#-Harlan

[revert-and-queer]

I think about my younger self sometimes. I think of her, and the way her heart ached. The hundreds of times she would repeat the Hail Mary, the countless moments spent in prayer begging for mercy. Begging for help.

I was intensely suicidal for a number of years in my life. Many times, I would talk to God. I would tell him– listen. I'm giving you another chance. I just need you to show me I'm not alone. I need you to give me hope.

And he never did.

Or, at least, that's what I thought for a long time.

Looking back on it, I think I understand. I needed to learn to love myself. I needed to learn to continue not because someone else made me, not because I was compelled forward, but because I wanted to.

My years as an agnostic and a lapsed Catholic, while they did involve a lot of spiritual pain, taught me some very important lessons. They shape the way I approach things even today.

1. I learned that you need to be the change. You cannot simply just pray, or hope, or wish. You need to get down on your hands and knees and get your fingernails dirty. You need to work for a better future, for yourself and for the rest of humanity. Assume no one else is going to do it, and be the one to step up.

2. You owe yourself the work. You owe yourself the struggle and the work that it takes to heal, to be better. If you feel God isn't helping you, help yourself. In the moments where faith is far away, you are your own final defense against despair. Even if you just lay in bed, get through the day. Get through the pain. Give yourself the chance to see a brighter future.

3. Religion is not indicative of personal morality. Being Christian, being atheist, being Buddhist or Jewish or Muslim, or any other faith– it can guide your worldview, it can influence you, but it can't fix you. Believing in the "right" thing does not absolve you of needing to learn morality and ethics, and by that I mean properly learn it. Good people can be religious or not. Bad people can be religious or not.

There are other things I learned, of course, but these are the most important. There's also additions to these I have, specifically as a Muslim.

1. Be the reason someone else's prayers for help were answered. Allow Allah to guide you and use you as a tool to aid your fellows in humanity and your siblings in faith.

2. Allah has a plan, and He is the best of planners. However, it might not be clear now, or even years in the future. Secondly, you need to help yourself, too. You will be stronger for it, more capable for it, more independent for it. And, perhaps, that is what Allah wants for you.

3. Don't allow yourself to fall into complacency as a Muslim. Learn, educate yourself, ask questions. Figure out what you believe is good and right. Figure out what you prioritize in life. Being religious is not a substitute for putting in the work of learning values, morality, and ethics.

[zhmurrka]

Feeling funny today

[harlanphobic]

the gemful visitor

[fabi-gone-electric]

He's REALLY mad this time, guys

[dilfgmancoolatta]

[rauberrauber]

low poly hate pillar

get rotated idiot

[c-r-yeet]

A very experimental art for me, i want to try out some new style. ihnmaims radio drama got me in a chokehold and possessed me to draw this.

Also I'm giving Ted zero gyatt cus that man did not deserve it.

Note :

- the binary translates as "HATEHATE" on repeat.

- the pair of punchcode tapes representing AM's talkfield, are from the original short story. The left one is "I THINK, THEREFORE I AM" and the right is "COGITO ERGO SUM".

โอ้ยปวดตา

Update : I posted a timelapse here!

[ceaseless-watchers-special-girl]

jonny when he can’t actually name a character alex newall

[queen0fm0nsterz]

I will never not be amused by the endless irony of AM and how he, a machine with nothing but hatred and envy for the humans who created him, was so loved by his Harlan Ellison (the original author of the story, AKA his real life creator) that he HAD to voice him in every single installment of IHNMAIMS possible, not letting anyone else take him.

The very thing AM hates most is the one that gives him life and keeps him alive outside of the narrative. In a way, it's similar to how he keeps the five humans alive in the story, but at the same time it's the opposite spectrum of it: the burning hatred of the machine versus the boundless love of the artist.

[kugelfische]

Cogito, ergo sum - I think therefore I am.

[potato-lord-but-not]

some incredibly stupid holy ghosts memes in honor of this comment from my last holy ghosts art. we got him boys

[world-fire-entity]

Being into podcasts and having s*** voice recognition means

- not being able to differentiate between Jon and Elias who are played by two different people

- Not being able to differentiate between Sasha and not Sasha who are played by two different people

- Not being able to differentiate between Alice and Norris who are played by two different people

- And being able to distinguish Arther, John, Kellen, Eddie, Dr Jeffrey, Kayne, The trader, Faust, Wallace, The Butcher, Oscar, and MARIE??? from eachother DESPITE ALL OF THEM BEING PLAYED BY THE SAME PERSON

[id0ti]

AM Design

(Repost it because I want more attention to my drawing😢)

TikTok: @1d0ti

[eva-birdman-art]

Go get that job interview Arthur

[ambivertedbabe]

“the gays, arthur, we love the gays”

“and the gays love us”