#-.^ these drawings could Not get more indulgent
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I wrote a thing... if anyone would like to indulge me. I'd like some feedback even? It's a short headcannon? Maybe? Anyways, here goes nothing:
Morning Ritual
He sat on the edge of the bed in his underwear and stared at the uniform resting accusingly in the chair across from him. The freshly lit cigarette between his lips began drawing thin tendrils of smoke past his eyes making them gently water. With a heavy sigh, he rolled his head back, exhaled a lungful of smoke and closed his eyes momentarily wishing he could be somewhere else.
Where?
Anywhere but here.
As he leaned forward again, placing his elbows on his knees, the sounds of muffled screams could be heard through the thick walls. Upon his arrival, he initially found the noises thrilling, arousing even. The sounds of the unjust being punished for their crimes used to send chills of excitement through him. But lately he only heard the squeals and mewls of people who only wanted to be free. People who only wanted to be left alone.
People like himself.
He stood, reaching for the blood-soaked pants and began to pull them on. He used to get his uniform laundered every day, insisting that the ‘clothes make the man’; but soon the charm of his position wore thin. He slowly began to realize how much of a prisoner he really was, how much he and the reagents had in common. So, washing the blood off became less and less of a priority. Now he wore his bloody clothes as another badge.
But not one of honor.
The uniform weighed heavy on his frame- pants, shirt, tie, jacket. He stood in front of the cracked mirror and ground his teeth. He looked like a fucking rent-a-cop. He felt like a fucking joke. Reaching to the bedside table he stubbed out the butt of his smoke in the overflowing ashtray, shaking his head in doubt. He used to keep a clean ashtray as well.
What happened to him?
Screams again. Desperate cries for mercy echoing down the corridors of the facility. His head snapped up at the sound and he caught another glimpse of himself in the mirror, his eyes slowly shifting over the reflection of his shoulder and landing on the closet behind him.
He needed Genny. He needed his authority.
He strode to the small closet against the wall and slowly pulled it open. She waited patiently for him inside. His tool, his trade. The battery pack took the weight of the uniform away and suddenly he felt light. The handle of the prod fitting snugly into his palm, into the worn leather glove protecting his scarred hand. The wires spiraling up his arm to the pack embraced him with a quiet intimacy. Genny was the only woman he trusted, she only purred for him.
The next scream brought a curl of a smile to his lips. He felt more himself. He had nothing in common with anyone at this place.
Justice. They were being taught to respect authority. They were being taught to obey him.
Coyle pulled his cap onto his head and slid his shades on before lighting another cigarette. He took one last glance in the mirror and nodded, breaking into an even wider grin. There he was. Not a joke, but a scourge. A man of justice and law. As he slipped out of the room and headed for the first trial of the morning, he chuckled quietly as another scream became music to his ears.
#outlast trials#outlast#the outlast trials#outlast fandom#leland coyle#red barrels#outlast fanart#dr easterman#mother gooseberry#franco barbi#officer coyle#leland coyle headcannon
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we need more armpit tickling art../nf
so cruel... do we really....
#-.^ these drawings could Not get more indulgent#actually they 100% could. I'm just preventing that#this one was a fun experiment though! nice to play with colors and I used magma for it#tickling art#Always accepting requests btw. up your game people... give me something fun#i'll drop a finalized (ever-changing) list of the media I enjoy soon enough
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seven years ago, they used to be friends. almost.
1 / 2 / ?
#diurna draws#vox#alastor#staticradio#radiostatic#radiosilence#onewaybroadcast#hazbin hotel vox#hazbin hotel alastor#hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel fanart#gosh i love doing more complex shading to make fake screencaps it's so satisfying.#sorry for using my personal vox design this is purely self indulgent. hey maybe vox only starts wearing bowties after this#anyways part two is going to be uploaded in a bit my doves <3#vox made his way through the trapdoor that's why he's initially on his knees#...not any other reason...#he's so danger unaware to alastor going haywire#thing is i feel that during their friendship vox was long used to alastor hurting other people in front of him that it just...#doesn't occur to him that alastor would've ever hurt him in that way.#shame#because it never occured to alastor that vox would cross that line and ruin their friendship.#alastor is somehow desperately angry and desperately sad#and angrier still that vox gets to make him feel that way.#suddenly#alastor feels a pearl of absolute hatred form inside of him#he's never felt so strongly about something in his entire afterlife#if only my shitty little aces could communicate and stop being insane for one second. sigh.
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I enjoy sharing with @cometchasinglove headcanons about how Earthspark Starscream tends to be a flustered mess... but keeps most of these reactions to himself.
Except if taken by surprise... breaking his no-touchy personal barrier is the easiest way to achieve that.
#myart#maccadam#tf earthspark#earthspark starscream#starscream#es starscream#ifellinrobothellagain#quick digital watercolor style to test how fast i could give color to my sketches#because sometimes i really REALLY want to post colored stuff#but i get tired half the way when cleaning up sketches#and end most of the time posting with monotone colors like my usual shippy variety of posts#i liked this i will indulge in the technique more#first time drawing a canon earthspark design omg#bear with my errors dskjhjsdf
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this is your reminder to make ur cringy n self indulgent art bc cringe is dead and you gotta live life (I say, despite the fact i still feel a bit cringe but im being so brave abt it)
lettin myself post n do more art for myself so apologies for the more selfshippy art than usual
#artswin#tsp narrator#tspud narrator#selfship#oz rambles#in the tags oz rambles go brrrrr#been hyperfocused on the numbers for a while recently which is why ive been pretty low if uve seen sdkhf#but im starting to feel better so in an effort to let myself feel better im doin more self indulgent art#with these types of things i usually make myself as a generic gray human instead of my sona (or recently my sona fusion)#(the sona fusion has my white swoop but black irl hair)#but making this made me remember how much i love drawing myself with narry n i dont wanna get rid of that#i only made the generic gray human art just bc i wanted other ppl to insert themselves which i still wanna do#but at the same time *I GOTTA LET MYSELF BE CRINGE MAN THIS IS MY OLD GEEZER I CAN BE CRINGE FOR HIM*#anywho if yall havent seen my updated intros recently. i selfship with the narrator (specifically virgil) in a bff/qpr way#so it might look hella romantic and couply occasionally were just a couple of besties /pos#gonna tag it with a selfship name tho just so i can access my posts on it easier#n so if yall wanna block me n my cringe for any reason then feel free! /gen /nf#naroz#digitalmuse#(or smth idk ive seen ppl have pretty cool selfship names so i wanna try smth similar but who knows it could change) :P
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cowboy bebop x trigun crossover pls :3
Well anon, you didn't specify how the crossover needed to be so I indulged a little.
Thanks for the request! :>
#my art#ask box#ask#cowboy bebop#trigun#trigun maximum#trimax#spike#spike spiegel#vash#vash the stampede#art#illustration#digital art#spike x vash#spikevash#tainted donuts#crosship#ship#crossover#happy pride month#this one is for the gays#and the grip that the trope bounty x bounty hunter has on me#I'd like to imagine this could happen in canon if Spike knew he could only get close to Vash and get his bounty if he got physical with him#that and earn his trust but to later actually fall for Vash and not claim his bounty lmao#I'd like to draw so much more of this ship so if y'all let me indulge I can go so much further than this xD
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uh just one wip here-
i kept redoing the bg lol (one was water - one was a 'hall' of xerneas's antlers - one was a rainbow staircase with xerneas's colours-- etc)
but. i couldnt get them to look right (>_>)b
#art#pkmn xy#pokemon x and y#pokemon xy#pkmn x and y#professor sycamore#poke's doodles#pokemon#....... I dunno i dont have much to say lmao#i just wanted to branch out and draw another character i hadnt drawn before-#... if i could get the bg to look right in my wips...#this would have gone a lot more self-indulgent lmao - namely xerneas!sycamore#(which he just. is?? when he appears in my daydream plotlines--- like. no fanfare - dude's just part-legendary lmao)#anyways - i've been watching the xy anime for the first time and. eheh i like this guy#his voice took some getting used to though-#sry my liege - i couldnt draw you quite right i'll do better the next time i draw you---------------------------------
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Found a WIP for a painting I didn't end up using for the GhostSoap zine I was a part of earlier this year, and felt absolutely compelled to finish it this week. Really wishing I had hnnngh. Couldn't decide how much paint to smear on his face, if any.
The png for his tattoo is taken from this post!
#my art#simon ghost riley#call of duty#cod mw2 reboot#cod mw3#call of duty mw2#call of duty mw3#tbh i headcanon him as more of a longsleeves rolled up kinda guy#but could not resist a very silly cozy self indulgent drawing#samuel roukin#i feel like i did an alright job getting his likeness
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so if someone was theoretically going to write a fic based off of the tags on that one very excellent garashir artwork you did... what would be a suitable villain role and/or scheme for garak to play? i know basically nothing about spy media and even less about james bond. i googled "most homoerotic james bond villain" and that was interesting but not helpful for this scenario... idk i want to really do this justice so i figured i could ask, since you came up with the idea in the first place and i guess that means this is a gift for you? and everyone else who liked that piece? thank you for your time :)
this is SUCH a charming question to receive!!! it's an honor that my art might inspire others to create! that said, here is my advice: i think you should follow your heart, mainly! i say this to everyone about everything but its very true, with writing especially, i think, you might want to write things that are especially interesting to you so that its exciting to keep going with them
personally, i don't watch a lot of spy media, i disliked james bond as a kid and i still dislike him now, so the character archetypes and plots from that wouldn't interest me enough to write a fanfic off of—i could read ds9 fic based off of them easily bc i love the ds9 characters!!! but. i couldn't write like that. therefore, i can't give you useful answers from that canon. i can give you this, but i don't know if it will be helpful: i think i would first start with the question—what about garak excites you? what puts you on the edge of your seat with him? what about julian—what actions do you like to see him take? what decisions of his make you giddy? how do you like to dig into his character? how do you like to dig into garak's? if you write down the answers to your question, it becomes the puzzle of how you can get everything you want out of the fic. the beautiful thing about the holosuite is that anything can happen at all, and while you're telling a spy story, it doesn't have to all be spy tropes. you could, if you wanted, play out a shakespeare play (your favorite shakespeare play, assuming you don't hate them all) as if it were a spy thriller! Sure, what's Twelfth Night as a spy thriller? We already have many characters playing with the fluidity of identity, going by different names, taking on different roles, gaining trust and acting on their own best interests. Just raise the stakes a little. is this insane? i feel insane. is it worth anything? i hope so. my ending point is: i am not so good at writing advice! i'm a much better drawer than a worder, but it's a gift already that you've said my art has motivated your desire to create!!!!!!!!! from there on—don't worry about what i want at all, don't worry about doing my work justice!!! take what excites you about the idea, take what excites you from your own ideas, and build it into something that makes you giddy to work on!!! i believe in you, and you have the world at your fingertips!!!!!!
#communications#midnightcommittee#it's a big beautiful world and it is gift enough that my artwork makes you want to create!#a small connection of beauty and meaning through the vastness of life!#follow your heart and create something that makes you even more excited than my art! get self indulgent! thats the best gift you could give#what draws me about garak and bashirs relationship i think is that bashir likes to solve puzzles. and garak likes to give him puzzles#he delights in bashirs quickness and bashir delights in showing off his quickness—being challenged and measuring up#and then. and then—once they reach that point. bashir takes even better delight in flipping the tables—he doesn't give garak a puzzle#but he likes to get garak off his footing. he likes. (i think) to be the puzzle that garak is now trying to solve.#theyre very playful. they love games. they love to play them together.#you don't have to use any of that in your fic but in case you needed some more thoughts to springboard off of—i hope they help!#i hope anything that ive said has been useful honestly#REGARDLESS: good luck! thank you for telling me my artwork inspired you! i wish u good luck and easy writing!#and i hope to read ur fic one day :D
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Becky Botsford jr high version is such a coin toss because I could totally see her leaning HEARD into academics and wanting to be taken seriously.........but you also cannot tell me she isn't wearing an alicorn onesie to sleep each night.
#She would havesuch a fun free cringeful jr high phase but also I think she represses her interests too much to indulge.#Violet? She's not repressing shit. Becky? Her whole existence is repression.#I think I'm gonna go with my original Becky idea and then do a little Wordgirl costume redesign.#To add some like Pegasus wings. And Bob manages to convince her NOT to add a unicorn horn to her costume.#You get what I mean Wordgirl fandom?#I have a few bonus drawings planned for when I post the 8th grade Becky drawings.#Because I have so many thoughts.#And I think they'll be actual drawings and not the edit drawings I've been doing.#The main one will be to fit with the others.#I think Huggy would bemoan the wings addition of the costume at first but then realize it gives him more room to sit while flying.#I mean. A secret identity is such a perfect thing for Becky wihle she's growing up.#She is such a high strung girl and I think that'll get worse before it gets better. Wordgirl could be her outlet for being cringe.#And no one but her closest friends and family know it's her. And her friends and family all know she's got a loving for ponies & princesses#OKAY!#Wordgirl#Becky Botsford#Sentiments of a vampire.
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listen. i love pizza tower with my whole heart & mind. you know this. you Know. but first and foremost i am a character design bitch, and the pizzas are, frankly, very bland. this is not a critique or a complaint, because obviously That's Not The Point and more importantly i would be horrified if anyone tried doing that much animation with anything more complex than what's there. but also it means when i get a taste of some truly whack ass insane design work again it is like fuuuucking catnip
#ive been DEPRIVED......#pizza business is on hiatus i need to play lethal league for 50 hours and make a surely ill-fated cosplay about it#it really is unfortunate fake pep could have been a fun cosplay for the way i wanted to go about it#but for all the schematics i had sketched out it was never a thing i wanted to get up and actually try to Make#and then i wake up the next day after playing llb once and go like oh. ohhhhhh. i need to be doombox irl#and because of that realizing. oh that was misplaced idle thoughts before; i never actually wanted to do fp for real#i was just on that train bc 1. very passionate about the game obviously [and he was kind of my only option to rep pt] and 2.#i think it was a lot of leftover inertia from my PREVIOUS cosplay idea [baozhai from indivisible] that i also never pursued#lots of Makin Stuff drive still existing but not having a place to go.#fp was certainly more doable than baozhai so it was easy to latch on but#still not....really the kind of thing i actually Enjoy making#this one though. ohgghhgh i feel it. i feel the cosmos#i still dont think i'm actually going to complete it. the current projection is that i just make a shitty prototype and then#realize how impossible and unfun this is gonna be and then drop it. [but its fine bc i still got to make stuff and got the idea out]#however. that first pizza comic was also originally a single-image prototype to get the idea across bc#i didn't think i would actually draw out that whole thing either.#so i guess we'll just see what happens. now won't we.#poor fuckin noisette comic 2 man i put it off for so long and then finally get into it and then this happens#ill get back on it eventually this is just something i have to indulge while i have it and get it out of my system#its like evangelion. sometimes you have to write 8k words of analysis. and sometimes you gotta make a really stupid cosplay#anyway hey i should post the fp cosplay schematics huh. i meant to back when i first did them but then didnt. whoops#bweeeaaahh
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Everytime I draw Joe Cartwright I get overwhelmed with the desire to only ever draw Joe
#you dont understand#my hyperfixation with Bonanza started around 2014-2015 but I didn't start to draw fanart of Joe or Bonanza until like... 2018.#It's hard to explain but back then I was TERRIFIED of drawing Joe cause I was afraid I would draw him wrong and get discouraged by-#not being a talented enough artist#and OH I wanted to draw fanart so badly - But I didn't dare to do it. I was afraid to be self-indulgent#Going YEARS and wanting so badly to draw my favorite character but being scared to do it... compared to know#I'm way more self-indulgent than I was- and now I'm drawing Bonanza Fanart and being indulgent in it and it makes me beyond happy#It makes me so happy I'm actually crying#I draw Joe Cartwright and it just makes me so unbelieveably happy... happy that I CAN do it. Happy that I am talented enough.#Being talented doesn't even really matter - Happy that I learned to be self-indulgent and HAVE FUN. and most of that is thanks to Juni.#I could write a whole damn essay on how much it means to me#so yes drawing Joe makes me so very happy#im not crying - not at all
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tim schafer has an insurmountable amount of swag and i need to be like him
#guy who i look up to fr#knowing that he got his start in point and click games makes me more confident abt my own ideas#but also point and click games are just. not popular anymore. sad.#but just the way he talks about his ideas. i understand that. i want to work with a team like the psychonauts team oh man#ahgghhghghgghgh i want to be a career artist so bad#some people are afraid art as a career would kill their interest in it but#i cannot kill my art interest for more than 3 days. if i dont draw or do something creative for 3 days i get this horrible itch#and i cannot stop myself from indulging in art every second of every day i am always thinking of it so i feel like i just#have to make my living from it. its the best thing that i could do for myself. if im going to be insane about creating art#it better be my job#god#i am going to be so mushy about art sorry im watching psychodyssey#what 2 hours white noise does to adhd bitches#i always forget abt white noise and the Effect it has on me this shit is so awesome#.txt
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i don't feel like copying what i wrote, so take some screenshots of me having brainworms for the JDK villains again. primarily spurred by me going "hey wouldn't Nisha and Artemis and Apollo make cool rockstars instead"
#i really need to hurry up and finish organizing my writing blog so i can start posting these there instead#anyways i feel like this finally nails EXACTLY the kind of vibes that i wanted for the Acolytes and Solanace#and tbh.....even if i cant find a way to work JDK's original curse themed plot with these ideas#i feel like it would absolutely be worth changing the stories/motivations for the POV trio to fit this new set of ideas#kinda adds a lot more to the villains as a whole#and also sets it apart from a lot of my other stories that revolve around 'essentially a cult' as an opposing force#if i decide to be the most self indulgent that i possibly could be#i might even consider the idea of making it a story ABOUT Solanace and the acolytes in the POV sense#theyd still obviously be villains but the protags of the story instead of the antags#at which point jonas/lydia/hayes would have to be majorly reworked to then fit into the antagonist roles#could also theoretically work with the idea of jonas AND nisha being POVs#so the reader would be getting insight to the good guys and the villains at the same time#JDK(which STILL needs a better placeholder title) really is a story that ive had to majorly change multiple times#most of my stories i have the general idea + genre settled before anything else#but this one is more character driven#i have two groups of OCs ive thought about in depth and i just havent been able to build the story around them in the right way yet#i think once i can Actually get my brain focused long enough to draw#i wanna doodle more rockstar inspired designs/themes for nisha/artie/apollo#see if the idea continues to tickle the brainworms in such a great way + then have time to make polished refs b4 artfight#bc i really love my overdramatic artsy villains okay. i think they deserve to be extra as fuck ya know?#who doesnt love a villain whose primary goal is to put on a show and THEN to do the evil things?
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am i finally designing my own ssk designs through the years? mayhaps.....
#the 15 are getting updated a whole lot#like a lot a lot#older designs are probs gonna stay pretty much the same but uh ya!!!! im exited for this#gonna make my own self indulgent designs then just draw them so much that i become one of the fem ssk makers#so that then my designs can be looked twords! and hopefully less misogeny!!!!!!!! mwahahahahahahhahahaha!!!!!!!!#this is all an evil plan for my specific ideas >:]#also yes chuuyas gonna have short hair and no heals and pants in her 22 design. i am forcing this. no one can stop me#she will be comfy and prepared to constantly fight because her fashion and power can be shown without stupid painful heels#like seriously why do people want her to be out there fighting with her most punishable areas not covered(tits out)#and in heels(pain plus bad to fight in even with gravity. like the heal could do more damage but that would also get stuck and#limit her kicking ability. which is one of her main attacks btw. come on)
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Maybe it would be better to have it on Do not disturb...
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...but what if you miss Something?
#pokemon swsh#pokemon sword and shield#pkmn swsh#pkmn sword and shield#gym leader raihan#goomy#poke's doodles#art#so uh. this is self indulgent www#i kinda try and avoid posting the more. angsty or like. mellow(?) drawings since i have t o n s#and i kinda want to just post fun stuff ww but---#i haven't drawn too much lately sooo-#anyways surely raihan has had many a sleepless night just stressing over social media and messages-#he has to monitor it and make sure that nothing he's done or posted has been taken and spread in the wrong light-#what if that post is blowing up in notifications because he messed up and posted something he shouldn't have ---#what if he's getting more messages because someone posted a photo of him doing something in his free time that could tarnish his 'image'#i dunno how to phrase this and im rambling#but he's the kinda guy who's very focused on the public eye and the media --- surely it gets to him every now and then right---?#i did have a follow up drawing but i couldn't make it look right ww#also yes the lighting in this ain't perfect either but listen --! i can do what i want okay!!! :#:'^]]]]]]]
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