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So I was at SDCC this year, and I passed a stall in the ladies' and heard someone sobbing inside. Just bawling, fully melting down. My-dog-just-died levels of crying. And I've spent a lot of time in therapy trying to learn better boundaries around helping people, but I'm not made of stone, so I stopped outside the stall door and asked, "Are you okay?"

The woman's breath caught, and she said, "Yeah, I'm fine," in the least fine voice I have ever heard.

So I walked away. Made it all the way to the sinks. Washed my hands. And turned around and went back because nope, not fine, not okay.

"Look, I don't want to be a dick, and you don't have to tell me what's going on, but is there anything that would help? I've got water, ibuprofen, and safety pins, and I could find other stuff."

"No, no, it's fine. I have those too."

"...okay."

I made it to the sinks again. She went back to sobbing like her heart was being torn out one strand of muscle at a time.

An older woman sidled up to me. "Did she tell you anything?"

"Nope. I offered her water and ibuprofen, too."

"Oh! I've got snacks. Maybe that'll help."

"Worth a shot. Oh, hey, I think I have some of my business cards for my Etsy shop in here—I could write my number on one if she needs help later."

"I've got a pen!"

We hurried back to the stall, offered the snacks, and were rebuffed. Finally we slid the card and the pen under the stall door, explained that we were both mom friends/teachers/etc. and trying to help-not-creep, and reluctantly fucked off. I personally felt like shit about it, but I had places to be and I felt like I was close to overstepping the crying woman's boundaries if I hadn't already done so. And if I'd made her feel unsafe, well, she could toss the card.

The following morning, I got a text from an unknown number.

She identified herself as "Rose from the bathroom" and explained that she'd had a hell of a day, with multiple people being cruel to her, seemingly for no good reason. She'd hit her breaking point and fled to the bathroom to cry it out ... at which point two strangers had rocked up, checked on her multiple times, and generally done the dance of most social mammals when a member of their group is in unexplained distress. The two of us had, more or less accidentally, restored her faith in humanity by being worried apes at her. 18 hours later, she was having a much better time, and a lot of it was due to the two of us shoving things under her door.

Anyway, turns out we live about 20 minutes apart, and we're going to meet up for tea after we've recovered from con exhaustion.

So if you ever feel like humans in general and/or fandom humans in particular are irredeemable shits, remember that sometimes the same species who'll ruin your con day will try to slide trail mix and ibuprofen under your stall door in case it helps.

I still don't know what Rose looks like, btw (although apparently she knows what I look like—I mentioned I was in cosplay and she said she'd seen me around). I don't know whether she's cis or trans. So next time you hear someone bitching about trans women in the ladies', feel free to tell them that it never once crossed anybody's mind to ask. If you're crying in the bathroom, you're my sister.

Maybe take the trail mix, though. We apes worry about one another.

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GANDALF FUCKED UP AND EVIL MOMENT!? WHY DID HE FEEL THE NEED TO SCARE HIM LIKE THAT!?

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The USA dairy industry is so heavily subsidized that milk is a waste product, & whey is DEFINITELY a waste product.

They should stop subsidizing the dairy industry so much, & maintain the subsidies on the condition that a minimum percentage* of milk, cheese, dairy products, whey, casein fibre, etc, is donated to schools, hospitals, prisons, asylums, seniors' living facilities, rehab facilities, etc.

*I say a percentage because I don't want to hurt the little guy. This also doesn't have to be a percentage of the total product, I think it can be a minimum of waste product!

Stop using subsidies for nothing! If you want to tell me that donating this stuff is too expensive & it's cheaper to throw it out then you also need to tell me where that subsidy is being used.

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Whey should be given away for free to schools as a nutritional supplement for children /gen

"If you want to keep your dairy subsidies, you must donate [minimum amount] of whey to institutions, or we'll stop giving you the subsidy!"

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reverse gaslighting where i pretend to know exactly what you are talking about

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i said what i said

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*my putrid and decaying hand bursts out of the grave to hold hands with you* Tee hee

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DEFINITELY had classical training. The fiddle of it might just have been, well, that's what he's doing, playing the music of the people/folk, & so it ends up being fiddle, but I could believe he also fiddled otherwise before playing in this style. It is amazing. I have a feeling that's a viola though & looking at his instagram it says he does also play viola, which could just be fiddlers having fun with other instruments, but it also suggests classical. There's a running joke in orchestra that violists are just violinists who couldn't cut it, which makes this even more poignant, in terms of funding/lessons yet coming to do this, & in terms of violists being considered bad yet this beauty happening. (& part of why viola sounds so "bad" is that the body of the instrument is a little too small for the sound, but it would be awkward to be any bigger unless you're six foot or playing it on your lap like a cello.)

I of course haven't looked much into this artist so idk if I'm right, that's just the feeling I'm getting.

Have you ever seen a violinist going APESHIT?!

Be sure to check out IAmDSharp!

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filipinos are soooo cute, I love you & I want you to keep looking hot & it's also ok if you don't look good

Making a flat/wide/bulbous nose appreciation post because those big nose posts never include them:

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I want a chicken butcher's shop on every streetcorner & a small animal butcher shop every few blocks. (Cows/large animals & import goods would have to be less common.) I want a grocer on my street & I want to walk no more than five minutes to a health centre. I want no more than fifteen minutes on foot away from a hospital or no more than three by car. I want clean water in every house & in every park. I want schools no more than twenty minutes walking for a small human with short legs & I want school zone speeds at the backs of communities so if you don't need to go to school to drop off a kid you don't need to drive 30. I want public transport & a rail system over the whole country. I want apartment buildings that actually have parking space, townhouses with garages, I want more semi-detached houses that are better for the environment but have more privacy than apartment buildings. I want half the people on the block to have a couple chickens to sell to the butcher, I want half the people on the block to have a garden & play a little feudalism & let the grocer come & harvest it. I want community. I want community I can walk to. I want to buy fresh food for supper every day instead of once a week & then a quarter of it going bad because grocery stores are so far away & such a hassle.

I want greenhouses & railways & preservation so we can eat in remote & northern locations.

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I want a medical centre on every streetcorner & a smile on each person's face

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