#11th grade history classroom

[mthevlamister]

Actually I am too high maintenance

[call-me-maggie13]

My late 40s to early 50s boss just asked what’s wrong with 18-25 year olds these days

And as a 21 year old all I could think was

The world has been on fire since we were born and we’ve been told the adults are putting it out and now we’re old enough to realize they’ve been pouring kerosene on the flames instead of water.

Before my first birthday, 9/11 happened and the world wouldn’t let us forget it. When I was 6 years old, on September 11th, my teacher sat us down in front of a tv and showed us footage of 9/11 and then told us we weren’t allowed to cry. She said that it was real and those were real people jumping from the building because jumping was a faster death than burning.

When I was 7 years old, the economy collapsed and my family went from lower middle class to poverty, we went from healthy home cooked meals every night to mac and cheese and beans for weeks in a row. We started skipping holidays because mom and dad couldn’t keep the lights on and buy us new toys. We started wearing clothes and shoes until they fell apart.

When I was 11 years old, Sandy Hook was attacked by a grown man with a gun and 26 children and teachers were brutally murdered. My teachers never looked at us the same and I haven’t felt safe in a school since. After that, once a month we would have active shooter drills and we were taught to fight and cause as much damage as possible if an armed man entered our classroom because it gave other classes a few extra seconds to escape, it gave our siblings a few extra breaths of safety. We were taught to cover ourselves in other students blood and play dead if we weren’t hit, we were taught that we weren’t safe and we wouldn’t be safe as long as we were in school.

When I was 15 years old, my high school art teacher locked us in the classroom and told us if we heard gunshots we should line the desks up lengthwise so that they reached the other wall because that would be harder to break through than a barricade. She told us that she knew about the threats and she wouldn’t judge any of us that wanted to leave. She told us to get our siblings and stay in the buildings as long as possible, to duck in between the cars so we couldn’t be seen until we got to ours. She told us about the trail behind the auto shop that was lined with trees and led off campus. I got my brother and his friends and we left, we spent the day sitting on the floor in my living room waiting for a phone call that the people we left behind were dying.

Two weeks later, one of my friends dragged me out of a football game and forced me to go home with him. He grabbed my brothers and my best friend and forced the six of us into a two seater car before he would tell us anything. His mom worked for the school board and had told him the police found an active bomb under the bleachers in the student section, and they weren’t informing anyone because they didn’t want to incite panic.

When I was 16 years old, ISIS set off a bomb at a pop concert in Britain and killed 22 people, injuring at least 100 more. The next day at school, our teachers went over how to stay safe if we ever experienced something like that. They told us the most important thing to remember was to not remove any shrapnel because it could be keeping us from bleeding out, they said it was more important to get yourself out safely before you worried about anyone else.

When I was 18 years old, my teachers stopped teaching and put the news up on the projector and we watched as the Notre-Dame burned. The boy I had sat next to since second grade spent the entire day trying to call his sister who was studying abroad in Paris, I watched this kid I had never even seen frown fall apart in English because she wouldn’t pick up the phone. We didn’t know it at the time, but she was okay.

Six months later, my history teacher put the news on the projector again for another fire. This time, we watched as an entire continent burned for three months. We watched their sky turned orange from the smoke and their wildlife drowned in pools because they were trying to escape the heat.

When I was 19 years old, the whole world shut down because of a global pandemic. I didn’t meet a single new person for eight months, despite the fact that I had just moved across the country. I watched as people didn’t wear masks and spread it to everyone around them, I was so scared when I went back to my room every night because my roommate was immunocompromised and I was terrified I would give her Covid and kill her.

Just two months later, I watched a video of a black man being murdered by police officers. I watched the world around me explode after George Floyd’s death, people destroying businesses and police stations. I watched some of my friends realize police officers didn’t exist to keep them safe, they existed to keep the people in power in power. I learned that some of the people I had grown up with would rather watch a black man die than admit that maybe, maybe, the system was broken.

When I was 20 years old, I went to the mall with a friend to buy a birthday present and I was pulled to the ground by a twelve-year-old girl after gunshots went off in the mall. I held this child’s hands as she cried for two hours until we were evacuated by police, and then I waited with her outside and helped her look for her mom. I gave her my phone to call her mom and I watched as she called the number over and over and never got a reply. I waited with her until a police officer took her to the station to try to find out more information about the girl’s mom, I hugged this girl I had never seen before and I wished her the best. I never found out what happened to her or her mom, it keeps me up at night sometimes worrying that this little girl was orphaned.

When I was 21 years old, I started working at a daycare and exactly a week later, Uvalde happened and I found myself crying because my students are the same age those kids were. When they came in after school the next day, one of them had asked me if I had heard about Uvalde and I told her I had, I asked her if she was scared of going to school because of it. Her reply broke my heart. “We practice for it every week so that when it happens to us, we know what to do. I’m just worried that the shooter is going to start in my baby sister’s classroom and not mine.” I listened as other students with younger siblings agreed with her, one of them saying “I would take fifty bullets, if I had to to keep my little brother safe.”

Early this year, I watched Russia launched bombs into Ukraine, blowing up churches and schools and hospitals and apartment buildings. I watched as the estimated death count rose from the hundreds to the thousands to the tens of thousands. I watched men send their wives and children to bordering countries for refuge while they stayed behind to fight, knowing they would probably never see each other again.

Just four months ago, I watched as my right to medical privacy got taken away. I watched my old roommate fall apart because she was denied the right to have her dead fetus removed from her body for almost two days, I worried every time I looked away from her that the next time I saw her would be in a casket. I watched as the women around me realized the military-grade weapons that had torn children in classrooms apart were protected by the government but our bodies weren’t.

There is nothing “wrong” with my generation, we’ve experienced all these things as children and were expected to respond with patriotism for a country that continuously sacrificed their children for the “right” to military-grade weapons, that took away my freedom of choice. We are tired, we were told the world was a wonderful place then shown, at every step, how the world was a place of destruction and pain. And we are angry. We are angry because no one but us seems to be trying to fix anything. And we are scared. We are scared because our children, our nieces and nephews, our cousins and our friends children are growing up in a world that won’t protect them.

[ispyspookymansion]

my history teacher in 11th grade had a cardboard cutout of reagan in his classroom and towards the end of the year i started putting post it note speech bubbles on it with things like “i ignored the aids crisis intentionally” and “my techniques ruined the economy for the average man” and he never caught me doing it they would just always be gone by the next day

[novemberthewriter]

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I think he’s pretty in a ‘can I make out with your brain’ way.

He spent so much of the first years he had me trying to get me to Form Good Habits — and God, was I resistant to writing everything by hand (I write like a doctor, I type so much better), to doing the cartography assignments (a handmade map copied out of the textbook for Every. Single. Learning Unit), etc, etc.

Until end of 11th grade hit me with the realization that I only had one more year in which I'd be justified in hanging around him all the time. Just like that: I was leaning into everything I admire about him, and his mind, and all his quirks. My own Senior Sendoff (since Dodie’s not here but let's not dwell on that now).

The new block schedule means I get to bask in him more during his sessions. I, like all the other students, use the excess time to help him decorate his classroom and rearrange desks and all the things good pupils should do. I, like all the other students, get told ‘lovely job, dear’ — but I’m fairly certain I’m of a small, small population of people really honing in on the use of ‘dear’. It’s a pet name and I know it’s platonic but I love silly teacher crushes so much, it’s fun to imagine the pet names are meant as sweetly as I want them to be. The camp and melodrama and theatrics of it all. Performance. Girlhood as Drag and Cabaret.

I had a similar teacher pet name sitch when I took a supplemental history course on a whim last year. Miss Hendrix made me shudder every time she did roll call. She made me shudder just by existing. I loved studying her. She was a Young Teacher, bright and tiny and could've been in K-12 with me, she wasn't that far out of college. She had that … surfer blonde look. Peggy Lipton in the 60s. Or Bridget Fonda in Jackie Brown. She was a history teacher that teased the hipsters among us about our old movie obsessions. Listen, I was failing that class 'cause I couldn't pay attention 'cause every time she called me 'honey' I thought I’d melt through the floor into the bottom of the earth.

[indihome-suck]

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Ok so kurikulum merdeka or as I like to say "kurikulum terjajah" throws alllllllll the subjects indiscriminately on you at 10th grade (resulting in like 15 or more subjects), THEN you can customize the subjects you take whatever you want depends on the college major you want to take!

11th grade is where you can finally have those "customized" subject combination. Other schools chooses to make "packets" of subjects per class. With different combinations of subjects in every class. And urges the students to pick which class they'd want to attend, according to their major or career choice.

My school on the other hand has WAY more experience with this complicated ass curriculum. Being one of the school where they tested the curriculum on (that being the year before me therefore the current 12th grade). My school made a student survey and urges the students to consults to the school counselors often.

The combination that's more than 10 students want will be accepted as a valid "major" within the school body. Students with niche combinations will be recommended to a similar major.

For example: me and my friend wanted the combo of physics, informatics, geography and advanced math (acronym FIGM) as we both are interested in civil engineering. But we're the only one who wanted that, so we got to choose which similar major to go to instead. In the end, my friend switched geography with economy (EFIM) and I switched geography with chemistry (FIKM).

Some majors are more popular than others for being basically the same as the previous curriculum two class variants. As we said it, pure science (biology, physics, chemistry and advanced math/BFKM) and pure social studies (economy, geography, sociology and German/EGJS. because my school doesn't have advanced history).

There's two more popular combos that doesn't adhere to that though. Like health major (biology, economy, chemistry and sociology/BEKS) and forestry (biology, economy, geography, sociology/BEGS).

Those 4 combo's/majors have enough students to fill a class, so each have classes of their own. Being that, they don't need to move classes between subjects.

How about the rest of the majors you ask? Well, they don't have enough students to fill a class, so they get mushed together to fill one.

I'm not kidding.

For the remaining classes, up to three different majors are situated in the same class. Therefore moving the class between subjects to accommodate all the students.

Physics major have three variants, BFIM, EFIM, and BFIK. There's more than ten students to each major, but none reach more than 15 so they're in the same class. Coincidentally (or not) their homeroom teacher is our physics teacher!

The other variant of forestry that is BGJS, the engineering major FIKM (mine!), And what my friend describe as being the "entertainment" major BEJS, are quite the predicament though. Both BGJS and FIKM reach more than 20 students, not enough to fill a classroom but still a lot. BEJS however, doesn't quite reach 20 yet, and therefore split into two between the classes.

Those last classes being moving classes results in some mixing of majors in the subjects. FIKM often meets BFIK in chemistry. EFIM and BEJS are together for economy. But there's where it ends. The physics major aren't in the physics lab at the same time as engineering, and German forestry (lol) aren't in the lab when entertainment majors are doing German.

All and all, this curriculum is waaaay more fun once you get to this phase (named phase F). 10th grade, or phase E, is only made for torture testing your toes in each subject. I'll admit, 10 graders have it way worse then 11 and 12 graders.

Studying... Wait I'll list it: biology, economy, chemistry, geography, informatics, sosiology and physics, all of the required subjects like maths, English, Indonesian, PPKN, history, arts, religious studies, home economics/prakarya and more. So like, not fun.

Holy shit that's a lot, I hope this ain't boring for you Ori🫡 good luck with school!

[theres-whump-in-that-nebula]

I have been mistaken for so many different people and ages my whole life and it’s kind of funny

5th Grade — ?:

So for reference: I have baby face syndrome, but I’ve always dressed neatly and in a way VERY unconventional for my age group; often wearing vintage clothing, fancy hats, heels, tucked-in shirts, granny sweaters, men’s clothes, etc. Anyway, I never liked holding my dad’s hand in public past age the age of ten, because some dingus would always assume we were husband and wife. Oh hell no. Once it happened while my mother was standing right next to him (and the guy was an Jehovah’s Witness elder, because of course he was).

7th Grade:

I was asked point-blank by a 20-year-old “So have you graduated high school yet?” No, I’m twelve and suffering through the doldrums of middle school. Yes, this is a cry for help.

8th Grade:

The first day of school, I walked into art class. I was wearing coooorduroy britches dodging hitches I was working on the railway a gray sheath dress with a yellow blouse underneath of it, stockings, and high gray platforms. Very corporate, I guess. And I’ve known how to walk (run, and skip) in heels since age seven; so I was not awkward-looking at all.

I made a beeline for the teacher’s desk to get a look at the seating chart. The teacher, upon seeing me enter the room, went to shake my hand, asking my name, and if I’m the new student-teacher. I was like, “No; I’m a student. I’d just like to know where to sit.”

Later on that year, crazy hair day came along, and I wore a short blonde wig to school (I used to have 40” of hair). I confused the hell out of my history teacher because she thought I was a different kid sitting in her student’s spot.

9th Grade:

The same thing happened in my pottery class. I shoved my bangs underneath my hat on the first day, and came in with no hat the second. The teacher asked who I was because she hadn’t seen me before. I kind of get that, because it’s hard to spot kids across a playground if they get a haircut or put on a hat. I always look at their gait to tell who’s who.

In the Workforce:

I substituted for someone in a high school classroom, in a 1st — 11th grade school. I was sitting outside the office in a chair because the classroom wasn’t open yet. At that moment, I wasn’t on my phone and was halfway staring off into space, probably cracking my knuckles or something. I was dressed casually (cargo pants and a sweater), with a bag at my side on the floor.

This staff member walked past me, then back again to say “hello.” I said “hello” back. He asked some question about why I was sitting out in the hallway, and if I was lost. I replied that I was there from another school to substitute for a staff member, as I am a paraprofessional, and had been asked to sit in the hallway until the teacher arrives.

“Oh. Sorry, I thought you were a student. I haven’t seen you before, ahaha…” Very awkward.

Later on, the students in the district had an Autism Acceptance Walk. We had to walk through a tunnel of people, who gave the kids (and adult students) high-fives. Apparently, people thought I was one of the students, because they were thrusting their hands out at me, specifically, to high-five them, despite the fact that I was surrounded by a bunch of tiny children. I heard someone say “she’s cute” in a diminutive tone (it had to be about me, because the only other feminine person around was an imposing older lady). To be fair though, I’ve consistently gotten scores in the 130s—140s on the RAADS-R (among other online tests); but…….. I don’t know if my traits are a naturally-occurring phenomena or a weird religious trauma-induced thing. I’m also not a student and I wasn’t about to steal their thunder; so after feeling compelled to high-five exactly one person, I kept my eyes forward and didn’t look at anyone but the kids in front of me until we were out of the tunnel.

Towards the end of the year, I met with some corporate people I had never seen in person at a restaurant. I shook their hands and introduced myself with my first name. They were surprised when I sat down with them because they thought I was a waitress… I was wearing all black, and apparently had an air of “business” about me (how else would I act or look around corporate people?) We had a laugh about it

Oh and one time when I was at a mid-level elementary school watching the kids on the playground, the STUDENTS came up to me and asked if I was a kid or a teacher. I— 😂😭 My friends, I’m an adult. I am a Designated Mother Figure.

And consistently, to this day, I get asked a LOT by fellow customers “Excuse me, Miss… Do you know where [item] is?” It always happens in art stores for some reason… maybe it’s my hair? I my hair to express myself? (and for some reason I have an aversion to dying it green)

[malocclusive]

Day 2 I already had to fucking refer a kid to admin.

Racism/transphobia/ambient homophobia under the cut

Fucking bonkers thing to write as someone in 11th grade. Of course I can find your edit history. I don't care that it was a joke with your friend, you wrote a damn racial slur to make a joke about pronouns.

In the classroom of one of the two nonbinary teacher's rooms. That was a pointed and deliberate choice.

Went right to admin with the pages from the student code of conduct that were breached, and she was NOT PLEASED.

Got a "well it was a joke" etc apology and did the most stern dad teardown of how I'm doing all of this to get to know them better and respect the students, and how it's precisely that type of behavior that makes folks feel excluded that I'm avoiding. Fucking shuffle doff with his tail between his legs.

I might not be able to change your mind, but you sure as shit aren't going to verbalize that in here.

[tropicana-on-the-walkway]

Everyone's like "stop with this gay woke bs in schools!!" But when I was in 7th grade in 2016 I got called a dyke and told a teacher and she was like "do you like girls?" And I was like "yeah " and that was it. In 11th grade I took a college level us history class and when we got to the time period of the aids epidemic I asked my teacher if we were going to cover it and she was straight up like "we don't do that here " Wdym dragshows in the classrooms I said the word gay in my 6th grade math class and my math teacher pulled me aside and said not to say that in his class.

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[187days]

Day Sixty-Eight

There have been some ongoing issues at my school lately: graffiti in the bathrooms, foul language in the hallways, chronic absenteeism and class cutting... It’s not that there are a ton of students doing this stuff, most of them are behaving just fine; it’s that the ones who are doing it keep doing it, and they haven’t responded to any disciplinary/deescalatory/educational/restorative/whatever thing that’s been done. I know some of my coworkers have been really vocal in their frustration about that.

I don’t know what the solution is, and I’m not sure anyone else does either. I do know that these issues, combined with a statewide alert in response to a bunch of fake threats to schools, had a lot of people on edge today. Or, as one of my students phrased it, “There’s just a lot of tension.”

Thankfully, there wasn’t much of that tension in my classroom (that’s not so much to do with me as it is to do with the fact that most of the students who are causing these issues are in 10th and 11th grade, which I don’t teach). So I had a pretty darn good day. 

It started with one of my favorite APGOV assessments: a Socratic discussion about “Letter from Birmingham Jail” and “The Ballot or the Bullet.” I knew it was going to be challenging because so many of my students, as I’ve mentioned several times because they don’t speak up in class very often. They’re risk-averse, and they don’t want to say the “wrong” thing. But, since this was a graded assessment, they had to say something. And, ultimately, they all did. Some of them even spoke up as much as their more typically talkative classmates, which was really cool. And everyone seemed to enjoy it because it’s something different, something that can be confidence-boosting. 

So maybe my class will get louder from now on? We’ll see.

My World students, who never have a problem being loud (in a good way), watched and discussed an excerpt from Fight Like Soldiers, which is about efforts to rescue and rehabilitate child soldiers in the DR Congo and South Sudan from various armed groups, including the LRA. We also read a news article together about the ICC plan to try Joseph Kony in absentia. The article’s just a few days old, so now we’ve walked up through history from the colonial era to the present day in central Africa. I told my students we were going to “take a similar walk” through history in another part of the world: Iran. A few of them knew about the protests there, so they guessed where we’d end up on this walk, and got their classmates curious to learn. So that’s cool.

So, in both classes, students were talking about really big things: justice and injustice, identity, prejudice, whether there’s a “right” way to push for change, whose responsibility it is to address problems, what do powerful countries or groups owe to those less powerful, etc, etc... It’s awesome to hear to their thoughts, answer their questions, and share ideas with them. I’d say that’s the best part of my job.

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When to Start JEE Coaching and Why Canara Vikaas PU College in Mangalore Is an Ideal Choice

Starting your journey toward cracking the Joint Entrance Examination (JEE) is an important decision, and knowing when to begin your coaching can make a significant difference. JEE, known for its challenging and competitive nature, tests students’ understanding of fundamental concepts in physics, chemistry, and mathematics. While many students start their preparation journey at different stages, joining JEE coaching in 11th grade is often recommended. Here’s a closer look at why 11th grade is the ideal time to start, and why Canara Vikaas PU College, powered by Allen Kota, stands out as one of the Best coaching for JEE.

Why 11th Grade Is the Right Time to Begin JEE Coaching

The curriculum for JEE is extensive, covering core subjects that demand not only thorough understanding but also strategic problem-solving skills. Beginning in 11th grade gives students ample time to build a solid foundation and provides a two-year window to master both the 11th and 12th-grade concepts. By starting in 11th grade, students can:

Develop a Strong Conceptual Base: Both the JEE Main and Advanced papers test concepts from the 11th and 12th-grade syllabi. Starting in 11th grade allows students to study these topics in depth without the pressure of covering everything in a single year.

Enhance Problem-Solving Skills: Regular practice over two years helps students develop effective problem-solving techniques and strategies.

Manage Academic Stress: Spreading the preparation over two years means students can manage both school and JEE prep without feeling overly stressed.

Receive Ample Revision Time: Starting early allows students to complete the syllabus and allocate time for multiple revisions, which is crucial for JEE success.

For those passionate about JEE or who wish to start even earlier, beginning as early as 9th or 10th grade can also be beneficial. Early starters can gradually ease into the concepts, building comfort with the material and gaining a competitive edge over time.

Choosing the Right Coaching for JEE: Why Canara Vikaas PU College, Mangalore?

If you’re aiming to enroll in a reputable coaching program, Canara Vikaas PU College in Mangalore, powered by Allen Kota, is an excellent option. The college provides a nurturing environment where students can focus on JEE preparation while pursuing their pre-university education. Here’s why Canara Vikaas PU College is a standout choice:

Structured Curriculum and Quality Resources: The institution’s curriculum is thoughtfully designed, following the renowned Allen Kota teaching methodology. The structure is aimed at systematically developing students’ understanding of JEE topics, ensuring comprehensive coverage of both the 11th and 12th-grade syllabus.

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Holistic Development and Value-Based Education: The college goes beyond academics by emphasizing value-based education, preparing students to be responsible, well-rounded individuals. This focus aligns with the mission of the Canara Vikaas Education Trust, founded in 1993 by Sri Krishna J Palemar. The institution’s visionary approach to education has empowered generations of students to achieve their goals.

Campus and Facilities at Canara Vikaas PU College

Located on a sprawling 4.5-acre campus in Mangalore, Canara Vikaas PU College offers an inspiring and well-equipped learning environment. From state-of-the-art classrooms to resourceful libraries, the college provides everything a JEE aspirant needs. The campus is also designed to foster collaboration among students, allowing them to work in groups, exchange ideas, and build lasting friendships with fellow JEE aspirants.

Moreover, students benefit from excellent study materials and comprehensive practice tests designed by Allen Kota, one of India’s most trusted names in JEE coaching. This combination of quality resources and a competitive learning atmosphere ensures that students are well-prepared to tackle the challenges of JEE.

Canara Vikaas PU College: A Top Choice for PU Science Students

Ranked among the Top 10 PU science colleges in Mangalore, Canara Vikaas PU College is the ideal place for those looking to pursue science while aiming for JEE success. By joining their 11th-grade program, students receive structured coaching for JEE alongside their PU studies, striking a balance between board preparation and competitive exam readiness. This integrated approach helps students manage their academic workload while focusing on their ultimate goal: securing a high rank in JEE.

Final Thoughts

When it comes to JEE coaching, starting at the right time and choosing the right institution are critical steps. Canara Vikaas PU College in Mangalore, backed by Allen Kota’s expertise, provides an excellent platform for JEE aspirants. With its robust curriculum, experienced faculty, and commitment to quality education, Canara Vikaas PU College helps students embark on a path to success with confidence. Whether you’re just starting out or have already set your sights on the JEE, Canara Vikaas PU College could be the supportive and challenging environment you need to achieve your dreams.

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Navigating the College Application Process: A Guide for High School Juniors

As high school juniors approach the final stretch of their secondary education, the prospect of college looms on the horizon. With the college application season fast approaching, juniors need to lay the groundwork for a successful outcome. While students won’t be submitting college applications until October or November at the earliest, we advise students to start preparing for the next part of the process this spring.

Here’s a checklist of what high school juniors should be doing starting April of their 11th grade:

☐ SELF-REFLECTION AND GOAL-SETTING

Take some time to reflect on your interests, strengths, weaknesses, and long-term aspirations. What do you want to study? What activities do you want to participate in during college to prepare you for life after college whether it be a job or graduate/professional school? What type of college environment suits you best? Are you looking for the excitement of a large university campus with the ability to enjoy college sports events and cutting-edge research or do you prefer a smaller school setting that emphasizes classroom discussion and building relationships with faculty members and peers? Setting clear academic and personal goals will guide you in selecting colleges and crafting your application essays.

☐ RESEARCH COLLEGES 

Begin researching potential colleges and universities that align with your academic and personal preferences. Consider factors such as location, size, academic programs, extracurricular activities, and campus culture. Create a list of reach, match, and safety schools to ensure a well-rounded selection of options.

☐ ATTEND COLLEGE FAIRS AND INFORMATION SESSIONS

You can learn only so much about a college from websites and guidebooks. Take advantage of college fairs, information sessions, and campus tours to gather firsthand knowledge about different institutions and their surrounding community. Engage with admissions officers, current students, and alumni to gain insights into campus life and academic opportunities.

☐ PREPARE FOR STANDARDIZED TESTS

While some institutions like the University of California are test-blind, most colleges and universities are test-optional–and the fact that these institutions consider standardized tests shows that test scores provide important information about you in the college admission process. Furthermore, several prominent universities have reverted to requiring applicants to submit SAT or ACT scores as a part of the application.

If you haven’t already done so, begin preparing for standardized tests such as the SAT or ACT. Consider enrolling in test prep courses at Elite Prep this summer, where you will take weekly practice tests and work through problem sets to identify areas for improvement. Aim to complete standardized testing by the end of your junior year or early in your senior year. 

☐ FOCUS ON ACADEMICS

Maintain a strong academic performance during your junior year. Your grades and course rigor are the most important part of your application, so prioritize challenging coursework and strive for excellence in your classes. Seek help from teachers or tutors if you’re struggling in any subject.

Furthermore, select courses for your senior year that will allow you to develop the knowledge and skills in your area of interest and prepare you for college-level coursework. Students interested in applying to highly selective colleges should take advanced-level courses in the five core subjects of English, math, science, history/social science, and foreign language. In college, students are expected to take courses in subjects outside of their primary area of study (e.g., engineering majors are usually required to take courses in English, history, foreign language, and art in addition to math and science) – you want to show colleges you’re ready to dive into the educational experience after high school. Elite Prep offers for-credit honors and AP courses to help high school students boost their GPA and strengthen their academic preparation.

☐ BUILD RELATIONSHIPS WITH TEACHERS

Many public and private colleges and universities require applicants to submit recommendation letters from their teachers. Cultivate relationships with teachers who can potentially write strong letters of recommendation for your college applications. Participate actively in class, seek assistance when needed, and engage in discussions to demonstrate your commitment to academic excellence – in short, show teachers that you enjoy being in their class.

☐ DEEPEN YOUR EXTRACURRICULAR INVOLVEMENT

Dedicate time to extracurricular pursuits that genuinely interest you and showcase your talents, passions, and leadership skills. Whether it’s sports, clubs, volunteer work, or part-time jobs, involvement in meaningful activities demonstrates your multifaceted personality and commitment to community engagement. Focus on activities you plan to continue pursuing in college – colleges are interested in learning what you will bring to the college campus and how you will contribute to the community.

☐ START DRAFTING YOUR RESUME

Create a resume highlighting your academic achievements, extracurricular involvement, leadership roles, community service, awards, and employment history. A well-crafted resume will serve as a valuable reference when completing college applications and scholarship submissions as well as participating in interviews conducted by colleges through admission officers or alumni members.

☐ BEGIN BRAINSTORMING ESSAY TOPICS

Start brainstorming potential essay topics for the personal statement or college-specific supplemental essays. Reflect on significant experiences, challenges overcome, moments of personal growth, and your unique perspective. Allow yourself time to explore different ideas and refine your narrative. Each college you apply to will require one or more essays, and the length of these essays will vary from 250 words to 650 words. Meet with an Elite Prep counselor if you need help figuring out how to present your authentic self to college admission officers in personal statements and essays.

☐ STAY ORGANIZED AND CREATE A TIMELINE

Establish a timeline outlining key deadlines for college applications, financial aid forms, and standardized tests. Stay organized by creating a checklist of tasks to complete each month, ensuring you stay on track and avoid last-minute rushes. Meet with an Elite Prep Counselor to discuss how we can help guide you through the entire college application process.

By taking these steps starting in April of your junior year, you’ll set yourself up for success in the college application process. Remember, the journey to college is not just about securing admission to a prestigious institution but also about self-discovery, personal growth, and embracing new opportunities. 

Stay focused, stay motivated, and embrace the exciting journey ahead!

[saanviclinicpatna]

Best Coaching in Patna for 11 and 12 NEET Preparation: Iconic Classes

When it comes to preparing for the NEET exam, choosing the right coaching institute is essential. For students in classes 11 and 12 in Patna, Iconic Classes stands out as the Best Coaching in Patna for 11 and 12 for NEET. With a proven track record and exceptional teaching methods, Iconic Classes is dedicated to helping students achieve their dreams of becoming doctors.

Why Iconic Classes is the Best Choice

Iconic Classes' all-encompassing approach to teaching has allowed them to establish a reputation as the greatest coaching for 11th and 12th grade NEET preparation in Patna. Here's why you should choose Iconic Classes above all others:

1. Expert Faculty

Iconic Classes' team of skilled and experienced teachers is its greatest asset. These professionals are capable at simplifying difficult subjects into lessons that are easy to follow and have a thorough understanding of the NEET syllabus. Their commitment guarantees that pupils fully understand each idea.

2. Individual Attention

Iconic Classes believes in giving individual attention to each student. With small batch sizes, the teachers can focus on the unique needs of every student, helping them overcome their weaknesses and build on their strengths. This personalized approach boosts student confidence and performance.

3. In-Depth Study Material

Iconic Classes provides students with well-structured study materials that cover the entire NEET syllabus. These materials are updated regularly to include the latest exam patterns and trends. The comprehensive study guides, practice questions, and past exam papers ensure students are fully prepared.

4. Regular Mock Tests

To prepare students for the real NEET exam, Iconic Classes conducts regular mock tests. These tests mimic the actual exam environment, helping students manage their time effectively and get used to the pressure of the exam. Detailed feedback is given after each test to help students improve.

5. Doubt Clearing Sessions

Iconic Classes offers regular doubt clearing sessions where students can ask questions and clarify their doubts. These sessions are designed to ensure that no student is left behind. The approachable and friendly faculty makes sure all queries are resolved promptly.

6. Modern Facilities

Iconic Classes provides a conducive learning environment with modern facilities. The classrooms are equipped with the latest teaching aids, including projectors and audio-visual tools, to make learning more engaging. The institute also has a well-stocked library and computer lab for additional support.

Achievements and Success Stories

Iconic Classes has a history of producing top NEET rankers who have gone on to secure seats in prestigious medical colleges. The success stories of these students highlight the effectiveness of Iconic Classes’ teaching methods and the dedication of its faculty. Many students have achieved their dream of becoming doctors thanks to the support and guidance provided by Iconic Classes.

What Makes Iconic Classes Unique?

Choosing Iconic Classes for NEET preparation offers several unique advantages:

1. Holistic Development

At Iconic Classes, the focus is not just on academic excellence but also on the overall development of students. The institute encourages students to participate in extracurricular activities, helping them develop essential skills such as leadership, teamwork, and time management.

2. Motivational Support

Preparing for NEET can be stressful, and Iconic Classes understands the importance of keeping students motivated. The institute organizes regular motivational sessions with guest speakers who inspire students to stay focused and positive throughout their preparation journey.

3. Parental Involvement

Iconic Classes believes in the active involvement of parents in the education process. Regular parent-teacher meetings are held to discuss the progress of students and address any concerns. This collaborative approach ensures that students receive support both at home and in the classroom.

4. Affordable Fees

Iconic Classes offers high-quality NEET coaching at affordable fees, making it accessible to students from all economic backgrounds. The institute is committed to providing top-notch education without burdening families financially.

Enroll in Iconic Classes Today

For students in Patna who aspire to crack the NEET exam, Iconic Classes is the best coaching institute for classes 11 and 12. With expert faculty, personalized attention, comprehensive study materials, and a focus on holistic development, Iconic Classes provides an unparalleled learning experience.

Don’t miss the opportunity to join Iconic Classes and take the first step towards achieving your medical career goals. The right guidance and support can make all the difference in your NEET preparation, and Iconic Classes is here to ensure your success.

Conclusion

Join Iconic Classes and start your journey to becoming a successful doctor. Your NEET preparation is in the best hands with Iconic Classes, the best coaching in Patna for 11 and 12 NEET preparation. The institute's dedication to excellence, personalized approach, and holistic development make it the ideal choice for NEET aspirants. Address: 3rd floor, Ashoka Tower, East Boring Canal Rd, near Lalita Hotel, Patna, Bihar (India) 800001

Call US: +917903993958 & 8651259660 URL: https://www.iconicclasses.in/best-coaching-in-patna-for-11-and-12-for-neet.php

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Setting Sail for Success: Why Consider Best IAS Coaching in Delhi After 12th

The dream of becoming an IAS officer ignites a fire in many young minds in India. After the momentous milestone of 12th grade, Delhi beckons as a hub for IAS aspirants seeking the best coaching to navigate the prestigious Civil Services Examination (CSE). But is enrolling in the best IAS coaching in Delhi after the 12th the ideal first step? Let us explore the compelling reasons why it can be a strategic decision for some.

Early Start, Solid Foundation

The UPSC syllabus is vast, encompassing diverse subjects like history, politics, economics, and current affairs. Starting IAS coaching in Delhi after the 12th equips you with an early advantage. You gain crucial time to delve into the foundational concepts, develop strong reading habits, and establish a solid base of knowledge before diving deeper into complex topics. This early exposure allows you to gradually build your understanding and confidence, preparing you for the long haul of the IAS journey.

Channeling Enthusiasm and Focus

Fresh out of 12th grade, your drive and determination are likely at their peak. Capitalizing on this initial enthusiasm is key. The structured environment and competitive spirit of coaching institutes in Delhi, like Prospectius, can help you channel this energy effectively. Regular classes, mock tests, and interactions with experienced faculty can keep you focused and motivated throughout your preparation.

Expert Guidance and Structured Learning

The UPSC CSE is known for its ever-evolving nature. Navigating the syllabus and exam patterns on your own can be daunting. The best IAS coaching in Delhi boasts experienced faculty members who are well-versed in the intricacies of the exam. They provide structured learning plans, comprehensive study materials, and subject-specific guidance, ensuring you cover all aspects of the syllabus effectively. The expert support of Prospectius minimizes the risk of missing crucial topics or falling behind in your preparation.

Building a Strong Peer Group

The path to becoming an IAS officer can be solitary at times. Joining IAS coaching in Delhi connects you with a vibrant community of like-minded individuals. Sharing experiences, doubts, and strategies with fellow aspirants fosters a healthy competitive environment. Group discussions, study sessions, and peer support can keep you motivated, engaged, and constantly learning from each other's strengths and weaknesses.

Holistic Development Beyond Academics

The best IAS coaching institutes in Delhi go beyond just classroom learning. They offer personality development programs, interview guidance sessions, and answer writing workshops. These additional resources equip you with the crucial skills required to excel in all stages of the CSE, including effective communication, critical thinking, and time management.

However, Consider These Factors Too

While there are undeniable advantages to starting early, it's important to consider your learning style and goals. Here are some factors to introspect on before choosing the best coaching for an IAS interview in Delhi:

Strong Foundation in Core Subjects: If your 11th and 12th grade focused heavily on science or commerce streams, you might benefit from a foundation course in humanities subjects before starting full-fledged IAS coaching.

Self-Discipline and Time Management: Coaching after 12th requires a significant time commitment. Ensure you have the self-discipline and time management skills to balance coaching with personal growth and exploration.

Financial Considerations: Coaching fees can be substantial. Carefully evaluate your financial situation and explore scholarship options offered by some institutes.

Ultimately, the decision to join IAS coaching in Delhi after the 12th is a personal one. Weigh the pros and cons based on your circumstances. Remember, consistent hard work, dedication, and the right guidance are key ingredients in your IAS preparation journey, irrespective of when you begin. To get more details, visit https://prospectias.in/.

[8054yamato]

01/01/2024

Is there something wrong with me? I am genuinely serious. I have problems and I know some of them. I have a lot of problems that I also do not know. I am trying to figure them out.

What makes me unlikable? Am I too emotionally invested in myself? Who am I? Why would you approach them over me? When have I started becoming insecure about this? How are they more likable than I am? I need answers.

I did nothing at all today except think to myself. I get that I am using different personas with certain people like how I usually do with my friends. To them, I am just Ren, a friend. Yet, I feel like they treat me differently than their other friends. To start a conversation of them, 80% of the time I had to initiate it. I thought we were friends?

Way before Christmas break started, I started to burn bridges with my friends. I stopped hanging out with them during free periods (lunch & nutrition) and stopped playing basketball or any activities with them after school hours. Even if I had classes with them, we only interacted for assignments. As opposed to hanging out with my friend group, I went to one of my teacher's classroom or to a nearby park and studied.

At the time, I was content with that. That is what I wanted. Burning down my bridges because I hated the front that I was projecting. Peace and alone was my end goal regardless.

In hindsight, why have they barely, if at all, attempted to engage in a genuine conversation with me? I can not believe I am only noticing this now. I fucking hate myself.

Previously, this was not the case. Last school year, I was emotionally better. I had priorities straight, I was going to school, and I was goal focused more than anything. I talked to people a lot more, friends would approach me and I would approach back. Something snapped within me towards the end of the school year. My confidence was lost, I got depressed again, and I was repeating eerily repeating actions I regretted back in 10th grade.

History is repeating itself. Back in 9th to 10th grade, I was depressed. With the type of person I am, I just could not tell anybody. I felt like I was concious and logical enough to get through it. That was a fucking lie I told myself.

During the second semester of 8th grade and all the way through 9th grade, partly 10th grade as well, I was forever in the same room. The only time I got out of my comfort zone was to use the restroom or eat assuming I had not forgotten. I was showing signs of hikikomori-like behavior and to the outside, it seemingly just a rebellious phase. I do not blame them, I would assume the same if a 14 year old was rebelling like that.

10th grade was fucking rough. I attended school 40% of the time. I managed to pass and make up some of my classes that same year. My favorite subject being math, I had a borderline A (I was B at the end) on it which was cool. The rest of my classes sucked ass though. I believe my first semester attendence rate was 40% and the second semester was a bit higher than that.

Most of the time, I was absent during 10th grade. I was just at my room. I refused to go outside. I was a fucking loser. I was suicidal. I attempted about 3 times. The first time, I tried suffocating myself with my barehands. The reason how I found out it was impossible to kill yourself doing this was through experience. Your conciousness and strength disappears before it can be life threatening. I was retarded. I do not even know why I did not even think about that. I should have used a better method looking back.

I moved to a different U.S. state during the summer between 10th and 11th grade. I went to school for nearly 3 months there and I feel like that was my peak in life.

I was studying diligently every day. For once, I made good school friends without a heavy persona. They liked me for a lot of who I am and I reciprocated. One of the students was from New York who transfered to that school the same year like me. I met him in my Spanish class. One of them had a curly afro (but less dense) and it was like brown-ish color. Also in my Spanish class. Cool dude who can do photoshop. The last was someone who I felt closer with. We shared similar music tastes. She would put me on artists and songs and send me songs to rate out of 10 often. I used to never be able to beat her on cup pong on iMessage games.

Until one day, something clicked. I felt like myself change all of a sudden. My mood changed, my air changed, but I can still think logically. I am not sure til this day, but I am pretty sure since that click, the distance between myself and those friends have widended. Eventually, sometime in early/mid October, I moved back here in California and went to the same school as I went to previously. I had seen the same friends but the friend group actually expanded and I got to know them. I was still in a really good state of mind. My goals were clear and I was approachable. I reciprocated back. Mind you, this was the first half of 11th grade.

Going back to what I said earlier, sometime at the end of 11th grade, something clicked and I got depressed. As I am typing this, I now know what the answer is, but I can not change it. I have tried to change it, but it was futile. During summer, I often would have game nights and study sessions with friends and strangers who I met with online.

When school was rolling back and heading into 12th grade, a click happened again. I got depressed even further. I became more emotional for whatever reason. I am sure the reason stemmed from the reason from the click at the end of 11th grade, but I am sure there is something more than that but I can not figure it out.

Anyways, my drive stopped. Motivation ceased. I not studying as diligently anymore. My motherfucking mind is at its all time lowest. I do not know what to do anymore. I am approaching the second semester of 12th grade and I do not see myself in any type of future.

Do I go to the army? Or do I fucking end it all? Both seems reasonable and will definitely help me take my mind off things.

I spent so much time building a persona that did not fit me that I ended up falling in love with a mask of my true self that does not exist anymore.

Happy New Years.

[the-meadow-of-a-fluffy-sheep]

The Meadow of a Fluffy Sheep: Entry 3

Hello and welcome back to my meadow! This week was a pretty big week for me. It was my first week of 10th grade, and also the week my mom was gone on a work trip so I was staying at a friend’s house. My friend lives super close to me and we both live super close to the high school. I stayed with him, his mom, his dad, his sister, his sister’s boyfriend, and his cousin. He was starting at a new school and his cousin had a new job, and this was the first week of school for all of us, so there were a lot of moving parts.

Wednesday was my first day of school. I got there early to see my friends. I got to see three of my freshmen friends who I hadn’t really seen in so long. I also saw one of my best friends who is in 11th grade. Soon after, we went to class. I had world studies. We talked about what we’re going to learn in the class. After world studies, I had English. I know I’ll love English because it’s being co-taught by two teachers and they have four axolotls in a tank in the back of the classroom. Next was science class. There were some people from my old ex friend group and I decided not to sit with them because I wouldn’t belong and they wanted to sit with each other, so I sat at an empty table and a bunch of boys sit down and this annoying one from my middle school goes “Let’s go we get Everett” and I’m like oof. By the second or third day I was able to move away from them though.

I was tired because I hadn’t slept great that night at my friend’s house. I ate lunch with my 11th grade friend and that was really nice. She said she wants to eat lunch with me every day as long as she can go around and say hi to her other friends and that made me super happy. I’m so lucky to have her, she is seriously so good and kind to me.

In my entrepreneurship class, we learned about divergent thinking and business opportunities. Then it was math, and then the end of the school day. I went home and then to my friend’s house a few hours later.

The second day of school was much like the first - history, English, science, entrepreneurship, and math. My science class is a biology class and we are doing a hands-on experiment with worm reproduction. Our science teacher had us write down questions we had for her or about this class and they were so ridiculous. “Does worm do worm things” “Can we play the worms music” “Is there a limit to what we can do with the worms” “Will we feed our worms eat” It was really grammatically incorrect and just funny.

We had a sophomore presentation meeting type thing and talked about support staff, the areas of the building and what they’re used for, rules and policies, bullying, vaping, bathrooms, and elevators. I’m glad that they take bullying and vaping seriously because I know a lot of high schools don’t. I saw a bunch of my friends and my friends' friends in the hallways and it was so nice to see them again.

The third day was more actual class content. I had a get together with two of my freshmen friends after school. This was something I had wanted and been looking forward to since the beginning of summer. There were supposed to be three, but one of them had an appointment. Even so, it was so wonderful to be with my friends who I had missed so so much. I read them my diary entry forum post from my first day of 9th grade and we compared experiences. We talked about school and life and supported each other and reconnected and it was just so amazing. Then we watched funny videos and laughed and laughed.

I had a pretty deep conversation with my friend’s mom. I was watching videos of trans kids and teens and their parents who were being interviewed. These were parents who supported their kids and fought for them and called them the right things. I thought of my friend and his mom and how lucky my friend is to have his parents, who are so supportive and kind and caring. It’s not just about being trans, either. It was really hard for my friend to transition to a new school where he didn’t know anyone and he was crying the night before school and his mom was helping him calm down. I wish I had that. I think his mom is amazing and I wish mine was more like her. It was eye-opening to me to get to know his family like this because I never knew a family could be like this. I had never been so close with someone else’s family and I’ve never been so welcomed and treated so well, like I belonged there. I’ve never seen parents who treated their children so well and with so much support and love and patience. I wish my mom could be like that, be able to meet my emotional needs but I know she won’t be. I’ve never had an adult be there for me like this who wasn’t paid to me. I told her all this and how much I appreciated her and how much she and her family meant to me and we talked. She told me that it hasn’t always been easy and it’s been chaotic and messy but she tries her best because she cares about her kids and how they should have a space to be happy and safe and themselves. I almost cried because it was so beautiful.

I know that there were a lot of good things, but I’m going to bridge over to some of the challenges I’ve faced this week. TW // gender dysphoria, brief grooming mention // I had an extremely dysphoric night last night and I felt physically repulsed by everything, I just felt disgusting. I was experiencing pain from my chest binder and my body was telling me to take a break but I left all my bras at my friend’s house so I walked over wearing my backpack in front and changed right away. I had also gotten my period and left my pads at his place so I had to make do. I saw the homecoming game and was reminded of this time in my life last year and somehow that made me feel even more gross, not in a dysphoric way though, but in an emotional way. Earlier that day I had seen someone in the hallway who I have complicated history with and I got a little trigger-y. There was also something that reminded me of a song that is a trigger for me so that was a bit uncomfortable but I got through it by distracting myself. I was also thinking of how my mom would be back home today and how I didn’t want her to come back. I don’t want to be around her, I don’t want to be around my brother, and no, it’s not some developmental thing where I hate my mom because I’m a teen, it’s a trauma thing. I just wish she could care. But she doesn’t, so here we are. Also people were making jokes about grooming and it’s not funny because I was actually groomed and it’s not something to joke about. I was switchy the first night of school when I was at Cam’s and I was trying so hard not to switch to Fawne (my 3-year-old alter). I was exhausted and slipping into regression and it was overwhelming and stressful. I’m also scared because the last time I had a friendship similar to what I have with one of my friends now, I accidentally ruined it with my attachment issues and I just don’t want my friend to leave me. I don’t want to be obsessive, I don’t want to be too much, I don’t want to get too attached and I’m trying so hard but what if it’s not enough?

Thank you for reading, I know it was a lot this week and your support means the whole wide world to me! Have a great weekend and I’ll see you back here next week.