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deoidesign · 5 months ago

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Thinking about vampires, death, life, and the space they occupy in between

#to be or not to be. that is the question #ty adam for being my model for dramatic vampire moment #musings on the thinkings about:#when to live you are required to hurt others. you must repeatedly ask yourself what the value of your life is #To sleep... perchance to dream...#ah. THERES THE RUB.#ok I actually couldnt come up with too many thoughts. I had a lot more while I was drawing this but I guess I put them in the painting LOL #reading that soliloquy and being like damn this is just like vampires #the reality of course is that the soliloquy is a debate over suicide and ultimately making the choice to live #even if just out of fear of the unknown #and vampires are about dying and then in undeath choosing to continue to live #despite the fear of eternity and loneliness and hurting others #theyre not the same. but like let me thiiink come onnnn I'm allowed to thiiink and have incomplete thoughts #I would have to write like a proper essay about this to organize my thoughts. this is the tags on a tumblr post.#anyways finished episode 79 #working on patreon stickers for this month (and next month soon)#and working on book 4. taking a pause from episodes cause I've got 3 weeks of buffer now... UGH #I'm so mad that they changed it. it would have been 5 weeks before but it's fine it's whatever #anyways yeah taking a break from episodes to make my book now!#its good stuff.#and this painting is good stuff #banger after banger from me tbh #this was a little relaxing giving myself a couple hours to muse #it's necessary for my health and I always forget that til I do a painting...#I loved doing the little landscape in the background too I should do that more! I love how plants are just like whatever shape you want #like you can make up any plant you want and not only does that plant PROBABLY exist somewhere #a weirder plant exists somewhere too. so. literally whatever you want #ok bye again for a few days while I get back to work

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polluxii · 2 years ago

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my bloodthirsty muse

#oh no no don't call it obsession #call it hyperfixation #im fine #still thinking about that mirror scene #it is encouraging me to develop my skills #indeed your lordship I shall do that for you #my bloodthirsty muse #it seems im a sucker for you #ironically #astarion #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #art #darling #ehe

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protect-namine · 29 days ago

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#mine musings #not tagging etc etc #i just want to ramble (this is about lc)#do people feel like lg's character is incomplete without a backstory?#like a “past” before he met cxs #i feel like it's a nice-to-have thing (wouldn't be opposed to it) but i don't think his character requires it to be fully fleshed out yknow #his character is strongly defined by his role in the narrative because that's how stories work. but like #i do feel like we've learned a lot about him that would've stayed constant even if cxs isn't in his life though #like idk i just don't understand calling him a plot device i guess #like would he be more interesting if it was revealed he got attached to cxs so easily bc he had some kind of unhappy childhood or whatever?#i mean if it's executed well. sure?#personallyyyyyyy i think it's already compelling if he's just like. some guy #he's just some nerdy kid who made a friend and felt grief and loss for the first time and couldn't take it #like. that's compelling to me. unhappy childhood would be interesting too but like. there's nothing wrong with lg being just Some Guy™ imo😭#maybe it's bc i like the idea that lg could be anyone #and what i mean is like. that could be me. that could be you #all it takes is to find a love and friendship you're not willing to let go of. and as S1 has shown many clients have the same regrets #the only difference is that they never had the ability to change the past like lg did #like cxs said in YE1. everyone would want to have the ability to change the past. it's human nature #and i like the idea that the love and grief lg went through isn't something that's unique to him #like obviously it's unique in the sense that he makes it worse for himself with time loops #but like. the love he experienced could also happen to me. could also happen to you #same with the grief #i'm realizing as i'm rambling here that THIS is actually what i love about lg's character #now i kinda wish i didn't hide this in the tags lmao but whatever #i didn't want to invite debates over this and like if director li wants to give him a backstory that's fine #but the way lg is right now. i don't think he's “just a plot device”#and i don't think he's an incomplete character #i'll accept any backstory but god i really wish he stays being just Some Guy who loved and lost and continues to love and lose #because it's human and normal and everyone goes through it

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pwurrz · 8 months ago

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who’s ready for more yakumo trauma talk-! *i am forcibly removed from the stage before i can begin speaking*

#something something yakumo is the type to try and push down and ignore his trauma #and focus on happy moments and the fact that his life is generally better now #but quincy knows from experience that just constantly ignoring traumatic events and pretending like you’re fine #(or even convincing yourself you are fine in yakumo’s case)#is just a recipe for disaster and an invitation for all of that trauma to come bubbling up to the surface #in a way that’s impossible to ignore and extremely distressing #yakumo so badly wants to pretend he’s not affected by the cult situation or being kidnapped #or almost seeing eiden and olivine bleed out in front of him #he can’t.. function normally if he thinks about it so he is Not thinking about it #quincy can tell something’s wrong tho. he can always tell when something is wrong with his loved ones #so he invites yakumo to spend time at his home to kind of relax and unwind but #yakumo just takes it as ‘oh mr quincy is inviting me over to his home i can’t be annoying and act visibly traumatized’#because that’s just the type of person he is. he doesn’t want to be a burden to anyone #so eventually quincy just has to hold him and tell him as firmly as he can without making yakumo more upset #that pretending everything is fine when it isn’t is never going to work #nu carnival #yakumo ♡#quincy ♡#quincamo #mouser muses

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yingren · 3 months ago

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happy halloween i'll be spending the night in a haunted house called my drafts and inbox

#ooc.#this is a joke im lookin forward to write a little #also for anyone that's seen that it's ren's birthday hello i'm sorry i didn't tell y'all #in all fairness HE is not the type to tell people that it's his bday #don't get me wrong. if your muse knows and you choose to say/do something for him then he's grateful (so am i)#but he would not throw a fit or even care in the slightest if you dont do anything #so again: dont worry about missing it. your muse probably doesn't even know that it's his birthday and he's fine with that :)

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forallofthedas · 14 days ago

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Shale Tag Drop

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Shale is a stone golum and companion in Dragon Age Origins

Default World State: Recruited by the Warden

💎 i have no need to sleep: about shale 💎 i followed you expecting to find answers to my questions: shale headcanons 💎 i don’t want to raise it’s expectations to unrealistic levels: shale relationships 💎 i am called shale by the way: shale visage 💎 let us crush something into a fine paste before it starts to think i have gone all soft: shale musings 💎 i have come to realize that it has been good to me: shale interactions 💎 let’s get someone else possessed shall we: shale asks 💎 those evil birds and their foul droppings i could crush them all: shale aesthetics 💎 i might join the chantry become divine and have giant andraste golems fashioned to conquer the lands: shale crack

#💎 i have no need to sleep: about shale #💎 i followed you expecting to find answers to my questions: shale headcanons #💎 i don’t want to raise it’s expectations to unrealistic levels: shale relationships #💎 i am called shale by the way: shale visage #💎 let us crush something into a fine paste before it starts to think i have gone all soft: shale musings #💎 i have come to realize that it has been good to me: shale interactions #💎 let’s get someone else possessed shall we: shale asks #💎 those evil birds and their foul droppings i could crush them all: shale aesthetics #💎 i might join the chantry become divine and have giant andraste golems fashioned to conquer the lands: shale crack

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unproduciblesmackdown · 8 months ago

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Full Tech Day One pic today from kiko laureano (denizen of skid row / ensemble) & video (that's four seconds of "ya never know" playing over the static image) from & ft. marcia milgrom dodge (director / choreographer) double captioning "there might be puppets in this musical ;)" & "Well Shake my hand! Come see LITTLE SHOP OF HORRORS @guthrietheater featuring @actually_will_roland's hand!"

#buzz lightyear screenshot i don't believe that's a puppet Or will roland's hand #lsoh #frog & toad shirt yay :) that i believe is saying ''frog & toad are gay'' yahoooo #in unfamiliarity with lsoh: had to look up that snippet of song. i do enjoy the full Songs i should straightup....pick an album of them?#which; relevantly to this being a show with Versions. also like i've only seen the movie once a minute ago....#i know the movie Differed like the musical going well audrey dies then so also does seymour :( does one tragicomically lose a hand first #classic Hey My Hand :( maneuver :( still i reflect on the change like i don't want them to die.... :(#it's Enriching though to reflect on. like a fun balance of ''is there shortcomings of Metaphors? maybe but it's backed up by Story''#then are there shortcomings of story? maybe but it's backed up by how that'll play into a strength of metaphor. makes it Overall Enjoyable #and that i'm not an expert like plenty to muse on re: what are the Metaphors. and then how are they executed. what do i think #and i'm enrichingly not quite settled on Should They Get To Survive; Metaphorically? like i think it's fine either way #i mean we also Have it both ways lol. i think? i don't know about past or present variations versions iterations re: Onstage Medium #it's like it's supposed to be tragic too right right cautionarily so. yet. i indeed go :( about it. i think it's fine it's fine....#or do i. as you can see lmao a fun In Progress mental journey....like pointing to Doomed Tragic Couple iphegenia crash land falls #i would Not change it i would not Want it changed. not even for a what if; really. yet their basis is Knowing They're Kindredly Doomed.....#seymour and audrey are just america's little t4t couple who Do deserve to murder orin plant or no & More :(#much to consider. and always little Invocations to spice things up like & this plant won't stop trying to fuck them i guess #nodding thoughtfully as we are also amidst aesthetics that invoke larger contexts re: race; class; maybe even. gender. and more????#love a lot going on. love that it's really not trying to Be extremely settled in some Conclusive manner in any version. tends to be a win #and love that SPIT TAKE rick moranis walking on into the closing performance of be more chill on broadway???????#enjoy that one post of [god's mistake of making me so incredibly attracted to rick moranis] '80s gum stickers. ricky m #guy who's never seen kapow-i gogo seeing another show with a prop hand: wow this is just like kapow-i gogo

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girlivealwaysbean · 24 days ago

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i hate getting gifts because first of all are you trying to buy me make me feel obligated to you so I feel the need to be polite and sweet to you all the time and secondly once you inevitably leave what the fuck am i supposed to do with them

#bro these glow in the dark stickers on my ceiling #when i got them i felt so loved and adored for the first time in my life like wow someone #actually cares about me enough to listen to my wandering petty musings #and they comforted me so much at nights like there's light in darkness #now all i want to do is rip them off and burn them #but i already feel so alone in this house #i just feel like if i remove them then this house won't have anything of me like sure some of my clothes #are here some books but my bed was so messsy when i came mom was using it as storage and my study table #was completely unusable mom had put so much stuff like 5 suitcases under it and on top of it more stuff #like um okay i get that i was gone for 3 months but wow you wrote me off pretty quickly huh #like I dont belong here anymore #my dad already says that place isn't my house whenever he gets mad at me or when im not disciplined #like you guys. i wanted to move out at 18 you forced me to live here and now you're sick of me?#lol okay #fuck how will i ever get over this #i was watching that movie today and peter has abandonment issues and he got so upset when lj #was going to move away far from him he was like ok fine since u choose to go so far away let's break up now #because I dont want to wait till 5-6 months and then do it like let's just do it now #like that's such a classic me move being in control of when the relationship ends so you don't have to be there #when the other person completely loses interest and leaves you first #and you know how it got fixed? his dad told him that he loves him and that he's never gonna leave him again #like lol that's not gonna happen to me so i have to find a way to be ok without it #😮‍💨#pity party of one pls look away everyone

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hughesxmaes · 1 month ago

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Note: By default Hughes currently lives with Roy. Unless specified with other Roy's if they do not wish to have that be a thing for their interaction with Hughes yet, but i mean that for other interactions with other characters in the alive verse, he is currently in hiding living at Roy's apartment in Central.

#the mun is speaking || ooc #he's alive but at what cost || alive verse #time to tell you about me || headcanon #//Also if any roys want to actually write it happening and stuff that's def fine too #//this is just for a general sense for anyones muses that write with Hughes #//he no longer lives with his former wife and kid because of obvious reasons #//he doesnt wear his wedding ring either #//his alive verse is def the main verse of this blog #//i can write the pre alive verse too but thats by request #//i do plan to finish the drabble I am cooking I only wrote some of it #//EVENTUALLY

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hechose · 5 months ago

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bawls my eyes out to a house in nebraska thinking abt how intensely armand is capable of loving, how it consumes him and stays with him.

absolutely fucking sobs listening to hard times thinking about how for so so long armand didn't really know what love was meant to be--

#im fine im so normal about armand always #ok someone punch me in the face and then kiss him to distract from the EMO #✞ — lemon hearts are bitter till you sweeten up the soul. // muse inspo.

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ghastlybcnes · 3 months ago

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tag dump

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pcpulr · 5 months ago

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i just downloaded a bunch of videos of sza, cardi b, and tinashe to make gifs. threfore this may be my hyper fixation for the next month oop. replies will be on the slower side as the muse is a little eh right now.

#excited to make tinashe gifs tho !!#and cardi cause i love her !!!#just tryna add more black and poc gifs for the community cause theres a lack of it #which is also why my muse is down sometimes cause...idk ! more ppl are inclined to write with white faces than black or poc faces #unless theyre lightskinned / white passing #this is what i wanted to rant about the other day #the lack of diversity in the rpc is just so disheartening especially as a poc #i genuinely do not write w/ ppl who have mostly white muses #like if you have 5 muses and mostly white that's fine #but if you got more than 10 muses and theyre mostly white ?#probably a pass #some white fcs i have banned bc im Tired seeing their faces LOLL but thats a me thing #anyways ill stop compaining #im just glad i have this out of my system #&. thanks for coming to my ted talk / mun thoughts.

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spilling-blood · 9 months ago

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I guess that happens when I am cool with so many Fyodor ships some fall by the wayside.

#i described it once to someone here when they asked how it works to self ship but then ship him with everyone else so casually #i said well sometimes you just have to say sorry daddy's busy and has to go overseas for a business trip for a few months and send him off #to live his life until they return 💀#sometimes he gets pulled into alternate universes and lives an entire life having forgotten about me it is fine he will be back in the end #maybe with his memories wiped #that is how it works okay he is a constant and that is that #-luedor musings

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noblestaspirations · 9 months ago

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replies soon if my add doesn't say otherwise. i am listening to spillways and having Anduin Thoughts.

#ooc: red's at it again #hhhhhhelp me im having a completely normal one about my fav band and some songs correlating so well with Anduin #i use their songs to inspire muse a lot of the time. spillways is just????#“through benediction you tried to rid your mind of malediction”#“its your burning yearning need to bleed through the spillways of your soul”#im FINE im NORMAL i dont have a problem just give me a moment

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yuelun · 10 months ago

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Apparently when I send birthday asks, they're never "small gifts". My muses go all out.

#[ ooc. ] wherever her spirit may be among the countless grains of sand and specks of dust between the harbor and the mountains…#[ like rip honestly. ]#[ guizhong initially was like-- a little belated birthday thing to xiao. just small. ]#[ 5 hours of back and forth later: here you are ven. ]#[ have fun. ]#[ cry a little with me and everything; it's fine. ]#[ OK BUT THIS DYNAMIC RUINS ME. ]#[ also jesus-- wriothesley; beidou. xiao. i can't have more characters that're important to any of my muses... ]#[ have birthdays. stop celebrating them. just stop it. don't tell my muses about them. it's fine. ]

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waywardsalt · 2 years ago

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now bc of that one post abt zelda getting fridged whenever that one guy directs a zelda game im thinking abt tetra just getting turned to stone in ph and like. what would it have been like if she were an actual character in ph. what would she have done how would this have changed the story

#not gonna do a whole lot of tagging im just musing. if you wanna rb or reply with ideas thats great #im not the person to figure this out bc i dont actually care much abt tetra #not like oh i hate her but like. i only played ph and what i see of her beyond that has not endeared me to her #shes fine i just dont get it. ig cuz i didnt play ww but eh #cuz like. ok. pretty much the majority of phs plot relies on tetra having been turned to stone and fixing that #and me being the autistic little freak i am the psrt that also makes it hard for me to wonder what could happen if #tetra werent stone and that making the game better is like. ok what about linebeck and his arc #listen his arc is so fucking good and hes great and i dont think his arc would have been so good if link wasnt the character he was put wit #cuz link is a great foil and despite having minimal characterization has just the right personality to nudge linebeck along #cuz hes def part of what inspires some of that change in linebeck so idk what might have happened #if tetra was an active player interacting with him in ph too. cuz like idk most of the time when i see people #do stuff where they interact its usually tetra one upping linebeck or whatever and thars like. ok thats whar ciela does #maybe im reading into it too much and focusing on linebeck. idk how you couldve done and changed #the plot of ph to include tetra without just straight up rewriting the whole thing or putting link away #bc look me in the eyes. i do not think linebeck would have developed the way he did without having met link specifically #salty talks #idk i feel like linebecks arc is the best bit of story in ph so i want that to remain more or less intact bc thats where a lot of #the emotional stuff comes in at the end. his dialogue in the ghost ship battle and the final boss. its important #i dont think about tetra much cant you tell. so id leave this to someone who actually cares abt her as a character

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