#...and especially abt the 7 idiots

[ferronite]

I kinda wish I was better at just like. Yapping abt my ocs on here when it's not part of an art post. But unless I've actually recieved an ask my assumption is "nobody cares" so I just kinda don't.

[hwathinker]

"is beauty all that matters to you?"

pairing ; high school boyfriend!mingi x high school fem!reader warnings ; bullying, y/n is v insecure;(, lil bit angst?, mingi is soo comforting <3 wn ; i've been thinking about how predebut mingi had acnes, he doesn't look any less beautiful tbh. and i thought that if he had a s/o that has acnes it wouldn't change his mind abt loving her :(

wednesday, 7:30am

walking to school. your very favorite thing to do since it refreshes your mind from whatever happened on the other day before. today, mingi wanted to have lunch together with you. you both rarely go to lunch together. all just because you didn't want mingi to lose his fame in the school. well, sometimes you both walk together. but whenever there's a bad timing you would always avoid him after, and he understands that. it has been 4 months since you've confessed to him. and you still don't feel that comfortable to be acting like his girlfriend. "look! its your mingi! should we go to him?" a group of girls passed by you, one telling her friend to hit him up, the other pulling her hand to go towards mingi. "guys.. i don't think it will be okay.. haha!" the girl laughed. her smile was so bright, clear delicate skin, hair soft as a silk. hell, even the boys from other class had a crush on her. mingi was standing at the front gate, waiting for who even you don't know.

you watched them walking to mingi, heart beating so fast. what if mingi catches feelings? what if mingi leaves you for her? what if- "no thank you, i already have a girlfriend." what? mingi said what? you heard him. he told the girl he had a girlfriend. was this a dream? when the group of girls leave, one of them had tears in her eyes, her friends rubbing her back for comfort. mingi then saw you walking towards the gate, quickly smiled and waved at you. truly an angel. you fake smile back, walking to him. "did you wait long?" you asked as you both walk inside. "nah, i just got here too." he said. he still has his big smile plastered on his face. you turned to look at him with questioning face, "what are you so happy about?" you chuckled. "i don't know. maybe its because you finally agreed to be with me throughout this day." he said. oh how you didn't want to do this but you did. its kind of hard to be together, especially when you're the loser in this school.

"so its not about the girls that came to you and confessed?" you purposely asked that, knowing you're jealous. he knows that. "oh that! she just embarrassed herself in front of me. asking for my number and going on a date." mingi sighed. "i'm tired of these girls. i just want to be with you." that left you speechless. how did a kind nice guy like him want to be in a relationship with you, who's like a mess and only care about her academics not her face? you never asked him about his type, you were afraid of not being his exact type. "baby! you're jealous right?" mingi stepped in front of you, smiling like an idiot. "what? not even a little. who would get jealous by that?" you denied. honestly, talking about your feelings feels like you're putting blames on him.

"i know you so well, y/n. please don't ever hide anything from me, even your feelings." he goes beside you again, walking with his hands in his pockets. you're not that sure if you can do that. not even to your closes family members.

wednesday, 11:25am

lunch. its lunch y/n!!! you kept a brave face, standing in front of the bathroom mirror. trying to gather all your confidence to go out. mingi was waiting outside. he told you its fine to take your time and take a breath. "y/n please please please!! its just a lunch, its not like you've never walked around the school with him." you thought to yourself. honestly speaking, who wouldn't want to have a lunch with him. you were about to walk out, but you heard many girls were like.. gathering in front of the girl's bathroom? "mingi.. i wanted to give you this." then cheering were made by the other girls. "woohoo!! go girl!" "oohh is she going to be mingi's girlfriend?"

you stand behind the door, eavesdropping the conversation. then something like a box fell to the ground, making the other girls gasping in shock. "not interested." mingi said. then a light knock were heard as you jump in surprised. "are you done? its crowded here." mingi's voice was interrupted by the noises the girls made. you quickly touch up on your uniform and hair. walking out, the girls were just making disgusted face and glaring at you. "there you are." mingi was so quick to hold your hand. "ew what is this piece of trash doing dating such a beautiful guy?" one of them says. it made you look down to your shoe, feeling judged by it. "can you guys stop? its not like i'm the only guy in this school you could be dating." mingi sounded a bit rude. it was not his intention but because it was being thrown towards you, he wouldn't waste a time being like that.

you both walk away to the cafeteria, leaving those girls saying things. mingi was brave enough to stand up for you. even if it means to lose his popularity, he won't stop defending you just because of your looks. mingi held your hand so tight, reminding you that he will always be there for you. as you both walk inside the cafeteria, eyes were laid on the both of you. whisperings were quickly made. "look! why is she holding his hand?" "oh my god if i were her i would be dead embarrased!" "mingi is so handsome, what is he doing with that hag?" you just ignored all the comments from the other students. mingi cut the long queue line and bought some buns and drinks for both of you. he didn't let your hand go, not even a second. "hey! you don't cut like that! go behind man." one of the student in the line said. mingi just glared at him, looking up and down. the guy stepped back and cleared his throat.

finally, peace. mingi brought you to the rooftop. just the two of you, sitting comfortably with each other while feeling the wind. "i'm sorry if dating me is a fuss." mingi said, opening the bun and drink for you. you just sat there, staring at the bun. "you don't have to apologize. it should be me who should." you had tears in your eyes as you sink in your arms. mingi looks at you, his heart broke hearing you feel bad about being his girlfriend. "hey, you don't say that. okay? you're so beautiful you know that?" he reassure you. the first time you met was when you were alone crying at the rooftop when you should've gone to home. you wished you've never met him sometimes but you're also very glad he's there to protect you. "baby, don't cry. i promise i will protect you no matter what." mingi rubbed your back, his other hand goes to bring your hair behind your ear making you look at him. "you look beautiful, love. inside out." he said, wiping off your tears. you just smiled at him and laughed.

knowing he's the sweetest guy ever, you're not confident that he would spend the rest of his lives with you. why you? because he fell for your kind and sweet personality. but you thought either way. "thank you mingi. i'm really not in my best now, but you boosts my happiness." you said, grabbing the bun he opened for you. he smiled at you, feeling happy that you know he's there for you. mingi likes spoiling you with foods. especially when he knows that you love eating so much.

wednesday, 3:45pm

its time to go home. mingi, who's from the next class was fast enough to wait for you outside your class. sometimes its hard to not be in the same class at him since you're always getting bullied. but whenever mingi gets mad at them, they would always stop interrupting you for 2 or 3 days. but then they will continue to do it again. you saw mingi waiting outside, watching you pack your things. he mouthed a "quick" as his eyebrow furrowed. you just laughed and pack things quickly.

"hey! i'm sorry i kept you waiting." you said, hands both on the strap of your bag. "its okay. shall we?" he held his hand out, tilting his head to the other side of the corridor. you nodded and held his hand. many eyes were watching, but you try to just ignore it. what you didn't know, there was a group of girls from earlier at the bathroom watching, recording the both of you from the back. "heh, she wouldn't last long with him." the girl who confessed to mingi said.

outside, you and mingi walks slowly. enjoying the time together. suddenly his phone rang. "hold on." he let go of your hand, picking up a call from his mom. you waited for him to finish the call, then he end it with an 'okay'. he turned to look at you, sadness filled his face. "y/n, i have something up with dad. mom is picking me up at the front gate." he said. he held your hand again, continuing the walk. "that's a shame you can't send me to my house. but its okay! really." you said, putting up a fake smile at him. he still felt sad because he can't walk you to your house. "don't be sad! we'll walk together tomorrow okay?" you held your pinky at him, as he smiled. "okay." he connected his pinky with yours as he let your hand go. "i love you. i'll call you if i can tonight okay?" he said and you nodded. he then waved at you before entering the car. he watches you wave at him until he can't see you from the car window. sweet.

you walked alone, now in the alleys outside the school. man, your house was a bit far but you hold the urge to just grab a taxi. then, the group of girls from earlier grabbed you by your arm. they surrounded you as you leaned at the wall. "hey. you're song mingi's gilfriend?" one of them asked. you lips tremble in fear, not sure if you want to say yes or no. "answer me, you ugly bitch." the other one pushing your shoulder as you nodded. the girl, who had a crush on mingi smirked, laughing as she looked around. "break up." you looked at her in the eye, her demanding request was.. something you wouldn't consider to do. "why..?" your breath hitched, unable to look at her. "what do you mean why? you know exactly why right? a guy like him don't deserve you. he's insane to date such ugly trash like you." they laughed, other just caress your head, and the other one plays with your coat. "don't you know how hard his life is after you've associate with him? man, if he was still single, he would be so free and not feel like he's being caged with some ass like you." her words hurt like hell. what if what she's saying are true? what if mingi was actually suffering trying to protect you when its not his job to?

"i'm sorry." you said. then, the girl lifted her hand to slap you but there was someone that stopped her from doing so. as expected, it was mingi. "are you playing with her? or are you testing my patience?" mingi's voice was low but its enough to show that he's mad. "song mingi! u-uhh, aah! we were just talking to her haha! i was going to stretch my arms you know?" the girl stuttered, backing off from you. "stretching, my ass. leave now." he let go of her arm, pointing to the other way of the alley. "why should we? oh, we were just going to bring her to grab some drink, mingi!" the girl then wrapped her arm around your neck as she pulls you close. mingi sighed, closing his eyes for a second. he then grab your hand, pulling you back to him. "leave or i'll have your bare face on the internet." he had his arm on your shoulders as he widened his eyes to the girls. "fine! go with your ugly girlfriend then!" she stomped her feet and left along with her friends, leaving the both of you in the alley.

"y/n." he let your arm go, hands on his forehead as he sighed. "i told you, that you should call me when you're getting bullied like that." he says. he's still mad, the fact that you didn't try to tell him about it. you looked at the floor, avoiding his gaze. "is it true? that i'm interrupting your perfect popular life?" you had tears in your eyes, falling to the ground as soon as you move to sob. mingi was in shocked. how could you ever destroy that 'perfect' life? to him, you made it brighter. "they told you that? unbelievable. and you really believe anything they say about me don't you?" he held you in his arms, letting you cry. rubbing your back as he whisper comfort things. "its alright. i know you're fed up with what you heard. but it isn't true y/n. trust me. you'll hear more things about me. like how i do this and that. and you'll eventually believe it right? but turns out its not as true. i'm avoidant towards people. but your beautiful soul met mine. i haven't felt this happy since my primary years." he said, pulling you back and wipes your tears. truly a sweetheart. just like how people say about him.

"but why me? am i that kind to you? all i ever did was put pressure on you and made you protect me when its not even what you asked for in the first place." you sobbed. mingi hates seeing you break apart. even worse, when its about another students gang up on you. "if i chose you, i'd risk everything for you. one beautiful girl doesn't mean she always have a beautiful heart. and you? even so, i saw your kindness first. the clumsiness in you made it stronger." he laughed, along with you as you hit his arm. "i'm not clumsy." you denied, smiling at him. "whatever then. lets forget about it okay? lets go get ice cream." he grabbed your hand, then continue to talk about what's interesting around the town.

"you know. sometimes i wonder if you has ever catch feeling for a girl who has pretty face and pretty heart." you said. mingi stopped and looked at you silently. it took him minutes to answer as he press his lips together. "well, honestly. is beauty all that matters to you? because it's not, to me."

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omg i finished this on 1day?! im super motivated for this lmfao but um lmk if there's any errors! ty n i hope u enjoyed it :p

[redflagzsys]

Goofy ass story time about a Syscord Owner i used to be friends with

ok ik anyone of their friends that sees this would call me a dick rider for still talking abt this, but it's FUNNYYY okayyyyyyy... i still don't like them but i can also laugh abt the whole thing, yk?? anyway

i met this person back in 2023 (ik, wonderful year), and their name was Cyber. (idk if they still use that name, but whatever). I met them back when we were questioning our system because we had amnesia and these other voices that spoke to us, which is.. so curious... wow... anyway, how we met them was just in a small discord server with cosplay mutuals, and soon they invited me to a Syscord server they owned.

Cyber had a lot of friends there, and it was overall chill apart from the fact they were fucking weird. I mean like, talking about sex and just NSFW topics 24/7 weird. we were like 14 or something when we met them and they were 16, and their concept of age gaps didn't change as they got older. they always openly talked about these inappropriate topics with people in the server who were younger than me and it was just EUGH!!!!

guys, just because you're not an adult doesn't mean you can discuss these things with people younger than you, focus on how many years apart you all are...

anyway i saw nothing wrong with these because i was a young impressionable idiot, and i kinda just followed whatever Cyber did. they did things i didn't agree with, but since i looked up to them, i didn't say anything which i probably should've lowkey.

anyway me and Cyber made another Syscord server for systems only, which was a SHIT SHOW!! this showed even more of their toxic and just weird behaviors?? anytime an adult wanted to verify in the server, they'd ALWAYS go "They give me a weird feeling..." even though everything on the form checked out??? they had a weird stigma towards ANYONE over 18 despite the fact they had turned 17 during this and were just a year away from being an adult. not to mention the Closed Name incident.... someone joined in that server with their name in Hangul, and Cyber immediately went on them asking them to Romanize their name, like??? it made a whole unnecessary mess of things. just let them have their name in their NATIVE language?? it was super weird too cuz they used Japanese names too??

remember when i mentioned that 12 year old friend i had in that one post that lied and said they were 13? yeah, Cyber gifted that kid nitro in exchange for a whimpering audio. i don't have anything to show for it cuz this all happened in a voice call, and i also left that server a long time ago, but holy SHIT man!!!

i remember speaking to ex mods of Cybers servers who were minors (13-15) and saying that Cyber almost exclusively talked about NSFW topics with them. while almost being 18. i remember they did this thing with one of our alters, where they'd play smash or pass with THEIR ALTERS. and only ever with this one specific alter of ours. Why? because he never declined and actually fed into Cyber's weird ass behaviors, especially the objectification of their alters. they had a habit to describe their female alters very vulgarly, almost always about their chest size or ass, anything like that. they'd comment on it. it was WEIRD!!!

also the classism they had? "I don't need a social worker because my mom is one!" and it's said directly to someone who's struggling to get one. HELLO???💀💀 and talking about smoking weed constantly to minors, they had no sense of just anything. i don't think they even knew they were alive.

anyway i stopped being friends with Cyber cuz i felt the courage to speak against them ONCE and they fucking banned me from their server with their entire mod posse backing them up. and anytime an arguement didn't go in their favor, they'd just lock down chat and warn anyone who kept talking about it. like... say you're a control freak without saying you're a control freak.

another things that was weird? Listen, i'm not gonna judge people's split tolerances, but this bitch split alters EVERYDAY!!! and every day, "Hey, can someone help me find out who I am?" in the new alter channel... guys... and guess what, one day when no one helped them and they started complaining; Nikki (a part of our system) told them to either find out themselves or stop complaining (because they have to right to complain if they aren't even gonna try themselves) AND CYBER GOT SO MAD💀💀

everything is honestly so comedic now. we're only really in 2 syscord servers now and they're very chill.

anyway! that's all, byeeeee🤑🤑🤑

[uranium235s]

HEWWO!! i've got some questions abt Chester!!! as promised <3

7. Do they wish they lived before the war / could go back to life before the war? 26. How would others describe them / their disposition? 38. What is their favorite radio station? 44. What is their favorite smell? 58. Do they believe in luck? Do they have a good luck charm?

(i'm holding myself down like a feral dog so that i don't ask like 15 questions simultaneously)

HELLLOOOOOO MY FRIEND sorry it took forever for me to respond but I got home and ate dinner and am ready to do this , also don't hold back I will answer ANY QUESTIONS no matter how many

long post 😋

7. Chester doesnt wish to live before the war, really. until the events of the game he liked what he could remember about his life and didn't spend much time thinking about the past, and in some ways avoided it. obviously the idealistic idea of the past with the cushy houses and stocked supermarkets is desirable but overall chester is able to find comparable things to enjoy across the mojave. and listening to Arcade talk about pre-war politics and economics makes him feel like he's probably not missing anything he's not already experiencing 💀

26. it definitely depends on the person, who sees him what way and how he interacts with them, but in general most people would describe him as a cheerful, helpful idiot, but with an aura of some wrongness. like he's trying too hard at times, or there's something teeming beneath the surface he doesn't know how to let out. someone like arcade would describe him as stubborn and troubled, persistent and kind of a bleeding heart. surprisingly, I don't think he can be described as adventurous even though he fits it on the surface because he actually loves routine and consistency; being able to travel the wasteland is just part of that.

38. Radio New Vegas! his favorite song is Johnny Guitar :) however he does turn it off when anything about the legion comes on, he knows he's blindfolding himself by doing that but he doesn't wanna hear it. also, any news about him he also turns off. hates knowing that everyone is watching him!

44. campfires <3 he's set up and sat by just about a million of them, at this point the smell is extremely comforting and almost creates a pavlov response of making him wanna fall asleep lol

58. he does believe in luck to some degree, especially that his fluctuates wildly between being amazing and awful, thinking that luck is crazy fickle so he tries as hard as possible not to test it. he does not gamble! he doesn't have a good luck charm, I imagine he sometimes tells Arcade that he is one but they mostly get into trouble together so maybe Arcade's a bad luck charm in reality

[yuukei-yikes]

different anon: hi my eyes have been opened to kanoshin bc of kagefuture too LOL i love deranged and messy relationships. when i was younger i was so afraid of being cancelled or something that i thought kanoshin was the devil because of a ONE YEAR AGE GAP. ??????? i just forgot all about it until you started posting them and i was like wait this rules. anyway thank you for the reintroduction i am normal now

THE ONE YEAR AGE GAP TOOK ME OUT AJSNWKDKEODKE honestly that is an interesting part of it i think because sometimes it kind of feels like the age gap is bigger and that's because of miss ayano tateyama. are you ready for me to make this ask about something entirely different? yay!

i talked about this in another post but in flashbacks, despite ayano is only older by one year, she acts a lot more mature and naggy while the trio are more mischievous and up to nefarious doings (pranks and waking ayano up too early💔) so that makes it feel like the age gap is bigger than it is.

i hc they act this way because the mekatrio was experiencing the first safe place in their childhood so they went all out on the Being A Kid thing. the tateyamas live happily together for a few years before ayaka passes and everything goes to shit. the trio gets adopted when they're like, between 7 and 10 (which we can assume from the way they act and talk when they're kids. it seems to me proper of those ages. i think it's a pretty logical conclusion but i also work with kids so idk) so the trio really really has some good years where they experience some wholesome childhoods they haven't been able to until then (well kido had a normal childhood before their bio mom died but I think the stuff that happens to them at the kido mansion later is crazy enough to be as bad as kano and seto's terrible caregivers. thanks jin. these 3 really needed all that, sure)

ANYWAYS i think that's why while safe with the tateyamas, the mekatrio really acting so much like actual kids + ayano REALLY wanting to feel like a big sister, makes them end up in a dynamic where ayano maybe sees them as Much younger than they actually are, even though their real age gap is basically insignificant. i dont think it goes both ways, like i dont think the trio feel as if ayano is a lot older, instead they feel like she's on a step above them (the step might look a little like a pedestal)

okay. so. *rereads ask* right right kanoshin we were talking about that. SO SINCE THE MEKATRIO+AYANO AGE GAP FEELS BIGGER THAN IT IS, it is also logical For us as readers that the mekatrio+shintaro age gap also feels bigger, because shintaro is ayano's age. and idk if you've read the novels but shintaro's pov CONSTANTLY points out that everyone is younger than him, in fact let me find you something really funny he says abt kano

ok i went to find this and i forgot shintaro felt bad hearing kido calling kano useless bc ene called him useless too. gay as hell i think but whatever. kano is NOT partying you idiot he's going through the horrors (i dont actually remember what he was actually up to here but he mightve been baiting the hibihiyo death or taking ene to her body LMAO) GOD FUCK SORRY I KEEP GETTING SO OFF TOPIC FORGIVE ME I JUST LOVE TALKING ABOUT KAGEROU PROJECT

ANYWAYS so even though u thought the kanoshin age gap was evil, maybe this was subconsciously why. i think shintaro maybe sees it a little at first (after all in that bit i attached, shintaro had known kano for only like. a day) especially because shintaro is closer to ayano and she (hc) speaks of her siblings like they're Babies but as shintaro gets to know kano (and kido and seto) more, he naturally starts seeing them as the age they are and how it's not different from his own lol

back to kagefuture discussion as well. this might be something that is slightly relevant in the next comic. ummm. heheh. also even in part 10 i added the bit where ayano is trying to talk to kano but she imagines him as a kid all of a sudden. and in part 16 which is the last i posted she dreams of him as a kid. like Im going somewhere with this just just just. trust. the kano and ayano sibling relationship in kagefuture is my favorite to write. shintaro's love life can die for all i care

ANYWAYS. thank u for liking my stupid fanfiction comic and also younger you was right actually kanoshin IS the devil

[x1e3ju]

sigh.

i realize i dont rant here enough like as much as i should. i should be drawing and not spending time being a fucking idiot ranting on TUMBLR at 2 am but shuake is just too serious for me

CUZ yall don’t understand my level of. crazy. my level of insane my level of obsession its been like 7 months of just straight up fixation and i always find the same things to feel the new feeling of love again for them. saw someone talking about their short film like a little summary on what its abt and the inspiration, a little love letter to their lover of sorts saying how the film is abt genuinely loving someone who is good to you for the first time, “This was the first time I would say "I love you" to someone, and it not come from a place of fear or a toxic one. This film is a celebration of vulnerability, and letting pure, secure love in without the constant impulse to self sabotage” I’ll quote and bc i cant think of love without immediately thinking of shuake (its a genuine problem lmao😭), i HAD to just think about them and yk what. idegaf their love is so beautiful to me. i think the idea of akechi having bpd and the same mental issues and disorders as me finding love in someone who is also very similar to him in some sense, like them both being autistic and such, just really speaks a lot to me.

im definitely not an opposites attract person, although they technically WOULD be opposites i think the whole troupe of “enemies” to lovers is the fact that they arent really enemies and actually have a lot more in common than first thought, at least when done well anyway so to me, they aren’t opposites when it comes to like. the things that matter like personality and the things that make people connect and become closer like the things u cant control ig lol but anywho, bc i hc (its basically canon) akechi having bpd i think thats why it means SO MUCH more to me and i love his character sm. he’s not my favorite, but bc that’s the first time i see a character like that be represented with something so similar to me and not be treated like a villain or just be really extreme like akechi is definitely. well. extreme but he’s not like, let’s say, like yuri level from ddlc like i wouldnt even consider that bpd she just straight up crazy😭 like idk, i just really relate to akechi so i really see him having bpd and bc ive always felt soo left out bc of my bpd even in spaces you would THINK would be safer, i always feel singled out somehow and although i still dont really know why, ig i see myself in akechi a lot and even akira too so the idea that parts of me could find that love and care like the fact that parts of me could find other parts of me, ig im not broken lmao like its all a little puzzle :)

okkk lore drop🔥🔥 got so hashtag emo there BUT that meant something i promise!!! that whole idea of feeling like ur missing something or theres just something wrong with u or ur unloveable or whatever, the idea that akechi felt that and FOUND it in akira makes my heart melt like a fucking fangirl i hate everything. i always think abt shuake and their love bc people always say how they are so toxic blah blah blah, and yk what, lemme not lie, that’s probably the truth! but i cant see them being soo toxic like that especially with how young they are like akechi was like. a few months of just turning 18, akira was 17 like they arent full grown adults even tho akechi was definitely aware enough to know what he was doing was wrong (even at 15 or however old he was when first helping shido i would say), you wouldnt understand the FULL severity of it like its a lot to explain but HOPEFULLY i make sense lol😭😭 and i think just being so young and growing through so much like im already. off. and i dont even live a life CLOSE to that EVER like of course he’s gonna be a little. off his rockets🤩 i mean what did yall expect😭 i keep using this phrase but yea!! so the idea of him meeting akira and finally being able to feel that youth and enjoy parts of life that typically teenagers get to live is si sweet to me.

mind u, im not saying that him living that “teenage life” is the way it HAS to be lived bc i think my life is better without those things as a teen myself and its most definitely not necessary but to me, akechi is just like. a very much stan twitter gay guy😭 he has his little bit of nerd (WHICH I LOVE^_^) but like anyone, of course he would want and need that friendship, that connection. do i believe he wouldn’t really care abt friends and shit? yea bc look, i dont really care for that myself but i wont lie to you and tell u i would love just ONE good connection in my life like yk, a friend i actually want but im not gonna be all friendless here so back to akechi!😊 he’s just very normal high schooler to me, ONE THING I LOVE ABT HIM AND SUMI ACTUALLY. i feel like with sumi, because ae doesn’t know like anything abt akechi’s past and what’s he’s done and stuff i feel like akechi just gets to live a “regular high schooler life” with sumi, yk? like everytime akechi and sumi would hang out (i like to believe they would hang out pre royal idgaf🥱) and akechi would complain or talk akira, sumi would just think “ah he’s on his crush thing again” like ae has NO CLUE he’s gonna shoot him in the head and yk what. that connection definitely means something bc that would be the first person akechi has ever met his age who ISNT involved in his “work life”?? like isn’t involved in his cases and shit like. a genuine healthy friendship🤯🤯🤯 and thats ANOTHWR reason i love sumigoro (make fun of me all u want but i seriously do not. gaf😜😝) bc i think akechi would really go and mess that up, he’d be like “wait. do i actually like sumi” all bc of the fact that they have a good connection and akechi isnt used to that

WHICH brings me to what i was GOING TO bring up (sorry for the crazy detour) but YEA, the whole idea of having a love and always feeling the need to self sabotage reminds me smm of shuake. akechi going and ruining their connection even though there was definitely ways he could’ve gone abt killing shido…. with the phantom thieves’ health possibly👀👀???? i feel like that was the prime explain of self sabotage, guilt and the fact that he wasnt even actually processing what he did and HAS done. like that one scene after 11/20 where he’s in the studio filming and their asking him abt the pts and he gets slient and thinks abt some shit like abt the pts and sorta feels guilty (idk if thats the undesirable child scene i think it is but im not sure lol) but yeah that, that is the PRIME explain of processing and guilt. after killing people and doing all that shit for so long i think that was the first time it actually hit him like “oh shit wait. i’ll never see these people again” like the idea that it hit so close to home, these were kids HIS age, even younger too and.. what EYE like to believe, people he thought probably deserved more life than even himself (like the after thought of it) bc u cannot convince me he really sent his ass over to shido’s palace just to tell joker some shit like girl. and getting himself killed too like naww that’s embarrassing as shit😭😭 like ik thats talked abt and thats what the whole scene is abt but like. EXACTLY he felt guilt for his actions and felt he needed to atone!! HE HADNT REALLT PROCESSED ANYTHING IF HE WAS FEELING THAT NOWW ofc he was going to get innocent people killed like. YEA😭😭 but he’s a fucking kid like what did u expect him to do, even if i had that power even with the current knowledge i have☝️🤓 i wouldnt even realize wtf im doing like yk ur doing something bad, but as a smart kid too.. its all abt competition lol, but in all seriousness tho and they show that in the game

ok sorry got off track again but yea, self sabotaging his love with akira all for the competition of it all, clearly i will never just flow into it naturally so ill state it plainly, self sabotaging his love and overall genuine connection with akira bc thats all he was ever thought to do, from his own mother and obviously, his own father. had to sabotage the love he had for his mother bc well. she ended up kwording herself😭😭 and had to sabotage the love for his father (which didnt exist to me idc) bc he had to kill him, i mean. he was awful😭😭 so having that constant battle between that, thats one thing i LOVE like ADORE ABOUT SHUAKE i love the idea that they could be vulnerable with each other i also love akira and his personality cuz he compliments akechi so well in SO MANY WAYS whoever wrote and made their characters and storylines personally ate with their yaoi deliverance😍😍 LMAO that was a joke but honestly. gave us such a good ship TY🙏 atlus at least for SOMETHING ur good at like like the thing i quoted said, THE WAY THAT IF ATLUS WOULDVE GAVE US AN I LOVE YOU BETWEEN THEM. aside from the fact i would’ve killed myself and died and then fell off a cliff and then kill myself again and killed myself a 3rd time just to make sure i also would’ve cried SO BAD, ik thats asking for WAYY TOO MUCHH but let a girl dream smh like IT WOULDVE MESNT SO MUCH AND HAD SM WEIGHT, it truly would’ve been akechi’s first ily that would’ve came from a genuine good place or would’ve been the first ily he ever heard that didnt try to manipulate or gain smth out of him!! which is. BEAUTIFUL ALL WAYS U LOOK AT IT like they definitely had their ups and downs (shuake i mesn) but the fact akira still wouldve loved him and seen him through everything is just so. something abt the unstable and the unstable but a little more stable dynamic😍😍 but seriously tho lol, i love their connection. again, it just speaks a lot to me SO PERSONALLY i hate everything

one thing i love abt royal is how we got to see akechi’s character a bit, i do like the royal writing a lot for this reason, some parts felt like aww yk lol and kinda reminiscent to the beginning of the game which felt a lot more genuine even tho royal’s writing felt more fanservicey, it had SOME sense of like, ok the characters arent written toooo bad here like the middle of persona so i appreciated it and u can tell atlus put a lot more work on the royal trio scenes (the fanservice was crazy in that part😭) so i also loved that too lol bc again, we got to see akechi’s character and the effect joker had on him and how like. less of an asshole he was like i wish we could’ve seen just a BIT more of him. again again i just LOVE dynamics like shuake and seeing characters grow and shit and shuake just does it so well UGH i hate them😭😭

[softservesoymilk]

Fictional Idiots that have made me cry (2023 update)

In light of recent events I have felt the BURNING need to make this post. There’s not really much else to it I just love talking abt my blorbos and why I love them~ So here we go :3

1. Investigation Team

I finished the game for the first time at like 6:50 am in the morning so I was sobbing into my cereal lmao. First time I ever cried for a video game 🥲 (I still consider Inaba as almost a second home)

Also Naoto’s loneliness still ruins me 10 years later, they really set the precedent for my future blorbos <3. @hungrydolphin91 you have to tell me whether you like the game version or the anime version better when you get to it because I’m dying to know :3. Like the anime gives me the sweet expressions but I can quote the game line for line asjgksdk

2. Lyon Fire Emblem

Poor Lyon was just the perfect recipe for emotional devastation. Again with the friendless blorbos, except this time you pair it with heart wrenching decision-making that really could’ve been averted if therapy was a thing that existed in the FE universe 😭. Also vigarde is a terrible dad I would very much like to slap him in the face >:(

3. Sormik, but especially Meebo

At least 7 times. Seven. I played this one while depressed so Tales of Zestiria is {Pav’s tears georg} adn hence is an outlier and should be significantly reduced in counting

THE EPILOGUE KILLS ME

THEY WERE TOO SWEET THEY DIDN’T DESERVE ANYTHING

WHY CAN’T THEY GET MARRIED (like me and—-)

4. Noah and Mio

I still refuse to believe this one counts but hey Xenoblade writing is good. And I’m just as much a sap as Sorey is :’)

5. These fucking idiots (Yato and Yukine)

AKA why I HAD to make this post because what I’ve seen of the manga’s recent developments after finishing Noragami and reading synopses of the following arcs I AM DEVASTATED and RUINED and I HAD TO SOB INTO MY PILLOW :(

I love Yukine so much he reminds me of my oc Inigo more so than any store-bought blorbo* so to see him thrive and suffer and take on an ayakashi/phantom form it’s like seeing that done to my own kid except I’m not the one willingly inflicting it.

And his and Yato’s relationship means so much to me like yes they will hurt each other because they’re very lonely and have their own grief to work through but they just come back to each other again and again in the ultimate display of love and trust and compassion 😭. They care so much for each other, I’m never going to be ok 🥹

Edit: *Technically Lyon wins for most similar blorbo, but it’s a bit like a culture in a Petri dish. I took a fragment of his identity and nurtured it into my beloved Archie. I found Yukine in the wild..

[stardustloserdoll]

dating bill and tom

bill:

mc donalds. all the time.

literally you guys would be painting each others nails, dying each others hair, shopping, you literally do everything together

you guys are always attached at the hippp

literally would spend so much on you. “this is so cute bill look!” “lemme buy it!” doesn’t matter if it’s like 900 dollars

definitely will teach you some german words

always holding each others hands!!

would ask you what outfit he should wear and what accessories would go good

when he’s away on tour he would be calling and texting you every day!! he’d be like “hi y/nnn..” kicking his feet back and forth on the hotel bed

would send you selfies of himself wherever he went like wish u were here <3

i feel like he would text a lot with these :3 ^_^ :) >~<

you’d do each others makeup

he would write songs about you and sing them to you and force tom to play the guitar as he sang

you guys would have matching jewelry

would write little cute love letters to you

you both have a heart shaped box where you keep your polaroids of each other and things that remind you of each other

loves when you run your fingers through his hair

if you speak another language he would ask you to teach him some words so he can practice to impress you

would always talk about you in interviews

loves cuddling

goes allll out on your b day or any special occasion

alwayssss taking pics together

bill has a bunchhh of pics on his phone and would show the band and be like “look how cute they look here eating their little ice cream…” like a proud mother

tom:

tom would also spoil you but wayyy more than bill “this is cute!! aw 100 dollars..” grabs the item and is already paying up front

lovesss to sleep on your lap

let’s you wear his clothes especially his shirts and sweaters

let’s you pick which cap he should wear for the day

helps you learn to play guitar and writes songs about you

would make a my space dedicated to you

you guys will stay up till 3am calling and being like “you hang up.” “no you!!”

always holding your hand, arm around your waist, always kissing your neck

let’s say you were the one who inspired reden🤭

selfies of you guys kissing

literally talks abt you alll the time to the band and during interviews to the point they all get annoyed 😭

would call you when he’s on tour and would be like “i’m on the phone with y/n SHUT UPPP THANK YOU.” “you were saying. :3”

always admires anything you do

steals your food alll the time 🙄

mf tickles hard as fuck like stabs you

will teach you german but literally only teach you how to say bad words or nasty shit “okay say, zeig mir deine pflaume.” “it means hello sunshine!”

hand on your thigh 24/7 when he drives, mf speeds tho so you’re gripping on the damn seat

when your sleepy sleepy, he carries you on his back to the bed

when you guys hang out you are blasting music and singing your hearts out

if you speak another language he would looveee when you would talk to him in your language

even if you get mad at him and you’re yelling at him in your language he’d be nodding his head smiling like an idiot

would send selfies of himself when you are about to sleep so you can “dream about him”

loves cuddling too like a lotttt

i’m sick yipeee…. so yk perfect time to write something 😍

also thank you guys so much for reading and reposting you guys are so sweet😭

[maganne-bonete]

I think this might be the most stressful birthday week by far and it's only Tuesday.

I've been aware that my grandfather had dementia maybe weeks or more than a month ago but the thought of it has been troubling me lately.

Recently my bitch of an aunt went to my grandfather's house and ended up arguing with my cousin who's living there. She pulled out a phone to record him and threatened to send the police at him for idk what reason. My sibling and I had to question on what grounds exactly, and my mom even said that she really doesn't have any. My dad questioned my grandfather abt it but since his memory's been deteriorating, he doesn't even know who she was anymore.

But it pisses me off on the fact of how much many of my relatives were so shitty to my grandfather and cousin to begin with. Not that I have full context nor are they shitty towards them 24/7, but my mom jokes that my dad becomes an only child everynight just to take care of my grandpa, despite all our relatives living much closer and my dad being the 7th son of my grandfather. My cousin couldn't take care of him anymore since he started being hostile towards him because of his condition. So it really isn't like I could have a good view on the situation either.

And my cousin, who's an orphan and couldn't afford his own house, constantly gets berated by my aunts growing up and barely ever supported him. It mostly had to be my parents even who made sure he finished highschool and got a degree. My parents even suggested the idea of letting him live with us if he ever get's kicked from there by my other aunt who moved into the house cause of some tradition. Traditionally in our province the youngest kid gets to inherit the parent's house once the time comes but my grandfather is literally still alive. It puts a bad taste in my mouth. (Same aunt never invited my mom or my dad's side of the family to her wedding either)

But it's been also really troubling me how my grandfather's been lately. He even thinks my dad's his grandson rather than his actual son these days. Like, I feel like I haven't spent enough time with him at all and now he's slowly forgetting everything. And as much as how I've been bitching abt my relatives I don't think I'm any better either.

Maybe it's because I'm sad that he probably doesn't remember the times I've been delivering food for him from our house. Or the times he's driven the jeepney just to bring me and my cousins back and forth to school. He was still okay earlier this year when we celebrated his birthday but so much has already happened.

There's this sense of grief I've been feeling it seems. Forgetting is a fate worse than dying, and it makes me wished that I've asked more abt his life straight from his mouth. It's like I allowed him to die this way to begin with.

Like, I'm not an idiot. I, of all people should've tried asking him, writing abt him, recording his stories. He was a boy during the world war and he even worked out of country. There's probably a lot I didn't know that I could only now hear from my father instead. And I just allowed him to die like this even if I knew I should've done better. I should know because history has always been my passion and now, and especially one day, I would pay the price for my laziness and inaction.

There may only be my mother's mother left. She's in Manila right now and even she doesn't have forever. I need to make the right questions. Ask about the times she's lived. Even she was a child during the world wars. Their house in Bikol got bombed directly the moment they left the building. That story still horrifies me and keeps me up sometimes. They could've died there.

Idk, there's just so much I also need to do but this feeling I've been having, this dread, has been eating me up.

[xenasaur]

this is something that I think a lot of people don't understand abt adhd. and like. this shit can get scary, especially if it happens often. I hate that I can't remember what I'm doing for the entire time it takes me to do it. I hate having to pause in the middle of conversations to desperately attempt to re-trace my train of thought because I don't remember what we're talking about. like. if you don't have adhd. just try to imagine what it's like to be unable to carry out a full conversation. try to imagine your memory resetting at random intervals. what are you doing right now? do you know? because often times, I fucking Forget. in the middle of doing things. and then I'm just standing there like an idiot desperately trying to wave away the thick fog that exists in my brain 24/7. and sometimes that shit just doesn't work. and I forget for good. it's terrifying. to me, at least.

the curse of adhd:

i will remember with absolute clarity, when the thought strikes me that i have a text to send someone, that this is the fourth time in three days i've attempted to send this specific text

i will forget, in the time it takes me to pick up my phone, that i picked it up intending to send a text

[eevyerndracaneon]

I'm tired of being treated like I'm a dumb teenager

[blue-jisungs]

helllooo if ur requests are kinda closed bc of ur main request game thing (idk what u call it 😭) then ignore this!! but if ur requests are open and you’ll need time to get to this bc of ur request game thingy (wow great wording 😋) can u do an enhypen reaction (ot7) to a fem!idol!reader being in a really popular gg? HELP- the ideas rlly basic but so am I so like- 😍👌

you’re an idol ♡

a/n. sorry you had to wait for so long 🧍‍♀️ i hope you enjoy it!! also it’s not a basic idea i really wanted to write something like this hehe

┆彡 HEESEUNG [ 희승 ]

he’s your big fan but the biggest protector

during vlives he makes everything so you do not see hate comments

same with tweets. no idea how he does it but whoever tweets a bad word abt you they have their acc removed in a matter of hours 🧍‍♀️

besides that, hums your group’s songs 24/7

in private tho

bc he knows if one of the guys catch him, he’s being teased forever

also shows off your group merch on vlives!!

pssst, he’s a big fan of the light stick :”)

┆彡 JAKE [ 제이크 ]

engenes on weverse or bubble are low-key tired of him bc he talks about you and your group 24/7

“DID YOU SEE Y/N’S NEW IG POST?! THATS MY GF!!!”

literally has your pc tucked in his wallet and his phone case :”)

once got matching hair with you to support your comeback (spoiler: managers and jungwon were not happy)

sings your songs on lives <3

that’s actually how engenes and your fans started to figure out you’re dating

bc like… he won’t shut up about you. even on vlives or celebrity shows.

but it’s fine, he’s cute while doing that + you two make an adorable couple <3

┆彡 JAY [ 제이 ]

no one in the public knows (at first…)

but privately they are all sick of him 🤕

“[gg name] this, [gg name] that…”

heeseung jokes that he should be in your group since he talks more about than enhypen

also his music taste contains of 99% rock and that 1% of your group’s sweet songs about love╰(*´︶`*)╯♡

once (1) he danced to your song - especially your part - and engenes went WILD

engenes craved more jay covering gg songs

they ask, they shall receive! isn’t that suspicious that it’s only your group’s songs though…?

no one cares (respectfully) as long as grumpy jay is dancing cutely :D

┆彡 JUNGWON [ 정원 ]

he’s so in love, everyone can see that

“did you see y/n’s special stage today?! oh my goodness, she was so cool! and the outfit? and the– i mean… [gg name] did well!”

we all know his eyes were on you and you only

he always records your ending fairies 🥹

that means he has a whole ass folder for them + fan cams, memes and clips :”)

always helps you when you struggle with some parts of your choreos or such!!

and he’s so adorable that you can’t say no to his puppy eyes when he asks you to spoil something about your comebacks

“jungwon, no. i told you too much already!” “but…” “okay… but don’t tell others!”

he has a small key ring with a plushie of your representative animal attached to his keys :”)

┆彡 NISHIMURA RIKI [ にしむら りき ]

he could not care less about his managers scolding you – he covers your group’s songs all the time

and he always nails it… but when he does it with you though, he always goofs around and gives you your time to shine <3

literally knows all the choreos, the boys would be 99% that he knows them better than their own

riki literally threatens you to send selfies of yourself when you have a stage performance

he loves all that cutie accessories they put on you and often ends up stealing eg your hair clips…

btw he saves the selfies too <3 esp when it’s a goofy angle… he can’t help but grin like an idiot at his phone

you made a funny mistake on air? get ready to be teased about it.

kind of off topic but you are literally the industry’s fav couple (yk… you kinda took hyuna and dawn’s spot– okay i’ll go now) bc HOW!! CUTE!! YOU!! TWO!! ARE!! TOGETHER!!

┆彡 SUNGHOON [ 성훈 ]

he’s like “your songs suck” and then proceeds to sing them for the whole day

when he was a mc and your group happened to be performing at music bank he would non-stop stare t you with hearts in his eyes :”)

making lil jokes too (hawaii you?)

during en o’clock he’s known to dance randomly to your songs 😭

but then when you laugh at him bc of that he’s like “well it’s your fault it’s so catchy😕”

he’s so sweet though :( once you had a comeback and due to his busy schedule he couldn’t be with you...

… so he sent you a big (and i mean BIG) bouquet of flowers in colours that matched your cb concept and a cake with a cute drawing!!

also there was a card attached to it. it said “congratulations on your comeback! you did a great job! we loved it!” - enhypen”

but then when you thanked them for it they were like ??? what flowers !!!?

turned out hoon was to shy to admit it was his idea so he just wrote it was them 🥹

┆彡 SUNOO [ 선우 ]

SUCH A SWEETHEART ABOUT IT :((

writes abt u and [gg name] on weverse!! “did you see [gg name]’s new mv? i loved it!”

dancing tiktoks are a must!! especially with you!! engenes love to see him all happy and giggly with you

also does lil dances out of nowhere :”)

buys your albums. literally dates you and yet he’s the biggest fanboy – literally full on collector

he has to have every single one of your pc

(and yes you sneak some stuff for him, and he straight on goes :D)

often recreates your mv/cb makeup and outfits for fun

and you too… and then you have adorable pictures to post and that results in your fans and engenes to lose their mind 🤭

(and because of that people often set up matching pfps of you two <3)

[ masterlist <3 ]

taglist. @geniejunn ,, @luvhyun3 ,, @starlostseungmin ,, @elviransworld ,, @jnks6r ,, @sieunsgf ,, @ethereallino ,, @laylasbunbunny ,, @duolingofanaccount ,, @slytherinhobi ,, @jung0ne ,, @ka-ni-ma ,, @julaute ,, @moonacholy

[arcgayne]

my reasoning:

(these rankings are based on multiple criteria, such as relatability, hotness, relevance, how interesting they are as a character, and so on and so forth).

1) Jinx: she’s literally me. so silly and mentally unstable. needs therapy so bad and it shows. i fucking love her. please get help queen

2) Ekko: literally has never done anything wrong ever. moral compass strong as fuck. bonus points for looking cool. he’s also literally me but jinx wins over him bc she’s more unhinged.

3) Viktor: my fucking beloved. Do I want to be him? Do I want to be with him? Realistically I want neither of these things but unrealistically I need this man in ways even the hexcore couldn’t comprehend.

4) Mel: God I fucking love a powerful smart beautiful woman. AND she has mommy issues? she’s literally perfect. i’m rotating her in my head as we speak

5) Vi: hot tragic lesbian. almost lost points for becoming a cop but then she quit so it’s all good. for now. I have knowledge about what she ends up doing bc of the video game and I am currently choosing to ignore it in favor of the show timeline. Let me dream.

6) Sevika: hot. muscles. vodka aunt. hot. emotionally unavailable. hot. did i mention hot

7) grayson: i think it’s hilarious that she ranks higher than everyone else below her on this list. she literally only gets points for being attractive. especially her voice like ugghhh. what else can i say.

8) sky: perfect angel. so fucking smart and cool. deserves better. i need to know more about her or i will actually explode. hearing her voice made me so happy y’all have no idea

9) powder: baby. deserves the world. only ranks lower bc she doesn’t exactly “exist” anymore or whatever. justice for powder AND jinx 2025

10) caitlyn: hot. but ew cop moment. the fact that her sympathy for zaunites was crushed so easily really annoys me. like girl do you even have principles. ur revenge era would be cool if it wasn’t police brutality like noooo caitlyn pls don’t let a dictator use you to further destabilize your country for her own gain you’re so sexyyy ahaha… idk man it’s complicated. she should quit her job and get a new one. and then get therapy.

11) Jayce: he’s interesting in that he is a good example of a privileged person attempting to make things better by utilizing the system, only to get sucked into said system, becoming part of it and therefore part of the problem. the road to hell is paved with good intentions. his intentions are so good and yet. he is idiot. I hope Ekko and heimydingy are able to lessen his idiocy.

12) ambessa: hooottttttttttt. so fucking hot. goddamn. have y’all SEEN the music video for blood sweat and tears. i’m fucking FERAL. unfortunately for her, looks aren’t everything and she’s the fucking worst so here we are.

13) elora: beautiful powerful wonderful woman. need more of her. what is her life like. have she and mel ever kissed. much to think about here.

14) heimerdinger: he’s annoying and he doesn’t take the much needed time to explain why he makes the decisions he’s making... but he’s also right. which i hate because he’s annoying. but i also like that he’s annoying because it shows the very true fact that ppl who are annoying can in fact be right about things. also his heist with ekko was funny and endearing so he has that going for him. ekko carried tho ngl

15) vander: he’s cool cuz he’s a swag dad. a kind man and a protective guy. all around a great dude tbh. ranks lower because he doesn’t have any particularly interesting character traits to me.

16) finn: he looks cool as fuck but isn’t relevant and is also kind of an annoying brat. which is funny but like also bro. stop.

17) ximena: literally lost some of her fingers to frostbite to protect her baby child kid son. based. i love her.

18) cassandra: milf. the scene with the her and the gun? cool as fuck. ranks lower bc, again, not very relevant. and also dead lol

19) tobias: imma be honest idrc abt tobias at all i just didn’t want to separate him from his wife. he has enough of that in the show LOL

20) claggor: sweet boy. deserved better. i wonder what he would be like now if he’d been able to grow up.

21) silco: morally i hate this guy but he’s also a fascinating character. he’s cool as fuck and a bitch. plus he does eyeball drugs. there are so many fucked up things about this dude i can’t list them all. overall he’s a very well done character and an absolutely fantastic villain. what a piece of work.

22) benzo: just an all around good dude. ranks low bc he’s extremely irrelevant. sorry dude. if this was a morals contest he’d obv be ranked higher, but it’s not, so here we are.

23) jericho: had to look him up LOLLLL thanks for making food for vi i guess. people who make food for other people are the best. that being said he ranks low because, again, irrelevant.

24) mylo: cringe fail asshole. not ranked last bc he was a kid, so i can give him the benefit of the doubt, cuz maybe he would’ve been a better person as an adult… but also he never got to be one so oops lol get ranked low loser

25) singed: brother euughhh. i like drugs too but not THAT much. maybe give this man some backstory and i’ll care about him. as it stands rn idgaf about this guy. i rebuke thee, get AWAY

26) marcus: fucking piece of shit rat. fuck this guy. selfish coward and i hate him forever. die

Here's a fun little sorter I put together for Arcane characters! Reblog with your list!

Let the sorting commence!

[bronanlynch]

back at it again ranking aa4 lawyers based on how terrible I think they would be to work for if you were their file clerk. I’ve basically known how this was going to go since 4-2 but it still took over two weeks after finishing the game to make this post. I have a normal amount of thoughts & feelings I promise

phoenix: I was gonna say that since he’s not practicing he doesn’t need a file clerk anyway but actually I do think reforming the legal system takes quite a bit of paperwork and he could probably use a hand. still would absolutely not work for him tho. I prefer being compensated for my labor, especially if my boss is always either mysteriously absent or spouting cryptic bullshit. 0/10. not even a pity point this time. rip apollo

apollo: would be fine if he weren’t working for phoenix tbh. like if he had his own office and a slightly more well-established career I would absolutely work for him. he’s considerate, he seems horrified by the state of the WAA which is a green flag Imo, and he’s just. a decent guy and a good lawyer. also he had that line abt enjoying tedious procedure so I think we would get along, and more importantly, that tells me that he would be reasonably neat with his own files and not make my job more difficult either accidentally or on purpose. 7/10 would befriend him on l*nkedin just in case he ever starts his own firm

payne: look, the vibes aren’t great and I’m running out of jokes abt this guy. I will say that I think it’s incredibly funny how thoroughly he gets ignored in his own trial and being able to make fun of your boss with your coworkers (which you would have bc there’s no way there’s just one file clerk for the entire prosecutor’s office, y’know?) is a very important aspect of surviving a shitty workplace so. there’s that. 3/10, could survive it by mocking him but not ideal

klavier: he doesn’t even have a desk. he’s working on at least 3 cases at once but he keeps his cds and his guitars nicer and neater than his books or his case files. there are papers all over his floor and falling out of his filing cabinet. his one advantage over the real attorney I worked with who had an office approximately that messy is that at least klavier probably knows exactly where everything is himself, which is great for him but not especially helpful to the poor beleaguered file clerk trying to get his files updated as quickly as possible so they can escape his office with minimal hearing damage. 6/10, at least he’s like. friendly

kristoph: the best-case situation here is that you work for him for maybe a few years, overlapping with the beginning of apollo’s career as his assistant, because then you have the bonus of also having apollo as a coworker (see above), and then you leave for normal reasons, get him to give you a good reference for your next job while he’s still widely respected, and when you read abt the events of 4-1 in the news a few months later you go “damn that’s wild” and move on with your life

ok. listen. listen. obviously a boss who has committed murder is not ideal, for several obvious reasons including that murder is bad and also that if your boss goes to jail and his law firm closes you no longer have a job (rip apollo). but at least you could probably get unemployment for that, since it’s not your fault you don’t have a job anymore. anyway. the main point is, unfortunately, I do think he would be the best boss of any of these people (except probably apollo in a few years). he prob has a very specific filing system and he likes things to be done exactly right, but because he wants things to be done right, because having your files organized and up-to-date so that you can meet deadlines is how you avoid making yourself look like an idiot to the courts, it will be made very clear to you what the right way is, and that’s like. what you want when you’re organizing someone’s shit Imo. 8.5/10, he gets .5 taken off for each murder attempt

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[seerofmike]

oops its been a while since i've done a longer post abt apex lore but the way they're writing octane right now is really bugging me

so between the new chapter of this season's quest and The Perfect Son i've seen enough of the newer writers' version of octane to say that i don't think they know how to write him in text quests very well?

i'm not gonna lie and say octane was some hidden genius but he also wasn't Objectively Stupid, either. he's a dumbass, but to me that's different from being stupid. like he was well-meaning but impulsive, he was rash but there were semblances of good ideas in that brain of his that could have been Great ideas if he thought about 'em a little more. now he just says stupid things for the sake of... comedy? and not even in the awkward "oops i accidentally said smth dumb" way mirage used to do, just plain "this man was born yesterday" levels of stupidity.

if you compare this chapter to how he was written in the Family Business SFTO or the season 7 and season 9 comics, there's a stark difference. and this was a minor problem in earlier text quests too, but not as bad. he's always been his best in animations and commissioned comics and i think seeing him visually acting out (or voicing) what they're writing him to say makes them realize how he looks and they dial it back.

and it really sucks because i LIKE the *theoretical* direction they're taking octane right now. him getting worse before he gets better and being okay with torres's actions to an extent because he's incredibly selfish and torres in turn worsening his absolute worst traits. that's very interesting and i like it!! especially when this new chapter demonstrated that like octane, torres is also very manipulative and he clearly gets it from him.

but it's hard to take him or his actions seriously when they have him acting like this. it actually HURTS what they want to do with him. remember when octane was emotionally intelligent? emotionally intelligent enough that he was able to tell lifeline was upset and comforted her multiple times after her parents did awful stuff but ALSO emotionally intelligent enough to be shitty and manipulative and guilt-trippy? he wasn't an Empath(tm), but he at least picked up on cues like that and knew how to use that to his advantage. in this new chapter octane is as dense as a brick in regards to how seer's feeling and i can't see This octane smart enough to be as shitty and manipulative the way he used to be and it makes the parallels between him and torres fall flat on their face.

apex seems to have a problem with flanderization of "comedic" characters in general. mirage got turned into a bumbling idiot jackass for a couple of seasons and it was one of the things that made me hate his character. joke's on the writers tho. i've invested too much time into octane for 4 whole years to have him be torn away from me the same way 😤

[princessmo]

Buzzdreissen for the ship meme

AAAA THANK YOUUU

Who asks the other on dates: buzzcut initiates the first few but after a while it's equal

Who is the bigger cuddler: depends on the situation. brad's always pulling the yawn-into-arm-around-shoulder thing. if they're just sitting on the couch dave will gradually lean his head onto brad's chest until they're both comfy

Who initiates holding hands more often: dave <3

Who remembers anniversaries: they both do! brad obvs keeps track of the big ones but dave makes mental notes of little things, like "may 16th was the first time he brought me flowers, july 7th was the first time he braided my hair..."

Who is more possessive: brad. that's HIS little hippie malewife

Who gets more jealous: brad. but i like thinking abt dave having his little jealous girlfriend mode moments

Who is more protective: BRAD especially after van driessen goes through like, the bus trip episode and getting mauled by a bear and his breakdown and all that fun stuff. dave's more vocal worrying about brad though, he sometimes borders on Anxious Mother territory

Who is more likely to cheat: um neither? the whole point is that they love each other

Who initiates sexy times the most: idk i feel like they're 50/50 on this

Who dislikes PDA the most: buzzcut pretends not to like it but he totally does. he only initiates it when he's in Jealous Mode, van d loves when he does it

Who kills the spider: if brad's home alone he'll just kill em but if dave's with him, brad takes them outside to make him happy and spare himself a lecture

Who asks the the other to marry them: brad! david thinks about it first and wants to ask for a while but he's worried abt scaring bradley away; i think especially at the beginning of their relationship dave had to help him overcome a lot of internalized homo/biphobia and he doesn't want to seem like he's moving too fast. he kind of anticipates it the night brad proposes bc brad's uncharacteristically antsy and when brad finally asks dave just starts bawling out of happiness and love but brad thinks Oh God I Fucked Up And Made Him Cry

Who buys the other flowers or gifts: i feel like it's a pretty equal exchange, bradley loves surprising dave with flowers while dave impulse-buys things that remind him of brad

Who would bring up possibly having kids: realistically speaking i don't think either would want their own kids to take care of 24/7 since they both already spend all day around kids, though dave has the occasional wave of baby fever. i think they'd end up having a cat that dave found as a stray one day and brought home; ofc brad did that Dad Thing where he initially didn't want to keep it but quickly warmed up to it and they both looove it

in my little single-dad-dave-raising-b&bh-turned-buzzdriessen-au they do both love their idiot sons though. i picture them as being like kitty and red forman from that 70s show

Who is more nervous to meet the parents: they both had shitty parents so buzzcut doesn't talk to his at all and van d talks to his mom once every couple years. in my silly little backstory for brad, i gave him 2 older sisters, so dave does get a little nervous when he meets them, but they all get along so it's chill.

Who sleeps on the couch when the other is angry: dave offers to and sets everything up but bradley insists on sleeping on the couch bc he "slept on worse in 'nam" and he's still insistent on being chivalrous even when they're mad at each other hehe

Who tries to make up first after arguments: david obvs. i feel like they don't fight too much bc van driessen is super conflict-avoidant and buzzcut's always fighting the rest of the world, but he HATES when they're mad at each other

Who tells the other they love them more often: verbally, dave 1000% percent, he's very "love-through-words" while bradley's very much a "love-through-actions" kind of guy, though he does drop the occasional "i love you" out loud and he uses a lot of sappy pet names for dave. i love making him super soft with david bc he hates just about everyone else

thank you SO much i love doing these and i love thinking about my little guys