, so I cede to the cross

Is this over-is this over yet?

Dreams of me vanishin' in the abyss

Thinkin' Hell gotta be better than this

[scribeofmorpheus]

As Fate Would Have It (Part 22)

Paring: WinterSoldier!Bucky x Spy!Reader

Catch Up here | Masterlist | AO3

Tumblr taglists are closed. Bookmark on AO3.

Warnings: PTSD.

Note: And the fic has been REVIVED! We've moved onto post-Civil-War era! Yay! Let me know if you want to be taken off the taglist!

~WAKANDA, 2018

“Take it slow,” Bucky read Shuri’s lips from the other side of the glass wall. She was speaking to Y/N, the data pad in her hand screening several diagnostics.

Steve stood beside him, an unreadable expression weighing on his face, hands placed on his hips. Could be disappointment, but Bucky couldn’t face that right now, not while staring at the scars and track marks lining Y/N’s back like a fucked-up star chart.

It was his fault. And it made breathing impossible; to see her so broken.

“Do you know where you are?” he read Shuri ask Y/N.

Y/N stuttered for a moment, her gaze trailing from her hands to her reflection in the glass. Her expression was that of confusion, as though it were a stranger looking back at her. She was practically a stranger to Bucky’s eyes too.

“What about your name?” he read Shuri say, a knot forming at her temples. “Can you tell me that?”

Y/N shook her head, her frame shaking.

At that moment, Shuri looked towards the observation window, meeting Bucky’s eyes with concern. Bucky’s heart nearly stopped at the implication. Something was wrong.

Steve sighed, running his hand through his hair. Not as blonde as it used to be, and uncharacteristically shaggy ever since he’d been on the run.

It was still a shock sometimes, seeing his best friend as this bastion of justice—a larger-than-life symbol of endurance. And yet, here he was, stripped of his stars and stripes, looking every bit as human as any man in a hospital waiting room.

“I still can’t believe it,” Steve said, pacing the room. “Elle… or Y/N… she’s—she’s alive.”

Bucky instinctively reached for his stump, remembering all the times he’d lunged at her with his metal arm with the intent to kill… the time he’d slipped his blade between her ribs.

Fuck! he balled his fist. What kind of monster tries to kill someone who loved him?

Now he was struck by memories of Steve on the airship. His friend's face bloodied, and so terribly close to mortality. To the end of the line.

“Buck?” Steve’s hand was on his shoulder, worry present in the tension of his jaw.

“What?” Bucky blinked several times, shaking his head clear of the past.

“Are you okay?” Steve asked. “Ever since we found her… you—well… I guess there’s no right way to take all this in, is there?”

“I did this, Steve,” Bucky’s voice cracked. “I did this to her.”

“Buck, you weren’t yourself. You can’t—”

“No! Not this time,” Bucky shrugged off Steve’s hand. “You can’t make excuses for me this time.”

“I’m not making excuses,” Steve’s jaw clamped up, then released in a controlled manner, as if gathering himself. “What Hydra did to you, what you’re going through… it’s not black and white. It’s not easy. And Elle… Y/N, whatever her story is, there’s no good to be found in blaming anyone here.”

“I know…” Bucky nodded, believing none of what his oldest friend was saying. “I know. Doesn’t make this any easier. Seeing her like this.”

“Do you know who did this to her?” Steve hesitated. “Was it Hydra too?”

“N-no… I-I don’t think so,” Bucky stammered. “I never saw her when they’d take me out of the tank. Hydra could have done this but… No. No, I don’t think it was us.”

Steve's brow arched, “Us?”

Bucky froze. “Them,” he corrected. “I never saw them experimenting on her.”

“But you have an idea who did?” Steve saw something in Bucky’s eyes, recognition perhaps.

He remembered seeing blood in the snow through the Winter Soldier’s eyes. Remembered catching a glimpse of white hair over the tundra through his scope. He never pulled the trigger though. He wished he could say it was because some part of him knew it was her, even through the brainwashing. In truth, she wasn’t a kill worth his time. She wasn’t his target that day. Instead, he’d cleared an entire encampment of mercenaries hired by Yelena Belova, the Winter Soldier’s actual target. The little rabbit. Down the rabbit hole.

“47. One of my first missions after the… conditioning. My orders were to destabilise the black widow operation in Russia. Yelena Belova. Handler of the Western Front Operatives. One of my main targets. During the…” Bucky took a deep breath, fighting the pain knocking around in his reprogrammed brain. He cleared his throat, unwilling to relive the flames and tortured cries. “In the confusion, Yelena got away. I tracked her movements throughout Russia, and she nearly got away, until I came upon an ambush.”

Steve stopped pacing and sat down on one of the chairs, “An ambush? For you?”

“No. There was a convoy transporting prisoners from some facility in the north. It had been hit by mercenaries. They made camp a few clicks west. Then I…” a dry lump fixed itself in his throat, and he almost failed to finish his sentence; Then I found Yelena Belova and ended her life with my boot on her neck.  

Steve’s eyes roamed Bucky’s form, taking in his shrunken stature, “Y/N was on that convoy, wasn’t she?”

“I think so… I think I saw her then. Through the scope. White hair in the snow.”

A mechanical hiss sounded out behind them, a pair of footsteps making their way closer, but they both ignored it—or rather, they were both too shell-shocked to respond immediately. Bucky from the memories, Steve from hearing his best friend tell him he killed an entire mercenary group that rescued POWs.

“You guys doing alright in here?” Shuri asked, her accent sounding more and more familiar to Bucky’s ears. Hell, Wakanda’s accent sounded less alien than Brooklyn’s would right now. “You look like you’ve seen a ghost. Never mind that, I got the diagnostics from the tests.”

Bucky opened his mouth, but nothing came out. He was too distracted by the scars on Y/N’s back.

“And?” Steve asked, standing from his chair.

“She’s fine, relatively speaking,” Shuri said, placing one of her Kimoyo Beads on an incave near a panel by the windows. The glass instantly turned opaque, blotting out the light with a matted effect, and then a hologram of Y/N’s body scans brightened the room blue. “Her electrolyte count is low, which is to be expected considering the cryostasis chamber she was in was ancient, possibly a fault with the defrost sequence. Left a lot of water to absorb into her system. A few vitamin deficiencies too, but we can treat those with supplements and diet.”

Shuri waved her hand over her Kimoyo Bead, bringing up an x-ray that showed multiple bone resets and mended fissures. One of them stood out to Bucky. Left ribcage, between the last two bones, a chip made from his military-grade issue knife.

“Looks like I’m staring at a veteran's x-ray,” Steve noted, his eyes filled with compassion. “Never would have thought… she was so… I don’t know. It’s hard to believe the woman who served us cobbler and coffee had broken so many bones.”

“She’s seen a lot of action,” Shuri nodded, “but these old breaks aren’t what’s troubling me. It's the oedema,” she waved her hand again, this time showing a brain x-ray with one part swirling and grey in a way the rest of the scan wasn’t.

“There’s swelling in her brain,” Bucky heard himself say the words like a man under some spell, never having intended to speak at all.

“It sounds worse than it is,” Shuri held her hands up to stop the both of them from freaking out, “But…”

“But?” Bucky pressed, not at all prepared for what he might hear.

“It’s causing memory loss,” she said carefully.

There it was. The other shoe finally dropped. And so did Bucky, nearly. He pivoted his weight onto his good hand to lean against the window overlooking the city, sagging onto the cool glass. His eyes focused on Y/N’s blurred figure behind the observation room’s glass, seated still on the medical bed, fidgeting with her hands.

Maybe this was a good thing, he thought. Maybe she can be spared the pain of remembering.

The image of him standing in front of the cryo-chamber, unfettered as it sealed Y/N inside with an air-sucking sound, was so jarring to relive. Then it all came flooding back: seeing cold mist fall over Y/N’s unconscious face; the name Elle leaving his unfamiliar lips; the bruising on his back taking the shape of a butterfly from caved in; the tingling in his spine as he remembered what the rubber cushioning of the mouth guard felt like as they strapped him back in his chair and made him forget.

“Is it… permanent?” Bucky asked.

“It’s too soon to tell,” Shuri worked a tense muscle in her neck, sighing. “She doesn’t remember her name, or what year it is… her memory could return once the swelling reduces, or it might take a little longer after the treatments, or…”

“Or it might not return at all,” Steve finished.

“For now, all we can do is wait,” Shuri plucked her Kimoyo Bead off the cupped indent and reattached it to the rest on her wrist. The window looking into the observation room became transparent again, startling Y/N from her thoughts.

Bucky met her eyes then, so familiar and so distant all at once. Those very same eyes had been filled with sadness the last time he saw her. A type of quiet acceptance of defeat. Now they were hollow—not in an emotionless way, just not holding any emotion towards him. And that hurt worse than any stray bullet he’d ever caught as the Winter Soldier.

“There is one more thing I have to look into,” Shuri said. “Her blood work shows a strange synthesised compound localised around both kidneys, its chemical markup shows similarities to yours, Bucky. I think she may have traces of supersoldier serum in her system, but it's not an exact match for either sample in our records. More derivative, from the compound structure. I'd need to run some more bloodwork to be sure, and maybe monitor her body's homeostatic imbalance when stressed, but for now, I think she's calm enough to receive visitors.” 

Steve’s hand was on Bucky’s bad shoulder, ushering him to stand stronger, take a step forward. “You should go speak with her,” Steve said softly. “It might help.”

Bucky’s boots scuffed the floor, his footing unsure as he almost followed Steve’s advice. Then this clawing feeling of guilt ripped at him from the inside, tore him apart like delicate paper, and Bucky found it difficult to breathe.

“No… I… I can’t,” he pinched the bridge of his nose, fighting off a worse headache between the eyes. “I need a minute,” he shambled towards the door, forgetting words on his tongue, names of things, colours.

“Buck, wait!” Steve almost went after him.

Shuri stepped in his path, hand out as if she possessed telekinesis strong enough to hold Steve in place, “He needs time, too. We can’t push him, not when his mind’s still… confused.”

Bucky reflexively recoiled, feeling cornered, uncertain of everything. Suddenly, the room was too crowded, lights too bright. He had to get out.

Bucky looked to Y/N again, remembering her bittersweet promise as Elle, I can promise that my heart will always belong to you, Bucky, remembering her frightening conviction as she pressed the detonator in the cryo-storage basement, If I can’t save you, we’ll just have to burn together, and saw neither of those women in her.

He’d destroyed her. But he’d be damned if he’d be responsible for hurting her again. Without her memories, she was safe… from him.

 “I have to go,” he said before storming out of the medical building.

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1972 FJ 45 Prerunner (Video Inside)

Engine: 2007 Tundra 5.7 I-Force V8  550 hp with Magnuson Supercharger Travel Race Kit

Suspension: Front 2007 Tundra 4×4 chassis, LSK Tundra 4×4 Long Travel Race Kit strapped and bumped at 19.25″ of travel, King Race Series 10″ 2.5 Coilover and 3.5 Triple Bypass shocks with finned reservoirs and Swift Springs. Rear suspension is trailing armed triangulated 4 link strapped at 24″ of travel with King Shocks 14″ 2.5 Coilover with remote reservoir and 3.0 Quadruple Bypass shocks with piggyback reservoir. 

Wheels/Tires/Brakes: 37″ BFG Baja TA’s on 17×17.5 Raceline Avenger Beadlocks, Powerstop slotted and drilled rotors and pads

Body:  FJ40 Wagon hand formed into an FJ45 pickup cab with 4″ extension, Datsun rear bedsides, 2018 BMW M5 Snapper Rocks Blue paint and body work done by Matthew Miller of Nefarious Kustoms, Campbell Racing hood

Interior: Fiberwerx dash, 4×4 Spod Source, custom tilt column with NRG quick release and MPI suede wheel, PRP heated suede Podium seats, Crowe 5 point harness, Holley EFI touchscreen display

Misc: 4.88 Nitro Gears, UMP air intake, , Jamar cutting brake, Derale trans cooler, 31×19” Race Radiator with dual fans, dual Bosch 044 fuel pumps, dual Total Power batteries, long tube headers, cat delete, Magnaflow race mufflers with handmade exhaust tips, LED headlights, 32 gallon Jaz Fuel Cell, gold powder coating by 6651 Customs

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BEANSONBREAD AWARDS 2023 - BEST SONG

AWARD NO.5 - BEST SONG OF 2023

PAST WINNERS

2022 > Jockstrap 'Concrete Over Water' (see full list HERE)

2021 > Self Esteem ‘Prioritise Pleasure’ (see full list HERE)

2020 > Jockstrap ‘Acid’ (see full list HERE)

2019 > Weyes Blood ‘Andromeda’ (see full list HERE)

2018 >Let’s Eat Grandma ‘It’s Not Just Me’ (see full list HERE)

2017 > Richard Dawson ‘Ogre’ (see full list HERE)

2016 > Solange ‘Cranes In the Sky’ (see full list HERE)

2015 > Kendrick Lamar ‘The Blacker The Berry’ (see full list HERE)

2014 > FKA Twigs ‘Two Weeks’ (see full list HERE)

2013 > Oliver Wilde ‘Perrett’s Brook’ (see full list HERE)

2010 > Untold ‘Stop What You’re Doing (James Blake Remix) (see full list HERE)

2009 > Joker - ‘Digidesign’ (see full list HERE)

2008 > Lil’ Wayne - ‘A Milli’ (see full list HERE)

2007 > Panda Bear - ‘Bros’ (see full list HERE)

2006 > Hot Chip - ‘Over And Over’ (see full list HERE)

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RULES - A maximum of THREE tracks from any one artist. Songs can be tied in the same position.

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THE RUNNERS UP (in alphabetical order)

100 Gecs ‘Hollywood Baby’

Alabaster DePlume ‘Did You Know’

Animal Collective ‘Soul Capturer’ / ‘Defeat’

Aphex Twin ‘Blackbox Life Recorder 21f’

Avey Tare ‘The Musical’

Bar Italia ‘Nurse!’ / ‘My Little Tony’  

Bas Jan ‘No More Swamp’

BC Camplight ‘The Last Rotation Of Earth’

Beabadoobee & Clairo ‘Glue Song’

Beck & Phoenix ‘Odyssey’

Benjamin Spike Saunders ‘I Can’t Impress You’

Big Thief ‘Vampire Empire’

Biig Piig ‘In The Dark’

Blur ‘The Narcissist’

Danny Brown ‘Tantor’ / ‘Jenn’s Terrific Vacation’

Das Koolies ‘Pain Down The Drain’

Dean Blunt & TYSON ‘Rinsed’

Divorce ‘Scratch Your Metal’

Django Django ‘Don’t Touch That Dial’ / ‘Black Cadillac’

Dorian Electra ‘Puppet’

English Teacher ‘The World’s Biggest Paving Slab’

Feist ‘Borrow Trouble’

Felicita ‘Spalarkle (Alys)'

Firestations ‘Undercover’

Hannah Diamond ‘Affirmations’ / ‘Twisted’

H. Hawkline ‘Plastic Man’

Janelle Monae, Seun Kuti, Egypt 80 ‘Float’

Jessy Lanza ‘Limbo’

Jockstrap ‘Sexy 2’

John Cale ‘Noise Of You’

JPEGMAFIA & Danny Brown ‘Scaring The Hoes’ / ‘Lean Beef Patty’

Kara Jackson ‘Dickhead Blues’

Katy J Pearson ‘Willow’s Song’

Kelela ‘Contact’

King Krule ‘Seaforth’

The Lemon Twigs ‘Any Time of Day’

Lil Yachty ‘Drive Me Crazy!’

Liz Lawrence & Steve Mason ‘I Was There’

Magdalena Bay ‘Top Dog’

Martha Ffion ‘The Wringer’

MAY ‘Phone Me’

Memotone ‘Door To The Sky’

MGMT ‘Bubblegum Dog’ / ‘Mother Nature’

Minor Conflict ‘Second-Hand Time / ‘Living Statue’

Mitski ‘Bug Like An Angel’

Mun Sing ‘Waiting In The Car’

Nadine Shah ‘Topless Mother’

Nourished By Time ‘Daddy’ / ‘The Fields’

Oneohtrix Point Never ‘On An Axis’

One True Pairing ‘Frozen Food Centre’

Overmono ‘Good Lies’

Panda Bear, Sonic Boom, Adrian Sherwood ‘Whirlpool Dub’

Patten ‘Walk With U’

Pinkpantheress & Ice Spice ‘Boy’s A Liar Pt.2’

Pozi ‘Failing’ / ‘Pest Control’

Quade ‘Streching Out’

Roisin Murphy 'CooCool'

Rozi Plain ‘Complicated’ / ‘Painted The Room’

Seamus Fogarty ‘They Recognised Him’

Shabazz Palaces ‘Binoculars’

Sierra Manhattan ‘Smartphones’

Slauson Malone 1 ‘New Joy’

Sleaford Mods ‘UK Grim’ / ‘Force 10 From Navarone’

The Smile ‘Wall Of Eyes’

Squid ‘Siphon Song’ / ‘Undergrowth’

Steve Mason ‘The People Say’

Tapeworms ‘IRL’

Terry ‘Gold Duck’

Tirzah ‘No Limit’

Trust Fund ‘London’

Vagabon ‘Carpenter’

Warmduscher ‘Love Strong’

Weird Wave ‘Unrecognise!’

Wesley Gonzalez ‘Dress Rehearsal’ / ‘When I Rot’

Yaeji ‘For Granted’ / ‘Done (Let’s Get It)’

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THE TOP 25 SONGS OF 2023

25. Bjork & Rosalia ‘Oral’

24. MF Tomlinson ‘We Are Still Wild Horses’

23. Fever Ray ‘Even It Out’

22. Dorian Electra ‘Freak Mode’

21. Nourished By Time ‘Shed The Fear’

20. ANOHNI & The Johnsons ‘It Must Change’

19. Young Fathers ‘Rice’

18. Kwes, Sampha, Tirzah ‘Open Up’

17. Max Tundra ‘Lights 2023’

16. Squid ‘Undergrowth’

15. Tara Clerkin Trio ‘Marble Walls’

14. Rozi Plain ‘Help’

13. The Lemon Twigs ‘When Winter Comes Around’ / ‘Corner Of My Eye’

12. Animal Collective ‘Gem & I’

11. Max Tundra ‘This Woman’s Work’

10. Water From Your Eyes ‘Barley’

9. Django Django & Self Esteem ‘Complete Me’

8. JPEGMAFIA & Danny Brown ‘Burfict!’

7. Bill Ryder-Jones ‘This Can’t Go On’

6. Squid ‘Swing (In A Dream)’

5. Tara Clerkin Trio ‘The Turning Ground’

4. Lana Del Rey ‘A&W’

3. Steve Mason ‘Brixton Fish Fry’

2. Caroline Polachek ‘Dang’

1. Oneohtrix Point Never ‘A Barely Lit Path’

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i know random but i love how tundra hair is similar to alec's in a way, also like who their little sibling 👁️👁️

LET ME FIND. THE HACHI COMIC. ITS SO FUCKING OLD ITS FROM LIKE 2018 BUT Hachi is literally. Shredders dog that accidentally got mutated with Alec and Chris’s (mostly Chris’s) DNA by Baxter. He immediately latched on to Alec and Chris and Alec was like “ 🥺 we can’t just leave him all alone,,,,, he’s a BABY..,,” so they got. A fucking . They have another kid. Accidentally. Two for two accidental kid adoptions

(I have to rework the timeline for this bc I figured he’d get mutated when Baxter first gets his fucking. Sigh. His mutagen collar. BUT CHRIS WAS DOUBLE MUTATED IN THAT EP and hachis mutated during his first mutation so I gotta rework stuff)

Also I didn’t realize it til years later but her hair is absolutely similar to Alec’s and I think she does it on purpose :’) that’s her fucking mom and she loves them

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hiii skins and accents for offferrrrrrrrrr :3

i'm putting skins/accents i don't want up for offer - red X'd out are Not for sale, orange question marks are Maybe if it's a very good offer (i may find use for them myself/will be using them in different times of the year but i may be persuaded for the right price), all unmarked are free for offers (in treasure, prefereably, but i won't necessarily say no to gems). i am also putting this in the items for sale forums. will also have examples of how the accents/skins look on there (not this post tho sowwy).

edit! blue asterisks mean they've been sold :3

accents + skins names under the cut feel free to rb ok thank u. <3

UNMARKED SKINS + ACCENTS, ORDER OF APPEARANCE:

Accent: Research Notes - Coatl F Pose

Accent: Maren Warrior - Mirror M Pose, x 2

Accent: Bogsmog - Bogsneak M Pose, Flameforger's Festival 2017

Skin: Snappy Conductor - Snapper F Pose, Thundercrack Carnivale 2018

Skin: Ancestor - Snapper M Pose, Rockbreaker's Ceremony 2018, full-body/hides wings

Skin: Sweater Weather - Mirror F Pose, Crystalline Gala 2019

Skin: Ancient Heritage - Tundra M Pose, Crystalline Gala 2019, full-body/hides wings

Accent: Hydrothermal Vent - Ridgeback M Pose, Wavecrest Saturnalia 2019

Accent: Solarium - Coatl M Pose, Brightshine Jubilee 2019

Skin: Reign of Fire - Imperial F Pose, Flameforger's Festival 2019, full-body

Accent: Curse of the Slain - Ridgeback M Pose, Riot of Rot 2020

Accent: Glacial Veins - Mirror F Pose, Crystalline Gala 2021

Accent: Moonstone Queen - Guardian F Pose, Trickmurk Circus 2021

Accent: Marinated Rot - Gaoler M Pose, Riot of Rot 2021

Accent: Cinderslag Railway - Snapper F Pose, Flameforger's Festival 2022 SOLD!

Accent: Winterbloom - Fae M Pose, Crystalline Gala 2023

Accent: Frosted Roses - Nocturne F Pose, Crystalline Gala 2023

Accent: Midnight Jester - Nocturne F Pose, Trickmurk Circus 2023

Accent: Little Sea Slugger - Fae M Pose, Wavecrest Saturnalia 2023

Accent: King of the Forest - Obelisk M Pose, Greenskeeper Gathering 2023

QUESTION-MARKED SKINS/ACCENTS, ORDER OF APPEARANCE, includes reasons why I may keep them instead:

Accent: Death by Flower - Imperial F Pose, Greenskeeper Gathering 2019 - very pretty, very pink, I like pink

Skin: Spirit Boon - Coatl F Pose, Brightshine Jubilee 2019 - I like the Light Emblem on it

Accent: Storm Thrower - Ridgeback M Pose, Thundercrack Carinvale 2019 - may fit/compliment my Lightning Ridgeback

Accent: Sea Nettle Symbiote - Bogsneak F Pose, Wavecrest Saturnalia 2022 - I think it looks neat :)

Accent: Bunch of Lilies - Aberration M Pose, Greenskeeper Gathering 2023 - may use for one of my Aberrations and its cute :)

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"Tundra Man Stage (Arranged)" from Mega Man 11

(2018 / Various)

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