#-mentally ill bc they might have been trans or gnc

[woodfrogs]

mothers will see you grow up and form your own opinions and express them and go "is anybody gonna argue with her" and not wait for an answer

[queerplatonic-sculder]

putting this under read-more bc it is a lot of self hate and internalized bigotry (towards myself)... and also bc ik no one gives a shit about me and my stupid issues. but tldr: i'm thinking about k!lling myself bc of how much of a freak/loser i am

i'm a freak i'm a fucking freak and a massive loser. i can't relate to anyone bc i'm so fucking different i don't fit in anywhere

why did i have to be born broken sexually and romantically. why am i not as interested in sex/romance as everyone else. i'm 23 and have never dated or had sex and idk if i ever want to or not. but whether i want to or not it doesn't matter bc even if i do, i'll forever be seen as the fucking loser late-bloomer who didn't have sex/romantic relationship until later in life. and if i do end up never pursuing it, then i'll always be seen as the fucking freak who is broken and unfulfilled. i can't win no matter what. also it's so weird, i feel like i experience attraction to everyone (bi) but also no one at all (aroace)??? also i've never seen a gyno but i think i might have vaginismus so not only am i broken sexually in my mind but also physically. and ik there's ways to treat it but i get no fucking privacy with medical stuff even tho i'm 23 years old and i don't want my parents finding out so i'm fucking stuck with this for who tf knows how long.

also my gender is confusing like i am a (cis) woman but also i'm not. i can't relate to anyone gender-wise both cis or trans or whatever. i am so fucking weird that i don't even fit in with other gnc/gender variant ppl. idek how i want to present or "transition" or anything bc i'm constantly changing my mind.

i'm behind on life. i've only ever had two jobs but i wasn't at them long bc i'm a fucking mentally ill loser who couldn't handle the anxiety. i didn't start college until 20 years old and at 23 i'm only just now gonna start the degree program i want to do. i didn't get my driver's license until 19 years old.

i'm 23 years old but it doesn't feel like i am bc i don't get all the privileges of being an adult and i still have to have my mom help me with many things bc i'm too fucking stupid and socially anxious to do stuff on my own.

everyone else is getting so ahead in life and getting to do what they want but i'm behind and stuck here.

i'm not talented like other ppl, i can't draw, my writing sucks, i suck at editing, etc. like. i fucking suck

i'm ugly, i'm not pretty at all. i have a skin condition and stretch marks and stuff all over my body and i'm slightly chubby. no one woul find me attractive.

no one loves/likes me or cares about me. i have always been left out and ignored by everyone for as long as i can remember, both irl and online. i'm so socially awkard, i can't hold a conversation. i'm not cool or interesting. also when i vent, i always get ignored or just told "go to therapy" while when anyone else does the same thing, they have a million ppl rushing to make them feel better.

there's probably more i'm forgetting but jfc i hate myself, i want to be fucking dead so bas

[this-is-my-main-i-follow-from]

Some ways I involve witchcraft in my daily life: 

Charge the water in my watter bottle (sun water for my daytime water & moon water for my bedside glass. You can also use minerals to charge it or use distilled rainwater)

Put intentions into tea or make tea potions (if I need an extra focus boost bc #/adhd I’ll put a bit of basil & lemon into some tea or have basil lemonade. Then stir it clockwise while thinking of your intention)

Write sigils on your schoolwork (for focus maybe. I wrote one on my math note package that meant “I understand math”)

Put glamour sigils on makeup (esp good if you have a femininity sigil for trans women or a glamour sigil/spell. You can write it on the back of makeup or carve it in. If you carve it in eyeshadow: the sigil loses its charge once you work the makeup until it’s been ground away. In Lipstick: carve it on the side & once you use the lipstick past the base of the sigil, it has lost its power & you need to make a new one. You can also do this with soap!)

Sew sigils onto your clothes (sew a masculinity sigil onto your binder, or one for good health & breathing)

Hold minerals in your bra/binder (I’m heavy chested so I can hold them in my binder but if you’re small chested you can only hold them in your bra once you take off your binder for the day. They can encourage health, fertility, masculinity, whatever)

Write the names of saints into sigils to ask them to intercede for you (If you are like me & you get travel anxiety, write “saint christopher” into a sigil & charge it with safe travels. St Christopher will help charge that sigil & he will always be present with you when you bring your sigil on your travels. If you’re trans, gnc, or any queer subtype, you can write st joan of arc into a sigil & charge it with intentions she can help with. St Dymphnea I think is how you spell it but yeah st dmphnia is the patron saint of mental illness if you want her help with that. (edit: also patron for victims of !nc*st, anxiety, & sleep issues I think. Spelled dymphna?) St michael the archangel can help you fight your battles (spiritual or otherwise), st kateri tekakwitha is the patron saint of north american indigenous ppl & ecology... you can find a ton of patron saints)

Say grace before (& after) eating (this can be a prayer or you can bless your food. If you’re not christian like me & you don’t have any other deities then you can thank the universe maybe, or thank the food itself. You might also offer to share it with a deity if you’re a hellenist & not with a cthonic deity)

Meditate on your walk (I have adhd so I like to do a walking meditation. It’s much better than a sitting meditation. You can meditate on/about the walk, or you can meditate while walking)

When you say “thank god” you should mean it (I was walking the other day & didn’t know there were stairs. I somehow didn’t fall. Some ppl would say “thank god” but I actually made the sign of the cross & thanked him/them)

Bless your medication (you can do this every time you take it/every day or you can do it when you get your prescription filled. You can also charge it.)

EDIT: I JUST FOUND OUT YOU CAN ADD INTENTION TO BRUSHING YOUR TEETH AS A SPELL/RITUAL???????

PS: Reminder that sage in an herb. There is a difference b/w culinary sage & sage sage. A stick/bundle of sage is a sage stick or a sage bundle. Smudge is a practice/ceremony. Smudge often has music, sweetgrass & other medicines, & sage, & Smudge is our way of praying. Smoke cleansing with sage is not smudge. A bundle of sage is not a smudge stick. If you are invited to join someone for smudge, I highly recommend you go: it’s awesome. I have lineage in many Metis families, & I’ve been going to the native centres in my schools & listening to the indigenous ppl & the guy who leads us through smudge to reconnect with my lost culture. edit: success. Apparently I wasn’t nearly as disconnected as I thought, I just had to look for it. I was taught the Metis way, it just wasn’t called that bc ~racism~ 

[punksrespectpronouns]

Sydney’s been a bit too relatable these past couple of episodes.

I have something to say about the recent camp here & there episodes. (bit of a long and personal post, be forewarned).

Sydney has always been relatable to me. I mean come on he's a gnc trans man who loves mushrooms and worms and just wants to be reclaimed by nature, that checks all my boxes. Add the chronic illness and casual existential despair, and I might as well be Sydney.

But the last couple of episodes, with their religious themes, and being a burden- has hit a little close to home. I’m equally intrigued and taken aback by the direction it’s taken.

Sydney echoes a familiar refrain. A queer person coming from traumatic circumstances (of course none of it his fault), but he “needs more support than a sane person can give”.

I can’t help but think of all the times I, as a chronically ill person, have been viewed as a leech on other people's resources. Needing more support than other people… but always being seen as an inconvenience for requiring that.

To quote Trash Magic comparing chronically ill people to raccoons...

"yet another affinity we share: The first results for squirrels and raccoons is not how they live but how to get rid of them. The same thing happens when I research borderline personality disorder, or chronic illness. How to cope with us, how to care for us while we deprive you of your energy. How to get rid of us."

It's all feeling a bit too familiar. Particularly with the current insensitive response to covid being to just let it run its course, and that it's okay if it only affects vulnerable people or disabled people. I feel like me and Sydney are in a similar situation (without the eldritch elements, unfortunately).

There’s nothing worse than living in a society that doesn’t prioritize mental health care or address its systematic causes. And so you end up reaching out to people who you know don’t have the capacity to help you but you have no other choice.

Turning systemic and uncontrollable causes into personal failing. Great scam on behalf of the mental healthcare system /s.

Whilst being told by people that just because you ask for help and it’s too much doesn’t mean you were wrong for asking.

But lacking any support, how are you supposed to not feel like that. For example, my family isn't an option for support bc they're mormon and toxic in their intolerance of my identity. But when you're shut down anytime you reach out for help it's hard to not believe that it's you that is the problem.

So you try to have fewer needs and deal with it yourself so you're not labelled "too much" until your mental health gets bad enough you can't ignore it and you end up in that same place. All while being viewed as a burden for having needs you can't control with no other options.

I know this likely wasn't the intended focal point of these recent episodes. I am very excited for the finale and to see what happens. I'm just at my wit's end at hearing these narratives and needed to vent my frustration a bit. Thanks for listening /gen.

[ex-terfs]

I’m curious about how you were introduced to trans exclusionary ideology, and when you realized how toxic it truly is. I’m genuinely curious.

Hello! Sorry for the hiatus.So this is my story & long rant post.I've been among TERFs/Radfems (AKA the Conservative side of "feminism") since 2015. In mid-2016 — with the dangers of having Trump as President — I started getting critical of everything going on in the community, deleted older posts, & stopped reblogging "trans-critical" stuff. In 2017 — after seeing TERFs celebrating that the 'Everyday Feminism' site was facing a financial crisis & after paying more attention at what our "enemies" were trying to say — I unfollowed all the bullies, & eventually started to despise seeing "trans-critical" stuff. Their hatred towards the "big scary Libfems" is what made me rethink my priorities.

Many parts of their ideology had peculiarly attracted my attention back in 2015. As a GNC person who celebrates gender nonconformity, their gender abolition theories seemed very interesting (& I later found out how bigoted they are towards GNC men & GNC people with different identities/pronouns). When I was a sex-repulsed person, their porn-critical & sex-negative theories also seemed very interesting to me (I later found out how bigoted they are towards sex-repulsed people — upholding heteronormativity & saying things like "Haha, nobody loves you", "If you're a man/bisexual/lesbian, you must perform oral sex on your gf"; but still, I'm NO longer in the sex-negative/SWERF community). People sending them death threats was also one of the reasons why I had joined their movement.

It always begins like this. Step 1: you begin exploring anti-kink/anti-porn stuff; Step 2: you begin exploring anti-"MOGAI" stuff; Final step: you turn into a transphobe. That's how I got into this mess.

Second-wave theories originally had a critical focus on the social construction of gender & sexuality, monogamy, submission/masochism, natalism, the family structure, the fear of nonconformity, emotional/economic dependency, religion, & violence.As a feminist, yeah, I still agree with most of these analyses. I love reading academic books. But there was something different about terf/radfem tumblr. & this is all I've noticed over the years.

TERFs treat their word like holy truth.

TERFs use Right-wing "sources" to back up their transphobic & sex-negative arguments (& often associate themselves with conservative groups).

TERFs claim that all men are "biologically/physically the same".

TERFs contradict themselves all the time: claim that sex-repulsed AroAces are "usual straights", mock people who just want to remain single, & at the same time still say that if you don't want to have sex with men, then "you're a lesbian"; they say that people don't owe you sex, & at the same time say it's "not okay" for men to sexually reject a woman for "bad reasons".

TERFs claim that lesbians who are anti-TERF or who don't believe in the "born-this-way" theory are "fake lesbians".

TERFs are against the idea of removing your secondary sexual characteristics; & if an AMAB person doesn't like their "secondary sexual characteristics", then they must be a "delusional fetishist" (srsly I identify as a woman, but I still wish I could remove my uterus & have a breast reduction surgery; & it's not for sexist reasons! Shocking, I know!).

TERFs claim that men can't be raped/abused by women (not all TERFs believe this, but I still see them quietly following the ones who do).

TERFs have definitely never read a book with a different perspective/purpose, yet they will act like total experts on any subject (TERFs act like they're experts on Postmodernism & Queer Theory, but they have no idea what these theories are actually about. These theories are both very complex & don't have only one definition! Shocking, I know!).

TERFs will assume you're a trans woman if you don't disclose you're actually AFAB (& they could still have doubts).

TERFs are very manipulative & use brainwashing tactics. If you're AFAB & anti-TERF, they will say it's because of your "internalized misogyny" & will try to guilt-trip you. Because how dare someone has a different opinion! If you're AFAB & proudly calls yourself 'genderfluid' or 'non-binary', TERFs will get offended.

TERFs claim that asexuality only exists "because of the prevalence of porn" (Aces & sex-repulsed people would still be here even if porn didn't exist! Shocking, I know!).

TERFs claim that men who call themselves 'feminist' are "all predators".

TERFs would rather include transphobic men in their spaces than "those evil libfems" (those women are enemies).

TERFs claim that radical feminism is the "only true feminism", & that all second-wave feminists were "radfems".

TERFs claim that GNC men are "fetishizing" femininity (but according to TERF logic, masculine men are not fetishizing masculinity).

TERFs are extremely bigoted towards sex workers, polyamorous people, people who don't want commitment, people who are sexually experimenting or who are promiscuous (which is also one of the reasons why I left the sex-negative community; their views on sex/lust/love are similar to the Christian conservative perspective).

I can definitely assure you I still very well remember most of their URLs & blog content. There are many TERFs who hide behind aesthetic blogs, & use subtle TERF language & comforting rhetoric — which you might not even notice if you don't know much about their specific type of language & tactics (e.g. complaining about the "neoliberal postmodern identities" & about people "erasing females"). This type of TERF also may follow a bunch of (trans-inclusive) anti-'MOGAI' & anti-kink blogs. If you're trans-inclusive & TERFs follow you, it's likely because your blog content doesn't make them uncomfortable.

Their blatant transphobia is absurd & paranoiac, & they don't hide it. Anyone who disagrees with them gets called a "handmaiden", "lesbophobe", "male", "genderist", "liberal", "libfem", "special snowflake" (I no longer consider myself a radical leftist, but I don't consider myself a centrist either). TERFs call trans women as a group "fetishists", "delusional", "mentally ill", "sociopaths", "narcissists", "pedophiles", "necrophiles", "incels", "genderfucks" + slurs like "tr*nny", "troon", "tr0n", "transes". They say that the trans movement is "coercing children to transition" & "forcing lesbians to have sex with penis". It's pure fear-mongering. Their views on trans men are also contradictory — there are times they claim that trans men are "straight girls who are trans just bc they read fanfiction & watch gay porn", & there are times they claim that trans men are "brainwashed butch lesbians" (Pick a side!).

I live in a very religious Latin American country. The majority of the population here is not educated on gender/sexuality issues. I got the chance of educating myself better only after I've learned English. And then some terfs had the gall to say "academic fields such as Gender & LGBT Studies & philosophy are oppressive & pretentious". In a country like mine with a dark history of military dictatorships, censorship & anti-intellectualism, being leftist means protecting the social sciences in education & freedom of the press.

So yes, I left the terf community bc unlike them, I think for myself & I hate bullying (i was in fact heavily bullied for years in school, & only bullying victims know how it truly feels like). My terf blog is now inactive; I had 1000+ followers. I'm a very quiet person irl & online; I was never vocal about my real opinions bc I don't like getting into heated discussions & I didn't want to be featured on that gross radfem-gossip blog.I was very transphobic back then. & now it's quite possible terfs will say to me "You were never one of us". I followed & liked their blogs, just like they followed mine. I was loyal & obedient. Now not anymore.

[full-course-identity]

@saddestlittlebaby-intheroom​

First off: thank you for replying. I apologize if I came off unnecessarily harsh, but frankly, I didn’t really think you were gonna be interested in talking--I mostly made that reblog for anyone else in the be m/ore chill tag who saw your post and checked the notes.

I don’t know if I’ll reply in depth anymore after this. This post is long, and took a lot out of me.

While, yeah, most people who headcannon it are trans, as someone who’s bi, the treatment of how being bi is Jeremy’s only personality trait kinda annoys me.

... well, I mean. If these are queer people, specifically queer kids, hyperfocusing on his queerness and making their content all about his queerness... maybe there’s a valid reason?

Fandom, specifically, is one of the first avenues kids today get to explore being aaaaanything but cishet. When a part of you so fucking massive that it DOES, actually, radically change your personality, gets pushed down and oppressed, you’re gonna wanna fixate on it when you get the chance to try--at least, a lot of people will. Maybe not you, and that’s fine. 

But I implore you: rethink your takeaway. Your OP directly shames the people doing this, and makes it sound like the people who do it must not truly understand transness--and considering that, again, the majority are trans, that is actively harmful. That’s my biggest issue.

(and... yes. I am using queer as an umbrella term. Queer is used as not only a community term, but an academic one, so if you’re not okay with being called queer, just tell me and I won’t refer to you as such... but I will still use it.)

I totally understand where you’re coming from, and I’m not trying to say that GNC trans men don’t exist, but it’s the way people portray them as basically just being soft trans bois with no other personality outside of being trans that annoys me. It’s not even just that, I feel the fandom basics reduces down any character to just their sexuality or their gender, and as someone who’s bi, it kinda pisses me off that people just state that such and such a character is gay, bi or trans, and then everything just becomes about that. People are more then their sexuality or gender, this is LITERALLY what the LGBT community has been fighting for for years, and now the newer generation wants to just snatch being gay or being trans as a quirky personality. 

That’s... not what we’ve been fighting for, actually. 

I’m not going to get as in depth with this as others could bc I don’t have the spoons to write up an entire essay on the problems with what you said, but, I mean, for one thing, we’ve been fighting for the right to exist. Not to prove we’re “more then our identities”--that’s not the point at all. Our identities are fine. We need to be allowed to be the people we are, and if you truly believe in a “live and let live” philosophy, you cannot shame people for prioritizing a massive part of their live experience. Being queer changes everything. It is NOT the newer generation that suddenly decided to change this; things like found families, queer communes, whole bubbles of ‘safe spaces’ hidden away from society were all the fucking rage waaaaaay before the internet came around. 

Just because what used to be hidden out of sight is now finally reaching the public at large doesn’t mean these concepts are somehow fuckin invalid.

I kinda wished I actually touched on that as well about how Jeremy and Michael are always just sad boys who cry a lot. That annoys me as well because the rest of their personalities is thrown completely out the window, just so they could cry a lot for no real reason. And as someone who literally can’t get through a day without crying, I just wanna say it’s not cute. It’s actually really fucking annoying, both for myself and everyone else.

So much of fandom is used as venting. These sad boy portrayals--why do you think they exist? Do you think the majority of the fans are romanticizing depression? Because, personally, again, I think you’re talking down to people who are literally going off their own life experiences and their own mental illness. No. Real life crying isn’t cute. Good thing this is fandom, where making characters suffer is a GREAT way to work through shit, which is the case for most of the kids who might see your post.

When I talk about ‘kink material’, I mean the whole idea of being trans has become a kink to a certain group of people. It lessens the idea that being trans is actually an important issue, just for some soft angst then can be cured with a few kisses and snuggles. So, not exactly a kink in the typical sense, but more that, again, being trans is an idea that’s meant to be ‘soft and cute’. 

‘a certain group of people‘ ... ‘just for some soft angst then can be cured with a few kisses and snuggles’

I’m guessing you’re truscum. I sorta was too, in high school. I’m not touching that specifically because it is a whole other can of worms, but I wanted to point out something.

We established most of the people talking about trans headcanons are, well, trans. Right? Okay.

So why do you think trans people somehow don’t know the harsh realities of being trans?

This is, again, fiction. Why would you assume they just don’t get it, and why are you bothered by people glossing over whatever they don’t care to talk about in fandom, where you don’t have to talk about whatever you don’t like.

The exact idea of my post was that trans people aren’t supposed to be infantilized?????

Yeah. The problem is that you were, in fact, infantalizing people.

I never stated to talk for everyone, let alone the trans community, just in my experience, the trans people I’ve talked to have been extremely uncomfortable with the portrayals specifically trans Michael and Jeremy. 

Except we are talking about trans people overwhelmingly making these headcanons. Which means the people you talk to would be outliers. But more then that... I’m sorry, but their discomfort isn’t important. Block people, block tags, move on.

I’m not saying you’re not allowed to have your portrayal, just that people kinda need to make sure that it’s not everyone’s cup of tea. 

That is 100% fine. I agree.

And no, don’t worry, I’m not going to go around attacking people for how they portray a certain character. Yeah, maybe I’ll make a post about it or whatever, but I’m not going to go around personally attacking people by tagging them in posts, commenting on their posts, direct messages, etc. 

That’s good. But I am quite bothered by you making this post on the main fandom tag, tagged a couple of different things, and made it so people would see your post. Just... if you’re gonna make a post like that, please ease up on the implications that the people who disagree with you are badly treating their own identities 

But if people are allowed to make trans Jeremy and Michael, or even just cis Jeremy and Michael, extremely soft, then I’m allowed to speak against it.

You’re allowed to discuss it, yes. I certainly don’t like some portrayals, and I’ve talked about them before, in the tag in fact. But you went way beyond discussion and into active, negative judgment of people. If you’re going to do that (trust me, I’ve had to vent some things before), please DON’T put it in the main tag, at the very least.

YKINMK.

[polyamorous-mysme]

this is weeks late, unrequested, and it has an #agenda but here’s some feminist rfa headcanons for you All With Jaehee And Most With MC (several poly ships but u can apply most hcs to most ships) because a nazi got beat in the face and im living and also: i love girls i literally love girls so much

all of these r as though MC is female/female-leaning but if anyone has male/male-leaning/agender/etc feminist MC headcanons you can Send Those The McFuck In

this is also super gay and trans because all ur faves r gay and/or trans

707 x MC x Jaehee

jaehee and MC literally gearing up to go to marches/rallies/protests and seven gushing because he loves how strong his partners are 

he can’t technically go to many because the agency but he calls and texts to check in and is constantly looking through security cameras just to make sure they’re safe

comes up with great gay slogans

jaehee and MC making sure to especially advocate for their gnc boyfriend because inclusion is the only option

jaehee and MC being the Best Girl Duo and an even better Interracial Gay Couple who do not deal with white feminist nonsense

jaehee and MC kicking people out of the coffee shop for microaggressions or giving them lukewarm coffee/stale food

jaehee wearing subtle lesbian/bi pride colors every day and ESPECIALLY around valentine’s day

seven has so many pictures of his partners even if he doesn’t like to be in many himself but he just super loves them??? he’s so proud of everything they stand for and is so happy to support them even when he worries about their safety

seven sending Wholesome Memes all the time 

Jaehee x MC x Zen

zen using his platform to make his opinions known even when jaehee tells him to be careful but No My Girlfriends Are The Most Important Thing To Me And Their Lives And Safety Matter Just Like Everyone Else’s

zen literally refusing to work with people when they make disgusting comments

zen having a blocklist longer than mine bc people tweet him lesbophobic bullshit

jaehee and/or MC getting followed on their way home for work and zen literally making sure to come pick them up every day afterwards

zen also saying occasionally :/ shit but like. genuinely willing to listen esp if it’s from MC or jaehee

jaehee and MC going to events with zen wearing openly feminist attire. jaehee refuses to wear suits ever again but her dresses are always related to current issues, or she’ll talk about them openly and unapologetically. 

zen speaking out against poor casting choices. disabled characters go to disabled actors! queer characters go to queer actors! 

zen actually realizing the homophobic/transphobic things he says in chat nonchalantly are bad and like. actually apologizes and is understanding when he gets called the FUCK out

jaehee and MC gaining a small following of their own for their #iconic gay posts on social media sites

feminist movie nights all the time i love it

Jaehee x MC x Yoosung

yoosung taking classes explicitly abt women’s struggles and other oppressive histories

yoosung sheepishly asking jaehee and MC if they wanna go to a protest/vigil/etc on campus like. the day before because he’s been too shy to ask bc he didn’t know if it was his place 

yoosung exploring his own status as someone who might be gnc/not het and jaehee and MC encouraging him to explore it

the first time he goes to class in a skirt or a dress or literally anything not “masculine” and coming home so happy 

jaehee and MC doing their makeup before work and yoosung asking if they’d do his a bit (not too much yet)

jaehee and yoosung both growing their hair out a bit more

shared hairclips all around the house

jaehee and MC coming home angry as hell because fetishizing customers and yoosung patiently listening with wide eyes and getting teary-eyed because his girlfriends are so upset

they/them yoosung

xe/xem yoosung

he/him yoosung who’s still a Boy but is much more aware of and concrete in his masculinity

yoosung’s mum knitting matching “girlfriend” sweaters for the whole bunch

Jumin x MC x Jaehee

jumin listening to jaehee and MC’s discussions about misogyny and homophobia (esp lesbo/biphobia) and sexual violence patiently and not quite Getting It at first

jumin realizing he’s fucked up when jaehee gets so upset to the point of almost leaving a few times

jaehee and MC using their coffee shop as an abuse/lgbt/etc safe place and jumin providing the funds to make it safer

jumin and jaehee researching the best organizations and shelters for women, abuse victims, homeless, mentally ill, lgbt+ community members, etc. and donating All The Time

jumin tightening anti-harassment in the workplace esp after jaehee goes into long rants about some of the shit she had to deal with while working for him

MC and jaehee passive-aggressively holding hands/kissing/basically displaying as much PDA as possible that time jumin made a comment about gay pda/pda in general without actually thinking about what the fuck he was saying

jumin getting in an actual argument with his father when he makes some gross fetishistic comment about how jumin has “every man’s fantasy” or some bullshit

jaehee and MC holding hands and walking through the c&r building to spend lunch with jumin and jaehee giving Looks to her old coworkers 

bonus appreciation for jaehee: she’s a grown ass woman who literally questions her entire life and identity and especially sexuality bc she met a Girl and she’s like? wow i might be gay. wow. i love jaehee and i love girls and i especially love girls who love girls ha ha but i guess you could say im a bit . . . biased