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[aonemanarmy]

17. What do they notice first in the mirror versus what most people first notice looking at them?

WEIRDLY SPECIFIC BUT HELPFUL CHARACTER BUILDING QUESTIONS

The first thing that Sephiroth notices about himself in the mirror would be his eyes. Obviously they do tend to stand out to everyone that sees them, but to Sephiroth they serve to only emphasize how different he truly is to everyone else. No one else possesses the same eyes that Sephiroth has and he's fully aware of it, along with the fact that the only thing remotely close are those possessed by monsters. Needless to say, this didn't help Sephiroth's fears that he was a monster whenever he stumbled upon the documentation about the Jenova Project in Nibelheim.

What other people tend to notice about Sephiroth when first looking at him usually is his height or his long silver hair. In a crowd of people Sephiroth stands out due to how he generally towers over everyone else in the room, and how his hair is so long and flows like silk and never seems to be dirty or out of place.

[joshuamj]

Within your gaze

[adanseying]

I wanted to finish writing this fic in time to post on Adam’s birthday, however due to my bad priorities (finishing my work for my internship on time instead of finishing the fic) I did not, but I still wanted to post Something on Adam day so here is a snippet:

When Adam awoke, it was to the soft pitter patter of rain against the window of his Harvard dorm room. Next to him, Richard Campbell Gansey the third was waking. He blinked open those beautiful hazel eyes, dark lashes fluttering as gently as the rain. Ever since a fateful early December day, Adam had hated rain. But nothing could make him hate this moment. 

“Adam.” 

Gansey had said his name so many times over their acquaintance, yet it sounded different each time. Sometimes it sounded like “hello” or “goodbye”. Sometimes it sounded like “I choose you, I need you. You are special, wondrous, a marvelous creature. You are my favorite.” These were the times Adam was most distrustful of his name on those perfect lips. The worst times, it had sounded like “ridiculous Adam, messy, difficult, ruinous Adam, Adam the bomb which could go off at any time, Adam who breaks things”. Adam is always bracing for a time when this is the only way Gansey can say his name. He does not believe in god, but if he did, he would pray that day never occurs. 

The way Gansey pronounces his name now is not like those other times. Any of them. Today he says it quietly, so soft that if Adam were not pressed up against him as he is — oh, and how embarrassing that he can not move away, not even to preserve a modicum of his own dignity — he would not have heard it. He says it as if he is savoring a flavor on his tongue he’s afraid he’ll never taste again. Adam knows the feeling all too well. 

Seeing Gansey like this produced a multitude of feelings in Adam. That wasn’t a surprise; nobody could be indifferent to the golden, glorious sprawl of Richard Campbell Gansey III, unclothed and in their bed. Adam has never been able to stop looking at Gansey, not once in all the time he has known him. So it is unsurprising that he feels drunk on the sight of him. But the desire to touch — that was one he had wrestled down into his subconscious as much as was possible. Sometimes Gansey would do something that destroyed this resolve. Sometimes he would initiate something, like the fist bumps, and it gave Adam permission for a sliver of the indulgence he craved. But he’d never had such total permission, and so he had no defense from giving in to it now. Yet in addition to the lust and hunger, there was something more startling, more terrifying. Gansey looked so young. So innocent, with his sleep mussed hair and sleepy, blinking eyes. His boyish grin was almost shy. It was unbearable, the urge to protect him. Adam felt sure that it would break his heart. 

“What are you thinking about?” asked Gansey. His gaze had gone from out of focus and lethargic, to intent and curious. As was always the case when Gansey looked at him that way, Adam felt an odd fluttering sensation somewhere between his chest and his sternum. 

That I don’t want anything to ruin this. “That I’m tired, I had so much to do this week and it’s catching up to me. We should stay in today.” 

“Well, of course,” said Gansey. “Even if I wanted to go anywhere, this weather would have prevented me.”

Thank god for the rain. 

Adam trailed a hand across Gansey’s collarbone, then let it rest at his shoulder. He rested his head on his chest, and closed his eyes. The sounds of Gansey’s heartbeat and breathing were a steady, much welcomed metronome that both soothed and dizzied him. They remained like that for — Adam doesn’t know, there’s an alarm clock on his desk but he’s afraid if he looks at it, the spell will break. Eventually, Gansey starts to shift, and Adam, purely on instinct, digs his nails into Gansey’s shoulder blade. “Ow!” Gansey grunted. 

Adam feels his face going hot. “Oh god, I’m so sorry are you okay?” 

Gansey huffed out a laugh. “It’s fine. Be easy, tiger. I just wanted to rub your back? But if that’s weird or uncomfortable I won’t do it.” he said the last part hastily. “I really should have asked, I know you don’t like sudden movements – it’s just that the quiet was nice, and you seemed so relaxed and peaceful. I didn’t want to ruin it with my voice.” 

Your voice could never ruin anything. “You can rub my back.” Adam did his best to say it matter of factly. 

Gansey grinned that sunlight smile of his, and proceeded to do just that. 

Adam found himself wondering if at one of the rich boy schools Gansey had attended before Aglionby, they taught some sort of massage class. Both of the rich boy schools Adam had attended at Aglionby and Harvard, offered some rather odd classes, so it didn’t seem impossible that at one of the many more Gansey had temporarily attended that could have been offered. Of course that would mean Gansey done this to people other than Adam…  If so that meant Gansey would have done this to other people before doing it to him. The thought made Adam burn with jealousy. 

         “Are you okay?” asked Gansey with concern. “You look upset, I can stop if you want—“

“No!” Adam exclaimed. Then he felt embarrassed, but Gansey looked delighted.

“Okay.”

[torchickentacos]

I noticed that a blog had me blocked (I've never seen them before, idc, that's fine lol, curate your space ✌️) and out of curiosity I hovered my mouse over their username to see their bio and make sure I didn't piss off someone I knew. They had a bio that said 'I block for (list of things)' which. cool! convenient! tells me what I wanted to know!

...except it was the most out of pocket list of things and I cannot imagine what I could have said or done to make this random person think I applied to their blocklist? I've never touched system or furry or 'that-specific-kink' discourse in my life. what happened here 😭 like I'm not mad, I don't really care, but lmfao?

[paperstorm]

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[saturnniidae]

Astrid showing Hiccup a drawing she came up with for some weapon idea and he likes it but then proceeds to keep tweaking it (so it's physically possible) until it ends up looking nothing like Astrids initial draft so she gets mad and leaves (they both have autism)

[primitiveside]

"You're better off in solitary especially if the rumors are true. Rather have you alone than a bloodbath. No one likes the paperwork of dealing with injuries." @alphateamsfinest finally acknowledges Riddick instead of her report. "Why don't you tell me what you got caught for instead?"

Cold as Jill's words are, she's still willing to hear him out. A provocateur's smile spreads lips. "So," tipping his head this way and that, assessing her through the bars. "You are still in there somewhere."

His hands are cold from the shackles, flexing his fingers keeps his virulent blood moving. It's about all the gesturing he can do with them bound behind his back.

"Wasn't law enforcement that caught me," Riddick starts. "Ain't been inside a prison in years. Leaves me to wonder: where did they tell you I escaped from?" Equal parts amused and curious himself.

[shmorp-mcdurgen]

The catalyst

Recovered Black Mesa documents from the experiment, #2 of ____

(Pg. 1)

Stage Two: Resonance Cascade Simulation (RCS)

Section 2: Resonance Cascade Simulation

The Resonance Cascade Simulation (RCS) is a revolutionary advancement in Black Mesa’s incident prevention/preparation technology, where a replica of multiple wings of Black Mesa’s main facility were constructed to give the appearance of the real facility. Here is where the rest of the test will take place, as soon as the simulated Resonance Cascade Catalyst is complete. We hope that this experiment will prepare us in case of a real Resonance Cascade event, and thus can potentially prevent one entirely. 

Dr. Freeman is to be put in the RCS as soon as the Catalyst is complete and he is sufficiently unconscious. It is crucial to place him under anesthesia to not cause alarm as he is moved from the real Black Mesa Facility into the replica. (REMINDER: it is of UTMOST IMPORTANCE that Freeman is to be unaware of the test taking place, as to make this simulation as accurate as possible. Failure to comply with this rule will result in career termination.) It is to be noted that despite the simulated AMS failure being in a controlled environment, there is room for error and potentially even injury in the case of Dr. Freeman being within the chamber as it happens. However we believe the HEV suit will be enough to protect him throughout the process.

To make the RCS even more realistic, we have contained multiple species from multiple expeditions to [CENSORED TEXT] within the testing facility. Though it is to be noted that certain species remain too great of a liability to keep within the same facility as the subject. We hope these specimens will help make the cross-dimensional-travel of anomalies more predictable in the case of a real Resonance Cascade event happening, and more importantly, teaching us how to deal with, and/or dispose of these specimens.

Notes: Freeman is a smart man. Hiding the true nature of this test is for his own good.

Conclusion of section:

Power AMS to 105% to begin simulated AMS failure scenario

Begin RCS

(Pg. 2)

INCIDENT LOG: #40

TIME OF INCIDENT: 10:24 AM, December 13th, 1998

CAUSE OF INCIDENT: Technical Malfunction

PERSON(S) INVOLVED IN INCIDENT: Gordon Freeman

INCIDENT TYPE: Workplace Injury/death

DESCRIPTION OF INCIDENT:

At approximately 10:24 AM MST, a malfunction occurred involving the Anti Mass Spectrometer, where a stray beam struck Dr. Gordon Freeman between the lower Thoracic and Lumbar sections of his spinal cord. Due to this area being primarily the HEV’s visible undersuit rather than an armored section, it proved to not be enough to withstand the entirety of the shock. Freeman Suffered near instantaneous lower body paralysis, along with heart failure. Freeman also underwent convulsions, restricting his ability to remove himself from the situation. When the AMS had reached a state of stabilization, allowing personnel to enter the chamber, they found Freeman unresponsive aside from minor erratic muscle spasms. They found that his lower back was severely damaged, along with the HEV undersuit.

Damage to the HEV suit was minimal, though holes caused by the shock needed to be repaired. The protective cover over the Life Support Module was damaged, and unable to be reattached. However, the Life Support Module is still intact and functioning as expected. 

Freeman appears to be healing despite tremendous damage. The HEV suit took most of the hit, allowing Freeman to heal relatively without problem. Due to the HEV’s extraordinary biomatter repair technology, Freeman’s heartbeat has returned, along with stable brain activity and nervous system control, meaning he is no longer paralyzed. (It is to be noted that he awoke during examination, but was quickly put under anesthesia to prevent further pain, any potential alterations to the test results, and any further mental strain from the resurrection.) 

Planned initial Termination was going to be three (3) hours after the RCS had begun, however due to this horrible oversight from the engineers in the Lambda team, the first test had taken place prematurely. However, Freeman appears to have healed completely from this incident. This is promising.

FOLLOW UP ACTION(S):

Monitor possible HEV malfunctions

Monitor Freeman’s physical health and recovery from this incident

Resume test as initially planned without further delay.

[aonemanarmy]

MUSE AESTHETICS: HORROR EDITION.

bold whatever applies | italics what sometimes applies [ both if it's perfect for your muse ] | strikethrough what doesn't apply & tag people. repost; don’t reblog!

CLASSIC.

black and white. powder puffs. red lipstick. winged eyeliner. white kitten heels. black lace lingerie. icy blue eyes. rain. abandoned cars. skeletons. acid. poison. voyeurism. switchblades. strangling. overcoats. looking over your shoulder. trans-atlantic accents. private detectives. dinner parties. haunted mansions. cobwebs. perfect blonde curls. kitchen knives. shock. cellars. dust. ghosts. dark alleys. empty streets. horn-rimmed glasses. radiation. zombies. serial murder. suspicion. the city. witches. the devil. cannibalism. conspiracies. amulets. abject terror. the American South. the American Northeast. England. analog cameras.

CRYPTID & URBAN LEGEND.

aliens. blinding light. dark woods. driving at night. claw marks. bite marks. men in black. memory loss. dismembered bodies. sewers. flashlights. cell phones. video cameras. cars with tinted windows. unlabeled cassette tapes. bugs. big cities. urban crimes. clowns. something rustling outside your window. glowing light. unsolved mysteries. suburbia. mirrors. the american pacific northwest. the american midwest. hiking. backpacking.

GOTHIC.

gaslights. corsets. ballrooms. candlelight. mist. starless nights. full moons. cobbled streets. horse-drawn carriages. mysterious strangers. bogs. moors. forests. mountains. castles. velvet. silver. brass. gold. jewels. domino masks. the opera. dangerous romances. tragic romances. violins. roses. lilies. empty graves. crosses. cemeteries. snow. ice. the gallows. crows. milk-white skin.ambiguous illness. fangs. pointed nails. something howling in the night. capes. gloves. top hats. straight razors. lightning. pipe organs. underground caverns. bats. mice. rats. ravens. cats. pearls. attics. talismans. axes. wood. isolation in a room full of people. vampires. werewolves. ghosts. coffins. western europe. eastern europe. bones. churches. catacombs. mausoleums. books. stitches.

PARANORMAL.

malevolent spirits. seances. spells. missing bodies. hidden graves. white noise. static. flickering lights. rings of salt. demons. poltergeists. dark histories. old buildings. cold air. wells. urban exploration. a dog barking at unseen things. iconoclasm. black ooze. old photographs. dark bodies of water. crucifixes. priests. possession. exorcisms. dolls.

SLASHER.

bloodbaths. massacres. wanton nudity. newspapers. leather jackets. letterman jackets. converse sneakers. obscured faces. social unrest. bonfires. lakes. babysitters. high school. lockers. dead leaves in the fall. jack-o’-lanterns. passing shadows. outdated television sets. nightmares. psychiatrists. hospitals. unstoppable forces. gunfire. police. landline telephones. improvised weapons. halloween. secrets. revelations. cut wires. character masks. scrunchies. wild curls. jeering children. parties. fire. swearing. revulsion. california. the american midwest. ambulances.

THRILLER.

daylight. fluorescent lighting. morgues. unwavering eye contact. tension. lit rooms. empty rooms. killer in plain sight. a dog digging in the newly-planted flower bed. steely gazes. paperwork. anagrams. codes. convicted killers. missing persons. law enforcement. federal agents. small towns. paranoia. subdued terror. dimly-lit parking lots. a noise in the distance.

tagged by: @xkuja

tagging: @kyouminaine and anyone else that hasn't done this already.

[quantumcartography]

I just listened to episode 26 of the Magnus Archives and I realized that it reminds me of Bloodborne. I have some spoilers for it, just because I was looking something up on the wiki and just intuited things based on some of the pages.

So it seems like there are some entities that are responsible for these events, a finite amount named with things associated with various fears. But episode 26 implies that these entities aren't uniform and aren't even aligned, which distinctly reminds me of Bloodborne. The way the Great Old Ones seem to each be distinct and non uniform and some seem to be fighting a proxy war against one another. Like The Moon Presence puts the player on a path that leads them to kill Rom and other great ones.

[bobbyjean]

patricia highsmiths final novel where she pulled out all the stops made everyone openly gay and addressed drugs and AIDS

[tuulipano]

wait a fucking minute , this is my blog. i can do anything. i can even subject people to my evil headcanons i have of the artists (making them transed gender and such)

[shmorp-mcdurgen]

Recovered Black Mesa Documents from the incident, #1 of ____

(Text on the pages below in case it’s hard to read)

(Pg. 1)

[CENSORED TITLE]

Project Codename: Free Man

Subject: Gordon Freeman

Sector: Anomalous Materials Department

Age: 27

Clearance: Level 3

Physical Description: Six Foot four inches (193.04 cm) Tall caucasian male, brown hair, green eyes.

Current status: Alive; No abnormalities.

Project Administrator: [CENSORED NAME]

Purpose of the experiment: testing revival and healing technology; Preparing for the possible event of a Resonance Cascade.

Time of test: Scheduled for December 13th, 1998 at 9:30 AM MST

Planned duration of test: 3 days (72 hours)

Current Status: Preparations complete. Awaiting subject arrival.

This test is the Second human test of our new revolutionary Life Support System, which is capable of both healing typically fatal wounds, and even bringing back an individual from the dead. This technology has caused multiple unforeseen side effects on its users, however with advancements made by Black Mesa engineers and the Lambda Team, we believe this test will prove that the technology will be in a suitable enough state to be used without consequences.

We have been approached regarding this technology from [CENSORED TEXT], which means that our new sponsors will be able to help develop this technology further and even fund future research. This new Sponsorship, the possibility of preventing death in Black Mesa staff during highly dangerous expeditions, Along with possible commercial use in the coming years, are more reasons for this test to be taken seriously, and more importantly, be done correctly and quickly. The following documents will be the results of every test, and there will be logs of all injuries and even deaths our subject will experience, and more importantly how the Hazardous Environment Suit will repair said injuries.

(Pg. 2)

Section 1: HEV Suit Integration

The Hazardous Environment Suit (HEV) Mk. 5 is a vast improvement from the standard HEV suit Mk. 4, with its main difference and technological improvement being the HEV Life Support system. Unlike the Mk. 4, this Life support system contains a specimen known as [CENSORED TEXT] from our latest expedition to [CENSORED TEXT]. This Specimen has properties that are known to heal even life threatening wounds, and thus has the potential of even bringing an individual back from the dead. This has proven true with previous testing, though it is to be noted that the HEV suit Mk. 5 is the best, and most promising version of this technology put to use as of current date. However, Dr. Freeman is to be noted as the first test done with this suit to test its revival capabilities.

-Dr. Freeman had received the HEV Mk. 5 at approximately 10:00 AM MST on December 13th. Due to a small hold up, being worsened by a single security personnel delaying Freeman’s arrival, Freeman had arrived at the testing facility around 30 minutes past schedule. However, despite this small change in schedule, Gordon had accepted the HEV suit without suspicion, even despite not being told of the Suit’s properties, including the slight painful sensations of the suit attaching IV tubing and blood monitors to Freeman’s skin. Freeman seemed to move on quickly however, and proceeded to the test chamber containing the Anti Mass Spectrometer (AMS), beginning the first test at around 10:16 AM MST.

Notes:

Freeman appears to have had no problems resulting from the HEV suit’s integration, not even during the suit’s Life Support startup. This is promising, considering the negative effects the technology had on previous subjects. (See Incident log #32; Subject Shephard)

Conclusion of section:

-Despite Freeman remaining unaware of the test, it is best to inform any and all staff participating in said test to not disclose any information that Freeman does not need or could affect the results.

-Continue to Stage Two: Resonance Cascade Simulation (RCS)

[muttering-folklore]

my mom’s reaction to seeing the small box of twinings we got ourselves as a treat for getting thru our really shit saturday night was to say we could’ve asked her to buy us some more tea if we needed it and then to scream at us because we said we didn’t need any more teabags since we already had enough and that we got it because we wanted some of that kind of tea (didn’t say anything about a ‘reward’ because ik that’d just set her off). its so fucking exhausting dealing with her. why are you calling me overdramatic and throwing a bitch fit because i spent £2 on tea for myself. the world is not ending babe. i dont think we’re getting ourselves a reward like this again tho

[not-poignant]

Would you be willing to talk about the idea of 'psychopaths in real life'? I know you've written them but because there's so much messy pop culture around the idea of a psychopath I've never been sure of what about the idea of them is real. Are some people simply born wanting to hurt people? Or is it the result of early major trauma, or innate? I've met a lot of very cruel people but I think I'd say they probably weren't like that with select groups of people (their friends or family) rather than people they viewed as targets/unimportant/sinners/etc... Probably? I suppose I think of them more as emotionally sadistic than as fundamentally incapable of empathy. But maybe I just haven't met the right people, or known them well enough. Just an invitation to share your thoughts on the subject, if you're willing.

Are some people simply born wanting to hurt people? Or is it the result of early major trauma, or innate?

If you had an answer to this, anon, you'd have an answer to one of the greatest mysteries of psychology and sociology. The truth is, we just don't know for sure. There's a lot of good evidence on both sides, depending on who you're studying, which strongly suggests that sometimes it might be the first, sometimes it might be the second, and sometimes it's both.

But the reality is we don't know.

Scientists really, really want to find ways of detecting folks like this before some of them turn to extremely violent or cruel crimes, so obviously finding out the causative genetic and/or social factors is extremely important to them. It would save a lot of money re: governments for a start, so this is an area that's had bursts of funding over the years. But the reality is we're not really a great deal closer to figuring it out.

We do know that some folks genuinely seem to have had no social causative factors, and others folks genuinely seem to have been shaped by their upbringing. If you want to go into this there are hundreds of books and articles on the subject, and you'll very quickly see that no one is in agreement and we still have no solid early detection systems.

I've met a lot of very cruel people but I think I'd say they probably weren't like that with select groups of people (their friends or family) rather than people they viewed as targets/unimportant/sinners/etc… Probably?

The fact is, unless you were with them 24/7 you don't know how they were behaving with friends and family. In fact, this is how certain priests and cops get away with so much of what they do. There are priests who have been kind and compassionate to entire congregations and then gone on to rape 30/40 children in cruel ways that have led to many suicides, who feel zero shame or remorse and who very obviously just wanted access to children in a job that would give them community trust without having to earn it. That kindness and compassion is a performance to secure what you want.

Secondly, perhaps they were good with friends and family, so was Gacy. Many folks like this understand that they need to strategically set up networks of people who believe you to be kind etc. Being a psychopath doesn't mean you're stupid (although some are, varying intelligence levels exist), often these folks understand that to get away with doing what they truly want to do, there needs to be a cloak of 'I'm fine and normal and nice' around them. The ones who don't understand this tend to go to jail very quickly (or die very quickly due to the circumstances around their behaviours - being a psychopath is not a safe thing to be if you can't pair it with an ability to be selective).

But maybe I just haven't met the right people, or known them well enough.

I'm not going to talk about specific details of my past but I will say it's likely that you just haven't met someone on this level and/or have but are just not in their target zone because they might just be in the periphery of your experience.

Folks like Crielle exist in the world, for example, and sadly it's often more people than you'd expect. But some of those people are also incredibly intelligent and manipulative. They often operate on a level different to most of us.

[unmaskedhero]

When making a spirit does its personality come naturally? Or do you give one to it yourself?

If you’ll allow me to make use of the well of technology your land has…