#.but i guess my brain was telling me that i missed these trash babies ;w; and i did

[sansloii]

i just want to be a little sappy on main and say that i am very grateful for those of you that follow me now and those that have stuck with me even after i poofed on and off for like... 2 years. when i was thinking about coming back around this time last year, i was honestly very cautiously optimistic about returning. because i had a lot of grievances and Thoughts™ about my experience here. and i honestly didn't think i would come back--much less be thinking about reviving a second blog. i am still just taking it easy and making sure i come first :) but i'm very happy to be writing like i used to because i really missed it.

[hakuna-my-ass]

Call me a bitch one more time

Maybe ill believe you

Call me a whore again

Maybe ill conceive you

Call me a slut to my face

Maybe ill believe you

Cause the way

I wade through the dirt

Is a pain

You cant see through

Call me your mom, call me your baby, call me your daughter

Call me whatever you want

I thank god im not your father

I would beat you, mistreat you, just like mine did

I wouldnt eat you, id leave you

To rot in your sins

Not here to please you, just deal you with the cards of your kin

Calling me your queen wont work cause bitch im a goddess

On the scene when i twerk

Cant help it im flawless

Tell me again how youre gonna cum all over my face

Show me again the way i feel pain

Tell me again about my ass and my titties

Like my uterus wasnt enough to give a buck fifty

Ya'll niggas iffy, filthy... long john? miss me!

Your bullshit squishy

According to the stars and the cards im a bull, hard headed

According to my pops, he's a dog, im hot headed

If i listened to any of you bitches id be mal tempered

I guess this is why rap was invented

Telling me i got legs for days when i got bills to pay dont distract me with your petty bullshit

I got brains for decades dont trash me ill behead you

Asking me for head? Youd rather be dead

Spitting on your grave, does that count?

Illy for years, been down south

Been in cuffs but i was rough before they tried to put me down

Like i cant fight, dont have might, i wear my horns like a fucking crown

Cause just like a bull i see red

But as a taurian i get paid diamonds, no respect

So tell me again how horny you are and how i make you

Show me again how you cum

And i may believe you

Born in May so its easy to distinguish sun from rain

All ya'll bitches run when you see me in pain

Cause my limit is about where my choker is

You helped me reach it so lets not forget i know how to choke a bitch

Like i said call me a bitch one more time

Call me dumb, ill show you whats mine

Cause none y'all have the stripes im covered in

Chinese eyes, my chinese sign starts roarin in this bitch

Y'all came straight outta hell

I came from something even lower

Learned and broke yall spells STOP FUCKING CALLING ME BROKEN

THIS BITCH IS BAD NO MAGICIAN COULD CLONE HER

They tried and failed not even the universe could own her

Put her in a ditch, shell make a pie and make you eat

Youll attempt to take everything

Fucking fakes nothing more than leeches

Got poems so old, damn i should start preachin

Cant say ive never been to church

The bible aint a secret

Y'all preaching to the choir

So i brought a choir just to sing this

Bring me down to the ground

I might believe you

Silencing me

Wicho irritating sounds

Yous a nuisance

Thinking yous all that?

But aint got time to prove it

GOD MADE ME BLIND BUT I SEE RIGHT THROUGH IT

The grass is greener where i smoke it

The waist got leaner

Now they tryna poach it

Taking credit for my successes, my strength, my will and why im the bestest

But i didnt see NONE of yall when I was in duress, hella stressed, just tryna make it out w me n mine

Yet over time i realised its just me and im mine

To make things CLEAR

Im not here to fall into your sextraps

Sextrolling while im rolling

Youre fucked cause i got strapped

Youve never seen a gem like me?

Thats common knowledge.

Oeh im so different?

Caught me yawning

Turned up the degrees to see where youre boiling

Dashed so fast couldnt even keep it a hunnid

Annoying. Disgusting.

As a vegetarian i dont eat meat

Why dfq do u think id wanna see yours when i open my feed

Yall aint got nothin better to do than to focus

On fucking

I got better shit and poo so i focus on commas

The only zeros im interested in are the ones on my bankaccount

I like danger and dangerous numbers that make me moan and shout

Not yo itty bitty dick wrapped up in clout

Next time you see me dont ask me how im doing cause good girls do it bad and bad girls do it badder and im the worst

Your sins cant make it better

ON GOD

Scratch that

Royal Deity

The unholiest chick with the most purity

Chique, fine and thick

But you wouldnt know bout nunna that

Intelligent, since we keepin it straight facts

Sharp shooter, never miss my aim

Even if i fail, still winnin this game

S/o to all the gamers, the players, the fakers

Addressin y'all as my main haters

Slapping my insecurities in my face

Like i might do somethin w it

Undress, heaving chest, make a mess in the kitchen

Callin me gay just cause yall aint got a pot to piss in

Mad pissed, yall blocked, try to mess with this bitch

On all fours like a horse come too close ill stomp ya face in

Insulting me vagée, she's not an animal, yall the pussies

Saying put it on my face

Like you got the right or earned it

Yall demands undeserving

High on supply i dont follow commands

Baby your stressed let me help you with that

Bitch please take a seat id rather do a handstand

Know your place before its too late and yo ass gets jabbed

Call me baby one more time i might believe it

Call me sweet once mlre and ill know youre deceivin

Call me your love, your honey, babycakes, babygirl

Havent been a baby since i entered this world

Tell me that you love me one more time and ill bust out my edges, limited edition blade collection

Jessica rabbit blasian

Blazing stages

Saying you wanna fuck

So i did

Sorry not sorry i fucked you up instead

Mustve been a slice of miscommunication

Over time i developed a bullshit translator

Not sick in the head, just sick of y'all

Planning me demise and downfall

Ik ben een lijdende leider, een overlevende strijder

Thats why i give myself errything i be wantin

Preparin myself for these scheming ass bitches that be hauntin

Mightve gotten startled in the past

But im badder and better so issa wrap

[amoristt]

Just a Dare | Nathan Prescott x Reader

@trueloveknifefight asked, Also can I request Nathan asking you out?

here u are! i love writing convos w nathan UGH i adore his character.

as always, replies and reblogs are greatly appreciated1 i check all tags and comments <3

wanna support me for just $3? here's my ko-fi!

The lights were bright, vivid. Almost blinding. They dance LED accents into the reflection of your drink- a dull plastic cup filled to the brim with one part whiskey, zero parts mixer. The taste could bring a tear to your eye but you would be damned to water down such fine alcohol, provided by none other than Nathan Prescott himself.

Music reverberated along the pool rooms walls, laughter and hollers distantly rising with the tempos. Your foot absently tapped to the beat- you were never one for dancing. Never one for parties, either, actually, favoring drinking in the solitude of a small friend group.

If not for Nathan you wouldn't be here at all. Some would say it's a privilege to slip past those heavy doors, entering the dully lit world of the Vortex Club. You mostly just felt like it was all for show. Somehow securing a place among Nathan's friend group, and a good friend at that, it was almost duty to show up. He insisted on it.

So, here you were. Leaning against a wall in a suffocatingly warm, cramped pool room surrounded by a sea of faces you hardly recognized.

That was, until you saw Nathan's face peer through the small break in shifting bodies. You knew him all too well.

Strikingly handsome, equally strikingly pompous. Funny, crude, an absent minded party goer just as much as he was a fireball with racing, incoherent thoughts. A drinker, a druggie. Takes the edge off, he says, but you think he does it to take away his thoughts completely. You felt like his entire life was all edges, never sacred ground.

The poor bastard.

He lures your attention in as he saunters over with squared shoulders, narrowly avoiding spilling his drink when a random student cuts it a little too close. Normally Nathan would make a bigger deal, give him what for, but this time he just shoots the poor kid a menacing glare and grumbles, 'fucking watch it'. He's walking with purpose and intent, you can see it on his face. You must have a target on your forehead as he darts straight over.

When he comes to your side, his own alcohol dripping down the sides of his cup onto his wiry fingers, you raise a brow.

"Something wrong?" You ask, as he takes a spot leaning against the hard wall right next to you.

"Just wondering why you're being so fucking lame over here," He shouts over the music, taking a sip of his drink, grimacing at the taste. "We're all having a good time over at the lounge and you're over here acting like all the other wallflower nobodies."

You roll your eyes with upturning lips. "Maybe I like being a wallflower. I like people watching. I see things no one else does."

"Yeah, okay, fucking weirdo."

"I mean it," You push off the wall and grin. "Look-" You point to a student obviously wasted, drink held high over head while he lets the music take him away. "That guy is clearly trashed- he's having the time of his life. He's gotta be seeing double."

Nathan whistles at his state, taking in the guys goofy smile, half lidded eyes. "I'll bet it's the triplets. I could breathe on him too hard and he'd fall over."

"You should go try it." You tease. He shakes his head and takes another drink.

"Nah, he'll get it himself. Guarantee we'll be dragging him out by his feet by the end of the night." He shrugs. "Or, at least someone will. I sure as fuck ain't staying that long."

You snicker. "What, got a hot date?" Nathan glares at you. "Oh don't tell me," you cup your hands to whisper, a secretive gesture, "homework?"

"Fuck no," He scoffs, and you can just barely see that he's a little more than tipsy now. His pale cheeks dusted with red, the tip of his nose ruby under the harsh lighting. It's also then that you realize he's a little more tense than usual, even despite the drinking. He's standing straight upright, his right hand gripping his cup like a crutch and his left now shoved hastily into his pocket.

He hasn't looked at you dead in the eyes yet.

"So what is it then?" You ask curiously. He shrugs and stares into his cup. You frown. "Bro, are you like, good right now? Do you wanna leave?"

For the first time since he'd wandered over, Nathan looks up at you. His eyes are unreadable, but his composure seems stressed. He shrugs again. Before you can even open your mouth to ask him about his state, he sighs and downs an entire mouthful of burning whiskey. It makes you cringe just watching him.

"Fuck it," He huffs. "Look I got some stupid ass dare to come over here and put the moves on you, okay." He sounds almost annoyed, like it's a hassle for him, or maybe embarrassing. You cross your arms. "I was dared to come over here and try to get you like, to fucking, you know, leave with me, but now that I'm over here I'm starting to think maybe that was a dumbass idea."

"Leave with you?" You say incredulously, a brow already lifting. "You were dared to come over here and try to sleep with me? By our friends?"

"No, no, fuck," Nathan seems agitated now, rushing. "Like a date sorta bullshit. Ask you out." He manages to get it out in almost the worst delivery possible, meanwhile you're just trying to pick out who would put him up to this. Hayden? Victoria?

A laugh forces its way out of you. "Aren't we a little too old for that game?"

Nathan shrugs. "That's what I said but they insisted. Fucking babies. At least make the dare a little more fun than just asking some bitch out. That's like elementary level shit."

Your eyes widen, you scoff. "Excuse me?"

Nathan sputters. "You're not some bitch, I didn't mean to-... Fucks sake, I'm clearly a little drunk right now okay, if you could cut me some fucking slack that'd be awesome."

"Hey man I didn't ask to be a victim of bullying," You tease, and he can't help but laugh. You soften. "Never expected it from you, though of all people. As ironic as that sounds."

"I'm not even bullying you, come on. Don't be a bitch. I even admitted it and everything."

You grin. "Yeah. Gotta say though, I'm a little disappointed."

"Oh what, you wanted to see my moves?" Nathan hums. "You wanted some Prescott action?"

"Shut the hell up." You shove his shoulder, an action that would be a mistake to so many others, but for you, it was welcomed. "I'm disappointed that it was just a dare. I'd probably have said yes if it wasn't. But, oh well."

Nathan doesn't answer for a long moment. First, he stares into his drink, processing. Almost like he hadn't heard that right, or like you were messing with him. It's rare to see Nathan Prescott stunned into a momentary silence. He's thinking, wondering what he should say next. Suspicious that you're just playing with him, hopeful that maybe you aren't.

And, you hadn't been. Truth be told if given the chance you would allow him to take you out for the evening. Show you fancy things, try out something a little more intimate than just laughter and poking fun at classmates together. You enjoyed his presence, looked forward to it at times.

A small part of you had hoped that he felt the same, maybe. Somehow. While grateful that he respected you enough to cut the crap before it even began, you couldn't help but feel a little... Disheartened at the prank. You'd saved your pride by denying him beforehand, but, if it had been genuine...

"So if it wasn't a dare," He began, quietly, barely audible over the booming music overhead. Eyes barely visible in the sea of vibrant lights crashing like waves. "You'd have said yes."

You shrug, trying to play it casual to save your own feelings, just in case. "Probably. I mean, we're already friends. We have fun so it couldn't have been that bad." He nods along to almost every word.

"Well what if we did it anyways." He blurts.

"Did what?"

"Go out tonight. Like, you know ditch this lame ass party and have some real fun."

"You love this lame ass party, and plus," You shake your head in feigned annoyance. "I'm not sleeping with you, Nathan."

He glares at you. "Fucking duh. I'm just saying we can go and hang out somewhere else. This party happens all the fucking time so it's not like we're missing anything."

"But, wouldn't that make me the butt of our friends joke?"

He shrugs. "Fuck em. It was a dumb dare anyways."

"Now it seems like you're trying extra hard to convince me to say yes." You state, and he's frazzled, running lines through his brain to try and save the absolute failure of asking you out. You decide to spare him, take a little leap of faith for yourself. "But, alright. I'm in."

Nathan gapes at you. "You're in?"

"Yeah, why not. I'm not busy right now and if you're not either than," You smile. "Why not. You better wow me though, Prescott. I'm talking a night to remember. Fireworks, dinner by candle light, a serenade. The whole package."

Nathan's eyes light up, but he tries to hide it, rolls those beautiful blues. "Well considering I've had like no fucking time to prepare how about we instead go to the roof and chill out."

You toss the idea around in your head for show. You already knew the answer the moment he asked if you were being serious.

"I mean I guess that would work," You say. "I was looking for fireworks but I suppose that will suffice. Feel free to go tell our buddies their joke may have backfired on them."

Nathan shakes his head. "Nah, don't even bother. They're all drunk and probably don't even remember daring me in the first place."

"Alright then," You push yourself off the wall, feeling your cheeks warm. A flutter takes wing in the base of your chest, your heart picking up just a little faster. You can't stop the smile that graces you as you say, "Lead the way, Prescott."

Nathan does lead the way. He takes your hand into his own, your fingers tracing over his boney knuckles as he drags you through the sea of bodies, out to the school hall and up winding stairs.

You giggle like a child when he struggles to find the correct key on the janitors ring he'd snatched weeks ago just in case, tease him when he almost spills his drink all over himself. Nathan's hands are almost shaking, but you chalk it up to the alcohol. You chalk everything up to the alcohol- his trembling fingers, his red face, a shy, albeit goofy smile resting upon his lovely, angular face.

The night was cool and crisp, a stark contrast to the smoldering heat of the Vortex Party.

He looks amazing out under the stars, and underneath the scope of the vast, black sky dotted with trillions of perfect, twinkling lights, you feel at peace.

Looking at him, you feel like this may be the start of something you'd denied yourself the chance of ever even imagining.

Out there, alone but together, hearing the echoes of music mixed with the livelihood of crickets in the darkness...

it truly was a night to remember.

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Days later, you sit atop your desk, feet tapping rhythmically on your chair, typing away at your phone.

"Love the top," A familiar voice pipes, and you glace up to find Victoria standing before you, books pressed to her chest. She takes in your shirt, a nicely fitted long sleeve with a rather low cut v-neck. "Why haven't I see that one before?"

You shrug and set your phone down. "Never got around to wearing it I guess. Not a big fan of V-necks."

"It fits you," She sets her books down at the table beside you and brushes a hand through her hair, making sure every strand is in line. "I'll have to get one myself."

"You know what, you can have it after today," You say, and she perks up in disbelief. "As a thank you for what happened at the party."

That disbelief soon turned to confusion. "...Meaning?"

"Y'know, making Nathan ask me out. He made a whole huge deal about it- said you guys were drinking and playing Truth or Dare of all things. Gotta say, I was a little surprised."

Victoria's brows knit. "We hardly drank at that party, and I wouldn't be caught dead playing Truth or Dare. That game is for kids."

It almost knocks the wind out of you.

They hadn't even been playing in the first place.

As the teacher walks into the room, the first period bell blaring annoyingly over the speakers, you climb off your desk and prepare for the day, hardly able to contain yourself. It hadn't been a dare, after all.

And, you and Nathan's official second date was merely a day away.

[dlwritings]

Firecracker Soul | Dean Winchester

Chapter 8 - Bets and Bowling

pairing - mob!Dean x teacher!ofc

word count - 3,446

warnings - language

additional notes at the end

(previous)

Alice and Dean went about a week without seeing each other. They texted off and on, but both found themselves with an exceptionally busy few days. Dean was meeting with his factions to discuss ongoing deals, and Alice was working on her various lesson planning for the rest of the week. She did end up seeing a lot of Brent though, which was unusual.

He first showed up at her door on Monday with some leftover pizza, which was normal. On Tuesday, they ran into each other when she was coming home from school. They chatted outside for a moment before she headed into her apartment. On Wednesday he invited her over for another movie, and she agreed, this time watching The Big Lebowski, which was a bit more up her alley than Fight Club. Plus, it gave her an incredible idea.

On Thursday, she shot a text to Dean: What are you doing tomorrow?

Dean: I've got no plans in the evening. You miss me?

Alice: You wish ;) You ready for my date night pick?

Dean: Lay it on me

Alice: You didn't tell me where we were going, so I'm gonna keep this from you too. Just remember my budget's lower than yours, so keep that in mind. Don't dress fancy

Dean: Can I at least pick you up?

Alice: If it makes your fragile masculinity feel better

Dean: It most definitely does

Alice: You're so lame. Be here at 7:00?

Dean: You got it

She got home from school around 5:00, her after school to-do list taking her a bit longer than normal. Her plans for her date with Dean weren't anything fancy, just like she had told him, so she didn't need a lot of time to get dressed up. She threw on some jean shorts and a black and white striped t-shirt and decided to loosely curl her hair and throw it in a ponytail. She kept her makeup simple. Makeup. That reminded her. She didn't know what her evening held, but the last thing she wanted was to end up at Dean's with an inefficient way to take off her makeup. She grabbed her shoulder bag and put in her makeup wipes, face wash, toothbrush, deodorant, and hairbrush. She figured she could just wear one of Dean's shirts to bed again, which reminded her that she probably needed to return the one she had last stolen from him. She added that to her bag too just as there was a knock at her door.

She looked at her phone and saw that it was only 6:30. How did Dean get in the building without her buzzing him in? And, why was he thirty minutes early? She jogged over to the door and opened it. "Brent," she breathed out, her voice showing some surprise. She noticed he was holding a bouquet of flowers. "What's up?"

"Well, I was just at the store," he said, "and I saw these. Thought of you."

"Oh," she said, laughing awkwardly. "That's really sweet of you. Thank you." She took the flowers from him, but Brent didn't leave. "Is there something else?" she asked.

"Uh, you headed out?" he asked.

"Yeah," she said. "I have a date with Dean. You met him the other day. He'll be here in a bit."

"Got it," Brent said. "Well, then-" He cleared his throat and ran a hand through his hair. "I guess I'll see you around." She smiled, waved him goodbye, and closed the door. She looked at the flowers before setting them down on the counter. Brent was a nice guy and everything, but this seemed a little odd. She hoped she hadn't been leading him on with all the time she spent with him in the past few days. She was just trying to be a friend, but she didn't feel like friends often gave each other flowers without ulterior motives.

She shook the thoughts from her brain and sat in front of the TV while she waited for Dean. It didn't take long for the buzzer to go off, and her face lit up. She jogged over to the intercom and let Dean in. He was at her door in a few minutes, and she opened it and greeted him with a kiss. He smiled against her lips before he pulled away. He opened his mouth to say something, but stopped when he looked over her shoulder. He noticed the flowers, and his eyebrows furrowed. "Where'd you get those?" he asked. She followed his eyeline and bit her lip, grabbing his arm and pulling him inside so she could shut the door behind him.

"My neighbor, Brent gave them to me," she said. "It's weird, right? Like, that's a little weird."

"It's a little weird," he agreed with a slow nod. "You didn't put them in water?"

"I feel like I shouldn't keep them," she admitted. "But I also feel rude for getting rid of them."

"Do you want them?" Dean asked.

She shrugged. "Not really." Dean nodded, took the flowers, and threw them in the trash for her. She giggled, and he turned to her and took her hand.

"Ready?" he asked. She nodded, so they walked out of the apartment and headed to Dean's car. She paused outside the passenger door. "What's wrong?" he asked.

"I just realized if I let you drive, I have to tell you where we're going," she said. "Let's take the Jeep."

"Come on," Dean said with a playful groan. "It's fine. Just tell me."

"No!" she said, folding her arms across her chest. She stuck her hand out. "Let me drive."

"Ah, no can do," Dean said. "No one drives Baby but me and Sam."

"You're being ridiculous," she said.

"I'm being ridiculous?" Dean repeated, matching her body language.

She gasped playfully. "Are we having our first fight?" Dean grinned and shook his head, opening the driver's door.

"Just give me the address," he said. She obliged and got into the passenger side. After ten or so minutes, they pulled up to their date night spot. Dean laughed as he put the car in park. "I haven't been bowling in ages."

"Me either," she said, smiling widely. "It'll be fun! I'm so good."

"Are you?" he said, raising an eyebrow.

"Hm," she hummed, "I guess you'll find out."

They went inside and got themselves a lane, shoes, and bowling balls. When they typed their names into the machine, she asked Dean what he wanted to be called. "Dean is fine," he said.

"Really?" she said. "That's pretty lame."

"Okay," he said with a laugh, hugging her from behind. "What do you call yourself when you bowl?"

"The champion," she said sarcastically.

"Oh, so you're modest too," he teased back, kissing her neck with a smile.

"Stop," she laughed, playfully pushing his face away. "Focus. Give me a name." He thought for a moment.

"Put down The Boss," he said.

"God," she said with a roll of her eyes, "you like Springsteen that much?" He raised his eyebrows at her. "I told you! My dads played nothing but the 80s."

Dean grinned. "Just write it." She did, and started to think about what she wanted her name to be.

"What should I put for me?" she asked. Dean thought for a moment.

"Put Sweetheart," he said.

"The Boss and Sweetheart?" she repeated with a laugh. "If anyone walks by and reads that they're gonna think we're some weird sugar-daddy-baby couple."

"Aren't we?" he asked, furrowing his eyebrows playfully. "Are you not just using me for my money?"

"Well, a teacher's salary is crap," she said. Dean laughed and bumped his hip with hers to move her so he could type Sweetheart into the machine. He pressed play game and looked at Alice.

"Let's bowl," he said.

Alice bowled a strike in her first frame. Dean looked at her with wide eyes. "I told you," she said. "I'm amazing."

"You said good," he said.

She cocked her head to the side. "Did I?"

Dean also bowled a strike and looked at her smugly.

"Hm," she huffed. "I guess it's on then. Should I get some beer?"

"A lady after my own heart."

The pair bowled two games and downed two beers each. She couldn't remember the last time she was that happy with someone who wasn't Christine. Granted, this was an entirely different kind of happiness. The only thing throwing her off was the looks she could feel people giving her and Dean. Was it really because of their nicknames on the screen? Was it because of their age difference? For some reason, she didn't think either of as the case, because she didn't think the people were ever looking at her. They were always looking at Dean. She knew he was handsome, but Christ, didn't people have self control?

Dean only scored a few points higher than Alice by the end of the game because, as she said, she was good. Unfortunately for her, so was he. Unfortunately for him, she was very competitive. "Come on," she whined, stomping her foot as Dean ended with two strikes in the last frame.

"Don't be a sore loser," Dean teased, putting his arms around her waist and kissing her nose.

"Let's play again," she said. "I'll kick your butt, I'm sure of it." Dean shook his head in amusement and kissed her cheek. "We can make it more interesting," she said just as he started to pull away from her. Obviously, he was intrigued.

"Can we?" he asked.

She nodded. "Um, if I win, you have to do another face mask with me." He chuckled and nodded. "If you win-" She hesitated, trying to come up with something.

"If I win," Dean said, pulling her closer to him and placing his lips right next to her ear, "I get to make you cum again." She swallowed nervously as he pulled away with a grin.

"Those are two very different prizes," she said. His grin faltered a bit, and he put his hands on his cheeks.

"If it makes you uncom-"

"You need to stop treating me like I'm so fragile," she said, folding her arms across her chest. "I know how to say no." Dean smirked, and she gave him a firm nod, then stuck her hand out. "Deal." When they broke the handshake, she picked up her ball and looked at Dean. "Ever thought I might purposefully lose?" she asked. "Like maybe I realized your prize is pretty good for me too?"

"Sweetheart," Dean said, sitting down on a chair and resting his elbows on his knees, "I'm counting on it."

Alice was only joking. She took games too seriously to throw one just for a chance to do something with Dean again. Plus, deep down, she knew if she begged sweetly enough, he would touch her anyway she wanted him to. So she played her hardest, mentally picking out which facemask she was going to have Dean use.

And then she rolled a gutterball in the last frame. And it was over.

Her face dropped as she looked at the score. "A one point difference," she whispered. "How is that even possible?" She jumped when Dean put his arms around her and kissed below her ear.

"So," he whispered, "my place or yours?"

She smiled. "Yours, no question."

"Mm," Dean hummed, "I love a girl who knows what she wants."

In the car, Dean switched out the cassette that was in the slot for another one. She didn't recognize the song that played, and Dean must've been able to see it in her face. "Your dads played the rock station but you don't know Led Zeppelin?" he said, seeming offended.

"Uh, I know 'Immigrant Song'," she said.

"God," Dean said, shaking his head as he turned up the radio. "'Ramble On', 1969. One of my favorite songs of all time." She smiled as he started tapping his hands against the steering wheel and sang along to the song. "Leaves are falling all around. It's time I was on my way. Thanks to you I'm much obliged for such a pleasant stay. But now it's time for me to go. The autumn moon lights my way. For now I smell the rain and with it pain, and it's headed my way." Dean noticed her stare and turned to look at her. "What?" he asked.

She giggled. "Anyone ever tell you you're cute?"

"Cute?" Dean repeated. "I've been called a lot of things, but cute is not really one of them."

"Well," she said, reaching over to scratch his beard lightly, "I think you're pretty cute."

When they got to the apartment, they held hands as they walked inside. Derek was the man at the reception desk again, and this time Alice waved at him along with Dean. As soon as the elevator doors closed Dean grabbed her by her waist and shoved her against the wall. He kissed her gently, but quickly pried her mouth open. She moaned and moved her hands to his head, but he grabbed her wrists and pinned them to the wall.

Dean felt her tense and stop kissing him back, which immediately made him pull away. "What's wrong?" he asked. She was suddenly breathing heavily and not meeting his eyes. "Hey, hey, sweetheart look at me," Dean said, putting his fingers on her chin to look at him. She winced away from his touch, so he took a step back from her. "Talk to me, Alice," he said gently, trying to lean down so she would meet his eyes. She finally looked at him, and it was like he could see her relax. She looked confused, like she had blacked out for a second and was just now coming back.

"Sorry," she whispered, shaking her head abruptly. "I just-" She let out a heavy breath just as the doors to the elevator opened. She looked up and gave Dean an awkward smile, then walked past him to leave the elevator. Dean followed her with a still confused look on his face. As much as he wanted to grab her arm and make her look at him, he didn't. She stopped on her own accord and turned to face him. "That was just weird for a second," she said. "I, I started thinking about that, that guy in the alley."

Dean's face and shoulders dropped. "Shit, sweetheart," he said. "I'm so sorry. I should've thought of that."

"No, no, I'm sorry," she said. "That was really weird, and I just, like, totally killed the mood. I'm sorry."

"Alice," he said, tentatively reaching out to touch her cheek. She didn't move away, so he lifted her chin. "You don't need to be sorry for that. You went through something scary, and I triggered that. That's something I should be sorry for."

She let out a heavy breath and put her hands on her head. All she wanted to do was let out another apology, but she knew that wasn't what she was supposed to do. She had stepped away from him and over towards the windows, looking out at the terrace. Dean hesitantly followed her and stood next to her, keeping a bit of distance between them. "How long have we known each other now?" she asked. "Two weeks?"

"I guess," Dean said.

"That's crazy," she whispered. At his silence, she looked at him. She laughed sadly. "I bet you didn't expect all this when you picked Lexi up that day, did you?" Dean turned and moved closer to her, putting his hand on her cheek.

"No, I didn't," he said, "but that is not a bad thing." She scoffed and looked away from his gaze. "Alice," he said firmly, making her meet his eyes again. "I like you, okay? You've been through some stuff, and that's not something you have to be embarrassed about. I'm not gonna kick you out because you're being honest with me about how you're feeling."

Alice smiled and put her hand on top of his. "I like you too," she said. Dean smiled as she stood on her tip toes and kissed him. When they parted, she hung her head again and licked her lips. "I know you won the bet and everything, but-"

"Don't even worry about it," Dean said. She looked at him, and he shot her a playful wink. "I said I'd make you cum again. I didn't say it had to be tonight. How about we watch a movie before bed?"

"That sounds perfect," she said.

She and Dean went into his bedroom, and she excused herself to the bathroom to get ready for bed. While she was gone, Dean sat on the edge of his bed and put his forehead in his hands. How could he be so stupid? He prided himself in his ability to read people, and yet he couldn't predict that she probably wouldn't react very well to being pinned to the wall? Even before the situation in the alley, he had told himself heavy dominance would be something he'd have to lead up to. The more he got to know her, the more he realized there was clearly something in her past -a bad relationship was his guess- that made her flinch whenever he raised his voice or moved too suddenly. He still knew he couldn't press her for more information. That was something she'd have to tell him on her own. Just like he had things to tell her too.

When Alice came out of the bathroom, he noticed she was wearing the t-shirt he had given her the last time she slept over. He smiled at her and pulled his shorts off so he was in his boxers, ready for bed. "Well aren't you a sight for sore eyes," he said with a smile. She smiled back and plopped onto the bed, immediately snuggling up to his side and pulling the covers over her bare legs. He grabbed the remote for his TV. "What do you want to watch?" he asked.

"Something fun," she said.

"Like a comedy or a cartoon?" he asked. She looked up at him, and he couldn't quite read her eyes, which frustrated him again. "What?"

"You wouldn't mind watching a cartoon?" she asked.

He shrugged. "Whatever you want." He jumped when she reached up and kissed his cheek. He looked down at her in amusement, but she was already looking back at the TV.

"Do you have Disney+?" she asked.

"I do not," he said, "but I can get it right now."

"You don't have to," she said.

"Well if you want to watch something-"

"You can log onto mine," she offered. Her face lit up. "Oo, you can pick a character for your profile." Dean raised his eyebrows, and she took the remote from him and maneuvered around to install the Disney+ app. She logged on and went to make Dean a profile. "Look at all the characters," she said, scrolling through his options for avatars. "Who do you want to be?" Dean stared at the TV, and she could see that he was thinking. He stopped her on one of the Pixar characters.

"I like that one," he said. "That red guy."

"Anger?" she asked, raising her eyebrows.

"His name is Anger?" Dean asked.

"Yeah," she said. "He's from Inside Out."

He nodded. "Sure. I'll be Anger."

"Have you never seen Inside Out?"

"I don't exactly watch a lot of Disney movies."

"Not even with Lexi?"

He shrugged. "She'll put them on, but I don't usually pay attention."

"You've at least seen, like Toy Story right?" she said. He shook his head no, and her jaw dropped. "Seriously?"

"When did it come out?" he asked.

"Like, '95 or something like that."

"Well that would've made me 16," he said. "I wasn't exactly watching animated movies when I was a sophomore in high school."

"You were 16 in 1995?" she asked.

He rolled his eyes. "Go ahead and make an old man joke. I can take it." She laughed and gave his arm a shove.

"You know I would never," she said. He smiled, and she looked back at the TV. "At least not to your face," she mumbled. She felt Dean's chest shake as he laughed, and she continued scrolling through titles until she got to Toy Story.

"So you decided?" he said.

"I decided," she said with a nod.

"Alright," Dean said, getting more comfortable against the pillows resting on the headboard. "Roll film."

She chuckled. "You're such a dork."

"A cute dork though, right?"

"Shut up, Dean."

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thoughts about spook 65

...Although, it’s more like a stream of consciousness commentary. I try and fail not to make this too long as usual, so warning long post ahead.

Summary: Aidairo leaves us on that cliffhanger by giving us a break with tension-breaker Kou with his caring friends, more Mitsukou, and then dun dun dun they encounter a Wild Comic Relief of Universal Proportions Natsuhiko (poor fish and tarantula I hope they got back safe) and apparently Natsuhiko wants to capture No.6 like he’s the rarest pokemon of all and might have the secret key to the immortality fountain?? Will we ever know more about these mysterious man stay tuned next month. And oh yeah also No.6 always wanted to throw Aoi into the hole to rot away because he’s also a necromancer. Just great and swell here folks, don’t know how Nene and Akane are faring ~

whaaww Kou’s feeling really overwhelmed I mean this is a lot for like what a 13 year old boy

LMAO IS HE WIPING THE MOKKE OR DID HE READY A KERCHIEF FOR NENE

‘Teru-nii hasn’t been home recently’ -- hmmmmm? What’s he up to? Is he out on a journey to exorcise bigger fish out there?

...Or it could be just a field trip lmao

lol. out of context -- 👀

(I love that white-black juxtaposition between the two of them)

AWW WHAT GOOD BOIS

KOU HAS SUCH GOOD FRIENDS I’M MELTING HEREEEEE

ahahahahaha ofc Satou sugarboy here has his priorities right. ‘Get sweet drinks and sweets for us you simp’

awwww

I love it, we’re getting outside perspective from the supportive side characters. It’s the Arc for no1 Supportive Side Character Ao-chan after all!

ooooooohhhhh Satou’s the observant one here. Starting to love him now~

what a cheerful sandboy Yokoo is holding that carrot

oyo it’s Mitsuba but I’m just distracted wondering if those plants on the left side are mimosa plants, le touch-me-not

LMAO

MITSUBA YOU NEVER HOLD BACK

omg you just popped right outta the mirror like that. I would have screamed and flung my hands everywhere. Kou you have nerves of steel or in this case your brain is a steelwool scrubber right now

Yeah man that’s his job your man’s a ghost in case you forgot

AWW HE’S ALSO CONCERNED

MITSUBA DOING THE BLESSED WORK AROUND HERE HE JUST OUTRIGHT ASKED KOU WHAT’S UP

LMAO KOU

It is unbelievable to him since Mitsuba has always been such a prickly tsun before he’s probably never shown much common decency let alone common friend interaction like showing concern esp since Kou to him is a blokehead

Awww, Kou

(oh? oh? what was his wish again exactly, to be friends or for him to be human somehow?

and lmao Kou is going doki-doki when Mitsuba for the first time ever asks if he’s okay)

Aww, Mitsuba misses his Daikon-senpai, this is too cute guys I--

Nene your fantasy came true Mitsuba’s looking for you like a lost puppy

LMAO HANAKO IS THE BAD FRIEND IM SCREMINH BUT KOU HONEY YOU’RE RIGHT HE FIGHTS BEATS STABS PEOPLE UP AND INTRODUCES YOU TO PORN AND EVEN GOES YANDERE FOR AN ARC

really. why am I so intrigued Teru is gone. Where did he go. There must be a story somewhere.

oh whoa there goes Kou acting all otome ML again (callback to Hanako wanting Nene’s wish to come true too with the shoulder-clutching?)

HAHAHAHA YEAH HE DIDN’T LISTEN AT ALL. THIS SIMP. YOUR BI HIMBO. YOUR MORON.

Mitsuba’s face is sending me I swear

Yes Mitsuba he deserves that kick to the arse. Teach him to listen to you

There we go again~~ *Kou otome ML move count: 2*

A scream??? COULD IT BE---

BUGS AND TRASH PLS PLS BE OKAY

wow Mitsuba just suited up. our two superheroes on the move

AAAAAAAAAA

IT’S A FISH???? WHOSE LEGS ARE THOU TOO LONG?? DON’T TELL ME IT’S NATSUHIKO

also lmao these phat daikon arms. And these rando fish are all so cute. Look at this guy on the right. So smooth and chill like a seal

Ya jeez more and more apparitions are showing up y’all it’s becoming a yokai manga (I’m not complaining I love them all.)

Oh that dramatic foot in a spotlight, Natsuhiko you dramatic hoe, it’s you I’d know you anywhere (jokes aside I saw that Sailor Moon edit of him so)

HAHAH THE FISH LOOKS SO HAPPY. PEAK COMEDY THAT FOOT SILENTLY SLIPPING OUT OF SIGHT I--

HONESTLY HOW DOES NATSUHIKO KEEP GETTING INTO THESE SITUATIONS

Good shonen boy Kou finally jumping into action to the rescue, because god knows without Hanako around there’s no one to do the saving of damsels in distress around here

‘I want to join too’ -- AWWW LOL THIS IS SO CUTE

and off they go bullying a fish like it’s a game, so sad I liked that whalefrogfish

is it ded. rip.

oh wow Natsu you kissed fish gullet, look how red your face is wow. Also you really shouldn’t think that you’re too funny to let die. You survived being thrown into Nowhere, you’ll survive fish llke Jonah did. But fr did Sakura throw you into a fish trash pit or smth

LOL OH YEAH KOU DOESN’T KNOW AND YEAH HE IS THE NO1 AIRHEAD FOR MITSUBA NOT KOU LOL

OHMYGOD HE DID A DRAMATIC SELF-INTRODUCTION WITH THE FLASH STEP AND ALL I LOVE U YOU DORK. YOU HUGE SHONEN DORK OF INDESTRUSCTIBLE COMIC RELIEF PROPORTIONS

ohmygod he called himself an Onii-san. He wants Kou to call him Onii-san. I am crying. Teru come back your lil bro’s being propositioned (w hA T a tiME for YoU TO Be GonE eH)

HAHAH THAT IDOL POSE. NO WONDER SAILOR MOON I AM DECEASED

KOU BABY IS SUSPICIOUS IM CRYING YES AS YOU SHOULD BE HUN (that font is just perfect *chef’s kiss*)

Natsuhiko just awkwardly perched there in the background

Touchy touchy LOL MITSUBA YOU SAID WHAT I THOUGHT

and yikes Natsuhiko’s pulling the same moves as Nene to gain kouhais lolol, aaah I’m starting to see similarities between them

HAHAH OMG *Kou otome ML move count: 3*

ooh what a shady guy. Natsu what do u know tell us tell us tell us

omg y u like this. whY do you sound so threatening now. I take it back you’re not harmless

W H A T

Natsuhiko do you mean to tell me you’re immortal????? Is that why you survive all these ridiculous levels of eldritch horror????

Fml he really looks like a vampire in that lighting. Esp since I can like see all his individual teeth what on earth is this level of detail Aidairo for once Natsuhiko looks like the cool mysterious guy he was meant to be

Just realised he has like a dyed hair thing going on kinda like Tsuchigomori. Don’t tell me. Natsuhiko are you Tsuchigomori’s secret love child.

‘There’s a bad energy coming from here’ --- pFFFT. He sounds like he’s trying to be a fengshui expert now. A conman

hmmmm??? Oh that wasn’t a phone?? what is that it’s an onsen...?

wait that is probably a phone nvm. I’m just jumping at every little detail like 👀 

so huh I’m assuming Tsukasa can’t handle no6 on his own either, so....or possibly Natsuhiko is acting on his own??

Ooh cool blankets, everyone has different flowers!! (*squints* no stop you can’t go looking for flower meanings everywhere)

And yes that’s a phone. Naatsuhiko just canonically has an onsen symbol phonecase just to show he’s a Chill Bro

lol Mitsuba i don’t think you need to worry you’re not a whole soul anymore

D’AWWWW LOOK AT ALL THOSE LITTLE CUTIES (sheep, elephant, bunnies (multiple), rubber duckling)

You. Natsuhiko. You’re the one most like a cat.

omg what a braggart. what a chest-thumping man u are Natsu-senpai

OMG KOU NOOO WE WERE MAKING PROGRESS HE TAMED YOU ANYWAY

hahahahha I’m crying. Even Natsuhiko’s conscience is touched by Kou’s trusting naivete I can’t

oh my god. but thank god Teru-nii still comes first he still hasn’t completely seduced you over to the dark side just yet

awwww, Kou. Awww. He really, really wants to do his best to save them all. I--

Aw yay Natsu is touched to the point he’ll help!! Hopefully he wasn’t lying!! I hope there isn’t a sacrifice involved-

oh???

Onix (srsly I really love all the lotuses everywhere. really going Buddhist symbology there)

look at dat foot. it go.

oh!! we’re fresh at the battlescene!!

!!!!!!

IT’S ALIVEEEE

I guess these guys are too useful to let rot in the trashpit eh

?? For one moment I thought we were looking down into the trashpit at our missing 4 lmao. But why. No 6 you’re coming off as ...naturally innocent??? Dang. Let this cutie rest

I’m genuinely curious how on earth this no 6 is not a god on his own. (It’s funny to me that I’m coincidentally writing about a god like this as well at the same time.) How does he rank equal to the others. How is Hanako even his boss have they ever met before I demand a full show of Hanako’s powers one day. We’re not even sure what his boundary is. Or is it that he only has the power of life and death on those in his boundary?

(edit: just realised that if Tsukasa is behind Natsuhiko then no6 is basically Tsukasa’s dream power - necromancy. He could build all the Frankensteins his little heart ever wanted)

oof there go the minions. I love how they have little buds on their heads. Every minion of his is ‘living’! And they’re like the first with individuality I’ve seen...?

oh he thinks Aoi did this purposely? Pfft she got dragged in there

juijuirjfuerjcjkekerjckdediejdiedmwec. I am so worried. But fr this one panel of Aoi is so beautiful.

Huh the hole is a starburst shape? 6 points hmm --oh wait im dumb it’s closing up oh no

LOL KEIKAKU DOORI

But shiet really how did he see to that. By giving her power over those specific bugs?? Planting info of that hole in her?

IM SCREAMING THAT’S THE END OF IT THAT’S IT TILL NEXT MONTH

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Melody of the Heart 2

Everyone: The category is love!!!?

Jaune and Ren: That shouldn’t be too hard.

Adam and Mercury:We’re screwed......

Tai:......*looks at Raven and Summer* oh boy....

*Yang, Sun, and Ilia smile at Blake*

Blake:*red*(Why?)

CFVY:*thinking intently*

Ruby:So.....how do we know who goes fi- *embers swirls around her*

Ozma:The fire picked you.

Ruby:What!? So soon!? A love song!?

Penny:Good luck!

Ruby:Wait wait wait wait wait!!! Shouldn’t the person who knows how this place works go first? Seems a little unfair to throw people into this so recklessly.

Roman:*shouts* You’re just scared!

Ruby:Do you want to go first!!!?

Roman:.....fair point.

Ozma:I’ll gladly go first if it makes you all feel better. *steps in front of the fire* Alrighty then, flame who do I have to sing to?

*embers circle around Salem as words form above her head*

“Drag her and impress the audience”

Yang:Damn, evil ex right from the start.

Ozma:*appears as his first reincarnation* Might as well fully comment to the part. Now what to sing.....

Salem:Gods I hate this place. *glares*

Penny:You can be rude in a love song?

Weiss:Honestly most love songs are rude if you ask me. I wonder how this will turn out.

*everyone is silent as Ozma’s magic makes the instruments play themselves*

Cardin:That’s cheating.....

Salem:Everyone will have this option, so don’t worry about it. It would be hard to get a bunch of you to help in every performance.

Salem:*glaring*.....

Ozma:*takes a deep breath* Here goes nothing...

Ozma:🎶 Easy come, easy go, that's just how you live. Oh take, take, take it all but you never give.....

Should've known you was trouble from the first kiss. Had your eyes wide open; why were they open?🎶

RWBY:*shook* Daaaammmmnnnn! (/0.0)/

Ozma:🎶Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash. You tossed it in the trash, you did...🎶

*embers flow around Tai and Adam as they try not to sing*

Ozma:🎶To give me all your love is all I ever ask cause what you don't understand is- I'd catch a grenade for ya!!! (yeah yeah yeah) 🎶

🎶Throw my head on a blade for ya (yeah yeah yeah)🎶

🎶I'd jump in front of a train for ya (yeah yeah yeah)🎶

🎶You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah yeah yeah)🎶

OAT🎶 Oh whoa oh~🎶

Ozma:🎶I would go through all this pain. Take a bullet straight through my brain!!! Yes I would die for you baby........🎶 *points at her*

🎶But you won't do the same!!!!🎶 *music intensifying*

Velvet:*whispers* Do we know these people?

Coco:Shhh, I’m watching the drama unfold.

Tai and Adam:Why are we singing!?

Salem:Apparently some part of you empathize with his song and compels you to sing along. Just go along with it; you all sound great!

Ozma:🎶No no no no. Black, black, black and blue; beat me til I'm numb. Tell the devil I said hey when you get back to where you're from.🎶

Salem:*glares*

Ozma: *smirks* 🎶Mad woman, bad woman that's just what you are. Yeah you'll smile in my face then rip the breaks out my car.🎶

OA:🎶Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash. You tossed it in the trash, you did!🎶

OT:🎶To give me all your love is all I ever ask. 'Cause what you don't understand is.....🎶

Ozma:🎶I'd catch a grenade for ya🎶 (yeah yeah yeah)

Tai:Throw my head on a blade for ya (yeah yeah yeah)

Adam: 🎶I'd jump in front of a train for ya (yeah yeah yeah)🎶

Ozma:🎶You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah yeah yeah)🎶

🎶Oh whoa oh🎶

Ozma:🎶I would go through all this pain; take a bullet straight through my brain... *tears up*Yes I would die for you baby....🎶

🎶But you won't do the same....🎶

Tai and Adam:🎶Ooooooooohhhhhhh🎶

Ozma: If my body was on fire *glares* Ooh you'd watch me burn down in flames.

Salem:(Shit.....)

Ozma:🎶You said you love me, you're a liar 'cause you never ever, EVER did baby🎶 *crying*

Salem:*refusing to look at him*......

Ozma:...... *grits teeth*

Ozma:🎶But darling I'd still catch a grenade for ya!!!! (yeah yeah yeah)🎶

🎶Throw my head on a blade for ya (yeah yeah yeah)🎶

🎶I'd jump in front of a train for ya (yeah yeah yeah)🎶

🎶You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah yeah yeah)🎶

Ozma:🎶Oh whoa oh I would go through all this pain heh......🎶

Ozma: 🎶TAKE A BULLET STRAIGHT THROUGH MY BRAIN!!!!!🎶

Coco:Yes! Drag her!!!👏

Ozma:🎶Yes I would die for you, baby.....

But you won't do the same. No, you won’t do the same. You wouldn’t do the same....... Ooo you’d never do the same.🎶 *wipes his eyes*

🎶Oh no no noooowooooh....🎶

*embers fly back into the flames, glowing brighter than ever*

Everyone:*shock and awe*......

Roman:Well damn.....got my approval.

Coco:Agreed!!!!!

*many approvals around the circle. Actually, a majority of them.....*

Ozma:*takes his seat and goes back to normal* That a good example for you Ruby?

Ruby:How am I supposed to that!? How can anyone top that!!!?

Ozma:As long as you give it your all then everyone here will do well. Also get help from unsuspecting friends and foes.

Raven:Tai was that towards me wasn’t it?

Tai:I have no idea what you’re talking about. *turning away* just felt like singing.

Blake:*looking at Adam*......

Adam:*watching the waves* don’t read too much into it.

Blake:Whatever you say tough guy.

*embers fly towards Ruby again*

Ruby:Sigh, guess I gotta go now. *walks to the flame* lay it on me bonefire! Who’s getting me to sing?

“Convince others to help you serenade Weiss Schnee and when her approval.”

Weiss:......whaaaaaaa?

Ruby:Well then......wasn’t expecting that. *grabs guitar* Magic, can I get you on drums and play that song? I got a feeling you can read my mind.

Ozma:It totally can *immediately starts playing*

Ruby:*starts playing guitar* (Wow, you really can play anything here)

Weiss:Ruby I sort of have an ear for music so don’t feel bad if-

Ruby: 🎶Ooh girl you're shining; like a 5th avenue diamond!

And they don't make you like they used to. You're never going out of style!🎶

Weiss:*Blushing* What!?

Ruby: *smirking* 🎶Ooh pretty baby, this world might have gone crazy.

The way you saved me, who could blame me when I just wanna make you smile?🎶

🎶I wanna thrill you like Michael... *swaying her hips* 🎶

🎶I wanna kiss you like Prince....🎶*winks*

🎶Let's get it on like Marvin Gaye, like Hathaway Write a song for you like this.🎶 *points*

Ruby:🎶You're over my head; I'm out of my mind!Thinking I was born in the wrong time. One of a kind, living in a world gone plastic. Baby you're so classic!🎶

Weiss:*can’t think fast enough*.....

Jaune:*looks at Neptune* 😏

Neptune:😏

Ruby:🎶Baby you're so classic. Baby you,baby you're so classic!

Four dozen of roses; anything for you to notice! All the way to serenade you. Doing it Sinatra style.🎶

Jaune and Neptune: 🎶Ima pick you up in a Cadillac. Like a gentleman bringin' glamor back. Keep it real to real in the way I feel; I could walk you down the aisle!🎶 *rushes to Ruby*

Jaune: I wanna thrill you like Michael *sways hips*

_NPR: Go Jaune!!!

Neptune:I wanna kiss you like Prince *winks*

Sun and Ilia: Kill it Neptune!!!!

Ruby: 🎶Let's get it on like Marvin Gaye; like Hathaway Write a song for you like this!🎶

Yang and Blake: Woooo! Ruby!

RJN: 🎶You're over my head; I'm out of my mind!Thinking I was born in the wrong time

Let's start the rewind, everything is so throwback age!🎶 (I kinda like it like it)

Jaune:🎶Out of my league,old school chic. Like a movie star from the silver screen.🎶

Ruby:🎶One of a kind living in a world gone plastic. Baby you're so classic. *grinning* Baby you're so classic. *heroes clap to the beat* Baby you're so classic!🎶

Neptune: Baby you're class and baby you're sick. I never met a girl like you ever til we met! A star in the 40's, centerfold in the 50's; got me tripping out like the 60’s

Hippies Queen of the discotheque. A 70's dream and an 80's best. Hepburn, Beyoncé, Marilyn Manson. Girl you're timeless, just so classic!

Weiss:*atomic blush*!!!!!!

RJN:🎶You're over my head; I'm out of my mind! Thinking I was born in the wrong time!

Let's start the rewind, everything is so throwback age🎶 (I kinda like it like it)

Jaune:🎶Out of my league, old school chic. Like a movie star from the silver screen🎶

Ruby:You're one of a kind living in a world gone plastic. Baby you're so classic. Baby you're so classic🎶

*dashes to Weiss and puts her in the middle*

RJN:🎶Baby you're so classic!!!!🎶

*embers fly away*

Ruby:*sweating* So......how was that?

Weiss:........

Weiss:*covers her face* You guys are so ridiculous; of course I liked it!

RJN:*High five* Oh yeah!!!!!

Ruby:That’s for the assist you two!

Neptune:Please, like we were gonna miss that!?

Jaune:There was no convincing needed.

*various loud cheering from people*

Ozma:This place is the best.

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Apologies - Part 3

Part 1 / Part 2 / Part 3

Prompt: Shawn becomes miserable after Y/N left for a so called break. But how long will the break last? Will Shawn be able to win her back?

Word Count: Almost 4k

A/N: Well who knew I would be writing a part 3 to this but here we are. I cannot thank you guys enough for showing so much love to me. I'll forever be grateful. I love y'all babies 🌸💕 Also this part is gonna be a bit longer so hold on tight!

One week. It has been one whole week since Shawn has last seen you walk through the door. One week of utter heartbreak. One week of loneliness and sheer regret. Shawn has been through it all.

The morning after you left, Shawn woke upto a cold hard floor realising he had cried himself to sleep on the floor only. Flashbacks of the last night hit him and there he was back again, grieving over your absence.

He called you several times but you didn't pick up even once. All his calls went straight to your voicemail and all the messages remained ignored. Every moment was stabbing him in the heart, blaming himself for all the mess. Oh god if only he would've acted a bit responsible.

The deadline was approaching near but he didn't care about it now. Whenever he would try and sit down to think about a song, his thoughts would get distracted and he would always end up thinking about the words you said.

You broke me in the blink of an eye Shawn.

A tear would slip down his cheek and he would wipe it off. He wasn't able to focus anymore. He was ignoring all the calls he was getting from his management team and has not been to the studio since the last week giving an excuse that he was working at home.

Brian and Andrew sensed something was up and decided to visit him due to his lack of presence in studio and the halted progress in work. Analysing the mess he has created out of himself and his surroundings, they decided to bring up the question.

"What do you think you're doing with yourself?" Andrew asked.

Shawn looked terrible. Red eyes, purple under eyes bags, messed up house and his lack of presence of mind were all evident of the fact of the immense effect it had on Shawn when you left him that day. He was not eating properly and probably was not in his best state at all.

"What? I'm working on stuff." Shawn said bluntly.

"Oh is it? Let me take a look at your work then. May I know where is it?" Andrew asked clearly pissed off.

"Jesus! Do you need a fucking proof of everything? I said I'm working on it!" Shawn argued.

"I know you're lying to my face Shawn. Otherwise why would you stop coming to the studio all of a sudden. Why would you even ignore our calls? Hell you even fought with Y/N. What's the problem man?" Andrew asked bluntly.

"That is the bloody problem Andrew! That is the bloody problem! She left. Y/N left!!!!!!" Shawn yelled.

"W-What?" Andrew was confused.

"Yes she fucking left Andrew after all that I said to her. I broke her terribly. I hurt her like an enemy and now she left and I don't even know if she's coming back or not!" Shawn broke.

Andrew was shocked. He stepped forward to put a hand in consolation over Shawn's shoulder.

"I get-" Andrew said but was interrupted.

"No you don't get it okay! It has all happened because of you people!!!!" Shawn shouted.

"You all are crazy. You all want me to follow my passion but at the same time want it done so quickly like I'm working on a damn written assignment or something. It's music for fuck's sake. It takes time you know? It requires thinking and a lot of emotions attached to it. It can't just come up with a song like that. I'm not even happy with my work anymore because you guys always want the work on your table so on time like some fucking dinner oh my god. And because of this, I've not been able to even talk properly with Y/N since the past several months as you guys always want me to be in the studio. I left her when she needed me the most. I ignored her. I didn't say anything because I thought this all was happening for good but no it wasn't and here I'm in the midst of a hell hole. I watched her walk past that door after begging her to stay and I don't even know if she'll ever be back? How am I supposed to focus Andrew? Tell me? Does this make you happy? Are you happy that I lost her?" Shawn was on the verge of tears with his voice cracking.

"So you're now saying that this is all because of us don't you? What fucking lame ass excuse are you giving us for a breakup which you were responsible for Shawn?!" Andrew said angrily.

Brian told Andrew to shut up just for once because this wasn't the right time to argue with Shawn.

"Yes I only mean what you're hearing? You're sick. Your whole management is sick. Thinks people are fucking robots or something. You and you management can go and fuck yourself!" Shawn retaliated.

Andrew was done with him. Brian dragged Andrew outside before this could get anymore ugly.

"What are you doing dude?" Brian whisper yelled.

"Wh-what I am doing? Didn't you see him being such an immature and irresponsible guy. It's like I don't know him and how the fuck did he dare to put this all on us. I'm-"

Brian interrupted " I know buddy. He's not in a right state. You know how much he was attached to Y/N. He loved her to death and with her leaving him now, he has totally lost it. He needs consolation and help Andrew and not people reminding him it's his mistake because he surely does know it. You and me we both know that he's not totally wrong about what he said about the management. It's partially our fault too you know? He worked more than he needed. You know what I mean right?" Brian asked Andrew and he kinda nodded slightly but not too much.

"I'll talk to him. I'll also try to talk to Y/N and see if this gets any better. But for now, give him a little more time for he is going through a lot right now. He's in pain and needs help okay. You can go now and I'll try to talk to him about this. Just be cool huh?"

Andrew nodded and went for his car. Brian sighed in relief and went inside. He saw Shawn sitting on the couch with his head in his hands.

He walked up to him and placed a hand on his knee asking "Hey buddy! How you doin'?"

"What are you here for now?" Shawn mumbled against his hands.

"What? I'm here to check up on my buddy. Gotta see is he's doing okay?"

"Well then you're gonna be really disappointed because I'm a screwed up mess right now. I don't know what to do. Y/N isn't picking up any of my calls neither is she replying to my texts. I think she hates me now and probably won't ever be back and all this wouldn't have happened if I wouldn't have been a dick to her. So there's that and I'm doing just fine I guess?" Shawn rambled.

"Woah! Woah dude slow down. So you're telling me you just called and texted her and never actually tried to go after her or chase her? What difference is that gonna make Shawn? What are you thinking?" Brian said surprisingly.

"What do you mean by that?" Shawn asked looking up, confused by what Brian was implying.

"You gotta reach out for her Shawn duh?" Brian raised an eyebrow hoping Shawn would get the indication.

"I'm not really getting you Brian. Stop beating around the bush and get to the point!"

"God! Are you really that dumb or do you pretend to be one. Well seems like you are actually dumb because what I'm trying to say is you got to reach out for her in real. All these texts and calls about how much you miss her and love her will not make any progress buddy. If you really love her so much then you gotta tell her about it. You've to find a way to meet her. I don't know how but figure it out before it gets too late and she changes her mind to not come back to you. Time is precious and you've already lost a week. Go after her. Chase her. Are you getting what I'm saying Shawn? No one considers a mere call or a text expressing your love or regret as a solid way to apologise you know." Brian asked.

"Oh shit! What was I thinking?" Shawn sat there wide eyed.

"Exactly. My point. But it's never too late. You've still got time. Think about a plan and chase her. As much as I know Y/N, Shawn she really loves you. And if you assure her that you're never gonna mess things up like this again and show how much love you hold for her, I'm sure she's gonna consider you another time."

"Yes I think you're so damn right. I should go but she's living with Noah and as much as I know Noah she won't let me meet her after seeing what I did to Y/N. She's never gonna let me meet her." Shawn ran his hands through his hair in frustration and groaned.

"Dude did you lose your brain somewhere or threw it into trash can someday because you're fucking stupid. Who told you to go and ring the bell and be a gentleman? Figure out her room and climb through a ladder like a romeo and get inside your Juliet's room and do your thing bitch!" Brian exclaimed.

Shawn stared at Brian for a minute as if he was a superhuman. He mentally face palmed himself for being so dumb and wasting so much time texting and calling her. Suddenly, he hugged Brian tightly.

"You're a saviour Brian! Thank you so much! God knows how much time I would've really wasted if you wouldn't have been on time here." Shawn said a bit happily as he got some hope that maybe he was not that late that he has imagined himself to be.

"You're welcome pussy." Brian said smiling. "Now go and do it! Good luck mate! I'm sure she's gonna be back and everything is gonna be alright! Just don't bring your defeated ass back home. Bring home victory!"

xx

It was raining and you were driving your way back to Noah's home after a tiring day at work. Yes, work. You decided to go back to work since sitting idle was eating you up and bringing back bad thoughts and memories which were never really helping you.

It has been one week since you walked out of that door and last seen Shawn's face. You wouldn't deny that you missed him. You missed him like crazy. And you were still in love with him.

You wondered how he must be doing. Would he be fine? Would he be sad? Would he be over you? Would he be expecting you to be back? Endless thoughts circled your minds daily and it was hurting you.

You also debated with yourself at times whether you did the right thing or not and that was the most scary part. You tried talking to Noah about this and it kind of helped.

"Y/N honey" she' sighed. "It was a decision you thought about right? It wasn't taken in the heat of the moment. You were hurt too much. Anyone who would've been in your place would've considered it to be an appropriate thing you know? I know what you're thinking but you needed some personal space to figure things out and that wouldn't have been possible if you would've still been there right? So stop beating yourself up" Noah said calmly.

You wouldn't deny that it helped talking to Noah about this but not that much that you expected. It was still bothering you.

You pulled your car in Noah's driveway and turned off the ignition. You signed and rang the bell. The door opened and you were greeted by Noah talking on her phone to someone. She smiled at you and you smiled back at her. She continued talking on her phone in a low voice but it was still audible to you.

"No I can't you know about Y/N right. She's sick and she has been living with me since a week so I gotta take care of her. I'll come in the next one for s-" Noah whispered.

You snatched the phone from her and answered "Actually Y/N is well and I would absolutely love to come around tonight. I'll be there at 8. Bye."

"What the hell was that Y/N? Why would you do that? You know I don't wanna leave you-"

"I know Noah and that's why I'd to do that. You've already done so much for me and I'm so utterly thankful of you that you stood by my side all the time and took care of me like a baby. But I'm fine Noah. I just want you to go out and have some fun and not avoid this just because of me. That'll make me feel even worse you know." you said while making a puppy face which you knew Noah couldn't resist.

Noah gave you a genuine smile and hugged you. You hugged her back.

"You bitch! You've to make that face don't you" Noah said and you chuckled.

"Yes and now go, get ready. Dress up sexy and get some ass." you said with a wink and Noah fake gasped.

After about an hour you saw Noah get ready to leave.

"I'll be back early. You'll be alright?" Noah asked you in a concerned way.

"No way! You'll not be back before 12 I'm ordering you girl. You better not be back home before that otherwise I won't let you in" you said in a made up manly tone.

"Okay mom!" Noah said and hugged you goodbye.

"Just drive safe and have fun!" you shouted behind her and she nodded while driving away. You sighed somewhat in relief and happiness. But now you were all alone. It was raining outside making it a gloomy evening.

It was already half past 8 so you decided to have a light dinner and retire yourself to bed by 9 after a good bath.

You couldn't help the thoughts about Shawn in your shower. How beautiful he looked when his lips curved into a smile, how the crinkles by his eyes appeared when he laughed flashing his perfect teeth, the way his perfect lips felt upon yours and how he was the ultimate source of happiness.

You shook your head to clear your thoughts. You turned off the shower and got out of it. Then you changed into your pjs and a loose t-shirt and snuggled yourself into the bed with the curtains wide open. You stared at your phone screen displaying hundreds of voicemails and messages that were not still opened by you and your hands itched to do that.

You watched the rain pour down and the thunder striking which always scared you. This reminded you of how Shawn would cuddle you in his arms whenever the lightning struck. A tear slipped from your eyes.

This was too hard. You wanted to go back to Shawn. You began to contemplate your decision whether you were right to leave him or not.

Shawn loved you. He moved away from his family and friends to live with you just because he loved you. And you knew how suoer stressed he gets when it comes to music. You thought whether you did the right thing to leave him when he needed you the most. He said you gave him motivation and what did you do? You left him? Yes he was wrong to say such things to you and heck even he did a mistake to ignore you but were you intending on taking a revenge from him instead of that? You loved him right?

Your thoughts were interrupted by a heavy pounding on your window. You were startled by the sound. You raised your head to get a better view and saw some wet curls slowly emerging up. You froze in your position. It was the person you were just thinking about. It was Shawn. He was trying to get inside. This is was all too much to process.

He was dripping wet. You realised you were staring for too long when he got restless and the pounding got faster signalling you to let him asap.

You ran towards your window and opened it. You helped Shawn get inside and he got you wet also. You quickly closed the window and went to grab a towel for Shawn to dry himself out. You handed him the towel while you caught him staring at you. You stared back at him.

This was such an intimate moment. You both were not saying anything. Just looking at each other, taking all in. It was like one of the many times when you both saw each other for first time. This was beautiful. He was beautiful.

"Come back Y/N" Shawn blurted out.

"Wha-"

"You heard it right baby. Come back. Just come back to me. It's too hard without you Y/N. Life's hard without you." Shawn said. He stepped forward and held your arms gently.

"I mean it. I love you Y/N. I love you with all my heart. I can scream it to the whole world and not feel even a tad bit of ashamed by it. I'm so disappointed in myself so much that I can't even tell you. In those past days, I just wanna tell you that it took everything in me not to run back to you every minute. I hated myself for doing this to you. There was not a moment when I didn't think about you. I wished I could just take all that back and tell you that you were not even near to what I said to you that day baby." Shawn's voice croaked.

"Shaw-" he put a finger on your lips.

"Shh! No let me speak today baby."

You were starting to tear up. He moved his hands to your cheeks and cupped them.

"Look into my eyes Y/N. Don't they scream about the love I have for you. Y/N you've saved me everytime I was about to fall. You are the power I have that keeps me on my toes. That keeps me motivated. You're my strength baby and not my weakness. You've that magic that helps me keep my shit together and not make me feel otherwise. You've been there for me when I used to feel so hopeless and useless. I don't wanna miss you like this Y/N. I want you like you used to be with me. I want you back. You keep me sane and at the same time you drive me insane. I love this contrast in my emotions when I'm with you. I'm at my best when I'm with you." Shawn was now crying. Light sobs were escaping your lips.

"What we have Y/N is so beautiful and magical. If I'd known what you were feeling like, I swear my love that I would've never left you like that everyday and would never have played so nonchalant. Distance, timings, breakdown, fightings and silence, we've been through it all. I don't wanna lose you baby. I've my whole life planned with you before my eyes. I always see you walking down the aisle and holding your face gently and kissing you in front of our families. I already see you as the mother of my children baby. I wouldn't trade this for the world. This is so precious Y/N. Just come back to me. I'm apologize with all my entire heart for all the nights I left you alone when I should've held you in my arms and have told you that it's gonna be fine. I should have been there for you when you woke up in the morning to kiss your lips. I regret not doing all those things in those past months which I intend to do now. Don't let this go Y/N my love. Don't let our forever get ripped into shreds babe. Just come back. Just come back baby." Shawn whimpered.

The look in his eyes said it all. The pain in those eyes were evident of the immense fear he was experiencing of losing you. It spoke to your heart directly. Someone once said that fall in love with the eyes because they never change. You saw it today. His eyes still held the same amount of love and tenderness as they'd when he first declared that he loved you. You were looking into eyes while you brought his face closer to you with your hands. Shawn placed his forehead on yours and you both were crying. It was getting too emotional. Shawn wiped a tear that was streaming down your cheek with his thumb and touched his nose with yours.

"I'm sorry" you whispered through sobs."Don't be. It's me who's at fault." he whispered back.

"No baby. I realised I left you when you needed me the most. You begged me to say but I couldn't hear you over my ego. I'm so sorry baby." You whispered against his lips.

"No baby. That was not your ego. That was your dignity and I'm so proud of you that you stood for yourself and kicked some sense into me." he cried softly against skin.

"I love you Shawn. I love you so much. We are not meant to fight like this. I miss us. I miss how we used to be. This love is good and you're the best thing that has ever been mine."

"I love you more baby. So fucking more. You're my life, my forever and my everything. I promise I'm gonna make this all better. The stakes will always be high but I'm ready to fight the world when you're right beside me holding my hand. I'm not gonna treat you like I did. You're my princess baby. No one can take what is ours and I'm fearless now."

You cried against his lips even harder. You took this moment to crash your lips against his. Shawn's hands held you closer to him by your waist as much as possible while your hands went from his chest to behind his neck where you interlocked them. The kiss was passionate, desperate and so loving. You bit at his lower lip. Shawn leaned into you more to make the kiss more intense. His hands roamed all over your body like a nomad wandering for his home. Your heart was healing with every second of this kiss. You realised this was all you'll ever want. His tongue delved into your and explored it with so much intimacy. You tugged at his curl which made him moan into your mouth. Suddenly lightening struck and you pulled out of the kiss, scared. Shawn looked at you and sensed that you were afraid so he wrapped you in his arms and kissed your head. You got engulfed in his scent and realised no place could be safer that his arms.

"I'm cold Shawn" you mumbled against his chest. " Well then I know just the right way to make you feel warm" Shawn said and you felt him smile against your forehead moving his lips straight down to your neck and kissing your skin over there. It was finally time to say goodbye to all the hardships and anguish and the perfect moment to celebrate the victory of love.

xx

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[desperationandgin]

Tags from a Jeller Blindspotter

Okay, per ask request....some tags. From like, 50+ pages of posts. I tried to pick only good ones!! And they sort of go in order? But not really because at a certain point there were hiatuses and such. w/e here we go! ALSO, Bonus: if you click them, it’ll take you to the post the tags were about! Well, kind of. If you click on ‘fuck’ for example it’ll take you to everything I’ve tagged with that, soooo.

#this pilot was okay #idk what the end game is tho (LMAO I just want to point out this was September 23rd. I point this out because on September 29th we have:)

#I AM SHIPPING THIS SO HARD (LOOOOOL DIDN’T TAKE LONG.)

#I SHIP IT #I SHIP IT HARD (I was such trash so fast.)

#GODDAMMIT WHY DO I LOVE THIS SO MUCH 

#look at this man looking at jane i'm going to jump off a cliff into an ocean of my own tears

#god LOOK AT THEM #and now we know who she is and it's even better (OH, ME OF THE PAST LMAO.)

#ahhhh FUCK #GOD #HHAHAHAHAHAHAHA FUCK (this was my mental breakdown over ‘you’re my starting point.’)

#GOODBYE SWEET SHIP 

#LOOK AT HER LOOKIN AT HIS LIPS #SHE WAS MOVIN IN #GIRRRRRRRRRRRRL

#DOES EVERYONE ON THIS FUCKING TEAM KNOW BUT KURT (that he’s in love with Jane, lmao.)

#YOU LITTLE SHIT

#KDSHFLKJDSGFDKLJGHFDJKLGHFDLKGKFSLDGFFGHLFG #AHAHHAAHHHAHAA #FUCK ME SOFTLY (If you guessed this was ‘Authentic Flirt’ you’d be right.)

#the way he smiles at her is going to cripple me 

#you can literally see patterson internally screaming

#my soul is not physically prepared for this #he is wearing a wedding ring #they are undercover #i am going to collapse  (DEAR ME OF THE PAST: IT GETS BETTER.)

#WHY ARE YOUR LIPS NOT AGAINST HIS LIPS YET

#NO NO IT'S OKAY I'M FINE #I'M FINE #no i'm NOT

#you two assholes look like you've been doing this shit forever what is your problem #just get married (LOL)

I’m putting the rest under a read more!

#these two assholes

#the couple who kills together stays together tbh

#GDI SAWYER  (ah yes, the interruption of the first kiss.)

#SHUT UP AND LEAVE ME ALONE ABOUT IT

#I DON'T CARE WHAT SHE'S DONE #PLS PROTECT HER AT ALL COSTS #i'm talking to u kurt

#nO PROTECT HER

#he looks at her like she's the missing part of his heart

#STOP KURT

#YEAH JANE FUCK HIM UP

#and then this asshole 'I'M DAMAGED FOR LIFE lol just kidding baby i got you didn't i?'

#PERPETUALLY NEAR TEARS JANE DOE IS MY FAV JANE DOE #because then kurt does some drastic shit likes puts her hand over his heart and holds her close

#GOD I'M GONNA BARF BECAUSE SHE KNOWS SHE DID IT TO HERSELF

#JANE WITH BIG GUNS IS MY AESTHETIC 

#I AM IN SO MUCH PHYSICAL PAIN

#SEND ME A MEDIC

#LOOK AT THE WAY THESE TWO NERDS LOOK AT EACH OTHER

#i'm going to fling myself into the sun

#i'm hurting so bad

#my CHEST HURTS 

#HE'S SO IN LOVE WITH HER AND I JUST

#HE WANTED TO MAKE OUT WITH HER ON A PARK BENCH

#please help this man (these are all after Jane didn’t meet Kurt at that park bench, lol :( )

#I REALLY #I HATE #I'M SO ANGRY

#OH MY GOD I'M FUCKING SCREAMING ARE YOU SHITTING ME #OH FUCK THIS ALL OF THIS

#well i'm gonna cry over everything

#FUCK #THIS #WITH #A WOODEN #SPOON

#TALK TO KURT JANE PLEASE JUST #end my suffering

#WHEN KURT CRIES MY LIFE IS DESTROYED 

#in this our time period of perpetual angst

#i'm so sad for kurt   #someone please take care of him

#he keeps trying so hard and it's breaking my heart

#my dumb tattooed angel

#fbi couple of my heart

#why is this show so terrible to them right now lmao #what did i ever do but love your show martin gero 

#what if i just sleep through the rest of the season and you guys tell me if this shit ever gets resolved 

#all i do is cry over these two assholes

#now all you have to do is both get your heads out of your asses #and then we can all move forward together

#my baby comforting her baby

#LOOK AT HER SMILE #cherish this moment and hold onto it #i tell myself 

#you are both idiots and i love you

#KURT 'FUCK IT BREAK THE FUCKING WINDOW' WELLER

#WE COULD HAVE HAD IT ALLLLLLLL #BUT NOW WE NEVER WIIIILLLL #BECAUSE SOMEONE COULDN'T FUCKING TELL THE TRUTH ABOUT SHIT GODDAMMIT

#and then it all got fucked

#i just feel sad lol 

GOD FUCK FUCK FUCK #FUUUUUUUCK THIS #GODDAMMIT (after mayfair died.)

#everything hurts and i'm dying because of this show

#I REJECT GERO'S REALITY AND SUBSTITUTE MY OWN (S1 finale, lmao)

#i'm so worried about everyone on this show lmao

#this is the most painful thing that has ever happened

#i still want to jump off a fucking cliff

#somehow the good and the bad times are all in one season

#FUCK #FUCK THIS SHOW #GODDAMMIT

#please erase this pain from my soul

#kurt: you know how important you are to me. #kurt's brain: BACK UP BACK UP BACK UP #kurt: to the tEAM

#I HAVE NEVER WITNESSED HEART EYES LIKE THAT ANY OTHER TIME IN MY LIFE

#KURT TACKLING PEOPLE FOR HIS WIFE

#lmao wow i just honestly want to cry

#does your otp point guns at each other's heads #because of a terrible misunderstanding lmao

#it's canon that jane can kick the crap out of kurt #god bless

#do you ever just cry because your otp can't find their chill

#jane just casually accepting that she should be hated #:(

#SOMEONE HELP HER #KURT

#when your fav has perfect eyebrows after getting tortured for 3 months

#kurt you have no right to look so offended shut up lmao

#HAHAHAHAH IS YOUR SHIP EVER JUST SO GODDAMN PAINFUL

#everyone shut the fuck up and listen to rich

#i am so angry lmao

#i'm so stressed

#he goes from chill to #i'm going to fucking murder you with my bare hands #in like .2 seconds (When he realizes CIA guy tortured Jane.)

#do you ever just cry #because your otp took a wild ass fucking detour 

#determined kurt angrily stripping #new aesthetic 

#KURT YOU NEVER LOOK AT ANYONE ELSE THIS WAY #you fucking idiot oh my god lmao

#i'm so mad at martin gero

#bring back sarah weller #kurt is out of fucking control without her

#you're an idiot #both of you are fucking idiots tbh lmfao

#I AM SLOWLY DYING BECAUSE OF THESE IDIOTS

#this episode gave me the gift of life

#jane ain't got time for this shit she has a man to go kiss

#GIVE ME THIS KISS OR GIVE ME DEATH

#LOW CUT BUTTON DOWN SHIRT #MAKE HIM HOLLA JANE

#I'M DEAD AND GONE #I CAN'T COPE #I HONESTLY JUST #FUUUUUCK OOOOOOOOOFF

#IMAGINE IF JANE EVER GOT TO SMILE AGAIN

[swearronchanel]

Tired of these yet? A Christmas journey in March with 4.09

I’ve actually been productive today *claps* I’m the worst™ and a procrastinator to the core, so it was about damn time I got shit done. Plus+ I ran out of clean jeans so that was some motivation to do laundry & once I started moving I just kept going haha. But today I watched the Debbie Reynolds and Carrie Fisher’s memorial & omg it was so emotional ugh. Now that I’m so sad I guess I’m going to watch Call the Midwife. Care to join me?

I closed my eyes and pointed to the episode list, looks like we’re watching 4.09 aka the 2015 Christmas special

I don’t have to pretend very hard that it’s Christmas because it was like 17 degrees f the other day lol

Am I the only one who hums along in their head to the theme song? ok nvm

Aw a baby

Tom is actually in church lol, we rarely see him there

Sister MJ lol, what is she looking for?!

Sister Winifred actually cooks/bakes pretty often

SISTER EVANGELINA 😭💔 I still miss her

Sister Winifred aka queen of cringey facial expressions, I love it

Ah no! the death joke is no longer funny sister E 😭😭 rip💔

My bby Trixie on the scene😍

What is quality street? I looked it up before but forgot. Candy right?

whoops is my American showing

I hope Sister MC comes back soon☹️

“Behold, I have located the Brandy” three cheers for alcohol 🍻 I wouldn’t choose brandy though what am I a rich old business man at a country club?

Lol Sister MJ & Sister W giggling so pure !

“You give us enough gip when you’re stone cold sober“😂 same

Gremlin kids in the front haha

Oh no😂 Babs gave them all candy and now has to make them spit it out😂

Aw I love Christmas

But looking at this snow is triggering even if it’s fake😭😂

WE’VE HAD SO MUCH THIS MONTH HERE & IT’S MARCH❄️

yikes these kids are awful, who let them up there! 😭😂

SHELAGH’S FACE 😂 SHE IS DISGUSTED OMG HAHAA

Patrick laughing so hard like same 😭😂

Welp he’s lucky, Saved by the bell thanks to Trixie

Doesn’t Sister MJ explode whatever’s in the pot?

Ahh Shelagh looks so good™!😍 I love when they dress her up!

In other news, Laura tweeted me, which means she knows I exists. What a time to be alive™😭✨👏🏼you know I was shook

Angela so precious aww, I hope my future baby is that pretty

Now I just think of The Crown when I see Mrs Willens *she’s in it if you haven’t watched*

Oh no Sister MJ!!! 😭😭 why are they always giving her illnesses! Dejala sola!

She was legit ill in the first Christmas special 😭

Love Trixie’s ponytail, why Patsy’s hair a mess tho? LOL I SHOULDN’T BE TALKING

I’m a walking ball of frizz. And when I don’t wash my hair for a few days it actually dread locks 😂 gotta love curls

Aw Delia’s not here- I forgot she cracked her head open and went back to Wales

Protect Sister MJ at every cost

Violet literally sewing Fred’s ass into the Santa pants 😂😂😂 fun fact they  did that to Olivia Newton John in Grease

not sure if I knew that because I have a junk brain of useless information or because I’m trash that reads buzzfeed

Violet’s been wearing blue eyeshadow for 3 series

“I’m not biting this, it’s too close to your backside” lol okay vi give it time. You’ll be cringeyly very handsy with each other in a bit anyway 😂

She’d do it now with no hesitation I bet

I’m here for their relationship tho😂

SISTER MJ HAD PNEUMONIA IN SERIES 1 DID SHE NOT?

Ugh distaval, fuck that. Just wait and see what chaos it brings

Aw Pats looking at the photo of Delia💔 oo wait that was a parallel then in the Cuban missile Crisis episode this series

PHYLLIS !! I missed her presence lol

Tom’s opening letter from bbc it’s lit

also: he looks good™

Poor Sister MJ! What are they feeding you, liver ew

Ah I forgot, this is when they get the tv😭

Poor Babs can’t go home for Christmas

You’ll have the nonnatus fam❤️❤️

“All should head home” *breaks out into song* THERE’S NOOO PLACE LIKE HOMEEE, FOR THE HOLIDAYSSS

Which is true because NYC is pretty beautiful at Christmas time, I can’t deny that

But also is when 100000x more people are visiting 🙃and stop in front of you when you’re walking to take pictures 🙃 *clenches fists* moving on..

Lol Tom you need to be more clear on this, they’re not getting it

Sister J shut him down 😂

“Mrs Mop” lmfao this BBC guy is a jerk😂

Laura’s another queen of facial expressions

“Aesthetics are vital” I feel

Aw Shelagh so cute being defensive of the kids of poplar

Lets be real though Shelagh’s always adorable bc Laura is an actual angel

pink wafers aye

i still have been craving them lol, there’s no bodega’s around my university though☹️

Angela is giggling, was this the last time we heard her make a noise lol

Wait this is when Sister MJ runs away

yikes measles

when did the vaccine become a thing then? that mmr shot ugh

Glad I got it because there’s supposedly someone with mumps on my campus like wtf

Why was Sister E so harsh yelling at Sister Mj!? That was unnecessary !!

LET 👏🏼SISTER 👏🏼MJ 👏🏼DECORATE👏🏼FOR👏🏼CHRISTMAS 👏🏼AND👏🏼WATCH 👏🏼TELEVISON !!

I’m so protective of her, stop😢😢

She doesn’t deserve that 💔

Sometimes I forget Patsy’s name is Patience

Fred’s Santa beard is gross ew😂😂

yikes an enema

I’d rather die

Oh no, there she goes *sings* there she goessss todayyy

Yes Babs lollipops are fascinating

She just slipped that baby out

I want to go to London at Christmas time

I love lights ✨✨

Delia! What up Bitch where you been!

BUT WAIT I HAVE A COAT THAT LOOKS REALLY SIMILAR TO MRS BUBSY’S LOL

It’s vintage too, i love it, makes me feel fabulous af

until I remember it’s probably a dead woman’s coat

WATCHING THEM LET THE BABY JUST HANG MAKES ME SO ANXIOUS OMG

“You clever girl!”

Aw poor iris 😭💔

Violet is actually so sweet & we don’t see much of her w/o Fred like why 

Everyone on this show is so sweet and pure !!! I just love it too much!

remember when I was normal and didn’t care so much about television? Yea me neither 😅

Sister MJ is gone

ALL SHE WANTED WAS TO PUT UP THE TREE!!

that necklace and sapphire ring were so pretty though 😭 wish my mom had a sapphire ring for me to inherit 

Shelagh is too pretty for this grey suit, where’s the navy one?!

I will never be comfortable with cookies being called biscuits tbh

“No dogs!” “If it can’t sing silent night I’m not interested”  SHELAGH IS GOLDEN

SHE HAS SOME GREAT LINES BUT GIVE HER MORE !!

Oh Hay Peter

if you think about it Miranda Hart put this poor guy out of a job. Like he used to have more screen time lol but he can’t be around much with out her

“Very like a family in fact” 😭 I love when they call themselves family cause they are !!

Wait rehearsing before school? Ugh that must have been so early 😂

I couldn’t have been in that choir. In high school I woke up at 6:45am everyday & started at 8:05am & only lived 2 blocks away but I still got there at 9:15am 🙃

plus I’m an awful singer 😂

“She probably thought her habit would keep her safe”

Sister Mary Cynthia says that about her self the next series when she’s attacked 😢

Babs was right though! She was just excited bendito 😭😭

How much is a bob?? £??

I barely can keep up with how many $ is a £ tbh

Lolol had to check when I donated to Laura’s fundraising 😂😂

Delia has been with this big ass bun for 3 series as well

The cafe they’re in is aesthetically pleasing

so Delia’s mom is hella protective but didn’t notice she left to another town lol??

well I guess they’re even now since patsy left & then lost contact for a bit

LET ME TELL YOU, THE FIRST TIME I WATCHED THIS EPISODE I WAS SCREAMINGGG

I THOUGHT THEY HAD KILLED SISTER MJ AND WAS FREAKING TF OUT ™

I’m trying to think of what Phyllis’s hat reminds me of

I wanna say Mary Poppins 

IT’S NOT SISTER MJ👏🏼

I knew it wasn’t but still!!!

Is Shelagh wearing lipstick? i’m here for it!

but I don’t like her dress

@ wardrobe/costume ppl be nicer to my bby pls

“Well, there’s just a word that no-one likes singing. It’s in that line and it begins with a "b”’ 😂 lmaooo c'mon Tim 😂😂

He was talking about breast feeding like how many episodes ago why is he embarrassed now? 😂

Patrick laughing 😭 me as a parent tbh

Poor sickly Sister MJ 💔

My bbys Trixie and Shelagh are ¡interacting!! 💕😍

How do I get my hair to look like Trixie’s/Helen’s

SORRY CANCELED

Lol jk all will be well bby

SISTER MJ REALLY OUT HERE IN THE WOODS, LIKE HOW ??

Ah Shelagh’s dressed up again! Love it 😍 and she’s wearing earrings & matching pearls!! so pretty!! 💕💕

this has been an episode of gushing over Laura sorry not sorry

Look at her hat, she can wear anything

LMAO HE WASN’T EVEN PETER PAN GET OUT OF HERE MAN

You have to be impressed that this 80 yr old woman with dementia found her childhood home

for real though I want Shelagh’s coat

mrs willens + shelagh was kinda a friendship & was cute

“Well I stopped holding out against that happiness, didn’t I?"💔💖

people on this show are always holding hands platonically & romantically like how sweet and pure !?

"Almost all the world was before your time child … you are concerned to see it last a little longer”

Hell yea lets get it, round up the nuns and nurses lets SING !!

“But it sometimes seems to me the older I get, the more I have to learn” 😭

“We get so much out of love, we find strength in it and courage. Love is our foundation and our fuel”

DAMN IT WHY IS THE WRITING SO GREAT??!

HEIDI CAN WRITE MY EUOLGY SINCE SHE’LL BE THE CAUSE OF MY ACTUAL DEATH WHEN THIS SHOW IS  OVER ONE DAY *WHICH IS HOPEFULLY NEVER, ..I MEAN DAYS OF OUR LIVES IS ON SEASON 50 SO IT’S NOT IMPOSSIBLE🙃🙃*

shelagh and sister j❤️❤️ so pure. I love their relationship + moments together

BUT I STILL *NEED* TRIXIE & SHELAGH TO HAVE A REAL FRIENDSHIP + ACTUAL SCENES TOGETHER

no sister, it’s not your fault that she ran away😢

broadcast about to be lit

Why did we never see Trixie giving Barbara a makeup lesson😭😂

Trixie getting excited about putting makeup on Babs like same 😂I like helping people with makeup *even though I’m not even that good haha*

“Oh some lipstick might be nice, with a touch of gay geranium you’d look quite like Jean Simmons” SISTER W SNEAKS OUT TO THE MOVIE THEATRE ON HER DAYS OFF AND NO ONE WILL CONVINCE ME OTHERWISE OK

PHYLLIS GARGLING OMG

WHY IS IT SO FUNNY 😂

yea sister E I’m sorry you were kinda bitchy

I’m sorry to call a fictitious nun a bitch oops lol

SHE’S GOING TO REDEEM HERSELF AND FIND SISTER MJ THOUGH SO IT’S OKAY!! 😭👏🏼👏🏼

Tom is so handsome! i think the collar distracts you from noticing though haha

What does wet behind the ears mean and why does it sound cringey?

on the next episode of I didn’t know I was pregnant: Christmas miracles in Poplar

No but for real it seriously was a show on TLC😂 I had a phase where I watched like every show on that channel

“Antonia! Nanny found a bible in your room again” so?? like you wish she would’ve found drugs or something?

Ugh I don’t think Sister MJ will live 3 more series & I WILL BE A WRECK™ WHEN SHE DIES

Surprise! you’re pregnant & will give birth in the next 12 mins before this show ends

imagine omg never mind not feeling safe Iris I’d be freaking tf out

I told you sister Julienne just shows up and speaks and you just feel calm

“Love is not going to be halved, but doubled” I swear someone says this again in another episode but I can’t remember

maybe I’m lying idk

The Fred + Sister E dynamic was golden

what is Sister Evangelina holding?

it looks like a bong tbh

Sister MJ saying pawning her mother’s jewels was an “interesting experience"😂 dios te bengida, she needs to always be protected  

aw pats & deels reunited *and it feeelsss so gooddd*

Fred saying rigging this raffle is immoral like HE WASNT THE BIGGEST SCAMMER IN POPLAR

I was here for it though lol😂

Phyllis gargling 😂😂

Wait omg she has earrings on how precious!

I always notice when girls/women don’t have their ears pierced because I didn’t realize for the longest time that it’s mainly just hispanics that get their ears pierced when they’re babies😂 I’ve had mine since I was six weeks old👶🏼

"Beatrix Franklin, midwife of mystery” aka my bby and ray of sunshine✨😭

it’s all good though, Trixie has Christopher, Tom has Babs, now where’s my handsome Englishman??

cue Vanessa Redgrave

“Sometimes the route to joy is indirect, our journey home not quite as we expected. There is no magic star to guide our steps, no ancient prophecies to predict our way. The greatest gift is to know that we travel not alone, but in the company of others. That there are hands as can reach for and hearts to keep us warm..”

Laura’s angelic voice blessing™ me on this Saturday night

I need it after being degenerate every other day of the week

*sings loudly* CHRISTTTTTTTT THEEEE SAVIORRRR IS BORNNNNNN

AHH I WANT CHRISTMAS NOW ! + THE CHRISTMAS SPECIAL 

patsy lowkey snuggled up on Phyllis I love it

Trixie is serving looks in the corner 😍!

I still want those hoop earrings she has!

And they finally got a tv😭👏🏼

“And the family gathered round, watching their faces flicker black and white. Their very presence in the room an act of love, a welcome home”

*BANGS FISTS ON AN IMAGINARY TABLE* THIS SHOW IS SO BEAUTIFUL AND PURE AND IF YOU DISAGREE WE CAN FIGHT

I love it

Now I must go. until next time..

[anmousewrites]

So uh

I just hit the halfway point in my Gundam Wing rewatch, and I thought about doing a write up for it. Then I thought, well, why not put it on my writing blog? That’s kind of why I have a writing blog isn’t it? To put my writing on? So below the cut is completely unabashed nerdiness and my thoughts about this show now that I am halfway done.

First off, this soundtrack is still the best soundtrack of basically any media I have consumed in my entire life. Part of this (part of all of this, undoubtedly) is nostalgia. I remember these songs! But also, they are undeniably awesome and way more in depth and grand than they needed to be. GW just sounds really good. Whether it's a recognizable title song or just background music. It's all just fucking great. This shit makes me want to party.

Second off, I'm gonna actually throw all my criticism in early. This show is very 1995, and some of the animation frames are hilariously bad. There's still one or two spots where the translations (while correct) aren't the most clear. One or two side characters have really obnoxious voices for some reason. There is a truly ridiculous amount of monologuing and political commentary and Contemplate Our Navels going on. The show is casually racist in the way where there are characters of colour, but only side characters and they are only every portrayed as 1000000% good. Now, don't get me wrong, I love the Maganac Corps and they are portrayed as being good, honest, hardworking people who are exceedingly loyal (and funny!), but none of them get to be MC and none of them get the same kind of multidimensionality that other characters get. That's still kind of a raw deal. Doesn't mean I love them any less, though. And to be fair, for an anime from 1995... I'm just kinda happy they are there at all. Arguably there's also one or two brown people of colour who are bad, so I guesssss that's okay, but the Maganac Corps are always the sticking point for a lot of people. They're written very warmly, I love them, I am not sorry.

Okay,  whining aside. Let's talk about more good shit.

The characters, holy shit, these fucking characters, though.

The five main boys, I love them.

Heero “I Have Too May Feelings And No Idea How To Handle Them” Yuy Trowa “I'm Still Learning How To Have Feelings And It's Terrible” Barton

Quatre “I Have Space Empathy And Also Am A Little Psycho And Am Also A Cinnamon Roll” Winner Chang “I'm Pretending To Be A Misogynist Because I Can't Handle My Guilt Also I'm Secretly Really Nice” Wufei Duo “I'm Literally Perfect Why Does Bad Shit Happen To Me All The Time” Maxwell

Like, Wufei was never my favourite as a kid because goddamn, could you shut up about honour and weak people for like 10 minutes please? But with the context of the manga and also a good rewatch, I get it.  You're sad because your wife had more balls than you and got herself killed for it. So, you feel constantly inadequate and pick on other people's weaknesses. And guess what? Sometimes he's right. He calls out Noin for attacking him in emotion when she's doing exactly that. To be fair, when he calls Sally weak, she fucking agrees with him and sets him straight about what that really means. So, I have less beef with him now.  The other four I love and have always loved, so w/e same old same old.

THIS IS A FORMAL APPOLOGY TO RELEENA GODDAMN DARLIN/PEACECRAFT FOR EVERYTHING YOUNG ME THOUGHT ABOUT YOU

You were blonde and wore pink and chased after a boy and I thought you were dumb. I conveniently forgot the time you snuck into a party and hid a gun in the bow of your dress, so when someone offered you a rose from the lapel of an officer's uniform you could announce that roses don't really suit you and you'd look better BATHED IN THE BLOOD OF OZ.

Girl, I did you wrong. I am so sorry.

I get it now. Why she chases after Heero. At first, it's because he exemplifies everything that's fucked up in her life (the strife with the colonies is what causes her to miss so much time with her father, after all), and later, he's actively working against the people who murdered her dad, so like, I get it. It's not smart even by a longshot, but I get it. Also, it later puts her in position for all the other awesome shit she needs to do, so she gets a pass from me.

Hilde is okay. I don’t remember her voice being like that. Maybe I don’t love her because she was introduced later than the others. I like her pep, but compared to the other ladies, she doesn’t really excite me. Still we have 25 episodes left.

Noin and Sally? I've loved hem since the beginning and I love them now. Noin is Life Goals AND Wife Goals and Sally is good and gets shit done and is just generally a pleasure to watch. Une? Man, I do love her, but holy shit she gets a raw deal. Une baby, I am so sorry for your brain. You break my fucking heart and I love you.

Treize Kushrenada, I blame you for breaking your girlfriend. I mean, at this point, he actually can't speak sincerely to anyone, at all, ever. So it's no wonder that his conflicting orders got her all fucked up. You can't tell her that you want peace and then constantly undermine it without her getting confused. (I mean, you also can't be honest and tell her that your goal is a war with a kill count so horrifyingly high that people won't want to fight for a while, so being honest is kind of out of the question.) She split herself into two people to try and pursue both your goals. You wanted loyalty? You fuckin got it. Still, at least he genuinely does care about her. And it must be hard to have literally no one you can talk to. Not even Zechs, at that point, who has his own role to play.

Also, Teize is a great example of a character that you don't often see. Arguably, he is a Mary Sue, the center of a cult of personality so engaging that it persists long after his death (talking about Endless Waltz here, people). I mean, I fucking love this guy. I'm IN LOVE with this guy. As is, arguably, almost everyone else who meets him. Also, this is one of the reasons I don't give a fuck about the monologuing. All the voice acting for the mains is great, and I could listen to them all day.

Also Zechs Marquise/Milliardo Peacecraft whoever the fuck you feel like being today (because you did swap back and forth when it suits you, I saw that). You are a dramatic, rules lawyer piece of beautiful trash and I love you.

Is that everybody important? It's almost 4 am here so god, forgive me if this makes no sense.

The plot of Gundam is pretty good. I mean, I've gotten really engaged in what's going to happen and I still already  remember the major twists. I forgot about Trowa blowing up Deathscythe (ow, my heart), I forgot about Quatre being degraded by his father, I forgot how much I fucking love Sally “Mom Voice” Po. “Mama told me real men never scream out loud.” Holy shit. Emotionally, this show has me by the balls, and I kind of like that.

So, I have 25 more episodes to go, plus Endless Waltz. Does this show hold up to what I remember? Actually, it's better. As I've quoted before, the amount of times I catch something new, that I didn't get ten years ago when I watched it, is almost every episode. Most of the flaws are things that I would expect to see in an anime that was produced in 1995. Overall, I'm having a damn good time and I can't see that changing any time soon.

EDIT: Okay, I lied a little. I wasn’t quite halfway. I just hit that point now, at 5:07. If I had thought this show lost its touch at all, I was wrong. Dead fucking wrong. There’s something so truly awful about Dark!Quatre, about Trowa’s speech, about Wufei and Duo facing death in their dark cell and about Treize’s suicide offer. I know Une isn’t dead but damn if I didn’t I’d be in tears. How did I forget this episode.  tl;dr, I guess this answers the question, doesn’t it?